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almost, always - ch 3

Warnings (only for this chapter) - social anxiety hinted, insecurity, alcohol mentioned, swearing Pairings - idol!bangchan x female!bsf(oc) Read chapter one and two here!

Chapter Three: Happy Birthday, I’m Dying Inside!

IN THE END, Hanuel showed up. She was late — last-minute nerves had her pacing her room for too long. But eventually, she slipped into a dusty blue knit dress and brown boots, forcing herself onto the subway. Now, standing outside the door, her fingers twisted in her bag strap as doubt crept back in, louder than ever.

Her heart pounded. Loud. Too loud. She felt every beat echo in her chest, spreading to her fingertips and toes. The music thrummed through the floor, amplifying the vibrations in her body until it felt like she might dissolve.

She shouldn’t have come.

She hadn’t even told Chan she was coming. Felix had convinced her to keep it a secret after Chan caught wind of the party plans. Let yourself be the last surprise, Felix had said over the phone. It’ll be funny.

But what if it wasn’t? What if Chan didn’t laugh? What if he felt like she was intruding — shoving her way into his life uninvited?

Hanuel forced herself to take a breath, but it did little to calm her down. The thought gnawed at her as she lingered outside the door, fingers trembling against the hem of her dress.

She could hear muffled laughter spilling from inside — voices overlapping, music thrumming through the walls. Every sound made her chest tighten.

Maybe she should leave. She had already called Chan in the morning, wishing him a happy birthday. She could text Felix, say she wasn’t feeling well, and slip back into the subway like she was never here.

Her heart jumped when the door suddenly opened.

Minho stood in the doorway, blinking at her. His usual sharp expression softened into something unreadable, eyes flicking over her like he was piecing together a puzzle.

“Oh,” he said, stepping aside without a word. He didn't question why she was hovering outside the door and Hanuel was grateful for it.

She bowed, mumbling a barely audible thank you as she slipped inside. The apartment buzzed with life, the members and others whom she didn't recognise packed into the clusters, too busy in their jokes and teasing to notice her.

Hanuel quickly pressed herself against the nearest wall, fingers twisting the strap of her bag as she scanned the room for Chan.

She spotted him almost immediately.

He was in the kitchen, laughing with Felix and Hyunjin, a paper crown perched crookedly on his head. He looked so at ease — so happy.

Her stomach twisted.

Maybe he didn’t need her here. Maybe he hadn’t needed her for a long time.

But then Chan turned, and his eyes landed on her like a magnet snapping into place. His laughter cut off mid-breath, the surprise on his face so stark that even Hyunjin stopped talking to glance between them.

“Hanuel?” Chan’s voice carried over the noise, and suddenly, she wished she really had left.

His eyes were wide, disbelief flickering across his face. He blinked, like he wasn’t sure she was real. Her body went rigid, feet glued to the floor. She opened her mouth to explain herself, to apologize — but nothing came out.

Chan, still staring, handed his drink to Hyunjin without looking. He weaved through the crowd, brushing past people like they weren’t even there, until he stopped right in front of her.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, voice gentler this time. “You didn’t tell me you were coming.”

“I…Felix invited me.” She swallowed, throat tight and then she forced herself to smile, “Happy Birthday, Snapback.”

Chan’s face softened at the mention of the old nickname, a slow grin spreading across his lips. “You should’ve told me,” he said, giving her shoulder a light squeeze. “I would’ve come to get you.”

Her pulse hammered painfully. She couldn’t tell if he was upset or not — if he really meant what he said, or if he was just being polite. She hated how her brain twisted his words, pulling them apart to find problems where there probably weren’t any.

“I...I thought you might not want me here,” she admitted, voice barely above a whisper.

Chan frowned, brows furrowing. “Why would you think that?”

Before she could answer, a loud voice cut through the noise.

“HANNI-BEE?!”

She barely had time to brace herself before she was engulfed in a crushing hug, the ridiculous nickname making her suddenly nostalgic.

“Bambam?” she croaked, her voice muffled against his jacket.

He pulled back, grinning like he’d just won the lottery. “I knew I saw you!” He shook her shoulders with playful force. “You disappeared! Why didn’t you tell me you were still hanging out with this loser?” He jerked a thumb toward Chan.

“I — I wasn’t,” she stammered, heat rushing to her cheeks. “I mean, not really, I —”

“JACKSON, LOOK!” Bambam shouted over his shoulder. “SHE’S ALIVE!”

Jackson materialized out of nowhere, eyes wide with surprise before morphing into a mischievous smirk. “I thought you were a ghost or something,” he teased, ruffling her hair. “Haven’t seen you in forever.”

Her hands trembled as she tried to laugh it off, overwhelmed by the sudden attention. She pressed her fingers into her palms, grounding herself, but her chest still tightened like a vice.

Chan stood beside her, watching her carefully, but not carefully enough to see. He didn’t notice how her smile strained, or how her fingers twitched from squeezing her hands too hard.

He didn’t notice how badly she wanted to run.

“I — it’s nice to see you guys,” Hanuel said, her voice wobbling like a loose thread.

“You’re shaking,” Jackson observed, not unkindly, but blunt enough to make her flinch.

Chan elbowed him. “Hyung.”

“What? She is.”

“I’m fine,” Hanuel blurted, voice too sharp, too quick. She felt her pulse throb in her throat, the weight of their attention pressing down on her. Her chest constricted, lungs working overtime as she tried to breathe through the panic creeping up her spine.

She hated how obvious it felt — how she could feel her anxiety bleeding through the cracks, no matter how tightly she tried to patch herself up.

“I should get a drink,” she said, the words tumbling out in a rush. “I’ll be right back.”

Without waiting for a response, she slipped away, weaving through the crowd like a ghost. The noise blurred into static, voices warping as her heart pounded louder, faster.

She barely made it to the kitchen before her legs gave out, and she sank onto a stool, fingers digging into her knees.

Breathe. In. Out. In. Out.

She counted her breaths, grounding herself against the cool surface of the counter. She pressed her palms flat, willing the tremors in her fingers to stop, to quiet the storm raging beneath her skin.

“Hanuel?���

Her heart stuttered.

She turned, and there he was — Han Jisung, standing by the fridge with a half-empty soda can in his hand. His eyes widened when he saw her, blinking as if he wasn’t sure she was real.

“You...you actually came,” Han said, voice dipping into something softer, more surprised than she expected.

“I...yeah,” Hanuel mumbled, ducking her head. She gripped the edge of the counter like it was the only thing keeping her grounded. “Sorry.”

“Sorry?” Han echoed, stepping closer. “Why are you sorry?”

For being here. For crashing the party. For acting like I still belong in Chan’s life.

But she couldn’t say any of that, so she just shook her head, biting down on the words before they could spill out and ruin everything.

Han watched her, eyes sharp in a way that made her feel exposed. He wasn’t as loud as the others, not as showy, but his gaze was heavy, like he saw too much.

“Are you...okay?” he asked, tilting his head.

Hanuel tensed, heat rushing to her face. “I’m fine,” she said, too quickly, her voice too thin.

Han didn’t buy it. He set his drink down and leaned against the counter, keeping enough distance so she wouldn’t feel cornered but close enough that she couldn’t escape the weight of his attention.

“Chan’s happy you’re here,” Han said after a moment, tapping his fingers against the counter. “He hasn’t stopped talking about how much he misses you.”

Her chest tightened.

“I doubt that,” she muttered.

Han blinked, taken aback. “What?”

“It’s been years,” she whispered, her voice barely audible over the hum of the refrigerator. “I’m just...intruding.”

Han stared at her like she’d just said the sky was green. “Intruding?” he repeated, disbelief coloring his voice. “Dude, you’re like, his favorite person. He never shuts up about you.”

Hanuel froze.

“That’s not true,” she said, her throat closing up.

“It is,” Han insisted, shrugging like it was obvious. “He talks about you all the time — like, all the time. Honestly, I thought you guys texted every day or something.”

The words hit her like a punch to the gut.

Because they didn’t text every day. They barely texted at all. And the more Han spoke, the more she realized how much she’d missed — how far apart she and Chan had drifted, even if he still talked about her like she hadn’t left. And no one was to blame except for her.

Hanuel swallowed the lump in her throat, her pulse hammering against her ribs.

“I should get back to the party,” she said abruptly, stepping back.

Han straightened. “Wait —”

But she was already slipping out of the kitchen, her vision blurring as her chest caved in.

She needed air.

She needed out.

But Jackson blocked her way before she could run anywhere. "Come on now," he teased, an easy grin spreading across his face, "where are you off to now? Don't tell me you're avoiding us now."

"What? No!" The lies escaped from Hanuel's lips easily, "I just wanted a drink. It's been so long."

"It really has been, hasn't it?" Bambam chimed in, "You were gone so suddenly. Like, poof! I thought you moved to another country or joined a secret agency."

Hanuel laughed, the sound slipping out before she could catch it. “I didn’t,” she said, tucking her hair behind her ear. “I just...stayed out of the way.”

“Stayed out of the way?” Jackson repeated, looking genuinely offended. “Since when do you stay out of the way? You used to pick fights with vending machines when they didn’t work.”

Bambam snorted. “Didn’t you punch one?”

“I didn’t punch it,” Hanuel muttered, heat crawling up her neck. “I just...tapped it. Forcefully.”

Jackson doubled over laughing. “Forcefully? You fucking dented the thing!”

Bambam wiped fake tears from his eyes. “And then threatened to sue JYP for emotional distress.”

“Oh my god, stop,” Hanuel whined, burying her face in her hands.

“Or when you kicked a trash can because you were losing in Mario Kart?” Jackson wheezed, clutching his stomach.

“In my defense,” Hanuel said, voice muffled, “it was rigged.”

“Or when you chased Chan around that park with a slipper as you swore at him?” Bambam added, barely able to breathe through his laughter.

“That was his fault,” she snapped, peeking out from behind her fingers. “He stole my ice cream!”

Jackson wiped his eyes, still cackling. “Man, you were fucking wild. I kinda miss it.”

Bambam nodded, smiling fondly. “Yeah. You were scary, but fun scary.”

Hanuel’s chest loosened, the weight of anxiety lifting just a little. She didn’t know when she’d stopped being that person — the one who yelled too loud, laughed too hard, and stormed through life like a hurricane. But standing there, hearing the ridiculous stories spill out like they’d just happened yesterday, made her feel like she hadn’t lost that version of herself completely.

“You guys make me sound like a menace,” she muttered, but her lips curled up in a small smile.

“You were a menace,” Bambam grinned. “And we loved it.”

“Wait, who was scary?” Felix’s voice chimed in, and they turned to see him approaching with Hyunjin trailing behind, curiosity plastered across both their faces.

“Hanuel,” Bambam grinned, pointing at her like he was exposing a criminal. “She used to terrorize everyone.”

Felix gasped, eyes wide with playful shock. “You? No way.”

Hanuel covered her face again. “This is character assassination.”

“It’s true!” Jackson said, wrapping an arm around Felix’s shoulders. “She nearly broke a vending machine because it wouldn’t give her chips.”

Hyunjin snorted, “Honestly? Respect.”

Felix giggled, his sunshine-like laughter infectious. “I can’t imagine you like that.”

Hanuel peeked out from her hands, a reluctant smile tugging at her lips. “That’s because I’ve mellowed out,” she mumbled. “I’m peaceful now.”

Bambam and Jackson immediately burst into laughter again, doubling over like it was the funniest thing they’d heard all night.

“Peaceful?” Bambam wheezed. “Stop with the bullshit. You threw your shoe at Chan!”

“I was sixteen!”

Felix wiped his eyes, still giggling, while Hyunjin looked at her with newfound admiration. “You’re kinda my hero,” he said, and Hanuel couldn’t help but laugh, finally feeling the last remnants of anxiety unravel.

For the first time that night, she felt like she belonged — not because she was quiet and careful, but because these people had already seen her chaos and accepted her anyway.

And maybe she hadn’t lost herself completely, after all.

Felix nudged her arm, eyes still sparkling. “You should hang out with us more. Maybe you can help me scare Chan for revenge.”

Hanuel raised a brow. “Revenge for what?”

“He stole my last brownie,” Felix said, voice heavy with betrayal.

Hyunjin nodded solemnly. “It was tragic. Felix almost cried.”

“I did cry,” Felix admitted, clutching his chest like he was still grieving.

Hanuel chuckled, the warmth in her chest spreading. “I guess I can come out of retirement for that.”

Jackson threw an arm around her shoulders. “That’s the spirit! Wild Hanuel is back!”

Before she could protest, more footsteps echoed down the hall, and Seungmin and I.N appeared, both bowls filled with chips and candies.

“Oh, hey,” Seungmin said, blinking at the group. “We were wondering where everyone went.”

I.N tilted his head, glancing at Hanuel and then bowed. He then turned to the group to ask, "What are you talking about?"

“Hanuel-ssi's adventures.” Hyunjin grinned, gesturing toward her like she was some kind of legend. “She was a vending machine warrior.”

Hanuel groaned, but Seungmin just nodded like it made perfect sense. “Cool.” He offered her some chips. “Want some?”

She took it, unsure what to do with the sudden kindness. “Thanks?”

Before the awkward silence could settle, Han appeared at the end of the hall, panting like he’d run a whole marathon. “Why are all of you missing?”

Felix smirked. “Talking how wild Hanuel used to be.”

Han’s eyes widened as he registered her presence. “Oh,” he said, voice small.

“Oh?” Hyunjin echoed, “That’s all you’ve got?”

Han cleared his throat, scratching the back of his neck. “I, uh, thought you left already.”

“I almost did,” Hanuel admitted, “But Jackson and Bambam tackled me.”

“Emotionally tackled,” Jackson corrected.

Han smiled, something softer settling in his expression. “I’m glad you stayed.”

Just as Hanuel started to feel like she could relax, Chan’s voice cut through the chatter, loud and bright. “Oh, there you guys are! I was looking for you.”

The group turned, and Hanuel’s heart sank when she saw the girl standing beside him. Leah. She recognized her from the last time she’d visited the JYPE building — Chan had mentioned she was a stylist for Stray Kids, an Australian who’d moved to Korea to work in the industry.

“This is Leah,” Chan introduced, grinning as he gestured to her. “I don’t think you guys have officially met.”

Leah waved, her smile friendly but a little hesitant. “Hi!” she chirped in accented Korean, her pronunciation a bit clumsy.

Hanuel tried to smile back, her throat tightening. “Hi.”

Leah attempted to continue the conversation, switching to English, but Hanuel couldn’t catch more than a few words. She nodded along, pretending to understand, her chest growing heavier with each second.

She felt small. Invisible. Like a shadow standing at the edge of the circle.

She glanced at Chan, hoping he’d notice her discomfort, but he was too busy laughing at something Leah had said. The more Chan beamed at Leah’s words, the smaller Hanuel felt.

Hanuel pressed her nails into her palm, grounding herself, fighting the creeping ache of inadequacy.

Because, really, why would he notice?

Leah was beautiful. Sun-kissed blonde hair cascaded past her shoulders, eyes a vivid shade of blue that sparkled with curiosity. She had that easy confidence people carried when they belonged, her smile wide and infectious, even when her Korean words stumbled. Even in a simple cropped sweater and cargo pants people couldn't help but pay attention to her. There was a lightness to her, an aura of warmth that made people gravitate toward her, even as she fiddled nervously with her rings when she wasn’t sure what to say.

She was everything Hanuel wanted to be and more.

Fortunately for her, Minho arrived, arms crossed, surveying the group like he already knew they were up to something. “There you are,” he said, arching a brow. “It’s time to cut the cake.”

Right on cue, Changbin strolled in, holding a cake with way too many candles, his face smug. “I got the cake. Nobody touch it — it’s a masterpiece.”

The group dissolved into laughter, trailing back to the kitchen as they broke into the birthday song. Chan giggled through the whole thing, his dimples deepening as he cut the first slice, and for a fleeting moment, Hanuel wished she could freeze time — keep this exact feeling and let everything else fade away.

But her eyes lingered on Leah, standing right beside him, singing loudly and beaming at him like he was her whole world. They fit so easily together, like two pieces of a puzzle, and it made something inside Hanuel twist.

Still, she forced a smile, pretending she got her whole life together.

Wassup? This chapter was exhausting and I hope I did well in potraying Hanuel's perspective. I get how annoying the slowburn kinda gets but I don't really wanna rush things, given how much work Hanuel character's need. Social anxiety isn't something you can deal with so quickly and that isn't the message I'm tryna send. So yeah, bear with me, lmfao. If anything makes you uncomfortable or you're relating with Hanuel's self doubts on any level, leave me a message and I don't mind listening to yall if you don't have anyone else. Sometimes you just need someone to lend an ear. Moving on, I loved introducing Bambam and Jackson and I love their dynamic. I just love the whole of Got7 and I'm so glad they finally CAME BACK! Okies, I'll stop rambling lmfao. Sorry, it's late here and I just wanna sleep but then at the same time I'm too excited to sleep because I wanna continue writing (my writers block finally lifted after so long lmfao) Anywhoo, don't be a ghost! Leave likes and comments. Reblogs helps a lot too <3 Stay safe and I'll come w ch 4 soon! Here's a meme to entertain you till then lmfao

This is funny because I literally have my Maths final exam tmrw and here I am pRocAstiNatinG. Okies, I'll finally leave yall. ~Candy \(￣︶￣*\))

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here it is! we have the eng subs to got7 on youngjae's radio show! i'd watched it when it aired but no understanding korean, i was just going off of vibes lol. but i'm excited to watch again this time with more context!

hype!!! when youngjae was introducing the show there were so many fans outside cheering him on

lol fanchant to miracle in 2025

miracle is a really sweet song though <3 i was going to fast forward through this to get to the interview but i kind of want to listen to the full song

this is over two hours so we're going to get a lot of interview i am buzzinggggg i'm so excited for talk7. but also tumblr limits posts to 30 images so we shall see if i need to break up this post into two if i have too many screenshots

omg right it's the middle of winter and it's apparently midnight? the fans must be so cold TAT stay strong ahgase TAT

aw youngjae is excited too <3

youngjae's otter doll became coco's toy

lol hamburger-nim

entry music for the members <3

aegyo king as always

they are NEVER letting go of super sexy aegyo

youngjae really making jaebeom do all the memes

wait since when was mark and angel and a prince :3 anyway he is very pretty thsi comeback <3

angry mark-hyung <3 he's so cute when he's animated

seunie~ welcome back

the way jackson was like i'm out as soon as youngjae asked for super sexy aegyo

jinyoung!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why did he walk in like this though lmfaooo. like a 老大

here comes bambam, swagmaster hypebeast himself

yugyeom last but not least, walking in like a ceo lol

btw i love that youngjae was like just sit wherever you want. like they're really going casual, i love it.

youngjae being told to go outside so they can call him in lol

they're at a point where it's fun to interact with the fans :P

the guys commenting on jaebeom's cute librarian look :3 yes is looking cute and soft today

mark and yugyeom equal and opposite concepts XD

jinyoung so defensive when he said his sweater was new. "it's not fucking stained bro."

jinyoung's completely anticlimactic introduction lol. i love how nonserious these guys are being, they really are sticking to the concept of no formation, no preparation, just vibes and hanging out.

this entire comeback jinyoung and jackson have been especially playful. and so far they've just been sitting facing each other like guys remember this is a group activity lol.

what is bambam being so cute for (his concept is being maknae today :P)

guys: youngjae already introduced himself before we got here guys: then why doesn't youngjae introduce himself to us

listener: jay b, can you please calm down listener: i worry you'll get in trouble with jinyoung afterwards jjp continue to be mom and dad lel

the guys explaining korean slang to jackson and mark. probably like old times :P

who was it who said that show about korean slang kept showing up on their algorithm lol

youngjae said his radio skills are rusty and he doesn't know how to move on from a convo anymore

jinyoung knows the fans, he knows we love them talking comfortable like this :3

yeah every time they have a comeback there's a new meme among themselves. for nanana it was sheee~. this time i'm not sure what it is. maybe it's "bambam made it" because they keep saying it when they're introducing python lol.

oh never mind they said it's PYTHON but in a high pitch

fan: mark, why are you so handsome mark: thanks mom and dad that's very american humour lol

the guys trying to downplay their fight. they're like "we've changed!!! we're not like that anymore!!" but also they're honest and they have no problem about spilling the beans.

bambam: leave in the comments who you want to see fight, we'll arrange a showdown

bambam was nervous because it was his first time producing for the members :3 well he did well (y)

so there's going to be a making of video for python then. these guys just yolo with spoilers.

they've been talking about python for 1.5-2 years

would it have been possible for them to have released this in may though? when jinyoung and jaebeom were still serving?

aw, jinyoung admitted he was happy from beginning to end of the entire album making process. he's letting himself be sappy.

they're hyping up this fight so much

yugyeom is so frustrated about jaebeom forgetting the dance choreography lol

LOL yugyeom watched compilation videos of jaebeom's mistakes ToT let him live pleaseeeee

bambam: at the concert, please focus on jaebeom LOL

jinyoung saying that he thought they were cool during dance practice and yugyeom laughing and jinyoung being like ??? should i say we suck?!?!?! he went full grumpy old man lol

lol jinyoung's defense about spoiling

youngjae: can y'all let me do my job and guide the convo got6: no

jaebeom came up with the name winter heptagon

aw...they shine apart but also together as a constellation <3

oh TRUE it matches with this being the year of the snake (though when winter heptagon dropped it was technically still year of the dragon) and bam being snake in korean. python IS bambam's song.

yeah i heard that originally tidal wave was supposed to be a title track

lol python is a song about the love between cat and owner lmao. bambam would know as cat dad/cat butler.

jackson hiding after his tom and jerry joke ^^;;

they're just gonna be like this whole time eh

jinyoung was gonna make a joke but he stopped himself because he knew it was going to be cheesy but the guys were like noooo do it so jinyoung reluctantly did it and wanted to dip right after lol

yugyeom pointing out how the fans want to hear it but still give jinyoung shit for bad jokes. this is the proper idol/fan relationship, never let the man live X'D

ohh was tidal wave was supposed to be the title track instead of nanana? anyway jay b said he kept pushing for tidal wave.

jaebeom switched the chorus with bambam. i think it's so interesting how they guys have complete creative control.

jinyoung: yo bros weren't we so cool just now, not even one skrrt, we've made it, we've grown up

of course, they're serious about the album :3

YEAH EVERYBODY wanted jaebeom's part so they could just sing and be done with it and focus on the dance >3

i love that they're not afraid to admit that they get out of breath lol

interesting, bambam originally wanted mark to do the first chorus, and jaebeom was ok with rapping

YEAHHH request for jaebeom to sing the chorus and the guys were also like YEAHHHH

jaebeom never disappoints <3

yeah i remember in an old part switch video where jaebeom was saying he's not as confident with falsetto

yesss please bring back part switch ver :3

this is when they cleared up the fanchant lol

music break for python

there's ahgabong on the premises

there's the little fat birdie ahgase cake next to yugyeom :3

jackson: what does that mean? guys: *explains* jackson: ohhh jackson: i don't get it

jackson not remembering the cabbage hair incident and bambam was explaining and jackson was like stop you don't even remember it. i think it was pretty simple, just that jackson was pushing mark too hard when stretching and mark grabbed his hair like a cabbage. i don't know what that means though lol.

ameri-thai-kong fighting in multiple languages B)

so jackson says he swears in korean lol

lol asia song festival

jinyoung and jaebeom saying they don't fight anymore, it was very cute when they both denied it :3

back in the bounce days they fought every day huhuhu. the teen boy spirit.

wait i don't know what this jj cross is lmao. but it was the first entry in a cringe test youtube compilation XD oh bambam

jinyoung being like "...when we shot it we actually thought we were really cool." it always amuses me how easy the guys are to laugh and cringe at their old stuff XD like they obviously know they're cool and they don't feel their image is threatened by looking and acting silly because fun must be always!!!

lol so yugyeom has fantasies about cussing people out. reasonable tbh, i think it's how a lot of people get rid of their angry feelings.

aww there as a time when they were trainees that yugyeom was really really angry and he called jaebeom and jinyoung

music break~ smooth was made by jackson! :3 the guys are also taking a break to stretch their legs and then switch sides

mark, jackson, and bambam dancing to smooth as they come back in :3

jaebeom: is it ok to feed meat to the baby birds? 🤔 got6: it's ok, eagles exist

they guys getting soooo offended that the listener said they're bad at games

YEAHHH jinyoung picking the A reenactments and i love how bambam proudly shows the fans while jinyoung just holds his head in defeat and shame

lol they all bullied jinyoung into doing all of the videos as punishment for picking the mission

ok but you can tell jinyoung is having doing the other guys' videos

jinyoung stayed cool for all of them except for his own X'D

jackson's plan completely backfired, he wanted youngjae to be the other mission man but everyone instead turned on him. the guys are SO PROUD of the birds for getting the memo LMAO it's always so hilarious when they use the fans to turn on each other.

they're trying to get jackson to reenact the videos too and jinyoung was like "??? then what did i do all that for??" and yugyeom quietly said to jinyoung "it was fun 🥰" yugyeom was and is jinyoung's baby

jackson hates this SOOOOO MUCH X'D

now jackson trying to flip the script onto bambam lmao

bambam @ yugyeom: now do my part yugyeom: ?? why??? bambam: i can't die alone maknaes forever X3

jackson just making up a listener message to further his agenda lol. FAKE NEWS

music break for our youth! this is soooo youngjae style

next is the presentation segment where they talk about the songs they made :3

jackson wrote smooth in one day :o

i have to say it at least once, but jackson is really so handsome like this. simple styling, prince hair.

next is youngjae with our youth

i will say this song, while it does sound very youngjae style, also sounds a bit like got7's b-sides back in the day. so i believe youngjae when he said he wrote it with got7 in mind :3

youngjae messing up the lyrics :P

yugyeom with remember

they're making yugyeom reenact his cringe video from a million years ago. NEVER let your bro live anything down lol

LOL jinyoung went to the coin karaoke in the military often

jaebeom with darling!!! :3 him singing that one line and the girls going CRAZY. i did too huhuhu

jackson said he felt like he was attending an online lecture and jaebeom went into teacher mode :P

the guys all commenting on jaebeom's messy writing ^^;;

weirdest thing to pause the man about lmao. like thanks kayi but what am i supposed to do with this information.

tidal wave was also written by bambam? :D

little shimmy after a little fanservice :P

so many guys are saying jinyoung did well :3

mark with out the door! i really liked this song on the track, might be my favourite on the album

mark wrote this with his band. it was supposed to be in a lower key for him but they raised it up three keys for got7 :o interesting

mark also named jinyoung as the member who did well and he said that jinyoung's pronunciation of the english lyrics was very good. honestly jinyoung has always had very good pronunciation of languages. i remember the first time i saw got7 doing an interview in the state and i was literally :o when i heard jinyoung speaking because he was able to do the american accent so well

bambam said that out the door reminded him of high school and mark said out the door felt nostalgic to him. it's true, this song sounds like it could be the soundtrack to a teen movie.

jinyoung with her

LOL the final showdown

LOL jinyoung smoothly avoiding jackson's hug and jackson touching jinyoung's face on the poster instead

lol jinyoung sleepy

jinyoung's the only guy who picked to have someone else's face. all the other members picked to keep their faces. interesting. well he's an actor so i guess he likes living other people's lives

LOL jinyoung wants to wash he other guys instead of being washed. all the guys are so suspicious of other people washing their bodies lmao.

last song, yours truly :3

omg...2-5-1 chord progression of jjp + other members + ahgase...that's sweet

awww a 10 year old fan who's imagining what it's like to be an adult...aw...

guys...i guess we're shoebills now

lol mbc had to register 19 cars for got7 XD there are too many staff.

bambam's turn to foot the bill huhuhu

never mind jaebeom pays again lol. leader is leader is leader.

lol time to pat each other on the backs >3

markbeom <3

bambam: we need to remodel the nest youngjae: bambam, please do it for us bambam: bambam: ok

music break for her

why are they flipping bottles in the year 2025

hello by got7 to lead us out

waving to fans :3

and there we have it :3 i missed them a lot, got7 are sooo much fun, thank you so much for doing this ;v;

[angellekookie]

Get To Know Your Mutuals

Thanks for the tag Massi 《 @livingformintyoongi 》 I'm gonna answer as much of this as I can (and see if we can beat the destiny allegations 👀) (This is my 4th!! time doing this. Tumblr.com has been fighting me with this 😭)

what's the origin of your blog title? The truth is I'm terrible at usernames and I wanted something really cool and I blanked out and said angelwings- which was absolutely taken so I had to choose random combos until... well here we are <3

favorite fandoms: Armys, Stays, Carats, Swifties.

OTP(s)/shipname: Maybe Chlonath. When I first made this blog they were my first ship so I'm kinda sentimental about it lol

favorite color: Warning for any of the 'favourite items' questions. I hate choosing just one thing 😅 but I love blue and pink- and also latley, i've been loving pastels and muted shades.

favorite game: I've played the pokemon games so many times, replayed them so much... I think it would only be fair to say those.

song stuck in your head: Autumn Leaves - BTS (to be fair, this song is always in my head and I'm never normal about it), Python - GOT7, Cornelia Street🌝 and Say Don’t Go - Taylor Swift

weirdest habit/trait? So I don't find it weird, but my friends say it's so strange that i literally can't concentrate if I have dry hands. They say it's weird to moisturize so much

hobbies: Reading, writing, plus doing my own nails (this in particular brings me so much joy 😊), and I also really enjoy making a meal from scratch

if you work, what's your profession? customer service.

if you could have any job you wish what would it be? I wanted to be an astronaut for the longest time growing up. I really adore the sky.

something you're good at: I'm gonna go ahead and say cooking and my nails here again- I've been doing them both for so long 😊

something you're bad at: Confrontation? Bro I will run

something you love: The six letters Cardan wrote for Jude in the Folk of the Air Series (I can go into serious detail and I will.)

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: Actually don't try me I'm a yapper.

something you hate: AVOCADO... I even tried it again as an adult... never again :,)

something you collect: I can't think of anything that I collect right now as we speak. But I would like to collect the BTS albums (I have 2 solo albums that i was gifted and they are my babies)

something you forget: That I don't have to handle everything on my own.

what's your love language? Words of affirmation, quality time and acts of service in this order.

favorite movie/show: So any spiderman movie will have a special place in my heart always. Also Peter Pan (2003). As for shows... well I've watched the kdrama One Spring Night more times than I can count. I recommend it 10000% btw

favorite food: I'll be honest... as long as the food tastes, good I will eat

favorite animal: Empire Penguins, dogs, PANDAS, other bears (if it was safe to hug a bear I would tbh)

are you musical? I mean think, maybe?

what were you like as a child? I've been told I was quited but "had a penchant for the dramatic at the most random times." (personally, i think this still checks out tbh)

favorite subject at school? All the sciences. Biology, chemistry, physics (my love- please don't ask me why I love this subject and consistently failed math) and geography.

least favorite subject? Math and History

what's your best character trait? I've been told i have a good sense of humour? Does this work?

what's your worst character trait? I can be so stubborn at times but I'm trying to work on this (and it's hard :( but we persist)

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? To be honest... nothing. Idk like today happened how it needs to for tomorrow, you know?

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? I can't think of anyone right at this moment

recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love!): Ok I have more than one favourites but what I'll do is share the one that devastated me and that would be Chasing Cars. I've read it at least twice and after reading it the first time I actually cried a few times and stared at the ceiling while simultaneously making a playlist because there was just so much that I really wanted to say but I didn't know how to. Maybe I should start saving my fave fics because I have sooo much more I could share here but I can't remember the names right right now :(

And that's it! For the mooties… hmmm no pressure of course.. I'll tag @moochii-daisies and @ all my moots who see this (lol jk)

[thedensworld]

Lover | Kim Mingyu

Officially Dated!

Lover Series🖤🌼

Pairing: Idol!Mingyu x Fashion Editor!Reader (ft. Joshua)

Genre: Romance, Angst, Humour, Series

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A memory from last week continued to linger in Kim Mingyu's mind. Well, he might have forgotten some details after consuming three and a half bottles of soju, which was his limit. But the fact that he woke up in a hotel room that wasn't his own, shirtless, with you soundly asleep on his arm, was etched into his memory. There was a glimmer of hope when he woke up that morning, finding you beside him, though your baby blue shirt you still wore in your sleep had him slightly disappointed. He had wished for something significant to have happened, a step towards reconciling with you. However, he couldn't help but feel a tinge of regret that he had hoped for anything other than a genuine, sober reconnection – the kind he truly wanted.

But that was best forgotten for now.

Let's shift our focus to the pivotal moment when you finally mustered the courage to confess your feelings for him. That night stood out as a beacon of light in Mingyu's otherwise busy week. Amidst his hectic work schedule and mounting stress, your presence added a layer of complexity to his thoughts. He wouldn't necessarily say that you were the cause of his stress, but you certainly had him contemplating more than ever before. Since the day you two reconnected after all those years apart, he had found it nearly impossible to stop thinking about you and the emotions that had never truly ceased since their inception. The truth was, he hadn't dated anyone since he met you. And he struggled to pinpoint the reason behind it. Why had he become so irrevocably attached to you?

Your confession from that night continued to play on a loop in his mind. He could vividly recall the excitement that had surged through his veins upon hearing your words, "I also have that feeling, Mingyu. The one you feel.." In that moment, he felt as if he were soaring, carried away to the stars. He had been waiting for that very moment for what felt like an eternity – and it had taken merely three bottles of soju and a dose of honesty for you to reveal your feelings. Mingyu wondered why he had waited so long to hear those words.

In moments of introspection, he pondered this question. Lost in thought, he hardly noticed when his hairstylist posed a question to him. Tonight, he was set to meet you once again. An excitement brewed within him, fueled by the anticipation of encountering you. He knew you would be occupied with the fashion show, but your affirmative response to his text asking, "Are you attending the after party?" provided enough hope to keep his optimism alive throughout the event.

Y/n: Yeah, gotta gain all those blood, sweat, and tears that have already been spent...

He had chosen to wear one of Mrs. Gia's summer/spring collection from the previous year to the fashion show. His attire exuded a natural charm, and his confidence radiated effortlessly. As he entered the venue, the flashing of cameras and the attention from the media greeted him. Among the throng of unfamiliar faces, he was relieved to spot his friend Yugyeom from GOT7. At least, he had a companion to help him navigate his desire to see you.

Wandering his gaze around the venue wasn't a novel practice for Mingyu; he had been doing so since the moment he reconnected with you. Learning about the meticulous preparation that went into orchestrating a fashion show had made him appreciate the efforts of those working behind the scenes even more. While most people focused on the guests and models — besides the clothes, Mingyu had learned to notice the intricate web of creativity that interconnected various elements – concept, visuals, and production – to create a mesmerizing show.

Amidst this thought process, Kim Mingyu's attention was captivated by your presence at the front of the house. Clad in all black, a headset covering your ears, you seemed to effortlessly command the chaos. Your lips moved in sync with your directions, conveyed through the microphone of your headphones. A smile formed on Mingyu's lips as he watched you assume your position, poised and ready to guide the show he was about to witness.

Ironically, the show itself was a blur for Mingyu that night. He found himself captivated not by the runway, but by your charismatic presence as you orchestrated the entire event. Instead of the nervousness he had anticipated, he observed you relishing in your role, moving to the rhythm of the music while directing your team through the microphone. In the midst of all this, you radiated an ethereal glow that drew his gaze.

*

The after party was a lively affair, and it became even more enjoyable the moment you stepped into the venue, accompanied by your colleagues. Yugyeom playfully nudged Mingyu, having noticed his intent stare.

"Why the fixed gaze on Director Y/n?" Yugyeom's question caught Mingyu off guard, revealing that his friend was acquainted with you.

Yugyeom went on to explain that he had worked with you on several occasions during his time in Paris. By chance, his manager had been your college classmate. Mingyu inquired about your personality, and Yugyeom's response left him satisfied. You were described as intriguing and captivating, possessing a youthful maturity that had enabled you to ascend to such a significant position at a young age.

"Why the sudden interest, Kim Mingyu? Do you have a crush on her? Need a wingman?" Yugyeom's playful tone evoked laughter from Mingyu. Little did he know that Yugyeom's jest was closer to the truth than he realized.

If only Kim Mingyu could reveal to Yugyeom that you felt the same way about him.

*

"Congratulations!" Mingyu's simple words were met with a warm smile from you, acknowledging his sentiment. In a playful jest, you graciously nodded as if you had just single-handedly averted a war – the type of nod that subtly exuded your awesomeness. The clink of your liquor-filled glasses echoed the sentiment, a cheerful toast to the moment.

Seated on barstools next to each other, you and Mingyu turned your attention to the bustling crowd. With a mirrored movement, you both faced the scene. "Do you recognize anyone aside from Kim Yugyeom?" you inquired, gesturing towards the throng.

Mingyu nodded confidently. "Almost everyone," he replied, his gaze shifting to meet yours.

"Quite the network you've built," you remarked, acknowledging his impressive ability to connect with a wide array of people within the industry. Mingyu returned your compliment with an appreciative smile. Curious to hear your side, he posed the same question to you.

Your head shook slowly in response. "I recall having worked with a few of them, but I doubt they remember me. I'm not exactly memorable," you said with a light laugh.

Mingyu's lips curled playfully, and he nudged your side. "Are you sure about that?" he asked, his tone suggesting otherwise.

With a mockingly skeptical glance, you eyed him up and down before rolling your eyes, followed by a soft chuckle. "What I mean is, I tend to stay in the background. No one really pays us much attention – not that we're seeking it. I just believe that those working behind the scenes deserve more recognition than they get, although we do get paid," you added with a laugh.

As you spoke, the cadence of your words, the passion in your eyes as you shared your thoughts and opinions, succeeded in captivating Mingyu's attention. Your intelligence and charisma never failed to divert his gaze. Your conversation was engaging, your brilliance shining through, and he found himself distracted by your presence. Mingyu was aware that it wasn't the most opportune time for such thoughts, but he couldn't help but wish to hold you close, to kiss you in that very moment. Swiftly snapping out of his reverie, he redirected his focus to your words.

"Wanna leave this place?" Mingyu suddenly interjected, interrupting your conversation. The gentle touch of his hand landing on yours halted your words, your eyes locking onto his gaze. You took a moment to contemplate his proposal, your gaze momentarily flickering to your colleagues on the opposite side of the venue. Signaling him to wait, you quickly sent a text to your personal assistant before nodding and rising from the barstool.

Guiding your steps, Mingyu led you towards the exit. A signal to his manager, a halted taxi, and he gestured for you to get in first. An unusual sense of comfort and trust settled within you – a sense you rarely experienced with strangers, and certainly not this quickly. While your relationship had been progressing positively since last week, it wasn't typical for you to be so at ease and trusting with someone. Mingyu mentioned a location unfamiliar to you, leveraging your trust to lead you wherever he had in mind.

"Is it far?" you inquired as you settled into the cab, observing him. He nodded in response.

"I have my car with me," you noted nonchalantly, prompting a facepalm from Mingyu, who was stifling his laughter. Chuckling along with him, you wondered why you had opted for a cab when you had your own vehicle.

"It's fine. We were drinking anyway," Mingyu replied, attempting to rationalize your decision.

Silence settled between you two momentarily before he softly uttered, "You must be tired," while patting his shoulder, implying that you could lean on him for support. Shaking your head, you offered a smile, but he insisted, tapping his shoulder more firmly until you relented, leaning into the spot he indicated.

"Rest. I'll wake you when we arrive."

Unexpectedly, it was the depth of rest you experienced, and you were roused by a gentle tap on your arm. The motionless cab indicated that you had reached your destination. Blinking in confusion, you surveyed your surroundings, greeted by the sight of a beach, its entrance adorned with the words 'Blue's Sanpo.'

You and Mingyu had arrived in Sanpo, a location three hours away from where you had started. A mixture of confusion and amusement colored your expression, which elicited a shrug from Mingyu. Taking your hand in his, he guided you forward. It seemed that neither of you had anticipated the spontaneity of this moment. The attire you both wore was sufficient to shield you from the evening sea breeze. Mingyu kicked off his expensive shoes, and you followed suit, sprinting towards the water with the exuberance of a child. Mingyu's eyes gleamed with adoration as he watched you, his smile widening when your gaze met his, your expression is a testament to your approval of his choice.

Side by side on the sandy shore, you and Mingyu turned your attention to the local fishermen, immersed in their labor on the sea. The ethereal beauty of their boat's lights created a captivating spectacle, adorning the waters like jewels. The ambiance was picturesque, a canvas painted by the lights dancing on the waves, announcing the arrival of fall.

"Y/n," Mingyu's voice broke the gentle rhythm of the night.

You shifted your focus to him, responding to his beckon. This night was reminiscent of a movie scene, an intimate tableau of the two of you sitting in companionable silence on the beach. Words were unnecessary as you reveled in the tranquility of the moment, relishing each other's mere presence. Anticipation hung in the air, and you could feel the warmth of his breath in the small gap between you. Gradually, he inched closer, a silent question on his lips. "May I?" he whispered.

His inquiry caught your breath, leaving you in contemplation. After a beat, you nodded, giving him permission. Without delay, he bridged the gap between you two, closing the distance. The kiss that followed was deliberate and tender, an embrace of intimacy. The backdrop of crashing waves and the chirping of crickets contributed to the symphony of the night. Every touch of his hand against your skin, every sweep of his lips against yours, resonated deeply. The sea air, laden with a hint of chill, only heightened the sensory experience.

The kiss came to an end, both of you withdrawing as you took a deep, shared breath. Opening your eyes, you found Mingyu gazing at you, his eyes filled with depth and unspoken emotions. A chuckle bubbled forth from both of you, as though you were momentarily transported back to a different reality, where such intimate exchanges were a thing of whimsy. His arm extended towards your shoulder, urging you to draw closer, an unspoken need that your body instinctively answered. Leaning into him, you rested naturally against his side, your attention still focused on the captivating tableau before you.

And then, his voice, soft and tremulous, broke the silence. "Please, be my girlfriend," his words hung in the air, a question and a plea, simultaneously vulnerable and filled with earnest desire.

*

Pledis Entertainment's Announcement: Seventeen's Mingyu Reveals Non-Celebrity Girlfriend

On December 29th, Pledis Entertainment released an official statement disclosing that Kim Mingyu, a member of the global boy group Seventeen, is currently in a relationship with a non-celebrity. The news was met with a mix of surprise and support from fans. At the same time, Mingyu took to Weverse to share his sentiments with Carats, Seventeen's dedicated fanbase. Here is the message:

"Hello, Carats! This is Seventeen's Mingyu.

I want to take a moment to express my gratitude for your unwavering support and love throughout all our ups and downs.

Though I haven't had the chance to greet each and every one of you properly, please know that I always hold good thoughts for all of us.

I'm so thankful to Carat for loving and supporting both Seventeen and me.

Moving forward, I promise to work even harder on creating music and delivering great performances.

Thanks to your positive energy, I've been fortunate to encounter only good people.

I hope that Carat can experience the same positivity.

My wish is for us to continue sharing positivity and love only.

Always with love, Carat 💎"

[oraclekleo]

Greeting, kleo! happy to finally be on time for a nsfw game!

my initials are M.A fav color is green and black. cancer sun! My favorite is the 'kinky' reading's you did for celebrities, specifically, Got7 Jinyoung. I secretly go back to those posts every now and then. 👀 my guilty pleasure. I rarely see nsfw reading content on tumblr. its so different and unique, and im always surprised at the content. Especially when i have a preconceived notion on the celebrity is like. 10/10

cant wait for my ask to be answered, thanks in advance!!

Hello!

Aww! The Jinyoung reading was actually really fun. I don't know why I enjoyed him specifically so much but I'm happy it shows and that you like the reading, too 😊 I would think that there will be more NSFW readings since it's really fun to do them. But then again, I think it's normal and healthy to talk NSFW topics with people in a respectful way and that's seems to be rare, too. 😂

Thank you so much for joining this tiny tarot game! 💖

Let's do this!

Question: My Near Future Love Life!

Deck: Tarot of Casanova by Luca Raimondo

Card: 0 The Fool

You might feel like starting a new exciting journey. Something is beginning for you and even when you can't see where it might lead, you should trust your guts and follow your intuition. It could be something that will change your life, it could be a beautiful opportunity to become the person you always wanted to be. You might meet someone special. Be it a person on the street, someone you work on a project with or even an adorable person online you share interests with. You might feel like they give you energy, brighten your day up, make you skip and dance. They make you smile, giggle, kick your feet. If this isn't about meeting one specific person, you might get on a path of sexual and romantic self-discovery. You might want to learn what makes you feel good, what you don't really like, how you can feel pleasure, what fantasies are appealing, what qualities are truly important for you and which attributes are more like "nice to have" in a partner. You don't need to rush anything but at the same time try to have fun and be playful about your love life. A world is a gloomy and serious place already, give some lightness and humour to your life. Get yourself a toy! Listen to audio porn! Flirt with someone you like! Wear hot lingerie underneath your regular outfit and feel sexy all day long!

[flowerbeom]

Go For Broke | 05

Im Jaebeom x Older Female!Reader

Genre: Fuckboy!AU, Aspiring Songwriter!AU, Slow Burn, Angst/Humour/Smut (loads)

Warnings: Incredibly mature themes, Swearing, Explicit smut scenes.

Word Count: 6.8k

Concept: Premier fuckboy Im Jaebeom is used to getting his way.  Though, he wants more, he craves more. He wants his music to be heard, he wants his music to be loved. So when he learns that the attractive woman he buys records from has an connection that’ll get him into the industry, he uses every trick in his book to get in.  Seduction is his game, and he plays to win.

A/N: Sorry it took a while. 

All GIF credits for this series go to @defsenses.

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Jaebeom was irritatingly easy to talk to. Even after you had both adopted loose grips on your almost empty glasses to curb the steady flow of replacements down to a trickle, it didn’t stop the admissions from spilling through your lips. Whether or not the Amaretto was at fault, it became increasingly hard not to answer Jaebeom’s questions; not when he seemed to drown in every word you said.

“So your brother’s agent and your father was a scout?” He spoke softly into the rim of his glass, Jaebeom merely smelled the fumes in lieu of taking a sip. And as if his eyes weren’t piercing enough; the hazy, golden reflection of the whiskey rippling just beneath his bottom lashes made them intoxicating; hypnotizing almost, provocative absolutely. 

You hummed, gaze flicking to the ceiling before speaking. “Yup, Dad was taking us to shows before we hit ninth grade.” Jaebeom’s eyes flickered when your gaze shot to his, keeping solid eye contact when you spoke again. “And yeh, I agree.” 

His nose scrunched in the most insignificant way, but his lips slanted just enough to show confused interest; urging you to continue. “They were questionable parenting decisions.” 

You enjoyed the way Jaebeom’s steely demeanour cracked, for that one second where his eyes crinkled at the edges as he smiled into his glass; pleasantly amused. Pleasantly amused by you. And for some reason you felt a small ripple of giddiness stir in your stomach, as if making him laugh was something you had set out to do all night, and accomplishing it felt satisfying. So you blamed your next admission on that, the words simply slipping through your smile that had Jaebeom’s name etched in its edges.  

“But I loved it.” 

“Until you didn’t.”

It was a loaded silence. A spine straightening silence. And you knew it was a baseless response from the lick of assumption in his tone and merely formed off his knowledge of who you were now. But to you, in that moment, it was as if he had sauntered into your little vault of secrets and rifled through that one unlocked filing cabinet and started skimming through the file of the life you once lived. Dot points of your past decisions laid out in front of his scrutinizing eyes and it made every ounce of air in your lungs thick and sticky. And words started to form on your tongue but none of them fit together, and somehow you knew that Jaebeom could see it. 

“So why’d you quit?” It could have sounded interrogative, but there was something in the way Jaebeom looked at you that made it sound like polite curiosity. Your eyes dove to the corner of the room, and searched for the right answer in the corner of your memory. 

“I didn’t… I didn’t like playing God.” Your teeth ground together saying those words and Jaebeom’s eyes narrowed at the sight. “I didn’t like… “ A sour taste started to pool in your mouth, a bitter resentment; so you swallowed the rest of your diluted cocktail to wash down the taste. “I didn’t like having this false power to decide whether someone was good enough or not.” 

Jaebeom inhaled slowly. “Clearly some people aren’t good enough, though.”

You exhaled sharply. “And some people are, and they still don’t get signed.” 

Jaebeom sat up straighter, swallowing quickly to say something but there was something in your eyes that stopped him. Something in the way your jaw clenched, as if years of bad memories were uncontrollably bubbling up but they were too hard to say out loud. Your chest rose with a long and heavy breath and your eyes drifted to the stage. Jaebeom’s stare remained on you. 

“People stand on that stage and back themselves with skill and dreams alone..” You could feel your eyes dilating and your fingers curling into your hands.  “Who sing or rap or play an instrument so well that there could be no other explanation than having been given that talent from God or whatever..” Your tone was rising to a slightly elevated level of hysteria. “And they still don’t get signed and it’s.. It’s..” You could feel your nails digging into your palms and caught Jaebeom’s wide eyes. You released the tension in your chest with a sluggish exhale. 

“It... doesn’t even matter.” Uncoiling your fingers, you laid one hand flat on the table and rested your cheek in the other. There was an uneasiness in Jaebeom’s eyes - an internal turmoil evident in his knitted brows and it distracted you from your own restlessness. Mainly because it looked like he was trying to make a decision about you, or even more, a decision about himself. But that was neither here nor there when he slowly lowered his glass, knuckles grazing yours when he leaned forward to rest his other forearm on the table. 

“But I take it you’re happier now, yeh?” 

You hesitated.

“Umm, I--”. 

His fingertips were ever so slightly smoothing against his glass, the consequence of which were the softest of caresses against your knuckles that gathered all your scattered attention from every corner of the room to the tiny wrinkle beneath his left eye. And in any other circumstance you never would have noticed, but the way his expression read concern and how every nerve in your body fired every time his knuckles glossed over yours left you with no other option other than to tunnel all focus onto his face and for some reason to wonder how warm his hand might be if you held it. 

Jaebeom tilted his head, a pout desperately trying not to reveal itself on his pink lips. And you felt that part of you snap once again. So you withdrew your hand from the table and lifted a beckoning finger to the keen eyed waitress who was definitely not just standing there waiting for you to call her over and gave a curt smile when she immediately strode to the bar. Dragging your eyes back, Jaebeom smiled; more with his eyes than his lips and everything but the table, and the chair you sat on and the glasses that reflected the soft light above you and Jaebeom, especially Jaebeom, started to disappear. 

“I--” You coughed, feeling like the entire situation was caught in your throat. “I.. ahh, I guess so.” 

“You guess so?” Jaebeom was demanding an answer. From the tilt in his lips to the teasing narrow of his eyes, the warning flags of danger waved in your mind but who were you, in that moment where Jaebeom’s resolute stare was holding you to account, to pay them any attention. Straightening your back against your chair, you felt no sense to deny him and chewed the inside of your cheek. 

“What do you want me to say?” A small and timid laugh escaped you. “That I love my little store? That I love being my own boss? That I’m happier now despite the sizable pay cut I gave myself?” 

“Yes.” 

You swallowed thickly. Jaebeom’s sharp candor took you aback that you thanked the waitress for delivering your drinks at the exact moment you felt the floor begin to crumble beneath you. You slid her a tip, even though you knew you still didn’t have to pay for those drinks. 

Jaebeom didn’t reach for his glass. Jaebeom didn’t move. He didn’t even blink while he waited for you. Yet your hand was curling around your drink, fingers tapping in rolling succession against the glass and every breath sunk heavy in your lungs. Though in that moment, where you felt his glare burrowing into your skin, you remembered exactly what you were there for. So you swallowed down the look he gave you with the amaretto on your tongue and set your jaw. 

“Yes, much happier.” 

Jaebeom smirked, and you felt the air grow thinner around you, the smog-like tension finally clearing. “And your brother’s artists, do their records make it onto your shelves?” 

You both lifted the rims of your glasses to your lips. 

“If they’re good enough.” 

Jaebeom sneered and dipped lower in his chair, his knee brushing against yours. 

“I thought you were done deciding who’s good enough or not.” 

Sliding your foot up the back of his calf, your lips curled devilishly feeling Jaebeom’s leg jerk beneath the table. 

“Yeh.” Admitting through a slanted giggle. ”But, right now I’m wondering if you’re good enough or not.” 

You watched closely as Jaebeom clenched his jaw and cracked his neck and swore you could feel the heat starting to radiate from his body. You had struck a nerve. You had found that one little locked box inside Jaebeom’s ego and cracked it open with a simple flick of your tongue. You questioned him in the one thing you knew, well - quite highly assumed, he’d excel in and didn’t care for the consequences. And, by god you relished the feeling. You got drunk off the way he tried to conceal how haphazardly the cogs were turning in his mind. You wanted to bathe in that seemingly insignificant triumph and to see just how far you could push him. 

And in a flash, roles were reversed when his knee pushed your legs apart. The side of his knee brushed against your thighs as his foot spread your legs, and your mouth fell open to the sight of his snarling smile. Yet, you did not retreat. 

“It’s a bit early for you to decide that, don’t you think?” Taking a long sip, his eyes never left yours. 

Heat swarmed between your legs, your throat cracking dry from his advance. Resolve flooded your body, fervour coursed through your veins and you watched your eyes grow dark in your reflection in Jaebeom’s glass. Clamping his leg between yours, you took your own sip; rolling the alcohol in your mouth as you felt his pulse against your skin. 

“Well, we’ve got all night.” 

Jaebeom yanked his leg back, pulling you closer to the table and closer to him. And all you could do was smile, with your tongue pressed against your molars and an aroused arch of your brow. Raising his glass to meet yours halfway across the table, Jaebeom spoke softly, growling almost; setting your skin on fire. 

“Yes, yes we do.” 

“What do you mean you won’t choose!?” Your voice rang shrill.

“I won’t. I mean - I can’t. It’s impossible.” Jaebeom crossed his arms against his chest, tilting his chin to the ceiling; defiant in his decision.

“Surely, you’re kidding? You have to be.”

“I’m deadly serious about this.” 

You lowered your glass to the table clumsily, eyes wide and your bottom lip quivered; confusion painted on your face. Leaning forward to close the distance between your nonplussed expression and Jaebeom’s unperturbed one, your tongue licked the edge of your top lip before speaking. 

“So you’d easily choose Queen at their worst over The Beatles at their best..“ Jaebeom nodded, pouring another shot of whiskey into his glass. “But you refuse to choose between Michael Jackson and Stevie Wonder?” 

“Yes.” He replied, deadpan.

“Really?” Your brow arched further than you thought it could. 

“Yes.” Again he replied, tone flatter than before, lifting his glass to his lips. 

“No contest, seriously?” You sat straighter, crossing your arms like he had before and quickly folded your lips between your teeth when Jaebeom drained his drink and slammed his glass down weakly on the table. 

“Yes! What more do you want from me?!” Throwing his hands into the air. 

Slipping down in your chair, you let your knee graze against his and clicked your tongue against the roof of your mouth. 

“Well..” 

A beat of silence passed before you both broke, comfortable laughter filling the space around you. A tiny dribble of whiskey spluttered through Jaebeom’s lips and you did your best to bury the snicker erupting in your throat but Jaebeom’s leg pressed firmly against the inside of your calf proved that you failed to do so. 

It had become apparently clear that had you found a keen adversary on the other side of the table. For every tit, he returned with a well formed tat. And every smooth spoken insinuation was met with his own brand of cocky flirtation. But for lack of a better word, it was easy. And it was fun. More fun that you could have ever anticipated that at some point in the evening you had called over the waitress with a I-know-you-know-who-I-am ‘come hither’ of your index finger and asked her to tell Dommie to stop pouring cocktails and to give you that bottle of Hakushu 25 instead. No ice necessary. You made the decision to run the race hard and fast and Jaebeom met you at the start line with no hesitation. 

During your entertaining conversation, or back and forth, or slick-tongued tête-à-tête - call it what you will; the line up of the night’s budding artists had started taking their turns on the stage. There was a jazz saxophonist. Then, a honey-voiced song writer, who despite trying his hardest not to let it, held a large portion of Jaebeom’s attention and watching him return to your conversation with haphazard delay was admittedly funny. So much so that when he turned back to tell you his thoughts on Miles Davis’ influence on music in general, he was met with a rather baffled look on your face; hidden slightly by your hand covering your mouth that wanted to giggle, but merely smiled in lieu of such. A genuine smile. But you wouldn’t let him see it. 

A trio of rappers came next and Jaebeom snickered when he caught you hiss against your teeth, followed quickly by a large swig of whiskey.

“So that would have been a no from you, I take it?” Pressing with a cocked brow and you almost choked. Jaebeom merely licked the edge of his canine despite how cold your eyes were. 

“I mean.. Their sound is not.. They.. well-- they weren’t what we were looking for, maybe someone e-else might like.. ahhhhumm--” Stuttering. You were stuttering. 

“So..” You could just feel the pretension oozing off Jaebeom and it made you want to punch him. “You’re saying they’re not good enough.” Despite the marginal alcohol induced wobble that you felt bounce between your temples, better judgement prevailed when you almost threw your glass at him but opted for a napkin instead; Jaebeom merely swatted it away like a fly. And what made the pounding swirl of impending inebriation worse is that he said nothing more, he only chuckled. A knowing chuckle. A sensual chuckle and fuck, did it unnerve you. 

“I’m curious..” You harped, a little too bluntly. “What do you do with all the records you buy off me anyway?” Good girl, that’s it. Throw him off. And it did. For the satisfied smirk he had held almost permanently in one cheek melted off to reveal a look of watered down anxiety. You saw his jaw clench beneath his skin and his eyes shook in the most controlled manner he could muster. His hand reached timidly for his glass. 

“You obviously love music. And I can tell you know a lot about music. And you--hey don’t shake your head at me, I watched you cringe when that blues crooner hit that diminished fifth he should have hit the dominant fourth instead..” Jaebeom exasperated sharply. “And I know it wasn’t because it sounded off, it’s because it sounded wrong and you knew that.” 

Jaebeom’s neck flared as he exhaled, slowly and it stuttered with irritation. 

“And half the records you buy aren’t in the easy listening category. I see you choose from the same sections every bedroom DJ in this town chooses from.” He raised his glass to his mouth carefully, awaiting the words that hung dangerously off your soft lips. 

“So what do you do with them all, Kid? What’s your shtick?” 

Jaebeom’s leg bounced under the leg and it bounced harder when you pressed your calf against it. You held his eyes that didn’t drop to take a long sip from his glass and tampered down the twitch in your lips that wanted to smirk at his discomfort. Moments passed in loaded silence. The trio of rappers had cleared the stage and the lights dimmed in preparation for the next act. Jaebeom still hadn’t answered. 

You pulled your leg away from him and instantly felt his leg jolt to a halt. The hardened gaze he maintained slowly eased as if he had resigned to answering. But instead of pushing for it, you leaned back into your chair and picked up your glass. You knew you had nothing left to say, nothing left to add to press against his weakening fortitude and sipped patiently as he stewed. Whiskey rolled over and under your tongue and you watched as Jaebeom’s own tongue dug into the base of his mouth behind his parted lips. Then, you swallowed in unison. You on single malt, he on indignation. Whatever he was going to say, you were ready with bated breath to hang onto every word. Jaebeom shifted, cocked his neck and reached forward to pull the whiskey bottle back to his side of your metaphorical drawn line. 

“I.. tinker.” Your back straightened, intrigued. “Mess around, make beats. Simple shit.” 

“Just beats?” Your eyes narrowed and Jaebeom couldn’t hold the gaze; blinking away to carefully monitor the whiskey he poured into his already half-full glass. 

“Yeh, beats..” He paused, watching the ripples in his glass slow to still. “Sometimes full tracks. I’d layer samples with stuff I recorded, it’s not a big de--”

“So the Kid’s a bedroom DJ, on my god...” Cutting him off, voice feathering by your own laughter; too incredulous to listen to the rest of what he had to say; the wide grin on your face not mirrored in the slightest on his. Jaebeom grizzled, dulled only by your fluttering snickers. “Man, and to think I had you all worked out.” 

Jaebeom scoffed, loud and almost cruel. “You don’t know a thing about me.” 

His voice chilled you to your core. To the deepest place within you, you could feel it like ice hardening your veins and every breath moved like sludge in your lungs. Your eyes had blown wide, pupils shaking and you felt the threat of tears burn across your bottom lashes. And through your panicked stare, Jaebeom matched it with his own; eyes locked on yours in a desperate attempt to understand why you had suddenly frozen; all colour drained from your face. For it wasn’t his voice that shot through you, it was his. 

That voice. That smooth and lilted voice, that held just enough gravel in it that you could feel it roll down the back of your throat whenever you used to listen to it. That voice that whispered compliments into your just awoken ear and made you tremble when it growled against your skin. That voice that  pooled between your thighs and hung drifted in your thoughts. That voice that slowly stole your confidence when it belittled you, that voice that quickly fed you lies. That voice that made you trust him. That voice that used you; that used your connections, your past against you. That voice that stepped on your heart like it was nothing to build his career. That voice that slammed the door in your face once his contract was signed and his first single released. That voice that ruined you. That voice, his voice. And it was his voice that made your fingers claw at your glass to drain the remaining whiskey down your throat. And for the first time that night, it burned. 

Swallowing hard on so many things, you stood from the table. Jaebeom followed you only with his eyes, and you set your jaw hard enough that you swore Jaebeom could feel it. 

“Let’s get out of here.” Cold, distant, enraged. Jaebeom sat confused, until your eyes flickered for the smallest of moments to the man on stage who was thanking the crowd for all the support they had always given him, and that he wanted to come back to the first stage he had ever performed on to celebrate the release of his second album. 

“You wanna leave?” Jaebeom asked, if only to confirm, but he was quick. Jaebeom was already shifting off his seat when your body tensed and contorted to the giggle that reverberated through the speakers.

“Yes. You wanna continue this somewhere else, or are we done?” You had become reckless. The calm, collected demeanour you sported was gone, shattered and dispersed, and what stood before Jaebeom was a vessel of raw emotion. Raw emotion, seething and charged; and as you watched Jaebeom stand to face you squarely, his hand reaching behind you to pull your jacket off your chair, you decided to just fuck logic. 

No further than half a step behind, Jaebeom’s hand ghosted the small of your back as you weaved quickly out of the bar. Once outside, the eleven-eighteen-p.m air stung your skin and you slipped your jacket from Jaebeom’s outstretched fingers. 

Standing before you, Jaebeom merely waited; one hand in his pocket, his analyzing eyes laid soft upon your face. 

“Your place or mine?” Your question pushed Jaebeom slightly off balance, his weight shifting between his feet before he steaded. You remained stoic. He quickly met your stance. 

“Either. How far is yours?” An insignificant hitch in his voice. 

“Nine blocks. Yours?” Your tone made of liquid steel. 

“Five.” 

Headlights of passing cars illuminated the curiosity and unwavering intention in Jaebeom’s eyes. Taking a step towards him, his breath danced across your top lip; not blinking even once when something inside you stirred, that same something threatening to snap. But you held tightly onto whatever it was and drank the way his jaw clenched when you pressed closer to him. Your lips parted, he inhaled, your fingertips brushed against his knuckles and you saw a spark set off behind his dark eyes. 

“Take me there.”

Was it one bottle or two? Probably two but one was tequila because you were sure you could taste white wine clinging to the sides of your cheeks. And who even suggested tequila? You don’t like tequila but Jaebeom seemed to from the faintest recollections you could remember him ripping off the lid to pour some heavy handedly into two glasses perched neatly on his coffee table. One of them now firmly gripped in your hand as your other traced timid lines across the top of his dresser. 

Why were you in his bedroom again? Oh, that’s right. You wanted to listen to that original press Abbey Road vinyl you begrudgingly sold to him over a year ago and Jaebeom told you, through the most endearing of slurs, that you’d find it on the shelf under his window. That way? You asked, with a wobbly pointed finger, lips curled around the edge of your glass and rolled off his living room rug to saunter to where his eyes had gestured. 

It didn’t seem right. How fucking tidy everything was. As if you were browsing through a virtual-reality simulation of what the ideal bedroom in an Ikea catalogue would look like; everything in his room was immaculate. And not even his room, but his entire apartment from what you had seen. Not a plate in the sink, or a picture frame hung even slightly crooked; even the remotes were lined up in a straight row on the TV unit. Nothing was out of place and everything had a purpose. A home that would give Marie Kondo an orgasm on sight. Everything was pristine. Except, maybe for a rogue collection of indoor plants in the corner of his living room that looked like they were clinging to life, but that was long forgotten when you were staring, far too hard at his record collection. Alphabetically sorted. By artist. And then sub-categorically, by title. 

You were glad that B, for Beatles-comma-The, came quite early in the alphabet and that A, for Abbey Road, was unsurprisingly first to pick when you weren’t even sure how you were managing to read the small font on each of the ridiculously thin vinyl covers when you could hear your own heartbeat vibrating off your eyeballs and you could smell tequila on every exhale that came out of your nose. 

Record player? Where was the record player? Ah, obviously on top of the shelf, right where it should be -  next to the records. Who the fuck was this Kid? 

“Found it?” Jaebeom bellowed, a thud following quickly after, then a grunt and a hiss with the sound of a few things hitting the floor ending with some mumbled words you couldn’t make out. 

“Mmmmyep.”  Drawled out and muddled with the sound of you trying to drink your god forsaken Patron Anejo and carefully place the fifty-one year old record onto the turnstile at the same time. Why do I only have two hands? Who thought only two was a good idea? I could get so much shit done with three. 

Abandoning your glass on the shelf, you lowered the needle onto the spinning record; heavy bass began to pour into the room. The rolling drum beat and smooth lick of the guitar swarmed around you, clouding your mind and stirring your senses. Light seemed to bounce around the room and closing your eyes was the only thing that stopped you from toppling over. You could feel the stillness of the room around you, music surrounded you and your body started to sway to the easy grit of John Lennon’s voice. 

Then, like the stillness of the room, you felt the air around you shift. A presence crowded you, warm breath spilled over your shoulder as a hand roamed your waist. Another crept across your throat, pulling your hair away from your neck, leaving pebbled skin to soft, wet lips to whisper onto it. The bass was hitting harder, the drums crashed into the suspended air and inside your mind as the hand on your waist slid down your hip and onto your thigh, fingertips playing with the hem of your dress, tickling the flesh beneath it. 

It was the knuckle dragged across the inside of your thigh that drew the shudder to fall from your parted lips. And the guttural chuckle against the stammering pulse in your neck that sent one hand onto the wrist between your legs and the other into the hair of the person behind you. Gripping hard, you pulled them into you, closing the already minuscule gap between you. He chuckled again. 

“Ugh, you smell so good.” Jaebeom’s voice shot through you like a drug; charging your nerves and coursing through your bloodstream. The groans that rattled off the teeth he had nipping at your neck felt like ecstasy pouring into your ears and you knew getting addicted was the worst thing you could do, but the way his fingers continued to travel up the inside your thigh clouded any better judgement you could have executed in that moment. His hand was resting on your throat, fingers gripping just enough to pull your head back to rest on his chest as his other hand began to play with the edge of your underwear. Your back arched against him, more of your neck exposing to his greedy mouth that licked a line from your collarbone to your ear. 

“You feel so good in my hands.” Your fingers yanked at his hair, unimpressed with his teasing. And through the pounding music that flooded the room, and your whimpers that mixed into the air, Jaebeom must have gotten the hint. Nimble fingers pushed past the boundary of your underwear, sliding between your folds, his teeth sinking into your neck at the sensation of your arousal on his fingers. 

You keened against his touch, arching your back further, grinding your pelvis down onto his hand. Jaebeom groaned, the tip of his finger circling your entrance before tracing up to your clit, gently pushing against it. Your body quivered and it edged him on. His finger began to pulse, rubbing circles into your clit at a speed that matched your ever increasing whimpers. Your fingers clawed into his wrist, but he stayed firm, switching to two fingers to up the ante; leaving you clutching for breath. 

You were contorting to his touch, back fully arched against him, pushing your hips even harder into his hand. In a moment of lust-filled clarity, you released your grip on his wrist to snake it behind you. Finding his stomach, you felt for his belt, unbuckling it as best you could with your mind almost completely fogged by the orgasm charging inside you. Pushing your hand under his waistband, you felt him hitch against your neck, and when you found him hard you couldn’t help but smirk. 

Wrapping your fingers around his length, you gripped forcefully; feeling his girth pulse against your hand. Hearing him hiss spurred you on, pumping him firmly inside his jeans while his fingers continued to work you. Steer you, lure you, push you over the edge and fuck, were you eager for it. 

Jaebeom’s hand grasped tighter around your throat and your fingers gripped harder at his hair. His mouth left trails of wet messy groans down your neck and your voice cracked with every moan. You worked him faster, matching his pace on you; euphoria was racing towards you, ready to crash. 

You were close, so close, body reeling and jerking with every firm rotation of his fingers on your clit, that when Jaebeom chuckled again, your body ignited. 

“That’s it. Ugh, you look so good like this.” 

Your eyes shot open. Lowering your head from his shoulder, you saw it. You saw yourself. And him. You and him. In his mirror. His hand around your throat, yours raked in his hair. Your hand coiled behind you, pumping him mercilessly, his other between your legs pulling you to climax. 

But it was his eyes. His dark and piercing eyes, almost veiled by your hair that fell unkempt upon his face. His sharp and hungry eyes that stared at you in his mirror as he drew utterly sinful moans out of you. It was his eyes, carnal and impure and dripping with intensity that ruined you. And what finally made that part of you completely and irreversibly snap. 

Ripping your hand out of Jaebeom’s pants, you spun around violently, catching only for the moment the shock glazed over his lustful eyes. His hands were raised, hung suspended by his shoulders, as you grabbed the hem of his shirt and tore it over his head; discarding it carelessly on the floor. Spotting the bed behind him, you slammed your hands against his hard chest and pushed him onto it. His body hadn’t even settled on the mattress before you were mounting him; hands ripping down his pants, freeing his throbbing dick of its cotton bonds. 

“Woah, what the f--” Jaebeom stuttered and your body stilled. Eyes fierce and wicked, they bore into Jaebeom’s shaking stare and you watched a hard swallow track down his throat. 

“Do you want me to stop?” Your needless question rolled off your tongue as your hands snaked between your legs, one pulling your underwear to the side and the other gripping him at the base and guided the tip between your folds. He only shook his head once. 

You lined up his dick to your core and lowered onto him, filling you fully and wantonly. Feeling him thick and pulsing against your walls, your head dropped back to moan to the ceiling. Jaebeom groaned through gritted teeth and as you began to roll your hips on him, his hands reached to find purchase somewhere, anywhere on your body. One hand grasped your breast but you were quick to force it down onto your hip. His other reached forward, but it missed its target when you snapped your hips and lunged forward to curl your fingers around his neck. 

His eyes were blown wide, both his hands now firmly clutching your hips as you grasped his throat firmer. Lowering your face to a mere breath away from his, you tutted; clicking reproachfully against your teeth as your hips continued their rolling onslaught on his dick. 

“No. Touching.” 

You felt Jaebeom’s adam’s apple roll against your palm, his tongue licking his lips as if enticing you to kiss them. But you turned away, moaning loudly in his ear and felt his hips buck at the sound. His fingers were clawing into your hips, and a consuming feeling was building inside you. 

You bounced harder on him, feeling the coil inside you tightening and tightening and by the way Jaebeom’s eyes were beginning to roll into his skull, you could tell he was almost there too. The sounds you were making were filthy, erotic and Jaebeom groaned so loud you felt his entire neck rumble under your hand. You snapped your hips harder, unrelenting and as Jaebeom thrusted deep into you, the wave of delicious pleasure crashed over you, pulling Jaebeom into the riptide with you. 

His body reeled towards yours, the lewd and obscene mixture of your joint satisfaction coated every atom of air in that room. Once your high began to subside you released your grip on his neck one finger at a time, relishing how he mewled beneath you. You pulled yourself off him, stepping off the bed and tilted your head at the sight of an utterly spent Jaebeom; limbs sprawled messily on the bed, his chest rising and falling in exhausted heaves. 

“Bathroom?” 

Jaebeom lifted a weary arm, one finger pointed lazily out the door. 

“Down th-..down..” 

“Down the hall, got it.” 

Looking at yourself in the mirror, you saw an accomplished woman; feeling surprisingly sober and especially satisfied. You made quick work of your own aftercare, the perfectly lined up assortment of toiletries not lost on you. You figured they were sorted by necessity. Then sub-categorically by height. This Kid, you swear to God. Content you looked decent enough to face society, you exited the bathroom, but doubled-back; a tinge of consideration overcoming you. So you searched, and quite easily found a towel for the worn out Kid you left in the bedroom. 

Upon returning, one eyebrow quirked as amusement swept over you. Jaebeom, in his half naked, disheveled, still semi-hard-dick state was snoring. Little nasally snores that started at the end of his inhale and trailed off into a sort of whistle in his exhale. You thought it was kind of cute, if it wasn’t slightly pathetic at the same time. 

Draping the towel over his chest, because obviously there was no better place to put it, you simply left the room. No goodbyes needed. No forehead kisses or tucking him in bed. Casual. No strings attached. You hit it. So all that’s left was to quit it. 

Your jacket was easy to find, draped over the back of his coach - it was your phone that proved to be the problem. Fumbling around Jaebeom’s living room, you eventually found it under the coffee table and proceeded to put on your boots and leave. 

Turning and pulling the doorknob, the door opened faster than you thought; pushing you back a step from the force. Once fully open, you saw a solid man on the other side, eyes doe-like and almost startled. He looked familiar, though you couldn’t pick why; perhaps his shirtless torso and sweaty glistening chest was to blame for the lack of recall. But his mouth merely opened and closed, sound departing him as words failed to form on his tongue. So you simply gave him a curt nod and a tight-lipped smile and slipped past him; not looking back even though you could feel his eyes following you all the way to the stairwell. 

You weren’t paying attention to the streets on the way to Jaebeom’s apartment. Rage consumed you and all you wanted was to be somewhere completely different and away from everything that haunted you. But as you made your way to the end of his street, you realised you weren’t very far from home. Not at all. Three blocks away to be precise. How had you never run into Jaebeom before? Not even an embarrassing supermarket interaction where your basket was filled with tampons and double fudge ice cream was in your history. How could you live three blocks away from him and never cross paths? 

Ignoring the awkward coincidence, you soldiered on; enjoying the two-something-am air that you always loved and actually considered stopping by the 24hr convenience store for some double fudge ice cream. 

But in the corner of your eye you saw a tall, slim figure approaching you at a pace you wouldn’t deem a casual midnight stroll. It was purposeful, it was determined and it was coming right at you. 

You considered running, but the legs on that man would out-stride you in no time. You considered screaming, but no one gets up for anything in this neighbourhood. It’s why the rent is so good. So you stood your ground, ready to unleash all four of your krav maga classes on his sorry ass. 

But as he drew closer and the streetlight started to reveal more of his round and beaming face; you quickly realised you couldn’t forget that smile even if you tried. 

“Noona!” His long arms wrapped around you, pulling you into a hug you didn’t know you had missed. 

“Oh my g--hi! Hey!” Hugging him back with all the force your tired body could muster, you smiled against his shoulder until he put you down. 

“Oh my god, Y/N! What the hell!?” His hands were on your shoulders, shaking you slightly and all you could do was laugh while trying to muscle out of his grip. 

“Yugyeom, dude, oh my god. It’s been so long, what the hell!?” Yugyeom smiled so purely, his eyes folded into little moons that had you smiling just as genuinely in return. His hands slid down your arms to hold your hands, swinging them in the air between you like the adorable giant man he is. 

“I’ve missed you!” 

“I’ve missed you too, how’s dancing going? Have you picked up any contracts?” Yugyeom bounced on his heels, your body jumping involuntarily to match. 

“So many! I’m choreographing for groups and solo artists now. I’m building my portfolio really well, just like you said I should.” You giggled, proud and happy for your long-missed friend. “But miss me? How can you say you missed me when you won’t even answer my texts?” 

“Shit, I changed my number when I left the company. I’m so sorry!” 

Yugyeom’s put-upon pout made you frown. Immediately letting go of his hand, you pulled your phone from your pocket. Yugyeom did the same and you swapped them wordlessly, an impromptu dance of sorts. 

Keying your number into his phone, you left the name blank; knowing Yugyeom would want to save you as something uniquely special to him. 

“Okay, here’s my number.”

“I can’t save mine.” Yugyeom said bluntly, staring down at your phone. 

“What? Why?” 

“There’s a passcode on your phone. You didn’t unlock it for me, silly.”  

“I don’t.. I don’t use a passcode.” 

Confusion knitted your brows and Yugyeom handed your phone back to you with a similar look on his face. Staring at the phone in your hand you examined the illuminated screen. The lockscreen, a photo of some abstract art you had never seen before. Shit. 

“Noona, are-are you okay?” 

A message flashed on the screen. 

2:21am Mr. A JaeBOOM, sorry for the lateness. Of course you can have tomorrow off. Enjoy your date. And bring me a new CD! 

One hand wrapped slowly across your mouth. Eyes darting across the screen of the phone that didn’t belong to you. And totally belonged to Jaebeom. Panic started to set in. Yugyeom was crouching in front of you trying to figure out how to help you but nothing could. 

You thought you made it out. Sure, you’d see Jaebeom at the store but that was manageable. It was just one night. One night that was meant to get you out of your funk. One night that was successful in doing that. One night was obviously not successful in doing that. 

That whole hit-it-and-quit-it thing, fuck that. Not when you have to go back to the apartment of the guy you just left passed out on his bed after topping him mercilessly for fun. The thought dawned on you, just give it back tomorrow at work. But it would be Monday, your day off - and now Jaebeom’s too. 

You’re not that much of a bitch to make someone go to work on their day off just to be turned away awkwardly and then be met with your stupid face sheepishly giving him back his phone that you took by accident after fucking him and leaving him without even the curtesy of covering his softening penis with a blanket. Or a towel.. 

Either way, there was no other choice. You’d have to go back. With your ego swallowed harshly down and maybe some tylenol for the headache. Yours. Not his. 

Either way, it was going to be painful. 

You continued to stare at the screen, every part of you simultaneously wanting to explode and recoil into itself. You sighed, but it did nothing to calm you. 

“Fuck.” 

[starnicolescarlet]

[hyuckles-chuckles]

Jinyoung [to Jackson, Yugyeom and Bam Bam]: Congratulations! You 3 have just won the gold, the silver, and bronze in the moron Olympics!

Bam Bam: Who won gold?

[goopeculiar]

a picture’s worth jinyoung/jaebum, NC-17, 54863 words. nyoung god are you some kind of troll? the cat pfp makes more sense now JB I’m not! My friend said I needed more company than my cat and told me to download this app nyoung jesus i promise you that you making friends isn’t what he had in mind JB I’m kind of getting that feeling now, yeah Alternatively: Jinyoung puts his foot so far in his mouth that it may or may not cost him the best looking dick he's ever seen.

[chaosandcandies]

almost, always - ch 4

Warnings (only for this chapter) - social anxiety hinted, insecurity, alcohol mentioned, swearing (really less like it isnt even noticeable), a cute chapter overall Pairings - idol!bangchan x female!bsf(oc) Read chapter one, two and three here!

Chapter Four: Smile Through the Chaos

AS THE NIGHT stretched on, the living room buzzed with lazy conversation and leftover cake crumbs. The initial crowd had slowly dwindled out, leaving only the members, Hanuel, Jackson, Bambam and Leah.

Eventually, Hanuel stood up, brushing imaginary lint off her dress as she grabbed her bag. “I should get going,” she said, her voice small but steady. “It’s late.”

Immediately, the room erupted in protests.

“Already?” Felix pouted, clutching his knees to his chest like a sulking child. “You can’t leave yet!”

“You didn’t even play Mario Kart,” Hyunjin whined, slumping against the couch. “I wanted to see if you’d actually kick another trash can.”

Bambam gasped dramatically, holding his heart. “Abandoning me again? After all we’ve been through?”

Jackson shook his head, clicking his tongue. “When will you ever learn?”

“We haven’t even finished the leftover snacks,” Changbin added, pointing at a half-eaten bag of chips like it was a life-or-death situation.

Hanuel smiled, tugging her sleeves over her hands to hide her nerves. “Still. I don't want to overstay my welcome.”

Minho, who had been casually lounging against the couch, straightened up. He tilted his head, eyes narrowing in that sharp, cat-like way of his. "Overstay? Hanuel, you spent half the party trying not to take up space. If anything, you under-stayed."

Hanuel blinked, caught off guard.

"Seriously," he added, flicking imaginary dust off his sleeve. "You should stay. We still have cake. And someone needs to keep Felix from crying again."

Seungmin, who hadn’t said much, simply handed her a beer can without looking up from his phone. “Stay.”

Even I.N nodded, voice quiet but sincere. “It’s still Chan’s birthday.”

Her eyes flickered to Chan, hoping he’d give her an out, but instead, he grinned. “If you leave now, I’ll cry.”

Hanuel snorted. “No, you won’t.”

“Okay, I won’t,” he admitted, chuckling. “But I’ll be sad.”

Her heart twisted painfully, but the warmth in the room soothed the ache just enough. She sighed, defeated. “Fine. I’ll stay a little longer.”

The room erupted in cheers, Felix doing a little victory dance while Hyunjin tried to wrestle the controller out of Jackson’s hands. Hanuel sat back down, her pulse still thrumming, but this time, it didn’t feel as suffocating.

Just as the group settled back into the cushions, Leah clapped her hands together, her voice cutting through the chatter like a bell.

“Hey, shouldn’t we open the presents?” she asked, her Korean slightly awkward but clear enough to make everyone turn to her. “It’s still Chan’s birthday, right?”

Hanuel stiffened, instinctively shrinking into the couch. She hated how her stomach twisted every time Leah spoke — not because of Leah herself, but because her presence made Hanuel feel like an outsider all over again.

“Oh, good idea!” Felix chirped, jumping up. “I wanna see what everyone got him.”

“I hope someone got him a sense of fashion,” Minho muttered, stretching as he stood.

Chan rolled his eyes but laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. “Alright, alright. Let’s do it.”

Leah beamed, grabbing a stack of presents from the corner of the room and placing them in front of Chan like she belonged there. And maybe she did.

“Okay, first one!” Changbin grabbed a gift and plopped it in Chan’s lap like an overexcited child. “Open it!”

The gift was a disaster of wrapping — lopsided corners, tape barely holding it all together. Chan ripped the paper off, revealing a canvas painting of himself, complete with dramatic wings and sparkles.

"Now, what the fuck is this?" Chan asked, amusement twinkling in his eyes as the group erupted in laughter. Even Hanuel let out few giggles, the ache in her chest slowly easing.

"Your supposed to say thank you, Chan hyung." Hyunjin pouted, "It's a masterpiece."

Chan held up the painting like it belonged in a museum, squinting at the exaggerated details. "I look like I belong on a fantasy novel cover."

"That was the goal," Hyunjin declared proudly, flipping his hair like an artist basking in his glory.

Felix wiped tears of laughter from his eyes. "I want this as our next album cover."

"Over my dead body," Chan snorted, but he propped the painting against the table anyway, like he secretly kind of loved it.

Jackson then he shoved a gift bag into Chan's lap, "This one is from both Bambam and me."

Chan pulled out a kangaroo hat, complete with floppy ears and a little pouch in the front. His eyes widened, and without hesitation, he plopped it onto his head.

"This is amazing," he said, wiggling the ears and making everyone laugh harder.

"There’s more!" Bambam said, practically vibrating.

Chan dug into the bag and pulled out an autographed GOT7 album. He froze for a second, then burst out laughing.

"Wow, thanks for the signed album, guys. I’ll treasure this forever," he said, bowing dramatically.

Jackson slung an arm around him. "Now you can brag that your hyungs love you."

"Or use it as a coaster," Bambam added, winking.

"OK, next gift!" Changbin clapped his hands and Chan grabbed the next box. It was neatly wrapped, almost too perfect. On top of it was a simple gift card signed by Minho.

Chan bustled with excitement as he unwrapped it, revealing a high end skincare set.

"Oh my god, Min. Are you trying to tell me something?" Chan joked, holding up a serum bottle.

Minho smirked, leaning back. "I just got tired of you stealing mine."

The group burst into laughter, and Chan shook his head, grinning. "Okay, this is actually perfect. Thank you, Min."

Minho nodded, feigning nonchalance, but the corners of his lips twitched up in satisfaction.

Next, Chan opened Felix’s gift — a personalized photo frame with a candid picture of the two of them, plus a letter tucked into the side. Chan’s smile softened, and he pulled Felix into a tight hug, whispering a quiet thank you.

Seungmin handed over a neatly wrapped box containing a gourmet coffee set. "So you stop drinking that terrible instant coffee," Seungmin deadpanned, earning a laugh from everyone.

I.N shyly gave Chan a stuffed wolf plushie, mumbling something about it reminding him of Chan. Chan beamed, holding the plushie close like it was the best gift in the world.

Then it was Han’s turn. His gift was a custom lyric book — pages filled with their song lyrics, scribbled doodles, and inside jokes. Chan flipped through it, laughing and shaking his head at Han’s ridiculous commentary scrawled in the margins.

"This is fucking insane," Chan said, grinning. "I’m framing this."

Han grinned widely as he finger gunned, "As you should."

Changbin’s gift came next — a rap track he had written and recorded just for Chan. He handed over a flash drive, rubbing the back of his neck like he wasn’t sure how Chan would react.

Chan immediately pulled him into a hug. "I’m listening to this every day," he said, voice full of sincerity.

Finally, Leah handed over her gift — a sleek, minimalist box. Chan opened it to find a silver chain necklace with a small, engraved charm.

"It’s simple," Leah said, twirling her hair around her finger, her accent thick as she tried to find the words. "But...meaningful. For good luck."

Chan’s face softened, his fingers brushing over the charm. "This is beautiful. Thank you, Leah."

The room fell quiet for a beat, the weight of the moment settling in. Leah smiled, and Hanuel’s chest tightened. The necklace looked perfect on him, like something he’d wear every day.

Hanuel swallowed hard, plastering on her best fake smile.

Chan then reached for the last gift in the pile which weren't giftcards or envelopes. It was Hanuel's gift — wrapped in plain brown paper, her handwriting scrawled across the top.

Her stomach twisted as Chan picked it up, curiosity lighting up his face.

Hanuel wished she could disappear.

She tried to stay still, fingers curling into the hem of her dress. But before she could sink into the floor, Felix nudged Chan’s arm with a knowing smile.

"Open it," Felix urged.

Chan carefully peeled away the paper, revealing a hardcover book he’d been talking about wanting for months. His eyes widened, running his fingers over the cover.

"No way," he breathed, flipping through the pages.

Everyone leaned in, exchanging amused looks.

"Bro, she listens to you more than we do," Changbin whispered, and Hyunjin elbowed him to shut up.

But that wasn’t all — underneath the book was a charm bracelet, simple but thoughtful, with tiny charms that represented their memories. And at the very bottom, a scrapbook.

Chan’s mouth fell open as he flipped through it, finding old photos of them as kids, silly polaroids, concert tickets, and random doodles Hanuel had added.

"This is insane," he whispered, voice tight.

The room fell quiet, everyone watching him carefully.

"Hanuel," Chan finally said, looking up, eyes suspiciously glassy.

Her throat tightened, panic curling in her chest. She tried to laugh it off, waving her hands. "I-I just thought...I don’t know. It’s silly, you don’t have to—"

But before she could finish, Chan pulled her into a hug. A tight, crushing hug that made her want to break apart.

"Thank you," he murmured, his voice thick. "This is...thank you."

And just like that, Hanuel’s heart shattered, because she knew her feelings had just grown ten times worse.

And she couldn’t stop them.

Not anymore.

"It’s perfect," Chan said, his smile so wide it nearly hurt. "I’m really glad you came today."

"Me too," Hanuel whispered, and it wasn’t a lie. Despite the doubts gnawing at her, she was genuinely grateful — for Seungmin and Minho’s quiet kindness in inviting her, for the chance to see Chan’s eyes light up over silly gifts, for the warmth of catching up with Jackson and Bambam. It reminded her of the old days, when everything felt simple, and she didn’t feel like she was constantly falling apart.

The members exploded with noise. Felix pretended to wipe away tears, Hyunjin started a dramatic slow clap, and Minho just muttered, "That’s disgustingly cute."

"You better treasure that scrapbook like your life depends on it," Seungmin added, smirking.

Chan clutched the book to his chest, grinning. "I will."

Chan’s words lingered in the air, warming Hanuel in a way she hadn’t expected. But before she could dwell on it, Bambam clapped his hands loudly, breaking the quiet.

"Okay, not to be dramatic, but where's my scrapbook?" Bambam pouted, pointing at Hanuel like she had personally wronged him.

Hanuel blinked, startled. "What?"

"I want a scrapbook," Bambam whined, crossing his arms. "For my birthday. I demand one."

Hanuel laughed, the sound light and genuine. "We don’t even have pictures together," she said, still half disbelieving he was serious.

Bambam gasped like she’d just insulted him. "Then let’s fix that right now. Jackson, give me your phone."

Jackson snorted but handed over his phone without question. Bambam pulled Hanuel closer, tilting the screen to find a good angle.

"Smile," he ordered, snapping a selfie. Then another. And another. He made a ridiculous face, and Hanuel couldn’t help but burst out laughing, her cheeks aching from how hard she grinned. She even went as far as sticking her tongue out and winking in some pictures.

Jackson, not wanting to be left out, jumped in, squishing himself into the frame.

"Wait, wait, do one with me too," Chan said, finally joining in, kangaroo hat still flopping on his head.

They piled in together, squished and messy, snapping pictures until Jackson’s phone buzzed with a storage warning.

"Okay, now you have no excuse," Bambam declared, handing the phone back to Jackson. "Scrapbook. My birthday. I expect tears."

Hanuel shook her head, her smile lingering. "Fine, fine," she relented, wiping her eyes. "I’ll make you a scrapbook."

"Good." Bambam nodded solemnly, like he’d just secured the most important deal of his life.

Before they could catch their breath, Felix and Hyunjin appeared, peering over the couch.

"Are we taking selfies without us?" Hyunjin gasped dramatically, already flipping his hair.

"Unacceptable," Felix grinned, sliding into the frame without waiting for an answer.

Leah, holding a slice of cake, wandered over, watching the chaos with an amused smile. "What’s happening?" she asked in her lilting accent, glancing at Hanuel.

Hanuel fumbled for words, her heart thudding, but Felix chimed in. "Photo session. Join us!"

Leah shrugged and leaned in, and Seungmin and I.N weren’t far behind, Seungmin half-dragging Han along.

"One normal picture," Minho warned, arms crossed but eyes twinkling. "Then you can act feral."

Just then, Changbin squeezed into the frame, shoving Hyunjin playfully. "Move over, I need to be in this."

Hyunjin yelped, pretending to be offended. "The disrespect."

"You love it," Changbin grinned, throwing an arm around Felix and pulling him close.

They all squeezed together, faces flushed from laughing, and Chan held the phone up high.

"Ready? 1, 2, 3 — "

The camera clicked, freezing the moment forever — a messy, imperfect, wonderful memory.

And for a little while, the heaviness in Hanuel’s chest faded, replaced by something lighter — something that felt a little like hope.

Heya! I think this is my fav chapter till now even though it's practically a filler. But I'm really happy with how it turned out and I love the group dynamic. My maths exam on the other hand was well... something. Hopefully I'll pass (pray for me please lmfao). Anywhoo I've started on chapter 5 so I think I'll upload it later today. It's not halloween so don't be a ghost. Like and comment! Reblogging helps too <33 Stay safe! ~Candy \(￣︶￣*\))

[klusterf-ck]

YouTube can not stop me from saying fuck off in the thumbnail

#what a fucking mad lad

[anadoesstuff]

Jinyoung: Any cute things to call your girlfriend?

Jaebum: Sugar

Youngjae: Honey

BamBam: Fluor

Yugyeom: Egg

BamBam: 1/2lb butter

Yugyeom: Stir

BamBam: Pour into a pan

Yugyeom: Preheat to 350 degrees

[kpopmemeslmao]

The French dude leaves tomorrow and Im kinda sad bc I feel like I got too attached :'(

Fav kpop comeback so far?

Btw if I reply to all your comments as a used called @theredblog12 don't worry it is just my main blog and Tumblr does not allow me to change it.

[surprisebitch]

i just realised i havent opened Tinder in like half a year or even ages so i opened it when i was in university yesterday and i did some swiping today on my study break.. and wow the number of matches.. but am i gonna talk to them? or will they talk to me? probably not

[flowerbeom]

Go For Broke | 04

Im Jaebeom x Older Female!Reader

Genre: Fuckboy!AU, Aspiring Songwriter!AU, Slow Burn, Angst/Humour/Smut (loads)

Warnings: Incredibly mature themes, Swearing, Explicit smut scenes.

Word Count: 2.2k

Concept: Premier fuckboy Im Jaebeom is used to getting his way.  Though, he wants more, he craves more. He wants his music to be heard, he wants his music to be loved. So when he learns that the attractive woman he buys records from has an connection that’ll get him into the industry, he uses every trick in his book to get in.  Seduction is his game, and he plays to win.

A/N: Apologies for the delay. A shorter chapter this time, 1. to save my sanity. 2. to give you all something for being so patient. and 3. its a slow burn right? we better burn slow. 

All GIF credits for this series go to @defsenses.

→  Mood Board →  Series Index    - Links to the Spotify Playlists are available in Series Index

Jaebeom followed closely behind; his chest grazing the back of your shoulder every now and then as you weaved through APOLLO’s crowded corridor. When the tips of his fingers extended to touch the small of your back when you ventured off too quickly, you felt each hair on the back of your neck stand; his warmth startled you, and it wasn’t just the warmth you could feel in his fingertips. 

For the tender smile Jaebeom gave you when you met on the sidewalk, his eyes were exceptionally distant. Despite the stare he held when you greeted him, his mind was far away; something, or someone else blinding him from what stood in front of him. But nevertheless, and without hesitation, you had reached forward and let your fingers brush against the back of his hand; watching his eyes dilate then contract to finally focus on you. 

And for the briefest of moments, in the second it took to fill your lungs with air, you saw someone else standing in front of you. Someone else behind the dark eyes that had only ever had dark promises written in their gaze. And when he smiled, that ever sinful flash of canines, it was enough to pull in your ever fleeting resolve. You swallowed hard to make yourself remember. 

No. Strings. Attached. 

Dommie greeted you at the bar. Affectionately named for the glasses on Dom Perignon he’d slide towards ladies he found exceptionally appealing; he quickly adopted the name - his real name far too bland for APOLLO’s clientele. Jokes aside, the nickname was overly endearing for the tall, burly figure he sported; his name failing miserably to pair with the heavily tattooed arms that peaked out from the rolled up sleeves of his black button down. Jaebeom watched keenly when one of those arms wrapped around your waist when you leaned over the bar to press your cheek against his; the authoritative flex of his forearm not lost on Jaebeom when he caught Dommie’s sideways glance. 

“Hello lovely.” Dommie crooned in a fleeting moment of eye-contact before dropping his gaze to his hands; swiftly working on some cocktail you hadn’t yet ordered. 

“I haven’t seen you here on a Sunday in forever.” 

You dropped your cheek onto your shoulder, smiling sheepishly - feigning apologetic notions through the flutter of your lashes. 

“Aww buddy, I’m sorry. Sundays are just really hard for me.” Dommie eyeballed a measure of amaretto into the shaker held in his other hand and nodded condescendingly. “By the time I shut the store, all I can think about it sweatpants and sleep.” 

You heard Jaebeom scoff behind you, then watched him bury it into a sweeping glance across the bar when you tilted your chin over your shoulder to inspect his quip.

“And obviously not a single thought gets spared for the folks you’ve left behind here.” You swatted at Dommie’s protruded bottom lip; merely scraping at his fake frown with the tip of your pinky finger. 

“Hey! Eric is here all the time. Mark too.” 

“And their company will forever pale in comparison to yours.” You shared a moment of patrony with the barman and broke it with a laugh. 

“So?” Dommie smarted, smacking the lid down onto the shaker. 

“So? You returned. 

“So, what makes this Sunday so special?”

What is so special about Sundays? Jaebeom thought, tensely twisting a loose thread in his pocket between his thumb and index finger. Though what he failed to catch, through his cautious gaze circling the room and the crash and tumble of ice smashing against the sides of Dommie’s shaker was your subtle glance. Your sensual up and down inspection of his solid frame and Dommie’s upturned brow of complete agreeance when you said with confidence, “Him.”

"What can I get you?" 

Jaebeom shook off his mental haze and turned to finally look the bartender in the eyes. Warmth and kindness behind the clean fade and three-day old beard; Jaebeom realised he had him all wrong. Jaebeom lifted the edge of his index finger to his chin and held a breath of contemplation. Then you knocked it out of him. 

"Let me guess." Jaebeom's eyebrow cocked at your smirk; the swirling coyness of your tone engaging. 

"Whiskey. Single malt." Jaebeom's eyebrow lifted higher, a grin forming deep in his cheek. 

"Japanese. Neat." Jaebeom gifted you a single nod, then gifted another to Dommie who had already turned to take down the bottle of Hakushu 25 off the top shelf.

"But.." You stepped back, sliding your elbows off the counter to turn and face Jaebeom squarely. His stance stiffened, his eyes shaking as you leaned a hip against the bar; the tip of your middle finger playing with the chain of your necklace. 

"Tonight, he'll take it with a cube or two of ice. It seems like he needs something to take the edge off." 

The tip of Jaebeom's tongue was pressed hard against his canine, his eyes narrow on yours that did not blink once as he read you. He was impressed, but he could feel himself coming undone. And he wasn't happy about it. 

The tension in the air parted straight down between you when Dommie pushed both glasses across the bartop.

"Amaretto sour.." Traded for a wink as you picked up the glass. 

"...And Hakushu with the edge taken off." Jaebeom almost grizzled, but saw the glint in your eyes and decided to drop it. Play it cool, Jaebeom. Same as always. A mantra he repeated silently in his head as he followed you to the empty table that for all intents and purposes shouldn’t have been empty judging by the crowd slowly filling the room. But Jaebeom started to quickly gather by the fiery exchange you shared with the bartender and the deferential smile the waitress gave you, that that table and potentially even the entire room belonged to you. 

It would have to be a fool to have missed the tense electricity that sparked between you and Jaebeom. With every knock of his knee against yours and every brush of your foot against his ankle, loaded stares were passed over the rims of glasses that emptied down your throats. And with every empty glass that left your hands, freshly poured drinks replaced them quickly with never a word said to a passing waitress or a beckoning glance towards the bar. Jaebeom could feel his authority slowly crawl away with every lick of whiskey that rolled over his tongue and with every passing stranger who stopped to greet you like an old friend; who he was coming to realise, you were. 

And what annoyed him was that you weren’t even trying. After every instance of conversation interrupted by nostalgic small talk, you always turned to him and placed a gentle hand on his and apologised. With a tender and embarrassed smile as if there would be no way you could avoid it from happening again and always steered the conversation back to exactly where you left off. Your eyes always focussed either on his or his lips when he spoke and Jaebeom could feel the tendon in his neck begin to tighten and tighten every time your lips curled in a way that read bashfulness but screamed temptation. 

He wanted control. He needed control. And he could feel it pulsing in his palm whenever he broke your resolve with a witty comment that made you straighten your spine and drag your tongue across your teeth but felt it slip through the gaps in his fingers whenever you parried with a sly comment of your own that made him swallow dryly on the pool of saliva that your intense stare made collect in his mouth and question why he was there in the first place. 

Why? Why couldn’t he separate between using you and wanting you? Why couldn’t he sit across from you and steel his gaze away from your lips? Why couldn’t he pull his focus away from you when it dared to drift towards the singer crooning on the stage? Why couldn’t he simmer his rage at why that singer wasn’t him? And why, in the room he’d been desperately trying to get a spot to play in for months, were you seemingly the centre of it? And as he sat there, gritting his teeth and watching your vexing smile that only curled the very corner of your lips to balance the arch in your brow, he could feel his veins filling with ice; ice and all the whiskey he would never have been able to afford. 

The fact that you weren’t even paying for any thing that arrived at the table at the hands of reverential bar-staff irritated him the most. Call it pride. Call it ego. Call it the delicate sensibilities that he would vehemently deny existed; Jaebeom was about ready to careen over his proverbial tipping point and let the fire of twenty-five-year-old whiskey make him forego all reason and let it speak on his behalf.

“So, why are you so goddamn important?” Said with too much ice and not enough tact, that it chilled your smile and drained all warmth from your expression. It was a bad move, even if he thought it was fueled with all the right intentions. And he knew it when he met your narrowing eyes with shaking ones and buried the grimace forming in his jaw with a swallow that he felt carve down his throat. 

“Excuse me, what?” A hollow tone that echoed between his ears. You pulled back, your once engaged posture slithered from the edge of the table to push your spine into the chair; the leg you had crossed over the other twitched with simmered irritation. Jaebeom faltered. 

“I--” Clearing his throat. 

“I just mean..” Jaebeom inhaled.

“Everyone seems to know your name. Everyone seems to know your face. It’s like you own this place, or something.” Jaebeom forced himself to hold your stare, even if he felt it branding him. 

“They treat you as much, anyway. I mean no offense.” Raising his hands in resignation. You exhaled, tongue finding the corner of your mouth and peeled your spine away from its rigid annoyance. Uncrossing your legs to switch them over in a moment of weighted silence, you offered Jaebeom an unintended olive branch when your calf smoothed across the side of his leg. You’d be lying if you didn’t enjoy seeing him twitch at the touch. 

“I used to come here a lot.”

“I can see that.” Jaebeom’s tone reentered his preferred level of playful mock and quirked his eyebrows to urge you to elaborate. Having almost crashed face first into a really embarrassing story he’d never tell his friends, you were impressed that he somehow managed to salvage the situation. 

Moreover, if he wasn’t able to correct his nosedive, there was no way you’d shut shop. It wouldn’t have been your fuck-up that made it impossible for him to look you in the face. Jaebeom would have to find another cafe on the other side of the city to sling mochaccinos and suggestive glances to morosely bored housewives clad in active wear with obviously no where better to be; his mess, his painful relocation. Luckily, his quick placation and coquettish grin saved him the hassle. And yet his upturned brow still begged for an answer.

“I..” Inhaling through a smirk. “I was in the family business.” 

Jaebeom dropped an elbow onto the arm of his chair, sizing up a response against the way you looked at him. It was inciting calculation in your eyes; a challenge at best and a trap at worst and Jaebeom weighed risk against reward and took the bait. 

“Don’t tell me you’re some kind of runaway Mafia Princess who’s disappointing Daddy by choosing to live above the underground?” One sharp exhale showed your amusement. And once again intrigued, your elbows found their previous place on the edge of the table; your clothed breasts perching softly on your forearms and Jaebeom clenched his jaw to stop himself from staring at them. 

“Sadly, no.” Jaebeom remarked the glint in your eye and drank the deprecative curve of your lips. “I’m far from being that interesting.”

“No?” He questioned in a tone that fully denied any concept of you not being interesting and reached forward to lift his glass off the table. 

“No.” Shaking your head but replying in a tone that completely ratified his assumption, you smoothed over the rim of your glass with the tip of your finger and counted the seconds of unbroken eye contact. 

Jaebeom lifted his glass but paused to hold it close to his jaw.

“Though, I’m sure you could have someone bash my kneecaps in if you wanted to.” You edged forward, chest pushing harder against your arms and spoke softly through freshly licked lips

“Oh, quite easily.” You watched Jaebeom’s lips pull back into a smirk that revealed the tongue licking the edges of the teeth that couldn’t bite it down. So you both drank to that and not to the blood raging south through Jaebeom’s veins and definitely not to the heat growing between your thighs.