#goodbyejonghyun

[bangtan-pack-oven]

By the time I knew he had died I didn't get a chance to stan. I was still learning the members of my first kpop group. With that said I had listened to Shinee's songs. Replay, Married to the Music, Always Love. They were all amazing. While I was upset over Jonghyun at the time, it's nothing compared to how I feel now. I'm going to be honest. I didn't stan when he died and I'm afraid to stan. I'm afraid of getting hurt, but do I love their music. He has made an impact on me and I didn't even know him well. To the shawols out there, you are brave, you are strong, Jonghyun still loves you. Today is not just another day. Today is the day we lost a wonderful person. Thank you for being here Jonghyun. We miss you

[woodland-fairy-tay]

Words cannot describe how sad I’m feeling today but deep down I know it’ll get better. Every year on this day(December 18th)will be the worst day of my life in terms of music. Even though I didn’t know Jonghyun personally, he felt like a close friend who understood me better than people I know in real life. So it was a huge blow when I heard the news last year of his death. I still have a hard time listening to his solo work and I haven’t finished listening to his album from last year without breaking down into tears. Yesterday and today I woke up crying my eyes out and I’ve hardly done anything these last two days. I’m sorry Jonghyun that I didn’t see your sadness and didn’t see your cry for help... You had so many signs but I didn’t see all of them. I’m very sorry. This is a difficult time for me but I try to be happy since he wouldn’t want me to be sad and crying. Jonghyun, along with the other members of SHINee were the first male Kpop male group I got into about 9 to 10 years ago. I kinda feel like we’re a family in a way, they always make me happy when I’m having a hard time and they continue to do so even if Jonghyun isn’t physical here. I know that he is emotionally, mentally, and spiritually here with us. I miss you so much Jonghyun but I know you’re no longer in pain and is resting and relaxing looking after us #Shawols and Onew, Key, Minho and Taemin. We are also doing our best at looking over them for you. I love you Jonghyun always and forever!!!! Which brings me to my next statement. Mental health is very important and I want everyone to take it seriously!!! Suicide is not a joke!!! It’s not something to make fun of. You NEVER tell someone to “go kill your self” as a joke or ANYTHING!!! Its hurtful and you don’t know what you might say that could lead to someone ending their life. It’s a serious problem in our world today. And I won’t tolerate any form of hate toward anyone around me at all and neither should you!! Please check with your family and friends and have those hard deep conversations, who knows it might be helpful to that significant person... Anyway, you did very well Jonghyun and I’m very grateful to be a fan of your wonderful music and being able to have special memories with you !!! 사랑해 Jonghyun!!! 🙏🏾♥️♥️♥️

[eapplember]

Pearl Aqua Moon

December 21, 2017

The day we bid goodbye to our loving Angel.

(note: I am not a shawol but I deeply love, respect and support SHINee and Shawols. For me, being a kpop stan is like finding a new family. Some of us might be immature but if we are going to talk about the old fans and fandom, we are a family...)

I was supposed to be in school at 11am. But the moment I opened my eyes and scan through the social media platforms, I cried and cried and cried. I thought I won't be able to cry anymore for I am already crying since the 18th.

All I know was this is his final day with us physically. I didn't know that it will be as early as 9am KST (8am here in our country).

I woke up by 9am in our time and just watched the videos of his brothers carrying him. These past few days, it was already announced that his brothers will be the head mourners and I was asking myself and my friends how will they do that? If I were them, I think I coudn't even lift a chair.

And so, as I was watching their final walk with him, I cried a lot. His sister is carrying his smiling photo. Minho who was carrying Jjong's name tries to keep strong and keep his tears from flowing. Key, Onew, and Taemin tried to be strong just to carry their brother with care but we can barely see their swollen eyes which were covered with their hair.

As their hyungs, Leeteuk, Donghae and Eunhyuk help them in carrying Jjong. They're also tired and teary but their love for their leaving brother is endless.

As they reached the vehicle that will bring Jjong to his new home, they gently put him inside. After that Onew removed his gloves and revealed that they wearing their friendship rings. In an instant, he burst into tears and Key was already there, holding his hand and then he embraced him. He mouthed some words to Onew. Then, the car already left with them inside too.

After his funeral procession, the moon in Japan changed into Pearl Aqua color. It's SHINee and Shawols's fandom color. It's as if Jonghyun is telling us not to be sad and he successfully, safe and happily reached the Kingdom of God.

As the time passed, I kept on scrolling and my tears kept flowing. And I was not able to go to school because of it. My eyes are now swollen. There are jokes in SNS saying that Jjong changed tha moon color, that he still do everything that he wanted to do.

Some of his friends already posted their messages in SNS as the snippet of what they really feel and aay to their friend who now became an angel up in heaven.

We love you Jonghyun! You did more than well. Be happy. We will definitely miss you. We will be there for your brothers, sister and mother in place of you. Smile a lot. Don't cry. Thank you for everything. One day will come and I will definitely see you there. 💙

[tabicfox]

Goodbye Kim Jonghyun

Today they buried Kim Jonghyun. It is such a tragedy to lose someone so young. He was loved by family, many friends, and fans. I couldn't sleep last night because all I could think of was his last moments. I could not stop worrying if he is resting peacefully with the Lord in heaven. I laid down in my bed and turned my head to my bedside shelf to see my photocard of Jonghyun. He was smiling and I felt that it was sign from God to tell me that he is finally at peace. Of course I cry still because it is so heartbreaking and unbelievable. I watched his family and fellow members carrying his casket to the herse. I cried along with the members that were like his brothers. It was hard to swallow. Jonghyun was loved by so many, even people he never had the chance to meet. I hope that he can finally rest and continue to sing his heart out in heaven.

[charistupasaligsao]

It still hurts. It still rages pain. It’s quite hard to accept that someone should let go and someone then, AGAIN, will carry the burden.

But it’s more hard for someone to comfort somebody but deep inside those hurts and pains are the ones who’s eating them up.

I suffered as well, but I need to live. I have to live. I believe in the work of the Almighty, and I believe that trials are made to strengthen me.

Praying for those who suffer to overcome such in no time and an angel will come to rescue such lonely soul.

#spreadlove #spreadhope #spreadgoodness #pray #love #hope 🌸🌸🌸 #staystrongshawol #staystrongshinee #goodbyejonghyun #seeyousoon (at Camp Phillips, Bukidnon, Philippines)

[hanhakyo96]

Dù áp lực lớn thế nào, em thật sự mong anh mạnh mẽ vượt qua. Em không thể nào tin được một JongHyun cười đến vui vẻ như thế trước ống kính bây giờ lại trở thành một mảng kí ức đau lòng. Cho dù điều một idol phải chịu đựng sau những đêm hào nhoáng là vô cùng to lớn, nhưng chưa bao giờ em mong anh trở thành như bây giờ. JongHyun có thể kiếp này những nỗi đau cùng áp lực quá lớn, nếu có kiếp sau, em mong anh sẽ làm một chàng trai bình thường, có một công việc bình thường, sống một cuộc sống vui vẻ anh nhá. #STAYSTRONGSHINEE #GoodbyeJongHyun

[woodland-fairy-tay]

I still can’t believe your gone Jonghyun... You will always be in my heart mind and soul singing beautifully. I’m sure that just like the fans all around the world,we were very shocked and sad about your loss. And I felt very sad and guilty because even though I’m a fan and we never met, I couldn’t really do anything about what you were going through, I didn’t see your cries of help. And I’m so sorry. But I will most definitely make it up to you by NEVER forgetting what happiness you gave me and the #shawols. I’ll remember your wonderful smile and music that made me have a wonderful day when I was sad and alone. I’ll keep smiling and I’ll try to stop crying. Because I know your finally feeling at peace and that’s all I want as a fan. And even though I don’t like how you left this world,I completely understand how you felt. Smiling when your actually crying and suffering on the inside. I know that first hand. Sometimes I still do that when all I want to do is cry... But one day in the future I’ll see you again in heaven hearing your voice and seeing your face...me including all of your fans love you so much and we miss you so much. Also,we may be confused about all of this but we DO NOT HATE YOU!!! We’re just in pain now that you’re gone. And it’s a lot for us to process right now... So I won’t say goodbye but see you in the later in the future. #ripjongyun #jonghyun #wemissyou #goodbyejonghyun #shawolforever #shawols #shinee #shineekey #shineeminho #shineetaemin #shineeonew #shineejonghyun #kpop #kpopartist #smentertainment #smtown #loveyourself #lovefamily #kpopamerica #youdidwell #youdidwelljonghyun #jonghyunrestinpeace #imsorry #rosesforjonghyun #shineefive #shineeforever #proudfanofkpop #kimjonghyun