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Hi everybody :) this is Seoko!
Itâs a pain for me to announce this, but this simblr will close, I might come back a few times to see whatâs going on in the sims community, but I wonât be posting anything anymore.
Iâm so sorry this is sort of out of the blue, and I wonât be making this too long, but to explain this briefly I will be moving away from my home next year to go to college, therefore I wonât have any setup nor time to play anymore.
This year is already taking a lot of space as exams are planned for June, and lots of troubles are happening in my school, everything is a little upside down.
So thatâs it, thank you so much for the ones that followed my not so berry legacy until now and who supported me all along. I wish you all good luck and a lot of joy for the new year thatâs coming !đ
Love you all, and maybe see you next time!
#important â ď¸#inactive simblr#i love you all so much thank you for everything truly#I hope to see you around#goodbye đ
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â one new entry has been added to rinsko!
i believe i have loved you during every single moment of my life. since then, and before what we call now. perhaps i have loved you before i knew your name and even before i knew of your existence in this world. iâve loved you since i was born, and surely long before that⌠because something so deeply embedded in me must have come as a result of the many lives of me and you, before me and you, because it will always be me and you. đ˛đ˘
commission by ogata69 on twitter! :â3 thank you geese < 3
#. soulmate au .. cranked up to the max! :â3#. guys i donât know what to say my heart is exploding out of my chest iâm anxious iâm filled with a million and one emotions i love him#. more than i could ever say !!!!!!!!!!#. suli thank you for saving me for years and years .. for giving me the friends iâve always wanted :âââââ) đđđđ#. i could cry but i could also say#. i have loved for three years ⌠i will love for many more#. posting this down to the very minute where i had my first âŚ. loving thought#. i shall post that again later ueue#. GOODBYE IâM SCREAMING AND CRYING !!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SUGURU GETO i love you i do
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gelsenkirchen đĽşđ 31.07.24 âĽď¸ video: @kimifillovny
#rammstein#paul landers#richard kruspe#paulchard#I FEEL ALIVE#ADFGHJKLDFB#im stupid#but i was so worried that they will left me without goodbye kiss#but here we are#asdfghkld;fgh#i LOVE THEM SO MUCH HELP#MY TWO FAVORITE PEOPLE#I WILL MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCH#ALSO#KIMI#BLESS YOUR SOUL#my ramm gifs#stadium tour 24#đđđđđđđđđ
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2024 Hungarian GP | x (edited)
#daniel ricciardo#autumn posts#the (edited) is quite unnecessary as it is most readily apparent lol but!!#I tried to rotate it 45 degrees ish and my lack of photo editing skills leaves much to be desired#anyways arm đľâđŤâ¤ď¸â¨#I fear I'll be in a perpetual state of missing him#but I'll be savoring memories of him like light from a star still reaching earth years after its gone out đ #also that's overly dramatic hehe a new journey awaits!!! and I will be excited if he wants to share it with us!!!#until then I'll be blogging like its 2017 at times hehe#omg I was looking up top 2017 tracks and man there were some bangers that year đđ#okay nostalgia trip over I've been meaning to write but tbh I got myself all needlessly stressed!!#2025 is the year of not adding so much undue stress on myself - it's keeping me from flying!!!#also 2025 goals include drinking more water and less coffee đ sigh hehe#hope everyone has a very wonderful last day of the year!!!!#enjoying time with friends or fam or favorite hobbies â¤ď¸#off to another chapter!! I hope good things are in store!!! đđâ¨â¤ď¸#also if you read this far then hello and also my silliest yearning is Dan comes in to replace Liam in the summer#even tho RBR does Not deserve him and the stress of the sport with travel and media scrutiny are so much#retiring at 35? a dream!! but I do wonder what the vibe will be like after DTS drops#it feels like a proper goodbye had yet to come...idk#I'm still excited for Carlos and Max and Lewis and new faves too but#ahh I'm not saying anything that hasn't been said before#and he himself said he's done!!! so! c'est la vie#not goodbye but see ya later (in supercars or as a globetrotting dashing sponsor or just kickin it on the farm)#I'm at peace with all for the most part!!! but I'll be missing what could've been all the same#anyways I should go touch some grass! I'll be back soon!!#thank you everyone for all the kind tags my heart is like đđđđđ!!!!#I appreciate this space and y'all so much â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ onto another year together!!#many more memories to make!!!
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I'm not understanding how this is such a hard concept to grasp. Clearly hard enough bc you're all staying on anon anyways. The man was a FUCKING HUMAN BEING. and if you can't like... I DONT KNOW... respect that ?? Maybe you should hyperfixate on someone else. đ
did she stutter? I DON'T THINK SO.
you're so right, stef. i honestly can't even fathom how people can be like this??? it's one thing to fantasize about him (be my damn guest- i never stopped anyone), but it's another thing to freaking clog the tags with what pictures you're using to masturbate to. he's already being put out into the world as a character enough as it is and these people are only adding to that. i'm just tired of it. like stef stated above; go hyperfixate on someone else. y'all are annoying as fuck.
#tam.answers#my dear stef đ#like... why is it so hard to understand#yall can go on about how you want him to rail you into tomorrow but i can't tell yall its disturbing??? lol next#ur a joke#goodbye#elvis
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i gotta log out bruh i have way too much shit to do
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⥠05: i bet we'd have really goodâ



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note: wowie,, thank u for 1.5k and for being so patient đ iâm so happy to be ending this mini fic and to have been interacting with u all :) my apologies if this ch sucks LOL i'm so sick rn but i'm tired of rewriting n writing... so enj !!! it's been so fun and i can't wait for more fics to come in 2025 !!! kisses my kittiesđ˝đ
âąď¸ this part goes thru time skips!
đ which bed chem jk moment was ur fave?
warnings: tension/slow burn (friends first yk),, mean!jk trying to figure out how to be nicer to oc,, jk calls oc baby and kitty !!! teasing/dry humping (bc jk has glasses on. jk plays with her titties/nipples & jk cums thru his sweatpants),, jealousy (v teeny tiny),, virginity talk/actual sex; oc loses her virginity to jk (jk eats her out/fingers her, ass slapping, dirty talk, rawdogging,, missionary, doggy, blowjob/headpushing & face cumshot)
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itâs been a week since jungkook kissed you, and he has made it your problem.
truth be told, he has made a game of thisâhovering without hovering⌠just close enough to test the line. whatever way he plays, jungkook is always shameless in the most subtle and maddening ways.
sometimes his hand brushes yours as you walk, light and fleeting⌠and itâs impossible not to notice the way his fingers twitch. itâs like heâs debating whether to grab it or not.
you donât make it any easier on yourself, either.
thereâs this suffocating tension between you two and some days are better than others⌠like today.
âwhy are you so quiet?â you ask, glancing at him over your shoulder.
he tilts his head, feigning confusion.Â
âwhy? does the silence make your heart race?â
you scoff, rolling your eyes, and thatâs when he strikesâhis foot nudging yours mid-step. itâs just enough to throw you off balance, making you stumble slightly, your bag slipping again.
âjungkook!â
heâs already reaching out, catching the strap before it can fall.Â
âcareful,â he says, his voice all mock concern, but the way his lips twitch gives him away.
you glare at him, yanking your bag out of his grip.Â
âyouâre the one who tripped me.â
âprove it."
"seriously?"
"if you can't prove it... you have to kiss me. you know, as compensation for accusing me so unjustly." he says, wide-eyed and innocent, though the corners of his mouth are curling into a smirk.
itâs infuriating, but itâs also... not.Â
not when heâs looking at you like that, like he knows exactly how to get under your skin and is thoroughly enjoying it.
âdo friends kiss?â you narrow your gaze at him. âdo friends trip each other over? do friendsââ
âdo friends wait for each other?â jungkook leans towards you. âmhmm? do friends have ulterior motivesââ
âyou have ulterior motives?â
âoh, absolutely.â
friendship.Â
itâs odd to say the leastâthe way you and jungkook have fallen into this friendship. thatâs what youâve both agreed on.Â
friends.Â
but the lines are blurry.Â
so blurry they might as well not exist at all⌠because what kind of friends kiss on the cheek as casually as saying hello? what kind of friends text each other goodnight every single evening, or linger too long in conversations that could end with a simple goodbye?
the rules of your agreement feel more like suggestionsâones jungkook seems intent on bending just enough to keep you guessing. and you let him, which might be the strangest part of all.
⌠because deep down, you know this isnât just friendship. not with the way he looks at you, his gaze lingering a second too long, or the way his touch always feels like a question heâs waiting for you to answer.
but maybe thatâs the thing about blurry linesâthey give you just enough room to pretend you donât already know where youâre headed.
yet, even with all his teasing, thereâs a hesitancy to him sometimesâa split-second pause when your hands brush, a quiet shift in his expression when he catches you looking at him. itâs like heâs still figuring out how to balance whatever this is between you, testing the waters but not wanting to dive in too fast.
and honestly?
you feel the same.
itâs why you let him get away with stuff like this. why you donât pull away when his hand accidentally-on-purpose brushes yours for the third time in as many minutes. why you donât tell him to stop following you to your study spot or showing up outside your class with some excuse about âjust being in the area.â
because the truth is, you like having him around.Â
you like the way he keeps you on your toes⌠even if itâs by trying to trip you up, only to catch you before you fall.
and maybeâjust maybeâyou like the way his smile softens sometimes when he thinks youâre not looking.
tonight, the group decides on a night out.
the street food spot everyone agreed on is already buzzing when you get there, the warm glow of string lights crisscrossing above the narrow alleyways, casting soft shadows on the busy stalls below. the air is alive with the scent of sizzling tteokbokki and freshly steamed hotteok, mingling with bursts of laughter and the occasional pop of oil from a nearby grill.
you arrive late as usual.Â
by the time you weave your way through the crowd, the others have scattered, splitting up to hunt down whatever caught their eye.Â
thatâs when you spot him.
jungkook leans lazily against a lamppost near the edge of the main street, one hand tucked into his pocket, the other holding a stick of half-eaten odeng. the glow from the lights above reflects faintly in his dark eyes, making them look warmer than usual, though his expression stays comfortably neutralâlike heâs been waiting.
but he doesnât mind.
âyouâre late,â he says as you approach, not even bothering to straighten up. his voice is low, unbothered, but thereâs something teasing in the way his lips twitch into the barest hint of a smirk.
âiâm literally 5 minutes late.â
âstill late.â
jungkook takes one last bite of the fish cake before tossing the stick into a nearby bin. he steps closer, casual but deliberate, and before you can come up with a snappy reply, he leans down and presses a quick kiss to your cheek.
itâs smoothâtoo smooth.
itâs like heâs been doing it forever.
you barely have time to register the warmth blooming in your chest before heâs grabbing your hands, shoving them unceremoniously into the front pocket of his hoodie along with his own.
âjungkookââ
âyour hands looked cold,â he says simply, his tone light, like this is the most natural thing in the world.
his fingers shift slightly, brushing against yours, and though his expression stays neutral, you catch the subtle curve of his mouthâthe smug kind he tries to hide but never quite manages.
you roll your eyes, more out of habit than anything else, and let out a sigh...
but you donât pull away.
âi have gloves.â
âthey're ugly."
you glare at him.
"... and you have me."
the air stills.
âwhat?â he asks, his shoulder bumping yours as he starts walking, steering you toward the first row of stalls.
ânothing.â
but the corner of your mouth twitches. you try to hold back your smile.
he catches it, of course.Â
his grin widens, soft and slow.
jungkook nudges you again, this time with more intention. you can feel the warmth of his hand through the fabric, steady and sure, even as the cold night air bites at your skin.
you can't help but give in. a laugh escapes your lips as you nudge him back. jungkook laughs too, but pulls you close at the very last second.
he breathes you in.
the first stall serves fresh tteokbokki, steaming and spicy. the scent alone makes your stomach growl, but jungkook is already a step ahead, paying for the food before you can reach for your wallet.
âyou didnât have to do that,â you say, trying to grab a pair of chopsticks from the tray.
he beats you to it, of course, picking up a piece of tteokbokki with the kind of exaggerated precision that makes you squint at him. then, he places the chopsticks in between your fingers.
âfeed me," he says.
âabsolutely not."
he steps closer.Â
âokay, fine. iâll feed youââ
you shove the tteok in his mouth.Â
he chews, chuckling and enjoying your choice.Â
âyouâre so annoying,â you tell him as he swallows.
âreally? am i?â
âreally. you are."
jungkook shrugs.Â
then, he takes the chopsticks and picks up a tteok, and feeds you. he watches closely as you chew, his wide eyes fixed on your face in a way that makes you feel exposed.
âhow annoying?â
in between chews, you fixate on his smirk. as he leans into level with you, you almost choke at how his nose nearly brushed yours. you can feel the weight of his gaze, daring you to say something.
âjungkookâŚâ you warn, your voice flat, but your hands betray you. they reach up to cup his cheeks, and though your intention is to shove him back, you donât.
instead, your thumbs press lightly against the soft skin of his jaw as you squint at him.
âwhatâs this smile?â you ask, narrowing your eyes. âwhat are you so excited over, bestie?â
his expression flickers for a second, his brows twitching in annoyance at the word. you know he hates it when you call him that. bestie? who are you even talking to?
âyour lips look cold. can i warm them up for you?â he asks suddenly, his voice dropping low enough to send shivers down your spine.
you scoff, warmth creeping up your neck. ânice tryââ
âno, no, i insist,â he interrupts, tilting his head slightly, pretending to think it over. âdon't want you to be all cold and shit.â
âjungkook.â your tone is sharp, but itâs laced with amusement, and he knows it.
âwhat?â he murmurs, leaning in closer, his lips curving into a smirk. âyou said you want to take things slow. iâll kiss you real slowââ
your jaw drops.Â
âyouâre impossible.â
he stands back up with a grin, his hands still in the pocket of his hoodie, keeping yours snugly tucked inside. he rocks back on his heels, clearly pleased with himself.Â
âletâs not pretend we donât know what we know.â
âi donât know much,â you retort, but the small smile tugging at your lips betrays you. âiâm not a nerdââ
âyah! hurry up!â taehyungâs voice booms from a stall across the street, breaking the moment. you glance over to find him waving dramatically, his other arm slung around yoongi, who looks less than thrilled.Â
âwe found the mandu!â taehyung adds.
âmandu sounds good,â jungkook says as he gives your hands a small squeeze. then, he gently pulls you toward the others. "let's go."Â
âstop dragging me around,â you complain, though you donât actually try to pull away.
âyouâre walking too slow.â
but you arenât.Â
you know you arenât and so does he⌠but you let him hold your hand anyway.
a week later, jungkook feels like he might piss himself.
he leans against the edge of his desk, scrolling through his phone for the 5th time in as many minutes. his thumb hovers over the screen, debating whether to check his messages again, even though he knows thereâs no point.Â
you havenât replied yet.
the fundraiser for marine conservation is tonight, and heâs been pretending itâs no big deal... but fuck.
he was so nervous when he asked you to go with him and now he feels like all his efforts are being wasted.
...
âso, uh,â he starts, his voice a little too casual, âthereâs this fundraiser gala thing on friday night. save the dolphins thingâa-and⌠itâs no big deal butââ
you glance at him, eyebrows raised.Â
âyeah? sounds fancy.â
he shrugs, keeping his eyes fixed on the road ahead. âi guess it is. itâs a black-tie kind of event⌠and i, uh⌠i was thinking... maybe youâd want to come with me?â
you blink, caught off guard by the sudden invite.Â
âi hate dolphins.â
âi know.â
you sigh, pretending to be burdened by his request. âbut iâll go. if you want me to.â
âi do want you to.â
âokay.â
âgood,â he breathes, glancing over with a lopsided grin that he hopes hides how nervous he actually feels. âyouâll make me look good. people are suckers for pretty dates.â
âoh, so youâre using me as a prop?â you tease, though your lips twitch into a smirk.
âobviously,â he replies smoothly, though his grip on the wheel tightens slightly. âbut, hey, itâs a dinner, you get to see my in a tux which is practically dessertâ.â
you shake your head, laughing softly.Â
âyouâre ridiculous.â
âso ridiculous that this can count as our first date?â he presses, glancing over again, this time with a flicker of uncertainty he hopes you donât catch.
after a beat, you sigh dramatically, turning in your seat to face him.Â
âitâs a date.â
just as heâs about to make another comment, you lean over and press a quick kiss to his cheek, catching him completely off guard. his hands freeze on the wheel for half a second before he recovers.
âyou missedââ
you laugh and hit his chest. then, he gets out of the car, helps you out, and walks you to your doorstep.Â
...
now, as he sits alone in his room, the anticipation bubbling just under his skin, his phone buzzes on the counter. his heart skips for a moment before he grabs it, only to feel it sink as he reads your message.
yn [4:31PM]: nurse said itâs food poisoning yn [4:32PM]: she gave me some meds to help but i literally feel like shit yn [4:33PM]: i donât think iâll be able to make it tonight, baby :( iâm so sorry nerd [4:34PM]: donât apologize. iâll be over in a bit yn [4:35PM]: what ?? no !! get ready for your event. itâs important nerd [4:35PM]: so are u yn [4:36PM]: iâll survive. go save the dolphins :p
his brows knit together as he reads it again, leaning back into the couch with a frustrated sigh.
he knows he shouldnât feel disappointedâyou canât control being sick, and itâs not like this event means anything special.Â
at least, thatâs what heâs been telling himself.
still, he stares at the message for a long moment, debating whether to reply right away or wait a few minutes so he doesnât seem too eager. his fingers hover over the keyboard before he finally types out a response, keeping it short and light, like heâs unbothered.
nerd [4:40PM]: get some rest. iâll be telling everyone you ditched me tho yn [4:41PM]: be sure to let the dolphins know too đ
he lets out a chuckle, but the weight in his chest doesnât go away.Â
he tosses his phone onto the coffee table and rakes a hand through his hair, wondering why the idea of showing up without you feels so much worse than heâd expected.
then, his phone buzzes with messages from the fundraiser committee.Â
yet, he can only think of you⌠itâs a sinking feeling in his chest.Â
youâre sick.Â
the thought of going to that event while youâre home feeling miserable doesnât sit right with him.
he sighs, grabbing his hoodie and pulling it over his head. he knows this is unprofessional and such an pussy excuse butâforget the event.Â
itâs you that matters to him the most right now.Â
so, jungkook calls his event and lets them know that something came up. he tosses aside his tux and puts on comfier clothes before heading to the kitchen to make you some chicken noodle soup.
before he heads out, jungkook hears a familiar groan from the living room. he turns, already annoyed, knowing exactly who it is.
jimin and taehyung are stretched out on the couch, looking like theyâve been hit by a truck.Â
their faces are pale, eyes glassy with fever, and they groan as they shift under the blanket. itâs obvious theyâre just as sick as you, if not worse.
âyo, jungkook,â taehyung calls out, voice nasally, âdid you make soup? be a good boy and give us someââÂ
jimin, equally pitiful, sits up a little and gives jungkook a pleading look. âyeah, weâre starving, man. plus, youâre not gonna leave us to die alone, right?â
jungkook raises an eyebrow, crossing his arms over his chest.Â
âyou wonât die from starvation.â
âhow are you so sure?â
âcos iâll kill you first,â jungkook snorts. âyou guys got my girl sick with that stupid omelet you made her.â
the two of them groan in response, sitting up slowly. taehyung rubs his face with his hand. âwe didnât mean to! bro, look at us. you think we wanted this? weâre sick, too, you know.â
âyeah,â jimin adds, âthereâs two friends sick here for you to take care of.â
jungkook just looks at them, his gaze hard.Â
âwho do you think iâm gonna choose right now?â
jimin squints, looking him up and down. âdonât you have that gala tonight?â
jungkook hesitates for a split second, but quickly shakes his head, giving them a dismissive wave.Â
âit got canceled.â he lies.Â
then, he turns away to head out the door. before he leaves he yells; âiâll text yoongi hyung to make you some soup. donât bother me. not coming home tonight.â
about 25 minutes later, jungkook stands in front of your doorway and his gaze falls on you as you open the door.
you're wearing his oversized t-shirt, hair up in a messy bun, and a pair of shortsâlooking exhausted and a little pale. his stomach churns with worry, but he keeps his cool as always.
"what are you doing here? the gala..." you trail off, but before he can answer, you quickly turn and rush to the bathroom.
"shit," he mutters under his breath, following you at a steady pace.
when he enters the bathroom, you're already kneeling over the toilet, retching. his heart drops, but he doesnât flinch. moving to your side, he gently pats your back.
âit was this bad?â he grumbles, a frown pulling at his lips. âwhy were you downplaying it through text?â
you wipe your mouth with the back of your hand, barely acknowledging him.
âiâm fine, seriously. just... just a little nausea.â
âfuck, ___..â he snaps, but his voice isnât angry, more like exasperated. "this is stupid. you canât be alone if you canât even handle standing up to get the door without throwing up. are you fucking serious?." his eyes are narrowing now, the concern clear despite his snappy tone. âwhat the hell, ___?"
you sit back on the floor, leaning against the wall, your face pale.Â
âi already bailed on the date. i couldnât let you bail on the gala entirely.â
he shoots you a look, incredulous.Â
âyou think Iâd rather be at a gala without you? honestly?â
âi justâ"
âshut up,â he interrupts, his voice softer but firm. "you need someone. iâm here. deal with it."
thereâs no room for argument in his voice.
you give him a tired smile despite the situation, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand.Â
âyou shouldnât be here, though.â
âsay that again.â
your lips tighten.
then, you gag and rush back to the toilet bowl. jungkook remains by your side, rubbing your back as you deal with another wave of nausea.
the moment is quiet except for the soft sounds of you breathing in between. for a second, it almost feels like everything has stopped, like itâs just the two of you in your small bathroom, nothing else in the world mattering.
after 40 minutes of hovering over the toilet, jungkook gets you settled on the couch.
he brings you water and asks if youâre down for some food. he brought over chicken noodle soup and you need to have something in your stomach before taking your medicine. you simply agree and wait for him to serve you.Â
as you eat the soup, he scrolls through netflix and plays something. he talks for most of it and it helps distract you from feeling the full extent of your sickness. after youâve eaten some of the soup he brought, you ask him to grab the medicine from your bag.Â
âcan you grab the other medicine bottle from my bag? the one the nurse gave me?â
jungkook, of course, doesnât hesitate.Â
he gets up and finds your bag in your bedroom. he pulls open your bag and begins rummaging through it, looking for the bottle. when his hand brushes against something thick and solid, he pulls out a book titled, âeverything you need to know about dolphins a to z.â
his eyebrows furrow for a second as he stares down at it.
he doesnât know why, but a strange warmth spreads through him. itâs pretty obvious why you have this bookâbut seeing it in your bag... it makes him pause.
his lips tighten slightly as he puts the book back down in your bag, quickly hiding his reaction. he doesnât want you to see how much itâs affecting him right now.
when he returns with the medicine, his expressionâs back to its usual, nonchalant self. as much as jungkook wants to pretend like he didnât see it or that seeing it didnât matterâhe canât.Â
to him, it mattered.Â
it mattered a lot.
a few days later, youâre sitting across from jungkook in the library.Â
the late afternoon sun streaming through the tall windows and casting a golden glow over the table. textbooks and notebooks are scattered between you, his handwriting messier than yours but still oddly charming. youâre mid-sentence, asking him about his opinion on a the newest theory you learned during your lecture when he suddenly tugs off his crewneck, revealing the black t-shirt clinging to his frame underneath.
itâs warm in the library, the kind of cozy heat that sneaks up on you, and he doesnât think twice about it.Â
but you do.
âwoahââ you blurt out, your question forgotten as your gaze catches on his arms. you've seen his tattoos before but for some reason... they look different to you now.
they appeal different to you.
jungkook looks up from his notes, brows raised.
âwhat?â
you blink, trying to refocus, but your eyes betray you, flickering back to the ink winding its way down his arm.Â
âyour tattoos,â you say, almost dazed. âtheyâre... really hot.â
âthink so?â
âyeah,â you admit. âgets me horny. â
you then feel the warmth crawl up your neck as the words leave your mouth. you quickly look back down at your notes, hoping the earth might just swallow you whole.
jungkook freezes for a moment, the tips of his ears turning the faintest shade of pink. then he shakes his head, a small, lopsided smile tugging at his lips. itâs not his usual confident grinâitâs softer, like heâs caught off guard but not in a bad way.
he doesnât say anything, just ducks his head slightly, the corners of his mouth twitching like heâs trying to hold back a laugh.
you try to ignore the way he shifts in his seat, casually stretching his arms behind his head like heâs showing offânot that heâd ever admit it...
for the next two weeks, jungkook suddenly seems allergic to long sleeves.Â
he starts showing up in short-sleeved t-shirts, rolling his sleeves higher than necessary when he wears his uniform jacket, and leaning in just a little closer when he knows your gaze will drift.
âyouâre shameless,â you mumble one day, catching him flexingânot subtlyâwhile reaching for a book on the top shelf.
âwhat?â he asks innocently, glancing down at you with those wide eyes that donât match the smirk tugging at his lips.
you roll your eyes, biting back a grin.
âyouâre annoying.â
âwhy? are you horny?â he says, his voice low enough to make you want to shove him.
you donât answer, but the way you avoid his gazeâand the small smile tugging at your lipsâsays enough. he notices, of course, because he always does.
after a few moments of silence, you huff at him.
"is everything you say always so... dirty?"
he shrugs.
"you brought up being horny first..."
"yeah, butâ"
"you think i'm dirty?" jungkook interrupts you. "should i shower?"
you scoff at him. before you can say anything, he adds;
"youâd join me though, right?"
a month later, jungkook does it again.Â
you find yourself standing in the middle of your apartmentâhe shows up.
your phone is clutched tightly in your hand as you try to blink away the tears threatening to spill. the call you just hadâa frustrating, heart-wrenching argument with your familyâleaves you feeling raw and small. the weight of their words presses heavily on your chest, and all you can do is stare blankly at the mess of papers scattered on your desk.
a sharp knock on your door pulls you out of your thoughts. you freeze, wiping at your cheeks hastily, but the door creaks open before you can say anything.
"is that my hoodie?"
"jungkookâ"
âyou haven't been answering my texts all day,â jungkook says, stepping in without waiting for an invitation. heâs holding a bag of takeout.
"everything okay?"
âiâm fine,â you say, your voice shaky despite your best efforts to sound convincing.
he narrows his eyes at you, placing the takeout and hoodie on your coffee table before crossing his arms.
âyeah, no.â
you try to argue, but heâs already moving, shrugging off his jacket and plopping onto the couch like he owns the place.
âwhatever it is, you donât have to talk about it right now,â he says, pulling out containers of food. âbut you do have to eat. and iâm not leaving until you do.â
your throat tightens at his matter-of-fact tone, his presence somehow both comforting and overwhelming. he doesnât pry, doesnât demand to know what happened.
âyou didnât have to come,â you murmur, sinking onto the couch beside him.
âyeah, i did,â he replies, handing you a pair of chopsticks. âand donât even think about pretending youâre not hungry.â
a small, shaky laugh escapes you, the tension in your chest loosening just a little.
âyouâre so annoying.â
âfriends are supposed to annoy each other. learned that shit from you.â
jungkookâs door swings open with a suddenness that startles him.Â
the faint squeak of the hinges cuts through the quiet. heâs mid-motion, towel slung around his neck, tugging a loose white shirt over his head when you stroll in without so much as a knock. heâs also wearing grey sweatpantsâŚÂ
wet hair, white shirt, and grey sweats?Â
the holy trinity.
âyou know,â he begins to scold you. âboundaries exist for a reason.â
he shakes his damp hair as you plop onto his bed like itâs yours.
âboundaries?â you scoff, grabbing your plushie. your precious hello kitty plushie. âthis is practically my second home.â
he doesnât argue, just lets out a quiet chuckle as he pulls the hem of his shirt down.Â
holding up the plushie like itâs the most precious thing youâve ever seen. âcan i take her home today?â
âsure,â jungkook says, his voice carrying that infuriating mix of teasing confidence and barely veiled challenge. he leans against his desk, arms crossed, watching with a smirk as you clutch the hello kitty plushie tightly to your chest, as if itâs your only lifeline against his charm.Â
âcan i be your boyfriend today?â
you groan, throwing yourself back onto his bed with a dramatic sigh, the plushie landing on your face.Â
âseriously? youâre really holding this poor plushie hostage?â
he laughs, low and amused, pushing off the desk and taking a few steps closer.Â
âa dealâs a deal,â he says lightly, but thereâs a glint in his eyes as he towers over you. âyou can take her homeâwhen youâre my girl.â
you yank the plushie off your face, sitting up sharply.Â
âdo you think weâre better friends?â you huff, your tone indignant but your heart racing under the weight of his gaze.Â
jungkook crouches slightly, leaning in until his face is just a few inches from yours. his smirk softens into something more playful, but the shift in proximity makes your stomach flip.Â
âi think soâŚâ he murmurs, his eyes flickering between your face and the plushie pressed against your chest. âaside from me trying to kiss you every chance i get and you being horny every time you see my tattoosââ
you narrow your eyes at him, holding the plushie tighter, as if itâs a shield against the way heâs looking at you.Â
âyouâre unbelievable.â
âand yet,â he starts, his voice dropping an octave as he moves even closer, one hand bracing on the bed beside your knee, the other reaching out to gently brush his fingers over the plushieâs soft fabric. âhere you are.â
his free hand slides around your waist, tugging you just slightly toward him, and your breath hitches. âbut if you donât want herâŚâ he teases, his voice trailing off as his face inches closer to yours. his gaze dips briefly to your lips, and before you can fully process it, heâs leaning in to press a kiss to your cheek.
except you shove hello kitty between you two just in time.
ânope!â you say quickly, holding the plushie up like a barrier, your cheeks flaming as you hear him laugh, the sound vibrating through the air between you.
âseriously?â he says, pulling back just enough to raise an eyebrow, though his grin never falters. his hand stays firm at your waist, his thumb brushing the fabric of your shirt in slow, lazy circles. âyouâre really using her to block me?â
âyou started it,â you shoot back, glaring at him even as your grip on the plushie tightens.
âfair,â he admits with a chuckle, straightening up slightly but keeping his hold on you. his other hand moves to tap the plushieâs head. âbut the deal still stands. not my girlfriend, not your hello kitty.â
âyouâre ridiculous.â
he tilts his head, his grin softening, though his hand still lingers at your waist, his warmth impossible to ignore.Â
âi donât know,â he says, his voice quieter now, almost coaxing. âsounds like a pretty good deal to me.â
you glare at him again, this time with less heat, and shove the plushie into his chest.
âyouâre insufferable.â
he laughs, taking the plushie from your hands but not letting you go.
âmaybe,â he says, âbut youâre still here.â
hours later, the room is quiet except for the soft scratch of jungkookâs pen against paper and the occasional shuffle of his chair as he shifts at his desk. youâre curled up on his bed, the hello kitty plushie still clutched against your chest, your breaths slow and steady as sleep overtakes you.
he glances back at you every now and then, a small, unspoken fondness softening his features. when you stir, rubbing your eyes and sitting up, he turns back to his notes, feigning nonchalance.
you pad over to him, your steps muffled against the carpet. without a word, you slip onto his lap, one arm draping lazily over his shoulders as you pluck his glasses from his face.
âgood nap?â he asks, his voice a mix of amusement and exasperation as you slide the frames onto your own nose. âthoseââ
squinting dramatically, you nag him; âugh, how do you even function with these? everythingâs blurry.â
âthatâs because theyâre prescription, genius,â he says, reaching for them, but you lean back, keeping them out of his reach.
âmaybe iâll keep these,â you tease, poking at the side of his head. âyou canât study without them, can you?â
âgive them back, or iâm kicking you off my lap,â he warns, though his hands settle firmly on your waist instead of following through on his threat.
âyeah, sure... because you hate this so much.â
âtry me,â he challenges, his grip tightening just slightly as if to prove his point.
âyouâre so bossy,â you grumble, sliding the glasses off and placing them haphazardly on his desk. âhappy now?â
âecstatic,â he says dryly, though his lips twitch upward.
you lean closer, your face just inches from his, your playful smirk softening into something quieter, more genuine.Â
âyou know, youâre really cute when youâre all serious, studious, and grumpy.â
âand youâre kind of annoying when you donât let me finish studying,â he shoots back, though thereâs no real bite to his words.
âfine, fine,â you say, preparing to climb off his lap with exaggerated dramatics. âgo be a nerd. iâll be over there cuddling hello kittyââ
âi could use a 5 minute break.â
you fix your posture, perking up.Â
âreally?â you tilt your head at him. âi mean⌠iâd hate to distract you.â
âreally?â he mocks you. âyouâre sitting on my lap and moving your hips and yetâyouâd hate to distract me, huh?â
you nod innocently. then, you shrug and confess;
âiâm bored.â
âwhat do you want me to do about that? this final is really importantâf-fuck. ___, donât move like that.â
you shift again.Â
âlike what?â
âyou know what youâreââ
âwhat am i doing?â you ask, leaning your body closer to his. you caress his face and pout at him. âis 5 minutes even considered a break? donât you need more time?â
âmore time for what?â jungkook lowers his gaze at you.Â
âi donât know,â you giggle. âwhat do you wanna do?â
jungkook canât take it.Â
playing cat and dog or whatever this bullshit is.Â
youâre on top of him, prettier than ever. youâre wearing a low-cut tank top with a fucking bow in the middle⌠and he canât breathe anything in except you. what is he supposed to do right now?Â
â___⌠if you donât get off meââ
âif i donât get off you⌠what?â
you smile at him softly. shifting again, you drag your hips towards him. his eyes widen.Â
âi might cum.â
you pout. âreally?â
jungkook swallows.Â
âkeep moving your hips like that and youâll find out soon.â
âohâŚâ
a beat.Â
âlike this?â
before he knows it, youâre humping him.Â
he grunts as he feels himself harden under you. you bite your bottom lip as you drag your hips back and forth. you feel the pressure against your clit as your clothes rub together.Â
jungkook hisses at your pace.Â
âf-fuck..â
as he bucks his lips, he places his hands on your waist, helping your movement. you let out a few breathy moans and jungkook feels like he could die.Â
youâre so pretty.Â
his hands tighten around you when he senses that youâre close.Â
âam i doing this right? it feelsâfeels g-good.â
âyeah? feels good, baby?â jungkook breathes.
âmhmmâŚâ
âdo you feel my dick?â he asks. âfeel how hard it is against your fucking pussy?â
âi do,â you moan. âso big, jungkook. can i take it soon?â
he hisses.Â
âpromise me,â you whine. âpromise me that youâll fuck me soon.â
jungkookâs breath hitches.Â
he was wrong.Â
that time he ran his mouth about your virginity being too much or a burden or somethingâfuck was he wrong.Â
itâs not a burden.
itâs the greatest privilege he could ever be given⌠now to have you like this? begging like that? holy shit is he more than ready to give you anything and everything you want.Â
âpromise, baby,â he says. âpromise itâs gonna be me.â
you nod, happy with his answer.Â
and just as youâre about to continue, you take his hands to your tits. first, he squeezes them⌠then you guide them to the strap of your tank top. taking the cue, jungkook tugs your straps down, revealing your bare tits.Â
â___âŚâ he moans. âshit.â
you bring his hands to your tits again, helping him cup them. as you hump him with more intensity, jungkookâs mouth parts. your tits bounce up and down and it sends shivers down his spine. your tits are so full in his hands and so fucking perfect up close. he loves all of itâthe shape, the size, the way it feels⌠so soft. heâs always been an ass type of guy but holy shitâyour tits are a game changer for him.Â
nevertheless, he tries to focuses on you.Â
âbouncy.â
âyeah?â you pant. âyou like them?â
jungkook nods pathetically.Â
he fights shutting his eyes. he wants to remember all of this. every detail.Â
how hard he is right now. how hard your nipples are and how they feel being played in between his fingers. he runs his thumb around them, pressing, squeezing, and tugging⌠he loves how your moans soundâlike theyâre music to his ears⌠he canât⌠he canât picture anything else. he canât hear anything else. he canât breathe anything in but you.
âjungkookâŚâ you cry, feeling yourself about to climax.
âs-shit,â he hisses as you begin to whimper.Â
the humping is great.Â
amazing in factâbut the way youâre whimpering right now?Â
fuck.
âjungkook,â you breathe, trying to catch your breath. âa-are you close? mhmmm⌠f-fuck!âÂ
you hump him faster and harder. he lets out a few moans before sharply inhalingâ
âo-ohh,â jungkook moans. ânghhhh⌠fuck.â
you grind on him slowly, easing his release. his crotch area is wet, making an obvious stain on his grey sweatpants.
he throws his head back. you lean over and kiss his neck. he bites his lip, attempting to hide his smile.Â
a silence fills the room.Â
you two are in total disbelief.Â
then, you shift and he places his hands on your waist again.Â
âdid you cum?âÂ
he lets out a chuckle. âyeah. did you?â
âi think so? i donât know.â
âsorry,â he sighs, a little disappointed you didnât get to finish. âdo you wannaââ
âitâs fine that i didnât come. i had funâŚâ
jungkook shakes his head. âno, itâs okay. i canââ
âcan i see?â
jungkook blinks at you.Â
âwhat?â
âyou came right?â
âyeahââ
âcan i see what your cum looks like?â
some days with jungkook are so easy, itâs almost laughable.
the dynamic feels less like a friendship and more like a game youâre both playingâteasing, flirting, seeing how far you can push before one of you finally gives in.
but then there are days like this.
itâs been 3 month and a half since the kiss, and the comfort between you has grown in a way that makes everything feel light, almost effortless. youâre more yourself around him, and heâs let down his walls in ways you didnât even realize were there.Â
still, sometimes, you push his buttons just a little too hard.
today is one of those days.
it starts with a series of texts.
your usual banter that, for whatever reason, strikes a nerve.
maybe heâs stressed, or maybe youâre just too good at knowing exactly how to get under his skin. either way, it doesnât take long before his responses turn clipped, each word laced with an irritation youâre not used to seeing from him.
yn [1:41PM]: CââHââNââOââSâ nerd [1:48PM]: đł yn [1:50PM]: am i speaking ur language nerd [1:53PM]: fluently, yes yn [1:54PM]: cool. dohwan taught me it yn [1:55PM]: what does it mean nerd [1:59PM]: not funny. yn [2:00PM]: why am i laughing then seen yn [2:01PM]: aw donât get all mad nerd [2:08PM]: not mad. jus uninterested in this topic. yn [2:10PM]: iâm sorry seen yn [2:14PM]: sorry :( yn [2:15PM]: jungkook !!! yn [2:16PM]: wanna make out? typing⌠nerd [2:21PM]: yes
you donât mean for it to escalate, but by the time you realize heâs genuinely annoyed, itâs too late to fix it over text. you bite your lip, staring at your phone, debating your next move.
and then, because youâre you, you grab your bag and head straight for his lab.
jungkookâs reputation precedes him on campus.
professors practically gloat about having him in their classes, like his achievements are trophies they get to display. it isnât just his grades or his researchâitâs the way he carries himself. sure, he's a little antisocial but he's focused, driven, and somehow still effortlessly cool.
you always knew he was smart, but seeing him in his element, tucked away in the chemistry lab during his solo hours, is something else entirely.
the lab is a world of its own.
notes scrawled in sharp, precise handwriting cover the workspace, surrounded by neatly labeled vials, bubbling solutions, and meticulous arrangements of equipment.
jungkook stands at the center of it all, wearing a crisp lab coat with the sleeves rolled up just enough to reveal the ink decorating his forearms. protective goggles perch on his nose, and his brows furrow as he scribbles something into a notebook. heâs intimidatingly focused, and for a moment, you hesitate in the doorway.
he notices the movement immediately, his sharp eyes snapping up to meet yours. for a beat, his expression doesnât change, and your stomach churns with nerves under his scrutinizing gaze.
âwhat are you doing here?â
âi, uhâŚâ you shift awkwardly, trying to find your footing under his intense stare. âi wanted to check on you. you seemed upset earlier.â
jungkook exhales, a hand dragging through his dark hair, slightly disheveling the strands sticking out under the goggles. his posture stiffens slightly before he stands straighter, folding his arms across his chest.Â
âiâm fine,â he says, the words clipped and automatic, like heâs said them a hundred times before.
he doesnât look at you again after that, instead turning back to the dense notebook in front of him. his pen taps against the edge of the table, a sharp, rhythmic sound that fills the silence between you.
you glance around, taking in the scrawled notes and bubbling glassware, and suddenly, you feel like an intruder.
this isnât just a workspace; itâs his domain, and youâre a trespasser.
âright,â you whisper. âsorry. i justââ
your words catch as his head snaps up again, this time really looking at you. his dark eyes flick to the way you stand there, hands shoved deep into your jacket pockets, shoulders hunched slightly, and chewing the inside of your cheek.
the tension in his jaw softens, and he exhales again, but this time, itâs quieter, almost resigned. his shoulders relax as he sets the pen down, giving you his full attention now.
âdo you want a tour?â he asks, his voice losing some of its earlier sharpness.
you blink at him, caught off guard.Â
âreally?â
he shrugs, a small, almost reluctant smirk tugging at the corners of his lips.
âyeah. just⌠donât touch anything.â
you hesitate, unsure if this is a genuine offer or just him humoring you. but the way his gaze lingersâsofter now, like heâs extending an olive branchâmakes you take a small step forward.
âyouâre sure?â you ask cautiously, your weight shifting between your feet.
âwouldnât have offered if i wasnât,â he says, already turning to gather a few items from the cluttered table.
his words are casual, but thereâs something unspoken in the way he says them. itâs as if heâs acknowledging your effort without outright saying it, inviting you into a space you know he doesnât share lightly.
âokay,â you say softly, stepping closer as he gestures to the setup in front of him.
jungkook guides you through the lab, his hand casually finding its way to the small of your back as he gestures to the next setup. the touch is subtle but grounding, the heat of his palm against your waist sending a quick flutter of awareness through you. his fingers rest there, steady, as he moves you along with a quiet confidence, his focus more on the equipment than the way your heart picks up its pace.
âthis is my catalytic synthesis project,â he starts, motioning to the crowded workspace. his tone is calmer now, almost instructional as if falling into the rhythm of explaining makes it easier to let his guard down.
as he starts detailing his work, his body language shifts. his shoulders loosen, and the furrow in his brow disappears as he picks up a flask of pale yellow liquid. his hand moves with precise confidence, holding it up to the light as if to showcase his work.
âwhat does that even mean?â you ask, leaning in closer to inspect the array of equipment.
âitâs about creating biodiesel,â he explains, holding up a sheet of paper covered in equations and diagrams. âbasically, iâm optimizing the reaction process to make it more efficient. fewer byproducts, higher yield.â
you blink, squinting at the equations like they might magically make sense.Â
âthatâs cool⌠i think. but how do you even do that?â
he chuckles, the sound low and surprisingly soft.Â
âthis,â he says, holding the flask again. âthis is the feedstock. itâs like the base oil we start with. i mix it with methanol and a catalystââ
âwait,â you interrupt, raising a hand. âwhatâs a catalyst?â
his lips twitch into a small grin, clearly amused by your cluelessness.Â
âa catalyst is a substance that speeds up a chemical reaction without being consumed in the process.â
you nod as if you understand, but the tilt of your head gives you away.
jungkook sets the flask down and leans a hip against the table, crossing his arms loosely. âokay, think of it like this. imagine youâre cooking something. the catalyst is like the panâit doesnât get eaten, but it helps everything cook faster.â
âohhh,â you say, the metaphor finally clicking. âwhy didnât you just say that from the start?â
he raises an eyebrow, biting back a grin. âbecause i thought you were smart enough to keep up.â
âwow,â you deadpan, crossing your arms. âi come here to check on you, and this is the thanks i get?â
he shakes his head, a quiet laugh escaping him as he nudges your shoulder lightly with his. âfirst of all, you annoyed me. second of all, youâre the one who wanted a tour. iâm just giving you the full experience.â
âoh, sorryââ you let out a shallow laugh. âshould i leave thenââ
jungkook shakes his head and points to another setupâa small beaker bubbling over a hot plate.Â
âlook! this is the reaction in progress. that bubbling? thatâs the methanol reacting with the oil. and over there,â he gestures to a series of tubes and a larger flask, âthatâs where i separate the biodiesel from the glycerol. basically, the good stuff from the leftovers.â
you narrow your eyes at the apparatus. âthis still sounds like youâre making moonshine.â
jungkook snorts, shaking his head. âiâm not making moonshine.â
âsure,â you mutter, your lips curving into a teasing smile. âthatâs what someone making moonshine would say.â
he rolls his eyes, but the faint smile pulling at his lips betrays him.Â
âyouâre really annoying today.â
âyou like me, though,â you shoot back, leaning against the table with newfound confidence.
jungkook pauses, his gaze lingering on you for just a moment too long. his lips part, and you catch a flicker of something in his expressionâsomething softer, almost vulnerable.
âyeah,â he says quietly, almost under his breath, before turning back to his work. âi guess i do.â
as you lean over a neighboring table to inspect a beaker filled with an ominous-looking solution, your elbow bumps against it, sending it teetering dangerously close to the edge. the moment stretches out, everything moving in slow motion.
his words catch you off guard.
what did he just say?
holyâ
âshit!â you yelp, reaching out instinctively to steady it. but before you can, the beaker tips over completely, the sulfuric acid inside spilling onto the floorâand dangerously close to your feet.
jungkook moves faster than you expect, his hand darting out to grab your arm as he yanks you backward with enough force to make you stumble into his chest. the acid splashes onto his hand as it hits the ground, and the sharp crack of shattering glass fills the room.
he flinches, a quiet hiss slipping through his teeth as he pulls his hand back.
âoh my god, jungkook!â you gasp, panic knotting your stomach. his hand lingers briefly on your arm before he steps away, already moving toward the nearest sink.
âstay there,â he orders, his voice clipped but steady, as he flips on the cold water and thrusts his hand under the stream.
your eyes are locked on his injured hand, where faint discoloration is already starting to show.
âare you okay? does it hurt?â you ask, your voice shaky.
âitâs fine,â he says tightly, jaw clenched as the water rushes over his skin. âare you okay? nothing got on you, right?â
you take a step closer, your gaze flicking between his face and his hand. he looks calmâtoo calmâbut the way his lips press into a thin line tells you otherwise.
âno. nothing got on me⌠jungkook,â you say softly, guilt and worry twisting in your chest. âiâm so sorry. i didnât mean toââ
âdonât,â he cuts you off, shaking his head as he grabs a paper towel to dry his hand. his voice isnât harsh, but thereâs an edge to it, like heâs holding something back. âthis is why i donât give tours.â
you wince, the weight of his words making you shrink slightly. âiâiâll make it up to you,â you blurt, your voice desperate to fix this. âwhatever you want.â
he glances at you then, finally letting out a soft, exasperated laugh. his expression softens, the corners of his lips twitching into a faint smirk.Â
âyouâre giving me that much power?â
âjungkook,â you warn, narrowing your eyes, but your voice wavers. youâre still too focused on his hand, your own tightening into fists at your sides. âthis is serious. do you want to go to nurse or hospital or somethingââ
ârelax baby,â he says, his tone lighter now as he flexes his fingers experimentally. âitâs not that bad. really. it was just sulfuric acid.â
âacidââ
âstop,â jungkook sighs. âseriously. itâs okay.â
âyou shouldnât have done that though,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper.Â
he shakes his head, smiling faintlyâhalf amused, half surprised by your concern.Â
âwhat, and let you burn yourself instead?â
a beat.
"i'm dating a klutz," he chuckles, the words slipping out so naturally it takes you both a second to realize what heâs just said. his eyes widen slightly, but instead of backpedaling, "guess i should get used to you fucking my shit up, right?"
your chest tightens.
dating?
jungkook clears his throat.Â
âdon't over think it," jungkook grumbles.
"jungkookâ"
he doesnât let you finish, his jaw tightening.
â___, what are you doing here if you donât think weâre dating?â
âwhat does that even mean?â you fire back, crossing your arms defensively. âyou canât just say shit like that and expect me not to overthink it.â
âthen maybe donât think so much,â he mutters under his breath. "you're good at that anyway."
âdonât think?!â you huff incredulously, stepping closer. âjungkook, youâre impossible.â
he glares at you, setting down the equipment with a loud clink. âand youâre confusing. ___, youâre acting likeââ
âacting like what?â
âlike you donât want this.â
the tension doesnât ease as you both leave the lab.Â
he grabs his bag, muttering something about not wanting to talk here, and before you can argue, heâs already halfway down the corridor. you jog to keep up with his long strides, half-annoyed, half-confused, as he leads you across campus.
the walk is silent, save for the occasional rustle of leaves or the faint chatter of students in the distance. his jaw is tight, his shoulders stiff, and you can tell heâs barely holding himself together.
âjungkook...â you try, your voice softer this time, but he doesnât respond, doesnât even glance back.
by the time you reach his place, your confusion has morphed into frustration.Â
he unlocks the door without a word, stepping inside and leaving it open for you to follow.
you hesitate for a moment, then step in, the familiar scent of his space wrapping around you. before you can say anything, he drops his bag on the floor and turns to you, his expression unreadable.
âsit,â he orders, pointing to his bed.
your brows knit together.
âiâm not a dog,â you snap, but the weight in his tone makes you obey anyway. you sit at the edge of his bed, crossing your arms and glaring up at him.
he exhales sharply, running a hand through his already messy hair. his pacing starts then, a restless back-and-forth motion across the small room. the air feels heavy, thick with unspoken words and the lingering tension from earlier.
âokay,â he starts, his voice low and strained. âletâs just⌠get this out in the open.â
you raise a brow, waiting for him to elaborate, but he doesnât. instead, he keeps pacing, his hand dragging down his face as if heâs trying to physically pull the words out of himself.
âget what out in the open?â you prod, your frustration bubbling to the surface. âjungkook, whatâs your deal? one second youâre fine, and the nextââ
âfine?â he cuts you off, his tone sharper now. he stops pacing to face you, his hands planted on his hips. âyou think iâm fine?â
you blink, taken aback.
âwell, no, obviously not. but youâre also not making any senseââ
âyou want to talk about making sense?â he scoffs, a bitter laugh escaping him. âyouâre the one whoâs impossible, you know that? one minute youâre here, acting like weâreâlike this is something, and the next youâreâŚâ
âthe next iâm what?â you challenge, standing now. âgo ahead, say it.â
jungkook looks at your sternly. then, he gives you his heart.
âi canât keep doing this, ___. i need to knowâare you in or are you out? because i get the whole wanting to make me miserable part. i get it. iâve been awful to you. iâve put words in your mouth and iâve said shit that i canât take back⌠but iâm trying. it feels like you arenât.â
the weight of his words crashes over you, leaving you rooted in place. you want to respond, to say something, but the lump in your throat wonât budge.
he steps closer, his eyes searching yours.
âjust⌠tell me what you want. because if you donât want me, i need to know now.â
the silence stretches between you, thick and suffocating. you feel his gaze burning into you, his desperation palpable.
âi donât know how to have you,â you say, your voice breaking slightly.
his shoulders drop, and for the first time since this started, he looks less angry and more⌠hurt.
âwhat do you mean?â he asks, his tone gentler now.
âi donât know,â you breathe. âiâve never⌠gone this far. guys give up after the chase⌠youâre⌠youâre still here. what happens now? sex?â
he shrugs. "is that all you want?"
"no."
"then no."
silence.
â___, i'm here. i've come this far and i want to go further. sex or notâwhatever,â he says, taking another step closer, his hand reaching out to lightly brush against your arm. âis that what scares you?â
you nod.
âam i⌠am i supposed to justââ your chest tightens, and the room feels too small, too charged. his words hang in the air, and you know thereâs no going back after this. âi donât knowââ
âwhy are you here, ___?â
âyou asked me that already.â you retort.
âyeah, and you didnât answer,â he shoots back.
you sigh, exasperated. âiâm here becauseâi donât know⌠youâre my friend, okay? or whatever.â
his laugh is sharp and humorless. âfriend. right.â
âwhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âit means i donât want to be your friend,â he says plainly, his eyes burning into yours. âi havenât wanted that for a while now.â
your breath catches. âjungkookââ
he steps closer, and for a moment, you think he might kiss you. but he stops just short, his voice low and rough.Â
âi want you to stop pretending like thereâs nothing here. i want you to stop running every time i get close.â
you open your mouth to argue, but the words catch in your throat.
âagain, if you donât want thisâmeâthen tell me,â he continues, his voice softening. âbut donât keep showing up, acting like i donât drive you as crazy as you drive me. donât⌠please, donât make me feel stupid.â
the room feels too small, the air too thick.
jungkookâs hand lingers on your arm, his touch grounding even as your heart races wildly. his dark eyes search yours, flickering with emotions you canât fully decipherâhurt, hope, frustration.
âyou donât have to know everything right now,â he says softly, his voice carrying a steadiness that contrasts with the storm raging between you. âiâm not asking for perfect, ___. iâm not even asking for easy. i justâŚâ he exhales shakily, the vulnerability in his tone cutting through your defenses. âi just need to know youâre willing to try.â
your throat tightens, his words hitting you in a place youâve tried so hard to ignore. the thought of tryingâof letting yourself fall completely, with no safety netâterrifies you. but the thought of him walking away? itâs unbearable.
âi want you,â you whisper, the fear laced in your voice so raw it feels like youâve just exposed every guarded corner of yourself. âi want you, jungkook.â
his fingers trail down your arm, stopping just above your wrist.Â
âsay it again,â he says, his tone almost exasperated, but not unkind. âplease?â
you bite your lip, the weight of his words pressing down on you. everything about this moment feels pivotal, like a single word could either shatter or rebuild everything between you.
âi want you, jungkook,â you admit, your voice trembling but resolute. âi⌠i want us.â
his expression softens, relief washing over his features like a tidal wave.
âgood,â he murmurs, stepping closer, so close that his scentâclean, familiar, entirely jungkookâinvades your senses. then, his hands come up, gently cradling your face as he tilts your chin up to meet his gaze.
âi⌠i want us too. i think itâs all i ever really wanted. to be yoursâŚâ
his thumbs stroke your cheeks, and before you can overthink it, he leans in, pressing his forehead against yours. the tension in the room shifts, softening but no less charged.
âdoes this mean i get to take hello kitty home today?â you whisper, your voice barely audible.Â
âis that all you really care about?â he says, a small, lopsided smile tugging at his lips.Â
âi care about other things.â
âlike what?â
âlike you.â
and then he kisses you.
you and jungkook have been dating for 6 months when you suddenly say; "happy 6 months, baby! wanna have sex?"
jungkook practically jolts out of his bed and takes the plushie. he places it on his desk and turns hello kitty over to face the wall. (no, you haven't taken it home. for some reason, it suits being in jungkook's room more than yours).
you laugh as he turns back to you and says;
"good timing, ___. i'm ovulating."
jungkook can't breathe.
⌠and you? you never expected it to feel this way.Â
the thrill of it⌠the intensityâthe intimacy.Â
as jungkook towers over you, he pulls his shirt over his head. the minute his chest is bare, your hands find your way to roam around his body. his abs, his biceps, and down hisâ
âwait,â jungkook pleads, eyes hungrily looking into yours. âwanna take this slow with you. wanna do it right for you.â
you nod slowly, understanding what he means.Â
the truth is; your virginity is your virginity.
there isnât much to it aside from that the fact that itâs not taken. you were never wronged but you were also never pursued right⌠sure, itâs special⌠but it isnât everything.Â
jungkook treats it like it is though.Â
you donât mind.Â
for the past 6 months, he's been really careful with how he acts around you sexually. sure, a few pussy eating moments and heated make outs have been happening... but not the full thing. actually, you've never really seen jungkook's dick yet.
he refuses to let you give him a blowjob.
said something about how easy it is for him to cum at the thought of youâhe isn't ready to embarrass himself in front of you just yet.
but today, at your 6 month mark, it's different.
jungkook can't hold it in anymore and you showed up extra pretty. you planned this, didn't you?
(yes.)
gently, he helps you undress.
he takes your shirt off for you and takes a deep breath when you arch your back for him to unclasp your bra. nervously, he does so. then, he tosses your bra aside and takes in the view.Â
the prettiest fucking tits heâs ever seen.Â
jungkook reaches, cupping and squeezing your boobs. you watch him as he does so, unsure of what to do.Â
he then lowers himself, placing kisses over your tits and down your stomach. positioning himself more comfortably, he finds himself in between your legs. lifting them up, he takes your pants off⌠then, his eyes flicker from you to your panties.Â
his fingers play with the hem of your panties. then, he scrunches them together, tugging them up so your folds are exposed.Â
âfuck,â jungkook groans. âso prettyâŚâ
âyeah?âÂ
âyeah,â he breathes, watching your pussy begin to swell. âthink your kitty can be good for me? think you can be patient? thatâs it⌠good kitty.â
you tilt your chin down to look at him.Â
heâs licking his lips, lowering himself down to your pussy.Â
âbe a good kitty, okay?â he says, as he begins to massage your pussy with his hands. your panties are still on so the friction of the fabric make you a little annoyed.Â
arenât you having sex soon?
shoudnât this shit be off be now?
âjungkookââ
âi know, baby,â jungkook pouts at you. âi know itâs hard to wait⌠look at your pussy⌠so wet and your panties arenât even off.â
âi get more wet than this?â
âif i play my cards right, yeah.â
you whimper. âplease, jungkook⌠just.. take them off.â
âyou want me to?â
âyes,â you huff. âwant you to take my panties off.â
he nods slowly⌠as if heâs thinking about somethingâconsidering something.
then, he decides to give in.Â
jungkook tugs your panties down entirely, leaving your pussy out in the open. he throws his head back in admiration. itâs like heâs been hit by cupid or something.
without warning, he buries his face inside.Â
jungkook begins with a couple licks and spreading your folds a part. his tongue brushes against your clitâup, down, side to sideâeverywhere. god, you feel him everywhere. after a few licking and sucking moments, he pulls away and rubs his thumb against your clit. he spits on your pussyâletting his saliva drool down slowly.Â
you watch.Â
âyou like that, baby? you like when i spit in your pussy?â
tongue-tied, you nod obediently.Â
he grins before giving in again.Â
jungkook eats you up, devouring every inch of your pussy. before you know it, heâs shoving a finger inside you as he sucks on your clit. you almost yelp at the sensationâa feeling completely new to you.Â
âohhh⌠yeah⌠f-feels so good, jungkookâŚâ you moan, throwing your head back.Â
honestly, the added finger burns.Â
but heâs gentle with it. he moves his finger inside you with lots of intentions. he gradually shoves it in deeper and deeper too.. it just⌠it feels good.Â
so good.Â
you throw your head back and grab a fist full of his hair.Â
âuh, uhhhh⌠mhmfffphââ you moan. âohhhâŚ. f-fuckâŚâ
jungkook looks up and watches the way your lips twitch. how your body reacts to him eating you out⌠and it all just boosts his ego.Â
heâs so glad to be here.Â
jungkook then pulls away, taking his tongue out of the equation. he focuses on fingering you, making sure youâre enjoying the way it feels. you two catch each others gaze and continue to look into each others eyes.Â
as jungkook picks up the pace fingering you, you bite your lip and love the way his eyebrows furrow in concentration.Â
âf-fuck,â you utter. âiâm gonnaâo-ohhh!â
you cum on his fingers.Â
jungkook pulls them out, taking your cum and spreading it around your folds. he massages it in like lube before taking his fingers to his mouth.Â
he tastes you.Â
then, before you can catch your breath, jungkook leans down and kisses you.Â
he kisses you deeply.Â
when he pulls away, you ask; âc-can weâŚâ
jungkook chuckles.Â
âsoon,â he assures you, tucking your hair behind your ear. he presses his lips against your cheek.Â
then, his lips find yours with a hesitance that feels almost reverent, like heâs afraid to ruin something sacred. and then, slowly, he deepens the kissâtentative at first, but with a growing confidence that feels utterly jungkook.
itâs the kind of kiss that feels like discovery. like heâs studying every angle, every curve, every reaction, cataloging them in his mind like a scholar with his favorite subject. his hands hold you as if youâre delicate but unshakable all at once, his thumbs brushing tenderly against your jawline.
when he tilts his head, changing the angle, itâs with a deliberate slowness, as though heâs savoring the moment, pulling apart the layers of this kiss to commit it to memory. you can feel the way his lips curve faintly against yours, like heâs smiling, like heâs finding joy in every second of this new experiment.
and you realizeâheâs not just kissing you.Â
heâs learning you.
nerd.
you gasp when he pulls you closer, your arms instinctively wrapping around his body. his lips part slightly, and the way he kisses you now feels like a question, like heâs asking for something without saying a word.
heâs meticulous, like he wants to explore every inch of you through this kiss, leaving no detail untouched. the way he holds you is tender but firm, grounding you while setting your pulse on fire.
when he finally pulls back, his breathing is uneven, his forehead pressing lightly against yours. his eyes flutter open, and theyâre soft, full of something you canât quite name but feel all the same.
âi want you forever,â he murmurs, his voice low and thick with awe, as though heâs just unraveled the worldâs most beautiful equation.Â
you giggle at him. âgreat. can we start now?â
âway to kill the moodââ
âplease, for the love of god!â you squirm. âfuck me already.â
jungkook canât help but laugh.Â
but he gives in.Â
jungkook shifts out of his pants, revealing his hard cock.Â
you stare at it.
it's pretty.
it's thick all around and his tip looks like it's angry. you like the way it looks though... looks delicious. his cock has you completely mesmerized. you almost want to crawl to it but he saves you the journey as he brings it close to you.Â
truth be told, jungkook's a little nervous.. he doesn't want to fuck this up.
âyou knowâŚâ he begins, as he jerks himself off in front of you. âi want to be mean. like, really fucking mean. i want to make you beg. i want to make you choke on my fucking cock and have you scream my name butâfuck, ___⌠i look at you and i canâtâŚ. i canât even do all i want with our fucking foreplay because i fold so easily when it comes to you. you want me to fuck you? fine. iâll fuck you.â
âbe mean,â you whimper. âcome on. donât be a pussy. just because this is my first timeâf-fuck! holy shit, jungkookââ
jungkook has slowly puts his cock inside you.Â
you gasp for air.Â
he caresses your face as you adjust to him being inside you. then, he drags his tongue around your neck. he sucks on it a bit, causing you to grip the sheets.
âo-oh my⌠j-jungkookâŚâ
âyou okay, baby?â he asks, slightly moving himself in deeper.Â
you take a deep breath and exhale from your mouth. âf-fuckâŚâ
heâs so big.Â
you can feel every curve of his dick and vein. when his tip entered, it felt funny. like, uncomfortable but also really fucking good. as he begins to thrust in and out, you breathe through the sharpness of his movement.Â
âhurtsâŚâ you confess.Â
jungkook shifts, and kisses your neck. against your skin, he murmurs; âiâm sorry, baby⌠do you want me toââ
âno,â you tell him, as you open your legs wider. you wrap yourself around him and hold on tight. âthink⌠think iâm okay. can you move more?â
jungkook nods and kisses you once more.Â
he begins to fuck you.
slowly but surely⌠he begins to drill himself into you.Â
missionary isnât his favourite but having you this way⌠especially for your first time? god, did he love this. as you dig your nails into his back, you whimper every time he thrusts back inside you.Â
âf-fuck,â you moan. âjungkook⌠itâsâŚâ
âwhat?â he almost panics. âa-are you okay?â
âyeah,â you breathe. âit feels good now⌠can you⌠go harder?â
jungkook hisses, feeling like he could lose his mind.Â
âcan we switch position?â he pitches.
you agree.
jungkook then pulls out of you, and you suddenly feel the emptiness. he goes on his knees and takes you by your waist, guiding you to turn over and go on all fours.Â
doggy.Â
jungkook helps you position yourself before angling himself. he licks his hand and spreads your entrance. he then guides his dick inside you. as he begins to thrust, you suddenly feel him reach around and start to rub your clitâŚ
and oh my god.Â
does it feel heavenly.Â
âoh,â you hum. âfeels so good.â
jungkook leans over, and kisses your shoulder. as he pulls away, he takes his other hand and grabs a fistfull of your hair. he pulls your hair back and you moan at the tightness.Â
âyou like that, my little bitch?â he grunts as he fucks you.Â
he feels your pussy clench. then, he smriks.Â
âoh? you like being called a little bitch, huh?â jungkook then takes his hand off your clit and uses it to slap your ass. "my fucking cockslut. always so fucking horny but you're just a little dirty minded virgin, right? not anymore, okay? i'm taking it. taking all your sticky fucking cum. you're all mine, baby. you know that, right? you're mine, bitch."
smack.Â
your pussy tightens around his cock again.Â
smack.Â
you moan his name.Â
âjungkookâŚâ
he inshales shaprly and moves both hands and grabs your waist. he pulls you into him with each trust, adding more intensity.Â
jungkook fucks you harder and harder and you canât help but love the way it feels. you moan his name, whimpering pleads like; âplease⌠please, fuck me harder.â you canât help it⌠itâs the way that his hard cock feels inside you that make you say shit like that. itâs the way that his hands roam around your body and you feel him everywhere⌠because he is everywhere.Â
his mind goes dizzy.Â
he goes blank actually.Â
then, when you reach back and wrap your arms around the back of your thighsâjungkook feels like he might lose it.Â
how do you know how to move like that?
god, youâre so hot.Â
âmhmm. thatâs itâŚ. fucking me so good, nerd.â
then, jungkook loses it.Â
like⌠really.Â
he fucks you harder and harder until youâre whimpering his name and almost near tears. he doesnât realize how hard heâs fucking you until youâre near climaxâ
âiâm cumming!â you cry. âbaby, iâm gonnaâahh, a-ahhh! fuck..â
it happens so fast.Â
suddenly, you cum and you lose your balance.Â
jungkook helps you lay down properly. he gets on top, continuing to fuck you in missionary. he fucks you through your orgasm. as you catch your breath, you feel him hiss against your skin.Â
âfuck.â
just then, jungkook pulls out.Â
as he jerks himself off, you tug on his hand and pout at him. he tilts his head, a little confused but quickly catches on.Â
âcum right on me?â
(i mean, camaraderie)
a few seconds later, jungkook straddles your face.Â
he places his dick inside you mouth and you focus on licking the tip of his dick. you do it softly, not adding much pressure. it sends shivers down his spine⌠then, you use the topside of oyur tongue to add more stimulation. you dig your face deep, licking his balls a little.Â
he moans.Â
you suck him offâslow but so fucking intense.Â
jungkook canât take it.
he places one hand on the back of your head and helps control how deep you take him.Â
his dick reaches the back of your throat and itâs fucking toe-curling for jungkook. you take him in so good. as you suck him off, he canât help but not last long.Â
âahhâaahhhh.. f-fuckââ jungkook moans deeply. ânghhh.... fuck, ___! holy fucking shit...â
jungkook pulls out seconds later and cums all over your face.
as his cum drips down your face, you catch it with your finger and look at it.Â
âohh,â you pant. âthatâs what cum looks likeâŚâ
jungkook rolls his eyes at you before dipping his head low and kissing you. you two laugh as you pull away, completely in disbelief of everything that had just happened.
1 month later...
âyouâre such a bad boyfriend,â you say, crossing your arms dramatically as you sit on the couch, watching jungkook fiddle with the back of your laptop.
he pauses, turning his head slowly to look at you over his shoulder. his glasses are sliding down his nose, his hair is a bit messy from pushing it back so many times, and he looks entirely unimpressed.
âbad boyfriend?â he repeats, sounding genuinely offended. âyou asked me to fix your laptop. i'm a chem major, not tech.â
âsmart boyfriends are supposed to be well rounded."
he glares at you. "again. you asked me to fix your laptop. i'm doing my best, baby."
"yeah, but like... i asked you over an hour ago,â you tease, leaning back and pretending to sigh. âyouâve been ignoring me ever since.â
âignoring you?â he scoffs, turning back to the tangled mess of wires. âiâm literally upgrading your RAM so you can stop complaining about how slow it is. if anything, iâm the best boyfriend.â
you hum thoughtfully, pretending to consider it. âdebatable. the best boyfriend wouldnât make me sit here in silence while he nerds out over motherboards or whatever.â
âokay, first of all,â he says, setting the screwdriver down and turning to you fully now, âitâs not âwhatever.â this is your motherboardâs lifeline. without it, you donât get to binge your little dramas.â
âso youâre saying youâre not doing this for meâyouâre doing it for the laptop?â
âiâm doing it so you donât keep stealing my ipad to âwatch just one more episodeâ and kill my battery in two hours,â he fires back, but thereâs a little smirk tugging at the corner of his lips now.
you tilt your head, grinning. âi think you just proved my point.â
âfine,â he says, pulling his glasses off and tossing them onto the table. âwhat do i have to do to reclaim my best boyfriend title, huh? flowers? chocolates? fixing this annoying laptop isnât enough?â
âhmm,â you pretend to think. âiâd say⌠maybe you stop being a nerd for five minutes and come cuddle me instead.â
he rolls his eyes but moves toward you anyway, tugging you into his lap without hesitation.
âthere,â he says, wrapping his arms around you as you snuggle into his chest. âam i forgiven, or do i need to sit in front of a claw machine and lose $200 again?â
âhmm,â you hum, grinning as you tap your chin. âhello kitty does look a little lonely. but maybe she deserves a friend when you really screw up.â
âyouâre planning for that?â he asks, incredulous.
ânot planning,â you tease, shrugging. âjust preparing. iâve already picked cinnamon roll for when you really drop the ball.â
he stares at you for a long moment, narrowing his eyes. âyou know, this feels like extortion. i bet you mess with me on purpose just to stock up on plushies.â
âmaybe,â you say sweetly, poking his cheek. âbut you canât prove it.â
he sighs, leaning his head back against the couch dramatically.
âgreat. iâm dating a scam artist.â
âyouâre dating a genius,â you correct, grinning.
âgenius or not,â he counters, tightening his hold on you, âyouâre stuck with me.â
you tilt your head up to look at him, biting back a laugh at the slight pout on his lips.
âwow, jungkook, thatâs so nerdy of you.â
he groans, letting his head fall against your shoulder.
âiâm never fixing your laptop again. let me know when you need help naming all the isomers of butanolâ"
"baby, did you hear that?"
"hear what?"
"you put the dolphins to sleep. good job! yay, your marine conservation bullshit finally came in handyâ"
"wanna break up?"
"meanie."
"you're mean."
"sure, let's break up," you tell him. "how about never?"
"never?" jungkook asks, tucking your hair behind your ears. "sounds good."
you glance at him, a playful smirk tugging at your lips.
"it's you, me, and the fucking dolphins forever, nerd."
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NEIGHBOR BLUNDER, pt. 6 â JJK (m.)

in hindsight, you should have seen it coming. had always known your luck â or lack of it, thereof â and the universe's meticulous plan of your downfall made it easy for you to get tangled up in a series of unfortunate events, which presents itself as the neighbor that lives across from you, jeon jungkook.
PAIRING jungkook x (fem) reader
GENRE r18+ (fluff, angst, smut) MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!
CHAPTER WORD COUNT 14.6k
CHAPTER WARNINGS/MISC neighbor!jk, bsf!jimin, accountant!oc, software engineer!jk, jk and jimin are chaebols lol, minjoon boyfriends <<<<3, as usual, super dreamy jk đ arguments,, lowkey,, emotional constipation like always, kinda angsty if u squint. Also jungkook kinda abuses the fuck out of 23278648 pet names available in the world even eye laughed... SPOILER AHEAD DONT READ IF U DONT WANNA KNOW [ explicit sexual content: mature language, very indulgent bl*wjob scene lmfao, a teeny tiny bit of c*mplay, fing*ring, c*nniling*s, penetr*tive s*x (p in v), c*wgirl s*x, protected s*x, multiple org*sms, jungkook has a filthy mouth đŤ¤đđ ]
NOTES i dont have anything to say except enjoyyy!! let me know your thoughts in my inbox gimme ur theories gimme ur keeb smashes gimme ur 2746th "i want nb jk so bad" đ¤âđźđđ
[ SERIES MASTERLIST ] // [ MAIN MASTERLIST ]

You like to think of yourself as a reasonable person. You make okay decisions, even though it takes you a few weeks and a thousand debriefs. You canât buy something off the rack without going through 10-year-old posts on Reddit, and you certainly are very keen with people you let into your life â given your two to three friends.Â
The point is, while you may be a bit of a klutz, you take your adult life kind of seriously, and especially your relationships.
You were so sure that what happened back at the motel with Jungkook when you were stranded was going to be this whole⌠one-time-thing. That you both were just horny, stuck in a weird situation, just heat-of-the-moment lapse in judgment, and afterwards he would tell you to forget about it. And if he did, youâd accept it. It might crush you a little bit inside, but you know youâll be fine to keep going on with your life even though that might have been the best orgasm youâve had since forever and youâd like to experience it again.
What surprised you the most wasnât that it happened. It was how you felt the next morning.Â
There was no regret.Â
When you opened your eyes â bleary and barely awake because of the little hours you got in â Jungkook wasnât in bed. He was coming back through the door with a bag of pastries and coffee from what you assumed was the local bakery. He told you everything was handled, his car and your stuff, and you could take your time getting ready. Youâd head back once you were set.
You fell asleep again on the ride home. Jungkook walked you to your apartment and bid you a kind smile when you said goodbye.Â
And nothing happened after. No awkward texts. No slow fade. And you were just so ready for the worst thing to happen. Like him suddenly going MIA on you or somethingâŚÂ
But now itâs the day after, and youâre together again in his car after he texted you to ride with him on the way home after work â cramped up in the driverâs seat with you on his lap.
Frantically making out.Â
âOh,â you let out a soft moan, carding your fingers through Jungkookâs hair, not even caring about how youâre messing up his hairdo.
A needy, impatient sort of heat builds between you two. His mouth is on yours, hands exploring like he couldnât decide where to start. Another moan slips out from you he cups the swell of your ass through your trousers, and a rush of frustration bubbles up in your chest. Â
God, why didnât you wear a skirt?
âYou smell good,â Jungkook murmurs into your neck, kissing a slow trail up to your jaw before groaning as you rock against him, grinding against the growing bulge pressing up through his slacks.Â
âY-yeah?â you mumble, tugging at his tie and popping open the first three buttons of his shirt. Your fingers graze his chest, warm and solid and stupidly inviting.Â
âThis is the scent you wore back at the party.â He untucks your blouse from your waistband, his warm hands sending shivers down your spine when they travel across the span of your back.
Yeah. And also the scent you exclusively use for special, big occasions. Because in the true broke girl tradition, thereâs always that unreasonably priced perfume you keep in your vanity while you spritz the hell out of the cheap one. Youâve only used it a total of ten times ever since you bought it a month ago, the eleventh time being now⌠which is just a regular day in the office.
But being in Jungkookâs lap and making out with him in his car is not regular day in the office. So maybe you lucked out on spraying that expensive perfume â totally because it was just there on your vanity, by the way â and not because you were expecting something to happen today.
Totally.
âUh, yeah,â you shift on his lap. âIt was on sale.âÂ
Which is probably information he did not need and a total bald-faced lie.Â
He hums, kisses dropping down to your sternum, hands getting heavier under your clothes. You take his face in your hands again to press your mouth on him, your moan getting swallowed by his eager reciprocity, both in the movement of his tongue inside your mouth and his erection thatâs making you wet your panties as you rock your hips against him.Â
Jungkookâs fingers trace the cups of your bra. âCan I?â He asks, mouth agape. You donât even know what he meant, you just nod. A second later and heâs squeezing your breasts in his palms.
âS-so you wanted to drive me home for this?â you arch your brow at him playfully, grinding against his lap and relishing in the warmth of his hands on your chest. God, you wish heâd do something about your bra soon.Â
Jungkook chuckles, nipping your jaw. âNo. I wanted to ask you to come over to my place to have dinner.â
As if that triggered your intestines, your stomach suddenly growls â quite loudly in the confined space of his car and around the quiet parking lot of the building.Â
Jungkook freezes, staring at you.Â
You shut your eyes close in embarrassment, groaning. âUgh, sorry. I havenât eaten at all today and you mentioning dinner is making me remember that.âÂ
âOhâŚâ
Jungkook reluctantly watches you as you carefully leave his lap, completely halting your previous activity. He grips your hand as he helps you transfer to the passengerâs seat, looking at you as you put your hair up and tuck your shirt.
He adjusts uncomfortably in his seat, clearing his throat. You canât help but eye the very obvious outline of his dick in his pants, and itâs very huge, alright, making you grin.Â
âI hope thatâs not gonna be a problem.âÂ
Jungkook takes in the mischief in your eyes and scoffs playfully, shaking his head as he starts the ignition to drive.Â

You spend about thirty minutes in the shower â which is definitely not at all your usual routine â but it did the job. You smell like raspberries now, and the outfit you pulled on afterwards looks casual enough for Jungkook not to suspect whatâs going on underneath. Just an oversized shirt and pajama pants. Innocent. Normal.Â
But you have on a lacy pair of white thong⌠just in case something does happen tonight. At least youâre the least bit preparedâŚÂ
When you look at your phone, itâs already 10:15pm, and Jungkook told you to be over at his place at 10:20. You check yourself in the mirror one last time and head straight to the kitchen where you grab the plastic container of a batch of choco-chip cookies you baked the second he dropped you off earlier.
Youâve perfected the recipe now, youâre sure of it.Â
But just as you make a beeline for your door, a sudden warmth gushes between your thighs.
An all too familiar feeling by now.Â
Oh no.
You dash to the bathroom, tug your pajama pants down, slide off your panties and â yep. There it is. A bright red stain against the flimsy white fabric that went right through the pants.
âGoddamn it,â you mutter, frowning. Of all the nights to get your period, of course it had to be this one.
You had showered. Prepped. Put on the g-string. And you were this close to maybe â possibly â having sex with Jungkook. You hadnât said anything about it, not outright, but come on. That impulsive make-out session in the car earlier? The way he kept adjusting himself? The tension practically humming between you?
Yeah, something was definitely going to happen.
Well, probably not anymore.
Grumbling, you toss your pants into the laundry and rummage through your cabinet for a pad. You move like youâre trudging through emotional mud, begrudgingly pulling on a clean pair of a less sexier granny panties and fresh bottoms.
So much for that.
Itâs not like you had any of this figured out anyway. No âso, what happenedâ talk, no conversations about the night at the motel or whatever is⌠happening now. And now your uterus has decided to sabotage you. Amazing.Â
Still, cookies in hand and spirits only mildly deflated, you head out of your apartment and make your way to Jungkookâs porch.Â
He opens the door on the second buzz, greeting you with a grin that makes your stomach flip. Even more so when you realize heâs wearing sweatpants. Grey sweatpants. Ugh. This man.
âHi.âÂ
âHey, come in,â Jungkook says, eyeing the plastic in your hand. âWhatâs that?âÂ
âCookies.â you bring it up to your chest. âI made them real quick so itâs not a lot. But I can assure you itâs better now and you definitely wonât get food poison.âÂ
He chuckles, leading the way to his living area. âYou say that as if I got food poisoning the first time.âÂ
âMaybe you did and you just didnât tell me.âÂ
He shakes his head, still smiling. âYou know you didnât have to bring something, right?âÂ
âUh-huh.,â you mutter, following him in, âbut since youâre making dinner, I thought I could take care of dessert.âÂ
The moment the words leave your mouth, your face scrunch up.Â
Jungkook pauses just long enough to glance back at you, amused, before shaking his head again with another soft laugh.Â
What? What did he think you meant by that? GeezâŚÂ

Comfortable silence settles between you, the soft clinking of wine glasses and the distant narration of some random BBC documentary filling the space. You teased Jungkook again about his massive TV â said the faces look so big that itâs just kind of funny â but really, itâs kind of cute the way his ears flush red when he gets shy talking about his stuff.Â
You talk. About work, mostly. Jungkookâs been pulling longer shifts, taking on more than usual. You tell him about your days have been the same lately, just mindless repetition. He compliments the cookies you brought, and after a bit of coaxing, admits the first batch you made for him weeks ago were kind of bad. You laugh and pretend to be offended.
It was nice.Â
Somehow, you talk about everything and nothing. Not once either of you mentioned the motel. Not the kiss in the parking lot. Not even a vague nod to the tension thatâs been following you around like a ghost.Â
And maybe thatâs the problem.
It feels like Jungkookâs waiting for you to jump the gun first. But how the hell are you supposed to do that? How do you casually bring up the fact that he kissed you like he meant it? How exactly are you going to talk about the night you shared a kiss with the man you think youâve liked for so many weeks now? How are you going to talk about how he made you orgasm to sleep because it was the best you've ever had since and it was so much better than the scenarios youâve made up in your head? And god, those scenarios didnât even live up to the very real thing.Â
You want to bring it up. God, you need to. Not because youâre hopeful that this night would lead to something â but because you just need to know if he would want to do that again sometime.
But something in you is scared that Jungkook will suddenly speak up and tell you the night was a mistake and you both should get over it.
But you also know that kiss in the parking lot mustâve meant something. The way you just jumped at each other like you weren't in a public space and Jungkook not minding one bit mustâve meant that he wanted it too.
That maybe, just like you, he canât help but notice the thick tension up in the air as you sit on the couch so close to each other, his familiar scent overwhelming your senses, and the way he looks so cozy in his white shirt and⌠grey sweatpants. Ugh. You swear you werenât going to pay any attention to it as soon as he opened that door, but how could you not when he just looks way too effortlessly good and you know exactly what it's hidingâ
âYou want some more?âÂ
Your thoughts are cut short when Jungkook suddenly speaks, looking at your wine glass.Â
âUhâŚâ you glance at the clock. âNo, I should probably get going. Itâs almost 11. I have work tomorrowâ we have work tomorrow,â you chuckle awkwardly, glancing at the wall clock across the room.Â
Just like that, you go back to your shell again, overwhelmed by your anxiety and fear of rejection.Â
But for a brief second, Jungkook looks disappointed by your response, although heâs quick to wipe that off with a smile.Â
âOkay. Iâll walk you out.â
Okay. Well maybe you didnât really want him to say that at all.Â
Hiding your disappointment this time, you stand up from the seat and let Jungkook talk you into leaving the wine glasses on the coffee table as opposed to bringing it to the kitchen yourself, as Jungkook insisted heâll take care of it once you leave.Â
Jungkookâs hand lingers on your lower back as you stand by his door, ready to say goodbye.Â
âThanks for the dinner.â you say quietly.
âYouâre welcome,â Jungkook smiles. âWe can do this again sometime.âÂ
âSure. Why not?âÂ
âAlright. See you tomorrow, then?âÂ
You halt your steps, lips curling into a half-smile. âThat flatters me.âÂ
Jungkook leans on the doorframe, crossing his arms across his chest. âI was hoping so.âÂ
You bite back a grin, nod, turning to leave. ButâŚ
â__ââ
âJungkookââ
Your head snaps quickly to his direction, and you both stare at each other in surprise. Jungkookâs gaze melts into a soft look.
âYou first.âÂ
âNo, you first.âÂ
â___,â he says with a chuckle, coaxing.Â
You take a deep breath, bracing yourself.Â
Just take the chance, something in your head tells you.Â
And you took the bait.Â
âThis is going to sound incredibly stupid,â you start, voice low and hesitant. âbut what happened back at the motel â Iâm not sure if weâre allowed to talk about that again â but we kind of kissed this afternoon and I⌠I donât know what that meant. I guess what Iâm trying to say is⌠I wanna do it again sometime. If youâre willing,â you voice wavers, trying to look into his eyes but the weight of your words crawl deep in your skin it makes you scared to even make eye contact. âBut if youâre not, then thatâs totally fine. We can forget it happened.âÂ
Silence stretched for a beat too long. Panic starts to rise in your chest â until Jungkook steps forward.
âIf Iâm willing?â He echoes, blinking like heâs not sure he heard you right.Â
You nod, wary. âY-yeahâŚ?âÂ
He steps closer, and your breath catches.Â
âDo you know how much Iâve thought about you since then?â He takes a tentative touch to your hips, and when you donât say a thing or make a move to pry him off, Jungkook takes a hold of you to pull you closer, making you gasp quietly. âEverytime I close my eyes, all I can think about is how Iâve held these hips as I licked you, kissed you, and touched you. Iâve never been one to give in to my wants as easy as the way you made me when we walked back to my car this afternoon because all I wanted to do was to have a taste of you again, even though I wouldâve liked for us to talk first. That means I canât have enough,â Jungkook studies your face as he leans down, gaze so full of want, but thereâs a certain control under his hold. It makes your breath hitch.
âAnd you want to know if Iâm willing?â Jungkook tacks on, lifting his hand to caress your cheek, gaze dropping from your eyes to your lips. You anticipate his next words, but when he presses you closer â thatâs when you feel it. The hard-on heâs sporting under the grey sweatpants youâve been fantasizing about ever since you walked in on his apartment. Â
âOhâŚâ you gasp, reaching for his shoulder as you feel your knees slightly buckling.Â
Then, Jungkook chuckles, amused. But itâs dark and rich, and his boner is still very much pressing to your stomach.Â
In the heat of the moment, you stand on your tippy toes and kiss Jungkook.Â
He seems to be surprised at it first, but his arms slowly make their way around you to hold you as you tighten yours around his neck, letting out a soft moan when his tongue prods in.Â
You stumble inside, Jungkook walking you back inside his apartment all the while not breaking the kiss, and the next thing you know, heâs kicking off the door shut, hands travelling down to your legs to carry you across his apartment.Â
You yelp at the sudden way your feet get lifted off the ground, but Jungkook carries you with a certain grace as if youâre nothing but paperweight â hot tongue swirling around your mouth like kissing you was a lifeline.Â
He lays you down gently on the couch, trailing kisses along your jaw. When you grab at the hem of his shirt, he sits back to quickly rid himself off the material.Â
You bite on your bottom lip as soon as you see whatâs on display. Wide chest, narrow waist, toned abdomen, and sculpted arms with ink. You wouldâve liked to admire it more but Jungkook quickly goes back to kissing you after taking off his shirt, hands roaming all over your body as if he canât quite decide where to put it at all. Then, he kneels in between your spread legs, slowly settling himself down on the floorboards. You watch with half-lidded eyes as his lips leave trail kisses down your neck to your sternum, until his hands slide your top off your stomach, kissing the exposed skin.Â
Your hands settle on his soft locks, where you admire the way he moves down your body, huge hands splayed on your skin, making you ache in between your legs.
Your eyes blow out as you remember exactly whatâs in between your legs.Â
Fuck.Â
Before Jungkook can kiss you there, you grab at his shoulders. âJungkook,âÂ
He looks up quickly, fringe going in different directions, biceps unconsciously flexing at your touch. âHm?âÂ
Even though it pains you, you tell him, âWe canât tonightâŚâÂ
âAh, thatâs alright,â He looks up at you in genuine concern. âYouâre not feeling okay tonight?âÂ
You shake your head. âNo⌠thatâs not it,â You make a face, feeling annoyed all over again. God. Hot sex was on the table. And your period just ruined it. âI got my period. My cycle usually starts at the end of the month.âÂ
Jungkook nods in realization, squeezing your hips in understanding.
âSorry, then. Should I get you something? I think I may have ice cream in the fridge.â He raises a brow, eyes drifting off to his kitchen.Â
You take his cheek, grabbing his jaw gently to make him look at you.Â
âActually⌠I was thinking we donât have to stop.âÂ
His eyes may have lightened up, and Jungkook takes your wrist to press a kiss to the side of your hand.Â
âYeah, I donât really mind as long as youâre comfortable with it. Weâll put on a towelâ okay, I can see on your face thatâs not what you meant.âÂ
âNoâŚ? I was thinking Iâll give you a blowjob instead.âÂ
âAhâŚâ Jungkook nods again. âAre you sure? Donât you have cramps?âÂ
You chuckle. âNot yet. Itâll kick in on the second day,â You nudge him with your foot. âCome on up here.âÂ
âYouâre sure? We donât need to do anything, baby,âÂ
Baby. God. That nickname had always been so generic but thereâs something about the way it rolls off Jungkook's tongue.Â
âIâm sure.âÂ
Jungkook gives you one of his million dollar smiles and kisses his way back up until your lips meet again.Â
âCan I?â You nod when Jungkook tugs at your shirt. With your permission, he slides your top off, hissing at the sight of your bra-cladded chest.Â
He goes down to lick your nipple through the material, and you grab his hair when you feel him give you a slightly harsh nip. He licks it again, as if offering some sort of silent apology.Â
When he pulls the cups down, thatâs when you push him to the side making him fall to the couch, and you take that time to kneel down this time in between his spread legs.Â
âPut this on your knees first.â Jungkook hands you the throw pillow on the couch. You take them and fluff them under your knees, and when you finish doing that, you attend to Jungkookâs very taunting grey sweatpants, tugging it off him. He helps you slide the pants off together with his boxers â and you have to fight the urge to take it slow when his hard cock springs free.Â
Youâve seen it before, have held it â but those moments felt so brief that they almost didnât feel real. So when you see it up-close, so girthy and standing tall against his abdomen with the angry red tip slightly leaking, your breath gets caught up in your throat.Â
âFuck,â Jungkook lets out a low groan when you begin teasing kisses to his thighs.
His gorgeous, thick thighs.
God⌠you wonder how it would tense up with your feet resting on them as you bounce up and down on his huge cock.Â
But you watch the way they clench when your lips get nearer to where he aches; watch as they tense under your touch when you place your hands there. And you watch Jungkook â most especially â as he looks down at you with hooded eyes, dark with want, his chest heaving under the tension.Â
âIs this what you want?â You ask, blinking at him meekly. His mouth opens to speak, but you donât let him say another word as you let a glob of saliva fall down to the crown of his cock. You adjust your position in between his thighs, getting more comfortable but also pushing your ass out as you wrap your hand around the base.Â
Jungkook hisses when you twist your hand, gingerly spreading the wetness of your saliva around him. He lets his back fall to the back of the couch with a light thud, and you smirk when you see his abs clench.Â
âYouâre killing me here, __. Donât tease.âÂ
You give him a non-committal hum. You meant to tease, but touching him like this feels like all your thoughts have suddenly gone to mush, and youâre left with only want â the want to pleasure him, to get him to let out those little huffs and grunts like when you two kissedâŚ
You languidly move your hand around his shaft, humming at the way his tip oozes out more wetness which makes it easier for you to stroke him. You canât help but watch in fascination as he seems to continue to grow around you. So hard and veiny⌠almost needy, the way he breathes heavily above you.
âBaby, fuck⌠youâre so pretty, godââ Jungkookâs words get cut off when you lean down to close your lips around the head, sucking at the softer tip before you take more of his length. âF-fuckâŚâ Jungkook rasps, fingers gathering your hair in a makeshift ponytail when you start bobbing your head up and down.
He feels big. Warm. But you smile to yourself when Jungkook shifts on the couch at the sensation. It felt good to have him squirming like that beneath your touch, to have him keening like this.Â
Gripping the base, you twist your fingers around the remaining length you couldnât put in your mouth, jacking him off. From there, you start picking up your pace until Jungkookâs a panting mess. Youâve never pegged him as the type to be so⌠vocal. But it felt good, and at this point, you just want to see him let go of himself, even as he grips your hair tighter by every second that passes. It didnât hurt enough to be uncomfortable, the force was just right â and it felt like heâs holding on to every muscle of his to not use too much force on your head by the way you can feel his other hand hovering over your hair.Â
âAh, __⌠baby, shit. Yeah, youâre taking my cock so wellâ shitâŚâ
You pump him faster, and every now and then, you would suck at the tip gingerly, kiss the veins around his rock hard dick, roam with your tongue, and test the waters and massage his balls. Soft groans escape past his lips, hips arching off the couch.
âShitâ baby, fuck,âÂ
You hum, pleased with that. Your tongue teases the underside of his cock with every downstroke, just to hear him swear. You lick off the glistening juice off the head, lick around the ridge, and tighten your grip around the base, sinking your mouth up and down faster.
âGod, your mouth isâaghhâ Jesus fuck baby Iâm gonnaââÂ
You slurp noisily around his cock as you try to take him deeper â and at one point you actually feel him hitting the back of your throat but you were careful enough to adjust your angle and continue to suck him up and down. Jungkookâs gasps increase in speed and pitch, and you can feel him trying to get you off him when he tries to pull your face away from his lap.Â
âBaby, you gottaââÂ
But you donât even let him finish that thought when you grip his thigh with your other hand, sucking his head that gets him keening again.
âShit, shit, shit __ Iâm going toâ f-fuuuck,â
Jungkook shoots his hot cum in your mouth, and you didnât really expect it to be so⌠much. The first wave felt heavy, but as his thighs spasm, his dick continues to squirt some more, and you open your mouth to catch them all.Â
âFuck.âÂ
You pull back with a wet pop, opening your eyes to meet Jungkookâs stare. Your fingers are still around his length when you lick around your lips, noting the way his eyes darken at the sight of you in front of him like this â kneeling in between his legs and licking his cum.Â
His chest heaves up and down, and he looks like he was about to say something when you suddenly slack your jaw to present your mouth to him â your mouth thatâs now painted white with his cum. He watches you carefully as you close your eyes and swallow.
âJesus.âÂ
âDidnât know you were religious like that.â you say as soon as everythingâs gone in your mouth, giving him a cheeky smile. Itâs a bit salty, not terrible, though you kind of expected that.
When you look at Jungkook, his mouth opens and closes like fish in water. You beat him to it when you rise, crawling up on his chest to press your lips to his.Â
You realize he might be one of those guys who didn't like it very much when their partners kissed them on the mouth right after giving them a blowjob â but Jungkook only slides his arm around your waist, deepening the kiss, dipping his tongue in your mouth until youâre settled on his lap again.Â
âYouâre a fucking dream.â Jungkook says before kissing you again.Â
You giggle in his mouth, pushing him away slightly. His eyebrows knit in confusion, but he doesn't really look like heâs processing anything.Â
âYou know I realized something about you,â you plant a sweet kiss on the side of his lips. âYou donât cuss at all, but you do it a lot during sex.âÂ
Jungkookâs expression contorts into a frown, as if that was news to him. âDo I?âÂ
You chuckle. âYeah.â
âI didnât know thatââ then as if cutting off his own thoughts, he dives in for a kiss again. He pulls away for a second, caressing your cheek and thumbing your jaw before staring at you. âGod, youâre gorgeous. Pretty girl.âÂ
âThanks.âÂ
âI think my brainâs broken right now. I donât have coherent thoughts.âÂ
That makes you laugh. You pat his chest and notice the way Jungkook reluctantly lets you get off his lap, watching with hooded eyes as you rise to your feet.Â
âWell, Iâll have to get going. Itâsââ you glance at the wall clock. âalmost 12.â
Jungkook takes your wrist, and you have to be very brave to not look at his lap because he still hasnât pulled up his pants yet and his dick is still very much on display. And you werenât really kidding about having to go because you do have an early day tomorrow.Â
âDo you really have to go?âÂ
You pout. âI have to.âÂ
He sighs as if that disappointed him. âOkay⌠let me walk you out.âÂ
Jungkook â finally â pulls his pants up, brushing his fingers through his hair as he rises to his feet. He doesnât bother putting on his shirt, though, and you donât comment on it, figuring heâd stay inside anyway.
But when you see him slipping into his slides to follow you out, you press a hand lightly to his bare abdomen and laugh. âHey, itâs literally, like five steps away. Go back inside.â
He pauses, brows furrowing in slight confusion before glancing down at himself. âLet me just grab my shirt, thenââ
That makes you giggle. âBrain still broken?âÂ
âI think soâŚâ he trails off then looks at you. âHey, come here,â he doesnât wait for you to do so though, just reaches for you to pull you by the waist, pressing you close to him. He leans down and gives you a slow kiss. You could actually feel air being taken away from you when he pulls away, his smile as gentle as the hand that rubs your back. âThank you, and good night. See you tomorrow?âÂ
You nod, feeling your cheeks flush.Â
âOkay. Night. And see you tomorrow.âÂ
With a small wave, you turn toward your apartment, not daring to glance back as you head to the door. But you can feel his gaze on you, watching as you slip inside.Â
It felt like Jungkook wanted you to stay longerâŚ
But the ache in between your thighs was starting to get uncomfortable, and honestly, you really needed to change your pad.Â
Because the wetness there? Yeah, it definitely wasnât just your period.

âSo⌠is my laptop dying orâŚ?âÂ
âFor the third time; no, your laptop is not dying,â Jungkook gives you a playful shake of his head. âItâs just laggy because you watch a lot of porn on it and you turned off your antivirus for some reason.âÂ
You gasp. A dramatic one.Â
You give Jungkook a scandalous look before sitting down on the couch with him, peeking over what heâs doing on your device. Frankly, you donât like it when people touch your things â especially your gadgets â because you had a lot of private stuff in them. But thirty minutes ago, your laptop randomly shut down while you had been doing some excel spreadsheets. In a weird coincidence, Jungkook called you the same time it happened. So you told him about it, and he offered to swing by and take a look. He was a tech guy, after all⌠and anyway, getting it fixed at some shop would have been expensive.Â
âI donât watch porn!â you protest, glaring at him.Â
Jungkook just blinks at you, looking unconvinced. Then he shrugs. âOkay.âÂ
âAnd what do you mean antivirus? I donât even know I have one,â you mumble, placing the bowl of freshly cut watermelon on the coffee table. You fold your legs underneath you and inch closer to see what heâs actually doing. Heâs been at it for a few minutes now, but all you see are lines of text and windows you canât even pretend to understand.
âYes, you do. And you did turn it off,â he says, gesturing at the screen. Itâs full of stuff that might as well be in a foreign language. âThese are malware. See this? Classic spyware script. You probably clicked on one of those fake play buttons with a hot singles ad or something.â
You give him a baleful look. He snorts.
âYouâre not funny. And I watch porn on twitter like a normal personâ okay sometimes maybe I do watch on shady websites but why do you even know that? And why are you interested in my porn.âÂ
âYou watch porn on twitter?â
âMostly, yeah.â
âHm. Interesting,â he nods and turns to the screen again. âWell, I wanna know what you like.âÂ
You almost fall off the sofa. âLike you want me to give you a list of porn accounts?âÂ
Jungkook actually laughs at that. âWhat? No. I mean, I'm interested in the porn you like.âÂ
Oh.
âUhm, I donât particularly like anything,â you say, although maybe you immediately think of those videos where the woman is on the guyâs lap and he fingers her hard in front of the camera â but other than that, not really. You arenât some freakazoid about porn. Most of the time, you were fine getting off with pure imagination. âI donât like BDSM though, I think.âÂ
Jungkook nods, but his eyes are not really on you and instead focused on your laptop as he does things. âHmm.âÂ
Your head snaps in his direction. âWhat do you mean, hmm?âÂ
Jungkook meets your stare. âWhat?âÂ
You study his face, narrowing your eyes. But he just looks at you in confusion, although thereâs a little smile tugging at his lips. You drop it anyway, reaching for the watermelon cuts on the coffee table and start eating them as you watch whatever magic Jungkook is doing on your device.
âAnyway, I pirate a lot of movies so thereâs that.â You thought that would be helpful to share. Those sites do have a lot of those pop-up ads, and youâd really rather endure that than have some big fuckass streaming corporation steal from you every month.Â
âI know, Iâm just teasing about the porn websites,â Jungkook chuckles when you glare at him. âI could share my streaming accounts with you. I think I have everything.âÂ
Your eyes light up almost instantly, but then you manage to catch yourself.Â
âUh, no, you donât really need to do thatâŚâÂ
He hums, goes back to your laptop. You donât think about it too much when you pick up a watermelon and hover it over his mouth. Jungkook doesnât hesitate to eat it off your finger, and you donât expect the way he sucks the juices off, tongue swirling around your digit while looking into your eyes. It feels like the whole moment took a minute, but in reality it was really only a few seconds, and Jungkookâs back to doing his thing on your laptop.Â
Oh.Â
Oh⌠okay. Well.Â
You feel the blood rush to your cheeks as you drop your hand to your side, absentmindedly eating your watermelon bites.
Ugh. When will your period end?! Given, itâs only really day two, and you probably have two or three more days to go but ughâŚÂ
Your thoughts are interrupted when Jungkook suddenly speaks, rising to his feet.Â
âAll done. I installed a better antivirus, and I logged in my streaming accounts so you donât get malware again. Also turned off some useless background programs because you had too many runningâ and I recovered your excel file,â he says, and you give him a grateful smile as you take your laptop and bring it to your chest like itâs your baby. Jungkook chuckles at the sight. âI have to go to the toilet, though. Want to order in and watch something when Iâm back?â
âYeah, sure! Toiletâs over there,â you point to the far right direction of the apartment and watch Jungkook disappear into view to enter the bathroom.Â
Youâre hacking away on your laptop when a phone starts buzzing on the coffee table.Â
Jungkookâs phone.Â
You hesitate. You donât want to knock on the bathroom door just to hand it to him, but you donât feel right ignoring it either.Â
The buzzing stops, and you feel relieved for all of one second when it suddenly starts again.Â
You lean slightly over â not really reaching, just peeking â to see who it is. What if itâs work? What if itâs important? You could tell him about it when he comes backâŚÂ
The screen lights up with a name: Dad.
You gasp. Just a little.
The bathroom door creaks open behind you and you straighten up like you werenât doing anything. Jungkook walks out, toweling his hands on his jeans.
âOh, hey, someone's calling you.âÂ
He gives you a curious look before he crosses the room. You try not to watch too closely as he picks up his phone, but you see it; the way his brows knit together, the way his stance and tone shift when he looks back at you.Â
âI need to take this real quickâ He gestures to the phone. You nod.
He walks far enough that you canât really make out the conversation, but when you take a peek to look at him, he looks so serious. Youâve only ever seen serious Jungkook when he was at work.Â
A few seconds later, he returns â apologetic eyes, hand rubbing the back of his neck.
âHey, I got called into work just now. Iâm sorry we canât have dinner tonight.âÂ
Oh, so you were right! It was a work thing. Still⌠you wonder why his dad was the one calling.
âNo, itâs fine! It must be super important,â you say quickly. âMaybe we can have dinner tomorrow instead?â You say, smiling up at him brightly.Â
Jungkook breaks into a smile. Then, out of nowhere, he steps closer and leans down to press a kiss to your lips.Â
Youâve been doing a lot of that lately. Kissing, that is. Just this morning, he drove you to work and you made out before he even started the engine. Then later. After parking, his hands wandered a little too much before you swatted him off, gently reminding him that your breasts were feeling tender from your period.
âIâll see you tomorrow.âÂ
Then just like that, Jungkook makes his way out of the apartment, and you donât even know that youâve been smiling like crazy until the black screen of your laptop catches your silly expression.Â

You miss Jungkook.Â
Okayâ well. Itâs just been two days, really. Well, more like today is day two. So itâs actually just been a full day. But there were no texts yesterday, and there were certainly no calls either. You havenât seen him come out of his apartment, and you hate that youâre starting to worry.Â
You were debating whether to send him a message or not when suddenly, your doorbell rings. You werenât expecting any visitors, especially not today when it was still so early in the morning and you have to go to work soon! But maybe it was your landlord, complaining about something againâŚ
You groan at that, snatching your bag from the counter, planning to head straight to work after dealing with whoever it is. You slide your shoes on, ready for that condescending landlord tone only to freeze when you open the door.
âJungkook,â you gasp, acting like youâve just seen a ghost. And he seems to think so as well, cocking his head to the side at the unusual greeting. âYouâre here.â you blurt out.Â
âYeah, I went back to my place last night but only for awhile. We launched a system yesterday and something broke in production. QA didnât catch it, so now we had to roll itââ as if he thought he was sparing you with some boring talk, he cuts himself off and smiles at you instead. âI had to work overtime. Iâm sorry I missed dinner last night.â
âEh, donât worry. Itâs not that serious. I know you're extra busy these days. Anyway, are you on the way to work?â Jungkook nods. âWe should go together, then.âÂ
âI was just going to say that.âÂ
You step out of your apartment, and Jungkook waits for you to lock up before you both walk side by side down the stairs. You donât know why but somehow, having seen him today and walking with him to his car where youâre gonna be riding in together to go to work was giving you a sense of contentment that you missed yesterday. Okay, so maybe this was a thing that was starting to grow on you. And maybe being with Jungkook genuinely makes you feel happy â giddy, for the most part. But it felt silly to have missed him when it was only really a dayâŚ
But you didnât really want to dwell on that. It wasnât Jungkookâs obligation to drive you to work everyday, and you certainly arenât entitled to his undivided attention when you know exactly just how hectic his work schedule is. You couldnât ask him to make time for you, even though you would like that.
âOh!â Jungkook startles beside you when you suddenly halt. You look at him, wide-eyed. âJungkook, itâs September first today!âÂ
Jungkook checks his phone, brows furrowed. âYesâŚ?âÂ
You eye him incredulously. âItâs your birthday!âÂ
At first, the words didnât seem to register, but Jungkook slowly nods. âAh yeah, itâs my birthday today.â
âWhy do you sound so unexcited?â You pout.Â
He chuckles, stepping closer to brush away a stray of hair you hadnât even noticed had fallen across your face.
âBaby, itâs just another day.âÂ
You feeze at the word. Itâs the first time he called you that outside of you two⌠fooling around. It slips naturally from his mouth in that situation, but hearing it in this very non-sexual context was kind of throwing you off-balance â because this moment wasnât supposed to feel intimate. Not like that, anyway.
Looking away, you say, âStill. You should do something to celebrate. Oh! I think⌠ohâŚâ your eyes widen at the thought of throwing him a mini-party tonight. Obviously, Jungkook doesn't make a big deal of his birthdays, based on his response. But you thought about baking him a cake. And cookies! He liked the cookies you made last time! And you were practicing cakes these days so maybe itâd be nice to make him a small one. You turn to him with hopeful eyes. âAre you free tonight?âÂ
Jungkook hesitates, but he smiles down at you. âYeah, Iâm free tonight. Why?âÂ
You grin. âYouâll have to come to my place to find out! Oh, itâs gonna be fun. Ugh, I wish we can invite JiminâŚâ  Â

Youâre honestly proud of yourself for not breaking down when the piping tip you bought turns out to be the wrong one. The blue icing on your apron now looks like abstract art, and thereâs enough sugar on your kitchen floor to summon an army of rants.
You just wanted the cake to be perfect. The cookies already were â but the cake, maybe not so much. And it was fine! It tasted fine! But the decorating sucked and at this point you just kind of wish Jungkook would look past the awkward lettering and appreciate the effort behind all these.Â
You didnât have much time. He texted you after work that he couldnât drive you home. He had to stay late, which actually worked out because it gave you the extra time you needed to prepare.Â
Although for the record, this wasnât even a real surprise. You just made baked goods. And you cooked some food. And by cook you scratched off the chicken shopâs label and put it in the microwave to heat it up by the time you finished cleaning up your place since Jungkook was gonna be here by 11pm.Â
Which is why, at 10:40, you rush to the shower.
When youâre done, you step in front of the mirror to check yourself out. Youâve rummaged through your closet and found an old lingerie you donât remember ever putting on. You remember it as one of those âfeel-goodâ purchases awhile ago.Â
Itâs nothing special, really. Just your usual black lace two-piece. The braâs light and sheer, made of floral lace with thin straps that sat neatly on your shoulders. There are little pink bows too on them, which kind of made it cute. It didnât offer much coverage, what with your nipples poking through the fabric â but that seemed to be the point. Meanwhile the panties are just as bold; crotchless, cut daringly open in the center, but softened by the same delicate lace. The set originally had garter straps and thigh-high stockings, but you thought that would be an overkill so you opted out of it.Â
You cover it up with a casual white dress, spritzing on the La Belle perfume Jungkook always seems to like a little too much.Â
There, everythingâs done. Your periodâs gone too, obviously, (day four, thank god) almost as if it knew not to ruin this night for you.Â
When you head out of your bedroom, you pick your phone up from the kitchen counter to dial Jungkookâs phone.Â
He usually answers on the first or second ring, but this time, he doesnât. Wasnât unusual or anything, given how busy he is⌠but you do frown when the ringing ends and thereâs nothing that comes next but his voicemail.
Your frown deepens. You shift from one foot to the other, glancing at the clock. Itâs past eleven now. Fifteen minutes past, to be exact.Â
Jungkookâs not usually late to things.
You sigh, trudging to one of the chairs in the dining area where you prepared the food and cake for him. You also bought wine and lit up a candle.
You stare at your phone for a solid minute before you pick it up again, deciding to send Jungkook a text.Â
You [11:16pm]: hey!! are you running late :>Â
You chose to add the emoticon in the end so the text doesnât feel too mysterious or broody or serious. Really, you arenât mad, maybe a little upset now â but maybe Jungkookâs just in the middle of something⌠what was that again? Someone breaking in production, whatever that meantâŚ
But the clock turns 11:25, and there is still no sign of Jungkook on your phone â and even more so on your door.Â
You [11:25pm]: are you busy? sorry if im bothering you!Â
Then on second thought, you added:
You [11:26pm]: oh no pls dont tell me you forgot.. đ
Maybe he did forget. You hadnât reminded him of it when you talked earlier. Did you have to? He said he was free tonight, so you kind of assumedâŚÂ
You sigh again.Â
The chicken was turning cold and so was the other food on the table.Â
You pick up a cookie to nibble on it, thinking of why Jungkook would forget. Or why he wouldnât text you back or return your call.Â
At eleven thirty, you stand up from your seat, suddenly feeling so⌠so silly. Silly about the food. Silly about the cake. Silly about your dress. And most especially, you feel silly about the lingerie thatâs hidden underneath.Â
How silly. To plan all these in expectation of what⌠Jungkookâs company?Â
But it was his birthday. And you wanted to throw him a party, thought it would mean something to him, even though itâs not that much. But you did go through a lot of trouble to put this all out⌠but he also didnât ask you either. So really, you have no right to feel upset over him not making good on his promise.Â
Wait, did he promise anything though? No, he didnât. Not really. He just said he was free tonight. No promises. Maybe his schedule changed again and he needed to work overtime.Â
You start putting away the food in the fridge, not even having the energy to eat something for dinner. You go back to your room, stripping yourself off and changing into some comfortable pajamas before throwing yourself on the bed.Â
Still no texts.
Itâs 11:42pm when it comes.Â
You hate how fast your body reaches for your phone to see who it was, lighting up when you see Jungkook (Unit 446) on the caller ID, even more so when you answer it.Â
âHey, I got your texts. Iâm so sorry, __ââ
âItâs fine!â you nibble on your bottom lip as you try to contain your excitement. âAre you coming soon?âÂ
âIâ no, baââ you flinch involuntarily when you hear him cut himself off. You were so sure he was going to call you baby, but he corrected himself quickly. âYou remember the thing I mentioned this morning? The rollback didnât go as planned. Iâm working overtime tonight again so I canât really goâŚâÂ
âOhâŚâÂ
âDid you plan something? Itâs just my birthday, __. Maybe we can go somewhere tomorrow?â Jungkook chuckles on the other end of the line, and for the first time it didnât make you feel giddy or whatever.Â
You pick on the bed sheet before answering. âUh, no. Itâs not anything big, actually. I just made you some cookies. And ordered some food. But anyway I just ate dinner first because you took so long,â the lie rolls off your tongue easier than you expected. His laugh made you feel shitty. You know he didnât mean anything by it â but it just made you feel so⌠so unimportant.
And suddenly, you want to downplay the whole thing. Because clearly, he thinks itâs no big deal.
âHey, are you upset?â His tone shifts â gentler now.
âAh, no. Sorry. Iâm so tired and sleepy,â you fake a yawn and snuggle on the bed. âMaybe we can talk tomorrow when youâre here?âÂ
Tomorrow is now your least favorite word. Youâve heard it too many times from him lately.Â
Jungkook doesnât say anything for a few seconds.
Then you hear him sigh.Â
âIâm sorry again, I swear Iâll make it up to you.âÂ
âNo need to!â you tell him, making sure to say that as cheerfully as possible. Jungkook doesnât need to. Itâs not like you were dating or something for you to be upset over him bailing on you. âReally, itâs fine. Hey, Iâm really, really sleepy now. Good night?âÂ
âOkay, sorry. Sleep well, __. Tomorrow, okay?âÂ
You hum, not sure if you believe that. Maybe tomorrow heâs going to have to do overtime again. Maybe tomorrow he wonât be here again.
Whatever.Â
It wasnât a big deal.Â
You end the call, but before you can drop your phone onto the nightstand, you type out one last message.
You [11:45pm]: happy birthday!Â

You didnât get much sleep last night. Not like your body clock has ever been particularly reliable,Â
This morning, you didnât really think that much about it when you put the cake in a container and dropped it off at Jungkookâs door on your way down the stairs. You figured you couldâve eaten it, but you made it for him and anyway⌠it was his birthday and you still think he deserves a cake. He didnât exactly seem like he was celebrating last night.
You took the bus to work. Nothing unusual, nothing exciting. Just another day dragging your limbs through the same monotonous rhythm. Your brain feels like itâs moving on autopilot by the time you tap your company ID at the building entrance and wait in line for the elevator.Â
Slipping inside, you wedge yourself into a spare corner, arms crossed as the lift fills and empties floor by floor. Eventually, itâs just you and one other woman left. She steps out when the elevator dings, cradling her phone against her shoulder as she barks something stressed into the line.
Instinctively, you lean forward and press the hold button, stepping onto the side when you take notice of someone going in, only to realize it was Jungkook.Â
Itâs funny, really. Somehow, he only ever seems to appear when heâs the last person youâre ready to see.Â
âOhâ good morning, Mr. Jeon,â you say, dipping your head in a polite little nod. The words sound awkward even to your own ears, stiff. Youâve never had to think about how to interact with him in the workplace.
Judging by the slight flicker on Jungkookâs face, he thinks it sounds weird too. But he recovers quickly, offering a faint smile as he steps in.Â
You return his smile, just as polite, and inch a little further to the side â so far that your back nearly presses to the elevator wall, creating an unnecessary gap between you.
The silence is noticeable. Tense, but itâs civil at least. You glance at the floor numbers blinking overhead, half-hoping this ride doesnât last long.
Then Jungkook shifts in your periphery.Â
âHey, about last nightââ
The elevator dings.Â
Itâs your floor.
You step out quickly, almost too quickly, heart tapping a little faster than it should.
You donât look back.

You didnât expect to get a text from Jungkook that night.Â
Jungkook (Unit 446) [9:37pm]: Do you wanna drive home together?Â
You made a mental note to give him a reply but itâs thirty minutes later that you remembered about it.
You [10:11pm]: hey sorry I just got home
Jungkook (Unit 446) [10:14pm]: Okay Jungkook (Unit 446) [10:14pm]: Please come over tonight? Iâm cookingÂ
You [10:16pm]: i'm not sure if I can You [10:17pm]: iâll try to. I brought home some work :/
He doesnât give a reply after that.
And maybe that â weirdly â made you irritated. Heâd texted first, and heâd asked you over. You gave a soft no, not even a hard one, and he didnât even try again? Just left it like that?
You sigh and close the lid of your laptop. For once, you hadnât lied about being busy with work. It was just a few reports you figured you could finish now to make tomorrow lighter and easier. It was nothing really urgent.Â
But you do feel sort of guilty about it.
Your door buzzes, and you have second thoughts whether or not you ordered dinner.Â
When you open the door, it felt like deja vu.
âJungkook.â you say, blinking.
âAre you still working?â Heâs in his work clothes, though the sleeves of his button-up are slightly rolled now. It looks like he just got home not long ago.
You glance at the laptop on the coffee table. âNo, I just finishedâŚâÂ
âOkay, then I have a question,â Jungkook steps inside, and you unconsciously take a step back at that, looking at him curiously. He watches you carefully. âAre we okay?â
Caught off guard, you stammer when you say, âI��� yeah! Sure, why wouldnât we be?âÂ
He doesnât say anything for a beat, then, âYou seemed a little off this morning. I thought maybe it was about last night.âÂ
You try to wave it off, suddenly nervous about Jungkook being so straight-forward. Usually, men were so emotionally stunted as you are and never faced their problems head-on.
âNo, I mean, itâs fine. You were probably so busy. It wasnât a big deal.âÂ
âBut it did kind of matter.âÂ
You exhale, shifting uncomfortably. âOkay, maybe I was a little upset. But itâs not like Iâm mad mad.âÂ
âI figured,â Jungkook says, voice soft. âAnd I get it if you donât want to hang out tonight, but I still wanted to try. I know Iâve flaked twice now, but I meant what I said, about making it up to you.âÂ
You shift your weight from one foot to the other. âWith food?â
He smiles faintly. âWith food. Amongst other things.âÂ
That earns a chuckle from you. Youâre not over it â unfortunately â but something about the way heâs standing there, almost cautious, makes it hard to keep your walls all the way up.Â
âSo,â he asks gently. âWill you come?â
Taking a deep breath, you unintentionally look down at your socks.Â
âOnly if thereâs wineâŚâ you say softly.Â
Jungkookâs smile spreads. âThereâs wine.âÂ
You sigh and start toeing your slippers off. âIf itâs terrible, Iâm leaving in five minutes.âÂ
âI can live with that.âÂ

Inside Jungkookâs place, the lights are unusually dim, the apartment warm with the scent of garlic and something buttery. A jazz record plays at the far corner, and you only noticed then that Jungkook owned a vinyl player â which you kind of didnât expect â you sort of pegged him as the type to not have time to listen to music.Â
Meanwhile, he goes straight to the kitchen counter, where you watch him by the stove, plating food like a professional. You realized he had been cooking, and thatâs why his tie was a little loose and his hair kind of a muss.Â
You donât really know what to say, so you try to break the silence with, âUhm, wow.âÂ
Jungkook glances at you, mouth lifting at the corner. âI try sometimes.âÂ
The obvious faux humility makes you laugh. You know exactly that he knows youâre impressed by the whole thing.Â
And you havenât even eaten his food yet.
Walking in slowly to the dining area, your eyes skim over the table where there are real wine glasses, cloth napkins, and a lit candle.
âSo whatâs the occasion?â You ask, sitting on the chair, watching Jungkook as he heads towards your direction, bringing in the food he was preparing. You smile up at him. âGuilt?âÂ
He chuckles under his breath, and youâre almost glad that the joke lands.
âMaybe. Also I figured you deserve a proper dinner, made by me. Since someone went out of their way to make me one.â
You hum. âCanât believe you stood me up on your own birthday.âÂ
He brings the plates over and sits across from you. âI cooked,â he says. âTry it before you decide if Iâm forgiven.âÂ
You eye the food, a little surprise at how he mustered up a risotto with seared scallops, and of course perfectly plated. Like heâs just so good at everything he does⌠wait, did Jungkook go to culinary school? Youâre starting to think that.
âYou know how to make risotto?âÂ
âI know how to do a lot of things,â he meets her gaze.
Yeah, you know that was a hundred percent trueâŚ
You take a bite, careful not to let any expression slip while Jungkook watches closely, not really digging in on his own plate.
And as expected, the risottoâs annoyingly good. You didnât doubt it from Jungkook, though. Being good at cooking was just one of the many qualities that made him so⌠so whatever.Â
âOkay, fine. Iâm mildly impressed,â you comment, sipping on the wine to hide the small smile tugging at your mouth. Your very expression contradicts your words, and you know Jungkook can see through you.
He leans back in his chair, obviously satisfied. âMildly?â
âYou still missed your birthday dinner. That knocks off some points.â
He gives you a small smile. âI really didnât expect it to be a birthday dinner, baby.âÂ
You shrug off the nickname by having more bites of the risotto. You wonder if Jungkook was being deliberate when he said that, or if it was just going to be a thing between you now.Â
âYou didnât ask⌠and well, I was going to surprise you.â Now you pout at the memories of last night again. âThere was chicken.âÂ
Jungkook looks at you in surprise. âYou cooked?â
You eye him. âYeah, I scratched the tapes off the takeout boxes and put it in the microwave.â Jungkook laughs, the crinkles on the sides of his eyes showing. It makes you smile to see him like that. âWell,â you say eventually, âyouâve redeemed yourself a little.âÂ
Jungkook leans in again, riding along, âOnly a little?âÂ
âWeâll see if thereâs dessert.âÂ
Jungkook smirks, and you both continue to eat.Â
After awhile, he glances at you. âYouâre not mad,â he says, as if treading softly. âBut⌠you were disappointed, right?âÂ
You shake your head. âNo. I justââ You see Jungkook raising a brow. âI just thought itâd be nice. I donât want to make a big deal about it, it was your birthday! Now I feel bad âcause itâs like Iâm making this all about me.â you chuckle at the realization.
You look at Jungkook when you realize heâs not really laughing with you.Â
You flinch a little when his hand reaches out to yours. His thumb caresses your knuckles as he tells you softly, âHey, I know it wouldâve been nice. Iâm really sorry I missed it.âÂ
âItâs fineâŚâ itâs a good thing Jungkook lets go immediately.
But you find yourself wanting to share with him that you baked him a cake too. About the lingerie⌠but that felt stupid now. Wait, did he even get the cake you left at his porch this morning?Â
As if he read your mind, Jungkook suddenly rises up from his chair.
âWait a second,â he walks past you, disappearing into the kitchen. He opens the fridge and comes back into view with a single slice of cake.
Your cake. The one you made for him.Â
You stare. âIs thatâ?â
âYou left it outside my door this morning,â he says, placing it on the table. You blink up at him, mouth slightly open. âI thought Iâd save it, you know? In case you ever stopped pretending you didnât care.âÂ
It felt a little pointed, but with the smile on his face youâre not really sure.Â
âYou really donât play fair.âÂ
âNot trying to.â he says simply with a small smile before sitting again.Â
âSo. Is this your apology routine? Fancy dinner, smooth jazz, and then hoping I forget you bailed?âÂ
He smiles into his own glass of wine. âIf I wanted you to forget, I wouldnât have brought out the cake.â
You raise a brow. âYou brought that out to make a point.âÂ
âI did.â
âYouâre kind of smug about it.â
âIâm good at making points,â he says, âEspecially when someone keeps insisting nothingâs wrong.âÂ
You frown, somehow not really liking the confirmation that he does think youâre making a big deal about this.Â
âI said I was fine.âÂ
âYou keep saying that,â his voice is quieter now, but a little edged. âBut youâve been smiling like itâs your job since you got here. And I know itâs not real.âÂ
You recoil at that, not expecting to be called out. The sudden shift of the atmosphere is palpable as you lean back on the couch.Â
âWhat do you want me to say?â you let out a humorless chuckle. âThat I was upset? You hurt my feelings?âÂ
Jungkookâs expression changes, but his voice doesnât falter. âI wanna know how you feel.âÂ
You look away. âDo you want me to admit that maybe I cared more than I should?âÂ
âI didnât say that.âÂ
âBut you mean it.â
He leans forward, "I mean,â he starts, âthat it wasnât nothing. You made me dinner. You planned something for me. Thatâs not small. And I want you to know that I want to apologize when I make these mistakes.âÂ
You donât really think it through when you say, âItâs not like weâre together, Jungkook.âÂ
That makes him pause. You canât find it in you to take it back, because⌠it was true, right? The whole thing felt like⌠like you were a couple in a fight. And you arenât.
âStill not an excuse.â he says after awhile.Â
You let out a breath, almost a laugh, frustrated. You wish Jungkook hadnât brought it up, and you wish you arenât reacting the way you are right now.
âYou know, you didnât seem bothered about it when we talked on the phone.âÂ
âBecause I thought you were okay.â
âWell, surprise,â you flash him a tight smile. âTurns out Iâm not as chill as I thought.âÂ
His voice lowers. âI never thought you were chill.â You canât help but glance at him sharply. âI thought you were trying really hard to seem like you didnât care, because maybe you thought I might not care back.â
That lands harder than it should, and you feel your throat tighten.
âI should go,â you stand up, not wanting to have any more of this conversation. You wish Jungkook would just drop it. You told him, you were upset â but heâs making a big deal about it.Â
Jungkook stands up too, stepping closer to you. His height looms over you, but his presence feels calm and collected.Â
âYou could,â he says in that deep voice. âBut you wonât.âÂ
You take in a sharp breath when he presses until you can feel the heat of his body. Youâre confused about the sudden turn of events, but thereâs something about Jungkook right now, his voice dropping low, his gaze⌠almost as ifâŚ
âOh?â you decide to challenge him, not wanting to waver.
âYou stayed. And now youâre standing this close,â he says, gaze dropping to your mouth. âLooking like you want me to make you forget why you were upset in the first place.âÂ
You swallow, suddenly feeling heated in that other way.Â
âA-and if I do?âÂ
One hand brushes past your hip, and you stand there grounded, unconsciously holding your breath.Â
âThen you let me.âÂ
You kiss him first â not really sure why and how it happened â but you do, on instinct. Wrapping your arms around his neck and pressing your lips to his. Itâs fast, and thereâs frustration from you bubbling under, heat blooming behind your ribs like a fuse finally lit.Â
Jungkook kisses you back harder though, catching you on time â always catching you on time â walking you backwards into the living room where he lays you down on the couch, hovering over you.
His voice is rough against your skin when he breaks away to whisper, âAre you still upset?âÂ
Your hands grip his shirt. âI would be if you donât continue kissing me.âÂ
That makes him smile, murmuring, âYouâre a brat.âÂ
âDo you like it?âÂ
He inhales a sharp breath against your jaw, nipping. âI really do.âÂ
In an instant, his hands were around your waist, your back pressed against the back of the sofa. Your breath hitches when his mouth drops to your ear, making your knees weaken slightly.
âDo youâ do you kiss everyone you disappoint like this?â you mutter, hands sliding under his shirt where you feel his abs clench.
âNo,â he says, lips peppering kisses down your neck, voice low. It sends shivers down your spine and makes your thighs clench together. âJust the ones who microwave chicken for me.â
It earns a chuckle from you â sharp, breathless â and tug the collar of his shirt, starting to undo his buttons until sculpted chest is revealed. Youâre about to pull the material off him when Jungkook catches your wrist.
âStill upset?â he asks.
You click your tongue. âMaybe.âÂ
He grins. âGood.âÂ
He kisses you again. Slow this time, like he knows youâd let him now. And you do. Your fingers dig into his shoulder as he deepens it, tongue brushing yours in a way that makes your head fog over. He tastes like wine and smugness⌠but you find you like it. Jungkook moves in such a way that screams he knows exactly what heâs doing.Â
His shirt is off in a second, leaving him in his slacks and belt, mouth moving lower over your throat, your collarbone, until they reach your cleavage made easily accessible with the neckline of your camisole. You arch into the touch without much thinking, and when Jungkook whispers against the peak of your nipple if he could take your shirt off, you nod.Â
âSorry, this isnât my proudest bra ever,â you tell him, fingers slipping through his hair.Â
Jungkook chuckles. âIâm gonna take it off, anyway.âÂ
He lifts you up effortlessly, squeezing your ass as you yelp but helping you wrap your legs around his waist. Before you can say anything, he shuts up with a searing hot kiss, and you let him carry you to the bedroom with ginger steps, like heâd done it a hundred times before in his head. God, you hope he did just like you do.Â
You donât know how exactly it happened but your bra is off the moment he lowers you down on the bed, tugging the cups off your chest and letting his hand take reign on one boob while he licks the other one with his hot tongue, swirling it around your nipple that makes you gasp and shift on the bed.Â
âOh, JungkookâŚâ
Crawling over you, you meet his heavy gaze as he asks, âAre you sure about this?âÂ
If the heat in between your thighs is any more indication of how sure you are, he can check. But you tug him down by the waistband of his slacks to tell him, âIâve been sure.âÂ
âJust checking, because once we startâŚâ he murmurs, gaze dropping on your lips. As if he canât help it, he closes his mouth around yours. Then his hand slides down, feathery touch causing goosebumps all over your skin. It stops on your inner thigh where you take a sharp breath because he was so close to where you wanted him to be.Â
âI want you now,â you say, a bit irritated.Â
He chuckles, dark. Low. He retracts his hand and smirks when you give him a glare.Â
âI wanna take my time with you, sweetheart. Donât rush me.âÂ
To prove his point, he kisses you again â hot and passionate, but also aguishly slow like heâs savoring every brush of your tongue and he has all the time in the world for it.Â
Youâre flushed beneath him, breathless as his hands wander all over your body. He nips the skin of your neck, obviously teasing, leaving goosebumps on his trail. When his hand cups the heat in between your legs, your hips unconsciously buck, your grip on his shoulders tightening at the contact.Â
âI shouldâve come to dinner,â he murmurs, kissing the corner of your mouth.Â
âY-yeah,â you manage, âyou shouldâve.âÂ
âI canât believe I missed this yesterday.â
You gasp when his thumb presses on your mound, feeling like youâve been electrocuted by the touch. Jungkook seems to take note of your oversensitivity, as he watches you with your mouth hanging slightly open. Â
âDonât worry, baby. I plan to make it up to you real good,â he leans back for a second to tug the waistband of your pants, and you donât hesitate to lift yourself up a little to help him slide it off your legs together with your panties. You bite your bottom lip as you observe him watching the way the material clings to your pussy at the slickness. A smirk tugs at his lips. âI guess Iâve made you wait too long, didnât I?âÂ
Your reply dissolves into a sharp inhale as he puts two of his fingers in his mouth and wedges them in between your folds, leaning down to plant a kiss on your parted mouth. His fingers move inside you, curling in slow rhythm, his thumb teasing just enough to keep your hips lifting off the bed.
âYouâre so soaked, and I havenât even touched you properly yet,â he slowly slides them out, smirking when you whimper at the loss of contact. He inserts them again, this time taking on a steady pace. His fingers make you feel so full, just like they did back at the motel â and you wouldnât dare lie to yourself and say you havenât been looking forward to this again. By the way you canât keep the soft moans escaping past your lips, Jungkook mustâve known too.Â
Slick sounds bounce off the wall, and you try to keep it to a minimum by minimizing your moans and pressing the back of your hand to your mouth but Jungkook catches your wrist quickly, as if he knew what you were about to do.
âNo, baby, let me hear you,â he says, pinning your hand up against the headboard. âI want to know how much you want this, how much you like my fingers fitting right in your pussy,â he looks down, then unexpectedly, he brings his soaked digits up to your face. Your cheeks flush in embarrassment when you see how wet they are with your juices, whimpering when he inserts them in his mouth with no second thoughts, licking them obscenely. You whimper when he shuts his eyes close, looking intoxicated.Â
âShit,â he hisses, âTastes just as good as I remember it.âÂ
âJ-jungkook,â you whine, wanting him to do something already.Â
âI know,â he smirks, a little smug. âShould I go faster? Is that what you like?âÂ
âPleaseâŚâ you cry out, holding on to his wrist.
He chuckles darkly and just as when you were about to say something else again, he curls the same fingers in you, but this time he plunges them in and out at a faster pace. At that, you donât hold back the moans youâve been keeping trapped in your throat.Â
Legs tensing, Jungkook continues to fuck you with his fingers, moving like an expert; determined to make you fall apart â and youâre nothing but soft cries, heated, fingers tightening around his wrist as your orgasm creeps up your toes to your spine.Â
âF-fuckâŚâ you sigh when Jungkook dives in your chest again, nipping and sucking at the flesh you were sure he was going to leave marks. âFeels so good, KooâŚâÂ
He hums against your skin, curling his fingers and digging in deep that your thighs shake uncontrollably. But Jungkookâs hold on your hip is firm, not enough to hurt, but enough to keep you from thrashing underneath him at the overwhelming pleasure.Â
âYeah? Youâre making such a mess on my hand, baby,â he husks out.
âS-sorry.â
He chuckles. âYouâre beautiful,â He breaks away from your tits to stare at you. Moving away some of the hair that has gotten on your face, he says, âAre you close?âÂ
âYes, god, yes. Please, Iâm so closeâŚâÂ
You can feel yourself about to reach your climax, so you move your hand to seek relief to your clit. But Jungkook catches you off-guard when he moves further down your body. You let out a lewd moan when he licks along your slit, sucking in your folds â your juices making a wet, spongy sound as he slurps. When he closes his mouth around your clit, you cry out and grab his hair quite harshly.Â
But Jungkook only hums against your pussy, the vibration only making you drip more. He ravishes your nub with his tongue, quick and steady, and so are his fingers in and out of your pussy.Â
âOh my god,â you moan, body convulsing at your impending orgasm, shutting your eyes close and focusing on the way his tongue tugs at your clit. âKook, Iâm coming, fuck, Iâm gonna cumââÂ
He pulls off with a smack only to tell you âin my mouthâ before going back to business again. You listen to his small grunts, his hums, and until then, you feel your body spasming when the coil at your stomach breaks. Â
Jungkook puts his hand on your lower stomach, pressing you down as you wriggle underneath him, thighs shaking at your orgasm. He licks until youâre pulling his head out of your mound. He takes his fingers out of your spongy walls, spreading your wetness instead around your folds, as if calming you down from your high.
âGood, baby, goodâŚâ he murmurs, gripping your thighs to steady you. Then he leans down and presses kisses over them.
You let your back relax on the mattress, shutting your eyes close and catching your breath.
You hear a drawer pull open, and when you finally open your eyes, you see Jungkook with a condom pinched in between his fingers.
âIâm not done with you yet,â Jungkook skates his fingers through his hair, and you suddenly got the urge to jump him right then and there when you saw the sheer wetness on his jaw, his sculpted chest and the abdominal muscles that sit perfectly on his stomach, his tattoo sleeve â he looked like an absolute dream then, but you knew you were in for a ride when your eyes cast a look at the erection inside his slacks. Jungkook makes quick work of unbuckling his leather belt, and the way the metal clink with each other scratches a part of your brain that screams want, want, want and maybe Jungkook caught on, because he follows your gaze to the belt, clicking his tongue when he throws the leather away somewhere on the floor.
âNext time, sweet girl,â he says, sounding like he meant it. You can feel your cheeks heating under his gaze and the implication of his words, chest pounding as he unbuttons and unzips his pants together with his boxers.Â
âIâŚâ You watch in quiet fascination when his rock hard dick slaps against his lower abdomen, biting your lip at the sight. It was just as long and girthy as you remember it.
He hums. âYou want to play next time, weâll do that. But eyes up here first,â Jungkook instructs, and you do look at him when he says so, feeling your legs clamping together at his slightly commanding tone. He tugs your legs to pull you closer to the edge of the bed, and so you lift off the mattress slightly and rest your elbows against the soft sheets. Jungkook smiles at you as he kneels between your spread legs, âYou look beautiful like this, baby. Do you know how much Iâve been wanting to do this?â he asks as he rips open the condom, pinching the tip and putting it over his cock in quick succession.Â
âIâve been waiting for youâŚâ you say, not really sure what you mean, touching his chest because you can. Heâs so warm and so big, and your pussy aches at the thought of him finally entering you.
It felt greedy, to want to cum again when you just did not even a full minute ago.
âI know,â he strokes his cock for good measure, and you let out a soft gasp when he hikes your leg over his hip, nudging your other leg to the side. He inserts a finger in your pussy, hissing at your wetness. âFuck, you are soaked, babyâŚâÂ
âPut it in,â You whine, chest heaving up and down as you watch Jungkook with half-lidded eyes. His hand wraps around his dick, strokes it for a moment before gripping near the tip and bringing it closer to your aching heat.Â
You moan when the first inch of his cock goes in, mouth gaping at the intrusion. Jungkookâs eyebrows knit as he adjusts your leg higher on his hip, pushing deeper.Â
âLook at me,â he instructs, âYou can take it, right, baby? Youâre so wet, so prettyâŚâÂ
âIâ yes, yesâ shit,â you let out a shaky breath, âyouâre s-so big, fuck,â
âYouâre taking it so well,â he murmurs, voice low and dripping with honey. He gives a gentle, almost subtle thrust that almost knocks you out of the bed.
âYes, yes, fuck⌠give it to me, Kook, I want you so badâŚâ
âYeah? Iâm gonna move in a sec, angel, play with your tits for me.â
You nod your head and do as told, letting your hands wander all over your body before fondling your breasts, moaning instantly at the pleasure.Â
âTell me if it hurts,â is what he says before he slips an arm beneath your waist, holding you up, a shudder escaping past his lips when he slowly pushes more past your tight walls. You choke out a moan, a broken sob coming out of it when he finally bottoms out inside of you.
âAhâŚâÂ
He hisses, fingers digging at your waist as he withdraws from your heat and only the tip of his cock is in you, the scene with it sitting on your soaked pussy enough to send him into an overdrive.Â
âYouâre so fucking tight holy fuck,â he seethes, forcefully snapping his hips back into you and finally picking up a pace that makes you whimper and cry out pathetic little moans, mind becoming fuzzy at the thrusts of his cock in your entrance.Â
Your walls clench at the glide of his cock against you, feeling him falter at the little stunt. But you canât help it. Your body is on fire as Jungkook lets out a guttural groan, pulling you flush against his cock until the thin hairs around the base of his dick are tickling your skin. Your elbow shake as it loses balance, but Jungkook is quick to catch you just on time, leaning down to hover over your body, but it only makes the angle of his fuck deeper, and maybe he meant to do that too.Â
Your hands are quick to wrap around his shoulders as you feel the tip of his cock prodding against your cervix like heâs going all out, your hips jumping as he rams back inside.Â
He repeats the movement like a graceful dancer, thrusts deep and purposeful, pulling out wailing sounds from you you begin to worry if the neighbors could hear. He tucks his head against your neck and presses a kiss on the junction between your neck and shoulder, rocking his hips into you, pistoning into your squelching heat. His body is so close, so warm, sweaty skin gliding against yours.
âFuck, fucking hell, baby â fuck, you feel so good,â Jungkook growls, finding your mouth and kissing you again. His hips snaps back into you once again, and you both swallow each otherâs moans at the contact, letting your bodies rock to the sound of your fucking. His hand is on your chest immediately, squeezing everywhere until it settles on pinching your nipple between his fingers.Â
âJungkookâ ah, babyâ fuckkkkk,â You shudder, feeling your pussy quiver at every snap and every withdrawal, and when he brings his hand to your clit and rubs it in quick circles, you screw your eyes shut, feeling that familiar wave again for the second time that night.Â
âJungkookââÂ
âYouâre gonna be a good girl and come for me, sweet girl?â Jungkook rasps out, sweaty forehead coming into view as he jackhammers into your pussy with ease, welcomed by your never-ending slick. You never thought youâd see Jungkook like that, fucking like a crazed caveman, looking like he canât get enough but also straining himself a bit to not hurt you â because of course he wouldnât.Â
âFuck me harder, Kook, I need itâ need you to⌠need you toââ
âYeah?â he rocks harder, faster just like you said, and you can honestly start to feel the slight pain on your chest as they bounce at the speed, your hand flying to grab at your chest.Â
âIâm so close,â you cry out, unconsciously reaching for him and feeling like youâre on edge. Jungkook takes your hand and encloses it around his, thrusting into you once again before whispering against your skin to let go.Â
As if that was a magic phrase, you feel something inside you snap.Â
âGood girl, I knew youâd come for me, you always do,â Jungkook slurs. You could feel your cum dribbling out of your pussy, creaming his cock, but Jungkook continues ramming himself past your clenched lips and into your spasming hole, grunting against your skin, mouth leaving random, open-mouthed kisses.Â
He drills on, and his cock still feels so achingly hard, seemingly not anywhere near completion yet. Youâre nearly mush beneath him from your current release, but you push through it as you press your hands to his chest, forceful enough to send him tumbling a little. Heâs caught off-guard by that, and you take that to your advantage as you maneuver yourself to push him completely on his back, his cock sliding out of you.Â
He bounces off the mattress a little, looking at you curiously as you straddle his waist. Your sensitive pussy shudders at the cold of the AC in his room, and you feel like your bones have been liquefied, but you donât let that deter you from taking ahold of his still, indeed, hard cock and sitting on it.Â
Jungkook inhales a sharp breath as he watches you bounce on his cock, the head disappearing and appearing in your entrance, like a show he would want to replay over and over again. And youâre determined, stretching your body and leaning back to rest your palms on his thighs for support as you take his dick, switching to a back and forth motion.
âOh, Jungkook, god â oh my god,â and although it was supposed to be for him â for him to cum â you can honestly feel yourself about to snap again, especially when Jungkook reaches forward to rub your tit, caressing your tattoo underneath with that hungry look in his eyes, and settling on your hips like heâs enjoying the little show youâre putting up for him.Â
âThatâs it baby, bounce on my cock â youâre doing so weâŚll,â he encourages, but thereâs a slight break to his tone at the end. âShit, keep going â fuck. Iâm so fucking closeâ you look so good,âÂ
You swallow the saliva trapped in your throat to pick up your pace, feeling lightheaded at the overwhelming feeling of his cock prodding against your cervix everytime you go forth. His dick brushes past your clit everytime you move, and you throw your head back when you feel him starting to thrust upward.Â
âAre you close again, baby?â Jungkook asks, gripping your hips tight as he meets your ministration. You bite your lip at the question, only whimpering when Jungkook bucks his hips harshly. âCum for me a third time, pretty girl. Cum with me.âÂ
âJungkook, I canât, Iâm so sensitive. Iââ
âYou can, angel. And you will.â
You mewl when Jungkook reaches for your pussy with his other hand, quickly finding your clit to rub against it again, and that pushes you to the edge quickly â orgasm snapping on an instant just like that.Â
Jungkookâs hips stutter, breath caught in between a curse and your name, like the sound of you undid him completely. It was a sound that you heard three days ago when he came in your mouth.
âFucking hell,â he hisses, hips faltering at his orgasm. âShitâŚâÂ
You drop your body unceremoniously onto him, the exhaustion hitting you all at once.
Wrapping his hands around your body very gently, you feel Jungkook kissing the side of your head, making you shut your eyes close.Â
âJesus.â you blurt out, whole body spent.
âDidnât know you were religious like thatâŚâ He says with a chuckle, caressing your hair mindlessly.
You snap your head quickly to look at him at the familiar words, narrowing your eyes. Jungkook only presses a kiss to your shoulder as if that was some sort of apology, and you let it go with a playful shake of your head.
âDo you still feel bad about missing dinner?â You ask with a smile on your face.Â
He let out a low laugh, and the vibration through his chest feels warm against your skin.Â
âIâm working on making it up to you.âÂ
âDoes it really involve making me cum three times in a single night?â you arch your brow. âI think youâre overcompensating.âÂ
Jungkoo gives you a nonchalant shrug. âMaybe.â
And before you can say anything, he flips you over and kisses you again, which makes you giggle into his mouth. Â

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absolutely loved âbaby, would i still be your loverâ, everyone single one got me in my feels! i was wondering would you consider doing a part 2? whether it ends in angst or fluff
I'll tell you the truth, but never goodbye


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: summary :: when he accidentally insults you during an argument- aftermath â
: feat :: max verstappen, lewis hamilton, carlos sainz, charles leclerc, lando norris â
: genre :: hurt/comfort, hints of angst â
: word count :: 4.3k â
 : a/n :: thank you so much for the love on part 1 đ some of these have open ending so you can pick whether you'd like to forgive them or not as a reader!! feedback is appreciated :)

( part 1 )

Max Verstappen
You sighed as you sat down to have your morning tea as usual, trying to pretend that nothing was wrong. As if you hadn't spent all night long getting your phone spammed with calls that you were ignoring.
After mindlessly roaming around for a bit, you eventually decided to crash at your best friendâs place. You lazily waved at her as she frantically got ready to leave for work. However, you were on your tiptoe as soon as the door opened.
A body that was possibly sleeping while leaning against the door fell inside and you heard curses that you were quite too familiar with. Your heart clenched at the sight of your boyfriend - or perhaps now, your ex-boyfriend - on his knees, nursing the wound on his head. The ache of seeing him in pain reignited the anguish you thought you had left behind.
âOkay,â you heard your friend murmur. âI'm gonna let you guys get to it.â She was out the door a second later.
You looked at the closed door instead of the man who was desperately trying to make eye contact with you.
âHow long have youâŚâ You trailed off before deciding that you didn't want to know.
âAs soon as you turned your phone off, Y/N! I've been here since last night.â "Why?" you choked out, the words barely escaping your lips as tears threatened to overflow. His brows furrowed before he ran his hands over his face and got up to sit right next to you. You saw his hand itching toward yours and instinctively pulled it towards your body. "Because I needed to see you in person, to talk." He took another deep breath and you later realized that he was trying to stop himself from crying. âI realize I messed up, baby. I.. I never should have let you walk out.â But his attempt to mend the shattered pieces of your relationship only served to reopen the wounds, your walls instinctively rising in defense,"Talk? You think a talk is going to fix everything?" Max's eyes were filled with a mix of regret and desperation as he reached out for your hand, his fingers trembling slightly. "No, I don't think a talk will magically fix everything," he admitted, his voice raw with emotion.
"But it's a start. I need you to know that I'm truly sorry for what happened. I hate myself for hurting you, for making you doubt how much you mean to me."
You couldn't bring yourself to meet his gaze, the pain of the previous night still too fresh in your mind.
âHow can I trust you again, Max? How can I be sure that this won't happen again?" Your voice was barely a whisper, filled with the ache of betrayal.
Max's grip on your hand tightened, his eyes pleading for understanding. "I know I've messed up, Y/N. But I'm willing to do whatever it takes to earn back your trust. I'll work on my temper, Iâll be better to you, I'll do anything you ask of me. I just need you to give me another chance." âYou know youâve always been the best to me, right? I just canât believe that instead of talking it out yesterday, you straight up skipped to breaking up wit-â Fresh tears started falling down your cheeks. Max immediately leaned forward to hold you in his arms and you let him because you needed him. But how could you trust him again? How could you be sure that history wouldn't repeat itself? That he wonât throw away your whole relationship just because the anger got a hold of him? As Max held you close, you felt a wave of conflicting emotions wash over you. Part of you wanted to push him away, to scream and shout at him for causing you so much pain. But another part of you craved his warmth, his touch, his presence.
"I'm sorry, Y/N," Max whispered, his voice thick with emotion. "I know I messed up, and I hate myself for it. I never meant to hurt you, I swear."
You buried your face in his chest, the tears soaking through his shirt as you struggled to make sense of your feelings.
âI just don't know if I can do this anymore, Max," you admitted, your voice muffled against him. Max tightened his embrace, his arms wrapping around you protectively. "I understand," he murmured, his voice gentle. His admission eased your thumping heart a bit, you were glad to have him back. The storm within you finding a momentary calm.
"I made you feel like our relationship was disposable, like breaking up was no big deal. But that couldn't be further from the truth. You're the most important person in my life, baby and the thought of losing you terrifies me. I'll do whatever it takes to make things right between us, to show you just how much you mean to me. I'll do whatever it takes to earn back your trust if you still want me."
Lewis Hamilton
The weight of Lewis's words hung heavy in the air, suffocating you as you retreated into the sanctuary of your bedroom. Tears streamed down your cheeks unchecked, your heart aching with a pain you couldn't quite comprehend. How had a day that started with such a promise turned into this? You buried your face in your hands, the sting of Lewis's words feeling like acid running through your veins.
Outside the door, the silence was deafening, broken only by the muffled sound of your sobs. Lewis stood frozen in place, his mind racing as he replayed the exchange in his head.
He couldn't believe the words that had escaped his lips, couldn't fathom how he had allowed his frustration to morph into such hurtful remarks.
Minutes stretched into eternity as Lewis grappled with the weight of his actions, the gravity of his words settling like a lead weight in his chest.
He wanted to reach out to you, to apologize and make things right, but his feet remained rooted to the spot, paralyzed by the magnitude of his mistake.
Inside the bedroom, you were consumed by a whirlwind of conflicting emotions. Anger, hurt, betrayal - they all swirled together into an ugly monster, threatening to engulf you whole.
How could the man you loved, the man who had always been your rock, turn on you with such venom?
But beneath the anger and hurt, there was a flicker of doubt, a gnawing fear that maybe Lewis's words held a grain of truth. Maybe you were too insecure, too needy, too demanding. Maybe you were asking for too much, expecting him to be there for you when he had his own priorities and responsibilities. Maybe-
The sound of a soft knock on the door snapped you out of your thoughts, and you looked up to see Lewis standing there, his expression wrought with regret and guilt. For a moment, neither of you spoke, the weight of the unspoken apology hanging heavy in the air. Looking at him distraught made your chest feel worse. How could he make you feel ten fold worse than this and not feel a thing?Â
"I'm sorry," Lewis finally whispered, his voice barely audible. "I didn't mean what I said. I was out of line, and I know I hurt you. Please, let me make it right." He rushed through the words.
His words pierced through the haze of your pain, and you felt a bit of heaviness leaving your body. He crossed the room in a few strides, dropping to his knees in front of you, his eyes pleading for forgiveness.Â
"I don't know what came over me," he admitted, his voice thick with emotion before your boyfriend took your hand away from your face and kissed your cheeks. "I was so caught up in my own frustrations that I lashed out at you, and I hate myself for it. You don't deserve to be treated that way, especially not by me."
You studied his face, searching for any sign of insincerity, but all you saw was genuine remorse and regret. And despite the pain still raw in your chest, you couldn't deny the love you felt for him, the longing to mend what had been broken between you. âYou hurt me,â you whispered but didnât push him away as he laid down with you, holding you close to his chest. Some of your resolve wavering when you felt his fast heartbeat. âI wanted you there so much.â He nodded as he shushed you, his own eyes dropping tears. âIâm so so sorry, baby. I can't even begin to express how deeply I regret the way I acted the whole day, I know you deserve so much more but-â You shifted slightly, knowing all that you wanted right now was comfort, you didn't want to forgive him or minimize the weight of his actions. "I don't know if I can right now," you replied, your voice trembling with the weight of your emotions.
Lewis's eyes brimmed with tears as he whispered, "Please don't shut me out. I can't bear the thought of losing you."
You felt a pang of guilt at the pain evident in his voice. "I just need some time to process everything," you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.
"I understand," Lewis replied, his tone filled with sorrow. "But please know that I'm here whenever you're ready to talk."
You nodded, silently acknowledging his words as you allowed yourself to be enveloped in his comforting embrace.Â
"I promise to make it up to you," Lewis vowed earnestly, his voice laced with determination. "I'll do whatever it takes to earn back your trust."
"I want to believe you," you admitted quietly, your heart heavy with uncertainty. Everything was a little too raw right now and your emotions were all over the place.
"I'll spend every moment proving it to you," Lewis declared, his eyes locking with yours in a silent vow.
âI was thoughtless and cruel today, and I never should have let those words leave my lips. You are not insecure, you are strong and resilient, baby. You deserve so much better than the hurtful words I spoke. Please know that I canât lose you, Y/N. I will work tirelessly to regain your trust and rebuild what I have so carelessly shattered. You mean the world to me, and I will spend every moment striving to be worthy of your love.â
Carlos Sainz
As you sat nervously in your childhood home, the familiar sights and sounds providing little comfort, your mind raced with thoughts of disappointment and hurt.
For the third time, Carlos had failed to join you in meeting your parents, leaving you to face their questioning looks and unspoken concerns alone. You had rehearsed what you would say to them, how you would explain his absence, but each time, the words caught in your throat, choked by a mixture of frustration and sadness. For the past few days since you walked out of your apartment, you had been ignoring Carlosâ attempts to reconcile with you. The calls and texts he spammed you with were ignored and curses left your mouth as soon as your mind went back to the day of the argument, bringing unwanted tears to your eyes.
In the passing, you saw a Ferrari conference being conducted and as much as you wanted to reach out and talk it out with him, your heart did flips that you were sure you should have visited a doctor for.
Your parents, ever perceptive, noticed your unease as you fidgeted with the napkin in your lap, casting worried glances in your direction. You tried to muster a reassuring smile, but it faltered, betraying the turmoil within you.
How could you explain to them that the man you loved couldn't find the time to meet them, despite his promises and assurances? "What's wrong, sweetie?" your mom asked, concern evident in her voice.
You sighed, hesitating for a moment before replying, "It's Carlos... He likeâŚ"
Your dad's brow furrowed. "Is everything okay?"
You tried to muster a reassuring smile. "Yeah, he said that he got caught up with work. You know how busy he is with his racing and all..." Your dadâs brows furrowed when you trailed off, about to ask you what exactly you meant but just as you were steeling yourself to broach the subject, the doorbell rang, startling you from your thoughts.
Your heart sank as you realized it was likely a neighbor stopping by to meet you since you donât visit that often, you stood up to go greet them. But then, to your disbelief, you heard his voice drifting through the door, before you saw your boyfriend standing right behind it. Your head titled in confusion and you drew a breath that took most of the stress from the previous days away from your body.
"Sorry I'm late," he said, his tone apologetic yet determined. Carlos took your hand and kissed it lightly,"Traffic was a nightmare." âWhat about the conference that you-â âYouâre the most important person in my life, Y/N.â He cut you off before pulling you in and walking to the dining room that was in his vision. As if that was the answer to your question.
You turned to face him, your eyes wide with surprise and a flicker of hope. There he was, looking slightly disheveled but undeniably earnest, his gaze that locked on yours was as if it was seeking forgiveness. You could see the sincerity in his eyes, the regret etched in the lines of his face.
Your parents exchanged a glance, their expressions softening as they took in the sight of Carlos standing before them.Â
Despite their reservations about his repeated absences, they couldn't deny the genuine affection that Carlos held in his eyes when he looked at you.
Before you could find the words to respond, Carlos took a step forward, his hand reaching out tentatively. "I'm really sorry, both of you," he said, addressing your parents directly.
"I know how important this is to you, and I should have made more of an effort to be here on time."
His words hung in the air, a silent acknowledgment of his shortcomings and a pledge to do better. You felt a surge of emotion welling up inside you, a mixture of relief, gratitude, and a glimmer of renewed faith in your relationship. "Well, we're just glad you could make it," your dad said, offering Carlos a handshake.
"Thank you for coming, Carlos," your mother said, her voice warm yet cautious. "We understand that life gets busy, but it's important to make time for the people who matter most."
Carlos nodded, his expression earnest as he met her gaze. "I couldn't agree more. Family means putting in effort, I promise to make it up to all of you."
As you sat down to dinner, the atmosphere was tinged with a sense of reconciliation and hope. Your hand still intertwined with his as you saw him charm your family. Despite the rocky start, Carlos's presence brought a newfound sense of unity and understanding to the table. And as you shared stories and laughter, you couldn't help but feel grateful for the opportunity to mend what had seemed irreparably broken.
In that moment, you realized that love wasn't just about grand gestures or sweeping declarationsâit was about the everyday moments of connection and compromise, the willingness to forgive and grow together.
And as you looked at Carlos, his eyes filled with determination and affection, you knew that no matter what challenges lay ahead, you would face them together, hand in hand.
Charles Leclerc
Charles had apologized right after he had said those words and though you had both fallen back into routine, the underlying bitterness and resentment was still present. You werenât the one initiating any kind of affection from your side and every time Charles was initiating anything, you half assed your way out of it. Was it childish? Probably. But you were still not comfortable with how easily you had forgiven Charles, burying your hurt just to avoid conflict once again despite knowing deep down that he has hurt you probably more than anyone else ever has. These thoughts were running through your head as you sat beside Charles, your heart still heavy with the weight, you couldn't shake the feeling of unease that lingered in the air. Especially because Charles seemed distant, his mind preoccupied with thoughts, that you couldn't help but wonder what exactly they were. Why had he even asked to go on a date today? To break up with you? Suddenly, Pippa appeared, her presence causing the knot to form in your stomach to get tighter. She approached with a confident stride, a charming smile gracing her lips as she greeted Charles with a hug.
"Hey, Charlie!" Pippa exclaimed, her eyes flickering briefly in your direction before returning to Charles. "Long time no see!"
Charles returned her hug, though his embrace seemed somewhat forced. "Hey, Pippa. Yeah, it's been a while."Â
You observed their interaction closely, your unease growing with each passing moment. Pippa's presence always seemed to unsettle you, and you couldn't shake the feeling that there was more to their friendship than met the eye. Was he gonna break up with you in public and confess his years long feelings for Pippa? Charles glanced at you, his expression softening as he reached for your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours. "I was just out with Y/N today."
You couldn't help but feel a rush of warmth at his actions, his affectionate gesture soothing some of the tension that had been building between you.
"Nice to meet you, Y/N," Pippa said, offering you a friendly smile. "Sorry I didnât see you next to Charlie."
You returned her smile, though it didn't quite reach your eyes and managed to reply without gagging. "Nice to meet you, Pippa." Charles tightened his grip on your hand, silently reassuring you of his presence and support. "We were just grabbing a coffee," he explained, his gaze flickering between you and Pippa. "Care to join us?"
Pippa hesitated for a moment, her eyes narrowing slightly as she glanced at you before turning back to Charles. "Actually, I was hoping we could catch up alone, if that's okay."
You felt a pang of anxiety at her words, a sense of foreboding settling in the pit of your stomach. Despite your reservations, you nodded, forcing a smile as you released Charles's hand. It was better to walk away yourself than to have Charles dismiss you.
"Of course," you said, though your voice sounded strained even to your own ears. "I'll wait for you outside."
Charles shot you an alarmed look as you stood up,âIâll see you in a few.â Charlesâ hand lingered on yours for a moment longer before you reluctantly let go and made your way to the door.
You leaned against your car and enjoyed the wind for a second. You couldnât help but catch a glimpse of the exchange between your boyfriend and his best friend sitting inside.
You were half scared to find them kissing or something but, instead a sense of confusion washed over you as you watched the way Pippa was angrily point a finger at Charles and scream at him.
It was a second later when she stormed out before making her way towards you.
"Is he doing this because of you?!" Pippa's accusatory tone sent a shiver down your spine, her words hitting too close to home.
Before you could even process what was happening, Charles emerged from the cafe, his expression determined as he approached you and Pippa.
"Go home, Pippa," he said firmly, his voice leaving no room for argument as he intertwined his hand with yours.
Pippa's eyes blazed with anger, her fists clenched at her sides as she glared at Charles. "You will regret this, Charles!" she spat before storming off, leaving you both standing there in stunned silence.
Once Pippa was out of sight, you turned to Charles, your heart pounding in your chest. "What was that all about?" you asked, your voice trembling slightly.
Charles sighed, running a hand through his hair as he looked at you with apologetic eyes. "I'm sorry you had to witness that, Y/N. Pippa has been... difficult lately."
You frowned, your mind reeling with confusion and frustration. "Difficult how?"
Charles hesitated for a moment, his gaze searching yours as if trying to find the right words. "She's been pushing boundaries, trying to come between us. But I won't let her."Â
"Hey," he continued, taking your hand in his. "I told Pippa that I wouldn't be spending time with her alone anymore. If she can't accept you, then it's better for us to not be friends at all."
You blinked in surprise, a rush of gratitude flooding through you at his words. "Really?"
Charles nodded, squeezing your hand gently. "Really. You're the most important person in my life, and I won't let anyone come between us."
Tears welled up in your eyes as you wrapped your arms around him, holding him close. "Thank you, Charles. I appreciate you standing up for us."
He smiled softly, squeezing your hand reassuringly. "I'll always stand up for us, Y/N. You mean everything to me."
Tears welled up in your eyes as you threw your arms around him, holding him close. Despite the lingering bitterness and resentment, you couldn't deny the overwhelming love you felt for him in that moment.
Lando Norris
As you stepped out of the taxi, the cool night air enveloped you, offering a moment of respite from the whirlwind of emotions that had engulfed you throughout the evening.
Your heart still felt heavy with the weight of Lando's hurtful words, but beneath the pain, a numbness resided- knowing deep down that you mightâve just broken up with your boyfriend.
Before you could take another step, you heard the sound of hurried footsteps approaching from behind. Turning around, you saw Lando rushing towards you, his eyes filled with remorse and his expression wrought with sorrow. Your hand instinctively went to your chest, trying to calm the rapid beating of your heart.
"Y/N, please wait," he called out, his voice pleading as he reached your side, breathless from his haste.
You pulled your face to meet his eyes, uncertainty and wariness etched into your features as you met his gaze. Part of you yearned to turn away, to shield yourself from the pain of his words, but another part couldn't help but hope that maybe, just maybe, he was sincere in his apology.
"Lando," you said softly, your voice tinged with a mixture of hurt and apprehension. You wanted to say more but the damn ball in your throat stopped you doing so.
He took a deep breath, his eyes never leaving yours as he searched for the right words to express the depth of his regret. "I know I messed up, Y/N. I hurt you, and I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am for that."
His words washed over you like a soothing balm, offering a sliver of comfort. But still, you couldn't bring yourself to let go of the hurt that lingered in your heart.
"I should have been there for you tonight, supporting you and showing you how much you mean to me," Lando continued, his voice filled with genuine remorse. "Instead, I let my own selfishness and insecurities get in the way, and for that, I am truly sorry."
Tears welled up in your eyes as you listened to him, the sincerity in his voice echoing the ache in your own heart. You were sure youâll regret letting go of this amazing relationship without at least attempting to work on it.
Despite the pain he had caused you, you couldn't help but feel a glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, there was still a chance to rebuild what had been broken.
"I don't expect you to forgive me right away, Y/N," Lando said softly, his hands shaking and showcasing the intensity of his vulnerability.
"I know I have a lot of work to do to earn back your trust and your love. But please, just give me a chance to make things right. I promise to do whatever it takes to show you how much you mean to me, every single day for the rest of my life."
His words hung in the air, heavy with sincerity and remorse, leaving you torn between the desire to hold onto the pain of the past and the hope for a brighter future. As you gazed into his eyes, searching for any hint of insincerity or deceit, all you found was raw honesty and unwavering devotion.
With a heavy heart and a flicker of hope, you reached out to take his hand, intertwining your fingers with his. "I don't know if I'm ready to forgive you just yet, Lando," you whispered, your voice trembling with uncertainty.
Lando takes a step closer, gently cupping your face in his hands. "I'll spend every moment proving I'm worthy of your love, Y/N. Let me show you how much you mean to me, starting from this moment. I'll do whatever it takes to earn back your trust, even if it means giving you the space you need. Just know that I'm here for you, whenever you're ready."

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forbidden fruit - pt 2 - n.hischier
summary: taylor has to go back to nyc for press before she goes to the lake for the summerâŚâŚ. and meets up with her âfriendâ
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taylorhughes đ¤
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taylorhughes mine do!
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taylorhughes forever yours
nicohischier Me gusta la luna en tu espalda (I like the moon on your back)
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_quinnhughes Ok what is going on here
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markestapa guys sheâs visiting me!!
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jackhughes IS THAT A GUY
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(Tay, TZ, Lukey, Huggy, Rowden, CC, Alex)
TZ: YOU KNOW AARON JUDGE and his WIFE?
Tay: you donât? lame
Rowden: OFF TOPIC â WHOâS THE GUY
CC: Itâs Mark Estapa duh
Tay: Oh sweet ColeâŚ
Lukey: You need to bring him to the lake
Tay: so you can drown him?
Lukey: No comment
Huggy: Iâm invested because I have a good idea who it is
Tay: Well Iâve never been subtle
Rowden: Please tell me itâs someone cool with hot girl friends
Tay: oh heâs very cool. very important. very hot and has good looking friends â donât know if he has anyone for you though
TZ: CAN I KNOW WHO IT IS
Tay: ur a loud mouth
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Tay: SHUT UP SHUT UP
TZ: OH MY GOD
Alex: đ¤Ş
Rowden: IS IT MAX FRIED?
Tay: he tried but no!
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Nđ¤: Do they have any idea?
Tđ: they are so far off right now! youâre still stopping by the lake later this month?
Nđ¤: Jack sent the invite out yesterday on when we should come
Tđ: see you then lover
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Heeyyy! Soooo I have a fun request idea that I totally came up with on my own with no help from anybody else, from my own mind and not some super creative person that answered my question about Arthur proposing to reader 𤣠it goes something like this:
-takes three months to work up the nerve and like another one to pick out one ring.
-chickens out at least two times bc the moment isn't right
-asks Hosea for advice 19 times (Hosea is tired)
-he's the trope where reader starts crying and he's like ohh goddd i fucked up of course you don't wanna marry my ass
-the way he would ride around for a week looking for the perfect spot to do it
-marks it on his map with a heart
-the essays he would write in his journal about this situation
-he's so cute i love him pls marry me Arthur Morgan
-awww once you say yes??
Hehehehe no pressure though!!!!! I just looooovvvveeeee this idea so much!
Yes !!! Yes of course Iâll write this!!! â¤ď¸â¤ď¸đđđĽ°đĽ°đľâđŤđľâđŤđŠđŠAs always it ended up running really long even though I didnât even really flesh out a back story. 𼲠Iâm glad you enjoyed my response âşď¸âşď¸ I definitely had high honor Arthur Morgan in mind for this when I read it, I hope itâs ok and that you like it!!! I was so happy to see you in my inbox !!! @zae-heeyyy đđđđđ writing this was so cathartic and I loved the rdr1 setting so much so that I made this pre black water heist or whatever đ𫶠from Arthurâs pov hope you like the characterization đĽš
Tags: established relationship, marriage proposals?? Arthur being a major weenie. Like huge weenie. He is soooo sooo sweet itâs almost like too much and I love love love sweet Arthur so very fluffy!!!! Pre black water !! Dutch being a jerk đ but cute dad Hosea moments âşď¸
Arthur wants things to be perfect for you.
(High honor) Arthur Morgan x fem. Reader
Arthur knows heâs made up his mind when heâs in the tailorâs shop in Blackwater, looking like a lowdown cattle rustler among all of the fancy fabrics on the wall. He and his spurs, his boots scuffed to hell and a leather satchel slung over his chest. Heâs out of place and he knows it. But heâs here to buy a new shirt.
Yesterday, he had nearly driven himself insane looking for a shirt of his that wasnât ruined, ripped and mended, dirty, stained irreparably. None of them were good enough for what he wanted, something nice to get down on one knee and ask his girl to marry him. And so he kissed you goodbye and rode into town in search of something better. He makes an effort at pretending to be interested in any of the fancy stuff, silk and linen suits that he sure will never be fitted for him. He clears his throat as the attendant drags his eyes away from the sunday paper.
A tight lipped smile consumes the man's face. Arthur already can sense the assumptions heâs getting but he pays little mind to it. Heâs getting this shirt and that's that.
âHow can I help you, sir?â Obnoxious and nasally, the thin and short man's voice already gives away his air of superiority. Arthur's eyes narrow but he isnât too irritated yet.
âHere to get a shirt.â His words are simple. The attendant raises a brow.
âJust a shirt, not⌠pants or shoes?â the attendant lowers the paper to scan over the rest of Arthurâs clothes. Arthur can hardly ignore the burn of insecurity.
He gives a look that conveys how quickly he is losing his patience. âExcuse me?â He can only tell his posture changed when he observes the man's attitude change, clinging to the counter between them like it would make any difference.
âNo, well sir, perhaps Iâve overstepped, I apologize. What kind of-of shirts were you thinking?â
âListen, I ainât here to cause no trouble, just show me what youâve got,â The attendant hurries to show him some options, tries to sell him a vest but that isnât happening with his budget.
In the end, he picks a blue french dress shirt. Costs a real pretty penny but he wants it to be special. Because youâre special. He stuffs it away in a saddlebag after thanking the attendant, who no doubt heaves a sigh of relief after he leaves.
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Heâs been collecting rings. In a special bag is a collection. A few plain gold bands, some with stones set in them. Theyâre pretty blue and red gems, some have filigree detailing. But he still canât find the right one.
Worse then, is that theyâre rings of all different sizes which he gets from his more sordid activities. Debt collecting or train robberies. Itâs all stolen goods. It feels wrong to give you something like that but when he told Dutch his intentions, he clapped him on the back and told him to look in the collection box for more rings. He nodded then but it was half hearted. Somehow that was more souring. Did he really want to give you something he took from someone else? That someone else bought for their loved one with the express purpose of giving them something to symbolize how they loved each other? His own thoughts swirl circles in his head, why he had these scruples about it, he didnât know.
Itâs riding with Hosea that he asks for advice. Theyâve been working on a job in Tumbleweed, trying to con some poor fool into giving money he shouldnât by pretending to sell land deeds. They ride all the way from the yellow grasses of Henniganâs Stead and itâs been mostly quiet over the stretch of passing though Armadillo. Arthur decides to speak up after they pass through town. The sun is beginning to dip a bit lower in the sky but theyâll be in Tumbleweed before then.
âI been-â
âThis about you nâ the girl?â Hosea already has a knowing smile and Arthur rubs the back of his neck. âI think you should do it! You two would make quite the couple, sheâs a sweetheart, that girl,â
âYeah, she-sheâs⌠Iâve been lookinâ at rings to give âer,â He grips the reins before going lax, riding easily along the path. Hosea murmurs, letting Arthur continue. He guides Boadicea down the dusty road. âI donât think I wanna give her something I got robbinâ, donât seem right,â
âThen get her something new, I donât think sheâll mind at all. But you do what you think you should. You could probably fence all the other rings you thought about and get her something quite nice with the cash,â
âYeah, I could do that,â why hadn't he thought of that?
âThatâs a wonderful thing, getting married. Donât be afraid to, yâknow, go through with it. If youâre thinkinâ about it. Maybe, once Dutch and I find the perfect spot for the gang to settle down, weâll build you two your own little thing on the land,â
âYou that confident sheâll say yes?â Arthur has an awkward and disbelieving laugh but Hosea keeps his earnest smile.
âWhy wouldnât she? Arthur, somehow, she has gone for a man like you, you should be over the moon, you should be whistling tunes everywhere you go,â
âLike me? What's that supposed to mean?â He knows what he means. A man like him had very little to offer you, a young woman who could easily charm some other well established man into giving you a home. Leagues away from his cot and the weathered canvas he put up to give you some small amount of privacy.
âYou remember what happened with that Mary woman. This time, things oughta turn out better. This oneâs got no old man to chase you around with a shotgun,â Hosea figures himself very funny and laughs, ending it with a shallow cough. Arthur furrows his brows.
Of course he reminded him of his disaster with Mary. He could never escape that woman, even when he severed ties with her. But how he had wanted to, especially with you. Yes, it was true, he had loved Mary. But now he loves you. He needs you. His idea of the rest of his life always includes you, laying in bed with him, gently stroking his chest, leaving him love notes in his satchel, telling him what happened in the camp while he was gone. He always listens, always wakes up smiling with you tucked under his arm.
âI remember just fine,â he grunts,
âGood, because youâll forget about her soon enough. Month from now, I suppose. Where are you going to tell her?â
âWhere? I didnât think we was gonna go nowhere, just tell her when I was ready toâŚâ he hadnât even imagined a place when he first set out to do this.
âSo you wanna propose; with Uncle standing behind her, drunk off his ass in just his soiled union suit?â
âI-â
âTake her somewhere special, somewhere to make her feel special! Women like to feel special, Arthur, you know that,â
âI do?â He says, with a sarcastic edge to his voice, though he tries on his attempt at sounding uninvested.
âYou should. I didnât do that enough. I should have before, wellâŚâ Arthur nods, bowing his head a little as if in remembrance. He hopes to always have you by his side. Otherwise he would be much like Hosea: carrying a torch for a woman who passed through his life too quickly.
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He starts his journey looking for something special. Special like you are. Keeps his eye out, marking potential things in his map, and makes a list in his journal. Aurora Basin maybe, a pretty lake deep in the forest but getting attacked by bears doesnât sound romantic in any way. There are some sweeping vistas overlooking the San Luis River in Rio Bravo. He isnât quite sure about anything though, thinking it over deeply. He just wants things to be perfect.
Heâs still thinking about it when he comes back to camp, close to Lake Don Julio, sighing. Thinking much too hard obviously, he doesnât notice that youâre sitting on his bed, biting your nail nervously until you see him first. You look worried, happy to see him but worried. You stand, hugging your arms around yourself and then placing them on your hips to make you seem more upset but you just drop them when heâs close enough.
âHey, darlinâ,â He utters, opening his arms to give you a hug but you just look up at him. He drops them, mentally kicking himself before taking his hat off and sitting down on his bed.
âArthur, youâve been gone three days,â
âI know,â youâre disappointed in his answer. You take a breath and a pause, looking off to the right. He stares down at his scuffed and weather worn boots. He hates to disappoint you, hates when youâre upset. It takes a lot to get you there, too. Youâre a forgiving soul when he knows he doesnât deserve forgiveness. He looks away, like a dog who knew he shouldnât have chewed those leather boots up to bits.
âYou know. I asked everyone where you were and they didnât know,â
âHoney, I ainât gonna leave you, Iâm not-â
âYou leave other men out of this, Arthur,â you already predicted heâd bring another manâs failings to make up for his own. Maybe bringing up Johnâs shortcomings while youâre upset is a little below the belt but it worked better in his head. He puffs some air out in a laugh. God, he just canât seem to find the right words to say.
âIs something funny? Is how much-how much I worry funny to you?â You look like youâre gonna cry, squeezing your arms tight around yourself. Your eyes flick around, thinking of all the people watching, never any goddamn privacy in this place. You start to back up, looking for a place to hide your tears.
âNo, no, I- Iâm sorry, donât go walkinâ away,â You let him pull you back. Let him tug you into his lap. You sniff and tuck into his neck. âIâm sorry,â he says at least 5 more times. His hands pet down your hair, holding you. He hadnât wanted to come back to such a harrowing fear in the pit of his stomach, the thought of you walking off without him. He thinks himself lucky that you havenât had enough of him and decided to leave already.
Arthur pulls you in real tight, doesnât let up tilâ you start to calm down a little. âShouldnât cry for me, sweet girl, bastard like me ainât worth them tears,â he wipes a few away. Seeing you like this could make him cry if he thought about it too much, how he had let you down. His nerves almost make him tremble, the slightest shake in his fingers when he brushes them under your eyes, shiny with tears. If anyone else made you cry, heâd knock their teeth out. But what is he supposed to do when itâs him? Sickness roils around his abdomen.
âWhere were you, anyway?â You shake your head at his words. âMac and Davey saidâŚâ he perks up at that. Those boys are a terror. His face screws up in an anticipated anger. Heâd be angrier with them, theyâre the ones who need to see it, not you.
âWhatâd they say?â
âNo, they were just messing with me. I donât think itâs true,â You look away. But he knows exactly how nasty those boys can be. He gives you a look and you give him a defeated one in return. An embarrassment leaks into your words. You canât meet his eyes, twiddling your fingers.
âThey said you were at the saloon in town. They said things that arenât true and I know it but it isnât nice to leave me here with nothing to say about it,â
âI know, darlinâ, next time, youâll be the first to know where Iâm goinâ,â You nod and wrap an arm around his shoulder while he pats your back, grabs your thigh so he can pull you to sit across his lap fully.
âAre you gonna answer my question or should I take their word?â you tease and he reassures you about those boys. Theyâll be hearing from him soon enough.
âIâm gonna have a word with them, donât worry about it,â he scratches his beard. How is he supposed to say that he went riding around looking for a place to take you so he can ask you to take his sorry hand in marriage? He had already disappointed you and saying itâs a secret is a laughable idea.
âWell, I was out, uhh- huntinâ?â You frown and lean away.
âArthur, youâre an awful hunter and an awful liar,â you look really hurt. You almost stand but he pulls you back. He needs something to tell you and fast.
âI was out lookinâ for somethinâ real special to give you. Itâs supposed to be a surpriseâŚbut well, I canât keep no secrets from you, sweetheart,â You fuss a little, a wariness in your posture. You study his expression. It isnât a complete lie, makes it a bit easier to pull off. He really does have a surprise for you. He tries to keep his face neutral, but his lips twitch up when yours do to, a small smile shining through the clouds of your emotional turmoil.
âWhat surprise?â
âI didnât find it, guess a surprise, itâs gonna have to stay,â You pout and wiggle, a soft chuckle rumbling in his chest.
âOk, but once you find it, you better take me to see it right away,â You kiss him, soft and sweet, holding his prickly jaw in one hand. He can feel how your pout gives way to a smile. The feeling of your soft lips on his is one of those things heâll never get sick of, never get over.
âI will, promise,â
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Heâs found the perfect ring, really, by chance. Itâs a little thing but itâs the right color, goes well with you. The rock on it isnât very big but he saw it in a window while in town. Some big fancy jewelry store, showing off all the finer things that he never paid any mind to. Unless it was to steal it of course. But he had bought it. With money that may have been also robbed but it was from hitting a Del Lobo stash. A good deed, probably in a backwards sense.
The girls had âoohedâ at it, Mary-Beth had an excited tiny clap and Tilly rejoiced. Jenny nodded with a small smile.
âWeâre happy for you Arthur! Oh my god, Arthur Morgan, gettinâ marriedâŚâ Tilly giggles, putting her hands to her cheeks and clasping her hands in front of the skirt of her yellow dress.
Karen laughed. âNever thought Iâd see the day,â
âDonât listen to her, I mean we was hoping when we saw you two huddled up all the time,â Mary-Beth takes the ring from him, holding it closer, so that Jenny and Tilly can get a closer look.
âHey, be careful with that,â he murmured, trying not to sound too desperate. He scratches his neck instead of snatching it back like his instinct wants him to. Evening is coming soon, purple dusk and soft coyote yipping and howling far in the distance marks the sun's descent. Meaning youâre probably finishing up whatever it is youâre doing. He hopes you donât come around the corner at an inopportune time. Arthur turns his head this way and that.
âWhereâd you get it? Looks new, ainât scuffed to high heaven like everything else around here,â Jenny points out and the girls nod.
âBought it in town,â playing it off doesnât work so well.
They âoohâ some more. âFancy. Only the best for Arthurâs sweetheart,â Karen coos teasingly.
âGimme that,â grumbling, he takes the ring back, bowing his head so they canât see the embarrassment plain on his face. He meanders off after asking how things have been. Of course, they only give him updates about you, Karen jokes that thatâs all he wants to hear about anyway. He scoffs and wishes them a good evening.
But the perfect spot is yet to be discovered. Evades him like just about nothing else. He almost gives up on the idea. Heâs been taking you out, trying to get you in the almost perfect moments. Taking you out on the town in Blackwater was a good time, he bought you dinner and took you on a stroll down the cobbled streets, watching your face light up when you saw something pretty in a window, clutching his hand and pulling him in more. He almost proposed on the veranda at the Blackwater saloon. Only for a fight to break out at the poker table to interrupt.
Then he took you out to see the poppy fields in Great Plains. But he had let his anxiousness and his nerves overtake him. He had tucked the ring away. You had looked so beautiful standing among the flowers, it was perfect but he justâŚcouldnât. Instead, he wrote in his journal about his own cowardice. Wrote about if he should lock you to him for the rest of your life. If heâd end up leaving you a widow. Or if you were to be taken from him like Annabelle and Bessie. Leaving behind lonely men who longed for a woman gone from this world. Then he scribbled pictures of you, trying to draw the motion in your hair and in your dress and the beaming most enchanting smile he had ever seen.
Boadicea munched on the long wheat grass, waving in the wind while he kept a watchful eye on you, picking flowers in your pretty dress fluttering against the bright blue of the sky. You have a bunch of candy orange poppy flowers held together by your palms, a bright smile on your face. You walk to where he sits, leaning against the tree, next to a small broken down stone fence. Your smile falters when you see his pensive expression. You come close enough to touch. You dangle one flower above him before you tuck it into the frayed ropes banded around the crown of his hat. He lowers his head while you fuss. Smiling like a fool. You smile again too, sitting beside him. You both listen to the sound of the quiet plains, breeze in the branches above him. The shade is cool, light filters beautifully over your features, speckled like the back of a doe.
âSomething has been going on with you, Arthur,â you state as pure fact, knowing him all too well. You had only really known each other a year and have only been together as a couple for six months but you knew him better than anyone else. You had let him be himself, let him justâŚbe. He didn't need to say anything for you to understand him.
âIâve just been⌠thinkinâ bout some things,â
âReally? I thought you said you werenât very good at that,â you smile a little, nudging his shoulder. Hoping to lift his spirits with his similar brand of humor but when he hardly huffs a laugh, you frown. âIs it about you and me?â
âYeah, in a way,â he says, unable to hide anything from you. Why should he bother? Saying no would make you more suspicious. Arthur closes his eyes and can feel the panic rising in you. He could have been better about saying it but heâs quick to deflect it away from his secret. âYou happy with me?â low and grumbled, the severity makes his tone go way down.
âI donât understand. Do I not seem happy? Arthur, Iâve neverâŚIâve never been happier than I am with you. Youâre the kind of man any girl would be lucky to have,â You smile, leaning to face him. Softening up, your eyes track over his face.
He wanted to ask you right then and there. Tell you just how much you complete him. How lucky he was to have you, how there never was a happier time in his life. He doesnât believe in that sentiment you have, he had failed the women in his life. But he had wanted to make a vow, to never leave you alone. Itâs his own nerves that wrap tight around his hands, donât let him reach in his satchel for the little treasure that will be your wedding ring.
âNo, I just know I been gone, I donât wanna ignore you. I just been busy,â
âYou have things to do,â You sigh heavily. âI wish the other men would be as helpful as you. Sometimes, I watch Sean, Uncle, and Bill lay around all day while youâre out working. It doesnât seem fair,â Your brows pinch in a small dissatisfaction with the idea. He smirks.
âI donât know how much I trust Sean to get things done right. Weâd probably eat nothinâ but leaded rabbit meat and whiskey if we left it up to that boy,â You giggle and nod. Happy to see him back in his joking mood.
âArthur⌠You know I love you, donât you?â God, those words make him shiver. Make his heart rattle in his chest. Could swear his insides turn about 3 times. So sweet, you look at him, hands on his thighs, leaning into his side. He opens his arm for you to tuck into, grabbing your waist to pull you close.
âYeah, I do. Love you more,â he can feel heat flush up his neck and cheeks but he doesnât care if he looks like a lovesick idiot. Your joy is worth it. The wind blows your hair over your shoulder, you let him sweep it back some more. Your pretty laugh when he bows over to lay you down on the grass makes him chuckle.
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Heâs finally found it. Montana Ford. A shallow spot in the river he discovered, looking for a short cut trying to cross from New Austin into West Elizabeth. He hated riding through the Del Lobo populated Thieves Landing, especially after they were catching on that it was Dutch and his boys robbed their stash two weeks ago. He sighed and then he veered off the road, looking for somewhere to cross. And the shaded river was perfect.
He stays there a moment, looking at the pretty grass growing alongside the water, the light glittering over the surface. The sound of the river rushing by fills his head pleasantly. Youâd love it, youâd toss your boots aside and wade into the river, lifting your skirts high enough to hopefully not get wet. But youâd be wet anyway. Heâd do it too, you made him feel like he was twenty despite his thirty some years on this earth.
He decides to sit and sketch it and write about you. Just how excited he was at how everything was coming together. He feels like a kid, sappy but too devoted to care very much at the small heart he puts on his map. Heâs almost embarrassed of himself. Even with no one to see. He folds his map up and stuffs his journal away, whistling his horse over. With a soft word or two, he mounts up and continues on to his destination.
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It's been three days since he found the spot he would take you to and heâs had a ring in his satchel that glares up at him every time he opens it to pull out a cigarette. Of course, just as everything comes together, Dutch insists he go scouting for some new venture, looking to follow a treasure hunter so they could rob him. It ends up being a whole lot of nothing from a bad tip but Dutch has a ânothing ventured, nothing gainedâ speech to try and lick his own wounds at Arthurâs expense. Arthur rolls his eyes. Feels his hands knot into fists.
âMaybe next time, itâll be you runninâ all over New Austin on some wild goose chase! And Iâll give you this bullshit. Wouldnât that be just fine, wasting your goddamn time-â
âArthur, calm down! I donât have time for your complaining. Where is that girl of yours? Why donât you blow some of that steam off with her? Itâs obvious to me-â
âDutchâŚstop pushing the boy,â Hosea remarks from where heâs reading a book nearby. Arthur postures to continue arguing and Dutch shoots a glare before waving him off. He looks to Hosea and backs away, huffing. But before he can go for a smoke to hopefully calm himself down so he could be with you, Hosea calls him over.
âSo⌠have you popped the question?â
âNo, I ainât got time most days,â He sighs in defeat, dropping his weight on the seat next to him, resting on his knees, leaned over. He takes his hat off to adjust his hair before putting it back on. He hadnât seen you in another two days on account of this stupid ploy to rob a treasure hunter who didnât know left from right and east from west. What an idiot. But not nearly as foolish as he.
âTomorrow, Iâll tell Dutch to leave you out of these plots of his. Iâll even tell Miss Grimshaw that sheâll be gone. Take her and ride away for a couple of days. I hope to see a ring on her finger when you get back. In fact, Iâll be expecting it!â Hosea has a smile on his face, the excitement is genuine. Arthur nods.
âAnd what if she says no?â
âWell you keep at it. Perhaps a little persistence is all you need but why do you insist on imagining the worst?â Itâs as if after asking, he considers why Arthur might not want to change things irreparably, might have already put his heart on the line and had it thrown away before.
âArthur, the sting of rejection must be prettyâŚpretty lamentable. But you wouldnât be trying this hard if you really thought you didnât have a good chance,â Hosea sets his book down. âGo get some rest⌠leave first thing in the morning,â Hosea pats Arthur lightly on his shoulder. Arthur looks up as Hosea wanders in the direction of his tent.
His heart does yearn to see you at his side, wearing his ring on your finger. To hear you referred to as Mrs. Morgan. But all he can see is an incredulous look on your face. âMarry? Me? Arthur, you must be joking,â you laugh and laugh. Youâd never be so cruel but whatever part of him hates his own guts imagines the scenarios with great fervor. The anger from the rest of his day and the anger at himself grit against each other. He growls low before marching off to his tent.
Youâre already inside, looking very lovely, one of his mended shirts serving as something of a robe to wear over your underthings. You look up and smile. He could forget the whole world just by looking at you. You hum, scooting over in bed.
âArthurâŚâ the way you call his name, you hardly need to give him any pet names, just Arthur will do.
âCome out with me tomorrow. First thing in the morning,â He states. More like a command, the residual anger drips off his words. You look at him strangely.
âAlright but Iâd like to know what all of this is about first,â You set whatever you were working on, perhaps brushing your hair as you set a horsehair brush aside. You give him a concerned look.
âFound that surprise,â he grumbles, sitting down and tugging his boots off. âHope youâll like it butâŚâ he stops to tug his gun belt off, his suspenders too. Arthur rests his hat gently on the side table. âCanât be too sure til I show it to ya,â You smile softly.
âI think if you think I like it, Iâll love it,â God, he hopes so. Anticipation bounces around in his head and in his lungs. Heâs practically short of breath. How heâs going to sleep, he has no idea.
âYeah?â you hum in agreement. Looking sleepy, heâs endeared by how your eyes blink slowly, how you wiggle onto his chest the second he lays down. Your hands rub down his chest and belly. Youâre asleep in a matter of minutes. He almost wishes he had you for company still but heâd never wake you for something so selfish. Instead, he pets down your hair and listens to your breathing, the natural hush that covers the camp once itâs too late for much of anything but small chatter.
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Like clockwork, he wakes early. He canât remember falling asleep but you're softly murmuring, you wonât wake unless he expressly wakes you. He gives himself time to put on that shirt he bought and rub his hand over his face at how nervous and silly he feels buttoning it up. He pulls a jacket over it to hopefully hide how ridiculous he looks. The morning is a pale blue when he steps out, thinking to bring you coffee to wake you.
You dress, half asleep, when he comes back to you, humming into the cup he brought you. You wear something nice but not overstated. You put kisses on him to wish him a good morning after youâve decided youâre cleaned up enough.
He helps you up on his horse, Boadicea already very used to you. The ride isnât too bad and you certainly make it better, heâs quiet with nerves, responding as much as he can without getting lost in his thoughts. The sun has climbed up and blazed down on you for a while by the time you get there. But your face when you see his surprise is too precious, eager to slip off the back of his horse.
âArthur, itâs so beautiful!â The summer sun is high in the sky, perfect for your plans as you tug your boots off. He ambles after you, hitching his horse to a tree. Youâre already sighing and knee deep in the center of the river. Your stockings lay haphazardly tossed over your boots. Youâre some fabled creature, come from somewhere else. He could see it. No woman shined like you did, at least not how he saw things.
Just like he imagined, he rolls his pants up and tosses his boots aside, the spurs jingle when they hit the ground. The light catches the riverâs surface, shades of yellow and green, the earth's gentle brown. Youâre excited to see him join you, taking his hand that he holds out to you, pressed to his belly and chest, just where you belong.
âYou like it, sweetheart?â He mumbles, really fishing for compliments. He knows you do but heâd love to hear you say it.
âI love it, Arthur, how could you say I wouldnât? Sometimes, youâre a silly man,â you laugh, sway with him in the river. Birds sing, the water is cool, itâs perfect. He pulls you up to a shallower part of the ford, the sun forms a halo around you, reminds him youâre pure heaven and he couldnât let you go.
âI have something else for you,â his voice is shaky instead of the easy confidence he likes to portray himself as. You look up excitedly but the dazzling smile slips off your face, you're shocked as he pulls a ring from his satchel and kneels down in the river.
âI-uhhhâŚI-â he had really planned all of this and didnât think of a single word to say. He can't bear to look up, heâs sure heâll lose his nerve. âI havenât lovedâŚanyone like I love you,â the ring looks tiny and pathetic in his fingers. Theyâre also calloused to hell but he continues anyway. âThere ainât anyone else for me in this world but you. I just wish I was a better man, you deserve more than I can give but⌠if you would have me,â he looks up and your hands cover your mouth and tears leak over your fingers.
He really had ruined everything, hadnât he? How was he supposed to go on living with you? What would he tell Hosea? His face falls and his heart cracks but heâd be glad to take you back home and disappear for a few days.
âIâm sorry, sweetheart, donât know what I thought,â
âArthur, just pleaseâŚâ you hold out your left hand. You wipe your tears, trying to compose yourself and when he sees your smile, your hand over your right cheek, he lets himself ease. âNothing would make me happier than to be- to be your wife, Arthur, you areâŚyouâre the best man I know,â you wiggle your fingers excitedly and he slips the ring over your ring finger. He stays stunned, kneeled in the water, his pants soaking it all up but he couldnât care less.
The ring looks so perfect on you. He holds your hand, kissing it like a knight of old, looking at him down on his knee, still crying but that brightness in your eyes is all he needs. Your giggle makes him smile at you too. And you drop to embrace him, tucking into his chest, arms around his neck. You murmur his name, rub his back. Tangle your fingers in his hair. He settles with you, surrounded by your unmistakable presence, basking in it. Holds you tighter, trying to not squeeze the air out of you. He breathes you in, holding you through your overwhelmed clinging, wiping your tears on his shoulder.
You pull back a little, enough to kiss him, his relief is groaned into your mouth. He loses track of himself and slips, sitting in a river with you in his arms, giggling more into his kiss.
You sit with him on the banks, trying to dry out after he tipped over. So much for his fancy shirt. He thinks the both of you will look half drowned by the time he brings you back to camp but he isnât sure he wants to go back. Just you and him for a few days sounds rather enticing. You keep looking at your ring, leaned into his shoulder. A pleased little smile blooms over your face. How can he not smile at how beautiful you look, hair wet at the ends, warm light casting its glow over you.
You look up at him, with a look that says youâre gonna cry again but you just give him a teary smile.
âIâm a lucky bastard, get to call you mine,â You wrap one tiny hand over his neck when you kiss him slow and deep, letting him consume the very air in your lungs, grip over your body to feel it. You moan just softly enough to pull on his need for you. But you part ways for you to continue.
âDid you really think Iâd say no?â you give him a sad frown. As if upset that he would think such a thing of you. You brush your fingers against his skin. He looks away.
âYou wouldnât have been the first,â you sigh.
âWho could say no to Arthur Morgan?â You ask no one in particular but he huffs a small laugh.
âMany people,â a joking tone tinges his words. But then he dips towards the sentimental. âDonât even remember, really, all I think about is you, darlinââŚâ You laugh before coming closer, unable and unwilling to part from him. He knows heâs a hundred and one percent sap but he lets himself melt in your presence.
âWell, it certainly wasnât me,â you wiggle your left hand in his face. He chuckles a little at your cute little fingers. âIâm gladâŚit means I get you all to myself,â The joy is boundless in his chest, he could light the night like a lightning bug with the flame in his heart.
âArthur, I⌠I⌠sometimes I donât have the words to tell you how much I love you,â you lean onto him. He shakes his head with what heâs sure looks like a stupid grin on his face. He wasnât sure this would be in the cards for him but here he is, with you.
âEvery part of me loves you, honey,â is all he has to say, paling in comparison to the pure power of your own words over him. They tumble clumsily from his mouth but you pull him down for kisses anyway. Your teasing âdo you?â has him nodding between your giggles and wet kisses.
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hellooo!! you write dad svt so beautifully i absolutely adore it! Please can I request some more dad!mingyu please please it makes me so soft reading how you write him!!!!đĽšđĽş
Thank you so much for loving my SVT dad series!đđŤśđ˝ I hope you like this one!đ
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Her own story
⥠Girl Dad Mingyu
⥠words : 398 words
The sun had barely risen when Kim Mingyu found himself staring at the pink backpack on the couch.
It was covered in sparkles and unicorn prints, something his daughter had picked herself with excitement two weeks ago. But nowâŚ...
now it felt like a goodbye.
âAppa!"
He turned around to see his daughter with her hair neatly tied in a ponytail, wearing her blue kindergarten uniform. Smilling and so excited. Unaware that her dadâs heart was breaking just a little.
âWow I have a big girl now,â he said with a gentle smile, kneeling to his daughter at her level.
âI AM A BIG GIRL NOW APPA!â she said with a smile.
âAre you sure youâre ready, baby?â he asked. âYou know you can just stay home for today with Appa and Eomma. Watch cartoons and make pancakes.â
âAppa,â she laughs. âNoooo, I want to go to school!â
He sighed dramatically. âOkay.â
You laughed and said, âOkay now let's go before your appa cry.â
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In the backseat, their daughter is happily singing her favorite song unaware to the emotional storm brewing in her dad's heart.
Mingyu looked at her daughter through the car's rearview mirror.
His first baby. The one who once grabbed his nose and bit his chin and fell asleep on his chest like she owned it.
And now she was leaving himâŚ
For school.
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Mingyu knelt down and fixed her uniform one last time.
âOkay,â he said. âDo you remember our three rules.â
She giggles. âYes!â
âOkay. 1.) Please be kind. 2.) Listen to your teacher. 3.) if anyone bullies you, Appa will fight them.â
âAppaaa,â she giggled.
You gave him THE look. âKim Mingyu.â
"Okay fine. No fighting.â
His daughter gave him a kiss on the cheek and hugged her mother âOkay! Bye Appa! Bye Eomma!â
And just like that she ran.
Brave. Confident.
And Mingyu stood frozen eyes glassy.

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When they picked her up, their daughter came running with her arms wide open.
âAppa!! Eomma!!"
And just like that all was right again.
âI missed you, appa" she whispered.
He hugged her tight. âI missed you more, baby.â
Then he picked up his daughter in the car, her tiny arms around his neck, and promised to himself he would never forget this day. The day his little girl walked into the world, and bravely began writing her own story.
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need anniversary jackson joel. like letters.. trying to make a romantic dinner.. maybe trying to get you gifts.. but has to run everywhere to get them.. pls like the legos w seth?? i know this man would go to great LENGTHS
A/N: AHHHH THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED !! THANK YOU SO MUCHđđ
March, 5:45am
Heâd spent all morning preparing his pack, ever since he overheard you and Maria talking about childhood toys he made it his mission to find you one. Was it childish? In his mind yes, but that wasnât going to stop him from searching in hopes to surprise you for your anniversary. Heâd watch as your chest rose and fell, the soft sounds of your breathing filling the quiet space as he kissed the top of your head before heading out to meet Tommy. He knew he wouldnât hear the end of it for not waking you up to say goodbye properly but that was something he could live with.
âWas thinking of leaving if you didnât show.â Tommy had joked earning an eye roll from Joel.
âI could go alone, get me away from you.â Joel would say, a hand coming to push Tommy.
âYouâre getting old, donât think youâd make it through it all.â Tommy smiled as he got on his horse.
âVery funny.â Joel getting on his and taking off ahead of Tommy.
The pair rode in silence until darkness filled the sky and set up camp, Joel manding the fire as Tommy prepped their first meal of the trip. The brothers made conversation as they ate.
âWhat the fuck is a monchhichi?â Tommy looked at him confused.
âSome doll she remembered her mother having when she was a kid.â Joel shrugged.
âAnd a Cabbage Patch?â Tommy added, Joel just shrugged as he shoveled the last of his food in.
âYou're out looking for dolls, toys.â Tommy emphasized on toys shaking his head. âYou must really love this girl.â
Joel didnât respond, he did love you. He really did.
His first connection was a bust, theyâd made their way through Utah with no luck when it came down to Tommyâs connection. Heâd confirmed they had one of two they were looking for but were over in New Mexico, itâd add on extra time but Joel didnât care. Upon arriving they came up short. Frustration ran through Joel as he and Tommy rode back home. The frustration is still evident when you see him return home. You donât push, but that still doesnât stop you from worrying.
June, 1:35pm
Your anniversary was a month away and heâd still come up short. Leaving for weeks on trips he called âsupply runsâ youâd grown suspicious each time heâd come home empty handed. The same excuse of âitâs for the communityâ but you didnât believe it. Tommy hadnât come this time and he denied Ellieâs protests, even yours because of your growing curiosity. He was alone and he was doing everything in his power to hunt these down for you yet it felt as if he was coming up short each time. This time he made his way towards California. He was gone longer this time but he knew the end result was going to be your happiness. His first stop was Anaheim. Heâs managed to find the cabbage patch you were talking about.
âCreepy little fucker..â he said looking at it before packing it away.
âFor your kid?â The tradesman asked, chuckling.
âMy wife.â Joel grumbled as he left heading for San Francisco next.
Riding through San Francisco he takes note of his surroundings, the place looks promising but thatâs what he thought last time. It wasnât until the lady handed him the doll he knew it was real.
âThanks.â He said before heading back out to make his way home.
âThe things I do for this woman.â He grumbled to his horse.
That night he returned was probably the first night you saw heâd returned home with a smile.
July, 5:50pm
Youâd be home soon, another day at the infirmary. Having a nurse for a spouse really did wonders when heâd come home from patrols, a mishap with a build gone wrong or even simple paper cuts. Heâd been in the kitchen all day just about. He was trying to cook, given today was your anniversary. It wasnât something he was skilled in nor did he ever really pre-outbreak but he figured why not try?
By the time 6 came around youâd been walking up the steps and through your front door. Time didnât exist in the moment as Joel didnât bother to check nor did he hear you walk in.
âWhatcha burning?â You asked, leaning against the door frame watching him as he jumped.
âDammit woman!â He held his chest. âIâm old, don't do that.â
âYou'll be alright.â You giggled as you walked up to him, wrapping your arms around his waist as you kissed him.
âI didnât expect you home yet.â He said.
âItâs after 6.â You remind him.
âShit.â He groans.
âShould I leave and come back?â You point to the door.
âWas trying to surprise you.â He sighed, throwing the towel over his shoulder.
âIâm sorry.â You apologized.
âNo no, itâs alright.â He waved you off. âFood is almost done but follow me.â
He lowered the heat before covering your eyes with his hands helping you walk.
âJoel?â You asked. âWhatâs going on?â
You nearly trip as he guides you.
âShit,â he exclaims, finally sitting you on a chair. âOkay keep them closed.â
He pauses going to grab something as you hear rustling and then two items placed in your lap.
âOpen.â He says as he watches you.
Looking at your lap you see two messily wrapped gifts, giggling.
âI know they look horrible.â He says.
âItâs the thought that counts.â You smile up at him. âThank you.â
You go to get up but he stops you.
âDonât thank me yet, open them.â He gestures.
âYou sure?â You watch as he nods before starting to unwrap one, as soon as you see the packaging your hand comes to your mouth. Joel canât tell if youâre going to cry or what.
âDo youâ you cut him off.
âWHERE DID YOU FIND THIS?â You hold the monchhichi close to you.
âOpen the other.â He points watching you beam in excitement as you open it, a small squeal coming from you.
âJOEL!â You yell, jumping up into his arms.
âIs this good or bad?â He holds you, confusion on his face.
âYouâre the best.â You mumble into his neck as you wrap your arms around his neck.
âDoes this make me husband of the year?â He asks.
âShut up.â You smile, kissing him.
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DEAR, HII!! TBH, I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT WHAT I WANT FOR A LONG TIME AND FINALLY CAME UP WITHđđđđ
Azul Ashengrottođđđ (SURPRISE-)
He and the reader play any board game in the board game club BUT they are alone in the classroom
Fluff (although you can add a little tension!!đđđ)
GOOD LUCK DARLING YOU'RE SO COOL
Checkmate, Maybe
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It was quiet in the Board Game Club room. The kind of quiet where every tiny sound felt a little too loud. The faint ticking of the old wall clock. The buzz of the overhead lights. The soft clatter of your game piece as you placed it down.
Azul adjusted his gloves for the third time in the last five minutes. Not because they were uncomfortableâheâd commissioned them with his own measurements, after allâbut because his hands were restless. You were sitting across from him, leaning forward slightly with that thoughtful look in your eyes, scanning the board like a tactician in the middle of a siege.
The classroom had emptied an hour ago. One by one, club members had filed out with goodbyes and waves. But you had lingered. And so had he.
Now it was just you and Azul. A two-person battlefield.
âYour move,â he said, his voice perfectly calmâbut there was a slight hitch at the end. You caught it.
You hummed, tapping your chin with your fingertip. âYou always sound so composed, but I can feel you sweating.â
Azul blinked. âI assure you, I am not sweating.â
âUh-huh,â you drawled, glancing up at him. âThatâs what people say when they are sweating.â
He cleared his throat and sat straighter in his chair. âConfidence is part of strategy.â
âOh? So this is your poker face?â you teased. âAdmit itâyouâre bluffing.â
âI never bluff.â He adjusted his glasses. âBluffing implies deception.â
You smiled. âThen youâre totally honest when you're flustered?â
Azul froze.
You grinned wider. Victory already tasted sweet.
He hatedâloathedâhow you made him second-guess himself. Not with the game itself (though you were decent), but with everything else. The tone of your voice. The tilt of your head. That glint in your eyes whenever he tried to pull off his usual composed charm and you effortlessly cracked through it like an egg.
Still, he inhaled slowly and tried to steady the flutter of something unfamiliar and far too distracting inside his chest.
âIf you spend too long analyzing my intentions,â he said smoothly, âyou may find yourself out of time.â
âOhhh, is that a threat?â You leaned your cheek into your palm, eyes sparkling.
âA warning,â he replied, with a hint of a smirk. âFrom a concerned opponent.â
You finally made your move, sliding a piece forward. The board shiftedâsubtly but definitively.
Azul frowned slightly.
Youâd trapped him.
Almost.
There was a counterplay, of courseâhe saw it instantly. But it would require sacrificing one of his more valuable pieces, a decision he hated making unless absolutely necessary.
âDidnât think Iâd catch you, huh?â you said, voice light with amusement.
Azul adjusted his glasses. âI never underestimate you.â
âLiar.â
âStrategist.â
You laughed. It was soft, real, and it curled like steam around his shoulders. Azul didnât realize he was smiling faintly until you looked at him.
He quickly masked it with a small cough.
âYouâre⌠quite good at this,â he said, making the sacrifice move with a precision that belied his internal screaming. âYouâve improved.â
âThanks.â You leaned back, stretching slightly in your chair. âIâve had a great sparring partner.â
âYou mean me?â
âI mean your face,â you snorted. âYou do this little twitch with your eyebrow when youâre overthinking.â
Azul froze, mid-reach.
âI do not.â
âYou just did it.â
His ears went pink.
A quiet settled in againânot uncomfortable, but charged. You werenât even really looking at the board anymore, and Azul⌠Azul realized he wasnât either. Not fully. His thoughts had drifted.
You werenât supposed to stay this long.
He wasnât supposed to enjoy it this much.
âYou know,â you said softly, picking up a die and rolling it slowly between your fingers, âyou couldâve left earlier.â
Azulâs eyes flicked to yours. âSo could you.â
You smiled. âMaybe I wanted to see how long youâd stay.â
Azul felt his heart stutter. âYou⌠do you often stay late with people like this?â
âWhat, alone in a classroom?â you said, tilting your head. âNo. Just with you.â
He swallowed.
Something in the air tightened. Like a string pulling taut between you.
Azul shifted. âThatâs⌠good. I mean, not that it matters. Strategically, itâs just⌠easier when thereâs no distractions.â
You laughed. âStrategic flirting now?â
Azul nearly choked. âIâI wasnât flirting!â
You leaned forward with a teasing smirk. âSo if I said I liked the way you look when you're concentrating, that would be flirting, right?â
Azul froze.
Then looked away.
He was going to combust.
âIâdonât know how to respond to that,â he admitted in a quiet voice.
âThen donât.â You smiled againâgentler this time. âYou donât have to always have the perfect answer, Azul.â
His gaze met yours. There was no teasing in your expression now, only warmth.
âYou donât have to perform all the time,â you said. âI like this. Just⌠playing a game. Being here.â
Azulâs throat went dry.
You liked this. Just him. No contracts. No charm. No front.
He couldnât remember the last time someone had said something like that.
â...I like it too,â he murmured.
The words felt fragile coming out, but also honest in a way that settled right into his bones.
You let out a breath. âGood.â
Azul finally made his next move.
You blinked. âOh? Youâre still in this?â
He smirked. âWas there ever any doubt?â
âNo,â you said, leaning forward, elbows on the table, eyes bright. âNot really.â
And suddenly, it wasnât about the game anymore.
Not for him.
Azulâs fingers lingered on the edge of his last piece as he weighed his move, calculating. You tilted your head, watching himânot the board this time, just him.
"You're stalling," you said, voice light.
"I'm thinking," he replied, but there was no bite in it.
"You always think so hard when I'm around, Ashengrotto."
"That implies I donât think hard with others."
"You donât," you grinned. "Not like this."
Azul didnât reply immediately. Because it was true.
The game had shifted long ago. It wasn't about points or pieces anymoreâit was about proximity. About excuses to stay a little longer. Every turn delayed the inevitable end, and neither of you seemed in a rush to get there.
Still, eventually, he moved.
Your lips quirked up when you saw it.
"Checkmate."
Azul blinked. âWhat?â
You tapped the board. âIâve got your king. No escape.â
He stared at the configuration. Youâd cornered him perfectlyâso seamless, so clever, he almost smiled in admiration. Almost.
â...Youâve been planning this for several turns,â he muttered.
You shrugged, trying to look innocent. âMaybe.â
Azul let out a quiet breath of disbelief. âYouâve improved more than I realized.â
âAw, donât look so betrayed. I had a good teacher.â You sat up straighter, a little proud. âAnd besides, youâre the one who got distracted first.â
âI wasnât distracted,â he insisted automatically.
You raised an eyebrow.
Azul hesitated. â...Much.â
You snorted. âSo you admit it.â
âOnly under duress.â
You both laughed, and the sound mingled into the soft hum of the empty room, warm and natural. Azul began to collect the pieces, sliding them carefully into their little tray.
He paused halfway through.
âI wouldnât mind playing again sometime,â he said quietly, not looking up.
You stilled.
Then, gently: âI wouldnât mind staying late again.â
Azulâs fingers curled around a rook. He slowly lifted his eyes.
âDo you mean⌠playing again in general? Or⌠with me?â
You smiled. âWith you. Obviously.â
It took everything in him not to smile too quickly in return.
Azul cleared his throat. âThen Iâll⌠prepare something more challenging next time.â
âOh?â you said, standing up to stretch. âMore challenging than you?â
Azul blinked.
You winked.
âGood luck with that,â you added, slinging your bag over your shoulder.
You were halfway to the door when you paused. âAzul?â
âYes?â
âNext time⌠you donât have to wear the gloves.â
He looked down at his hands instinctively.
âI like seeing your hands,â you said, almost shyly. âYou always hide them like theyâre something you have to protect.â
Azul opened his mouth. No words came out.
âAnyway,â you said quickly, backing toward the door, âsee you next meeting, President.â
You disappeared into the hall, your footsteps echoing down the corridor.
Azul stood there for a long moment, staring at the door.
Then, almost without thinking, he peeled the gloves off and set them gently on the game board.
And for the first time in a long while⌠he didnât feel like hiding anything at all.
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