#good to see my player is just as in love with selena as i am

[stupid-cocoa]

HELLO...

[hometoanotheronee]

OMGG you know in highschool musical when troys dad sees troy and gabriella on the court together and their being super cute and flirty ?! pls write something like that

༉‧₊˚. On the Court

pairing: Soft!Chris x Volleyball Player reader. warnings: none! word count: summary: Chris and Y/n play volleyball together, and the coach is Y/n's dad. Little do they know; he pays close attention to both of them, and they begin flirting on the court. authors note: I added my own little twist to this! I hope you love this!! :)

I arrived at the court for the game. I took a good look at the court, seeing as I will be playing here. My dad comes up behind me, patting me on the head. “Are you ready for the game y/n? I know you have it in the bag.” He whooped. I giggle at his enthusiasm, “Yeah! I am ready for the game.” I grinned. “The rest of the team should be here shortly. I will be at the hotel across the street, so just call me if you need me.” He replied. I nod my head, and my Dad walks away leaving me alone in the court. I decided I am gonna work on my dolphin dives, I go over to my phone and begin playing my favorite song, “Back to You” by Selena Gomez. I put on my knee pads and throw the volleyball up and dive. Little did I know, someone was watching me. A figure appeared behind me and a familiar voice spoke up, “Nice form.” Chris commented. I immediately stop and turn around. He giggles, wrapping a hand around my waist and pulling me into a tight hug. “I missed you.” He exhaled. I blush softly, “I missed you too.” I cooed. His cologne flowing into my mouth making me want to hold him longer. He pulls away for me, “That was a long hug.” He giggles. I smile, “Well, I haven’t been able to hug you because of my Dad, remember?” I replied. He nods his head in agreement, “Yeah, well the rest of the team should be here so, don’t flirt with me.” He jokes, I giggle “I know what you mean, haha.” He smiles, “Let’s warm-up?” I nod.

** TIME SKIP **

The game had begun, our server Raleigh served the ball, the opposing team hit it back on our side and it almost reached the floor before I swooped in and hit it back up in the air for Chris to hit over the net. He spiked the ball over the net and it hit the floor, meaning we got a point. The scoreboard lit up, ‘1-0’ He high-fived me. 

Later on, the score was ‘24-24’ This was the point determining who won. We had to win this, we exchanged glances and boom, the game had started back up again. The ball was in the air, one of my teammates hit it but it didn’t go over the net, so I swooped in once again and hit it up and Chris spiked it. The ball hit the floor, meaning we won. Chris ran up to me and picked me up. He kisses my cheek, “We did it!” He whispers in my ear. I smile, “Yeah! We did.” Chris puts me down as my dad approaches, “What was that all about?” My dad questions.

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[zendvyaa]

To All The Years I Had Before

A solo para written by Zendvyaa

27. That's where I am now. Not just 'what age' I am. But, where. I know that it might not make much sense, but, it's how I feel. You know what they say; "It's about the journey, not the destination." And that rings true for me. 27 years young today, and I feel like I've accomplished so much more than I could ever imagine.

It all started that the California Shakespeare Theater. If it wasn't for my Momma Bear, Claire taking the opportunity to become House Manager for Cal Shakes - that's what they call it -, then I might've just continued to be a quiet kid. I mean, I went from a shy kindergartener that had to repeat the grade due to just that, to a kid that found the spotlight, and never let it go. Thanks to my Mom being the trouper that she is, taking the job to support herself and my Dad as teachers themselves, I was able to pursue my theatre classes. If it hadn't have been for that, I don't think that I would be where I am. That's just one of the things that I'm so grateful for. I mean, I was even cast as Little Ti Moune in Berkley Playhouse's "Once on This Island" in 2009.

I did so much as a kid. From playing basketball at age six, to dancing in a hip hop dance group called Future Shock Oakland at the age of eight, and my theater classes that I took along the way at Cal Shakes. These things helped shape me into not only the kid that I would be come, but the woman that I would turn into. I can't have one without the other. Basketball, dancing, and acting is apart of me now. Even if no one sees me doing it as much.

'The Effect of Gamma Rays on Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds' was not only a monologue I used to audition for the Oakland School of the Arts, but it was the same one I used when I auditioned for 'Shake It Up' on Disney Channel. Not only that, but dancing helped me land a Sears commercial at an early age with THEE Selena Gomez in 2009. It's crazy thinking about this now, because Selena and I are good friends now.

Things came full circle because a vast majority of the kids that were in that Sears commercial went on to pursue a career in the entertainment industry. Ross Lynch included. And to top it off, my 2009 audition for Shake It Up was originally for Cece, but they called me back to audition for Rocky Blue. My first major network show. My first character I played on tv. I'm so grateful. I still find the working title of 'Dance, Dance, Chicago' is so hilarious. Thank GOD they chose 'Shake It Up' instead. I digress. I was talking about full circle moments, yes.

The biggest full circle was how I went from dancing in the Sears 'arrive lounge' commercial with Selena Gomez, to having Selena Gomez sing the theme song to the tv show that I later became a lead on within the same year. A show about teenagers wanting nothing more but to dance, and wind up dancing in a popular local Chicago show called 'Shake It Up, Chicago!' Not only that, but I was apart of Kidz Bop 15. Also in 2009. I was in the 'Hot In Cold' music video if you're wondering. I don't wanna talk about how they didn't really use my singing voice. Matter of fact, I don't wanna talk about it at all.

Proceeding SIU, I was overwhelmed as a kid. Being thrown into the spotlight like that, and the show doing well was both a blessing and a curse. I wasn't really ready for it. Not like I am now. I mean, I still get overwhelmed, but I think I'm better at tackling those feelings now than I was before. From being on other shows on Disney Channel like Good Luck Charlie, and A.N.T. Farm, to doing many music videos for SIU as well as my own when I started my short-lived music career. The 'Something To Dance For' and 'TTYLXOX' mashup video is still one of my favorites. Oh, and 'Contagious Love'.

My DFTS and ZSwag era…..that…I loved that era. Did I mention on top of being a dancer, actress, and basketball player, that I loved the arts too. I used to draw all the time. If you scroll down my Instagram feed far enough, you are sure to find my old drawings. Not only that, but I loved to sing, and modeling became yet another passion that I started to have. I really blossomed from this quirky, high energy kid to this woman that knows her angles, can flow effortlessly from one click of the camera, to the next. I mean, have you seen the behind the scenes shot of my Vogue Italia shoot in June 2022? Not to toot my own horn, but…going from fun poses as a kid to what I'm able to do now just blows my mind!!!

Anyway, I love fashion. Even when I was in my 'ZSwag' era. Where being a tomboy who could rock high heels was everything to me. I still love that photo I took of myself with a pair of Jordan's on and heels. I look back at it, and laugh. That part of me never left. One minute, you would see me playing basketball, or skateboarding, the next, I was making the most out of the clothes Law and I were given on the red carpet. Which, by the way, were slim to none. No one wanted to dress me. No one at all. Not even during the SIU era. We really struggled for a while. Something really shifted for Law and I between the end of SIU and K.C., because you could see it. I went from wearing clothes from Kmart, to high end couture before I knew it!!I mean. If younger me knew that I would go from being an 'easy, breezy, beautiful, Covergirl', to now being the face of Lancôme beauty, from being the face/ambassador of Valentino, to the House Ambassador of Louis Vuitton, from rocking Momma Claire's handmade jewelry - I still do!! -, to being the face of Bulgari jewelry? Like???? That's HUGE! And I'm now the face of Smart Water as well??? I think she would LOSE IT!!! Just….

And Law… I'm so grateful for his light. He has been through a lot. He got really sick one time, which I won't talk about, but, he made it through. We always talk about how I found him so fabulous when Law worked as a personal shopper in 2011 while I was on 'Shake It Up!'. Things really just fell into my lap. We had a mutual friend introduce us, and the rest was history. Law has been my Fairy God Motha since I was 14, and doing the met as Cinderella and The Fairy God Mother in 2019 was by far, my favorite moment. I got to share that with him. Like…. I wouldn't be such a sought after name in fashion has it not have been for Law. Let's keep it real. I may do my own makeup for events, but Law keeps me together with the looks. I'm so happy to have him as my Creative Director. I will always support him in his career. Whatever he decides to do. We are thee dynamic duo, after all. As much as I love fashion, and although I did style him for Canada's 'Fashion' magazine, I just don't think I could exist in fashion without him.

After Frenemies, Zapped, and the success of SIU, I started to make my exit as a Disney star. Disney Channel asked me to come back, and Ieveraged that in telling them that I would only come back to Disney if I would be made as executive producer in whatever tv show they wanted to do next. That tv show being 'Super Awesome Katy', being renamed to K.C. Undercover. There was no way I was going to be on tv being called 'Katy'. No. 'K.C.' was just fine.

Sometime after that, I was able to land the role of Michelle "M.J." Watson-Jones. Keeping the secret that I was about to become the new MJ of the Marvel Cinematic Universe was one that was very hard to keep. But unlike the guy who plays the friendly neighbourhood Spider-Man (yes, that was intentional. Yes, I'm still brushing off the London that rubbed off on me. Hush.), I was able to keep a secret. That to me was such a massive role to land. Even though I might not be an important character to some people, I'm speaking about it, because although I left Disney Channel to technically still work for Disney through Marvel, Spider-Man: Homecoming helped lead me from K.C. Undercover to Euphoria. Which, is the show that I'm apart of now.

Anyone who knows me, knows how much of a Beyoncé fan I am. Being in the 'All Night' music video in 2016 is the biggest accomplishment for me. I met someone whom I've looked up to for years, I got to star in her music video!! And I know y'all have seen my Yoncé car dance video. I was acting up with Darnell when Renaissance dropped. There are several videos out there with me cutting up and having fun with Darnell, my personal assistant since K.C. Undercover, or by myself. Don't play with me!! The set of the 'All Night' music video was also where I met Amara and Chloe. Even then, I knew those two were destined for greatness. If I could have Beyoncé as my mentor? I'd be fainting every time we spoke. They're so blessed. I love those girls. They're really doing amazing things as a group, and as individuals.

Immediately after HOCO, I stayed in New York to Film The Greatest Showman, aka, TGSM with Hugh Jackman and Zac Efron. I had the time of my life. I mean…. the training I had to do to portray an aerodynamic Circus performer was intense. I hate exercising. Which, is something I remember mentioning in my 'Zendaya' app when that was a thing. When it comes to work though, I suck it up, and do the training. I like learning new things, pushing myself, and making each role believable. Anne Wheeler was pretty scary though. Performing trapeze isn't easy, but I just know she's working her butt off in the air to this day with Phillip Carlyle by her side. Aerodynamics is scary, though. I won't lie. And the music in that film? Ugh! Phenomenal. Benj Pasek and Justin Paul really deserved all the awards for what they created.

Voicing Lola Bunny in Space Jam: A New Legacy was very fun for me. I got to voice my favorite character, who wasn't sexualized. I love Lola, I really do. I love that that made her more about her passion, which is basketball, then to make her this weird sexualized cartoon. Thank God that at least in that film, she wasn't. Focusing on her craft and passion for basketball was far more important and meaningful to me seeing as I was a basketball player when I was younger. Yet another full circle moment.

I won't go through literally every tv show or movie I've been in. My point is, I'm grateful and blessed to have experienced all of them. I however, am vastly disappointed that the two films I was a lead in, Dune 2, and Challengers have been moved up to 2024. I obviously am in full support of the writers and actors strike of course.

Especially as an actress myself. I just wish that I could've gone to the Venice Film festival this year. I miss Venice. That's all. I do think it's rather ridiculous that writers and us actors have to beg Hollywood for fair pay. It's disgusting, but I will talk about that another day. 2024 is going to be here soon, and I hope everything gets resolved by then. I don't really know where Euphoria stands. I could go without the show coming back for a third season, really. I miss the cast and crew, of course, but with the writer and actor strike going on, and the fact that we won't have Angus Cloud there…. I just don't know what's going to happen there. I don't think it'll be the same. And that's okay.

Getting to be apart of Project Backboard a few days ago really hit home for me. I miss playing basketball for fun. I hope that the kids at Oakland Middle got something out of that more than just a 'wow factor' of having 'a celebrity (or two) at their school'. I just want to help nurture the children of our future to become the people they want to be. Following your dreams should be at the forefront of all that they do. I just hope that I was able to help give back in some way. Oakland will always be in my heart. I grew up there, so I will always go back, wanting to help, wanting to be a light in some way.

I still can't believe that I won my first Emmy at 24! I was blessed with the award for 'Outstanding Actress in a Drama Series' for Euphoria back in 2020. That was the craziest night of my life, knowing that I could win or lose, and the people who had the awards were standing outside of my house, waiting for the announcement. And two years later in 2022, I won the same award again for Euphoria season two. I'm so blessed to have just been in the same categories as the amazing women on both nights!

Right now, I'm just chilling. I still have my home in California. I do miss London, and I will miss the home I picked out with my ex, but I sold that months ago. I moved on, and it's time to keep pushing, keep working, keep grinding. There are always projects being worked on behind the scenes. Most of which are modeling jobs as an ambassador for the businesses I mentioned like Lancôme, Louis Vuitton, Bulgari, and Smart Water, they keep the lights on. Aha. Some things that I'm working on, I keep to myself. My fans know how private I am. They know what's up. If they need to know something, they will. Some things I can't share due to NDA's and things of that nature, but some things I like to keep to myself, because I love the element of surprise. You'll never know what to expect from me.

As I said, it's about the journey, not the destination. Being so young, and accomplishing so much is just…sometimes, I can't believe it. It's crazy. I still have so many years to go, and I'm not stopping soon. 27 cycles around the Sun. Many more to go. So to all the years I've had before? You ain't seen nothing yet. Happy mother fucking birthday to me!!!

Xoxo, Zendaya/Daya

~ Archive Edition via twitter.

Alright. I know that this isn't your traditional 'para', nor, is it how one is "normally" written. I really tried my best to write a para almost story-like. But, it wound up being like a letter from Z to Z, from the older Zendaya, to the younger Zendaya. Or technically from me, about Zendaya and everything she's accomplished, really. However you wanna look at it. She has done so much since her career started, and I just wanted to showcase that she has come so far.

There's no secret how much I love Zendaya. If you read everything prior to this, you should know that she's my favorite (vegetarian) Virgo. As a Scorpio myself, I love me some Virgos!! I used to rp as Lauren Keyana "Keke" Palmer years ago, another Virgo, and I love Michael Jackson and Beyoncé as well.

A bit about me; I used to be a big Selena Gomez fan. But, I think it's crazy that Zendaya was someone I thought of as 'cute' while I was in high school during Shake It Up!, but I didn't realize until much later in life that she was one of the many kids chosen to be in the nationwide Sears commercial casting that happened. I remember hearing about that, wanting to go so badly, but I didn't have the money or transportation to make it to any auditions sadly. And looking back at the videos now, as I was pulling references left and right, it looks like they wanted actual kids, not teenagers. ;-; Anyway…

I do appreciate you all if you read this far. I really do. I may not talk much to anyone, but that's just because I'm so used to being a lone wolf and an outcast. That doesn't mean that I don't care for anyone of you that I follow. I hold a lot of you in my heart, and think about you often, I just, again, am so used to being alone/lonely/a loner….. bad habits die hard, for real. But I do make it my business to show love when I can. Because even though I may not talk much, all I wanna do, is show love, and give love in return, because it's what I desire to have the most. Love.

I have a few fanstagrams dedicated to Zendaya. I even attempted to make a separate fan account on twitter that was actually a fan account and nothing more, just so I would look 'normal' to the Zendaya fans that follow me, but I simply couldn't do it.

'Zendvyaa' is my home, you know? It's where I show my love that I have for Zendaya as a fan, and as a writer who just wants to write; I choose to rp as Zendaya too. If you don't like it, can't get behind it, or whatever. That's fine. But if you can't understand that I too, am a fan of Zendaya, that just shows it in a different way? Then my account really isn't for you. I don't mean to be rude.

Anyways, I do plan on writing an actual para soon. I have these feelings that I want to write as Zendaya/Daya, that I want to get out soon. I hope that when it does come out, you all show kindness, love, and understanding.

Happy 27th Birthday, Zendaya!!! <3 Thank you, Daya's writer. <3

[mrshenrycavill23]

A Dream to Remember ✨ - PART 2

-Sequel to my last short story, Destiny, featuring Henry & [Y/N] character a fangirl who has met him during a trip to Antalya, Turkey. This story begins where the Destiny finished.

#2 Tangled ✨💘

The ride was rather a short one. But I was all lost in my thoughts while secretly staring at Henry’s curls and temples. While looking at him, I began to relive the moments my soul got to experience while tangled with his the night before. The way he made me feel so small yet so loved, so lost yet so found, he took what was meant for him all this time. I suddenly felt a bit sore down and got a bit uncomfortable sitting in the backseat while he was sitting beside me. I tried not to show my discomfort but he suddenly looked at me, as if he could sense it, sense the soreness, sense the pain, he looked at me, then gazed down at the end of my dress, his gaze alone made me feel as if he could see me naked while I was fully clothed. He put his hand on my thigh and was slowly moving towards me when his phone ringed and it was the Uber app notifying that we had reached the restaurant he wanted me to have breakfast with him at.

The driver stopped the car and Henry got out first and quickly moved on the other side to open my door. My God, what a true gentleman. I was no one and yet he made me feel like the most important woman in the world.

The restaurant was very fancy, it was surely a sunny beautiful day and sun-rays spread through the glass doors and windows of the restaurant and glistened the entire room. Henry, wearing a white shirt with denim, looked like a greek god had come to life. There weren’t many people and we quickly sat down and gave our orders.

“So, I’ve been thinking to ask you this. Are you comfortable with me, [y/n]? I mean you don’t feel scared that paparazzi might just bust from anywhere right now and you will be dragged into something you don’t deserve to be in?” Henry asked with those worried puppy like eyes.

I thought for a second. What did I have to lose?

I had nothing to lose as compared to what I was living through in the moment.

“You’re a great company, Henry. I enjoyed talking to you heart to heart last night at the beach. I felt so good after a long time. It’s not about you being the celebrity I adore, but I truly value the person you have turned out to be. I’m willing to risk it all to know you more.”

Words came out of my mouth so easily yet each word made me more nervous than the one before. What was I doing with myself? It’s Henry Cavill. Women way better than me could die for him and here I am expressing how I feel in the most minimal way possible.

“Oh yes, I felt so good. Beach, you mentioned eh? It was dark last night, do you want to go right now? It’s been a while since I enjoyed the waves with someone.” Henry smirked as he sipped the juice he ordered.

Happiness rush through my entire body. What is this? A date? Going to the beach with him? Oh my God. Yes. I deserve this. After all those years of dreaming of being with him. Yes. YES!

“Um, yes sure but what about the media people you wanted to avoid? I’ve been here before and I know a secluded beach, away from the crowds, it’s a bit far though. We’d have to hire a taxi for the day” I said with an overflowing excitement in my face and voice.

“Nah, we wouldnt hire a taxi. We’ll rent a car for the day. I’ll drive and you can tell me the route, what do you say?” He said, smiling.

Oh to see him driving. Was I in heaven or is this reality. We finished eating and walked our way to the nearest tourist-help centre where they arranged a car for us and Henry being the gentleman he is, first made sure I was comfortable in it then he made his way to the driving seat.

He was so big, his arms, his biceps, the same arms that held me down while he fucked me hard last night. I suddenly got flashes of the sex we had and started sweating a bit, just seeing him driving seduced me, I wanted him to do it again, to fuck me again, to ease my soreness or make it hurt more, but I could not make the first move. I did not know if he wanted me again? or was it just a friends with benefits / one time thing? To release myself from my thoughts, I connected the aux cable with the player of the car and played Fetish by Selena.

“This song goes so well with these views, damn Antalya is so beautiful, roads are like butter. The car is pretty fine too. I hope you’re enjoying it? Woah, look at that lake!!”

I was so occupied by Henry’s presence that I almost forgot how beautiful the views were. Beautiful sky, green valleys with sounds of waterfalls and a glimpse of the crystal clear blue water of the beach we were near to.

“It’s so beautiful right? Oh turn right, we’re almost there” I exclaimed.

There was it. The beauty, the seamless waves crashed on the silent beach where there was no one but the two of us. I kind of felt scared, maybe the beach was way too secluded.

“Wow ma’am you really didn’t watch anyone to catch you with me? Eh?” He remarked with a raised eyebrow.

“I just wanted you to enjoy without the fear of being photographed all the time” I said, while blushing.

He quickly unbuttoned his white shirt, threw it on the spot we were sitting and started striding towards the beach when he looked at me and said with questioning eyes while I was amazed by his hairy chest and broad shoulders,

“What?? Get up come on let’s go for a swim!!!?

What are you waiting for??” He shouted with excitement.

Little did he know that I didn’t know how to swim. I have this fear of deep water. I can only get my feet wet and that’s about it. Since childhood I have never been able to go for a swim whether it’s a pool or sea. I can’t breathe if water level reaches above my knees.

“Henry... I.. I can’t swim, I don’t know how to swim, I’m scared of deep waters” I said in a very low, embarrassed voice.

“Oh.. I’m sorry I didn’t know that. But you can come with me? Enjoy the waves as they touch the shore? Can get your feet wet right??” He said with a worried voice.

He slowly came towards me, held my hand gently as I stood up and then hand in hand we walked towards the waves, he then indulged in the shallow waves while I looked down at the wet sand sucking my feet. It was peaceful.

He looked like a beauty, like a small orca, he was so big yet swam so beautifully. He was all wet and I could feel myself getting wet. I had no control over it. For the first time in my life I had seen a man who controlled my body even when he didn’t touch it.

I was staring at him and feeling the waves at my feet when suddenly a large tide hit my knee and I lost my flow. All I remember after it is being swayed away by the waves while struggling to breathe while Henry shouting my name and running towards me.

“WAKE UP [Y/N]!!!!! WAKE UP PLEASE, OPEN YOUR EYES” I heard Henry shouted while he struggled to slowly pump by chest to make me cough out the water inside my lungs. I was unconscious and I don’t know for how long.

The first thing I saw when I gained back consciousness was Henry’s glistening lips trying to resuscitate me and his worried eyes, while my head lay in his arm. I could die here, I wanted to. What a beautiful death it would be.

“Henry ...? I’m sorry.. I didn’t know what happened a wave came..” I said in a low voice gaining back my consciousness.

“Shhh, it’s okay, I am so sorry, it’s my fault, it’s all my fault, I should never have forced you to come near those tides with me, it’s all my fault, i could’ve lost you.. “ He kept mumbling as I shut him up with a deep kiss.

I wanted to make the first move since so long but just couldn’t, and now? He made me fall in love with him all over again. I slowly moved his lips with mine as his words became inaudible. With one hand I touched his chiseled jaw and my other hand was holding him with my fingers in his curls. I kissed him as if he was water and I was stranded in a desert for days. He knew what was happening. He put his hand on my waist and the other hand slowly moved from my neck to breasts. I had lost all control.

He kissed me back hard. His tongue invaded my mouth as if raging war with mine. He pushed me back on the wet sand, as I held his hair and he held my thighs.

“I’ve wanted this for every second since last night” He whispered in my ears as his hand made its way to my pussy. I leaned back

as his fingers slowly circled around my clit from outside of my panty, his palm touched the wet patch. I moaned as he slid his fingers inside and touched my sore clit and layers.

“Fuck me, Henry” I moaned as he put his two fingers inside my newly popped pussy. It was still tight as he pushed his fingers inside, while his lips slid from my neck to my breasts. He first bit my boobs from outside the dress as it was wet and showed my nipples, then from the other hands undressed me partly and sucked my nipples.

My mind couldn’t comprehend which area gave me more pleasure. His fingers vigorously moving in my pussy or his lips slowly sucking my nipples. He quickly hit my g-spot as I pushed my clit on his palm to cum on his hand.

“Yes baby, come to me, fuck you” Henry whispered as he moved his mouth to my neck and gave me a love bite. I moaned louder as he pushed me on the sand, and quickly unzipped his jeans, and there it was. His big, towering, raw dick. I gasped as I knew it would hurt but it was all going to be worth the pain.

He separated my legs with the weight of his thighs and teased my clit with his tip.

“You took my breath away when I thought I almost lost you, don’t do that again, don’t scare me like that again or I am never going to forgive you!” He roared and looked in my eyes with an intimidating stare as he thrust it inside me. I moaned and held his waist as he dug his teeth in my neck slightly moaning. He kept ramming it inside me and pumped at the right spots. It was as if he knew which buttons to press to make me lose my senses.

The sand covered us both, it was sand, sweat, and smoke of lust. I crossed my legs around his waist as he thrusted deeper inside me. It hurt but I liked him hurting me, the pleasure was more than the pain. I want it as badly as he wanted it to give it to me. He felt so big while I was only half his size. I was about to come, I was on the edge of my self control.

“Don’t you dare cum, you can only cum with me” He roared as he pushed me aside and quickly held me by my waist as he leaned his back on the sand, now me on top of him.

Fuck. I wanted to ride him. Back in the car, back at the restaurant, last night. I wanted to ride it. I sat up and slowly took it in while being half undressed. My boobs were out, wet, and sun’s rays falling on my brown skin and my untied long black hair on the side of my shoulder. He looked at me as if I was a feast. He slowly held my arm with one hand and tightly grabbed my both boobs in one hand as I rid him. I pushed myself on his dick as he fucked me while going in harmony with my movements. It was like a song, a wave, a fire. I bent down and kissed him while riding him, as I felt his dick’s veins getting more prominent inside me. I could feel him pumping inside me as he tightly gripped my hair, and kissed me deeply “Come with me, NOW” he growled.

I let it lose, as he filled me up with his cum and mixed up with my orgasm. I felt as if I was being drugged into unconsciousness. He kissed me and I kissed him back letting my body lose itself on his. We were tangled like a rope, like a knot. And I loved it. I loved every bit of it.

He rubbed my back as I hid my face on his neck. He looked at me, with longing eyes, “I love you” He said with a voice that sent trembles down my spine.

[bigbrotherlouis]

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hello lovely!! if it’s okay with you, i’m going to do a scene from the latest chapter of tried to keep myself from hurting bc i am proud of that one a lot!

Mitch tips forward again, determined to try again, and get stopped by the press of Dylan’s palm to his forehead.

“Mitch,” Dylan says, his voice shot through with something. “What are you doing?”

He blinks at him. “What the fuck does it look like I’m doing?” (i really went into this last chapter not wanting to do an happy ever after. like, yeah, they’re going to end on a positive bc i like those kinds of stories, but i didn’t want everything to be fixed by talking to each other. they still have stuff they have to work out, and i wanted it to be realistic)

There’s a pause. “Okay, fuck this,” he mumbles and shoves carefully at him, enough so Mitch tumbles back and he can stand. It’s a weird sense of deja vu, sprawled on the ground, watching Dylan fix himself up after rejecting him again. (parallels!) It aches in a way Mitch didn’t know still ached. He swallows hard.

“Where are you going?”

“Hotel.”

“Why?”

“I’m not doing this shit,” he says and pulls out his phone, tapping at it too quickly. (they both try to solve things mostly by ignoring them, and this is dylan doing that) His hands are shaking slightly. Mitch swallows again, the taste of Dylan still on his tongue, and his throat way too dry.

“Are you, uh,” he says, still aching. “Are you breaking up with me.” (this maybe was a little too obvious for mitch to ask straight up, but i think it made sense in context. the last time dylan did this, they broke up. it’s reasonable for him to think that history’s repeating itself)

That gets Dylan’s attention; he glances up from his phone to stare at him. “What? No.”

“Are you mad at me?”

“Yes,” Dylan says and then frowns. “No. I don’t know.”

“Okay, then why are you leaving?”

“Why are you trying to blow me on the sofa?” (i never know how to refer to blowjobs. it’s awkward for me every time.)

“Getting you to the bedroom seemed like too much work,” he says, too honest and too unthinking. Dylan levels a look at him. (this is less supposed to be flippancy and more supposed to be mitch not thinking. his brain’s busy trying to think through what’s happening)

“That’s not what I meant and you know it.”

He shrugs his shoulder. “You looked like you needed a blowjob,” he mutters and makes a face, nothing left in him to keep it away. (mitch in this fic has a history of trying to fix things with sex and this was him trying to fix the weirdness between them, or manage dylan’s mood)

Dylan stares at him some more and then sighs. “Just— hold on for a second.”

Mitch watches as he turns around and disappears in the direction of the kitchen, holding his breath until he reappears with another protein bar. He drops it on Mitch’s stomach.

“Eat that.”

“I’m not hungry.”

“Take a fucking bite, Marner.” Mitch obediently unwraps it and takes a bite, chewing quickly. (more managing) “You told me that you wanted to gargle bleach.”

“Huh?”

“Every time you suck a dick, you said you want to gargle bleach,” Dylan says and then nods at the protein bar. “For the taste.” (i really tried to make dylan attentive and and thoughtful in his own way and this was the culmination of that)

Mitch looks at what’s left in his hand, tastes the mild sweetness on his tongue instead of— well. “Oh. Thanks?”

“Why the fuck did you try to suck my dick?” (very delicate, dylan)

“Why not?”

“Jesus Christ, do you have to play so dumb? Or have you forgotten the massive fight we had about this?”

“I’m an adult, Dylan. I can do what I want.”

“Sure, but what if I didn’t want a blowjob, huh?”

“Dunno, dude, you were enjoying it for a while there,” (trying to balance dylan’s interest as someone who experiences sexual attraction with his refusal to make mitch do something he doesn’t want to do was really hard in this scene! i don’t know if i did it well, honestly, but i sure as hell tried. dylan’s still trying to figure out what boundaries are) Mitch tells him and finishes the rest of the protein bar, feels it settle uncomfortably in his stomach. “You were still mad and I thought it would snap you out of your sulking. I was wrong, apparently.”

“I wasn��t sulking.”

“Oh, yeah you were, bud. Big time.”

Dylan breathes hard for a second. “So, what? You decided to try and suck it out of me?”

“It was working until you got pissy.”

“I’m never pissy.” (they’re still young and dumb)

Mitch snorts, pushing himself into a better sitting position. “Sure.” Dylan looks down at his phone again and then moves, snagging his jacket and looking for his shoes. “Shit, wait, you’re still leaving?”

“I— yeah?”

“Because I tried to hook up with you? You, my boyfriend?” (mitch is also trying to figure out boundaries!)

“I’m still mad at you and I don’t want you throwing yourself at me as, like, some weird omega thing.”

“Weird omega thing,” Mitch repeats, testing the words against his teeth. (unapologetically one of my favourite phrases) “Okay.”

“You’re telling me it’s not?”

“I’m telling you that I’m an adult who makes my own decisions and I can do what I want.”

“Fine,” Dylan says and looks at him head on, eyes keen and sharp. “Did you want that?” (i really wanted to show dylan changing and learning through this fic and this is one of the ways i hoped it showed!)

“I wanted you to be in a better mood.”

“Not what I asked.” (okay, maybe it’s a bit much to ask hockey players in their early twenties to understand the nuance between wanting sex and wanting the outcome of sex, but it was an important point to make to the reader, in my eyes)

Mitch tries again. “You wanted it.”

“Also not what I asked,” Dylan tells him. Mitch thinks about it for a second and then drops his shoulders, sighing.

“I mean, does it matter?”

“Does it— of course it fucking matters, Mitchell. What the fuck.”

“You’re upset, I can make you feel better, it’s what I’m supposed to do. (something something we live in a society) So it doesn’t matter,” he explains, watching emotions cross over Dylan’s face too fast to catch fully. Dylan seems to settle on a determined sort of anger, mouth pressed into a tight line.

“Listen to me, no, listen. I don’t— I don’t care about the whole fucking omega thing, okay? I really don’t. I’m trying to care less about the alpha thing, but it’s me so it’s a little harder. (meaning, it’s really easy to give people grace sometimes while beating yourself up for the same thing. dylan doesn’t care about mitch being a good omega, but desperately cares about being a good alpha) But you? This? I care about you, as my— as my boyfriend, not as my fuckin’— omega, or whatever.” (there’s probably a whole other fic here about what omegas mean in this particular au but i will most likely not be writing it)

“Dylan—”

“Shut up, I’m making a point. I already told you, and I don’t know how many times I’m going to tell you again, but I don’t fucking care that you don’t like sex. You don’t want to have it, so we won’t, and you can stop feeling so fucking gulity about it. I can deal with my own dick and you can just leave it alone. Can you get that into your thick skull, already?”

Mitch is quiet for a second, waiting, but the anger doesn’t fade from Dylan’s face, from his body. “Then why are you so mad?”

“I’m mad because you just do shit instead of talking about it, or, like, asking, and I know I’m not one for talking about feelings, but shit, Mitch, at least I’m not trying to fuck my way into feeling secure.” (could he have said this more delicately? probably. would it have been true to character? no. also it’s nice and succinct, thanks dylan for wrapping that up so neatly)

“Hey,” Mitch says lowly. It’s the only thing he can make himself say.

“You don’t trust me.”

“I trust you.”

“No,” Dylan says. “You don’t. Which, like, it has to be earned n’shit, but that goes both ways, and I can’t trust you if you’re not going to be honest with me. I can’t trust you if I think you’re going to keep bulldozing over your own emotions to make me happy. Or, what you think will make me happy.”

“I don’t want you to—” He cuts himself off because he doesn’t know how to end that sentence, everything muddled in his brain. (this was where i thought about starting the whole “i’m scared you’ll leave me if i don’t want to have sex with you” argument but then decided it was too much for the last chapter) “You liked it, though.”

“Yeah, because I like sex and I think you’re hot, and there was not enough blood in my brain to understand what was happening right away. I’m sorry, though. I should’ve stopped you sooner.” (originally, they weren’t going to get as far as they did with the blowjob but it didn’t work to stop it any sooner, so i kept writing. this is also not an excuse necessarily but again: hockey player)

Mitch’s ass is starting to hurt, so he hauls himself up from the floor to sit on the couch again, twisted around to keep Dylan in his sightline. “I’m sorry too,” he says and tips his head up. “Are you still going to leave.”

“Depends,” he says warily. Mitch digs his fingers into the back cushion and hates the thought of him walking away.

“I’ll keep my hands to myself. (*selena gomez voice* i mean i could by why would i want to) C’mon, Dyl, we’re not going to see each other in forever.”

Dylan visibly hesitates, but eventually he drops his coat again, toes off his shoes, crosses around the sofa to stand in front of him, Mitch twisted the right way around. “Okay, fine, but I want to go to bed. I’m tired.”

“It’s still early,” Mitch says, just to be difficult. He’s tired too, bone-weary from the game and from the rest of the night, and he gives over his hands so Dylan can pull him up. (it’s about the hand touching!! the intimacy!!)

anyway this was a tricky scene to balance while being respectful of 1) where characters currently are 2) where they used to be and 3) where i wanted them to end up. so mitch defaulting to sex to make dylan feel better and dylan letting him fulfills point 2, dylan stopping them but only after he realises fulfills point 1, and agreeing to talk fulfills point 3! not sure if it was executed well re: motivations and reactions, but i definitely did my best :)

[pasttorn]

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Mun name:  SHORP ! ! or any name that varies from it, really. shorpie, sharp, shirk, shire-- as long as i know you’re referring to me, anything’s cool ! OOC Contact: tumblr im’s & discord ! ! ! note: i might be slow at replying to messages !

WHO’S THE MUSE ?

      i’ve got, , , many , , , but let’s go with vulcan & luke ? my top two muses i’ve always got muse for ? vulcan is an engineer, working with the fire fighting brigade ! he adores animals & living beings, & his dream is to bring back the world’s extinct animal, to give back to earth as much as has been taken from it. luke, on the other hand, is a carpenter, who’s always willing to make new friends at any moment & is fond of over exaggerating everything-- be it orders for him to work on, or just life itself !

       other muses can be found in their respective bios ( once im done writing them up, anyway ). if you’re interested in one-- even if you might not know them--, hmu at any moment for me to explain the basics for you ! ! i’m always happy to talk about my muses

POINTS OF INTEREST.

      going from what was stated earlier, vulcan is pretty strict when it comes to the things he makes ! as soon as he’s done making something, he’ll toss it and / or kick it around-- since something that breaks with ease isn’t a ‘ complete piece ‘ in his opinion. in luke’s case, he’s just a ball of sunshine ! it’s rare to get him down, or to get him to stop interacting with someone-- talking to people is his favourite past time !

WHAT THEY’VE BEEN UP TO.

        vulcan’s been hard at work, upgrading gadgets & making new things for his fellow company 8 members to use. the easier he makes the job for them, the more fulfilled he becomes, after all. luke, however, spends it in the forest, hacking away at trees like always ! whenever he’s not chopping a tree down, he’s either making up new axe-related moves or has joined someone for the afternoon.

WHERE TO FIND THEM.

        vulcan can either be found at the company 8′s barracks ( either inside the building or outside near the street, since he enjoys working in various different places ), while luke is most commonly found in front of his home or in forests ! or wherever there’s the most people, really.

CURRENT PLANS.

        for vulcan it’s to continue being helpful, as well as doing everything he can in order to get even another step closer to his dream ! luke is mostly focused on besting his father, getting him to acknowledge his abilities, as well as acting as a good superior to bo !

DESIRED INTERACTIONS.

       OH MAN there’s a lot. for vulcan i’d like for him to interact with more company 8 members ! ! ! with yuu or lisa ! ! ! with other people who enjoy robots / machines / creating things ! ! for luke, i’d like for him to interact with anyone in hm: animal parade / tree of tranquility ! ! or for more owen’s, ,  & selena’s, , , , or just people in general who’d mesh well with this ball of sunshine

        for other muses, i’m adding a ‘ plotting / interaction reference ‘ to each of their bios, in order to give those interested in a certain muse how to interact with them !

OFFERED INTERACTIONS

      honestly, , , anything, really. i have such a large variety of muses-- if you want angst, fluff, brotherly / sisterly relationships, unrequited loves,, , i can give them all. i’d be happy to give them all. just give me a holler & we can come up with something that works !

Current open post/s:

        i don’t really do opens,,  ,since i’m pretty bad at coming up with stuff so very vague, , , so , , , na h

Anything else?:

       i’m slow ! i’m lazy ! i have a shitton of muses ! ! it may take me a while to reply to our thread or to reply to im’s, but don’t let that deter you ! just know i’m most likely looking for a chance to reply as soon as possible & am wanting for a chance to speak to you ooc ! !

TAGGED BY: @abisnorida​ ( ayy thanks ! )

Tagging: anyone who’s interested ! ! 

[methodcop]

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Mun name: skye OOC Contact: IMs or discord (available upon request!)

who the heck is my muse anyway:

sam swarek is a uniformed police officer in toronto (or a detective, depending on the verse) and a skilled undercover officer. he’s good at his job, but has a somewhat... casual relationship with rules and regulations. he has a moral code and always does what he believes to be right -- but he’ll bend the rules as far as they go if he feels it’s necessary. despite this, he’s a solid teacher and training officer and is generally respected, even when others don’t wholly approve of his methods. sam is a big believer in trusting your instincts -- your gut -- rather than overthinking, and it’s one of the major points he passes on to those he trains. despite a seemingly serious exterior, he has a dry, sarcastic sense of humor and is the ultimate loyal friend. just don’t try and get too close -- he can count on one hand the number of people he’ll let his 80-ft-thick walls down for...

points of interest:

on top of being a beat cop (and later a detective), sam is generally considered one of the best undercover officers on the force. before the start of the series, he’d spent 8 months in deep cover, trying to bring down the head of a drug/prostitution ring. 

sam has a sketchy(ish) past. growing up in a crappy neighborhood with an unstable home life, he fell in with a not-great crowd. he was known to sell stolen car parts as a teenager, and had a few run ins with the law. however, it was a cop who arrested him once when he was about 16 who proved to be his first real male role model.

he’s got some daddy issues. his father was a drunk who was physically abusive towards both sam and his mother. jay swarek spent sam’s childhood in and out of prison. as a teenager, sam lied to have his father sent to prison on a robbery charge -- while inside, jay killed another inmate and is currently serving a 20 year sentence. it was sam’s desire to protect his mother and sister from his father that first got him thinking about becoming a cop.

what they’ve been up to recently:

protecting those mean streets, baby! depending on the verse, sam is either an experienced uniformed officer, going about his job. or he’s a relatively newly-promoted detective settling into his new role. most interactions will probably fall into this category, generally taking place in the canon timeline of the series without relying on too many details.

some verses/interactions might be post-series. in this, sam is a new father, having just had a baby daughter with his ex, marlo. he is also newly married to fellow officer/partner/love of his life, andy mcnally. 

where to find them:

toronto, canada: born and raised here, you’ll find him on the job patrolling the streets in his squad car, or maybe responding to a call or investigating a case. this can be adapted to different cities/locations depending on the verse or the other muse.

out and about: when his shift is over and he’s off duty, you might find him in a variety of places -- particularly at the local bar, the black penny, where cops from 15 division generally hang out. maybe at the gym or out for a run. who knows! he’s just a normal dude living his normal life... this is also easily adaptable to whatever city/locale a verse or thread might require. 

current plans:

depending on the verse he’s either a) just trying to be a good cop, living his life and not planning too far ahead -- going where he wants to and doing as he pleases, or b) embracing his new roles as husband and father, doing whatever he came to protect and preserve his family.

desired interactions:

general crime things. admittedly, this is my least favorite option, but also the most common type of interaction. it’s an easy default for muses who are strangers to sam to meet him in the course of his job, but without plotting at all, these threads die fast. just come chat! maybe they’re investigating something together! maybe there’s some shady stuff going on and your muse needs sam’s help. who knows! let’s plot!

UNDERCOVER THINGS PLS. i can’t begin to describe how much i love undercover threads. it’s sam in his element and i want it all. is your muse a fellow cop and they’re undercover together? is sam investigating your muse? is your muse an informant on the inside? *grabby hands* gimme all of it.

dad!sam. we don’t see much of sam as a father in canon because, well, the show ends two episodes after his daughter is born. BUT. that is an aspect of his character i want to explore more... maybe our muses’ kids go to the same school/daycare. maybe your muse is his daughter’s teacher/doctor/whatever. oh, the possibilities!

anything in my aus/other verses. there are several verses that i, admittedly, have not written up yet, but i LOVE AUS WITH OTHER FANDOMS. my heart is really in science fiction, so i have/am working on verses for sam for things like star wars, stargate, firefly, etc. come be a nerd with me! it’s fun...

Offered interactions:

pretty much already described above - i’m game for most ideas and interactions (barring those with obvious, triggering themes): is your muse a doctor? maybe sam is there with a witness/suspect who needs care, or they’re his doctor when he was shot in season 4. is your muse a cop? maybe they’re partners! WHO KNOWS. i’m open to 99% of ideas tbh

a note on shipping - while it’s not my primary purpose here, I do love me a good ship. as long as there’s chemistry, i’m in. 

current open post/s:

i don’t post opens very often, but when i do, they’ll just be tagged #open.

anything else?:

my ims are always open if you have thoughts or ideas or questions!

tagging: YOU

tagged by: no one - i stole it from selena

[jake-marshall]

Ace Attorney (obvs.), Rune Factory, Harvest Moon, what you know of the MCU

Doing this meme.  ANswers under Cut

Ace AttorneyFavorite Male Character:  Overall, Diego or Jake.  But when I’m having a bad day, Fulbright B)Favorite Female Character:  Our Lord and savior Mia FeyFavorite Het Ship:  Welcome to jake-marshall.tumblr.com also known as Mia/Diego central.  Jake/Angel and Maggey/Gumshoe are other faves.Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F):  In Black/Bright we trust! B)  Also Klav/Daryan and the DADS (Datz/Dhurke).  Juniper/Thena is my #1 F/F ship but Fran/Adrian and Metis/Aura are Good Shit (TM)Least Favorite Male Character/Least Favorite Female Character:   There’s the obvious answers, villains like Kristoph, Gant, or Dahlia, but as for characters we’re supposed to like that I’m personally just not big on, Sebastian and Pearl.  I don’t dislike them, I just don’t really have any investment or thoughts on them, and their storylines don’t really affect me the way other characters’ do.Least Favorite Het/Slash (both M/M and F/F) Ships:  There’s a number of ships I just don’t like on their own merits, and then there’s a fair amount where I’m rather ambivalent, but am more turned off by the shippers’ behavior than the ship itself.

the ships above I have blacklisted because of a strong mixture of both reasons ^(Before anyone preaches at me that it’s up to me to control my own internet experience, I make it a point to keep my dash a happy place by not following/following back any blogs that post these ship; the tags are more for when I’m creeping through the character tags.)

Dirty Little Secret: Ummmm?  Idk?  I guess maybe that while the list of characters I find attractive is a short list, not every person on this list is public knowledge.   Some are.  But not all, and I’m going to keep it that way.  No I don’t want to fuck Kristoph. Headcanons: I guess, some headcanons I have that are tied to canon, that I’m really fond of are a) Kristoph’s first trial being the trial where Dahlia is sentenced and b) Fulbright’s first few months on the force directly intersecting with the events that lead up to Turnabout ReminiscenceUnpopular Opinion:  IDK?  Maybe that I don’t h/c Edgeworth as gay?  Or that I unapologetically like Diego/Godot, lol.Rune Factory:(I’m going to have to split my answers into different categories at some points, just based on the nature of the game, the context in which I play the game - that is, as a boy or a girl - affects my answer)Favorite Male Character: Hnnnghhhh.  As an overall character, I think tbh Dylas has become my fave?  But Vishnal won me over as best husbando.Favorite Female Character:  THIS IS SO HARD there’s too many ;w;  I really really love Margaret.   But dating/marrying Karina was amazing, the amount of development she goes through.Favorite Het Ship: My favorite Protag het ship is RF4 female player character (Frey)/Vishnal, which I never expected until I played the female file on RF4... but I’m sort of a sucker for butler/maid + their “master” (as my next answers will cover).  My favorite het ship out of the supporting cast is Gaius/Evelyn from RF3, they are SO CUTE I CAN’T.Favorite Slash Ship (Both M/M and F/F):I don’t really ship any of the male protags with any of the bachelors, but as for the female protag, I really like the idea of Frey/Forte.  A princess and her knight.  As for the supporting cast, I live a Dyldo appreciation life (they are hate-love done right) and as for F/F, I really like Electra/Maerwen from Tides of Destiny... the rich girl and her tsundere maid, lol.Least Favorite Male Character:  Other than the big bad, Ethelberd, GOD, Jake from RF2...HGNNNHHH he’s just a dick?  And racist lmao I mean I get it’s because of ~abandonment issues~ and that RF2 has some less than stellar writing but one would think he chills a bit with his hate-on for humans as he befriends you and/or marries Cecelia or Yue.  NOPE.  Least Favorite Female Character:  I really found Collette from RF3 to be annoying, and not in an endearing way. :\Least Favorite Het Ship:   Out of Protags, I don’t like Kyle/Mana from RF2, like, at all, mostly because it feels like the game forces it.  Most of the RF/HM games have a “default” bachelorette that’s presented as the “Main” bachelorette of the game, plot-wise, but with Mana it’s just really not done well, from how you meet through the events.  As for supporting cast ships, I’ve seen Leon/Forte from RF4 quite a bit and it just rubs me the wrong way.  Probably because I don’t like Leon a lot but also, just... ships where one character perpetually teases the other and it’s supposed to be “flirting” just isn’t cool with me.  I know Leon doesn’t mean to be malicious in his teasing but with Forte, I feel it’s not a good approach and I don’t think it makes them compatible in the least.Least Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F):  Again, I don’t really have any preferences with the male protags and the male villagers, but one I particularly don’t like is Kyle/Barrett from RF2... mainly because I think Barrett and Dorothy are meant for each other but also, just... I  feel it’s played as though Barrett’s animosity is just him covering his ~true feelings~ and lmfao that’s like... not at all? his character? It’s just not something that makes sense to me.   I actually think all the female protag ships/female villager ships are cute enough; no preferences either way.  OUt of the supporting cast, I know Forte/Margaret is popular and there’s nothing wrong with it, it just doesn’t click in that way for me.Dirty Little Secret:  If I could personally marry any rune factory character... listen... I love Gordon.  I love him so much.  He is COMPLETELY my type, the noble bro.  I don’t care if he’s like 50 and has two kids and is a priest.  Headcanon(s):  I guess this is a fairly popular headcanon within the fandom but I do think Zaid and Doug could be pretty closely related and I wish there were more RF games to explore more about the different Elf and Dwarf tribes.Unpopular Opinion:  Shit, umm...I guess, I don’t think Rune Factory 4 is the best game for someone new to the franchise to start with.  It’s the best game, by far, IMO but I think it is SO involved, so fleshed out that it could be insanely overwhelming.Harvest Moon:Favorite Male Character:  Fffffffff so many.  It’s so hard for me to pick between Vaughn (my first fave) and Owen (my #1 husbando).  Gustafa is up there too.Favorite Female Character:  Again, there’s so many wonderful ladies.  Selena and Candace are opposite ends of the spectrum but both so amazing.  I might be slightly more partial to Candace because...Favorite Het Ship:  With the male protag, I adore Kasey/Candace.   Female protag, Chelsea/Will was my first OTP and probably always will be.  Out of the supporting cast/rivals, there’s too many to choose from, but Nami/Gustafa and Luke/Selena are so good.  And honorary mention to Galen/Nina for breaking my goddamn heart.Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F): I actually only have one slash ship with the protag, and that is Philip/Dirk from ToTT but GOD DO i SHIP IT HARD.  Out of the villagers, I can’t resist Luke/Owen for M/M and Gina/Dia (again, rich girl and her maid).Least Favorite Male Character:  Buhhhhh Chase.  I mean he’s just an ass.  I feel like Neil from ANB is way ruder, and Rock from AWL/DS is just a complete fuckboy, but I’ve played ToT/AP so much that Chase sticks out to me the most.Least Favorite Female Character:   There’s a lot of boring female characters tbh :|  Elli comes to mind.  Ellen, Renee, Celia... lol a lot of the girls with short brown hair, apparently.Least Favorite Het Ship:  I mean as far as Protag ships, none of them I absolutely hate.  I don’t really like any protag pairings with a candidate who appears in a future game (example, Gretel/Amir in Grand Bazaar, when Amir later appears in ANB as an eligible bachelor), because to me it seems like the person left your protag in the preceding game, lol.  

As for rival pairings, LOOK I LOVEEEE Julius - honestly, he’s one of the better husbandos in ToT/AP - but Julius/Candace pisses me off so much.  He bullied her to the point that she has no self-esteem, and then he’s all like WHUPS MY BAD I DID IT BECAUSE I LIKE YOU, well TOUGH SHIT JULIUS.  CANDACE DON’T OWE YOU ANYTHING.  I really like them becoming friends, repairing the damage Julius did, but I feel pairing them together is Candace “settling”, not to mention it’s basically saying Julius was okay for doing what he did, and that’s not fair to either of them.

Least Favorite Slash Ship: (Both M/M and F/F):  for protags, Mark/Vaughn from IoH/SI just because I absolutely can not see Vaughn being interested in men, lol.  Plus it’s usually just written as a gay version of Chelsea/Vaughn which is, by and large, also poorly done.   For villagers/rivals - I really do not get Chase/Gill. At all.  They’re both cynical and socially stunted in their own ways and I just think they’re too much alike for a relationship to be of any benefit to them?Dirty Little Secret:  I don’t really have one when it comes to HM?Headcanon(s): Maybe they state otherwise in Story of Seasons (which I haven’t played, but Cam and Reina left Bluebell/Konohana partly because of not wanting to deal with Ash’s drama anymore, lol.Also, Neil is Vaughn and Gwen’s son.  No, I mean I could see it physically but that would imply Vaughn is a shitty father lol.Unpopular Opinion:  Save the Homeland is a great game?  Idk I’ve only played a little bit of it and it gets a bad knock because you can’t marry in it but it has some of the better plotlines out of the whole series and is compulsively replayable.MCU (or, my limited knowledge of MCU):Favorite Male Character:  You Only Loki Once.  >:3  Favorite Female Character: Peggy freakin’ Carter Favorite Het Ship:  Steggy /clutches heart/Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F): Stucky!!!  I haven’t seen enough movies to have a F/F ship, tbh.Least Favorite Male Character:  Other than the baddies, idk, I don’t really have any feelings towards Hulk/Bruce Banner.  Of course that could change if I see more movies.Least Favorite Female Character:  Not really a fan of Darcy.Least Favorite Het Ship:  Again, I don’t really know much about their characters, but Bruce/Natasha isn’t something I care about one way or the other.Least Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F): I can’t believe I can’t just say “Other than Incest” but this one is so popular and the fact that people DON’T consider it incest should tell you exactly why I loathe it so much:  Thor/Loki F/F, again, I got nothing.Dirty Little Secret:  I don’t know?  This isn’t really a secret I guess but I cried EXCESSIVELY to my counselor over Falcon after seeing TWS for the first time.Headcanon(s):  Not sure I have any?  I haven’t spent a lot of time thinking about them for these characters.Unpopular Opinion:  Hmmmm.  Even though I really love Cap, I wouldn’t say I’m necessarily “team Cap” in the whole Civil War thing.  From what I understand, Tony seemed to become more hated by Cap Fans (someone correct me if I’m wrong) but I came away after CA:CW surprised at how much I really did not hate him at all and understood his side of things.

Thanks for the ask, Holly!

[queen-of-lightning-and-fire]

Justice for DC and YA Heroes Panel

Sarah J. Maas = Catwoman (2018) 

Selena's friends are meant to draw her out from her guarded nature and be a teen in the way she wasn't able to before because of who she had to take care of 

Selena is toward the later end of the teen, age spectrum 

It is dual POV (or multi) 

There is a character named Lucas Fox, the son of Lucius Fox 

I KNOW RIGHT LUCAS = LUCIEN, FOX !!!! I HAD THE SAME WTF OH MY GOD MOMENT 

Selena is a bit "quiet" and guarded because of the people she has protected from a young age and growing up so quickly 

SJM continually referenced Poison Ivy and Harley Quinn (maybe something important)

Her favorite version of Cat woman is Michelle Phipher

She kept her in mind when drafting the book but when she started writing her version of Selena is much different that the way Phipher portrayed Selena 

SJM doesn't outline her books, LIKE DOES NOT, so when she was told she had to send DC a three page synopsis of what the book was going to be about she was nervous 

But then when she started writing she just didn't stop and it ended up being 23 (or maybe 33) pages 

She advises to not wear leather in July 

Selena's new suit is more "breathable" 

She has just sent in/gotten back feedback on her first round of edits 

This summer will be a BIG focus on Cat woman edits

Marie Lu = Batman (2017) 

ANIMATED SERIES OF BATMAN ALL THE WAY 

She wished she could have included Dick Grayson (Nightwing) but he would have been a baby 

"He would have been Night Baby" 

Bruce's bad "guy" is a girl who may or may not be going to his school and is "dark" 

A big thing she had to work on was teenage Bruce since she kept going to adult Bruce because that was what she knew of 

Something she worked with was the idea that he is a billionaire orphan and trying to make his sound teenage-ish 

Bruce fights with figuring out who wants to be friends with him because of who he is vs. who wants to be friends with him because of his name (Wayne) and his money 

Just sent in the last of the edits I believe 

First time she has written in Third Person POV 

Arkahm is now on the outskirts of Gotham

Had talked to herself when she is alone "I AM BATMAN" 

Did not read the attachment when signing on to do the project 

Binged watched Batman everything for a day with her husband for research  

Matt de la Pena = Superman (2018) 

Fun to incorporate some of his own immigrant experience into the story 

HISPANIC LOVE INTEREST

Maybe awkward flirting scene between Clark and a girl in a diner  (one of his favorite scenes) 

Fun to find what is it like to be a teenager figuring out/developing/experimenting with new found abilities 

Clark is a football player who can score every time 

A question for him when he as writing was "what would it be like if Clark (being he muscular and athletic kid that he is) befriend the scrawny and 'weak' kid" 

He is on his first round of edits 

He worked with developing why and how Clark developed his golden compass good

Leigh Bardugo = Wonder Woman: Warbringer (August 29, 2017) 

She loved WW when she was younger but then fell out of love with her as she grew up because of some of the impossibilities of that world. And it took her a while to fall back/find why she loved WW in the first place

Don't worry she is head over heals in love with her now 

So the Amazons are not a Stone Age civilization 

She created it so that any brace woman who died in combat and prayed to a female goddess in her last dying breathes could become an Amazon 

Thus making it so that the Amazons are a bit more updated

Like with cars 

WW's crew is a mix of ethnicities, genders and sexual orientations (not 100% sure on this but it was heavily alluded to) 

Along with a jab at, fighting modern day issues and problems like an Orange chetto

One of the people that WW interacts with is: Alia 

A descendant of Helen of Troy (a war bringer that is hated upon by many) that WW wants to help and show that she can be good

There may be a game of truth or dare with the lasso of truth

WW does need to be taught slang 

WW may have a love interest 

WW is told in dual POV

WW and Alia 

WW is still the duagher of the Queen but is not beloved by all, some see her as an abomination

WW is the only Amazon that has not proven herself in battle and thus runs away at night to do so (the start of her journey)

Leigh Bardugo created some of her own Amazons because she wasn't able to use some characters she wanted to 

WW is a mix between model and knight in shining armor 

It felt good to write a character that was genuinely good

For all of them is was weird having someone to run everything by, to have to be approved to include certain characters. To not step over bounds and not be able to go back into that world they "created" once they finished the book.

[iasfuturekings]

I gotta say, your AU is so professional, I will say I like it more than fates and I would definitely but the game of Garon during the civil war. Like it annoyed me that corrin had so many servants, but you worked it out, AND you got rid of the unrequited crush Flora had on Jakob. Felicia, I didn't like her character too much, and Lilith I forgot about until she died, so I believe you made a good call. I also love all the dead siblings because once the supports talked about the consort war (1/2)

(2/2) I was hooked. Since nohr was suppose to be the rougher side it definitely sounded like there’s some dead siblings, but the game never says anything more. even though they’re not in the current timeline you gave them names, answer all our questions, give them original personalities and backstories, more than I can ever hope for. The consorts are also hella cool because everything they did was mostly for power or their kids not the love of garon. This might go on to another ask

(3/?)Yeah I’m gonna just flood your inbox. What you do with the awakening trio gives me more believable answers than that on dlc pack did. I like to believe Severa was Lucina’s right handwoman, Inigo her lover of sort, and owain well her cousin. She goes missing for some reason, and they go to find her. I doubt they would really wanna live in another world that needs saving after their experience back at home. Awakening was my first game then fates so I liked fates but I liked Robin a lot more. 

(4/)BUT YOU MAKE ANRI interesting. I know Anri has other marriage options but I really like when corrin marries someone else retainer or the non retainer group. So seeing him and Niles together was just like the ultimate facial clearing my skin. I am a sucker for romance but at the same time I’m like there’s gotta be more AND YOU DO THAT! I loved that you pair selena and camilla together because in their support selena wants to be number 1 and in your au SHE GIVES HER A RING! Thank you for that  

(5/) okay last topic(4now). How you dealt with Hosido and Anri’s bloodline. I felt like how the game makes Anri not Hosidan really destroys the whole bloodline agreement just so the player can marry their sibling. I like how Anri is actually related to sumeragi, I know you changed the scene of how Anri ends in nohr but I don’t remember right now. But he’s related and that’s what I really wanted. Valla is cool, but that’s more Azura’s thing. I also like the polyship instead of an angsty Ikona

Whoa!! I’m glad my AU has such an impact on you!

[iamwhelmed]

Gladly Give My Life: A FWTBT Isaac Angst Playlist

“You think you know me that well, huh? That’s really cute, Isaac, because I’ve never cared less about a person in my life. You think you can read me the way everyone else can read you? We’re not even friends” Isaac felt everything in him fall from its place, every organ collapsing as though there’d been nothing to keep him together at all. “We never were.”

Million Reasons -- Lady Gaga (Madilyn Bailey cover)

I try to make the worst seem better Lord, show me the way To cut through all his worn out leather I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away But baby, I just need one good one to stay...

And if you say something that you might even mean It's hard to even fathom which parts I should believe 'Cause you're giving me a million reasons

Same Old Love -- Selena Gomez

You can't take back what you said, I know I've heard it all before, at least a million times I'm not one to forget, you knowI don't believe, I don't believe it You left in peace, left me in pieces Too hard to breathe I'm on my knees right now...

So don't you try and change your mind Cause I won't be changing too, you know

You can't believe, still can't believe it You left in peace, left me in pieces

Just Like a Pill -- P!nk

...I'm crying here, what have you done?...

Run just as fast as I can To the middle of nowhere To the middle of my frustrated fears And I swear you're just like a pill 'Stead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill

Acting Out -- Ashley Tisdale

Up above the surface I was just a perfect child...

I'm suffocating, I can't breathe Let me out this cage, I'm not gonna hold back Gonna break these chains, I'm taking control now Gonna give ya something to talk about It's another side of me I'm acting out

Set me free, I'm ready to show you This is what I need, it's time to get dirty

Beggin’ On Your Knees -- Victoria Justice

You had it all the day you told me (told me) you want me I had it all but let you fool me (fool me) completely Yeah I was so stupid to give you all my attention 'Cause the way you played me exposed your true intentions...

So watch your back 'cause you don't know when or where I can get you I've set the trap and when I'm done then you'll know what I've been through So oh, Mister Player, do you feel like the man now?...

...You mess with me (yeah) and mess with her (yeah) So I'll make sure you get what you deserve (yeah) Yeah one day you'll be beggin' on your knees for me

Run Devil Run -- SNSD (babiixj english cover)

Don't wanna play with you, you bad boy Just end your game, I don't care how And all this time you had me blinded You lit and burnt my heart right down...

You think you could get away from this And have me sit back and taking your shi- Oh no, you better start running really far...

...I'll show no mercy, show no mercy Run devil devil run run...

...This girl's gonna put you thru much more hell Much more hell than you put on me I told you not to do no wrong Now I'm gonna put you where you belong (in hell)

Somebody That I Used to Know -- Gotye and Kimbra

...Told myself that you were right for me But felt so lonely in your company But that was love and it's an ache I still rememberYou can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness Like resignation to the end, always the end...

...Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over But had me believing it was always something that I'd done But I don't wanna live that way Reading into every word you say

This is How You Remind Me -- Nickleback

It's not like you to say sorry I was waiting on a different story This time I'm mistaken For handing you A heart worth breaking And I've been wrong

Can’t I Even Dream -- Miku Hatsune (rockleetist english cover)

Tears fall like a rainstorm I barely see. A twisted grin broken within. Am I going crazy? Yet I have made it here Bearing this love, my dear. Bearing the weight of it upon my knees. And if I scream your name It's not returned in same I bed, forget me please. Yet I have made it here. Make this pain disappear. My one and only, Prince Charming

Mercy -- Shawn Mendes

You've got a hold of me Don't even know your power I stand a hundred feet But I fall when I'm around you

Show me an open door Then you go and slam it on me I can't take anymore I'm saying baby

Please have mercy on me Take it easy on my heart Even though you don't mean to hurt me You keep tearing me apart Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart...

I'm not asking for a lot Just that you're honest with me My pride is all I got..

Consuming all the air inside my lungs Ripping all the skin from off my bones I'm prepared to sacrifice my life I would gladly do it twice

This last one is more of a Book Two song, but I figured I’d just stick it in here as a “Future” piece ;D Consider it a hint!

This Love Will Be Your Downfall -- Ellie Goulding

[faunaflanaganarchive]

sawyerhudson​:

PM: You’ve been transparent from the beginning, this much is true. America is full of these weird niche museums though. I might have to see if there’s one in Lima to take you to. You would, huh? That is very good to know. One night I may just order you to mine and have my wicked way with little old you. But only if that’s something you wanted. I mean, I’m acting like my high school wasn’t full of the classic bullies. I…am saving that picture to be your contact in my phone. I love it, truly. But you suit them, you know. That sounds incredibly delicious and I can’t wait to taste-test it. My sister Evan is in your camp! I’ll make sure she’s extra nice to you. And I’m always down to hang as well.

PM: I saw a movie once with Selena Gomez where they were on some kind of roadtrip to see the worlds biggest elastic band ball, are the niche museums a bit like that? Yup, you’re more than welcome to order me anytime and I’ll let you have me any wicked way that you like. If that’s something that you wanted. Bullies do be everywhere, but the joke is on them since I had a glow up. You never take a minute off from being charming do you? If you’re saving that then I absolutely demand a similarly dorky picture of you for my contacts. I have better glasses now for when I’m wearing them. I will absolutely both message her and look out for her while camping. You know I’m always down to hang out with my favourite football player. There’s also the matter of that scene that can earn you points, if you need a volunteer then you can sign me up. 

(Sawyer) PM: That cake was delicious, thank you. And it wasn't weird at all, it was a very lovely gesture, Fauna. I'd offer to bake you something in return, but you'd get food poisoning, probably.

PM: I’m glad that you liked it, and that it wasn’t weird I’ve never really handed out baked goods without consent before. You don’t have to bake me anything, this was a thank you gift :) 

[jacket-desu]

🌻30 Questions🌻

Rules: Answer thirty questions, then tag twenty blogs you would like to know better. ( You guys don’t have to, I’m just gonna tag all the blogs I really love! )

Tagged by @natedad-does-not-approve ( who’s blog I love and repost from constantly eyyyy yo what up fam !!! )

I tag: @space-moth, @ramen-daddy, @heart-knows-no-shame, @galaticfrillprincess, @yugino, @ryancage, @grotesqueking, @lavenderbatslikes, @radgranny, @plum, @buggythewarlord, @zinfandelli, @baileef, @sxspendedindusk, @cassietotallyjust, @ghostiehime, @sodii, @redals, @epic-fantasy, @deep-in-the-vvoods

1. Nicknames? Jacket, Hentai Panda, Jack-o-lantern for the holidays lmao 2. Gender? Female uvu 3. Star sign? Scorpio 4. Height?5′4.5″ 5. Time? 11:40 pm 6. Birthday? November 2!!

7. Favourite bands? Our Last Night, Linkin Park ( Rest easy, Chester! ), Green Day, Nirvana, System of a Down, Chainsmokers ( There’s a lot more but I’ll just leave it at that random ass mixture of music lmao ) 8. Favourite solo artists? Lady Gaga, Nicki Minaj, Selena Gomez, Amanda Palmer, Eminem, Skylar Grey 9. Song stuck in my head? Humble by Kendrick Lamar ( sit down bitch ) 10. Last movie you watched? Oh lord it was the Death Note Movie LOL 11. Last show you watched? Stranger Things! 12. When did I create my blog? I think I was like 16 when I made it? So 6-7 years ago! But for a long time I was inactive and focused more on roleplay blogs I also had goin on 13. What do I post? Lots of fandoms, makeup, fun nails, cute ass clothes, and the occasional porn uvu 14. Last thing I googled? I looked up outfits Princess Peach had because I made a Sims 4 version of her LOL 15. Do you have other blogs? I do! All roleplay ones, though I haven’t been on them in ages cries 16. Do you get asks? Nooo I am a lonely blogger hello world 17. Why did you choose your url? It’s my nickname uvu 18. Following? 215 19. Followers? 270 ;u; I’m sure a good majority are porn blogs LOL 20. Favourite colours? Lavender ~~~ I also in general love pastel-y colors 21. Average hours of sleep? Uh...maybe like 5 hours? 22. Lucky number? 6 or 16 have always been good numbers for me!  23. Instruments? i played the trumpet for a concert once, but I was a flute player for a while! 24. What am I wearing? A very long Space Jam tshirt uvu 25. How many blankets I sleep with? 1-2 26. Dream job? I used to want to be a makeup artist but my interests have been changing. I’m not too sure what my dream job would be now, though I love anything that allows me to be creative! 27. Dream trip? Anywhere out of the country, since I’ve never been out of the US uvu I’d really love to visit Germany and see my cousin and uncle though! 28. Favourite food? Steak hhhhhh 30. Favourite song now? I’m a big loser and I honestly love Selena’s new Fetish song tbh

[selenatorsphilippines]

Selena Gomez on Instagram Fatigue, Good Mental Health, and Stepping Back From the Limelight

On an unusually wet and windy evening in Los Angeles, Selena Gomez shows up at my door with a heavy bag of groceries. We’ve decided that tonight’s dinner will be a sort of tribute to the after-church Sunday barbecues she remembers from her Texan childhood. I already have chicken simmering in green salsa, poblano peppers blackening on the flames of the stove, and red cabbage wilting in a puddle of lime juice. All we need are Gomez’s famous cheesy potatoes—so bad they’re good, she promises. She sets down her Givenchy purse and brings up, in gaudy succession, a frozen package of Giant Eagle Potatoes O’Brien, a can of Campbell’s Cream of Chicken soup, a bag of shredded “Mexican cheese,” and a squat plastic canister of French’s Crispy Fried Onions.

“I bet you didn’t think we were going to get this real,” she says, and when I tell her that real isn’t the first word that springs to mind when faced with these ingredients, she responds with the booming battle-ax laugh that offers a foretaste of Gomez’s many enchanting incongruities.

But real is precisely what I was expecting from the 24-year-old Selena, just as her 110 million Instagram followers (Selenators, as they’re known) have come to expect it. Of course, celebrity’s old codes are long gone, MGM’s untouchable eggshell glamour having given way to the “They’re Just Like Us!” era of documented trips to the gas station and cellulite captured by telephoto lenses. But Gomez and her ilk have gone further still, using their smartphones to generate a stardom that seems to say not merely “I’m just like you” but “I am you.”

“People so badly wanted me to be authentic,” she says, laying a tortilla in sizzling oil, “and when that happened, finally, it was a huge release. I’m not different from what I put out there. I’ve been very vulnerable with my fans, and sometimes I say things I shouldn’t. But I have to be honest with them. I feel that’s a huge part of why I’m where I am.” Gomez traces her shift toward the unfiltered back to a song she released in 2014 called “The Heart Wants What It Wants,” a ballad about loving a guy she knows is bad news. The title derives from a letter written by Emily Dickinson, though Woody Allen reintroduced the phrase when he used it to describe his relationship with Soon-Yi Previn. We can assume that Gomez is referring here to Justin Bieber, with whom she ended a three-year relationship at around the time the song debuted.

If you are over 30 and find yourself somewhat mystified by Gomez’s fame, unable to attach it to any art object—apart from several inescapable pop songs and a cameo in The Big Short in which, as herself, she explains synthetic collateralized debt obligations—then you might wish to watch the video for “The Heart Wants What It Wants.” (You will be late to the party; it received more than nine million views in the first 24 hours following its release.) Before the music begins, we hear Gomez’s voice as if from a recorded psychotherapy session, ruminating over a betrayal. “Feeling so confident, feeling so great about myself,” she says, her voice breaking, “and then it’d just be completely shattered by one thing. By something so stupid.” Sobs. “But then you make me feel crazy. You make me feel like it’s my fault.” Is this acting? Is it a HIPAA violation? Either way, there is magic in the way it makes you feel as if you’ve just shared in her suffering. Pay dirt for a Selenator.

Gomez queues up a playlist—Dolly Parton, Kenny Rogers—and back in the kitchen, there is a chile relleno casserole to assemble, green enchiladas to roll, and her cheesy potatoes to mix together. As I slip an apron over her mane of chocolate-brown hair, for which Pantene has paid her millions, and tie it around her tiny waist, I wonder whether her legions have felt for years the same sharp pang of protectiveness that I’m feeling at present. Even as she projects strength and self-assuredness, Gomez is not stingy with frailty. “I’ve cried onstage more times than I can count, and I’m not a cute crier,” she says. Last summer, after the North American and Asian legs of her “Revival” tour, with more than 30 concerts remaining, she abruptly shut things down and checked into a psychiatric facility in Tennessee. (This was the second time Gomez had canceled a tour to enter into treatment; in January 2014, shortly after being diagnosed with lupus, she spent two weeks at the Meadows, the Arizona center that has welcomed Tiger Woods, Rush Limbaugh, and Kate Moss.) The cause, she says, was not an addiction or an eating disorder or burnout, exactly.

“Tours are a really lonely place for me,” she explains. “My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it—which, I think, was a complete distortion. I was so used to performing for kids. At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they weren’t good enough. Suddenly I have kids smoking and drinking at my shows, people in their 20s, 30s, and I’m looking into their eyes, and I don’t know what to say. I couldn���t say, ‘Everybody, let’s pinky-promise that you’re beautiful!’ It doesn’t work that way, and I know it because I’m dealing with the same shit they’re dealing with. What I wanted to say is that life is so stressful, and I get the desire to just escape it. But I wasn’t figuring my own stuff out, so I felt I had no wisdom to share. And so maybe I thought everybody out there was thinking, This is a waste of time.”

On August 15, Gomez uploaded a photo of almost baroque drama: her body collapsed on the stage, bathed in beatific light. Whether this was agony or ecstasy, it drew more than a million comments from fans (who have handles like “selena_is_my_life_forever”). It would be her last Instagram post for more than three months. She flew to Tennessee, surrendered her cell phone, and joined a handful of other young women in a program that included individual therapy, group therapy, even equine therapy. “You have no idea how incredible it felt to just be with six girls,” she says, “real people who couldn’t give two shits about who I was, who were fighting for their lives. It was one of the hardest things I’ve done, but it was the best thing I’ve done.” She stayed for 90 days, making her first post-treatment appearance last November at the American Music Awards, where she collected the trophy for Favorite Pop/Rock Female Artist and gave a tearful speech about her struggles; it quickly went viral.

In the tearoom at the Peninsula Beverly Hills hotel, little girls in pinafores and pink high-tops sit on heavily tasseled sofas and drink sparkling apple juice out of champagne flutes. One by one they approach our table, shyness replaced by rapturous giggles as Gomez praises their pretty dresses and invites them to sit with her for a picture. Her seemingly infinite patience with these intrusions is something between a habit and a principle. “Somebody I used to hang out with would always get very frustrated with me,” she says, presumably referring to Bieber, whose name she will not utter. “But I have a hard time saying no to children.”

Donna Gigliotti, who produced The Fundamentals of Caring, a 2016 drama in which Gomez plays the love interest of a boy with muscular dystrophy, recalls the throngs of children ready to engulf her outside the set even in rural Georgia. “They love her because she is so generous and so authentic,” Gigliotti says. “I admit that I didn’t quite understand her huge fan base at first. Now I see her as a sort of third-generation feminist. She’s adorable and flirty and funny, but she’s also kind of kick-ass. I think her young fans go wild for that combination.”

“There’s a vulnerability about Selena,” says Paul Rudd, her costar in The Fundamentals of Caring. “She’s never trying to sell herself or impress anyone. She doesn’t put on airs, and she was a good sport about really long days in sometimes uncomfortable conditions. You’d never know she was so famous by the way she behaved, which, I think, is a huge key to her appeal.”

Doll-like and startled in pictures but almost breathtakingly at ease in person, Gomez was once described by her good friend Taylor Swiftas “both 40 years old and seven years old.” She grew up in Grand Prairie, Texas, raised by a single mother who was sixteen when she was born. Gomez remembers being asked to feel between the cushions in the car for change so that they could buy Styrofoam cups of ramen. But at age seven, after a few years on the pageant circuit, she landed a role on the children’s show Barney & Friends, which shot in Dallas and recruited talent locally. By twelve she was one of Disney’s young players, plucked out of thousands of hopefuls. At thirteen she moved to Los Angeles with her mother and stepfather, and the following year Disney gave her the lead in Wizards of Waverly Place, a sitcom about a family of wizards who own a downtown Manhattan restaurant. The show was a hit, and Disney did what Disney does, fanning Gomez’s talent across music and movies, with her mother, Mandy Teefey, continuing to act as her manager. (Gomez hired a Hollywood management firm in 2014, after her first mental-health crisis, but she continues to develop projects with her mother and prizes her opinion above all others.) “I worked with Disney for four years,” Gomez says. “It’s a very controlled machine. They know what they represent, and there was, 100 percent, a way to go about things.”

No child star enjoys easy passage through the morass of adolescence, and Gomez struggled to shed her blandly perky Wizards persona. “For a guy there’s a way to rebel that can work for you,” she believes. “But for a woman, that can backfire. It’s hard not to be a cliché, the child star gone wrong. I did respect my fans and what I had, but I was also figuring out what I was passionate about and how far I was willing to go.” The first thing she did post-Disney was Harmony Korine’s darkly lurid Spring Breakers, a 2013 film about four college girls on a rampage of sex, drugs, and murder. (Gomez played Faith, the one who can’t quite stomach it all and heads back early.) “My mom wanted me to work with a director who would really push me,” she recalls. “I watched Kids, Trash Humpers, Gummo, and I was like, Mom, are you crazy? But it was fun to imagine how you might behave if you were set free of whatever was holding you captive. I’m a late bloomer. I grew up around adults, but in terms of getting out, having friends—at times I really didn’t know anything but my job.”

In retrospect, Gomez’s childhood successes were always tinged with sadness. “My mom gave up her whole life for me,” she explains. “Where we’re from, you don’t really leave. So when I started gaining all this success, there was a guilt that came with it. I thought, Do I deserve this?” Though she has been in several other films since Spring Breakers, Gomez has enjoyed greater success as a musician. And yet the musician’s life exhausts her. On film sets she is buffered by the ensemble and can retreat into her character, but in a concert, all eyes fix upon her. “It’s weird,” she says, “to get up onstage and have everybody know where you were last night.”

With the tour and treatment behind her, lately Gomez is feeling unusually relaxed. The Netflix miniseries 13 Reasons Why, which she executive-produced, airs this month, and it addresses several issues dear to her, among them teen suicide and the pressures of social media. Eight years ago, Gomez and her mother reached out to Jay Asher, who wrote the novel from which the series has been adapted. Its title refers to the thirteen reasons why its protagonist, Hannah Baker, chose to take her life. “I didn’t know much about Selena back then,” Asher remembers. “I think I watched Princess Protection Program to prepare. She explained to me how deeply she connected to the book, which is really about how there’s no way to know what people deal with. In that very first meeting we talked about Twitter, and I remember her telling me that there’s this idea that celebrities aren’t supposed to notice or care about what’s being said about them. But she can’t help but care.”

Gomez has also been in the recording studio off and on, and in February she released “It Ain’t Me,” a song cut last November, produced by the Norwegian DJ Kygo. It’s both a dance-floor anthem and a polemic against dependency and enmeshment. (“Who’s gonna walk you through the dark side of the morning?” she sings. “It ain’t me.” A few years back, it might well have been Gomez.) She is collaborating with Coach on a line of accessories, out this fall, and Stuart Vevers, the house’s creative director, recently met with her in Los Angeles for a bit of brainstorming. “There’s a very warm and inclusive way that Selena has with her fans,” Vevers says. “That’s the nature of her power. What fashion house wouldn’t want to tap into that?”

There are no movies in the works and no time pressure from her record label. “For a change,” she says, “it feels like I don’t have to be holding my breath and waiting for somebody to judge a piece of work that I’m doing. I’m not eager to chase a moment. I don’t think there’s a moment for me to chase.” Gomez currently lives in an Airbnb in the Valley and honestly doesn’t get out much, except for long drives with her girlfriends: a realtor, a techie, some folks from church. “I think seventeen people have my phone number right now,” she says. “Maybe two are famous.” She is taking Spanish, which she spoke fluently as a little girl but lost, in the hope of recording some Spanish-language music in the future. She sees her shrink five days a week and has become a passionate advocate of Dialectical Behavior Therapy, a technique developed to treat borderline personality disorder that is now used more broadly, with its emphasis on improving communication, regulating emotions, and incorporating mindfulness practices. “DBT has completely changed my life,” she says. “I wish more people would talk about therapy. We girls, we’re taught to be almost too resilient, to be strong and sexy and cool and laid-back, the girl who’s down. We also need to feel allowed to fall apart.”

She has hardly been posting on Instagram. In fact, the app is no longer on her phone, and she doesn’t even have the password to her own account. (It’s now in the possession of her assistant.) She sometimes fantasizes about disappearing from social media altogether. “As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out,” Gomez says. “It had become so consuming to me. It’s what I woke up to and went to sleep to. I was an addict, and it felt like I was seeing things I didn’t want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didn’t want to care about. I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram. Which is why I’m kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit.”

Well, not entirely under the radar. A few days after we met, Gomez flew to Italy with her new beau, The Weeknd, and the paparazzi did not fail to notice. (Neither did The Weeknd’s ex, the model Bella Hadid, who took to social media and promptly unfollowed Gomez.) When I ask Gomez about the romance, she tells me that everything she has said about her relationships in the past has come back to bite her, and that she will never do it again.

“Oh, Mylanta!” she wails, watching her cheesy potatoes travel around the table, a whiff of the simpler joys of home. “Look, I love what I do, and I’m aware of how lucky I am, but—how can I say this without sounding weird? I just really can’t wait for people to forget about me.”

Source: Vogue

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“You can talk to my assistant about scheduling interviews.” When she’d initially brushed a reporter off after the season opener, Selena wholeheartedly believed that she managed to circumnavigate a potential disaster. She wasn’t opposed to giving interviews -- - truth be told, she should have been more liberal with her time during the 2017 season - -- but she had a full schedule and had yet to figure out a way to find time to lick her wounds. A more careful approach to press-related functions was out the window, however, when her assistant proudly chirped that she had ‘scheduled that interview you wanted!’

Unfortunately, no amount of animosity toward the girl could prevent the interview from taking place. The schedule was set and Selena hosted the interviewer from Witch Weekly with a gracious smile and the insistence that it was no trouble -- - no trouble at all, dear! - -- to answer a few questions from the comfort of her office.

Are you happy with the way the quidditch season is going so far?

“I-- -” Shock gives way to humor as Selena leans back in her chair, twirling a pen between her fingers. “You did see the last game, didn’t you? I can’t say I’m happy with a loss.” Who would be? A smile is attempted but abandoned as she leans forward, elbows planted on mahogany so can lace her fingers and rest her chin atop the cradle of her digits. “I will say that I’m over the moon with how the team’s responded to the loss, though. Our next match is going to go very differently, I think. Then again, I might be biased.” Smile. Wink. Breathe.

What words would you use to describe yourself?

So it’s one of those interviews, then? She doesn’t falter, but she makes a show of considering the options presented. “What’s the word everyone likes to use? Ah, right -- - intense.” She’s playing to her audience now, showing her distaste with a well-placed shake of her head and a wrinkled nose to boot. “I prefer passionate. Intense is the kind of thing men say about women who refuse to be silenced. But, at any rate, I think I’m passionate. Shrewd, when I need to be. I like to think I’m funny, but doesn’t everybody? Overall, I’d say I’m smart and ambitious.” Nothing wrong with that.

If you could change one aspect of your personality, what would it be?

Rude. She hides her disgust by leaning back in her chair, passing her thumb under her lower lip while she contemplates a question she knows the answer to. “I’d like to be a more relaxed person, I think.” As if her morning was spent doing anything other than sipping mimosas with Cordelia, laughing about the idea of giving an interview. “I throw myself into projects and take it personally when things don’t turn out quite the way I want them to. That’s difficult with quidditch, since I can’t control what happens on the pitch. Still, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t often think about last year’s cup and the moves I could’ve made.”

Briefly talk about a defining moment in your life. What made it so important?

Her throat tightens, though she hides it with all the practiced ease of a woman who’s done hundreds of interviews and expects to do a hundred more. “Did you know I once tried to break into the Shrieking Shack?” Is that shock on the interviewer’s face, or is it fear? Either way, Selena smiles. “I did. When I was a sixth year at Hogwarts, a friend of mine and I tried to sneak our way into the Shrieking Shack. And you know what we found?” She leans forward, all smiles as the poor journalist meets her intensity. “Nothing.” A beat, “Absolutely nothing. No ghosts. No curses. Bit disappointing, really. But it taught me that most things are only as scary as we make them.” She shrugs, confident that embellishments won’t be properly researched by Witch Weekly. “At the end of the day, the Shrieking Shack was just an old building. The detention and losing the house cup was worth it to learn that there was no reason to pay any attention to the eyesore.”

If you weren’t involved in the quidditch scene, what kind of job do you would have?

“Am I supposed to tell you I’d go back to being a housewife?” Selena purses her lips a the interviewer across from her blushes a deep scarlet. And why shouldn’t she? It’s an insulting question, at best; a sad attempt to get a sound byte, at worst. Selena crosses her legs, leans back and scrutinizes the interviewer while weighing the pros and cons of firing her assistant as soon as the interview comes to a close. “I toyed with being an auror.” It’s the shock that Selena hates -- - the raised brows and slacked jaws that say ‘you could be an auror?!’ But she indulges the girl, she breathes and shrugs, “I had the NEWTs for it. I was young and thought it would be some sort of adventure.” Her lazy hands motion to the window behind her, to the sky and the clouds that hang motionless in the atmosphere, “It turns out, I’m best suited to this.”

What are some similarities/differences between yourself and your teammates/coworkers?

“Well, the difference is about thirty years.” They both laugh, though Selena finds no humor in her joke. “But I believe all of us at Puddlemere are capable and driven. Really, the only thing that’s different is that I hold the cheque book and the quill. We’re all equally committed to Puddlemere’s success.”

What kind of things do you think about when you’re alone?

She laughs. It’s reactionary, loud and genuine, but it’s a laugh nevertheless. The poor witch sits embarrassed with her notebook and quill, but Selena waves her hand as if to say there’s been no harm done. “No, I’m sorry, but… Why?” She knows the answer, or some variation of it. The witch insists it’s so the readers will get to know her better. Selena sighs and drags her hands through her hair. Hadn’t Cordelia mentioned knowing someone who was interested in working as an assistant? Perhaps Selena would give them a call. “I’m afraid I’m rarely alone. I have a husband, a house, friends -- - if you can believe it - -- and I’m always busy. When I am alone, though, I usually find myself thinking about whatever it is that I have to do next.”

What are three good habits and three bad habits that you have?

“The good is that I keep an immaculate ledger.” This, of course, because of her wealth, but that doesn’t need to be said. The last thing she wants is to read a headline about how she forced a poor reporter to look at her bottom line. “I try to keep a neat and organized schedule, too. But you know that, since you spoke to my assistant. And… was that two?” Yes, ma’am. “Well, I suppose the third would be that I always try to be where I’m supposed to on time.” She smiles, fully aware that the poor witch across from her was ten minutes late. The girl squirms. Selena continues. “Bad habits?” It’s suddenly as if all of her mother’s lessons come back to haunt her, and Selena suddenly understand why Mrs. Sinclair was careful to teach her daughter to only divulge things she wouldn’t mind being used against her. “I have a habit of biting my nails when I’m stressed. I know that sounds cliche, but I walk away from every match with my nails chewed down to the quick.” She didn’t. “And I often overextend myself where the team is concerned.” She doesn’t. “But, I suppose my worst habit is talking to anyone who cares to listen. I like having a broad social circle, and I tend to prattle on if I’m not stopped.” She smiles, feigns embarrassment -- - Look at me, I’m just like you.

What is your personal philosophy?

“Nobody actually has a personal philosophy.” She sighs, but reels herself back just in time. “Everybody breaks their own rules.” Is she smiling enough? Selena tries, she leans forward and strums her fingers on the desk. “But I like to think that I wake up every day and try to improve my life a little bit. That’s as close as I can get to a personal philosophy.”

Would you rather be liked or respected? Feared or loved?

“Respected.” Merlin, how many times has she answered this one? Selena bobs her foot and shrugs her shoulders; she plays the part of someone who’s just a little embarrassed about how quickly they’ve answered an import question. “If I was focused on being liked, I couldn’t get this job done. It’s hard to make trades and to get rid of certain players, but sometimes that’s the best thing for Puddlemere’s future. As far as being feared or loved goes, has anyone actually ever answered that they’d like to be feared?” No? Of course they haven’t.

What are your thoughts on Puddlemere United?

“I…” It’s a serious question. Selena stops herself from rattling off some sort of joke. “I love this team.” She sinks easily into honesty, which is more than she can say for the first half of the interview. “There’s history here, and I’m ecstatic to be a part of a team that’s won a significant number of World Cups. I feel honored to be the first woman to own a team in the league, and I’m glad that team was Puddlemere.” For a moment, she wishes she was a better actress. Perhaps a tear or two would be appropriate.

What about The Chudley Cannons?

Of course. Of fucking course. Selena wonders, albeit briefly, if the last question was designed to gear her for this one. “Well, I can’t say I’m about to start wearing Chudley orange any time soon.” She thinks -- - or feigns the motions of thinking - -- while fighting the tension in her jaw. “No, that’s not really my color.” There’s your quote, Witch Weekly. Selena Newf thinks orange isn’t her color. “They’ve proven to be a formidable team, though I’m not sure that all the credit should go to Mr. Beaumont. He purchased them and upgraded their equipment, but the roster was decent enough before he came along. I think the management should be proud of what they’ve done with a losing team, don’t you think?”

If given a more lucrative position with another team, would you take it?

Do you know my husband? She bites back the words and the self loathing that comes with the thought. “I wouldn’t.” It takes a minute, but Selena finally rises from her seat as if to indicate that she’s grown tired of the interview. “But I’m not in this for the money. Would you like a drink?”

Would you consider yourself an optimist or a pessimist?

She pours herself a humble portion of scotch from a decanter on the other side of her office. The witch declines and plows ahead, but Selena swirls the contents of her glass. “Neither.” It’s taken no time at all for her to tire of the antics of Witch Weekly. Selena smiles as she sips. “I try to be realistic about most situations. Some deserve more optimism than others. Are you sure you don’t want a drink, dear?”

What’s one thing you would change about your team, if given the opportunity?

No drink. No, really. It’s the last question, ma’am; no need to stay longer than necessary. Selena waits out the excuses and examines the final question while she’s shepherding the girl to the door. “I can’t tell you that, I’m afraid.” Her smile is genuine, if not a bit ashamed. “I wish I could, but we’re already in the works to make some big changes.” Lies, lies, and more lies. Selena leaves a drink in her glass -- - best to avoid Witch Weekly reporting that she’s guzzling alcohol during an interview - -- but she shows the reporter the door anyway. “Be on the lookout. If I want something changed, I’ll make it happen.”

[outerspace-castaway]

just found out that there are people who hate taylor swift so much that they make videos on youtube explaining why they hate her.

so far I've only watched 3 and wow these girls know nothing about taylor but they hate her so much. I did rant in their video comment sections:

video 1:'why I hate taylor swift' channel: daniella

my rant:

 you literally say what you know about taylor is what the media portrays yet that set you off enough to make a video about her being a horrible, fake person. really? fucking really/ there are a lot of parody videos of taylor /fan made videos etc, and they have not been taken down. 1 famous youtubers video gets taken down and yall lose your shit. btw taylor's mgmt team is more than just her. taylor didnt have a guitar teacher. when she was about 11 a computer guy came over to fix her families computer before he left he taught her a few begginers chords then years laters trys to profit off of her name. taylor has a right to me pissed by that. taylor isnt the first or last celebrity to get thing copyrighted. kanye and beyonce for exaple have hunders of things copyrighted. also taylor isnt getting things copyrighted just bc, she's doing it so big companys cant used her image without her knowing. and ps she doesnt have any lyrics that say "party like its 1989" im guess youre getting that confused with prince's 1999, where he says 'lets party like its 1999' its called being HUMBLE do you not know the meaning of the word humble, i guess you dont, futhermore even tho taylor is surprised when she wins, she does not cry every time. and even if she did why does someone crying bother you? she literally wrote a message about why she took her music off spotify saying that "she doesnt need anymore money", she said she "has enough money to pay her dancers from her tour alone' she pointed out how smaller artist, like indepent artist dont get paid properly by spotify bc spotify takes most of the money for themselves, she also said music is art and art should be free.....adele too her music off spotify too, i'll be waiting for your video attacking adele... btw what your obsession with sticks being in asses? this video was pretty much just full of lies instead of going by the medias portrayal of a person how about try and look for the truth. who am i kinding you as well as everyone in the comments dont care about the truth do you? just sad and pathetic really.

 video 2: 'why I hate taylor swift' channel: july2ish

my rant:

 kim exposed taylor: taylor was not told "i made that bitch famous" she should clarified that was the lyric but she didnt lie --- omg you hate her bc she dated harry are you in 4th grade, he asked her out. "im about feminism" but you hate her for dating hs taylor doesnt like papa following her -- you hate her bc of her wealth --- dont people pay for spotify too???? -- she didnt sue fans they were sent ciest & disist letter until their copyright issues were straighted out --- the guy wasnt a guitar teacher he was a computer guy who came to the familys home and taught her a few chords before he left, and he wasnt sued -- she copyrighted a stylized version of the year 1989 that was made for her tour not the year or number 1989 here is who taylor swift sued: THAT GUY WHO SEXUAL ASSUALTED HER BY PUTTING HIS HAND UP HER SIRT AND ON HER ASS.

video 3: '6 reasons i hate taylor swift' channel: queen maryah watkins productions (comments were disabled so I left this on her channel)

1. her pr team didnt clarify which lyric she was offended by, she thought kanye was going to use "i made her famous" that is what taylor said in the video kim posted. kanye didnt tell her "i made that bitch famous" "perfessional victim" thats some bullshit. she writes aboutr her feeling, a majority of her songs are NOT about breakups but love songs. ps she isnt the only artist to write about break ups 2. taylor's dad invest in big machine records after she signed to the label. shes very talnted, she does work hard and she walked away from a record label who wanted to sign her because they would alway taylor to write her own music so she walk away then was discovered and signed by scott borschetta then her dad invested in big machine records

3. she doesnt have to dance, really why the hell does that matter? no her voice isnt like whitney or beyonce, its softer, she cant do big notes like they do that doesnt mean she can sing. shes a great guitar player why doent you actually watch her play and she plays multiple intruments well as fpr her lyrics she writers masterpieces, listen to something other than shake it off or wanegbt.

 and are you really saying you hate her because of her look and her fashion choices do you not hear how petty that is 4. calling out nicki is the ONLY time shes ever did anything like that. and are you seriously mad bc she gets excited for friends accomplishments? ed sheeran is her best friend. she didnt say she was looking forward to controversy, she said she was looking forward to telling people she knew about the song, not about wanting controversy from it. 5. "has not integrity for music.." she wants people to understand that music is art and should be treated as such, as for writing TIWYCF under a fake name, she and calvin agreed to do that together 'catfished, disillusioned, perplexed', are you fucking with me? swifties were excited when we found out taylor wrote it. you think she lies on her album credits bc of one fucking song? my god could you get anymore stupid? 6. im tired of this "greedy" bullshit. its a lie she didnt say she wants more money for youtube y\this is some bull you pulled out of you ass. she literally said in her apple music letter that she did not need anymore money. go fucking read the damn thing its on her tumblr page. i cannot tell you how pathetic and stupid you sound in this video, this video is filled with lies get a fucking life

video 4: 'rant why i hate taylor swift explicit' channel: lacye leuko

her pr team didnt clarify which lyric she was offended by, she thought kanye was going to use "i made her famous" that is what taylor said in the video kim posted. kanye didnt tell her "i made that bitch famous" therefore she did not have full compltee knowledge. kanye deserves shade but her point was to uplift young girls, something she been doing for years, she used kanye lie to her benefit

kanye is an ass who does & says bad things to many people dont act like he doesnt deserve to be shaded.

her rep leak the info, he should have informed first but why does that bother you?

taylor never confirmed bad blood is about katy, katy did that herself. taylor doesnt have a prolem with tina and amy she was just pissed about the joke.

she's not a snake the video proves kanye didnt say 'i made that bitch famous' the lyric she was told ' i made her famous'

nothing was wrong with selena defending her friend.

i cant believe how you and other taylor haters really dont want to see the truth about taylor.

a few etsy fans were sent Cease and desist orders because of copyright issues, there are still thousands a taylor swift fan artwork on etsy. if those copyright issues were fixed those fans art were probly put back on etsy.

the only female she is fueding with is katy and by that i mean, katy keeps findong ways to talk about her but she keeps her mouth shut about katy.

taylor swift: does charity work. ispires many young girls, is a great role model. you know nothing about how she influences her fans for the better. how she gives speeches and messages of positivity to her fans. you know nothing about the reall taylor swift, just tabloids and bullshit

// 'So, About Taylor Swift Getting Put On Blast... Watch white Feminism Work'

channel Sensei Aishitemasu // its a 33 minute video. this person wasted 33 mintues of their time to talk aout why they hate taylor (im definitely NOT going to watch that)

i still said something anyway: im not watching this video bc im sure its bullshit just like the others, but why did you waste 33 minutes of your time to bitch about a pop singer and her "white feminism" you hate taylor swift GET THE FUCK OVER IT AND GROW THE FUCK UP. and black people idk how this little white girl hurt you so damn much, I can say that be im black too and get bullied on twitter by other black ppl who are offended I like this white singer. she doesn't do the things you like, shhes not an activist, she writes breakup song songs, she cant sing like whitney, who tf cares? IGNORE HER!. change the channel, turn off the radio when shes on, don't pick up magazines with her face on them, stay off her twitter and instagram. just fucking leave her alone, its not that hard to do.

i just cant wrap my head around these people having so much hate for taylor. shes a good fuking person. no shes not perfect, yes she makes mistakes but for the ove of god there are worst people than her in the entertainment industry but shes treated like the devil

how does taylor have these people so easily pressed and bothered?