#good morning pain time!
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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk megumi#megumi#looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops#i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear#i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle#fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain#god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow#lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear#had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it#the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes#its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair#nothing else feels Right#but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it#i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment#smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1#his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see
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Can we hear more thoughts on self-aware skully in a halloween-themed otome?? I think it's such a fun concept! Thinking of him, loving us knowing that he will never have us<33
:D the basic idea is that the love interests are everyone in TNBC event and it focuses on you and them planning the perfect Halloween celebration alongside the residents of Halloween Town. Spend a week getting closer to and raising the affection meter of your beloved and perhaps he might confess on Halloween night under a brilliant moon! <3
Skully is a side character who is merely there to progress the plot; he doesn't have any real route for himself, nor does he have any of the mechanics the other characters have (affection meters). But if he did perhaps he might be the secret yandere route most otome games have...
Unfortunately, most of his scenes with you are very short and he's often there to make the love interest shine brighter. When Leona warns you not to listen to a fanatic like him, that only misfortune can come from readily believing everything he says, it's meant to make you fall for Leona and his protective charm. Or when Jamil asks Skully if he's doing okay when he notices how downcast he seems, it's to make you fawn over how considerate and observant he appears. But all of this is just part of pre-programmed characteristics. It's all part of a script. Skully plays his part in this drama, almost like a ghost as he floats through whichever route you choose to pursue, and with every replay he begins to realize there's more beyond the world he's confined to.
You can't actually like these characters, right? They're just caricatures. They're programmed to fall for you, but Skully's love for you is a natural progression! It's real. Sure, you click through some of his dialogue when it's too long, but please don't ignore him. >_< surely you don't agree with the others on their idea for Halloween! You think a somber Halloween is better, right? One that's quiet and solemn. One that's meant for reflection. One that's better spent alone. He knows you're a sweet, considerate person at heart. Surely you share his feelings on this matter.
The game has a feature where one of the love interests will visit you each day you log in during the seven-day timeframe, and it gives you chances to either raise or lower their affection meter when you interact with them. Imagine your surprise when Skully, who isn't a love interest and thus shouldn't be here, forces himself into the spotlight, hoping to have a private chat with you. He's so excited! Oh, what should he say? He isn't confined by the laws of the script, so he can say and do whatever he wants! It's how he's able to be so much more expressive than the other characters.
You watch in surprise as the blank bubble fills with a dialogue you've never encountered before:
Lovely person beyond the screen, I greet you with a kiss! Allow me to remind you of what the real Halloween is.
#twisted chit chat#the real angst and pain is that he's still alone even when he's self-aware... like monika in ddlc#but also >:) if you spend too much time fawning over one particular love interest he'll get rid of them#logging in the next day to see skully standing in front of the corpse of your love interest his suit spattered in red#greeting you with 'good morning lovely person beyond the screen! forgive the mess it will be gone shortly :D'#slowly but surely showing you how terrifying halloween is (just as he hoped! it's about fear and tradition! not noisy celebration!)
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It’s disability pride month, and if you are disabled in the U.S. from Long Covid I want you to know that you’re not alone, and you’re valid in whatever you feel. Whether that’s sorrow at your new problems or rage at society for failing you, you are valid, and it is truly messed up that society is continuing to fail you.
#disability#trauma#chronic illness#long COVID#COVID#Tbh I’m not sure if I have long covid or not but I keep swinging between despair and fury#The brain fog SUCKS#I might have always had it but it feels especially bad now?#And I have all kinds of respiratory problems that got exacerbated#And possibly chronic fatigue but it’s unclear#And I’m one of the lucky ones!!!#I can still exercise without needing three days of bed rest after!#I was so RELIEVED when it turned out I could do that#I did like. Three weeks of breathing rehab to make sure#Not sure if it helped but now I’m not getting post-exertional backlash nearly as much anymore#And I didn’t lose my sense of smell or get my taste messed up#And I don’t need a respirator just an inhaler and some allergy meds and to take frequent breaks#And like. I know so many people have it worse#And that suuuuucks#But EVEN THIS makes me want to scream and rail half the time#Update as of Sept 2024 — this is no longer true#Got Covid again and now I can’t exercise without being too tired to move for three days#🙃#Probably will die mad about this actually#I had SUCH a good time working out one night#But then the next morning#Nope#head-to-toe muscle pain#couldn’t do any chores#Couldn’t even feed myself
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my reality hc for why totty's eyes look bigger than everyone's else is that he tapes his eyelids which makes his eyes look bigger
#png#6#makes me happy when i see ppl learning bt this for the first time lol#i feel like taping/gluing double eyelids is such a big personality indicator for but ya if ure not eastasian u probably never thot about it#the matsus all definitely have monolids btw. tangential to this. Bro just trustment on this one.#my life experience of walking in on my sister poking her eyes in and being like wtf#and then the continued horror of realizing she did it every morning i was ljke... girl is it that serious#does it even make you cuter#very totty core to me#a makeup thing that's allegedly trendy but probably actually slightly old fashioned#is meant to seem effortless or natural even though it's a pain#has to do it tediously#consciously#purposefully every single morning#and all this for your brothers to not even understand it#“it's supposed to make your eyes look bigger?? does it???? why is that a good thing?? stop hogging the bathroom”#very totty core. to me
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Local girl has a toothache and has to go to the dentist on her long weekend which is a tragedy. More at 11.
#I have such trauma from tooth pain because last time I had it I had an abscess and it was so bad#This shouldn’t be that because this tooth had a root canal but dang it’s hurting#Not like before so far but ow#It might be my wisdom tooth but who knows#Anyway think good thoughts for me#KCrabb rambles#My appt is in the morning
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i hope whatever weird thing thats wrong with me is resolved by the concert next month bc if its not im really not seeing how i'll be able to go
#im used to having health problems and usually they dont stress me too much. im good at compartmentalizing it away into a little folder#but this time its just completely weird and nothing ive ever had before and its driving me crazy bc ive been to the doctors 3 times#no help no idea wait until october 3 and its getting more painful and weird every day i keep needing to lay down for hours#and just doing anything womens health related is already a fucking struggle like i dont want to be doing any of this usually i dont#get stressed like this but ive never experienced this so it is freaking me out bc my aunt had weird cancer and my uncles been just diagnose#with stage 4 and hes been given 18months and my grandma died last year can you just take me serious for once#anyway sorry for the monday morning vent but if i dont put this somewhere im gonna have an actual freak out
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#spinaraki#spinneraki#shuichi iguchi#shigaraki tomura#i joked about doing a hospital spinner cosplay + a few days later went: ohhh hohoho what if i made a Shigaraki comic to carry around too#listen: painful but im foaming at the mouth about the idea im obsessed itd be iconic (to me)#afshdkflg unfortunately i am still working on my masquerade entry so idk that I'd have time 😭#mha jbee#had this idea and had to immediately get it out so a not v good sketch is here!!#posting in the dead of night/early early morning whatsssuuuuup. im going to bed
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my ideal work conditions today would involve one of those sensory deprivation tanks with a bathtub caddy to stick my laptop on
#on monday i found out i had a bonus five days to work on my draft bc the deadline (which i thought was tuesday) had been incorrect#took the rest of that day to do nothing and relax because i'd been stressing#only worked on it a few short hours the following day because ''i still have until sunday!''#then i got slammed with a fibro flare up the next morning#and lost three days to pain and brain fog#and now it's due today and i'm barely ahead of where i was at the start of the week and still in flare up mode#-_-#trying to work but can't sit at my desk in the garage because it's too cold#the kitchen chairs hurt my back#and the armchair which is the most comfortable chair is too comfy and cozy to focus in#plus it's in the living room which means it's a high foot traffic area#which means constantly being distracted every time someone walks through the house#gonna crank my thunderstorm sounds up loud on my headphones and hope for the best i guess#good thing this isn't a final draft i have to submit#but man#i wish i had an office
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Ah, yes, it's once again time to play "Starve the Gut Bacteria Until It Calms the Fuck Down."
#it doesn't happen often thankfully (maybe only half a dozen times in my whole life?#and not for a good few years at this point)#but yeah it's a pain in the ass when it does#i've never bothered to try to get it diagnosed or anything#but i'm pretty sure it's SIBO (small intestine bacterial overgrowth)#like all the symptoms line up#but anyway yeah doing a soft reset of my digestive system with a ~24-hour fast has historically fixed it#i was fasting all morning and afternoon then tried having a little bit of plain yogurt around dinner (to gauge things)#and it turns out that was a mistake :(#i'm finally starting to feel REALLY hungry again tho so here's hoping that's a sign i'm almost back to normal#personal
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i;m btreaking thefuck down idont know how much lonhger ican do this i.m shackjinh so hard ohmy fucking god my entire world just got shattered im going to fucking die. im going tofuckinh die
#skye's ramblings#animal death warnig for tge tags btw im sorry in advance i just need. to have a moment#shadow (lovingly known here as bungus) is not doing good. we have to put him down. there's nothing we can do#he's only 11 its not fucking fair its not fair. he's been acting really weird these past few days n we took him in this morning#they said his kidneys are trashed and thdres not a goddamn thing they can do. even if he lives he'll just be in pain for the restof his life#this cat is my whole fucking wirld i dont. i dont fucking know. i want to scream. i have screamed several times but its not enough#i dont. know how mentally present i'm going to be for the next few days. i don't know anything right now. i don't want to think anymore#animal death
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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Back Pain 💥
[id: A sketch of a fox lying on the ground. It's back is facing the camera, and a long, jagged line runs along where it's spine should be. /end id]
#Illustration#Artwork#Fox#Chronic pain#Scoliosis#It is 6:30 in the morning and I can't sleep D:#I use a rolling backpack but had to carry it up a ton of subway stairs while it had my big heavy laptop in there#Was for a portfolio review so it was worth it but definitely not good for my back :(((#Took a painkiller so the pain's eased up. But now I've got studio in like two more hours#Hopefully I can catch some Zzzs! Gotta give it a shot#Doodling this helped make my eyes a little tired so I have high hopes#ACK just edited the image id in! not confident that I formatted it right but I'll check when I get a nap#And you know what? More rambling! My back is probably so achey because I couldn't wear my back brace#It was so hot in the city out of nowhere and I can't travel and wear my brace comfortably in that heat. sad times :(
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// mild blood
injured cadets again .. and crosshair helps tech navigate around kamino while he cant use his goggles
#clonec3st dni by the way please go away proshitters !!#good eyesight and headcanon poor eyesight. do you see my vision#ALSO GOD I WATCHED THE OUTPOST AND HELLO ??????? i am in literal pain#i actually had a really bad sensory meltdown this morning and almost couldnt make it for todays episode#at the usual 4pm release time#but oh my gof. this episode was so .. /pos#the bad batch#bad batch#tbb#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#crosshair bad batch#bad batch crosshair#tech bad batch#bad batch tech#star wars#star wars fanart#the clone wars
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People talk about fast metabolisms like it's all fun and games and eating whatever you want but they fail to remember that it also means your body is Incredibly Stupid and decides that you become deficient in everything in a couple or so days where it takes most others a week. Or months compared to "oops you forgot to photosynthesize sufficiently :( no i don't care that it has been freezing and overcast for the past week, you didn't absorb enough sun. Perish Badly."
Or at least it would be if i didn't like citrus fruits so much, probably
#glaring at whatever secret brain section is in control of my body resource management. why am i iron deficient again. it has been 2½ days.#and all that has been spent mostly SLEEPING because GUESS WHAT ALSO DOESN'T WORK RIGHT BECAUSE OF METABOLISM.#SLEEP AIDS. LIKE MELATONIN#i have to take a double dose if i want these fucking dumb ass gummies to do anything. otherwise they don't do shit unless I'm already asleep#but guess what? i can't get to sleep :) because another thing in the list of Patch Problems is chronic insomnia. and i can't sleep#so the melatonin does ✨️NOTHING✨️#same goes for pain meds and local anesthetics because my metabolism is so so good at it's job :) when it does not need to be#like bbg we are not poisoned we are at the dentist CALM THE FUCK DOWN??? SO I DON'T FEEL THE DAMN DRILL IN MY TOOTH?????#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhg#i do not need so many issues stacked on top of eachother#istg i would not have survived in any century before this one. what do you mean i get sickly deficient in things in less time than Normal™️#i can't even drink plain water or it makes me nauseated. body why are you Stupid#patchy rambles#is this slightly incomprehensible? probably#but it is 1 in the morning and i am pissed at my own body for hating me so much and this is My Blog so i put My Problems on it#rgrgrgrgr
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So a lot has been going on for me - it turns out my clavicle/roater cuff pain I've been having has turned into tendonosis. Which is just long-term tendinitis. Now, I have to do physical therapy starting today for 2 times a week for the next 3 months... I've been stressed with my work schedule since I have to adjust it....it's a lot to deal with right now🥲🥲🥲
#i think that's why work has me stressing#which also means i have to leave early for 2 of my work days😐#good and bad because of $$$...#my insurance is covering the pt so woo...#sharing time#good morning#tendonitis#tendinitis#joint pain#chronic pain#2024#july
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It’s 6am and honestly I really don’t want to get up rn but hockey and f1 are being a pain
#(they’re really not being a pain if you look at it retrospectively)#(I am Australian and the sports I wanna walk is in North America so it’s at their time sadly inconveniencing me)#lak lb#anyways good morning lak lb
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