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#hwang hyunjin#stray kids#bystay#createskz#malegroupsnet#a9gifs#usertaeng#hyunjin#flashing tw#*gif#*ccarly#*hyunjin#*carly:hyunjin#these don't match but who cares amiright#love that i decided to gif the guy with the worst shots in the performance first#i lowkey want to gif them all from this they all looked so good#but i also only got one hour of sleep so we'll see abt that#third gif the problem child that u are....#possessed by the devil in all meanings of the phrase. him and evil evil lighting grr grr grr
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as our resident Casey expert i wonder what do you think would have happened if marc and casey competed against each other? since casey retiring is so important for marc coming into motogp im always thinking abt the what ifs...
my initial instinct with this hypothetical is always 'that sounds horrible', though I do have more thoughts and opinions about it than that! marc obviously would have loved the chance to race casey, and casey has even been one of his picks of 'guys he would've liked to be teammates with' before, so, you know, clearly something there - and he does very much respect casey as a rider. I think it's quite likely that by the time marc entered the premier class, casey had already developed... I don't know if wariness is going too far, but maybe a little bit of unease or caution where marc was concerned. marc already very much had a reputation based on his 125/moto2 track record, and some of these incidents were controversial enough that the motogp riders commented on them. so take the phillip island 2011 incident where marc rode into the back of another rider:
the valentino quote serves as a bit of a benchmark here, given he was generally pretty pro-marc. yes, casey's phrasing is perhaps a little harsher, but unsurprisingly none of the riders were big fans of marc's behaviour in that particular incident
on the other hand, it's not like casey never sided with marc. take catalunya 2012, where marc was slapped with a controversial post-race penalty:
yes, casey's main complaint was about inconsistent stewarding - but still, he believed marc had been unfairly treated here. feels like these incidents were some of the only things casey and valentino actually agreed on in those years, so that's nice
that being said, it's hard to see how casey wouldn't have his issues with marc and marc's whole approach to racing. I did include some thoughts on the teammate question here, but mainly I'm going to pilfer the relevant autobiography passage:
"if a rider doesn't care about his own safety then it stands to reason he doesn't care about anybody else's either"... there's nobody really who embodies the 'doesn't care about his own safety' maxim better than marc. he was the young rider desperate to win, and I can't imagine casey would have enjoyed actually racing him much. casey mostly didn't enjoy racing valentino, after all, who is a generally a lot more selective with his aggression than marc is (though casey did have to experience some of the worst valentino had to offer in that regard). casey talked in his autobiography about getting a sense when he just wasn't really able to trust another rider on the track, how much it bothered him - and that exact lack of respect is something that's been pretty closely associated with marc. that doesn't mean he would immediately declare marc his enemy... he'd just want marc to change, to learn, to grow up, to start treating his competitors with a little more respect. the way casey talks about young riders, there is a sense in which he has more time for them than he does for valentino - whose lack of respect casey views as more integral to who he is as a rider. valentino isn't a bully on track due to the exuberance of youth, he's a bully on track when he thinks he can use it as a tactic of intimidation. then again, marc by this measure is worse... and I think very quickly casey would have grown pretty disenchanted with how marc approaches all his wheel-to-wheel racing, especially when it becomes more and more clear marc does not feel particularly inclined to change
it's always important to remember how recent the trauma of losing simoncelli was for the whole sport, and it coloured both dani and jorge's wariness of marc... but also (in my opinion anyway) their restraint in how they dealt with him. how they tried to stop themselves from actually making an enemy out of him, in part because they'd just had an experience of harshly criticising a rider for a whole year and then having to process his death. both dani and jorge actually had more public and more serious disagreements with simoncelli than casey did, but I reckon there would have been an element of that restraint with casey too... on the other hand, his experiences with marc would have left him feeling even more alienated from the sport than he already was - at times frustrated (like jorge was) less with marc directly but more with the regulatory bodies for not holding marc back, for not giving him a race ban or whatever to teach him a lesson. that being said, marc's shamelessness vs casey's stubbornness means that if they had direct on-track encounters and casey didn't like marc's post-race response... well, I certainly think that'd end up being a pretty tense situation, even if it falls short of active hostilities
worth including irl!casey's take on marc in 2013:
which, you know. it's not just that marc's a hard racer - casey is accusing marc of deliberately wanting to make the defeats extra painful for his opponents, of wanting to not just beat but humiliate them. anyone else that reminds you of? someone who is as motivated in securing his psychological victories as his actual ones? perhaps someone who has a bit of a history himself with casey?
let's bring in valentino. it's not that casey would really have begrudged marc his friendship with valentino, and he generally kept his hatred of valentino quite 'clean' in that he wasn't conducting any proxy wars or anything (for instance, I don't get the sense the vale/sic friendship ever affected his view of simoncelli... though I have very little to go on here either way). also, if nothing else in this timeline changes, we're assuming valentino in 2013 is fairly clearly the... fifth? best rider? kinda depends where dani would have landed I suppose (casey's retirement announcement did save honda from a bit of a headache)... but anyway what this means is that valentino probably wouldn't initially have been much of a competitive threat to casey. mostly he would have been consigned to the sidelines
that being said, I doubt casey would have massively enjoyed the whole laguna seca saga. unfortunately, we don't even really know what real life casey's stance on the copycat move situation was... though if I had to guess, in this timeline I'd say his position would've been, a) marc could and should have carried out that overtake two corners later, there was no need in that race situation to take that risk, b) still, it was valentino's slight error as he attempted to reclaim the position (in what was a pretty aggressive manner, it has to be said) that led to them both ending up off-track and fuck that guy, and c) the problem with 2008 wasn't just or even primarily the corkscrew overtake and it's annoying that that's the only bit everyone talks about. of course, there's also the question of whether casey would have bought marc's explanation that it was totally by coincidence that the overtake happened there... and again, complete guesswork, but my sense of casey is that he would have assumed marc was being at least a little bit dishonest. (which, you know... laguna's not an easy track to overtake at, but marc did prove with the bradl move that he was perfectly capable of overtaking after turn 8 - might not have been planning on the off-track excursion, but he was still attempting to overtake just ahead of a blind crest that happened to feed into the corkscrew lol.) I think casey by his honda days had calmed down a bit (though he still certainly had some conspiratorial tendencies), but I also don't think it's a stretch to imagine that he would've felt like he was a victim of a joke between the pair of them... not ideal
overall though, I reckon casey's main frustrations would have been less with the move itself and more with how it was discussed. in the presser, while joking with marc, valentino does take the opportunity to get in a jibe at casey for old time's sake. there's this clip, where he directly addresses livio suppo (at ducati in 2008, by then at honda) - specifically about how both casey and suppo criticised him for that overtake. in response, suppo says something about how he's grateful to marc because they finally got payback. valentino is later asked directly about casey's complaints in 2008 in this clip, and replies with the following:
would valentino have said this stuff with casey still in the paddock? well, yes! honestly, given valentino did very quickly lay off needling casey once he had retired, there's a good chance he would have said something worse. and marc would have laughed along at the whole thing. I don't know, I just don't see casey taking particularly kindly to that... he can hold a grudge, that man can, and at a certain point he'd probably be increasingly less willing to give marc the benefit of the doubt. interesting situation though, laguna seca '13 + casey is a very juicy scenario that could play out in several different ways
but I'm guilty of burying the lede here - there's a far more obvious reason than anything I've described above for why the casey/marc relationship would have turned sour. it's the simple fact that they would have been teammates which would do the damage all on its lonesome; they have radically different conceptualisations of how that dynamic is supposed to work and would inevitably have clashed as a result. the one commonality they do have is they don't see their teammates as potential friends, which is... also not helpful! I think they'd probably initially be fine on the interpersonal level - and, actually, given how the casey/valentino relationship played out and marc's general approach to his rivalries, I can see marc/casey more or less being able to maintain a minimum standard of politeness towards each other even at their worst. like, I still think they'd be able to smile at each other and do some small talk when face-to-face, but I also think everything else would be a complete disaster. I talked a bit about how marc approaches his teammate relationships in this post - and I'm not going to rehash too much of what irl!marc got up to, but I'll include some bits relevant to casey
from marc:
related to casey:
and dani comparing the two:
we do obviously even have actual real life controversy wherein casey thinks marc felt threatened by him and forced him out of honda... and this in a timeline where they weren't even direct competitors! if this is the level of tension a test rider role can generate, then if they'd actually been teammates...? yeah, no. casey thinks that teammates should cooperate - and he thinks that riders enforcing divisions within the box are essentially doing so because they are "afraid". marc has openly admitted to lying about what parts he likes to make sure his teammate doesn't get any edge over him. this is the thing, right: marc might think casey is a cool rider, would've liked the chance to race him and even be teammates with him... but this is the stuff he did to dani, who was one of his literal idols! this is his understanding of competition - (like valentino) he might love the fight, but simultaneously he'll do pretty much whatever it takes to win, because he considers this stuff fundamentally part of the game. casey does not. to casey, this kind of victory is dishonest. any kind of gamesmanship is a sign of weakness... the victory is worth less if you're accomplishing it like that
now, hey, maybe marc would never have been able to go as far as he did with dani because he wouldn't have the kind of performance edge that allows you to definitively impose your will within the team. I think it's a popular interpretation that marc wouldn't have won the title in 2013 if casey had been there, which... I mean, I think it's true that it would have been less likely - in that in a season with that much volatility, the more plausible championship contenders you have the less likely it is that any single one of them takes the title (same goes for instance if you add in a valentino who had not gone to ducati for two years and would have presumably been more competitive in 2013). but it's not like casey would have been the defending champion and the clear class of the field... partly due to injury, he ended up finishing in third in 2012. jorge and dani didn't win the 2013 title in part as a result of their own injuries, and who knows how casey would have fared... like sometimes it's just luck of the draw really. you can be the better rider and still not win the title, shit happens. I think for as long as a more or less healthy-ish casey stays in the sport, it would have been unlikely that marc establishes quite the same performance edge as he did over dani... but, well, if anything that would have meant he would have fought even harder out of perceived necessity to win the internal honda wars
it's the kind of thing that can make a relationship quickly deteriorate, especially with a prickly character such as casey, and it's entirely plausible that dynamic would have become strained at best and horrendously toxic at worst... sooner rather than later. and the thing is, this environment would affect marc considerably less than it would casey. again, it's the fact that he relishes the fight... he's very good at shrugging off (most) criticism and thrives in that kind of tension. the emotional fatigue that this scenario generates would be painfully lopsided, where casey offers harsh criticisms and means them and is endlessly frustrated with marc's approach, while marc... doesn't really care. at least dani also had a questionable manager who was conducting behind the scenes warfare on his behalf - casey doesn't want to play these games at all. he just wants to ride a bike, and marc is never going to allow him to live in peace as long as he's an internal threat. if casey were exposed directly to all of that from marc, I doubt he'd walk away from the experience with a particularly positive impression of him
does he walk away? I think there's a decent chance that casey would have ended up so disillusioned with the whole thing that this would have been what pushed him into retirement. if he wants to get out of that mess, let's say after two years, his options would have been pretty limited. yamaha is closed off and I'd struggle to think of a scenario in which either jorge or valentino would have been particularly interested in a direct swap (also, if you're sick of being marc's teammate, you're probably not gonna be jumping at the chance to be valentino's instead). I suppose you could go back to ducati (which he did return to as a test rider so it's not like those bridges were permanently burnt), and maybe casey could do something special even with *gestures* that version of the bike. really though... I think enough would have been enough for him. regardless of the actual balance of success between the pair of them, my guess is marc wins that war because he's happier to get nasty and because he wants it more. casey has his two to four titles... he's done. let him go fishing
#i think it's a fun scenario but in all seriousness as someone who is like. generally invested in casey finding some peace in life#i'm quite glad he didn't have to go through it. good chance he gets another title but he left for a reason#spec tag#babynflames#brr brr#casey stoner#//#cs27#heretic tag#batsplat responds#2013-15-ish vale/jorge love and peace era were already kinda looking over at the honda wars and going. what's all this then#in this timeline i reckon they'd be even more pointedly cooperative. occasionally give a friendly thumbs up at the explosions next door#valentino a big believer in letting others do his dirty work for him so it'd be very [carefully neutral smile]#'EYE didn't think there was any problem with marc's move... maybe casey should consider not leaving a gap next time?' (there was no gap)#where would marc/casey have their first on-track incident? reckon cota would actually be a good shout - get it in nice and early#vibes of a good casey track but not marc cota levels good but marc's still a child... idk you need to get them in the same bit of track so#otherwise some time in the assen to brno stretch.... let's say *spins wheel* indianapolis#can u imagine if marc did the corkscrew move on CASEY... get rid of bradl (sorry dude) what does THAT podium look like what are the vibes
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a genre of bg3 posts that are like 'larian did wyll so dirty!!! here's what they should have done instead and that is basically change everything abt his personality bc i personally can't understand how anyone can find him not boring as he is! larian get ur shit together!'
#wyll ravengard#like. go away??#if u suddenly can't stand earnest and morally good aligned characters when it comes to wyll#but are perfectly okay simping for say. halsin. who's also earnest and good.#then i think the problem is with u not wyll#i for one want more content for wyll as he is bc i like him as he is!#bc for me there's nothing boring abt a person who doesn't lose the goodness of their heart despite the horrors#if yall like jagged morally gray characters go like them! then wyll is just not for u! don't disguise ur absolute disinterest in him#with the consern for the way larian treated him.#i want him to have as much content as astarion. simple as that#yall want to make him into a different character who appeals to u personally. we are not the same#bg3#this is brought to u by the post i just saw that was like#'wyll should have become more jagged during his travels. and there must have been smth dark inside him to begin with'#'bc why would ulder and florric believe mizora over him otherwise??'#as if there must certainly be smth wrong with a child for the adults to treat that child badly#what a great message for the abuse survivors!#sorry lol it's just. tiring. being a wyll appreciator in this climate
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not being horny on main rn sorry pls feel free to scroll frfr
i just wanted to talk into a void idk it made me cringe trying 2 write a whole letter to my past self or trying to figure out if i should reach out to someone blah blah. it's easier to put it in a post bc it's way less pressure
tbh just like finally processing emotions that ive been hoarding for more than half my life and im sure it'll be worth it. i think im ready to like grow out of relying on solely on various forms of escapism to get through and focus more on filling my life with the things that make life beautiful
#not snz#notsnz#mentalhealth#ig like it doesnt matter that no adults in my rl gave me guidance at that age bc like im the adult now LMAOOO#i found my diary from age 12-15#reading it was an event#imagining i was talking to a child that wasnt me rlly put it in perspective tho#it took like a decade to get a good therapist and whatnot and ofc i wish it were dif but ik processing & acceptance is key#idk im kinda excited tho like i think i can let go of this nonsense finally#“i think my best years r over” (ur 12) also u have ur own room filled w anime posters and ur watching a r/affi concert w a heating pad#u finally got to play t/tyd bitch!!!! i told u!!!!!! ur life is full of love#two weeks ago u r/eigen a/rataka talked a guy into to knocking off 100 bucks 4 a trumpet purchase what a time to be alive#u found some circles that like u the way u are frfr#u were in the knitting club and like church choir or whatever u were NOT even a problem child they were dramatic#ur so many things and it was ok that you were sad it wasnt even ur fault & ur supposed to be immature bc ur a child
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just so u guys know i haven't been this attached to someone (suna) since oikawa tooru which started like 4 years ago i kid u not
#might have to start doing self ship stuff too jk i could never i'd overthink actually posting any of that stuff way too hard#i hate to even say this BUT although the WORLD doesn't think we're comptaible i think we'd be just fine#like according to my research 🤓☝️ our only problem is aquariuses like to be independent while cancers need reassurance or something#well good thing#warning for family problems??#GOOD THING I WAS NEGLECTED AS A CHILD LMAOOO#i'll be fine i'm pretty independent too so we would be such a power couple#thank u for listening#ness' brainvomit <3#also in my heart i always thought he was a scorpio before the world decided to crush me#and whatever i say goes#if i say suna and me are compatible who r u to tell me i'm wrong#don't test me i'll cry#not bc of u i'll think about wdo bc it's the only thing that can make me cry but i'll blame it on u
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loving the response on dadcode and bean bloodmoon comic
#it what we wanted vs how canon decided that No. No we will never get it ever#EVEN THO... ITS JUST MAKES IT MORE DEVASTATING IF IT WAS DADCODE LIKE CMON#THATS HOW U GET A MAN TO GRIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but nooooo noooo just tool forveevrrrr#like legit u could still have killcode admit 'you were never my child then'#and still have that 'but i wasnt a good father either' AND have some implied effect of killcode wanting to fix that#but never get to it cause bloodmoon kills him!!! THEY'D NEVER KNOW THE TRUE ANSWER.#anyway u couldve done something with that BUT SURE. DONT GET A MAN TO OWN UP FOR GIVING BLOODMOON SOME ISSUES#LIKE HE LITERALLY BARGED IN AND CALLED KC DAD AND KC WAS LIKE 'surely i didnt give him familial problems'#PERHAPS NOT INITIALLY BUT U WERE THE ONE WHO SAID ITTTT#anyway forgets canon for a moment im good its fine#just love reading peoples comments on it and going yes... i provide#in art anyway! i know theres some fics out there of dadcode#the more knwon 'kill code u are the father'#WHICH I NEED TO READ but know. its got me going 'ah yes... dadcode needs'
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kenniko being the parents of beta squad !! 🤗
#CAN WE TALK ABOUT 6TH PIC?? KENNY IS LIKE A MOM WHO IS TRYING TO PROTECT HER CHILD AT ALL COST 😭#sharky is definitely their favourite child#niko is that type of dad who bullies the shit out of u but at the same time he’s kind and understanding#niko would help u with ur homeworks#kenny would be that type of mom who would listen to your problem and give u good advice#kenny would be worried if you came back home late and seeing him worried would shrinks your heart cus he’s just so 😔😔#they would be the greatest and fun parents that u could ever ask for#kenniko#king kenny#niko omilana#kenny x niko#niko x kenny#aj shabeel#chunkz#sharky#beta squad#live laugh love kenniko
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Realizing the adultification and demonization of Duke and Damian is just. Not gonna stop. El oh el
#demonization more in Damian’s case#and not in the characters can’t do bad things kinda way#but in a writers and readers are so racist they’ll never even acknowledge that they don’t grant him the same grace they do anyone else#especially their white faves in comparison#and with the way they keep tryna spin Ra’s and Talia as being like. perfect parents maybe slightly absent or evil back then but family ppl#at heart it’s just gonna be more excuses to demonize a brown child bc now the very basis of his previous attitude will be gone#i mean for some of you it was never existed or acknowledged but there’s a certain bitterness I’m feeling when y’all can point to a panel#written by someone who’s only read WFA for background and say ‘see its canon that he’s just a murderous asshole for no reason!’#same mfs who can’t tell me three bad things Tim’s done that they don’t fw bc either they’ve never read it or they justify it in their minds#and for Duke it’s like. just removing every aspect of his character bc god forbid u pay attention to a black child who’s not an easy stereo#that’s the difference Damian’s early appearance was very easy for a lot of y’all to stereotype even and at times especially Talia Stans#for Duke u can’t call him ghetto and u can’t call him one of the good ones bc there’s no ‘bad’ ones as a comparison point so he’s just a guy#he’s a good bro :) he’s there :) u don’t know enough about him to speak :)#and honestly if they keep going down the Al Ghuls are perfect route they might shoehorn Damian near that position too#that’d make it three for three when you involve cass. wow the poc of the family being reduced to no character besides propping up the yt#cast. maybe if we go that route and it happens to all three of them some of y’all will make a ‘fandom has a problem 🥺’ post and dip#like always el oh el so exhausted#batfandom racism#tim drake#jason Todd#dick grayson#bruce wayne#Lemme be a bitch today#Duke cass and Damian Stan’s I won’t clog ur dash with this#actually some of u cass Stan’s are….#I’ll just say it a lot of you are racist as fuck and can’t say shit about cass besides she fights good and deserves the world#batfam#wfa#anti wfa
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I'm starting to think the reason I'm not as good of a writer as I want to be is because I like writing more than I like reading.
#which isnt to say i dont like to read#but i find it so difficult to get interested in new fiction#why would i bother reading stories other people wrote when i could just write mine?#i don't have this issue reading nonfiction ive been so into nonfiction#and i feel like THAT has helped me write better just by teaching me about more things so i can make worlds make more sense#but one time i told somebody i was writing a story that's kind of a zombie apocalypse but for plants and they said#'oh that's exactly like this other book' (i forget the name) 'you should read that one!'#and it made me unreasonably angry#i don't care abt someone else's story with a vaguely similar concept. i care abt mine.#and i know this makes me seem like an asshole and i probably am for this specific thing#but i read every book i could get my hands on as a child#and then as soon as i was able to write my own stories that stopped being the case#like all that reading was just training me to do what i can do now#and i think if i could just get over my disinterest in other ppl's fiction books and start practicing deconstructing what makes a good stor#i would start improving my writing more#and short stories! fuck. i hate reading other ppl's short stories unless they're written by friends#but as im starting to submit my short stories to publishing magazines n stuff#im realizing i'll have a better chance of getting published if i read the other stuff those mags have posted before#and write what they want to have submitted. but then it's not necessarily what *i* want to write. u know?#i don't know how to fix this fundamental problem of me preferring writing over reading#(and this applies to fanfic too btw. i hardly ever seek out fic to read unless a friend sends it to me. and often i like it when they do!#but not as much as i like writing or reading my own writing.)#just why would i READ when i could be WRITING and writing is so much more FUN
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#i am. getting Very fucking tired of my mother giving me shit for being disabled#truly ?? im Done#like. i would like to think i have p good control over my impulses but oooooooooo boy#am i getting close to the recent images of that woman throwing a milkshake in nigel farage's face#SO CLOSE#shut uP ur life is not a gd prison bc u have a disabled child#like my dude#my guy#u have had me for 28 fuckin years#and Now u have a problem bc i am physically incapable of doing laundry due to my back issues ??#that i have had since birth and u knew were progressive ??#o-fucking-kay#we're doing this now#fr she is trying to compare doing a laundry for me to being a full-time maid#ok bud#i just asked a favour#which YOU agreed to#but now that u have to follow thru on it ur angry#alright#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#u made this bed. time to lie in it
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I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao
#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms#I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try#IDK!!!!#I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life#I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent#everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!!#it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by#accident’#THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN#whatever#some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also#indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real#ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY#after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day#and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’#ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay#ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag#I loved them#they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL
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I always find it so fascinating when ppl who found out about autism from A Certain Cellular Telephone Application find out that ppl are like. usually diagnosed before adulthood like if ur shocked by me getting diagnosed professionally at 15 ur mind is going to be blown when u find out I was experiencing visible and notable symptoms around 18 months and the fact that I wasn’t diagnosed in early childhood affected the rest of my life
#like my late diagnosis wasn’t a matter of ‘I was just a mysterious little quirked up baby who was sooo good at masking’#my parents neglected me and I was a female child in a catholic school. lmao I could have been coughing up blood daily and gotten nothing#BEFORE U START YELLING AT ME I REALIZE WHY SOMEONE WOULD GET DIAGNOSED AS AN ADULT LMAO#15 is still very late especially for the way my tizzywizzy manifests like I’m level 2 I get it i was neglected#I just find it funny how any and all resources are like specifically geared towards children and that is a massive problem for ppl who need#resources as an adult and a significant margin of ppl dominating the narrative think most autism diagnoses occur after the age of 18#it’s bonkers to me#I promise I’m not revisiting my sanctimonious Person Who Talks About My Brain On The Internet thing again#I’m just annoyed lmao#actuallyautistic#autism
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Will who impulsively tells the truth despite hating confrontation and mike that has to clean up the mess it might leave behind afterward
#my post#troys making fun of them and will is quiet in the back of group until he pipes up#‘wow. youre really ugly’#like he just understood a hard math problem#and the party RUNS#this is unrealisric bc he had to live with lonnie but i can imagine that as a kid he hates lying or pretending something isnt happening that#that is happening#my boy had to work up the courage to lie to mike after 10 million yrs of friendship and im kind of proud of him#i also like a will thats reallllllyyy concerningly good at lying esp to authority figures#inside u there r 2 wills…. one that lies and one that only tells the truth#ok ok mike doing a vecna mind maze a la labrinth movie ft david bowie#and he reaches a part thinking this is it hes made it thru#but there are two doors and two figures curled up before them#one is teenage will begging mike to believe that el loves him and theyre good for each other#and the other is a small child will. around the time he was taken the first time#asking him why he abandoned him that summer why he ignored him#saying he thought theyd go crazy together and crying thats what he wants why doesnt mike want it too#and mike has to choose#a mike faced with two crying wills. whats gonna happen
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Jamie's parents prioritize her challenge (impossible)
#hell not even prioritize#i would just not like to be an afterthought plz and thank u#like it's been admitted to me MULTIPLE TIMES that my parents have forgotten that like my sibling i'm *also* homeschooling and-#dealing with the aftereffects of a fucking pandemic#like huh??#they're oh so worried about my sibling but don't once check in with me#i'm going through high school essentially self teaching and with no irl friends#and they're just cool with that ig because my sibling is the 'problem child' so they're the focus#i fucking need to start college prep next year this not the time to just let me try and handle it on my own#and i'm just overdramatic if i bring any of it up#MY FATHER ESPECIALLY#like oh my god please TRY and at least hide some of that favoritism#good lord#fucking hell i'm just really pissed right now#jamie rants#(this is where the becca projection comes in a bit btw)
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aauauauuougghghs i need to move out 👁👁
^^^ [CHEC IT OUT] i need to move out moodboard (available now !!!(
#99.txt#my mom is like ''you seem upset with mee :('' yeah cos straight up like i think i just hate u now#when i got covid it was MY problem i stayed in my room. i wore a mask any time i left. i even wore gloves to the kitchen.#to make sure she didnt get it (and she didnt !!!) and i even cleaned the whole house while i had it lol. and still kept it away from her#so now that she has it guess what !!!!!!!!!!!! everyone guess what !!!! its STILL my problem !!!#i stay in my room ! i use the basement toilet !! i have to wear a mask outside my room at all times !!#and wash my hands so much im gettin rashes because she just goes around doing whatever touching whatever ?#coughing on whatever because she doesnt give a shit !!!!#i made it my mission when i had it to keep her safe#and now that she has it its ''well if you wanna keep safe thats your responsibility'' like ???????#i promise you the thought of making space for another person & accommodating or compromising has never occoured to her once#its all ''well its up to you !!! good luck !!!!!'' yeah fuck me i guess#and she keeps bothering me asking me to help her with shit still !!!!!!!!!!!#''how do i find my documents on the computer ive had for 10 years :('' are you stupid ?????? are you dumb for real ???????#and she puts me in the situation where. im busy clearly busy with my own shit#but she feels SO entitled to my time that she will just insist that i drop everything and do something for her#if i say no or have a slightly unenthusiastic response its ''oh youre SO mean to me youre SO mean. no one will want you :('' ...ok.#but if i ask for help from my own mother once in a while its ''wow you ask so much of me you know youre not a child anymore :\\\''#yeah. i know. i dont think ive been helped with anything by a parent since i was like 15 years old#''why are you mad at me ven you seem mad at me :('' yeah . i think like you just kinda fucking suck
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ive been watching the winchesters and my thoughts so far is that i like literally anyone else more than i like mary and john <3
#tbf i already HATED their asses#because they are such bad parents im afraid#mary was a biiiiit better because i could understand the whole. dying and being brought back thing can mess u up a bit.#john winchester on the other hand is going to HELL.#at least mary is aware she has issues. tbh i really liked the whole 'making peace with my inner child' thing. good for her ngl#but this show suffers from the same problems as most shows that try to make their characters say what their issue is directly#so that people dont misinterpret them. which is that they would not fucking know that.#ive just seen the ep w the angry ghost and the ex-hunter#theres a diference between someone whos reflected on why she was angry and has been bettering herself for YEARS being able 2 relate 2 mac#and someone who has been supressing anger and has the greatest show of toxic masculinity ive ever seen.#and who i know ABUSES HIS CHILDREN TO COPE WITH THE FACT THAT HIS WIFE DIED.
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