#gonna message my OBGYN about my birth control when I get home

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BILL!!! LET ME OFF MY PERIOD!!! ITS BEEN TWO FUCKING WEEKS!!! I ALMOST BLED THROUGH MY PANTS AT THE BEACH TODAY!!!

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My First Time With Sir

Press F to pay respects to my poor pussy lol

So, starting where the last post left off, having finally accepted and confessed my feelings for Sir, I was overcome with lust, and found myself desperately wanting to, well... So we started planning for it. I was so nervous and just a total basket case about it, fretting over whether I would even like it, if he would find my naked form unattractive, if there might be something wrong with me and I would be physically incapable of having/enjoying sex... At one point he was like “You know... we don’t have to have sex.” and I was so worked up at that point I messaged back “I WANT TO” and he told me later he thought he’d angered me XD “That was the most enthusiastic consent I’ve ever gotten!” 

So the day arrived. He picked me up at my house, since my own car is currently broken. We went to the local sex shop to buy a toy and some lube (and bless the employee who stopped us from getting the wrong kind of lube for the toy) because I was nervous about him being my first ever experience with penetration and thought if we tried and for some reason I wasn’t able I would die on the spot, so the idea was to use the toy to get me accustomed to it first.

We did a bit more shopping for some snacks and stuff, then went to his place. Oh! More bragging on my Sir: As I mentioned before, Sir lives outside of the city in kind of the middle of nowhere. He does have neighbors, but like down the road rather than right next door. So he asked me where I wanted to do it, and when I said his place, he asked if I was sure. He didn’t want me to feel trapped or isolated, and suggested if the idea of being out there alone with him was scary we could always get a hotel or something. But I trust him, and I told him as much, and that I liked the privacy of it.

So we get there. He hangs back to have a smoke (he’s very conscious about not smoking around me) and I get undressed and freshen up a bit. And I wait in the hall to his bedroom, kind of leaning out of the doorway shyly. I won’t go into all the details, but he’s very polite, gives me some distance and even asks if I’m comfortable with him getting naked before he undresses. I had to have a hysterectomy a few years ago for medical reasons, and I apologized for the rather large surgery scar on my belly. He said it was hot, that it looked like a battle scar. I also pointed out it was a visual representation of the most effective form of birth control. He kissed it. 

So we get into it, lots of foreplay, which was needed because hoo... it was not easy. I just couldn’t seem to loosen up, at least not for more than a few seconds at a time. I also kept drying up as well. He thinks it was probably just nerves and performance anxiety, but I’m gonna ask my OBGYN about it (I know hysterectomy can cause issues with dryness). He was amused to find that the only way he could seem to keep me wet and loose was to “bully” me. Lots of spanking and rough play (though nothing all that kinky, he said my first time should be vanilla). So we get to the toy and... it’s bigger than the box led on. Bigger than Sir. So when I’m finally loose enough he asks, since it’s bigger than he is, if I’d rather skip the toy and just take his cock. And I was so desperate to be filled by anything, and especially by him, that I managed to say yes though words were a struggle at that point. 

So he ordered me onto my back (also insisted my first time should be from the front, more intimate that way) and took me. And it was amazing. I only remember a few details, the rest is all just formless pleasure. He was really rough, but god I loved it. At one point he grabbed my wrists and held me down and, as silly as it is, I can remember thinking “Oh, is he pinning me?! He is! Oh boy!” I remember him making these noises... he says it’s the sound he makes when it feels really good. But it was loud, and intimidating, like a beast. And I remember pulling myself together just enough to beg him to cum inside me, because I was terrified if I didn’t say it he might think I didn’t want him to.

I’m really sad I couldn’t feel it, though to be fair I couldn’t really feel much at all besides the pleasure itself. He took a moment to admire his work (wish I could’ve seen it, tried to look in the bathroom mirror but it was dirty, but he says he’ll clean it before next time) and then laid next to me and we cuddled as we recovered from it. Once I could walk again (almost fell the first time I tried) he sent me to the bathroom, then went himself. He came back to me talking to the toy. “A lot of good you were...” It’s one of those with a suction cup on the bottom, so he took it and stuck it to his headboard and it lives there now lol I’m sure we’ll get some use out of it eventually. 

There was more cuddling, and then eventually I wanted to go for Round 2. But that’s where we ran into the real trouble... he got me wet and loosened up again, but when he tried to enter me... it hurt. Like, stung. We thought maybe we needed more lube, tried a couple more times, but then when the lube itself stung we realized something had likely torn... >_< But not one to leave me unsatisfied, he used his finger to get me off a couple more times since that didn’t hurt it, though I was so into it I waited way too long to tell him to stop and only did when it really started to hurt in a general sense.

I have now spent the past few days at home with no pants, because my nether regions are Angry! Sir feels so guilty, though I keep assuring him it’s not his fault, he stopped every time I asked him to or showed significant discomfort. He says I am no longer to be trusted with my own limits and that he’s gonna have to start telling me no >_< He got me some baby wipes because toilet paper is currently not my friend, and I needed to schedule my annual with my OBGYN anyway since it originally got canceled due to covid and he agreed to drive me to it, so that’s in a couple days. It’s already feeling a bit better, so I doubt it’s anything serious. Just a bit too rough and I insisted on going when I should have stopped. I guess it’s kind of lucky I’m currently unemployed, idk if I’d be able to go into work like this lol

And that’s the very abridged story of my first time. Difficulties and injuries aside, I’m really happy about it. I was so scared I wouldn’t like it or even be able to do it, and I’ve heard so many bad/disappointing first time stories. I’m so lucky to have Sir. And he keeps assuring me “Most peoples’ first time together is also their worst, so we’re probably gonna blow each other’s minds going forward.”

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Was No One Gonna Tell Me that ‘How to be Single’ is Actually Really GOOD?!?!

So I just caught this Rom-com 2016 on tv recently and like its kinda my favorite now. Like the trailers were super deceiving I thought it was your standard Girl breaks up with guy has random fun as a ‘single’ meets emotionally unavailable guy says they wont be together but are at the end making the title a moot point. 

But like it’s not. It’s actually a really good showing of the ups and downs of relationships and learning to love being on your own. 

So the movie follows like four stories that interconnect

Alice: Main character, who’s been in a long term relationship forever and has difficulty being independent.  Meg: Alice’s older sister who has control issues  Tom: a perpetually single bar owner, who befriends Alice Lucy: a girl desperate to find the one, who Tom is interested in David: a recent widow who Alice dates in the movie

Explaining this story i’m gonna go out of order a bit and character importance. So I’ll start with our most basic story Lucy and Tom.

So Lucy is a hopeless romantic who wants to find “The One” so goes to Tom’s bar frequently on bad internet dates. She’s often consoled by Tom there afterwards. But she is aware how against relationships he is and ends up thinking she finally fond the one on the app. Only to have him tell her he thought they were just casually hooking up causing Lucy to have a public breakdown where she meets George. The two click and soon get engaged.

On the flip side Tom is bar owner who is very much against being a relationship wanting to stay free. To like an insane degree he makes his home just like so uninviting it seems difficult to live there. He befriends Alice at the beginning after a hook up between the pair. Cue surprising thing one of this movie despite the pair hooking up twice their relationship is utterly platonic. Tom slowly warms up to the idea of a relationship as he connects with Lucy and through his talks with Alice. Towards the end of the movie he decides to confess his feelings to Lucy giving the standard rom-com “Choose me not them, I’ve always been here.” And second surprising thing Lucy the romantic turns this down telling Tom that he doesnt really love her just the idea of her. 

The movie ends with Tom fixing his apartment to be like habitable and opening himself up to the idea of being in a relationship while Lucy and her finance marry happily. 

Next Meg’s story

Meg is an older (by that i mean like maybe 40) woman who works in OBGYN and very against getting involved in a relationship as she has control and trust issues. Despite being against being a mom Meg decides she wants to have a child and gets a sperm donor soon after she meets Ken a younger coworker of her sister Alice, and the pair hook up aka surprising thing number 3 older woman x younger guy relationship. Meg wants to break things off seeing it inevitable with their age gap but Ken still pursues her. Meg agrees to see him thinking he’ll get sick of her soon enough and doesnt tell him about the pregnancy. 

Eventually he finds out and vows to stay with her and help raise the child, eager to be the baby’s father even though its not technically his (actually excited at the idea of being a stay at home dad). Meg tells him he doesnt know what he’s talking about and that it’s not just about her and cant trust that he’ll always feel that way ending the relationship. But after she gives birth he comes back telling her he wants to be there for and her and the baby and the reconcile. 

Now David

He and Alice hit it off at a party and they quickly start a relationship. His wife had died a few years ago and has a young daughter. While Alice and the daughter connect and all seems good things take a turn when the girl requests Alice to sing “Eyes of you” she complies and it upsets David telling her she’s not the girls mother. Alice realizes that he hasnt fully dealt with his wife’s death nor ha he truly explained it to Alice and tells him to do so. The pair breaking up. He apologizes later to her telling her she was right and he did over react. His story ends with him talking to his daughter showing her pictures and videos of her mother singing “Eyes of you” the movie ending with him starting the healing process of grief. 

Finally Alice. 

Alice breaks up with her longtime boyfriend Josh to experience being single and life in New York for a while. She befriends coworker Robin who shows her how to have fun. After a while she tries to get with Josh again, who tells her he started dating someone else and this causes her to spiral a little as she thought being single was just a temporary thing and she’d be with Josh again. 

After this she meets and dates David and all that entails. While with him she confesses how she always wanted to hike the grand canyon on new years but always had a reason not to, while David says hiking isnt his thing. While single she meets up with Josh by accident and her old feelings resurface and begins texting him semi regularly. 

At Alice’s birthday party Robin invites all her ex’s including Josh. This upsets Alice and she fights with Robin who confesses that she feels Alice just uses her when she feels down after break ups and that she doesn’t have any sense of self just falling into guys and being what they want. Soon after this she starts to reconcile with Josh only for him to say he’s still with the other woman and Alice realizes Robin was right. 

After this Alice spends time on her own and training regularly. Soon she reconciles with Robin saying she’s her best friend and she loves her and she was right, and Robin accepts saying she loves her and missed hanging out with her. The film and Alices story ends with her hiking the the grand canyon as she’d always wanted to and surprising thing number 4 our main character ends this romcom single and happy about being single.    

like look only two of our 5 story leads end up in relationships and they happen when neither is really looking. Lucy meets her future husband by accident after her ex makes her breakdown in public. She thought she was done looking and there he was. Meg was all for raising a child alone she never thought she’d meet someone as reliable as she does and was prepared for that relationship to just be a fun story later on. 

The movie has this message of know and love yourself first before you try to love someone else. Lucy and Meg had a good sense of self prior to their relationships but the rest didnt. Tom thought he was someone who didnt need anyone but he wasnt he wants that support. David thought he was over his grief and ready to let go but he wasnt. Alice thought she knew herself but she didn’t. 

I just honestly lost my mind when the movie ends with Alice still single giving a monologue about how being single is a good thing to be cherished as she does this hike she’d always wanted to do on her own fulfilling herself and smiling to the camera. Like fuck it was good.