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bblckboi replied:

This imposter syndrome resonates... But maybe you do deserve it? Yes, other people could have done the job but maybe you're the one who can do it best and the people who hired you saw something inside you you haven't quite seen yourself. I do hope you feel better about the situation though!

Thank you for your reply! I just read about the imposter syndrome and I feel this has been eye opening! Im gonna try to work on it, I think college affected me more than I thought. I hope one day I can feel better about this tho!

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these hands could hold the world but it’ll never be enough.

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sometimes I feel guilty of my “luck” and by that I mean most of the time

I finished college last year on december (that’s how my country works btw) and one of professor sent me a mail asking me if I was interested in an intership in one of the labs so I agreed... 

what I didnt know was that out of the 3 interns she was going to pick one of us to get an actual job there, I got the job /they also gave me an extra job too so yay?

now here is the thing...only 3 classmates (including me) have a job rn and I was actually able to hire one of my friends in the lab. BUT I feel so guilty because there is a lot of my classmates that I think are better than me? 

I feel like my professor shouldnt have choosen me for the intership

I also dont feel like out of all the interns I deserved to be the one who got the job (even if we didnt know there was gonna be a job) 

and then I keep getting these amazing opportunities and it makes me feel bad, I know I should feel good! I should be happy but Im not

I just feel like Im fake and that one day everyone is gonna realize Im actually dumb... that they are gonna be disappointed 

I dont feel I deserve all these people praising me, sometimes I just wanna quit everything so I can stop the guilt. I shouldnt be the one who is able to have a stable job during this pandemic cause I dont deserve it, a lot of my old classmates deserve it but not me 

ughh this is dumb I just wish I could be happy for what I have and stop feeling guilty

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Some doodles cross posted from twitter! From my experience, kids under the age of 5 have -15 chill

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Boyfriends in onesies💕

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btw guys if anyone is interested I joined an AC discord chat and subreddit were theres currently a giveaway for 1 month of nitro   a.k.a like discord premium. I mostly dont promote things but I really like how these people have helped me a lot in my first AC game (btw in this community is all about giving! so there’s always someone helping you free of charge!) if you are missing how AC was wholesome this community really helps you get that feeling back c: 

PS: there’s also a lot of giveaways in the subreddit besides the nitro one in case you are interested 

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Thought I saw a shooting star but the neighbors above me are flicking cigarette butts out the window

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Hello Ever! Do you have any thoughts on demon slayer/are you interested in it?

woof do i have thoughts about demon slayer!! on the positive side, i was following the manga before the anime came out and i really admire gotouge’s art style! i drew like one thing of nezuko fanart, but i also made my favorite characters’ outfits in animal crossing lol...

i don’t want to talk about the ending in case there’s ppl who are anime-only and don’t wanna be spoiled... so i’ll just say “demon slayer’s aesthetics are the best thing about it” and leave it at that haha

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judy from ACNH~

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time skip iwaoi <3

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