#goldenphoenixgirl

[feminist-minimalist]

I'm Still Here and I'm Still Scared and Isolated

That's it. That's the post.

[guyghoul]

I wonder how all of those rape/harassment cases that became public around this time would affect Golden Phoenix Girl... did not one of her stories involve a senator? Also, was not one fundamental concept behind her stories her anti-parents rapind and whoring out her?

I wonder how things would have happened has she gave her stories around this time...

[mysteryofthings]

Reading about

goldenphoenixgirl. JFC.

[mentalhealthwarrior]

Who is Golden Phoenix Girl?

tw: mention of abuse and flashbacks, non-graphic. 

Some old GPG posts must be circulating, as I recieved 3 asks about her today. For anyone looking for what happened to Golden Phoenix Girl/GPG/Ivy/Urissa, I have written a non-dramatic representation of facts. 

When the mental health community on Tumblr was still pretty small, and my blog had just started up, I started following goldenphoenixgirl. She is a survivor with a horrible story (TW: Basically everything.) 

She gave advice, and made videos on her blog. Some posts were helpful, but probably mostly due to her abusive past, she was often outright mean, abusive and misleading to others. Her blog also contained stolen art. (Her abuse does not excuse these actions, merely explains them.) She also had flashbacks relating to a murder, which many people wanted investigated. 

People got upset with her and she got a lot of hate. Then she was doxxed, putting her in serious danger, and she deleted her blog.

Her story is backed up by evidence in police reports and first hand accounts from some witnesses to her abuse, and is absolutely true.

there are many other claims that cannot be supported and should be ignored as there is no evidence to support them. 

In conclusion: the story linked in this article is absolutely true, and should be read and discussed. It is important to many survivors that steps are taken to make sure this doesn't happen again. However, Golden Phoenix Girl as a person can be dangerous to deal with, and her actions caused many people to turn against her. 

The actions of this community were dramatic, and many were morally questionable. 

The only known thing about GPG at the moment is that she is safe. 

[greenassin]

Does not Golden Phoenix Girl have 2 sisters?

I honestly don’t know. I don’t know much about her family. I didn’t delve into her nonsense as deeply as some of the other people rallying against her did. I mainly reblogged things other bloggers were posting and transcribed her gross video.

[feminist-minimalist]

I Might Have to Be Admitted

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I hate myself.

[bondsmagii]

Wait, who was Golden Phoenix Girl? Is she another creepy blog or something like Marble Hornets that got really weird and disappeared?

Unfortunately not. She was a person on here who was very abusive and just not a very nice person to be around. She claimed she was a support and resource blog for abuse survivors, but she treated everyone very badly, and it eventually came to light that she’d been invalidating and abusing many of the people who came to her for help. After she got her followers to send hate to a minor for asking a perfectly reasonable question, a signal boost written by my friend went around, and as more people came forward to mention the abuse she’d put them through, she wiped her blog and left Tumblr.

[guyghoul]

The Golden Phoenix Girl – Part 2.5: Whore Slap

...I recant this. What I wrote here was toxic to both my readers and myself.

The original post is still here if you wish (because I do not want to run away from my mistakes), but I do not want the original post in plain view anymore.

[ghostie-pie]

just tried going to urissa/GPG/dirty fucking liar's blog and it's been turned into an "archive of her statements"; it's being run by a few mods and i don't really know what's going on. anyone know where she went?

[non-binaryjustice-archive]

I am not interested in messages about GPG. As a victim of much less serious abuse, I can see the signs of abuse. I have known people who have lied about abuse and I can tell the difference. You all have been very immature with this, and for your sake I hope it's not too late for her. You all disgust me and I am not interested in you trying to convince me that she's some kind of liar.

[steprightovertheline]

As a former loyal GPG follower, all I'm saying is, she had a public facebook account using her real name and location, with a link to her blog's soundcloud.  I know other followers were worried sick about this whole thing (as was I at first), but given the fact that all of this information (including her exact address in CA) was already readily available, I doubt Ivy/GPG is in any more danger from her family/private investigators now than she was before it was on tumblr.

On the other hand, people contacting her family directly? That's going way too far, and actually could put someone in danger.

[greenassin]

Any follow up from goldenphoenixgirl? I still have her sisters facebook url and always wonder if she teuly did everything urissa claimed, and if so are her children being abused :/

I haven’t heard anything about gpg since the hype died down, nor do I know anything about her sister. Her original blog still belongs to the person archiving everything and the two known url’s that she fled to have nothing on them.

The only person I’ve heard anything about child abuse on was the blogger that was initially involved in bringing gpg’s abusive behavior to light. The accusation was made that she was abusing her children because she disagreed with something gpg was saying and as per the norm gpg tried turning it into an attack instead of taking responsibility for the shit she was spewing. As far as I can tell that woman’s children are in no danger. I’ve seen much more support for her parenting skill than I have condemnation of them, so I think it was just gpg trying to start a witch hunt so that the attention would be drawn away from her own bullshit.

I don’t know anything about her sister, but judging by everything that’s been brought to light about Urissa I have some real doubts that anyone she’s accusing of anything is actually guilty of the claims.

[feminist-minimalist]

Haven't Eaten In A Day

Feel like I don't deserve it. I'm punishing myself for how I acted.

[bondsmagii]

What ever happened to goldenphoenixgirl?

I have no idea. She moved to the url theresalwaysalwayssomething, but then she completely wiped the blog and removed all posts. There was talk that goldenphoenixgirlreborn was going to be her new blog, and she was going to come back, but that blog is empty, too, and there's been no sign of her.

Honestly, I'm not interested in where she is now, or what she's doing. My goal was to remove her abusive and dangerous behaviour from Tumblr, and we achieved that. I'm not interested in a witch hunt. As long as she stays away from here, I'm fine to leave it.

[guyghoul]

The Golden Phoenix Girl – Part 2: Under the Influence

Consideering how Phoenix got into heavy detail in not only her tale of woe but also research in all the aspects of prostitution, especially their flaws (Why should there be a lower boundary of prostituted girls? Then again, why should the studies focus on prostituted girls instead of boys?), obviously, her blog imprinted upon me.

One of the biggest is having anti-molestation fantasies. Because I want to maintain at least some purity of my mind, I initially exercised prevention... instead of imagining the rapes, I imagined (totally different) people screaming 'plasmids!' whenever a rape was supposed to occur. Obviously, this workaround was too confusing, especially since I had to imagine the rapes if I were to understand the writing. Instead, I did 'necessary-damage control': I mentally rewinded the scene and imagined that certain charactes rescued Phoenix. These include:

The Batter from Off and Jo-taro- Ku-jo- from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, both because the mental images of The Batter purifying the rapists or Star Platinum's rapid-punching the rapists were satisfying.

Mituru Kirizyo- from Persona 3 not only because of the above reason (Mituru's executing the rapists), but also because Mituru is a girl (Phoenix would be far more confortable with a girl), thus making Mituru my avenger of choice

Pangoro from Pokémon because Pangoro stands by the weak

Yamada Hihumi from Trigger Happy Havoc because of how he is extremely anti-rape

(Jo-suke Higasikata made one appearance at the story where Phoenix' anti-father was force-feeding Phoenix her birth cirtificate. In the altered story, Jo-suke prevented the anti-father from raping Phoenix, but the anti-father ripped up the birth certificate. Before the anti-father could force-feed the certificate, Crazy Diamond restored the certificate. Of course, I had the anti-father insult Jo-suke's hair and Jo-suke subsequently beat up the anti-father.)

I also imagined my own fantasies of me rescuing babies from getting molested in public, or again, of me rescuing whores. The way I do so depended on the fantasy: at times, I tried to stick with the most realistic means possible; at other times, I pretended that I could transform into anything.

Back to Phoenix, I also fantasised of having some type of memory-recovery machine that would automatically take all of her prostitution memories from her mind (thus neutralising the falshbacks, since the memories are in the machine instead of in Phoenix) yet have them accessible whenever Phoenix wants to see a repressed memory. In other words, this machine would give Phoenix complete control over both her flashbacks and repressed memories.

On Phoenix' anti-parents, I wanted them to be punished... hard. At the very least, I wanted to have millstones tied to their necks and thrown into the sea. Ideally, I wanted them to undergo every execution in the Danganronpa series... including the unused ones... including one specifically-mades to the anti-parents. In fact, back then, whenever I needed 'to blow off steam', I wrote down how realistic/feasible would each execution be on the anti-parents. Then again, I wished that The Batter would purify all of the rapists, especially johns and pimps.

Even my real-life actions were affected; I took special notice on whether Puerto Rico had anything against prostitution. Then again, whenever I read of humanitarian efforts in the Internet (especially in LifeSiteNews), I kept thinking 'What about victims of prostitution?' After all, this horrible problem is so under-represented!

The most surprising part is the way Phoenix influenced my views on abortion. I wanted the baby to be born, but there was a comic that Phoenix uploaded where the same anti-aborters who fought against the woman being aborted could not care less about the health care, education, and housing of the baby while the baby grew up. When the now-impovershed now-a-woman was going to get an abortion due to the crushing circumstances of her life, the anti-aborts once again fought against the abortion. While I still wanted the baby to be born, Phoenix's uploading the comic widened my pespective to the events that happen after the baby was born. Of that point I was grateful.

Even so, not everything was pretty. I could not enjoy birthdays (due to me being reminded of Phoenix's birthday rapes) or Sonic the Hedgehog (due to Sonic being one of Phoenix's triggers) and, in fact, felt guilty about the idea of enjoying these. On less petty matters, I got worried that a molestation was happening whenever I have heard a young one cry/scream in public! I even went to the young one because I wanted my own confirmation in that a molestation was not happening! The biggest part was that, despite the safeguards I have implemented, the horrifying mental images required of reading the stories had stained my brain!

Then again, this was reality...

[goldenphoenixgirl]

Update:

GPG seems to be wiping her blog (theresalwaysalwayssomething). It can still be viewed by adding /mobile to the end of the url, and so far the posts are showing from September. She's either privatising all of her posts, or, more likely, deleting them.

Should she delete everything, this blog will become inactive, unless she reappears or comes back. Our goal was to out her abusive behaviour, and if she vanishes from Tumblr, she's no longer harming anyone. I know I don't want to chase her any further than that, and I doubt the other moderators do, either.

The blog will, however, remain up as an archive. -A