#goddddssss i fucking hate him

[truckstoptigers]

it's so fucked up to think about the fact that when our fucking trailer was ON FIRE, i was almost too afraid to wake up my father.

and then when we were safe somewhere else he decided that'd be a great time to add to the trauma of the fire by raping me at my grandma's goddamn trailer.

[woklaza]

Chapters don’t usually start with 15.

Love stories start from the beginning.

But it was how suddenly it came that made it love:

That’s why the story started with 15.

IN LOVE. ALREADY IN LOVE WITH THIS. OH MY GOD. YOU'RE QUOTING CHUUYA'S CARD? I'M QUOTING THIS. AUGHSIWHWHDIHE CRYING

The banter would end with a band-aid on Dazai’s nose which was, ironically, stuck on his skin by Chuuya.

omg fighting and then patching each other up :3 i love them

Like that one time they were forced to go to a ball for a stupid mission.

OHHHHH?????

Chuuya, hand in Dazai’s as he twirled clumsily. You really can’t expect a gang kid to know how to dance. Dazai seemed pretty good at it, though.

HE'S BAD AT DANCING! I REPEAT! HE'S BAD AT DANCING. AAAAAAAAAAAAIRJEIDJEOBDJWJE

“Undercover doesn't mean I have to waltz with you like an idiot.”

He's in love with you. Chuuya. He's in love with you. That's why you're dancing together.

Mid-dance, Dazai suddenly pulled Chuuya into a surprisingly graceful dip, earning a surprised gasp from Chuuya.

WHAT DID I SAY. IN. LOVE. OH MY GODDDDSSSS.

And of course the most irrational thing to do was to dance.

Which is exactly what Dazai did.

...say it with me. HE'S IN LOVE WITH YOU OMFG. DANCING IN THE RAIN???? KILL ME NOW.

The rhythm of the rain became the beat for their unconventional waltz, each misstep and twirl a testament to the chaotic harmony they shared.

what if i cried. what if i started bawling my eyes out. i would flood the entirety of scotland with my tears, and it would be your fault. fuck you.

The gravity of their connection lingered in that moment, a silent acknowledgment of the unspoken thread that bound them together, even in the midst of the absurd.

still crying, only it's the entirety of the uk that gets flooded with tears

Chuuya, feeling an unexpected surge of… well… vertigo , took a step closer to Dazai. His fingers lightly traced the wet fabric of Dazai's suit, tilting the brunet's chin up.

KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS

With a glint of dizziness in his eyes, Chuuya leaned in, capturing Dazai's lips in a surprisingly gentle kiss.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LETS GOOOOOOO I LOVE THEM WIEHEDHDIDJDJAIAJ

The world seemed to hold its breath for that stolen moment, as if the rain outside had quieted in anticipation of the unexpected turn of events.

that's how you know they're in love. when the world goes quiet!!!

Dazai, typically the master of composed nonchalance, pulled back with a visible fluster.

FLUSTERED DAZAI!!!!!! YIPPEEE!!!! FLUSTERED DAZAI AGENDA IS WINNING TODAY!!!!

The sense of vertigo. The feeling of falling.

Falling in love.

...what if i got this tattooed? I need this inscribed on my brain please and thanks

Well, Chuuya is a hopeless case of teenage romance.

me too buddy

That’s when Dazai pulled out a flower from his suit. A white camellia.

MY FLOWER EXPERTISE COMES IN HANDY. FINALLY. white camellias tend to mean purity, faithfulness/loyalty and deep/divine love. Interestingly, white camellias would be the flower you give to someone who you love deeply, but not romantically (feel free to fact check cause I am not some flower language genius!!! this could be wrong!!!) but obviously it works for romance too. Just thought that's interesting. To me that screams, romantic or not, I'll always love you. I think that's adorable.

"Chuuya, will you bring me a white camellia to my funeral?” Dazai asked.

wow. way to ruin the mood.

"What do you feel like?” Chuuya asked.

“I feel like I could take a bullet for you.” The brunet said, “That’s how I feel.”

I TAKE IT BACK. OH MY GOD I'M IN LOVEEJDHSHSUDBJDJSJSHKAM OH MY GOOOOOODD THEY'RE SO PATHETIC AND STUPID AND I HATE THEM I NEED THEM TO DIE AND I WANT TO WRAP THEM UP IN BLANKETS AND CHERISH THEM FOREVER

He felt a sense of vertigo.

But falling in love also meant falling in fear.

genuine question. why would you do this to me?

Three years. They’re no longer kids anymore. All that time, Chuuya kept falling.

And Dazai kept picking him up patiently, ever time.

...if it's three years later... I hate to break it to ya chuuya but... bro won't be picking you up for much longer. just wait another four years dw he's still in love with you<3

And now, sipping on a half-cold coffee, he felt as if the funeral was never held.

Taylor swift reference or no...? There's a few different songs I think of at this line- right where you left me by taylor swift obvs, and also that one conan gray song I can't remember the name of. It's probably not a reference but I can make anything and everything a reference so... yknow lol

White camellias symbolise death in the Japanese culture whilst red Camellias symbolise love and passion

My flower rant earlier seems kind stupid now but still yippee!! flower symbolism!!!

Also- this was incredible. don't you dare say this was badly written, cause I have been blessed this morning.

I genuinely loved this so much. I was on the verge of tears. I love them. dancing in the rain????? I've been shot, and unlike those two, it wasn't by cupid 😔 they're so stupid and in love and I HATE them okg I'm gonna sob thank you for blessing me with this masterpiece

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