#godddd whyyyyyy

[lloydfrontera]

CRYING LLOYD AND JAVIER OUTSIDE THE DOOR NOVEL ART HAVE YOU SEEN IT

YEAH. YEAH I DID

OH MY GOD

i had already been screaming a fair bit about chapters 383-384 because it's just hit after hit after hit in these ones, but i wanted to wait until i had a free moment to properly get my thoughts down on this specific scene and Oh Boi. am i glad i did.

LOOK AT THEM. LOOK AT THEM AND TELL ME YOU DON'T GO A LITTLE BIT INSANE.

is in this chapter that we finally get a real glimpse to how lloyd is feeling about all this. he's faced down everything, he's overcome every obstacle that's come his way, he's holding everything together because he knows that if he slips up even once it's game over for everyone and he's done it all on his own with a smile on his face.

and then we get to this scene, which is right after a moment in which lloyd finally allows himself to realize how much he actually cares about his new family and then he sees a bran new way in which he's gonna die,,,

and he just breaks

he starts crying and sobbing because he's terrified, he's so afraid of what his future looks like because he doesn't want to die. he really, really doesn't want to die and he doesn't want to die in such a painful frightening way and he doesn't want to drag others into dying with him

and it's heartbreaking!

all through the novel we do see that lloyd isn't very fond of the idea of dying, like really, he's not that into self-sacrifice and he'd rather find another of solving his problems thank you very much. but it's not until this very moment, that it really hits you how terrifying his situation really is for him. how much pressure and stress and strain he's been under while looking for a way to avoid the restoration of fate all by himself.

and then it cuts to javier. listening through the door. javier who knows that lloyd, that this fake lloyd, has been hiding something for a very long time, who constantly looks the other way whenever there's something that doesn't quite fit the way it should, who has gone through literal hell and back for him because he follows him unconditionally,,,

and who now has to hear the person he trusts the most in the world break down alone in his room because he's terrified of dying but doesn't trust javier enough to show it in front of him. because for some reason he refuses to share his burden and lean on javier the way he's allowed everyone else to lean on him.

and javier is angry

he's angry because lloyd should tell him if he's afraid, he should tell him if he needs help, he should just tell javier so javier can do whatever lloyd needs him to do.

because that's his friend and his friend is stupid but javier won't allow him to go and do something stupid like dying.

that's what javier is for. to protect him. so he shouldn't be afraid of dying because that won't happen. and if it ever did, then it would be javier who'd die instead. if it was for lloyd... he'd be happy to do so.

but even as javier decides this he still has to hear lloyd cry all alone and it hurts

AND THEN THE NEXT MORNING HE TRIES. HE TRIES SO HARD.

he gives lloyd a chance to tell him! he asks and prods and tries to get him to tell him if he's worried about something, if he had a nightmare, if he's in trouble, he just!! tries so hard to get lloyd to trust him!! to lean on him for help!!

but lloyd refuses because he's so used to being on his own that now it's not only second nature but also a true belief of his that when push comes to shove he's on his own. that he needs to resolve all of his problems all by himself.

especially the restoration of fate. because it's his fault that it's happening in the first place. it his fault that everything is in danger so it's his responsibility to fix it.

he can't ask another person to shoulder the burden for him.

IT'S JUST!!! THEY'RE SOOOO!!! MMMGHHH!!! THEY GIVE ME A NEW MENTAL ILLNESS!!! I'M SOOO NORMAL ABOUT THEM I SWEAR!!

these chapters are so important for the dynamic they have until the end of the novel, these moments are how the rest of their relationship develops, this!!! javier wanting lloyd to trust him and to lean on him for help and lloyd refusing to do so out of guilt and a misguided sense of responsibility!! this is how it continues until the very end!! and it never gets resolved!!! bk moon answer for your fucking crimes!!!

anyway

as you can see. i am very normal about these illustrations :)

[bigfeelingsdyke]

"You got him?"

"Yeah, not before he had a chance to crease you though"

[koipalm]

im literally already shaking. kids you need to start killing people

[incorectquoteswlw]

Yelena: Kate just makes me laugh, like genuinely laugh- OH WHAT THE FUUUUCK?!

Nat: ...

Yelena: (head in her hands) OH GODDDD

Nat: 👁️

Yelena: (collapsing on the floor) URGHHHHHH WHYYYYYY

[struck-by-the-rain]

whyyyyyy is my skull post getting so many notes im used to making flop posts oh my godddd

[stiffyck]

No but imagine Mumbo going into tcd and meeting like baby Scar like 6 years old and newly orphaned Scar. And he finds a way to bring him back to hermitcraft but little Scar can’t stay there because then older Scar wouldn’t be Scar. And maybe it’s causing problems with the rift and sort of messing with the fabric of reality and stuff so like. They have to send little baby scar back to the apocalypse, as much as they really don’t want to. But maybe big Scar promises him that it’ll be okay one day even if it’s bad for a while. Maybe big Scar gives little Scar a Jellie plushy from Scarland to take with him. Maybe Grian teaches him to start a campfire. Maybe Mumbo teaches him how to tie his shoes.

And then they have to send him back.

— Jay

OH MY GODDDD WHYYYYYY

OUCHIES

[therealslimshakespeare]

i know u put smith in a different bunk but after all these asks, since they bunk share anyways, can we pretend she’s in buck and bucky’s 🥹🥹 i can’t see them wanting her out of their sight

wait actually i typed that whole ask then realized i don’t want my baby victim to hearing maureen and gale’s nighttime activities

Oh my godddd the way this took a turn and I gasped and cried and just -whyyyyyy yall: to the Cleven’s.

But also, c’mon, they aren’t that loud, Gale wouldn’t be able to face the world if they were that loud.

Yet still, point taken, keep them apart.

Honestly, there’s too many people bunking and moving around even in the show that I legit don’t give a damn any more, we can do as we please. Heck, Hammy isn’t even supposed to be in this stalag but he is and no one is sad about it.

So, she can climb in all sorts of bunks and let’s be real: by the end of their time in the stalag, not even Maureen wants to bother Buck Cleven under the sheets, give the man a rest.

[lepetitfruit]

Godddd I have been so exhausted for like 4 days straight whyyyyyy

[joonsytip]

NOOOOO!!!!!! Whyyyy mannn whyyyyyy????? I've nvr experienced a breakup before but I think i know how it feels now😭😭😭 but damn that was CRAZYY GOODD!!! Was that the end of the seriesss??? my godddd idk how i feel coz im still recovering from that ahahahaha😵🤭🤭 As I'm writing this my roommates are thinking im arguing with someone over the phone (me currently frowning with streams of river down my eyes)

I'm sorry but the way I snorted reading the last part (I hope you cleared the possible misunderstandings😹) and thanks a lot 💕

[hanasaku-shijin]

OKAY WAIT BACK THE TRUCK UP

I havent heard All That Matters Yet, not all of it anyway, and do you know why?

 It’s cuz I fucking slammed the pause/stop button the SECOND I heard the first piano note because THAT MY FRIENDS IS THE SAME EXACT OPENING PIANO KEY/NOTE OF ICHIBAN NO TAKARAMONO AND WE ALL FUCKING KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THAT SONG 

[fandom-hoarder]

My "liveblog" of walker s3e01: world on a string

stella saying CAPTAIN! already has me 👁👄👁 

godddd why does it feel like perfect damn. even the emily bits were well done, i think. not focusing on her perfectness but just using her as his inner voice. and multiple scenes of cordi torture 😍😍😍

trey got involved just as expected

abby telling capt james not to come to the house O_O

why tf would cap argue over whether that peanut bag is evidence thoughhh

stella augie talk!!

omfgggg "it is my JOB NOW to keep you safe" holy shittt

hahahahahaahhhh the BRAIN ROT

and GOOD LORD the way he’s hearing the other captive through the vent while he's in the cage and also hallucinating a loved one. AHAHAHAHAHAHA

i have yet to get one of the dreaded TWin ads but that may be because it already played by now

omfg lol geri making cookies

lol the awk between geri and colton

WHYYYYYY am i getting geri/augie vibes

lol cassie and trey banter. "you don't lock your door?" "i tried but you have a key"

guhhh the sam winchester vibessss

"i'm not broken"

fffffuck i can't believe it ended there😭😭😭😭😭

[velreblogsnstuff]

OH MY GOD

OH MY FRIGGIN GODDDD

FYODOR FUCKIN DOSTOYEVSKY

IM HAPPY IM SAD IM CRYING IM GREIFING IM DYING IDK WHAT TO SAY OR THINK OR TYPE OR WHATEVA IM NOT CRYIN MY EYES ARE JUST SWEATY

FYODOR I LOVE YOU SO DISGUSTINGLY MUCH BUT WHY BRAM???

did... did he just include himself in his harem of white hair men?

WE WERE BEING PISSY BOUT IT BEING NIKOLAI OR CHUUYA BUT WHYYYYYY

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY am i over reacting so much? wait shouldn't i be happy? meh

What kind of magical girl transformation is this 😭😭😭

[readbythestarlight]

c2e103

Lmao

"I went to the year 2020. And it was heavy." Too real.

Liam is FREAKISHLY good at this lol

Meanwhile Sam quickly turned into Shaggy

Ooooo so is he pulling pieces of the planes into the real world??

Oh jeeze I don’t like that idea that the Traveler might have known about this...

[[MORE]]

Also y’all should be concerned about the crew

And how far away from the island do you have to be because they could sail away a bit and then come back in the morning.

Oh no fuck

Did the dragonturtle get it???

Oh no

NOOOOO

NOT THE SHIP

they’re fucked

RIP to the ship

I’m worried about them sleeping on the island

Uh oh the volcano is angry

"I like it, it’s a power move." Have I mentioned how much I love Veth’s and Fjord’s interactions?

Also see I wonder if he knows they’re conspiring against him

He’s the worst, I can’t believe he was just going to dump some of his followers off

I’m glad he was reassuring to Jester at least, but... feels bad, man.

Also stop being a coward and fight with Jester, butthead.

Oh good, he promised

I love how Matt has apparently just forgotten this is communion and they’re just talking

HE PUT TUSKTOOTH ON THE MOON that’s the cutest thing I’ve ever seen

Someone hug Jester

Everyone group hug her please I’m begging

Mmm I wonder what he needs jade for

So the fog is because he’s fire in water which makes steam aka a vapor that could cover the whole island right??

BEAU

No

GODDDD

Oh my god Caleb this is so sweet!! I’m gonna cry??

Omg he had a cat?? A real cat??

I’m emotional

"It’s good to look back, even on the painful stuff. It lets you see how you’re different, how you’ve changed. It’s good to look back."

Nobody wrecks me like Veth and Caleb wreck me

Stoooooopppppp I’m EMOTIONAL

Goddamn Liam O’Brien

I am having the most feelings

Ohhhhh boy I’m nervous

oh nO

Phew okay they’re okay

I hope they figure out what to do soon so they don’t have to go through losing their memories again

Yashaaaaaaa

Baby girl’s got feathers!!!!!!!

Fjooooord

Of course Fjord would be the one

Ship graveyard?

Ship... storage??

Lol Liam is pushing hard for that “I’m gonna be stuck as a shark because lolz

Caduceus??

CADUCEUS???!?

BABY!!

NO!!

God whyyyyyy

Listen though I love Fjord looking out for him and how hard he fought to pull him back 10/10 good feelings

[fallenrepublick]

Different anon than the other predator kink anons. Ahhhhh that predator kink Maul you wrote!!! I did not know that would affect me like that but apparently IT DID. *thumbs up*

Oh my god no but that’s so real... Because I got that ask and initially I was all like oh godddd whyyyyyy, but as I was sitting there writing the thing I ended up having to look deep inside myself and think “.....aM I iNtO tHiS???”

And unfortunately for me, I am but I’m just gonna have to live with that now, aren’t I? And I suppose for what it’s worth, I’m glad I can take some of you all down with me

[betweendoctorsanddetectives]

Godddd a man is messaging me on facebook..... why are you talking to me whyyyyyy