#god isn't real bc any would he have let this happen to a child what could i have done

[necrotic-nephilim]

any opinions on joker junior!tim/jason?

oh my GOD yes-

Joker Junior!Tim is one of my guilty pleasures. i'm *obsessed* with the concept, i think it's so horrifying in such an intriguing way. it's tricky to work into the main timeline, but that's sort of the fun of it, bc generally you have two routes: Joker Junior happened to Tim when he was Robin and he's since moved on and continued to be Robin then Red Robin. or it happened to him as Red Robin and is a current thing that the characters in the fic are dealing with. and both are good.

because there's endless potential of how to do it with JayTIm. does Jason save Tim, does Jason *know* in the first place, if it happens after Jason is back as Red Hood how does he react, etc. i've read it in fics and i love every version.

but i think i'm intrigued by the idea of Joker Junior happening before Jason comes back as Red Hood and he finds out about it and he's *pissed*. like infinitely more pissed than he would've been. but his anger isn't in protection of Tim, it's at Bruce for not learning, for letting this happen again. and for making a brainwashed child have to kill Joker because *again*, Bruce couldn't do it. the point isn't about if Joker is alive or dead. it's that *Bruce* didn't kill Joker and Jason's death didn't mean enough to Bruce to stop Joker before he did it again. because Joker Junior really is the proof Jason needs to shove in Bruce's face about child sidekicks and Robins and Joker. and since Jason didn't exist in the universe where Joker Junior happened, we never saw a real comparison of the two. but i think if they happened in the same universe, it makes what Joker does to Tim far more purposeful. because now he knows he can kill a Robin and *get away with it*. so he wants to push it. how do you top *killing Robin*? like, if that doesn't get to Batman *what does*? Joker Junior seems like the perfectly reasonable next progression. if a dead Robin doesn't break the Bat, then breaking Robin beyond recognition seems even bigger. and Joker trying to get Tim to kill Bruce as Joker Junior would likely be Joker just seeing if Bruce would let it happen. could Bruce bring himself to stop Tim? and of course Joker doesn't find out bc Tim kills him instead, but it's such a fun question.

and so, i think Jason would *know* his death in a way, caused this. Joker did that to Tim because he didn't get enough of a rise out of Bruce for killing Jason. if Bruce had *just* killed the Joker, none of this would've happened. another kid wouldn't be irrevocably fucked up.

as for Jason's opinions on Tim specifically, i think it's fun if Tim retires from vigilante work entirely after the incident. (with Steph taking over as Robin for a much longer and more significant period instead of just getting fridged) because Tim has very black and white morals so knowing he killed someone, even under the influence of Joker venom, he'd immediately put down the cape, suggest Steph to take up his mantle and quietly retire. he knows what he's capable of now, pushed to the edge and it scares him. i think it's fun if it scares him *because* he was lucid. if he was truly under the brainwashing control, he would've killed Bruce. but he didn't. he had a moment of clarity, and decided to kill the Joker. and he knows that was *him*, not Joker Junior. he made that decision and now, he lives with it.

which means Jason would be almost pissed off by Tim, at first. because they're reacting to their trauma *wildly* differently. Jason wants blood for blood, vengeance, war, and to make Gotham feel his wrath. but Tim just wants to. disappear. quietly vanish and live a quiet life, even refusing to run comms. Jason doesn't understand how TIm doesn't share the anger and passion Jason has for justice. he knows what Tim is capable of and so does Tim, so why doesn't Tim lean into it? why doesn't he take back control? bc this is letting the Joker win, to Jason. after all, Jason is the guy who took Joker's old name to prove a point. and now he's facing another person broken by Joker who just. is a normal guy. i'd love to write Jason forcibly dragging Tim back into the superhero life, trying to trigger the worst out of him and wanting to find kinship in Tim. because that's another part of it- this is someone else who might actually understand Jason's experiences and Jason just wants to not be alone. he wants someone else who gets what it feels like. so he makes Tim face the trauma Tim is running from and pushes and pushes until Tim snaps. i think it could be fun.

don't get me wrong, i love softer JJ!Tim in JayTim stuff just as much, where Jason is more protective and they bond and end up really close and taking care of each other because of it. but i'd love to lean into the fucked up nature of it. for Jason to want to rip Tim open and see just how much of the Joker is left inside of him. for Jason to be obsessed with the other Robin that Joker broke. for Jason to be even angrier at Bruce because of it all. there's endless potential and it will forever remain my guilty pleasure for JayTim.

[fruitcoops]

Eeeek I am so excited to send in this request bcs I feel like it's one you could really do justice. (if you feel inspired that is. There's absolutely no pressure) but I was wondering if you'd be willing to write coops becoming more comfortable around each other? That's not the right word but just the constant butterflies sort of fading and instead realizing that love isn't all thrill it's sometimes a deep-seated love and being calm and comfy around your loved one? So like one of them doing something that used to cause butterflies and maybe sometimes does still bit it's the realization that you're so attuned to them you're used to it and love it and them?

Sorry this got really long and idk if it makes any sense or not. Anyway I love youuu and your writinggg it's such a source of comfort for me so thank you for doing what you do

Fluff in the wake of Vaincre! I think this is becoming a pattern. Though I, for one, am not complaining. Character credit goes to @lumosinlove, and Hazel, I am suing you for custody of my broken heart.

Sirius is washing the dishes and Remus puts a hand on his lower back without really thinking about it, slipping his palm beneath the hem of a Mickey Mouse t-shirt to rest over the bend of Sirius’ spine. His hand molds to the curve, fingertips on one dimple and heel of his palm on the other, thumb sliding along the lowest notch. Sirius hums and leans his head down to bonk Remus’ in a gentle greeting. They’re all small, thoughtless motions for a small, thoughtless night.

And it hits him.

The kitchen—theirs. The house—theirs. The neighborhood—theirs, where they wander after dinner sometimes or find well-traveled sidewalks to their new favorite shops and diners.

Sirius. His.

They’ve talked about moving, about kids, about after. What happens after hockey? Sirius can get through July now without growing antsy at the absence, but still, it’s taken almost a decade. A smaller house (a warmer house, a house that’s theirs) would be a good change. Not a rushed one, though. It seems there are endless hours to plan and look and comfortably explore.

Water sloshes over the marble countertop. They’ll never have to worry about money; not like Remus’ parents did. They’ll never be restricted by loans or debt or whatever neighborhood falls within budget. He came to Gryffindor marveling at an affordable single-bedroom apartment. It’s a habit he’s been trying to break on those late-night Zillow scrolls. They both love the cabin on the lake, but…

But maybe they’ll need the space.

Remus turns his head to kiss the curve of Sirius’ shoulder and sees him smile, capable hands working soap through a sponge. If they were a regular couple, he thinks—a different couple, he corrects—there might already be a new addition on the way. He can see the longing in Sirius’ eyes when they talk about it and feels the yank in his own chest at the thought. He’s wanted that since he was a child. It only grew more intense when Jules was born. It would make sense for them.

The things he’d do for a baby with Sirius’ eyes and his nose and, god, they can’t stop there, can they? The kid would need a sibling, wouldn’t they? A Regulus, a Julian, a James, a Lily that they could rely on and go headfirst with into the wonder of the world? Someone to lead, or someone to follow. To protect. Remus has never been the type to brainstorm baby names, but the amorphous dream is thrilling on its own.

Sirius makes a small noise in the back of his throat when a bubble pops and spatters Remus’ sleeve with soap. He’d be such a good dad, it’s not even funny. Remus can’t think about it too hard, or else he’ll start scrolling through PetFinder to find another dog to take the edge off.

He bites gently at Sirius’ bicep and feels him laugh, feels him swat at Remus’ hand with no real effort behind it. “Love you.”

“So you bite me?” Sirius snorts. “Weirdo.”

Remus exhales hard through his nose. “I want a baby.”

“Ouais, let me just run to CVS—”

Sirius’ snickering is not dulled by the light pinch to his ribs; Remus hides his grin in another bite. “I’m serious—”

“No, I am.”

“Oh my god,” he groans, turning away.

“Non, non, wait,” Sirius laughs. His arms wind around Remus’ waist and pull him close enough for Sirius to plant a kiss to his temple. It’s adorable, how careful he is to keep his sudsy hands out of the danger zone. He nuzzles into Remus’ cheek before straightening. “A baby. Yes. Absolutely. You know my thoughts on this.”

“I do,” Remus sighs. “And I know why it’s not a good idea right now. Still.”

“Still,” Sirius agrees. He sways them for a moment, then Remus feels a squeeze and the weight along his back is gone. The faucet flicks back on. “I want—” He presses his lips together, mouth twisting as he works it over in his thoughtful way. “I want to be there.”

Remus takes a clean towel from the drawer and begins to dry the plates. “I know.”

“And you’ll probably retire first, which is fine, but I want…” Sirius tips his head back and forth. Remus knows he’s running through their list again. The pros, the cons, the frustrating parts that they so desperately don’t want to deal with but have to anyway. Sirius scrubs at a bit of dried rice and scrunches his nose. “I want you to be there, too. Both of us. From the start.”

“I know.” It sucks. They might not have to scrape and save but time is not a resource hockey will spare them, and Remus is so grateful that Sirius takes that seriously. He meets Sirius where he is in their timeline. “I’ll retire. Take a break. I’ll go back to PT, probably faster than either of us think I will. You’ll decide when your last season is. We’ll put in an application—”

“—and by the time I’m done, we’ll have an idea of any possibility,” Sirius finishes, passing him a clean glass. They’ve repeated it so many times that it’s practically a mantra. Deep down, it gives Remus hope. The planning. It means there’s a chance. It means they’re on the same page all the way through. Sirius lets out a breath. “And then, maybe, we’ll have something concrete.”

Adoption, surrogacy…it doesn’t really matter. Both are such complicated webs of people and events and things entirely out of their control—Remus hates it, and he knows Sirius hates it more. He sets the towel down and moves to rest his forehead between Sirius’ shoulder blades, where his heartbeat keeps time against Remus’ skin. He winds his arms around Sirius’ waist and flattens his hand over Sirius’ belly to feel him breathe.

They have all options in the world, and yet it all feels much too big.

He spreads his feet a little when Sirius leans back. Measured inhales, pulse keeping a constant 60 beats-per-minute.

Remus laughs quietly.

“What?”

He shakes his head, kissing each curve of Sirius’ wingbones beneath his shirt.

“What?” Sirius presses.

“A year ago, if you grabbed me and pulled me back like that, I would have jumped your bones,” he says wryly, burying his grin in the bend of Sirius’ neck. “Listen to us, angsting about the future like a couple of old geezers.”

“Feel free to jump my bones, if you think your arthritic joints can handle it,” Sirius teases.

“I’m just saying—”

“Oh, Christ, I’m turning 29 in a year,” Sirius moans, tapping the water off with a flourish. “I’m dead. I’m dying. I am wasting away. Tell Celeste I love her—”

“We’re standing in the kitchen, washing the dishes, on a Friday night!” Remus protests. “Aren’t we supposed to be…I don’t know, going to a club or something?”

Sirius turns in the circle of his arms with a grave expression. “If we’re going out, I need to go rinse my dentures.”

Remus chooses to ignore that particular comment. “The cubs are probably raising hell and breaking hearts.”

“The cubs are extroverts.” Sirius cocks a brow. “Look me in the eyes and tell me you want to go out and get drunk with a bunch of sweaty strangers.”

He can’t help the wrinkling of his nose; the told-you-so satisfaction on Sirius’ face is fondly irritating enough that he reaches up to cover it with a loose hand. Sirius laughs and dodges him like always, biting a kiss to the side of his palm. “Anyway,” Remus prompts with a squeeze of his narrow hips. “I love you. Which was my whole point.”

“You had a point?”

“I always have a point.”

“That’s a stretch, but alright.”

“Our kitchen,” he says, tilting his chin up. “Our house, our neighborhood, our future.” A smirk pulls at his lips and he rubs his thumbs just beneath Sirius’ shirt. “Mine.”

“Yours,” Sirius murmurs around a smile. They might be getting old and married and boring, and Remus might finally be able to watch Sirius and his capable hands without going weak in the knees, but his kisses will send joy crashing through him forever and always. The future isn’t so big in the safety of a moment.

[ihatehannibal]

trauma dumping bc I can't afford therapy

thinking about how I didn't even say our dad was abusive to us out loud even once until I was like 21 (or think it, honestly), which was a full 7 years after he was out of our house for good. and when I did finally say it my sister replied with "no, we weren't abused, he had a temper but that isn't abuse" & then I internalized that for a few more years. I still have moments where I doubt my own perception of what happened & need a reality check, to see it all laid out so I can pretend it happened to someone else & be like "yeah okay of course it was abuse". I can't really put this anywhere else but here

I remember at least 2 occasions where my mom definitely thought my dad was going to kill us all. the first one was especially terrifying bc I was younger, he broke down a door (not just broke through thr lock, I mean he kicked the door until it splintered to pieces as if it had exploded) to get to where my mom had us all hidden, locked in her room. & when the banging of him kicking the door started she began frantically apologizing immediately through her tears & I sensed her fear & knew instinctively what she thought was about to happen. I was 10 at that time I think, my siblings were 8 & 6. my memory blacks out at his silhouette appearing in the threshold so I dunno what happened next but later said that he thought that /she/ was killing /us/ and that's why he broke down the door but that is the most ridiculous lie I've ever heard. he knows damn well she would never harm a hair on our heads.

the second occasion my mom thought he was going to kill us was when I was 14 and it was only a year after the family annihilation happened to our friends, which was committed by the father-who my mom & aunts had known since they were teenagers-so it made that seem much more real & plausible to us all. my (9 at the time) brother did something, I don't even remember but it was probably just normal child misbehaving, & it made my dad so mad that he started chasing him around the house screaming that he was going to kill him, my mom yelled for my brother to run as far away as possible so he left the house and ran down the street & my mom and sister were physically holding my dad back so that he couldn't go after him, but he pushed both of them to the ground and got outside. luckily my brother was out of sight by then, hiding in our neighbors bushes. I had called the cops but he was miraculously very calm when they arrived, as usual. after that my mom never let him live with us again & he went off and shacked up with his current wife before the divorce papers were even served. not even gonna get into how fucked up that whole situation was.

those are the big occasions but god there was so much in between. he was really jekyll & hyde, the second he lost his temper he became something very terrifying. he and my mom had screaming matches long into the night very often, usually about stuff he was doing to us (he believed in corporal punishment, not closed fist beatings or anything but spanking and hitting us with spatulas and such, and he was always full of rage when he did it so it hurt a lot & scared us) and she almost never let us be alone with him, another relative would always have to be there supervising.

then of course there was the religious shit, obviously, I've talked about it before. he told me from the time I was 4 or 5 that I shouldn't focus on what I wanted to be when I grow up cuz the world was going to end before I reached adulthood & I had to be a soldier for god in the apocalypse, which could happen at any moment so I had to be prepared. oh and that everyone i loved-my whole family except him-would be dragged to hell to be tortured for eternity, that my dead grandpa who I was very close to was already there for being a catholic rather than a fundie, & that I'd go to hell if I didn't listen to him. he said he was trying to save me. my mom had to find this out from my therapist when I was in first grade & she lost it. she has since told me that she would have left him right then if she didnt have a 3 kids under 7 at the time & no way of supporting us alone. another harmful thing he tried to force on us was of course the belief that gay people are broken & need to be fixed or they'll go to hell. as someone who realized I liked girls as a preteen that obviously was hard to hear. my brother is gay too & I know it's affected him badly.

I was a really troubled child & I guess it makes sense given the horrible anxiety he instilled in me plus I was seeing psychiatrists from as early as 5 for my ocd & depression. I got my autism dx (well, aspergers, since that was still a clinical term back then) around that time too. school was hellish bc people ostracized & mocked me for being a mute & wearing the same clothes every day due to sensory issues. I had no friends at all for a few years. I hit puberty really early & got groped by a few boys so that was just great. I was also the tallest person in my class until 7th grade when the boys started growing which while not traumatic kind of sucked bc I felt like a hulking giant when all I wanted to do was hide. I eventually learned to mask, forced myself to talk more & made friends with other unpopular girls at school. safety in numbers (by high school I stopped giving a shit about what anyone thought so that was good).

I was medicated for the first time at 12 when my intrusive thoughts got worse & I tried to kill myself, from then on they just kept adding more diagnoses and more pills from 12-16ish. bipolar, like my dad & uncle (who has since killed himself). I started using food as a coping mechanism around age 14 & developed various eating disorders that extend to this day, which probably also originated in my fathers fear that we would be fat like everyone on my mom's side & his control over our eating (he wouldn't even let me have cupcakes if someone brought them to school for a bday party, he told my teachers I had allergies that I don't have). I slit up my arms for awhile in my late teens and early 20s as a way to stop panic attacks. I dropped out of college. I became a drug addict. never had sex or a proper long term relationship & probably never will bc I don't like being emotionally or physically vulnerable. I know it has a lot to do with the way I was treated as a kid. I took a test once & it said I have an avoidant attachment style which is very accurate. apparently that happens when a child grows up not feeling safe with one or both parents.

reading this back I still immediately think "well others had it worse so maybe it wasn't REAL abuse. maybe I don't have C-PTSD." like no matter what my brain just won't accept my reality

[m1d-45]

IM JUMPING ON THIS MANDELA CATALOGE TRAIN HI TEDDY ANON HI MIDAS Ive watched a bit of the Mandela catalogue and watched some fanmade games

OKAY SO if the faith in the creator created the alternate (or the alternate just wanted to get in on all the free xp/power teyvat has) what if M.A.D and alternates spread through prayer/shrines?

LIKE IMAGINE THE CREATORS SHRINES SUDDENLY BEING TAKEN OVER MY WEIRD ENERGY AND THE POEPLE THAT VISIR THEM REGULARLY HAVE WEIRD ENCOUNTERS WITH PEOPLE THEY KNOW BUT JUST LOOK DIFFERENT.

and also like a second thing, lets say the main motive for the alternate!creator is to take down teyvat like strip it completely and maybe the best way to do that is so be a person of such high power and status literally the archons/vessels wouldn't even question you until they start feeling...weird around you. like their mind feels conflicted their body isn't listening to their commands

VENTI losses his voice after speaking with u, he starts coughing and takes break singing. ZHONGLI can't help but feel like he's eroding 10 times faster while speaking to you while kneeling to you. NAHIDA feels more encased and limited, she can't reach children's dreams as easily as she used to. and EI feels the same way she felt after her sister died, alone and angry. Because the alternate!creators presence doesn't just spread the sickness.

it's making the archons slowly lose their minds

while this is happening alternates slowly start taking over the real one, but very slowly no vision holders have been killed yet, just npcs, just Joel from dragonspine. just that child who always offers tricolor dango to Raiden. and one day jean notices that klee acting a bit weirder, she comes out of timeout strangely...quiet.

oh how I love the idea, that the children of teyvat are more vulnerable to alternates, not bc it's in the Mandela catalogue just bc I like it. bc people would be so hesitant about hurting children and alternates know this. they take advantage of it, it' crazy to see the apocalypse of a world begin through a child.

- 🍄 (this was so long lmao but I love like genshin crossovers sm, I've been thinking about the last of us x genshin and this just gives me sm serotonin) (I hope my ideas are bring something interesting to this conversation)

HI WELCOME

talk below :)

VERY interesting take. imma be straight up i can’t understand most of what you’re implying behind this but it FEELS big, it FEELS slow and insidious and like the archons are pawns who can’t recognize the board beneath them, feels like a slow rot from the inside out where the hosts aren’t even aware they’re ill.

i’m always partial to the “archons know something is Off about the creator but assume it’s nothing/their own sin/a trial of faith” but THIS?

archons who lose their character, things they held dear falling to dust, their minds swallowed by the alternate and their separate realm of existence- OH WHAT IF;

WHAT IF: archons who’s subconscious knows that the ‘creator’ is wrong, who’s soul yearns for the true god, archons with a mind that begs them to find their god and pray to be delivered from this evil BUT they go to the alternate!creator(‘s shrine) INSTEAD

and the thing of spreading via shrines?? YOU GET IT.

like- from what i understand abt the mandela catalogue it’s an alternate version of a religion dominated by a fraud instead of the true god behind it, which maps DIREVTL to sagau. the shrines, prayers with the imposter in mind, it all feeds into the false god- only those with a more abstract sense of faith, maybe those that pray to “the one true god of gods,” or “may my actions extend the reign of the king of kings” truly delay the spread of the alternates, or are safer from them. any shrine carved with the alternate in mind is tainted, any prayers done in their name is tainted, it’s only those that pray for good harvest and clear skies that are safe from the sickness that has permeated every faith.

OR ppl like rosaria and keqing who have little respect for the gods (i think? idk i don’t know them that well-) and only say thanks for the effects of the creator, not their actions. people who don’t pray for their blessing, but for the knowledge to combat the disease spreading across the earth.

idk if this makes sense but i REALLY like the idea of like two opposing factions of religion, spearheaded by a difference in fundamentals. those who worship the archon’s themselves(i. e. the alternates /those they e influenced) or those who worship their blessings (i. e. things the true creator has allowed or promoted). people like jean having to learn to switch her prayers to strategic wisdom instead of divine guidance, kujou sara praying for safety and healing instead of asking her god to remove whatever ails the shogun.

finally, the part about children being more susceptible is so true and holds so much potential. albedo who asks the creator to save klee from whatever has taken grip of her soul, unwittingly handing her over to the alternates by giving them ‘permission’ to do so. draff, praying for dionas health, but addressing it to the false creator. even just younger people, people who don’t know better- people like bennett, who 100% prays for protection, accidentally walking right into the thing he’s afraid of.

i know that derailed from whatever point you made but like- i really like this concept. people who put their full faith into a god, children taught to always trust their creator over all others, people who don’t know what to do or what they want or need, people lost and asking for a compass, only to be led south. like it’s….. man.

i love the mandela catalogue, dude.

[fyodior]

nsfw is fine for me, it can be sfw if you want

not comfy w/ sharing my real name on here so lets just go with Lycoris

i am a computer science student in college

im 5'8, white, i have blue/gray eyes, and dark red dyed hair in a bob with bangs

i am the parental friend who will ask questions, talk to people, keep us out of trouble, volunteer for things etc UNTIL i fimd someone who i trust enough to do that for me. then its chaos. i have adhd if that helps anything lol

enfp

i play genshin, persona 5, and minecraft; i play the guitar and sometimes write music (also sing and play a couple other instruments); i like reading literature: i watch anime; i like solving puzzles and working with technology; i occasionally upload on youtube or stream on twitch (not sharing it to tumblr lol) (im also a christian but im here on a tumblr smut acc)

im a very picky eater, i swear im like a child, i dont try anything i dont already like. i am a very assertive and opinionated person so if i dont like something You Will Know. but at the same time i can keep it back to be polite (except for food im sorry i will live off of ramen until i die)

any of the adult males, fuckin surprise me

nope nothing else to add <3

lycoris x ranpo

✧ surpriseee your silly little man is The ranpo edogawa himself

✧ you guys work so well bc you both compliment and counteract each other. you're very similar in some ways but complete opposites in others, which is. essential for relationships

✧ ranpo is a (loveable) dumbass and could definitely use your parental friend abilities, mostly when it comes to like changing lightbulbs, taking the train, doing the fucking laundry. he's so smart but so stupid pls be patient with him

✧ BUT i think he very much could step up and be that person you could trust wholeheartedly. you could let your chaos show with him he could handle it. he might match it with his own crazy tho bfdakljfk

✧ i would be SCARED to see your guys' kitchen dkfjkadsljf like oh my god. you both are the worlds pickiest eaters, and ranpo's obsession with snacks and sweets...... you would need an entire pantry shelf dedicated to just ramen and another one just for all of his candy. id get a fucking cavity just from entering the room

✧ you're slightly taller than him (2 inches) but he absolutely refuses to admit this. when he stands next to you he'll stand a bit on his tippie toes and everyone just pretends its not happening LMAO poor ranpo </3

✧ you hardcore bond over your love for puzzles and reading and problem solving. this is likely how the two of you ended up meeting and/or interacting for the first time, and is something relatively integral to your relationship. its something that both calms you down and can start fights fkjdalj;f like if you solved a poe novel first he wouldn't speak to you for like 3 days

✧ you are both . very opinionated and this can be good and bad

✧ bad in that you'd have to be very conscious about the fact that you inevitably will butt heads, and knowing the best ways for the two of you to cool off either together or individually.

✧ good because if you guys share a really strong opinion about a certain tv show or hatred for a person that is. talking material for DAYS you could both get hyperfixated on the same things and everyone at the agency is like oh jesus fucking christ. not them again

✧ you'll def find yourselves in arguments about the silliest things which isn't necessarily a bad thing sdlkjfdsjk like one morning you're bickering because ranpo was like NO YOU DEFINITELY HAVE MORE MARSHMALLOWS IN YOUR LUCKY CHARMS THAN I DO and you're like WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING A BOUT

✧ i promise i genuinely think you guys would work well together i really do fklajfkdj

✧ i dont think he really understands video games at all, like thats not his thing. but he def will sit there absolutely mesmerized as you stream.

✧ i know cockwarming where the guy is the one playing the games but why cant it be the other way around. u ride him as you play video games. why not. i said so

✧ he'd LOVE listening to you play music

✧ anyway. power couple. the two of you would drive everyone at the agency insane with your antics but they'd all love you too :)

[brick-a-doodle-do]

I'll try and keep this shorter....maybe

I'm not sure what scene you mean I have planned but I probably do, except that would be a spoiler~

okokokokok

Irzayn has three different abilities...one with black mana (something no-one else has in any way shape or form), gold mana (healing), and red mana (blood magic)! The black mana is actually a living shadow. His shadow is alive. At first it has no real mind of its own, being very limited, but eventually becomes something VERY different and even stronger. He can teleport, store things, attack, make his steps completely silent, become intangible (slight spoiler except I'm not gonna explain the how :P)...that's all just in his shadow ability, which is his strongest. Healing is next--his healing can restore even lost limbs, including on himself, but for the most part when he's using it on himself his healing is limited to how well his natural healing would've been, which is how he ends up with scars from Vara.....

Varazae is so desperate not to say anything because he fell in love with Irza and is also scared the villain might kill him. It's revealed by pure accident one day because not long after Irza discovers Vara is Quickvine and for a short time both think they know something the other doesn't until it ends up spit out (in a way you'll have to find out~!). And actually, Vara isn't a pure blood either which would put him in danger if it was ever found out bc he's a rare mix.

As for his dragon form...someone does bc several people triggered it...and obv Ezephr was an extremely important trigger for it! His powers do become much stronger, namely his previously weak blood magic, which includes hypnosis and controlling blood. But why wait for that form? Irzayn destroys the city with a SINGLE attack before he's ever in a dragon form, and it's all Vara's fault (the poor cat boy didn't know what he was doing, he got falsely accused and Irza wouldn't listen when he tried to explain)

The heart-to-heart IS initiated by Voidshire (And I don't typically nickname him Void bc he names his shadow Void, which is the origin of his villain name--he got his name because someone heard him scream at Void, saying that name, to save him. Quickvine calls him ghosty and Voidshire calls him Viney). But it's one of the times he truly falls for Quickvine.

There's a hero association. The idea is bnha based but NOT the same for many many spoiler reason I shall not say. There are hundreds of heros in all cities and you can sign up once you're 12. The problem is that they won't let certain races even take the exams, they're turned around immediately.

His dad...is a HUGE spoiler for this story, so all I'll say is that he got blood magic from his dad and that the hero association is tied to both his sudden disappearance before Irza's birth (He doesn't even know he HAS a child), and the discrimination against dragonkin.

Now to Ezephr!

His hair color is natural, he doesn't hide who he is, and he doesn't need to because he ain't on record, which is part of his backstory. No costume. He has no friends and doesn't want any...he's like a yandere that kills his obsession immediately, not after thinking he's betrayed. He is insanely close to god level because of his power alone and would 100% reach a tie in a fight with one. His powers DO have an origin, which is part of his past. Lovely.

Kidnapping happens constantly and is what made Irza fall in love with Quickvine--they were in an argument/fight one day when Quickvine tracked him down yet again (Vara can tell where or when Irza uses his shadow immediately bc of how his races mixed so perfectly~!) But Ezephr kidnaps both of them and traps them inside a mountain maze where Voidshire has magic blockers all over his body but Quickvine doesn't bc Ezephr saw him as being weaker than an ant. Well, they were in a cage, but Vine got them both out and helped find the way out. There was a TON of arguing as they went through, where Vine kept refusing to take the magic blockers of bc he knew better than to trap himself with a villain stronger than him.

Also Irza knew about the stalking and obsession extremely quickly bc that angel is creepy. He can avoid being found out because of his shadow's special nature.

Ezephr's wings are red because he fell from grace, which started to turn them to a color similar to his hair, but then he murdered people and their blood soaked into his wings and skin, eventually becoming a part of his features and led to him developing a new power, which is bladed wings...he can send sword like feathers at people that cut metal. His other power, put simply...no magical attack can reach him. None. Nothing otherworldly. Only something physical can ever hope to reach him, but then you have to deal with his absolutely INSANE physical power. Irzayn beats him twice--once because Ezephr let him, and the next? Irza finally achieved the strength he'd always wanted.

His backstory? Is extremely complicated. Uhmmmmm....simply put, he was tortured since he was a newborn, forced to fight to the death many times and if he didn't kill his opponent or lost he wouldn't be fed. He was essentially taught that living creatures have no value. then when he was 12, he killed everyone in the research facility (super important spoiler mention) after developing a power, and escaped. Since he hadn't been taught how to be a person...he did what he did know, and slaughtered an entire city when he was 14.

Btw, angels in this world develop a power based on how they grew up. Their deepest desire becomes theirs, basically. Makes you wonder what invulnerability says about him...

ALSO

Something worth mentioning but no-one asked, Vara can control plants, but he can also talk to them. He's half sprite which basically means he is genderless (Or hermaphrodite but unlike a sprite he doesn't change forms for that), but wants to be known as a guy...and his other half is a cat person. Uhm. Like a cat walking around like we do and has the intelligence we do? They're also about the same size as humans and there's more than just cats. But this made him look like a beastman (person with animal ears, claws, and tail), so he went with it. He has three abilities too but they aren't mentioned enough. 1. He has sprite, so he can manipulate/communicate/grow plants at will. 2. Physical enhancement, which isn't strong and he uses as a trump card. 3. Sprite's ability to use illusions. He hides that he actually has furry hands and feet with this power since it would give him away.

I splurged. Maybe too much. I got excited. Took me an hour to put down correctly. Hope it's not too long @~@

Any other questions I can hopefully manage to answer shorter instead of smashing it all in one ask? I'm loving sharing this, thank you for reading it.....

I didn't mean to type this much tho

3D!!!! THIS IS THE SPLURGE EVER!! I LOVE IT >:DDD

"i'll try to keep this shorter" casually writes 1.2k words /lh /nmay

okay SO

ohh i see, are these all from his father? does his mother have any abilities (i feel like we covered this already but i can't recall–) orr is it all kinda mixed together, like i have curly hair despite no one in my family having it—is it like that in a sense where some random gene picked up in irza and he's acquired extra powers nobody in his family really knows about? also some extra pointless worldbuilding, other than his father, is he close to any of his other family members? are any of them even alive? i know with oc making the urge to make their family dead is reallll tempting lmaoo

oh oh oh also abt the shadow being alive thing, is that something irza can control, or is it just....completely free to do what it wants? if that's the case, a. does the shadow have a name and b. does the shadow like irza and/or does it help him in any ways?

pff i guess i should've read a little further– well then, i guess i'm still curious about both questions even though it was kind of explained to me dsfhbghfs

i gotta say those scars are pretty cool from what i remember,, is there any special occasion where he got them from vara or was it just a general bad occurence type thing?

ahh how does the blood magic work? did we already talk about that and i'm just completely forget about it? is it a...spoiler? :0

i gotta ask, are you going to likeee make a book out of this? write it on ao3? i'm pretty curious how far you're going to take this story !!!!

anddddd about vara's powers, him being a half-blood and all, how did he get his powers? (again i feel like we covered his parent's already but that may have been for something ENTIRELY different. my brain is not being helpful atm 😭) also vara is male right? i know for one post you used she so i used she but now we're back to he and i'm just kinda confused— not ur fault at all btw i totally get if it was a typo i just need clarification before i go misgendering our cat boy,,,

destroyed the entire city as in...destroyed the entire city? how the hell did they recover from that??? also i wonder if they'd blame vara or irza for that, because both seem responsible DSHGDS

OHHH i guess i could've read this over again before answering that other ask of yours– dshsfds void is fitting lmao

awwfdndjsgdsj ghosty and viney i love the hero & villain duo have cute lil nicknames, it always warms my heart >:D (and esp for these two!!! <33)

12 jeeeeez that is young for a hero!!! ughhhh that sucks, hero committees are usually useless anyways 😔 other than that obvious racism, how do they treat the heroes? are we talking the hero committee in clinic or something infinitely nicer? do they keep patrol on their heroes or generally just let them live?

ah, i see! well i'm excited to eventually learn about him, as long as it may take :] i'm happy with that little bit of info tho >:)))

DFSHFAK YIPPEEEE I LOVE HIM AND HIS KNIFE WINGS!!

goddd he sounds like such a bad person, i need to get attached to him immediately! :DD also that is some bomb natural hair, the color is stunningggg

so despite it being natural is it natural natural as was he born with it or does he dye it? if it's natural natural, is there a reason for it being that color? bloodline stuff? cause that sure as hell isn't a normal color senhgjfsd

huhh that sounds like an...interesting way of living, always being in a state where people fear you. honestly i'm surpised that he's so open about it. i totally get it and it fits him, but even then, with that little humanity he still has in himself, i'm surprised he doesn't have like at least some alter ego to get away from the stress and attention of being a(n almost) god.

ohhhhh more origins to learn,,, hypeeee!!! :0

ah yes kidnapping >:)

ah yes the good ol' kidnapping love story >:D

so when quickvine tracks irza, why is he doing that, if this was before vara fell for irza?

aaaa that sounds like such a fun bunch of scenes! honestly the ones where two rivals have to work together are always top-tier. like they know each other well enough to have the most banter-filled-hit-the-spot arguments. it's so satisfyingggg !!!!!!!!!!!!!

angel?? have we covered that before?? eze is an angel?

oh also another quick question about irza, is the shadow thing tiring? like does it drain him the longer he uses it? is there like...a recommended time to stay in it or smth?

okay there's no one power that can beat ezephr, but if people were to liiiiike...team up, would that theoretically overpower eze?

YOOOO THE STRENGTH HE ALWAYS WANTED? ELABORATE IF POSSIBLE??????? DOES THAT MEAN LIKE DRAGON OR SMTH?? 3D U CAN'T LEAVE ME AT THAT!!! >:VVV

😭😭😭 i'm going to be reluctantly answering the rest of this ask /j

oh yes there it is, the youngling torture that leads to a god complex!

mhm yes now i feel bad for him– backstories are the way to redeem a bad character. he doesn't really kill because he wants to, does he? there's got to be a more buried reason....he was raised to be completely emotionless, and was left to conquer the city at 14, a still very immature age if you think about it in retrospect. there's no way he was able to find flaw in what he was taught because there was no one there to teach it to him in the years where it mattered. poor guy :'(

what are his powers again? i want to over-analyze the fuck out of ezephr

ooh talking to plants, that's a power i haven't heard of!! :0

and gotta love those cat hybrids <33

okokok how tall is vara? i just have to know >:D,,,,, also follow up to that, how tall is irza? how about eze?

oooo these are all such cool powers! can i assume that vara only uses the physical enhancement just for when it's really needed? i've heard lots about irza, i'm curious about vara's side of things! i can assume he's more vulnerable and definitely weaker. does that mean that irza is typically winning their fights or does vara just get lucky? must know, this splurge was so long but i'm so ready for more!!! :000

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

you can't just give me "the trickster has a Ghostface mask" and "the trickster saw traps people" because I WILL make him do both of these things and it WILL be so fun the whole time . god. yeah he's so fucking fun to think abt bc it's so easy to justify why he'd do stuff that doesn't make a whole lot of tactical sense. HES NOT TACTICAL. he's not manipulative!!! it was EXTREMELY HARD for him to be patient enough to get Ashe to even trust him in the first place, and the only reason THAT even worked in such a comparatively short amount of time was bc ashe has been so completely isolated for such a huge chunk of his life he didn't understand that's what was happening !!!!!!! GOD they make me insane. anyway pointing back to tags I made on the original muse fic "hey mac why would the trickster literally invite the city's most powerful child soldiers directly to where he's hiding with their best friend isn't that a bad idea" YES. OF COURSE IT IS. BUT HE WANTS TO GLOAT HE WANTS TO BE PETULANT AND CHILDISH AND BE LIKE..FINDERS KEEPERS !!!!!!! ohhh the crux of his character to me is that he's so. silly and childish and unserious and lax in responsibility and those things combined with his powers are EXACTLY what make him so fucking scary ‼️‼️‼️

anyway yeah muse holy shit every direct interaction they have is so completely coated in The Ick and it's so fucking good. thank u for making the sleepover comparison that's EXACTLY what I've been imagining. fuckign. the parallel to Ashe's Real Friends. ashe would sit on the floor while dakota sat behind him on the couch playing with his hair. muse sits in a chair while trickster stands behind him putting his hair in all these fancy braids and just. giggling meaningless gossip like they're teenage girls. AND HE DOESNT EVEN HAVE TOOOOOO. GOD. HE COULD JUST MAKE MUSE DO IT HIMSELF. THERES NO REASON FOR HIM TO EVEN BE IN THE ROOM OTHER THAN FOR HIS OWN . AMUSEMENT I GUESS. EEUGHGH I hate his ass .

I've been. as scary as this is. I've been imagining tricksters powers working almost like Taylor's in the sense that he can multitask to a wild level and also sometimes see/experience things through his puppets. I think he'd be WAYYY more limited than taylor- he can only consciously directly control a smallish number at a time; he can create as many puppets as he wants but it mostly becomes a "give an order to a crowd and they'll carry it out" and he only has a select few that he DIREXTLY controls. and he can choose to kind of experience things through one at a time . I don't know where I was going with this I just wanted to talk abt his powers a little bit I think.

ok I need to fucking talk about your tags now because oh my GOD somehow I've only ever imagined ashe having his lucid moments like. on the battlefield or in the middle of a really dramatic moment or whatever. but holy shit this is so much worse. he has them when it's quiet. do you think he ever has one while he's being used as like.. a silent bodyguard or whatever for trickster while he's..idk making a show of power or meeting with another villain or whatever. and all muse has to do is stand there and look pretty and be. part of the show of power until trickster tells him to do something . and in the middle of that ashe kind of wakes up and has this moment of panic like "oh god oh fuck I can't be here im so fucking scared but I can't move I can't let him know I'm any different" and it's just this terrifying scene of "oh no what if he knows" before trickster eventually like. snaps his fingers or whatever and his power snaps back on . nothing comes of it but it's one of those things ashe Remembers bc I do think he remembers most of his lucid moments. aaaouugjhhb fuck oh fuck oh shit. nightmare nightmare nightmare!!!!!! don't even get me fuckign started on post-muse ashe and his trauma responses to basically every shred of comfort he could possibly receive. god. I can't even add anything to that it's just so good. once again virion sol is everyone's rock!!!!!!!

oh you wanna think about muse and trickster? yeah? it's been a while since I put a heartbreaking nhw post in your inbox <3 I know u love the prime dehumanization loss of bodily autonomy defenders. << im not even remotely trying to keep the acronym the same anymore. I've lost the plot. ANYWAY

briefly mentioned this before but because I loooove the aesthetic so much I think at least one important muse confrontation should happen in the tricksters city, specifically in the amusement park. make it like a fuckign scooby door episode everything is all abandoned and run down but as the wards are walking down a boardwalk or something all the lights flicker on and some distorted fuckign. carnival music starts playing and they find muse sitting in like. the rebar scaffolding or whatever in the ferris wheel. just like grinning chin in hands kicking his feet watching them. this image is so clear in my mind. some creep shit !!!! also its like when they first go to the spirit world to get tide back from.mal and end up in the amusement park. except ashe isn't with them this time

uhhhhhh also thinking about. downtime. when muse isn't out being destructive and causing chaos for funsies. like... does he have a bedroom????? does he eat does he sleep??? idfk !!!! I would assume he has to or else he'd fucking die but !!!! man the trickster is so far gone I don't think he even realizes his puppets are real people anymore. that's a fun little doll for him to play dressup with. literally never going 2 get the image of him braiding muses hair and like. putting makeup on him and dressing him in fancy little outfits out of my mind. making myself ILL. smile! good evening I'm gently placing the knife box in your in. << as I was going to type inbox I accidentally typed out inventory. yknow what I'm keeping it. knife box directly into your inventory. watch out they're RUSTY

GOD. THANKS FOR THE KNIFE BOX MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! knife box directly in my inventory!!! u know what this means is that now i can use them :3 <- has been drawing wards stuff abt this for the past two hours ^_^

this is so fucking good though yeahhh.... i love creepy carnival shit so much. he trickster probably Knows it's very over the top and horror movie creepy and just a little absurd. he's so fucking fun 2 think abt since he's literally always doing shit simply because it is funny to him. we can swing a trickster justification for anything probably. i bet he fucking saw traps people!! anyway. ashe isn't with them this time. except..... well. he kind of is. :(

I HAVE ALSO BEEN THINKING ABT DOWNTIME. FREQUENTLY. i guess. the answer to this is he lives however the trickster&co does. the image of him coming back in his fancy intricate little outfits to some disgusting nasty bloody industrial warehouse where they're posted up & always being this very jarring contrast to the gore and violence is really good. the image of him having a perfect doll bedroom and going through a fancy little routine half the nights when the trickster is in a good mood or feeling it & just. getting thrown on the bed & the door locked to pass out for a couple hours whenever he forgets or is busy is also really good. literally anything we do to muse makes me feel some kind of way man. i also have had the extremely vivid image of the trickster braiding his hair & chatting about all kinds of horrific things excited sleepover style to muse who is just. Visibly Not There in my head for so long. not even like he has to touch him, he could be making him do all these things for himself! he's literally controlling him! he just does it for fun!!!

anyway i think post-muse ashe should get to freak out very badly in a multitude of ways whenever anybody touches his hair. like i think he's touch-adverse in general (& miserable about it because he's also so touchstarved & his brain simply whites out in distress anytime anyone touches him because. literally the only person doing that was the trickster!!!!) but i think specifically his hair being messed with is a bad trigger for him. makes him freeze up n go nonverbal for hours. dakota knows that he's jumpy about touch but he still wants to do something for him & before the everything he loved them playing with his hair (its so long!! wibby & dakota think its so pretty!! virion's the only one who knows how to braid it because of his mom!! ashe melts into a puddle over it every time because nobody's ever done that for him before!) so he goes to just run fingers through it & ashe just. fullbody locks up and goes weird and still and silent & doesn't protest or fight back when dakota shakes his shoulder or smth and his eyes are distant and sort of dark and empty like virion's were most of the time when they first met him... maybe he wants to cut it a little bit just because he hates that it's been covered in The Ooze and he can't do anything with it without thinking about how the trickster would do the same thing but also he hates the idea of getting rid of the one thing abt himself that he really likes & is a little connection with both of his parents because of the trickster also, when he's already taken so much from him. (it does have to get gross and tangled and matted because he refuses to put it back or do anything to it for a while though. maybe virion helps him sort it out & it's slow and painstaking and miserable for both of them and they both feel better at the end of it.)

[ceterisparibus116]

Which Avenger do you think Matt idolizes? Karen idolizes? Foggy idolizes? I personally feel Matt idolizes Captain America (and maybe Foggy does too), while Karen idolizes Wanda Maximoff. (Hey, Karen and Wanda have endured the trauma of losing a brother 😭 and falling in love with someone clad in red 😉)

But what are your thoughts?

SUCH AN INTERESTING QUESTION.

Hmm. First off, I don’t think Matt idolizes any Avengers. ;) I think his mentality is very “so you’ll help if there’s an alien invasion, but you don’t care about all the other violence people endure, and you can’t even be bothered to stay behind and clean up the mess or help people figure out how to get new housing after Hulk smashed their apartment???” So I don’t think he looks up to the Avengers that much.

But if I had to pick a “favorite” Avenger for Matt, I’d pick Natasha. I think he’d be incredibly impressed with her fighting skills/style (and impressed by her ability to actually tell a convincing lie), and I think the more he learns about her, the more in-awe he’d be. She was abducted as a child and forced to become a child soldier. Basically, she was what happened to Matt via Stick times, like, infinity. And yet despite everything she went through, she still chooses to fight for good, still tries to help people, still tries to atone for her mistake.

Also, let’s be honest, I just ship them really hard.

I think Matt would also admire Clint if he knew about Clint's disability…but MCU!Hawkeye doesn’t have a ton of personality, imo, and idk what he and Matt would really talk about or what Matt would admire about Clint other than the fact that he's an Avenger with a disability. Maybe Matt would admire that Clint has a family? But I don't think that would really be admiration so much as jealousy, tbh.

Unexpectedly (bc I'm not personally a big Bruce fan), I realized I think Matt would admire Bruce. Bruce and Matt actually have a lot in common. Both have this sometimes-uncontrollable thing in them that they personally feel is ugly, dangerous, wrong, etc. Yet both of them “use” that uncontrollable thing to try to help other people. Also, both of them try to navigate professional careers despite having this big other part of their life. (I wish we’d seen more of that. Does Bruce struggle to feel respected in the scientific community because he’s primarily known as the guy with the Hulk problem?)

Honestly, I don’t really know what Matt and Steve have in common. They both like punching things…but Matt’s fighting style is WAY more advanced than Steve's , so it’s not like Matt would “idolize” Steve's fighting abilities. I think maybe Steve is also Catholic (in the comics, at least? And arguably some form of “Christian” in the MCU based off his “there’s only one God” quip), but that’s clearly not a central or motivating part of his character, so it’s not like he and Matt would really bond there. Steve fights for the little guy, but…so do Nat and Hawkeye and Bruce. Other than that, Matt would absolutely be Team Cap in Civil War because the Accords are horrifically unconstitutional, but it’s not like Steve has an articulate legal argument for disagreeing with the Accords; for him, it's mostly personal (Bucky) and a "but liberty!" argument that lacks any real nuance. (Legally, in the US, personal liberty isn't the sole deciding factor on whether something is Constitutional.) So I think Matt might agree with Steve generally, but I don’t actually think there’s anything about Steve that Matt would consider impressive.

Foggy, though. I imagine Foggy loves all the Avengers (except maybe Bruce – I could see Foggy feeling a little unnerved by Bruce because of the similarities to Matt). I think if Foggy were to meet Tony, it would be super interesting. I imagine Tony would launch some barbed quip at Foggy, and Foggy would actually run with the quip in a self-deprecating way that turns out to be ten times funnier/wittier than Tony’s comment. So if anything, I think Tony would idolize Foggy!

And Karen. Firstly, I headcanon that she has a crush on Thor. Idk, I just think Karen likes to go for guys who are kinda unavailable. She likes a challenge! And who’s more unavailable than a literal god?

I personally do not think Karen would be a fan of Wanda. Yes, Karen and Wanda have some things in common factually, but I don’t really think they have anything in common philosophically. Karen fundamentally wants to help people, expose corruption, and help more people. If Karen found out how reluctant Wanda was to “sacrifice” Vision (though Wanda was willing to let hundreds of Wakandans risk their lives), I think Karen would honestly be incredibly judgmental of Wanda. I would hope Karen would try to understand Wanda’s motivation, and ideally Karen would use her own experiences with tragedy to shape her understanding of Wanda…except even then, Karen might struggle because her tragedy never led her to cling to saving one person at the expense of others. Instead, Karen consistently endangered herself for the purpose of saving others. So…even if Karen could empathize with Wanda, I don’t think Karen would be impressed by her—certainly not to the degree of idolizing her.

Instead, I think Karen (like Matt) would idolize Nat. She would be empathetic to Nat’s background of abuse and exploitation, but she would be so impressed by the way Nat continued to be selfless even though she had every excuse in the world to be selfish. I also think Karen would relate to the fact that Nat held the Avengers together as best she could, essentially leading the Avengers by herself – not dissimilar (thought admittedly on a hugely different scale) to Karen trying to hold Nelson & Murdock together. Finally, I think Karen would appreciate Nat’s ability to get people’s secrets. And I think Karen would admire Nat’s approach. Karen gets people’s secrets not (usually) by manipulating them, but rather by basically wearing them down with the intensity of her passion. Karen isn’t very good at pretending to be anything other than what she is. I’m not sure Karen could handle playing the emotionally-distressed-break-down-in-tears damsel the way Nat did with Loki. But I think Karen would admire having that ability in her toolset.

So yeah, those are my thoughts. Thank you for the ask! And I welcome everyone else to chime in. Just keep it civil. ;)

[screechingcheesecakecheesecake]

GOOD GODS HOW DO PEOPLE MISINTERPRET ZHONGLI AND AYAKA SO BAD

I keep seeing people say Zhongli and Ayaka are manipulators and acting like they are evil and shit. Gonna write an essay why they are fucking wrong because its 1 am and im pissed off.

Long post ahead

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Alright, let's look at Biggest Manipulator™ of Teyvat Zhongli.

We all know what he did, put Liyue to a test if they can go on without him.

"He faked his own death, unleashed Osial, and made Ningguang sacrifice the Jade Chamber just because he wants to retire!"

First of all, the Osial thing was Childe's plan.

Second, Ningguang's Jade Chamber sacrifice is indeed an unfortunate event that was collateral damage because of it.

(but let's be real, her dream of the Jade Chamber shadowing all over Teyvat wouldn't pass under Celestia's watch lmao)

Third, we have to consider his position. He is the Geo Archon, known to be the oldest remaining from the OG7. He is very much loved and respected by his people and they depend a lot on him.

But he isn't a perfect being, that's the point of the Archon stories, even if he is an Archon, he isn't perfect. 6000 years of protecting Liyue is going to wear him at some point. Liyue can't depend on him forever, what if he suddenly died, which is, Oh! What happened to his fellow OG7!

He didn't just fuck off, he PREPARED for his retirement. From the contract with Tsaritsa to his test to his people. Even if he wanted to retire, he still loves Liyue, of course he wanted to make sure first that they can handle things without him. (though not considering the mora for Teyvat might be a writing mistake by Mhy)

Signora herself said that Zhongli could easily defeat Osial again, but he didn't. Because he wanted to make sure that not only the people of Liyue, but the Adepti can handle things without him. We've already seen that the Adepti initially are VERY hostile to the humans after his death was announced. It goes to show that they protected Liyue not on their behalf but because of their respect for Rex Lapis.

So the trial made their hostility lessen and they even formed a new contract with the humans.

There's another thing that Zhongli has to be wary off: Erosion. We've seen how it affected Azhdaha and it can happen to Zhongli too. He would'nt want to be a leader who is literally eroding, would he?

He held on to his gnosis until he is fully convinced that his people can continue living without him. Give him a break, it's one of his few desires for himself.

Woo, now. Let's go to Ayaka.

She's harder to dissect bc she's a victim of poor writing but I'll try.

First, Ayaka did sincerely want Traveler's aid and with the Vision Hunt Decree, she was desperate. But she did put Traveler in a position where they'd look like an asshole if they still refuse after the 3 visionless men event even if it's out of good will.

And honestly, I don't trust that she actually had a way to make Traveler talk to Raiden because she said herself that she only met her once (or a few times). Plus when Traveler actually, joined, she didn't even have any plan on what to do which is pretty stupid.

Also, she barely did anything for the rebellion to be honest. She cared too much about her reputation she ended up not doing shit. Why did MHY write her like that despite her being the poster character for Inazuma, idk.

Also it was pretty naive of her to depend the fate of the Vision Hunt on a fucking foreigner that she only knows from rumor. And insisting too despite Traveler rejecting the offer.

In other words, she wasn't manipulative she was just badly written that it made her look dumb.

Im sleepy now but god that removed some stressed ok gn

[sinnbaddie]

So, I saw a post by @stilena regarding this article;

https://m.ranker.com/list/why-sakura-doesnt-deserve-the-hate/anna-lindwasser

I’d like to debunk a few things from this article.

This doesn’t make sense in the slightest. First off, you say she’s not cruel to her friends, but then say her behavior towards Naruto could be improved? That’s very contradicting, and it seems like whoever wrote this article is trying to find evidence she’s a good friend when it’s quite the contrary.

“Other fans think she destroyed her friendship with Ino over a boy, but it had little to do with Sasuke...”

This is complete BS. They didn’t even try and find any other reason to give why Sakura broke her friendship off with Ino.

The main reason she destroyed her friendship with Ino, is because she found out Ino had a crush on Sasuke. They literally lied on an article to make her look better than she is, and saying “other fans think,” no, actual fans know what happened, and what fans know is that Sakura broke off her friendship with Ino because of Sasuke. There was no, “differentiation” in place at the time. Maybe when she was like 12-15 she wanted to be different, but it did not happen when she was 5.

They also contradict themself later in the article;

“...when she discovers Ino has had a longtime crush on Sasuke too, it quickly sours their relationship and fuels their rivalry...”

So, at first they say their friendship wasn’t broken off bc of Sasuke, then say it was the reason it soured? This whole article is very contradictory.

The whole rival thing is stupid as hell, too. Ino never wanted to be rivals, she wanted to stay friends. Also, comparing Sasuke and Naruto’s rivalry to Sakura’s and Ino’s is very rude to Naruto and Sasuke, seeing how Naruto and Sasuke actually cared about each other and were friends throughout it mostly.

Even when Ino and Sakura were “ok,” when Sai met Ino, Sakura was rooting for him to call Ino ugly. Who the fuck does that to someone who helped you and was friends with you? Someone who called you pretty, and kind, someone who genuinely valued your friendship?

Either way, Ino’s friendship with Sakura was destroyed because of Sakura having a crush on Sasuke, not because she wanted to differentiate from Ino.

“...learns he’s an enemy of the state and puts aside any personal feelings...”

What?? Puts aside her personal feelings? The only time she’s ever put “aside” her feelings is when she tries to kill him. She’s so bent on him acknowledging her that when she got stabbed by Madara in the war and he didn’t notice her, she whined about it in her head. It was stupid as hell to try and fight Madara 1v1, but if her sole purpose was to “distract” him I can get behind that, but the purpose was so Sasuke can notice her. She’s extremely shallow considering Sasuke.

I mean look at this shit; she’s so damn obsessed with him that not even a fucking war can keep her attention off of Sasuke.

“...to perform her ninja duties and protect her village.”

When Sasuke was leaving, she begged him if she could go with him. Protect the village? If Sasuke accepted her self invite, then she would be a rogue ninja, someone who detached from the village.

And it happened again when she went to kill him. Albeit that she was trying to make it seem like she would actually help him, but if Sasuke actually gave her the chance she would take it. Sasuke saw through her bullshit though because he’s not a fucking idiot like she assumed he was.

“...don’t get to see Sakura spend a lot of one-on-one time with Sasuke after the first few arcs, they do witness the evolution of Sakura’s feelings.”

How can Sakura’s feelings evolve if she never has one-on-one time with Sasuke? When do we witness her feelings evolve from just looks? When does Sasuke open up to her so her feelings can evolve? They can’t, we don’t, and he doesn’t. The only time we as viewers see Sakura’s feelings evolve, is when they start to become obsessive. These are not kind feelings, these are obsessive ones.

“Even fans who aren’t on the Sasusaku ship can appreciate how she handles her emotions.”

The only thing I appreciate is that Sasuke keeps denying her advances because he doesn’t want romance with her, which he’s stated multiple times. She never handles her emotions. Just in general, too. From her constantly crying, to her anger issues, her trait is being unable to handle them. I’ve never once met an anti ss fan who appreciates how she handles her emotions. This is absurd in it of itself.

“Sakura cares deeply for Sasuke, not because of his looks, but because of who he is.”

Sakura cares for her idea of Sasuke, not Sasuke himself. Like the quote above speaking on her “evolved feelings,” shes never shown to care about Sasuke’s well being, seeing how she tried to kill him. Again, Sasuke has never opened up to Sakura, only Itachi and Naruto, and they have the audacity to say Sakura cares about Sasuke because of who he is.

What does Sakura think of Sasuke as a person that isn’t what Sasuke shows to everyone who he doesn’t actually care for? She cares about his cool, calm, and collected personality? Was he so cool, calm, and collected whenever Naruto was brought up, or Itachi? Is it because he is quiet and reserved? Was he quiet and reserved when he was a child, before Itachi slaughtered their clan in front of him, 518,400 times? Does she care about his strength and smarts? Does she know he wanted to be intelligent and strong enough so he could kill Itachi? Does she know on a deeper level than just “I want to kill a certain man; I want revenge”?

No. Because Sasuke never let Sakura know the real him because he doesn’t care about her as much as Naruto, or Itachi. He never once thought about her throughout his years gone from the village in Pt.1 and Shippuden, while he thought of Naruto occasionally.

The truth of the matter is, Sasuke does not care about Sakura, his supposed wife, as much as he cares about Naruto, his best friend, someone he considers a brother.

“...she refuses to compromise her principles solely because she loves him.“

What principles are we talking about here? Didn’t she falsely confess to Naruto, drug him, Yamato, and Kakashi, and try and kill Sasuke on her own? Like I mentioned above, wasn’t she the one who idiotically charged Madara (someone she knew stomped the five kage, and who was basically a god at that point, too), and get stabbed for it, only to be upset that Sasuke didn’t notice her nor care about her wellbeing?

“She’s still her own person.”

Take away her crush with Sasuke she’ll be her own person. I’ll admit, in the beginning of Shippuden, she did well. Why? Because Sasuke wasn’t there and was barely mentioned. Kishimoto said in an interview that Sakura is obsessed with Sasuke (if someone can send me the interview It’d be much appreciated as I can’t find it as of now).

She’s only her own person when you take Sasuke out of the picture. Throughout both series her actions and intentions has been based around Sasuke. She isn’t her own person and it’s absurd to think of her as one when it’s shown time and time again she is not.

This whole article is complete bullshit, seeing how many of these “facts” are lies to make it seem like Sakura is some lovely person. She’s not, and she’s not a good person towards Sasuke either.

It’s ok to admit Sakura isn’t the best character nor person in Naruto, because she’s not. It’s fine to think Sakura as kind, and loving, but only in fanon. Canon Sakura is not what you, and the person who wrote this article is talking about.

You can like Fanon Sakura, but don’t dismiss that Canon Sakura is a jerk who is heavily involved with her own self and benefits, maybe not fully but in regards to “love, and friendship” she most definitely is.

[realasunicorns]

"Give me a character and I will answer"

@callmehername asked me about Ben Solo/Kylo Ren.

(My answers to the other characters are here)

Why I like them

It is hard to talk about this character when I know so little about him, since he's very new compared to all the others. So be kind if I make assumptions bc it's mostly what we can do for now, I think. For me at least, to take what we canonically know about him for sure doesn't leave much to choose, so I'm doing my own thing a bit 🤷🏻‍♀️

Having said this:

Basically, I like him bc he's complex. He's conflicted, but that's something we've seen before. He's also unstable tho. Really unstable.

But I also like him because I feel like I have a hard time reading him. Like, we know he's unstable, but... Are his actions those of a conflicted (and traumatized and probably brainwashed) child grown up? Or not really? I mostly get the feeling he could be very determined and manipulative under that confused look. That he knows exactly what he's doing even if he looks like a mess with temper tantrums. That he's conflicted and he knows people know that, so he uses that as a disguise, like a wolf in sheep's clothing. Or maybe it isn't that at all. Maybe he's THAT misguided. I guess we'll have to wait for Episode IX to find out more, but for now I like that he keeps me guessing.

Then there is also the fact that troughout the Episodes, we are repeatedly told by the Jedi that one must resist the Dark Side. It is easy to fall and once you do, it forever will dominate your destiny. And I think it's fascinating how Kylo is permanently fighting to stay in it. For someone to show such a struggle with the Dark Side, it could mean an increadibly strong alignment to the Light and/or that he was pushed into the darkness by someone without his consent (hello Snoke) probably by means of an idea in his mind. An idea that was wrong all along: what Vader was supposed to be like. What he was supposed to be too. So he's holding onto the darkness on sheer determination to be that. (Which I find to be very ironic bc if you read my opinion on Anakin I always thought he was conflicted all along, Vader as well. Maybe not just like Ben, but he wasn't like Sheev, that kind of pure evil that Ben seems to think he was.)

To me it all goes down to: would he struggle as much to stay in the Light as he struggles to be in the Dark? How much of it was Snoke's doing? Walking the fine line between the Light and the Dark would make him even more interesting as a character. And it also brings something into the table that I've been waiting for many, many years: actual force balance/the Grey/etc.

So, essentially, what I love the most about his character is all the possibilities he brings to the table and the fact that he's not just a villian, not just a [insert other classic character tropes here].

(I could say the same about Rey in a way, since they are two sides of the same coin. But also not quite the same. And also I'm not here to talk about Rey haha)

Why I don’t

To me it makes no sense his name is Ben unless there's something I missed. I'm still waiting for an explanation that makes it fitting.

(oh and also he's supposed to be 29 and he doesn't feel like it to me? and sometimes I feel confused? lol idk how to explain it bc I don't really know what bugs me, but something feels off 🤷🏻‍♀️ but that's about it, no big deal at all haha)

Favorite episode (scene if movie)

Easy. When he kills Snoke in The Last Jedi. More like, how he does it. I'm a huge fan of the whole deception he plays on him.

And let me say I think he might have had it planned all along when he took that look at the guards while being in the room that time before 👀

Favorite season/movie

IDK AAAAH

Maybe it's the one to come?

No, seriously. I really don't know. I have no preference atm.

If I must choose based on him aesthetically tho, then I'm choosing The Force Awakens! TFA hair AAAAALL THE WAY:

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Favorite line

"Forgive me. I feel it again... The pull to the Light."

I just love it.

Favorite outfit

I believe he's only had one?

GIF source*

One very much on point tho👌🏻

OTP

I don't ship him romantically atm 🤔

BROTP

OMG ALSO NO BROTPs?! I JUST DON'T SHIP HIM AT ALL. I REALLY BOUGHT THE SPACE EMO KID THING HE'S SELLING 🤣

Head Canon

He understands Wookie like it's his mother tongue.

He and Chewie used to play when he was a kid. It was like having a huge (and alive) teddy bear friend to play with. They would do mechanics together and later some piloting maybe?

💔

(OK, MAYBE I WANTED HIM AND CHEWIE AS BROTP BUT IT'S NOT POSSIBLE ANYMORE, HE KILLED HAN FFS AAAAHHH😭😭😭)

Unpopular opinion

The anti's are not morally superior, they are just haters and bullies.

First of all, acting as if Kylo Ren was the devil is non-sense in GFFA. He's not that bad if you compared to so many others lol He's no saint, but why would he have to be? And even if it was denying someone a redemption before he can even claim it or whatever is really, really shitty. So there's no hope then for people to improve? Shouldn't they be encouraged to get better specially if they have been wrong and hurt others? Not discouraged? What kind of shit is that.

And second, shipping him with Rey or whoever is fine even if it was unhealthy. I have seen a million unhealthy ships (some in GFFA too) and no one ever made a big deal because it is no big deal. And this one should be no different. You just want an excuse to hate. Besides, many shippers actually ship them in AUs. So it's not necessarily an unhealthy ship. But in case it was, it's none of your business. And certainly no one deserves the shitty treatment these people give to the shippers. And on top of all of that, I find disgusting that they use something as detrimental as abusive relationships as an excuse to be bullying other fans. WHICH IS ABUSIVE TOO, HELLO. To use your (supposedly) superior morals as the reason to be rightfully allowed to discriminate others is by definition abusive behaviour. And this is real life, not some fictional character's. Really, really ugly shit smh

#RANTOVER.

A wish

I hope they don't play the classic redemption arc and stick to the simple usual light vs. darkness thing. Give something more complex, something good, something different. GIVE SOMETHING INSPIRING.

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen

I don't think Reylo is a good idea in canon, like, there being romantically involvement in the movie.

Not bc of the relationship itself. Although I would prefer none of it, I don't know what they are planning and I don't think I know better than the creators, so it could probably be done right in some way if that's really the plan. And who knows, maybe I would enjoy it(?) Butr my taste, the balance of the force should be the plot and I feel this, even as a sub-plot, would overshadow it. So it's a no for me atm.

Also imagine all the haters backlash if it happened... Look, idk if I have enough patience for another TLJ 😱

(SEE? HATERS ARE WHY THERE IS NO FREEDOM OF WRITING ANYMOREok I try to chill nowBUT SERIOUSLY STOP THE FLAME WARSi want an overall happy fandom why can't we have it)

5 words to best describe them

Lonely. Misunderstood. Overpowered. Unstable. Capable.

My nickname for them

Kylo is fine haha I don't think I ever call him Ben (by now you know I don't much like him being called that)

I fail at the nickname thing, I really have no nicknames for any of them! Ok maybe space emo prince 👀 😂

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And this is it!

Unicorn Kisses!🦄

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*Excuse the not-so-great cites of GIF sources BLAME THE TUMBLR APP, I’ll change them once I have a computer... some day. There's also the fact that some source didn't exist(?) so I linked what I could find.

[winterywitch]

I just want to say that I really admire the depth you put into your OC's and your confidence in talking about them! I'd like to learn more about them, but I'm on mobile and it isn't letting me search the tags, so... are there any W@tchtower Grotto characters you haven't talked much about that you'd want to talk about?

oh!! ;-; gee thank you.......................

uhhhhhhh gee idk why but it feels like i dont have an actual comprehensive post on who/what nana actually is bc most of my friends know him very well already? so here’s that

hes like... early 30s?? in terms of appearance/maturity, hes the godking of the country in midnight

nana is uh... certainly a rebel at his core thats one way to put it, a lot of core things about him for better or for worse challenge the status quo. he thinks this is a good thing 100% of the time, like he’s some kind of radical rebelling against an oppressive norm on every single norm he challenges. (its not)

he is RIDICULOUSLY people-smart, hes likely an empath and could easily be called a genius when it comes to reading people and understanding how people tend to work.

if he were a dnd character he’d be a sorceror, he casts from charisma not intelligence [though he is certainly NOT lacking in that department]

hes definitely considered the leader of his little commune of kings [involving desiderius, hachi and kyuun], those three tend to defer to him and seek him out for advice [well. they mostly Used to now its just hachi that does that last part]

he sees himself as a teacher and guide to people, which isnt inaccurate necessarily!

hes very good to his people, his country as a whole is doing pretty well financially, there’s a vibe there of everyone taking care of one another! not to mention the fact that its lovely visually

he’s right about most things and he’s comfortably aware of the fact that he’s right about most things. but hes open to being corrected! he cant possibly be right about everything ALL the time!! he just has to consider you an authority on what youre talking about, which is something he very rarely considers other people to be, or he might just ignore your correction. but sometimes he wont, which makes you feel kinda silly for pointing out his tendency for hypocrisy! how confusing. it’s hard to keep up with this one.

he, like all of his colleagues minus desiderius, thinks he is the only Good King while all the others are complete messes who dont know what theyre doing or are just flat out bad people. but like, yknow, its a fucked up dysfunctional family! that’s totally normal, right??1/11

something about him just makes you think “theres a guy who knows his shit,” its probably his sturdy [outward] confidence, his [appearance of] wisdom, his [very real] intelligence and his long list of supporters that make you think that about him

his hair is weird as shit! there are ‘stars’ in it that glow, not BLINDINGLY bright but i mean yknow, they do glow, and where theyre embedded in his hair theres increased physical sensitivity. pulling on this guy’s hair fucking HURTS, even petting it can be uncomfortable if youre not really really careful. not to mention a fucking haircut, good lord (haha)

his parents were kind of like... very emotionally shallow, they were the sorts of people to be like Oh I’m Fine ^_^ at everything, and in subtle and hard-to-detect ways, they would punish nana for showing emotion of any kind (for example, laughing at him when he would cry at sad things as a child). because of this, he is now very open about his emotions and embraces them as something he should listen to and follow rather than only relying on cold logic as his parents tried to have him do. (its a lot more sinister in practice than it sounds, because yeah most of the time it is innocent like this but at the same time, he takes his own feelings VERY seriously and if you hurt them, even if it’s just by having boundaries, he will identify you as someone mistreating him or even abusing him depending on how close you are]

[heres where we get into The Shit, big tw for abuse, csa/pedophilia and “marital” sexual abuse/assault]

his closest friend and advisor arya kurosawa has been his best friend since they were both teenagers. they met when arya was 14 and nana was 17 [in terms of appearance/maturity are what those ages refer to, they were both immortal] and they got along very well.

of course by very well i mean on top of getting along very well, nana has ALWAYS had an inherent, base-level disrespect for arya’s boundaries. it’s been there since they were teens, and it mostly manifested in nana pressuring arya to do [mostly innocent - but the pressure and coercion made them not so innocent] things he was scared to do.

they were inseparable pretty much ever since they met and VERY, very in love with each other

they definitely were a romantic item by the time nana inherited the throne from his mother, and the age gap was definitely concerning but it only grew more concerning as nana’s mental/appearance age rose because he was growing up emotionally and psychologically and arya’s... stagnated.

when nana was in his early 30s so to speak, arya was stuck at 14-15 or so. and like... they didnt really see anything weird about that, they figured “well we both met when we were kids so its not like nana is a pedophile or anything, why question something so good?”

to someone who didnt know better wrt age gaps in romantic relationships and pedophilia, the relationship between those two would have looked completely normal and healthy. there was certainly an appearance of mutual respect, support, love and commitment

nana could only treat a 14-15 year old so much like his equal. to be totally honest, even since they were teenagers, nana treated arya like his inferior, like a student that needed to be taught, and that dynamic only grew/got worse as nana aged mentally.

but at the same time arya also taught nana so many things! see? nana wasn’t some condescending prick! obviously everything is fine. there were a lot of ways sometimes in which ARYA was the adult and nana was the child ^_^ so it’s equal, right?

arya certainly didnt know any better, nana was the love of his life and that was all there was to it. he knew [because of nana] that any discrimination they might face due to their ages in this relationship was simply unfounded, cruel bigotry from a species of essentially cavemen who were afraid of fire. he knew he was progressive for his time, in a couple decades probably everyone else would come to their senses too!

long story short, one day arya very quickly, almost violently realized EXACTLY everything that was wrong. nana’s condescending behavior had come to a head and someone arya considered a playful rival had forced him, very painfully, to face the truth of what this relationship was: abuse from a man who should know better, taking advantage of a boy who didnt.

arya couldnt exactly love nana after realizing this. and it really fucking sucked. he really wanted to go back to the way things used to be, he wanted to “undiscover” what he’d discovered, but there was no way back and he felt so broken and dirty and ungrateful and bratty and selfish for suddenly feeling this way.

nana on the other hand noticed arya very suddenly averse to being touched or held or even looked at. for a while, he was very understanding about this - what that playful rival did was essentially cast a spell and at first he thought arya was just sick or physically not well or something, and that he’d get better soon.

he didn’t.

nana didn’t know what to do. suddenly arya was neglecting him, acting like he was terrified of nana. he’d never been like this before, what happened? it’s incredibly painful and confusing, losing the love of your life like that; one day you’re everything to them, and the next they’re flinching every time you raise your hand around them. nana had never hit him or abused him verbally... in fact, it was nana who HELPED ARYA gain the strength and courage he needed to become independent from his emotionally abusive parents. so why was nana suddenly the bad guy? he had no idea what happened, why, how to fix it, or anything like that.

eventually he snapped, unable to take being deprived of love and attention like this, so he just took whatever he wanted, physically, not caring what arya thought of it.

he knew it was wrong. he knew he’d definitely crossed the line into objectively unforgivable actions. but he was almost too afraid to stop and relinquish this power over arya, because then he had to A.) lose arya, and B.) be held accountable for his actions. both two very terrifying things he saw no personal gain in.

that went on for a long time, until nana sort of... slowly realized he was feeling weaker and weaker, more prone to physical weariness dizziness, severe headaches and nausea, and he didn’t put 2 and 2 together until it was too late.

arya had figured out how to start poisoning him and getting away with it.

by that point, nana realized not just what was happening and why, but also that he unquestionably, factually deserved this pain and much, much more. that realization was too much for him, it sort of broke him psychologically for a very long time, leaving him completely helpless to whatever revenge arya decided to take on him

[it was all physical and psychological torture, but arya was certain NEVER to stoop to his level and sexually abuse nana. he couldnt even think of sleeping with nana “consensually” anyway, it made him horribly sick to even consider]

eventually after a long-ass time of this, arya just got sick of looking at nana and couldn’t even be around him anymore without feeling absolutely god-awful, so he just abandoned nana, leaving him to fester in his broken body and mind

and y’know, stuff happens after that, but thats all there really is to the most prominent phase of nana’s development in THIS story. i also play him in his phase of development after that last bullet point [roughly 200 years later], where he’s fucked up in all kinds of ways and totally deserving it, but also trying to... not really redeem himself or anything like that, he knows that’s not really a thing, but rather to make himself useful to good people who want to do the right thing, in a dnd campaign

nana goes through a SHIT TON of changes, to the point that each phase of his development has his own individual profile on toyhou.se, he’s become a Big Trauma Coping Character for me and somewhat an experiment in redemption arcs, seeing what exactly should happen and how to make “redemption” arcs seem not cheap or forced

here’s the one i talked about in this post though

http://toyhou.se/335049.nana-of-the-stars

[nemjun]

today's late night revelation is that the reason no one can ever tell that I'm falling apart is that I was punished by my abuser for crying and asking for help from ashe 6-7 🙃🙃🙃🙃