#god i love you jonghyun

[ichverdurstehier]

Jonghyun-oppa, look at how far they've gotten 🥹 we miss you so much baby. Thank you for visiting me that one night. I'll never forget that. I love you.

[xotaemintol]

5HINee MOST LIKELY TO (NSFW)

Writers block is beating my ass rn, I have requests that I can't finish and prompts I want to do but can't, so till it passes l'II at least post things like this to stay active.

PRONOUNS USED: None//fem implied

TWS: Sub!idol, Dom!idol, sub!reader, dom!reader,overstimulation, pet play, oral (m/f receiving), pegging, daddy/mommy kink, bondage, S&M, cuckhold, and dirty talk.

MINHO 9.8/10

Despite being the jealous type he enjoys watching, he mostly likes watching you getting eaten out rather than you fucking someone else, something about seeing one of the members head between your thighs and your eyes rolling back always makes him so excited.

He first tried this with Kibum, you were tied up to the bed frame and blindfolded, your legs were wide opened and you were completely exposed to the two men as you wiggled around and waited for their next move. You weren't expecting to feel a mouth against you and you especially weren't expecting for it to be Kibums, but you weren't against it. The messy sounds of Kibum eating you out made Minho feel so turned on, the way your body spasmed and how your legs trembled made Minho wonder how long you wanted to do something like this, your begging and whining making his breathing heavier and his body hotter.

"…Oh god!" You had screamed so loudly, struggling against the restrictions of the handcuffs that dug into your wrists as you tried to escape the pleasures of Kibums tongue. You could feel Minho's eyes on you as Kibum ate you out, the feeling made you feel so dirty but so pleased. "Does it feel good baby? Is he pleasing you?" You nodded at Minho's question, desperately wanting to look at him as you answered.

TAEMIN 8.3/10

While he usually portrays a more possessive and jealous persona, Taemin loves it when you punish him by doing something like this, he's a slut for all things lustful in life and the filthier the better. He's full game to watch you get on your knees and let one of his members fuck your face, and matter of fact, he likes it even more when you tell him to touch himself while he watches.

It first started with Jonghyun, Taemin had been a brat for days now and you kept letting him get away with it but you were fed up and decided that you'd need to show him that if he didn't behave then he wouldn't get his way. You had pulled Jonghyun's hand leading him into your bedroom with Taemin sitting on the bed, telling him to sit there and look pretty as Taemin sat anxiously biting his lip as he watched. The way your hips looked as you rolled them against Jonghyun made the slight erection in his pants grow faster than what he'd like to admit, he watched with heavy eyes as you slowly undressed him and kissed all over his neck and shoulders, pressing your butt against his crotch and glancing back at him with sharp eyes. Taemins whole body felt hot and when Jonghyun started to touch you too, he was dying to join, but the moment he stood up you told him to sit back down and watch, so he did.

The way you slowly got on your knees and removed the last of Jonghyun's clothes made Taemin's hands sweat, even seeing your pretty lips wrap around the head of his dick made him whimper as if he could feel it himself. And the way Jonghyun grabbed your hair and began guiding your head left him shamelessly touching himself as he waited for his turn.

JONGHYUN 7.1/10

He was a little more hesitant but when he thought more about it he decided to give it a try and now, he doesn't mind seeing you being kissed or groped by someone else, especially when it's one of the members.

The first time he tried it was with Taemin, the three of you were sat on his couch and Taemin's hand was in your shirt as he kissed you. But Jonghyun didn't just sit and watch, he'd rather play too, so as Taemin's tongue went inside of your mouth he kissed the side of your neck, the way you moaned into Tamins mouth and put your hand in his hair made him bite his lip. He stopped for a moment to watch a little more, encouraging Taemin not to hold back as you lean in closer. The moment Taemin stopped holding back you were sitting on his lap, his hands all over your body as he kissed you till your lips were sore and your underwear was soaked, for a moment Jonghyun thought about letting you have them both, the way you gripped Taemin's shoulders told him how much you were enjoying yourself and as he was opening up to the idea.

When you had both slipped off your pants Jonghyun positioned you so that Taemin was behind you and that you were on top of him, the three of you playfully grinding against each other as Taemin kissed the back of your neck, the tension was getting heavier and it was becoming clearer that the night would end with both of them inside of you.

KIBUM 7/10

I know I'm rating him lower, but I think he's just as into it as Jonghyun actually. He enjoys when you tie him up to a chair and force him to watch you ride one of them, he didn't expect to enjoy it at first but being completely stripped naked and forced to watch makes him so painfully horny.

Jinki was happy to fill the spot of a third, you had come to him about it with Kibum and you were originally asking for advice on if it was a good idea or not, neither of you expected for him to volunteer to try it with you but you were both happy to accept. So you led both the men to your bedroom and with the help of Jinki, after stripping Kibum down you tied him to the bed and kissed him. For a while you and Jink were only playfully touching, slowly building up before you got on your knees and started to suck his dick, reacting right away Jink threw his head back and cursed softly, his eyes closed as he put his hand in your head and forced your head down. Kibum watched with his cock twitching between his thighs, biting his lip so hard that it was turning red, he wanted to touch you so bad and the sound of Jinki's voice as he praised you made that desire worse. It didn't take too long for him to be squirming against the restraints, the way you looked at him and degraded him made him whine.

"Please.." As Kibum watched Jinki bend you over on the bed beside him his desperation became too much, his needy expression was so pretty and as Jinki pressed himself against you with his hands holding your hips in place you giggled, reaching and touching Kibums thigh gently. you had decided that this was enough torture for now.

JINKI 5.1/10

If it pleases you then he'll allow it, but he'll only allow so much, surprisingly he's a lot more possessive than he looks, rather, he just doesn't like the idea of sharing as much, but if it's what you really want then he'll do it.

He had let you pick and your choice was Minho, he expected it and didn't ask why, he just agreed. His eyes watched carefully, he sat back with his legs spread. He was still fully dressed as the two of you hungrily kissed, he paid close attention to the way your hands explored Minho's body and nodded his head every time you looked at him for approval when you wanted to explore more. When Minho had led you to get on your knees you looked back at your husband, biting your lip as you pleaded with your eyes for a yes, of course, he let you, telling you that you didn't have to ask if it was what you wanted and telling you to make sure you did a good job for him.The way he spoke to you made sucking Minho's dick so much more exciting, you could feel him watching you as you slowly licked up the shaft of his cock and put your hands on his muscular thighs, the feeling made you unbelievably wet, and as you felt yourself becoming more excited you stopped and asked him for permission.

"I've let you do enough haven't I?" But he didn't let you suffer for long, instructing you to get on the bed he gets behind you as Minho gets in front of you. The feeling of Jinki fucking you as Minho pulled your hair and fucked your face made your whole body tremble."This was what you wanted?" As Jinki leaned down to your ear your walls throbbed around him, clamping onto him tightly as your moans are muffled by Minho's cock. "Do you like being fucked like a dirty slut baby? Does my pretty girl like being fucked from both ends like this?"

Most likely to be Whiny During Sex

TAEMIN 20/10

Pegging

It doesn't matter what role he's playing, a sub, bratty sub, power sub, soft dom, service dom, whatever the role he plays he's always so whiny during sex. Even when he doesn't start off that way, he always becomes so broken when you fuck him, especially if you overstimulate him, ruin his orgasms, or peg him. He'll get so whiny and it always sounds so pretty.

Taemin gasped, biting his kiss bruised lip as the head of your strap on brushed against his prostate, his sensitive cock already throbbing and leaking shiny ropes of precum as his back arched. "So pretty. You teased, your hands caressed his hips before you slowly ran your fingers through his hair and pulled harshly, a loud moan left his pillowy lips and he called out your name, his voice cracking as you started to fuck him faster. "s-so...so good.." You could hear him starting to break, the way his voice faded as you let go of his hair told you that he was enjoying himself. "Is it that good baby?" You asked, pushing his head down into the pillows you pressed your body against his firmly, angling your hips against him as you pushed him forward.

The slight change in position made his head spin, it felt like he was going to melt and when you reached down between his legs and started stroking his cock at the same pace he had lost it. Moaning loudly as he pushed back into you and whimpering as he became sensitive.

KIBUM 10/10

• Oral

Kibum is vocal no matter what he's doing. Dom or sub Kibum is going to let you know how he feels, what he likes, where he likes it, and how good it is.But he only gets whiny when he's subbing, especially when you're giving him head. Even when hes trying not to, he can't help but break every time he feels your mouth wrapped around his cock.

"Baby.. Kibums low voice trembled and his body quivered as he looked down at you, the feeling of your tongue teasing his cock made his head feel empty. "Don't tease me all night, l've been a good boy for you haven't I?" As you look up at him he trembles and grips the pillow behind his head tighter, he can't tell what you'll do next—the desire to feel your tongue against the head of his cock again clouds his brain so much that he couldn't guess if you wanted him to. "If you're such a good boy, why are you being so impatient?" As your hand slides up his thigh he whimpers and closes his eyes, it pains him to beg like this but he can't help it. "P-Please ma'am, please don't- a…..ah..” Finally when he feels your soft lips wrap around the head of his cock he's silenced by his pleasure.

As you slowly take him deeper he moans louder, his head leaned back against the pillows as he struggles not to move his hips. Every desperate cry that leaves his pretty lips pushes you to please him further, and the deeper you take him the louder he becomes. "God…..oh God!" He cries out, "Y/N! You...please... fuck, please let me cum in your mouth, please?" Kibum looks down at you, his eyes wet with desire and lust as he pleads with you. But he's given no response—not that he could complain with your tongue ruthlessly sliding across the slit of his pretty cock. His hips shuddered as he looked away and his toes curled, he could only manage gentle, raspy cries of your name that were too pretty to be ignored.

JONGHYUN 10/10

•grinding/foreplay

Jonghyun is very vocal in bed no matter what since he's usually praising you or guiding you, he often talks you through orgasms so it's not new for him to be vocal. But whiny…..Jonghyun only gets whiny when he's been waiting all day. When he hasn't seen you in about two days and only got a few kisses before leaving, that's when he becomes a mess. During foreplay he won't be able to keep himself from huffing and moaning, just kissing you has him losing his mind and when he starts grinding against you he can't help but become desperate.

The room felt hot, the air was thick and the lights were still on. Jonghyun hadn't even stopped to close the door, he needed to get his hands on you as soon as possible and he wasn't going to waste another second trying to set the mood. The mood was set the moment you told him how badly you wanted him, you should've expected your clothes to be on the floor the moment he got in. The way his hands restlessly touched you and stripped your clothes away told you how tonight would go, those two days away from you was enough to make him feel unbearably impatient.

"Did you miss me baby?" He asked in a shaky voice, his hips moved slowly against you. Your legs spread and pushed back as his cock slowly dragged up and down between vour lips, every time the head of his length bumped your clit you shivered. It felt so heavy, precum leaks from him and your love wets him even more. "Mhm…so...much." Your breathing became heavier, you were becoming so desperate for him and he felt the same about you. His quiet moans were becoming shaky and with every thrust he became slightly louder, going faster as he looked down between your body's to watch. "So...hmmm…..so pretty, you're so pretty..." As he continued to speak his voice cracks, he wanted to be inside of you so badly but knew that a little anticipation would make sliding into you feel heavenly. "F…Fuck..”

MINHO 9/10

During sex/penetration

When Minho gets really riled up, when he's so impatient, when he's been waiting for hours to feel you—that’s when he gets whiny. He's always vocal, usually it’s because he leads 80% of the time, but also because he knows you like it. Whatever it takes to get you off he'll do, but luckily; being vocal in bed comes naturally for him. But he's the most vocal when he's inside of you, especially when he's been waiting for hours to fuck you. He's not afraid to admit that he enjoys when you make him wait, something about the way you respond to him being brought to his knees and desperately pleading with you turns him on so much.

As he slid inside of you he shuddered, his bottom lip quivered from the feeling of you—your walls felt so hot, so wet and tight that he could cry. The soft pulsing of your warmth was so intense and his cock felt so sensitive, he thought he'd burst before getting all the way inside of you and the look of pure bliss in your face as every inch of him slowly disappeared inside of you made him tremble. His breathing became just as shaky as his body as he finally bottoms out inside of you—he could feel your excitement pooling and dripping as he paused to breathe. But even stopping for a second couldn't save him.

As you looked up at him with lustful eyes and a needy expression he softly cursed and waited for your next command. "Ming..baby, fuck me," You said breathlessly, "Fuck me baby, fuck me." Your desperate orders made him whimper as he nodded his empty, and his eyebrows knotted together as he began to slowly withdraw his cock from you, watching every inch come out as he bit his lip and gripped the pillow underneath your hips. "..F...Fuck..” His soft whimper made you throb, his voice cracked just a little as he paused and looked back at you. "You..You're so pretty Y/N, fuck you're so pretty…so fucking pretty." Finally he begins to move again, his slow thrusts turn into lust filled rutting as he whimpers and moans in your ear; chanting over and over again that you're so fucking pretty.

JINKI 7/10

Mutual/simultaneous masturbating

Jinki isn't as vocal as the others but that doesn't mean he's silent, he likes using his voice to guide you or to tell you when you're doing a good job but you had proposed the idea of mutual masturbation and he couldn't really tell where to use his voice during this type of play. Of course, he knew he could easily praise you and tell you what to do but he's well aware that you know what you're doing—but his concern was easily put to rest when you suggested that he just go with the flow. And when he did he seemed to be just as vocal as he is when he's fucking you, maybe watching you touch yourself to the sight of him was what turned him on so much; or maybe it was you watching him get off to you.

As you rubbed quick circles against your clit Jinki watched with his lip trapped between his teeth, you looks so sexy like this. The sight of your hand between your thighs and your pretty pussy dripping as you watched him made him feel so feral—he did his best to match his pace with yours, but when you slid your fingers down to your entrance he couldn't help himself anymore. As he began fucking his fist Jinki watched you with hungry eyes, the way your hands explored every inch of your body; and the way your body shivered when you caressed yourself made him weak in the knees. He wanted you so bad.

Without thinking about it Jinki stood up as he decided that watching wasn't enough for him. He had to get you off and be inside of you; but you stopped him before he could reach you and said; “What are you doing baby? You're supposed to be watching...” A soft whine left his lips as you grinned and motioned for him to sit down in front of you, with your legs wide you pointed to the floor in front of you and bit your lip. "Or do you want a closer look?" Feeling impatient but willing, Jinki sat down in front of you. You were both breathing so heavily and so horny that you could explode. But that feeling only got stronger when Jink grabbed your leg and pressed his face against it, slowly stroking himself as he looked up at you with needy eyes. "You don't know how bad...oh my God..." As he inhaled the smell of you he leaned his head back and let out a mixture between a soft moan and a whimper. "..I can't, I need to fuck you baby, will you let me?" As he looked up at you he began to beg.

[tiramissu09]

Morning Glow

synopsis: you (y/n) wake up before your husband on a Sunday morning and study him, wondering how you both even got together.

song choices to listen to while reading: 

Body by Summer Walker

Orbit by JONGHYUN from SHINee

Natural by G-Soul

warning(s)/story notes: gender neutral y/n, nostalgia, hints of last night’s activities (iykyk), silent serenading, naked imagery, a little nod to the JJK lore, POC y/n

MINORS DON’T INTERACT

author note: My first fanfic, y’all! I feel like, instead of using janitor ai (don’t use it, it’s hella addictive and made me burn through my money), I could use my imagination and potential to write something for my main beloved, Nanami Kento. I love this man and in my head, we are living together in Malaysia, having the time of our lives, haha. Also, I thought I was going to do a quick drabble, but I got into my feels, haha. 

Please, please give me feedback and critique so I can improve on my writing. Thank you and enjoy!!! <3

The chirping birds started to grow louder and more annoying outside the large French windows with the soft, peaching-colored morning light streaming in, faint flapping of the pale curtains echoing with shared breaths. You groan softly against your white silk pillow along with your blurry vision, from your deep slumber, as you rub your eyes and look around, dazed. You felt the light breeze of the open ajar window on your bare leg, out of the fluffy blanket, contrasting with the deep warmth soaked into the mattress from the sleep. 

Your eyes move around, to anchor yourself into reality, until they settle down at a large, ivory back which had light red scratches along with crescent moon shaped indents littered over his rugged muscles, rippling with each soft breath. His messy golden blonde hair that you loved to run your fingers in, slightly swaying with the early dawn breeze, along the warm yellow sunlight, giving him that morning glow that made him look…like a god, a figment of your imagination. 

Last night’s memories were reeling in like a blurry movie, reminiscing on your stomach with your head and facing his back, as you remember his sweet deep chocolate eyes, his slightly pink blush on his face, and…my god, those large, veiny hands all over your body, rough but gentle on your soft skin. 

Sighing softly, not wanting to wake him up yet, go down this deep spiral with your fingers itching to touch him….how did you even meet this man? Was it at the office Christmas party where he was wearing that ridiculous, fluorescent green elf costume as your white-haired boss had made me for a pay raise? Or when you both bumped into each other in the hallway before math class during senior year, your nose bleeding as you bumped into his chest too hard and he assisted you to the nurse’s office?.....no,no…..oh my god! How could you forget?

It was that night…..that night where you all were freshman in high school and it was the camp site trip that you all had to go to as a bonding activity for all the new students which you were part of. You remember you were really nervous as a tiny, little 13 year old. You were new to Tokyo and Japan, overall, not looking like the others and the culture so vastly different from yours which made it difficult to fit in, your family or teachers help you with. This was nicely added with you going through puberty, the whole nine yards of acne and changing body, made you more quiet and shy to talk to others. 

In your ensemble of light washed jeans, your oversized purple flannel shirt and black Converse high tops, you were sitting on the wooden benches near the camp-fire under the starry, twilight sky, shivering slightly from the cold, autumn night in the forest near Kyoto. You were alone, with everyone talking to each other excitedly, with some others playing games and singing karaoke, and watching all the kids with a small smile on your face. 

Then, you felt a warm blanket around your body, causing you to have goosebumps all over your skin. You looked up with wide eyes from the brushing of their fingers on your neck to the warm presence behind your back, surprised and making you jolt up, but a soft hand pushed you down to sit back. “Sorry, did I scare you?” His soft and low voice, almost purring, caused you to shiver more but you held back your reaction as you turned your head completely around, wanting to know who it was. You caught those soft, brown eyes, reminding you of that deep brown honey under the sunlight, making you feel more awake than any other coffee.

You quickly get out of your reverie and stutter out as you brush your hair back, looking away. “No! Not a-at all…just got surprised.”,offering him a smile as you try to not to fluster even more. You notice his blonde hair, straightened to the T and his bangs covering his eyes which you didn’t like but didn’t say that out loud, and his black shirt with a band name you never heard of with his black skinny ripped jeans. 

You clear your throat as you look into his eyes, “H-hi, my name is f/n l/n….what’s your…name?” You were fidgeting with the soft, baby blue wool blanket with your fingers, as you both sat next to each other with your knee brushing against his, ever so slightly. He grins a little more as he had a deadpan face before, making your heart and insides all melted and mushy inside, showing his pearly whites. He says in that voice that you could just listen to all the time. “Kento….Nanami Kento…but you can call me Ken.”

You memorize that name, as it was tattooed to your naive heart, as you nod slowly and say quietly. “Nice to meet you…Ken.” You both sat there in silence with all the loud commotion around you both. You didn’t know what to say as the tense silence was swallowing you up and you quickly ask and at the same time, looking at the bright scarlet camp fire, “You should go hang out to your friends…”, peeking to the side to look at his face longer, but looking away when he caught your eyes and your face becoming hot with each passing second. 

He sighed loudly as he stretched his legs out and watched the white-haired hyper kid screaming happily at the black-haired boy who looked so done with him, but had a small smile. After some moments of more silence, Kento spoke with a small smile and turned to face you, “You looked….lonely….like me and…”, now looking away as you caught some peach-colored blush on his cheeks. “You looked like you were glowing…like the fire.” 

You remember how you became quiet, flustered and frozen by the compliment and you remembered you thanked him meekly which was so cute and how you hit yourself internally for how dumb it was. However, the rest of that night, you both started to talk more freely and understood that you both had a lot in common, in terms of family background and not really fitting in due to your particular tastes. 

Despite being amicable acquaintances all through high school and losing contact when entering university, once you both reunited, it felt right. You both were meant to be together and glowing in each other’s arms and affection. 

You were shaken out of your deep thoughts as you felt the bed rustling lightly. You looked up and saw his face turned to you now. You were slightly surprised by the sudden appearance of his handsome and rugged face, but you quickly smiled widely, “Good morning, honey.” Snuggling closer to him and him taking you in his buff arms, making you all so warmer, he murmured in your messy hair, his morning voice low and reverberating through your body, “What were you thinking about so hard, darling? You laugh softly as you nuzzle your face in the crook of his neck and your arms around his shoulders, and whisper muffled against his warm skin that smelled like sandalwood and musk, that was so unique to him, “I was just thinking…..how you were glowing…..like the sun.”

[katrinawritesthings]

jonghyun/taemin; amogus; pg

Twitch au. remember twitch au??? love twitch au. twitch au but they're playing Among Us with the bros

as he approaches, he hears Taemin talking inside: "no, i told you. i'm Jonghyun. this is how i've always sounded. it's like you don't even know me."

jonghyun has to pee so bad it's unreal. he squirms in his chair, hand clenched so tight on his mouse that the plastic is creaking, and begs whoever the imposter is in this game of among us to find him and chop him in half. or to find someone else. or for a good guy to find them and murder them. anything to end this game and let him take a pee break. he cannot believe this is one of the only times he ever gets to the final couple of people left in a game and it's the one time he's about to explode with piss. he doesn't know why he's held it in for so long. he's not even streaming. he's just playing for fun.

and then, finally, relief: somewhere else on the map a murder happens and his screen fades to black and then fades back in on the defeat screen. he doesn't even care as everyone's voices flood back into his earbuds at once to talk about the round. he rockets out of his chair, scuttling to the door of his office and--

and crashing right into taemin holding a bowl of chips and a water bottle. "i brought you--wuh,” he says, stumbling backwards, eyes going wide. jonghyun barely stops to help steady him, holding on to his arms as he shimmies past him into the hallway.

“thank you i love you,” he says. he starts undoing his pants as he practically sprints to the bathroom. "i'll be right back i love you." halfway down the hallway he calls over his shoulder, “play the next round for me!"

“wuh--amogus? you know i don't know how all of the mods and shit work.” 

"you'll figure it out with your sexy gamer brain," jonghyun says, and slams the bathroom door behind him. 

a minute later, he's experienced the bliss of piss and is happily washing his hands. he feels better than he has all week. sometimes it's the little things. he takes his time now that the crisis is over, smiling at himself in the mirror. he fixes his hair, checks his skin, pouts at the acne that's been lingering on his jawline for the past week, winks at himself a few times, and finally heads back to the office.

as he approaches, he hears taemin talking inside: "no, i told you. i'm jonghyun. this is how i've always sounded. it's like you don't even know me."

gosh. jonghyun shakes his head, chuckling to himself. he said play the next round for me, not gaslight my friends. though, he guesses, with among us those two are kind of interchangeable. he walks into the room to find taemin in a meeting with the rest of the lobby minus two murdered beans. the special role next to his name on the screen says jester and jonghyun can barely contain a snort. how apt. if he gets voted out he wins.

"i'm not taemin," taemin insists. he glances at jonghyun, then adds with a smirk, "but if you want to talk about him then i'm down. i think he's soooooo handsome and charming and sexy and pretty and funny and cool. i'm obsessed with him." 

rolling his eyes, jonghyun plucks one earbud from taemin and wiggles it into his own ear in time to hear all of his friends grumbling and minho snorting, "maybe he actually is jonghyun.”

"see, i told you," taemin grins. quickly he takes a hand off of the keyboard to put it over jonghyun's mouth before jonghyun can scoff, indignant.

"whatever," kibum snaps, "we’re wasting time. why were you just standing on those bodies?"

“oh, i don't know," taemin says. "i walked over to comms to fix them and one was already there and then when i finished fixing comms there was another one."

"how come you didn't report it? comms have been fixed for a while," jinki asks.

"too busy teabagging," taemin says. 

“why the fuck were you--? god, there's 10 seconds left. vote, everybody vote--”

“for who?” taemin asks, raising his voice to interrupt anyone else trying to announce who they're going to vote for. the next 10 seconds are a panicked explosion of confused, unsure voices, and the results wind up with seven skips, two votes on taemin, and three more people that just didn't vote.

no one was ejected, the game tells them, and taemin smothers his laughter into his hand as everyone else complains or laughs about that mess of a meeting. jonghyun does the same, smooching his taemin's cute little head. he stands behind the chair and wraps his arms around taemin's shoulders. he'll let taemin finish this game. the next round starts and taemin runs his little pink bean down into the little library corner with the vent in admin room. a green bean, kibum, follows him, grumbling, "taem, hold on.”

 "i told you, i'm jonghyun," taemin says.

“fuck you,” kibum snaps, and then asks, "you deadass didn't see who killed either of them?"

“and why were you fucking teabagging them?” minho joins them, his little maroon bean standing a safe distance away. 

“thought it would be funny," taemin shrugs.

“ooh, we having book club down here?"  jinki emerges from decontamination and rounds the corner to find them all huddled together. his peach colored bean passes minho and comes to stand with kibum and taemin. "what did we think about this week's book? i loved the part when they were on the ocean.”

“it was okay," taemin says, jumping onto jinki's joke instantly. "not enough--” for just a split second, he gasps, and then continues with what he was saying. "not enough, um, horror for me. like.” he turns to jonghyun and as he continues his fake book review, he gives him a pointed look and wiggles his mouse cursor very aggressively on the vent button in the corner of the screen.

grinning, nodding, jonghyun leans down to murmur into his ear where the microphone won't pick it up. "you can jump in and out of any vent but you can't teleport around the map,” he says. "it's so you can look suspicious." taemin gasps again, quiet, his eyes lighting up with excitement. 

"i liked how the worldbuilding was constant but not in a distracting way--”

“hey, check this out." taemin interrupts whatever kibum was saying. he takes two steps towards the vent. 

then kibum dies. his little bean breaks in half, falling to the floor at jinki and taemin's feet. 

the three remaining players stand there in stunned silence, staring at the dead body. "holy shit," taemin says.

minho reports it. 

“taemin literally just murdered him in front of us!"

“who the hell is taemin?”

“taemin is my boyfriend.”

“shut up, do not let him distract us with that again. he literally said, ‘hey check this out,’ and then killed kibum. get his ass out of here.”

“i did not! you're just making shit up.”

"no, that is pretty much what happened.”

half a minute of arguing later, taemin gets thrown into the lava. the screen fades to black and then fades back into a screen announcing jester wins. the calm, comfortable chatter of the lobby explodes into furious groaning. taemin doesn't even say anything; he radiates silent smugness as he turns to jonghyun and gives him a v-sign for victory. 

jonghyun smooches his weird little fingers and then his soft mouth, proud as can be. his first ever game of modded among us and he won spectacularly. he accepts the other earbud and the booty touch taemin gives him as he gets out of the chair. sitting down, waving goodbye to his favorite, he pops a chip into his mouth and readjusts the microphone so he can talk into it. "i told you it wasn't me."

“fuck off," minho grumbles. according to the end screen, he was actually an imposter along with jinki, so now he's extra grumpy that their brilliant plan to frame taemin backfired. "where did you even go?" he asks.

"what do you mean?" jonghyun asks innocently. "i never left."

[xiuhunsoo]

hello (aggressively) please tell me your top 5 (or 10 if ur feeling chaotic) bsides and also your top 5 sehun hairstyles not including rainbow bc i alr know that one ok thank you

like ok i'm guessing exo b-sides here and bc i cannot stop after 5 bc i feel like i'd be dishonouring the other 5 strong contenders

el dorado (easy peasy my forever #1 favourite song of all time)

been through

fall

exodus

hurt

transformer (can you tell yet that my ass belongs to exodus/lmr)

butterfly effect

can't bring me down

playboy (me sneaking jonghyun in here with the background vocals hehe)

uhhhh does love love love acoustic or rearranged version count? if not then thunder

god this is making my skin crawl thinking about all the other songs i didn't mention here 😭

ok now to the much much harder part

and yes #1 sehun hair style will forever be rainbow hair bc WHO ELSE did pull the multicolour hair off as well as him huh

ok so

blond, but exoluxion era esp 150912 in chongqing, i thank god everyday he was not blond for the opening concert bc how would i ever live through THIS in person

2. pink but slightly dishevelled he had it once during 2013 and then again for exo-sc one billion views, but not pictured here but also in the same category when the pink from 2013 was fading out with the blond it looked like cotton candy

3. black, slightly longer, idc if it's softly falling or styled slightly but i do remember this cowlick strand of the 2017 smas

4. this one will be a controversial one but it's a very ME specific and important one, brown middle part vampire sehun at 2014 mama

if this does not scream insecure still not very stable vampire fledling lord to you then idk and i'm still praying he will sweep through my open window and gently bite my neck and let me join him

5. late 2017/beginning of january 2018 he had this VERY very slight perm for like idk a week? maybe two? and he looked like the cuddliest fluffiest little puppy and i wanted to tuck him in and kiss his forehead

[squishyo-o]

Tits, Ass, or Thighs? (Shinee)

This one’s difficult cuz I didn’t know shinee 😭 had my friend help me out <3

❤️‍🔥

♫♪Key♪♫

- from the looks of him, I thought tits, then I thought thighs

- honestly it’s between those two

- I feel like he loves laying on your chest when you guys cuddle

- he calls them stress balls 😂

- that being said, he definitely likes squishing and sucking your boobs during sex

- small or big, he’ll eat them up

- for the thighs, he will bite the shit out of them.

- loves LOVES when you squeeze your thighs around him while he’s eating you out

- oh and omg..

- he fucking LOVES IT when you ride him cuz he gets to watch your boobs go up and down, AND he’ll hold onto your hips, then slowly slide his hands to your thighs. (Yes he squeezes them)

- "such gorgeous boobs baby.. can’t wait to suck on them.."

- "s’pretty riding me babe.. that’s it.. keep bouncing.."

. . . . . .

♪♫Minho♫♪

- Ass. Oh my god ass.

- like I saw ONE picture of him and I IMMEDIATELY knew he’d like ass.

- he loves eating yours too.

- the skillful tongue just in your hole driving you mad is what gets him off.

- he loves the moans you make whenever he grips your ass or eating your ass out, because he knows he’s doing it right

- and yes… his favorite position is any of them where he gets to see your ass. (Doggy, rev. Cowgirl..)

- he just loves seeing your ass shake on him while your bouncing, or if you’re bent over doggy,

- he loves being able to fuck you from behind.

- "god fuckin’ love your ass.. m’gonna fill it.."

- he’d say that groaning with it too 🌚

. . . . . .

♪♫Onew♫♪

- ok. He was hard to figure out when I looked at him, but I came with a conclusion…

- thighs.

- he loves your thighs. Oh my god.

- like not even in a sexual way (yet), he would see you laying on the bed, and crawl between your legs FROM THE END OF THE BED

- he would spread your legs apart and kiss your inner thighs (or just your thighs in general)

- watch out if he’s horny though..

- he’ll do the same thing but just (with your consent) slowly take off your pants or whatever your wearing below and start eating you out.

- he loves when he’s able to get covered with a blanket too and just be under there, your thighs squeezing around his face cuz he’s eating you out well ;)

- why? Because someone could walk in at any moment 😈

- "keep squeezing love.. let your thighs tell me I know how to eat your pussy out"

. . . . . .

♪♫Taemin♫♪

- all of them. no questions.

- he loves all of them. Thighs, Ass, boobs, he doesn’t care. He loves them all. He’ll eat you up.

- best part about that though, is the things he does with them 😈

- he’ll fuck you, right? But juuust as you’re about to orgasm, he’ll slow down and stop.

- "but what does that have to do with it??" NONO HEAR ME OUT

- He’ll make a game out of it

- he’s gonna tie your boobs, just so the nipples pop out, and he’ll spread and tie your legs so you can’t squeeze them together.

- then he’ll just watch you whine in frustration from not being able to cum, while he plays with your nipples, slaps your ass, and sucks on your thighs

- he’s gonna do it just enough until you think he’ll let you cum finally, but then he stops and just chuckles as he watches you get your little hopes up

- "what’s the matter? Can’t wait to cum?"

- "if you wanna cum, you can be patient and maybe I’ll have the courtesy to let you cum"

- "ah ah ah.. hands away. you need to beg"

- Ehehe 🤭

. . . . . .

♪♫Jonghyun♫♪

Firstly, rest in peace to this beautiful angel. I looked him up, and he is absolutely gorgeous and I hope he’s going ok up there. I’m very sorry he had to go through such pain. Fly high 🕊️🤍

- Anyway. for him, just by photos, I’d say boobs

- he seems like the type of guy where he’d poke at your boobs and giggle cuz they’d move or cuz they’re squishy.

- "hehe~ your chest is squishy dear.."

- on the other hand while he has sex with you, he likes missionary cuz he can see your boobs jiggling while he fucks you.

- even better, he likes gripping onto a boob while he does it. And he’ll squeeze

- he likes putting ice on your nipples while they’re hard and of course, he’ll suck on them.

- I feel like he’d be a silly goofy guy and still giggle while fucking. Like he’d squish your boobs and giggle even though he’s pounding into you lol

"Haah.. hehe~ your boobs jiggle.. I love them baby.. fuck.."

[timextoxhajima]

what's the right word?

my first kpop group was snsd when they first released gee back in 2009/2010 and i was 9/10.

i've been stuck in this hole of 'kpop' since. i turn 24 in april. thats more than half my life.

growing up in a conservative asian family and the elder daughter of two teachers, it's not easy to explain the grievances and troubles i feel like i've experienced. some might not even consider it a terrible thing. yes, i've had a good standard of education and had parents who took care of me but sometimes the challenge was truly connecting with people and finding an emotional support.

nobody else can replicate and/or understand the true depth of the love, admiration, inspiration and reliance a fan has on her favourite idols/groups. throughout the years, i've gone through the eras. going from the snsd/shinee/suju era, and then into the bts/exo/vixx/bap era, and then blackpink/red velvet/wanna one/nct and then i feel like my life had a significant trajectory in the 2019-2020 period because i started dancing.

after having spent a decade being so invested in the idol culture of perfecting every single performance, pushing past boundaries and the idea of 'not being enough' being the exact source of motivation, perhaps picking up cover-dancing wasn't the best idea. especially when i come in a package with a bunch of baggage, anxiety, stress, and other perfectionist ideals.

throughout the years before 2019/2020, my reliance on my kpop idols was emotional. i wrote letters to them like they were my best friends, wished them the best of health and that they were always enough, while wishing i was as good as they were (ironic?). to my past loves: sooyoung, donghae, minho, jonghyun, jungkook, baekhyun, kang daniel, irene, jaehyun and the other members who have helped me through alot - i owe my life to them. quite literally.

tbz and enhypen have a special place in my heart. because not only did they become the usual emotional support pillars i had all the while, they became my mentors. an actual source to learn and be better. enhypen even more, because i've covered at least 5-6 of their items.

this growth in myself and the growth i see in them was so quiet but so sudden last night as i filmed their performances. 'oh my god, i danced to this song back in 2022 and now i get to see it live?'

as a fan, i feel more emotional because not only am i a fan who enjoys their music, i feel like i had connected to them on the 'stage performer' level and though i'm still lacking in many, many ways, i owe my progress and improvement to enhypen. they push me both mentally and physically during practises and their want to surpass themselves always reminds me that love knows no boundaries. the love for the stage and the love to be the best version of yourself.

i'm quite sure there's some psychological term for it, when you rely on someone who doesn't know you exist, and that you gain energy just from this person's existence.

the story is much, much longer but i could write a whole fic about it if i wanted to.

to my strength, my (probably last) love, heeseung.

i could write a billion words about you, and it would still not be enough to share how much of my life, my success, my motivation, my strength i owe to you. the love between a fan and an idol can only go so far, but i promise it will be forever.

i have a knack for choosing the members who seem to be the 'ace' of the group, but you are so unapologetically open about being a perfectionist. that's just my opinion. you know you want to be at your best, and you strive so hard to get there, sometimes i almost feel sad that you think you're not yet perfect. but then again, that's the very thing that makes me look up to you.

saw you for the first time and probably the last time last night. thank you for reigniting this want to surpass myself in every way possible. thank you for reminding me that lacking is the only way up.

[hrtbrkrz]

21 for the ask game & all the krush members

21. favorite era someone else had?

"Oh my God." Kaleina said. She wasted no time answering. "Definitely Felix during 'God's Menu' or Yeonjun during 'GGUM.' When it comes to the latter, some days I like that song and other days I don't–sorry!–but I loved his red hair. Him during 'Blue Hour' is also a close second. His pink hair was so cute. I called him and told him that when the concept photos first came out, actually!"

"As for Felix, I liked him during 'God's Menu' solely because of how good he sounded on the track. His hair, too. The silver was nice. I loved Jennie during 'How You Like That,' BTS during 'Fire,' I learned the choreography to that song in, like, a day, and my sister during Run Devil Run." Kaleina smiled once she mentioned Kayda. "I think that's my favorite SNSD era, though. I love Black SoShi."

"I loved TWICE during 'Dance the Night Away' and 'TT!'" Aeri answered. "Those eras were so fun and cute. I also loved BLACKPINK's 'As If It's Your Last' era and KARA's 'Pretty Girl' era. SNSD's 'Oh!' era, as well. I think I just like fun and cute eras, really! They're always right up my alley."

"Oh, and honorable mention, any era GFRIEND has ever had. I love GFRIEND."

"Mamamoo during 'Hip.'" Chanhee immediately answered. "I don't think I've loved a MAMAs performance more than their performance of that song, honestly. Close second would be 'Mr. Ambiguous.' I loved that song so, so much when it came out."

"If I could say another... Red Velvet's 'Bad Boy' era. I love that song."

"I would say BTS' Most Beautiful Moment in Life era." Moonsun said. "God, that title is so long. Anyways, I was like, fourteen when it happened, but I think that's what made it so good. I remember listening to the album on my way to school, actually. It's such a nostalgia-filled era. Everything about it makes me happy, really."

"I also really liked SHINee during 'Ring Ding Dong.' Oh my God, my brother showed me that song when I was like, ten, and I've loved it ever since. I think that's Jonghyun's favorite era of mine. He looked like a Boys Over Flowers boy but with a less awkward haircut."

[gaykey]

i know shinee is five, but which individual relationships within shinee do you hold closest to your heart and why?

anon, i could literally name every dynamic in shinee here, honestly. their individual relationships is what makes them so strong as a unit. but for example minkey, and their relationship, or jongtae - i've talked about so many times before, so i'm actually gonna leave them out.

lemme start with

taekey - ok yes, i also talk about them a bit, but i feel the need to go into a little more detail because they're sooooo? that's siblings that love each other so much, but they annoy the hell out of each other, but still, it's all love. but there's also that caregiver/receiver thing they have from the early days. like, kibum really played a bit role in taemin's upbringing. he and the members talk about it themselves. whether that's minho moaning 'he learnt that from you!' or kibum himself saying 'i didn't raise you like this!' lmaooo. and idk, it's such a special relationship that they have.

onkey - pls. that's his bammie and that's his yeongnam. like, onkey means a lot to me genuinely. i've seen so many people over the years say that they don't get on and i'm just? they adore each other. how can you not see it? yes, they are totally different personality types, but, they both have incredibly warm hearts and soooo much love in them, whichbis how i think they connect the most. and god, jinki practically gushes over kibum at every opportunity, and is so gentle with him. jinki loves to hug, but he really loves so hug kibum. (and as usual, kibum shows his love via minor bullying and sarcasm, but it's definitely on the softer side when it comes to jinki.)

jongyu - idkkkk man idkkkk, i just think a lot about how it must have felt being the two oldest members when they were barely 18 themselves, thrust into this whole new world, with younger members they had to be in charge of. and how that must have brought them closer, and how they had a realtionship and understanding of each other. like jinki is the leader and definitely took on that presuure, but jonghyun was always there right beside him. and they just had a different relationship. so special.

like i said, i could have spoke about all of them, but these ones do hold a special little place in my heart.

[mydarling-shinee]

it's 1 am and i suddenly had this random thought:

jonghyun speaks about a woman as a 3rd person in "crazy (guilty pleasure)". he mentions her in the song to the one he's actually singing to.

Don’t get close to me.even that seducing glare, you see how she plays me?

___________

She’s making me crazy I’m so into you

___________

She's a 3rd person, making the one he's actually singing to jealous, trying to come between them.

And when we look at the other lyrics about someone being guilty pleasure...... well;

___________

It feels like a broken mask

As I trust you blindly

I take a big breath

You make me get addicted, oh my

for me who’s perfect outside, this is a dangerous game

don’t you know

I felt it from the beginning when I saw you

I’d get hurt if I touched you I knew but I decided to grab onto you tighter

You’re double-bladed knife piercing into me

I can take this much

my weakened mind, sanitize it with alcohol already

guilt is way sweeter than the consequences I will face later

I can’t stop now I fall in deeper

into the crazy love swamp you dug

I think I reached the end of my life already

even if the next sun arises

and my eyes won’t open, as long as I’m happy that you are beside me

for me X became O

I crave you every second

any heaven without you will be a hell for me, sorry god

don’t forgive my guilty pleasure

hold me tighter, my precious

___________________

I’m so into you

the reason that danger was more attractive

the reason I enjoyed it even more

I act ignorant, I act like nothing is happening

I dodge you, even when I get a bit hesitant

but you wave at me again

_________________

that's queer as fuck.

full lyrics

[0rgell]

HIM - JongTae - Chapter 1 - I’m Broken, Alone and Afraid: Part One

General Masterlist

Story masterlist - please consult it for the summary of the story, trigger warnings etc.

AO3 link

Chapter 2 (coming soon)

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Chapter 1 - I’m Broken, Alone and Afraid: Part One

chapter word count: 1.8k words

Taemin starts off his prayer with: “Holy Father, we need to talk.” He squirms, shifting on his knees, uncomfortable with the confessions he’s about to make. “I’ve been keeping a secret, a deep sin inside of me, and I can’t contain it anymore. I’m not the creation you wanted. I have sinned and strayed away from the original path you made for me. Please don’t get angry. Continue having faith in me.”

His eyes peep open to see his little shrine in front of him. He accumulated possessions over the years of travelling around the world and touring with SHINee. Mother Mary’s eyes are staring directly into his. He lets out a shaky breath and reaches towards his rosary beads, clutching them against his chest, hoping that some Divine power will reach him. It doesn’t. He’s still as shaken as before and he’s still got to confess.

The beads shake in his clammy hands as he continues. 

“The Divine Virgin, Mother Mary, I'm holding you close to my heart. I’m devoted to you, the Holy Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Please guide me. Please forgive me.” He feels his eyes tear up unforgivingly and he feels as if he doesn’t have the right to cry; he’s chosen this sin. God shouldn’t see him cry. It looks like he’s asking for pity. Maybe he is. 

“I have fallen in love with a man, he is kind and gentle. He’s talented and uses such pretty words. I can feel your eyes on me, staring when we are together, when we hold hands or hug. How can I make you understand?”

Leviticus 20:13 wraps around Taemin’s head as if it’s a sharp warning from God himself. Reminding him to go no further than he already has.  "If a man practises homosexuality, having sex with another man as with a woman, both men have committed a detestable act. They must both be put to death, for they are guilty of a capital offence." It’s all so surreal. Taemin gulps at the harsh words as if they’re guillotine hanging over his head. Yet, he knows that without Jonghyun, he will never love another. His heart will never belong to anyone else, leaving nothing even for the God he has worshipped since childhood.

Jonghyun isn’t a religious man, but Taemin can’t imagine him going anywhere else but heaven. Jonghyun is a pure man who is naive to the power of God and God will not punish him for that. 

Taemin, on the other hand, knows about God’s power and how graceful and forgiving he is with it. He will not be spared punishment for he is choosing sin. “I am sorry, I am a sinner but I don’t think I can give up loving him. When he is with me, I feel such a strong connection… It would be like ripping myself in two to part with him.” 

The air is thick with the weight of Taemin's internal struggle as he sits in the small, dimly lit room. The flickering candlelight casts shadows that dance on the walls, mirroring the turmoil within him. He clasps his hands together tightly, his knuckles white, leaving indents on his palms from the rosary beads, as he whispers a prayer.

"God, I need your guidance," Taemin pleads, his voice barely audible. "I don’t want to betray you, but my heart is not my own. It is him that I love."

He recalls the first time he met Jonghyun, the way their eyes locked and an unspoken understanding had passed between them. It was as if their souls recognised each other. Jonghyun’s smile, so genuine, so warm, that Taemin felt an immediate pull towards him—an irresistible force.

Their relationship had grown in secret, with each stolen moment a precious memory built into Taemin’s heart that eventually grew into a beautiful kingdom. They shared dreams, fears, and promises whispered in the quiet of the night in their shared room in the dorm. Jonghyun was his confidant, his anchor in a world that felt increasingly hostile. 

One evening, as they lay together under the roof of the dorm, Jonghyun turned to him with a look of sincerity. "Taemin, I know what we have is difficult, but it’s also beautiful. I believe that love, in any form, is a gift. How can something that feels so right be wrong?"

Taemin had no answer—only the overwhelming love he felt for Jonghyun and the crushing guilt that accompanied it. Now, in the solitude of his own ‘chapel', those words echo in his mind.

He glances at the Bible before him, its pages worn from years of use. The passage from Leviticus feels like a wound that won’t heal, but there are other passages too, ones that speak of love, mercy, and forgiveness. 

"Is my love a sin, or is it a test of faith?" Taemin wonders aloud, his voice breaking. "Can I be true to myself and still be a good follower of God?"

God doesn’t reply and more tears well in Taemin’s eyes as he nods, feeling shunned and shut out. He understands why God isn’t talking to him. Taemin insists on sinning and he wants God to forgive him for being a defiant sinner. He wants to be forgiven without repentance. 

It’s a sin within a sin. A sin is a sin.

He gets off of his knees and blows out the candle before opening the door, walking out to his kitchen and pouring himself a glass of water. He and Jonghyun still aren’t in a committed relationship and it’s all Taemin’s doing. Jonghyun is waiting for him and Taemin is trying to make an unreachable deal with God.

Taemin would love more than anything to be with Jonghyun, but he’s always left feeling guilty. 

After they kiss, Taemin gets the urge to pray, and it wouldn’t be fair to Jonghyun for him to see that. It would make him feel dirty; it would make him feel like Taemin thinks he is dirty. Taemin thinks about Jonghyun’s face when he gets denied. He can see the hurt he’s causing and sometimes, he wishes they never met all together.  

It’s a selfish wish, and Taemin can’t even remember what his life was like before he met Jonghyun because he’s always just been there next to Taemin, being ever so attentive and always smiling, reminding Taemin of what love is.

He downs his water like a desert man starved of water and slams it down on the kitchen counter, frustrated with his life and sick and tired of everything. His past week has been a week of pure torment. It’s been slow and painful. He’s been blocking everyone out while trying to figure himself out and figure out how he let it get far. However, every moment he’s locking himself away from Jonghyun, the more he craves him, the more his heart bleeds. He misses Jonghyun and what he is doing is also hurting Jonghyun. 

The messages on his phone have complied and the calls only stopped once he turned it off three days ago, he even changed the password to his door. He ignores the doorbell on several occasions and just like them tonight, it rings again. 

And again. 

Taemin glances at the intercom, finding a dishevelled Jonghyun. He looks terrible—his hair is stuffed under a cap, dark circles are pronounced beneath bloodshot eyes. His once glowing, tanned skin has paled significantly, making him look like a ghost of his former self. Taemin probably appears just as bad, if not worse, though he wouldn’t know: he hasn’t dared to face his reflection, afraid of encountering a monster.

Taemin reluctantly presses the speaker button on the intercom, his hand trembling slightly. He can hear Jonghyun’s footsteps pacing in front of his door, now echoing through the hallway into his intercom. Jonghyun notices the green light blinking and stands there in silence. Taemin doesn’t dare make a sound either. He stares at the screen, taking in Jonghyun’s distressed state and it looks as if Jonghyun is trying to see Taemin as well. It’s impossible, though.

Jonghyun finally breaks the silence, his voice hoarse and barely above a whisper. “Taemin, please, we need to talk.”

Taemin lets Jonghyun be shrouded in his silence. He knows they should be; he just can’t at the moment. The atmosphere around both of them noticeably darkens, Jonghyun realising that Taemin still won’t talk to him, and Taemin because he’s surrounded by self-loathing. 

Jonghyun’s eyes speak a thousand words even through the graining intercom screen; the weight of unspoken words presses down on them both. Jonghyun doesn’t know where to begin and Taemin can’t begin, both haunted by their own demons. 

Jonghyun looks away for a split second, and looks up, his eyes filled with a mixture of desperation and resolve. “We can’t keep going like this. Taemin, something has to change. Please.” 

Taemin exhales shakily, knowing Jonghyun is right but unsure if he has the strength to make it happen. I know. But what do I do? Taemin can’t bear looking at him anymore. His heart aches so much that the pain is crippling. He lets his body fall, sliding down the wall until his shirt scrunches up helplessly at the back and he can feel the cold wall on his back. He pulls his knees to his chest, hoping that it will offer some protection from the hurt he’s causing. He pulls his knees so tight, hoping it will relieve the pain he feels in his chest. He can’t breathe. Tears fall yet no sound can come out, his chest crushed by his own knees. Jonghyun’s pleas hang in the air, heavy with uncertainty, patiently waiting for Taemin to answer. They grapple with the darkness that has taken hold of their lives, unable to untie it from themselves.

“Taemin-ah. Please.” Jonghyun begs. 

“I love you, Taeminie. Let’s just talk.” He begs and cries and yet Taemin still won’t open the door. Jonghyun’s resolve ends after an hour of trying to bargain with Taemin. He eventually leaves with his head hanging and tears descending like a waterfall. 

For hours, Taemin remains there, tears falling onto the cold stone floor of his apartment. As the sun sets, a sense of desolation settles in his soul. He realises that the forgiveness he’s seeking might never come. His love for Jonghyun, pure and unwavering, is a beacon of light in his life, but it also has cast a shadow over his faith.

That night, as he lies awake, tears keep streaming down his face, and a chilling weight settles over him. He has always believed in God’s infinite mercy, but what if it has limits? What if his love for Jonghyun is a transgression that cannot be pardoned or forgiven?

Tonight Taemin rests in his bed alone and when he finally gets to sleep, his dreams are full of sins.

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Chapter 2 (coming soon)

[multifandomslxt]

SM is the shit,. honestly, and I hope all idols under it can break free and the company goes to hell.

It was all damn wrong since the very beginning, sending him on a almost year long hiatus because of having a girlfriend and smoking PREDEBUT!!! That allowed and entitled their nasty Fans into believing what what he did was wrong,

"Oh you are right, he deserves a hiatus because of being a fucking normal young human so you can still believe that you will marry the idol that doesn't even have an idea that you exist just because you spend your damn own money at your fucking will in albums"

Instead of protecting him, instead of saying "That his private life and we respect it, we will file criminal actions against anyone who invade his privacy and spread defamatory comments on the matter" and star sueing left and right, they have the fucking money and power to do it, but they wanted to keep a portion of the fans "happy" with their fucking delusional thoughts.

2 days, just 2 fucking days since his return announcement, they could have protected him, they could have threatened people with legal actions, they could have taken down the wreaths, track the company and track the person who order them, they could have done so much but their beliefs and keeping entitled fans into thinking that their demands must be fulfilled because "The idol owes me" no, they fucking own you shit, you decided to stand, to spend money, if you don't like someone then go away, no ones is making you do that shit against your will.

Congratulations SM you failed again to protect someone's, destroyed his and his members dreams to work together again because it your retrograde beliefs. Did you already forgot about Jonghyun and Sulli? That didn't happen just "Because", and you are doing shit to stop allowing this again.

God bless Seunghan, hope he is Ina very supportive and loving environment right now, he needs to be protected and take care off, I'm scared of his mental health, hope his loved ones protect him unlike that shit of a company.

You could let have said it any better!

I hate it here🫠

[kimsuyeon]

okayyyy after a long hard think abt it i have some suggestions and ideas but like please don’t feel obligated to do any of them! these are just some things i would Love to see 🤗 starting off strong with my guy: taemin in view era & taemin in lucifer era 😇, also any of the shinees in replay/amigo era (preferably jjong!), after school kahi in AH! era, lee hyori in u go girl (or 10 minutes), hani in literally any era (if u can’t choose my favs are hot pink, i love you and up & down 🤭). pick n choose which of these you want to do, i would be delighted to see anything and everything from here! and also one bonus round if you feel like it: whichever of the blackpink girlies you’d like in whichever is Your fav era 💞 tysm 💖

this was sent on april 21 oh my god.... me when i take 12 years to do things...

starting w/ taemin in view! with his crazy number of hair colors rip his poor scalp..

NEW! jonghyun in replay giffed during . my summer class zoom meeting. maybe. perhaps. don't worry about it.

miss kahi in ah! 😵‍💫 i love gorgeous women

once again we thank bella my .ts file dealer for providing me miss lee hyori in u go girl

next we have sapphic death hani in hot pink

and we end with our rosie in lovesick girls miss pretty

[keehomania]

I just read "Ghost of You" and oh my god. the absolute torrent of emotions that it roused in me was insane. the way you built this fragile world, the amounting sense of safety n comfort, and then that small sliver of doubt that u planted with the mc's ex's appearance.

my take on this is that, grief is a powerful thing. too powerful and maybe mc's suffering was so great that her mind actively sought out ways to comfort itself, one particularly efficient method being deluded hallucinations.

the mention of pills rly got me thinking that is this _really_ reality, that Jimin just appeared like that

my view is that mc's grief led her to becoming unstable and then she had to rely on medication but one day she stopped taking her meds and that took it's toll on her already shattered heart.

whatever it is it was a beautiful piece of writing and thanks for sharing it with us

the way u explored grief was amazing and I'm still left hoping that there were actually fantastical themes involved and Jimin will actually visit the mc again very soon (that it's reality and not some illusion)

this brought me to tears i am so so so happy you liked the story as much as you did and i just had to share this interpretation because you expressed yourself so well. thank YOU for enjoying the piece and for taking the time out of your day to analyze it, your analysis is absolutely spot on. and if you have any requests or criticism or ideas i am always open to them!!! that piece specifically was writen while i was going through some shit regarding jonghyun's death and i wrote it to help myself and others who might need it cope. to anybody out there who is coping with loss and dealing with grief, you are so strong and i am so proud of you. it will get better no matter what. i love and cherish every single one of you. <3

[sanstropfremir]

hi hellooo pleasure to be here again!! i have come to rant

so last night i went a bit through your blog because i vaguely remembered that at some point there was a conversation about "stage presence" and how only kpoppies give a shit about it. and i found some asks from last year about this youtuber who made like a whole classification on stage presence with all this masculine overt dominant whatever categories. and i was mindblown because just yesterday i got recommended one of their videos and i was watching that stuff like wtf. that took me back to my early kpop days (which is like 2018 lol) when i also discovered the term stage presence and i thought i did something. anyway

i actually came here to talk about shinee's recent comeback!! from the little i've seen, there's some beef among shawols regarding wether shinee is really "shinee" anymore and i've seen some people saying they've unstanned bc of hard. like you do you ig

i've been thinking that i genuinely like the song, but indeed it doesn't have that classic shinee vibe. (also satellite best bside???) to me it's just like taemin key onew and minho got together to sing a song, but it's not "shinee" per se. and that's okay.

regarding performances i only watched the studio choom dance version and tbh for the first time in my limited shinee eras knowledge i thought that minho takes the cake for this one. idk if it's the fact that he's more stereotipically masculine (or at least coming across that way) or what, but honestly his part in the second chorus is my favorite. key is second favorite and again his part in the last chorus suits him a lot imo especially with the different choreo for it. as for taemin i'm glad he's bringing his poppiest pops forward because i swear i feels like that man's bones are snapping inside his body but other than that honestly i don't think he's enjoying this era too much fdjdvscg

hi hello again!!!

alksdjflksdafj not that youtuber again....they're a fucking plague i need them to read a fucking book for the love of god. just so profoundly uninformed, its mind boggling.

i've seen variations of this take since before the song even came out and honestly? i don't agree. you can not like the song for any number of reasons but the fact of the matter is that it IS a shinee song. what makes a shinee song is that it's their voices. that's all that makes a shinee song. for a group that has an extended history of genre experimentation, for fans to get mad or say it's "not them" when they DO do something experimental is cowardly and embarrassing. just admit that you don't like the song and move on. there will be a time when EVERY artist you love makes something that you don't. that's fine and normal. don't hide behind incorrect assertions like "it's an nct reject" or that it doesn't sound like them. they're artists that still want to explore and grow and they have agency to do that. it's not a failing to admit that you don't like something that your faves made, and i also think it's rude and denies them identity and agency to say that 'it doesn't sound like them', especially with this particular group.

personally what i think people are subconsciously getting at when they say a song doesnt sound like shinee is that it sounds incomplete because it's missing a voice. the same discourse circled around with dcm came out and people are not acknowledging that shinee is never going to sound the same as they did pre 2017 (2018 technically bc jonghyun's voice is still on tsol). they just aren't. the chemical makeup of the melodies is going to be different forever and people need to acknowledge and accept that. the four of them are doing their best to fill in that hole and theyre doing a great job, but there is still a hole.

[29daffodils]

When you get this you have to answer with 5 of your fav songs and then tag your mutuals to do the same :) (no pressure <3)

thanks for the tag @peachym00 🩷🌸 i would have done this under the reblog chain but just didn't feel like scrolling so much 1 in the morning I'm so sorry 🫣

so here's some all time favourites and current ones. might be a little more than 5 songs. but oh well. when have i followed rules 👀

in no particular order :

1. yellow by coldplay

this is the song that helps me not give up sometimes. in my incredibly lonely life, this gives me hope that even if no one else is by me to tell me they love me, maybe one day i will love myself.

2. make my sun shine by swim deep

this is the song i discovered through my favourite BL manhwa "the shape of your love" and never looked back. this was also the first time i ever saw music used in a manhwa, music that was readily available and of course i fell in love with the mc who was quite similar to myself. this song is peppy and sweet and just so fluffy it can rot your teeth.

3. the aspidistra flies by stars

i found this song through a sasunaru fic once upon a time when i still used ffn. the fic was great and so is this song. a perfect ode to love, if you ask me. i loved it so much that i actually wrote a fic to it for my favourite boys and I'm still not over it. it's been over a decade.

4. stranger by jeff satur

jeff has so many good songs and I'm fairly new to thai pop artists, but god damn, this man knows how to write love songs. this is my favourite from him simply because no one talks about it and the atmosphere it creates. I'm a sucker for rare things lol, be it a manhwa or this song. and maybe i have a thing for snow and cold and relationships falling apart and mending at the same time. i dunno. i love the melancholy in this song.

5. first love by BTS (min yoongi)

You say don't leave like this Don't worry even if I leave You'll do well on your own I remember when I first met you Before I knew it you grew up

min yoongi, the man that you are. i love pretty much everything by him. I'm also new to BTS's music but this guy is something else. i started with his solos and then listened to BTS. but goddamn, the moment i heard this one, i was done for. this could have been a tie with amygdala or snooze (both of those are my favourites), but the passion in this is unmatched to me and, well, this reminds me of the person i lost. somehow it feels nice to know someone else felt the way i felt back then. also it always makes me cry.

p.s. : i also discovered this song through an incredible taejin fic lmao so if you wanna read that, i'll drop a link.

some honourable mentions :

1. epiphany by BTS (kim seokjin)

this is the first bts song i ever listened to, back before i even cared about any kpop. let's just say, i hope i learn to love myself too.

2. paratiisi by ville valo & agents

this is a song i found after i lost my best friend to suicide. i was recced this by her cousin and i instantly fell in love with it. sometimes it reminds me of her, though V's taste was more sabotage by chisu 😂

3. moonchild by RM

this is the song that gives me hope these days. that's all i gotta say.

4. awake by BTS (kim seokjin)

this is the song that puts into words my current state of mind. i really am in a super shitty place at the moment and i dunno if i'll ever get out of here but i wanna hope.

5. diphylleia grayi by jonghyun

yeah okay this song just makes me howl cry alright. i love it very much even though i haven't dared look up the lyrics. i hold most of jonghyun's songs very close to my heart. so.

ahhhh i think this is it! tagging @boyslovecorner @ae-azile @lilitblaukatz @thisautistic @goodbyeapathy8 @justfionn and if anyone else wants to do it! feel free to ignore otherwise!

edit : tagging @skyfish7 in this because i've finally found her!!!!