#that he had in like 2013/2014 bc it was the haircut as i first got to know him as

[xiuhunsoo]

hello (aggressively) please tell me your top 5 (or 10 if ur feeling chaotic) bsides and also your top 5 sehun hairstyles not including rainbow bc i alr know that one ok thank you

like ok i'm guessing exo b-sides here and bc i cannot stop after 5 bc i feel like i'd be dishonouring the other 5 strong contenders

el dorado (easy peasy my forever #1 favourite song of all time)

been through

fall

exodus

hurt

transformer (can you tell yet that my ass belongs to exodus/lmr)

butterfly effect

can't bring me down

playboy (me sneaking jonghyun in here with the background vocals hehe)

uhhhh does love love love acoustic or rearranged version count? if not then thunder

god this is making my skin crawl thinking about all the other songs i didn't mention here 😭

ok now to the much much harder part

and yes #1 sehun hair style will forever be rainbow hair bc WHO ELSE did pull the multicolour hair off as well as him huh

ok so

blond, but exoluxion era esp 150912 in chongqing, i thank god everyday he was not blond for the opening concert bc how would i ever live through THIS in person

2. pink but slightly dishevelled he had it once during 2013 and then again for exo-sc one billion views, but not pictured here but also in the same category when the pink from 2013 was fading out with the blond it looked like cotton candy

3. black, slightly longer, idc if it's softly falling or styled slightly but i do remember this cowlick strand of the 2017 smas

4. this one will be a controversial one but it's a very ME specific and important one, brown middle part vampire sehun at 2014 mama

if this does not scream insecure still not very stable vampire fledling lord to you then idk and i'm still praying he will sweep through my open window and gently bite my neck and let me join him

5. late 2017/beginning of january 2018 he had this VERY very slight perm for like idk a week? maybe two? and he looked like the cuddliest fluffiest little puppy and i wanted to tuck him in and kiss his forehead

[dkettchen]

My transition timeline - masterpost:

∼2001-2003 (age 4 or 5): noticing that me and my gnc best friend were different from other kids, genderwise; not having words to describe that with & making up our own

∼2009-2013:  going through first puberty & being super uncomfortable & NOT KNOWING WHY THAT COULD POSSIBLY BE

November 2013 (age 16):  figuring out I’m bi & that that’s an option, coming out to my best friend (different one lol) literally like two days later because NEWS

2014: starting to present more butch, newly freed from heteronormative gender expectations; figuring out I’m non-binary & that that’s an option

2014-2016: coming out to ppl; lots o’ haircuts, *stares off into space* so many...; buying two compressing sportsbras in an attempt to bind but they had this like uncomfortable band at the bottom so I never wore them

2016-2017:  realising still not happy despite having expressed freely for like 3 years; facing physical dysphoria finally; researching medical transition & figuring out hormones & some kind of top surgery would solve my issues; cutting the dumb band off the sportsbras & buying a proper binder off the internet, actually starting to bind sometimes

May 2017 (age 20):  referral to the GIC (NHS) by GP

October 2017:  official name change announcement via inktober entry

May 2018: 1st GIC assessment w/ Dr Whiteley; shattering of hope for the next like year rip, referral to GIC counselling & (hopefully) voice therapy waiting lists (later misgendering me in her report)

August 2018: self referral to gendercare (private) to get hormones earlier

October 2018: (private) psych assessment w/ Dr Lenihan (explaining all the things Dr Whiteley got wrong so I would not be refused treatment this time)

February 2019 (age almost 22): (private) endo appointment w/ Dr Seal; private T gel prescription -> (very nice saint of a) GP NHS prescription; deed poll name change (promised condition for Dr Seal prescribing me hormones); (all within same week) -> starting (low dose of) T (Dr Lorimer confirmed it’s like 1/4 of a regular starting dose)

March-June 2019: GIC (individual) counselling (1-3.5 months on T)

June 2019: 2nd GIC assessment w/ Dr Lorimer; 1st/2 sign offs on my top surgery (4 months on T)

July 2019:  Application to get my legal name change back home in Luxembourg

September 2019: Gov received my application, but some misunderstanding about change of gender marker (which I didn’t ask for bc I know we don’t have X markers yet) & turns out I needed to HAND SIGN the letter, so I had to send it in again

November 2019: Judge replied (addressed to dead name) asking for more evidence that I’m using the name irl (I already supplied a whole pile of evidence the first time), sent that in

December 2019: Different T gel prescription by GP bc the other one isn’t being made anymore, I guess -> dose change, because new gel’s lowest dose is higher than the other one (I wanted to get it to a half dose anyway so it was kinda convenient)

April 2020: Got a letter from the grand duke saying he & the relevant ministers have decided (after I paid the 61€ for the procedure) that I am now allowed to change my name (after three more months of waiting that is)