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tamtam-go92 · 6 years ago

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Writing Challenge #002 (by tiftswritingcorner)

Yeah, I did a bit hard with this challenge, I’m really not much into this question and I don’t think that machines will ever replace human beings. So yeah, really not that great. This is set sligtly in the future, probably around 2040-2050 but it doesn’t really matter, since in some contries this is almost reality. Credits to @tiftswritingcorner for the prompt.

“The Story is about an inhibited gym teacher who must work with a barber. It takes place in a port city. The question of when a machine becomes human is a major part of the story.”

Sami watched the impressing container boat slowly but steadily arriving through the narrow port entrance. The impression calmed him down, and he could really use some calming at the time. Hastily he watched his fitness tracker. 20:48, Oliver was late. He hated lateness, one of the reasons he hated his job as a gym teacher more and more. Every day he had to listen to the same bad excuses of his pupils, which just couldn't be bothered to get some movement. All those lazy, unmotivated, fat kids. Sami watched his pulse hastening again thinking about his schooldays and immediately looked back to the container boat. He had already been here a lot as a child, together with his parents. Those days a load of people were employed around the port. These days, around thirty years later, most of the processes were fully automatic, digital and controlled by artificial intelligence, robots such to say. They were cheaper than real personnel, didn't need breaks and were less error-prone. A reason Sami decided to become a teacher, a doing that also during his lifetime wouldn't be displaced by robots. There was one thing the machines weren't able to imitate — Empathy. But from this point of view, Sami wasn't that different from the machines. He couldn't remember the last time he felt bad for one of his students. 'I twisted my ankle.' — 'Don't be pathetic!' 'I'm on my period.' — 'Just use tampons like everybody else.' 'I'm afraid of heights.' — 'Fears are overcome when you face them.' He wasn't a much liked teacher, but at the beginning of his career that was different. He didn't know when he the love for his work had died. 'I'm sorry, I'm too late. I know you don't like waiting.' Cut away from his thought Sami turned around quickly. As always, Oliver's black hair was perfectly cut, his thick beard greatly combed and gelled. 'Did you get rid of the stuff easily?' Sami pulled his hand into the bag of his hoodie. 'I only took away my ratio, as always. The rest was selling like hot cakes.' He handed Oliver a pack of money. The government would have liked to ban cash since it was mostly used for illegal transactions like this one. But the people loved their cash — and illegal businesses — so the resistance under the people was too tight. 'It's only one thousand seven hundred forty. Taking away your ratio, it must at least have been one thousand eight hundred fifty. Where's the rest, Samuel?' Sami flinched. 'I gave a discount to a regular customer. He was low on money. And I thought that was better than letting him go somewhere else.' Oliver clicked his tongue impatiently. 'Sami, you know what to do with customers like that — take them to me.' That was like Sami and Oliver's 'business relation' started. To flee his frustration, Sami used to pop some pills from time to time with his few friends. But while they had their consume under control, Sami sank deeper and deeper into the milieu. One day he couldn't pay anymore and so his source took him to Oliver. He owned a barber store downtown, but Sami had never seen him actually cut hair. Oliver made Sami one of his couriers, free but fixed rations inclusive. There was no other payment. Sami tried to keep his customer out of this. 'I... I know', he stammered and threw a nervous glance on his fitness tracker. Pulse 102. He really had to calm down. 'Bring me him on Monday. I can't accept a discount. Or you've got to pay the difference.' He raised an eyebrow and did a vague gesture. He knew, Sami couldn't do this. So he promised to take the boy to the barber store. His glance followed Oliver's away on the water. The container boat was moored by now, one of those few tasks a real human being did, he could spot the man with his reflective vest and exoskeleton walk busily from one rope to the next. The ship already was being discharged, the crane was programmed to perfectly take one container after the other from the ship and pull them over to their programmed, determined place. Sami was surprised that it really took a human to moor the ship. But how human was that man, in his cradle? 'A penny for your thoughts', Oliver said and stepped right next to Sami, their shoulders touching. He was a nice boss all things aside, better than that bitch at the school. She never cared what Sami or someone else from the staff thought or felt. 'I just thought that we humans aren't needed for our working power anymore. They only need our brains. But not all of us can be thinkers. And what about robots learning to think like us? They already are smarter than us anyway! Why are we here then?' Oliver laughed hysterically. 'You really shouldn't be high on our meetings. But that's easy. We are here, because god wants us to. Robots are here because we want them, but we are no gods. Those things can be as smart as possible, they will never get his blessing.' Sami blinked surprised. He never knew that Oliver was a believer. He himself couldn't really believe. Why was there so many bad in the world, when there was a god? He didn't say anything more. After a few seconds of silence Oliver pulled his hand into the pocket of his hoodie and pulled out a bag with some colorful pills. 'One thousand eight hundred fifty until next week, not a penny less. Or else I have to become unpleasant, is that understood?' Sami quickly nodded and gulped with a dry throat. 'And Monday I'll see you with this customer, is that understood' Sami hastily nodded again. Oliver then turned around on his heel and disappeared between the maze of containers. Sami stayed back for some more minutes, his eyes fixed on the horizon. Some day he would watch behind it...

#writing challenge #tiftswritingcorner #writing challenge 002 #futuristic #philosophy #1003 words

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nochickennick · 5 years ago

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An excerpt from a favorite YA novel.

This is an excerpt from a favorite YA romance novel of mine titled “Kisses from Kazakhstan”

“I stared deeply into the soft glow of the computer in front of me. It was still open to that idiotic old email account I made when I was little. God, I hated it. [email protected]. I cringed at the thought of ever being called Penellope. Any name I was called before just plain Penny was dead to me. I would’ve bullied myself relentlessly for using a dorkozoid name like that E.V.E.R.

‘Ugggh, why do you ever leave this thing up, you barely use it anymore!’ I thought to myself. But just as I was moving the cursor to the close tab button, I noticed the little pink dot that heralded a new email had arrived.

It was Kassym! Holy hell, why was my heart pounding so fast?

‘Its just an email!’ I thought. ‘No reason to get excited over a little email to your middle school email account, right?’ The subject line was simple... they always were from him... God maybe it was the mystery and curtness of the way he emailed that intrigued me. A simple subject line of ‘American Friend: Please Wire Money’ was all it took to make my heart rate spike like a trash compactor. My hand was so sweaty! I rubbed of my shaking, nervous palm on the inside of my baggy, ratty old hoodie sleeve and then moved to click on the unoppened email.

And there he was. Another beautiful picture of him was the whole of our international love affair but there he was nonetheless! The picture took up nearly the whole email. I felt my heart melt as I stared into his dark brown eyes, his curly black hair, his beautiful tanned dark skin. He looked like he came right out of that cute little island from Mama Mia. I knew so little about him, but there was so much to know... maybe thats what really turned me on about him. How many girls can truly say that the imprisoned heir to the Kasakh throne AND that of all the women in his whole country who would give their lives to him, he chose ME as his only email account to talk to after he was imprisoned in the coup? All those poor middle eastern girls. Is Kasakhstan in the middle east? I honestly didn’t know. And I didn’t care... because all that I could think about was how much I hated the little ‘Getty Images’ emblem stamped across his picture.

‘Move!’ I said out loud to that irksome little watermark. ‘I want to see his beautiful collarbones!’

So much sexual energy. So much mystery. His sweet words but added to the effect that had captivated the pull of my whole body...

‘My loving, you it is to free me from this jails bars. Please to me give the american dollars so I can see yu and my bautiful contry again. Much kisses from Kassym.’

‘Damn. I’m crazy about him.’ was the only thought left in my head.”

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flowermindpoems · 6 years ago

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The story of my life

So this is my story it’s not a sad one but it’s not a happy one either

When my mom first met my dad years ago, when he was visiting Poland (where my mom is from) they fell in love instantly after a while my mom moved to Denmark (where my dad is from) and they got married.

But something had changed or rather someone

Everytime they where out in public my dad would be the sweetes kindest most loving person in the room, but then when they got home behind the closed doors He wasn’t so kind or loving This perfect man wasn’t so perfect

Now your all probaly thinking that he hit my mom and probaly also me and my siblings To be honest i wish he did But he didn’t He never laid a hand on us At least not of what i rememer

He didn’t hurt us fysically But he did hurt us! Mentally..

Everyday he would sream at us, yell at us, nothing we ever did was good enough

Before we where born, when it was only my mom and him, she has told me stories Stories i honstly don’t wan’t to know How everything she did was never good enough, how he scream at her for every little thing, how he threatened her and how he completly destrod her mentally

But back then she was still a guest in the contry, and a divors was out af the qoustion

When my mother was pregnent with my brother, my grandmom came to Denmark to help her out (God knows she needed it) When my brother was born all the mental abuse was sudanly moved over from my mom towards my brother Sence he was just a baby hes been called an idot, worhtless, stupid and any other name you can think off My mom tried her best to protect him, and when my sister was born he also went on her but not really.. He mocked and called her names as well but my brother was still the center of his attentoin..

Finally when she was pregnet with me She got sick Teribly sick But that didn’t matter to him In fact that was just a bother for him And he would just yell at her for being sick

When the time came of my birt The docters said the was a chance that either she wound’t make, i wound’t make it or both of us woulnd’t make it

But for some miracal reason we both made it

My mom was still a bit weak from the sickness and well giving birt But that didn’t stop my fathers torture

And weak little me wasn’t going the be left out No way I too had my fair share of the name calleing and mental abuse

Finally when i was about 2 years old they got a divores But we still had to visit him every weekend

But slowly every weekend became every other weekend wicth then became only one day every other weekend until it was only one day a mont wicht finally stoped completly And we where all free of him

My brother was the first one to stop seeing him but he was also the one he went after the most Witch is why he stoped first

But that just meaned that i was his new center of attention, because out of me and my sister i was the weakest So i was easer to abuse

He would swict from the bigger kind too the smaller kind of abuse..

One thing i remember is that sometimes he would porpasly ignor me and favortise my sister Becaouse he knew that made me sad and weak I have never been good at my homework esoicially math, so when i was doing homework with him and i didn’t understand the question or know the answer, he would yell and sream how stupid and worthless i am how can’t i understand such a easy qoustion, becaouse i am such a big idoit

I have always been a slow eater and i bit of a picky eater, wiche he of couse allways would comment on! Always! Why am i so slow Why am i takeing so much on my plate when we both know im not even going to eat it all how can i know that i dont like it if i havent tried it

I think this is why i today struggle with an eating disorder

I was 15 when i stoped seeing him for good!’ And i was so happy that i would never have to se him agian But every now and then he would call me and i would get panic attacks wicht is why i still have anxiety today Because of him I finally swicht my number and i no longer had to be afraid!

2 or 3 years pass by and i havent seen him once, wicth made me happy Sort off But then one day, im on my way back home from some grosarry shopping, and i meet him I panic I wanna just run away But he has seen me and he is on a bike If i run he would esayly cath up So i am to afraid to run Insted i just freeze He stops and says hi, says that he misses me and wish he could se me and us agian i don’t know what to say so i just smile and nod, finally he leaves It’s crazy but it felt like i was trapped Like he had trapped me Like i dind’t have any control

But i walk home, unpack the stuff, pack my bag with gym clothe and tell my mom im going to the gym

On my way to the gym, i call my best friend to tell her what happed.. I Wanna tell some one but at the same time i dont But i call her And imideatly start crying Out of fear or panic or i don’t know, everthing i tell her everything and we talk for about half and hour, when i get to the gym i end up being the for allmost 3 hours, and when i got home i took a shower, eat a little and when straith to bed.

And I never talked about it agian!

A thing i proballt have forgotten to tell is, that for some reason i dont remember anything from my childhood eveerything from before the age 10-11 i only remember maybe 4-5 memories..

Today i am 19 in a few monts i’ll be 20 I had anxiety sence i was 10 or 12 I’ve been depressed sence i was 14 or 15 I been cutting sence i was 16 I been suicidal sence i was 17 And i had an eating disorder sence i was 18

Every night when i go to sleep i dream about how wonderful it would be if only i could slit my wrist Everytime i walk on the street i imagin how amazing it would be if i could just walk in front of a car and get run over Evertime im at a train station waiting for the train i alway stand reallt close to the edge and when the train comes i imagin myself just talk those last to step and fall down on the rail Everytime im walking on a brigde i think how lovely it would be if i could just jump! Every single day i think about killing myself! Every single night i dream about killing myself!

It’s all i think about All the time

I been going to a shrink for about 3 years And im not sure it’s working I hate talking about me feelings I hate tlaking about the past I hate showing emotions Thats way it’s talking me a little over a year to open up to my shrink I just reasonly told him more openly about my suicidal thoughts And we been talking about me maybe takeing some medication And to be completly honest i wanted to take medication sence i was 16 I just never dared.. I always thought that if i get some sort of medication, theres a very strong chance that i will just take them all and od! So i been to afraid to even talk about it, until now I think it’s finally about time i help myself

But i made a mistake A big mistake I told my mom that i been thinking about takeing medication And she wont allow me to take them And i know I know That she cant dicide what i do or dont but at the same time i find it very hard to go agiast her She has done so mush for me Protected me as best as she could agenst The psykopath that is my father

But i dont know what to do Couse i dont think i will get better unless i take some medicine

The thing is I have a very complex realtionship with my mother I truely love her, and i’d do anything for her Because she has done so much for me And that is why she is the reason i wont kill myself Couse i know i kill myself it will kill her.. And i cant do that But at the same time, i hate her and i cant talk or open up to her because she is the reason i cant kill myself

I love her to much wichte is why i cant kill myself but that is also why hate her And myself

I hate myself for hating her I hate my self for wanting to kill myself I hate myself for not killing my self I hate myself …

Aug 14th, 2016

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thewiccanwitchling · 7 years ago

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Let me tell you something. Many of you, witches and wiccans there resides here in Witchblr, are familiar with self-esteem posts empowering us, like “never let anybody or even yourself tell you how you have or not to be a witch”, you know? So. (I love these kind of posts!)

Here in Brazil, we are deciding our country’s fate - we are in elections.

Until here, everything has its place, right?

No. Seriously? No.

It’s HIGHLY upseting. This post is not pro any side and it’s not about politics. But it IS about RESPECT.

We choose our path.

We chose our path.

Then I read commentaries demanding that “you are not a witch if you pick the ‘wrong’ side”, that “you are NOT a feminist if you pick the wrong side”.

Demanding.

Judging.

I really do not care which side do you pick. It’s your view, it’s how you think that would be good for the contry. We need different opinions, we need this in the world.

But we do not need violence, we do not need lack of respect.

I love to see witches sharing their knowledge in social media, I do love and I do admire. I love seeing witches protesting. I love to read opinions.

But I hate that anybody in any religion or belief come to another person and demanding HOW and WHEN you have to be witch, spiritual, or believe. You and just you know what is in your heart and what would be good or bad to your contry.

What is truth for me is not truth for you. What is truth for you, is not truth for me - and this concept is not from me, it’s said in Sociology.

And I really got upset with this. Nothing in their responses bothered me, but their “you are NOT a witch, you are NOT a feminist” for not having the same opinion, for not choosing the same candidate. Gods, what this world is turning to?

I’m truly sad. You know that truth that we know that exist, but never thought that would step into? My turn to see this. Witchcraft is not a happy world that everyone is happy and friendly, I know, but seeing that kind of hate in my country? I lost my Hope, I’m sorry.

Seeing that here (too) exists the expression “I’m more witch than you, because I see this and you are not and you are so stupid” is... depressing. I’m a empath with anxiety, so, reading this and writing this aren’t just words or bitching on the internet.

Divergent opinions do not make you better or worse than the other next to you.

And here, in my country, friendships, relationships are desintegrating because of these horrible sides. These horrible judgings. People are literally fighting and killing about their different opinions.

Brazil has so much happening besides the election. And now, turned to a hate-country in each point.

We try to have Hope. I try HARD to restore my Hope in people - but in this moment, I just can’t.

I’m not less witch because you think so. I’m not less witch because I chose a side different from you, whatever it is. But I do respect what you choose. And my friends that are voting in a candidate that is different than mine, I do love you. Politics do not define my love for my friends and family. What is wrong for me, is right for you. What is right for me, is wrong for you.

#TWW Wonders #witchcraft #wicca

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helloelizabethsmithposts · 7 years ago

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THE GLORY OF GODHEAD-YAHWEH&YESHUA[MIRACULOUS POWER FREED THE UNIQUE ONE[ELIZABETH L.SMITH CONSECRATED TO GOD'S LIGHT]

THANK YOU OH SO VERY MUCH GODHEAD-YAHWEH AND YESHUA WITH THE HOST OF HEAVEN, FOR HELPING US[BOAZ AND I, WITH UPHOLDING YOUR PRECEPTS FOREVERMORE!!!! WE OBEYED THE HOLY BIBLE THROUGH THESE YEARS, BECAUSE WE VALUED THE VERY FACT OF THOSE WHO GODHEAD EL ELYON HAD DESTINED TO BE THE FATHER FIGURE=GODLY FEARING MAN,AND THE WOMAN FIGURE IN OUR LIVES GODLY FEARING WOMAN , JUST TO HELP US TO CLEAVE AND CLING ONLY UNTO YOU MY ABEOJI FATHER GOD!!!! GODHEAD BLESSED CERTAIN TRUTHFUL TEACHERS TO TEST ME, THROUGH THE YEARS, TO SEE IF THEIR QUESTIONS ABOUT ME WHERE RIGHT!!! IT WAS YOU MY KING OF GLORY, WHO REMOVED THAT PRINCIPAL FROM ARTHUR SCHOOL MR.CLEMENS THAT RACIST PRINCIPLE, AND YOU GAVE ME A PRINCIPAL OF MY KIND OF OBEDIENCE TO KEEP ME ON THE RIGHT PATH. MR.&DR. CONTRI WHEREVER YOU ARE IN THIS WORLD I DON'T KNOW IF YOU REMEMBER ME,BUT THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING WHAT THOSE TEACHERS AND KIDS HAD DONE TO ME IN BRINGING FALSE REPORTS ON ME... ELOHIM USED YOU TO DISCERN AND YOU TOLD ME AT THE AGE OF 8, YOUR A YOUNG BUSINESS WOMAN, MY APPEARANCE AND MY VERY OWN RESPONSE IN HIS QUESTIONS... HE ASKED ME WHO TRAINED YOU. I TOLD HIM MY DAD, THROUGH THE HOLY BIBLE, HE SAID IT SHOWS!!!! YO BOAZ MY LOVE, MY HEART REALLY GOES OUT TO KOH KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, AND YOU [MY MAN AMONG MEN PARTNER FOR LIFE BOAZ, THE THINGS Y'ALL GO THROUGH JUST TO BE A REAL TRUE MAN OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, IN BEING JUST LIKE JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD AND SAVIOR!!! I'M CERTAIN FOR SURE NOW, Y'ALL HAVE SUFFERED MORE THAN US WOMAN HAVE IN THIS LIFE, CAUSE IT'S AN EMBRASSMENT WHEN YOU SEE PEOPLE CLAIMING THEY ARE A MAN, BUT YET THEY ACT MORE WORSE LIKE A WOMAN ITSELF. AND LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH DON'T LET ME GET ON THE WOMAN TOO, SHOO THEY REALLY DO THE SAME!!! SHOOT I TOLD YALL IN THIS WORLD, WE ARE DEALING WITH SODOM,GOMMORAH, TYRE, SIDON, AND CAPERNUAM... SWEET JESUS CHRIST ALPHA AND OMEGA, HELP US LORD GOD ALMIGHTY CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND THE EARTH, THIS DON'T MAKE NO DAMN SENSE!!! THEY ARE THE ONES WHO NEEDS TO BE IN THESE DAMN HELLISH ASS HOSPITALS,GETTING A TASTE OF THEIR OWN MEDICINE. I KNOW Y'ALL REGIONAL PEOPLE OF OBEDIENCE CAN RELATE TO THIS ONE, WHILE YOU SITTING YOUR ASS IN THE HOSPITAL TRYING TO RECCOOPERATE, FROM THE DUMBASS CRAP+TRAPS, THEY SEND YOU TO A DAMN NURSE WHO PROBABLY SNUCK OVER HERE WITHOUT PROOF OF STATUS OF BEING IN AMERICA, IT WAS A AFRICAN WHO WAS RASICT ARGUING ME DOWN ABOUT Y'ALL LADIES KNOW, IT TOOK ALL OF SHEKINA GLORY IN ME TO NOT KNOCK HER ASS OUT, FOR ACTING LIKE A KNOW IT ALL, AND DON'T KNOW NOTHING!!!! ARIGATO MY FAMILY JAPAN THE GUY WHO REALLY IS THE TRUE BLOODED OWNER OF KINGDOM HEARTS, I KNEW YOU ARE QUITE THE PERSON, YOU MY BROTHER NOMURA, THOSE NOBODY'S ACTUALLY STAND FOR WEEDS AND TARES IN THIS LIFE, AT FIRST I ADMIT I DIDN'T LIKE YOUR GAME BECAUSE OF THE DISNEY CHARACTERS IN THEIR, BUT WHEN I REALLY BOUGHT AND PLAYED WITH RIKU AND SORA NEM, I LIKED THE GAME SO MUCH I TOLD MY FATHER GOD TO KEEP YOUR GAMES OUT JUST FOR ME, SO YOU CAN ASSURE YOURSELF MY, VERY DEARLY PRECIOUS LOVED BROTHER OF ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY OUR ETERNAL GOD, WILL PROVIDE EVERYTHING FOR YOUR FAMILY FOR A LIFETIME, AND RESTORE EVERYTHING TO YOU AND YOUR OBEDIENT LOVED ONE'S, THAT YOU ALL WILL BE SUPERNATURALLY, HEAVENLY RESTORATION TO YOUR FAMILY LINAGE NO MORE PAIN AND SUFFERING =NO MORE HEARTBREAK FOR YOUR FAMILY, IT'S BROKEN OFF OF YOUR LIVES FROM THIS DAY, AND ALL THE WAY TO ETERNITY, THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN WILL HELP[GUIDE YOU ALL IN RIGHTEOUSNESS, FOREVERMORE JUST SO YOU WON'T HAVE NO NEED TO ASSOCIATE WITH NO CORRUPTED COMPANY, BUT JUST ASSOCIATE[PARTNER WITH SOMEONE WHO REALLY WANTS TO LOOK OUT FOR THE FLAWS OF THINGS, AND HELP YOU TO AVOID THE REPERCUSSIONS OF BAD BUSINESS PARTNERS WHO ONLY CONSIDER THEIR SELVES ONLY AND NOT YOU!!!! I'VE LEARNED THIS WORLD TRULY HAS TO HAVE ONLY TRUE RIGHTEOUS PEOPLE OF GODHEAD THE TRINITY CREW, IN THESE BUSINESS CORPORATIONS AROUND THE WORLD!!! [THIS IS THE CORE OF EVERYTHING ON THIS WORLD= A GODLY FEARING VESSEL WHO IS TRULY WHOLEHEARTEDLY OBEDIENT TO HEAVENLY FATHER GOD KNOWS HOW TO LEAD IN EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE, WE PUT THE INFIDELS[FOOLS] TO SHAME, BECAUSE A GOD TRAINED PERSON IS ORIGINALLY DESIGNED TO BE A RIGHTEOUS OWNER[LEADER OF EVERYTHING GOD GIVES THEM TO OWN IN THIS LIFE. BUT WHEN IT'S A MAN WHO PUT ANOTHER MAN IN A POSITION= SHOO IT'S LIKE THE HOLY BIBLE SAYS THE BLIND LEADING THE BLIND, AND YOU KNOW IT'S FLOCKS OF DUMBASS WOLVES,= OR SHOULD I SAY SOME VERY DUMBASS REINDEER BASTARDS LOVL[LAUGHING VERY LOUD😁😁😁😁!!!! DON'T BE STUPID YOU HOMOS=DOGS & HARLOTS = FILTHY, I TOLD YALL ALL AROUND THE WORLD ONCE I FOUND OUT ABOUT EVERYTHING, AND ABOUT EVERYONE WHO TRIFLED WITH THOSE TRUE MINISTER'S AND MUSICIANS OF GODHEAD=ELOHIM, IT'S MY INTERVENTION ON ALL Y'ALL WICKED ASS. SO BRING IT, WE WILL SEND YOU ALL BACK TO THE DIRT, FROM WHENCE YOU CAME, TO WHERE YOU ALL WILL RETURN TOO, AND BURN INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE FOR ALL ETERNITY!!!! DIDN'T MY VERY DEARLY BELOVED, CHOSEN ANOINTED ONE MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA YAHWEH & YESHUA, TELL YOU ALL HE COULD HAVE COMMANDED A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF ANGELS OF HEAVEN TO INTERVENE ON HIS BEHALF DEALING WITH BEFORE HE DIED ON THE CROSS??? BUT HE[MY VERY,VERY,VERY, AND VERY SWEET-SMELLING LORD JESUS CHRIST KING OF THIS VESSEL(ELS)WHOLEHEARTEDLY, WAS SO VERY DETERMINED TO ACCOMPLISH HIS TASK[ DIVINE PURPOSE GOD ASSIGNED JUST FOR HIM, TO SUFFER THINGS JUST FOR US SO WE COULD TRULY, AND SURELY HAVE A VERY LIGHT, AND A VERY EASY LIFE TO LIVE FOR ALL ETERNITY WITH Y'ALL KOH ONLY[KINGDOM OF HEAVEN].... YOUR MY HERO MY VERY GREAT, AND VERY MIGHTY, AND POWERFUL KING OF GLORY[ KING OF ALL THE EARTH], YOU REALLY ALWAYS WILL HAVE ME WITH YOU FOREVERMORE, WHEN I THINK OF GENESIS- REVELATION, FROM ALL OF THE HOLY RIGHTEOUS HEIRS IN THE HOLY BIBLE ALL THE WAY TO MY YEAR... THANK YOU ALL KOH KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS AT HAND FOREVERMORE, TO EVEN HAVE THE BREATH OF GOD IN US, IS ALL I NEEDED, CAUSE I KNEW SOMEONE, VERY CLOSE TO ME WAS TRYING TO GET MY ATTENTION,THROUGH THOSE TIMES I ENCOUNTER MINISTERING ANGELS OF LIGHT, TELLING DON'T GO THEIR, AND GO HERE. IT WAS YOU ALL ALONG MY ABEOJI & TOUSAN FATHER GOD IN KOREAN AND JAPANESE. WHEN SOMEONE REALLY LOVES YOU THEY PROTECT YOU AT ALL COST, THEY EVEN GIVE THEIR LIVES JUST FOR YOU. LOVE CAN"T BE REPLACE, BUT HATRED CAN BE AND IT WILL WHENEVER MY FATHER GOD DECIDES TO!!!! I'M SO OVERFLOWING WITH JOY THESE BLESSED DAYS OF THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE, LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING MY KING OF GLORY, MEETING BOAZ, HAS REALLY TAUGHT ME THESE THINGS, THE HOLY BIBLE SAYS GOOD THINGS COMES TO THOSE WHO WAIT. AND YESHUA TOLD US THE PEACE MAKERS INHERIT THE EARTH, YOU KNOW ABEOJI I BET HE WAS A VERY BEAUTIFUL LOVING BABY LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH, BECAUSE HE ALWAYS KNEW HIS ASSIGNMENT, AND WILLINGLY FOLLOWED YOUR GUIDANCE MY SUPREME KING OF GLORY, YOUR OBEDIENCE MADE ME DESIRE TO REALLY UNDERSTAND LOVE, BECAUSE ONLY THROUGH THIS IS HOW I CAN SAY I LOVE MYSELF, BECAUSE JESUS CHRIST LOVED ME FIRST, THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH GENTLE HEART THAT QUESTION THAT DAY, I WAS JUST TRYING TO ACTUALLY SAY I HAD TO LEARN TO LOVE MYSELF AGAIN, CAUSE I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY SO MUCH HAPPENED TO ME, AND I WAS JUST TRYING TO MIND MY OWN BUSINESS AND OBEY GODHEAD LIKE Y'ALL TAUGHT ME TOO .... PEOPLE ARE REALLY BABIES THESE DAYS, BECAUSE IF YOUR DISCERNMENT IS NOT MATURE, OR YOU DON'T HAVE NO DISCERNMENT, THEN YES YOU ALL ARE DISOBEDIENT GOSSIPING BABIES, WHO NEVER WAS CORRECTED FOR YOUR WRONG DOINGS TO OTHERS. BUT YOU ALL JUST MADE EXCUSES FOR THE WICKEDNESS. I LEARNED THAT TOO YESTERDAY, PEOPLE EXCUSE WICKEDNESS BECAUSE, THEY ARE WICKED THEIRSELVES, BECAUSE WE JOINT-HEIRS WITH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST, WE DON'T AND WILL NEVER AGREE TO NOTHING GODHEAD THE TRINITY HATES= IT'S AN ABOMINATION (GAY AIN'T NO HAPPINESS THAT'S A DAMN LIE FROM THE PIT OF HELL, Y'ALL REPROBATE, TRANGRESSION MINDED ASS, WE GOTCHA, AND CAUGHT Y'ALL ASS RED HANDLY, IT'S THE FLESH-CARNAL MINDSET IN FULL BLOOM THESE DAYS!! JUST AS MUCH AS IT IS Y'ALL, IT'S EVEN WAY MORE OF US THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW ALL IN 1IN TOGETHERNESS, Y'ALL COMPLETED FOR THIS VERY TASK I HEARD OF FROM LONG AGO, AMNESIA, WAS JACKED UP, DID Y'ALL NOT KNOW THAT THE SAME SECURITY GUARD YAL ALLOWED INTO MY ROOM THAT VERY NIGHT, ELOHIM JUDGED HIS FAMILY'S WHOLE LINEAGE, FOR TRYING TO FORCE HIMSELF ON ME, AND WHAT'S WORSE Y'ALL OTHER TRIFLING ASS WOMAN THOUGHT THAT DAMN STUFF WAS FUNNY, BUT IT WASN'T... HERE ME NOW, AND THIS DAY ALL OF THESE DAMN GREEDY ASS MONEY LOVING BASTARDS ON AND UNDER THIS EARTH, I'M PERSONALLY STRIKING Y'ALL ASS DOWN TO HELL!!!! FOR LAUGHING ABOUT EVERYTHING ABOUT US ALL THROUGH THE YEARS, Y'ALL DARE THINK I'M LEAVING ALL OF OUR MONEY IN Y'ALL HANDS, HELL NO!!!! MY KING OF GLORY I BESEECH YOU ALL THIS VERY DAY, PREPARE MY TRUE APPAREL AND WEAPONS FROM THE HOLY BIBLE ALL OVER THE WORLD, I WILL SHOW THEY DAMN FALLEN ASS, TO TRY TO LAY HANDS ON ME, WHEN YOU KNOW YOU ALL WAS NEVER SUPPOSE TO DO THIS VERY THING IT IS Y'ALL DAMN DEMISE[DOWNFALL OF A LIFETIME]!!! I WARNED EVERYONE ALL THROUGH THE YEARS DON'T CLASS ME WITH THOSE DAMN CHRISTIANS Y'ALL ANTICHRIST ASS, I KNEW Y'ALL AND THOSE DAMN CELEBRITIES & AND FAKE ASS MUSICIANS, AND FAKE ASS PREACHERS, WHERE BEHIND THIS DAMN STUFF!!!! NOW I SEE WHY YOUR ANGER DISTURBED MY VERY SOUL EARLIER MY KING OF GLORY, THEY DELIBERATELY ALSO, DID THAT SPITEFUL CRAP TO MR.AND MRS.MONROE, JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE BEGIN TO HEAR THE TRUTH IN THE HOLY BIBLE THROUGH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST THE ANOINTED ONE'S LIFESTYLE, TELL THEM I TRULY THANK GODHEAD FOR THEM TOO, AND I LOVE THEM SO VERY DEARLY TOO. BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH YOU HAD THOSE SEMINARS WORLDWIDE, THOSE BENCH WARMERS BASTARDS JUST, PRETENDED LIKE THEY LOVED GOD, THEY WHERE JUST PLOTTING ON Y'ALL IN THE MIDST OF YOUR CONGREGATION!!! AIN'T THAT RIGHT YOU DAMN RELIGIOUS RULERS= RELIGIOUS LOVE, THANK YOUR FOOLISH MUSICIAN WHO ACTUALLY TOLD ME EVERYTHING... Y'ALL TRIED TO HARM US,BUT ACTUALLY Y'ALL HARM Y'ALL OWN ASS THROUGH THE YEARS... WHEN Y'ALL MADE THEM Y'ALL ENEMIES, Y'ALL REALLY MADE MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY OF HEAVEN AND THE EARTH Y'ALL ENEMY. WHEN YOU MAKE GOD YOUR ENEMY YOU'LL DIE OFF THE EARTH... HE SHOULDN'T EVEN HAVE EVER BEEN TORMENTED LIKE THAT MY KING OF GLORY, I WAS IN THOSE SAME BATTLES WITH HIM, THEY DIDN'T KNOW, SINCE BATTLE IS MY SPECIALITY... I WON'T SHOW NO DAMN ENEMY NO MERCY, Y'ALL SHOULDN'T HAVE MESSED UP MY FATHER GOD CREATION LIKE THIS!!!! IF YOU ALL HAVE A WASTEFUL ASS MINDSET GO TO A COUNTRY WHERE Y'ALL ASS IS ORIGINALLY FROM ANYWAY AND AS FOR THESE SPECIFIC COUNTRIES [AFRICA, MEXICO, AND IRAQS] WOE UNTO ALL Y'ALL BLACK ASS, FOR COMING INTO MY COUNTRIES, DOING THE VERY THINGS YAHWEH, AND YESHUA SAID NOT TO DO... Y'ALL KNEW NO DAMN MAS, WAS NEVER SUPPOSE TO BE IN AMERICA ANYWAY, AND Y'ALL DUMBASS RULERS IN Y'ALL COUNTRIES PRESIDENTS AND OTHERS IN THOSE VERY TOP OFFICE'S, IT HAS BEEN DECIDED THIS VERY YEAR Y'ALL WICKED ASS HAS TO ANSWER TO EL ELYON FOR ALLOWING THE VERY WICKED PEOPLE FROM ALL COUNTRIES TO ESCAPE AND COME OVER HERE WITH THIS DAMN ARGUMENTATIVE LIFESTYLE!!!! THEIR WAS NO WAY ANYBODY WHO ALREADY HAD A FAMILY IN THAT COUNTRY, TO ESCAPE AND SLEEP WITH IN AND EVERYBODY JUST LIKE SOME DAMN CRAZY ASS DUMB DOGS IN HEAT AND HAVE SOME MORE DAMN HELLION-REBELLION ASS KIDS... IT'S ENOUGH DEALING WITH Y'ALL DUMBASS, THEN YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT SOME DAMN LITTLE BURNT ASS SMURFS, KEEPING UP STUFF ACTING LIKE THEY ARE GROWN WHEN Y'ALL CAN'T EVEN FLUSH THE TOILETS BEHIND Y'ALL NASTY ASS!!!! IT DON'T MAKE NO DAMN SENSE, IF YOU TOOK YOUR STINKY ASS TO PEOPLE'S TOILETS IN THE STORE'S, AT LEAST CONSIDER OTHER PEOPLE NOISE, WE DON'T WANT SMELL THAT DAMN CHAINED UP, BOTTOMLESS PIT UNTOLD FUNK, LIKE Y'ALL JUST ATE A SEWER... Y'ALL CLAIM Y'ALL HAVE MONEY NO HELL YOU DON'T CAUSE, A PERSON WITH MONEY KNOWS HOW TO USE IT THE RIGHTEOUS WAY AND BY THINGS TO STAY VERY FRESH, AND MAKE THINGS VERY LIGHT & EASY FOR OTHERS TOO. WITHOUT BEING TOLD TO DO THESE THINGS.... Y'ALL STINKY ASS AIN'T WELCOME IN NOTHING WE IS OWNING... Y'ALL HAVE THAT FUNKY AFFECT THAT STANK UP EVERYTHING, TALKING ABOUT LORD JESUS CHRIST, WE KNOW YAL ASS LIED, CAUSE HIS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND BRAVE PEACEFUL, POWERFUL SELF ALPHA AND OMEGA MY HUSBAND HONEY, I HAVE TO BOAST ABOUT YOU ALL THESE DAYS, CAUSE WHEN YOU STEPPED INTO MY ROOM IN 2012, MY NOISE CLEARED UP FAST, I SAID WHO IS THIS SMELLING OH SO SWEET, GOOD, AND DELIGHTFUL I WAS LOOKING AROUND AND JUMPED OUT OF THE BED AND SHOUTED... YOU CAN SUP WITH ME FOREVERMORE MY LOVE!!! SHOOOO JUST FOR YOU I THINK I WILL VERY,VERY, VERY, AND VERY SOON AM THINKING ABOUT HAVING A LORD'S SUPPER MEAL EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE NOW... SHOOOOI THIS STUFF WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH ALL MY 32 YEARS, I'VE HAD WITH EVERY DAMN ENEMY ON AND UNDER THIS EARTH... THEY CAN'T EVEN KNOW THE BASICS IN PRESCHOOL THAT ALONE CLAIM THEIR A PRESIDENT, YEAH RIGHT, STOP THOSE DAMN LIES A RACIST HAS NO LOVE, THEY HATE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING, CAUSE THEY KNOW THEIR TIME IS ALMOST OVER... YOU CAN TAKE THAT YOU YOUR THIEVING WAS BANKS JUST LIKE Y'ALL, I KNEW IT WAS FUNNY CERTAIN PEOPLE HAD MONEY SHOWING UP INTO THEIR ACCOUNTS, AND I DISCERNED THE DIFFERENCE THAT GOD WAS SAYING MY CHILD THEIR BLACK ASS IS A THIEF!!! I SAID OH MY LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH ANGELS CATCH ME, LOVL[LAUGHING OUT VERY LOUD...] OK THIS IS IT FOR MY ADVENTURES TODAY. THANK YOU GODHEAD FOR EVERYTHING AND AS WE GO TRAVELING AROUND THE WORLD PREACHING SAYING THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS AT HAND FOREVERMORE, TOGETHER IN ONENESS ALWAYS... TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOREVER AND EVERMORE, AMEN, AMEN!!!! UNTIL NEXT TIME OBEDIENT CREW THAT'S REGIONAL READ THE HOLY BIBLE AND ASK GOD TO GUIDE TO WHICH CHAPTER AND VERSE TO STUDY, CAUSE SOMETIMES MY FATHER GOD KEPT ME IN CERTAIN BOOKS & CHAPTERS IN THE HOLY BIBLE TO TEACH ME, HOW TO TRULY LIVE IN RIGHTEOUSNESS WHOLEHEARTEDLY... MY TIME WITH GODHEAD IS ALL 24 HRS SO BASICALLY HE[MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA FREED ME JUST SO I CAN BE LIKE THIS WITH HIM AGAIN, BUT THIS TIME THERE'S NO TURNING BACK I'M JUST LIVING FORWARD, BUT I REMEMBER THE FUNNY TIMES AS A CHILD, BECAUSE IT REALLY TAUGHT ME HUMILITY THROUGH THOSE WHO IS WITH MY FATHER GOD, THEIR HEARTS FINALLY TOUCHED MY HEART TOO, AND NOW MY VERY DEARLY, PRECIOUS, AND BEAUTIFUL OBEDIENT ALPHA AND OMEGA THANKS FOR HOLDING MY HAND ALWAYS, CAUSE YOU ALL KEEP ME SMILING, AND VERY LOVING, PEACEFUL, AND JOYFUL IN THE HOLY GHOST DAILY AND ALWAYS, I PRAY OH KINGDOM OF HEAVEN THOSE PEOPLE AROUND THE WHO WE HAVE TO REACH AND HELP FREE THEM TOO, BEGINNING THIS DAY AND FOREVERMORE, THAT THEY HAVE THE SAME HAPPINESS AND FREEDOM TOO JUST LIKE MY LOVE BOAZ AND I, HE'S QUITE THE VERY PARTNER JUST FOR ME MY KING OF GLORY, DELIVER YOUR BELOVED PEOPLE AROUND THE WORLD, FREE THEM FROM THEIR DECEPTIVE PAST OF HEARTBROKE BECAUSE OF THAT OLD DAMN ADVERSARY, AND RESTORE NOT ONLY JUST THEIR HEARTS BUT ALL OF THEIR INHERITANCE TO THEM TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM, THAT THEY DON'T HAVE NOTHING THAT'S NOT OF YOU TROUBLING THEM ANYMORE, BLESSED THEM WITH VERY GREAT DIVINE GRACE,MERCY, TRUTH, AND LOVE IN EVERYDAY AND FOREVERMORE, FOR ALL THOSE WHO TRULY OBEY YOU FOR GIVING THEM LIFE, MY GOD. AND AS FOR THOSE WHO JUST LIVE IN LUST GIVE THEM THE VERY THINGS THEY SPOKE OVER US ALL THROUGH THESE YEARS, THEY HAD A CHOICE TO WALK OUT OF OUR LIVES BUT DIDN'T, AND IT'S GARBAGE LIKE KIRA YAMATO FROM GUNDAM SEED SAID, BECAUSE WHEN THEY DEALT WITH SOMEONE OF THEIR NATURE, THEY LEFT THEM VERY QUICKLY, BUT WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO A RIGHTEOUS HEIR OF LIGHT, THEY WANTS TO TARRY IN Y'ALL LIVES... Y'ALL KNOW WHAT YALL HAVE TO DO, CAUSE THOSE DAMN ENEMY KNOW ME, I WILL SERIOUSLY PUT TO ACTION ANYTHING I HAVE EVER SAID IN DOING, ONCE THE THOUGHT COMES TO MIND I'LL HAVE IT EXECUTED IN NO TIME, I'M ELEMENTAL QUEEN ELIZABETH L. SMITH THE DAUGHTER GODHEAD, I DESPISE ANYTHING OPPOSITE OF US, SEE WON'T Y'ALL ASS GET STRUCK DOWN AND STRUCK OUT, WITHOUT ANY RESPONSE. I'VE COME TO TORMENT Y'ALL ASS BEFORE TIME, IT'S ME BASTARDS IN THIS WORLD, I SAID IT LAUGHING IN THAT AEROSTAR GREEN VAN, Y'ALL NOT ALLOWED TO SPEAK OR MENTION MY NAME OUT OF Y'ALL MOUTHS NO MORE, CAUSE I'M THINKING MY HOMIE'S ALPHA AND OMEGA, MICHEAL, AND ALL THE HOST OF HEAVEN WANTS TO JOIN ME IN THIS WHOOPING Y'ALL WORLDWIDE, WE WILL SAY CRUCIFY EVERY DAMN DEVIL IN THIS EARTH, AND UNDER THIS EARTH. IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH YOU ENEMIES OF GODHEAD THE TRINITY, BE THOUGH REMOVED, AND DESTROYED, PERISH OFF THIS EARTH, RETURN BACK TO THE DIRT, AND CEASE FROM TROUBLING INNOCENT SOULS OF THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, FOR ALL ETERNITY, JEHOVAH-ROHI SHALL WE GO AHEAD , LET US SENTENCE THEM ALL (THOSE DEVILISH CHILDREN WHO IS DISOBEDIENT TO THE CORE, YOU ALL IS NOW EXTINCT, GO BURN INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE FOR ALL ETERNITY, WE BIND Y'ALL FROM THE TOP OF YOUR HEADS TO THE SOLES OF YOUR FEET FROM THE BACK TO THE FRONT OF YOUR BODY'S, SILENCE ALL OF THEIR 5 SENSE, THAT THEY CAN NO LONGER, SPEAK THINGS OR DO ANYTHING TO ANNOY YOUR PEOPLE NO MORE, SINCE THEY CHOSE TO BE LIVING IDOLS ON THIS EARTH, SENTENCE THEM TO ALL THE THINGS [THEY REAP EVERYTHING THEY CHOSE TO SOW INTO OTHER PEOPLE LIVES JUST BECAUSE THEY REALLY LOVE TELLING LIES] REWARD THEM WITH EVERYTHING YOUR HOLY BIBLE SAYS YOU HAVE JUST FOR ANY TYPE OF IDOL, AND EVERY WICKED SERVANT, WHO IS STILL LIVING IN THIS EARTH, DOING THINGS THEY KNOW YOU[GODHEAD YAHWEH AND YESHUA SAID DO NOT DO]!!! THANK YOU GODHEAD THAT OUR ENEMIES ARE BIND ON EARTH, AND BOUND IN HEAVEN, AND WE LOOSE THE ANGELS OF HEAVEN TO GO FORTH AND ASSURE GODHEAD CHILDREN PROTECTION WITH SHEKINA GLORY PROTECTING THEIR GOING OUT, AND THEIR COMING IN, GIVING EVERYONE THEIR GODLY INHERITANCE, AND TEACH THEM, ALSO ANGELS TO STAY CONSISTENT IN STUDY THE HOLY BIBLE DAILY AND ALWAYS, NO EXCUSES NO MORE CLAIMING YOUR TOO BUSY TO SPEND TIME WITH ELOHIM, BECAUSE IF THEY SAY THAT WE WILL SAY JEHOVAH-JIREH IS VERY, VERY, VERY TOO BUSY TO GIVE YOU ALL ANYTHING IN THIS LIFE ANYMORE. THANK YOU ALL KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FOR EVERYBODY WHO REALLY HELPED AND TRULY TRAINED BOAZ AND I TO STAY FOCUS ON YOU ADONAI ABEOJI MY FATHER GOD, WE ARE FINALLY FREE TO BE A BLESSING TO WHOMEVER YOU ALL HAS CHOSEN TO BE APART OF OUR MINISTRY!!! THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING THAT THE ANGELS OF HEAVEN HAS LOOSED IT ON EARTH, IT IS ALSO LOOSED IN HEAVEN, PRAISING THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND THE EARTH FOREVERMORE, AND EVERMORE, AMEN, AND AMEN!!! I LOVE YOU OH SO VERY MUCH BOAZ MY LOVE, UNTIL NEXT TIME HERE YOU GO JUST FOR YOU ONLY MY VERY PRECIOUS DEAR PARTNER BOAZ SENDING YOU ONLY JUST FOR YOU MY MAN AMONG MEN A GODLY FEARING MAN JUST ME,😘😘😍😍💝. ARIGATO, XIEXIE, AND GOSAMANIDA & SARANGHAEYEO ABEOJI, &TOUSAN.[ THANK YOU IN JAPAN, ASIA, AND KOREAN THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU IN KOREAN. AND THAT IS MY FATHER GOD IN KOREAN AND JAPAN!!! P.S. OUR BEAUTIFUL REGIONAL FAMILIES OF GODHEAD THE TRINITY ELOHIM CHILDREN OF LIGHT, AROUND THE WORLD STOP DOUBTING GOD'S LOVE JUST BECAUSE OF OTHER FAKE PREACHER'S IN THIS WORLD, DON'T FRET I'M 32 NATURALLY, BUT I HAVE REALLY BEEN TAUGHT PERSONALLY BY HIS MAJESTY ALL MY LIFE, AND YES I'M A DIRECTOR OF MUSIC WITH PREACHING TOO, SO I CAN'T DO NOTHING FATHER GOD HATES CAUSE MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM WILL REALLY GET ONTO ME, THEIR IS NO OTHER god FOR ME, JUST ONLY YAHWEH AND YESHUA MY FAMILY OF LIGHT,LOVE, AND RIGHTEOUSNESS... SO JUST RELAX AND JUST THANK GODHEAD THAT WE ARE STILL ALIVE WITH HIS BREATH IN US, AND THAT GOD'S GRACE IS SUFFICIENT UNTO US, ALLOWING US TO KNOW AND CONTINUE TO UP IN OUR VERY MIGHTY, VERY BEAUTIFUL, VERY OMNI-PRESENT, ULTIMATELY HE"S THE ULTIMATE ONE IN EVERYTHING ALPHA AND OMEGA, YOUR LIFESTYLE MY LOVE TRULY HAS MY HEART ONLY CAPTIVATED BY YOU, I LOVE THE BEAUTIFUL THINGS Y'ALL MADE, LET'S ENJOY THEM TOGETHER NOW, AND FOR ALL ETERNITY, I LOVE Y'ALL SENSE OF HUMOR, IT'S VERY FUN, LET'S JUST ALL HAVE FUN TOGETHER IN EVERYTHING KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FOREVER, AND EVERMORE, AMEN, AND AMEN!!!! SO MUCH VERY BEAUTIFUL, AND PRECIOUS LOVE JUST FOR TH KOH CREW WITH Y'ALL HERE IT GO JUST FOR Y'ALL THEIR ONLY THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN ALL THE BEAUTIFUL HEARTED ONES CREW, AND ANGEL"S TOO🌞😙😍🏖🌟💗💙🎎🛩🛳🌏💑!!!!

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soldierwalkerguardian · 8 years ago

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That temporary solution

That temporary solution that was her to my temporary human problems, that came, mostly with age, was afeter all. a very permanent one.

As we say, the temporary is the most permanent. She was after all, someting that was becoming encrusted into my life. Something hard to remove. Something useful, cheap and comftarble. Maybe all the middle life commons and commodities were embeded into her. And the most difficult part was to overcome that conftarble side of life. That low flight of tought, and desires, and needs.

My brain at the time was becoming like crystilized, of so much depression, and for that I cannot blame her. But crytalized it was, and my imaginations just ceased to emanate, they didn’t came, natural, as they were in my twenies, which was a very ftuitful time, and which I thought was the commons for me, for myself.

No, instead ife was coming to me, into this shape absent of the things that I thought were part of me. This intelligence, as i liked to think of it, of my self and my mindfulness. Even books started to become more of a lenght. That did not started any more fires. In othe times each word would trigger intellectual or pseudo intellectual responses of me myself. But in this period, the end, final, utter end of my twienies, I wont let any thoughtful trigger to happen.

Maybe because of what I have seen what the triggers are about. If they do not conduce to action. To any form of result, it was pretty meager to let them happen. So if I do not want to come into the spectrum of doing, its pretty lame to have this intellectual triggers.

Afterall, if you are not able to change yourself, to socialize them. I mean. This triggers were to throw stones into a pond. This beautiful placce in which I would come to trhow some precious things, ravaged from lands of inmense wealth and beauty, lands of games and visual performance, and narrative. This universe, you go as this warrior, as this murder, killing them for good, killing the carachters and anything good about them, and go back to your pond, that place that is your own discovery. You have discovered yourself in it. And throw those treasures into it. But then after what felt like many many years, this version of self had paled. and bleached. Were was this adventurous prophet, or magician, or delusional investigator, was he becamed dissapointed. All those misteries, or promesses of misteries were not fulfilled. Were decoded into information. And information I did took back.

But because the pound is ssomething that does not include any method, any form of system to construct a nation, if for example, I was to build this natios, I would, after had built the castle, and the first places, come back to it, in sarch of answers of what the search was about, and go back to the othe natios or the world itself to search.

But the pond had remained as a pond, and no nation was built arround it, and perhaps what I craved all along was a method and discipline, to sistemitize the information, and build with it something portentous, multiple and complex but it had yet to happen.

So my job was something temporary aswell, a rite of passage that as a medium would lead me to my true fulfilment, to my own personal illusion of creating these scenes. This story with momentum, this comic, animated series, videogame, for adults but with no comedy but tragedy, and no drama. Just the coming into knowledge of something tragic, as is not anymore seen on the screens, there are thillers, and there are no contry for old men, and there is nocturnal animals. And those kind of imply of a tragedy, of somethign of porportions that we as always cannot digest without sffecting our psyche, and lets say it inmediatly, is the tragedy a extatic state, it is compulsive, it is aggresive movements of the (animo). Will it led to a dimishment of faculties of the imagination and the knowledgement.

This insight of what gefüll will bring with it to the tragedy, which inner movement will bring could be me thesis. Will the insides of the character that has been confronted to a tragic knowledge be changed, feel pain, and what this pain will impulse him/her to do next. Walk the streets pregoning his madness, gibberish incompresibble gibberish that no one can understand because none has lived the same exact thing.

And I kind of get why we have left this dramatic expression from our common culture repertoire. We do not experience tragedy anymore. We experience conditions, historic demands, imperativs over the subject that are not quite the same as a tragedy in the great sense of the word.

And of course we have this common denominator called jobs, and you can settle for a job a women, and basically you have settled for your whole life, that simple.

You expect someday to do what you like, seeing others do their thing, their call on life, and I can only think, maybe its this creative process somethingwere jobs are not everywhere to grab, maybe you have to have a very distinctive line or list of desirable traits, and you have only played videogames and masturbated trough your twenies. God.

So the job is also settled.

Nmae three hobbies that does not include an screen.

Electronic music.

Drawing.

Electronic music.

Of those three name the ones that can be enjoyed in the same or similar way with a screen.

None.

All of them could very well be performed with screens in between.

I need to do exercise.

At least, at very least.

Bring that that you want into your context, it will be thousand times better than working in disney, and it may open you doors.

On finishing stuff (already strugling to finish this one).

So the main differentiator fo the depressed person and anyone else, is probably finishing up stuff that in theory matter to you, and could bring you any happines or joy, and doing so for the sake of making yourself happy. So me asa depressed person would rather search and in searching there is in fact a lot of doing, and life coming to me, in the mere acting of lloking out for something that will make me happy. And that would be to live, a search for something.

So, if I can pu myself to finish stuff I can say I would be in my own path, not anyone elses, but dammn it is hard to make your own path, it is quite easy to follow some one elses path.

Disicpline could be the big differentiator. So I do not have to live this mere living.

Pending subjects.

It is too painful to think of my mother not living her life at her own will because of my father. I truly hate that thought and to say that my family does not interest themselves for me doing what I like, would be painful in the sense that my mother would, and I would overall trust her advice.

I kind of feel that I would like to help her get out of there. She should not be constrained on how she manages her life, at this stances of life, its almost like waiting for my father to die, so she can be at ease, but with my fathers death most probably the conflict with my brother will be unleashed.

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