#god I've been holding this art since april

[wolfluna091]

Timelog- 07/12/2023 01:36:23

A dreadful night

[vdragon-creations]

TMayNT Day 13: Best Don

Day 13 of @tmaynt Prompt: Best Don!

Oh my sweet, how I've waited for this day! It should probably come as no surprise to anyone who fallows me or anyone who saw my Day 1 entry that Donnie is my favorite turtle! Hands down, no contest!

But here comes the hard part. Choosing my favorite! Gunna be honest, it's a very hard decision. Each Donnie has a quality to them that I just adore! Intelligence! I don't like to think of myself as that smart, at least not in the way Donnie is! And I love me some soft nerdy types! And when it comes to personality, it gets even harder to pick, because literally ALL of them are just precious.

87 is smart but a bit of a dork! 2003 is...goals. Sweet, kind, has a tiny bit of spice to him, and still has the skills to pay the bills! 2007, while not having much screen time, is a reliable man.

IDW, tbh, I've yet to read the comics in full, but from what I can see, he seems a lot like a mix of both 2003, 2007, and 87 Don. As in, while he's a little more softspoken then the others, he can still hold his own in a fight! And despite having been through some clearly otherworldly shit, he's a skeptic when it comes to magic. But I love the way they wrote him! (And his death scene still makes me cry! And seeing him still deal with pain from that incident is just *Chef's kiss*!)

2012....well...I don't have much to say about him. Frankly he's my least favorite out of the bunch, and all because the writers really wanted to play fanfic writer and they leaned whyyyyy too hard into the nerd stereotype. Resulting in making him borderline creepy to April. (Not that she's perfect either because goddess on a stick I'm not getting into that today.) The one thing I'll give him is that his sarcasm in this one made his very funny to hear in banter, and I apricate that they were trying to do more then just change the skin colors to make the boys stand out from one another. (But guys...really....the gap in the teeth was just not necessary..)

The Bayverse Donnie was one that had to grow on me a little, cause I'm part of the crowed that thought they looked a bit rough. But I agree that that's kinda the point, they're mutants. They more then likely would be a little rough looking irl. But after aa bit, he does start looking pretty cute anyway! And his voice is on par with 2003, in that he just sounds so sweet! I wanna hug him! (PLUS, THE FUCKER IS 6'8"! I'M 5'3"! And I do have a weakness for taller dudes. Bonus if they wear glasses! :3)

Now, for Rise. I was once part of the Cowaboomer crowed that thought that since RISE was so different from the other versions, it was there for ruined. I've since watched it, and the movie, and if anything, I've proven that I no longer think this way! RISE Donnie tho...he had to grow on me. At first I really didn't like him. His personality was such a stark contrast from all the other versions that it was almost like he was a whole new character! And with the art style of RISE being so different, his design was quite a jolt too. (The eyebrows are...a choice.) But after a while, that smug fucking smile had me feeling a type of way. The way he'd make me laugh was starting to become infectious! And the next thing I knew, I fell for this version too! Pretty hard I might say. And while 2003 Donnie is the sweetest bean to ever grace my screen, RISE became the living definition of the meme "I'm a luxury few can afford!"! And I love him!

After that, we had the batman cross over that brought us another Donnie! Once that I'm happy didn't lean too heavy on the other versions. He looked a little like 2012, but was like a gentle mix or 2003 and Bayverse! He also got a lot more lines and personality in that movie! (As well as a broken arm! RIP)

Then Mutant Mayhem showed up, and oh my god if he isn't the same insufferable anime fan I was when I was a teen! He made me laugh, and was still an adorable little dork!

And then we have Fortnite Donnie, who...i gotta be honest, I don't play Fortnite. So I'm not sure if he or the others get much of a personality or story outside of the same story of the turtles that we all know by now. So i can't judge him based on personality. But...I do like his design. Tho I will continue to say Fortnite had NO RIGHT to make him THAT damn fine!

In the end, I love all Donnies! Some more then others, but they all mean something to me! And it was hard to choose! but in the end, I chose the two that had the most influence on me!

[knbposting]

pinned post !

hello i'm robyn, and this is (obviously) a knb sideblog attached to @robynrileyart ♥ i'm (again, obviously) an artist and a writer and i've been making knb fanworks for over a decade now hehehe

here's my knb art tag!!!! in there you'll find mostly kagami because he's my little darling, and also aokaga because they're fucking stupid idiots and i hate them

(new) aokaga fics masterlist:

FINDING LOVE ON A THURSDAY. - set before the winter cup. pre-established unrequited pining. kagami helps momoi track down touou's elusive ace and discovers that perhaps they're more alike than he thought.

GROWING PAINS. - set after the winter cup but before vorpal swords. pre-established "unrequited" pining. it's a slow burn baby! kagami is having a very bad time on his mother's birthday, helped in no way by his dad calling him late at night. he bumps into aomine who "reluctantly" offers a helping hand.

APRIL SHOWERS. - set after the winter cup but before vorpal swords. pre-established. kagami and aomine get caught out in the rain during a one-on-one and head back to kagami's place to dry off. aomine continues to severely annoy him, and kagami really doesn't know why he puts up with him, but they end up having a really nice day. it's chill. aomine is... chill.

APRIL SHOWERS. (AOMINE POV) - have you ever wondered what aomine's thinking when he's glaring at kagami? have you ever wondered if he was, in fact, still annoyed that kagami tripped them up? have you ever thought: hey, what the fuck is aomine's problem? why can't he be normal? well, have i got a good fic for you

THE LONG WAY HOME. - kagami is injured and sad about it when aomine asks him out. what is it he could possibly want, they can't even play basketball today?! kagami gets himself hurt even worse and has to rely on aomine in order to get home (which is inconvenient because kagami has a crush on the guy and wants to appear as cool as possible to him at all times.)

HAND HOLDING COMPETITIONS. - kagami, aomine, kuroko, kise, and momoi are hanging out at maji's having crossed paths unexpectedly one night. aomine hasn't hung out with all of them together in a while but since when are kise and kagami such close friends? why are they getting along so well? it's so disgusting because kise is so ugly and stupid like... what does kagami even see in him? (read: this is in aomine pov and he gets BITCHY when he's jealous.)

SACRED COURAGE. - aomine is out of sorts during their one-on-one, and kagami is getting sick the fuck of it!!!!!! he confronts aomine, little did he realise that everything would be changing. yes, this is what you think it is. ohhhh my god.

[yayforocs]

Ohhhhhhhhhh My God okokok i'm going to be unpacking a lot here and i'm. oh my goodness i'm so excited there's stuff here i FORGOT about!!!!!! never posted anywhere would have been lost forever if i hadn't saved it on this flash drive!!!!!

OLD UNPOSTED ART LET'S GO (pt 1) (yes i'm doing multiple parts bc u can only post 30 images per post)

ohhhhhh man oh man ok i'm looking through and checking on like Each And Every One Of These to make sure they're not actually posted anywhere and m a n

ALRIGHT, cranking the clock alllll the way back to the start of my main blog, july 2012!!!

God ok this is fanart for a slamacow video, it's the like one music video he made :VVV good ol Cube Land!!

shadow of israphel!!!!!! what a series, my brother and i still quote a few lines from it. i actually did draw quite a lot more SoI fanart that never got posted, i'll have to go digging around and see if i can find it.... BUT atl now i know like!! timestamp for when i drew all that!!!

moving on to august 2012!

herobrine in a cloak ig

dklsfjsd did i not feel like drawing regular clothes or.

september 2012!!

genuinely i don't remember if i traced this over my laptop screen or if i just copied it down bc i was pretty good at just like lookin at stuff and replicating it, but it's erza from fairy tail!

october 2012 :V

i opened up a requests thread on the craftedmovie forums, and lookin back it looks like i only ever posted one of them, wack

so here's the rest!

we've got a gamzee makara! we've got 'a brown haired girl (brown eyes may have also been specified? i don't quite remember but i'm p sure brown haired girl was) standing next to fluttershy'! who i actually, since no other specifics on the girl were given, drew to be the protag from the animation Crayon Dragon! and then the third one is the requester, trixomaniac, sitting on a rainbow :VV

november 2012!

we've got more requests!

first one was i don't remember if it was just 'chicken man' or actually the requester's (gafloff was the name) skin but the request was for the person to be holding a butter sword standing over a zombie piglin or something along those lines :V i had no context of skydoesminecraft so i remember being very confused like. why a sword made out of butter XD

and then the second is shadowflare86, holding a gun pointing at the viewer :V whiCH! i had no idea how to draw so i did my best to imitate a pose from this wonderful animation called Serenade to Miette

...looking at this now tho i think it just looks like it could be a fantastic reaction image klshdg

speaking of

i also. did this? i don't remember any context for it tho, i think it may have been another one of the requests?

on to the next folder! here we skip december, then looks like i've posted everything in january, then there's no february folder, so on to march 2013!

starting out strong with this one lskdfjs

so i did actually post like the big middle drawing there, but it was posted before i colored, and also before i drew the other stuff on the page, but yes cue the homestuck art >:J starting with some runawaystuck fanart (and actually i know i added in a little jade and karkat to that page at some point, not sure if i scanned it again later after i added them or not)

copied the talksprites for funsies :V rip jade ig

ohohohoho i don't even remember what the context for this one was but i do definitely remember that i had fun with it X)

OH RIGHT THIS ONE YES IT'S NOT HOMESTUCK BUT!!

FAIRY QUEEN LADY!! THE ORIGINAL DRAWING OF HER!! she was based on a Really Funky Graph i made one time messing around with inputs:

i had a sliding phone so that's unfortunately as good a picture as it's gonna get bc i don't think i can recreate it 😅

april 2012!

cleverbot doodles! kldsfjs i found the post i'd made of the colored drawing i did, and saw in the tags that i'd said ''#website characters #yeah i think there's a name for it but idk what it is'' gijinka friend. the word you are looking for is gijinka

and i had a lot of fun with this gijinka :V

GOD SS PAINT!!!! i think i never posted this bc i was worried it looked too much like he was choking her skdlfj

-oh wow this is. this picture is a lot smaller than i thought it was. slkdfj. anyway another that i can't remember if it's a trace or a replication but it's a yellow from the pokespe manga! please go read it if u haven't it's so so so good

skip to july 2013!

i'm like 90% certain this is a replication. but there's still a 10% of uncertainty. regardless, it's de nam from final fantasy crystal chronicles!

next up is august 2013 :V

ib time ib time

i doodled an au where garry was also a kid :V i think we (mogi and i) also joked around about like. a teenager au? they're both teens? i don't think any doodles came of it tho

october 2013, featuring doodles i know i drew in july bc i remember drawing them sldkfjds oh well

these are a bunch of random ocs i came up with as like. a. ok it's not like a homestuck au bc it doesn't involve any of the comic characters in any way but this was a group of ocs i came up with that played through their own version of sburb and. everyone died but one person. i never came up with names or anything for any of them, it's literally like just what is there visible on the paper is all i had for them 😅 i'm p sure i redrew these guys a few years later, but i don't think i ever scanned it.

-ah i cannot upload any more, let me. multi-part this.

[jocelynships]

You know I've gotta ask blue for Kurt, but also orange & pink for Draxum!! Genuinely curious what y'all would do together haha. Love you Joce 💙

Hehe thank you, Emily!! These will be fun, so let's go!

We'll answer for the blue boy first!

Blue: What is their love language?

Oh, physical touch for sure! Kurt's a very physically affectionate guy! Him and my S/I are always holding onto each other in some way shape or form. Sometimes their arms are around each other, if they're not holding hands then their pinkies are intertwined, or his tail is curling around her in some way shape or form!!

And now for the goat man!

Pink: What is your favorite thing about their appearance?

Oh my god where do I start I legit love everything about his appearance

Okay. I think. I'm just gonna say his face. Like. I can't pick just one aspect about his face, I love it all. His pretty golden eyes, his cheekbones, his nose, his lips??? And listen. I love the fact they didn't make him a "conventionally attractive" young guy. Like, I will say that yes, he is almost human looking, all you have to do is remove the goat ears & nose, and give him a human skin tone and that's all you gotta change to make him look human! But he is so cool looking! They could have made him a generically attractive guy, but they made him an older guy, gave him wrinkles too! And I LOVE it!!!

So many people don't like how he looks without the mask and ya know what? Anyone who thinks that is a COWARD. He's handsome as hell, and I like him better without the mask tbh, even if the armor is a good look!

However, some artists have drawn him with his mask off, but the rest of the armor on. And it makes me go insanely feral. Like. I cannot say the thoughts I have about that man when I see art like that because I might scare some of y'all JDFHFDIJG

But seriously, I love his face so much. He's legit so handsome to me. I don't care what anyone says lmao. B.aron D.raxum is fine as hell and that's that!

Also those muscles. Need I say more.

Orange: What is your favorite date you’ve been on?

Oh goodness, I've been too caught up thinking about Joce and D.raxum's pre-dating shenanigans so much I haven't really thought about what type of dates they'd go on. 😳

And to be honest, D.raxum doesn't seem like the type to go out on fancy dates lol.

BUT WAIT ACTUALLY-

Okay, so it may not count as a "date" since it happens before they start dating, but it's the "Something There" moment where they both realize "Oh, this isn't a crush. I'm in love."

Joce and D.raxum get dragged to a day at Albertoland by April, the turtles, and one of my friend's S/Is!

And they're pretty much just trying to make sure none of the teens get into trouble, and Mikey wanted D.raxum to come out and have some bonding time with everyone.

And Joce and D.raxum get mistaken for a couple. Multiple times.

But also, it's where Joce starts to see D.raxum CAN be a good guy. He's a little awkward the whole time, not really knowing how to carry himself around other humans. He just got used to Joce, April, and my friend's S/I after all!

But him and Joce end up on their own while the teens go on some rides. Joce doesn't really trust carnival rides, it's a weird hang up she has, so she sticks back with D.raxum and the two bond some more. And in that moment, they both realize how much they fully enjoy each other's company. And man. Has the other always been so attractive?

I still gotta write out more details, but this is basically it! It's such a fun thing I have planned for them hehe.

Also man, sorry for rambling so much, but I Cannot Control Myself when it comes to D.raxum 😳

[fandom-trauma]

Hello hello! Ive been gone a while. Lots of things have happened, and I'm still in the thick of my final year project, but it's (mostly) coming to an end mid-Feb! Thought Id do a little post (mainly for me and the 4 followers I have) on my current WIPs Ive picked up, and what I plan to be doing. Personal update under the Read More.

First of all, I have like a million art and fic WIPs related to Immortal Desires and Perfect Match 2. No biggie, I just have... lots and lots of thoughts about Poly!PM MC and Poly!ID MC. Yes, this means I do have a fix-it fic about how that end of book confession goes... maybe even a rewrite of the entire last chapter... but hold that thought!

Now that I'm a little bit more versed in Twinery (see second point below for why), I'm a little bit tempted to make my rewrite interactive as well. Just text tho lol, but either way, an ending rewrite is a ways away, and also I kinda wanna wait till Bk2 is released to really start working on it. (I didn't realise ID was GOC so you bet I binged it within three fuckin days when I did. It's a bloody amazing book. I also finally finished my playthrough of PM2, so that explains why these books are giving me immense brainrot.)

SECONDLY, 'A Date with Bryce Lahela' is about halfway done! I'm not exactly sure if I've ever shared the idea publicly to the fandom, but this is the basic gist of it: Date is an attempt on my end of trying to recreate those TF Date Specials, but with the one and only Bryce Lahela. Cool, right? Unfortunately, it's only in text format, bc I'm learning Twinery Harlowe.

What's left of Date? When can I play it/a demo? Pronoun choices, smut scenes and equipment variations, a whole activity is uncoded, trackable achievements, load/save functionality, and after that it's just making sure the whole damn thing works. As for a demo... ;) .. ... Joking. The entire predicted gameplay is short enough to not really need a demo, so there won't be a public one. I aim to have this done by, god, hopefully end of the year? This damn thing's been sitting in my WIPs for two whole years, so I would really like it done and over with, haha, but it's a lot of work for one person.

THIRD, I have a 1.2k word rewrite of Foreign Affairs Ch12 Tatum diamond scene that has been in the making, and rotting away in my WIPs, since 2 April 2021. Honest to god, it's a little bit of a vent fic, and I've been slowly chipping away at it whenever I've been stressed. The rewrite isn't because I see the scene as bad, but I do wish there was a liiiiiittle more hurt/comfort in it lol.

FOURTH, well... I have a few Bryce x M!MC smut fics that, uh, really should be finished and see the light of day. Or, at least escape the WIP folder and experience the cool damp corner of my tumblr blog.

So, that's my WIPs so far! Personal stuff under the read more.

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My 3D animation final year project wraps up a couple of weeks before my graduation. I knew the workload was going to be larger than what I've had with my previous 2D animation projects, but boy it really hits different when you're actually working on it. I won't go into it too detailed, but if you're curious, feel free to ask about it!

My 2023 started off as a... mixed bag. Low lows and high highs, I guess. Won't go into it, but yeah, not great.

Me having Date in semi-working condition is purely because of a NYE group gift exchange and my hubris at making a working product within 2 weeks. It was... yeah, no, I've been humbled, but man was the result such an endorphin rush.

I've also got really into making custom content for The Sims 4, so that's where the bulk of my free time went, really. I'm active in a few TS4 discord servers, so if you see mothy-simmie, say hi :P

[ksouul]

april 26

as we switch seasons, the fixed state through these degrees are narrowing down my focus. the field in which i'm feeling through are three things. health, creativity in authentic taste and personal aesthetic, and dialog.

at my peak, I was someone who was pivotal. the ripples of my choices in the encouragement and motivation I'd offer in conversations would lead me closer and closer to opportunities that felt necessary. i'd like to say right for me but even that piece of the truth is trivial. til today, i'd like not to lean onto my own conceptions and continue to try and run all facets on the different angles God's truth has to offer. in English 101, they call it rhetorical thinking. my fixation on astrology in mind has surely stemmed from my mother. she's shared with me that any piece of revelation she ties to its science and I think it hinders me from enjoying life purely. what is pure to me? it's innocence. it's looking at a tree and not putting any names to it or any language to try and explain their movement. its looking up at the sky and enjoying what you see for what it is. not naming the cloud or being curious to what their name is but trying to understand the picture its creating instead or creating your own art with the strokes or fluffs given. truly don't know what it is i'm going through but I've gone through enough rounds around the sun to identify the motions and patterns of my timeline to catch that my need to run all facets is critical to my growth in the next 6 months.

I am at a time in my life where the facets need to be cleaned. all the pipes feel like they need to be changed. perhaps I can prepare for when it's time to install them. I graduate in August and as much as I love education, college is a flow I don't think would be fair for me to go through again. I am at a time in my life where i'm understanding the alchemy of surrendering into what my heart truly desires. my heart is devoted to the Kingdom and to the teachings that Jesus Christ doctrine has taught me. I've only ever gotten this far because of philosophers stone. where the heart and mind bind together to be purified. pushing through to graduation though has led me to forcefully learn and in ways it does wonders. if one was to say that you have to go at things consistently to obtain what you want, I believe that to a fault. I've learned that feelings aren't facts. if I don't feel like going to the gym but know that I have to, it must be done. but those are actions. forcing myself to be taught, hits differently. I think it runs me dry but thank Creation for coffee. i'm truly so thankful for this break. my first two days I didn't do anything but sleep and was revamped with the energy I miss so much within myself. the drive and passion for a better tomorrow and I still have yet to sit down and understand where that flow clogged up. I could name a few things but I've also been slowing down on physical activities to rest more. since the times changed i'm still trying to recover. the longer days holds me to wanna be a part of it til the end and the beginning to wind down at late 8pm close to 9 is causing me to go under to getting sleep for only 6 hours or 5 at most. impressed though as always, my ability to pull through and still make the best of what I can do which seems to be elevating at new heights.

for a second, I was chasing the whirlwind. where I was 6 months ago my plans to where I would be now is no where near what i've envisioned and my adaptability took me at the least 3 weeks to regain the plans I have to stay on the path. I just wanna be filled with trees surrounding me though. to lose sight of the sky and where I am and walk aimlessly. which is why I state that the education flow in this system is not for me. that it isn't fair to me. some may say that aiming aimlessly is a fault and I beg to differ. I find its beauty in it as well as its chaos and I truly am not withered by it. but maybe I am which is why if I hadn't had a break any sooner, I would have reached my burn out and I know it. these breaks are saving my life. which seems so selfish because my heart is on fire when I try to plan ways to save others. so much depth. not enough surface to swim in it, not just yet. I know I have to finish through though and again my hearts desires are not just for me. at 19 I was told to go out on this field and have come to accumulate for the many reasons of why. I only have 3 more months once i'm back and it. will. take. me. to. so. many. doors.

the balance of discipline and freedom. that is what I am learning. that is what I am being taught. in this jar holds many pieces of unfolding wisdom. which brings me to an idea I should create for my new home with my family. although where I envisioned i'd be 6 months ago isn't anywhere near where I would think I'd be now, it's much more beautiful than I could've ever thought for it to go and life has shown me that every. single. time. although what I envisioned was more from the mind, these flowers grew through concrete and I didn't realize how hardened my heart was. the tears I've cried have grown what's coming and is yet to come and for that holds the truth that justice will be served as long as I continue to face the atrocities bravely and find each opportunity I can to encourage others not to turn a blind eye. this revolution of ours is near and I always knew as a child that this is the lifetime I get to see it for humanity. why? because I wouldn't dare let my niece or the kids of my niece and nephews live in a world like this. and for their own troubles in their timelines, they'll create a better world for the next to come. this is evolution. not just a revolution. it is so important and the voices that continue to amplify tell it so.

[liloinkoink]

Hey! If you’re still looking for webcomics, I read from WEBTOONs and Hiveworks! And I made a list of what I read on these sights as well for some suggestions on where to start. If you’re looking for nothing like this, I’m sorry I just sent you a giant ask.

WEBTOON:

Completed: Sithrath, UndeadED, Hooky (my FAVORITE webcomic of all time, tho Dani should’ve ended up with Mark the older kid whyyy did the author take out their momentsss), Gourmet Hound, Muted, The Strange Tales of Oscar Zahn, Apocalyptic Horseplay, Ghost Teller, Crumbs, Miss Abbott and the Doctor, Yuma’s Cells, Saphie: the one-eyed cat, Thornstone, Rise From the Ashes, Luff if you don’t mind a love triangle, and Scoob and Shag.

Unfinished: Hominds, April Flowers was good if dark, and The Masked Fables(tho apparently it might get a reboot?).

Ongoing: Lackadaisy, Outrage, The Dummy’s Dummy, Everywhere and nowhere, Suihira: the city of water, Clinic of Horrors, Fox Fires, the Witch and the Bull, City of Blank, Four Leaf, Suitor Armor, Erma, Madame Outlaw, the little trashmaid, Arthwind, Lalin’s Curse, Lore Olympus, Seed, Heir’s Game if you like period works, Room of Swords, and Tower of God for an average Shonen unbalanced turn-your brain-off-cool-colors-fun-fightscenes.

HIVEWORKS:

Blindsprings, AliceandtheNightmare, CutTime, Lilith’s Word, and the Weave are all that I read here and all are ongoing/unfinished.

oh oh oh thank you so much. i am ALWAYS looking for webcomic recs this is so very welcome

ill uh. ill put this under a cut since i had stuff to say on a lot of these comics hold on. there's a TL;DR at the end for your convenience

i apologize in advance for being nearly impossible to rec webcomics to because of how godamn many i have read over the last few years

completed:

I've read Hooky! I was reading it while it was running. i own a copy of the first volume!

Gourmet Hound i followed from basically the beginning, its one of my all time favorite webcomics. the art is so lovely and the plot is even more so. i miss lucy and graham every day theyre so sweet...

Muted is also a favroite of mine! i was reading it since it was on canvas, its absolutely gorgeous. the water color look of the bg is something im so enamored with, the comic settings are just Wow

god i miss the Strange Tales of Oscar Zahn. it;s really pretty. i think about the war ghost one literally all the time, it's such a fun horror series and i really liked it. it's honestly been a few years since i read this, i should really read that arc again

Ghost Teller is another one i loved. i def likes some stories mroe than others, but the art was all so nice. i wish theyd do another season, but theyre also valid to end it where they did

ive read apocalyptic horseplay, crumbs, thornstone, rise from the ashes, luff, and yumi's cells... i followed the first four for a while, read only the opening chapters of luff, and all of yumi's cells, but none of them were really for me. ive also read scoob and shag, and tho i did like it, it got too confusing and i ended up dropping it. i might pick it back up soon tho!

ive also read miss abott and the doctor, waaaaaay back when it was on tapas (tapastic, at the time), but i stopped when it became an original bc i didnt use webtoon yet. i didnt remember it till it was alreayd finished and behind the wall of daily pass

i havent heard of Saphie: the one-eyed cat, Sithrath, or UndeadED. ill take a look! any favorites between these three?

unfinished:

the only one of this one ive read was april flowers. it wasnt really for me, tho i remember the art being nice!

i did want to read masked fables, tho i havent gotten to it yet. maybe thisll be my sign to start. ive never heard of hominids before, whats it about?

ongoing:

fox fires is a favorite of mine! the art and plot are unbelievably charming. ive been following it for a while and i really like it! also theres like... something about the Voice of this comic, yknow, the way everyone talks which i really love

city of blank is another all time favorite comic, ive been reading it since canvas. i love the main cast, the worldbuilding is super fun, i love the author's sense of humor! and the art... i live the style of course, everyone's masks are so fun and so is everything else in this one, but like... oh i dont even know how to explain it. it feels different artistically than other comics? i follow the creator on tiwtter, and at one point they posted abt how they use speech bubbles with a gradient that's color-coded depending on who is speaking, w everyone having a different color, and yes that makes their job more difficult but its important to the comic's look/feel and they enjoyed it so they kept up w it. and that sort of like, attention to the comic being unique and looking nice is something that reallt showed thru the whole comic and makes it super enjoyable. i fucking love city of blank man it deserves so much praise

the witch and the bull is so pretty! the music in this comic is also really pretty

four leaf is so neat. i feel like ive been following this one... if not since it started, then from pretty early on. im really enjoying the current episodes and what we're learning about the wolf, and ive been enjoying learning more abt the darker parts of the witches

suitor armor ive been reading since canvas! i really love the art style and im really interested to see where it goes. also modeus beloved

seed's very neat! tbh i feel like ive got to go back sometime and just reread it from the start, the technical/intrigue aspects of it are starting to get away from me and i really need a refresher

heir's game. beloved heir's game. i think ive been reading this one from the start and im obsessed with it. i was literally reading last night's update when you sent this ask. there are episodes in this comic i still think about regularly. its so fucking good and i literally recommend this comic all the time, god, its so cool and really interesting, and the art's fantastic

room of swords... ive been following this oen since before they even got off that first world. ive completely lost the plot and have no earthly clue whats happening at all anymore. im wildly behind on it. im having fun tho. also, nothing will top the high for me of reading this comic week to week for some time and thinking "this is fun if like, painfully 'straight gamer' vibe" and then revealing the protagonist is gay and having him/the main cast be saved by his partner

Suihira: the city of water is really neat! i like the god system and im interested to learn more about it. the art's also really fun

im also reading erma! its not really my thing, but i do check in on it from time to time

ive read Lackadaisy, and i liked it, but i was somewhat confused so i ended up dropping it. i keep thinking if i started from the top and reread it id probably like it again, but i havent gotten around to it. maybe this, again, can be my sign!

Arthwind i read for a while but i think i dropped it when it went on hiatus, bc id been a bit confused anyway prior to that, and when it came back from break i realized i couldnt really remember the plot. the art's super nice, though. maybe i should try it again

Everywhere and nowhere, Madame Outlaw, Lalin’s Curse, Lore Olympus, and Tower of God ive tried and found they werent for me, for various reasons and with various amounts of the comic read. of this i think i read the most of lore olympus, bc its so popular and i was trying to understand why, but its simply not for me

The Dummy’s Dummy. i keep reading it for a while, then dropping it, then picking it back up again. very tumultuous relationship with the dummy's dummy. i feel about the same for clinic of horrors but i pick it up and drop it more quickly

i havent read the little trashmaid but i wasnt particularly interested in it, tbh. i didnt really get the impression there was a lot of plot?

i dont know Outrage, i dont think. whats it about?

hiveworks:

i dont know any of these! admittedly, i have trouble keeping up with hiveworks/non-webtoon comics, since theres no easy app to access them, but it also means ive barely read any of them.

TL;DR

ive read all of these (with varying opinions on them) except Saphie: the one-eyed cat, Sithrath, UndeadED, The Masked Fable, Hominids, Outrage, the little trashmaid, and every one of the hiveworks comics you mentioned.

if you wanna tell me what any of these are about or give me a further sales pitch, go ahead! you can send me another ask or shoot me a message

[lunarwildrose]

Tag game! :3

Favourite time of the year: Autumn when the leaves are changing (my favourite time to take walks, plus I feel most inspired in the Autumn), and Spring when the cherry blossoms are briefly blooming (I love going to the cherry blossom festival best♡).

Comfort food: Cheese pizza (can have on my diet), mac n cheese (only on cheat days) … basically, cheese anything, although I really want a peanut butter and strawberry jelly sammich again. I’m on a diet so I haven’t had one since before the day I started keto in April.

Favourite Dessert: Strawberry cheesecake mini snack bars, and strawberry ice cream, on keto. Otherwise, strawberry cheesecake, and strawberry fruit bars, on cheat days.

Things you collect: Fox stuffies, and merch related to Karasu. I am also blessed enough to have luvly friends and mutuals who send me Karasu-related merch and handmade gifts especially made for me, too! :3 ♡

Favourite musical artist: Tie between Atsushi Sakurai (frontman of BUCK-TICK) for male vocalists, and Amy Lee (frontwoman of Evanescence) for female vocalists. What I like about them, aside from both having cool dark images, is that they're both basically Gothic rock, and sing about Dream-and-Death-related imagery. ♡

Last song you listened to: “Hold” by The Pierces, my most personal favourite song, as it purrfectly describes my romance with Karasu. ♡

Last movie you watched: Thor: Love And Thunder in theatre with my brothers. It was funny, but also sad! Made me appreciate the human characters more, especially Jane who I couldn't stand before. Valkyrie is still best girl, tho! ;3 ♡

Last series you watched: The Vampire Diaries, or Yu Yu Hakusho, I don’t remember, cos I did rewatch Karasu vs. Kurama recently.

Series you're currently watching: The Vampire Diaries with Micky, but he’s so busy nowadays that we haven’t watched in a while. We had just finished Season 3, so Elena just became a vampyre (finally), but I’m eager and restless to get around to The Originals, cos I’m a slut for Elijah for his resemblance to Hubby (which is Leopold, my old fictional husband in our original stories, not my current fictional husband/SO in my imaginary world being Karasu).

Current obsession: Karasu … as usual. And Gothic art and fiction too, also as usual. Gothic rock and symphonic metal, too, again as usual. I've recently became fascinated by religion again, too, though. There's so many things modern worldly-based Christians, and especially the Catholics, get wrong about God's Word in The Bible.

A dream place to visit: Rockport, Mass. - I still want to meet my music/art hero and old crush, David Robinson (drummer and artist for The Cars) in person. We just talk online for the past decade, and he’s active in my DR Fanclub on Facebook these days now.

A place you’ve been that you want to go back to: Ansonia, Conn. for the Autumn and Harvest Festivals.

Something you want: Peace of mind … namely: mental stability, and better physical health.

Currently working on: My mental and physical health. I’ve lost nearly 40lbs in five months so far, even on a “dirty” keto diet (I still eat too many sniks, lol), and haven’t exercised or walked in forever, due to chronic fatigue and physical aches and pains … I want to incorporate walking and exercise back into my life again, so I can further lose weight, get fit and flexible again, and just feel better in general about my body. I have severe body dysmorphic disorder and am in remission from bulimia nervosa eating disorder (though I still binge eat, and starve myself out of hatred, I'll admit), on top of an inferiority complex, so I always am feeling horrible having to see (and can't help comparing my chubby ass to) models on social media, and ads online and in RL, all the time (mostly Photoshopped and using pretty, flattering filters, I know, on top of already unrealistic beauty standards, but still ... it affects my mental health seeing them all the time - can't help it).

[fragileizywriting]

I love it when you post and seeing you talk about colour coordinatin is getting me excited again XD

So just like when Adrien got home and couldn’t think for a minute when he saw Luka, how will Luka react to him? Like Luka already had black hair. Since adrien is blonde he’d look way different I’m curious

spoiling for the next chapter (i don't have any qualms with sharing because honestly this fic has been out since APRIL and i still haven't finished and it bites me in the ass every time i think about it)

luka and marinette are going to step back very slowly, marinette is going to feel like god with how powerful she feels making this piece of art-- she's going to make adrien sit down and she's going to paint everything on him. he doesn't have tattoos, but she'll help him with some fake ones-- she's completely torn between taking her time admiring every single pore, or rushing to get him into bed-- either way, we're getting another body worship scene (sorry to those who do not care, but i hold the reigns in this au and god damn it we deserve it >:( let me see our golden-brown boy be a dark red) while luka is busy absolutely not helping in the slightest, too busy exhausting adrien out >:3c luka has one braincell rn

because like, okay-- marinette is a ruby color. a beautiful ruby color. luka is, too, he's very bright-- but adrien is naturally very tan (i've been inching him closer and closer to genuinely sun-kissed tan in every single fic every time i write him, because i personally headcanon adrien as olive-skinned almost. fuck it. sunshine boy.) so he's not going to be ruby-- he's going to be a little darker. and it's going to be beautiful.

i'm not doing too hot with words right now, english is failing me, so let's just use a picture

anyway. if marinette and luka are at color number 2, adrien is definitely going to be a number 3 or 4. definitely somewhere in the middle.

anyway. this is all to say that luka and marinette will finally understand why adrien likes brunettes so much. adrien is absolutely beautiful. hope he's ready to see the consequences of that!!! because luka is done being overly kind and sweet to either of them, tiredness be damned.

[who-ever-said-i-was-nice]

Hello there ~ Congrats on 100! 🎉💕 I'm so happy for you!! I was wondering if I could request a match up for Ikevamp. I'm fairly new to Tumblr and this is my first match up request so I'm a bit nervous since you are literally the first person I will have interacted with on here 😅 but I love your writing! If you are busy or have a lot of requests or anything please don't worry about it or overwork yourself! It's a lot of work and I totally understand!! Also edit, I'm really sorry in advance. This was way longer than I intended.

I am a bi female. I am an Aries but I am close to the cusp (April 18th). I don't typically associate myself with most Aries traits outwardly though since I am really shy and reserved, but internally I can see it as I am competitive with myself and a major perfectionist. But I'm low-key chaotic as can be like I'd identify myself as chaotic good since I'm just a mess with good intentions 😂 I am an INFP-T personality (which is scary accurate to me) if that helps any!

I am very short, only 5' tall and I am slim with overall small/petite features and frame. I have medium/dark, warmer toned brown eyes and auburn wavy/loose curly hair. I am very pale but have a lot of small freckles on my face and body. I've been told I look a lot younger than my age I think since I have a round face and am overall a small person. I'm very friendly and smile a ton but I am shy. I get big "eye smiles" whenever I smile and tend to blush a lot cause nerves. I've been told I tend to smile a lot and because I'm a shy, vv awkward person, my go to whenever I meet up with literally anyone is to smile out of nervous habit so people tend to think I'm overly friendly or approach me but in reality I'm a nervous boi.

I study landscape architecture and wildlife biology in college rn so I really love art and nature! I want to do habitat restoration after college. I especially am interested in plants and often go hiking and identify plants as well as do botanical drawings.

I am interested in both math and science as well as art. I enjoy watercolor painting as well and I am interested in illustrating children's books if landscape architecture doesn't pan out 😅

Besides that I have an obsession with extreme love for cats. I'm not ashamed to say my cat is my best friend, she is perfection 😂 I love anything living though thats not a person. Plant, animal, insect, they're all so wonderful to me and I tend to feel more comfortable around animals and nature than people.

My favorite color is a pale pink, I really love light, cutesy things. But my personal style is very retro academia. I wear a lot of clothes from the 60's and 70's or inspired by then. I really like fashion and fashion history.

My favorite food is spaghetti with just cheese. I may be an adult but oh well,, some plain ol spaghetti just hits the spot every time. I love baking and cooking though and have a sweet tooth. I used to decorate cakes in high school and I enjoy creating my own recipes and desserts.

I like to daydream, play video games, drink tea, sketch, read, and listen to music as well. I also spend a ton of time outdoors enjoying nature. I love trivial and fun facts. I want to gain as much knowledge as I can about the world.

I don't like things that are too loud I suppose. I'm a pretty easy going person but I am very nervous in crowds or places that are too loud. I'm also afraid of storms and I'm not fond of extremely dark places either. I don't like failing/faltering or embarrassing myself, especially in academics. I am extremely nervous talking to large groups or meeting new people as well, I prefer small, more personal interactions. While I enjoy talking to people it's just really hard so I don't usually unless they reach out to me first. I also hate conflict and drama (unless I'm not involved, then bring the popcorn). But any conflict is a big oof for me.

In a relationship, I really like surprise hugs and signs of affection. Sudden surprises create a sense of excitement which I really like to have. I like the idea of a relationship feeling new, passionate, and exciting, despite being together for awhile. I don't like gifts necessarily since I feel uncomfortable receiving things, I prefer sharing special memories. I'm not huge on PDA, I feel uncomfortable if someone is too clingy around others, especially my family or someone I know since my family is pretty conservative. But if we are alone, I love tons of affection and little acts of love. Hugs from behind, a small brush of our hands, holding pinkies, light kisses, and lots of smiles just make me melt, ugh tiny gestures are so cute. Communication is very important to me but not my strong suit, I tend to shy away from issues and trip over words I don't mean, but body language is very important and I think can be better for me and for my partner to understand.

I would like to be able to enjoy a comfortable silence with someone while we both read or do something while holding hands or just touching in some subtle way. I would love to be able to escape my perfectionist front that I have around others when I'm with my partner and be able to make really silly, dumb jokes and have lots of laughs. I love the idea of joking around while loosely holding each other. I present myself very seriously but I'm a big goof and rather dorky and like to have fun but romantic interactions.

Also it would be a plus if they love or at least tolerate kitty cuddles with me and my cat. My cat is such a baby, she's constantly in my lap or following me around so we are a package deal basically 😂

I'm sorry this is so long, and I hope it is enough for you as well!! Thank you so much for opening up match ups too! If you need anything else let me know! Take care of yourself and congrats!! 💕

It’s perfection don’t worry. Thank you so much for sending the request. I hope you are taking care of yourself too and everything is good.

Anyway I matched you with.....................

                                                            ............Isaac

HA BET YOU DIDN’T SEE THAT ONE COMING!

oh you did?

ok I’ll stop

Isaac is a very curious person much like yourself

he loves discovering and learning new things

and that is the first thing Isaac noticed about you to be honest

sure he saw you and was like Damn she gorgeous but that was about it

however when he discovered that you are also a curious but little nervous bean he started opening up to  you

neither of  you like crowds and loud people who disrupt your concentration, so usually you spend your time in the library

sitting together in silence and reading

loves that your cute and blushy

even tho he’s exactly the same

as you got closer he started noticing more and more things about you

how your eyes would lit up when you passed certain plants in the garden

how you would hum to yourself and dance around thee kitchen a little when you thought nobody was looking

he loved everything about you from your adorably freckles to your reserved yet charming personality

it too him a long time to confess to you

a long time and a lot of pep talks from Leo

in the end he forgot everything Leo said and confessed to you in his own way

after that oh boy

you are the definition of inseparable

he’s new to this so you have to give him a little time to get used to it

after he’s comfortable he’s very affectionate

more in private but still

will give you surprised  hugs all the time

whether it’s that he walks up behind you and hugs you while turning apple red God if Isaac was here he’d kill me for that pun or him walking and scooping you up and plopping you in his lap in the library as you both get into some book

totally gets that you don’t like going to very crowded places

BOOM your wish is my command Isaac will almost always take you to fields of beautiful flowers so you can hang out, goof around, have a picnic and the stargaze

Isaac will pull you close or just hold your hand while explaining a few things about the constellation, after you will just enjoy the silence as you bask in each others company, while gazing up at the starry sky

he holds you pinky

finds it super cute and usually blushes harder than you even though he initiated it

holding your pinky is a personal thing for him

he finds it reassuring

you’ll just be walking and all of a sudden Isaac intertwines your pinkies

he’s anxiety on legs and holding your pinky is his way to tell you that in that moment he’s scared, anxious or just extremely nervous

you usually hug him and kiss his cheek

holding your pinky can also be that he loves you and hopes he’ll be with you forever

it depends on the situation, but he likes telling you he loves you like this

he has a surprisingly good sense of humour and likes to goof around with you

loves your cat

he wasn’t much on a cat person before, but your cat likes o play with Harry and he thinks that’s really cute

all in all you guys have a really good relationship

Ok now i have to pour some water on my head

CUTENESS OVER LOAD

Lia .exe has stopped working

That’s it! I hope you enjoyed and I hope you are well! Once again thank you @uwu-catlin for the request and the compliment. Love you 3000!

[thepoetrytheorist]

I posted 95 times in 2021

86 posts created (91%)

9 posts reblogged (9%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 0.1 posts.

I added 234 tags in 2021

#art - 72 posts

#my art - 71 posts

#madeleine hyland - 15 posts

#joey batey - 14 posts

#poetry - 13 posts

#my poetry - 12 posts

#the amazing devil - 12 posts

#nature - 10 posts

#digital art - 9 posts

#copper buttercups - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 101 characters

#reblogging this because i have a switch and do play animal crossing now and i love tom nook very much

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

7 Billion People

Seven Billion People and that's a whole lot But when you look at your self, you think that you're not You look at the World and see people like you Except for the fact that they're fun and they're new

You wake up every day and part your hair on the same side When your mum points a camera, then you smile wide You slip on your slippers and trod down to the mail And sometimes you dream that one day you'll set sail

You pick up the papers and look at the news You glance at the funnies and truly are bemused You sip from your mug and pick at your breakfast You bite back a yawn and slip on your knapsack

Your boring brown shoes clip clop on the pavement And your boring brown suit blows slightly in the wind Your boring brown office and boring desk job At least you can say you're not much of a slob

A tired smile and a greeting to bonny Janine, A small wave and a quip to your boss Louis You sit and you type and type away And slowly and slowly fill up your day

At lunch you eat a sandwich on rye As your friends chatter and laugh you wonder why You're one in seven billion yet no one can say "Why, you, you could be like Beyoncé!"

You're one in seven billion Yet as special as a pavilion You feel so alone, And sadly return to your home

One in seven billion and that's not alot But I suppose, this is worth a shot, Not one in seven billion is as special as you And around you I feel so new

Nobody quite parts their hair the way you do Nor like you can they hold a jaunty tune They don't have your fashion, even in the same old suit And any other points, I think are moot.

You're one in seven billion, To me you're worth millions The way you smile as you smell your coffee The way your eyes light up when you look at me

Every wrinkle as you frown, And your crows feet when you come around The way you tell a joke And how in the sunlight you soak

You're one in seven billion I hope you know that's true But that doesn't mean you're less significant Or that you have less value

You don't need to be famous Or to make a higher paygrade What really matters is That you're you every single day.

22 notes • Posted 2021-06-29 19:41:12 GMT

#4

Lesley Harding, here to steal your heart.  Digital painting 1080 x 1920, 1/17/2021 Copper-Buttercups Click for better quality. DO NOT REPOST MY ART feel free to reblog instead!

25 notes • Posted 2021-01-18 20:00:59 GMT

#3

All you need is a little friend... and perhaps a hat.

25 notes • Posted 2021-10-21 18:30:08 GMT

#2

Crushed

The world is collapsing I'm at its core Being Crushed by all I once stood for.

I stand aghast No shelter nor fire, The cold night preys My sinful desire.

The rocks they hail, Like storm, like sea And though I run, I cannot flee.

I stand and shout 'O God be near!' The silence shows He will not hear

Closer, closer the cosmos comes The darkness strangling Until I succumb

Crush me gently Thus I beg

There is no saviour for the dead

28 notes • Posted 2021-08-24 19:47:43 GMT

#1

Tomorrow,,,

Tomorrow my long awaited animatic is here!!! I've been working on this since last April (in fact, the opening GIF is the first thing I ever drew on my new computer and is one of my first pieces of digital art.) I am so proud of it.

Please join me in the premier tomorrow, 6/2/2021 at 12 PM PST.

32 notes • Posted 2021-06-02 04:57:34 GMT

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[voice-of-anarchy]

ALISSA WHITE-GLUZ: Getting Fired From THE AGONIST Was 'The Worst Betrayal I've Ever Felt In My Life'

ARCH ENEMY frontwoman Alissa White-Gluz says that getting fired from THE AGONIST was "the worst betrayal" she has ever felt in her life and has vowed to never speak to her former bandmates again.

White-Gluz was announced as the new singer of ARCH ENEMY on March 17, 2014. That same day, THE AGONIST revealed that they had recruited Vicky Psarakis as Alissa's replacement, saying in a statement that they wished  White-Gluz "all the best with ARCH ENEMY and her future endeavors." A day later, Alissa released her own statement in which she claimed that she "had every intention of (and had even started) writing and recording yet another killer album [with THE AGONIST] this year," but explained that her "former bandmates decided to choose a different path." She also said that "the unfortunate decision" to part ways "was made beyond [her] control" and added that she would "always be proud of the three albums [she and THE AGONIST] created since 2005."

Alissa, who co-founded THE AGONIST in 2004 (then known as TEMPEST), has been largely quiet about the circumstances that led to her departure from the band, choosing instead to focus on the touring activities in support of ARCH ENEMY's 2014 album "War Eternal", which marked her recording debut with the latter group. But during a recent appearance on HATEBREED frontman Jamey Jasta's official podcast, "The Jasta Show", Alissa aired her side of THE AGONIST split for the first time, saying that she "never in a million fucking years" suspected that she would get kicked out of her own band.

Recalling some of the early discussions she had with ARCH ENEMY about replacing that band's singer of thirteen years, Angela Gossow, Alissa said: "It was in 2013, and Angela and Michael [Amott, guitar] from ARCH ENEMY had asked me if I wanted to join, and so I said, 'Well, can I keep doing the band that I'm in?' [referring to THE AGONIST]. And they were, like, 'Yeah, we want you to be happy, so if you want, we can work out a schedule where both bands can be fulfilled.' And in my head, at that point, I had already been spending a lot of time with KAMELOT [touring as a guest vocalist], so I was, like, 'Oh, well, with KAMELOT, I'm just a guest. They can replace me easily. So I'll just stop doing KAMELOT and focus on ARCH ENEMY and my current band.' 'Cause that band was my baby. I built that band, I picked the name, I drew the logo, I directed all the photo shoots… You know, it was my band."

She continued: "I thought that we made great music together [as THE AGONIST]. I really liked the music that we were all making. I think everyone was very talented in that band. And so I told them. I was actually on tour with KAMELOT when I started having discussions with ARCH ENEMY, and that was earlier in the year. And so when I got back to Montreal, and then the next time we were all together, we did a short run, I think, in New England. And so I got all the guys together and we were in, like, a Walmart parking lot. I think the van was getting an oil change or something, so we were sitting by the trailer, and I called them all over and I told them. I'm, like, 'I've signed a confidentiality statement, so I can't tell you the name of the band, but I just wanna let you guys know I'm gonna start working with another band. I've been working with KAMELOT a lot recently, and that's been taking up my time, but I've decided that, to make sure I have enough time for both, I just won't do KAMELOT anymore. But I'm gonna be working with this other band. I think it's gonna be great for us, because it's a band that we all like. It's a band that we've wanted to tour with for a long time.' And they were, like, 'Who is it? Is it NIGHTWISH?' So they weren't happy, but then I told 'em, I'm, like, 'But don't worry, because I've worked out with the manager a schedule where we're gonna have enough time to do our stuff. The manager's totally cool with me keeping my band. So it's gonna be fine.' And the manager [of ARCH ENEMY] is Angela. So with Angela, I worked out a schedule that would have made it totally fine for ARCH ENEMY to do some tours and record our album and me to still have enough time to devote to that band. And another thing that I told 'em, I was, like, 'At this point, I'm also not gonna be working my dayjob anymore, so those forty hours a week I can devote to music.' So I was, like, 'Okay. Perfect.' And this was in, like, June or July of 2013. In July and August, I was on tour with [THE AGONIST], and then September I had a KAMELOT tour, October I had a Europe tour with [THE AGONIST], November I had a KAMELOT tour again, and then December finally, I came back and [THE AGONIST] did some local shows. And the whole time everything was good, and we were, like, really positive. I was actually really happy. 'Cause I was, like, 'Wow, things are finally going well. They are being really understanding.' And I have e-mail chains back and forth with Angela where I was, like, 'No, they're being really cool about it. I'm really happy. And the schedule looks good.' And I forwarded them the schedule. It was literally broken down for, like, the next three years. Like, March and April will be ARCH ENEMY time, June and July will be your [time]… Like, really, just perfectly laid out. And it was great. Michael was happy with that too. And we did a show in a city in Quebec. It was around mid-December [2013]. We did the show, and I was on a video interview from a local TV station, in French, and they asked, 'What's going on? How's the band going?' And I remember being really happy and telling them, 'Yeah, I have five songs written, and we're making a new album now. And it's really cool music. I'm really happy. I'm excited to get the album done.' And I remember just being really proud of what we were doing musically and where we were going. And then the next morning… One of the guys [from THE AGONIST] doesn't live in Montreal, so the other three guys showed up at my door and came into my house. And they were just, like, 'We need to have a meeting.' So I was, like, 'Okay. Well, what's wrong? This is a crazy emergency meeting. For sure, let's talk about what's going on.' And never in a million fucking years would I have suspected that I was getting kicked out of my own band. They basically sat down and they told me that one of the guys in the band gave them an ultimatum and said, 'Either we kick her out or I'm gonna quit the band, because I don't want her in the band anymore.'

"While this was happening, I was in complete, complete panic mode. Even as we were having the meeting, I was, like, 'Well, we don't have to do this. Why is this even a thing?' And so then it ended with them leaving. And I was, like, 'I'll write to…' We had just gotten a new manager at that point; he hadn't done anything yet at this point. But I was, like, 'Look, I'll write to him, and I'll tell him what you guys think, and we'll figure something out.' And I thought I was still gonna work this out. And so as soon as they left, I went to go into my e-mail to get the manager's contact, and I couldn't get into my e-mail account. So then I went to go into my Facebook, I couldn't get into my Facebook. I went to get into Twitter, I couldn't get into Twitter. I went to get into our YouTube, I couldn't get into YouTube. And these were all accounts that I created, and I had only recently — because I had been so busy with KAMELOT — I had only recently given access to some of the other members to start posting on, and because I had been so busy, I didn't notice…

"It was the middle of the night in Europe at this point, so I was calling Angela freaking out, calling Michael freaking out, 'Oh my God! What just happened? I don't understand.' I was trying to get hold of the people at Century Media [THE AGONIST's then-record label], trying to get hold of this manager guy. The manager guy didn't seem to understand what was going on. And he was, like, 'Well, you quit.' And I was, like, 'What? I didn't quit. This is my band. I would never quit this band.' And he was, like, 'They told me you quit.' So I was, like, 'Can we get on the phone, please? I don't know what's happening right now.' My whole life was basically being destroyed.

"So finally, I was freaking out. I couldn't get into my accounts. From my personal account, I wrote to Angela and whatever. And so finally, I actually managed to just, like, guess the security question and I got back into my e-mail account. And so then I was able to get the contacts that I had been building up for twelve years — everybody at the label, the manager, all this networking that I had been putting all of my life into, all of our contracts were saved in PDFs in that account. So I got back into there, and then I saw the e-mail chain that was accidentally forwarded from the label dating back to September where [the guys from THE AGONIST] went and found some other person to replace me on vocals. So now I had a name. I had no idea who this person was. I've still never seen her, never spoken to her ever. I just thought a professional courtesy would be, 'Just letting you know… Are you cool with this? Because I'm gonna be taking over your baby and your brainchild and the art that you've worked your ass off to create. I'm now gonna be representing that. Is this okay with you?' But I never received anything like that. Another thing that was super weird was I wrote these lyrics [for THE AGONIST] about being vegan and about being straight edge. And so I'm, like, 'Is this person vegan and straight edge? Is this person just gonna be singing something that they don't even believe in?' And I still don't know.

"Basically, I saw this happen. It occurred to me that they had been lying to my face throughout an entire thirty-day tour of Europe. Me talking about 'em, 'I'm so excited for the album. Listen to this. I did this on a song.' It now occurred to me that they were smiling to my face but secretly knew that they had found someone else."

Asked why she thinks THE AGONIST chose to kick her out of the band the way they did, Alissa said: "It was ego. I think it was ego. I still don't get it. I don't understand what the point of that was. Because I'm the kind of person, if there's a conflict, let's talk about it right now and solve it. I told them everything that I could. I literally had signed a confidentiality agreement, so I couldn't say the name 'ARCH ENEMY' to them, but I literally told them, 'It's a Swedish band we all love. There's a female singer I'm replacing.' What else could it be? [Laughs]"

She continued: "I had fans writing to me and being, like, 'Why did you quit? We loved you in that band.' And I was, like, 'I didn't quit.' And if you want proof of it, listen to the song 'Avalanche' on 'War Eternal', because that's exactly what I wrote that song about."

Alissa added that she hadn't spoken about her split with THE AGONIST before because she didn't "wanna publicly shame anyone." She explained: "I block those people. I don't see any news about them — nothing. Because, honestly, with social media, you can control what you see. So I just decided I don't wanna feel that betrayal anymore. Honestly, it's like… picture being in a marriage. And we had three albums, so say you have three kids and then suddenly you walk into your home that you built one day, and your husband or wife is literally cheating on you with another person, and then, rather than talking about it and trying to figure out what happened, they kick you out of the house and they steal your kids. And that's literally what it feels like. And so rather than dwelling in that pain, I just decided I was gonna not talk about it and be really thankful that I have ARCH ENEMY, which is a great band with great people, great management, and just focus on the fact that I have a band that I love. I can still do KAMELOT, which is another band that I love. And now I even have a solo project, where I can kind of revisit the music that I used to do. And so rather than bringing up the past and being super negative about it, I wish them the best. I don't agree with what they did. I don't have respect for what they did."

Asked if the door was open for some kind of mending of the fences if the guys in THE AGONIST wanted to "make it right," Alissa responded: "No. I'll never talk to them again — ever! That was the worst betrayal I've ever felt in my life. They stole a lot from me. It was not right. I know because fans have told me, 'Hey, they're saying this about you, they're saying that,' and rather than sinking to that level and actually presenting the truth… which I had to do at one point with the manager because he was actually being really rude to me and did not understand the situation. And finally, I was, like, 'Hey, I'm gonna forward you every e-mail concerning this situation.' And then finally he read those e-mails and understood that I was the one telling the truth. And then he stopped working with them. Because he was, like, 'Woah, wait a second. I was lied to.' And it wasn't by me. That was the only time that I've had to really be, like, 'Okay, I'm just gonna stand up for mysef and prove the truth here.' Otherwise, I just took the standpoint of I'm not gonna say anything negative about those people. I'm not even gonna talk about them at all. They've stolen enough from me. I'm not gonna let them steal any more of my energy. Instead I'm gonna put my energy towards the good things that I have, which is from this point and into the future."

THE AGONIST has released two albums so far with Vicky Psarakis on vocals: 2015's "Eye Of Providence" and 2016's "Five".

In a 2014 interview, THE AGONIST guitarist Danny Marino spoke about the band's split with Alissa, explaining: "Once we found out about the ARCH ENEMY thing and what it meant, we talked about it and decided it really can't work for us. It wasn't a case of Alissa filling in for a tour or an album, it was for everything and it was permanent. So basically, what we were going to go through for this new album we would go through for every album for the rest of our career… For example, one of the things we would have had to do was cancel all the European festival dates we [had] coming up if Alissa stayed with THE AGONIST. We were told we'd have to cancel those dates even though she'd be playing some of the same festivals with ARCH ENEMY. Their management said that can't really work. And even before this, we'd passed up a couple opportunities because of Alissa being out with KAMELOT. That wasn't as serious, obviously, and we were able to work with it."

He continued: "Not to say anything against Alissa, because I would understand if after six months or a year of being in ARCH ENEMY, she said to us, 'I've bitten off more than I can chew, I can't work with THE AGONIST.' I could foresee that possibility because I've seen it with other bands in a similar situation. Sometime it can work, but that depends on whether the 'B' band is will to become something of a side-project band, and we're not that band."

[in-the-midst-of-everything]

Ok no but for real I've been doing pretty damn well lately Got entirely fucked over by GCA, I can't remember if I posted about the phone call from Mike telling me about the situation, but it's not really important. Fired without being fired, so I'm in the system as "on-call" basically the substitute person. I was looking for a new job anyway so I put in a claim for unemployment and had a couple interviews, so I spent the whole month of April so far stressing about my money situation and trying to pull my life and myself back together, plus Morgan has been in and out of the Madison hospital for her intestinal problems. Surprisingly it wasn't that hard, with something to keep my mind busy I stopped slipping into the past and slowed the self-hate train drastically. I do fully believe that the job itself was a perfect recipe for depression, catered specifically to all my weaknesses. So being let go was a blessing in disguise I guess. So overall pretty good but issues arose again after my interview at the dairy farm; the guy seemed pretty chill with me and I acted excited and collected the whole time. He asked for a reference and I gave him Kerry's number and told him she would give good word about me. Well. Over an hour later he texted me saying Kerry told him I no longer worked there and that I was fired for not finishing my work. Both of which were clearly untrue. Over the next 3 days I tried getting any kind of straight answer from Kerry on whether or not I was fired, and why she lied about me. She purposely blew me off, wouldn't answer my phone calls, and ultimately told me to "stop bothering her." God I was fucking pissed. Finally got a hold of Mike, and he verified that I wasn't fired. It took me venting to mom, and Mom contacting Mike before I finally heard back from Kerry, asking for the name and number of the farm. No word from anyone since. But I did get a call from Sharon at Deer trail campground, I got the job there starting May 5th. Plus unemployment went through. So everything's stabilizing, plus I'm generating some side income from yard work projects and time at Kathy's. Now this week and a half til my new job will be spent relaxing and making art. I definitely feel 100% better than I did at any point working with GCA, and I found out how much of a fucking 2 faced asshole Kerry is. So once again, a giant shit storm is left in the dust and I can move on with my life.