#given that i am autistic irl-

[hi-note]

new oc hours!

her name is emily. she doesnt talk, like— at all, ever. please be patient with her and try to understand what she means in the given moment. she’ll really appreciate if you take your time.

(my rant in tags below for easy access if this is perchance being seen from someone else’s reblog maybe idk—)

[legalownerofufoemoji]

Wow Laios is actually severely autistic

I am not saying that as an insult, as I read this he isn't even just coded as such, he just is. It's actually really relatable (currently hes being yelled at for not being able to "read between the lines", poor guy)

I'm so fucking excited to see this animated actually, I wonder if they'll keep it true to the source material

[littlestpersimmon]

Hello everyone. My floral bust portrait commissions are open.

I have a small queue, and I figured I will open another couple of slots for more breathing room as I finish this queue.

ETA is late March to early April. They are only 35 usd each portrait, and they are priced down from my original 45 usd.

They are priced down as I am a slower artist- I currently have three jobs, and the sole caretaker of a completely disabled mother whose movement is very limited and dependent on able bodied people, partially disabled father, and an autistic sister, who I am sending to school- that means, as I am essentially a parent to all three- my time is very limited, and so because of the longer 3-4 weeks wait, I charge lower.

I draw tieflings, elves, humanoids, dnd characters that are human-like, ocs, tavs from baldurs gate, etc etc- I specialize in ocs of all shapes and sizes-

I can not draw: non human ocs, ocs with their faces covered, I cannot draw real humans: for example: "can you draw my gf?"- real human faces take far longer to draw and stylize in a way that will look like irl people. This means I can not draw furry or mecha as well.

I will only draw busts. Please, please only hire me for what I am advertising, if you feel my art style will fit your oc. You will receive a portrait of your oc with a floral background from the chest up.

You can choose the expression, the clothes, the hairstyle, the flower style, the general color and mood of the piece, and you will have two passes of edits for free.

❌️ "can you draw this scene from a book"

❌️ "can you draw my grandma"

❌️"can you draw my room and a person sitting in that chair"

These instructions are very long, but I've been, drawing for 5 years for folk now, hehe, and in order to streamline my drawing process, I need to become more and more specific with my instructions 😞 I sometimes get requests to draw entire fully rendered drawings in my portrait commissions!

I am requesting for more patient clients! I do my best to meet everyone's expectations, but I also would love folk who understand that I am one person who loves other people's ocs and want to portray them with love and dignity, and that I am working on these highly specialized and specific and personalized portraits, oftentimes 10 at any given time.

Thank you for reading, please let me work for you! I am a disabled artist from the global south, just trying to get by!

Hire me, send me tips, commission me please!

[averagepolarexpeditionenjoyer]

okay this is one is for my sex-enjoyers out there

if, given the opportunity, which of the Cold Boys would you fuck?

(context of this post is me defending myself against my friends. Surely I am not the only one irl who wants Crozier carnally. Surely 🙏 but also I’m curious to see who you guys pick bc I’ve heard some WILD hear me outs from this cast)

[bitchypuppy1986]

Intro post!! ❤️

Hi, I'm Vinny! I'm 18 ftm and I exclusively use he/him pronouns. Pre-t, pre-op, basically girlmoding really hard. I've never really used Tumblr before so please be patient.

Taken anons: 👤, 🕸️, 🦊

DNI: zoos, racists, p3dos, n@zis, all that shit you know the drill. Also scat blogs, AB/DL (anything adjacent), detrans

The fun stuff:

- I am 18!!! I'm learning! Be nice, be patient. I'm also autistic so I will probably misunderstand you at some point

- I'm gay, pretty much only interested in men. With some exceptions obviously because some of you are too pretty.

- That being said, queer women you can interact. Cishets, you can be lovely, but this space isn't for you

- Don't be offended if I ignore your asks or DMs or anything, it's probably just because I'm not into whatever you've sent ❤️

- I'm mostly subby, but I DO have the capacity to be dominant too

- I don't bite! (I do) so feel free to reach out! I need friends in the NSFT community :(

- I won't post much media, but if I do, it will either be my own art or content that is not mine unless stated otherwise. Credit given where it's due of course

- Mutuals, you can DM me sexual stuff (including nudes 🥴), and anyone can send sexual asks

- I will tag “puppy asks” when I’m asking a question, “puppy answers” for answers to asks and “puppy rambles” when I’m randomly posting!!

- I'm also really into Arcane, CoD and Saw :3

Boundaries:

- asks and DMs are open, but please don't be a creep! I'm not here to be belittled or infantalized. Also, don't DM me just saying "hi", I won't respond.

- I do not send photos unless we talk first, I do not want to receive photos unless we talk first. You will be blocked. Mutuals are allowed to send if they wish, but no dicks please ❤️

- this really should go without saying but MDNI. Seriously. This is not a space for you, get out

- I've also never been in a kink space before so do not approach me trying to be my dom/start a roleplay etc. I am not comfortable with that. People have DMd me asking if I'm owned: no I am not. No I am not looking.

- recovering from a porn addiction so no I don't want to watch anything. Don't send me porn videos

- I am a man. Refer to me as such, don't try to feminise me unless it relates to what I post, which it probably won't. That said, detrans blogs DNI

Kinks and BDSM test results under the cut

Kinks! (Yes, Maybe, No)

- puppy/petplay, humiliation, praise, cunnilingus (giving, possibly receiving), toys, age gap (not irl, don't DM me if you're above 25), belly bulge (from fucking, not inflation/feederism) breeding, some pee stuff (marking, omo), somno, light mommy/daddy (calling) but no fauxcest

- intox, sensory deprivation, bloodplay, impreg (NOT actual pregnancy)

- scat, vomit, ageplay, raceplay, r@pe, fauxcest, restraints: you can interact but I am NOT into these

This post is a WIP

[bonesandthebees]

Hi!

I don’t have any friends irl or online who knows anything about this whole mess of a situation, so I hope you’ll allow me to mull this over here or just scream into the void.

I just find the whole broader context of this whole issue fascinating in a deeply disturbing way. I was going to try to understand why dream acts the way he does, but I think I might drive myself mad doing so. Anyway, I think it’s very apparent the happy go lucky time of progressiveism online is over. Obviously, there has always been bad shit online and marginalised communities have been under fire for a long time. What I’m trying to say is there has been this illusion of progressive attitudes, which has eroded away and people are just saying the quiet part out loud these days.

I don’t know if dream is publicly shifting to draw in a right wing audience or if he completely lacks the ability to empathise with/is too stubborn to recognise other people’s feelings and perspectives. Neither options would surprise me tbh. I could go on, but I don’t want to spoil my evening and your whatever your time time of day is. Idk, weird guy.

Anyway, I hope you are doing well! 2025 have been a lot this far, huh? I watched eternal sunshine of a spotless mind this weekend, which made me read Alexander Pope’s Eloisa to Abelard and I finally got the title to World Forgetting. That fic is my all time favourite fic, so I have no idea why I didn’t look into the title before. That’s on me!

(I hope you’ll allow me the moon as a sign off. lol that reminds me that I need to put my tarot cards in the window just in case the full moon decides to show up)

– 🌕

hello welcome to the anon club!!! I shall call you full moon anon :)

it really is getting scary to see the backwards steps we're taking culturally right now. like with all the social media tech billionaires cozying up to trump and the way people are caring less and less about things like calling others slurs and of course the entire tradwife/hating on feminism/i'm just a girl tiktok bs. but I do try to remind myself that backwards steps like those are usually in response to progress. we've seen a huge positive shift in attitudes towards the queer community over the past decade and a half alongside other social issues like racism and feminism, so it's kind of expected that we were going to swing backwards at some point. the reason this is reassuring though is because it's a reminder that it's cyclical, meaning we will push forward again and make even more progress next time. we just have to (unfortunately) wait this out and keep trying to push forward.

ok now as for dream talk I am going to put this under a read more because I do not need to subject my followers to thoughts on what's going through his head unless they wanna see it

yeah, trying to understand dream's whole thought process here is really enough to give you a migraine. it just doesn't make sense because he is objectively making himself just look like a terrible person to work with to outside ccs (will leak your private dms if you ever have a falling out, might go on a huge essay length twitter rant about you if you ghost him, etc.) while also just annoying everyone who isn't part of his core audience. also, I feel like if you're trying to get a more right wing male audience I don't know if openly discussing how you're autistic is going to help you there given... yknow. how those people tend to be in regards to neurodivergent people. like I could be wrong but to me that just doesn't seem like the best strategy if that's where you're trying to shift.

so I'm inclined to think it's the latter: that he's too stubborn to recognize other people's feelings and perspectives. that seems to be where his head is at when he talks about his gripes with tommy and tubbo, especially when he calls tommy disingenuous for... not having the same opinions he did when he was 16? idk man I don't want to understand dream too much

2025 has been so much though. like what the hell.

BUT YEAHHHHH eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!! I hope you enjoyed that it's literally one of my all time favorite movies. and yeah that line from Eloisa to Abelard just hits so hard both in the context of the movie and just in general, so when I was writing a story about amnesia I knew I wanted to tie it into eternal sunshine somehow

[fantasywr1te]

IMPORTANT FYI POST

I just want to get the following off my chest since there seems to be a lot of discussion today of these topics on the dash.

I write mostly trans-masc muses because I myself am trans masc. Due to lack of funds and because I am living in Trump's America I have not undergone any physical transitions. However I would love to not have breasts -- a fact you can see translated when I write my trans muses as having top surgery scars. I tend to use the word c.vnt when referring to their private parts because such terminology is what I'm familiar with. Some of my trans male muse would be okay getting pregnant, some wouldn't. I tend to write trans masc muses the most because I resonate with their gender & experience. I love and adore women but I am forced to pretend to be one for the sake of safety when at work and out in public so when it comes to my hobbies I rarely portray femme muses because I feel like I need a break from pretending to be a woman. This does not mean I hate women! Please don't make wild assumptions about me like that. I do write some femme muses on a superhero multimuse I have and also on vampiheir.

2. Some people ruffle their feathers when reading this rule (see screenshot) regarding my Japanese muses (Kenichi here & Shinobu on vampiheir). The reason I had to make this rule is because I had a user I had 0 common mutuals with send me hostile DMs back when I wrote Zuko from ATLA. She basically accused me of being racist because my rules stated I was uncomfortable interacting with people who used Ian Ousley as a faceclaim because it is unclear if he is native or not (Sokka is a native character). She insisted that Ian was native. I did my own research and it was unclear if he was native or not... I reached out to some native RP helpers who have a sort of 'ask a native person' RP help server and explained the situation to them. They agreed it was unclear Ian if Ian is native or not and that it would be okay if I maintained my rule of not interacting with people who used him as a faceclaim. Because I refused to interact with the angry DM person's hostile messages she vagued about me, a friend of hers vagued about me. A friend of hers also tried to follow me multiple times despite me blocking them. Additionally while looking for images of a faceclaim for Zuko I accidentally liked a post made by a KRP. A different user saw me like that post and vague about me and about how awful she felt white people are. The above reasons is why I've limited to processing feedback regarding BIPOC muses from mutuals only. I love to learn and appreciate constructive criticism.

3. Connected to the above, as an autistic person, Japan, China & Korea have been special interests of mine for a long time. I like to joke that I've gotten the 'I obsess over very specific things autism instead of the super smart math whiz autism.' I've taken classes in Japanese, Korean & Mandarin and have taken a few East Asian history classes. I often research things on my own time and am continuing to study Japanese. I am not perfect, I know research will be an ongoing process for me, and I know as a white person I will spend my whole life unpacking internalized racism my position as a white person has granted me with. I know mistakes can be unavoidable and would like to be given a chance to learn from mistakes instead of ranted and raved about in negative ways.

4. I know that my multimuse (fantasywr1te) could use some more visibly BIPOC characters. It is something I am working on but I am really slowing down and taking my time. When I add characters I want them to be fleshed out, not just random faces for the sake of diversity (I do think diversity is important!)

5. Also just because I don't talk a lot about politics on my RP blogs doesn't mean I'm a bootlicker. I'm pro-Gaza, irl I'm an art teacher who uses musuem backed resources to teach students about female, BIPOC & LGBT+ artists, I often make protest art on my personal blue sky and I have donated to mutual aid funds. I don't talk about it a lot here because RP is my break space and I also don't feel like I need to brag about doing the bare minimum (I'm just attempting to be a decent human being after all).

Do with this information what you will. If you chose to block me please block me on all of my blogs so I don't accidentally follow you.

Happy Thursday,

Nika.

[sgiandubh]

Sasnak City - a different view

I will never encourage you enough to read the whole comments' thread of a post you liked. Otherwise, it's blink and you'll miss it, as I almost missed the only feedback of the Sasnak City event we have on this side of the spectrum: @rosfrank's. She graciously agreed to let me repost them and I truly thank her for the kindness.

Her comments were made under two different posts, so I collated them and vetted their content as much as I could, given the unprecedented context of the SAG-AFTRA strike and the scarcity of details. I did not watch the recap on Instagram, because I am not a fan of the format.

I had no idea Sasnak City was a consistent partner of the Camp Encourage for autistic children project. At least since 2020, as a very superficial Google search shows:

...in 2020, with RR...

... in 2022....

What is Camp Encourage?

This:

Do you have any idea of what it is to be the mother of an autistic child? I don't have this honor. I have never been through the stress and the pain of looking for the right solution, for the good therapist. I never had to swallow my impotent tears and fight with the angel, fruitlessly asking myself why did it happen to me.

I can assure you that career, money and the white picket fence house which mortgage you just paid off do not matter. Not when you wait dejected, with your well-garnished checkbook and no hope in sight, until the good doctor will finally see you. Not when your child is a desperately inaccessible fortress. Not when you tell yourself you just can't take it anymore and yet miraculously find out that yes, you eventually can, over and over and over again.

Before judging, you might want to take a moment.

Side note: the man who supposedly is not good with kids interacted with the organizer's autistic son. On stage (try and take an autistic person out of their comfort zone, anyone?). Oh. What an inconvenient truth, again.

Different figures circulate. I think this is pretty close to reality and also to the 'small and personal fan convention format'. Not sure it made anybody rich overnight, after you deduce all the costs - part of proceeds went to the above charity, anyways. Zealots would like more transparency, perhaps. With which moral authority?

Second bone of contention and a particularly unsavory one, at that, the disrespect of the SAG-AFTRA's strike rules:

What was I telling you, the other day?

As for the limbo, I cannot believe no one bothered to look around a bit for confirmation. On Facebook, for example:

They did their due diligence homework. This announcement was posted on July 14, 2023, with a solidarity with the strike hashtag to boot. Propaganda? Hypocrisy? Oh, give me a break. It is legally impeccable.

There you go. No mention of the show anywhere - check. Screened questions - check. Only the SS paraphernalia (pics, etc) supplied - check. Books still ok for autographs (at S's discretion to go ahead or not, which means SAG-AFTRA is ok with, by the way) - check. Make lemonade when life gives you lemons and 'be creative' - check.

Where is the problem? Why certain sleuthing skills suddenly vanish when it's about formulating a balanced, reasonable POV?

Let me guess. It's all about the "go away, ugly socks, your story sucks" syndrome. Oh.

You'd wish, duckies. You'd wish.

I am not these people's lawyer. Playing Atticus Finch completely ceased to interest me sometime around 1998 AD. I even doubt we can stand each other IRL, for reasons. But I am not discussing people, here. I am discussing and debunking a homespun web of self-righteous lies.

Thank you, @rosfrank. Your gesture was generous and very, very brave.

[disaster-magician]

Don't mind me, just yapping and organizing my thoughts about my olnf mcs! Specifically step 1 for now, will probably do step 2 soon though bc I love writing and talking about them 😊

Nova Grace "Gracie" Woods! She currently identifies as a girl and uses She/Her. (Nova was my second requested voiced name for the ks after my irl name, so hopefully it makes it in!)

A nervous wreck about pretty much everything. Bffs with Tamarack and has a crush on Qiu, though she hasn't realized it yet! She prefers not to talk a lot and communicates mostly through ASL(she and Opal are fluent) or writing.

Very short, probably a good inch or two shorter than Tama. She is half Black on Opal's side and half Native Hawaiian from her donor. Her hair is actually dark blue and not brown like how the doll maker currently makes it look. Qiu probably thought she was exaggerating when she said she falls a lot, and very quickly finds out she was not. She's very rarely without a bandage or two at this age.

Her favorite color is teal, or really any shade of blue. She's autistic and has a special interest in space, and is usually wearing something with a design or pattern around that. She loves playing in the woods, especially with her two best neighbors 😊

Annabeth "Beck" Estrella Hyyde! She was born intersex and AFAB, and currently uses She/Her. (Annabeth was my third requested voiced name, so we'll see if that ends up in there lol)

A very outgoing and hyperactive kid, Beck loves anything to do with the outdoors or making new friends. She has a crush on Tamarack and is good friends with Qiu. It doesn't show on the doll, but she has a white streak in the front of her hair from her vitiligo. (She's the one holding Tama in my profile pic!)

She is Afro-Latina with Dominican roots. She was born in the US but moved to and around South America as a baby and young kid before Opal's job took them back to the states when she was 8. Spanish is her first language and English is her second.

She currently has undiagnosed ADHD and dyslexia and struggles in school even though she always tries her best. I feel like Mrs. Murray would be the type to recognize effort and desire to learn, plus she's still in elementary so her grades wouldn't be bad. In later steps this is not necessarily the case unfortunately.

Although she loves all sports, soccer is the coolest and her most favorite. She can juggle it 40 times in a row without dropping it, just watch! Her favorite color is rainbow, or maybe cranberry like her and her Mamá's hair.

Elijah "Eli" Othello Anderson. He currently identifies as a boy and uses He/Him. He's Black and doesn't know(aka I haven't decided) much about his heritage. I am on the fence about his current hair color and might change or tweak it a bit.

One of the most laid back and breezy kids you'll ever meet. He just wants to have fun and make new friends! He's got a pun or other terrible joke ready at any given moment so watch out.

He does have a bad habit of putting others before himself, much to the disappointment of his Mama. Is it really such a bad thing that he wants to make other people happy?

He finds something of a kindred soul in Qiu in that way. They just get each other in a way most other kids don't. They're clearly destined to be best friends, or maybe even more. He has a soft spot for Tam too, hopefully they'll all be good friends forever.

Cassiopeia "Cassie" Lotus Aoki-Jones. She identifies as a girl and has since she was six and currently uses She/Her. Her mom has Egyptian heritage and her donor was half Japanese.

More than anything, Cassie is mad. She doesn't want to move away from her old friends and life, especially to a place surrounded by dirty and icky woods. Why couldn't she and her annoying Mom just stay where they were?

No one else here even knows about roller skating, or butterflies, or anything cool. Sigh, at least there's a ballet class where she can show off her skills.

Most things here are pretty bad, but the two neighbors her age are pretty okay. Both of them are nice and sweet and pretty... what was she saying again?

[selfship-confession-box]

I am a closetet trans man and I do have a real life actual living and breathing partner, whom I really love and he is very loving and caring and helps me so much. I am very depressed and also autistic, some assistance is very much needed at times. But the thing is - I live in a very unsafe environment for trans ppl, and coming out is not an option, not even to any loved ones. I simply just can't lose what I've got, it may cost me at best a loss of a one and only person I truly love and trust, and at worst I might get outed and my life will be put in danger. I don't think I will be accepted, ever.

I've been using self shipping a lot as a coping mechanism, just the thought of being loved as is warms my heart in a very particular, much needed way. I don't know if it's sad or pathetic, I am, like, grown adult, not even a teen. Sometimes I feel like I'm neglecting my actual partner in favor of my self-insert ship, I know it sounds kinda silly but I just don't know how to put it other way. I have trouble understanding people but analyzing fiction is easy, loving someone who essentially exists within your head is easy. Actual real life relationship requires work I am no way able to reciprocate even tho I try my best (given how much my irl partner does for me), but fictional characters do not care for any work, the fictional guy I'm in love with solely exists to tell me he loves my trans self very much.

You are so loved, I hope you’re safe and well! You have partners that love you. We accept you

-Artemisia

[weepingpussywillowtree]

I'm so sick of being policed by people who know my diagnosis IRL because my struggles don't look like what they see on social media. And yes, this happens to me all the time IRL. And honestly, the people who are the worst about it are self-diagnosed or other diagnosed level 1 ASD people. In many ways, my autism is 'stereotypical'. Just because this isn't how autism always looks doesn't mean I should have to force myself to fit this mold of an autistic person you saw online.

I can't make proper eye contact, most of the time I can't even fake it, I can't stand in the 'right' way no matter how hard I've tried to practice, I can't stop fiddling or stimming, I can't stop myself from getting overwhelmed in crowded or loud situations and leaving without saying anything to go outside for a moment. I talk a lot about my special interests, and I do my best to try but I can't always tell when you want me to leave or when you are no longer interested. I struggle with group interactions and reciprocal conversations. I'm working really hard on it, but I often misread conversational cues or get too excited and accidentally interrupt people.

I never dress quite 'right' for a given occasion even if I try really hard. I don't wear makeup and I can't tolerate having any white parts or nail polish on my nails. I struggle with working full time and I'm only able to thrive as much as I do because I work from home and have a flexible boss. I'm not all that kinky, especially publicly, I don't have dyed hair and don't want it. I am cis and happy with my gender (yes, people have seriously told me I can't be autistic because I'm cis). It happens very rarely, but sometimes I lose speech and it isn't fun or quirky. Usually I am so upset during these episodes that I cannot communicate at all, though sometimes I can type. I don't care which spoon you give me. I frequently offend people without realizing it and then become confused and upset when they are mad at me. My diet isn't good because when I'm at home I eat the same foods over and over. I hand flap and rock and pace and toe walk and have echolalia. If I could take away some of my autistic traits, I would.

This is what being autistic means to me, and don't pretend you're accepting of autistic people or other autistic people if you have such a brittle notion of what autism is.

[listlessnessss]

do my fellow autohomoerotics experience anything similar?

alloandrophilic life cycle:

1.alloandrophilia predictably hits, target is typically a cis man, sometimes a deeply repressed proto-trans woman (it’s easier when it’s parasocial but unfortunately it’s IRL sometimes—sometimes like a lesbian, i choose an unavailable one). the feeling is good, typically, and i have auto-androphilia for him, too. the kind of man i’m attracted to is usually one i’d want to emulate. also the fantasies are super predictably auto-homoerotic as fuck (the idea is i’d also be a guy)

2.I learn that i’m objectively inferior to him because i am (and sometimes it’s because he’s normie in addition to male) i used to approach, but have given that up in recent years after repeated rejections. i get angry, internally, but don’t let it go anywhere. violent thoughts towards myself and others, inc. target. he would also never accommodate my delusions, my sexuality is estrogenic so i think about the future and realize that obviously anyone who is attracted to me is attracted to women and not to autohomoerotic ftms. my blackpills tell me that even well adjusted bi men wouldn’t.(this is due to my horrible personality, so it’s specific to me) i absolutely cannot approach my latest target, it would be inviable due to other unrelated incompatibilities but i won’t get too into that—doesn’t stop the cycle from proceeding.

3.i have thoughts of suicide every day. i rarely can cry, but then i do. (i’m not on testosterone or anything i’m just repressing) for how long these thoughts last depends on how far it got with my delusions. i’m really good at making the cycle go by quickly—classic comphet, i guess i have this in common w the type 1’s. but when i actually have gotten the opportunity to be one of his orbiters, it lasts longer—i’m usually so inferior to his other orbiters. i feel guilty for implicating him.

4.i retreat into a ground state of asexuality, hyper-romantic fanfic-tropey bihet female sexuality. this is my equilibriated comfort zone. of course, i still repress and carry in me intense cross-sex desires. i realize that i am too highly feminine in my thinking- i catch feelings, i’m emotional as fuck, i’m fembrained as all hell, not built for what i perceive from across the cultural and physiological aisle as the casual, animalistic, cult of physical beauty which everything about my socialization and my nerdy femcel predilections has told me i would never in a million years fit into (and on this point i’m right). I have a horrible body and personality, so i find myself falling back on the tropes of cis womanhood when realistically thinking of enticing targets, where almost zero for (gay ftms? they/them perhaps?) exist. I start recovering from my fixation on my alloandrophilic target, and make a return to woman with a private daydream.

written just now in a moment of self-awareness i think… like genuinely what the fuck is wrong.

is this just suicidal or am i a lesbian all along. do others… like me… experience something similar… is this what it feels like to supposed to have been a man yet have a sex drive dominated by estrogen or is this a secret 3rd worse thing? or AUTISM probably? this should be included in a write-up on autistic girls and how we think. i’m throwing things at the wall in the hopes something sticks wrt my guesses here.

is is just me?

[unablethethird]

once again

Same with you skip the weird ones

1: Name Robert [rob]

2: Age 14

3: 3 Fears 1- Friends dying/getting hurt 2-Going back to the last place i lived 3-Not being able to help/be there

4: 3 things I love 1-My frens 2-Laptop 3-headphones

7: My best friend You and yaya [irl]

8: Sexual orientation AroAce [fictoromantic/fictosexual, and kinda orchidromantic]

10: How tall am I 166cm [for now]

11: What do I miss

cant think of anything rn

12: What time were I born 4am

13: Favorite color red, orange, purple, black

15: Favorite quote "Light a man a fire and he'll be warm for the night, light a man *on* fire and he'll be warm for the rest of his life"

16: Favorite place Arcade

17: Favorite food Imjaderah [rice+yoghurt+beans]

18: Do I use sarcasm sometimes, not rlly tho

19: What am I listening to right now

20: First thing I notice in new person Not sure, maybe symptoms???? but not on purpose

21: Shoe size No idea

22: Eye color dark brown [almost black]

23: Hair color black

24: Favorite style of clothing 1920s men atire

25: Ever done a prank call? Not that i can remember

27: Meaning behind my URL I mean this is the 3rd acc

28: Favorite movie THE LORAX!!!!

29: Favorite song right now it's

30: Favorite band FamilyJules? LemonDemon? Will wood? Chonny jash?

31: How I feel right now My body's scared but im chilling

32: Someone I love You /p

33: My current relationship status AroAce, platonically married

34: My relationship with my parents lol

35: Favorite holiday Eid al adha, free money

36: Tattoos and piercing i have Ear

37: Tattoos and piercing i want Sleeve tattoo when i transition

38: The reason I joined Tumblr Needed to continue a fic/comic that was on tumblr

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? idk

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? thank you fren /gen

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? my dad? maybe when i was really young

42: When did I last hold hands? My little sister, i didnt want her to get run over when crossing the road

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? As long as i have, if u give me an hour i'll take an hour, if you give me 30 seconds i'll take 30 seconds

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Nope, i get gender dysphoria from shaving my legs/arms

45: Where am I right now? Bed

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? LOUD

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Mum, not dad

49: Am I excited for anything? Turning 18 and going uni and being a human person with a human life

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Im an oversharer

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Im autistic so not in a deppressed way

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Cant remember

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? H [irl]

55: What is something I disliked about today? My sister stealing money from my mum, i was this close to having smoke outta my ears, she should know better

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? God, im going to beat the shit out of him

57: What do I think about most? Cringe memories i guess?

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can bird whistle

59: Do I have any strange phobias? Touch might be strange?

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind fs

61: What was the last lie I told? "I don't know who they were talking about" [i didn't want to hurt her feelings]

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? voice, video is a nightmare

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yea because either i've seen them or im delusional [im delusional]. aliens are a given, even a bacteria could be one

64: Do I believe in magic? Kinda? idrk, maybe

65: Do I believe in luck? yea

66: What’s the weather like right now? cloudy n cold

67: What was the last book I’ve read? DnD rulebook

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? LVORE IT LOIF LVOE LOVE IT

69: Do I have any nicknames? I get called by my last name a lot

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? not sure

71: Do I spend money or save it? Save

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Unfortunatly no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? My sisters deoderant

74: Favorite animal?

FOXES!!!!!!

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? calming myself down

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I dont think he has one, idk im not religious

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Corny/cringe as hell but Honeypie by JAWNY

78: How can you win my heart? havent thought about it

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

I TOLD YOU MY FOOT WAS KILLING ME

80: What is my favorite word? supercalifragilisticexpialadocious

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr Moots

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? your god is the right one [chaos]

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not currently, but my dad and some uncles were

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Time manipulation

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? i dont think questions are scary

86: What is my current desktop picture? basic

90: Failed a class? classes

94: Had job? I have one now, dont always get paid though

95: Left the house without my wallet? Dont have a wallet

96: Bullied someone on the internet? no

98: Played on a sports team?

Unless school sport team counts

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no

104: Been overweight? No

105: Been underweight? yea

106: Been to a wedding? ye

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Duh

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? maybe i dont remember

109: Been outside my home country? Technically im from iran, and i live in australia, so, yeah

110: Gotten my heart broken? i guess

111: Been to a professional sports game? no

112: Broken a bone? no

113: Cut myself? yeah Im stopping though

114: Been to prom? we dont have that

115: Been in airplane?

Yeah

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? none

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? kinda

119: Learned another language? I know arabic and english

120: Wore make up? Forced to when i was younger but not anymore

123: Dyed my hair? Part of it purple, but its gone now

124: Voted in a presidential election? Cant vote, eitherway all of em suck

125: Rode in an ambulance? Yep

126: Had a surgery? not sure, memory bad

127: Met someone famous? Not that i know of

128: Stalked someone on a social network? mutuals tumblrs

129: Peed outside? Yea

130: Been fishing? nope

131: Helped with charity? yep

132: Been rejected by a crush? nope

133: Broken a mirror? Yep

134: What do I want for birthday? Wouldn't ever happen because it's expensive as fuck but a pump it up machine

i usually get a slice of cake tho

[penaconys-radical-bellboy]

† PROFILE LAYOUTS REQUEST †

[ HEADS UP ! Feel free to ask any questions ! ]

WHAT IS A PROFILE PACKET ?

DO ' S AND WONT ' S

MY RULES FOR REQUESTING

OTHER INFO

── .✦ What is a profile packet ?

A profile pack is a specific theme , aesthetic or whatever you want , into a packet ! These packets may include Icons / pfps , banners / headers that you can use on your profile or on your intro post , and dividers !!

As long as you give me a specific aesthetic & tell me what kind of theme you want , i can give you a packet !! Examples may be but not limited to ; Raiden from genshin purple and lightning themed packet , Cole from yaelokre white , yellow , and rabbit themed packet , and ect ect !!

I dont own any of the art that i use in the icons or banners unless i say that i made them myself , i dont make the icon masks or banner masks myself unless stated that i made them , and i dont make the dividers unless i state myself that i made them !!

You do not have to request a profile pack if you just want a pfp or stuff like themed dividers btw !!

── .✦ Do ' s and wont ' s

I'll do basically any sort of theme !! i do not have a blacklist or a whitelist , as long as you request it I can make it !! I will say , I may be a bit slower with requests that are unspecific & not from fictional media.

I really dont have a list of things i will or wont do since it really depends on the request , i may not do a request of a character simply because im uncomfortable with the character , even if its not on my wont's list.

I wont do ;

People from real life / IRL people. (movies & shows do not count for this , i will also say people in the tcc do not count as well.)

── .✦ My rules for requesting

BE PAITENT. I am slow and i tend to easily lose motivation , as well as memory issues due to switches and being a system. Please do not be afraid to ask for inbox requests or ask if ive gotten your request, i am either working on it, or have forgotten , or working on something else that needs my attention.

You do not have to credit me if you use the profile pack your given as they are free to use

PLEASE. BE. SPECIFIC. Im autistic and need very specific instructions to give you exactly what you want !!

i do not accept DM request as i cannot dm people. Your free to ask in notes / comments , but DMs are the only thing i dont do.

── .✦ Other info

When i say be specific i MEAN SPECIFIC. You can give me a vague unspecific request , it may just take me longer to do.

when I say specific please tell me things like if you want a character from a fictional media , tell me the media !! Do you want a specific character? a color theme to match the character? specific masks like music themed icons or something like animal themed banner masks? PLEASE BE SPECIFIC I CANNOT ASK THIS ENOUGH

[malleusmaleficent]

thinking about the one time this noob i was helping in neverwinter nights hit me with a "i'm neurodivergent so i struggle with a lot of everyday things" after he died, out of nowhere

like don't get me wrong he wasn't good at the game but like. it's a hard game, it's fine to struggle with it? and he was a nice guy, one time i died and he went waaaay out of his way to resurrect me and was never mean. but man he just got sooooooo disheartened, i had to hold his hand the whole time and once i couldn't hold his hand through the game anymore he just quit

but i have wondered like. what does this guy think, what has happened to him, to think that he needs to apologize for being neurodivergent in a video game. probably rough for him

y'all need to understand that everyone in neverwinter nights is autistic LMAO and many of them are on the older side too, like way older than me and im not young. by NWN standards i am a social butterfly of the highest order. like the bar is super low there, and a lot of people are needlessly abrasive over complete non-issues because they're all socially maladjusted nerds that got bullied in school 30 years ago. so i've wondered if that guy felt like he needed to apologize because he had been given grief before by someone else in-game, or if it was due to irl stuff, or what.

[nerdnag]

Hi Sara! You are wise and cool and I'd appreciate advice if you have any! I am trying to make friends especially with fellow autistic people in real life but it is very very hard and scary also I don't know how to find people who want friends. Do you have any advice? (Please only answer if you want to!)

Thank you Ghostly!! 🙏 You are so valid - it *is* hard and scary to make irl friends!! (... Online friends too, tbh)

I don't know if I have any helpful advice, but I'll try!

I think what's worked best for me is to meet people in contexts that are related to specific, niche interests. I'm not entirely sure I have any IRL friends anymore who are only autistic, I do have a bunch who are both autistic and have ADHD though. And all of them, I've met through various kinds of special interests.

For example, several people in my TTRPG group are neurodiverse. How did I meet them? I happened to sit next to a guy I'd never spoken to before while at a work lunch, and we got to talking fantasy books (... I don't really remember how), which got us into RPG talk, which eventually led to him asking me by the end of the lunch whether I'd like to join the TTRPG group that he and some of his friends were starting up soon. That was 3,5 years ago, and we're still playing together to this day!

Another, I met through Magic: The Gathering - we were going to the same weekend event (not related to MtG) and I saw him post in a thread about looking for people to play some games with, so I replied to him, and we pretty much clicked right away because it turned out we had lots of other similar interests as well.

A third, I got to know through playing social deception games at yet another event, in which we sort of fell into a banter-y jargon while trying to convince everyone else to vote out the other. (We were both the wild cards in every game, because I had a habit of grinning wildly and looking generally untrustworthy regardless of which role I was given, and he had an absolutely straight face regardless and was really hard to read, so we pretty quickly identified each other as friendly rivals.) Then I figured out he lived in the same city as I did, and my train was cancelled, so I used my Charisma™ to hitch a ride with him and his dad back home :D

... So based on my own experiences, it seems I've mostly met other neurodiverse people through various kinds of games, which is one of my great passions in life! Depending on what your interests are, maybe there are events, groups or such that you could be on the lookout for? Sort of like it usually happens on Tumblr I guess, but IRL it's a bit harder since you have to do more work and research to find those places and communities.

The thing is though, it will always be scary. The first time I went to play with the TTRPG group, I was super scared. I barely said anything during the first hour or so, and even after several sessions, it still took some time each time to get back into it and relax. But I always have a lot of fun while playing, and I know they appreciate having me there, so that makes it easier to relax and not worry so much. It was the same thing with the MtG friend - I rewrote that first message sooo many times, and then had a racing heart by the time I went to meet up with him. The trick for me has been to recognise when it's worth pushing through that discomfort, and try to be accepting of the fact that sometimes it won't work out, but sometimes it will; sometimes it will lead to amazing friendships, but sometimes it will fizzle out or face plant before it could even start. And that's fine.

It gets easier with time in my experience, but it never gets easy. I've sort of had to accept that I usually don't make a great first impression. It's not that I make a bad impression, I just don't think I make much of an impression at all - I probably seem more shy than I really am, and sometimes my fears make me behave really awkwardly. But after a couple times, as I start to relax and get more comfortable being myself, I think I can make a really really good impression! And I stress a little less about first impressions when I remind myself of that.

Oh, and one more thing: I've personally found that it's a lot easier to meet new people if they are there by themselves. People who already hang out in groups are much harder to approach. Because of this reason, actually, I tend to avoid going to places together with my friends if my aim is to meet new people. It means I won't have the comfort and safety of my friends with me, but it increases the likelihood that I'll approach people I wouldn't have talked to others - or that they will approach me! (The friend I met through social deception games is the opposite, though. He says the comfort of having friends with him makes him more relaxed and confident, which makes it easier for him to meet new people.)