#give alex summers E please. right now.

[madelynevere]

HAVOLARIS YURI WIN

[allwaswell16]

A One Direction fic rec of fics that deal with mental illness in some way as requested in this ask. If you enjoy the fics, please leave kudos and comments. You can find my other recs here.

- Louis / Harry -

✧ rather be sad with you (than anywhere away from you) by ohsailor

(E, 145k, uni) Louis, Niall, and Liam have already been living together for four years when they get a new roommate. Harry’s in pre-med and Louis is struggling to graduate and fulfill his family’s hope of him becoming an esteemed lawyer while battling his mental health.

✧ My Lights Stay Up, But Your City Sleeps by PearlyDewdrops

(E, 108k, fwb) Louis has trouble sleeping, Harry has a habit of wrapping himself around Louis during the nights, and a mutual agreement to engage in a fun and simple thing quickly turns into something perhaps not so fun, and certainly not simple.

✧ another dream but always you by you_explode / @nobodymoves

(M, 66k, superpower) Harry is a Dreamwalker; he has the ability to visit people in their dreams and help put them on the right path. He's assigned to Louis, who's struggling after the break-up of his band. 

✧ From This Moment On by therogueskimo / @bravetemptation

(NR, 52k, famous/not famous) Louis Tomlinson needs a tour photographer, and he thinks he's found the one in the mysterious H on Instagram. Harry Styles swore he'd never do tour photography again - that is, until he did.

✧ knives don't have your back by @turnyourankle

(M, 51k, uni) The lone survivor of an on campus massacre that claimed the lives of his four housemates, Harry is urged to take a sabbatical or transfer. Instead, he chooses to stay in school, move into the dorms, and overcome his fears.

✧ we should open up (before it's all too much) by @disgruntledkittenface

(M, 43k, vampire Louis) Struggling with grieving and depression since his dad died, Harry has never felt so alone. It’s too much to cope with on his own, but he feels like a burden when he tries to open up with people. Then he meets Louis.

✧ there now, steady love (so few come and don't go) by we_are_the_same / @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed

(M, 42k, supernatural) It becomes just another fact of life. The sky is blue. The grass is green. Louis sees when people are about to die.

✧ Here (In Your Arms) by @afangirlfantasy

(G, 42k, enemies to lovers) College AU where Louis is the upperclassman frat boy with problems too deep for alcohol to drown out, and Harry is the stereotypical freshman with plans to figure out who he is.

✧ You and Me by delsicle / @eeveedel

(E, 36k, Dunkirk) Alex goes to war. He comes back and everything is the same -- his hometown, his flat, the boy with the bad heart he left behind. Everything is same. Except for him.

✧ Lead Butterfly by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup

(M, 32k, pirates) When the ship Harry lives on is boarded and overtaken by the crew of The Lady Charlotte, he thinks it’s going to be the end of the line. What he’s not expecting is to be brought onto the ship and provided safe passage. At least, as long as no one finds they’ve mistaken a common pirate for a noble.

✧ To Give You a Hand to Hold by gettingaphdinlarry

(NR, 26k, military) Marine Louis Tomlinson is medically discharged when an IED explodes in Afghanistan. Months later, he's reunited Stateside with his Navy medic Harry Styles. The two of them shelter each other even as they refuse to admit they're in the throes of PTSD, until one night nearly destroys them.

✧ With These Arms Folded by @taggiecb

(NR, 21k, famous/not famous) Harry Styles is living a peaceful existence in California as a very successful songwriter. That is until he receives a curious email one sunny summer morning, and his life almost immediately gets turned upside down

✧ You're A Universe by Jiksa / @jiksax

(E, 15k, kid fic) Louis’s a stay-at-home dad in London and Harry’s a business expat in Qatar. Louis doesn’t know how much longer their marriage can survive the distance.

✧ the colors that i can't change by bravestyles / @bravestylesao3

(NR, 15k, hurt/comfort) Harry has Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Louis tries his best to understand.

✧ You're a Habit Hard to Break by LiveLaughLoveLarry / @loveislarryislove

(T, 11k, exes) Everyone deals with breakups differently. Louis feels everything all at once -- hurt, anger, sadness. Harry feels nothing at all. They're two broken people, but they don't know how to fix themselves alone.

✧ your best fake smile by YesIsAWorld / @louandhazaf

(G, 6k, first date) Harry reluctantly agrees to a first date with Louis at Coney Island.

✧ You've Got A New Life (Am I Bothering you?) by LilyBlue28

(NR, 5k, omegaverse)  the one where Louis is an omega who suffers from PTSD and is triggered one day. He doesn't know how to ask for help from his doting alpha, doesn't think he deserves it, and tries to handle it on his own.

✧ I'm Falling Again by @jaerie

(M, 3k, canon) Just like the last three times, his call went straight to voicemail, driving home the fact of just how badly he’d fucked up.

- Rare Pairs -

✧ You Don't Care About Me (One More Night) by @lululawrence

(NR, 60k, Louis/Nick Grimshaw) the one where Louis pines for Harry and Nick helps ease his way into figuring himself out through a friends with benefits sort of arrangement. Things quickly turn complicated.

✧ Lost Coastlines by pukeandcry

(T, 21k, Harry/Nick Grimshaw) It's been a year since Harry and Niall died in a plane crash – only it turns out they didn't, because they've just been rescued from the island they've been stranded on, and Harry is suddenly back in Nick's life, not quite good as new.

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Master Fic List

I figured I have enough fics now that they deserve a permanent place to live on my blog. Please read, comment, enjoy!

a valentine for Alex (rated E | 1,968 words) Valentine's Day smut

the bartender and the blond (rated M | 9,999 words) slow burn romance

being enough (rated T | 551 words) Alex loves Henry

Brooklyn in the summer (rated E | 23,618 words) infamous handyman!alex series (part 4 is in the works)

cool for the summer (rated M | 1,500 words) drinking + teasing = relationship

craving the second that i get you back (rated E | 6,565 words) casual situationship to lovers

faith, trust, and pixie dust (rated M | 5,810 words) omgtheywereroommates but make it Halloween

find me here and speak to me (rated E | 13,131 words) soulmate au angst

Freaktober (rated E | 14,475 words) Kinktober with a Halloween twist

Friday, i'm in love (a collection of ficlets) ficlet friday firstprince

how sweet we'll be, meeting again (rated T | 1,410 words) Henry says goodbye (MCD)

i'm known for giving love away (rated E | 16,866 words) stripper!Alex fic

it happened on a lake (rated E | 18,967 words) David-centric meet cute

kiss me at midnight (rated M | 2,025 words) NYE getting together

mad love. (rated E | 31,313) angsty exes-to-lovers, HEA

move your body (rated E | 2,500 words) dancing and smut

perineyum (rated E | 2,500 words) introspective rimming, the sequel

right here, right now (rated E | 3,333 words) coworkers to lovers

Saturdays are for the boys (rated E | 1,813 words) Saturday couch smut (10k fandom fic)

smutgiving 2023 (rated E | 100 word drabble) self-explanatory

smutsgiving 2024 (rated E | 100 word drabble) it's mostly feelings

take my hand and let it spin (a collection of drabbles) 100-word fics

the song of alex & henry (rated T | 1,062 words) firstprince reads TSOA

Vegas, Baby (rated M | 12,735 words) strangers to husbands

when the curtains call the time (rated E | 27,916 words) exes to lovers

what if we just fall? (rated E | 4,565 words) roommates-to-lovers emotional smutfest

why do you call me baby? (rated M | 3,625 words) henry is unexpected

wrapped in red (rated M | 4,029 words) 5+1 post-canon Christmas vignettes

wrapped up in music & lyrics (rated M | 1,000 words) Spotify Wrapped drabbles

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Shy/Insecure/Awkward Masterlist

Beautiful (ao3) - EverythingSucks michael/luke E, 3k

Summary: Michael's been feeling insecure about his weight-gain and Luke reassures him he's very beautiful.

Beginnings (ao3) - thenewbrokenscene michael/luke M, 45k

Summary:

[College/University AU] Michael Clifford was a sophomore transfer student, trapped living in the dorms again after a technicality dropped him back down to freshman status. He had requested a single room, determined to focus on his school work, get out of university housing as quickly as possible, and start his real life, but of course, on August 1st he received the obligatory "Get to know your new roommate this summer! You can contact Luke Hemmings, freshman student, at his school email..." message in his inbox.

Whatever. Let's just get this year over with.

Come As You Are (ao3) - HPFangirl71 luke/ashton E, 4k

Summary: Naked Luke keeps giving Ashton boners...

He Looks So Perfect (ao3) - Emmybazy luke/calum G, 3k

Summary: It's not creepy to have a crush on someone you've never spoken to. It's not. Right?

Or, Luke and Calum take the same subway to work.

i don't care if your beautiful lips exist out there (ao3) - dancingmalum michael/calum, luke/ashton N/R, 3k

Summary: Michael can't help but to agree to skip school with the boy he's been crushing on forever; Calum Hood.

I'll Take My Pizza AND the Pizza Guy (ao3) - eyecrinkleskink luke/calum T, 1k

Summary: luke is really awkward and calum is a pizza delivery boy.

i scream and wave my arms but you don't understand me (ao3) - dancingmalum michael/luke N/R, 3k

Summary: Luke stares at Michael from across the room, but it seems like the older boy has no idea. He keeps laughing at things Alex Gaskarth (!!) says, and Michael seems cool, he's talking smoothly to the Alex Gaskarth and he's not freaking out about it, his voice isn't shaking, he doesn't even seem nervous. Luke's jealous of both Alex Gaskarth himself and the way Michael isn't freaking the fuck out.

Michael never even glances at Luke, he's looking around at everyone in the room but him, it's painful. Luke's not saying much, there's nothing for him to say, except the occasional add in about a song they're writing.

"We could have some part about hooking up with hot girls," Calum grins, and Luke feels like sinking into the couch.

"Luke, you should know about that, right?" Michael asks, a smirk on his face as he stares back at Luke for the first time in a few days. "Wait, never mind, you're gay as hell."

The guys all laugh, and Michael's already done staring at him. Luke's heart is burning, along with his flushed cheeks, and he wants to hide and never see Michael or the incredibly cool Alex Gaskarth ever again.

i think they're cute, though (ao3) - cliffakitten luke/ashton E, 2k

Summary: Honestly, there should be some kind of warning for shit like this: Your amazing, adorable boyfriend has recently bought glasses and looks fit as fuck, you're going to want to do unspeakable, dirty things to him. Please attempt to control your imminent hard on. -- Or Ashton has new glasses and Luke really wants to fuck him in them.

It’s Heaven In Your Arms (ao3) - babylrh ot4 T, 1k

Summary: A band cuddle never failed to fix everything.

just give me one more quiet night (ao3) - iambic_pulse ot4 E, 5k

Summary: Ashton needs to be needed, but now that they're all older and his bandmates are more independent, they probably don't need him quite so much anymore.

London (ao3) - ashton_cuddles94 luke/ashton T, 2k

Summary: Ashton is becoming stressed due to the band's recent move to London and it's affecting his body image, causing him to gain weight.

Maybe you were the ocean, (when I was just a stone) (ao3) - LoserLucas (planetsandstars) luke/ashton G, 1k

Summary: It’s only much later, when they’re lying in Ashton’s bed and Ashton is half holding Luke and attempting not to hurt himself where he had his surgery, when he tells Luke how he’s been feeling.

Or Ashton has been feeling sad and insecure ever since he had his surgery.

more than just your best friend, we do everything together (ao3) - dancingmalum michael/luke N/R, 4k

Summary: Luke's ballet performances were beautiful, and Michael couldn't help but fall harder for him.

Reflections (ao3) - punchinginadream luke/ashton M, 4k

Summary: Ashton doesn't like his body. Luke decides to fuck him in front of a mirror to show him how beautiful he really is.

the light in your eyes (ao3) - cashcakeplz michael/calum, michael/luke, luke/ashton N/R, 137k

Summary: In general, Calum just owned a lot of pretty things, and he used to get picked on a lot for it. People would call him out for wearing make-up back when he had just turned thirteen, and then proceed to laugh and beat the shit out of him. Michael was always there, though, and his scrawny little ass would pound those douche bag’s faces in whenever one of them had dared to lay a finger on his best friend. Or at least, he tried. Michael had his fair share of losses in his every-day battles against douche bagery. It never stopped him, though. Especially when all of those ‘straight’ ‘men’ turned their abuse from not only physical, but to sexual and mental as well, sexual being the most reoccurring theme. Especially not then.

Or the one where Calum is beautiful and beaten, Michael is in love with his best friend, Luke is lost, and Ashton just wants everyone to be happy.

wrap my love around you (ao3) - hemmingshoodie michael/luke T, 1k

Summary: in which luke thinks he looks like a fat pig that choked on his mcdonalds in everything he wears and michael thinks that's bullshit.

there's smut.

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❤️ for Lou Hammond and Alex Summers?

First of all, I just want to apologize for not getting around to answering this ask.

I think I will be offering a lot of apologies for how late some of these asks are but I just want to thank you for leaving it in my ask box and for being such a considerate mutual.

I truly appreciate you, @lilac-lemonade and your asks about my OCs.

Never change ❤️

(P.S. I'm going to be doing this in dot points because my Tumblr has been glitching on me for a month now and gets all wiggy whenever I write up a post so, please forgive me)

Lou Hammond & Alex Summers: Their First Kiss

It's during X-Men: First Class.

The night before their battle in Cuba.

The gang were all hanging out in Charles' music room, listening to records and dancing around.

Hank left early to work on some last-minute thing for Raven, and shortly afterwards, Raven leaves to meet Hank in her room to discuss the injections to hide their mutations.

So it was basically just Lou, Darwin, Sean and Alex hanging around, dancing with each other and just trying to have some fun for what might possibly be their last night alive 'cause, you know, they might fail tomorrow and die. Gotta live while you can!

Anyway, Alex is not really the dancing type, so he's mostly been brooding in the corner watching as Lou gets spun around the room by Darwin and Sean.

He's hiding a smile because she looks really pretty and her laughter sounds like what he'd imagine an angel's to sound like if he still went to church and believed in that thing.

So, Darwin and Sean have kind of gathered that Alex and Lou have been skirting around each other and their obvious feelings for each other since the first night they met and they just decide 'we gotta get this thing moving because they're obviously not going to do anything and they're going to regret it if they don't do something about it now'.

They pull Alex out of his little corner with Lou's help and basically just push him into dancing with her.

She takes pity on him and wraps her arms around his shoulders and tentatively places his around her waist, and they just sway to the music as the song changes to "Stand by Me" by Ben E. King.

They lose themselves in each other's eyes, only noticing halfway through that Sean and Darwin have skipped out.

They're kind of past caring at that point and she says something like, "we can stop now if you're still uncomfortable" and his arms tighten around her and he lets out a little, "No! No, no, its fine now. I guess?"

She gets it and just gives him that small secretive smile she gave him after she beat him in an arm wrestle the first time they met, and she nods, leaning into him a bit, whispering, "This feels nice."

He whispers back, "Yeah, it does." and she can kind of hear it in his voice and she looks up at him and she looks too good to be true and she's never had someone look at her like that before.

They both lean forward slowly.

When they kiss, its sweet, soft, unhurried and tentative and they're still swaying with each other as the song dies down but than they hear Sean giggling in the hallway and it just brings them back to where they are and what's happening tomorrow and -

Alex clears his throat and is the first to let go, stepping back a bit more than necessary.

Lou feels a bit nervous, like, that was her first kiss. With a boy. She doesn't really know what to do and she's red, he's red, they're both blushing like they're on fire and he's just like, "Uh, we should really get some sleep."

And he's giving her an out from the embarassment she's feeling now and she takes it, unable to meet his eyes as she nods, "Yep, yep, I'll just - " and they're both basically racing out the door. Than up the stairs. Than to their rooms (which are right across the hall from each other so its laughably awkward).

They're both kind of thinking it was a mistake, that the other doesn't have feelings for them and that they've ruined everything but they're reliving that kiss over and over in their heads, butterflies fluttering in their stomach and just wishing that the song never ended.

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but how does alexander BREATHE??????? like, I've heard that you're not supposed to wear an actual binder for more than 8 hours and you can't exercise or work out at ALL, plus you can't sleep

so not only is your lil hammy boi binding with B A N D A G E S (which are very dangerous but ig there was no option back then) but he also has to do all that military shit?!?!?!?! HOW DOES THIS MAN BREATHE?? ARE HIS LUNGS OKAY? GIVE HIM SOME WATER PLEASE

also, how did alex come out? like, ik how he did it to washingdad but there must have been people who knew about general washington's children. how did they explain away the fact that they suddenly didn't have a daughter anymore?

also, does alex in your fic have long hair or short hair? it was mentioned in Alexander that he cut it, right? but since this is the musical fic he would have a ponytail as he does onstage? or did you make him have short hair? i was wondering because, y'know, dysphoria n shit

oh and another thing. so did john previously had ANY knowledge at all of transgender people's existence, or did he just basically understand that his bf was not born as a guy and was completely fine with it?

btw this is the same fanfic-reading anon who threatened to throw you into a canyon, I've returned with a slightly less passive-aggressive tone and more questions hehe

HI BESTIE SO GOOD TO SEE YOU

love how you always just get straight to the point lmao

oh, you should ABSOLUTELY not wear a binder for more than eight hours at a time, and exercise and sleep is a big nono!

the answer is of course... breathing exercises. lots and lots of breathing exercises :')

don't get me wrong that little fool was definitely on the verge of just passing out before in battle, and he did walk away with severe bruising every time, no matter how loose he was binding :/

as an aide he has to basically sit all day, so that's a bit better! it's still far from perfect tho

okay, how did he come out to like, people adjacent to his family?

he didn't :) lemme explain:

you got little eleven/twelve year old Alexander, hair freshly cut and in new fancy Boy Clothes™, going about his business around town with his Pa.

so. people will obviously see them. people know the Washingtons; they're good citizens, honest, fair, Washington let's older kids of the locals work summers on his plantation to get them some income, which is a sweet gig! they are a valued part of society!

...Washington did come home from an employment with a child a few years ago. a little girl. no one ever addressed it, but it was pretty clear she was his bastard. ah well. the child was obviously born before he got married, so he didn't cheat on his wife. they could forgive that.

so. now that little girl looks like a boy.

people attempt to ask him about it! tell him "yo George idk if you've noticed but your daughter is wearing pants"

Washington just stands there, says "his name is Alexander" and. stares. stares like only a military commander can, straight into the person's soul, daring them to say anything else, give him a reason to put them on his shitlist.

they all learn very quickly not to mention it :)

Alex has long hair! I mean kinda, just a little longer than shoulder-length. back then, it was typical for men to have somewhat long hair, right? it's just not as long as a woman might wear it :)

it wasn't that John straight up knew about the concept, but as I've stated before, for him as a gay man, it's not a difficult connection to make, so yeah, he basically just accepted it!

also I love the headcanon that's actually based in history that his little sister Polly struggled with gender, so he would have some framework of that concept already psst my homie @quillsink is working on a very angsty fic about historical John and Polly rn ;)

I love you either way, anon! you are always welcome here, with questions or just to threaten to yeet me into a canyon <3

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Sounds of Someday - CH 2

Title: Sounds of Someday

Fandom: Supernatural

Pairing: Destiel 

Rating: E (eventually)

Tags: canon typical violence, character death, kind of cuz you know, nothing really dies in Supernatural, smut, fluff, bit of angst

Summary: Sam was dead, Cas was lost forever, and Dean's entire world had been turned upside down in less than an instant. He was alone, again, a typical Winchester ending, but god damn if that was how he was going to leave it. He was going to get Sam back, he was going to get Cas back, and he was going to fix everything that had fallen apart, and now he was going to do it all with twin babies and the king of hell back on his side. Season sixteen… here we go.

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Chapter two

     Jody Mills tapped the wooden spoon in her hand on the side of the pot, splattering her famous spaghetti sauce all over the white of her stove top. The doorbell rang again, followed by a persistent knocking as she scowled into the pot of sauce, angrily dropping the spoon into the empty sauce can beside her. She swiped her half full wine glass off the counter as the knocking and ringing continued, and she stormed towards the door wondering who would have the gaul to be so arrogant on a Sunday afternoon. 

     "I'm coming, I'm coming, keep your pants on, yeesh!" She called out, grumbling to herself about the arrogance of some people as she finally made it to the door. She quickly swung it open, ready to give the person on the other side a huge piece of her mind, but instead she only managed a stunned, "Dean?!"

     "Jody," he breathed. 

     "Dean Winchester! Where the hell have you been?!" Though it wasn't exactly the warm welcome Dean had been hoping for, he was still happy to have this nonetheless. "I haven't heard from you in ages, and now you just randomly show up on my doorstep, unannounced, on a Sunday afternoon? And those…" She looked down to the two car seats, one in each of his hands and pointed to them, "Are… are those babies? You have babies?!"

     He just nodded and looked to her with his still red rimmed eyes and tear stained cheeks. When she was finally able to take him fully in, getting past the initial shock of seeing him after so long with no word as to why, she realized there must be more to this then at first glance and quickly ushered him inside. "Let's get you all inside, I do believe I'm entitled to a very lengthy and detailed explanation of what the hell's going on here."

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     "You were dead?" 

     Jody looked up at Dean from where she was sitting on the couch across from him, playing with the babies in the car seats where they sat on her coffee table. He just looked back at her with a solemn expression and nodded. 

     "Yeah, or at least I thought I was. Turns out I was just in some sort of Chuck induced fever dream for four years."

     "And Sam?"

     It wasn't missed on Jody the way Dean's entire being died with the question, the already dimming light completely fading from his eyes. She already had her answer. 

     "He's dead, he's back at Bobby’s right now," he confirmed with a nod, "and Cas is… he's gone too, the Empty took him."

     "When the hell did that happen?!"

     Dean just shook his head, thinking back. He wasn't sure if he should tell her, hell he wasn't even sure if he was ready to say it out loud himself. But he figured who better to bear it all to then Jody, a woman who had basically been his mom for years now. 

     So he nodded to himself, trying in a way to convince himself it was okay, then scrubbed a hand down his face as he looked up to her, "It, uh… it happened right after he allowed himself to be truly happy."

     She gave him a questioning look and asked, "And that was how?"

     "He…" He waited a beat, took a deep breath, then continued, "He told me he loved me."

     Jody's eyebrows shot nearly straight into her forehead, and her bottom lip shrugged out almost in that typical Winchester way. "Well, okay, yeah, that makes sense."

     "That… that makes sense?" He scrunched his face at her, "The hell is that supposed to mean?!"

     "Exactly what it sounds like," she chuckled lightly, "you two were always so oblivious. Everyone knew that you were both in deep for each other, the only two who didn't know it was you. At least one of you finally said something."

     "Yeah," he scrubbed his face again and sighed into his hands, "and as soon as he did, the Empty took him away. He never should have made that deal with the Empty. He let himself be happy, told me he loved me, and then to save me he let the Empty take him away from me for it. I didn't have a chance to say anything before he was gone. I just… I just stood there like an idiot."

     "But you're gunna save him right?" She asked, then turned a wide smile on one of the babies as they cooed at her. 

     "What?”

     “Oh don't you play me for a fool, Dean Winchester,” she eyed him from the side, “I know you, and I know that even if it takes everything you’ve got, you will find a way to bring back both your brother and Cas. You'll have your chance to talk to Cas about this, I'm sure of it.”

     “But that's just the thing Jody, I can't do that anymore,” he gestured to the two little ones in front of him, “I have these two now, kids, I can't go running around all reckless like I used to. I have to make sure I’m there for these two, I have to be a good dad.”

     “Seems you're off to a good start at least, thinking like that,” she smiled at him softly, “but I'm sure together we can find a way around this. We'll find a way to bring them back without having to go the familiar route of the typical Winchester sacrifice.”

     He just nodded, thankful but not really knowing exactly how to put in words just how much that all meant to him. 

     “And if you decided that you wanted to keep hunting after we got them both back, then we'll find a way around that too, I know it’s important to you.”

     She reached over and placed her hand on Dean's knee, giving it a little shake. He managed to give her the smallest hint of a smile, which she returned, then looked back to the two small bundles still cooing on her coffee table. 

     “I still can't believe that these two precious little munchkins are God and the Darkness. Two very horrible people we once tried to kill,” she looked up from the babies, “how… how do you feel about that, I mean, the last time I saw you, you were pissed at Chuck and now you're raising him.”

     “It's… an interesting development,” he stood from the chair across from Jody and moved to sit beside her, looking at both the babies. Chuck was still awake, wide eyed and looking at everything, and Amara was sound asleep in the car seat beside him. He smiled a little, lifting his hand to run his finger down Chuck's little cheek, “I know who they were, but they aren't that anymore, they're just babies now, human. No power, no memories, just little Chuck and Amara Winchester. A once God turned human and his now equally human twin sister.”

     “Wait, Winchester? I was wondering what you would be doing for last names.”

     “I don't really have much of a choice.” He reached into the side pocket of Chuck's seat, pulling out the envelope he had found earlier and handed it to Jody. 

     She gave him a curious look then turned to open it, dumping the contents into her lap. She rifled through, looking at every piece, eyes widening as she went deeper. 

     “Did Chuck do this?!”

     Dean nodded, “Just before he blew us back to reality.”

     “Birth certificates,” she lifted each piece as she said it, “he made both of them Winchesters, officially. Guess he thought of everything.”

     “Not everything,” Dean grumbled, “he zapped the three of us back here with no supplies for the babies, no formula, no diapers, no cribs, no place to live, and it's going to be hard to find a place by myself that's going to take an ex-hunter single dad with two kids and a dog.”

     “You're not going back to the Bunker?”

     “No,” he answered a bit too fast, then sighed, “no, not right now at least. I… I just can't right now after losing Sam and Cas.”

     She nodded, understanding how he felt. “Well you know, i've got some extra rooms in the house since the girls left. Claire’s never here aside from a quick visit to check in for the sake of my sanity between hunts, Patience is off to college so she'll be back in the summer but that's it, and Alex is still working at the hospital in town but she's now all moved in with her boyfriend. That gives you a room for yourself, a room for the twins, and then we still have a spare room for when the girls come to visit.”

     “Are you… you want me to move in here?”

     “Why not?” She shrugged.

     “Jody, I can't just move in with no notice like this, I don't wanna impose on you.”

     “Dean, honey, you are not imposing,” she placed a hand on his knee and gave it a light squeeze, “I am happy to help. So you, the babies, and your dog are all going to be living here starting now until further notice. And as for the rest, the supplies for the babies, I can also help you with that. I don't have anything left over from when my son was little, but it's nothing a quick trip to the store can't fix.”

     “Jody I can't, “ he shook his head, “I can't ask that much of you, and I've still got so much to deal with, and Sam… I’ve still got to bury Sam,” he whispered the last part, voice cracking, choking back a sob as he tried to hide it behind his hand.

     “Dean, please,” she leaned forward on the couch and looked into his eyes, “I want you here, and this isn't something you should have to go through alone. 

     “I… I don't know what to say.”

     “Don't say anything,” she smiled at him, “once we take care of Sam we’ll head to the store, grab what we need for the babies, then you can grab what you need from the Bunker and get settled in here.”

     He just nodded, staring at the floor unable to actually look at jody right now, “Thanks, Jody, this really means a lot.”

     “We’ll get through this, Dean, okay, one step at a time.” He just nodded again as Jody gave him one last squeeze then stood and said, “Let's get to the store so these babies have food, then we'll head over to Bobby’s… and take care of Sam.” 

     She left him to sit on the couch for a few minutes, to think over everything and have a little time to process, time she was sure he hadn't allowed himself to have yet, and started gathering her things to wait for him outside.

~~~~~~~~~~~ 

     Dean pulled up to the all too familiar junk yard that was home for him once upon a time. Home for him and his little brother all those years ago when John was too busy hunting to be a father, too riled up in his revenge and anger to be a dad, too misguided and self centered to be a parent. But all for the better, Dean thought as he drove through the maze of piled up cars, because they found something better. 

     In those old worn down walls they found a man more worthy of being their father then John ever was. A man who actually cared for them not just as children, but even later in life when they showed up lost and alone on his doorstep. Even on his dying breath he loved them like the sons he considered them to be. In those old worn down walls they felt true love.

     He pulled the impala to a stop outside the burned down and broken remains of Bobby's old place. He remembered how he felt the day he drove in to find the place up in flames, after the Leviathans had destroyed it, killed Bobby, ruined their lives. Dean thought they had taken everything away from them. But he realized soon after, when they buried Bobby there, that as soon as he stepped foot on the soil outside that burnt up mess, it was still home. 

     There may not have been much of a house left, and Bobby was gone for good, but the feeling that Dean always felt when he was there never left. It was something the Leviathans or anything else could ever take away from him. The memories, the love, that feeling of home. And in the end, Dean couldn't think of a better place to bury his brother. Sammy would want to be home. 

     He got out of the car, breathing in the sweet Sioux Falls air he loved so much, and walked to the back doors to start getting the babies car seats out of the back as Jody drove up and parked beside him. He got both seats out of the impala and placed them on the ground, watching as Jody pulled the new double stroller they just bought out of the back of her van, and pushed it over to Dean. 

     He lifted Chuck first, holding his seat over the front of the stroller, testing and turning it a few times before he asked, "How…?"

     Jody just laughed and reached for the car seat, "Here, it goes facing you, and just clips in like this "

     At the simple little snap Dean eyed the stroller warily and reached out to give the car seat handle a little test jiggle, "Is this safe? It doesn't seem safe at all, I mean that was too easy!"

     "It's perfectly safe, Dean, you insisted we got the most top of the line everything for the babies, and according to the clerk at the store, and the seven articles you read on the way there, that's exactly what we got. And the articles said it was tested and proven the best stroller in America right?" She laughed as he just nodded sheepishly. "Don't worry so much, Dean, you're gunna be a fine daddy. Now you try clipping Amara into the bottom part of the stroller."

     It took him a few tries, but eventually he had both babies clipped in and he was pushing the stroller towards the back of the house. The pire he had already set up before going to Jody was still there, Sam wrapped in a white sheet in the center. He stopped for a moment, not really able to move or breathe as he just stared at Sam. This wasn't what he wanted, this was never what he wanted, he had what he wanted and it turned out to be a stupid fake reality. Everything was falling apart at the seams. 

     Jody lifted her hand and squeezed his shoulder, urging him forwards. He nodded and walked closer to Sam with Jody by his side, and after making sure the babies were at a very safe distance from the pire, he pulled his lighter out of his pocket. He shifted it from hand to hand for a moment, staring at the dirt, trying to find the right words to say.

     "Well, Sammy," he choked out, trying to hold back tears, "I'm sorry. I tried, I really tried, but I couldn't help you. But mark my words, I will find a way to bring you back. I promise you."

     He waited another moment before he nodded to himself, then tossed the lighter and took a step back to stand with Jody. They watched as the pire lite up, standing side by side, and there was no stopping the tears now while he watched his brother burn. 

     "This isn't permanent, you know," she said from beside Dean, "it's only temporary. We will find a way to make this right again. We always have."

     He took a deep, shuddering breath and wiped away the tears rolling down his cheeks. Jody shifted over and wrapped an arm around him, "When you're ready, we’ll head to the bunker and get what you need. Then we'll get back home, get the cribs set up in their room, and get you and the babies settled."

     "Yeah," he cleared his throat and turned to look at Jody, "let's get the babies home."

~~~~~~~~~~~ 

     Dean stood in the entryway to the Bunker, his legs unable to move. This was the last place they were all together. The last place that he, Cas, and Sam were all together. It was also the place where he lost Cas. Where he confessed his love to Dean, where he stood stock still and did nothing, said nothing as Cas was taken from his life again. It's where he spiralled after that, falling to his rage and anger, feeling the loss of Cas again though this time it weighed differently. He knew Cas loved him, had loved him all those years together when he'd been too afraid to say anything. Losing Cas always ripped his heart out, but knowing how Cas felt, that his hidden feelings for the angel were reciprocated, knowing that they had lost so many years when they could have been together, it made the pain infinitely worse. And he felt that pain renewed as he stood just before the threshold to the place that held his worst nightmares inside. And what was worse was that now he stood here alone. No brother… no Cas, just himself and the bad memories.

     "You ready?"

     He turned to Jody who was now standing beside him, holding both car seats. He jolted out of his flashing memories of losing Cas just beyond this door, took one of the seats from her, sighed and said, "As ready as I can be. Let's just get this over with."

~~~~~~~~~~~

     Dean wanted to spend as little time in the Bunker as possible. The bad memories as of late outweighed the good and all he wanted was to get in and get out. So after putting the sleeping babies in the lounge, he rattled off a list of things for Jody to find, and the two split up to cover more ground faster. And with the promise from Jody that if ever they needed something else from the Bunker, she would come get it so that Dean never had to come back after this. She could tell it was really hurting him to even be in here for this short of a time. 

     After about an hour the two met back up in the map room, shoving their findings into the few duffels Dean grabbed from his old room, when a pounding at the door had them both frozen and silent. Eyes wide, Dean looked to Jody for an answer who just shook her head, as lost as he was. 

     The pounding came again and this time Dean's heart felt a little jolt of hope and he perked up slightly. Afterall, it had happened before so why not now? "Cas?!"

     "Oi! Someone open up will ya!"

     He sighed, but why would he be so lucky. 

     He and Jody both exchanged unimpressed glances as Dean headed up the stairs to open the door, though just enough to stick his head out. 

     "What do you want, Crowley?! I am not in the mood!"

     "Easy, Squirrel, easy," he held both hands up, "not here to bother you, just came to find out why in the bloody hell the world suddenly jolted back to life after four years. Figured if anyone had anything to do with it, it would be one of you lot. Gunna let me in?"

     Dean just rolled his eyes and backed away to let him in. "You could have just snapped your way in like you usually do."

     "Didn't want to be rude now, Squirrel.". He strolled in, hands in his pockets and looked around. He eyed Jody at the bottom of the stairs and raised a brow. "Where’s Moose?"

     "Dead."

     "Ah," he nodded, seemingly unfazed, "and your devilishly handsome boyfriend?"

     Dean shook a little at the mention of Cas, but answered through gritted teeth, "He's in the Empty, for good this time."

     It didn't pass Crowley that he never even bothered to deny the boyfriend comment but he went on anyway as they headed down the stairs together. "You seem fairly untroubled by the fact that I am indeed alive. Last we saw each other I "killed myself"," he turned to use air quotes at Dean who rolled his eyes again, "back when we were fighting my old compadre in the Endverse world."

     "Yeah well, after the last four or so years that I've had, nothing really phases me anymore."

     "Assuming this has something to do with the world being frozen. Glad you're back by the way. The world was boring while Chucky had it frozen. No deals to be made, no fun to be had."

     "Where were you all that time, huh?" He turned Crowley back to look at him, "How did you not die, what did you do?"

     "Ah well, that. I had a contingency plan in place in case one of you clots should be my end."

     "Of course you did, what was this brilliant plan?"

     "Pulled myself a Voldemort." He smiled smugly at Dean who just furrowed his brows. 

     "You… what?!"

     "I put a small piece of myself in some sorry sap down in New Mexico before Lucifer pulled his second tantrum of the decade, and after I killed myself I was able to use that piece of myself to be resurrected. As for where I've been, it takes time to recover from such a trauma you know, so surf, sun, and sandals." 

     "I, you… did you just make a Harry Potter reference?" He was still stuck on the first part of the conversation. 

     And though Dean was confused, Crowley looked almost impressed, "Didn't take you for a Potterhead, Squirrel."

     "Of course I've watched Harry Potter," he scoffed, "Hermione kicks ass! She'll be a good role model for the kids when they watch it with me when they're older.” 

     "Kids..? Yours? You have kids," he turned, looking around the room for little rugrats tearing the place apart, then back to Dean, " Did I miss something?!"

     "You have no idea-" Crying came from the room behind them and Dean just closed his eyes and let out a full body sigh, "Damn it, I was hoping they'd stay asleep till we got home."

     He left for a moment then came back in the room bouncing a tiny baby in one arm, and carrying another car seat in his other hand. 

      When Dean walked up to Crowley he had to laugh a bit despite everything that had happened in the last twenty-four hours. He was sure he had never seen such a look of genuine confusion on his face as he darted his eyes back and forth between the babies. "Is that…?"

     Dean just nodded, "Chuck and Amara."

     Crowley walked over to Dean, still a little shook that he was looking at two creatures he used to fear once upon a time. When he was close enough he bent down slightly, looking into Chuck’s car seat, "Capitol G, look at you now," then up to Amara in his arms, "and the Darkness. And now you're their… father?"

     "Apparently," he placed Chuck’s seat down by his feet and took the outstretched bottle from Jody as she came back from the kitchen, "they didn't give me much choice. Just fixed reality, put me back on Earth, sent Sam to Heaven, and just poofed themselves into human babies with paperwork saying they’re Winchesters."

     "And how do we feel about that?" Crowley asked, "You're now father to the creature who made your life a living hell for years, who tried more than once to kill you, and attempted to destroy the Earth. Doesn't it bother you to now be caring for the little hellraiser?"

     Dean shrugged. Sure, he'd thought about all that, thought about how angry Chuck had made him, the things he did near the end, and Amara was no saint in her own way. But when Dean looked down at Amara in his arms, and Chuck still sleeping soundly in the car seat at his feet, he found himself smiling as he answered Crowley's question, "It doesn't bother me. It may have bothered me for a split second when everything was being thrown in my face all at once with Sam's death, my reality, the babies. But then I realized that even though this is Chuck and Amara, God and the Darkness, in a way it's not. They have no memories of what they did before they started their lives over as humans, they're just babies, humans now. And I'm going to make sure they're loved and cared for, always, as every baby should be."

     "My," Crowley raised a brow as he stared at Dean, a little mixed between impressed and speechless, "that's very noble of you. I myself don't think I’d be able to do the same."

     "You couldn't even raise your own son, Crowley. What was his name… Gavin? That kid was a mess because of you," Dean rolled his eyes, "I wouldn't expect you to suddenly grow a heart."

     "Glad we're on the same page then," he smirked, then walked a little closer to Dean, looking him up and down once. Dean eyed him cautiously, watching his movements, then he looked back at Dean after one last look over, "although, Dean Winchester with babies, very… dilf of you, Dean."

     Dean scoffed, "In your dreams, Crowley."

     He just smirked over at Dean, and said in a smooth, deep voice, just barely above a whisper, "Every night," with a wink.

     Dean gaped at him, mouth opening and closing a few times, but no words came out. 

     Crowley then knelt down, same devilish smirk on his face as before, and looked into Chuck's car seat. "Well, now little ones, how about Uncle Crowley helps Daddy get back your other Daddy and Uncle Moose?"

     "Okay, first of all, Uncle Crowley?" He just shrugged up at Dean as he continued, "And second, why do you wanna help all of a sudden? What's the catch?"

     "No catch, no tricks, no deals. I just want to help that's all." Dean didn't even say anything, just stared him down until he rolled his eyes and tossed his head back, "Alright, fine. I'll admit, you're not my favourite people on Earth, but it's painfully boring up here without the Winchesters around to stir up trouble. And I figure I scratch your back…"

     "Cut the crap, Crowley, what do you want?"

     "I'm not asking for much here, but when I… died," he drawled, "of course all of hell assumed my throne was up for grabs and gave it to my mother of all people, and when the time comes, you could help me get it back. Besides, I think you could benefit from having friends in low places, don't you?"

     Dean sighed and shook his head. He knew himself that Crowley had gotten them out of a jam more than once, and it was always helpful to have the King of Hell on their side in tough times. But he’d be the last person to ever admit that out loud. Especially in front of Crowley. 

     "If you can get Cas back, and Sam, I'll help you get whatever you want."

     "Jolly good show. So we've got a deal then?" He stuck his hand out to Dean waiting for him to take it, but Dean just glared at him, so he pulled it back and laughed, "Joking, of course."

     "Right," Dean huffed, then turned to sit in a chair while he continued feeding Amara, "where do we start?"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A/N: So there’s chapter two of my fix it fic, let me know what you guys think! And if anyone wants to be tagged for future posts or destiel fics, let me know <3

Tags: @thebridgekid @frostingsfics @frostedej @clairewinchester14 @kitsunecastiel 

[steviesays]

January Fic Recs

ok so a ...... LONG time ago I made a fic rec list after reaching 1500 followers and I had a lot of fun doing it and now that I’ve decided to be multi-fandom I just wanted to share some of my favorite fics I've read in January so uhhh here goes :)

also pls know that most of them are going to be for FMA:B simply because thats my current hyper fixation but I’ll put what fandom each one is for ajadhfsa

Get A Hobby, Asshole by @borkthemork - in progress

Fandom: FMA:B

Ed tells Roy to take up cooking instead of working himself to death and he ...... takes that idea and decides to use it to work himself to death in true Roy Mustang fashion I love it so far

The Amestrian Candidate by @dyannehs - in progress

Fandom: FMA:B

Y'all know I LOVE a political drama WHEW omg this one is so good I think about it constantly!!!!! Roy is running for PRESIDENT and his campaign is MESSY! It recently went on hiatus but thats ok I will wait patiently until the next stellar update

Limited Release by rageprufrock - complete

Fandom: X-Men: First Class

This is the first x-men fic that had me hooked in a HOT second and made me remember how much I love cherik so if all my February fics are cherik .... mind your business anyway this one is actually very Alex Summers centered which I didn’t think I would like but the WRITING !!!! bby Scott is missing and the first class squad is part of the FBI so its a modern setting but there's still mutations aka a perfect storm

An Invite For Tea by @borkthemork - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

Yes I did go read all of borkthemork’s works after reading Get A Hobby, Asshole and yes they were all great but this one right here ........ YALL. Roy and Riza TALK ???? and CUDDLE ???? and I fucking CRIED ??????? oh my god

*Also please just read everything they’ve posted so I don't have to list every single one and give bad summaries that no one wants to read

A Spoonful of Sugar by oretsev - in progress

Fandom: FMA:B

Riza owns a bakery and Roy opens a coffee shop next door. It is just as pure and wholesome as it sounds and I love it ....... so much ????

*I also binge read everything else orestev had posted on their AO3 after reading this one and everything was incredible I highly recommend :)

Deadeye by @existentialspacecowboy - in progress

Fandom: FMA:B

Roy and Riza are COWBOYS what other information do you need please read it immediately

My Girl Claudine by @leeloforever - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

Team Mustang has a night out and their dynamic .... we absolutely love to see it

and i’m not trying to be with you, now by yourendlessblue - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

The only thing I love just as much as a political drama is, you guessed it, a DOCTOR AU !!!!!! also don't think I didn’t peep the Taylor Swift reference in the series name, my third mortal weakness

delicate by @lantur - in progress but its almost done and I genuinely don’t know what I’m going to do with my life when its finished

Fandom: FMA:B

You’re absolutely CRAZY if you think this one was not going to be on the list and I’m sorry it took this long to get here but here we are. What do I even say about this masterpiece ...... other than Riza Hawkeye is the love of my life. Thats it, thats the fic. And ANOTHER Taylor Swift reference in the title ???? I keep winning

*P L E A S E read everything else lantur has on their AO3 page the TALENT

Pyrolysis by raisingmybanner - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

OOF I love this fic ajasjdfsh and I know I've said that about literally every fic on the list and if I didn’t love them they wouldn't be here but ..... this one ????? YES ok so its Roy focused and goes from pre to post canon following him and Riza, and you may not have noticed but that premise is very much my current obsession and I need 50 more fics that are just like this one

Holding Out by Oort - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

Riza tries on one of Roy’s gloves and thoughts begin to HAPPEN this one is short but I absolutely loved the writing

I can’t say the words out loud (so in a rhyme I wrote you down) by @hawkeyes-riza - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

ok so I was brought in by the Bastille lyrics and after reading this one spent like the next two days reading everything hawkeyes-riza has up on AO3 uhhhhh I LOVED this one its set the night before the promised day and its STEAMY

*after reading this fic I went through all of hawkeyes-riza’s other fics and I can confirm they are all A++++++

From Start to Beginning by SpaceFarm - complete

Fandom: FMA:B

Remember like 5 fic recs ago when I said my current obsession is pre to post canon royai :)))))) this one is so good you guys I literally cannot hype it enough

*ALSO I love love LOVED all the other royal fics SpaceFarm has up like you guys don’t even understand pls read EVERYTHING

ok ladies and gays thats the end of my list!!! I don’t think I’ve ever actually mentioned what my AO3 user is but its stevie1120 for anyone that was wondering!

I’m reading constantly but have never been much of a writer and I’m really bad at commenting but I’m trying so hard to get better at interacting lol but yes I am that weirdo that left kudos on all of your fics and you may have been wondering “hey how did she possibly read like 8 3k fics in one day” and the answer is that I literally have nothing better to do !!!! I love reading and I want to thank the authors that I mentioned here, and tbh all authors, so much for enabling my addiction and working so hard on bringing these characters that we all love to life!

If you know one of the authors who’s blogs I couldn’t find pls tag them in this post and tell them that I love them!!!!

I hope you guys enjoyed this post and I’ll see you in February :)

[eunicolai]

⟨ CHARLES MELTON. CIS MALE. HE/HIM. ⟩ though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, NICOLAI ANDERSON-SMITH is actually a descendent of K H I O N E. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-SIX year old LAW MAJOR from COPENHAGEN, DENMARK has taken after their godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite CHARMING & CONCEITED.

                                                              ALL IN ONE DOC

Hello hello this is my new baby (it’s Alex btw)!! He’s not the nicest person around tbh but hides it under a very pretty mask. Please do come and give me any and every plot <3

In the link above you’ll find headcanons, stats, app stuff, wanted connectios & a bio in the shape of bullet points because I couldn’t bring myself to make it into decent writing– maybe someday! It’s all very long so here are a few basic things:

Son of a very rich business man & Khione. They met in Seoul, Nikolai was born in Copenhagen and the goddess chose to stick around for about a year!

Nicolai always knew what he was and his father made sure to raise him as the hero he expected him to be

Hero might not be the right world, he brought him up so he could eat the world and Khione encouraged it!

At the age of six, Khione came back and brought a stray with her (Freya). To this day he doesn’t know how to feel about her so for now she just considers her competition for Khione’s favor. It doesn’t help that his dad is all soft around her and just demands Nicolai the world.

Picture The Umbrella Academy, that was their upbringing. They lived in a fancy-ass penthouse in one of his father’s hotels, went to and equally fancy-ass private school and then spent the rest of their time training in their very own training center.

His favorite sport if fencing and he’s part of the team at Eonia!

When he turned 9, Khione demanded they upped their game and went to demigod camp during the summers and so from the age of 9 to 18 he attended Camp Citadel.

He loved every second of it. Trained hard, discovered lots of things about his powers, went to several quests and fully converted to Hellenic Paganism (and became very devoted but mainly to Khione– Zeus who?)

To no ones’s surprise, he’s the president of the Hellenic Paganism Association.

Knows a total of 7 languages! Currently has his eyes on portuguese so tutors are very much welcome.

He’s actually pretty charming and easy going, he’s been developing that persona for his whole life so it’s pretty convincing but be advised: more likely than not, he actually doesn’t care about you :( He can be pretty manipulative and that’s without the fearspeak.

At 18 he graduated from camp !! got into a bunch of really good schools but chose Eonia (business major) because that’s what him momma wanted.

Upon graduation he joined his father’s business empire but it was honestly very disappointing? Truth be told, he wants to be a hero so the gods may look at him and say hmm maybe he should join us!

It’s no wonder Disney’s Hercules was his favorite movie as a kid.

Some time later he had enough and came back to Eonia with Law School as the excuse but he’s really just trying to figure out where his place is in the world.

Basically lives to please Khione and dear old dad, very into himself but deadly afraid of being thought of as a disappointment.

[peacedolantwins]

Pain and Embarrassment

Part of my Family series, takes place after Come Home Safe

It was an accident. It was supposed to be a one time thing and even that was a mistake. But he couldn’t stop.

Ethan found himself captivated by one of the girls in his office.

She was tall, beautiful, with light brown hair that she wore in curls down to her waist. Her green eyes drew him in every time he looked at her.

He had taken her out to dinner as an employee appreciation gift but she got flirty and more touchy as the night went on and before he knew it, he found himself slipping out of her bed feeling nothing but shame.

Shame he had done this. Shame he had cheated on you. Shame he had cheated on you while you were home with the kids.

He regretted it more than anything in his life.

The next day at work he filed the paperwork to move her to another department. He hoped having her out of range would get rid of the temptation.

But she kept coming back to visit. She would bring him lunch. She’d take him out for lunch, except it didn’t end there. More often than not the two of them would end up in the backseat of his car.

He had finally managed to completely put a stop to it, not being able to come home and see you looking so happy when you had no idea what he was doing.

That was until she made a final trip to his office.

“It’s sad really. You were willing to lose your family because you couldn’t keep it in your pants,” she took a seat across his desk and crossed her legs.

“I bet you want to keep that family don’t you? How do you think the misses would feel? You’re here screwing some girl while she’s home with the kids? How bad do you want to keep this a secret?”

“What do you want?” He swallowed deeply.

“I want a raise. And some vacation time, paid of course.” She said calmly as if she wasn’t threatening to ruin his family.

But he did that on his own didn’t he?

“I’ll take care of it.” He didn’t have a choice. He could make a higher paycheck work. He could work with time off.

But then she wanted more. She wanted a private office. A company credit card. A company car. He couldn’t do that. Not only would other employees notice but so would Grayson if he glanced at the finance reports.

When he told her he wouldn’t do that she pulled up the pictures she had. Pictures he didn’t even know she took of him lying in her bed. Him at dinners. Pictures she took of the two of them in his house. She threatened to sell them to magazines or the highest bidder.

She could only imagine the paycheck for exposing a high ranked business owner as a cheating husband.

But Ethan began to realize something.

She was going to do it anyway.

Eventually she would run out of things to ask for and she would put it out there for everyone to see.

So he had a plan. A plan he should have thought through a lot more.

Ethan set up an interview with a morning talk show for a few days later and when the time came, no one was prepared for what he had to say.

“Good morning, we’re here with Ethan Dolan, one of the owners and CEOs of one of the biggest companies in the country. You said on the phone that you wanted to clear some things up?” The host mentioned.

“That’s right. Recently there’s been something going on in my life that I’m not proud of. A woman who works with me has threatened to expose that part of my life if I don’t give into her demands and I’m not letting that happen. I would rather I say my side of what happened before any rumors have the chance to appear.” He took a breath.

“About a year ago, a dinner with a colleague turned into a mistake that I deeply regret. After that night I swore I was done but I found myself going back to her time and time again. Once I finally ended it she came to me with demands which I gave into. But the longer I did, the more she started to ask for and I couldn’t do that. She threatened to go to my wife, Y/n, with pictures I never knew she took. I would rather she heard it from me than some girl she doesn’t know.”

The host and the audience were silent.

“What did your wife have to say when you told her?” The host asked cautiously.

“...what?” Ethan was confused until he realized it, he hadn’t even told you yet.

“Are you saying you didn’t talk to her about this before you came here?” She pressed.

“No, I guess I didn’t,” He cringed at himself.

-

You watched the interview in shock. He told you he was doing an interview this morning but this wasn’t what you expected at all.

You were grateful you had the day off from work because you didn’t think you would be able to take the looks from your coworkers.

The kids.

You checked your phone and saw you had missed calls from both Alex and Riley, along with texts from them saying they saw what happened.

Kids could be cruel when they wanted to be and you didn’t want your children in that environment right now. Summer break was three days away and it’s not like the kids actually had assignments to do at this point anyways.

You: I’m on my way, text your brothers. I’m picking up Lizzy first.

When you got to the school to pull your ten year old daughter out, the front office staff looked at you with pity and didn’t ask too many questions when you signed her out which you were thankful for.

“Mama, how come we’re leaving?” Elise asked once you were back in the car.

“We’re gonna go visit grandma and grandpa for a while, my mom and dad,” you explained. It technically wasn’t a lie, that’s where you were going, just not the reason why.

You pulled up at the boys high school, grateful they were all finally at the same school and didn’t need to make another trip.

“Liz, stay in the car okay?” You got out and locked the doors.

You quickly went to the attendance office and were surprised to see your children already waiting for you. Usually you had to sign them out before they could leave class but you weren’t going to ask how they managed to get out.

“Mom-“ Alex started.

“Not right now please, we can talk about it later but not right now.” You never wanted to drive upset.

Riley got in the front seat while Alex climbed in the back with Noah and Liz.

“Here, book flights to California while I’m driving,” you handed him your phone.

They were old enough to know what was going on and didn’t ask as to why.

“Ma, it’s almost $4,000…” he trailed off.

“Book them.” You didn’t care about the price. You made enough on your own without Ethan and considering how much money he gave his side girl he could afford it.

Riley did as you said and told you the flight left in 3 hours.

Once you got back to the house you quickly grabbed the luggage from the spare room and handed a bag to each child.

“Pack what you need and anything else we can buy over there. I want to be out of here in 20 minutes.” They all nodded and took off to their rooms.

You decided to go help Elise pack, knowing she would have a hard time deciding what was important. You grabbed a few outfits for her, her favorite shoes, along with a few other things and crammed them into the suitcase, not caring everything would be wrinkled. That could be taken care of later.

You quickly shoved a few pairs of jeans and tops into your own suitcase and zipped it up.

Everyone met you downstairs by the door and after asking to make sure everyone had everything you were set to go.

The boys threw everything in the car while you got Lizzy calmed down a bit.

Once at the airport you did your best to blend in. You didn’t want anyone getting photos of you and your family during the worst time in their lives.

The flight was long and tiring and the majority of the time you found yourself holding back tears as you shut your eyes.

How could Ethan do this? Why would he do this? Were you not enough for him? Did your family really mean that little to him that he would throw it away for some girl? And why would he air your dirty laundry on national television for everyone to see before he even told you of it? He said it started a year ago and that was the same time that it happened… is that why he went to another woman?

Once off the plane and in the car with your mom and children, you pulled out your phone to see dozens of missed calls and texts from Ethan.

E: I can explain

E: y/n please

E: I’m so sorry

E: she meant nothing

E: I should have told you before

E: please pick up

E: where are you? Where are the kids?

E: baby please don’t do this

E: I’m so sorry please come home and we can talk

E: I’ll fix this I promise what do you want me to do?

E: you aren’t picking up and neither are the kids please just answer

E: just let me know you’re okay please

E: I called your mom and she told me to fuck off and stay away from you so I’m guessing you went back to California

E: I’ll give you some space

All of those were from hours ago and from the looks on your kids faces in the backseat you saw they had similar messages from their father. You took a deep breath and closed your eyes.

You could cry later once you were alone. Right now your children needed their mother. And once they were okay, you needed yours.

It had been hours since Ethan completely screwed up everything. He was waiting by the phone for a message from you or the kids but nothing. Until he heard it ring and he read the message.

Alex: leave us alone and stop bothering mom, you’ve done enough.

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La Cage aux Folles - Broadway - November 15, 1987 (Closing Night) (House-Cam's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Peter Marshall (Georges), Keene Curtis (Albin/Zazá), John Weiner (Jean-Michel), David Jackson (Jacob), Jennifer Smith (Anne), Jay Garner (Edouard Dindon), Darcy Pulliam (Mme. Dindon), Bill Burns (Francis) NOTES: Gen loss and picture jumps but this is overall a very good recording. Audio from the soundboard. Dead space has been removed and the video is now in widescreen. No action is missing. La Cage aux Folles - London Theatre Players - July, 1991 (House-Cam's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Unknown NOTES: Not the West End production as sometimes listed.  

La Cage aux Folles - The Netherlands - 1995 FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Fred Butter (Georges) NOTES: Pro-shot. The Last Five Years - Northlight Theatre, Skokie, IL (Chicago) - 2001 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MKV (HD) CAST: Norbert Leo Butz (Jamie Wellerstein), Lauren Kennedy (Cathy Hiatt) NOTES: Available in various qualities. Great multicam proshot featuring Lauren Kennedy. The Last Five Years - Off-Broadway - April 5, 2002 FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Norbert Leo Butz (Jamie Wellerstein), Sherie Rene Scott (Cathy Hiatt) The Last Five Years - San Francisco - May 14, 2016 (SJ Bernly's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Zak Resnick (Jamie Wellerstein), Margo Seibert (Cathy Hiatt) The Last Five Years - Virtual - June 25-27, 2020 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Danny Becker (Jamie Wellerstein), Lauren Samuels (Cathy Hiatt) NOTES: Virtual lockdown performance, streamed online by The Other Palace on June 25-27, recorded at an earlier date.  Legally Blonde - Broadway - April 14, 2007 (Preview) (SunsetBlvd79's master) FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Laura Bell Bundy (Elle Woods), Christian Borle (Emmett Forrest), Richard H Blake (Warner Huntington III), Orfeh (Paulette), Kate Shindle (Vivienne Kensington), Nikki Snelson (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Michael Rupert (Professor Callahan), Annaleigh Ashford (Margot), Leslie Kritzer (Serena), DeQuina Moore (Pilar), Andy Karl (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Natalie Joy Johnson (Veronica/Enid), Kate Wetherhead (Kate/Chutney) NOTES: Great fun show and nice capture. Laura was wonderful along with a fantastic cast. A- Legally Blonde - Broadway - May 19, 2007 FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Laura Bell Bundy (Elle Woods), Christian Borle (Emmett Forrest), Richard H Blake (Warner Huntington III), Leslie Kritzer (e/c Paulette), Kate Shindle (Vivienne Kensington), Nikki Snelson (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Michael Rupert (Professor Callahan), Annaleigh Ashford (Margot), Tracy Jai Edwards (u/s Serena), DeQuina Moore (Pilar), Andy Karl (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Natalie Joy Johnson (Veronica/Enid), Kate Wetherhead (Kate/Chutney) NOTES: A nice capture of the show. Missing about 3 and a half minutes of the show during Legally Blonde remix and about 8 seconds of skipping at the very end during the graduation. A- Legally Blonde - Broadway - July 1, 2007 (SunsetBlvd79's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (SD) CAST: Laura Bell Bundy (Elle Woods), Christian Borle (Emmett Forrest), Richard H Blake (Warner Huntington III), Orfeh (Paulette), Kate Shindle (Vivienne Kensington), Nikki Snelson (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Michael Rupert (Professor Callahan), Annaleigh Ashford (Margot), Leslie Kritzer (Serena), DeQuina Moore (Pilar), Andy Karl (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Natalie Joy Johnson (Veronica/Enid), Kate Wetherhead (Kate/Chutney), Tracy Jai Edwards (u/s Cece) NOTES: DeQuina Moore's last performance Legally Blonde - Broadway - September 18, 2007 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Laura Bell Bundy (Elle Woods), Christian Borle (Emmett Forrest), Richard H Blake (Warner Huntington III), Orfeh (Paulette), Kate Shindle (Vivienne Kensington), Nikki Snelson (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Michael Rupert (Professor Callahan), Annaleigh Ashford (Margot), Tracy Jai Edwards (Serena), Asmeret Ghebremichael (Pilar), Andy Karl (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Natalie Joy Johnson (Veronica/Enid), Kate Wetherhead (Kate/Chutney) NOTES: MTV Proshot, Broadcast October 13th and October 14th 2007. Legally Blonde - First National Tour - February 22, 2009 (Highlights) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) |  TRADER'S NOTES: Act 1 only one highlights CAST: Laura Bell Bundy (t/r Elle Woods), DB Bonds (Emmett Forrest), Jeff McLean (Warner Huntington III), Natalie Joy Johnson (Paulette), Megan Lewis (Vivienne Kensington), Coleen Sexton (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Ken Land (Professor Callahan), Kate Rockwell (t/r Margot), Cortney Wolfson (Serena), Crystal Joy (Pilar), Ven Daniel (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Gretchen Burghart (Veronica/Enid) NOTES: Limited highlights consist of everything from “Legally Blonde” to the end of the show (Around 23 minutes total) Legally Blonde - First National Tour - June 7, 2009 FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Lauren Zakrin (u/s Elle Woods), DB Bonds (Emmett Forrest), Nick Dalton (u/s Warner Huntington III), Natalie Joy Johnson (Paulette), Megan Llewellyn (Vivienne Kensington), Coleen Sexton (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Ken Land (Professor Callahan), Rhiannon Hansen (Margot), Cortney Wolfson (Serena), Crystal Joy (Pilar), Ven Daniel (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Gretchen Burghart (Veronica/Enid), Alex Ellis (Kate/Chutney) Legally Blonde - First UK Tour - October 4, 2011 FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD)   |   NFT: Forever CAST: Faye Brookes (Elle Woods), Iwan Lewis (Emmett Forrest), Neil Toon (Warner Huntington III), Claire Sweeney (Paulette), Charlotte Harwood (Vivienne Kensington), Hannah Grover (Brooke Wyndham/Shandi), Dave Willetts (Professor Callahan), Sophie Isaacs (Margot), Sinead Long (Serena), Micha Richardson (Pilar), Lewis Griffiths (Kyle/Grandmaster Chad/Dewey), Gemma Baird (Veronica/Enid), Nia Jermin (Kate/Chutney) NOTES: An amazing capture in 16:9 wide-screen with no obstructions with action well followed. This cast is a real treat giving Impeccable sparkling performances. Brookes’s Elle really shines and she is a joy to watch. A+ The Lehman Trilogy - West End - July 25, 2019 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MKV (HD) CAST: Simon Russell Beale (Henry Lehman), Ben Miles (Emanuel Lehman), Adam Godley (Mayer Lehman) NOTES: Filmed live in July 2019 by the Royal National Theatre. Lift - Beautiful Soup Theater, NYC - November 21, 2013 FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Kimberly Faye Greenberg (The French Teacher), Erin Elizabeth Eichhorn (The Secretary), Spencer Kurtti (The Busker), Randall Glen Taylor (Bright Young Thing), Samantha Mercado-Tudda (The Lap Dancer), and Morgan DeTogne and Jeffrey Van Damme (The American Tourists) NOTES: Filmed using one camera on a tripod. Lift - Soho Theatre - January, 2013 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: George Maguire (Busker), Cynthia Erivo (Lap Dancer), Julie Atherton (French Teacher), Nikki Davis-Jones (Secretary), Jonny Fines (Ballet Dancer), Luke Kempner (Bright Young Thing), Ellie Kirk (Athletic & Wearing a Thong), Robbie Towns (Tall, Dark and Handsome) NOTES: Original London production, recorded at the Soho Theatre. Proshot. An ensemble story involving the connected lives of people riding an elevator together in Covent Garden. Nominated for Best Original Score at the 2014 Whatsonstage 

The Lightning Thief: The Percy Jackson Musical - Broadway - October, 2019 (StarCuffedJeans's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Chris McCarrell (Percy Jackson), Kristin Stokes (Annabeth Chase), Jorrel Javier (Grover/Mr. D), James Hayden Rodriguez (Luke & others), Jalynn Steele (Sally Jackson & others), Sarah Beth Pfeifer (Clarisse & others), Ryan Knowles (Chiron & others) NOTES: Fantastic HD capture of the Broadway transfer of this show, filmed from the orchestra. The video starts part of the way through the first number. Act Two starts after the bus explodes. Please do not post screenshots of this video on Twitter ever. Gifs on Tumblr are okay after the NFT date, but don't go linking things to actors and shows. The Lightning Thief: The Percy Jackson Musical - Off-Broadway - August 20, 2014 FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Eric Meyers (Percy Jackson), Kristin Stokes (Annabeth Chase), Jordan Stanley (Grover/Mr. D), Parker Drown (Luke & others), Zakiya Young (Sally Jackson & others), Graham Stevens (Chiron & others) The Lightning Thief: The Percy Jackson Musical - Off-Broadway - April 15, 2017 (Highlights) FORMAT:  MOV (HD) |  TRADER'S NOTES: Working on uploading, PLEASE DO NOT REQUEST CAST: Chris McCarrell (Percy Jackson), Kristin Stokes (Annabeth Chase), George Salazar (Grover/Mr. D), James Hayden Rodriguez (Luke & others), Carrie Compere (Sally Jackson & others), Sarah Beth Pfeifer (Clarisse & others), Jonathan Raviv (Chiron & others) NOTES: Collection of 15 clips. Non-consecutive. It's a really obstructed video, and it only has 50 minutes of the show. Highlights include: Put You In Your Place, The Campfire Song, The Oracle, Good Kid, Killer Quest!, Lost!, My Grand Plan, Drive, DOA, Son of Poseidon, The Last Day of Summer, and Bring on the Monster. Several of the songs are incomplete, and there are some other scenes as well. The Lion King - Broadway - November 16, 1997 FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Jason Raize (Simba), John Vickery (Scar), Heather Headley (Nala), Tsidii Le Loka (Rafiki), Max Casella (Timon), Tom Alan Robbins (Pumbaa), Geoff Hoyle (Zazu), Stanley Wayne Mathis (Banzai), Kevin Cahoon (Ed) NOTES: Filmed RIGHT after opening night on Broadway when the show was still fresh. Shot from one of the boxes, resulting in an extreme angle (think near-perpendicular) so you can see into the wings and watch the actors slacking. Sound is great and it’s very well shot for a vid of its age though there is a touch of gen loss. Circle of Life is near perfect despite a little bit of washout. The Lion King - National Tour - June 5, 2010 FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Andre Jackson (Simba), Brent Harris (Scar), Frank Wright II (u/s Mufasa), Marja Harmon (Nala), Phindile Mkhize (Rafiki), Jered Tanner (u/s Pumbaa), Sophia Stephens (u/s Shenzi), Jerome Stephens Jr (Young Simba), Jamariana Tribble (Young Nala) NOTES: A couple of blackouts during Circle of Life and first couple of minutes of act two, otherwise nice capture. The Lion King - West End - September 30, 2001 FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Roger Wright (Simba), Rob Edwards (Scar), Ray Shell (Mufasa), Javine Hilton (Nala), Sharon D Clarke (Rafiki), Ian Hughes (Timon), Howard Crossley (Pumbaa), Eric Mallett (Zazu) NOTES: No picture for first 15 minutes and then great picture; good sound all the way and nice closeups at times. Rare! The Little Mermaid - Broadway - January 30, 2008 (SunsetBlvd79's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Sierra Boggess (Ariel), Sherie Rene Scott (Ursula), Bret Shuford (u/s Prince Eric), Norm Lewis (King Triton), Tituss Burgess (Sebastian), Eddie Korbich (Scuttle), Jonathan Freeman (Grimsby), Derrick Baskin (Jetsam), Tyler Maynard (Flotsam), Cody Hanford (Flounder), Heidi Blickenstaff (Carlotta), John Treacy Egan (Chef Louis) NOTES: Great capture with great closups. The first 11 minutes after the overture are mostly blackouts due to late comers, after that no real problems. Bret did a nice job as understudy. Sierra and Sherie still rock with much greatness! Also includes the Part of Your World performance and interview on The View. A- The Little Mermaid - The Netherlands - 2012 (Highlights) FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Jantien Euwe/Tessa van Tol (Ariel), Britt Lenting (u/s Ursula), Mischa Kiek/Tommie Christiaan (Prince Eric), Roberto de Groot (Sebastian) NOTES: Highlights for about 35 minutes from different shows The Little Mermaid - The Netherlands - 2013 FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Tessa van Tol (Ariel), Ellis van Laarhoven (alt Ursula), Tommie Christiaan (Prince Eric), Marc-Peter van der Maas (u/s King Triton), Juan Wells (Sebastian), Martijn Vogel (Flounder) NOTES: No zooms and some heads in the way. In act 2 mostly pointed too high. C/D quality Little Miss Sunshine - UK Tour - May, 2019 (hitmewithyourbethshot's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Evie Gibson (Olive Hoover), Gabriel Vick (Richard Hoover), Lucy O’Byrne (Sheryl Hoover), Paul Keating (Frank Hoover), Mark Moraghan (Grandpa Hoover), Sev Keoshgerian (Dwayne Hoover), Imelda Warren-Green (Linda/Miss California), Matthew McDonald (Josh/Kirby), Ian Carlyle (Larry/Buddy) A Little Night Music - New York City Opera - November 7, 1990 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (SD) CAST: Sally Ann Howes (Desiree Armfeldt), Regina Resnik (Madame Armfeldt), George Lee Andrews (Fredrik Egerman), Beverly Lambert (Anne Egerman), Kevin Anderson (Henrik Egerman), Michael Maguire (Count Carl-Magnus Malcolm), Maureen Moore (Countess Charlotte Malcolm), Susan Terry (Petra), Danielle Ferland (Fredrika Armfeldt), Ron Baker (Mr. Lindquist), Lisa Saffer (Mrs. Nordstrom), Barbara Shirvis (Mrs. Anderssen), Michael Rees Davis (Mr. Erlanson), Susanne Marsee (Mrs. Segstrom), David Comstock (Frid) NOTES: Production at Lincoln Center, PBS aired, pro-shot. Very slight generational loss. A Little Night Music - Théâtre Du Châtelet - 2010 (House-Cam's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Greta Scacchi (Desiree Armfeldt), Leslie Caron (Madame Armfeldt), Lambert Wilson (Fredrik Egerman), Rebecca Bottone (Anne Egerman), David Curry (Henrik Egerman), Nicholas Garrett (Count Carl-Magnus Malcolm), Deanne Meek (Countess Charlotte Malcolm), Francesca Jackson (Petra), Celeste de Veazey (Fredrika Armfeldt) NOTES: This is the first production of Sondheim's show ever in France. Produced at the world-famous Theatre du Chatelet in Paris. In English and full stage shot with clear sound but no closeups. A Little Shop of Horrors - American Musical Theater Of San Jose - January-February, 2008 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Josh Lamon (Seymour), Christiane Noll (Audrey), Hal Linden (Mushnik), Todd Alan Johnson (Orin), Michael Mandell (Audrey II), Kristin McDonald (Crystal), Izetta Fang (Ronnette), Adrienne Miller (Chiffon) NOTES: Single camera on tripod, mix of full-stage and mid-range shots, soundboard Little Shop of Horrors - Encores! Off-Center - July 1, 2015 (Opening Night) (NYCG8R's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Jake Gyllenhaal (Seymour), Ellen Greene (Audrey), Joe Grifasi (Mushnik), Taran Killam (Orin), Eddie Cooper (Audrey II), Marva Hicks (Crystal), Ramona Keller (Ronnette), Tracy Nicole Chapman (Chiffon) NOTES: Opening Night filmed from the very back of City Center, so there is some spotlight washout that's never too bad and a head that's shot well around. A- Little Shop of Horrors - Encores! Off-Center - July 2, 2015 (Matinee) (SunsetBlvd79's master) FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Jake Gyllenhaal (Seymour), Ellen Greene (Audrey), Joe Grifasi (Mushnik), Taran Killam (Orin), Eddie Cooper (Audrey II), Marva Hicks (Crystal), Ramona Keller (Ronnette), Tracy Nicole Chapman (Chiffon) NOTES: Beautiful HD capture of the Encores Summer Series. Ellen and Jake were perfection and this was the 2015 show that was not to be missed! The last 15 mins (customers coming in and song/scene finale don't feed the plants) are mostly blind shot, where a few times no action can be seen. Everything else is there and beautiful. A- Little Shop of Horrors - Off-Broadway Revival - January 24, 2020 (Highlights) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Gideon Glick (Seymour), Tammy Blanchard (Audrey), Tom Alan Robbins (Mushnik), Christian Borle (Orin), Kingsley Leggs (Audrey II), Salome Smith (Crystal), Ari Groover (Ronnette), Joy Woods (Chiffon) NOTES: Highlights include from "Dentist!" to "Mushnik and Son" and from "Suddenly Seymour" to "Suppertime" Little Shop of Horrors - Pasadena Playhouse - October 13, 2019 FORMAT:  MOV (HD) CAST: George Salazar (Seymour), MJ Rodriguez (Audrey), Kevin Chamberlin (Mushnik), Matthew Wilkas (Orin), Amber Riley (Audrey II), Cheyenne Isabel Wells (Crystal), Brittany Campbell (Ronnette), Tickwanya Jones (Chiffon), Brittany Campbell, Cheyenne Isabel Wells, Tickwanya Jones NOTES: Includes the full show and the curtain call. There is some drifting in Act One, but it isn’t as prevalent in Act Two. There are a lot of obstructions, but I was (mostly) able to film around them. The only part that was really blocked was Somewhere That’s Green. Somewhere That’s Green (Reprise) is the only majorly whitewashed part, but other than that it’s not too much of an issue. Overall, it’s a pretty decent capture of the show, considering it’s my first video master. Little Women - Broadway - December 11, 2004 (Preview) FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Sutton Foster (Jo), Danny Gurwin (Laurie), Megan McGinnis (Beth), Jenny Powers (Meg), Amy McAlexander (Amy), Maureen McGovern (Marmee), Janet Carroll (Aunt March), John Hickok (Professor Bhaer), Robert Stattel (Mr. Laurence), Jim Weitzer (Mr. Brooke) NOTES: Excellent video capture of the show! A little spotlight washout in the first 15 mins. Sound is excellent throughout. Also includes short Preview piece from NY1. Lizzie - Amherst - April 7, 2018 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Kiely Mugford (Lizzie Borden), Emma Ratshin (Emma Borden), Willa Grimes (Alice Russell), Dominique Manuel (Bridget Sullivan) NOTES: This is a proshot/house cam that the production company (Amherst College Green Room) has posted online in full 1080p resolution. Lord of the Rings: The Musical - Toronto, Canada - August 26, 2006 (Highlights) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: James Loye (Frodo), Peter Howe (Sam), Brent Carver (Gandalf), Evan Buliung (Aragorn), Rebecca Jackson Mendoza (Galadriel), Owen Sharpe (Pippin), Dylan Roberts (Merry), Michael Therriault (Gollum), Carly Street (Arwen), Victor A Young (Elrond), Dion Johnstone (Boromir), Gabriel Burrafato (Legolas), Ross Williams (Gimli), Richard McMillan (Saruman), Kristin Galer (Rosie Cotton), Cliff Saunders (Bilbo Baggins), Kerry Dorey NOTES: Footage that runs over an hour long. Pretty dark and most full stage shots. Includes scenes from Acts 2 and 3. Often listed as several different dates including March 23, 2006 Love in Hate Nation - Red Bank - November 30, 2019 (Highlights) (Sammi's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (SD) CAST: Amina Faye (Susannah), Kelly McIntyre (Sheila Nail), Emerson Mae Smith (Kitty), Lauren Marcus (Miss Asp), Lena Skeele (Dorothy), Tatiana Wechsler (Judith), Sydney Farley (Ya-Ya), Jasmine Forsberg (Rat), Ryan Vona (Francis/Buzz/Doc Shock/Others) NOTES: Act 1 only. Sammi's master. Notes from master: go nuts with my boots, share them, gif them, yt them, the world is your oyster. Love Letters - Online Reading - May 21, 2020 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Sally Field (Melissa Gardner), Bryan Cranston (Andrew Makepeace Ladd III) Love Never Dies - First National Tour - September 25, 2018 (SunsetBlvd79's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Bronson Norris Murphy (The Phantom), Meghan Picerno (Christine Daaé), Sean Thompson (Raoul, Vicomte de Chagny), Karen Mason (Madame Giry), Mary Michael Patterson (Meg Giry), Katrina Kemp (Fleck), Richard Koons (Squelch), Stephen Petrovich (Gangle), Jake Heston Miller (Gustave) NOTES: Wonderful HD capture of the reworked North American Tour. Everything is nicely captured and great performances from the cast. I really enjoyed this production and cast! A Love Never Dies - Melbourne - September 15, 2011 (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  MKV (HD) CAST: Ben Lewis (The Phantom), Anna O’Byrne (Christine Daaé), Simon Gleeson (Raoul, Vicomte de Chagny), Maria Mercedes (Madame Giry), Sharon Millerchip (Meg Giry), Emma J Hawkins (Fleck), Paul Ettore Tabone (Squelch), Dean Vince (Gangle), Jack Lyall (Gustave) NOTES: Pro-shot of the revamped Australian Production. Released on BluRay. Love Never Dies - Vienna, Austria - October 18, 2013 (Opening Night) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Drew Sarich (The Phantom), Milica Jovanovic (Christine Daaé), Julian Looman (Raoul, Vicomte de Chagny), Maya Hakvoort (Madame Giry), Barbara Obermeier (Meg Giry), Katja Berg (Fleck), Peter Kratochvil (Squelch), Armin Kahl (Gangle), Leonid Sushon (Gustave) NOTES: The master of this recording has encoded the dvd in CSS (Content Scrambling System). However it is easily crackable with free software like Handbrake. Love Never Dies - West End - June 25, 2010 (House-Cam's master) FORMAT:  VOB (with smalls) (SD) CAST: Ramin Karimloo (The Phantom), Sierra Boggess (Christine Daaé), Joseph Millson (Raoul, Vicomte de Chagny), Liz Robertson (Madame Giry), Summer Strallen (Meg Giry) NOTES: House cam pro-shot. Pre-changes. Mic seems to cut out toward the end of "The Beauty Underneath" but is back by "The Phantom Confronts Christine." Love Story - Dutch Tour - February 14, 2014 FORMAT:  MP4 (HD) CAST: Celinde Schoenmaker (Jennifer Cavilleri), Freek Bartels (Oliver Barrett IV), Dick Cohen (Phil Cavilleri), Ad Knippels (Mr. Oliver Barrett III), Jeannine Geerts (Oliver's Mother), Jonathan Demoor (Dokter Selzer), Liss Walravens (Sara Jane) Lungs - London (Social Distancing Version) - July 4, 2020 (Matinee) (Pro-Shot's master) FORMAT:  VOB (no smalls) (SD) CAST: Matt Smith (M), Claire Foy (W) NOTES: Screen-recording of the livestream of the socially distanced version. Fuzzy video quality, audio is fine. The frame rate seems to be low so the video lags.

[harleenfleck]

“Alex Day” (Chapter 2)

Arthur Fleck x Original Character (OC)

Summary: Arthur Fleck is a young man who hates his life despite his young age: School is hell, his mother wants to control every aspect of his life, and has a strange condition that is difficult to explain to others, a condition which has caused him all those laughs and blows against him. But one day her luck changes when she meets the new girl in sky-blue shoes on the first day of school. A girl from California.

Warnings: Fluff, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Drama, Bullying, Friendship/Love, Sadness

Chapter 1

AO3 (full work)

Notes:  I am very sorry if I have grammatical or spelling errors, English is not my mother tongue!

Enjoy it!

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Chapter 2: Sky blue shoes

Arthur didn't know what to think, he was just trying to keep quiet, but that was impossible, after being a little surprised.

Those were definitely women's shoes; would a girl go into the men's room? Or did he, in desperation, enter the women's bathroom and hadn't noticed? If it was the second thing, he was screwed, another reason to be harassed on his first day. He decided to keep quiet and pretend he wasn't there.

He heard how that girl used the sink; maybe she would just wash her hands and leave the place. However, he noticed that the sky-blue shoes were now standing in front of the cubicle where he was.

“Hello?”

The female voice spoke to him. Arthur trembled with fear, what could he say? He covered his mouth with his hand again.

“Huh… I know this would sound weird, but I heard you crying. I know this doesn't concern me, but are you okay? Is there anything I can help you with?”

He fell silent after hearing that, was someone worrying about him? It must have been just courtesy, but very few had ever treated him like this before. Besides, a girl treating him like that didn't usually happen to him. He vacillated a lot, but Arthur wiped his tears with the sleeve of his sweater, grabbed his backpack from the floor, and left the cubicle.

“Holy s…!” The girl screamed when she saw him, "I thought was the woman’s bathroom! I’m so sorry!"

Arthur blinked; she was confused too. Wow, at least he wasn't the only one.

"I-I thought it was the m-men's bathroom. I-I don't really know who this bathroom belongs" The girl suddenly laughed lightly. And her smile remained on her face. Arthur just moved his lips, too shy to smile at her.

"Well, we'll know when we get out of here ... But first, are you okay?" Arthur didn't know what to answer at the time. For a moment, he had felt strange since no one before other than his mother had cared about him. But what could he say to that girl? He was just having a normal day?

“I j-just had problems, that's all” He took a deep breath, making all traces of crying disappear little by little, using the sleeve of his sweater again to wipe his face.

"I’m sorry to hear that I hope those are resolved soon."

Arthur felt so good that someone cared for him, even if he was a total stranger, as she was. His pessimistic mind told him that soon she would leave the bathroom and forget about him. That would probably happen. "By the way, my name is Alexandra, Alexandra Grant, but you can call me Alex."

The girl stretches her hand towards him; Arthur quickly examined that gesture. Was someone introducing himself to him? He must be going crazy.

"Arthur, Arthur Fleck."

After shaking hands, the bell rang; they two walked out of the bathroom, not checking whether the bathroom was for men or women.

…

The two were walking together; it was a very curious thing to see, as they looked completely different between themselves. The girl radiated a lot of energy and happiness, and the boy, well, just didn't have the same shine.

"I haven't seen you before," Arthur said it curious because it was true, he hadn't seen that girl before at his school.

"Do you look at people if they are there or not?" The girl asked him in a tone of voice that intimidated Arthur for a moment.

"N-no, I mean-”

"I’m just kidding” She started to laugh again, and Arthur laughed too, removing the feeling of ruining everything again. “I'm not from here. My family and I moved here this summer."

“Really? Where are you from?”

“California. I’m from California.”

“California…” Arthur's eyebrows rose, and a shy smile came out of his mouth. He had listened before California and even came to think that maybe if he had a little luck when he was older, he might one day go to know the place. He really wants to know the sea, feel the sand on his feet and hear the waves “…It must be a beautiful place.”

“It is, but Gotham it has its charm, I really love places like New York or Chicago, or Gotham. I never thought I'd live in a place like this before…”

Alex was non-stop talking, she was talking about cities; when she did, Arthur decided to study her: she wore a dress the same color as her shoes, a blue bow in her hair, her bag was brown, she wore a little makeup in her face, and he was a bit mesmerized by her lips as she continued talking.

Arthur immediately stopped those thoughts. He couldn't do that. He couldn't fall in love with the first person who treated him well, besides, people used to disguise their real intentions well. He scolded himself, how could he think of Alex like that? He was the first person to treat him well that day. She couldn't be like the others; she must have a pure soul.

“…And that’s why we moved here. My dad’s job. I’ll miss California, but I wanna know of this city”

“Well, Gotham it's a little dangerous, but nothing you can't handle”

“It's what all my friends from California said” Arthur and Alex walked in one of the corridors at their own step, they hadn't even realized that were already late for class “So, Arthur, you always lived here?"

"Yes, since I was born"

“That sounds great. It must be great, always living in one place, always keeping your friends”

Arthur lowered his gaze some embarrassed; he didn't realize that Alex was meeting him as if he were just a normal boy. He wasn't a normal boy, but he didn't want to tell her about him, he didn't want to tell her that he didn't have any friends. He didn't want her to think he was a freak.

“I guess”

"Well, it's always good to meet more people, it's good that you're the first one I meet from Gotham"

Arthur at this moment was speechless, turned to Alex shyly, who kept a smile on her face, was she really grateful to meet him?

"Do you really think that?"

"Of course! You could show me the school later, I'm afraid to do it on my own and lose myself"

Arthur smiled and felt his red cheeks, how could someone like Alex overflow so much joy? Of course, he was going to help her with all the doubts she had from school.

But suddenly, the shadow attacked him again. He looked around, the bell had already rung and everyone had all already entered class, the two of them were the only ones in the corridor. If nothing bad had happened, it's because no one had seen them together. He didn't even have 15 minutes of meeting Alex and he was afraid the others would mess with her, just because she'd been by his side.

"Yeah, I'll show you the school at lunch"

"Oh! That’s great! Thank you, Arthur! Well, I think I should go to class…” Arthur quickly thought that was his chance, the two of them would go to their respective classes and he would disappear, despite the fact he promised to help her. He thought of hiding from Alex in all that remained of the day, a strange way to protect her. “…I have to go to room E-11"

And Arthur's plans were completely ruined.

"…Oh, that's mine too"

"Really?! That means we are meant to be friends!" Alex almost yelled excitedly, and Arthur could not believe what she said.

“M-meant to be friends? Y-You wanna be my friend?”

“Yeah! Why not?”

Arthur's smile was big.

He couldn't, he couldn't let that go. He couldn't miss the chance to have a friend, a real friend.

Both reached to room E-11, opened the door, realizing that classes had already started.

Alex went in first and Arthur followed her, the gazes on them were almost immediately. Alex walked to the teacher and showed her a card. The teacher looked at the card and went to the classroom.

"Class, we have a new classmate, this is Alexandra Grant, she comes from California. So, I like to inform you miss Grant and you too young Fleck what rule did not follow today: When the ring bells you must be in your classroom before the teacher start the class”.

Arthur was a bit used to that, but felt sorry for Alex, as they were giving her a terrible first impression.

“Welcome to Gotham miss Grant, sit down right now”

“Sorry Ms. Joy” Arthur whispered and Alex did the same, knowing that teacher's last name. Quickly Arthur went to take a seat, and Alex followed behind him, taking a seat next to him.

It was a history class. While Mrs. Joy spoke aloud about the Independence of the country, Arthur turned his gaze to Alex, she looked very nervous and scared by what happened. It wasn't fair, she was new there, she didn't deserve such a treatment.

Speedily, he took a sheet from his notebook and tore it up, into a small piece of sheet, he began to write something. When the teacher turned the blackboard, Arthur passed the note to Alex. She immediately saw it, took the note, and read it.

“I'm sorry I made you late for class, you didn't have to get a scold from the teacher”

Alex smiled and turned to Arthur, giving him her smile. She immediately took out another small sheet and began to write. The teacher was still talking about the Fathers of the Nation when Alex passed the note to Arthur.

“Don't feel bad please, it's not your fault. The teacher doesn't seem to get much love from her husband”

Arthur read the note and felt the need to laugh, put his hand in his mouth. But it wasn't his condition, it was a real laugh. Some classmates turned to Arthur, giving him an unpleasant look. Alex realized that, and Arthur calmed down. If they knew that he wanted to laugh for real.

“No, it doesn't seem like, I hadn't thought of that before”

Alex laughed slightly again. They decided to leave that little game for that moment, they didn't want to be caught by Mrs. Joy.

The History class hour passed very quickly, the bell ringed again, Mrs. Joy left homework and finally left the place. At that moment, the whole classroom turned to the new girl.

“So, what was your name?” Alex, naturally kind, began to answer any doubts they had about her.

“Alexandra, Alexandra Grant, but you can call me Alex”

“Alex, that's a good name, it's very nice"

Alex thanked her for the gesture while other classmates approached her. The whole class wanted to meet the new girl from California. At that moment, Arthur felt displaced by everyone, but that was normal again, he just turned his head to the window.

He couldn't feel jealous, he barely met Alex that morning, of course, the others were going to be interested in her. Some even said something like "Come here, better sit next to me" and honestly, Arthur waited for the moment she would get up and leave him alone.

“No, thank you, I’m fine here”

“Are you sure? But you are next to... Fleck”

Arthur tried not to move, not turn towards others, because he knew he was going to have unfriendly looks on his head. And he didn't want to scare Alex with his laughter.

"I am fine here, thank you again"

"Alex..." At that moment, they began to speak to Alex soundlessly, as if Arthur did not listen to them, of course, he could still hear them "…But he is... Weird, I don't think you want to hang out with him, he is too strange, he's... Well, a freak"

“What? Why you say that?”

“Good morning class!” The math teacher interrupted the conversation, starting a new class. The next hours, Alex was trying to look to Arthur, but he didn't look like the Arthur she'd met in the restroom. She looked at him more self-conscious, uncomfortable and it looked like he didn't want to make eye contact with her. Alex wondered if he had bothered with her, she didn't know why and hoped he wouldn't.

Arthur however, was struggling with himself, it was shown to her that he was not well received at school, actually, they warned him, and in a good way. He was hoping with that, Alex would decide to leave him alone. She didn't deserve the same harassment he received.

But at the same time, Arthur was very hurt a lot to lose a girl who really wanted to be his friend.

The bell rang. It was lunchtime.

Alex took his pen and notebook, but as she turned to Arthur, Arthur had taken his things as quickly as possible, put them in his backpack, and left the classroom.

Alex didn't understand what was going on with Arthur.

...

He wasn't in the cafeteria; she'd probably be there looking for him.

Arthur was in a secret place at school, at least for him, in a place where no one could find him. A place where he used to hide when the idiots of his classmates wanted to vent and have fun with him.

Tears fell from his face. He didn't want to cry anymore. He once listened to his mother when he was 10 and fell by accident and hurt his knee. He couldn't stop crying until his mother scolds him with a "Big Boys Don't Cry."

Arthur didn't understand, he was almost going to become an adult, a man, and he was still crying. The worst thing for him is he thought he was crying about something silly. He was crying because everyone pointed him as a freak in front of Alex, they told her he wasn't normal. And when someone found Arthur wasn't normal, he was rejected.

Abruptly, the laugh came out of his throat, and that's when he hated himself. He couldn't believe how weak he could become. He lasted a short time laughing, he was able to control it, but he was sick of laughing and crying. He has wiped the tears off his face once more, took his backpack, and started looking for a way to get some food. He was out of school, in a little alley, with some garbage.

…

Alex kept looking for Arthur in the school, she thought maybe he'd be in the cafeteria. Besides, she was already hungry.

The cafeteria was full. Alex stopped with the points of his blue shoes, looking for the boy she met that morning. However, there was no sign of him.

“Hey Alex, will you sit with us?”

She heard a group of her classmates talk to her. Alex didn't know if it was a good idea, as they were the same ones who said weird things about Arthur. She approached them with her lunch.

But, the conversation between the three boys and the two girls who invited Alex became a little uncomfortable for her.

“…California, I see, where exactly are you from?"

"From Venice, I-"

"Really?! From L.A.?! How you can leave a paradise and decided to move to the worst place in the world?!"

Alex didn't understand the girls' overreaction.

“Eh? I-It was for my dad’s job, he-”

“Your dad’s job?! He’s working in a movie or something?!”

“No… He works in the press, he’s gonna-”

“In the press? He’s an important journalist?

“Well, he's starting, but-”

Every moment she tried to explain, she was interrupted, it was like they were trying to find something important about her, but she was getting tired of the situation.

To her luck, she observed how far the cafeteria door opened: Arthur was coming in. Alex smiled, finally someone who wasn't a fool.

But, despite Alex's happiness, Arthur looked around, it seemed that no one had noticed him, but suddenly:

"Hey Fleck!"

Those idiots again. Arthur didn't want to be humiliated in front of everyone like in the morning, so he rapidly left the cafeteria, almost running.

"I'm so sorry" Alex suddenly took his lunch, apologizing to the boys and girls, "I have to go, but I'd love to eat with you tomorrow. I'll see you” Alex quickly got up from his seat and ran to the door, even arrived before the boys who intended to annoy Arthur. And they noticed Alex.

"Hey, did you see that girl?"

"Yes, I think she's the new girl"

"Oh... I would love to meet her and... You know..."

And those three guys laughed like idiots

…

Arthur wasn't even trying to look back, just think about running away to safety. He heard footsteps behind him. Fuck, please not here, not here.

"Hey boy!"

A voice alerted him, but seeing who he was, he calmed down.

"Alex..." He stopped not only for her, he realized that only Alex was following him “What are you doing here?”

"I've been looking for you in almost all school, where were you?"

"I… I was just… Nothing important"

Alex again observed Arthur's red nose and his attempt not to be weak in front of her.

"Arthur, are you okay?

"Yes, yes, I'm fine, just... I just wanted to breathe air. That’s all"

"Oh… Okay, well, it's just that when the bell rang, I wanted to talk to you, but you left too fast. You promised me you were going to show me school."

Shit, that promise. He wasn't supposed to promise things like that so fast.

"Hey... Alex, I-I don't think that's was a good idea"

"Why not?" Alex asked something confused, Arthur wasn't ready to take her away from him.

"... I-I don't think it's a good idea to be seen together"

Alex felt his chest sink when he heard that.

"What? Why do you say that?" Arthur didn't know what to tell her, he owed her an explanation, of course, but what could he tell her?

“They told you, I'm a freak. Freaks like me don't do very well in life”

“But I don’t understand, why they… they said you’re a freak? That’s stupid, you’re so kindness and gentleness”

Arthur felt under pressure, why did she start asking him that? Did he have to explain to Alex about his condition? No, he didn't have to, because he was about to show it to her.

“They told you Alex, and I-”

And the laugh started.

Arthur took his hand to his mouth and walked away from Alex, trying to control himself, but that wasn't so easy, he just wanted to stop laughing. He appreciated that they were both alone, but he couldn't help be embarrassed. His face turned red, and his breathing difficult to control.

Alex didn't know what to react to, tried to laugh with him, even she couldn't find the funny thing, and it wasn't until Arthur started looking in his pockets for a little card who he wrote himself.

Alex took the card and started reading it. And she knew why Arthur tried to ignore her the rest of the day, and why he disappeared before she could talk to him. Arthur just wanted to disappear. And in that instant, he felted a hand on his shoulder, and as that hand suddenly wrapped him in a hug.

Arthur hadn't felt a hug in a long time.

[weeb-alcove]

2019 English Playlist

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL77pv5URcE8b4_k9_GQYZoQYz_HhRDP2D 

In English: 

“99″ - Barns Courtney

10ft - Eileen Yo

5 Seconds of Summer Babylon Easier Lie to Me  Teeth

88rising History Midsummer Madness ♪ from their album Head in the Clouds II ♬ Breathe I Love You 3000 II Indigo Strange Land These Nights

Affection - Between Friends

Aftertaste - Whethan

Ain’t Goin Back - Russ

Alan Walker Are You Lonely Different World Do It All for You Lily  On My Way Play

All Fall Down - Johnny Glenn & Ally Hills & Just Juice

All Over Again (remix) - Lost You & Michael Moawad

Another Summer Night Without You - Alexander 23

Aphrodite - Rini

Ariana Grande Esta Noche ♪ from her album thank u, next ♬ bloodline in my head NASA

Arms Around You - XXXTentacion & Swae Lee & Lil Pump

Ava Max Freaking Me Out (Bingo Players remix) Not Your Barbie Girl So Am I

Bae - Trevor Wesley

Bars and Melody Lighthouse (Dave Winnel remix) Waiting for the Sun

Bazzi Caught in the Fire Focus Mine Myself No Way!

Beat of My Drum - Powers

Benee Evil Spider Find an Island Glitter  Monsta Want Me Back  Wishful Thinking

Better Not - Louis the Child

Big Sean Berzerk Single Again

Billie Eilish everything i wanted  When I Was Older ♪ from her album WHEN WE ALL FALL ASLEEP, WHERE DO WE GO? ♬ 8 bad guy bury a friend ilomilo  my strange addiction wish you were gay  xanny 

Birthday Party - AJR 

Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz

broken - lovelytheband

Caffeine and Dopamine - Keepitinside

Camila Cabello Find U Again  Señorita  ♪ from her album Romance ♬ Bad Kind of Butterflies  Liar My Oh My Shameless  Should’ve Said It

Cardi B Money Please Me

Catch Feelings - Henry Young & Zachary

Céline - Gallant

Cemetery - Coin

Chanel - Frank Ocean

Chase - Aaron Carpenter

Cherry Cola - Kuwada

Cigarette - offonoff & Tablo & MISO

Clairo Sofia Throwaway

Close to Me - Ellie Goulding & Diplo & Swae Lee

Cold - Boy In Space & unheard

Come My Way - Plvtinum

Conan Gray Generation Why Greek God  Maniac The King 

Creep - Radiohead (GAMPER remix & Dadoni & Ember Island)

Crush - Lucian & Tiffany Day

Crying My Eyes Out - Stephen Puth

Crystal Dolphin - Engelwood

Dangerous Love - Justice Carradine

David Guetta Better When You’re Gone Blame It on Love

Daya Insomnia Left Me Yet Wanted

Don’t Be Gone Too Long - Chris Brown

Don’t Lie to Me - Lena

Don’t Start Now - Dua Lipa

Eric Nam ♪ from his album Before We Begin ♬ Congratulations  Love Die Young

Everything - TobyMac

Eyes Wide Shut -  Glades 

Falling - Trevor Daniel

Fine - Rufus

Finneas I Don’t Miss You at All  Let’s Fall in Love for the Night

Fitz and the Tantrums Hand Clap Out of My League

Flower - Johnny Stimson

Friends - Feyde

Funeral - Miguel

G-Eazy 1942 Nadie Como Tu 

Get Away - Ed Black

Giants - Becky G & Keke Palmer & Soyeon & Duckwrth & Thutmose

Glass Animals Life Itself The Other Side of Paradise 

Greyson Chance Boots Shut Up

Halsey Eastside Graveyard

Heart in Tokyo - Good Gasoline

Heartstrings - STVN & Jenna Carlie

Her - Alex Aiono

Hey Violet Better by Myself Queen of the Night

High School - Umi

Hometown Smile - Bahjat

Honne  Crying Over You  Day 1

How Do You Sleep? - Sam Smith

IDK - Bruce Wiegner

I Fall in Like Too Easily - Ashton Arbab

I Feel Love - Suggi

If I Can’t Have You - Shawn Mendes

If You Need Me - Julia Michaels

If You’re Over Me - Years & Years

I Heart You - Baby Ariel

I’ll Be There - King Henry & Sasha Sloan

ILYA - Fly By Midnight

In Betweenin’ - Austin Brown

Indiana Massara Apology Smoke in My Eyes

i think i love you (but i dont like you) - push baby

It’s Not You It’s Me - 6LACK & Bea Miller

Japanese Denim - Daniel Caesar

Jaymes Young Infinity  Northern Lights 

Joji Sanctuary  Test Drive Yeah Right

Jonas Brothers Only Human Sucker

Juliet - Sebastian Javier

June - Sage Charmaine

Just My Luck - Tia Ray & Kehlani

Kailee Morgue Go to Sleep Headcase

Katy Perry 365 Harleys in Hawaii

Kiss Me Thru the Phone - Soulja Boy

Lalala - Y2K, bbno$

Last Hurrah - Bebe Rexha

Lauv Drugs & the Internet I’m So Tired

Lava Lamp - Dandi

Left to Right - Marteen

Lennon Stella La Di Da Polaroid Workin’ on It

Lifeguard - iamnotshane

Lovefool - The Cardigans

Love Me Wrong - Allie X & Troye Sivan

Love You Like That - Dagny

Madison Beer Fools  Hurts Like Hell

Maggie Lindemann Friends Go Would I

MAGIC! Girl at Coachella Lay You Down Easy 

Make You Mine - Public

Mango Love - Shawn Wasabi & SATICA

Mask - joe.k

MAX Love Me Less One Two Things Worship

Middle of the Night - Monsta X

Miss Americana & the Heartbreak Prince - Taylor Swift

MØ Blur Don’t Leave Kamikaze Nostalgia  On & On  Red Wine 

Mona Lisa - Valntn & Peter Fenn

mxmtoon Blame Game Prom Dress

My Family - Karol G & Migos & Rock Mafia & Snoop Dogg

Nobody - Emilee

No Sleep - Martin Garrix & Bonn

Nostalgia - The Beamish Brothers

NOTD Keep You Mine Romantic (NOTD remix) So Close

Ocean Man - Ween

October - Alessia Cara

Oh Wonder I Wish I Never Met You Super Love

Only You - Cheat Codes & Little Mix

On the Low - Justin Park

Pardon Me - Dion

Permission - New Hope Club

Pharmacy - Isaac Dunbar

Pink - No Rome

Post Malone ♪ from his album Hollywood’s Bleeding ♬ A Thousand Bad Times Circles Die for Me  Goodbyes Take What You Want 

PRETTYMUCH Blind Solita

Quinn XCII U & Us Wayback (remix)

R3HAB All Comes Back To You Don’t Give Up on Me Now Lullaby This Is How We Party

Raincoat - Kieron Lee & Chloe Ho

Rebels - Ivy Adara

Red Sippy Cup - Ellis G & Tristen the God

Rei Brown Picture Frames Real Love

Rescue Me - OneRepublic

Right Now - Nick Jonas & Robin Schulz

Rolex - Ayo & Teo

Roots - Galantis & Valerie Broussard

Roxanne - Arizona Zervas

Ruel Free Time Real Thing Younger

Say It to My Face - Maty Noyes

Selena Gomez Bad Liar I Can’t Get Enough

Sick Thoughts - Lewis Blissett

Skeletons - keshi

Speechless - Dan + Shay

Stay Home - Faye Risakotta

Sugarplum Elegy - Niki

Summer Love - Hyu

Summer Time High Time - Cuco & J-Kwe$t

Summertime in Paris - Jaden & Willow

Suncity - Khalid & Empress Of

Superfruit - Maude Latour

Sweet Little Lies -  bülow

Swimming in Your Feelings - Haven

Talking Loud - Jennifer Zhang

Tell Me - Mika-Intersection

tell me how you rly feel - adam&steve & Lostboycrow

Tessa Violet Bad Ideas Crush

Thank You - Junny

The Chainsmokers Family Kills You Slowly Takeaway

The Vamps All Night All the Lies Can We Dance  Just My Type  Middle of the Night Missing You  Somebody to You  We Don’t Care 

Think About Me - dvsn

Tired - Jasmine Sokko

Tomorrow Tonight - Loote

Virtual Reality - ieuan

Waste My Time - Grace VanderWaal

Why Don’t We Come to Brazil I Don’t Belong in This Club I Still Do Mad At You  Unbelievable  What Am I (Casualkimono remix)

Why Don’t We - Austin Mahone

Why Haven’t I Met You? - Cameron Dallas

Woke Up Late - Drax Project & Hailee Steinfield

Yellow Hearts - Ant Saunders

Yoandri All the Way Bravo Cherry on Top It’ll Be Ok Only You

You & Me - Marc E. Bassy

You Got Issues - spring gang & Amaranthine

Young the Giant Apartment  Cough Syrup

Zayn Rumors There You Are

In French:

Tous Les Mêmes - Stromae

In Spanish:

Rebeca - Mc Livinho & Gerex & Maejor

Teléfono - Aitana (remix with Lele Pons)

Electronic:

Monster Gambling in Tokyo - Idealism

Sorry I Like You - Burbank

Sunset Lover - Petit Biscuit

[allie1804-fan]

Please Assist Me (Chapter 6)

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5

She Said

That hug at Christmas and the fumbled goodbye kiss the kids had insisted we have when we left started a whole new phase of our relationship, at least for me. The feelings those moments stirred in me reminded me of my torn feelings when he was dating Anja and it all made separating Keanu the friend from Keanu the boss ever harder. I had to admit to myself that it wasn’t just him that seemed lighter in spirits since he moved on but also me.

In January, he was in San Francisco training and eventually starting the filming for Matrix 4 so we were back to e mails and instant messages for the most part as his schedule could change at a moment’s notice. With him out of town, work wise things were quieter for me  though I did have the installation of a new BBQ on his patio to supervise which meant being at his house more. I’d find myself daydreaming about that day at Christmas when he and Miguel were sitting at either end of the corridor whizzing Duke Caboom up and down cackling when they managed a direct hit on each other or Duke fell over. He was really good at playing with both of the kids; it warmed my heart but I scolded myself knowing that my affection was taking me in a direction that surely he would never want.

The focus on these irrational feelings became more intense when in mid January I met up for coffee with Karina. Keanu had let her know that he would be back in town for the Oscars weekend in early February and he wanted to arrange a family dinner the night before.

Once we’d agreed on a venue which I would book later, our conversation turned to her brother’s mental well-being.

“So how is he doing do you think?”

“Well, he’s fine I think, we haven’t talked often, just e mails mainly about admin and the barbecue, you know but he was very excited to be working with Lana, Carrie-Anne and Tiger again.”

“He finished with Anja right, before Christmas?”

I nodded

“Don’t you think he’s seemed more himself since then, he seemed, you know, like a weight was off his shoulders”

I just nodded again, feeling a little awkward about the whole conversation, mainly because he had opened up a little to me and I knew I’d thought about how both he and I had seemed lighter in spirits since the break up!

“So why did he end it?”

My eyebrows shot up.

“oh come on,  you two talk, I know you do! You can tell me!”

I sighed

“He …. He just said it wasn’t going anywhere and  he knew he was going to be away a lot this year so I guess he didn’t want to string her along, you know ….. for “ I took a gulp of my coffee not wanting to say more

“you mean for the sex!”

This made me blush beet red and nearly spit my coffee all over her!

“you like him don’t you?”

“Of course I like him, he’s a great boss” I spluttered, blushing even more.

“Yeah! A great boss who helps you when your kid is sick, who goes to see “Frozen 2” with you all who buys you a spa day at one of the top locations in LA and is taking your kids on a private tour of Disney studios”

“How do you know all that?”

“Because he talks to me too sometimes you know and when he does, he mentions you all the time. Sophia, I think he likes you too and I think that you’re the reason he didn’t see things going anywhere with Anja!” Karina declared emphatically.

“Come on” I protested, I’m just his PA so of course he mentions me and you know the gifts are great but that’s just how he is, he’s renowned for  his generosity you know with charities and being kind to his fans and co-workers from the lowliest of workers to giving up his salary for Pacino and Hackman.”

Karina guffawed at that

“Oh my god you are such a fan girl! You are totally not fooling me, YOU (she pointed me in the chest with her finger) like my BROTHER! And, like I said, it’s plain as day to me that he likes you. And Alex agrees with me. I ran into him last week and he brought it up spontaneously!”

“What?”

“Yes, he said ever since you started to work for him, some complement or other about you is never far away in his conversation”

I shook my head as I couldn’t really believe what she was saying. What if? Even though it was his sister, who knew him well and one of his oldest friends backing her up, it seemed like an outlandish hope and one that could only end up with me being disappointed. I finally admitted to myself that I did have feelings for him and my eyes filled with tears because I was so sure she must be wrong about him feeling something too.

Karina was quick to notice the change in my demeaner

“Hey, I didn’t mean to upset you ……… what’s up?”

I let out a long sigh and little chuckle at my foolishness.

“I guess you’ve finally made me admit how I feel but I still feel like, like I don’t know what to do about it and I don’t really believe he feels the way you say he does and me and the kids are just going to get hurt if I don’t reign it in. I mean, I really need this job and I love it too. He’s such a great boss”

“He’s a great guy too Sophia …….. great big brother, great son, great godfather.”

“I know, I see all that but, what good can come from saying anything? First, he’s my boss and 2nd, even if I did muster the courage  to say something, I’m probably not going to see him in the flesh for months as he’s shooting through to, I dunno, the summer I think and then he said he was going to go on a bike tour in Europe after the Matrix wraps.”  

“Won’t you see him when he’s back for the Oscars?”

“Well, we did say we would, he has a bunch of birthday cards to sign in case I can’t catch him before Berlin”

“Well then, if you say something then and I’m right, you could be with him on that bike tour of Europe”

“What!” I rolled my eyes, “me and my two kids!”

“Oh yeah, well you have parents still around don’t you who would be glad to help out”

“Look, stop, just stop.  I need to think clearly and not start daydreaming about some ridiculous fantasy life”

“Ok, OK I’ll stop. But I’ll say this one last time, I’m his sister, Alex is his oldest friend and we both thing he likes you, OK?”

“OK”

 He Said

Life got busy for me in the new year and I didn’t see Sophia again until the weekend of the Oscars. I had come home on the Saturday and she’d booked a table for me, Karina, her husband and my Mom at The Ivy for a family dinner that evening. The Sunday would be spent largely in being dressed for the ceremony and the ceremony itself so a coffee on my patio in the afternoon was all we could fit in. She brought be  one of her famous brownies  - and some to take back and enjoy in San Francisco.

“Oh my god, amazing as usual” I praised “It’s great to see you, I missed our chats with coffee and your brownies!”

“Me too” she agreed smiling though she looked, I don’t know exactly, a little wistful.

“You OK?”

“Yeah, yes I’m fine”

She really didn’t seem it. She was smiling but it didn’t reach her eyes and she seemed guarded.  It was completely true that I had missed her and I’d been contemplating saying something about my feelings or trying to see if I could get any clue if she could even think of me as more than a friendly boss but I felt kind of ridiculous and I had no clue how to subtly approach the subject. And very soon, I was going to be away for months. I told myself it wasn’t worth rocking the boat and we moved onto getting the details of my  travel to Berlin in March agreed and she had several birthday cards and gift tags for me to sign for gifts she would sort out in my long absence. We might not see each other in person before Berlin.

Later that evening, Karina surprised me by asking if I’d seen Sophia.

“Yeah, why”

“Oh, nothing she just mentioned she’d be seeing you when we last met”

I tilted my head and noticed my mother was watching us intently.

“and why were you two talking about me?”

“Oh, you know, she’s my insider link to your secret life”

“I don’t have a secret life” I protested making air quotes as I said ‘secret life’

“Well she was the one who confirmed that you and Anja had split before  Christmas when you never said a word”

“Oh! And since when have you and Sophia been such firm friends?”

“Oh probably since you started dumping so many of your family responsibilities on her, I guess!” Karina jibed.

“Anyway, she’s a lovely person……… and gorgeous ………… wouldn’t you agree?”

I could feel the blush rise on my face immediately and Mom’s gaze seemed to intensify.

“Yes, she is”

“She is what?”

“Lovely” I said

“and?”

“And gorgeous” I admitted, punching Karina’s arm.

“I knew it!” Karina exclaimed “didn’t I tell you Mom?”

“Oh my god, you’re so ganging up on me” I whined.

“So are you going to ask her out?”

“Karina, no I am not. I’m her boss, it would be inappropriate and besides I’m going back to San Fran on Monday and then there’s the Germany shoot and I’d planned that road trip after the shoot. And, I mean I have no idea if she could even think of me like that and I’m old man, what is it 17 years older and there’s the kids”

By then Karina had started to laugh as had my mother.

“So you’ve thought about it a lot huh?”

I had started laughing along with them by then, realising how dumb I probably sounded.

“Ok,OK,OK, I admit it, I like her, a lot. But I’m not going to do anything about it now because, well probably because I’m chicken, but also I will be away so I just decided not to rock the boat for now, OK?”

“OK son, probably wise knowing how wrapped up you get in your work” my mother agreed with me for once.

“So, do you think eventually, I could ask her out?” I said directing the question at Karina who immediately spat out some of her drink.

“What?!”

“Jeez, you really are so dumb sometimes, YES, you stand a chance of her being agreeable to that”

“Oh right, right, well good”

I smiled to myself and met my mother’s eye - she was smiling too.

 She Said

I next saw Keanu the day before the Oscars. We caught up at his house over coffee and brownies that I’d baked for him. After I’d first given him one, it had become part of our routine when we needed to go through admin. He was as appreciative as ever and said he’d missed our catch ups. My heart flipped but I checked myself. It was preposterous to think he meant anything more than missing me in a friendly way  - and my baking!

I felt myself closing down a little. He even asked if I was OK. I didn’t want to give the game away about my feelings so I assured him I was fine and we got down to business.  

I watched him on the Oscars show and messaged him that he had done a great job presenting with Diane who was a little less smooth I thought. He sent back a smiley emoji.I didn’t say how absolutely gorgeous I thought he looked or how sweet he was with his mother on the red carpet.

Then he was back in San Fran and shooting the Matrix 4. I kept up with his goings on online – his Publicist liked me to keep a watch over some of the fan sites.  I followed Keanu Planet on Instagram, one of the friendlier sites. Some of the others seemed too obsessed and were wildly negative about any woman he was ever seen with.  Looking at those sites gave me a bad taste in the mouth so I let Cheryl follow them.

With all the night shoots, hanging on wires between sky-scrapers and helicopter antics, I was worried as well as excited to see how it turned out. I’d always ask him to stay safe in any messages I sent to him about other matters.

I thought I wouldn’t see him again until the end of the summer but he managed to come home for a few days in March between wrapping in San Francisco and heading to Berlin.

I took the kids over as it was a Saturday. They had made him a good luck card which Eva proudly gave him.

“Do you have enough books to pass the downtime with? Have you read ‘Normal People’ yet?”

He shook his head guiltily.

“Well be sure to read it - you could do it on the flight I bet”

When we left, he gave the kids a big hug, getting down on his knees to wrap his arms around them both.

And I got one too. He held onto me for what seemed like an awfully long time – though of course it wasn’t awful at all to be in his arms!

“Stay safe OK?” The news of the pandemic had started to ramp up by this point so he had a point. I guessed maybe that was why he’d hugged me for so long.

“you too”

He kissed me on the cheek, right cheeks together with no near misses this time and the kids and I headed home.

A couple of days later I got a message from him.

“Arrived safely, “Normal People” done. Needed an R rating warning – quite uncomfortable reading that on a flight!” This was followed by a wink emoji.

I blushed reading the message - was he flirting with me? It kind of seemed like it and I wondered how to reply.

I just opted for a shocked emoji and asked how he felt  about Marianne and Connell’s ridiculous inability to articulate their feelings for much of the book! As I wrote that, I thought of my own reticence to confess my feelings. Was I almost as bad as the Irish teenagers of the story?

Since I wasn’t going to be doing anything about it now for months, I pushed the problem away once again and tried to focus on the kids and running Keanu’s home whilst he was away.  It wasn’t easy to put my feelings in a box though. Either he would message me about a book recommendation or just to see we were all still OK or I’d be at his house and remember that hug or our Christmas togetherness or his face would pop up on the TV. One night, The Lake House was on and seeing that could only revive my fantasies about holding him and kissing him!

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[hellimagines]

My Love and My Life -- James Patrick March

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Request: “Request for when James meets Y/N after years I can imagine the feels!!” @xlangdons-evilbabygirlx

Summary: When your past catches up to you, you’re forced to leave the Hotel Cortez and your love behind, with the tearful promise of an eventual return.

Warnings: mentions of domestic abuse, angst, mentions of murder, l.o.t (lots of tears)

Pairing: James Patrick March x fem!reader

Word Count: 1,300+

A/N: im still alive waddup lol

You had left the Hotel Cortez a short while after your 22nd birthday. The hotel had become your home for a little over a year, while you were on the run from an abusive ex-lover, and during your stay, you had managed to find love. It was an unconventional sort of love, but a love that made your heart hurt and your blood tingle nonetheless. James March offered you more than anyone ever had: a home, a life, a smile, and above all else, endless moments filled with love and compassion. With all the happiness he’d given you, you never pictured yourself walking out of the Hotel Cortez, never to return. But, eventually, your past had caught up with you.  

“You can’t leave, I won’t allow it!” James cried, abandoning his cane in favor of gripping both of your hands tightly. The sound of the vintage weapon hitting the ground echoed around the room.

You sniffled, tears running freely down your cheeks. “I don’t have a choice, James, he’s found me. I can’t stay here any longer, I’ll get hurt-”

“I can protect you!”

“No!” you yelled, then softer,  “No, you can’t. You’ll kill him, and then he’ll be stuck here, and I’ll have to deal with him until I die, and even after that. James, please. I’ll come back to you, I promise. But I have to handle this on my own now, I’ve ignored it for far too long.”

James fell silent at your reasoning, his large, brown eyes searching yours desperately. His grip on your hands had tightened significantly, but not enough to hurt you or make you wince. Just enough to remind you he was there, and that he didn’t want to lose you.

“You must come back to me. I can’t go forever without ever seeing you again, my love,” he whispered finally, falling to his knees before you. You were young and had never seen this type of devotion before, so it was no wonder it made your heart swell.

“Of course I’ll come back, I just can’t promise when. But I will see you again, Mr. March,” you smiled tearfully.

“I’ll be counting the days.”

--

It had been roughly four years since you had walked out those golden lobby doors, tears running down your cheeks as you escaped the wrath of your ex. But now, with the California sun beating down on your bare shoulders, you could allow a smile to grace your face; ‘I’m home’.

As you walked through the doors, abandoning the July heat, a breathy laugh escaped your lips at the familiar sight. Plush, red chairs and couches were placed perfectly in the middle of the lobby, and you could hear Liz Taylor’s familiar voice scrutinizing a potential customer. Quietly, you made your way over to the reception desk and idly stood to the side, waiting patiently for her to notice you.

“But it says right there that the rate is only $80 a night!” A man was stood in front of Liz, angrily pointing his finger at a piece of paper that lay on the desk, his breath coming out in short puffs.

Liz scoffed, “Yeah, that rate doesn’t apply to assholes though. So, for you, it’s going to be $160 a night. Either pay up or-” Liz suddenly fell silent when her eyes flickered to the side, green, mascara-clad eyes falling on you. “(Y/N)...” she gasped, stumbling over herself to escape from behind the desk and swoop you into her arms.

“Hey, Liz,” you choked out, unable to keep your tears at bay any longer. You could feel her own tears dripping onto your shoulder as she laughed joyously, pulling back slightly to smile down at you.

“Oh, look at you!” she cried, wiping under her eyes even as more tears fell. “Is this a summer dress you’re wearing? Oh, James is going to lose it when he finally sees you again,” she sniffed, playfully tugging at the straps of your dress.

You giggled quietly and shook your head. “I don’t have bruises to hide anymore. I can wear whatever the hell I want now.”

Liz laughed through her tears before giving you a gentle shove. “Go and find him. I’ll get your things to your room, but don’t keep him waiting any longer. He’s missed you,” she whispered, picking up the discarded suitcase at your feet.

“Thank you, Liz,” you smiled, before quickly making your way over to the elevator, and up to the sixth floor. As you walked down the hall towards room 64, the missed feeling of love and safety washed over you. Your (e/c) eyes fell shut in bliss, only to snap open when the smell of cigars, gun powder, and old-timey cologne attacked your senses.

“My love…” James’ voice was weak and tired, yet filled to the brim with love. His brown eyes were wide, tears beginning to build in the corners, but you knew he wasn’t going to let them fall, not yet. His suit was disheveled and drenched in blood, and his hair was sticking out every-which-way. It was obvious he had been in the middle of a kill, but now he was stood in front of you, one hand reaching out in desperation.

Instantly, you walked forward and grabbed ahold of it, pulling him close to you. “I told you I’d come back. Once I was safe and ready, I’d be back in your arms. And now, I am,” you said to him, lifting your hand to place your palm against his bloody cheek. James leaned into your touch and released a choked gasp, greedily gripping onto your body with both of his hands and crushing you to his chest.

Gentle murmurs and hushed sobs of, ‘I missed you’ and ‘You came back to me’ and ‘I’ll never let you go again’ were uttered as James cried into your neck, his ghostly fingers digging into the exposed skin of your shoulders and back. After a while you pulled away, reaching up to cup his face. James’ hands moved to rest on your hips, rubbing the soft material of your dress as he looked down at you. Your fingers wiped the tears away from under his eyes, smiling up at him softly.

“I’m not leaving you. My ex has been dealt with, and he’ll never bother me, or us, again. I’m staying here, with you, even after I die,” you grinned, before tilting your head up to capture his lips in a loving kiss.

James briefly broke the kiss after a moment, “I won’t let anyone hurt you again. So long as you are within these walls, you will never be harmed. You are my love and my life, and I won’t let anything take you away from me again.” Both of you knew you were more than capable of taking care of yourself and the threats around you, but the words were still endearing and brought a teary smile to your face. James leaned down to kiss you once more, the two of you smiling like fools against the other’s mouth. You were home again, and nothing was going to take you away from your love.

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[unofficialkfamtranscripts]

King Falls AM - Episode 5: Night of the Living Dread

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Summary: July 1, 2015 - Sammy & Ben learn of some breaking news regarding the Lake Hatchenhaw John Doe, but not everyone is as pleased as the broadcast duo.

[Podcast intro music]

Announcer Dear listeners, please note that the following program may contain views that do not reflect that of King Falls AM, its management, or its subsidiaries. Listener discretion is advised.

[KFAM intro music]

Sammy You’re listening to King Falls AM, that’s 660 on the radio dial. I’m your host, Sammy Stevens, and as always we are joined by producer and co-host extraordinaire, Ben Arnold.

Ben [trying not to be amused] You’re so- you’re so happy, aren’t you? You’re a child. Getting so giddy over that message.

Sammy Listening to a warning before a radio broadcast I’m on has literally been on the bucket list for a long time. Thanks Merv!

Ben *laughter* Ridiculous. A glutton for punishment.

Sammy What can I say? I enjoy a nice game of hard ball! Uh, y’know, but enough about what Merv doesn’t want you to hear, let’s talk about what he does want you to hear. And what do we have cooking tonight, Ben?

Ben Dude, it’s stacked alright? Stacked. We’ve got the- lovely Miss Emily Potter from the King Falls Library giving us her picks for enlightened summer reading.

Sammy Terrific! We always love speaking with Emily!

Ben You and me both.

Sammy I said “we,” Ben.

Ben Uh, I know. I- *breathes in* [stilted] I- We-We-uh, We’ve got some really cool news! here. We-we are announcing the line-up for the first annual King Falls Ambient Music Festival. That’s coming up the second hour.

Sammy Wait a second. The King Falls Ambient Music Festival? Is this town even big enough for a festival?

Ben Oh yeah! It’s like Coachella[1] but for hipsters that just want to relax. It’s all about “setting the mood.”

Sammy You know, I’m wondering if they’re gonna make it to a second annual.

Ben And then, um, [reluctant and slipping into mumbling] opening up the show we-we’ve got the- doctor *mumbling*

Sammy I-I’m sorry, Ben, what was that? You’re trailing off, buddy.

Ben We have that umm, *sniffs, lets out breath* one… guy. You know that- fo- w- talking about that *deep breath* one thing—

Sammy [trying to cut him off] Ben—

Ben —from a month ago or so—?

Sammy What? What are you talking about?

Ben You know— May- maybe we should start it with Uh, callers first! [mildly frantic] Just-uh-Give us a call at 424-279-3858 and let’s talk about… *tsk* anything! Let’s uh, whats your-whats your-whats-whats on your mind King Falls?

Sammy Ladies and gentlemen, put down your phones for a second. What Ben is trying to say is we’ve got a scoop here this evening on King Falls AM. We’re gonna be speaking with—

Ben [cutting Sammy off]Or you can tweet us! @kingfallsam. I-I-I will literally talk about anything right now. Even to Mr. Derschwitz about that weird toenail thing. Let-lets-lets go, people!

Sammy I thought we agreed—

Ben I know. Sammy, I’m sorry it’s just, [slightly more frantic] I’m-I’m not feelin’ the best here. Alright? my stomach, is all… knotted up, just thinking about this.

Sammy That is journalism. That feeling is journalism—

Ben [speaking over Sammy] I think it might actually be an ulcer! It Tastes, like Fear and Feels, like Cancer . It’s way more than anxiety. I-I’m gonna call Dr. Raúl, at break.

Sammy He’s a chiropractor!

Ben Maybe he can refer me?

Sammy Power through it, buddy! Look at this folks, we got somebody dialing into the hotline right now! You ready for this Ben? Come on.

Ben Please, be Reverend Hawthorne so we can talk about the Revival next month.

Sammy Oh stop it. You know he isn’t even scheduled!

Ben I just thought— maybe that’s how prayers work, I don’t know, I’m not a reverend!

Sammy King Falls AM, you’re on the air.

Dr. Rosenblum [Dr. Rosenblum’s voice is measured and monotonous and mildly creepy at all times] Good evening, this is Dr. Jeffery Rosenblum, with the, King Falls County Coroner’s Office.

Ben C-can I please just say—

Sammy Dr. Rosenblum, it is a pleasure to speak with you this evening.

Rosenblum Excited to be here, Sammy. Ecstatic even. We listen on slow nights.

Ben That’s the scariest thing I’ve ever heard.

Sammy Much appreciated, Doc. Now, as fate would have it, you were the overseeing physician working on the Lake Hatchenhaw John Doe, is that correct?

Ben Doc? Can you just, hold on for- one- moment- please?

Rosenblum Of course, Ben I—

Sammy Don’t start, Ben! We agreed to see this through.

Ben All I’m saying i- lemme finish- a- i-is that maybe it’s not our place *deep breath* to break this kind of news.

Sammy Fine. You know what? You’re right! Let’s just give this to our friends down at Channel 13 and let them be the ones to alert the public about this.

Ben [journalist voice] Doc, Ben Arnold. Tell us about cracking open the mystery body.

Sammy [quietly] Oh.

Rosenblum It’s true that I was the operating physician on that particular John Doe, y-es, irrefutablyy

Sammy Now, as I understand, your official report was released yesterday morning, doctor, but amazingly enough, not one publication or news station in our town- including King Falls AM- reported on it.

Rosenblum You are correct. Busy news day- one would assume.

Ben So, that means, you are— free to talk about it on air.

Rosenblum I would be elated

Sammy First and foremost on everyone’s minds: were there any signs of, uh, y’know, the lake mo- *sighs* I can’t.

Ben Did Kingsie make the body, bite the big one?

Rosenblum There was no evidence that a creature large or small had anything to do with the deceased.

Ben *sigh of relief* That- I knew Kingsie didn’t have it in her.

Sammy Now, Dr. Rosenblum, can you tell us if there was any foul play involved at all?

Rosenblum During our first autopsy we were not able to distinguish with certainty the cause of death. But there were no signs of foul play

Sammy I’m sorry, did you say “first” autopsy?

Ben [confused] Is that normal? Did you- find out the cause of death during the… second autopsy?

Rosenblum Indeed. It was six individual gunshot wounds to the victim’s head. Three shots to the temporal lobe, two to the mendulla oblongata—

Sammy What?! Six gunshot wounds?!

Rosenblum To the cranium, yes. One to the frontal lobe, another to—

Ben So the Lake Hatchenhaw John Doe was, murdered?

Sammy I can’t believe this! This is big! Why didn’t one news outlet report this thing yesterday?!

Rosenblum Well, the cause of death was inconclusive and with no signs of foul play, it was not exactly a juicy story.

Ben and Sammy Wait a second.

Rosenblum …yes?

Sammy I’m sorry, doc. I’m not in the medical orrr criminal fields but, how is six gunshots not foul play?

Rosenblum Well, that was between the first autopsy and the second. The gunshots were self-defense administered via Deputy Kreighauser at my behest.

Sammy Ben, we’re gonna wanna get Troy on the phone and see what he’s got to say about this.

Ben “Things Ben Arnold would never think under ordinary circumstances for 800, Alex.”[2]

Sammy Doc, while we’re getting Deputy Troy on the line, would you mind if we took a quick break to hear from one of our sponsors?

Rosenblum That’s just- Dandy.

[light bg music]

Greg Frickard After a long day’s work or a tough day’s play, you probably just wanna come home and relax. No need to slave over a hot stove for hours on end. Well that’s where we come in! Here at Granny Frickard’s, we know that the less time you spend doing the things you don’t like, is the more time you spend with the ones you love. So come get some of the best frog legs that money can buy. Granny Frickard’s French-fried farm-fresh never-frozen filleted-and-fricasseed fried-and-flambeed frog legs. Mm-mm-mm. So get on down to Granny Frickard’s Froggery at the corner of Main Street and 7th Avenue. We’ll put some pep in your step and some hop in your heart.

[KFAM intro music]

Sammy And we’re back on King Falls AM, here with King Falls County Coroner, Dr. Jeffery Rosenblum.

Rosenblum A Pleasure.

Sammy Do you have Troy, Ben?

Ben He’s booking one of the Williams boys for mooning. He’ll call us in a few.

Sammy I’m a little out of sorts here, doc. Can you explain what happened between the first inconclusive autopsy and the point where Troy filled the cadaver full of lead.

Rosenblum Of course. As I was finishing the initial post-mortem, it came to my attention that the deceased began to emit a hissing sound, fluctuating between the lower thorax and the larynx.

Ben Oh my God.

Rosenblum I called for Deputy Kreighauser and he entered, as I wanted someone else to see this- phenomenon. That’s when the John Doe began a slight, thrashing about the upper torso.

Ben Um… are you saying—

Rosenblum The deputy began to fumble for his sidearm while we both discerned that something was wildly- amiss. The deceased opened its eyes and instantly grabbed for the lapel of my lab coat with voracious tenacity.

Ben Wh- ah- go on.

Rosenblum It gnashed its teeth as I emitted a terrified, albeit, high pitched, scream. And that’s when Troy unholstered his sidearm and administered six lethal shots to the reanimated corpse’s cranium.

Ben A zombie.

Sammy Alright, is there- [fumbling] Let’s just say- is there-

Ben We’ve got Troy on the line.

Deputy Troy [in bg] I don’t care if he was only joshin’. You can’t show your G-D derriere out in public! [car door slams] [pleasantly] Hey boys, what’s goin’ on tonight?

Sammy You tell us, Troy, holy geez! Uh, we’ve got Dr. Rosenblum on the line here and—

Deputy Troy Is this about the zombie?

Ben Yes! So-so you’re confirming this story, Troy?

Deputy Troy Well, hell yeah I’m confirming! I had to do three hours of damn paper work from unloadin’ my pistola into a corpse! Sheriff Gunderson was not the happiest of campers.

Ben [excited and awed] This is amazing… This is unprecedented .

Sammy [skeptical] This is a little unbelievable, Troy.

Rosenblum It is a first in my profession. Believe you me. [still tonelessly] Wowzers.

Deputy Troy Honest engine[3] boys. I capped the all get out of that thing! It had the doc by the face ‘bout to start chewing!

Rosenblum You’re my hero, Deputy Troy.

Deputy Troy Shucks, wasn’t nothin’ special.

Ben [slightly sullen] Except killing the first instance of a zombie in King Falls since—

Sammy Don’t say “since”.

Ben … Well… Since that one time at the mall in the '80s.

Sammy No, that’s not a real thing, Ben. That’s a film.

Ben [worked up] Sammy? How many extraordinary things are gonna have to SLAP you right in the face to make you buy into this? KING FALLS, MAN.

Deputy Troy You know me, Sammy. I always shoot ya straight. But it was the craziest sh[bleep]t I’ve ever seen. I mean it was like my-ex-wife-needs-alimony-money crazy.

Ben See? Even Barney Fife[4] saw it.

Sammy *sighs* I just—

Rosenblum I don’t want to cause an uproar here, but since that exam, there have been, other cases.

Ben Of frickin’ zombies?

Rosenblum Of reanimation among corpses… yes.

Deputy Troy Doc, you just give me a call if you need. I’m more than happy to go Clint Eastwood if the situation arises.

Rosenblum Will do, Deputy. Thank you so much for your- assistance. Without you, there may not have been this- interview.

Deputy Troy [proud] To protect and serve.

Sammy I can’t take all this in right now, Dr. Rosenblum I- e- Thank you so much for your insightful information.

Rosenblum As they say, [still monotone] “you got it, duude.”

[click, dial tone]

Ben You okay, Sammy? You… don’t look so well.

Deputy Troy Ah, hell, boys.[siren whoop] I gotta go. I’ll call you back later tonight! One of the Williams boys is tryin’ ta saw through the bars outside the jailhouse? [sirens in bg] [through megaphone] Jacob Williams put your hands UP and the file DOWN.

[click, dial tone]

Ben Alright King Falls, you’ve heard our story, let’s hear yours. Have you or anyone you know experienced anything like what the doctor spoke of? Reanimation? The walking—

Sammy Don’t.

Ben You know what I mean. Give us a call or tweet us.

Sammy Looks like the board is lighting up!

Ben Um…

Sammy What’s up? Okay, it can’t be any crazier than what we just heard, Ben.

Ben Line One, Sammy.

Sammy Welcome to King Falls AM, you’re on with Sammy and Ben.

Line 1 [female, almost sounds automated] Good evening, Sammy—

Sammy Do I know you ma'am?

Riley — please hold for Mayor Grisham.

Ben He… Probably just wants us to— mark these tapes as, evidence. *nervous laugh* Right, Sammy?

Sammy Or burn them.

Riley Sammy Stevens, Mayor Grisham.

Sammy Mayor?

Mayor Grisham Sammy… Ben.

Sammy You’re on live on King Falls AM, sir.

Mayor Grisham [commanding] Take me off and go to break. We need to chat.

Sammy No can do. Ben says we aren’t scheduled for break for another- uh- at least ten minutes.

Mayor Grisham Ben. Cut. To. Commercial.

Ben Uh- uh- uh- the thing is- I- I- I can’t- do that. Sir.

Mayor Grisham [threateningly pleasant] You boys want to talk live on air? We can talk live on air.

Sammy [challenging] Nothin’ to hide on this end of the phone, Mayor Grisham.

Mayor Grisham I hear your snide remarks, Sammy. I’ve read the transcripts.

Sammy Which! let’s be honest, is pretty weird. We’re a late night AM talk show, why are you bothering with us?

Mayor Grisham Oh, I don’t bother with you. I try to keep up to date with all the local news and entertainment. I gotta say, I was really happy a big city radio guy decided to come play host at our little radio station.

Sammy Well, I’m more than happy to—

Mayor Grisham I wasn’t finished… But I have to say, I’m a little less than thrilled with [accusingly] all the excitement you brought with you.

Sammy I’d hardly call reporting the news “excitement”, sir—

Mayor Grisham It’s interesting to me that I don’t see Channel 13 breaking these crazy stories.

Ben [quickly] No offense, your honor, but those idiots don’t know their a[bleep]holes from their elbows.

Mayor Grisham And you boys being on site when these “events” happen? [softly, still accusing] It’s a little bit of a coincidence don’t you think?

Sammy Are you insinuating that we are staging these events, Mayor?

Mayor Grisham I’m stating facts. I’m sure your ratings are way, way up there since all these sensational events seem to coincide with your broadcast. Why do you think that is? Furthermore, I mean who’s up listening to you at this ungodly hour of the night?!

Sammy Seemingly most of the town, Sir. As well as whomever you’ve hired to keep an ear on us.

Mayor Grisham I’ve tried to be nice about this… And I tried to be civil… but I think it’s about time that you troublemakers changed formats. No more of this funny business. It’s not good for the listeners. It’s not good for the residents. And honestly? it’s not good for me. I don’t appreciated being painted in this light, gentlemen.

Sammy Oh! You mean the light where you as a public service,[sic] try to quell the voice of the people.

Ben It’s not your right to tell us what we can and can’t report on, sir. All due respect.

Mayor Grisham [rudely] All due respect, Ben Arnold. Just a couple of months ago you were digging up old records on eBay for Chet Sebastian to run on about. Now you’re a media star?? That’s worrisome! Seems you fellas have All the reasons in the world to fabricate these issues, and I have to say I’m not gonna sit here and listen to this, while you LIE TO THE GOOD PEOPLE OF KING FALLS.

Sammy Well, when we start “fabricating” and “making things up,” you can come throw the book at us. But until then- [click, dial tone] Whoops! Looks like you just got disconnected. I’d wait for you to give us a call back and all, but with it not being an election year I probably shouldn’t hold my breath.

Ben Line One iiis lit up again, Sammy.

Sammy [insincerely] Oh, sorry about that Mayor! I must have fabricated accidentally dumping your call when-

Esther Rollens [heavy metal music in bg] [voice old and wavering] Did you boys fund a lavender ball of yarn in there? Been looking for it all week! [click, dial tone]

Ben [shaken] Sammy, I think that commercial might do us some good right now.

[KFAM outro]

[CREDITS]

References

[1] Coachella - The Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival (commonly called Coachella or the Coachella Festival) is an annual music and arts festival held at the Empire Polo Club in Indio, California, in the Coachella Valley in the Colorado Desert.

[2] Reference to the TV game show Jeopardy!

[3] I honestly can’t tell if he’s saying “honest engine” or “honest injun” but i’mma go with the one that’s technically incorrect but also not super racist.

[4] Barney Fife - Deputy from the Andy Griffith Show. Calling a police officer or authority figure "Barney Fife" has become an American slang term for gross ineptitude or overzealousness.