#girly yeag

[blatantlyhidden]

i don't wanna say anything but

[tequiilasunriise]

No context here’s ep 12 in a nutshell:

[art-beyond-the-stars]

Read a FANTASTIC Freakshow AU fanfic tonight, written by @sm-baby and well

~ • ☆ The girls are suffering. ☆ • ~

[Virus AU by me!]

[Freakshow AU by @hootbon!]

[skrunksthatwunk]

oh the inherent autistic4autistic romance of harold and maude (1971). im gonna lose my mind

they. i. omg. look i've seen this movie 3 times and it always gets better. it's very good i love it dearly. im not sure what this post is im just gonna talk about them being autistic that's all.

sensory stuff (sensory seeking, in particular):

maude's scent machine (to "give her nose a treat"!!), harold's enjoyment of it

her "switch to the tactile" via things like statues, her encouragement to explore it in a variety of ways, which harold does in some unconventional ways, i.e. sticking his head in lol

when replanting the tree maude mentions a love of dirt for sensory reasons (i believe it's the way it feels but it might be the smell)

that scene where harold's like ooh the day's so nice i feel like somersaulting and she's like yeah!! go do it!! and he's like but id feel stupid and she's like everyone has a right to make an ass of themselves. and then he somersaults. very neurodivergent friend group of them that kind of enabling is literally me and my friends

in the above scene, maude declines harold's offer of a cartwheel and says she feels like yelling, then does so. vocal stim

maude's breath of fire morning routine could also be a vocal stim

arguably maude's fascination with art and them watching the fireworks and model trains could be visual stims, but that's a bit more of a stretch. still.

maude's clutter could also be kind of a visual stim. i like visual clutter for that reason; perhaps she doesn't mind it in her home

maude's focus on music and making sound, something she passes to harold via the banjo, singing (even if imperfectly), etc

they dance :) (harold's dance at the end particularly feels like stimming to me)

harold sitting upside down on the therapist's chair

harold's morning-after bubble blowing could be visual

maude likes stealing different kinds of cars for the variety. this, combined with how she comments on how harold's hearse drives, makes me wonder if it's a vertebral/proprioceptive kinda thing where she likes feeling the cars move differently, like the different leans to their turns and how they start and stop, things like that (mecore)

communication/self expression:

harold expresses himself through faking his death in a variety of gruesome and creative ways

harold drives a hearse!! and he likes it. even as his wardrobe moves from black and he stops going to funerals it's the one thing he holds onto

harold's affect is relatively flat. his smiles are pretty small and rare and he almost never raises his voice

harold makes little to no effort to hold conversation with others besides maude outside of performances (i.e. faking maude's death with uncle victor). a lot of this is because he detests the situations he's in (i.e. the dating service calls or speaking to the motorcycle cop), but even when speaking could theoretically add to the performance, he chooses not to, instead silently showing what he needs to, i.e. in the harakiri scene. in short, mecore

maude infodumps and overshares and i love her. it matches well with harold's relative quiet. like when she's walking to her house after harold drives her home for the first time and she talks about her friend who gave her the keys and tricks to car theft? unnecessary. but wonderful

not sure how to explain this one but when harold begins to cry when telling the chem lab story, maude doesn't say anything like, "im sorry, that sounds really hard", but instead talks about people backing away from life, and does her "give me an L give me an I" L-I-V-E cheer. it's not a typical response, but it's one that resonates with harold (not that saying the former can't be an autism vibe bc i for sure rely on scripts in situations like that Because they're unfamiliar, but it depends person to person yk)

harold falls in love and plans on proposing within a week, potentially suggesting very strong experiences of emotions

i mean. the whole movie is maude being like get weird be authentic explore and love life and then them being weird. unmasking journey starts NOW!!!!

harold knows that the only way to get people to leave him alone is to scare them away, or to make them think he's a lost cause that they can't make "more normal". he tends to do this instead of talking. obv faking his deaths, but also faking maude's murder, showing his mother maude's photo instead of explaining beyond exactly what's needed, torching the car his mother exchanged the hearse for, etc. he knows he won't be accepted and uses his weirdguy vibe to his advantage bc he knows they think he's weird anyway. and also because he doesn't want to talk much in general

when confronted by a cop about stealing a car she's like yeah i took it. and this tree. she doesn't bother lying bc she doesn't see a problem with it and/or because she isn't afraid of the cop

when harold goes to tell his mother that he's planning to marry maude he interrupts her even though she's on the phone multiple times because he Has To Tell Her Now

harold sending the hearse off the cliff at the end as a symbolic but ultimately useless gesture is another silent death he expresses himself with, but one he is rebirthed from

interests/beliefs:

harold's interest in death and destruction are kinda his only hobbies for a while, and are ones that keep him isolated

they go to strangers' funerals for shits. enough said (they also freely admit to not knowing the deceased like they do not care)

maude chooses to end her life at 80. she has a very positive, loving view of death in relation to life and change, and does not see this as sad, nor does she consider her relationship with harold as a reason to stay longer. she's made that decision, and he's just one beautiful component of an endlessly beautiful world she's leaving behind. her perspective is not common, but it's something that drives her throughout the movie, that search for life and whimsy

the romance itself is unusual, but the only ones who question it are outsiders. they both seem unphased by the age gap. the taboo doesn't matter to them at any stage

maude's past of protest could suggest a strong sense of justice, and her disregard of law could suggest an "im not gonna follow this rule if it's not right/doesn't make sense" attitude (she also explicitly ties her unorthodox behavior to her protest experience, saying it's her own, small form of resistance. just against social norms generally)

harold's rejection of normal social conventions i.e. dating, hanging out at funerals/demolition sites, etc. as well as his disdain for the military (particularly the way it manifests when he's tricking victor into not enlisting him by pretending to be bloodthirsty and screaming at maude that she's a commie pig, reflecting how he sees victor/those like him) show a kind of disregard of/distaste for hierarchy and norm (though he does feel those pressures to mask, as shown by the somersaulting conversation)

maude brings a yellow umbrella to a funeral, not even trying to blend in or seem mournful (her use of color is tied to how live flowers are used at funerals rather than dead ones. it's another joy and life thing. this logic of "i don't get why everyone does this. why should i not celebrate life here/in this way?" is straightforward and unaffected by/in spite of norms but IS affected by/because of her world view in a way that's real autistic to me)

misc

maude collects stuff

maude shows an unusual amount of empathy for the tree in town and moves to rescue it. this may be contrasted with her flippantness about the trouble her car stealing may cause people to show both an unusual amount of empathy for inanimate objects/non human beings and low empathy for humans

something so so very autistic to me about harold blowing up the chemistry lab at his boarding school and just. going home. jdjhsksg he didn't tell anyone he just went to bed im--

when maude says all the daisies are different she mentions all kinds of subtle details, which could indicate a higher level of observation than average

maude shows almost no sense of danger or fear. whether she's being questioned by cops in a stolen vehicle or telling her new lover she's poisoned herself, she seems carefree. that could be because of how much horror she's faced, or because of her knowledge that it'll end soon and she won't have to deal with the consequences for long. but it could also be autism

harold has a similar unusual relationship with fear. he's totally fine with the stunts that could easily go wrong and with maude falling into the ocean and with mixing random chemicals in a lab for shits but when it comes to other people putting him in situations he's upset

harold has no friends and is misunderstood and made to change to become more "normal" by everyone except for maude

just. the themes of societal oppression by demanding conformity. and resisting it by living authentically. they're Everywhere in this movie and that's inherently coded towards all kinds of marginalization, neurodivergency included (one way i haven't mentioned that this appears is in the implication that maude is a nazi concentration camp survivor, as evidenced by the numbers tattooed on her wrist. obviously, fascism and eugenics are heavily invested in removing difference, whatever it may be. nazis did focus on autism somewhat (hans asperger was a nazi doctor, after all), so that could be a sort of autistic coding, though it is (understandably) generally not used as such because they were not nearly as much of a focus to them. such coding is much more often for jewish people for that reason. it's more likely that she is/was jewish, or frederick was, or she helped others who were victimized, or resisted, etc. anyway, her drive to live fully regardless of convention could be related to seeing so much death and suffering firsthand, or to a complete rejection of the ideology that brought it and anything that resembles it. it seems influenced by that, at least.)

tl;dr harold and maude is about rejecting small talk and dating and the government and instead smelling things and rolling around in the grass and loving completely life and living weirdstyle. plus they both give me Vibes. that's all go watch harold and maude

[morhath]

support group for girlies who literally physically can't listen to "Butchered Tongue" without crying

[muirneach]

in my zuma and my everybody knows this is nowhere eras

[ath3nasgard3n]

LET ME AT HIM!!!!!!!!! LET ME AT HIM

behold. self-indulgent old west au murdoc :)

edit: crossposted to insta and now im screaming crying throwing up

[solargeist]

hi, I like your blog, I think it is very cool, I have a AU idea, RE au is basically just Grian as Ethan and Xelqua as Rose, Scar would probably be Mia- idk, just a AU idea, if you want then you can develop more into this au with the other resident evil characters as different hermits/life series people, idk- besides that, very cool blog :)

*runs off*

I dont actually know too much abt Ethan/re8, I’m more of a Leon girlie, BUT Grian would risk everything to find Xelqua yeag

(Rose is the baby, right ? Assuming !)

[zombiepatch]

started playing rimworld (late to the party) buuut yeag here are some of my girlies ✌ outfits were a huge shrug, i just wanted to get their vibes down

[lesbianfakir]

Ok, you asked people to ask about your Skyrim PC.

I do not know Skyrim at all.

Who in the world is your Skyrim pc?

Yayyyy thank you I get to infodump! I’m going to keep away from going to lore heavy so ppl who haven’t played Skyrim can understand.

My girlie, Lothiri, belongs to a race of elves that went extinct thousands of years ago. She was frozen in time for about 5 thousand years (according to the lore I think??) and when she finally does wake up everyone she’s every known and loved is dead and her homeland has been completely taken over by the people who drove her race to extinction. She looks for signs of survivors for a while, eventually giving up and becoming super jaded and misanthropic.

So roughly 35 years pass (she’s an elf she lives a long time) and the events of Skyrim kickstart her on a quest where she’s the only person who can save the world (this is just base Skyrim, you play as a Chosen One(TM)). Only problem? She fucking hates everyone and hopes they all die.

Anyways her story is about falling back in love with the world and finding reasons to live again. She makes some friends and while she can’t bring herself to care about the world as a whole she doesn’t want her friends to die if the world ends and okay maybe sooooooome people don’t deserve to die and….

Yeag. I wanted a character who functioned as a story about severe loss/depression + starting over. I took a lil inspo from dungeon meshi in that most of her friends are human and she will outlive them which terrifies her. A big part of her arc is learning to still look for the good in life after loss, but also I’m SAD because her partner is literally planning to spend their entire lives together and I’m like babygirl…she’s an elf… you’re a human….

She started as the party healer, ended up dating the party tank, and then accidentally became so OP she can be a healer OR a tank these days (she cares a lot about her squishy friends and tries to draw the fire off of them)

[roboyomo]

i was gonna reblog more but. poast limit. so more questions for you

WHAT are their favorite colors. and whats yours also

YUEIEHRHDH I LOVE THE AMOUNT OF OC ASKS I AM GETTING!!! MORE BEASTIESSSS

okay so. 35 beasts and all their favorite colors let's go ^_^

Yaku - Red. Red. 'tis the most fun color to him :] and also purple because that's the color that connects him to amor and apollo

Amor - well. He likes all of them. But orange is his favorite. ^_^ and again purple because the connection

Apollo - i don't think he loves any other color besides green. He is geen :) and purple. The same connection with the rest of the trio

Xu An, Maude, Yi Ha-neul, Aileth, Nemesis and Agatha - extreme enjoyers of shades of blue. It is just Blue and Teal

Yi Ae-ra, Kamaria & Inzhu, Liliosa, Rina - enjoyers of pink ^_^ all shades, none excluded. Yeag

Aridam and Tao Yuqi - they're ourple. queue the cheering !!!!🎉🎉 (both also like teal)

Arai, "Inspiration", Achlys, Nahara, Corrata - Nothing. They are beyond favorite colors. Not in a nice way

Kenix and Ken - both very much enjoy shades of yellow. But besides yellow, Kenix also prefers more muted versions of colors and Ken enjoys pastel stuff because they are blinded by bright ass colors ^_^

Azrael - That is a guy that very much enjoys burgundy and teal. And green. He is quite simple because that's literally the colors of his outfit

Sora/Artemis - BABY PINK AND BABY BLUE!!!! YIPPEEEEEE ^w^ !!

Eda - ONLY GREEN. LIGHT GREEN IN SPECIFIC. She is A simple girlie

Yakov - an orange and blue combo kind of guy yipppeeeee \o/ !!!

Yuriy - He opts for either black & white or green. I don't think he has a concrete fave color,,,,

Ruby - Also really loves red and purple!! And also blues ^_^

Ephai - Golden colors. Yeag idk man

Alionora - GREEEEEEEEEEN !!!!!

Jef - little boy likes orange :] little tiny guy ^_^

Alaya - She has No favorites she loves them all equally,,,,,

B7E - LOVES ANY COLOR AND IT MUST BE BRIGHT. WALKING RAINBOW OF A FUNNY

Rosemary - She enjoy rose gold the most like just this shade in specific ^<^

[kuromi-hoemie]

had a wholesome encounter with this cholo n chola siblings where the sis flagged me down omw out the dispensary to ask if i had a lighter she could use n then the brother came out n was like oh where did u find this lovely lady and she said something abt asking me omw out but used her. and then he said somethn like thanks man. ma'am. person. and then they had a lil back n forth before she asked me what i identify as n said im a trans girlie and she was like “SEE!! i knew 😏” and he was like aye i did too im trying i didnt know that's why i said person 😹

then the person working inside asked them not to smoke on the property and the brother said something n other dude said to never come back aksjak. sharing my lighter with the foos but shaking my head the entire time so they know i don't agree with that 🙈 but they were fun and really nice.

I've missed being around foos sm since i left home and tonight's lil encounter makes me feel like visiting back home as a trans girl would be rly fun ‹: it'd also be kind of funny running into lesbians who liked me For Some Reason back then like oh yeag hii lmao.

[lepidopteragirl]

"hey girlies did u know that. umm. u can get what u want but it’s never enough" Just!!! wants to make sure youre alright lmao ive followed you for a While and i like sending little check-up anon messages and. i do not know simply asks if you are!!! okay

oh ! yeag that’s a fall out boy lyric so do w that whag u will

[lunatic-fandom-space]

I wasnt gonna bring this up but since the game wont stop bringing it up id like to ask the obey me girlies how you feel about the incestious shit. like, do you own it like "yeag we're the Incest Fandom 👍" or do you just kinda ignore all of That black butler fandom-style

[samuelroukin]

Never knew not feminising one half of a m/m ship is such a hot take lol.

Though I'm straddling (heh) that line, because I love when they have a single girly feature that only enhances their masculinity. Like Ghost going wild for Soap in a kilt (skirt - you wrote that!). Or guys who can pull off a guyliner and not look like a girl for a second. Sometimes just using the word tits is enough.

it's not that deep lol but i don't think having a girly feature is feminising at all tbh but i can (clearly) appreciate that too, though for me it's not so much putting soap in a kilt bc they're not fem, but like talking about his eyelashes

⬆️ exactly

also,,, yeag

[rowan-guerrins]

9 fandom peeps to get to know better:

thanks @dragonagelesbian for tagging me! i am so eept rn so i have,,,, no idea how coherent this’ll be lol

3 ships you like: gigolas (gimli and legolas; i refuse to use any ship name other than the most ridiculous one lmao) (they invented love methinks); nerdanel x fëanor (their love and epic divorce compel me… rotating them in my brain like The Cube); and bagginshield (idiots 🫶). i like (love, even) many ships akfkskf but right now im in my tolkien era (again.) so uhhh yeah. all tolkien ships here. shoutout to dinkus tho.

first ship ever: literally aragorn and arwen. i was obsessed with them and wanted them to be my parents. in after-school daycare i would sit in front of a whiteboard and draw a big ole castle and draw out my elaborate fantasy role play i had w a friend in which i WAS their child. this brainrot has been with me for as long as i can remember i inherited it i will live forever with it. incurable disease (liking tolkien) haver.

last song you heard: squints. well earlier i was SINGING many songs from the broadway beauty and the beast musical but that was acapella so that doesn’t count. it’s uhh. (opens spotify). well i’m halfway through doom days by bastille (doom days by bastille my beloved). so that. (unless you do count what i was singing for some reason. in which case. uhhhh. if i can’t love her. THEE beauty and the beast song of all time. helloooooo is this thing on do you hear me? do you understand? it’s the musical song of all time to me actually. it’s so good. listen to it. evermore wants what she has.)

favorite childhood book: uhhh so i only remember really early childhood and later childhood. i know i had other favorites between like 5-8 or so. but you’re getting what i can remember ajdjwjd. as a YOUNG kid i loved “goodnight moon”. the kids book of all time. and in later childhood, outside of my obsession with the warrior cats franchise (a given), i really loved the inheritance cycle books. i need to reread them so bad SO BAD. also i need to get the illustrated edition of eragon. shakes.

currently reading: “the fellowship of the ring”. don’t look atme. don’t— look. look. when i said it’s my tolkien girlie era again. well. yeah. anyway. i am. 97-98% thru it so probably it will change to two towers. also TECHNICALLY. i am still. technically. reading “carmilla” (she’s somewhere in my room but i don’t know where oops). and also. technically. “the silmarillion” (LOOK.), because i need to actually read it all the way thru for once and not just skip to the bits about my favoritest worst guys alive who are hated by god and also do war crimes but they’re funny. so it’s. look. it. it’s okay. hey look at me. the murder is not a big deal. it’s all so catholic here. i’m more worried about that.

currently watching: stares into the distance. it’s been so long since i’ve watched anything. at least TV/movie-wise. i watch a simmer’s streams and youtube vids is that anything? no…. naur…. i think the last. thing i watched was. uh. an episode of ATLA.

currently consuming: BALDURS GATE THREE. i am obsessed w my tav rn. i restarted my playthru bc i wanted to good recruit minthara bc i feel like she’d have a crunchy dynamic w my tav, lleuad. somehow less crunchy than i expected but we just got her so who’s to say. anyway. shakking,,,, look at Them. (talking to one of the besties.)

currently craving: japanese curry……… mmmm. with. chicken katsu. yeag

tagging: open tag bc actual tagging always gives me anxiety lmao. if you want to do this, consider yourself tagged!