#gilinsky imagine

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y/n & j | hurt.

6 months postpartum

- the day -

It was about 6 PM when he came home and I told him I needed to speak with him.

Are you okay?” He asked me.

“Yes” I tell him, knowing I’m not. My stomach is turning, my face is hot and I don’t know how to tell my husband that I know he is having an affair and I am about to leave him.

I don’t want to. At all. I love this man with everything in me. We have been through different stages of life together, watched each-other become parents, started our careers, and there’s not a day since we met that we’ve spent apart. He’s my world. My child’s father. My best friend and I can’t remember life without him. How can I leave him?

But also, how could he step out on me? On us? How could he look another woman in the eye knowing it’s not me and tell her things that only he should tell me and treat her a way he should only treat me. He made a commitment for the rest of his life to me, to us.

I can’t even think about looking at another man, let alone sleeping with one. The thought of hurting my husband makes me want to throw up.

My thoughts are interrupted by our son waking up so I bury my feelings and my thoughts because I have to be okay, I can’t let my kid see me not okay, isn’t that what being a mother is all about?

We sit on the couch and I ask my husband to join me.

My face is so hot and my stomach is doing backflips and I just want to cry looking at this man. I love him so much, how could he do this to me? But do I even want to know?

“Did you cheat on me?” I just flat out say it. What’s the point of wasting time? If I look at him any longer I’ll keep remembering how much I love him and then I’ll just give in, I know I will.

He looked shocked that I just asked like that, then he stared at me in my eyes for about 1 minute and immediately put his head down.

My heart sank. I let out a small sigh, looked down at my kid and there was the tears. I knew. He told me all I needed to know without saying a single wrong.

I had so much I wanted to say but did he deserve for me to say anything? 10 years of marriage so I felt that I deserved to speak and I needed an explanation but I didn’t want to think about it anymore. I didn’t want to think about my husband with another woman. Kissing, touching, being intimate with another woman that’s not me, his wife.

My eyes felt so low but I still looked up at him. He locked eyes with me and suddenly I saw a different person, I didn’t know him.

“I love you” he said to me, his voice choking up.

Why does it hurt me to see him hurting and upset? But I don’t know why, He hurt me. He betrayed me.

“I have so much to say and even though I don’t think I should be doing the talking, I also don’t want to hear you explain it to me because that will hurt me even more” I say. I wanted to ask you do you love me? Did our family mean anything to you? How could you ever look at someone the way you are only supposed to look at me and then come home to me? I wanted to ask that but I know you will tell me that you love me, our family means everything to you and that the affair was nothing to you and that it will never happen again but I know that it is not the truth because If it was you would never be able to do this to me” I tell him while crying. I didn’t want to cry but how could I not?

“I love you” he repeats while looking at me. “I’m sorry, I never wanted this for our son, we always said together forever and that he would see that.”

“His dad stepped out.” I bluntly say.

He wipes his face. There goes the tears. Now I’m getting angry, how are you crying when you broke our family apart?

I look at him and I can tell he is about to say something.

“You will always be the woman that was made for me. You gave me my son, a family and a new life. Some men dream about having the life I have, some men would kill for it and I took it for granted. I knew what I was doing and I didn’t stop it, I knew my family was at home and I continued it and I knew it would hurt you and a part of me didn’t care but also knew I would lose my family so I tried to hide it. “ he says.

Ouch. It hurts so bad to hear him say this but I also know it’s the truth.

“ Thank you for your honesty. I just don’t understand” I reply. We were fine one day. What did I do? What changed?

“Don-“ he tried to speak.

“What did I do to make you fall out of love with me? To make you not care about us? It’s not just me you should’ve thought about. We brought a child into this world and you should’ve thought about him, you didn’t think about him!” I cried.

“Stop blaming yourself.” He tried to move closer to me but I put a hand up to stop him.

“No. Don’t do that. You’re wrong.” I say.

He moves back to his original spot on the couch.

“Are you leaving?” He asks me. “Taking him with you?”

I look down at my son and my heart hurt. He doesn’t deserve this. He deserves for us to be a happy family and I can’t even look at my husband because I never wanted this, I don’t want our family to not be together every day but I can’t stay here, it won’t be the same.

“Yes” I tell him softly. “You know I don’t want you to feel like I am taking him from you.”

“You are, I don’t want to be without him or you.” He sits up.

“I have no choice. We talked about this before and we had a solution we both agreed on so it is not my fault you forgot about that when you decided you didn’t care to keep your family anymore.” I sharply tell him.

“Stay.” he tells me.

“No.”

“I love you.” He puts his head in his hands. “I love you.” He repeats with his head down.

“No.”

“You want to take my kid and figure it out but I don’t want to be without you.”

“Stop.” I say.

“You’re begging me to stay after you cheated on me. You’re selfish. You are still not thinking about me or our son. You were here but not here. You didn’t treat us like you loved us or wanted a family but here you are acting like you are going to miss us so bad and we aren’t even gone yet. It’s not easy for me to leave, it’s so fucking hard to look you in the eye, tell you we’re leaving and come to terms with it because I was present, I always thought about you and our kid. I don’t care for your apology because you haven’t said much about you cheating, just begging me to stay. Stop.” I say to him.

“How did you find out?” He asked me softly.

“I always knew.” I tell him. “I always knew because I was always alone, slept alone, woke up alone, watched our son grow alone, and ate dinner alone. I shouldn’t be alone if I have a husband so where is my husband? I knew right away. For the sake of our family, I always wanted to get it out of my head but the signs were all there.”

“I’m sorry for hurting you and I’m sorry I am the reason we are like this.” He tells me.

“Tell that to him.” I say to him as I stand up with our son and head to the bedroom.

[groovyzombiellama]

Imagine: You and Jack subtweeting about each other, and the fans strating to catch on. You are an upcoming singer :)

(Please don’t mind the mixed up dates, I was too lazy to fix every single one, and also the rose is missing from Jack’s tweet about it feeling right, but other than that, I hope you like this little attempt of mine to make one of these :) PS There is too many photos, so some are just added in where you would write, so not all of them are clickable, sorry ) 🌹

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Imagine these two dorks being you best friends since birth

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March 14th: Jadison

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shawn mendes reading thirst tweets will forever be the funniest thing ever

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Stitches

Request: Can I have one where ur Jack's little sis (not that young tho) and u were swimming or something with everyone somewhere and u hit ur head or something and they have to carry you out and u get stitches !!

Word Count: 604

Pairing: Jack Gilinsky X Reader

Y/N’s P.O.V

I rolled my eyes as the guys played basketball obnoxiously loud, “what are we gonna do with them Zan?” I asked leaning my face down by the dog, he licked my cheek making me laugh. I watched my brother get the ball from Johnson, only to end falling on his ass, good one. 

I smiled, sliding into the pool, instantly feeling cooler since I was no longer having the sun beating down on me. I dipped my head back in the water, making my hair get wet and stay slicked back. “Be careful.” Jack called, making me roll my eyes and my face warm up. “I’m fourteen, I can swim perfectly fine on my own.” I responded, laughing under my breath as he grew annoyed with my response. 

I went underneath the water, easily swimming to the other side of the pool, popping up I saw Zan watching me excitedly, crazy dog, but I love him. I continued doing this for a while, enjoying the feeling of the water rushing passed me.

I let out a sigh of content as I popped up out of the water, catching up on my air since I was under for a while. “Zan!” I shrieked as he jumped in, practically landing on top of me, making me move to the side, resulting in me smacking the side of my head on the pool edge. 

I gripped the edge of the pool as I felt light headed for a moment, “Jesus, Y/N!” Jack practically jumped in the pool, along with Hayes who was getting Zan out of the way. “Are you okay?” Jack asked, grabbing my arms as I let go of the pool edge, I gripped onto him and winced. “Shit, you’re bleeding.” He mumbled and I widened my eyes, trying to reach up to touch my head. “No.” He pulled my hand back down, gently tugging me along with him to get out of the pool. 

“I can get out on my own.” I pulled myself out of his grip, trying to walk up the steps but I almost fell over, Johnson grabbed my arms, steadying me as I got out of the water. Aside from my brother, he was the one I trusted the most here. “It doesn’t look too bad.” Johnson mumbled, trying to make me feel better as Sammy put a towel over my shoulders. “Ha-ha.” I remarked to the blonde who was still holding onto me as Jack dried himself off quickly. 

“Come on.” Jack mumbled, lifting me up as we went to the car, “am I going to need stitches?” I asked nervously, surprised I haven’t cried yet, considering my head hurt like a mother effer. “Probably.” He answered honestly, tightening his hold on me when I wrapped my arms around his neck tighter. “I’m scared.” I admitted quietly, so no one else would hear. 

“It’s gonna be fine.” He assured me, setting me down so I could get in the car. 

***

I squeezed the hell out of Jack’s hand every time the doctor started putting in another stitch, “almost done.” The nurse smiled, and I just stayed still, obviously not being able to move my head. I widened my eyes at Jack as they started putting in the last one, he mimicked my face, trying to entertain me, but it didn’t work very well. 

“Told you it would be fine.” Jack smiled, and for once I didn’t mind him babying me, it was the closest thing to comfort I was gonna get right now. I sighed as he kissed my forehead quickly, “you scared me so god damn bad.”

[fanfic-girlie]

First meetings

A/N: Hi, sorry I’ve been absent. Will try to write more during this quarantine, hope you are all taking care, I’m also working on a Harry Styles imagine. (:

   You weren’t much of an active person, and having your best friend almost graduating in Physics Education didn’t quite help. You were completely fine being your sedentary-self, until she decided you’d be her “subject of study” and dragged you to a gym, against your will, even though you tried to find many many excuses to not attend. She said she’d even pick you up and drop you off, with that being said, you had no other exit.

  Not so excited about your first day, you huffed putting on your sneakers as you heard a honk, announcing Helena’s soon arrival, you looked at yourself one last time in the mirror, feeling quite stupid, before making your way to the door. One of the many reasons you never liked practicing sports was the fact that you were too clumsy and didn’t feel so comfortable running. And also the fact that  you were always left out, being the last one to be picked when choosing teams and that sort of things.

“You’re early… sadly” you said, putting your seatbelt on.

“Ha-ha, very funny” Helena gave you a side eye “you know, you just gotta give it a chance, once you release some endorphine you’ll fell better. Besides, it’s only going to be 6 months.”

“SI- SIX MONTHS? You’re kidding, right? I did NOT sign up for this” you said almost choking.

“Forgot to mention” she mumbled “it’s just because we’re gonna start seeing more results around the 4th month, maybe before if you go on a diet”

You groaned, rolling your eyes. You had already arrived at the gym, which was kind of close to your house, amused you had never seen it before. Although you never made a lot of effort to step foot outside of the house anyway.

“I’m sure you’re going to like it here, it has a nice ambiance and lots of young people” Helena said, as she went on babbling about the gym.

“Oh, great. Just what I like” you mumbled.

  30 minutes in and she had already managed to kill you. You found yourself trying to hide between benches and in front of a mirror, paying more attention to the news as you normally would, until something caught your attention on the mirror. Well, not something, someone. None other than the one and only. Jack Gilinsky. Working out. Just 2 feet away from you. Looking handsome. As always.

  You were shocked, that man had been your childhood crush, you still listen to his music to this day, goddamnit. Yet, here you were looking ridiculous, with your hair all over the place and your face as red as a tomato. Apparently, you had been staring too much, catching his attention, when you realized he was looking at you through the mirror, you turned your gaze to the TV again, feeling your face heat even more.

“Well here you are, I’ve been looking everywhere for you” Helena said, giving you a water bottle “oh, hey Jack, ‘sup?”

  Widening your eyes at her, it didn’t took her too long to get what was going on, she always knew about your little crush.

“This is Y/N, she’s my subject of study, remember I told you? Ouch, she’s also my best friend.” She frowned at you when you pinched her.

“Yeah, I remember you didn’t let me be your subject” he chuckled, and you gave her an ugly look “Nice to meet you, Y/N. I’m Jack”.

“I know you” you blurted out, instantly turning red again “how come he couldn’t be your subject of study?” you turned your attention to your friend, trying to hide your face.

“I wanted to start from the beginning, I’ve been working with Jack for too long now” she said shaking her head.

“Well, hope to see you around more, Y/N” he said winking and getting ready to resume his work out.

“Uh, y-you too” you said, completely shocked. Turning to your friend and pulling her with you, you mouthed “WHAT”.

“How come you never told me he works out here?” you asked still shocked “this cannot be happening, am I dreaming?”

“If I told you that, would you’ve come sooner?” she asked laughing.

“Probably not, but now I definitively want to keep coming” you said, making you both laugh.

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Anyone

Early mornings

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another jack g smut plz !!!

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Jadison 2019.

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the jack gillinsky / madison beer drama was so iconic

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Sammy

Apologies

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Masterlist

David Dobrik

I Love You

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Eye to Eye

Love All Your Curves

Under The Mistletoe

Fell For You

Wrong One, Right Time Part 1 Part 2

Fall Together Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6

Ethan Dolan

Ex Husband

Excuse Me

Eleven Blocks

Jack Gilinsky

Don’t Say Those Words

Calum Hood

Loneliness

Michael Clifford

In Love With The Devil

Face Behind The Art

Harry Styles

Pebbles on the Window

Louis Tomlinson

She’s The Girl You Marry