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Judges keep asking for my phone number so they can hit me up and access my largehuge brains and writing skills. This is the second time in a damn month that I've been asked to come to oral argument on a case and then advise the panel afterward/help with their opinion. I have! Made a name for myself!
#kidk says stuff#work#i am extra super proud of that too bc it means people think of me not just as 'oh that's Judge Lastname's kid'#they wouldn't come to me specifically and of their own choice if i hadn't proven repeatedly that i am GOOD at this#i have a name for MYSELF that isn't just Lastname it's FIRSTNAME Lastname--MY name!!#oh you know spending the day fielding research questions from one of the highest-up judges in the state#getting praised and called helpful#justlawyerthings
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"Jason was the happy robin" this, "jason was the angry robin" that. Let's all be fully honest here Jason was the lonely robin
#It gets worse the more i think about it aiguaoughhh#they pretty much retconned the people he was close to before the crisis. he only interacts with dick like once or twice#ive never seen him with barbara#he had no team#in terms of school he had rena(?) and then 3 friends that show up in an annual and never again#and obviously with the whole secret identity it hardly can be a close friendship. esp with how little theyre shown#in terms of super friends he had Danny and Kid Devil. which. one is mentioned off hand and theyre never seen together#and the other is from a short story and never brought up again#alfred has his praises sung but we never really see him connect with jay#all he had was BRUCE. and the only way to ever be with bruce is to be robin#is it really any wonder he chased after his mother? is it any wonder who chose to trust someone he hardly knew?#dc liveblog#jason todd#i feel so bad for him all the time for forever#ive just started reading comics after his death but before his resurrection. the hallucination jason era#and its seems to be shaping up to be with him written as the angry robin who never listened#which i Know is because of the writers. but in universe? it just feels like jason wasnt understood or known at all#doylist vs watsonian moment as they say#dc comics#batman comics#and he became a symbol of failure to batman So Quickly. not a memory but a reminder#and every trophy from his time as robin was taken out of the batcave. and every moment as jason was removed from (at least) bruces room#he was on call/on a list as a backup titan if they needed help but he wasnt With them. they teamed up twice#i cant remember if he meant it towards blood specifically or in general rn but he fully admitted to not being good/experienced enough#they didn't really know him and he didn't really know them#wait fuck was rena all pre-crisis. devastating. he stopped going on patrols n being robin for awhile when she was his gf#of course by then he was already A Hero who cant fully ignore how he can help so he eventually was like yeah we should stop a little#obviously there was that catwoman arc going on and i feel writers just liked keeping him away alot. but ough. he was so quick to stop when#there was someone There. and robin didn't have ti feel like all he had#anyway crisis got rid of her im sure. like harvey. when does 'pre and post crisis' actually start bc its not at the crisis its issues after
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Has anyone talked about how each member of the Genius Society represents the over reliance on the belief of intelligence but not the act of intelligence?
#like they mostly take up resources and are pseudo-celebrities more than they do useful things#They act more as villains over consuming resources that could be put to better use#If anything more people should hate them#In universe not like as characters#but just like in real life - people don't notice how awful they actually are#I think at one point it's stated that Ruan Mei turned a desert planet into a lush jungle or something?#I cannot emphasize enough -- she fucked over that ecosystem. That was fucked up of her. She killed everything.#And people praised her for it! They don't care about science. They care about the prestige. She's famous. Nous chose *her*#Herta doesn't even do her own work. Nothing would get done if it wasn't for all of her assistants.#Screwllum is god-king of his own planet. I mean he also killed a god-king but you can't go around replacing one with yourself#Which is what makes Ratio so fun. He notices and calls them out.#but also in a way where it's hard to tell if there's jealousy involved or not.#And his version of intelligence is helpful. He gives back to his community. He cares about people first even if they annoy him.#The only Society members I respect are Stephen (baby); the one philanthropist (thin ice); the spider (awesome);#and the serial killer who kills other members who I strongly suspect to be Herta but that's another conversation entirely#Anyway I just think it's odd that they're an obvious analogy for how people think there is such as thing as “intelligence”#that can be declared by some all-knowing all-seeing creature and everyone else is “worthless” by comparison#to even be said as much by a character in the game#and the audience still thinks they're supposed to be smart.#Nous was created by an egotistical man who was himself first recognized by his own biased judging algorithm#The Genius Society isn't the epitome of intelligence they are Silicon Valley#like the parody is so fucking on point there are literal jokes in game if you pay attention
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i am cringe but i am in fact free always remember that
#txt#do you know what its instead of like you know making a forsblad primer like i wanted to#but a doc filled with transcripts dates and hyperlinks of forsblad things#do you know what its like scrubbing through pressers and articles andlooking over and going oh why is the doc 7 pages long now what happene#how did we get here what i am doing#its called this is gonna be my little bible i can refer to for the most insane quotes youve heard in your life#learning that ekky had a thing for forsys “footspeed”#because he brought that up for a solid week#like ooooo this new pairing with forsy hes so fast the way he skates is insane his footspeed (swoon)#like how did we go from footspeed to like 2 years later calling him a greek god#like theres such a jump between 2223 and 2324 i cant even begin to describe it#its like “footspeed and building chemistry and im a compliment to his speed and wow hes so fast and good”#to “ASK HIM TO TAKE HIS SHIRT OFF HES A GREEK GOD HES PERFECT”#also bonkers to see how aloof forsy is to our beat reporting back what ekky is praising him on last season#and now he giggles like a school girl like wh#i think its particularly bonkers because ekkys obsession with forsy and his shirt off happen on media day in 2223#and then he goes on about how fast forsy is#like im still scrubbing through stuff im sure theres more mentions of shirtless forsy that season#theres just a lot more of it in 2324 like a LOT more#ramblings of a mad man jfc send help#like why are we here to what ends...#i need to be put down like a dog
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do you have any thoughts on the story of abraham and isaac? my parents talk about it and praise abraham for being willing to kill his son which..... scares me to say the least, and i'd love to hear your perspective as someone who seems more well-adjusted
Where I am now, it disgusts me more than anything. The interpretation of "I'm willing to sacrifice your life if I was told to" feels like the step before "I put you into this world and I can take you out of it." It's entitlement to a child, who is an independent individual, just because they are dependent on you for survival. I prefer the interpretation of understanding the actions you're taking and the reasons why (like how there's multiple religions that don't eat pork because it was so unsafe to eat at the time), especially if it's at someone else's expense.
Where I was in the thick of it all, it gave me morbid comfort that scares me now. I had fantasies of being a martyr for the church and the idea of being the next Isaac was just so appealing. Being a hand-selected sacrifice chosen by the Good Lord Himself? Sign me the fuck up, babey!
I think if I admitted that to my family, they'd be horrified.
It's another one of those stories or beliefs where I think the majority of christians just regurgitate what they've heard. It's a point of pride and devotion, but there's no personal reflection or cross-cultural awareness of it. Lean not unto your own understanding and whatnot. It's the potential that scares me the most, like the Quiverfull movement with the Duggars or Turpins. I'm sure there's stories now, but I can't remember them off the top of my head
(Also I will be telling my therapist someone on Tumblr called me "more well-adjusted" thank you anon)
#My therapist has called me 'surprisingly well-adjusted' before#He has since retracted that title and given it back multiple times#I don't know if you relate more to the 'Scared of my parents for praising that' or the 'Scared that I was okay with that' part#maybe both#either way the cycle ends here with you#No more bible quips and quotes that harm you and others. You find your own understanding and eventually it feels nice#It doesn't at first I will admit that. At first it feels like you're gonna go to Hell Right Here Right Now#But eventually you learn to trust yourself. It's a slow process. I've been in therapy for a good 6-7 years now#But one day you wake up and notice life feels more authentic. You feel like your values matter (and they actually do!)#And again it's slow. It's in bits and piece and back and forth. My worst habit is switching something from religious to moral#I highly recommend this type of therapy called ACT it's a CBT subtype#I'm usually not a fan of cbt so u know it helps if I recommend a subtype of it#CBT shit is so cheap I got a workbook from the library#this isnt relevant to the post but#my cat is trying to steal my burger king rn#it gets better (I have a cat) but progress isn't linear (eating burger king)#ex christian#religious trauma#anon tag
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so... exciting announcement... i was hired to work on Reality Resort as a storyboard artist!
for those of you who haven't heard, Reality Resort is a Total Drama-inspired show on YouTube, produced by Cove and animated by Odd Nation Cartoons. its pilot episode just dropped a few hours ago!
to be clear, i didn't contribute at all to the first episode-- i was only hired about a week ago to contribute on episode 2 and beyond. speaking of, it'll be a lot easier for us to make episode 2 and beyond with more support for the show, so please consider checking out the pilot if the show sounds up your ally. the team is super cool and welcoming, and i've had a ton of fun with what i've worked on so far.
as for this blog, given that i'm now part of the show's staff, i won't be making any sorts of speculative content about Reality Resort or any of the other planned shows in the Reality Gauntlet. this is obviously because i know things the average viewer doesn't, and because i wouldn't want anything i was genuinely blindly speculating on to be interpreted as fact/a hint. however, Disventure Camp content (as well as all of the usual stuff) will continue as normal! (other than that i now have a bit less free time :,) )
anyways, i hope any of you who do decide to check it out will enjoy! as Cove has said in the comments, the first episode isn't perfect, and there are still plenty of quirks to iron out in the future. but, i think that the future of the show is looking bright, and i and the rest of the team appreciate any support you're willing to give. :)
#not going to main tag this since i'll probably post the art separately later for anyone who wants to rb without all my personal stuff#also to be entirely transparent i do want to note that i am now (in a sense) coworkers with multiple members of the disventure camp staff#because there are several cross over voice actors as well as some writers and artists#(i have talked to some of them over a discord call and they are all super cool!)#i don't want to let knowing these people irl stop me from giving my honest thoughts on the show#because i believe that honest constructive criticism helps both creatives in fandom and the creators of the show grow#and because i don't want anyone to think that the only reason why i would praise the show is because i don't want my peers mad at me#HOWEVER i'm sure i will be inherently biased by getting to know some crew members on a more personal level#which may soften my critiques. but also it was never my goal to be outright mean to anyone in the first place#and i sincerely hope i haven't ever done that in any of my posts about anything (if so i apologize)#okay ramble over. yay premiere!
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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.
#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it#asmr#audio roleplay#rp audio stuff#redacted audio#anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud#and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators#but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it#which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium#like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform#and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication#and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements#like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh#tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that#and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno#i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it#bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it#this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable#but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself#feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything#who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl#anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now#actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon#u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.
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alright, so is kuukou being a little shit about manners to bum a free drink off of hitoya???? probably lmao but at least it’s a practice he does himself 😌😌😌
#vee queued to fill the void#and then hitoya slams a cup of water down for him and kuukou calls him stingy they are so funny lmao#but lmao i don’t ever recall him offering anything to anyone when people come around in either canon or arb#like when ichiro and sasara came by during the above event it was late and they already ate#plus he helped set up their futons but not any actual beverages or food lol#and then when sasara came around again for that movie kuukou quickly used sasara to get out of doing chores so no drinks there lol#but he’s gotten on both jyushi and hitoya for not giving him drinks and food for being their guest LOL#here’s some fun arb bat continuity lol during that posse bat hypquest event when jyushi invites kuukou and hitoya over#jyushi has refreshments already ready and kuukou praised him for it lmao#they’ve gotten to know each other’s quirks y’all they’ve bonded they’re family 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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Ah, for the people who have blocked me bc I am simply (and reasonably) asking for proof of the validity of wildly circulated misinformation based on nothing but hearsay that is actively damaging hurricane relief efforts, and stirring even greater division among our fellow citizens:
I sincerely hope you have done so for reasons of not discoursing on the internet with a stranger in a way that for you is detrimental to your mental health, and not bc you refuse to acknowledge and discuss the possibility that you might be wrong.
One thing is very healthy, the other is very dangerous and sad.
#if you want a conspiracy about all this go read what#historian and political journalist heather cox richardson has been writing lately#biden didnt take from fema to give to immigration funds but trump did with ssp#he was also praised by republicans for his quick response to the disaster (and i can attest personally to#previous presidents' less than stellar or quick response to at least one disaster i lived through#we didnt call it a conspiracy then we called it bureaucratic red tape)#anyways a certain historic authoritarian was also fond of flooding the public with such huge amounts of misinformation#that people became too exhausted trying to sort through the lies to find the truth and **gave up** bc they couldn't stop the mass amounts of#lies from winning#you can also see locals and pastors pleading with people to stop spreading misinformation as trying to respond to it#is exhausting their energy when they are working 12hr days trying to help people and cannot afford to fight infowars#if you want a conspiracy it's definitely there#but it's one against democracy and against truth#and i can understand why people got exhausted trying to fight against this crap even before the age of information#anyways i got blocked what if i get hatey anons next simply bc i said 'do you know the specifics of these claims?'#and my lil blog doesnt reach far these days (thank heaven)#but i still have not had a single person supply actual evidence#just more of the same baseless claims made by media influencers who have something to gain#and they sprinkle in just enough truth (my family member's house flooded and neighbors helped them)#that the big lie (therefore the government is doing nothing and hates citizens) gets embraced wholeheartedly#literally the facts are there for anyone to look at#(or the lack of evidence of wrongdoing in this case)#like i don't love our government but whatever happened to innocent until proven guiltym#why find out that your opponent may not have done you dirty for once#when instead you can presuppose their guilt and lynchmob any dissenters for free#i love humans as individuals#i am terrified of humans in large groups who get angry bc someone told them something that fit their suspicions#(suspicions which have also been fed for years by massive heaping webs of lies#and often by foreign parties who would love to see american democracy crash and burn)#i wish i knew who to aim this rant at
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Reminder that i do not have a blocklist, if i don’t like you (for really whatever reason) i will block you lol
#This goes for all the marvel stans that are praising and defending marvel for its choices on (again) whitewashing Doctor doom#This goes for Romani who are Radfems and radfems in general. Not caring about our trans sisters and brothers is fucking stupid#This goes for Zionists and anyone who call the death of literally children and men and women deserved#This goes all those voting third party or not at all. We can not help those in need of you don’t put on your gas mask first#And literally anyone else#i just don’t like you. And i don’t really need a reason to either#This also goes for Harry Potter fans you’re willing to put your money in a radfems pocket. that’s gross#This goes for proshippers as well. Fiction DOES affect reality (ever hear about that one movie that framed the KKK as heros?)#^ honestly just go fuck yourselves too#rambly rambly ramblie loo#very important posts#Forgot to add but this also goes for people using this all the hate or discriminate against or on Jewish people. Get the fuck out of here
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wow... the sexism i'm seeing towards kamala harris right now is really messed up, guys. i just want to say, as a man, that i'm not like that. and i apologize on behalf of all of those other men, who are bad (not like me, who is good). actually, they aren't even really men. real men would never do that. and yeah, i mean. i'm not going to say anything when my male friends "joke" about women being inferior to men, but please know that i'm silently disagreeing in my head. even if i also laugh along, i disagree and i'm not really like that. anyways. i just wanted to remind everyone that not all men are like that. can someone please tell me that i'm a good person now?
#fr there is nothing less helpful than some random ass man coming in to be like omg i apologize on behalf of all men#so what do you think the point of an apology is? genuine question#someone who is proud of their behavior and do not want to apologize... what is the point of 'apologizing' for them?#genuinely. i do not understand.#it's like. i get that you want to separate yourself from people you view as 'bad'.#but you can do that by. being better. and actually doing good things. not just saying 'i wouldn't do that bad thing'#'i would just sit silently by and watch other people do that bad thing. praise me'#like the bar truly is in hell.#call out the men that ARE being bad. PUSH BACK#sorry that the reality of patriarchy is uncomfortable for you#guess what? it's a lot more uncomfortable for women.#anyways there's a reason these men are always saying this shit to women and not men lmfao#like my man... tell your friends that. idgaf#like i wouldn't care if you slipped on a mossy rock and drowned in the river honestly
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i totally get why LfW isn’t covering the novels (aside from that early bit of Study in Scarlet) but it does kill me a little that we didn’t do Hound at some point because like. man.
'Well, I am glad from my heart that you are here, for indeed the responsibility and the mystery were both becoming too much for my nerves. But how in the name of wonder did you come here, and what have you been doing? I thought that you were in Baker Street working out that case of blackmailing.'
'That was what I wished you to think.'
'Then you use me, and yet do not trust me!' I cried, with some bitterness. 'I think that I have deserved better at your hands, Holmes.'
'My dear fellow, you have been invaluable to me in this as in many other cases, and I beg that you will forgive me if I have seemed to play a trick upon you. In truth, it was partly for your own sake that I did it, and it was my appreciation of the danger which you ran which led me to come down and examine the matter for myself. […] As it is, I have been able to get about as I could not possibly have done had I been living at the Hall, and I remain an unknown factor in the business, ready to throw in all my weight at a critical moment.'
'But why keep me in the dark?'
'For you to know could not have helped us, and might possibly have led to my discovery. You would have wished to tell me something, or in your kindness you would have brought me out some comfort or other, and so an unnecessary risk would be run. […]
I was still rather raw over the deception which had been practised upon me, but the warmth of Holmes's praise drove my anger from my mind. I felt also in my heart that he was right in what he said, and that it was really best for our purpose that I should not have known that he was upon the moor.
'That's better,' said he, seeing the shadow rise from my face.
like. man. passages to have been published within a year or two of “Empty House,” huh
#sherlock holmes#HOUN#EMPT#it didn't really strike me the first god-knows-how-many times i read EMPT (or HOUN for that matter)#but at some point i was rereading the whole canon but misplaced Hound and so skipped right to the Return#and the reveal seemed so weirdly understated and quickly glossed over to the point it felt like half the conversation was missing?#and then my copy of Hound turned up again and i got to the reveal *there* and just had a moment of oh.#oh‚ *there* it is#that's why we don't get more about the deception or anything about watson feeling hurt or angry let alone holmes' explanation#or the two of them talking things out and all of it being okay again#because we don't need it in the Empty House because we already got that conversation#more or less#in Hound#also [slams fist on table] HOLMES SPENDS THIS ENTIRE CONVERSATION PRAISING AND THANKING WATSON#AND CALLING HIM INVALUABLE AND SAYING HE COULDN'T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT WATSON'S HELP DAMMIT#he refuses to stop emphasizing how important watson has been to the case until watson smiles!!!#and even then he brings it up again later in the conversation more than once!!!#YES i am still holding a grudge against The Hound of the Baskervilles (1939) dir. Sidney Lanfield NO i will not let this go
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And honestly, moving to a new city and getting called a slur by a prof for speaking in dialect within, like, a month will forever remain a beloved memory
#bc again it's either a slur or a term of endearment depending on the tone#and - in my esteemed opinion - he didn't sound like he was calling me a SLUR slur#but i did get taken aback for a moment like. HUH#and then just went home with 🥰🥰 on the mind idk i think it awoke smth in me /hj#it helps that it was added to praise btw HDBDBDBSHDJS
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dweebs
#yeah this ep holds up. its very small and sweet and i think it succeeds at what it sets out to do#expanding on my point abt gohs parents- i think it coullld have been fleshed out more bit i get why it wasnt#bc this is a very nuanced topic in a kids show and its hard to go abt it without the brevity it deserves so i think the smaller moments#and hints alongside a different storyline work well#but it also doesnt like demonize either party like the show acknowledges that its a shitty situation but everyone involved understands#like his parents feel bad that they cant be there for goh as much as they can and are glad hes improving now#and they acknowledge its not good for him and want to be better and they do what they can exactly#while goh is very clearly hurt but he doesnt strike me as in denial or anything when he praises his parents#its more like. when they call him it seems like hes going ‘’ah… we’re doing this again. but thats ok! theyre doing a good thing’’#like he understands its not something they can just drop easily#and he decides to try and help them and actually see them more by taking them dinner#and idk it resolves very sweetly like they manage to get out and they have a nice dinner altogether after all and they get to meet his frien#friends#also the screenshot is a cute parallel to goh swearing to look after ash for delia in episode 2#echoed voice#jn lb
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Kinda missing my aunt whom I used to chat on the phone for hours to and who praised me and wrote me into the stars but now is not speaking to my dad bcs he didn't reprimand me harshly for the sins of *checks notes* not picking up one call from her
#honestly I'd rather have surface lvl casual emotions with people that have strong roots#than getting praise and outpourings of affection from someone and then becoming the devil in their eyes for one misstep or not doing#everything exactly as they wanted#volatile affection like that is extremely exhausting#she also thinks my mom is the devil bcs my mom refused to let herself be insulted#like how demonic of her to not be there as a punching bag for someone who openly considers her the family doormat#call me a balkan man stereotype but u just don't touch my mom no matter how close we are#i really wish my aunt gets help that she sorely needs instead of using those close to her she percieves as 'weaker' as punching bags#personal
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i will never be mad at or blame my sister for the situation she has been forced into, but i will forever be frustrated with our family for the responsibility thats been shoved onto me
"he'll have a village" my ass, he's got two mentally ill siblings and a FIFO worker who are all in their 20's
#its such bullshit and its so fucking hard listening to everyone go one about how much they love him#and how lucky he is to have a big family#where the fuck are they then!!!! why is it my job!!!#and i am NOT complaining about helping my sister or looking after my nephew#if youve been here long enough you 1. have probably heard this rant before and 2. know how much i love them#but fuck#my sister's looking at getting a fulltime job which sucks for both of us#im going to have to handle more responsibility and she's barely going to see her fucking son#like fuck you (our family)#ive been helping my sister since i fucking graduated so ive never been able to get a job#i dont even know if im going to be able to leave for my birthday like i planned because im just going to be stressed and guilty#about leaving my sister to handle everything alone for a week#(<- she would yell at me for that thought but i cant help it)#and my fucking cousin has the fucking guts to tell me it 'breaks her heart' that my nephew is shy around her#that he doesnt recognise or know her; but she's following her happiness in the city#which yeah!! good for her!! but dont fucking complain to me about not knowing my nephew#when you wont even bother to call him on his birthday#dont praise me for how much i help my sister like it was ever an option for me#'your sister is so lucky to have tou' yeah cause she doesnt have anyone fucking else#shes not even comfortable letting our mum have him without me there bc mum just fucking sucks#i dont care if im not being fair i just had to hold back from fucking bawling when i got hit with how unfair it is#4 years ago i thought id be in university studying art and saving up to go to italy#and now im 20 and im practically about to become a fulltime parent#and if IM tired i cant even imagine what my sisters going through#yknow shes always wanted to be a stay-at-home mum?#she only got the first 6 months#im just filled with dread and frustration and a bitter sort of sadness#but at least my nephew is a really cool dude to hang out with#and hey i might get better at cooking ajdjs#vent
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