#get 8 hrs of sleep. but like :((( that’s my daddy

[ma-lark-ey]

Lark Liveblogs Literature: THE SUNSHINE COURT BABYYYYY LETS GO JEAN

to begin: THE COVER???

The fucking NARCISSUS/DAFFODIL. Stop stop stop. Nora stop. She said it wouldn’t be a sun but I WASNT READY.

RESILIENCE. FIRST BLOOM AT THE END OF WINTER. NEW BEGINNINGS AND REBIRTH.

warning in advance for how many reaction images will be in this post. Miss Nora Sakavic has a way of making me unable to verbalise how devistated I am so I turn to goofy photos.

Also, just so we’re all on the same page:

it’s 1:20 AM. My roommate IS asleep. I am fighting the demons (downloading this book) but i am winning (it is queued on my kindle)

ITS DOWNLOADED LETS GO

Okay so context is that my Kindle is at 10%

I tried to go to bed and read this in the morning but I am

SO NOW I HAVE FRANTICALLY FOUGHT A WAR (figured out how to get this book) AND I AM READY FOR BATTLE (to cry over Jean)

ONE, TWO, THREE, LETS GO BITCH!!

Also my kindle cord is too small for me to properly lay in bed so im literally about to lay on my stomach kicking my feet like a middle schooler WISH. ME. LUCK.

CHAPTER ONE:

oh we’re jumping right in okay. god. hi baby :((

OH. I am just adding onto my #1 Riko hater agenda right now.

“The golden rule— not where the public can see” DIE. LITERALLY DIE TETSUJI

“The lack of broken fingers this time” THIS TIME??? JEAN. JEAN.

im so.

RENEE!!!

“and he had wasted them texting Renee a heads-up.” Nora please we’re only four pages in bro

Renee i love you im marrying you please give me a kiss. Mwah Mwah Mwah. She said “Bitch. Lay back down.”

currently also reading a batshit raven!neil fic and just. on the ground. about all of this.

stop the way I literally went “who the fuck is Nathaniel” Im too transgender for this.

Me, seeing the Abby content we need in this world:

Jean dont call that hellscape home bbg

Renee beating self worth into this man. ily

“Jean couldnt remember the last time he was allowed to wear color” LITERALLY KILL ME

Nora I need you to be less good at describing pain please and thanks

NOT THE BITING

DADMACK DADMACK DADMACK DADMACK!!

he fr be moving this man like a doll. love you wymack

tied him up with racquet laces I. h. lays on floor softly crying.

NOT THE DADDY ISSUES

Jean fr out here plotting 50 ways to kill his brother. he fr though Neil was the problem. no girl Neil just has no tact and autism rizz. Kevins the fucking snitch

no one:

Jean @ the Moriyamas;

“that man is years overdue for a head-on high-speed collision” YOU TELL EM DADMACK

CHAPTER TWO:

Jean please just sleep like a normal human man. God.

Even Jean be out here like “Kevins a little Chihuahua ass drama queen. Bitchboy. Wet cat man.”

Kevin: look, bro, if the 5’3 twink with enough daddy issues to make riko blush and chugs ‘fuck around and find out’ juice for breakfast can escape the moriyamas and not die, so can you.

Testuji. Testuji when I catch you. Tetsuji

Jean what the fuck makes you think anyone but Andrew Minyard will ever tell Neil what to do. Girl.

“If I am not a Raven, who am I?” A MOTHERCUCKING TROJAN BABYYYY

“I have to go to my next class.” I forgot they were in college deadass. Neil is straight up my age im gonna throw up.

Okay. It is. *checks time* 3 AM. I cannot keep my eyes open, which means i must put Jean away for sleep.

ITS IS NOON THE FOLLOWING DAY. I HAVE SLEPT. I HAVE TAKEN MY MEDICATIONS. TIME TO HYPERFOCUS BABY.

KINDLE SAYS WE HAVE 8 hrs 27 mins LEFT IN THIS BOOK. IM SAYING GOODBYE TO MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I’LL SEE Y’ALL AT DINNEE TIME. ITS JEAN TIME.

Hiiiiiii Thea….

“Good morning, Paris.” Now, the average man will see this as a reference to his frenchness. but real ones know Paris is prince of Troy, the man who married Helen of Troy & started the Trojan war.

do y’all think Jean has a french accent wait wait wait. obviously itd be very slight at this point but is it there. necessary question.

Assessing Thea like a fucking state exam right now. Neil could not have cared less about your ass I am gaining so much information

Hate of my life Riko moriyama.

CHAPTER THREE:

JEREMY FUCKING KNOW HI BAYYYBY

the way I literally got up and had to pace and stim for a moment even though I fully expected this. autism. my roommate is concerned. not really. she’s used to this she watched me read TKM and dramatically reenact the Ichirou Car Talk.

wow??? AFTG team actually seems happy and well-adjusted and friendly with each other??

Random Note: I’m currently watching Blue Exorcist & one of the main characters is a girl name Moriyama and I’m literally just sitting here like “This girl is way to nice and innocent to have that name.” Because she literally is the nicest girl to ever exist. Why is she cursed with the same name as my mortal enemy (Testuji)

��Tonight’s experiment was the icing on the cake, an invaluable experience no matter how it ended.” Jeremy, my love.

He has empathy… Never before seen footage. Y’all get the cameras!!

He’s so shaken about Jean,,, holding you so gently Jeremy. Here as a guy who knows nothing at all about Jeremy since I’m. so new here. but god.

Jeremy: are you sure a Raven can abide by Troja—

Kevin: Bro Jean is so pathetic he’s a bottom fr. He never disobeys an order

Jeremy: I. Okay you didnt have to say it like that, bro.

I will literally never stop respecting the Trojans strat in the final they really said. “If these fucks can win the championships with nine players, surely we can.” and then willingly got their asses handed to them.

“Xavier stumbled when he got the next serve off, and the Fox guarding him gamely hauled him back upright before running for the ball. It was a simple gesture, but it endeared Jeremy to them” I dont remember if this bit was described in tkm so i’m going to guess that’s Nicky or Matt. Aaron would fucking never.

Nah because like. Yes this proved to the Trojans how resilient the Foxes were, but it was also a message to the audience, yk? Like we know the Foxes were getting shit for their quick rise to the top after they pulled their shit together, but I personally think that the Trojans did this both for their improvement & for Foxes’ publicity. This game proved to the public at large how devastatingly *good* the Foxes were, because of their small size. The second best team in the league crumbled playing the same conditions the Foxes did *every game* and got to championships with. They proved that Foxes were, in fact, a D1 team who earned their keep.

oh hes got daddy’s money. Well. not. officially. yo what I mean.

“it was always best to have a paper trail” Neil Josten would have an anuerysm hearing those words.

Bye Jeremy I’m. Love you so much. Why do you feel like a sixty year old man in your early twenties.

“between seven and twelve students.” yikes.

“unfamiliar and accented voice.” I WAS RIGHT I FUCKING CALLED IY HES GOT AN ACCENT BABY FUCK YEAH

“you ever feel like— like you’re making a choice you cant come back from? But even knowing everything could go completely sideways, you’d make that choice every time?” okay so coming out allegories i could make aside, Jeremy is so… where to start with him. He reminds me of Percy Jackson. Endlessly loyal and selfless to the point its a bit stupid but endearingly stupid.

CHAPTER FOUR:

Okay so we’re alresdy hateflirting. noted.

Its also extremely sunny today in Podunk Hicksville where I live so it feels very On Brand.

“Jean had seen that smile in a half-dozen broadcast… He could picture it too easily, and he dug his fingernails into his own face in vicious warning.” Awww you think you can best the gay worms in your brain. goodluck with that Johnny.

“isn’t that reason enough to keep living? To rediscover simple delight one moment at a time,” keeping this quote for eternity

“enough sunlight to chase away Evermore’s shadows. They are willing to take a chance on you. Aren’t you?”

Kevin Day autistic king. taking this hesdcannon to my grave .

“the conspiracy theorists were working overtime” no girl they just aint stupid.

THEY DESTROYED HIS POSTCARDS…

CHAPTER FIVE:

I want to start keeping record of all the times Jean is like “[name] wasn’t decent enough to [thing]” because its SO funny. We LOVE a petty king.

also keeping track of all the insults he throws at Neil.

Neil likes to think he’s SUUUUCH a loner boy no friends angsty “dont speak to me” resting bitch face ass motherfucker. In reality he is a jack russell terrier — ceritifed jack russell owner who’s dog thinks hes soooo big and bad but said dog literally cries when you dont let him in the bed or say hi to people on the street

Jean is SOOOOOO dramatic 😭😭

Jean: Why would you let Kevin do this.

Neil: let him?? He did that on his own.

Jean: you’re proud of him for being a problem, arent you?

Neil: oh you fucking know I am, bitchass

“but other than his outstanding murder charge there was nothing interesting about that Fox.” i’d consider that very interesting information, Jean. Youre just deranged

“with milk, juice, and vodka dominating one shelf” that’s Aaron, Nicky, Andrew/Kevin in order. Im correct.

“There was an entire drawer dedicated to cheese.” Yeah that sounds like Nicky.

“Half the drawer was full of mini candy bars. Jean threw them all into the trash” bro Andrew is going to kill you in cold blood and not even Neil can save you.

Jean is SO dramatic. Give him Kevin’s crown.

Jean @ Neil during the final: ARE YOU WITHOUT INTELLIGENCE????? ARE YOU STUPID??? DO YOU WANT TO DIE??

Seeing the media coverage of the championship is the food I needed thank you Nora for this. I am eating it up. om nom nom

The sportscasters referring to athletes with their first name is batshit. What. why. huh. Absolutely not.

CHAPTER SIX:

Renee protecting Jean from discovering Riko’s death through media & not through them…

Everytime boys start fistfighting in this series I hear Roxanne from Megamind. “Ladies, ladies, you’re BOTH pretty.”

a) Jeans reaction to finding out was exaclty what I expected

b) I’m FASCINATED to know who called campus security. Jeremy?? Renee?? Someone in Fox tower???

Neil was gentle with someone other than Andrew? I didnt know he knew how to do that…

NEIL. NEIL JOSTEN. YEAH BABY

HES ROOMING WITH CAT AND LAILA??? YES YEA YES YESY

the Jean-Renee dynamic is so fucking important to me. MLM/WLW solidarity. theyre besties.

THEYRE SO IMPORTANT TO ME BRO.

Literally snuggling Jeremy

Oh he’s got Fox potential. Hiiii Jeremy. Give me the traumadump bbg

THEY/THEM??? DO MY EYES DECEIVE ME OR IS THIS AN HONEST TO GOD THEY/THEM PLAYER OH ILL CRY. ILL CRU RIGHT NOW

CHAPTER SEVEN:

Oh Jean. you’re about to have such a gay awakening babe i can feel it in my bones.

A FUCKING YOYO??? I LOVE HIM

“A mite bit hecked up” PLEEEASE JUST SAY FUCK /ref

OH HE WAS IN LOVE WITH KEVIN. INTERESTING INTERESTING INTERESTING.

autism coded lookingg motherfucker (stares at Jean.)

The chaos of Cat and Laila’s house is so fucking cute. Its about to be two lesbians and their distrustful pitbull rescue in this bitch and im ready for it.

CHAPTER EIGHT:

watching normal people discover the cult that is Evermore. Finally someone having a normal response to that madness. What the FUCK.

wait theres actually a cardboard dog i thought it was fanon joke.

oh my god there is actually a fucking cardboard dog. i.

jeans brain just got actually shattered by this living room. he cannot comprehend this.

Cat & Jeremy, realizing the cult rumors are real: I THOUGHT YOU WERE KIDDING! I thought it was joke! I even wrote it down in my diary! “Kevin made a very funny joke today!” I laughed at it later that night!

Okay, last night; I went to bed at 2:30 AM 45% through (college my beloathed). we’re back in business.

Jeremy is so disturbed all of the time. goofy ass.

“Loving something is not enough,”

“When was the last time you enjoyed playing?”

“ Irrelevant.”

Whats his shirt look like Jeremy. Jeremy whats the shirt look like. Jeremy. Whats the shirt look like.

Okay so I’ve reached my image limit for this post and I dont have fun reaction images on my laptop. so now I will post this & reblog with the rest of this book.

[arialysse]

Benevolent Martinet.

A Sugar Daddy!Albert Wesker x Reader AU Fic.

In collaboration with: @atquos

Summary:

After catching your ex-boyfriend cheating, your life changed drastically. From deadlines to overpriced rent, your friend has suggested to you to try for a sugar daddy, something that has never crossed your mind before. But what’s the worst that can happen, right? You tell yourself. What you didn’t expect however, was the multi-billionaire CEO of Umbrella Corp to be on the list. 

Warnings: Cussing, Cheating, Mentions of getting a sugar daddy

Chapter 1: The Discovery.

Chapters: [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7], [8]

smol update: Because of Aria's 'unable to describe clothes properly' deficiency, she has created a Pinterest board for both Albert Wesker and Y/N, if you have a hard time imaging the outfit that she tried describing, you may take a look at these boards for ideas :>

Y/N's outfit ideas!

Albor's outfit ideas! [added a few irrelevant ones tbh because i was hella thirsty oops-]

“Yeah, you just keep watching the show, Imma be right back with you.” Jeremiah, your long-time boyfriend urged, shoving the popcorn into your hands as he vanished into his room. You raised a brow at his sudden departure.

You just reached home after an exhausting day from working at your part-time job. A small, retail shop in the middle of a mall. The staff there were more than accommodating. When you had first joined the team, they were very patient in teaching you the ropes even going as far as to shoulder a complaint on you when you had messed up once. The shop sold apparel, accessories and even toiletries, an odd combination but you bite your tongue at the boss’s accentrics. 

The real problem, however, was the manager. He was a stout, middle-aged man who was a little enthusiastic when it came to female workers, like yourself. Your coworkers had warned you about the manager, of how not to stay too close to him as he tends to get really touchy. In short, he was a touch-starved pervert.

Once, a former staff member had enough of his antics and went to file a complaint to the HR, but it all led to a dead-end as the manager himself and the HR were in on it together, no thanks to some under-the-table bribing. No one had the power to do anything. So, in a team effort, you had all decided to avoid the manager whenever he was around. It was difficult as he’d often be seen out front, preaching about “customer happiness” and how “the customer is always right”, which was a load of crap if you asked me. 

After a long day of work, you just wanted to lay down on a soft, comfy mattress and sleep, but it seems that your boyfriend had other plans. Out of nowhere though, he had decided that he wanted to pamper you. When you stepped into your shared apartment, he surprised you with snacks, ice-cream and even a teddy bear. He had mentioned that it was because you have been “working very hard”.

You were elated, of course, as he was never the type to pull surprises like this. You were both just laying on the couch sharing the snacks that he had bought, when his phone abruptly rang. He excused himself in a hurry, hastily padding into his room. Out of exhaustion, you shrugged and excused his behavior, maybe one of his friends needed help with something.

However, something in your head urged you to eavesdrop on his conversation. At first, you snuffed that thought out, as you felt that it was rude to eavesdrop on other people’s business. But, was it paranoia or exhaustion-filled anxiety? You had no idea. With a lot of effort, you unwrapped yourself from the fluffy blanket he had smothered you with and tip-toed to the door of his room. 

"Babe, I’ve told you- No! Not now, I’m with my girlfriend. What?- I-I can’t, she’s going to get suspicious- Listen, let’s talk another time okay? I promise- Just-” You hear him sigh, “Okay, fine… I’ll try alright?”

You feel your heart shatter into pieces, as your suspicions were confirmed. You stood there, completely broken as your mind screamed “See! I told you.” , over and over again. Hearing incoming footsteps, you quickly dashed back to the sofa, pretending as if nothing happened. He came out from behind the door and sauntered back to where you were. Steeling your nerves as you have done many times before, you swallowed the lump in your throat and asked, “Who was it?”

“Oh, no one, just uh- Travis. Listen, babe, um- He said he needed help with something now, and-”

“This late?” Your emotions faltered a little, but your pride refused for you to break now.

“Y-yeah. He’s in a bit of a pinch now and I really really need to go. Are you okay with staying home alone for tonight? I know I said I’d pamper you tonight but, Travis man…” He looked away and you swore you could see the guilt clouding his eyes.

The words, You mean Madison? Were on the tip of your tongue but you decided to swallow those words and nodded at him. “Yeah, sure. Go ahead, I’m feeling sleepy anyways.” You lie, faking a yawn and a stretch. He grinned widely, accompanying you to his room before he said a quick goodbye. 

Pfft like hell I’m going to sleep, you thought sitting up from beneath the covers. Right now, you were furious, not only had he been cheating on you for god knows how long but he also straight up lied about it. You rolled your eyes at his words from earlier, feeling your eyes cloud over from tears. Shaking your head vehemently, you bit back the tears. I can cry all I want later, now I need to get out of here. 

Grabbing the duffel bag you had packed a long time ago from the drawer -in case anything like this happened- , You went to the dresser where you kept your share of clothes and stuffed them into the duffel bag without a single care. You were moving on autopilot, refusing to allow any other thoughts into your mind at the moment.

After changing your clothing into one more suitable for going out, you slung the duffel bag over your shoulder and slipped on your shoes, the only sound heard was from the still running television.

Glancing back at the apartment one more time, your eye caught on the teddy bear that laid on the sofa dejectedly, pity reflecting on its beady eyes. You double-checked that you had everything and closed the door one final time. Hearing the lock click into place, you left and quickly dialed a cab back home and since it was rather late, it was evident that it took awhile for the cab to answer. 

While waiting for the cab to arrive, you were feeling rather apprehensive, for fear that he may come home any time and catch you leaving his home. Fortunately, the headlights of the car approached the dark street, granting you a sense of relief. The kind driver assisted in placing your bag in the truck as you entered the backseat of the car. After confirming your location, the driver took off without another word as silence permeated in the car. 

Pulling out your phone from your pocket, you gave your best friends an update on what had happened. They were thankfully still awake and were dead set on calling you, but you told them that they can do that later as you were in a cab home. Some of their texts had you in tears but you refused to cry just yet. 

It wasn’t long before you reached the apartment complex which was your home. You haven’t been here for awhile as you lived with him. After handing you your belongings, the driver took off with a sincere goodbye. You sighed, trudging solemnly to the elevator, the sight making you feel rather nostalgic. 

You clicked on the button and waited for the familiar chime of the lift, signaling that you have arrived on your floor, but felt your phone vibrate. You felt bad that for a moment you had forgotten about your friends. Unlocking your phone, you glanced at the message your friend sent. 

Rubae ❣:

That limp-dick asshole didn’t deserve you anyway lol.

Niall-edIt ✧:

Right? Like imagine cheating on someone as faithful as (Y/N). What a clown.

Olyviuhh ☾:

What a prick. You know what, let’s all go out tomorrow. Drinks on me.

MeiMei ❅:

I’m so sorry for what happened, (Y/N). I just want to let you know that you are super strong for pushing through all of that and making the decision to leave. It was very brave of you! ^_^

Tears pooled in your eyes, making your vision blurry. Before you could even reply to them, the elevator chimed and you bolted into your apartment. Shutting the door behind you, the dam finally broke as you fell onto the floor and sobbed. The tears wouldn’t stop bursting forth, as you cried your heart out.

Amidst your whimpers, you suddenly hear your phone vibrate in repetition. Fear shot through your heart, has he already noticed that you were missing from his home? You weren’t ready to confront him just yet. With shaky hands, you peeked at your phone. Alas, it was just your very worried friends. Clicking on the green button, you were met with questions.

“Are you okay (Y/N)?! You hadn’t sent a reply and we got worried. Did that limp-dick asshole find you?! Is he with you?!” The plain-spoken Ruby asked frantically.

“N-no. I’ve just reached home, I’m sorry guys. I just… took a step home and broke down-” You whimpered as more tears fell from your eyes. 

“Aw, sweetheart… He doesn’t deserve you, at all. It’s going to hurt but, we’re here for you always.” The kind-hearted Mei promised gently.

“Mei’s right, we’ll be here for you. I’m going to be real here, he’s definitely going to call you or find you later but we’ll be with you, so don’t worry ‘bout it, ‘kay?” You could almost hear the wink in Niall’s tone.

You sobbed even harder and from the care of your friends, they were the people you never knew you needed in your life, and you were eternally grateful for them.

“Alright, alright. For now, you can cry all you want but afterwards, no more tears, not even tomorrow. It’s going to be difficult but, remember, you can’t show him that you’ve actually cried for him. He doesn’t and never will deserve your tears. Never give him that sense of victory.” Olyvia advised with disdain.

You let out a hum of approval at her words. She was right. After a bit more talking and assurance from your friends, they suggested that you get cleaned up and try to get some sleep, as you all had classes the following morning. You got up from the doorstep and placed the duffel bag on the small couch that you owned, deciding that you would deal with that tomorrow. 

Strolling over to your bathroom, you splashed a handful of water over your face, cleaning away the tear tracks and snot that dribbled out of your nose from all your crying. You also made the effort to brush your teeth, all the while avoiding the mirror. Rinsing your mouth, you couldn’t help but glance at your own reflection. You looked horrible, needless to say. Bloodshot eyes, red-faced and heartbroken. With a sigh, you headed into your bedroom to plop down on the mattress. You frown, as you feel your thoughts spiral again. 

Why did he cheat?

Was he willing to break his promise of not leaving because you were a horrible girlfriend?

What did Madison have that you didn’t? Good assets? Great sex?

Were you just not good enough?

You let a broken sob escape your throat as you feel another flood of tears coming. As much as you were hurt, you were also infuriated. You had done everything he had told you to do, endured his unfairness and even took care of his needs, even if you got the down-side of it all. So exactly, what did you do wrong? Unbeknownst to you, you fell unconscious before you had the chance to think about any other things.

Sleep that night was, understandably, grueling. You woke up multiple times from seeing his face in your dreams, pleading for it to go away as you tossed and turned, the stress from your never-ending amount of coursework and the unnecessarily costly rent that you had to fork out by yourself. Before you knew it, your alarm blared, resonating throughout your room. 

No thanks to the amount of sleep you had, you had a pounding migraine. Getting up from your bed, you trudged into your bathroom akin to a zombie . While washing up, memories of last night came flooding into your head. Unanswered questions, doubts and deadlines to chase. You furrowed your brows, feeling your headache worsen from those thoughts. You placed your palm on your temple, guess I’ll have to take some painkillers before classes if not I won’t be able to focus properly.

Opening the cabinet compartment of your mirror, you squint, trying to find the bottle of ibuprofen. Grabbing the white container with a red and white logo, you went over to your kitchen to grab a glass of water to ingest the pills with. After taking 2 pills, you quickly make your way back to your room to change and gather materials for your class.

Just as you were placing your pencil case into your tote bag, you heard a knock at your door. You flinched, panic spreading over you. Could it be Jeremiah? He must’ve realized that you had put your phone on silent and got impatient so he came over instead. The knocks on the door started to sound more and more impatient. 

With a shaky breath and even shakier legs, you carefully made your way to your door, the knocks sounding as loud as your beating heart. Biting your lip, you peeped into the peeping hole, releasing your breath in a tentative sigh to find out that it was only Olyvia. You opened the door without a second thought.

“Girl, what the hell were you doing?! You got me worried sick for god's sake! Did you suddenly lose your phone or do you just not know how to answer calls?” She nagged, giving you a hug. “Sorry! Sorry… I was just getting ready for the day. I had to-...” You paused, “I had to take some ibuprofen. My sleep was not good, no surprise there, and I woke up with the most nasty headache.” You explained sheepishly, hugging her back.

She released her hold, “I understand but please, if you’re silencing your phone because of that douche, silence him only, don’t shut us out too alright? We’re all worried for you.” You nodded and gave her a smile at her concern. “So are you ready or not? Classes will start in forty-five and it’s going to take me around half-an-hour to get there.” You nodded again and told her to wait as you went up to grab your belongings. You still refused to check your phone as she handed you a spare helmet and ushered you onto her bike. 

“Ready? Hang on tight.” You gripped onto her waist as she revved the engine and took off. The drive to your college was pleasant save for the small pounding of the headache that was still present, as Olyvia tried her best to avoid talking about the incident last night and you from thinking about it as well. You mentioned to her about her speed when she had stopped at a red light. She huffed with a smirk, “You should see my meter when I’m alone. I’m only holding back because I have a passenger.” You shook your head and made a joke about crashing in style, causing her to chuckle along with you.

It wasn’t long before you neared the driveway of your college. You squint your eyes, seeing the familiar faces of Ruby, Niall and Mei standing at the entrance waiting for the both of you. They greeted you with a smile as you got off and handed the helmet back to Olyvia. Your friends have also decided to avoid the topic of yesterday while Olyvia went to park her bike. 

Mei stretched her hand out, nudging you with a brown paper bag. “Here, I know you don’t normally eat before class, but I got you your favorite bread and something else worth trying from the bakery near my house.”

You tilted your head in question, taking the paperbag from her hands. Your friends had found your aversion to food in the morning worrying, but after realizing that you were fine, they were slightly less worried. You gasped when you eyed the contents of the bag, it was your favorite Ham and Cheese toasted sandwich! It sat snugly next to another bun as well as a carton of milk. 

“Mei… Thank you so much for this. I don’t know what else to say.” You gave her a tearful smile. She shook her head and laughed, “No need. As long as I know you’re feeling better, I’m happy.”

“Not to break the moment but… I’ve been so curious that I might die,” Niall broke in, “But did he say anything?” You shook your head, “Um… To be completely honest, I haven’t checked my phone yet…”

“Yeah so much so that I almost broke down her door because she didn’t pick up my phone.” Olyvia chimed it with a roll from her eyes. Ruby placed a hand on your shoulder, “We can all see it together if you want, but now, let’s head to class, it’s about to start.” You all agreed and quickly went into the lecture hall.

The day went by slow, as you focused on your classes instead of other, irrelevant thoughts. Your friends were with you, luckily, sometimes all or just one as they needed to head to other classes. But one thing is for sure, neither of them left you alone. To your astonishment, you did not once check your phone. They had told you that you didn’t need to as they would help communicate to each other in the groupchat for you.

Lunchtime came by. There you sat, on one side with your friends huddled up opposite of you, outside of Starbucks. The moment of truth causes the familiar uneasiness in your belly. Your friends suggested that they take a look at the messages first, as they might cause you to break down again. You agreed to that suggestion, fearing the embarrassment of wailing unabashedly in the public eye. 

Upon entering your passcode and pulling up the chat, frowns decorated their faces the more they unveiled the messages sent by your ex-boyfriend. Anxiety gripped onto your heart like the thorns on roses. You bit your lip out of habit, the reactions from your friends causing more tension.

“Nah, no. You shouldn’t see this. Nope, nada, nuh-uh. This motherfucker. I swear to god...” Niall groaned, disgust spilling from his words. “Niall’s right. This asshole is the lowest of low.” Ruby glowered in disbelief. Mei shook her head with a sigh, “We should never have approved of your relationship with him.” Olyvia looked like she was about to smash your phone into pieces, “Should we all pull up on him and give him a lesson, I have a metal bat that would love meeting his skull.”

“Hey, it’s alright. May I at very least see what he said?”

Your words caused a flurry of ‘no’s and head shakes. This time, it was your turn to frown, “Please? It can’t be that bad… Right?”

Niall gave you a look, “No means no. Okay look- how about this, we can screenshot his messages and keep them on our phones, or on one of our phones. But erase all traces of him on your phone.”

“What? Why? For what?” You raised a brow, frown still decorating your features.

“I agree with Niall,” Mei cut in, “We fear you might not be able to endure this…”

You fell back onto your chair in stupefaction. It was unusual for Mei to agree with Niall and his methods sometimes or to hide anything from you even. Was it really that bad?... You feel the familiar blur of tears clouding your eyes again until a firm hand on your shoulder snapped you out of your thoughts.

“When you’re better, which you will be without a doubt, you can see these messages again if you wish to, but for now, I think we should just focus on getting you better first. However, we are all ears if you don’t want to see the messages or for us to delete it.” Ruby affirmed, massaging your shoulder. Even Ruby, who was usually straight-forward and blunt, agreed with protecting you from the messages. 

Niall got to work screen-shotting the photos and sending it to your friends. You began to feel the spark of anger from their selfishness. “The messages are meant for me. Don’t I at least get to see something? Come on guys.”

Feeling your frustration, they looked at each other, until Olyvia broke the tension with a sigh. “Fine, we’ll show you one part okay? But don’t say we didn’t warn you about it.” She pulled out her phone and saved the images of the chat. She thought for a moment on which one to show you exactly but Mei piped in, “I think you should show her the part where he was begging. That wasn’t too bad.”

Olyvia nodded and strode over to where you sat, showing you the screen of her phone. You teared up reading his messages.

Baby? Where did you go?

Oh shit.

Don’t tell me you know?

Fuck.

I’m sorry baby.

Please come back, please.

I promise I’ll explain okay?

It was an accident. I promise it won’t happen again, I swear on my life it won’t.

Please answer me. 

Please baby answer me.

There were more message bubbles below but it was cut off. “Can I see one more? Please?” You pleaded, while Olyvia handed you a tissue to wipe your tears with. “Trust me it gets worse. Until I know you’re ready to stomach the rest, this is all you’re getting. Please understand that we only want what’s best for you.”

At her words, you stood up abruptly, suddenly feeling very sick in the stomach, surprising everyone. “I… I think I need a moment.” You walked away briskly, to somewhere, anywhere. You needed some time to rationalize with your thoughts and emotions, and they let you.

You walked around the campus for a while, just hearing the sounds of people talking, birds chirping and water sloshing from the fountain. You thank whatever deity was out there for an additional hour of lunch, this would mean that you wouldn’t need to rush back to your friends or to class. 

Sitting below a large tree, you relished the tranquility. Just for a moment, you thought, you needed some peace for just a moment. You brought your knees up to your chest, trying to calm yourself down. Part of you was mad at your friends. It felt as if they were trying to blackmail you or something. But part of you knew that it wasn’t the case. They were just trying to protect you from whatever awful things that your ex had sent. 

You sigh with a groan and bury your head into your knees, trying to soothe whatever conflicting emotions that you were muddled with. Rent is due soon, I have work tomorrow so I should be able to cover the costs right? But what about food? God, do I have to resort to eating instant noodles again. I should never have bought that cheating son of bitch gifts that he didn’t appreciate. Today’s assignments are just as much, do I have enough time to finish it? Do I have enough time to study for the test next week? You groaned again in frustration, curling your fingers into your hair. 

What am I going to do? Should I ask for more shifts? But that would mean less time studying. Maybe I can do it. But I can’t afford to mess up now, if my grades slip any further I might get expelled. You bite your lip so hard you could taste the metallic tang of blood, tears falling from your eyes. 

Sniffling for the last time, you wiped your tears and brought your head up from under your arms. There were a couple of students that glanced at you with pity. It wasn’t unusual for a student to cry because of stress. You sighed, deciding to leave whatever issues that may arrive later. You stood up, dusting off dirt from your skirt and began to walk back to where your friends were.

“(Y/N)!” Ruby ran over to you, enveloping you into an embrace. “I’m- We’re… So sorry.” She let go before you could even do anything, your other friends walking towards you slowly.  “I apologize, (Y/N). We were prying into your business more than necessary.” Mei gave you a sad look. 

“Yeah,” Niall scratched the back of his head, “I shouldn’t have suggested the idea of us saving the photos. It’s your call to see what he sent and I’ve taken it as if I was the one in your situation. I’m sorry, (Y/N).” 

Olyvia glanced away, “Whatever your choice is, know that we’ll always respect your decision and we’ll still be here for you.”

You smiled a little, heart warming at the sight of them admitting their mistakes and apologizing. “Thanks guys, but… I think I’ll stick with Niall’s plan. I can’t afford to break down now. I’ll let you all know when I’m ready. I really appreciate that you guys are trying to shield me from what he said.” They ‘aww’ed and Niall initiated a group hug. Soon, he let go and everyone strolled back to classes.

Before you knew it, classes were finally over for the day. 

Olyvia had suggested going to a pub to ‘drink the pain away’. Mei countered that it was an unhealthy habit but allowed it to slide as it was a once in a while thing. “Can we not go toThe Spades? It’s, well… You know…” You thought back to when you first met your ex at that very pub and cringed.

The silver-headed female placed an assuring hand on your back, “Of course not. We’re going to another one this time. I promise you that it’s just as good.” Olyvia sent Niall, Ruby and Mei the address of the pub and you all went your separate ways. You sat behind Olyvia while Niall drove Mei and Ruby. 

The winds and lights rushed by as you stared idly at the view in silence. Not long, you see the large, yellow-blue neon sign of the pub. ‘After Glow’ it read. You raised a brow but smiled nonetheless, at the innuendo. 

Settling down at a high table, your friends ordered their choice of drinks and some snacks. After some small talk, the waiter came back with a tray of food and drinks. ‘Cheers!’ your group sang, taking a sip of your drinks. Everyone had the same thought that it was far from the weekends therefore, not too much drinking.

“I swear, Mrs. Miller is the worst. Imagine giving us like, 300 assignments a day. I swear to god.” Niall complained after a sip of his sour whiskey. “Right? That old hag. Who told her that it was okay to give that many assignments to a student in a day. She had no right whatsoever to do that honestly.” Ruby agreed with a reddening face. 

Mei only chuckled, “We’re in college boys and girls. They’re loading us with so much work to teach us how to manage our time properly.” The short-haired woman twirled her glass of old fashioned. As they resumed talking, you can’t help but zone out of the conversation. Your mind, heightened with the alcohol, started to spiral with thoughts again. Rent, Assignments, Work, Money, Test, Jeremiah. It circled over and over, making you feel sick. 

You took another sip of your drink, tasting the bitter aftertaste of the alcohol, trying to drown out your nausea and thoughts. Just then, a hand placed itself over your back, soothingly going up and down. Olyvia must’ve sensed your distress and in an attempt to comfort you, she ran her hands along your back. 

“You good? Wanna talk about it?” You sigh at her, trying not to cry. “I… Just… There’s a lot of shit going on right now and… I just can’t stop worrying about it,” You couldn’t stop for some reason, “Now that I’m living by myself again, I’ll need to deal with the overpriced rent alone. Which might cause me to go on another instant noodle fest. If my manager decides to dock my pay again, I might end up homeless. That shitty landlord won’t take late payment because of trauma I’m guessing. And then there’s a test coming up next week, and I don’t know if I’m going to have time to study for it, I might have to take up more jobs if I’m going to be able to pay for the rent next month.” You groaned, massaging your temple.

You look up to see Niall raise a brow, “Wait, where did all the money you saved up go? I thought you had more than enough to pay for your current rent?”

“I used to. Then Jeremiah demanded that I pay half the rent for living at this place too because it ‘wouldn’t be fair’ if I’m living with him but using his utilities for free and that if I don’t, I should just go home. Turns out, I’ve been paying 75% of the rent. But I kept quiet because I was so damn blinded and stupid.” You confess with a sigh. “ Ruby gave you a look of incredulity, “Are you serious right now? That motherfucker… What kind of a man is he?”

“I can still pull up. My metal bat is still eager to meet him.” Olyvia chimed in nonchalantly whilst chewing on a fry.

Mei gave you a gentle smile, “It’ll be alright, (Y/N). Don’t worry too much about money. If you need, I’m sure all of us here would be more than happy to lend you a hand.”

You shook your head, “No. I can’t. I won’t borrow money from any of you. I’ll just have to deal with it.”

There was suddenly a pause. The song from the radio, people chattering and the clinking of glass bounced off the walls of the cozy pub. Ruby licked her lips then, ready to speak. “I know it’s going to sound crazy but, (Y/N), how,” She paused, eyeing you hesitantly, “How about finding a sugar daddy?”

There was another pause before Niall howled in laughter. “Her? A sugar daddy? Please, Ruby! I think you’ve had too much tonight.” You see Olyvia trying to stifle a snicker and Mei shaking her head with a smile. Ruby frowned, “Why not? I think it’s a pretty good idea if you asked me.”

“First of all, (Y/N) is not the type to find one-night stands unlike her shit-stain of an ex. I mean, have you seen how faithful she is? Remember Noah from the other class? Remember how he tried to hit on her but she rejected him each and every time?” he paused, taking a swig, “Secondly, (Y/N) gets attached to the people she dates very quickly, too quickly actually, and sugar babies are all about getting the money and then dipping. Lastly, it would totally traumatize her and she’s been traumatized enough by that douche. I mean, I’m pretty sure a lot of sugar daddies don’t only have ONE single sugar baby, right? They’re rich, so they most likely want variety.” He concluded smugly, taking a bite of the pizza.

You purse your lips, unable to deny his claims. “Gee Niall, I thought we were out to comfort me tonight, not to call me the fuck out.” Everyone at the table laughed at your words. “Well, if you’re still keen, I know a friend that has access to a safe and trustable sugar daddy meeting website.” Ruby restated, taking a bite out of the fry. “Safe and trustable? Who is she? The CEO of the website?” The male gibed.

“Niall for the love of god. You should probably keep your mouth shut if you don’t earn as much figures as she makes from fucking rich old men from that website.” The red-haired woman rolled her eyes in annoyance.

“Hey! Who says I don’t make a lot of figures, I’ll have to remind you that my parents are both CEOs of DIFFERENT companies.” He bragged, glaring at her. 

“Sure that’s cool and all, but that still ain’t your money right, mommy’s boy?” Ruby provoked, leaning against her hand.

“Mommy’s boy? You take that back right now, I ain’t no mommy’s boy!” Niall stood up from the chair, pointing a finger at his provoker.

“Alright, alright, that’s enough. Let’s call it a day, yeah. You both had a little too much tonight.” Mei stood up, placing her hands between Niall and Ruby. 

After settling the bill and bidding each other goodbyes, you hopped onto the back of Olyvia’s bike. Watching as Niall, Ruby and Mei enter Niall’s car. “Will they really be alright?…” You thought aloud. “Eh, I’m sure they’ll be fine. Mei’s in there.” Olyvia secured the black helmet on her head. “Let’s go now.”

The ride back to your home was short. Olyvia had insisted on escorting you all the way back to your apartment to make sure you were safe, in case Jeremiah had decided to pop up out of nowhere. Fortunately for the both of you, he was nowhere to be seen. You closed the door after bidding the silverette one last goodbye and headed to your bathroom to shower. 

You feel the droplets of refreshing, hot water clearing today’s negativity, clearing your mind of clutters temporarily. Exiting the bathroom with a towel around your torso, you hear your phone chime. Walking to your bedroom where your phone was, you sat down on the bed and checked your notifications.

Rubae ❣:

Here’s the website that I was talking about. Check it out, or not. Up to you ;)

sugaryparadise.com/signup

You shut your phone and thought. A sugar daddy? But what Niall said… It’s true, I don’t think I can do this…

You stood up and dressed into your pajamas. Settling down on your study desk, you pulled out your assignment folder, and got to work, trying to finish as much as you can. All the while, the thought of getting a sugar daddy permeates throughout your brain. Biting your lip in frustration, you lightly bumped your head on the wooden table.

I mean… If I take up another job, I would be able to pay for the rent. But that would also mean that my grades may slip from the lack of studying. But then… You huffed, scratching your head. You decided that it was time for a break. Standing up and arranging your table neatly, you took your water bottle and strolled over to your kitchen. 

That’s when you noticed it. A white envelope with a stamp.

How did I not notice this when I came home earlier? You set your water bottle down on the dining table and investigated the letter. Peeling open the top, you took out the paper within.

What you saw made your stomach drop.

Dear Residents of Areca Apartment,

Due to the rising cost of electricity and water bills, we will be increasing every individual’s rent by 20%. Because of that, we will permit the rent of the current month and the new rent to be paid by the end of the next month.

After the end of the following month, prompt payment is to be expected at the end of every month again. Failing to do so will result in us taking legal action against you, which we strongly advise against.

We apologize for any inconvenience caused.

For more information, contact your landlord at xxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Thank you.

Yours faithfully,

Thomas Benjamin

Your jaw dropped. What the hell? Is this even legal? You sat down on the dining chair in shock, leaning against your hands. With a whimpering sigh, you begin to cry again. “What did I do to deserve all this?...” You whispered solemnly. Wracking through your head for a solution, any solution. With your current pay, you would need to survive on instant noodles again, this time, for a whole month instead. You doubt you’d survive. Then it hit you.

The sugar daddy website Ruby suggested.

Scampering to your room, you grabbed your phone and entered the dm with Ruby. The blue-highlighted website stared back at you. You bit your lip hesitantly.

Is it really worth it? Losing my dignity for money? But I NEED the money to survive. What would the others think? Taking in a deep breath of air, well, what’s the worst that can happen?

You clicked on the url.

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[mermaidsirennikita]

Would you rec HR with the hero being a Duke? I haven't really read many good ones

Sure!

Waking Up with The Duke by Lorraine Heath--The "please get my wife pregnant because I'm impotent thanks bro" book. The hero is a duke, who's like this genteel type of lover type. Sleeps around a lot, keeps it classy with his affairs, is hopelessly in love with his best friend's wife. You know the drill.

When the Duke was Wicked by Lorraine Heath--This one has the "my wife and child died so now I'm a dissolute rake" duke, who agrees to teach his (decently younger, virginal) family friend how to select a good husband, only to start like, tonguefucking her in his office and stuff.

Daring and The Duke by Sarah MacLean--Evil duke! OR IS HE? Probably better to read the first two books in this series, each of which focuses on one of the duke's brothers.

Duke of Sin by Elizabeth Hoyt--cRaZy duke! People think everyone is exaggerating about how insane this guy is. They aren't. He's fully batshit crazy and falls in love with his housekeeper whose every reaction is "this might as well happen".

Accidentally Compromising the Duke by Stacy Reid--As discussed previously, has a sad single father widower duke who cannot maintain any degree of chill around the heroine, despite "only wanting a stepmother for his daughters". Sure bro!

The Return of the Duke by Lorraine Heath--He's not actively a duke, but he's trying to regain his title as it as taken from the family after his father was convicted of trying to murder Queen Victoria. So there's a lot of like, duke identity crises.

My Dirty Duke by Joanna Shupe--A novella, and not for the faint of heart, but oh so worth it. The hero is like.... 18 to 20. The hero is her father's best friend. Please, I'm begging to be canceled for this.

The Chasing of Eleanor Vane by Sierra Simone--Another duke age gap romance. The heroine is engaged to the hero's nephew. Both leads are bisexual. A novella.

An Education in Pleasure by Eva Leigh--The hero is a young (early twenties) duke and the heroine is a good bit older than him and teaches him about sex.

Any Duchess Will Do by Tessa Dare--A fun duke! A slutty duke who says he'll marry the random barmaid in order to make his mom happy, except his mom GOES WITH IT. So many courtesy titles for this duke, so little time to recite them while he's got her bent over a desk.

The Duchess Deal by Tessa Dare--A scarred duke! So ugly! So mean! Marries the heroine so that he can get an heir, but the procreative sex quickly becomes just. Like. Hardcore fucking.

How to Love A Duke in Ten Days by Kerrigan Byrne--Scarred duke, but much darker. Traumatized (from past sexual assault) heroine who needs to marry someone in order to escape her blackmailer. Very emotional romance between two wounded people.

Heartbreaker by Sarah MacLean (out 8/23)--DADDY DUKE. Very stern, will smack that ass and pull that hair. But like. How gentlemanly.

The Duke Gets Even by Joanna Shupe--Not out until January, but this is my reminder that everyone should read the Rogues of Fifth Avenue series, in part because they're all good and in part because you get periodic appearances from this duke, the Duke of Fuckwood Lockwood, a man who gets cucked twice (so far) but keeps going because his dick is just that big.

What I Did for A Duke by Julie Anne Long--A vengeful duke! Gets cucked and decides to ruin the cucker's little sister, only for her to be like "this is a pretty obvious plot on your part" and charm him completely. Age gap; she's about 20 and he's 39/40.

After Dark with the Duke by Julie Anne Long--Another age gap duke (42 to her 25) who falls in love with an opera singer who annoys him with her scandalous nature and incredible hotness.

The Duchess Hunt by Lorraine Heath--Workplace daddy duke! Falls in love with his Girl Friday/secretary as she tries to help him find a wife. Big Tony/Pepper vibes if you've seen... any Iron Man movie. Includes the patented Lorraine Heath "ride me" moment.

Duke of Midnight by Elizabeth Hoyt--Another wackadoodle Hoyt duke. Georgian Batman duke, vigilante by night, fuck machine also by night, the man never sleeps.

The Duke with the Dragon Tattoo by Kerrigan Byrne--River pirate duke! Kills the heroine's evil brother and evil groom on her wedding day and spirits her away! There is a scene where she says they aren't married and he basically goes "maritime law" and I do laugh very hard when I read it.

Her Night with The Duke by Diana Quincy--"Oops" duke, who finds out that the woman he had a passionate one night stand with is actually the stepmother of the woman he's courting. We all make mistakes, even dukes.

The Courtesan Duchess by Joanna Shupe--"Mistakes have been made" duke who leaves his wife after the wedding to go fuck around in Europe for like, 6-8 years. But she needs a son to fend off the people coming after her financially, so she relies on his incredible himbo nature and disguises herself as a courtesan in order to get pregnant. Please get a better memory, duke.

The Duke I Tempted by Scarlett Peckham--"Whips and chains excite me" duke, but actually. A sexually submissive duke who has another big secret, but his primary big secret is the fact that he goes to see dominatrixes for punishment. WHAT WILL HIS WIFE SAY AND WILL SHE BE INTO IT??? WHO'S TO SAY.

Anthologies:

Duke I'd Like to F...--Includes the novellas I mentioned above plus a couple more good ones.

Big Duke Energy--Have not read this one, but it has good authors involved and I will read it.

[havocinthebluebox]

Get to know the scary witch haunting this blog

Tagged by the awesome @hatant , thank you !

1. Name: Let’s say my main nickname - Sissi

2. Gender: Gender ? I am a necromancer. Female necromancer if it really matters. 

3. Star sign: in the fantabulous aquarius team with you @hatant (well, it’s just the two of us for the moment but wait till we grow stronger and show all the other signs we are damn serious !)

4. Height: 1m73, I think ? No, my lazy ass won’t do the conversion.

5. Time: Time to scroll a little bit on this beloved hellsite of mine. Then, eat Choco BN in bed while listening to music in peace, and read myself to sleep : 20h55.

6. Birthday: 11 febuary. Ni fleurs, ni couronnes s’il vous plaît. 

7. Favourite band: Dissection, The Devil’s Blood and Watain are among my favorites but the list goes on.

8. Favourite Artist: Like, authors ? painters ? photographers ?

Authors (novels and comics) - Pierre Boterro, Robin Hobb, Olivier Ledroit, Kentaro Miura

Painters : Klimt, van Gogh, Dicksee, Alma-Tadema, Mucha, Kittelsen, Beksiński,  etc.

9. Song stuck in my head currently: Früling in Paris by Rammstein

10. Last movie you watched: I don’t watch a lot of movies at the present time.

11. Last Series: The Queen’s Gambit (the lead actress will be Furiosa in the next Mad Max !!!)

12: Blog age: +/- 10 years. 

13. Content: The editorial line is quite messy. I don’t know... things I like, find aesthetically pleasing, rants, music etc.

14: Last google: The last ones I made was for work so it consisted in sevral -bvery boring - shareholder value names. The last one I did for myself was something related to World War 2 since it’s one of my favorite topics and I am relapsing into it lately. 

15. Side blogs: One about books, left to rot in a corner of the internet. And a NSFW one right here, on tumblr dot com XD. Yep, the ass smuggler life after the Great Titty Ban is quite fun and thrilling !

16. Do you get asks: It happens, yes.

17. URL Meaning: I was 200% into Doctor Who when I changed it for this one, so, I guess the blue box was for the TARDIS. I wanted to change it again but I realised I had blue hair most of the time and the chaotic blue box could be my head, so I am keeping it a little bit longer !

18. Following: 700 +/-, many ghost accounts, I should do a little cleaning.

19. Followers: 430. Even if we include the porn bots and the fake sugar daddies, it’s quite a lot😳. What are you doing here ?

20. Average sleep hrs: Between 6 and 12 hours.

21: Lucky number: 11, 3

22: Instruments: None. I took singing lessons a long time ago, so, my voice maybe ? But I am very rusty now ! Maybe someday I’ll kick my ass hard enough to learn how to play bass or guitar. 

23. Clothes: Yes ? Or no… depending on the context !

24. Dream job: Publisher.

25. Dream Trip: Somewhere where I can take pictures of aurora borealis ! 

26. Favourite food: Crêpes and pasta ! and chocolate

27. Nationality: French

28. Favourite song: One of my favorite songs - Présence des Orbes by Darkenhöld

29. Last Book: Finished La Seconde Guerre mondiale : un conflit à redécouvrir and Le lys dans la vallée last week-end. Currently reading Les femmes et le sexe dans la Rome antique, Next book : I don’t know !

If you want to do this, you are welcome 

[meltwonu]

💕NSFW SVT DRABBLE GAME💕

Hi! I’ve been wanting to try doing a drabble game for a while so I thought now’s the best time~!

🌟 you can request for up to 2 members (so memberxreaderxmember is the limit!) and up to 3 prompts!

🌟 Adding a lil more detail is fine and helps me get a better idea of what you want! (ie. ‘prompt #24 and #29 with dom!woozi’ or ‘prompt #25 and #52 with yandere!jeonghan’ or ‘prompt #25 with sub!chan’) but also if you don’t want to, I’ll just write it how I see the prompt fits~

🌟 you can send in multiple requests but please make them separate asks!

🌟 I do write yandere fic, bdsm, dom, sub, mommy, daddy, etc. but if there’s a request that I get with something I’m uncomfortable with(ie being pissed on dhjfgjs), I’ll probably ignore it. sorry! 😢

🌟 writing takes time, so I'll def get to the requests(and maybe pick off a few that I wanted to write anyway heheh) but it won’t be like, within a hr of you requesting so please be patient with me! thank u!

🌟 I’m also really sorry but I only know how to write in female reader 😭😭

If you’ve read all of that, the prompts are under the cut! and I’d also like to say thank you to https://justforshitsandcackles.tumblr.com for providing a great list of smut prompts!

DRABBLE FAQ 

1. “Don’t make me take you home and punish you.” 2. “I’ve never wanted anyone to fuck me this badly.” 3. “You’re not going out in that outfit.” 4. “Don’t give me that look.” 5. “You’re more than just a one night stand.” 6. “Would you just shut up and kiss me already?” 7. “You want me to give you your book/phone/item back? Make me.” 8. “Like what you see?” 9. “Try to stay quiet, understand?” 10. “We’re in public, you know.” 11. “I didn’t know you were so sensitive.” 12. “Don’t be so rough. there cant be any marks.” 13. “I really don’t care. You still look hot and i’m trying not to kiss/fuck you senseless right now.” 14. “Are you sure? Once we start, i might not be able to stop.” 15. “No, i’m supposed to be making you feel good.” 16. “Make me.” 17. “Stop teasing me so much..” 18. “You’re in trouble now.” 19. “Take off your clothes.” 20. “I’m waiting.” 21. “First one to make a noise loses.” 22. “Mine.” 23. “We cant do that here!” 24. “Behave.” 25. “What did you just say?” 26. “Come here.” 27. “Watch me.” 28. “I don’t want to hear your excuses anymore.” 29. “If you cant sleep…then how about we have sex?” 30. “Put that thing away!” 31. “Don’t kink shame me.” 32. “If you interrupt me one more time, so help me god.” 33. “I’m going to put on some clothes before you say anything else.” 34. “Tell me what you want.” 35. “Bite me.”          “If you insist.” 36. “Could he make you feel as good as i do?” 37. “You’re n-not ,um, w-wearing anything under that, are you..?” 38. “Are you trying to turn me on or are you really just that oblivious?” 39. “You taste like fucking candy.” 40. “The only way you’re getting off is on my thigh.” 41. “You make a sound and its game over.” 42. “Just let me finish this/this level and i swear ill go down on you until you cum at least three times.” 43. “If i have to stop what i’m doing, you wont be able to walk for the next week.” 44. “I could just pull your bikini bottoms to the side, no one will notice.” 45. “I haven’t even touched you and you’re already this wet.” 46. “Were you just masturbating?”           “U-uh..no, i was just..”           “Want some help?” 47. “Shut up.”           “Why don’t you come over here and make me.” 48. “You’re so fucking hot when you’re mad.” 49. “We’re not just friends and you fucking know it.” 50. “C’mere, you can sit on my lap until i’m done working.” 51. “What? Does that feel good?” 52. “I’m not jealous! its just…you’re mine!” 53. “If we get caught i’m blaming you.” 54. “We have to be quiet.” 55. “Tell me again.” 56. “You have no idea how much i want you.” 57. “Say it.” 58. “If you don’t like my teasing, then why are you moaning?” 59. “Wow, i didn’t realize you were that…flexible.” 60. “I’m gonna fuck you so hard that you forget you ever even met that asshole.” 61. “You better shut that pretty little mouth before i put it to work, doll.” 62. “I think that’s the first time i’ve heard you moan…it was like a fucking melody.” 63. “I really want to kiss you right now.”            “Then do it.” 64. “You’re not taking me to bed. ever.”            “Who said it had to be on the bed?” 65. “She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but i bet behind closed doors she’s latex and whips.” 66. “Ah, he’s playing hard-to-get. that’s cute.” 67. “For the love of fuck.”             “Yep, that’s me. I love to fuck.” 68. “How do i look?” 69. “Would you reconsider if i was sober?” 70. “I’m sure i can get some kind of sexual gratification just from staring at him if i try hard enough.” 71. “Don’t fucking touch what is not yours.” 72. “You don’t need to cover up the bruises/hickeys.” 73. “I’m not sure if its a sexual thing or not.” 74. “We’re…..just friends.” 75. “Friends don’t do this kind of shit!” 76. “How quickly can you cum?” 77. “There’s people here.”              “I know.” 78.“I don’t care what you do just fuck me.” 79. “Fuck you.”              “I’m up for it if you are.” 80. “Don’t ruin the sofa.”              “I'll just have to cum inside you then.” 81. “Stop dancing like that or i’m going to cum in my pants.” 82. “I’m not going to touch you unless you beg.” 83. “You cant tease me like that and expect not to be punished.” 84. “I’m gonna strangle you.”              “Is that a promise?” 85. “You look a bit tied up, want me to come back later?” 86. “Stop distracting me.” 87. “Were you touching yourself?” 88. “I know they’re just stuffed animals but doesn’t it feel weird? its like they’re watching us.” 89. “That’s probably the fastest i’ve ever done that.” 90. “Please, remind me again why we’re having sex behind a tree?” 91. “I know for a fact that you can be a hell of a lot louder than that.” 92. “We’ve been at it like rabbits, how are you still horny?!” 93. “It was so worth the injury though!” 94. “Saddle up doll.” 95. “Did you just look me up and down and then bite your lip? ‘Cause if you did we’re having sex. Right now.” 96. “Your ass is going to be seven different shades of red after that little stunt.” 97. “God damn it, now all i can think about right now is you licking my cock like its that ice cream cone.” 98.“If i have to pull over, you wont be able to walk for the next week.” 99. “Do you think they can hear us through the tent?”                 “Yes we can.” 100. “What are you doing in my bed?!”

[deanwinchestermydaddy]

TO SEE YOU AGAIN (DEAN WINCHESTER STORY) PART. 17

*credits to the owner of the GIF

Dean's POV:

Everyone had left and me and Y/n were in our room. She got under the covers and turn off the light, "I'm sorry" I said and I felt her move to face me, "for what Dean? You haven't done anything wrong" she said, "for what I did to you and Ellie years ago," I said and she took a deep breath, "look Dean I forgave you for what you did, I shouldn't have pushed you to go to your parent's house that day, I should have let you stay at the house and go out with your friends at the bar," she said looking down, "why didn't you divorce me?" I asked I wanted to know more, "I love you Dean, my love for you didn't let me and when I saw you with our daughter the divorce papers were long forgotten and you said that you wanted to change for her, for us and you did," she said as she smiles and I cupped her face and kissed her. Then we went to sleep with her on my arms the way that I always wanted it to be.

~NEXT MORNING~

I woke up with her beside me, "Good morning Sweetheart " I said as I pulled her closer to me and kissed her, "morning" she said wrapping her arms around my neck kissing me softly on the lips, suddenly someone jumps onto the bed, "MOMMY! DADDY!" Ellie said as she gets between the both of us and hugging us, 'I really love this, my family with the woman I love' I thought, "I'm hungy mommy" Ellie said as she was resting on my chest with her tiny arms around me, "well little lady get down to the kitchen and wash your hands so we can start making breakfast, okay?" Y/n asked her, "YAY! PANCAKES!" Ellie run out screaming while I laugh at her antics, "that child is wild" Y/n said chuckling as I stare at her she looks so beautiful, "hey Sweetheart do monsters exist, you know like real ones. Like the ones we hunt?" I said and she looked at me weirdly, "Dean what are you talking about? We don't hunt, you have never been on a hunt or hold a gun on your entire life and no monsters don't exist unless you count the ones from the movies, why are you asking?" she said as she sat next to me on the edge of the bed, "what about Djinn's?" I asked her, "Djinns? What is that Dean, were you watching those Sci-Fi movies in the middle of the night again, baby?" she said and I looked at her weirdly, "I... it most be that sweetheart, I need to stop doing that " I said as she rubbed my back, "C'mon we should get going before your kid tries to make pancakes and burns the kitchen" she said as she pulled me with her towards the door and the stairs, "just my kid huh?" I said and she chuckles, "yeah your kid lover boy, " she said as we continue down the stairs, "I like the sound of that, " I said putting my arms around her waist.

~HOURS LATER~

"Dean remember we will have dinner at your parents at 8 so get ready because that will be in 40 minutes and they live 30 minutes away," she said as she approaches me from behind on the couch placing her hands around my neck to rest them on my chest, "Okay sweetheart," I said as I got up and pulled her towards me and kissed her, "I left your clothes on the bed, Bae, oh and the kids are ready so we are just waiting for you," she said as she was fixing her earrings on the mirror.

We soon arrived at my parent's house, the one that was supposed to be just ashes years ago, but it wasn't, Y/n was carrying Tony, while I had Ellie on my arms. As we enter I see my mom, dad, Sam, and Jess.

"How are you dear?" my dad asked Y/n and she smile and hugged him, "good John what about you?" she said and he just smiled at her, "better now that my grandkids are here, C'mon let me help you with the little man," he said taking my son from her arms and he started to do baby voices to him and took Ellie's hand as I put her down on the floor.

Soon we started to have dinner as the kids were sleeping, "so when are you going back to the hospital Y/n?" my dad asked, "well probably in a few months then I think I will become part-time to spend time with the kids" she said smiling then looking at me, "that's great, but you know we can take care of them. We love listening to some noise in the house is just really quiet and the kids bring us happiness" he said and Y/n nodded, "thank you so much I am glad we decided to move here and not stay in California" she said, "Hey! What's wrong with California Y/n?" Sam said acting offended, "nothing Sam-squash, it just that we don't have any family there that was going to help us with the kids," she said and Sam just opened his mouth and acted offended, "wow! Y/n wow! I feel offended" he said joking and Jess playfully slapped him, "Y/n is right. What! were you going to take Little Ellie to your lectures of 3 hrs?" she asked and Sam looked down and gave a thin smile, "okay the nurse was right as most of the time" he said and everyone laughs. Then it hit me, this wasn't real at all, my parents and Jess weren't alive, Y/n and I weren't married with kids, everything was made from my imagination thanks to the Djinn. The Djinn that we were hunting.

"This isn't real!" I said loud and all of them stopped and looked at me, "this is real Dean" Y/n said trying to calm me down as I stood up from the table, "mom do you still have the sterling silver knife?" I asked and she nodded and pointed into the kitchen, "what are you planning Dean?" I heard Y/n said and footsteps behind me, "this isn't real!" I said again looking for the silver knife, "this is real Dean we have a family Ellie and Tony are our kids!" Y/n said with tears on her eyes, then I see a flash of what happened to me ' I was walking around the abandoned warehouse when suddenly I am pinned to the wall by the Djinn and he runs his hand through my hair then I woke up here' I remembered everything, "you can live a normal life, no hunting, no demons just happiness Dean" Sam said moving closer as I pointed the knife towards me, "you don't have to do that dean, you are happier here" Jess said as her, my mom and dad approach me.

" C' mon bae our kids need you, I need you!" Y/n pleaded, "no, no this isn't real!" I said as I pressed the knife into my chest a little, "daddy?" that voice made everyone turn towards the kitchen door to see my daughter rubbing her sleepy eyes, "mommy what is daddy woing?" she said and Y/n looked with desperation, "jess take her away from here!" she said trying to remain calm, "I'm sorry princess but I have to go cause you're not real" I said as I stab myself in the chest, the last thing I heard was Y/n screaming before everything went dark.

Y/n POV:

~ 2 days before ~

"hey, Sam-squash!" I said walking inside of the motel that the 3 of us were staying, "hey shorty" he said making me laugh, "hey careful Sammy, I am the only one allowed to call her that" Dean said as he walked from the bed to the table chair on which Sam had all the research of the hunt that we were doing, "so tell me Samster what are we hunting?" I said as I was going to sit down in the chair next to Dean but he pulled me to his lap, "can you guys keep it PG, this is where we eat!" Sam said as he started to fake gag as Dean kissed me, "This is all PG Sammy, in the bed that is rated R" Dean said and I playfully slapped him on the chest, "okay can we continue about the case please" I said and Dean looked at me and pointed at Sam, "he started" he said and I chuckle, "really mature Dean, really mature. Well Y/n it seems that it is a Djinn" he said and I nodded, "do we know where it is?" I asked, "yeah it seems that he is on an abandoned warehouse," he said and I nodded 'oh boy don't I love to kill the things that almost killed me' I thought, "we all should go to get some drinks before we kill that son of a bitch," Dean said and we all nodded.

We were at the bar and I brought the beers to the table and I took my place next to Dean, " I am damn lucky to have a hot chick like you!" he said kissing my cheek and pulling me closer to him as we all finished our drinks, "then we should get going 'cause the 'party' will be tomorrow" I said as the 3 of us walked out of the bar towards Baby.

The following day we went to that warehouse all of us went into different directions, "be careful, alright Dean I need you here with me" I said to Dean and kissed him, "sure thing sweetheart I'll be crazy to leave you" he said winking at me as he walked into the direction that he was supposed to enter the warehouse.

Dean's POV:

~PRESENT~

"Dean! Dean baby please wake up" I feel a hand holding my face, "Sam I found him!" she screams and I hear footsteps, "dammit Dean please don't leave me" I felt her took things from my body. My eyelids fluttered open and I see Y/n's teary eyes I smile weakly at her, "hey... Y/n..." I said as I groan, "yeah baby I'm here" she said as she tries to get me off the thing that I was on, "I know it is a really bad time but hey, what the hell, I want you to know that... you're one hot-sexy hunter and a hot mama" I said winking at her and she just shakes her head as Sam approached us, "Hey, hey" he said as I looked at him, "Oh, Auntie Em" I said still hallucinating as they try help me get off the things, "there's no place like home" I said as they were still trying to free me.

As Sam was undoing the ropes from my arms Y/n was taking those things on my arms when I suddenly see the Djinn, "Sam!" I said and soon the Djinn attacked him while Y/n continue to untie me but soon Sam was un the floor unconscious and as he tries to run his hands through his hair Y/n reacted and tackle him, she tried to stab him but he pinned her to the wall the to the stair knocking her silver knife to the floor. I try to pull the ropes and I was able to free myself and run to where the Djinn had Y/n pinned and was choking her, she had one of her hands trying to stop him from choking her and the other trying to stop him from putting her into the state that I was.

I picked up the knife and stabbed him in the back and he stopped choking Y/n as he falls to the ground. I looked at Y/n while she catches her breath, "are you, okay sweetheart?" I asked her and she just hugged me tight, "I will never let you go alone without back up, okay, I can't lose you, Dean," she said as she kissed my lips and I felt my legs gave out but she was able to hold me, "I got you don't worry," she said reassuring me as Sam woke up rubbing his head, "is it dead?" he asked and me and Y/n nodded, "great let's go," he said and the three of us walked out of the warehouse.

Sam went in the back to lay down while Y/n placed me on the passenger side while she drives back to the Bunker, "just rest your eyes baby" she said as she squished my hand telling that everything will be okay. She turned the radio on and the song that started represented what I saw. The song that was playing was 'What is and What should never be' by Led Zeppelin and I slowly started to fell asleep as I saw her glance at me as she drove and sign the song softly.

[blacklacefanfics]

Tag Game

I was tagged by @folieassdeux - I think this is my first time being tagged in something like this so yay!

rules: answer 17 questions and tag people you want to get to know better

nickname: i just go by blacklace or something on here

zodiac sign: libra- but I don’t fit the characteristics for the sun sign in any way??

height: 5'7″

hogwarts house: ravenclaw

last thing i googled: im pretty sure it was that rumor going around about how writing in comic sans makes you write better??

song stuck in my head: “Sugar Daddy” - Hedwig and the Angry inch; i haven’t seen the musical or movie, but im obsessed with this song (esp NPH’s version)

following: 172

followers: 63

amount of sleep i get: I try to get at least 8 hrs, but usually either 6 or 10 depending on how exhausted i am

lucky numbers: 7, 13

dream job: film director, screenwriter- i want to make something as amazing as Good Omens one day

wearing: Gir pajama pants and Kiki’s delivery service shirt

favorite songs: anything classic or hard rock (queen, ACDC, etc)

instruments: i used to play piano and guitar but im not a music person so

random fact: I decided to make my chosen middle name a (unusual) female name because of the headcanon that crowley has a female middle name because he’s genderfluid

aesthetics: witch outfits,vibrant colors, peaceful nature, lots of different styles i all like that dont fit together lol

People I tag- no need to do this if you don’t want to, but these are interesting people that i love to see on tumblr:

@nerdstrings @gingerhaole @sweathands @obliviousaziraphale @cliopadra @10yrsyart

[mugglebornandproud]

Favorite Ron and Hermione Fanfiction

They’re all amazing, but the first ones will definitely give you all the feels!

#3,4,7,9,10,14,15,16,17,18 are still being updated

all multi-chaptered except #23

1.Right Here

“All’s fair in love and war. And this is a little bit of both.” The story of Ron and Hermione post-Deathly Hallows.

OK this one contains a lot of fluff, so if you feel like reading something sweet, this story is for you.

2.Faultlines

Breaking up is hard to do, but Ron and Hermione are about to discover that putting the pieces back together is even harder. This story was nominated in 5 categories and Winner of “Best Angst Fic” at the 2008 Ron/Hermione Awards on LiveJournal.

If you are in the mood to read a long, but really long story filled with so much angst, read this one! It is really really good.

3.Penalties

AU. Ron and Hermione are best friends and flatmates. No magic! Except from the magical love of R/Hr.

Cute, with some angst but a really great story. I stopped studying for my finals to finish the story.

4.The Missing Piece

A young woman saves Ron from being murdered and throws his world into chaos. Who is she? Why has Ron never met her? AU but attempts to stick to some elements of canon.

Everyone needs to go read this story, it is seriously one of the most fluffy and angsty stories out there, I can’t even explain how good it is. You will have a lot of Ron and Hermione feels. Just please read it!!!

5.Leaning Slightly to the Left

Hermione’s life is not what she expected it to be and she doesn’t know how to change it. Will moving back to what she knows help? Or is she pinning all her hopes on a dream that ended years before?

Oh goodness, this story can rip your heart out.

6.Making Memories

Three years ago, Hermione removed herself from Ron’s memory. Now, the spell is broken and Ron is bloody hacked off about it. But could Hermione have good reasons for what she did, reasons that might mean the difference between life and death?

This one is a mystery, a really cute one, I really recommend it.

7.Mission Impossible

Auror Weasley must make sure everything is safe for a wedding. Hermione’s wedding.

8.Closer

Everything is returning to normal after the War. But when it comes to Ron and Hermione, the word ‘normal’ doesn’t really apply. And with the world around them still in pieces, will they rebuild it together, or will they find it difficult just to stay together when there’s so so much left unsaid? Book 1 in the There Is a Light Series.

Ok, everyone must read this story. This story will make you cry! I guarantee it! This story has so much angst and you HAVE to be patient while reading it because it has a lot of flashbacks but those flashbacks are so important and this story is so well written, there is just one thing I disliked about it but I can’t tell you because it will kill it for you. Even though this story is now completed I honestly haven’t reviewed the last chapter and not because I’ve been to lazy to do so but because I seriously haven’t gotten over what happened. And I honestly need time, it is such a stupid reason but to me it meant a lot, but everyone should really go read it, I’ve never cried so much with a story, the author is brilliant.

9.Laws Change Lives

Set at end of HBP. As the ministry falls further under Voldemorts control a new law is passed, forcing Hermione into a life she wasn’t ready for. How will it affect the horcrux hunt and the fight against Voldemort? rated M for minor adult themes, nothing too crazy.

This one is very fluffy and sweet, it’s a good read.

10.Anxious

Hermione’s anxiety takes a hold of her and threatens to get in the way of her slow and developing relationship with Ron. He is the only one who can pull her out of her own head long enough to finally let go.

Really good and smutty lol.

11.Stitches

“I’m going. Alone,” Hermione said, leaving no room for Ron to argue. One night, so long ago now it seemed, really had changed everything.

12.Daddy

Post Hogwarts: Ron and Harry are sent to America for Auror training. Ron spends his last night in England with Hermione, and after returning two years later, he finds Hermione with a fifteen-month-old baby …

Really cute, loved it, one of the first stories I read, doesn’t follow DH.

13.Scenes from Shell Cottage

This fic is a series of missing moments from the time H/R&H were at Shell Cottage, beginning immediately after they Disapparated from Malfoy Manor.

This one is so fluffy!!!! So cute and romantic.

14.To Kingdom Come

He was Ron and she was Hermione. And they had survived. What else could possibly bother to exist outside of them? Rated M. The 19 year gap between the last chapter and the epilogue.

Very fluffy oh goodness it is very cute.

15.The Other Side of Life

Hermione Granger grew up in the Muggle World hiding her magical ability from those around her. That all changes when Ron Weasley, Auror, makes an interesting discovery while on a case. AU but keeping with the books.

Very cute and smutty.

16.A Family Comes in Different Forms

Set right after the Second Wizarding War. Harry and Ron have just become Auror’s, and Harry has taken Teddy into his home. But when Harry goes missing, who is left to take care of Teddy? Ron, with the help of Hermione, is forced to pick up the broken pieces, bringing the new couple only closer together. Rated M for some adult content.

Cute.

17.Australia

Ron grieves the loss of his brother and tries to figure out life after the war while trying to navigate his new relationship with Hermione.

18.Daddy’s Little girl

Captain Ron Weasley and his team are the best Aurors the Ministry has. But when one of the missions goes wrong Ron finds himself straddled with the last thing he ever expected. AU Not Deathly Hallows Compliant.

19.Sharing Sleep

Missing moments: All of the times that Ron and Hermione fell asleep together, from book 1 to book 7.

fluffy!

20.Questions

Three days after the final battle at Hogwarts, Ron and Hermione begin a game of questions…

21.The time in between

This is a look at the developing relationship between Hermione and Ron set during the Deathly Hallows.

Fluff

22.Moments of Love

A collection of humorous and sweet moments from the months when Ron and Hermione are expecting baby Rose.

Soo cute, also one of my first stories I read, dealing with Hermione’s pregnancy.

23.Something Normal

Another tent-oneshot with Ron and Hermione.

So adorable!!!! ALL THE FEELINGS.

[botseeksbot]

21 questions game: Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to know better.

Tagged by: @patentprotection 💖💖

Nickname(s): Cecil [i dont rly have nicknames for like the 1st time w ths name]

Zodiac Sign: Aries

Height: 4′11"

Hogwarts House: :[

Last thing I googled: spy cosmetics fjdjdkendjdjdjfjgj

Favorite Musicians: the decemberists, LSD, AJJ, kesha, hozier, suddenly can not remember anyone i listen to

Song stuck in my head: Daddy Didnt Love Me by AJJ 😣

Following: 61

Followers: 31 on main + 25 on tf2 sideblog

Do you get asks: only like frm Bruce

Amount of sleep: uh like 8 hrs ig on average . i cant sleep past 9 tho no matter when i go to bed

Lucky number: 3 / 5 / 9 / 11

What are you wearing: t shirt i made in my high school's gsa, denim jacket i got in the Philippines, and jeans

Dream Job: i used to say comic artist but im rly feeling tattoo artist lately

Dream Trip: i wanna go back to the Philippines or just a roadtrip across the US

Random Fact: im a twin, i cant blow bubbles w gum, i have a phobia[?] of the dark, uhh . yeah

Instruments: trumpet

Languages: english . i know basic spanish frm school

Favorite Songs: uh . i was meant for the stage - decemberists, rejoice - ajj, breaker - saints motel, uhhhhh u know

Aesthetic: religious imagery, nature, city skylines, neon lights, uhh pixel art idk if tht counts, literally dont know . knives .

idk who has and hasnt done ths so if u havent and want to u can say i tagged u >__< im gonna tag @tripleprey tho

[maharanis]

~22 Questions~

I was tagged by @caramelcosmiclatte - thank you! 💖

Rules: simply answer the following 22 q’s and then tag 22 (or however many) people you’d love to get to know more!

Nickname/s: none really atm (starbucks baristas & my few longtime fandom friends may call me Ani)

Zodiac Sign: Gemini (sun) ; Virgo (moon)

Height: 5′4″

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw!

Last thing I googled: "lavender fields in Provence” (in prep for my summer trip)

Favorite musician/s: A LOT but mainly: Florence + the Machine, Hozier (rn), a lot of 80s-90s nostalgic stuff, misc. Bollywood playback singers, film scores

Last movie I saw: Kalank (a Bollywood movie)

Song stuck in my head: Come As You Are by Nirvana

Following now: Star Wars, misc. history/period dramas, Bollywood celebs & films, The Folk of the Air (!!), food/recipe blogs

Following: ~300ish

Do I get asks: not as often as I used to (this site has def died down since the tits purge)

Amount of sleep: 6-8 hrs in general

Lucky number: idk if I have one...as a kid, I always liked 12

What I’m wearing: PJs! (an oversized tshirt & comfy pants)

Dream job: to be the next Anthony Bourdain

Dream trip: I’m lucky to have already been on what was my childhood dream trip (a safari in Tanzania), but I guess New Zealand / Japan / Angkor Wat / Bora Bora are like the ultimate next spots that I’d love to go to if given time & money.

Favorite food: LOTS...pizza 🍕(neapolitan or detroit style), yakhni pulao, garlic naan, dim sum, & a good boozy southern-style brunch

Instruments: piano

Languages: English, Konkani, Marathi, basic French, a lil Hindi, & a lil Turkish

Favorite song/s: rn?? Movement by Hozier, Con Calma by Daddy Yankee (lol), & the entire Gully Boy soundtrack

Random fact: I used to be a private event bartender and enjoy coming up with my own cocktail recipes (sometimes fandom themed!)

Aesthetic: floral perfumes. crowded bowls of fruits on the counter. gemstone hues. coffee & chai full of richness & depth. used hardcover books & old dvds on display. cinnamon & brown sugar, baking. candles, incense, & soft things. cobblestone streets lined with cafes. breathing in the fresh salty sea air. wine & charcuterie. dogs taking over more than half the bed. birdsong and dewy mornings. planes, trains, & automobiles. (i tried.)

tagging: pretty much anyone who wants to do this :)

[chevrefoildreams]

6 months!

Anne is officially 6 months old today! She’s been doing all sorts of new things and really turning into her own little person.

She has a pretty set routine right now. She’s up around 6 AM and has her bottle. She is generally awake and playing a bit until around 10 AM when she gets hungry and has her second bottle. After that bottle, she’s usually tired and takes a short nap (45 min to 1 hr) and then is up and wanting to do things until her afternoon bottle and nap around 2 pm. She usually up and active again by 3:30 or 4; I have all of my evening duties for dinner prep and pet feeding between 4 and 6 pm so I let her chill in her pack n’play with some toys or watch me cook in the kitchen in her bouncer. I’m working converting the “dinner” bottle to baby food, so she usually gets a jar or pouch around 6 pm. She likes to hang out with her dad then and play more until around 8 or 9 when she gets a small bedtime bottle and generally falls asleep for the night.

She can roll from tummy to back and back to tummy! As a result, she now sleeps on her tummy or side most of the time -- which the doctor says is perfectly OK since she can roll well. 

She’s starting to scoot a bit, precursor to crawling.

She loves playing with blankets and little plastic teething rings...and her stuffed Caterpillar. 

She adores playing peekaboo with herself by pulling a blanket over her face and then removing it. 

She is very chatty and loves to try to “talk” to us.

She wishes she could feed herself and sits well in a high chair.

She is starting to get separation anxiety if mommy leaves the room or drops her off with her grandparents.

She is overjoyed to see daddy when he gets home from work and loves playing silly games with him.

She likes going out and about - and watching everything!

She’s no longer such a baldy! She has a nice little cap of hair now and it’s continuing to grow.

She cut her first tooth a week or two ago!

We really lucked out; she’s an easy and extremely happy baby (although she does have her moments!). Although I was anticipating that we would likely have an easy-going baby as both my husband and myself were easy babies. I adore her more than I ever imagined you could love a person. While it can be hard and tiring at times, she always knows how to bust out a smile and melt my heart.

[stvnrgr]

About me tag

Alrighty, so I was tagged by @mei-chan28 thanks so much!! Let’s hope I actually post this somewhat on time..

Nicknames: so many oh my god. Kenzie, Kenz, ken ken, mac, Mac daddy (it’s a weird story, actually not really), k-bear, the list goes on and on and on...

Zodiac: Libra

Height: like 5’ 8” I think

Time: noon

Fav band/artist: ugh I’m terrible at picking favs, maybe maroon 5 (I know like all of their songs) or logic or jaymes young idk

Songs stuck in my head: Youngblood by 5 seconds of summer (it’s been on the radio A LOT ok)

Last movie I saw: One flew over the cuckoo’s nest (pretty good, I loved when mcmurphy started laughing like crazy it was so funny to me idk why, anyway)

Last thing I googled: Charlie countryman (I’d heard so many people talking about it on here so I was like imma find out cuz I’m such a good detective)

Other blogs: nope

Do I get asks: Like close to never

Why did I choose my username: um I love cap and all of his movies (fight me on this) plus infinity war was coming up so..

Following: SO MANY oh my god (1753)

Avg amount of sleep: Like 6-8 hrs depending on the day

Lucky numbers: I don’t really have any actually

What I’m wearing: weird but ok, just a t shirt and shorts

Dream job: something with science and math, preferably with space too

Dream trip: um I guess anywhere in south/Latin America or maybe Japan or something, just really anywhere I haven’t been before

Fav food: again, I’m SO bad at picking favs, but just the basics I guess like Mexican, Italian and Chinese

Play any instruments: we had to learn the recorder in elementary and I learned how to play the dulcimer for about a month

Hair color: dirty blond

Eye color: it‘s a mix of brown and dark green so hazel i guess

Fav song: AH why do I have to choose so many favorites this is why this won’t be finished on time maybe habits of my heart by jaymes young or black SpiderMan by logic idk that’s what I like listening to now

Languages I speak: English (native), Spanish, bits and pieces of German, and I’m currently learning Russian, Romanian, French and Esperanto (it’s supposedly the language of the future) on Duolingo cuz I can’t choose which one to stick with so the best solution obviously is just to learn all of them

Random fact: although I’m half Latina, I still look completely white curse that damn melatonin

Describe your fantasy: what does this even mean?? I’m not even gonna try

To whom it may concern, thanks for not completely scrolling past this long ass post, so I will be tagging (idk how many people I have to tag): @bonitobucky @heythereghouligans @anastiel @caelestialle @holy-captain @bistevebucky @common-bluebell @buckyshumanarm @marvelstan1227 @cevans-sebby @jewishcap @hooked-onfandoms and again it’s open to whoever else is crazy enough to complete this loooooong post (if you actually stayed till the very end of this post, here’s a gold star for you 🌟)

[actualvarric]

ask meme

tagged by: @saltyshiro the love of my entire life (she’s never going to tag me in anything else ever again after this)

Nicknames: my name (Bailey), my last name, an abbreviation of my last name, Peanut (by my mom), Big Daddy (my name in one of my best friend’s phones) 

Gender: nonbinary/transmasculine (they/them)

Star sign: Leo (like, nya, y’know?)

Height: 5′4 with the confidence of a 6′3 adult man

Sexuality: Bisexual

Hogwarts house: Slytherin even though i am literally the least ambitious person i know

Favorite animal: panda, red panda, cat, anything fuzzy and huggable. also komodo dragons. they fall under huggable, if not necessarily fuzzy.

Av. hrs spent sleeping: at least 7 hours 30 minutes but I try to get 8+ (it’s a problem, i will oftentimes procrastinate by just.......sleepin’)

Dogs or cats: cats. don’t like the texture of a lot of dog hair. and dog smell. sorry ‘bout it.

No. of blankets: Comforter and sheets on bed, extra blanket during the winter. Mandatory blanket on the couch, too. Actually, if you see me without a blanket somewhere on my frame there’s something wrong.

Dream trip: France (and I’m going there this summer!) and New York

Dream job: Any kind of teaching but I think it’d be cool to be like a fashion designer, too. Maybe like a physics/math-based fashion designer. Hit all the bases. Any kind of art-math mashup. (I’m a math education major in college)

When I made this account:  my archive goes back to january 2014 but i feel like it’s been longer?? anyway 4 years is a lot i can’t believe i’m still here on this hellsite tbh

Why I made this account: that’s a good fuckin’ question ain’t it? I honestly have no idea. Fandom?? Humor??? Who knows 🤷🏻‍♂️ poor young bailey didn’t know what they were getting into

Followers: 458 (more than half of which are porn blogs but we’re not going to talk about those) (i love you all with my entire heart)

i tag: @nowherebear , @gallium-yttrium-polonium-radon, @donnie--barko , @the-majestic-pterodactyl-senpai and @anuninterestingperson :)

[princess-bork-blog]

Get to know me!

I have been tagged by @cheerfullittlecub

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 followers you would like to get to know better.

🐻 Name: "Lulu” (Not my real name, but thats what i go by here)

🐻 Nickname: Daddy calls me “Little One”a lot

🐻 Zodiac sign: Scorpio

🐻 Height: 5'6

🐻 Orientation: Pansexual

🐻 Nationality: American

🐻 fruits: Blackberries

🐻 Fav season: Auntumn and Spring

🐻 Fav scent: Rain and Lilacs!!

🐻 Fav colour: A soft minty green

🐻 Fave animals: All of them Dogs, cats, snakes, rabbits, ferrets,geckos and red pandas

🐻 Coffee, tea, hot 🍫: Hot chocolates

🐻 Average hrs of 💤: 8-9 because i’m a super cranky butt if i don’t get enough sleep

🐻 Fav fictional character: I have soooo mannyy!  But for now i’ll say Leafpool from Warrior Cats

🐻 No. of blankets you 💤 with: Usually just one, i get too hot otherwise

🐻 Dream trip: Japan! And Ireland. And now Englang, so i can visit my Daddy lol.

🐻 Blog created: I honestly don’t remember but i wanna say like March?

I am going to tag….

@babyslytherin @nilawaffers

[itsjusta]

Dec. 14 (Monday)

Today was an okay day, I attended one class and I finished 1 of khalid’s task and I got so tired na after dat hahah i also cried when i saw vids of u manyahing to me doe cos i super love that side of u but dugay na au ko wala kakita ana nga side :( its so hard gihapon doe when reality hits nga there are things gyd nga last na diay, di na gyd mabalik. ever since we buwag u became so cold na to me huh like a stone!! and i miss u being manya gyd doe i just miss a lot of things gyd from before and its so sakit na i will never experience them again :((

Listened also to Sa Susunod na Habang Buhay doeee and i cried also becos i think that i will still choose to love you even in another life and i hope in that other life, you will also choose me too. You may not have chosen me in this life, but I hope you choose me in the next.

Dec. 15 (Tuesday)

Dugay au ko ka sleep gabii mga 1 hr pako nag piyong2 and sayo dayon ko kamata wala ra nag 8 hrs ako sleep aish not nice ako morning 🤦🏻‍♀️

I had a dream of us doe niadto kuno ta camiguin and grabe imo pananghid sa imo gf but nisugot ra sya 😂 but nakamata nako before pa ta ka adto sato stayhan kay floating house man to hahhah

did u know gisunod mi ug tawag ni irian sa class ni ma’am jam 🤦🏻‍♀️ gi chattan ko ni gicil nag laff daw sila kay sunod gyd mi ahhahaha and nag laff pd sila kyle ug mark huh!!!! hahahah feel nako gina tuyo jd ni sa world

today was another boring, long day doe. i just watched teen wolf again and i dont even have gana to talk even with claire doe hayst i have no gana also to acads 😔 i just realized my days have become extra lonely now cos i just really watch lang netflix, i dont play na with my friends or talk to my friends doe

had short crying sessions today aish i think i cry everyday na gyd cos maka cry gyd ko even at the smallest things nga makaparemind saimo doe or saato past doe and sometimes my thoughts betray me cos it keeps going back to the past i’m like an idiot gyd

Dec. 16 (Wed)

I had a good sleep doeee my morning was nice and naka attend ko class cos nakamata man ko aishhh but my dream was not nice issa it was u telling me not to samok2 u na 🥺

but i had a good day doe and a lot of ganap also i chika na to u dis about the groupings hahha sorry i always rant to u i feel like ure kapoy to listen to me raba :(( huhu but its okay doe i just want to let my emotions out u dont have to listen well na hahah

i’m still anxious na they will not bali2 us na gyd doeee aish imbis now rako naay group of friends na and mawala dayon becos of this :(( it was really hard for me to do esp becos i know they will be hurt but i really dont wanna miss the opportunity also huhu i did it for myself lang gyd doeee

Dec. 17 (Thurs)

I slept in mom’s room gabii cos dugay au ko ka sleep doe but dugay man gyapon ko ka sleep there 🤦🏻‍♀️ but i woke up nicely man gihapon and i had a productive morning. i read module 1 of psy 15 and answered the forum doeee but i cried in the afternoon 🤡

also i shud stop overthinking doe if u not online for a long time doe its so samok cos im worrying and overthinking and ikaw there maybe ga laag2 and happy2 🤦🏻‍♀️ i’m just making myself luoy doe i shud stop caring sooo much cos it just hurts me doe but my mind is an idiot gyd it betrays me

it’s so hard for me to stop my negative thinking patterns doe das why i cry so easily and das why i get so frustrated with myself because i cant even stop my thoughts from hurting myself. i just want to have a life na i dont overthink about you doeee cos its such a torture to me na mag think pa saimo when i know happy naman ka there

i know i’ve been beating up myself a lot these past few months but i know i have no one else to blame but myself. i noticed also i’ve been saying sorry a lot more and i’m so ashamed na to let out my emotions. idk doe its been really hard for me thats why i wish i wont give up on myself gyd bsag sometimes i already want to.

i also chatted in our gc doe the one with aljane, claire, cheyenne, and deanne but they just seen me hahah aishh i wont pugos na doe if they dont wanna be friends na its just 1 year nalang kapin i can survive na this without friends

i decided that i want to try online counseling doe because i’m really struggling and i think i need help but the ones i found kay naay bayad 😔 i tried signing up but its so mahal 😔😔 i also searched for medications to make you happy doe but i think dili ni ma buy over the counter 😔

i cried again becos i was so disappointed in myself doe daddy asked me to order in chowking and he was being wala klaro and i got mad doe i raised my voice again and didn’t bali2 him na dayon and i got so disappoiinted becos i didnt control my emotions again. its the first time we interacted in like a week doe becos for the past week after the dentist one, i’ve been ignoring him and acting like he doesnt exist doe and i think its better that way because if we interact i just get mad. this also why i wanna have a therapy doeee

Dec. 18 (Fri)

thank u for helping me surprise mom doe!! even though i cried like an hour before i slept happy doe cos i got to see u and talk to u sa vc bsag 5 mins lang heheh

also had a nice day cos its mom’s bday maaaan sad lang na wala ikaw doe :( i know u wanted gyd to go but so lisod gyd huhu i just hope u can go to my bday gyd :((

i also turned off na my active status sa messenger doe so i cant see if you’re online or not cos i see na offline ka for a long time it just makes me overthink about what you’re doing and stuff like that hahah so hard to stop my thoughts so its better if i dont know nalang

Dec. 19 (Sat)

went to medina todaaay and laag with my friends doeee it was fun also cos idiot man my friends 🤦🏻‍♀️

Dec. 20 (Sun)

went back na to cdo today doeee just laag with janica and kyla kadjot and then went home and its an uneventful day na dayon doe

alsooo i felt like i was really disturbing u today doe i can feel it in ur replies hehe its okay lang doeee i cant pugos u man to anything and im grateful that u still talk to me but i’m really sorry if i burden you doeee im sorry for everything. i hope youre doing good doeee!!

u always ask me how i am and when i asked u didnt answer me huh but i hope you’re happy and i hope u had a good week 🤗

[artsdonaldson]

gEt To KnOw Me

rules : answer the questions below, to the best of your ability, and tag those you’d like to get to know!

i was tagged by another gemini queen @kneesheee

nicknames : lit don’t have any haha

star sign : gemini

height : 5”2 ???

time now : 00:49

birthday : june 6th

fav artists : well bitches mr h styles, ill love that man til the day i die ,,, another fav is miss lana del rey. ive loads tho tbf but they’re my tops ill never drop

songs i have stuck in my head : Don’t Trust Me! 3OH!3

fav song (playlist) : fr harry styles i love sweet creature and fr lana del rey i love money power glory,,, my fav playlist are my tbt ones

last movie i saw : daddy’s home

last show i watched : i think it was riverdale but before that i watched an australian soap the secret daughter ??? (genuinely just watched it bc one of the songs in a pre-made playlist was in it Fallin’ by Jessica Mauboy)

when did you create your blog? : ah my first tumblr blog i made in my preppy "justgirlythings" phase so maybe like 2012-2013 i don’t have that blog anymore tho i got locked out haha

what do you post : normally just repost fics and post wtev

last thing i googled : used cars SINCE I CAN SOON START LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE YEEHAW

do you have any other blogs : yes hehe

do you get asks : nada ;(

why’d you choose your url : idk tf why did you chose yours ??? (i wanted to make a fan acc for my shows n watnot)

following : acc don’t know

followers : “ “

fav colours : red, white, black n green

av hrs of sleep at night : ah probs 6-8 or more

lucky number : 6 (bc im a cheeky gemini)

waywrn : pj set

how many blankets do you sleep with : a fecking duvet bud

dream trip : idk think id go to hawaii again and paris again and id love to go to australia

fav foods : i have a lot and it shows lmaoooo,,, um any filipino dish honni, id fuck up some mac n cheese , fucking would demolish a big fuck off bowl of corn rn tho

nationality : irish

daz me done lads idk who to tag i feel like everyone i knowz been tagged already so im literally just typin from the group chat xxx @bby-simone @cultreggie @sweetpeasnecktattoo @melancholicserpent @southsidepea @podsquadallofye