#genuinely I cannot stop thinking about this like am I going crazy??? there is literally nothing here
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im genuinely going to be INSUFFERABLE when chapters 3 and 4 come out like you have no idea.
#i cannot BELIEVE i've had the life-threatening deltarune illness for nearly 3 YEARS at this point. thats fucking insane#anyways im literally never gonna shut up about it. you have no idea. and *I* have no idea honestly. this will be the first time im#playing new deltarune content with ALLLLLLLL of this shit in mind. i played chp 2 as someone who was obsessed w chp 1 in middle school#on a very surface level. and ofc we had so much less then that the theory landscape was COMPLETELY different so even if i had#been aware of that side of things as a kid it wouldnt have made much of a difference probably. but these chapters will be an#ENTIRELY different experience that i am in NO way prepared for. like ive NEVER been invested in something like i am in deltarune#and ive never been SO deep in a theory community like i am in deltarune's. but that only rlly happened after chp 2#the sweepstakes was like a little taste of whats to come. but 3&4 will be a whole new experience that might genuinely kill me i think#im gonna take 80 years to get through them and even then im still gonna miss a billion things on my playthrough#me playing chp 2 like WAHHHH DELTARUNE THIS IS SO FUN vs me playing the new chapters completely locked in eyes 1 inch from the screen#scrutinizing every single pixel and reading into every word of dialogue for 30 minutes per line#im very scared about how my decision making's gonna go though. cuz these will be the first chapters where im playing them aware of#the player-kris distinction. before i could just chill and choose whatever i want but now i fear im just gonna get stunlocked#for sure im going to spend hours agonizing over which thing to choose trying to determine what i think kris would do. even tho#it probably doesnt matter. anyways i need to stop escaping to tumblr and finish this lets play#im doing the thing where i get too insane over the hyperfixation and have to stop interacting with it bcuz im going too crazy#serena.txt
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Keep seeing people shipping that one apprentice lady and Sabine together and I want to take them by the shoulders and say. Look. You deserve better. You deserve better than a ship between an ooc Rebels character and a cardboard box. Do not let the fact that she’s white and skinny you distract you from the fact that her only personality trait is evil. And that by this point in the story Reva had far more complexity to her and yet nobody ships her with anyone. I don’t even know the apprentice lady’s name because that’s how little they put into her. Please. You deserve better lesbian ships. Go read Doctor Aphra and maybe you’ll have a better time
#star wars#this just kinda of bothers me#genuinely I cannot stop thinking about this like am I going crazy??? there is literally nothing here#are people seeing something I’m not???#also I didn’t like Kenobi either but the double standard at play here is just… I don’t like it#sorry not to hate on Ahsoka bc I should be doing better things with my time but like. you know
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I’m still not over Deadpool & Wolverine: WWIII. At all.
(Spoilers, also cw for blood and gore and just. Weird imagery)
There’s SO much stuff that happens in this comic, way more than I am posting here, that really digs deep into why Wade and Logan are so intertwined. They both suffered horribly. They’re both near immortal. They’ll both outlive everything they know. They both have rage that doesn’t ever seem to go away, they just have very different coping mechanisms.
This comic LITERALLY intertwines them, in more than one way.
First example is the one most people talk about, which is the whole thing where Logan cuts off a chunk of his own leg and cooks it for Wade so he has at least something to eat (is it gay to make the decision to cut off a piece of yourself and give it to another man so he has something to eat, even tho you both technically don’t need to eat, it just helps? Who knows)
Second example is the end of the comic, which I wish more people would talk about. While they’re fighting a big bad, Wade gets torn apart. Like… crushed. Into pieces. Past the point where Logan thinks regenerative healing can save him. And Logan is, despite all his complaining of how much he doesn’t like Wade, destroyed. Scared, and as the big bad points out— afraid.

Logan then goes into an absolute blind rage. He’s in pain. He’s scared. He genuinely thinks he lost Wade, and he loses it.


All the while, a small voice can be heard telling him to stop. Begging him to stop. He’s lost control. The antagonists of the comics wanted this, and while Logan is thrashing around they intentionally teleport him in front of a mother and child, fully expecting Wolverine to not tell the difference between friend or foe and kill them. Logan certainly cannot tell what he’s doing at this point. He can hardly see.
And then…

Suddenly, Wade. Because some of Wade’s blood got into Logan, he literally grew OUT of him, just in time to stop him from murdering innocent people. Because Logan had fully lost control. Wade pleads with him to stop, and in the end he literally pulls out one of Logan’s bones and shoves it into his face to get him to actually snap out of it. Afterwards, they have a lot of really good conversation, but to avoid clogging this post more— tldr Wade calms Logan down, and tells him “Nobody can decide we’re monsters but us.” Which… I love.
Later on after the fight, there’s this funny panel (and a few before) where Wade’s like dude we are sharing your ass AND dick rn isn’t that crazy and then yeah he makes the comment about being “in” Logan which. Nice

Anyways crazy b/c by the end of this comic, parts of Logan have literally been inside of Wade (chunk of Logan’s leg eaten by Wade) and ALL of Wade has been in Logan (he fucking grew out of him)
This comic is VERY good go read it if you haven’t
#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool and wolverine wwIII#Deadpool and Wolverine ww3#Deadpool & Wolverine wwIII#Deadpool & Wolverine ww3#just making sure I got the possible names in there lmao#poolverine#Deadpool#Wade Wilson#Wolverine#Logan Howlett#cw: blood#cw: gore
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i literally cannot stop thinking about jean being the epitome of getting no play despite being so fine
like his friend literally clown on him so hard for like being one of the finest guys in their fg but once he starts opening his mouth he repels girls 😭😭 i picture eren and connie being the meanest.
“tbh he’s wasted genetics” “what are you good for bro..” eren is his biggest hater hes like “talking about girls won’t get you a girl man you need to talk to them” and “i can try help you but it would just be a waste of my time” and ITS MESSING HIM UPPP LMAOO WHY AM I BEING SO MEAN TO MY BBY. okay anyways yeah he just gets even more in his head about talking to girls
i don’t even think jean is THAT bad when talking to girls like he’s not rude or gross but more so just SOOOO awkward. like he’s confident bc he knows he is fine but he is also soooo unsure of who he REALLY is and it shows iwl. like he just covers everything he says with sarcasm as a way to avoid being deep and personal. bc jean is so emotional and can really see eachothers emotions and feelings but i think it’s hard for him to be open. it really comes out when he’s talking with girls though he’s like yes i’m so ready to talk to her but he just misses the mark. every. single. time.
“you’re cute, but i know that so it doesn’t even matter”
and bless him bc he’s so happy with himself. but it makes no sense. you’re so puzzled and he’s just looking at your adorable face but then he’s repeating it under his breath bc you look so confused.
“you’re..cute..but..i..know….i..know..?” then the light bulb comes and “oh shit, i meant that you’re cute but you know that so there’s um..no point in me talking to you” and he’s so embarrassed bc it’s equally as shit the og way. but he’s rubbing the back of his neck and avoiding eye contact.
but yk you’re patient you wait it out. you giggle and he’s just becoming more attracted to you bc why wouldn’t he be ! and you lean in to him making him more comfortable and say “it’s nice to be complimented. thank you” and he’s just so happy like he would never admit it but he loves when a girl takes the lead ! your head is slightly tilted you’re looking up at him through your lashes your glossy lips are curving into a smile like he can feel your body and energy next to him and it’s driving him cray cray !
“youre jean right?” you smile “it’s crazy you really do live up to the rumours” you start to giggle again. jean is giggling too just because you are and is ignoring what you just said. until he clocks it and he’s like oh fuck
“my rumours…i have rumours…what..rumours?” rubbing his neck again is clearly a habit for him when he’s nervous. internally, jean is worrying so bad like rumours RUMOURS ?!?! i think jean knows his reputation is a bit um yk divided let’s say ! but he’s genuinely feeling something with you so whatever bad flirting story it is he is literally praying that you still like him.
“that you can’t flirt. for shit. if a gun was pointed at your head you’d break down and tell your family you’ll miss them bc yk you’re going to die“ and jean is relieved there was too many stories that could be used against him but a simple “you can’t flirt” he could live with that.
“oh..yeah..it’s true ! i’m fine but the f in fine doesn’t stand for flirting with girls” he joked, desperately wanting for your approval “who told you you’re fine ? hmm? maybe i just can’t see it ?” you tease but he starts scrambling “i was just um joking mb mb” throwing his hand up and rubbing his neck AGAIN you have him sick lol. “ i was just playin with you jean.. you’re fine…but yk that though so we don’t need to talk”
he shakes his head and starts laughing. you two are a giggly mess. you’re matching his energy PERFECTLY and he’s so down with it “if we can’t talk right now.. can i get your number..” he’s PRAYING on this on you because seriously you match his energy so well and there’s just something so magnetic about you and he just wants more. like he can’t even look at you he is down BAD he’s never waited so anxiously for something in his life
“pass your phone…” he’s fumbling around in all his pockets his hands are sweaty and he’s like juggling his phone just to not drop it. he hands he phone and even if it’s just for a second his hand touch’s yours and you guys are smiling like idiots at eachother. his heart is pounding he’s so nervous around you. “anddd..done…bye bye jean” you chastely kiss his cheek and walk away with a grin plastered all over your face. and as you walk away eren and connie walk in.
“you good man?” and he’s just in shock jaw is wide open hand covering his mouth and he is gripping his phone. he’s just staring at his phone thinking maybe i can flirt… he’s full on reflecting on himself and thinking what the fuck i did it i really did it.. and eren and connie are just shaking him and slapping his face to like break him out of his comatose state LMAOO
but when he starts speaking again and reveals what happened theyre like “I KNEW YOU COULD DO THAT SHIT! lowkey we’ve been sleeping on you man !” and “about fucking time man well done” and the hug that men do follows and there’s even more hyping up after they find out it’s you that he pulled “NAH I DONT BELIEVE IT I DONT BELIEVE IT” connie legit starts jumping up and down he’s hyped and eren he’s like a dad or something patting him on the back and saying “good job” 😭
that was the day jean flirting worked successfully
a/n: gulp this is so scary !! first post..but tell me what you think i’m open to literally any feedback and i hope you enjoyy
#miffy-00#𝜗𝜚#aot#jean#jean kirstein#jean x reader#drabble#he’s so whipped in this i’m dying#i hope you guys enjoyed it#it was so fun writing#eren jaeger#connie springer#i love how you can just say anything in the tags#its so liberating
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sonic movie 3 thoughts (spoilers below for. literally everything basically + these thoughts are very sporadic)
I cannot express into a fully comprehensive english sentence how much I love this movie. I'm not even kidding, I think it's one of my favourite movies... ever! it tops raggedy ann and andy, it tops nimona, it tops deadpool and wolverine, it tops the mario movie, and dare I say my sam and max spinterest may get drowned out because of this movie... I'm never leaving this fandom tho. I am chained here LMAOOO
I absolutely ADORED all the scenes with shadow and maria! the movies highlighted their relationship perfectly, and I loved how shadow and maria looked up at the stars instead of looking down on earth on the ark because well. yknow. points to the arc-shaped hole in the movie. when she died I kinda felt like that video of that hazbin hotel fan crying over angel dust but um! we don't need to talk about that ^_^
also I fucking HATED gerald. I know we're supposed to but like I wanted to punch through the movie screen and choke him istg HE PISSES ME OFFFFF RAAAAAAAAAAAH
ok. normal now I swear. the chao garden! I loved the chao garden, and when team sonic all wears those chao mascot heads 😭😭😭 THEY LOOKED SO STUPID (SLASH POS) I LOVE THEM
also they said. a lot of things a lot of times. half of the time I was telling my mum "THE FUNNY HEDGEHOG SAID THE THING!" even though she has no idea what the fuck I'm talking about LMAOOOO. especially when sonic said "ok hot topic" I know it was in the trailers but I did not expect a snapcube reference
THE MOON SCENE. I AM NOT KIDDING I HAD MY JAW WIDE OPEN. AND THEY ADDED LIVE AND LEARN??? YOU PESKY FILM MAKERS I THOUGHT THEY WEREN'T GONNA BE IN THE MOVIE BUT YOU GOT MEEE YOU GOT ME GOOOOOOD. that scene was genuinely majestic, when the sun rises over the two of them and then shadow grabs his hand and they go super??? hello??? do you want me to go crazy??? (spoiler alert: I went crazy)
eggman and shadows sacrifices did make me a little upset not gonna lie... stone didn't even get to say goodbye properly :(( please let stone enter his villian arc next movie I think he deserves one... at least we know shadows coming back!
speaking of the next movie, AMY AND METAL!!!! I was straight TWEAKING when amy revealed herself. movie amy looks so fucking awesome GRAAAAAAAAAAAH I WILL GO INSANE!!!!! who do you guys think is gonna voice her? for some reason I can't stop thinking of movie amy as british? london being in this movie has corrupted me.... the british are invading yet another territory: my mind.
overall, this movie was so so good and I absolutely cannot wait for the next one! sonic 4 here we come!!!
no, not you episode 3
#sonic movie 3 spoilers#sonic movie 3#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#knuckles the echidna#miles tails prower#gerald robotnik#eggman#GOD I AM ADDING TOO MANY TAGS (I will keep going)#sonadow#hehehe ok anyways#amy rose#metal sonic#stobotnik#JUST MAKE THEM CANON SEGA GOOD LORD
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Rayleigh and Buggy reunion, but Rayleigh is being over the top judgemental about everything, like idk if u are familiar with crazy ex girlfriend the TV show but Rayleigh shows up and acts exactly like Rebecca's mom does. Overcritical of his life choices and dismissive of what he perceives as excuses coming from Buggy, because he knows Buggy's true potential and is annoyed with Buggy not living up to it. He gives Crocodile a once over and goes "is that what you found to replace Shanks with" and moves on and Crocodile doesn't even have a moment to compute the way he was just insulted because Rayleigh has moved on to criticising Mihawk's cooking instead. Worst part is, this all comes from a genuine place of love and care, Rayleigh is legitimately worried sick about his baby clown son of 39 years, but he cannot express that worry without being extremely invasive about everything. Buggy isn't even responding, he just shoots ppl apologetic looks and rolls his eyes when Rayleigh isn't looking because of course he does this obviously Buggy is never good enough for him and Shanks had always been the favourite (you ask Shanks or any other Roger pirate and they will tell you that Buggy is Rayleigh's baby boy and absolute favourite with utmost confidence, too bad the emotional constipation runs in the crew). Dinner is awkward as fuck, because Rayleigh makes attempts at being easygoing but his motherhenning nature irt Buggy shines through, his conviction that Buggy would be happier with Shanks by his side is making him be overcritical of everyone in that dinner and he keeps discussing the good old days and subtly hinting at Buggy that there is still time for him to go back to Shanks....and Buggy looks close to frustrated tears (and everyone agrees, Crocodile has snapped 5 cigars in half with his teeth and Mihawk is 5 seconds away from banging his head on the table).
Just overbearing father Rayleigh being stifling and trying to overcompensate for his shit parenting choices during Buggy's childhood and Buggy having his daddy issues expanded upon (and Crocodile and Mihawk gaining insight to Buggy's entire deal)
"Idk if u are familiar with crazy ex girlfriend the TV sho-" My therapist literally told me to stop watching it so much because it was affecting my mental health. So. Yes. I know the show. It's one of my favorite shows EVER. Rebecca is just like me fr my beloved. All of them my beloveds. The songs my beloveds. Don't make me go into CEG x OP because I won't finish. And as you can see, I did not listen to my therapist.
Even though I've always seen Rayleigh as the one who understands Buggy the most (Roger and him love Shanks and Buggy equally but it is quite obvious they put more pressure on Shanks to be more like Roger and that only made things worse by making Buggy's inferiority complex exist) and the one who stands up more for him and comforts him when needed, it is true that he might be more judgemental and he'd be worried for Buggy. Like. Think about it. Roger died and the kids (their kids) ended up alone and going their own separate ways. For Rayleigh, finding out Shanks and Buggy aren't together is just?? So weird?? Because they've always been together. Birds of a feather (if somebody mentions the song 'Two Birds' I am punching them because I can't handle that song today please). And it's just... Well, surprising. 'But as long as they're okay' but they're obviously not okay!!! And it's not that Rayleigh is judging Buggy. In fact, I think he would do the same with Shanks. The second Rayleigh sees Shanks he's already saying he drinks too much (even for a pirate) and that he's been acting recklessly and "What the fuck are you doing without Buggy? Is this because of Buggy?" / "I do not drink because of him. It's- It's not about him. He left-" / "HE LEFT AND YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING?????" / "I hate it when you get like this" / "Like what?" / "Like you want to still do something about my life. I'm an adult, thank you very much-" / "No, you're not if you keep acting this way". And I personally think Rayleigh would just be worried for the both of them and also feel extremely guilty because he wasn't there to fix things when they fought, the way he always did. "The second I left you alone you two start a fight that lasts two decades?" and he would say this to both of them and they would hate it.
But yeah, going back to Buggy I think he'd be worried because. Well. Have you seen Crocodile and Mihawk? I mean. They're kind of on good terms with Buggy now (more or... More or less. Kind of. They're not equals but they're some sort of weird thing and they respect and care for each other. More or less. It's- It's complicated. Don't ask) but they're still them. And Rayleigh can't help but see the situation and be like "I'm proud you made a name of yourself, kid, but you don't have to do this if you don't want to" (meaning: You could go back to Shanks any time you wanted) and Buggy takes it as an "You could go back to Shanks any time you wanted because you'd be safer with him" instead of the real "You could go back to Shanks any time you wanted because you'd be happier with him and this war of pride and hearts you have going on is dumb". And he understands Buggy needs to be away from Shanks to grow, but it's just so, so sad to see them like this when they used to love each other so damn much.
Also, I think Buggy would be going through the worst moment of his life and Crocodile and Mihawk would be so done for different reasons. First, they don't give a fuck about all of this drama. And second, they are starting to see Buggy more like a person and understand why he is the way he is, and the things Rayleigh is saying are bothering them a lot. They've been trying to make the clown move on from his past so he's useful for once (because when he believes in himself he's actually not a burden and more interesting) and now this guy (that they respect because it's Silvers Fucking Rayleigh) comes and tries to change things around here? Nope. Not happening.
So basically, what you're trying to tell me is that Rayleigh regrets raising the boys that way and now he's overcompensating and it's overwhelming for everyone, right? I- I love it. Great plot. 10/10. In character. Perfect. It makes me go insane. I love their daddy issues.
(Also, can we talk about how "This Was a Shit Show" and "What'll it be" are extremely Buggy songs??? Because- Because now I want to-)
#i absolutely loved this i have no words to explain how much i love this#one piece#buggy the clown#silvers rayleigh#red haired shanks#cross guild#shuggy#< target audience#i mean it's obvious i was taking it as romantic for them
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Composite Scorpio moon
I’m experiencing composite Scorpio moon for the first time and it’s genuinely one of the craziest experiences. 
It kinda feels like Bella and Edward, like I want him so bad and I don’t know why, and I can’t understand why he wants me but we’re magnetized toward each other. It feels too intense like I want to escape but I also crave this kind of intimacy. He’s definitely intense too. And it’s so sexual. The eye contact got me going crazy!
As a disclaimer we have a lot of Pluto influence in our synastry his Pluto is exactly on my 8th house trine my mars square my Venus and moon in his 4th
And my Pluto is opposite his sun Mercury and mars but that’s generational.
Additionally he’s got Saturn and Jupiter in my 12th which I can also really feel so this a very watery synastry.
We have a very water dominant composite so I know it probably appeals to my cancer stellium more and I think it shows in how crazy I act but I don’t know if he can tell and I know he feels it too but I cannot fathom it’s this intense for him. I don’t know his birth time but the composite moon is directly opposite my ascendant so I know I’m really feeling that.
I’m obsessed and I can’t even stop myself because he so easily fans the fire. He is so patient and understanding it doesn’t even feel real but there’s such a seriousness with Saturn involved. It’s like I’m blackout drunk and the most sober I’ve ever been. I’ve read into our synastry and honestly it’s probably not so good it’s more neutral but when I am with him, when I talk to him… god it’s just like everything.
The tension is palpable we’ve gone to parties and everyone around us points us out even if we don’t talk it’s just like intense eye contact and everyone knows.
Being around him makes me so… Farrell … like all I want is to touch him and I’m never close enough but I’m terrified to get too close.
It’s almost animalistic like I want to devour him I love biting him and when he bites me.
I can tell that if we had sex it would change the relationship completely and probably for the better because this built up tension literally makes me act out but omg I really like this guy so much and it terrifies me. Every time he calls me and we talk I cry afterward just because he feels so good for me and I feel so intensely about him. I don’t think he’s the most conventional person, but somehow he says exactly what I need to hear and we don’t even know each other. His timing is so perfect too like even though we don’t know each others I feel like our lives are synced up. There’s definitely themes of possessiveness and commitment, and we can never do anything causally. We met the first day and I went off on him for something really stupid and I was being totally possessive over a made up scenario I conjured but I really sent it and we didn’t talk for months and when we started talking again he got a puppy and immediately called me after calling me the puppies step mom and I helped him pick out names for her.
Foreplay feels as intense as my best hookups and we haven’t even had sex.
The tension is like unbearable I’m realizing now that it would probably be different if we had sex but I’m afraid I’d literally just fall in love with him if we did and I know this one would fuck me up. I’m in my healing era but this man’s about to make me risk it but I don’t even know if it’s a risk because he is probably really good for me and what I need but I keep fighting it. Bottom line I’m scared.
His eyes are so dark when he talks to me and he can be so serious and it’s so sexy. we can literally be in a room full of people and it feels like it’s just us and everyone at the party was annoyed about it.
The funny thing about how we met is that my friend went to a party to meet his friend but his friend was flirting with every girl there so I was death staring his friend trying to show him I see what he was doing but he was too busy looking at other girls so I looked over at him (the guy I like) and glared with a passion trying to convey a “your friends so messed up for this” kinda look and the random girl I was with said he was giving me “the eyes” and I think that details funny because I was so mad at him and his friend. We ended up going downstairs to talk with my friend and me and him ended up by the balcony looking over the city and immediately I knew the girl I was dancing with was right about him being into me but I thought that was funny cause I was GLARING. but she came over to talk to him and he put his arm around my waist and I was sold on him. Taht immediate loyalty I’m only into you was so freaking sexy. Even when I went off on him LIKE A LITERAL CRAZY PERSON he was very understanding. He handles my intensity very well but that’s honestly not my favorite part of myself and he really brings it out. I keep blaming it on the alcohol but I really think it’s him, or at least the synastry.
Everything he does evokes a reaction out of me, and part of it is from trauma but he’s uncovering all these fears I didn’t know i had.
I read somewhere that these people with Scorpio moon composite need to take breaks from time to time cause it just gets too intense and I feel that but honestly I can never tell if it’s just a break. Or at least for me it’s that and I fixate on if I’ll ever see him again. We’re not talking again, but I needed a little break from the intensity anyway.
We’re not talking now…
#astrology#astro placements#astro observations#astro chart#love astrology#astroblr#synastry#pluto aspects#venus square pluto#composite
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being a cupio to me is such a mixed bag. I’m unsure if others feel the same but my life has been a bunch of ‘yes’ ‘no’s on loop.
Long form talk, I am in a relationship with a longtime friend, and I was insanely happy when he confessed, and for a long time, I actually did think about a relationship with him. It’s barely been a few days, and I’m already so scared. I genuinely don’t know if this is a normal thing for aro-spec people who date, but I have not came out to him and ‘dating’ someone whose love language is words of affection is . . . strange
I visibly cringe at any romantic gestures, and that does go for any romantic gestures. But words of affection in particular, especially sappy compliments are my absolute worst nightmare. I have to mentally refresh my mentality every time he says anything really sappy, and I’m going so crazy with cringe and internal crying that i am literally drafting this completely out of cringe.
but I want to date so badly because I just want to be in it, y’know? And I genuinely really do like hanging around this person. They’re funny, charismatic, has a really nice charm, is super polite, is sooo kind and basically anything you would want from a guy (from my perspective). I literally cannot stop yapping about how amazingly perfect this dude is, and I am actually so shocked he legitimately fell in love with me.
It’s like, he’s doing literally everything right in the dating rule books, and I just don’t follow. The most shining green flag my whole school could provide, and I just cannot love him back. I want to; trust me I do, but I can’t. Every time we hang out I’m reminded of the fact that I just can’t, and will never be able to love him as much as he does me. But no, I’m not content being friends, I want to be lovers, but I don’t love.
#aro spec#cupioromantic#aromantic#aspec#i’m dying can yall tell#just needed to get this off my chest#i am content w/ being aro spec#problem is that im not content w/ relationships#*sob*
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Time to take anti down a couple notches
Cw : paramisia, transID hate, sui and self harm mention
By now, I'm sure a good portion of you have seen someone by the acc name "fuckradqueers", so let's go over their shit in *this* post because i DO NOT wanna have to deal with them bitching in my replies <3333
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"they should be treated" for what, *how* is someone treated, because as far as I know, this isn't something therapists or any mental health work thinks is a problem!
What does a "happy adult life" entail? Why are these things specifically adult? How do you know this person *is* an adult and not a teen? What mental illness do *all* these people have?
Also the label doesn't make them think their kids..? Using the label transfem does not make people think their transfem, it's their experience and want for that label etc etc
And lastly, it's gross to point at healthy ways of dealing with things and say it's bad and horrible! Genuinely so close to saying horrible things because GET OFF YOUR FUCKING HIGH HORSE <333 you don't decide whats healthy and what isn't for all victims! Not even mentioning that not all transage are victims, some people just wanna be kids man
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Oh wonderful, people with eye problems must LOVE you.
"You're not valid" validity as a concept sucks, try again
"You're a mockery" yes I am! I am a mockery of the human experience, as I am not human but a horrific forest creature forced to seem normal
"you're harmful".... Oh TransHarm people, how do we feel about this one, do we tell him?...
"you're stupid" that's not how that works, also, anyone who gets euphoric over getting called stupid (I know you guys exist) pspspsps
"You're not a part of the community" mmmm yes we are, we have our own community but also most of us are queer in other more "normal" ways than this. I haven't actually met a single cishet allo and perisex person in this entire community
"you're genuinely rancid" this is literally giving me euphoria, I love being a rancid lil nightmare <333
"and you will always be invalid" incorrect statement, you cannot disprove how someone feels something
"you're harming real trans people" hi, I'm real trans people, transIDs aren't the reason republicans hate us, nor is catgender, and it wasn't nondysphoric's either. People just want us dead, no smaller minority caused that to happen
"and you will never have the shit you claim to have" that's literally not how that works, you can very easily become disabled, schrodingerID and others exist literally because some people don't know if they are cis or trans something
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Hi, schizophrenic here, I *would* actually like if people fetishized my experiences
I don't like being treated like a criminal or danger or whatever else, and so I'd rather be seen as hot than bad, might even want someone to call me crazy or insane in bed (might be hot, who knows)
Fetishists at least acknowledge I have personal agency in regards to my life and sexual situations! Cause while it gets their rocks off, all fetishists I've met are MAJORLY on top of communication! The same cannot be said for other people INCLUDING YOU
And people usually don't have a say in what they find hot, so someone being into delusional people is something I doubt they had a full say in, and even if they did have a say in it, they aren't negatively affecting me, what affects other schizo-spec is people believing they have no agency (including sexual agency !!!!)
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"para's are fine as long as they aren't the ones I personally don't like!"
Repeating who can and can't consent doesn't make people stop having paraphilias. Also "it's not just a simple fantasy" and then proceeding to call it a fantasy RIGHT AFTERWARDSS?? funny as fuck, also if it's a *fantasy* specifically, it doesn't have to be rape, like in fantasy land, something like this doesn't *have* to be rape (tho more power to ya to those who do fantasize about rape)
Also a little interesting how this for some reason *didn't* include necro's... Weirddd
Para's shouldn't be targets of shame, it's just a part of people and no one chooses to have them or not, and "you should either die or get locked up" is what causes actual rape!!! People thinking they can't get help when they do actually need it, people thinking that they're just a ticking time bomb, social pressure and ideas about para's made the issues we have today! Para's don't just do that on their own!
And this doesn't ignore people who don't need help and are just chilling, as this person also includes those who don't do anything as being just as bad as those who do act, he sees everyone as rapists
And for the end, where cyen says "never to be near children or animals" whatever whatever
I need you to keep in mind that minor para's exist, those who went through abuse and now are pedos or zoos exist, 8 year olds who accidentally found out how they feel about things online and now feel ashamed, 10 year olds who have those fantasies cyen mentioned and want to die over it
Does a family deserve to lose a child because this person thinks the child is bad?
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Cyen thinks someone can... Choose to not be a para?... And if they don't their.. bad??
Somehow being incredibly ignorant to accessibility when it comes to therapy often being a problem for people, and even more so ignoring para's who don't need professional help
Also the testosterone thing isn't true????? You cannot be medicated for para's??????? Don't ask me where cyen got this from, he just pulled it out of his ass
But theres a bigger problem with cyen that you've now probably seen.
Cyen likes to put a lotta words in others mouths, like saying maps are trying to hide from the word pedo (that's literally never what happened, it was just made as an alt term, in a therapy group no less!). Or yelling at this person in is comments trying to make them seem like a pedo despite that not at all being what dude was doing or saying
This includes these 2
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There is literally no context for the first one, someone just said "take the L" and cyen somehow takes that as "this person is a rape apologist and doesn't understand anything!" While proceeding to be very wrong (I swear if you showed cyen age regression I think he would explode)
And the second was how he started out his blog, just going haywire insane at his own community, WILD that is (and antis wonder why we think their community is bad)
Thank you all for letting me rant, and hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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I got to say this, because i am so mad:
People who say that people who support Malia and Colby are not their real fans, cause “Malia is using Colby” get on my nerves soo bad. Like wtf you want from us. Cause let’s be real:
Even IF Malia is not a good person and is using Colby. It was Colby’s decision to be with her. Even if he ends up heartbroken, it is his life and he deserves to live it the way he wants. Wtf you want us fans to do about their relationship? Like let’s think logically! Even if Malia wouldn’t be a nice person… how tf would we know that, like seriously? She didn’t do anything that would make us think “oh she is a bad person” and Colby chose her for some reason, so ofc in our eyes she is a nice person, cause we want her to be a nice person, cause that is something that a normal fan would do, when they find out that their idol is dating someone. Nobody normal wants to believe that a person our fav is dating is ass. But even if Malia would do smth publicly that would make majority of fans question her being nice (which till now,she never did) . Then again, what power over Colby’s life we got that you think that we can change smth? We got none and that is the way it should be. Colby is an adult capable of making decisions, so even if Malia wouldn’t be a nice person, it’s still his decision to be with her and hating on her constantly wouldn’t change a thing. If anything, it can make colby stop interacting with us, but if you think that by sending Malia hate, acting like you know her better than Colby, who knows her personally, will change his mind and heart and be like “hmm, yk they are right”, then you are fucking delusional and need a therapy session booked.
You are obligated to your opinions and if believing that Malia is not a good person makes you sleep better at night, then so be it, go for it! But leave her and Colby alone, stop hating on them online 24/7 and let them just be. Even if that relationship would end up breaking up in the future, let them be. It’s their business, not ours. The way they handle their private life has absolutely nothing to do with us.
sorry for the delayed response. totally forgot i didn't answer this lol
i agree with you 100%
i think what's odd is how many fans jump to the conclusion that every girl colby fucks with over the years is somehow bad. like, i get that maybe some of his track record is… questionable??? if that, but let the man choose who he wants.
also at this point i truly don't think anymore actually hates malia. i think a majority of those hating on her are trolls who have nothing better to do and they like the attention they get from other fans, whether good or bad. they don't care that they look crazy, they just want engagement. bc i seriously cannot believe that there are ppl that genuinely dislike her. she has done literally nothing to deserve hate, and even if she did something wrong, hating her is not gonna make colby change his mind.
i think certain fans have just the deepest levels of internet brainrot and the only way to fix that is to ignore them bc it's basically unfixable any other way. i'd have a better conversation with a wall than with those ppl lol
then of course there is also the fans that are saying all of this mean shit bc they are bitter and hateful towards the world since their lives suck so bad. seeing someone actively act that way is honestly more sad than annoying to me at this point.
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hello tumblr fandom i have nowhere else to rant about this so here we go 🔥
i am almost at the end of season three of tgp and while it is a good show, i genuinely do not think i can finish this show. unless it stops trying to convince me that chidi and eleanor have any semblance of romantic chemistry, i literally cannot do it.
and that is frustrating because i want to finish this show, i really like this show !! but unfortunately no amount of my love for janet can make up for trying to make chidi and eleanor a thing. no offence to the actors, i don’t know them, but they do not have romantic chemistry- they didn’t have it in season one, nor season two, and they don’t have it now in season three.
i have gotten through most of season three (i’m on episode ten i think ??) but i cannot just try and ignore the romantic plot for these two any longer, it drags everything down so much for me 😭
and i don’t hate romance. i love the jason/janet thing they’ve been doing, it’s super entertaining. but i simply cannot get myself to find chidi/eleanor entertaining or interesting in the slightest no matter how hard i try to convince myself. they are much more convincing as friends.
eleanor had more romantic potential and chemistry with tahani. that’s crazy.
thank you for coming to my rant 🎉
#the good place#chidi anagonye#eleanor shellstrop#janet#jason mendoza#tahani al jamil#micheal#like it’s making me crash out
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Cedar Point Trip Report 6/27/24 and 6/29/24
These visits were part of a three-day trip across Ohio, Michigan, and western Pennsylvania. We spent Thursday, 6/27 at Cedar Point from 1:00 PM to close at 10:00 PM, then we came back for a little while the morning/afternoon of Saturday, 6/29. More details of the stupidity of this trip are at the bottom.
Coaster Thoughts and Rankings
1) Steel Vengeance (x 2 rides, including 1 night ride)
I have been absolutely dying to get back on this ride since doing Iron Gwazi, ArieForce One, and Wildcat's Revenge to see how it compares, and it easily holds up as a top-tier RMC. It is an INCREDIBLE ride. The drop and the outerbank are basically equivalent on SV and IG. Both drops are fantastic, and both outerbanks give ridiculously strong and sustained ejector. All the zero-g rolls on SV are whippy, and the ones inside the structure are even more disorienting as you see the supports flying all around you. The stall is maybe my favorite inversion on the ride. It's not a traditional stall like the one on ArieForce One. It's much quicker. But instead of just suspending your in midair for several seconds, it tries to break you in half if you're not prepared, turning you into it smoothly to the left, then whipping you out of it violently to the right. Also if any enthusiast is truly complaining about this ride being repetitive, I think they are a poser. SV gives a ridiculously long, seemingly never-ending ride time with fantastic elements throughout, and instead of just having dead space between the big elements, it fills every one of those transitions with ejector airtime pops. That is an enthusiast's dream. It is MY dream. I'm not sure how this could genuinely be viewed as a flaw. I will say that SV does run very differently when it's just opening for the day and when it's warmed up. My first ride came just as the ride was re-opening after being down for a while, and it was noticeably slower than its full potential. But my night ride? Oh my god. It was otherworldly. It was so dark. The ride was absolutely flying. The airtime was truly insane. The bugs were pummeling me in the face for the whole ride, so instead of yelling, I was making muffled screaming noises with my mouth closed. Lol. It was an incredible experience. I wish I could have gotten more rides. Marathoning this thing is my dream.
2) Maverick (x 1 ride)
The ordeal I went through just to get back on this ride is ridiculous. We waited an hour and a half for it, and when we were literally next in line to board, it went down. We had to do a special, unplanned second day at the park just for this ride, and then we had to wait three hours for a storm to pass to finally get on it. But it was worth it. I can't believe how good the tiny, beyond-vertical drop is. It gives some crazy ejector. The S-bends are whippy, the hill afterwards gives good air, the inversions are fun. But the second launch is incredible. It has to be the best LSM launch I've done. It is so punchy, and I love the way you come to a full stop, then shoot out of the tunnel at full speed into the wild second half. I am obsessed with those overbanked S-turns!!! The angular whip is ridiculous!!!! There's nothing like it outside of I-305 and Skyrush with the old restraints. Then there's one last airtime pop before the brakes. I love this ride, and I hate that I couldn't do it more than once this trip.
3) Magnum XL-200 (x 3 rides)
I cannot get enough of this ride. I kept saying that as soon as I got back to CP, I would go straight to row 3 of Magnum for my first ride, and that's exactly what I did. All three of my rides were in the third row, and the popular idea that this is the magic row for airtime seems to be true. I know this ride has its haters, and even people who like it often only praise the ending run of hills. But I think the entire ride is awesome. The lift hill is so slow and gives you plenty of time to take in the amazing views. The drop is fun, and the first two camelbacks give some air. The pretzel turn is so stupid and so awkward that it absolutely rocks, like the fastest and most unhinged mine train ever. The return run of repeated small bunny hills is an experience like no other, with the pure ejector getting sharper, more abrupt, and more hilarious with each hill. Getting ridiculous airtime like that in the darkness of those tunnels is even better. I love this ride, and unless/until I get on TT2, it's the EASY number three in the park.
4) Millennium Force (x 1 ride)
I was among those calling this ride foreceless after my first ride in the cold in October 2022. This was my first really warm, summer ride, and I thought it was very good. The views from the lift hill are incredible, and the drop is huge and lots of fun. The turn after the first drop packs some good positives and made me gray out a little. There are three good airtime moments, with the two big camelbacks giving particularly nice, sustained floater, and the last bunny hill giving a quicker pop. But I think the best aspect of the ride is how well it holds its speed throughout the entire duration, with low-to-the ground turns between each of those airtime moments. I also really like the minimalistic restraints, which make the speed and airtime that much wilder. I personally am not in love with this ride, but I think it's a lot better than many people say.
5) Raptor (x 1 ride)
I have been dying to get back on this ride, because I was super underwhelmed by it after my one and only ride in 45ish degree weather in October 2022. I knew it wasn't running at its full potential, and boy, was that correct. My ride on this trip was so much better. It was flying through the layout, and the midcourse was barely hitting. It has a nice, long layout. The vertical loop is forceful, and the zero-g roll, the cobra roll, and the corkscrews are all super snappy. But what really makes this ride stand out are all the low-to-the-ground turns between elements in the second half, particularly the long helix finale that feels like it might rip your feet off. Raptor is not nearly as unhinged as Alpengeist, which still reigns supreme for me, but it is definitely up there in terms of great, forceful B&M inverts. I also go back and forth on whether I prefer Raptor or Millennium Force. (Also, I have to mention that my restraint came up one notch on the lift hill. I pulled it back down, and it was fine. I wonder if this is the sort of thing that happens to people that makes them freak out and think their restraint isn't locked anymore at all. Interesting.)
6) Rougarou (x 1 ride)
My hot take for the day is that Rougarou is better than Gatekeeper. I really liked it when I rode it on my first trip, but after seeing how much everyone hates on it, I thought maybe it was a fluke. But no, I enjoyed it just as much this time. It has a really good drop and a really, large, forceful vertical loop and dive loop. The second half is what most people seem to hate, but I love it. The fact that this ride was originally built as a stand-up gives it a unique layout and a unique feel compared to other floorless coasters. Where other floorless coasters would have a cobra roll, this ride has the inclined loop and corkscrew. It also has unique transitions/profiling due to originally being a stand-up. It has some fun, swooping turns between elements and some weird moments like that snap to the right after the inclined loop, which I love, and the snap to the left into the midcourse. It's just a weirder, more aggressive ride than a lot of B&Ms, which is something I really enjoy.
7) Gatekeeper (x 1 ride)
This is just a fun, relaxing ride. The wingover drop is one of the more enjoyable hangtime type of moments that I've experienced. All the other inversions are very graceful and floaty. The near miss elements are fun. The one camelback even gives a little airtime. I find the vests on this ride more tolerable than the ones on Wild Eagle for some reason. It's a good ride, but not one I'd ever call great.
8) Wild Mouse (x 1 ride)
Hey, new credit! I went out of my way to make sure I did this, and it was significantly more fun than I thought it would be. The spinning is good fun and it's a very smooth, relaxing experience. But I will say the restraints are ridiculous. They are like lapbars in a way, but they are so bulky that, on a smaller person like, they come up to the chest. They give me a similar claustrophobic feeling to the B&M vests.
Trip Details
This trip began Wednesday night, 6/26. We left after I got off work to do part of the drive. We had quite a time getting there, as it was raining, and we had set the GPS to avoid tolls. We ended up on some sketchy back roads in West Virginia that weren't even wide enough for a car to pass in the other direction, in the dark and in the pouring rain. But we made it out and to our stop at a hotel in WV. We completed the drive to Cedar Point on Thursday morning, 6/27, and got into the park at about 1:00 PM. The park was open until 10:00 PM. The park was INSANELY busy. Like an idiot, I thought it wouldn't be that bad because it was a Thursday, but I severely underestimated the power of Cedar Point to draw a crowd. It wasn't as bad as a weekend would have been, but there were still 60-90 minute waits the whole day. We got on Magnum first with probably only about a 30-minute wait. Then we got lucky timing Steel Vengeance, as we got to it right as it was opening after being down and only waited about 15 minutes. But then our luck drastically changed. We tried to get on Maverick. We waited for probably about 90 minutes, we were literally behind the air gates to board the next train, and the ride went down. I don't think I have ever been more infuriated at a park. We wasted an hour and a half of the day standing in a line for no reason. When you such a tight schedule to make a stupid trip like this work, that really hurts. We got pretzels at Auntie Anne's after, and I just sat down and contemplated just going home, because I was so distraught over the Maverick ordeal. Lol. We finally got up and got in another hour-long line to ride Millennium Force, then waited 50ish minutes to ride Raptor. By this time, the Magnum line had died down to about a 10-15 minute wait, and we got two more rides. Then we finished the day with an incredible back row night ride on Steel Vengeance.
I was only planning one day at Cedar Point, but I wasn't going to drive all the way here and miss Maverick, so we had to come back. Lol. We left our hotel in Toledo early and drove an hour and fifteen minutes to CP. The park was set to open at 10:00 AM, and we got there bright and early for season pass holder early entry around 9:15 AM. We were able to walk right on Gatekeeper for one ride. My plan was to knock out Wid Mouse, a new credit for me, before the crowds. But right as I was about to get in line, it started raining and storming, and all the rides closed. I couldn't believe my luck on this trip. The next part of my plan was to get straight to Maverick to be right there when it opened with the rest of the park at 10:00. But of course, it continued raining and storming. We stood in line at the entrance for a while when it looked like it might clear up, but then it started pouring rain again. We gave up and went to eat some taco bowls at the restaurant in the back. I can't remember what the place was called. The food was pretty good, though. We waited and waited, and I was stressing, because we were losing valuable time that I needed to get to another park that day. But I didn't want to leave without getting on Maverick. The rides FINALLY opened around 12:00, and we FINALLY!!!!!! got on Maverick around 12:30. Then we got on Rougarou pretty quickly, because apparently, it takes a lot for this thing to get a line. I needed to leave, but I really wanted that Wild Mouse credit, so we waited about 30 minutes and got on it for our last ride at CP. We finally left CP around 2:30-3:00 PM.
#roller coasters#amusement park adventures#cedar point#personal#steel vengeance#maverick#magnum xl-200#millennium force#raptor#rougarou#gatekeeper#wild mouse cp
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The last bus stop in hell is a new favourite. I went absolutely insane when I realised what the fuck Alastor did to get out. The gun shots felt genuinely shocking, I could feel just how angry and out of control Alastor felt when he pulled the trigger and it wasn't even from his perspective!!!!! Genuinely think the fact that you've written this from Angel's pov was a genius move, it keeps the mystery of not ever quite knowing what Alastor's thinking that we have in canon whilst still letting us feel just how angry and violated and reactionary Alastor is in that moment when he lifts the gun and tells Val to beg so he can force Val into a position of weakness and kill him like that. Waffhdhdhgv going crazy stupid. Genuinely think Alastor's pov would have made this a tougher sell (you've kept the fic really kind despite everything. You haven't dragged pain out for the sake of showing pain and I think it works.)
Thinking about how Val uses what he taught Angel, how in your fic Angel mirrors Val is so many little ways because he learnt everything from him and yet still, Angel is a genuinely kind, caring individual despite everything when Val so obviously... Isn't
Thinking about the fact that as proven here, Alastor could look like shit and still no one would dare to so much as look at him too long
Thinking about how genuinely good husk is to still want to make sure "Alastor's" going to be ok even though he's scared shitless. thinking about how kind he is to Angel
Also LOVING the little. Anon culture you have built here. Giving myself a call sign emote.
- ☠️ -spirits
It's 8am and I've already been awake for 4 hours and the brain cells I have remaining just want to go /cups hands around this ask and holds it close to my heart
You have pinpointed so many of the things I was hoping to convey in this story and it just gives me the warm and fuzzies. I was a little unsure about how the subject matter of this fic would be received and y'all have consistently made me very happy I decided to write it. Just. Heart emoji!! Thank you, anon! (Also what a great emoji to choose, hahaha. The anon culture kinda built itself, ILY guys and also cannot believe there are so many!)
Speaking of which: MORE ASKS UNDER THE CUT! If you sent me something about the fic last night it's probably down there!!
THE NEW CHAPTER WAS INSANEE ???? SCREAMING OH MY GOD ALASTOR STRAIGHT UP SHOT VALENTINO ??? (until he was nothing but mush 😨) speechless beyond words but it was SO good and cathartic omg i was literally on the edge of my seat in suspense 😭😭😭
Hahaha, thank you so much! Honestly absolutely lovely to hear—I think the general response to this chapter can be summarized as "oh my god" and this pleases me immensely. 💛
Angel Dust finally being able to cry when Husk backed away from him, ouch my heart 😭 Also Alastor not being able to use any of his usual radio demon powers but still managing to be the scariest person in the room. Very well written. I don't usually read stuff this dark but I'm really glad I decided to.
Huskerdust are my little gold vein of goodness threading through the horrible bedrock of the rest of this fic, haaa, and I really wanted that moment of catharsis for Angel himself... and YES!! Alastor was a scary motherfucker before he ever became the Radio Demon and I'm so glad that came through. Is he okay? No. But he's ready to make that everybody else's problem.
Thank you for taking a chance on this very murdered dove! I am genuinely very flattered to have the opportunity to make a dark fic a nonetheless good read for you!
An absolutely stellar chapter, as always! Your writing kills it every time and your descriptions are staggering in their detail! I adore how many emotions you made me go through during Alastor's entrance alone; from realizing that he escaped on his own, learning that his leg was injured in the process, to finding out that his mouth is bloodied. I crumpled on into myself. Agh! Of *course* he'd chew through it rather than just breaking/snapping it off. Truly a one of a kind man. So much showing without telling! It's all wonderful and your work is always such a delight to read. I'm not normally one who physically reacts to writing, but wow some of the scenes in this chapter had me flinching! This was most definitely a ramble that I could have simply commented under the chapter itself; all that to say that I am very excited for the next chapter and all of the aftermath to follow! 💫💫💫💫💫
P.S. Thank you for giving Alastor a gun. It is what he deserves. ❤️
Alastor DOES deserve a gun, ehehehe. Honestly so pleased that this has stood out to you as an example of showing without telling specifically because Angel Dust's extremely traumatized POV has been godly for opportunities to do that and it's been a very fun way to write. Gosh, this ask just means a lot to me in general, thank you SO much for your lovely words!
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HII hello my lovely!!!! how are you doing!!! i hope youre having the best month <333 okay so. writing to u bc....i have recently started listening to joan baez after seeing your posts (i am eternally grateful btw...) and now OH MY GOD i am. in love with her. like!!!!! GAHHH <333 i would absolutely love to know your favourite baez songs. ALSO all your thoughts on baez + dylan i am enraptured they are sooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! :'))))))))) like. you KNOW!!! literally cannot stop watching live performances interviews etc of them and feeling unwell after... :(((( anyways!!! lots of love to you and eternal kisses and a million yellow daises <3333 MWAHH xx
HELLO BELOVED!!!!! I read this ask while with my mom so basically we spent the last 2 hours putting this together:
every song and every poem is joan's song and joan's poem, i genuinely don't care who wrote these 👍 walt whitman? lorca? rimbaud? dylan? sounds fake to me. 🤷♀️ (<- girl talking about some of her favourite poets. well! they do not exist when joan is in the room🥰) okay so, we pictured this as some sort of poetry reading, that's also a concert, but it's also an opera number and you're in the theatre. (i witnessed a super cool outdoors concert thingy today so i'm a bit overwhelmed by that! hope some of the energy translated to the playlist hehe)
FRIEND! I AM SO TOUCHED! This blog was created for this very purpose, it is very much not about me I just occasionally use it as a diary, but I primarily wanted to share everything I loved with others and every time something like this happens I feel like I'm doing what I was always meant to do so thank you! For reaching out and being so kind! Joan forever ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
I GET THE BAEZDYLAN THING!!!!!! I try not to get too crazy about real people (Jo. Jo. Jo. you were born to be parasocial *shaking myself by the shoulders*) Putting my silly ways in a box under my bed now, I do attach myself to the art primarily so all my affection for the person behind it stems from that art and doesn't exist separately as its own thing because I don't exactly know these people, I just made 73838374937583 stories about them as a kid. BUT! THE THING IS! The essence of BaezDylan translates to their artistry and I could never tell you more than those live recordings tell you because it's literally this... okay okay so it's like do you know when you read a book and you feel like the author had some great life secret whispered to them and then some of it pours into you through the pages??? THAT is BaezDylan (I am writing them as one person on purpose)... I don't think they could explain what was going on there because it sort of outgrows anything a singular person could be, it just had to find a home in the music because it couldn't fit anywhere else. I've only started believing in these things wholeheartedly recently (even though, in a way, I have always known), but they have that thing where you know this one person, but their name isn't that important. It's like they're you in some primal way so you speak the same language, but they're also there to teach you a lesson and that immediately makes them a little unearthly in return. I would insert quotes and start analysing them, but I might start crying so I won't do that.
I LOVE YOU 🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻
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hi my angel! it’s so nice to hear from you again! i’ve missed you so much🫶🏻
a month kinda feels like forever sometimes, right? i’ve seen many stars and star shaped things and i’ve been thinking about your every time <3 and hoping that you’re doing well.
i’m so excited for the kitten video. i’m honored that you thought of me bc cat lady™️ is my brand! skz with kittens may just heal my life.
im picking up my wristbands for lolla at will call bc shipping was like $80😪 buuuut its beginning to feel so real for me too, it’s crazy. im really really nervous and excited. and im so excited for your ateez concerts too!! (pls send me some good yeosang/san pics pls i beg u). my bf got me two ateez albums for our anniversary but they still haven’t gotten here😪😪
ahhh for kdrama recs i’ve watched the tale of the nine tailed (because im in love with lee dongwook, it can be a lil bit too long sometimes though), it’s okay not to be okay and my demon! and i’ve enjoyed them, especially the last two! now im watching an anime named Nana (my sapphic dream💔)
im so sorry to hear the kitten story💔 it’s always so sad when they pass away, especially when it happens in your care😪 thank you for always helping the kitties out 💜 another cat gave birth at my grandma’s house and the kittens were very sick, only one of them survived and has an upper respiratory infection. but we’ve been treating it as best as possible. one of the older kittens stopped using his back legs and is currently at the vet receiving treatment to see if it’s any neurological disease or something. and im so so so sad about that too </3
as for the comprehensive exams, i barely studied because i have, what i suspect to be, ✨undiagnosed adhd✨ i passed one of them but the other one (which is a really stupid test in itself tbh. everyone was really pissed at that one bc it doesn’t really evaluate anything) was a hard fail😂 im not too stressed because i have a shot during next semester to pass it.
i,once again, am so glad to have heard from you <3 thank you (and momo, what a cute pic!!) for always rooting for me! my kitties and i are always rooting for you as well🫶🏻 i send you so much love from the middle of nowhere to the middle of nowhere. i hope you’re taking care of yourself too and taking time to do what you love at your pace🫶🏻
i love you bb! im here for you💘
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STOP OMG I think of you all the time when I see anything cat related these days 😭 the love extends from me to you and back again like ten times over. I love you so so much
counting down the minutes until skz x kittens video. Jisung with kittens is going to heal me spiritually I just know it (though based on the teasers those kittens dgaf about any of them LMFOSODJFKFKDJ)
I cannot believe Lolla is so close like I swear we bought tickets yesterday??? And tour is going to be announced any day now im genuinely tweaking I need them to stay away until I save more money 😭😭 also I PROMISEEE to get the best Yeosang/San pics I am physically able to. I love you so much in my head we r going to every concert together and we have barricade seats.
Ahhhh I will totally check out your recs!!! I’ve heard so many good things about Nana and I bought a Nana keychain the other day despite not watching the show literally just bc it was so darn cute. Once I have my purse again I’ll post a good pic of it and if you like it I can buy you one & mail it to you !!! There’s a little boutique near my apartment that makes & sells them and they’re so cute you’d LOVE them
I’m so sad to hear about all the kitties :(( Momo had a respiratory infection when I found her and it was so sad watching her sneeze every 2 seconds and administering so many meds to her ☹️ I hope the RI goes away quickly and I hope the kitty with leg problems gets well and that it’s not a neurological issue, that’s so tough 💔☹️ thank you for always taking such good care of them, you’re such an angel 🫶💞
HEY you passed one exam though!!!!! That’s so major!!!!!!! You should be so proud of yourself my angel!!!!!!! Sending you all my love and I’m sure you can nail the other one on the second go around. Sometimes you just need a second try and that’s perfectly okay. You did your fucking best and that’s reason enough to celebrate ❤️💫
I love you so so much and I’m so glad to hear from you too my love. I get through my worst days remembering that people like you exist and I hope you’re taking the best care of yourself possible. precious cargo 🫶💫❤️💘💝 I love you !!!!!!!!! Pic of me and Momo (real):

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Last thing about Izzy I think. I'm really repeating what I've said on discord lol. Some spoilers ahead
A big thing about Isador is that he can't be redeemed. Not yet. Not in Renegade. I make jokes about how Isador would not survive modern fandom, but I kinda do mean it? Canonically speaking, Isador had it good. He found the love of his life in Asfrith, was able to help people, be a hero, like Teddy was, and for once I think he was genuinely happy. But that didn't stop him. That didn't stop his envy and hatred.
A big plot point is how he tells Asfrith everything. What he plans to do. And Asfrith, rightfully, calls him crazy. And you'd think that this would make him have his wake up call. The person he loves is walking away from him, surely, he realizes what he's doing is mad, right?
Noooope! If anything, he doubles down. If anything, his heart turns even colder. He is determined to see his end. Determined to become a real hero ( read: destroy everything and be the sole person who helps people bc everything sucks. It's twisted, I know). Even if Asfrith agrees with him, he still goes through with everything! He's just happier - uncannily so- and gleeful on how he's dream is going to come true. It all goes about the same. Isador cannot be reasoned with here.
So like when I think of modern fandom I think if people going " I can fix him" when???? You can't???? You literally can't. The one person that could fix him failed. Badly. He died. Murdered by his own lover in one route.
The only way for Isador to change is for him to have a really harsh wake up call. And that wake up call was Will. Who killed him with a sword through the chest in his rightful rage and grief, and a curse that makes him alive for far longer than any human should be. A curse that makes him wait in a void until the interceptor comes back. A curse that makes him barely look like his old self. A curse that made him Devil. That is when Isador - when Devil, is up for his redemption. Devil is open to change. Isador is not. Hope this helps <3
So please note whenever I do an au that has Izzy in it, I am combining the asshole in Isador with the willingness to change that is Devil. Mind you, it would take a lot for Isador to reach that point, at least depending on the au. But au versions of Isador are pretty much him combined with Devil. Cause I'm a sucker for a happy ending lol.
Aaaaand yeah. I really am proud of what I'm doing with Isador! I proved to myself that I can write a real interesting villain/antagonist and still have him....likeable? Interesting. And I hope you guys like him too!
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