Paths
Despair for
waiting so long
something near nescapable
all of the pain and hardships
Sickness for
the illnesses that overtook her
Almost resulting in a premature death
She fell ill from the poison of radiation,
dying while waiting for nonexistent emergency services
An illness she was too sick to recover from
Anxiety for
the mother that cannot so easily reach her child
Separation
because she had no choice
Pain
From wounds that fester
From wounds that cannot heal
From broken hearts and damaged souls
Rage
She emptied a gun into a wall of mirrors
A rage against the horrible things done to her
Suicide
The winter was even warmer than she
She wanted to die
Her immortality was overrode
Something she's attempted when she's gone mad
Imprisonment
They were to be broken
For some it worked
Suffering
Troubles never seemed to end
It was a near never-ending cycle
Death
Many perished
They were gone but not forgotten
Their spirits still kept hold
Secrets
She knows about something
Yet, she doesn't divulge it
They all do
They've survived because of their secrets
One suffers because of hers
Scars
Brutality at its finest
Testaments to the things she's endured
Regret
The little child can't run
She never forgave herself for that, as she allowed it to happen
She wished she could have protected them,
Shielding them from the hardships and pain, the very things she endured but couldn't prevent
Self-loathing
She hates herself very much
For something that she could have very well stopped
If the times hadn't turned her cruel and selfish
Blindness
She was blinded out of mercy
She was starting to lose her sight
Destruction
The bombs were dropped
Thrusting them into another world of turmoil
Infertility
She wants what her body denies her
Miscarriage/Stillbirths
She has a litter
Most of them died
It seems she may continue having them
Devotion
He never at all thinks to leave her side
Not even for moment
He loves her
She's his "Lenore"
Ice
The world is engulfed in a winter
They are at winter's mercy
Memories
Some pleasant, a sorrowful reminder of what was
Some unpleasant, the things that they could wish were forgotten
Insanity
She's gone insane
Without any sort of semblance of sanity besides her memories
She, too, has gone insane
Nearly taking a child's life, as well as her own
She later woke up and came back
Blood
She bled, staining the snow with blood
She wept blood tears, when she's reached her despair event horizon
Innocence
The children remain innocent
The only semblance that remains in dark, frozen, and unforgiving world
Though, innocence was lost at some point
Soiled
She believes herself to be this
believing no one will ever love her
Ruined
She believes her lover will reject her, now
Abuse
She hadn't done anything wrong
Yet, she was beaten anyway
She died, leaving behind someone regretful
Too late to atone
Bond
What holds them together
Hope
What keeps them going
Inability to fear
She was conditioned this way
Loss
The pain of losing someone
Leaving wounds that have yet to heal
Ghosts
What she claims to see
And hear
The Past
Still a lingering presence
With a very strangling hold
The leash and collar tighten with each passing time
Future
Full of uncertainties
It cannot be said there will be one
Tears
What are never-endingly shed
Revenge
What was exacted
Their house was burned down afterwards
Repetition
The cycle, it seems, tends to repeat
Over and over
Will it ever end?
Abandonment
She wanted to die
She didn't want to left alone
The Present
The very time they endure
Delirium
What she cannot escape
And what she sees
What she hears
And what she suffers
Sacrifice
She didn't want to
He wanted her and was going to have her
She wanted them to be safe
Letting him have her was her sacrifice
The very sacrifice she would still be dealing with the fallout of
She hides secrets
She has to, so she can survive
So they all can
She could have been killed.
Atonement
For any sort of past wrong
The fallout of which is still there
They struggle to make right of it
Atoning for the sins they've committed
That will take ages
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In the year 20XX, everyone in Gensokyo will play danmaku with TALNN levels of precision. The only thing left to decide winners will be...
Score runs.
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“Bleeding Sorrow”
My first attempt at drawing hands and find I am not too good but at least I tried something for once. In case you are wondering, these are Ran's hands and we're looking it from her view.
This image would be from Gensokyo 20XXIV, where she attempts suicide by slitting her wrists. The reason as to why she looks the way she does is because she is a burn victim (Read Gensokyo 20XXII, 20XXIII, and Gensokyo 20XXIV)
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Whoa, the Chinese fans got such a cool detailed wiki and we are stuck with a barely updated one that had basically no details whatsoever. Do you mind updating the English wiki with these mythology stuff? Also, can you elaborate more on Keine's spell cards? Are all her "crisis" spell cards about attempts at erasing history or just that one?
I can make an account on the wiki, sure, I’m not sure if my wonky english is appropriate for it though. And I don’t really think there’s a shortage of good editors (the notes on Okina’s spellcards have some trivia in them I had no clue about!), things just take time because the western fandom is smaller and has much fewer readily available resources to rely on. Anyway, here we go, Keine’s spellcards are under the read more. She’s my fave character and I’d like to believe I know most of what there is to know about the bai ze/hakutaku, so ask away if there’s anything else you’d like to know.
Imperishable Night cards:
Spiritual Birth "First Pyramid": self-explanatory, pyramids are more or less synonymous with the start of recorded history in the common perception. “Spiritual birth” (産霊) is a reference to the trinity of kami which come into being from nothingness, before Izanagi and Izanami.Origin Sign "Ephemerality 137": emperor Jinmu, the mythical first emperor of Japan, supposedly lived for 137 years. “Ephemerality” refers to his lifespan being short compared to his divine ancestorsAmbition Sign "Buretsu Crisis": Buretsu was, supposedly, a wicked emperor, and his successor was a distant relative, but some historians argue that the latter pretty much started a new dynasty. Since imperial japanese propaganda was heavily focused on the divinity of the emperor etc, there were attempts at hiding all of this (not a very hard task, Buretsu is barely discussed in historical sources).Ambition Sign "Masakado Crisis": Taira no Masakado was a rebel and self-styled “new emperor”. He was deified after death, in hopes of placating his potential vengful spirit. No actual ereasure of history happened here, though arguably Masakado’s common perception changed with time.Ambition Sign "Yoshimitsu Crisis": Yoshimitsu was one of the Ashikaga shoguns, regarded as the real ruler of Japan by a number of foreign envoys. He tried to claim a title reserved for the emperor for himself, too. Ambition Sign "General Headquarters Crisis": self-explanatory, really, isn’t it? The emperor is no longer divine, it sure is a major rewrite... but the Meiji/Taisho/Showa obsession with the divinity of the emperor was itself a rewrite of history, and the myth of the imperial family’s divine descent is in all due likeness just a mythical adaptation of a conflict between bronze age rulers.Basically, all Ambition Signs deal with threats to continuity of the emperors’ power.Land Sign/Scheme cards, all 4 of them, are just the imperial regalia. The “jewel” is a magatama btw, the same kind of charm as Keiki’s necklace is made out of. They were likely an universal symbol of divinity.Ending Sign “Phantasmal Emperor” might be a reference to the same event as GHQ crisis (divine emperors becoming nothing but myths)Pseudo-History "The Legend of Gensokyo", Past "Old History of an Untrodden Land -Old History-", “Total Purification” and Future "New History of Fantasy -Next History-"don’t reference anything specific.Future "Gods' Realm"uses the term Takamagahara, The Celestial Plain, where the celestial gods, including the ancestors of emperor Jinmu, dwell in the Kojiki and Nihon Shoki (so, if we go by Kanako’s comment in LoLK, presumably the moon?)"Emperor of the Land of the Rising Sun" is self-explanatory.Reincarnation "Ichijou Returning Bridge" seems to refer to a bridge in Kyoto, but I don’t know much about this one. All I could find in english for now is a blogpost with no details about the legend. I assume that since it’s an EX spellcard it’s a nod to Mokou first and foremost.
Shoot the Bullet cards:
Light Sign "Amaterasu": the sun goddess Amaterasu is the grandmother of Ninigi, sent to pacify the earth, who in turn was the great-grandfather of emperor Jinmu.Shroud Sign "Rain of Showa": almost definitely a reference to the weather during emperor Hirohito’s funeral. The danmaku is meant to evoke the shape of chrysanthemum flowers, an emblem of the emperors.Hollyhock Sign "Mito no Mitsukuni": Mitsukuni was a Tokugawa daimyo of the Mito domain. He commissioned a set of books known as Shinpen Kamakurashi, dealing with the history of Kamakura (the city, not the time period). He was also a fierce opponent of honji suijaku (shinto-buddhism syncretism), which probably counts as attempt at rewriting history, I guess? Additionally, a triple hollyhock symbol was the Tokugawa emblem.Japan Sign "Yamato Kingdom": self-explanatory.
Impossible Spell Card cards:
"20XX: An Afterlife Odyssey": an obvious movie reference, rather than a historical one. Great Fire "Flower of Edo": a reference to a proverb about how common fires were in Edo. No relation to the play known as “Flower of Edo” in english, afaik.Naturally, all the emperor references are here since the hakutaku was supposed to advise monarchs, which ZUN interprets as writing history in their favor. However, Keine seems to believe everyone should pass history on, going by the BAiJR article, so I guess she’s not a fan of that.
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Mask’s Calling for an Amber
Send in ‘Mask’s Calling’ to meet a muse I’m on the fence about roleplaying as.
Year 20XX. Gensokyo.
“It has been years since I’m stuck in the Hakurei Shrine. People call me a hero and called me things like ‘One of the most powerful humans in Gensokyo’, but really, Marisa was the one who did most of the work, and the tengu newspapers just twisted the truth to make it seem like I did it. Yukari had her hand in it too.”
“I didn’t even meet Remilia in the Scarlet incident. All Sakuya said was ‘Try coming back two hours earlier’ and I just left everything to Marisa.”
“This was a photo of me when I first started out. I was solving incidents and getting myself handed, so I thought of dying my hair brown and running away.”
“… It didn’t work. Yukari dragged me back in. What am I even doing here? I don’t even have Hakurei blood, I’m adopted.”
… It’s too late to ask for her normal life back, isn’t it?
A canon-divergent version of Reimu! This isn’t the usual powerful and strong Reimu you know and love, but… the kind of Reimu who gets herself handed over.
In other words, Easy Mode Reimu.
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I Promised Her I'd Wake Up
I'd promised her I'd wake up
But I fear it is not a promise to be kept
Through illness and insanity,
She cannot promise me the same
Bit by bit, less sand remains in her hourglass
She is all but unaware
Yet, she's accepted it, as is
She told me to promise her I'd awake
Tears in her eyes
She begged me
Yet, she waits for death
The very sleep she may never awake from
The very sleep she made me promise I would never allow to take me
Yet, she cannot promise the same
I promised her I'd wake up
What would happened to her if I cannot keep that promise?
Dammit!
Why do you make me keep a promise that may not be kept, Reimu?
I'm sorry I almost went to where you could not yet follow
And that is why you made me promise you
Yet, you cannot promise me the same
Don't leave before me Reimu, please!
Don't let them take you
Please don't
I promised her I'd wake up
I woke up, Reimu, see?
I woke up, just like I promised
I can only hope you let it go now
To keep that promise would be impossible
Unless one of our hourglasses have finished
Before the other
I'd promised her I'd wake up
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“Yume (Ni) Yakumo”
This is Ran's pup and how she appears in Gensokyo 20XXV. She was also a bully and, for a child, noted to be cruel.
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No Greater Sorrow
There is no greater sorrow for me than to
Recall a time of happiness when
I am in misery
I’m in misery because I miss you
Ever so much and, to be honest, I am reminded
That you are not here
I do miss your voice
I really miss your smile
I very much miss how you would cheer me up
Especially, when I’ve needed that the most
Right now, I could use some of your cheering up
I suppose memories will have to do
Although, that just makes it more painful
As I remember, I speak to your absence
Wherever you are, I wonder if my voice can
Reach you, even though I can’t
My love, you were always by my side
“Together forever” we promised one another in our
Wedding vows
How funny that promise between seems to be broken
No matter what happened
You were always at my side
Through thick and thin
You loved me, your devotion never wavering
And, I loved you, thus you’ll always be with me
Yet, I continue living with your absence
We will never see one another again
Not in this life, although I am sorry to tell you that
You’ll be waiting for a while and…
I don’t know when I’ll see you again, my love
But I do know you wait for me
There is still no greater sorrow for me
Than to recall our happiness in when in misery
Since, you’ve passed away…
…Ren
And, as your grieving widow, I must note
That there has been no greater sorrow, then for me
To recall our happy times together
When suffering the misery in the aftermath
Of your passing.
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“Mushrooms”
She is an original character in my fanfiction series Gensokyo 20XX and she is a kitsune that Reimu and, then later on a Back From the Dead Cirno. She is called what she is called because she eats and has given her Shiitake mushrooms. In Gensokyo 20XXV, Cirno thinks of her as a pet.
Just another pic of "Mushrooms" who's actual name is Enoki and, this time, Cirno decided to to put a little makeup and bows on her.
This is what Enoki looks like human-wise
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“Baka’s Ex-Wife”
She is a character from Gensokyo 20XXV and she was married to Ren's brother Baka. She is very unpleasant to be around and is quick to pick fights with Ran or antagonize the children, as well as the fact that selfish, greedy, foul-tongued, and bitchy.
She possess no name, as you wouldn't like her anyway, even if you knew it, though everyone tends to call her "Bitch Wife", "Baka's Bitch Ex-wife", or, as the children call her, "Paintbrush Bitch"
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“Gensokyo 20XXV Ran”
Ran as she shows up Gensokyo 20XXV and her scars have more or less faded by this point. I drew her somewhat based of an avatar I made of her. These are her usual clothes and she kinda put on a little weight, having gave birth to children to a little before Gensokyo 20XXV.
Right now, she seems rather curious
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If only I could be with you
Oh how much I miss you
If only I could be with you
I do hope you are safe
I'm not there to tell you these things but...
I love you
I do hope you behave and do what Ran tells you
I hope they won't find you and throw you in here, too
Also, I do hope you'll be brave
If only, I could have joined you
But, with the impending danger, I was given no choice
It was either you, Ran, and Chen or me
I made my choice and I know you'll forgive me
I've taken care of you in infancy and this is the only thing I can give
I'm sorry I cannot be with you, Reimu
My sweet, oh how much I miss you
I didn't want to leave you and if only I could be with you
Someday, my sweet, we'll meet again
But, for now, if only I could be with you
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Her Silence
She lives her life in silence
The reason for which is bitterly reminisced
She cannot talk
In the sadness and despair of her shattered heart, she opted to take her own life
She was under the water for some time
No one knew how long and no one knew how short
But, what is known is that she can't talk
However, her heart has been repaired, yet, she remains silent
She is happy now, that is what can be said
It seems she doesn't need a voice
She smiles and her face lights up with joy
She is very expressive
Laughing and crying, smiling, playing, thinking, and all other sorts without making a sound
She can't
Nevertheless, it brought about her silence
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Illness Pray Took Me
Illness pray took me
My maternal figure I wait for
But the strain...its too much!
No longer did I need to dye my hair
It truly had turned white
No sooner did my hair color leave as did my health
Colds
Depression
Hospitalizations
I didn't really eat
I couldn't really sleep
And, I fear she may not come
I fear they did away with her
*gasp*
I've spat up blood
Medications do not seem to help
My health, oh dear, is leaving me!
I feel so weak
The strain is killing me
Taking a toll on me
Illness
Fainting spells
Depression
Nightsweats
Finally, after all seem to do no good
Finally, I was hospitalized
Illness pray took me and death would be sweet
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Even the Winter is Far Warmer Than I
As I write, I cannot help but to feel so cold
I feel cold, just so cold
So cold
This is hell living like this
The winter is even warmer
Even death is warmer
I just feel so cold
I just feel so cold
I feel even colder with tears rolling down my face
Death is even warmer than this
Even the winter in its cold feels warm
I'm living in hell
It is hell to live in silence, because speaking will only trouble
It is hell doing all you can to help and please and people still treat you badly
It is hell living, feeling hideous with anemia and alopecia
It is hell running futily
It is hell living in uncertainty
It is hell resenting an innocent child
It is hell feeling helpless in a winter that is far warmer than you
It is hell being alive!
I feel so cold
Death doesn't feel this cold
The winter feels even warmer
Yet, I feel so cold
Curse this immortality~!
All in all, even the winter is far warmer than I
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Tears of Ice
In the winter
The ancient youkai is entombed by
tears of ice
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