#gaz/reader

[akio-ayashi]

Yes, please keep me safe 🥺

imagine running from a horde of zombies after you were caught off guard and sprinting through a forest, hopeless and desperate because you can't seem to shake off this horde that seems to be growing in numbers, until finally you come across a shelter carefully concealed in the pinewood, almost blending into the surrounding landscape.

the man living there must have seen you running in the distance because when you pass by, the door opens and shuts like a spider's trap, and he drags you inside and holds you to his chest so you don't so much as twitch until you hear the horde pass by. and it's large. hundreds of undead groaning and rushing by, almost clambering over one another, still thinking that they're in pursuit of you. your heart is smashing against your ribcage because you realize now that there's no way you could've outrun them or gotten away - the man at your back is the only thing standing between you and certain death.

he introduces himself as Gaz and tells you that you can spend however long you'd like with him. he's been living in the woods since the outbreak and he's been stockpiling food and water since long before. one of his old army buddies bought the bunker almost a decade back - a real prepper-type, though he passed well before the apocalypse and left the property to Gaz in the absence of any family.

you're so appreciative of his help and you aren't one to look a gift horse in the mouth, so obviously you take him up on his offer and spend the week.

only when days go by and you mention that you're thinking of heading out now that the horde has long passed, he talks you out of it. seems concerned about what'll happen to you if you're on your own out there. you let him convince you to stay a little longer, but sure enough, after another few days you start to get jittery, anxious to get back out on the road because the last thing you want to do is overstay your welcome.

then you see the locks on the door. it's padlocked shut, the key nowhere to be found. you don't remember there being locks on the inside. that's the only thing you can think when Gaz comes up from behind you, planting both of his hands on your shoulders, almost as if to offer you reassurance.

"don't worry, love," he murmurs, bending low so his voice is right in your ear. "i'm gonna keep you safe. you won't ever have one of them chase you again."

[last-starry-sky]

let it out pt. 1 - 141xreader

(aka - the unhinged fivesome fic i've had cooking for ages and decided to finish for my stupid mental health)

[NSFW - MIND THE WARNINGS - MDNI: 4.9k, alcohol/drinking mention, implied past misogyny, smoking mention, everything from here on is dub-con (this is your only warning): kissing, nipple-play, biting, dry humping, mmmf foursome (sorry, someone gets left out in this part 😔), also, possibly the worst cliffhanger i've ever left a chapter on.]

You knew you should have locked the door.

“What in the hell’s gotten into you?” Soap shouted, more drunk than loud, blowing right through the door. Didn’t even bother to knock. 

Not that it mattered. The room was still mostly empty, with only your duffel thrown in the corner to mark it as any different from the hundreds of others. If you were lucky, you would all be leaving again in a few hours, and this ugly, anonymous, concrete box of a base in the middle-of-nowhere would be nothing but a hazy memory. One in a long string of others that would soon fade back into nothing. A boring footnote at the end of a frustrating mission.

You sighed as you rolled to face him. You had been staring at the ceiling on your shitty little bed, arms crossed and still fully clothed, minus your boots. Those you’d kicked off once you’d returned to “your” room, letting them crash into the corner not caring what they took with them. You’d thrown yourself down onto the thin mattress with a huff, intent on stewing in your anger for the rest of the night. Maybe in the morning you would be able to face your “teammates” with more than a forced smile. 

Soap stood over you, hands on his hips, dark eyebrows pushing a thick crease into the center of his forehead. His cheeks were still slightly blushed from the first few rounds of celebratory, post-mission drinks with the team. The ones you had just skipped out on. 

What should have been a relaxing evening to bond with your teammates had felt like a joke. You had quietly sat at the table with the four other men, sipping your beer while they laughed and animatedly told stories. Soap had even thrown his arm around you more than once, usually at the point his story where you had tried to do something. Tried.

“Can’t leave out the part with Medic!” he had said, “She’s the only reason any ov’ us made it out in one piece!” 

You’d answered his friendliness with a terse, cold smile. It’s like he had gone on a completely different mission from you. You’d made an excuse to visit the bathroom while Price and Gaz had gone out for a smoke, making a break for your room.  

“Nothing,” you lied, jaw tight. The short nails digging into your skin as you turned away. “I’m fine. Just don’t feel like drinks tonight.”

“Ah, you’re a shit liar, Medic,” he said, a playful edge to his harsh tone, as he pointed at you. He moved to the side of your bed, his blue eyes able to keep boring down into you. 

You chose ignore him, rolling over to your back to stare at the ceiling again. Fuck him. He didn’t outrank you. He let out a frustrated huff and sat down on your bed. The frame creaked loudly as he did, rolling you suddenly against as his weight dipped the mattress. 

“Come on, Medic. Talk t’ me,” he pleaded, his voice low and soft. The crease in his forehead remained. “You’re not acting like yourself. What’s wrong?” 

“Don’t know, Soap,” you said letting out a breath as you continued staring at the water marks in the tiles above you. Anything to keep your eyes from wandering to his face. Those sad, puppy-dog eyes of his would have cracked your resolve instantly and you knew it. “Just don’t understand why I was even needed on that mission.”

His concerned face came into view as he leaned over you. 

“The fuck you mean by that?”

You sat up and backed away, averting your gaze pointedly away from him as you pulled your knees to your chest. You didn’t want the image of him hovering over you to get too comfortable in your head. Thankfully, he moved to let you sit up. You were over your little pity party anyway. You were ready to talk like an adult. 

“Don’t act stupid, Soap,” you said softly with just a little bit of petulance left in your tone. “All four of you did the same thing all mission.” 

While he continued to stare at you: open mouthed and confused, you moved, throwing your legs over the side of the bed to sit at his side. You tried to put some distance between the two of you, but you had scant room left as he was already in the middle of your tiny mattress. It forced you to press your knees and thighs to his. You could feel his warmth bleed through his jeans. How that man could run so warm was a medical mystery, one that made you shiver. 

“What?” he asked, turning to you with eyebrows raised, all the more concerned. “Wha’d we do?” 

You rolled your eyes and shot an exasperated look his way. How could he be so dense? Did he not even realize how the whole team had been treating you for the past month? 

“What did you do?” you answered him mockingly. “You spent the whole mission making me feel useless! Anytime any of you got injured you were pushing me away! Me!” you said pointing at your chest. “I’m a medic, Soap! Your medic. That’s the whole reason I’m here! I’ve been doing this job for years! I’ve been on multiple special forces teams before this. What more do I have to do to prove to you I can do my job?” 

Soap was silent, which concerned you. He stared down at his hands between his legs. You could feel he was holding something back, something he didn’t want to tell you. A tear rolled down your cheek. You had a feeling you knew what the root of the problem was.  

“Is it . . . is it because I’m a woman? Is that why?” you asked, wiping at your eyes. It was painful to even say it. You’d faced this before, you weren’t stupid. Some, no, scratch that most, teams were a boys only club, and you just had to grit your teeth through it until you were reassigned. “You know, if you want a man-”

“No!” he yelled, interrupted you, grabbing for your hand as you wiped away your tears. You snatched it out of his involuntarily. 

“Then what is it?” you snapped back, still in no mood to dick around. If you needed to talk to Price and get your bag packed tonight, then so be it. You’d rather take care of this sooner than later. 

Soap wrapped his arms around you, surprising you. He held you to his chest for a moment, running his hands down your back. You tried to push yourself away, shoving at his unyielding stomach and squeaking out his name against his chest, all to no avail. He was just too strong. 

“Calm down, hen. Calm down. Don’t fight me,” he said softly in your ear. “Give me a chance to speak m’ piece, hear?” 

You complied with a groan, ceasing your struggle. This wasn’t professional, obviously, but you couldn’t find a reason to fight it anymore. You let him hold you for a moment, the constant thrum of his heart pounding in your ear. He was so warm too. You wished you could give in, just melt into the surrounding heat of his arms and chest. You knew it was just because you were stressed and hadn’t been touched in, fuck, it had to be months now, but still. 

“You’re right. Sorry. Sorry we treated you like that,” he confessed. 

His hands slid over your shoulders, releasing you from most of his steely grip. You didn’t try to wrench away this time, but you did rest your hands on his chest. The feel of his pectoral muscles, even though they were softened by the cotton of his shirt, made you tremble. This was terribly dangerous territory to be treading in. 

“Didn’t mean to. Honest. We’re all just . . .” he trailed off, letting his head cock to the side as he flexed his hands on your upper arms.

You pulled away, just enough to look up at his face. You didn’t want him to hide, not now. You were teammates after-all. You actually wanted to stay teammates for once, not get bounced from team to team, from one group of assholes to another every six months. The wear of never being able to put down roots, let alone connect to the humans you were keeping alive was starting to fray your psyche. Some days you felt like little more than a sentient med-bag. 

With the 141 though, it felt different. You didn’t want to lose that. You’ve been together through the standard life-and-death situations and made it out alive. You’d slept side by side in the gravel, shared cold MRE’s in the dark, even tended to each other’s wounds when they’d let you. There was no need for him to hide the truth from you. Besides, you’d been weak for Soap from the moment you met but managed to keep it professional, barely. You’re pretty sure the cocky bastard knows it too. As much as you wanted him, you valued your job and position over any selfish need for sexual fulfillment. 

“We’re scared shitless ‘a losing you,” he continued with a pained sigh, leaning in to press his lips to your eyebrow, strong, calloused hand gripping your bicep. 

Oh. His words made your brain flat-line. Well, you thought. This was . . . new? A team that actually cared about you?

His hand cupped your jaw; warm, rough fingers smoothing over your cheek and neck. You closed your eyes and bit your lip, partly from pleasure, partly to suppress any embarrassing noises. There was no way was this happening. 

“We all are,” he continued, warm breath fanning across your face. “Know you can handle yourself. It’s just . . . anytime it gets hot and we start getting hit, something in me . . . all of us . . . just wants to protect you.”

You smiled, lip falling out of the grip of your teeth. No one had ever said something so caring to you before, least of all a fellow soldier. 

“That’s a dumb fucking reason, Soap,” you said weakly back to him. 

You thumped a fist on his chest once, trying to cover your wavering voice and vulnerability with sarcasm. You wished he would take the bait like others had in the past, but he didn’t. He sat there in silence, still holding your face, waiting for you. You sighed as he pressed his hand to the small of your back. 

“Do you know how stressed out you guys made me?” you finally let out. Tears piqued in the corner of your eyes again, hazing your vision. “Like everyday? Your lives are in my hands and you wouldn’t-”

“I know,” he interrupted you with a groan, hand moving up your back to stroke at your neck. You sighed, leaning into his hand as he massaged you. “‘s not right. I’ll talk to the guys later about it, if you want. Doan think we don’t want you, because we do. Honest.” 

He looked down at you with those blue eyes, practically glowing with emotion, and . . . how can you refute him when you can read him so plainly? His eyes spoke sadness through that stare in a way that words failed. There was also something darker there: a drunken, feral hunger that’s blowing his pupils wide as he cradled your head. It’s eating those precious blue irises until there’s nothing left but a dark pit of lust. Your hand clutched tighter on his shirt, pulling the collar enough to reveal his collarbone. It’s a pit you’re both precipitously close to falling over.  

“I would . . . appreciate that,” you sighed as his thumb stroked over your cheek. 

You tried to keep your eyes on the scar on his chin, but it only drew you to his lips and that delicious dark stubble. He had been back on base for less than a day, but he still hadn’t shaved post-mission. You wondered if he had taken your half-joking comment about how men are more attractive with facial hair to heart. You broke your eyes away, not wanting to countenance that line of thought. At least not while he was still tenderly cradling your face. 

“Would rather be there to say it myself, though” you continued airily. 

Soap drew his fingers out over your face, his thumb grazing over your bottom lip. You let your eyes fall shut again despite yourself. You felt his hoppy breath waft over your face as he tightened his grip on the back of your neck. 

“Get it all out . . . in front of everyone,” you said, finishing your thought with a struggle.

“Yeah,” he said, his nose nudging yours. “Let it out.”

Before you can stop him - fuck, like you wanted to stop him now - he pulled you into his lap, slotting his mouth over yours for a kiss. There’s no warning. No gentleness or confessions. Shit like that fell fast to the wayside in the military. It had made you sad at first, the loss of intimacy inherent in building a romantic relationship, but fuck it. You need this. You give into his lead completely: the desperate way he forced himself into your mouth, all passion, teeth and tongue. You balled both your hands in his shirt and hold on for dear life.

He hummed, pleased with himself, as he broke away to kiss down your neck. You’re no better though. You’re moaning right along with him, telegraphing loud and clear how well he’s breaking you down, how much you want him. He doesn’t waste time as he sucks hickies onto your throat, rucking up your shirt to paw at your bra at the same time. Alone time is another one of those luxuries the military makes you ration: never knowing when someone will burst in the door to call you away. He’s obviously hungry to get your tits out and he’s not letting a second go to waste. 

“Thought I’d find you here,” a gruff voice said flatly behind you. 

Both you and Soap looked up in shock at the large, masked, black-clad figure filling your doorway. You didn’t even hear the door open. Wait, fuck, had Soap left it open this whole time? You tried to wriggle away, pushing at Soap’s shoulder, not wanting your Lieutenant of all people to see you like this: shirt half off, face flushed with fresh, wet bites coloring your neck. Soap held on to you though, his full strength holding you to his body as you tried to kick away. He simply tucked back into your neck, continuing to blindly unclasp your bra. 

“Medic’s stressed, LT. Wanna help?” Soap mumbled playfully, giving up on getting under your bra, switching instead to pulling your shirt up off your chest. 

Soap is putting you on display for your superior officer: a present with the wrapping peeled off the corner, just waiting to be torn in to, tempting the other man to join. Your eyes are wide, pleading silently with Ghost to take even the smallest amount of mercy on you. Your brain is racing to concoct some plausible story to get both you and Soap out of this mess with your jobs and it’s not looking good. 

Ghost continued to lean against the wall, arms crossed across that broad chest, masked face passively observing you and Soap without a hint of emotion. Soap managed to peel your shirt off of your chest, forcing your arms off of him for a moment to push it up. It’s Ghost, however, that grabs it from behind, guiding it up off your arms, tossing it behind him. It sends a shiver up your spine how silent he is. You didn’t hear him approach, but you can feel energy radiating off him as he stands behind you. 

Soap does away with your bra with those practiced, nimble hands of his once it’s exposed. Once you’re fully bare, he’s pushing you off his lap to kneel on the floor in front of you. You stare down at him as he kisses his way across your chest, his hands stroking up and down your ribs while pressing your breasts together at their peak, mostly so that you aren't forced to face Ghost in this state. A gasp catches in your throat as Soap finds his prize. He sucks a nipple into his mouth and you can’t help but screw your eyes shut and let out a high-pitched whine. You’re silently glad it wasn’t his name. 

You feel Ghost’s gloved hand scrape along the back of your neck: thumb on your spine, long fingers curled around your artery. Your skin prickles underneath it.

“Gotta plan, Johnny?” Ghost asks him, deep voice rumbling gravel-rough as he tests his fingers against your skin and you whimper. You know he’s strong. Know he can snap necks with those hands. You’ve seen it. Fuck if it isn’t making your pussy clench at how gentle he is, how rough he could be. 

“Fuck, LT. Stayin’ right here,” He says breathlessly, breaking away only long enough to answer your superior. 

Soap cups a breast in each hand, gently squeezing as he moves to lay an open mouthed kiss on your sternum. He tweaks your wet nipple with a moan, absorbed already in his own pleasure. Soap always was too loud. Too vocal. 

“Ain’t she fuckin’ beautiful, Ghost? Doan be shy. Join in.”

Ghost’s fingers flex on the back of your neck again, breaking your stare away from Soap as he works kisses over to your other breast. You weakly wrap your arms around Soap’s shoulders, finding comfort in holding him, something solid in this tumult you’ve been thrown into. He’s at least obvious with what he wants. Ghost is a variable, an unknown. You still aren’t sure what he’s going to do even as he closes his fingers deliciously around your throat; weak moans falling from your mouth. 

He could easily turn on his heel and have the both of you court marshaled by morning. You know it. You know he could read the fear in your eyes when you first saw him. He’s seen it before. It’s life and death. The fear of whatever decision he makes, it may change both Soap and your lives forever. His eyes are as dark and unreadable as Soap’s are bright and expressive. The flex of his gloved fingers on your neck and the subtle shift of his hips in his tac-pants makes you bite your lip. A swipe of his thumb over your lip, pulling it out from your teeth, tells you his decision without a word. 

That’s when Soap finally locked his lips around your other nipple. He sucked hard, teeth scraping over the sensitive bud. Ghost’s hands kept your head locked, eyes boring down into you, standing over you, keeping you beneath him, powerless. You closed your eyes, locked your fingers into Soap’s mohawk and moaned, throwing your head back as you let it out. 

Ghost let go of your head suddenly. He walked in awkwardly large steps around Soap as he rounded your bed. 

“Keep that mouth quiet then,” he said, an order to himself. “Can’t have the whole base showin’ up.”

You felt the mattress sink behind you a moment later, followed by Ghost snaking his arms around you. One hand on your stomach, one on your jaw, locking you in place. You shuddered, leaning into the cold, rough texture of the gloves on his hands. You could feel the buttons on his shirt as his chest pushed flush to your back. 

Fuck, he’s so big. So strong, you thought. Not that you had much time for that. The hand on your stomach left to pull up the bottom of his mask before quickly falling back in place, his other hand tilting your head back to slot his mouth over yours.

It sent your mind into another galaxy. This shouldn’t be happening, your closest teammates: Soap and Ghost, both pawing over your body, touching, kissing, pleasing you. You were all beyond unprofessional at this point. Never mind how much you’ve been fantasizing about this, about all of them. 

It had been a tortuous downward spiral ever since you swore you would be right behind them, ready at a moment's notice to put them back together, to put your own body on the line to save them. That was your promise, your personal mission: to get them home alive. You wondered if that was what triggered this protective attitude of theirs. Not that the in’s and out’s of how you all ended up like this really mattered. The reality of the situation was: If Price ever found out you were all dead.

Soap’s hands brace on both of your thighs as he begins to kiss down your torso, a new goal in mind. 

Ghost, your god damn lieutenant, of all people, always so cold and calculating. You felt he should have been the last person listening to Soap’s crazy ideas to crawl into your bed. He shouldn’t be holding you like a china doll, petting your face as he peppers gentle, unsure, little kisses over your lips. You shouldn’t be demurely shying away from the skin he’s revealing to you, but here you are. You lay your hand over his on your hip and he breaths a silent groan across your mouth. He just stays like that for a moment, holding and listening to you as Soap lays messy kisses south of your navel, tickling you with his head and facial hair. 

“Ghost,” you moan, gripping his gloved hand, hoping it goads him into what you want: kissing you deeper, as Soap pops open the fly of your pants.

It does. He obliges immediately, pushing himself into your mouth, swirling your tongue with his. Your cry covers his whine. It all feels too good, too much. The rain breaking loose over the parched desert soil. It didn’t matter anymore, the consequences. You just wanted this. You were ready to take as much as they could give until the flood swept you away. 

“Woah,” a familiar voice called from the door. 

Fuck. You know that voice. Gaz. 

Ghost’s hand on your jaw kept you from breaking away. He wasn’t done with you yet. You feel Soap turn away from working your pants off. The door creaks partially shut behind Gaz as he enters, sticky bottoms of his boots squeaking against the clean floor. 

“Came to check on Medic,” he continued, far too cool and collected. “See if she’s okay. Didn’t, ah. Didn’t expect this.” 

He isn’t backpedaling out of your room. He isn’t apologizing or telling the other men to break it up. Fuck, he’s walking farther in.

“Coam on in mate,” Soap said to Gaz cheerily, his accent slurring thick. “Workin’ on cheerin’ her up right now. Room ‘nough for all of us,”

Soap looked up at you, shit eating grin plastered across his face, as Ghost finally broke your kiss. He pulled down your zipper: hands slowly pushing away the fabric at your waist, peeling your fly open to reveal your underwear. 

You heard Gaz whistle as he walked up to the bed, just the same as Ghost had. Gaz hummed as he approached the three of you, stopping to observe like you were a blushing nude in a piece of art and not a human being. If Soap had been emotional in his approach, and Ghost had been careful, Gaz was hungry. He wasn’t interested in wasting time asking questions. He was here, this was happening, and that was all that mattered. 

“Where you want me?” he asked, eye flicking between Ghost and Soap. 

“Stayin’ right here, sergeant,” Ghost said against your lips, absently commanding the man. It should have concerned you how easily they talked about you like you weren’t even there.

“Can’t even steal a peck?” he said cheekily, leaning down so that the brim of his blue hat tickled your temple. 

“One,” Ghost said, releasing you with a growl.

Gaz’s hand gently turned your head toward him. You breathed a sigh as he leaned in to press your sensitive, kiss-bruised lips to his. He moved slowly and sweetly, pulling your bottom lip between his teeth to test it, but never breaking away. Each of them kissed so differently and it drove you mad thinking that all of this had been right here just waiting for you. 

Ghost wasn’t one to wait for his turn. Your lips were his. He’d claimed them already, and Gaz, as much as he liked the man, was testing his limits. He pressed his face into the crane of your neck, mask jutting into your jaw awkwardly, sinking his teeth in to what skin he could reach. The first bite shocked you enough to make you pull away from Gaz with a gasp, leaving Gaz grinning at the man behind you. 

“Nice play,” he said nicely, smiling with his teeth barred. 

He knew it was better to play fair in a situation like this and let his superiors take the lead. They were his brothers, not his enemies, after all. Besides, you had so much more to offer him. Like those beautiful tits, nipples still shiny with Soap’s spit, just begging for attention. He took off his hat, tossing it around the metal post of your headboard, and set to work.

“Cheap though,” Soap mumbled against the skin of your hip. 

Ghost grunted in response, continuing his line of bites down your neck as you whined in his grasp. 

Gaz didn’t respond, or even seem to mind. He’s humming around your nipple, flicking his tongue across the very tip. A trail of sparks shoot up your spine. His fingers gently petted across your breast, squeezing with just a bit of pressure as he reached your nipple. 

You gritted your teeth together, suppressing a moan. With all three of them working together, it was just too much. If you didn’t stop yourself now, there was no telling what wanton, stupid things you would say.   

“Harder, Gaz,” Ghost commanded. His voice rough, breath hot and ragged down your neck. 

Gaz obeyed, teeth testing the nipple in his mouth, pinching the one in his hand. You bowed back as much as you could in Ghost’s grip, a whiny moan ripping from your throat. 

“Beautiful,” Soap whispered, nuzzling at your pussy through your pants. He cleared his throat. “LT. Need yer help ‘ere,” 

You feel Ghost lean over your shoulder, looking past your exposed body down to Soap between your trembling legs. Soap’s bright eyes avoid your pleasure-drunk gaze, focusing entirely on the massive man behind you. He cracks a wide smile as their eyes lock. 

“What y’ need, Johnny?” Ghost asked, his gloved hands gripping into the flesh of your torso. 

Soap dug his fingers into your cargo pants, his smile on the edge of manic. 

“Lift ‘er up. Get these off,” he answered, throat bobbing as he spoke with denial, anticipation, lust. 

“On three,” Ghost responded, wrapping both his strong arms around your chest, locking you into place. 

Gaz had only a moment to pull off you before the count began. When Ghost reached “one”, he lifted you off the bed easily, allowing Soap enough room to pull your pants down to your knees. 

Ghost set you down, this time onto his lap. You blushed and he groaned, realizing he was now holding you down with both hands against his brutally hard cock. 

Soap was already stripping your pants off fully, throwing them with a flutter behind his back. His eyes were blown wide, blue irises fully consumed by his pupils. His chest heaved, struggling to catch his breath, as he held your legs wide enough to push his way into the drenched gusset of your panties. 

“Fuck,” he said, running his thumb up the slick-soaked fabric. 

You turned your head out of the crook of Ghost’s shoulder, struggling in vain to catch your breath. Gaz was right there, unfortunately. He caught your lips again, pushing his tongue into your mouth to quiet your pitiful mewling as Ghost rolled his cock into the plush of your ass. Gaz’s  hands cupped your breasts again, grazing alternately at your nipples just enough to send that delicious tickle down your spine. 

Soap huffed a hot breath against your clothed cunt, making you shudder against the hands containing you. 

“Ca’ wait t’ taste that pussy,” Soap moaned, his nose grazing your clit through your panties as he pushed his face fully against your leaking core. 

Ghost groaned at Soap’s words, sinking his teeth into your shoulder. You cried into Gaz’s mouth, making him break away. Ghost pulled away as well and looked over at Gaz. 

“Gaz,” Ghost asked, suddenly devoid of  emotion. 

“Hmm?” Gaz answered, looking away from you as he pet at your face, wiping away your tears. 

“When you left, where was Price?”

Gaz thought for a moment, pausing to look down at you with eyebrows knit together. 

“Cap? Not sure. After I left to find-”

“You just left him?” Ghost interrupted him tersely, leaning over into Gaz’s face, jostling you around like a doll. Soap grumbled as your pussy was wrenched away from him. Ghost wrapped a hand in Gaz’s collar to pull him close. 

“Yeah?” Gaz answered, nerves trembling his voice. “Why-”

“Because he knew I’d follow you here. Just like the rest of you did,” your Captain’s dull, almost disappointed voice answered from the dark just outside your door. 

A spike of fear shot down your spine. Oh, you were all so screwed. 

a/n: yes, part three of Girl's Night Out is still coming! consider this an extra anniversary treat dedicated to everyone who sent kind messages while I clawed my way out of this bout of depression. (✿◠‿◠) ❤️ part two to this thing . . . idk when y'all want it??

[thatgoblin]

141 Men Losing Their Partner

Summary: Dead Dove Don't Eat.

WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT PERTAINING TO PREGNANCY, DROWNING, CAR ACCIDENT, MURDER, NO HAPPY ENDINGS.

Price

It had been a normal day for John, texting you at lunch to see what you wanted for dinner. It was Friday, which meant that it would be a lazy weekend after a grueling month of missions followed by an equally grueling week of training with cadets. Nothing seemed out of place as he pulled up to the house he shared with you, a small townhouse that was perfect for the time being, but with talk of a baby, you would need more room soon. 

“Love, I’m home,” John called, holding plastic bags full of Chinese cartons holding low mein and sweet and sour pork. “Love?” There was no answer. The inside was eerily quiet and John knew that quiet meant bad things. In the field, it meant that people were on the move and hiding it, but at home it meant you were either gone or hurt. After being told you would be home and waiting, he was on high alert. 

Guns weren’t a common item, but with his position he had one stashed. Stalking through the house, handgun held out as he cleared rooms, he was moving on instinct. Years of training from doing this through blown up buildings and searching for the bad guys was the only thing keeping him from running through the place and screaming your name. 

When he got to the kitchen, he spun around the corner with the gun raised, slipping on something slick and wet. Catching himself on the counter, his breath left him. 

There was so much blood. More than he had ever seen before, not even when he interrogated or was locked up in a Russian prison or even the fucking battlefield. Nothing compared the scene before him. 

John shook as he set his gun down, starting to hyperventilate as he locked eyes with your lifeless body. You were on the floor, your throat slit and body stabbed to the point that it looked like someone put ground beef on you. This couldn’t be real. It couldn’t. You were the safe place he had from the world. Everything about you had been his soft landing place. He had worked so hard to keep you separated from his job and it was all for nothing. 

Going to his knees, he crawled to you. John’s hands trembled as they touched your face in disbelief. He was unable to take a proper breath, the smell of your blood stinging his senses as he pulled you to him, pressing his face to yours. There was no conscious movement as he began to rock and weep softly. Holding you tight, he stayed there till Laswell showed up. She had been invited over with her wife for a double date. Kate tried to pull him away as her wife called the police, but it triggered him to start screaming. Even when the police showed up, it took an ambo arriving to sedate him for him to let go of you. 

“Be careful with her,” he sobbed as the medics put you on a gurney. “She’s allergic to penicillin. She gets hives. Please, she needs-she needs-”

Kate held him as he broke, going silent. “We were going to have a baby,” he whispered, tears soaking his beard. “We wanted to get a new house and have a baby. We wanted. . . What am I going to do?”

Gaz

You had been on a date with Kyle, a fun outing that was desperately needed after being separated for months. You went to dinner at this greasy burger place then went to an arcade that had a giant purple dragon he swore he would get you. After five tries and lots of swearing, he finally did it. “My hero,” you cooed, holding your prize as you leaned in to kiss his cheek. “Ready to head home? I don’t think this guy is meant to be carried around for long.”

“I am if you are,” Kyle said with a grin, giving you a wink. Wrapping an arm around your waist, he pulled you along to get to the street. He held his hand up to hail a cab, holding you close as you pressed against his body. It had been too long since you had last held him and with having him home for a few weeks, you were refusing to let him go any time soon. 

“Can’t get a bloody cab for shit,” he huffed. You were about to tell him you could call for one when you heard tire screeching. There was no time to react to the car hitting the curb then the pair of you. It was milliseconds and even if either of you had been looking at it, there was no escaping it. 

The car had been speeding when it barrelled over you two. Kyle flew over the hood and slammed into the windshield as you were dragged under the tires. Screams from everyone filled the air as the car stopped for just a moment before swerving off to leave you.

“Ky-Kyle,” you wheezed, laying on the ground. Your middle had been crushed and you couldn’t feel anything below your chest. It hurt to breathe, making you choke and gasp as Kyle forced himself to drag himself to you.

“Doll,” he groaned, his leg at a bad angle and his head bleeding profusely. “Don’t move. Stay with me.”

“Kyle,” you choked out. “Cold.”

“No, please,” he whimpered, collapsing next to you as people gathered to try and help keep you still as others called the ambulance. “Darling, don’t. Please.”

“Love,” you whispered as he took your limp hand. “You.”

“Help is coming, please, just hold on,” he begged as you stayed still and quiet. “Darlin’? Baby? No, no, no, no.” The ambulance didn’t arrive for nearly an hour. Price showed up well before them. He made Kyle stay still as he kept calling for you, holding your hand. Someone had draped their jacket over your top and another person laid their’s over your middle, hoping to give you some decency as Kyle demanded that Price help you. Even when he was in danger of snapping his spine, paralyzing himself for life, he still made you the priority. 

“Gaz,” Price said softly. “She’s gone. I’m sorry, lad.” 

“No, please. She’s just-just quiet,” Kyle sobbed, his physical pain not even compared to what he was feeling when he was made to let go of you for good.

Soap

It had started out as a weekend trip to blow off some steam. You and Johnny had gone to a resort in a warm climate with crystal clear water and amazing food. There was plenty of mixed, frozen drink and tanning lotion for the pair of you to get some nice warm color back into their almost sickly complexions. 

Johnny made sure to get plenty of pictures of you in your bathing suit, specifically your ass. You  gave him shit, but he just laughed and took more. Included in your stay was a boat tour of a cave. It wasn’t the rainy season so it was safe. No sudden surges or unexpected storms. Johnny said he’d been in more dangerous pools in the UK, making you relax and trust that things would be fine. 

You weren’t the strongest swimmer, but you were good enough to get by. Add in a life jacket and Johnny next to you, you felt safe. Untouchable really. What took you by surprise was the rumble of thunder as you got halfway into the tour. 

“Don’t worry, it will miss us,” the guide said, easing any worries that would pop up. Holding Johnny’s hand, you were about to make a comment about the glowing algae when you heard a clicking pop. Turning to him, you were left speechless. 

“You know I’m not good with words, but I think this speaks for itself,” he said, holding up a rose gold ring with a set of yellow diamond leaves. “Will you marry me?”

“Yes,” you said softly. “Yes! I would hug you aggressively, but I don’t want to lose the ring and tip the boat!” You cried with a shrieking laugh. Sliding the ring onto your finger, he pulled you close for a kiss as flashes from the phone the tour guide held reminded you that you weren’t alone. 

“I got everything recorded, Mr. Johnny,” he said with a grin, handing Johnny’s phone back to him. 

“Thanks, Mate,” Johnny said with a grin, keeping you close. As the guide turned the boat around, thunder rumbled again, much louder that time. “We’re still good, right?” He asked.

“Yeah, we’re heading back now, no worries,” the guide said as he navigated the slowly raising waters. You held onto Johnny as the thunder got louder and you could see the lightening was able to be seen from the front of the cave. 

Another rumble lasted longer, making you look around at the water. The rumbled quickly turned into a rushing sound, getting louder in seconds as a monstrous wave slammed into the cave, sending all the water rushing back. The rush slammed into the boat, making the bow lift high. With the guid on the back of the boat and you and Johnny in the middle, the weight distribution didn’t save you from being tossed into the water as the boat capsized. 

You screamed, grabbing for Johnny as you were pulled under. There was no preparation to stay under too long, your lungs burning as you blindly clawed at the bottom of the cave to find the side or top. Bursting through the surface with a choking gasp, you didn’t have time to get another breath before you were pulled back under by the rip that had been made by the current. Not even with the life jacket were you able to break through the water. 

Johnny was able to grab the guide and get him to higher ground in the cave. Dragging him onto rocks, he began to scream your name. Where had you gone!? You were right there! “Where are you!” He screamed, ready to jump back in.

“No, you will drown! It’s not safe until after the storm!” The guide cried as he grabbed Johnny’s arm. 

“My partner is in there!” Johnny snarled, but the guide fought with him, keeping him where it was safe while you were left on your own. As the flash storm rolled on, just a few minutes after it showed up, your life jacket floated out from the back of the cave. It didn’t mean anything, you could still be alive. Despite the water calming, the guide made them stay on the rocks till a rescue boat came in, shining a light on them. “There’s someone still in here!” He yelled as the men climbed into the boat. 

“We know, we have her outside,” the rescue worker said, helping them sit before turning the boat around.

“She’s okay?” Johnny asked, surprised as he never saw you since you fell from the boat. The man was quiet, not looking at him. “Is she okay?” He pushed. “Can you fuckin’ tell me if she’s alive or not!?” He snarled. All he received was silence. When the boat came out and he saw a white sheet laid over a body on the beach, he jumped from the rescue boat before it could stop. Running over, he was screaming your name as the police were taping off the beach. One of the officers tried to stop him, but he easily shoved them aside as he kept screaming. 

You were still and silent as he picked you up, refusing to let anyone near you as he wailed in grief. Holding you, he rocked the two of you as the police tried to control the growing crowd. There was nothing they could do to help him, as news crews began to swarm the beach to get pictures of the grief stricken man holding his fiancee’s body as her hand with the engagement ring dangled free for them to take pictures of and plaster on the front pages.

Ghost

 You were just a month and a half shy of being full term. When Simon had been called to do a mission, you were pissed and ready to fight Price, but Simon calmed you down before you could come at the bearded man with a cricket bat. It wouldn’t be that long and he’d be back with plenty of time for the baby to be born. 

It had only been two days when you felt contractions start. At first you thought it was Braxton Hicks contractions, but then you felt your water break. When you went to the bathroom to check, you found that it wasn’t your water. It was blood and it was soaking your underwear and pants. Calling an ambulance, you unlocked the front door so they could get in. Once you were sure they were on their way, you called Simon’s emergency line. It wouldn’t go to him directly, but he would know what was happening right away at least. Leaving your message, the ambulance arrived soon after.

Crying, you held your stomach as you were strapped to a gurney and rushed to the hospital. You weren’t being told anything, just to keep breathing as the pain grew. With your phone in your hand, you kept checking it to see if Simon was able to call, but there was nothing. At the hospital, you were rushed into surgery as you begged one of the nurses to call the emergency line again to see when Simon could call. She promised she would keep trying as you handed off your phone. Once in surgery, you were put under and the last thing you thought was a plea to any deity listening to save your baby. 

Simon got the message and was gone. He didn’t ask permission or explain. His whole team was with him, though, getting him back home as quickly as possible. It was nearly five hours later in a plane to a helicopter that took him to the hospital with some of his gear and mask still on. Jumping out of the helo before it could land fully, he ripped his mask and vest off to throw to the side as he sprinted to where you were. 

His head was empty aside from the drive to get to you. You had to be okay. You had to be. There was a nurse waiting for him at the stairs, stopping him from running blindly through the hospital. 

“Mr. Riley,” she said, not flinching under his gaze that was fire and rage. 

“Where is my wife?” He growled, towering over her. 

“You’re wife. . . I am so sorry, but she didn’t make it,” the nurse said. Simon could only hear the ringing in his ears that he would hear when he was near a concussion grenade going off. “Her uterine lining ripped and she had lost too much blood by the time she arrived at the hospital.” None of her words seemed to register to her as his team came up behind him. 

Every word was lost on him as he stood there, not responding to anything she said. Not even Price shaking him could bring him to. 

“What about the baby?” He finally asked, coming out of it enough to think of that. “Is she okay?”

“She’s stable and in the NICU. Despite being born rather early, she is healthy and will stay there till she’s considered to term to make sure she has the best chance of surviving,” the nurse said. Simon nodded, going quiet again. 

“I want to see her. I want to see my wife,” he said. The nurse nodded, knowing he would do it anyway he could. His face said it all. Taking him to the OR, she waved others on when they stopped to question why four men were being let into the room. The team held back while Simon moved forward to the white sheet covered table. With steady hands, he pulled the cover back to see your face. You looked like you were sleeping. He would watch you before you awoke for the day and this was the same face. 

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, stroking your hair. His gloves were long gone, leaving him bare to the world he struggled to hide from. “I’m so sorry. I should have never left.” Leaning forward, he pressed your faces together as he quietly cried. He had lost his family, then found you and it was a breath of life to him. Now you were gone and left him with a small piece of you. He didn’t know if he could do it without you, if he could be someone his daughter needed or wanted. Simon didn’t know how to be a good partner till you came along, so how could he know how to be a good dad without you?

Masterlist

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[inkbybambi]

fae!gaz whom you meet in a quaint little coffee shop that’s off the main road, tucked away. it’s small and cozy on the inside, with floor-to-ceiling bookshelves, dim lighting, plants lining every available free space. you like the quiet, and the pastries, and the ability to feel as if you’re suspended in time for a while.

you see him one day, and you’re surprised because you’ve never seen him before, and you’ve taken note of all the regulars — being one yourself.

he already knows your name when the barista calls it out. he wants it willingly, though. he doesn’t have to wait long, thankfully. you settle into your familiar chair and pull out a half-read, well-worn book. he comes over to introduce himself.

he doesn’t give you his name, but you more than happily say yours. you like the way his eyes sparkle, the way your name sounds on his tongue.

you start to see him more often, and your heart always skips a beat when he looks to you and a soft smile graces his lips. you swear he doesn’t smile like that at anyone else. you start sitting together in that little coffee shop, comfortable silence as you read and he writes or draws or does the daily crossword. other times, he’ll ask you about your book and you help him on the puzzles.

you don’t think he actually needs your help, but you’re not about to stop.

the shop likes to have an assortment of pastries; changing with the season or holiday or whenever they think of something new to try. you share yours with him, even though he protests every time.

he starts getting the pastries before you arrive. he knows what you like, knows what you’d like to try. it’s a bit curious, but cute.

one day the pastry tastes a little off. he doesn’t seem to mind, but you know something isn’t right. gaz looks concerned and he tells you not to worry, he has something back at his that’ll make you feel better. time feels far, far different after that.

[arthurlovesarthurmorgan]

LET ME GET A TASTE MFFFFF he knows he’s hot ASF🗣️🗣️‼️‼️

i want to lick every inch of his oiled up body

[wildechildwrites]

Bite History

Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/Reader

Word Count: 1.5k

Warnings: medical inaccuracies, canon typical violence, mediocre writing

No Use of Y/N, Gender Neutral Reader

Summary: You're the 141's new medic, and Gaz seems to think that medical care is optional.

A/N: this is my interpretation of Gaz. His fanon personality (when he’s even mentioned at all… shade) isn’t my favorite. Gimme a Gaz with a lil edge.

AO3 Link: Bite History

The 141 goes through medics faster than they go through bullets, sending them out in body bags and packing, unable to handle the pressure. You had been a miracle, a firecracker that exploded onto the team, nestling into their rib cages and refusing to leave. Your very first mission out on the field had been solo with Soap, and after he took a bullet to the leg, you dragged the large man four miles back to the safe house, sewed him back up and gave him a blood transfusion from your own veins while waiting for a pickup.

“The unofficial title is ‘team blood bag’,” you had said, a wiry grin on your face. “O negative’s worth more than gold, don’t you know.”

Soap had told and retold the story for weeks, found the whole thing hilarious, like he hadn’t almost bled out, like you hadn’t been on bedrest for days to recover from the strain. Price let you needle him about his blood pressure, you monitored how Soap’s scars healed, and you even got Ghost half undressed for an exam without him biting your head off. Altogether, you felt like your time had been successful, with one omission.

Gaz had not darkened your door, not once turned to you for medical care. You knew he got wounded just as often as the other men, figured he went to lick his wounds by himself, but it bothered you. He was friendly enough with you, but you were the medic for god’s sake. It was your job, and he wasn’t letting you do it.

The next time you’re out in the field, tucked into a sniper nest, you’re watching Gaz through the scope. His movements are fluid and confident, muscle memory carrying him through. You’re fairly certain he’s got the fastest reload in the unit, but the milliseconds of difference keep everyone neck and neck. You’re watching Gaz through the scope, so you see the moment he gets stabbed, the rough flick of a hidden blade low near his hip. He soldiers on like he didn’t feel it, shoving his assailant back, neutralizing them in seconds. You think this’ll be the moment he finally comes and sees you.

He doesn’t.

You take care of the other men at the safe house, distributing bandages and passing around your flask.

“For the pain,” you say, laughingly. Price rolls his eyes but takes a heavy pull anyway. You pass it to Ghost, and before he can take a sip, Soap snatches it from his fingertips. The two men grapple playfully, and you shake your head.

When the men are taken care of and settled, you go off, hunting for Gaz. You find him sitting on a bed alone, and you stand in the doorway, listening to him hiss as he clumsily cleans the wound.

“If you don’t trust my medical expertise, you could take it up with Price instead of bleeding out on your own,” You call out. Gaz jumps, shooting you an on guard, guilty look.

“Pain is mostly mental,” he says, and you scoff, coming to join him on the bed. He tries to stand, and you shove him back lightly, vindicated when he winces.

“It’s going to ruin my career if I let you die from something as simple as a knife wound,” you say, pushing up his shirt to look at the injury. It’s not bad, will only require a couple of stitches, but it bothers you that he’s trying to deal with it himself. You make him unzip his pants so you can get better access to sew it up, and you know the stormy glances he sends your way are more about the subtle humiliation than the pain of the needle going through his skin.

“You don’t need to baby me,” he says, and you detect the lightest amount of ice behind his words.

“If you knew how to ask for help, I wouldn’t have to,” you respond, rolling your eyes. “Come see me if you pull your stitches and if you need the bandages changed.” He gives no response, and you leave him to mope.

The next time Gaz doesn't come to see you, he tries to fish a bullet out of his arm with a knife, makes a mess out of it, a bigger headache for you when you finally find him. In retaliation, you become his shadow, just to prove you can. Every mission debrief, every paper cut, you’re there, slightly smug, majorly irritating, always caring. You follow textbook guidelines that you don’t bother with for anyone else, and he’s trapped. The rest of the team adores you, and how can you complain that the medic is giving too much care? You push him a little more every day, invading his personal space, poking and prodding. It feels like a game you're playing, and you wonder if he'll ever try and push back.

There’s a trail of blood in the corridor, and the culprit is limping in front of you. You abandon what you were doing to follow him, loping after him.

“Piss off.” Gaz bites out over his shoulder, and you grin. He’s filthy, gunpowder smeared on his face, covered in grime and body fluids, and far too exhausted to deal with you. It's perfect.

You don't hesitate to follow him into the showers, watching with amusement as he ignores you, shucking his gear off, dumping it on the floor and stripping down to his boxers. He's got a nasty gash along his thigh, skin torn at the edges and bleeding steadily, and you switch to medic mode.

“Let me take a look,” you say. Gaz stares at you, his expression unreadable, but he still lets you sit him on one of the benches. You drop to your knees in front of him to properly access the wound, ignoring how he bristles at the proximity.

His dark eyes are on you the entire time you're examining him, and when you look up, he holds your gaze until you break, eyes flitting back to his injury. It severs the tension, but you can feel the axis between you two shift when you give ground. Gaz reaches down and grabs your chin, tilting your face back up towards his, forcing you to look at him again.

“You’ve been a bloody irritation,” Gaz says, and you grapple with the sardonic undercurrent of his words.

“It’s a dangerous thing to be, the way we lose our medics."

He's smiling at you, slightly crooked, his teeth white and glinting in the light, and you've never noticed how sharp his canines are until now.

Everything about him is unassuming, the grip on your face light, his tone teasing and his smile wide, but you feel as though you’ve just stepped on a landmine. You’re aware of the dampness of your knees on the ground, the echo of droplets falling from the shower heads. You've still got your hands on his thigh, frozen in place, and the muscle underneath your fingertips is like iron. Gaz just stares down at you, still smiling, and you have the sudden, irrational urge to run. Unconsciously, you bite your lip.

Then it's over, a cloud passing over the sun, and Gaz finally blinks, lets go of his hold on you, and gives you a real smile, a sweet one.

His eyes flash, an undercurrent of something new and undecipherable and dangerous, and you swear his gaze drops to your mouth for a split second.

"I figured you'd spook easy," he laughs, "all bark and no bite, you maddening thing." You manage a shaky scowl, but his laugh is contagious, and soon you're laughing too, ignoring the way your heart is still slamming against your rib cage.

“Remind me to hide the drugs next time you get shot,” you reply, almost managing to keep your voice steady. Gaz is gracious enough to let it slide, to ignore the slight tremble in your fingers when you return to tending his injury. You sit in silence for a moment.

"I'm not bad at my job, you know," you say, unable to meet his eye. "I know what I'm doing."

Gaz sighs, his posture relaxing. You look up at him through your lashes. His brown eyes are warm, his expression melancholy.

“It’s hard for me to ask for help sometimes,” he says quietly. “I don’t want the rest of the team to see me as weak.” He frowns. “I don’t want Captain Price to be disappointed in me.”

“Nobody thinks you’re weak,” you say, grabbing his hand and squeezing it. “We’re supposed to look out for each other Gaz.”

“Now, don’t tell me that’s why you’ve been on my arse for the past month,” He replies, and you smile at each other. The earlier tension dissipates.

You laugh. “Maybe if you asked for help once in a while, I wouldn’t have to play tag along.”

He scoffs at you, rolling his eyes.

“If it's fatal, I'll come see you, alright? But quit nagging me or I'll do more than scare you."

You frown at him, letting go of his hand, and he's laughing at you again.

"God, you're skittish. I don't bite." Gaz smiles that wide, predatory smile again. "Most of the time."

[ghouljams]

Absolutely cannot have fresh shaved/waxed pussy around the 141 boys.

Soap will cry over it, mourning the loss of your bush and "talking his girl(your pussy) through the loss" ie fingering you until you're soaked and sore as punishment.

Price will make it his mission to give you beard burn, shaking his head like a damn dog while he's eating you out, scratching the hell out of your pussy and thighs with his beard. He's trying to bleach the damn thing you just know it.

Ghost is the worst. Taking the opportunity to leave his dental imprint in the soft flesh surrounding your clit. He's going to bite until you're sobbing just to see the dimpled marks he's left.

At least Gaz is sweet. Pressing little kisses over the newly shaved/waxed skin, giving your clit soft little licks and pulling back to rub his fingers against your clit with gentle praises. Until you realize he's been doing that for the last hour, giving you just enough to keep you making those nice breathy noises but never giving you more. Maybe you should try Soap again...

[sigh-tofm]

when they come home drunk…

… price

- thinks it’s important that he loudly tells you he’s married while you steady him upstairs to bed. points to his ring incessantly, slurs on and on about his perfect wonderful wife with the big ass and soft tummy. you roll your eyes and can’t help but smile when he doesn’t let you hold on to his arm to support him. something about protecting his virtue for his wife, as if you’re not standing right beside him. proceeds to lock you out of your own bedroom when you finally get upstairs, telling you his wife will be home soon so he can’t have a strange woman in their bedroom (but still remarks on your wonderful ass). you decide it’s too early in the morning to persuade your drunk husband to let you in, so you go down to sleep on the couch. you wake up with price sleeping soundly on the floor beside you, having gone to find his wife when she never showed up in his bed the night before.

… kyle

- gets sappy and apologises for being away. loses all concept of time when he’s drunk, says he’s sorry, he didn’t mean to be away so long, he was thinking of you the whole time, the guys pulled him along and he couldn’t say no. while he’s on his knees at your feet, pressing his face to your thighs and mumbling into your marbled skin, almost making you lose your balance with his fervent apologies, you gently remind him that you were the one who made him go out with the boys because he needed to unwind after a stressful weekend of combat drills, and that he had left with them less than two hours ago. he refuses to hear and only hugs your thighs closer, so much so that you have to support yourself on the wall. turns out all he needed to relax was you.

… johnny

- is horny. almost starts drooling when he eyes you at the top of the stairs, after struggling to close the entrance door for a good minute, causing you to investigate what made all the noise. gets a wild look in his eyes when he sees you in just his t-shirt and makes you scream and giggle as he chases you back up the stairs and to the bedroom. being absolutely shitfaced, he has the coordination of a tranquillised moose and stumbles head over heels across the floor, catches his foot on the doorway and narrowly misses the edge of the dresser with his head as he falls. still, his little soldier is courageously tenting his pants when you worriedly lean over him and he gets a good look right into the collar of your shirt.

… simon

- is emotional and clingy. can’t get enough of you, won’t leave you alone. you can’t make out half his words when he’s had this much to drink (and the mancunian in him breaks out too, making it ever harder to make out the words), but you play along, smile and nod and let him sit on the closed toilet seat and talk and talk while you do your night routine in front of the mirror. so lucky to have you, luv. how could’a lug like me get a pretty one like you, luv. his melancholy statements of love become comfortable background noise for you as you remove your makeup and apply moisturiser. lets you wash the sweat and grime of the day off his face with a washcloth, closes his eyes while you massage your floral-scented moisturiser into his skin, never once stopping his little speech. ambles after you out of the bathroom, holding on to the hem of your shirt, when you’re all finished and ready for bed. his devoted mutters only let up when be falls asleep next to you.

[beloveds-embrace]

Imagine 141 moving into a quaint little town post retirement and you’re the only baker in town. You love making sweets, breads, and desserts and own a cute bakery to show for it, know everyone in your town so these four new men who come early morning to try your breakfast deal immediately excite you because- new perspectives and tastes and opinions! It’s become a habit of yours to share bites of whatever new item you plan on adding to the menu, so the more diverse opinions the merrier in your opinion.

And you are glad you didn’t let their demeanor- big gruff men, especially the one with the black surgical mask- scare you away because they are sooo nice, calling you sweetheart, doll, birdie, and bonnie. So many nicknames, it has you blushing the sweetest pink shade. And they are all too happy to help taste-test for you, giving you lots of praise.

(Though you never quite notice their immense disappointment at seeing the little ring on your finger.)

Still, at the very least one of them comes over to your bakery once a day. Sometimes they come together, sometimes only two of them- but they come anyways and tip you every time despite you insisting otherwise. It’s a lovely friendship you build with them. But they do note you never mention your partner much.

Until Simon drops by one day, intent on buying one of your apple pies and maybe fluster you enough to turn the same shade as an apple, and he sees the bruises that peek out just so from your sleeves and the collar of your outfit. Puffy eyes, more makeup than usual, your smile not quite there…

And he understands. He knows this all-too-well. And the fact that it’s happening to an embodiment of sunshine like you? Unfair. Unbelievable. Unacceptable.

Simon gently takes your hands, squeezing them so lightly. “Everything’ll be well, luvie. Promise.” And that’s all he says.

And maybe it’s cruel of you to be happy when you receive a call a few days later, the sherrif of the town telling you your husband was found mauled to death by one of the bears that roam around the woods occasionally, but you just… don’t care.

A week later, when it seems appropriate enough, you open up the bakery again and your smile is blinding as you greet the 141 men and tell them for today, everything’s for free.

part 2

Other works + help me choose a title for this 😩

[devil-in-hiding]

something something reader is a bartender at a popular little pub, and night after night you are hit on by men so plastered you often have to sigh and call over one of the guys you work with the idiots end up vomiting all over themselves (sometimes it’s worse than vomit but thankfully you can count those incidents on one hand)

you think by slipping on your grandmothers old wedding ring, it will sway men from hitting on you at work. And it does, there’s still some that try to test their luck, but the minute you flash that pearl on your finger they’re scurrying off to find their next target.

Cue four new regulars, four attractive military men that always flash you a polite smile and leave you a nice tip. Price comes in more than the others, claiming the stool near your register for himself, Ghost doing the same the rare nights he slinks into the pub. Soap and Gaz come in together some weekends, sitting themselves in front of you with big grins on their faces as they watch the game on the tv overhead.

They’re all sweet, a little cocky at times but nothing that one of their grins or sly remarks can’t make up for. They ask how their favorite girl is doing when they return from longer missions, genuinely listening as you fill them in on the things that have happened since they’ve been away.

Perfect gentlemen.

Until one night you forget your ring, having had to rush your shower and sprint out the door to make it to the pub before the nightly rush.

You filling glasses when you hear the chime of the bell and a familiar laugh fill the pub.

“Was wondering if I’d see you boys tonight.” You smile, motioning for them to give you a moment as you serve the other patrons.

When you slide back over to them, you immediately reach for their usual glasses, grabbing your cloth to wipe them off, when a hand clamps around your wrist and you jump, nearly dropping the glass as Ghost turns your hand over in his.

“Trouble at home pretty?” Price comments, concern etched on his face and it takes a moment for you to catch on, and you can’t help the little giggle that spills out.

“Oh! My ring… It’s kind of a funny story. I uhm.. I’m not actually married.” You laugh, expecting them to laugh along with you, but all you feel are four pairs of eyes piercing into you.

“Come again?” Gaz asks, voice a tad deeper than usual and you ignore the chills it sends down your spine.

“I started wearing it so some of the drunkards would leave me be, kind of forgot about it, just became habit.” You chuckle nervously, hand still in Ghost’s grasp and he’s eyeing you in a way you’ve never seen before.

“Hm. Interesting.”

[ceilidho]

fear of god

prompt: There's someone outside the spacecraft. You don't remember them being part of the crew. Part 1 masterlist

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In the end, gazing out of the ship's portholes into the dark vastness of space proves to be less comforting than the architects must have originally anticipated. You can attest to this more than most.

Every morning, you get up an hour earlier than the rest of your crew and make your way to the galley to make your morning cup of coffee. A pack of instant crystals into your favorite mug and hot recycled water from the kettle. Sometimes you stay to have breakfast, but often you take your coffee with you to the main viewing deck for your morning sojourn. 

There, you sit curled up in the navigator’s chair and stare out of the flight deck window until your breathing levels out. Early morning meditations. With the sun only visible through the rear porthole, the Milky Way stretches out before you, immeasurably vast. Ancient cosmic entities, some already long dead. 

Stars fill your field of vision like an intricate latticework of varying brightness. The watery glass warps at the edges, bending the far off light. All things with their propensity for brightness and decay.

A deep, steady hum fills the room. It’s cathartic to be alone. Sometimes, when you look out into the depths of space, you imagine yourself as a cartographer of old, labeling everything beyond this point: “here there be dragons.” 

Farah is the first person to join you, the ship’s maintenance technician already washed and dressed, floral cumberbund cinched around her midriff and her headwrap pinned in place. She greets you with a firm nod upon her entry, never one to mince words. In the months since your ship set off on its course for Jupiter, you’ve exchanged all of ten words, most of your conversation one-sided. 

She glides in like she’s been up for hours, likely running through her routine maintenance checklist. Monitoring propulsion, life support, and all critical systems. You wouldn’t doubt if she had been, descending into the bowels of the ship and cataloging every minute difference from the day before. Nothing if not thorough. 

Graves sweeps in not twenty minutes later, his uniform pressed and ironed. When he glances your way, you shrink under his gaze, self-conscious about something unidentifiable. He is every bit the commander you met briefly back on Earth, never a hair out of place. If he were less intimidating, he’d be insufferable. 

“Morning,” you murmur, the mug still close to your lips making your voice reverberate. He doesn’t respond. You wonder if he even heard you greet him. It likely wouldn't matter.

Medic has a different connotation this far from Earth. Hierarchy out in space is typically determined by way of one’s importance to the ship, and the scope of your role does not, unfortunately, include maintaining the ship. What that means, unofficially, is that you speak when spoken to, and not for any other reason. 

In the months to come, there may be moments or days when your usefulness is acknowledged, usually much to your colleagues’ chagrin. Though it’s not likely that any of the crew will encounter foreign pathogens while on a hermetically sealed ship in the middle of space, they’re all still susceptible to falls and cuts and worse. Nikolai, the chief engineer on board, had sprained his wrist during the first week of the mission, lending you immediate purpose and validation. 

You make way for the second officer when he finally deigns to make an appearance, sliding quietly out of his seat and stepping to the back of the cockpit, back pressed to the wall closest to the door. 

“Morning, everyone,” he greets, peppier than the three of you despite his rumpled appearance. His thick mustache twitches with the force of his smile. “Ready to seize another day?”

“Jesus Christ, Keller, let’s tone it down ‘til about ten o’clock, alright?” Graves sighs. He pinches the bridge of his nose as if to ward off a headache.  

“Our clocks are off, commander,” Alex jokes, coming over to give him a little shake by the shoulder. It would be insubordination from anyone else. “I’m about ready to eat lunch.” 

“Let’s just get through formation and then you can go fill up the bottomless pit you call a stomach.”

The morning briefing never takes up too much time. It’s as much of an excuse to have coffee together as it is to go through the day’s schedule. Graves spends most of the time reviewing the flight course, charting where the ship will be by day’s end. 

“Almost through the belt,” Alex remarks, staring down at the monitor in front of him. It’s an incomprehensible jumble when you try to peer over his shoulder, but he must be able to make sense of it. 

The crew had been on high alert since entering the torus-shaped region between Mars and Jupiter a month back. For the most part, they needn’t have been so on edge—the average distance of the asteroids in the circumstellar disc between the two planets tended to be quite substantial—but a collision the previous day had reinstated their earlier anxiety. 

“Can we switch from manual yet, Farah?” Graves asks from his seat at the helm of the ship. 

She shakes her head, lips tightening with frustration. “I still have to figure out what’s going on with cruise control—it’s not responding correctly.”

“Was that from that little ding the other day?” you ask, blurting out the question without thinking.

Farah’s expression is flat when she glances over at you. “That ‘little ding’ nearly took out our communications system altogether.” 

You wince at that, staring down at your feet instead. Better to just shut your mouth than make a fool of yourself. Had you not blurted out the question, you might have even surmised the nature of the situation given the comm specialist’s notable absence from the cockpit. 

When Nikolai eventually ambles in with a thermos of coffee and deep troughs under his eyes, Farah looks up and frowns. “Where’s Hadir?”

The man shrugs, nonplussed. “Cargo?” he grunts, rolling the toothpick between his teeth around the words. 

She sighs. “I’ll go find him.”

No one says anything when she leaves, the double doors sliding open and shut automatically at her approach, and she doesn’t bother saying goodbye. 

“Dismissed, I guess,” Graves sighs, collapsing into his chair and spinning around to face the stars proliferating in front of him. 

The informality digs at you sometimes because you know you can’t indulge in it. The times you’ve attempted to, you’ve been rebuffed. Sometimes unintentionally, but often to remind you of your place.

This isn’t a crew you’ve ever worked with before. From conversations you’ve overheard, you’ve gleaned that they’ve all worked together in different capacities before, years of familiarity breeding an easy trust and companionship between them. Two of them might even be lovers—though Farah maintains a neutral facade at all times, the same can’t be said for Alex, the man always hovering nearby, eyes going soft at the sight of her. 

You’re the only odd man out. The newcomer. And though you sit with them in the mess for meals and partake in conversation and pass jokes like small stones from hand to hand, you know deep down, in the dark well of your heart, that you are not one of them. You are a passenger that they picked up along the way. A straggler. 

This wasn’t supposed to be the case. When you signed on to the mission months ago, the circumstances were wholly different. A newer ship, a different crew, some of which you’d worked with before. Then ownership changed hands and budgets were cut. Slashed to ribbons even. You had a chance to tour the ship before the launch date, and even down on Earth with all the glitz and glam available to trick the eye, you hadn’t been convinced of the vessel’s ability to withstand the extreme conditions of space.  

But by then, you were locked into a contract so iron-clad that the consequences of breaking it seemed worse than simply seeing the mission through. 

Most days, you feel like you’re waiting for something to give. You pass through halls that echo with low creaks and a deep, rhythmic thrum. Sometimes the walls of the ship groan so loud that you wait with baited breath for the hull to implode around you, to feel the metal crush the delicate eggshell of your body beneath its weight. 

It’s not any better to just stay in your room, your quarters too cramped to nurture anything other than claustrophobia. A recent, unfortunate side effect of spending months on such a small ship. You’ve become accustomed to crews numbering in the tens and hundreds, ships so colossal in size that even months spent aboard weren’t enough to explore all of its nooks and crannies. Cargo holds with excavators and backhoes for excavations on Mars and humvees for getting around the rough terrain. 

This ship barely holds six people and the payload you’ve been hauling to Europa. Pipes hiss in the corridors. Once a week, the radiator splutters or the intercom overhead crackles, kicking your heart into hyperdrive. 

You leave formation more out of sorts than ever. Vaguely aimless. With nothing to do, you grab breakfast in the galley and eat at the counter, too uncomfortable to venture over to the mess. Your days consist mainly of hovering around the ship or sitting quietly in the medbay, waiting for something to happen. A morbid preoccupation. 

The stairs clunk under your feet as you make your way down towards the medbay. You’ve long grown used to the sharp sound of your boots against the metal floor. 

Rationally, you know they don’t dislike you. You might even venture to say that you get along with the majority of them, particularly the chief engineer and Farah’s brother. The big man likes that it only takes a single drink to get you plastered, often howls with laughter when you stumble out of the mess after drinking with the crew, always the first to turn in for the night. Farah herself is only frosty because she works twice as hard as anyone else, burning the midnight oil on the regular. 

You swallow half-truths like stones to help settle your stomach. 

It doesn’t replace real companionship though; it approximates, but doesn’t quite replicate it. You feel its absence most acutely in the sidelong glances you sometimes get of real affection: Alex grazing his pinkie across Farah’s when he thinks no one is looking; Farah’s eyes softening at the sight of her brother; Graves and Nikolai reminiscing about something a decade past, hardly even aware of your presence in the room. 

It’s something you’ve endured before, but never for such an extended period of time. Prolonged isolation prickles at the mind, feathering the edges. It purples space; passes through the vents. The crew rarely goes on spacewalks (hardly any need for it), but sometimes you swear the ship’s oxygen has a faint sulfuric undertone, like rotten eggs. It permeates the air wherever you go. 

Someone knocks at the window just as you walk by.

You pause mid-sip, the mug raised to your lips and just pressing into your bottom lip, not yet tilted. 

“Hello,” you hear through the thick-paned glass, the voice muffled through the layers of glass and plastic partitions. “Could you let me in, please?”

Though your reflex is to look up, you don’t for some reason. The muscles in your neck stay locked instead. Shoulders stiff, weighed down by an unnatural force. 

The thing outside the ship knocks again. “Love? Can you hear me?”

Your head turns towards the porthole, the hand holding your mug drifting away from your mouth. It tips in your hand and a drop leaks down the side. Your lips tingle, almost numb. 

There’s a man outside the porthole, clear as day. He hovers outside the window, a hand raised in a friendly wave and full lips splitting to reveal perfect, white teeth when he smiles. He’s dressed in a spacesuit, no different than any of the crew on a spacewalk. Through the helmet, you can make out dark eyes and dimples. A close cropped beard.

It’s not a face you’ve ever seen before though. You think you might’ve remembered someone so handsome working on the ship with you.

Something needles inside of you though. A sickening feeling, like something you’ve forgotten but you desperately need to remember. 

“Hi there,” the man says, voice as charming as you’ve ever heard, so velvety rich that you feel the blood heat your cheeks. “Glad you were passing by. Mind letting me in?”

[last-starry-sky]

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The four of you froze at the sound of your captain’s voice. Only Soap moved, pulling himself quickly from between your thighs to face Price as he pushed open your door with the toe of his boot. The hinges creaked eerily, breaking the stunned silence, until the door hit the wall. The cheap wood wobbled from the impact then started to close back in on itself. Price caught it with his heel, gently kicking it shut behind him. 

You didn’t start to shiver with fear until you heard the latch catch. Captain Price was locked inside your room with his two sergeants and his lieutenant. All caught in bed with his medic.

He sauntered in slowly, each fall of his boots like death knell as he approached the bed. When he finally stood before you, towering over your raw, tangled forms like a stone sentinel, the very picture of authority, he just stood there. His gaze was downcast, face impartial. From the look on his face you could tell he was thinking.  

“Price-” Soap tried to speak first, but Price silenced him with a wave of his hand. 

Your Captain stood before the four of you, drawing up to full height with his hands on his hips before pointedly looking each man in the eye. You noticed that he avoided your debauched, mostly naked form. 

“Gaz. Soap,” he said nodding at the two of them, “Up. Backs to the wall. Now.”

They knew as well as you did what that cadence of his voice meant. This is an order, not a suggestion. They both stood up, squeaking bed springs and boots on linoleum the only sounds in the room. They each spared you a single, sorry glance as they slid past the captain to stand against the far wall as ordered. 

That left you in Ghost’s arms. Price walked the last half-step up to your bed, head low, eyes on yours. 

Always was so professional, your captain. That’s why you liked him. So different from your previous commanding officers. He was actually respectful of the women around him and didn’t just fake it. And why not? They deserved it. They were strong and resourceful, survivors who could stand their ground and win against any man. And here you were, a hand-selected member of his own team, caught in bed with his other chosen three. 

You would be lucky if a court martial was all you got out of this. Fuck, you’d be happy if you saw the sun tomorrow. 

“Ghost,” he said calmly, crossing his arms over his chest, staring the other man down. “Set ‘er down.”

You felt your back slide slowly down his shirt until your butt met the mattress. His hands remained tensed on your hips. Another agonizing moment passed as the two men continued to stare at each other. You felt a whole, silent conversation was happening that you couldn’t see, that you couldn’t translate even if you could.

“Good,” Price said stepping that half-step back, giving your legs room to dangle off the bed. “Now. Join the others.”

You let out a shaking breath as Ghost took his hands from you. The mattress squeaked, lifting you up as Ghost left. You suddenly felt alone. So very very alone. You kept your eyes on your shaking knees, Price’s black pants just beyond the blur of your vision, as you listened to Ghost’s heavy, intentional steps. There were only a few. It was a small room after all. You listened to his footfalls, his heel squeaked as he turned to stand statue straight, a specter in black against the beige wall. 

“Medic,” Price asked, shocking you out of your daze. 

He was looking down at you in the worst way, the fatherly way. His blue eyes were soft instead of steely, the fine wrinkles bunching around them making him so much more approachable. He looked so different without the shadow of his boonie hat hiding his face. Come to think of it, this night was the first time you’d seen him completely out of uniform. He had the same beard, same body, but he looked just that little bit younger.

He looked like someone you would look twice at in the supermarket and hoped he looked back. A guy who could convince you to trust him to spot you in the gym with that warm, disarming smile. A stranger you wouldn’t mind become an acquaintance, or more, as you shared a table with at a busy café. You wouldn’t protest when he offered to buy you another coffee to show his appreciation, or-

You shook you head, quickly crossing your arms around your chest (as if it mattered) and sat up, awaiting his command.

He turned around slowly and casually from side to side, hands on his hips, looking for something. 

“Where’s your shirt?” he asked, the barest hint of amusement in his voice as he canted his head, trying to look under the bed.

“I don-” you started to say, before Gaz interjected.

“Behind you, cap,” he said with a cough, trying to act casual.

Price nodded his affirmation with a small frown before turning about. He found your shirt where Ghost had tossed it: crumpled in the corner by the door. He picked up and dusted off the wrinkled, olive-drab thing before turning half back to hand it to you at arms length.

“‘ere you go then. Put that on,” he ordered, not turning his face from the wall. 

You didn’t care to dig any farther into that at the moment, so you did as you were told. Taking it and thanking him in your quietest voice, quickly pulling the shirt over your head. At least now you were decent, if only to hide your love-bite covered chest. You rubbed at your sore neck. Those were another problem entirely. 

“Done?” Price asked, eyes still on the wall.

“Yes,” you said with a nod. You kept your eyes on the floor, not daring to look to your left where Soap, Gaz, and Ghost stood. You absolutely didn’t have the nerve to face your Captain, either.

“Right then,” he said in that rough, northern dialect as he faced you, his full, raw presence turned on you like a spot light in an operating theater. He looked down at you impassively, huddled as small as you could make yourself on the bed, and gestured in a swift, upward motion with two fingers. “Up,” he commanded.

You were (still, as far as you knew) a good soldier, so you did as you were told. Pushing yourself to the edge of the bed before carefully standing up before him. Your legs wobbled a little. Nerves, you told yourself. Hopefully. Mostly. The other bit was the looming storm cloud of a fact that you were standing before your Captain in nothing but a thin t-shirt and soaked underwear.

This felt like Basic. Like some sort of hazing ritual meant to toughen you up. To get you ready to face the cruel reality of life in the real military.

Price stepped back again, crossing his arms over his chest, making himself look so much larger and intimidating. He didn’t need to. You were already small and intimidated. He let you stand in front of him squirming as he squinted down at you, before motioning with his hand for you to turn.

“Stay where you are. Back to the wall.”

You followed his command, following him as you turned. You swallowed the lump in the back of your throat when you realized how he had positioned everyone. He could see both groups. Soap, Gaz, and Ghost against the wall could see you and Price. You could only see him.

This was torture, something you knew Price had no qualms about. There was always that plausible deniability, because you’d never actually seen him or the team do anything. You’d always been told to wait outside while they “took care of it”, but you weren’t stupid. Price had always answered your questions after with short yes’s and no’s. No medical treatment. Leave ‘em be.

Maybe it was all physiological, which would fit with what you knew of your Captain. He had connections, friends even, in various agencies across the globe. Better to leave a shattered husk of a man that could bring back a harrowing story to his leader of the team hunting him, than a body. A dead body is useless. A problem to deal with. Price approached warfare like a surgeon with a robot guided laser. He was a planner, precise, smart. He made his enemy work for him.

You clenched your fingers into the palms of your hands. Good god, now he was going to question you in front of them. 

“You hear me, doc?” he asked, rough and impatient, finger stroking his bottom lip. It made you tremble, eyes blowing wide as your head snapped up automatically to met his.

“N-no . . .” You stuttered, mouth somehow out of your control. “Sorry. Sir.”

He sighed. Eyes closing as he pinched at the bridge of his nose.

“Please explain what exactly it is I walked into here,” he said agonizingly slow, emphasizing every other word. When he finished, he stared you down for another long second before asking, “Hear me then?”

“Yes sir,” you answered softly. You could feel your capillaries blooming across your cheeks. How exactly were you going to explain yourself? What did he want to hear?

Price drummed his fingers impatiently against his jacket. “Well?” he asked with a pop of his brows.

You drew in a shuddering breath. No better place to start than the beginning.

“I was . . . relaxing in my room, on my bed-” you started.

“And what were you doing before that?” he asked pointedly, interrupting you. As if he didn’t know. He was there. 

You sighed. “I was having a drink with Soap, Gaz, Ghost-”

“And me?” he interrupted again. You nodded. He tipped his head to the side, condescending non-smile quirking his mustache. You fucking hated it. “Yeah, I remember that, now that you say.” He looked over your head at the men behind you. “Popped out for a smoke with Gaz an’ when we got back, only Ghost was there.” His mouth pressed into a line as he turned back to you. “Is that it then? Is this where you and Soap scurried off t’?”

“No sir,” you said, a hysterical waver in your voice. You would answer for what you did, what actually happened, no matter the consequences. You would not, however, let him frame this from his perspective. “I left by myself! Wanted-”

“Wanted what?” he asked harshly, leaning down to your level. “Wanted to have a little fun behind my back?”

“No!” you shouted, tears filling your eyes.

“Then what?” he shouted back, voice cracking like a thundercloud, ominous and terrible.

“Wanted to be left alone!” you answered, tears spilling treacherously down your cheeks. You turned your head to wipe them away. You didn’t want to be seen as weak, or worse: trying to manipulate him. Not that a man like Price could be swayed by some dumb woman’s tears anymore.

“I swear. I just-” you started, speaking out of turn, as you stared at the shiny smear your tears left on your arm. The weight on your captain’s hand gripping your shoulder robbed you of your ability to speak. 

“Why’d you leave?” he asked as soft as his gravelly voice would allow.

“I was frustrated,” you said, taking in a deep breath.

“About?” he asked.

“About how you all treated me on this mission,” you said softly.

You weren’t exactly happy this was how your complaints were put out in the open. Given the circumstances, it’s not like you had much of a choice. You hadn’t been sure how Soap planned to bring it up, but you’d been more than a little distracted in the moment. Maybe you’d assumed (in the moments before his lips crashed into yours) that your mood would improve and nothing would ever have to be talked over. Guys were like that. Life, work, everything would go on as normal and they would forget. Right? 

Price, for his part, looked thoroughly confused. He gripped your other shoulder as he leaned in, eyes squinting, brows pinching together, all to scrutinize your face further. 

“What?” he asked.

“You . . .” you started, waving your hands in a wide, dramatic gesture, “All of you. You kept me from doing my job. The whole mission. Anytime any of you got injured-”

“Oh fuck off,” You heard Ghost spit out behind you.

You whipped around, tearing out of Price’s grip, fire in your eyes.

“You,” you snarled, marching over to Ghost where he leaned casually in the corner. You squared up toe-to-toe with him, as close to his stupid, masked face as you could. If you could have stood chest to chest with him, you would have. “You of all people. You got fucking shot and pushed me away-”

“M’ plate took it,” he said with an impartial stare and a shrug. “‘m fine. Besides, we were in the middle of a fire fight. No time t’-”

“No time for me to check?” You interrupted him, exasperated. “I know what adrenaline does to your brain and body, lieutenant. Shock, too! I’ve seen soldiers, smart ones, strong ones, think they can power through. They try to convince me that they’re stronger than a bullet in their chest, that they can finish the mission.” 

You threw up your hands as you felt a hand on your shoulder. You assumed it was Price intervening. With your last action before you were pulled back, you took one step forward, pressing your hand to Ghost’s right bottom rib. Right were you'd seen him get hit.

The action was so sudden, he couldn’t react in time to stop you before the pain him. It wasn’t a hard press, just enough to make his eyes squint shut. You could imagine him grimacing beneath the mask. He flinched away, swatting at your hand, but you had been pulled back already. He stared you down, rubbing at his bruised (you assumed) rib until you were turned. 

“Hey hey hey,” Gaz said as he turned you away from Ghost. “You’re right,” he said soothing you with his big, soft eyes as he stroked at your shoulders. “We did do that,” he said sweetly cupping your cheek, “and we’re sorry. Right guys?” 

A murmur of yeah’s and hums scattered out as Kyle smiled down at you. You tried to hide your own smile that his pulled from you. It was terrifying how quickly he could diffuse a tense situation.  

“That’s why we came to your room in the first place, to make you feel better,” he said more to Price than you, hands rubbing at both your shoulders. What an angel. “Could tell you weren’t acting yourself.”

“Does that mean I can look at that burn then?” you asked.

You had been snaking your way through the cramped, wet brick alleyways of some god forsaken slum. You were looking for the building your target was holed up in, or your target. Whichever happened first. He was known for running at the first sign of trouble, annoyingly slipping through your grasp time after time. Once you got reliable information of his newest safe house, Price had made it clear letting him escape again was not an option. 

Price took point, followed by Gaz. You were third. Soap brought up the rear. Ghost was on over watch, voice leading you through the maze of rain-slicked of buildings and tunnels. It was annoying for the four of you on the ground, but the storm was excellent cover. 

Price had just crossed an open courtyard, filled with doors and three other exits. After clearing them one by one, he stood by the last archway, signaling for the rest of you to file in behind as he radioed Ghost for directions. 

That’s when you saw something: a warm, bright light on the roof of the building ahead of you. Fire, your brain told you immediately. You’d recognized it for what it was, a molotov, the second before it hit the wall. The wall right behind Gaz. It exploded in a shimmering rain of glass, accelerant inside invisibly coating everything around it before the vapors ignited. 

You’d been too shocked to do anything but gasp uselessly. The rest of the team, thankfully, had use of their brains. A second later, Price had taken out the thrower with a single silenced shot of his sidearm. Soap had pulled you back, throwing you behind him so he could beat out the flames creeping down Gaz’s chest. 

In the moment, you were angry. You should have been the one to help Gaz, not Soap. Putting out the fire, pulling out the shards of glass, and treating his burns: that what you were trained in. But you hadn’t. You had failed. You’d stewed in your emotions through the rest of the night, angrily popping off shots as you finally stormed the safe house. 

Now, thinking back, you felt awful. Gaz could have died and you were too wrapped up in yourself to care, not even noticing how fucking incompetent you’d been. Soap had even patted your back as you regrouped, telling you it was no worry. That he had your back. You had been too emotionally stunted to even thank him.  

“Sure,” Gaz said looking down at his blue button down shirt then back at you. “Right here?”

“Ah . . .” You looked around him, trying and find where you’d thrown your duffel. You had an emergency kit in there with burn cream and bandages at the ready. 

Soap was standing over it. Guarding it. His eyes were still dark and hungry, like a dog barely holding back. They flicked up to yours, choking out your words before you could form them. One arm was curled around his chest, fingers clenched in his shirt. He was chewing on the pad of his thumb of his other hand, chin pushed into his chest. It was like he needed the pain to keep him grounded, to keep from snapping that invisible chain Price had leashed him with.

“Sit down,” Price said, swaying his hips as he joined you and Gaz. He nodded at the bed behind him. You and Gaz did as you were told. “Give it here then,” you heard him say to Soap.

You didn’t watch how things played out between them. Your attention was on your “patient”. Not that it was much work to watch him as he unbuttoned his shirt, smiling to himself the whole while. You couldn’t help but start imagining what could have happened if Price hadn’t crashed the party. You could have been watching all three of them strip off their clothes by now. These strong, beautiful bodies you’d only seen glimpses of, covered in sweat and grime, or by the weak, blue light of the morning; they could have been yours. 

You swallowed the lump in your throat and looked away from the skin Gaz was revealing to you as Price set your bag on the bed. You busied yourself with digging for your emergency kit while Gaz finished with his shirt. You found it, hastily putting on the single set of gloves you’d left yourself, trying to ignore Price looming behind you. 

You put on your best clinical front as you turned back to Gaz. He still had a bandage over the wound, which was good. 

“Any pain?” you asked pressing gingerly at it, eyes on the curling adhesive at his collarbone. You had to fight yourself to keep your eyes from wandering beyond the sterile white perimeter. 

“No,” he answered. 

You leaned down in front of him to pull at the edge of the bandage, testing it. “Have you changed this recently?” you asked. It definitely wasn’t the one you had put on him a week ago, which was good, but it also didn’t look new.

“Yeah,” he answered quickly. “Got it cleaned up this morning.”

He’d gone to the base hospital. He’d let their staff look at him. Not you, but strangers. You tapped your agitated fingers on his skin before ripping the bandage off. Gaz flinched back. You ignored him, going back to dig out your own, better bandage and burn cream from your pack.

“Good,” you said tearing it open and squeezing out the whole of the little packet on his wound. 

It doesn’t look bad, you thought as you spread out the clear ointment over his skin. His epidermis had blistered a bit, pebbling in a long streak from shoulder to collarbone, where the alcohol had sat the longest. The rest of his skin was intact, with only a little redness at the edges. A second degree burn, considering the worst that could have happened that night, was not his worst fate.

“Might scar here,” you said motioning along the line of blisters. “Keep up with the ointment and daily bandage changes and you could get lucky.” 

You were pressing down the new bandage when you realized what you’d said.  

“So you’re saying if I see you tomorrow . . . I’ll get lucky?” he said craning his neck to look at the blush deepening on your cheeks, smile dancing in his eyes.

“Gaz,” you sighed, trying to keep your hands from shaking. He could not be doing this, here and now of all places. 

Price started to chuckle behind you. The second between his laugh ending and him speaking made a bead of sweat run down your neck. 

“Ghost teach you t’ joke like that?” he said sliding up behind you, “Know I didn’t, but I’ll allow it.” 

You jumped as you felt his fingertips skim down your sides, resting on your hips. 

“Besides,” he said low into the shell of your ear, vibration of his voice thrumming straight to your core. “think he deserves a little reward after being so good for you. Right?” 

You didn’t answer, closing your arms around Gaz’s neck as Price’s hands dipped under the band of your underwear at your hips. Gaz let you lean on him, running his hands up your ribs, up and under your shirt, to support you as Price pulled your panties down your thighs. You felt him let go, hands leaving as the plain cotton ghosted your knees, falling the rest of the way to the floor.

“Gaz,” you gasped, eyes clenched shut, face buried in his neck. 

You felt just as shocked, lost, as you had when Ghost had interrupted you and Soap earlier. You didn’t know what to think, didn’t know what Price had planned. Should you give in? Resist? Both were valid options, but, for the life of you, you could not decide.

Gaz hushed you with a soft, “It’s okay, baby” as his large hands gently squeezed your hips. They traveled down to your ass, grabbing a quick handful before one came around to stroke at your inner thigh. His fingers stroking delicately across your already wet pussy made you jump, a sharp gasp escaping you as Gaz shushed you again.

“‘s okay,” he said with a quiet hunger. He stroked you again and again, lost in the competing desires to go slow, relaxing you and making you feel good, and the selfish need to break inside and just feel you. “You’re okay,” he said pressing you toward him with a hand on your ass. That little bit of added pressure drove his fingers inside.

Gaz groaned a low oh, pumping his long fingers slowly in and out of your sodden pussy. You were still embarrassingly wet from earlier. You could hear the soft clicking of him stroking inside you.

“Fuuuuck love,” he moaned into your chest, fingers still pumping in and out. “Fuck do you feel good. Nice ‘n wet.”

Soap let out an injured whine, like a fox caught in a trap.

“Gaz,” you warbled. “Please. I need-”

“Whats this?” Price asked, gruff and low, stepping quickly back behind you. “What do you need?”

You turned your head, not sure who exactly you wanted, or needed, to speak to, blinking away tears. “Want . . . want you . . . inside me.” 

Gaz groaned into your chest, fingers still pumping lazily in and out. 

“And how do you want to do that, exactly?” Price asked, the rough pads of his thumb and forefinger turning your head enough to look you in the eye. 

“Wanna . . .” you hesitated, caught by the serious glint of his blue eyes, until Gaz started to seriously fuck his fingers up your cunt, curling inside on the hunt for your sweet spots. “Wanna ride him, please.”

You felt Price’s fingers twitch. It was so subtle you weren’t positive it actually happened. All too quickly, though, he was coolly pulling away. He crossed his arms back over his chest, giving the sight of you: half naked and clinging to Gaz, and Kyle: eyes squeezed shut, head pressed to your chest, groaning, with one hand pawing at every part of your cunt he could, a final once-over. 

“You heard her, sergeant,” Price said darkly, shuffling backwards.

Not a second later, you heard the metallic clinking of Gaz undoing his belt. He shoved down his underwear and pants, kicking out out of both them and his boots before you could give him room. He scooped you up by your hips, rolling onto the bed, straddling your legs around his hips in one fluid motion.

You hadn’t thought about how different he would look like this. You weren’t too proud to admit you had fantasied about him, all of them, but your fantasies usually involved them on top of you, and behind you, and even once, crawling down between your legs. God, you had cum so embarrassingly hard from that. Couldn’t look any of your teammates in the eye for a good few hours after. But up here, looking down at Gaz’s sweet brown eyes, with that little bit of blush that made the scars on his cheek color pink, you felt sexy, powerful. 

Gaz pressed his thumbs into the divot on either side of your pelvis, his strong hands wrapping around your hips to force you down. He groaned and you let out a soft oh when your pussy met his cock. It was only the veiny underside smashing against your slick folds, but the contact was so delicious. He felt so hot, so thick, real. You moaned as you ground your clit up his shaft. 

His hands slid up to your waist, forcing you to bend down over him. You blushed as you realized he had just put your pussy on display for the men behind you. It didn’t matter. Your normal, functioning brain was gone. All you cared about was watching Kyle, face like a renaissance sculpture, bite his lip as he looked dreamily up at you. 

“Fuck, baby. Feel so good already,” he said softly, eyes half-lidded, smoothing his hands up your ribs. “You ready?”

You nodded, shuffling forward to let his cock spring free. You took him in hand, looking back to guide him to your entrance with a fluid glide of your hips. Soap caught your eye as you did. He looked like he was going to combust. He was covering his face with his hands, but that didn’t hide the sweat at his hairline, or his open-mouth panting.

“God, fuck! Fuckin’-” he whined, screwing his eyes shut once again after catching a glimpse of your cunt swallowing Kyle’s length. 

You were beyond needy. Horny and desperate from the attention they had all been giving you earlier. You were so wet you took his whole cock in one slow, stuttering motion. It was purposeful. You wanted to feel everything as his head shoved it's way deep inside. God damn did it feel good to have a real cock inside you again. 

You must have felt good to him too, because he was stunned silent. Nothing but low moans and grunts escaping him as you seated yourself. 

You leaned forward when your thighs finally met his hips, your hands on his solar plexus to support your weight. The first few pumps of your hips were strong and sensual, working yourself open. You kept your gaze on the man beneath you, watching as he fell into the even pace you set.

Unfortunately, it didn’t take long for your hips to give out. You were strong, but it had been too long since you’d had any sex, let alone in this position. It wasn’t a favorite among the anonymous hookups you’d had in the past. You tried to push past the pain, but the sweat on your brow and the slow, stuttering motion you devolved into was quickly noticed.

“Help?” Kyle asked, grabbing at your hips to pump up into you without waiting for an answer.

You nodded nervously, noticing Price saunter back up to your side. You tried to ignore him, hoping he was just here to observe. That hope dissolved like paper in the rain when he wrapped his arm around your head, hand on your jaw, forcing you to turn your head up to face him. You were curled into his chest, locked into his steely gaze. It made you clench down on Kyle at the top of his stroke, earning a choked out fuck from the man. 

“Wanted to ride him, right?” Price asked you.

You nodded at him, tears re-rimming your eyes. You tried to get back on your own pace to beat him to the conclusion you assumed he was heading toward.

“‘Good teammate, isn’t he?” he continued, watching where Kyle’s glistening cock pumped into your pussy. He was close enough now to hear the soft squelching and the hit of skin-on-skin. “A good man.”

He looked down at you expectantly, waiting for an answer. The combination of Price and Kyle had driven any thought beyond sex out of your head. All you wanted to do was close your eyes, block out the feeling of three other sets of prying eyes on you, and feel Gaz as he rolled his pelvis into yours, over and over until he came undone. The squeeze of Price’s hand on your hip made you force out a choked yes.

“So good. Tryin’ so hard,” he groaned, fingers biting into your skin before pulling away completely. “Let’s get you some help then,” he said darkly, turning to the two men behind you. 

Soap’s name wasn’t halfway out of Price’s mouth before you felt the mattress dipping violently beneath you. The sudden addition of Soap’s weigh, plus his excitement, sprang the three of you up and down in a wave. The poor bed had been squeaking before, but it whined a metallic scratch now, clearly pushed beyond it’s capacity. 

Soap didn’t care. He saddled up behind you, breathing heavy in your ear as he pulled you in his arms. 

“Gonnae let me finally help y’, ay?” he huffed, breathless with denial and excitement, his hands immediately raking up under your shirt. He squeezed your breasts and rutted into your ass with a groan. “Knew ye needed me. That’s what teammates do, right hen? Help each other. Fuck. So fuckin’ pretty like this,” he said, leaving your shirt rucked up over your tits to grab at your face. He forced you back, groaning as his lips smothered yours. 

“God,” Gaz moaned, breathless. “Don’t fuckin’ tease me like that.”

Soap understood, ripping your shirt off your body for the second time today. Gaz groaned at the sight of your breasts bouncing and jiggling with every thrust. 

You felt like a wild animal had been loosed, the way Soap acted. He kissed you like a man starved. If you felt Soap had been shameless before, now, after being forced to watch you fuck Gaz, he was disgusting. You couldn’t even call what he was doing a kiss anymore, the way he mindlessly flicked between licking inside your mouth, to biting your lips, barely pulling away to whine and groan, leaving long strings of saliva painting your face.

All the while, you were still trying to at least meet half of Kyle’s effort. Not that he was complaining, but you felt bad how you’d abandoned him to fuck you on his own. Soap was no help at all. In fact, he was actively fighting against both you and Gaz by pulling your hips back so he could roll his cock into the plush of your ass.

You heard a squeak behind you. Someone was leaning on the foot board. Your eyes flicked over to Price standing by the headboard, arms crossed with the tiniest bit of a smirk playing on his face, quirking his mustache. That only left one other person it could be.

“Gon’ do as you’re told, Johnny?” he asked roughly. 

Soap didn’t answer, nosing at your jaw until you tipped your head enough for him to add a line of bites, right on top of Ghost’s from before. You clenched around Kyle again, moaning and grabbing at his head, as Soap moved down your neck. He was good with his mouth. He nipped at your skin before kissing and laving over the red mark with his tongue. It made you sad to have lost the opportunity to have him eat you out. 

Soap’s head was jerked back out of your hand. He had just finished a bite into the crook of your neck, too. The bed undulated, dipping the three of you toward the back corner as Ghost pressed his full weight to the bed with his knee.  

“Hear me?” Ghost growled into Soap’s ear, his gloved fingers gripped tight into the short shag of his mohawk. His voice made you flush. Soap whined in return. “Or d’ I have t’ show you? Fuckin’ horny mutt.”

Ghost’s decision came in the form of Soap being roughly shoved off the bed. He at least landed on his feet, not that he cared. He was immediately at Ghost’s shoulder, sighing and whined as Ghost took up his old position behind you.

“C’mooon, Ghost,” Soap said, bouncing his knee as he looked down at you. “Let me help. I’ll do it right. I promise. Please?”

Ghost ignored him, shoving Soap down to kneel on the floor. Soap gave up for the moment, giving into pouting. He leaned on the mattress, his bright eyes pleading up at you once more. 

You fell into Ghost’s guidance. You loved having his massive frame pressed to your back, his arms wrapped around you, mask cutting into the top of your head. His hands on your hips setting a punishing rhythm, fucking Gaz with your body. It made his head nail your cervix with every downward thrust. It was comforting to fall back against his chest and let him do the manual labor while Gaz and you collected the pleasure. It was almost passionless the way he used you, doing nothing for himself. If you couldn’t feel the pace of his heart jump, his breathing echo hollow behind his mask, maybe you could fully believe that.

“Slow . . . fuck, slow down, Ghost,” Kyle moaned. “‘m gonna-” he started, his fucked out eyes catching yours.

“Go ahead,” you said softly, body melting into the warm muscle behind you, one hand pressed to Gaz’s lower stomach. “Cum in me, Gaz.”

The four men around you all groaned. Soap let his head fall against your knee. Ghost did the same to your shoulder. Kyle rolled his head to the side, throwing a free hand over his eyes. Price was the only one able to speak, stepping toward you to do so.

“Sure about that, love?” he asked, clearing his throat. He cocked his head to the side, continuing. “You safe?”

You nodded. “I have an-” 

Ghost chose that moment to pick up your body, until only the head of Kyle’s cock remained inside you, then grind you back down suddenly, sheathing him inside you hard enough to knock your breath from you. Then he did it again and again.

“Ghost,” Kyle whined, eyes screwed shut, beading with sweat as he lay back and took what the man controlling you gave him.

“Have an . . . IUD,” you managed to squeak out. “Safe.”

“Fuck, cap. Please,” Soap plead, kissing up your knee, hand soothing along your thigh. “Lemme kiss her. Just once. I’ll be good. Promise.”

Price nodded, mute, his eyes not leaving yours.

Everything happened very quickly after that. Soap took your captain’s blanket approval for what it was, immediately launching himself up to cradle your head in his hands. Ghost continued his work, pumping you brutally up and down Kyle’s shaft. Gaz’s hands tightened on your hips, letting out a long, low moan as he pumped up into you in a broken stutter.

“Fuck, y’ feel so good. ‘s . . . too good.” 

A bright smile broke across his face as he let go. You felt him stop, cock expanding within you, as he let out a final oh. Ghost slowed to a stop, allowing Kyle to milk himself through his orgasm. Finally, Ghost pulled you up, releasing Kyle’s cock from you far too soon.

Ghost pushed Soap away from your mouth with a gruff, “Enough.” He landed on the bed next to Kyle, still panting and coming down. Soap fixed his hard stare on Ghost, like an animal challenging a rival.

“‘mon Ghost,” he said, trying to sound casual. “‘s my turn.”

Ghost pushed you down to lie on top of Gaz. Gaz quickly wrapped his arms round you, keeping you stable while pressing soft kisses to your temple. Ghost pulled your legs out from under you, moving them from straddling Kyle’s legs to laying inside. It felt a little awkward. You didn’t quite know what to make of this new position until you felt Ghost shuffle up your body until he was flush with your ass. 

A hand on your lower back pushed the two of you down, springs screeching, as Ghost ground into your ass. He unzipped his fly before finally responding to Soap.

“Stay in your place, mutt.”

a/n: aaaaaah sorry if this is trash but i wanted to get it out to yall before my anniversary! I'll be training someone new at work (we are hella busy rn) so the next month is going to be hectic again.

If you requested to be tagged and weren't that means I wasn't able to. You probably just need to change your settings so anyone can @ you. If you want to be added or removed just let me know!

also, apologies for being so mean to soap in this part. he's just too easy to bully. I PROMISE in part three everyone gets to have some pussy fun! 🚂🚂🚂

[thatgoblin]

COD Feral Reader Drabble 1

Y/N: *slowly reaches up from squatting behind the counter to try to grab Price's coffee while he's busy talking to Laswell on the phone*

Johnny: *watches with Gaz, both taking bets to see how long it takes for Price to do something about it*

Ghost: *Is napping in a hammock with Roach on top of him*

Y/N: *slithers their hand towards the cup, eyes wide and pupils blown like a cat*

Price: *picks up the cup before it's snagged and walks away*

Y/N: *whines and pouts, chittering in irritation*

Price: *walks back in to set the cup down and walks over to Soap and Gaz* What are you two up to?

Soap: *keeps watching behind him* Just waitin'.

Y/N: *snags the cup with pleased squeaks only to find it empty, flopping onto the floor with a sad moan*

Price: I drank it all nearly an hour ago, but they needed to be kept busy so I let them think it was full.

Gaz: *snickers* Positively an evil genius.

Masterlist

Taglist: @birdstoprey @sebbytheraccoon @pricescigar @alwaysshallow @sae1kie @sleepydang @lexi-zsy09 @ghostlywhiskey @ghosts-cyphera @poohkie90 @neothewitch @shadofireshinobi @sadslasher13 @h0n3y-l3m0n05 @xaestheticalien

[moondirti]

imagine picking up the wrong cake order on gaz’s birthday. so instead of happy birthday baby, it reads congratulations dad. you try laughing it off, rubbing an apologetic hand down his back as he blows out the candles, but he gets a real serious, real dark look in his eye for the rest of the night.

it’s as good as you asking for one. mistake just a flimsy excuse you used to cover up around friends. the second the party’s over, he has you drilled into the floor, knees by your ears, fucking three loads worth of cum into your poor, battered pussy. there’s really no need to be so sneaky about it, darl. he’ll give you a baby if you want one

[arthurlovesarthurmorgan]

Pookie?

[thebookbutterfly]

fanfiction isn’t enough, I need to chew on him