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[didanagy]

PRIDE AND PREJUDICE (1980)

dir. cyril coke

[adobongsiopao]

David Rintoul (Mr. Darcy) and Elizabeth Garvie (Elizabeth Bennet) in "Pride and Prejudice" 1980 version.

Where can I watch this version? I saw some clips of it on Youtube but they're not complete. I want to watch it to see more of "Pride and Prejudice" adaptations. It seemed obscure to find compare to 1995 and 2005 versions.

[provalencockfucker]

Fallout 4 dnd au :P

Sole Survivor- human fighter

Preston- elf wizard

Curie- gnome cleric

Piper- kobold bard

Cait- tiefling monk

Nick- warforged bloodhunter

Hancock- dragonborn rogue

Danse- goliath paladin

Codsworth- autognome artificer

Deacon- changling warlock

X6-88- assimar sorcerer

MacCready- halfling ranger

Strong- orc barbarian

(Bonus)

Ada- autognome druid

Gage- dhampir rogue

Old Longfellow- genasi ranger

[retroautomaton]

hiya guys my internet and power had been out for a couple days. it’s all good now, but I’m still playing catch up with comms & whatnot, so I’ll have those out soon. thanks sm for being patient w me

[garvielloken1900]

Story time from last night

So some fun things happened last night 😅 It was my roommates birthday, and since her family doesn't really acknowledge her existence unless they need something from her I try to make it special every year (We've lived together for about 4 years now and are the best of friends). So I made dinner, baked her a cake and got her a card, I normally try to get her something nice but this last year has been rough on both of us financially. After the festivities I made her her favorite drink and grabbed my case of beer and we got cozied up on the couch to watch shows and movies from her childhood. Now she had no idea about my foot fetish (Because being a normal human being is one of the easiest things to do, yes I'm looking at you disrespectful gremlins out there) so when she asked me to rub her feet I was blindsided and admittedly over the moon. At this point we were a few drinks in but still sober enough to be in control of our actions. So as I’m rubbing her feet my heart starts pounding and we keep looking at each other. The looks that make you FEEL if that makes sense. At this point she’s noticing my soldier boy starting to stand at attention because, well, feet 😅. Her being 11 years older than me and very well aware of kinks decides she’s gonna fucking play with me 😵‍💫. Moving her feet to my chest, then nonchalantly sliding them to my face. THIS WOMAN IS SMIRKING AT ME THE WHOLE TIME. Me not wanting to do anything without permission/consent asks if it’s ok. She gave me a fucking playful shrug and my god my heart about leapt from my chest. So I starting worshipping her feet. I attempted some light gentle tickling to test the waters, which resulted in her not being ticklish (which is completely fine by me) I felt like I was in heaven I swear. After like 10 minutes she pulls them away and comes closer and we start kissing. The next thing I know she’s pulling me into her bedroom. When I say that last night was one of if not the greatest nights of my life…

I’m not quite sure if this is an official “thing” yet. I don’t want to assume anything, but we’re going out to dinner tonight and hopefully talk about it and see where we both stand. I feel like I’m in the fucking twilight zone or something 🤣

[fruitedsnack]

Ughhsg I have nothing to post TRAVIS B UPON YE

(+the romeaves and my Garvis brainrot)

[satans-left-asscheeky]

Fallout 4 companions reaction to crushing on sole who despite being a playboy who sleeps with mostly any man or women attractive are dense to see their interested in them and sees them only as buddies as a result

Maccready

MacCready would be very annoyed by it, and he'd make his annoyance known, He'd bitch at them for ditching him for some random hookup for the thousandth time, but he always hid his anger under the guise of teasing. He's actually pretty annoyed, though. I mean, would it kill them to just go to a bar and drink a beer with him? He normally wouldn't care who his boss was screwing, but his feelings for them would complicate things...even though he knows he has no right to feel that way he still feels himself getting more and more agitated every time they flirt up a stranger. He would find himself putting more and more ungodly amounts of alcohol on his tab whenever they would disappear and numbing the sting of rejection until he'd inevitably drink so much he'd blackout.

Hancock

Hancock wasn't shy when it came to flirting, and he had been flirting with sole since the very beginning and when they just laughed his advances off he just assumed they were the more quiet and reserved type, and took it as a challenge. Well, apparently, that couldn't be further from the truth. They were in the third rail, flirting up a stranger at the bar. His bar. Hancock knew he wasn't exactly easy on the eyes, and by no means was he God's gift to the commonwealth, but it did hurt that they didn't even give him a chance, especially when he didn't just want a quick hookup from them, but actually had caught feeling.. He knew he had no right to feel the way he did, Hell, he was known for getting around himself but a little voice in the back of his head kept on nagging that it was because he was a ghoul, and if he still had a set of smoothskin things would be different... He'd do everything he could to drown the voice out, emptying canister after canister of jet, but he still couldn't shake the feeling that he wasn't good enough for them.

Cait

She'd ball her fists and grit her teeth every time she saw a stranger getting too close, logically she knew she didn't have any room to judge them, was she annoyed that all her flirting was lost on them? Yeah, but she knows you can't force someone to feel something. If there's one thing Cait values its freedom, and she would never want to take that from someone like it had been taken from her so Cait would just make herself scarce when they were flirting with someone so her anger couldn't get the best of her

Danse

He'd give sole a whole lecture on how unsafe it is to be alone and venerable with someone you barely know, especially in the wastes. Danse really wouldn't be consciously aware that it may be his own feelings causing him to feel that way, and would genuinely belive he was looking out for his friends safety even if the pit in his stomach and burning in his chest said otherwise.

Curie

She watches the people sole flirts with very closely. She's curious to see what they all have in common (if anything) making mental notes on their similarities and differences, she'd tell herself it was just research, but the very detailed list of soles favorite attributes lying in front of her said otherwise

Deacon

Deacon had never been a jealous guy. With Barbara, he never had to worry, and since then, he'd never cared enough to be jealous, so it's safe to say this was a first for him, and it was absolutely infuriating. He'd watch them flirt up another random stranger and despite himself he'd tense up, abandoning his usual poker face, though if sole noticed they didn't seem to care as they got up to leave with yet another of their countless hookups. Deacon would end up distancing himself from sole for two reasons, 1. Because he can't let shit like this get to him, he's a railroad agent for fucks sake and 2. it hurt to much to be around them. He'd take more jobs from hq, and for the first time in a while, he'd find himself drowning his troubles in alcohol.

Piper

Piper has had a few crushes before, so she was used to the feelings, but what she wasn't used to was how goddamn inferior it made her feel every time she saw them with someone else. They were friends after all and she knew she had no right to be jealous, but all she wanted was for them to look at her the way they looked at all the random people at bars or at settlements. Even if it was just for a second... she wanted to know how it felt to have their undivided attention and adoration. To be theirs even if it was temporary.

Nick

Nick would always give sole the same line, "Just be safe kid". They'd always role their eyes as they walked away from him, but he'd always be stuck worrying... not everyone had the best intentions out in the wastes and when you're as infamous as sole that puts a target on your back. Maybe it was just all the cases he'd work that made him so cynical, but then again, that nagging feeling in his chest was a pretty dead give away that maybe it was more than cynicism keeping him up at night....

Preston

Preston wouldn't say anything to them at all. He cared about sole a lot, and all he wanted was for them to be happy, even if that wasn't with him. It hurt a lot, but he was used to pain, and for sole, he'd endure anything

X6-88

He would hate it. The people of the commonwealth were vile and undeserving of even a second of soles time. He hated how much time they gave strangers when they could be doing important work for the institute. He'd have a firm talk with them about where their priorities lied. He wouldn't even be able to process that maybe his own feelings were what was clouding his judgment.

[daisylovestickles]

And we can’t forget to count the toes too ☺️😋

THERE'S TEN I HAVE TEN

[austenreusedcostumes]

This Brown Spencer is worn on Elizabeth Garvie as Elizabeth Bennet in Pride and Prejudice (1980) and many years later worn on Beth Angus as Meg Dashwood in Sense & Sensibility (2024)

[nathalieskinoblog]

Pride and Prejudice / Stolz und Vorurteil 1940-2016

[atypicalacademic]

The Madgod Wears Patchwork

For the prompt arcane for day 1 of @tes-summer-fest

“You’d believe this storm-blue, but there is more to it.” 

“Is there, my lord?”

“See here, the orrery’s bronze and black, see here the silver of an old night sky. Look here the twin moons in crescents, between this thread and that. This hint of green, the lustrarium.”

“And that grey the ashen remains of a target practice. The deep brown of the Archives.”

“The hint of violet, for ill-fitted robes.”

“And guilt, my lord?”

“And guilt.” 

*

Leaning back far enough in her chair that it teetered on toppling over, the Arch-Mage waited. A coin’s circle of a shadow against her wrist, and on her neck that still unfaded scar she wore as a trophy from Mannimarco. 

Raminus tried not to look for shadows beneath her brisk lettering, tried not to jump at ghosts as the curtain billowed. Sleep settled over him in the silence, suffocating as a shroud.These days, even in waking, the same dreams spun silver between one thought and the next. Whether they were nightmares, or the aching bliss of life rolling off his shoulders, who could say?

“It’s a fine statement.” Raminus said finally. “Neither pressing the issue nor dismissing it. I’d believe it.” 

“You don’t think it’s true?”

He only looked at her through bleary eyes. Between them the quiet question hung. 

Will you tell me what has happened? 

“Gods’ blood.” The Arch-Mage snatched the statement from his hands. “If I can’t even convince my friends to trust me-”

“Am I still a friend, then?” 

“You are. And you’d see it, Raminus, when you aren’t too busy resenting me.” 

Divines knew he deserved the barb. The youngest Arch-Mage in history, and all his decrepit heart had mustered behind a watered smile was a painful twinge of envy. His quiet years of dedication had meant little in the face of the guild’s savior. The robes had been hers since she’d returned smoke-stained and shaking from Bruma. He should have been proud of her. He should have tried.

“Then tell me what’s wrong, Catarina. I can help.”

“Nothing’s wrong with me that isn’t with everyone else. We fought Oblivion. Buried two Emperors. Tore the Council in half. The guild plagued with dreams. We all still miss Traven. The usual. If you’d work with me to get to the bottom of this, and not turn every conversation into an oblivion-damned interrogation, maybe we’d be halfway to fixing this mess.” 

“I am working with you. I just-”

Catarina held up her hand. Where the candlelight pooled in the shadows beneath her eyes, she’d aged an eternity in a year. “Then tell me, Master Wizard. Where do I go from here?” 

Raminus fought the urge to squirm. This was it, the precipice, the needlepoint of an ask greater than a question; she was his star pupil again, bouncing on the balls of her feet and begging for a Conjurer’s appointment. We need to fortify ourselves against daedric incursions, Master Wizard. And for that, we must be prepared. For all he’d stood silent at the side of that lighted path she'd taken to be his equal, he had his wish now; he was the one being torn open to be proven. It rankled. It ached. He hoped. 

“It’s imperative that you do keep them calm. The statement would be enough for that. That aside, with report of the activity being Daedric in nature, the remains of the closest Oblivion gate would be a reasonable guess.” 

When Catarina rose from her seat, Raminus knew he had failed. 

He was small, miniscule before the tidal wave of foreboding that swept him without warning. His ambitions but dust, no more than an insect’s breaking wing, the peeling cocoon-flesh of a greater being.

 Of course he’d failed. He’d been lost the moment he set her on this course. Terror gripped the space between his ribs, washed away by salt-waves of mist. In his dreams, the roots knotted at his ankles. With the next downward swing, he would drown. 

When the spell broke, he was rooted, hair stood on end, heart thudding against his chest.

The thing that could swallow him whole had deserted her frame for a moment, leaving her hollow and forlorn. 

He needed to help now. He needed to help now, before the mists crept between the cracks and carried her away too. Where had he been when she’d called for him, when her father was bloodied and buried beneath a watery grave, when she scrubbed her hands clean of the grime of Bruma until her skin tore and bled?

 Divines save him, she was only so young when her grief had robbed him of his protege, replacing her with wild eyes and a knife-blade smile and shoulders aching to carry everything. He didn’t deserve her then, when she’d wept for help and he only pushed her to the arms of demons and necromancers, and he didn’t deserve her now. 

She folded the paper, waving the door open. “It’s alright. You don’t even know, do you?” Her light touch against his shoulder was a yawning ravine. “I’m sure you did what you could. You poor man.”  

*

“Rose for an arrow’s tip, and death.”

“Death of a father?”

“And of a child.”

“And the red, for the flames-”

“For my mother’s hair.”

*

Letitia Philida awoke to a splintering ache in her leg, rolling off the sideways tilt of a nightmare. Adamus’ body, bloated with poison and bleeding from the head, filled the space beside her with soft complaints. 

Oh for a cup of tea, my dear. Oh for some incense. 

She ignored him, as all widows do when their lover stands guard by the doorway. Don’t bother. He whispered as she removed the dagger from her nightstand. She slept with three now. One by the carafe, one beneath her pillow, and one by the lamp. It hadn’t been enough, that first time. 

Neither armor nor dagger nor the heavy Blackwoods mist had guided the Gods’ hands to shield  him.She had loved his mission and taken its toll. And he’d met its natural conclusion. An arrow from the shadows, piercing his skull and lodged in her own heart since. Grief as precise, as bloodied as that. 

She followed the noise down the emptiness of the hallway to the emptiness of her daughter’s room. She stopped short at the open door when she caught a stirring beyond the curtains. 

“It’s me, Mama.” 

“Catarina? What are you doing here?”

Her daughter was still in her University robes, her hair dripping small water-spots onto the worn carpet beneath her feet. Adamus, and a stray breeze, quietly shut the door behind them as they left the room. 

“Can’t I come home when I please?” 

A thin film of dust caught the light and glowed golden. Filaments flickered in Catarina’s bright red hair. Her face was drawn, exhausted. 

“Of course you can, love.” Letitia set the candle down to sit by her bedside. The sheets had stayed the same since she’d last come home, for Adamus’ funeral. Since then, the felicitating luncheon at the University, the letters of promotion. 

Stendarr alone knew where she went in between. “Are you looking for something?”

“Oh, nothing. Thought I’d put some things away.”

Picture books stiff with age and embossing, a primer of magic gifted to her by the first tutor, an ancient Altmer she’d impressed with her passion at barely the age of twelve. A copy of A Pocket Guide to The Empire marked with fading scribbles, a small stuffed horse with its threads coming askew.

In her hand, The Art of War Magic, with Adamus’ clean signature congratulating her on her admission to the University. I’ll make a battlemage of you yet, my darling Catarina. 

She’d hardly the need for books on Destruction anymore, and by then, hardly the need for her father’s praise. Catarina turned it over, thumbing the moth eaten corner of a page. 

“Was he still disappointed, in the end?”

“Disappointed? Never. The Master Wizard had nothing but praise for you, and your father knew it. He had no doubt you were meant for great things.” 

It was a white lie that slipped easily off her tongue, dripped from her fingers to the letters she’d sent. 

There’s no good that’ll come out of this unhealthy obsession with summoning, mark my words. She should be by my side, bolstering the Legion. She should be treading the lighted path to the righteous. 

“He was worried about you. As am I.” 

It mattered little now. She was her father’s daughter, beholden to a calling, bound to her nature. 

Catarina smiled. She sat cross-legged on her childhood bed, laying an old Wizard’s staff across her lap. Everywhere were the marks of her being, as skinned knees and the scars of childhood. 

“Strange, isn’t it Mama? These things that were mine aren’t me any longer.”

“Isn’t that the nature of life, my dear?” 

“What about this house? Do you ever think of moving?”

“Why must I?”

“It’ll be good, I think, to get away from all this grief.”

“My grief lives with me. Better to be anchored to it here than left adrift elsewhere.”

Like you. She didn’t say. Like you. You who seek absolution in the space between worlds.

“But I miss you.” Catarina said.

Letitia pushed past the books to brush back her daughter’s hair. Her sweet green eyes, the darling freckles on her nose. These things that were mine but are me no longer. 

“You can always come home.”

Catarina swallowed hard, then kissed her mother’s forehead.

“No wonder Father was so twisted up in knots, huh? To be made of one thing alone is a heavy price.”

“For what, my dear?”

“For love, Mama. For love.” 

It flashed before Letitia as though her life were running out; Catarina throwing herself upon the bed, hands ink-stained and glowing with magic, eyes twinkling like emeralds and I love it, I love it, I love it, Mama, fashioning old curtains into makeshift wizard's robes, gripping her tutor’s elbows to say it again, I love it, I’d do anything, go anywhere my magic takes me. It grew her, as water does a river, that love dressed as a need a mission an aberration, that love that wears no human face. 

I wish you loved me that way, my dear. I wish it was me you were made of. 

Butterflies burst behind Letitia’s eyelids, brilliant as the sun. 

*

“And the gold, for a golden prince.”

“Buried in our backyard.”

“Green for the tomb, and white for the marble.”

“White for the lies.”

“White lies?”

“A golden lie. Fit for a king. Fit for a champion.”

*

The end of a year of mourning came on the wings of the first rains. A sweep of laymen and acolytes busied themselves with clearing the Temple of the last vestige of the memorial ceremony. 

Beneath the towering statue of that short-lived Emperor, with drizzle still clinging to her lashes and tusks, Garvi Gra-Shub turned to the Arch-Mage. It was me, she wanted to say, it was me, it was me, it was me. The arrow was mine, the bow was mine, and mine was the shadow by the river. 

Instead, coward that she was, she said, “Martin would’ve hated this.”

Catarina shrugged. “He’d have preferred to live, but here we are. Being the chosen of the Gods takes little of your wants to account.”

It wasn’t the Gods who saved us, it was you. 

That was her doing too.  It  was she who had led him here, every step from the confines of Kvatch to Bruma to the heart of the Empire, led him here to be taken and wrung out and ruined and killed, and killed.

“I heard,” She changed the topic, “That you declined a place on the Elder Council.” 

“I have responsibilities elsewhere, as Ocato well knows. Besides, Cyrodiil has a Champion already.”

And still the lies were as thick and sweet as nectar. “I’d prefer a quiet retirement now.”

To where no questions would follow her, no eyes in the shadows to watch as she failed. To excavate the last of grace from a grave of herself.

“Don’t tell me you’re sick of the public eye already, Garvi. The paint on your statue’s barely dried.”

“They need me less than they need you. Less things to kill, for a time of rebuilding.” 

Catarina glanced at her, for once holding her tongue, waiting. 

Come clean. Confess. Pull out the blade you’ve buried in the backs of everyone you’ve cared for.

The silence was taut as skin around a fresh wound. How the words in Garvi’s mouth so festered, and spoiled, filling the cavity with the taste of decay. Her rotten heart. Her rotten soul, born steaming from the deadlands and fostered in blood. 

Better to case herself in stone and plaster. Better to sink to the same mask she’d struggled so much to shake away. Better to find her grace there, in the quiet. 

Garvi lied again. “All I mean is, the public eye might like less what it sees now.”

Catarina had turned away, her palm on the statue, her finger on one damp dragon claw. “I wonder if it hurt in the end.”

“What?”

“When the soul tears in half against something vaster than the world. The mantling of a God.”

“Oh.” The relief was a knife in Garvi’s chest. “It only took a moment. I’m sure it was a quick death.”

Like a wildfire’s blaze. Like the sun exploding before her eyes. One moment the world had been the inside of a forge, and the next it'd turned bone-pale and muted green. No slit throat, no blood pooling from a torn stomach, no muscles turning stiff and purple with poison. 

Dear Martin, the most glorious of all her executions. 

Captain Philida had blackened where the arrow found him. He’d floated, bare belly up for the fish to feast on his toes. If Garvi were a better woman, an orc of honour, if her parents hadn’t charred themselves behind Kvatch’s collapsing door, if she hadn’t turned all she loved in life to pain, she could tell Catarina of another quick death.

But this was good as any confession. She could cloak one death in another. So long as she said the words, she could escape the weight of them. 

“A quick death?” Quiet tears streamed down Catarina’s cheek. “You were there? You saw?”

“I was.” The river shining silver in the mist. The swamp’s hot breath. The rain. Your father was so afraid, you know. He looked as though he slept in armor. 

“A fragment of a God- I wonder if he sees us still. If he can ever return.”

My own father looks on me as I sharpen my arrows by the sunrise. I turn away. My mother laughs as I tiptoe into my empty kitchen. I couldn’t bear to listen, couldn’t meet her eyes. On some days I’m glad nothing of my home remains. 

Garvi shifted her weight, awkward now. She couldn't remember the last time she'd seen the Arch-Mage cry. “There’s no return from some things.” 

Clinging to the curve of Akatosh’s wing, Catarina wept. Garvi watched, despising herself for long enough that the raindrops turned iridescent to her tired eyes. 

“I’m so sorry.” She said. “It was my fault.”

I stood for half an hour in the water. By then the dead had all blurred to one. My father and yours. The shrieking dremora and the laughing, dancing dunmer girl. 

Catarina wiped her eyes on her sleeve. “Don’t be ridiculous, Garvi. You did what you could.”

Did you know how much harder it was to saw his finger off for me to take? His hand was curled, just as yours are now, as though he still clung to something too. He must have loved you. It was my fault. He must have loved you. 

“So did you.” Garvi said. “For- for everyone.” 

Catarina straightened, and as though a curtain fell away from her face, Garvi flinched. The air around them pulsed with a power she could not name. This is it, she thought. She’d seen her for what she is. A scandal, not a crime, if the Arch-Mage struck down the Hero of Kvatch at the Temple for what she’d done. Maybe she’d make a better confession there, in the peace of the Void. 

But her voice was even, her eyes dry. “You’re right.” Catarina said. “There is no return from some things.”

*

“Magenta, for this one sunset.”

“My lord?”

“For the sky of my dreams, and yours.” 

The robe was resplendent now, woven as though every color bled. It’s silken thread came together so snug that Catarina wondered if there was ever a time she never had it at all. Another year was past, and it was time to go. There were reasons for which she’d bided her time and had this realm endure her dreams. But now, the Isles beckoned. Its beauty spilled through the door, an apprentice bursting into her room to fall at her feet. 

He sat across her with his shining face and his eyes like the ocean, unravelled at the center, as if he too were a fluttering thread to be closed between her palms. A surge of love threatened now to drown her. Why had she resisted at all?

“But my dreams tell me another story, my lord.” So penitent, the boy, so sweet. So frightened of the straight lines interlaced between stone and tile. “Where’re the boughs, the cross-road villages? Where’s the formless trees, the golden Saints? Where’s the green that parches my throat and the desert to quench it?”

The Niben wind caught the scent of home. 

Catarina lifted her hands.

 “Here are the golden wings of Mania. And my feet are the roots of Crucible. Do you see these teeth? The cobble-stones of Bliss. These even ribs the bare ground of Split. Turn my skin inside out, and my heart is every lining of the Gatekeeper’s key, stitched to my insides and yours and his. These bones the mists of Dementia. This hair? The paranoid feathers. These lips the thorax of all elytra, every word a life. Each eye an amber, waiting for the taking. From these knees come the grummite, knobbled and spindled. Do you see? The Isles of your dreams are all of me.”

He gasped. “And the robe, my lord? The robe?”

She stood, and slipped it over her skin. Supple as water, it took the shape of her. “The robe is the woman I’m made of. No escaping her.”

Water ripples, and rain pours. A little girl buries her face in her books. A hand with a missing finger closed around her shoulder. A home with a door open. Stone and plaster. An old friend’s voice like a bee buzzing in her ear.

No weeping of it. No half-way promises. No running. 

Between the skin, and the silk, the expanse of the world. The Never-There.

The Madgod took the boy’s hand. 

“It’s time to go.”

[trooperst-3v3]

Mitaka gave me my lines for the show. Said I have two weeks to memorize them.

Bruh. I may be an idiot when it comes to. . . well, life. But when it comes to memorization, I have a mind like a steel trap.

I got so good at repairing stuff because I spent most of my training years memorizing user manuals.

And I can't tell you how many times I've gotten out of trouble by memorizing the birthdays and other important dates of the officers and providing appropriate gifts when necessary.

Which reminds me: General Garvis has an anniversary coming up. I should probably get him a nice card and a gift certificate to Foot Locker so he can replace that pair of sneakers he left in the gym. And I'd better do it before he finds out I accidentally knocked a full can of Gunmetal Grey all over them when I was adding a fresh coat of paint to the lockers.

[thatscarletflycatcher]

Today in curious finds:

Tie-in books for Pride and Prejudice (1980):

(You can find it here)

(You can find it here and here)

(You can find it here)

[garvielloken1900]

Personal Update

3 weeks into finally dealing with issues in a way that agrees with me I’m down 8 pounds. Not the direction I’m wanting to go but I’ve noticed some changes in my capabilities if no physical changes. Not as much in mental health but that takes time right?

Having dealt with a lot of pent up anger, sadness, grief and trauma for so long, it’s incredibly liberating transferring those emotions and feelings into motivation to push myself past my limits. Life isn’t easy but it’s worth trudging through it, no matter how long it takes.

Having dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts, tendencies and attempts I want to tell who ever reading this to please find a way to keep going. Find something, anything to grip on to. Life isn’t all sunshine and rainbows and happiness. But there are plenty of good times and experiences. You just have to wait until you find them. And it is so incredibly worth it.

I love you guys 🖤

[satans-left-asscheeky]

Hello friend :D Companion reactions to going with sole, spending a solid two or three hours clearing out a building full of bad guys, making it to the exit, stepping just outside the door - and then sole stops and realizes “FUCK I forgot the Thing we came here for in the first place.”

Maccready

"Are you freakin kidding me!? So we just got shot at, and you didn't even get what we needed?"

He's pissed he's not risking his life just so some disorganized vaultie can get him killed. It may sound harsh, but Mac isn't about taking unnecessary risks, so if it was unimportant enough to forget, then it obviously isn't important enough for them to be risking their lives.

Hancock

"Yeah, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't been there a few times myself... wanna go back in and get it?"

Hey, all of goodneighbor knows Hancock can be a forgetful man, hell no-one has let him live down the time he forgot his pants... This was nothing. and at least they didn't have witnesses to bring back up their embarrassing forgetful moments.

Cait

"Are ya serious? Next, you're gonna tell me we're not gettin paid for this gig. We are gettin paid, right?"

She'd be frustrated. She'd bitch all the way back into the building and then all the way back home. I mean, for God's sake, sole may have 200 years to waste away, but she doesn't

Danse

"You need to focus more on the mission knight... I understand that battle can be intense and mentally taxing, but it's imperative that you remain on task."

He'd be extremely frustrated. They were representing the brotherhood they had to be professional, not unorganized. Getting from point a to point b is the most important part of the battle. Getting distracted is a good way to get yourself killed.

Curie

"Oh no, this is no good! Have you been more forgetful since cryogenic stasis?"

She'd want to get down to Soles memory issue as fast as possible. If sole says they've just been stressed, she'd insist they take a day off to rest.

Deacon

"What!? you're telling me we didn't come here for that desk fan?"

He wouldn't mind going back in to find whatever it was they came there for in the first place. I mean, he gets it they have a liy on their mind. If it happens more than once, though, he'd playfully bump their shoulder and ask if they got everything they needed before leaving places

Piper

"Bluuuueee, do we really have to go back in there? Ugh"

Well, that was two hours of her life she was never getting back, but hey, it could be worse... somehow... probably.

Nick

"We're gonna have to be more thorough, kid... this investigation depends on it"

He wouldn't give them a hard time, hell the commonwealths doing a good enough job at that. It's normal to be a bit forgetful with everything they've been through.

Preston

"Oh... I thought we were just clearing out the building"

He would have no issue going back and getting whatever it was. He knows what being overworked and under sleeping does to a person's memory.

X6-88

"I suggest you stay more focused ma'am/Sir... the institute depends on it"

If there's one thing X6 hates is disorganization, especially on the field. Coursers can't afford to be sloppy. The future director of the institute can not afford to be sloppy.