#gai: 💭

[ikigaitsuki]

hello! here’s a small update

i keep seeing new followers and interactions and anons so i thought id actually take a second to finally give some sort of “what’s been going on in gai’s world”

to start, i can’t remember the last time i even wrote. it’s been over a year, i know that. to still have regular interactions from followers old and new is very lovely - i appreciate it so much.

i know there’s things i’ve written here that people have been waiting forever practically for the second parts. i honestly didn’t think id ever come back to finish them.

a part of me wanted to disappear from here entirely and another part really appreciated this little space i’d created. there’s been a lot of my favourite mutuals slowly leaving this platform and it becomes very isolating when you’re funnelling out work and not maintaining these online relationships.

however, writing is something i want to get back into. it’s hard, because i’m really living an adult life now and the time i have is just not what i had when i first started this account. i can’t say “hey, i’ll write again in 3 days, months, years”, i have no time frame. im also not as into the whole kpop scene as i used to be, which makes inspiration pretty bleak for me. our interests fluctuate though i suppose!

if i ever wanted to give this up completely though, you’d know about it. there’d be some post like this where i’m saying goodbye or something lmao. that’s not happening.

i’m so entirely grateful for the people that continue to give me even the smallest feeling of “ok yes i can get back into this” because that’s so huge for me. id love to write again and make stories for the people who want to read what i have to say. im not sure if i sound dramatic but being able to give to you my creative outlet is just so massive. i’m giving you my creative mind, and that is so vulnerable. my work is always so well received, and people have such lovely things to say. thank you.

i’ve also had major indexing issues with this account. so posting has been hard because nobody actually sees it? i’m actually a major loser when it comes to technology and so messing around with coding and stuff just knocked the life out of me - another reason why i just gave up a little with writing. it’s not about having thousands of notes, but when you’re posting and nobody is going to see it apart from through reposting (which i assume people are still abysmal at) it’s just not motivating.

anyways, i’m not sure if this is something that people will read and feel happy over, but nonetheless i’m putting it out there. in not going awol, im in the process of discovering what i want to do going forward.

if you’re reading this, thank you, always. and don’t forget, you can message me, send me an anon, do whatever! i don’t bite. you might not see me active every day here but i pop by regularly.

- gai

[ikigaitsuki]

thank you so much for recommending my work!💖

HONGJOONG SMUT FIC RECS LIBRARY

disclaimer: I do not own any of these works and they do not represent the real kim hongjoong. all rights belong to the respective writers who made them.

all pairings are hongjoong x reader only.

further info is already stated in the main Library.

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「 ✦ Pirate!Hongjoong ✦ 」

Let Me Take You Away - @ithinkilikeit-reactions (wc 3.7k)

Pirate King: Kim Hongjoong - @cookycherry (wc 4.5k)

Sea Superstitions - ithikilikeit-reactions (wc 8 .8k)

My Lady - @seongsangssbitch

Lost at Sea - @acupoftaewithsomesuga (wc 6.9k)

Pirate Joong - @hyetiny

Pirate King - @cybrsan (wc 7.6k)

A Selfish Desire - @hwashotcheeto (wc 4k)

「 ✦ Best Friend!Hongjoong ✦ 」

friends to lovers trope

Tell Me to Stop - @tenelkadjowrites (wc 4.4k)

Acorns - sa_honey on ao3 (wc 4.3k)

Marigold - @yoongiseesawmp3 (wc 12k)

The Best Friends Code trilogy feat. Seonghwa - tenelkadjowrites

Heavy on Your Tongue - @swallowedbymadness (wc 4k)

We Ransacked the City series, multi-chapter feat. Seonghwa - tenelkadjowrites

「 ✦ Academic!Hongjoong ✦ 」

includes College Student! Hongjoong, Professor! Hongjoong, school setting

Fire & Flames - bustdownyunho on ao3 (wc 5.8k)

Motivate Me - @hwaightme (wc 10.2k)

Hideaway - @minisugakoobies (wc 7k)

Teacher Seonghwa + Student Hongjoong male reader - @star-suh

Study Buddies - halflinghoney on a03 (wc 2.4k)

Can't Stand You - @domjaehyun (wc 3.7k)

Training Wheels - @luvt0kki (wc 10.7k)

Rule #4 - @k-hotchoisan (wc 6k)

King's Play - @atzfilm (wc 4k)

A Special Kind of Heat Delivery - artof-seonghwa (wc 2.4k)

「 ✦ Idol!Hongjoong ✦ 」

Good Girls Don't ONGOING - halanote on ao3 (wc 22k)

Work Life Balance - evphoria87 (wc 1.6k)

Drunk in Love - barnesbabee

All Yours - @forhongjoong (wc 4k) HAS GOT TO BE THE OLDEST WELL-WRITTEN SMUT I KNOW SO THIS ONE IS SPECIAL

In the Wings - @sanjoongie (wc 2k)

A Night In - @written-in-flowers

「 ✦ Roommate!Hongjoong ✦ 」

Movie Night - @severetimetravelnerd (wc 2k)

Deal - @hongism (wc 10.3k)

Declaration - tenelkadjowrites (wc 9k)

Don't You Want Me? - @yeonjuns-beanie (wc 7.4k)

Ass So Fat, Hit that From the Back gen reader, only Hongjoong is turned on - orphan account/abandoned (wc 2.9k)

Exhibition and Voyeurism feat. Seonghwa - hobi-is-golden on ao3 (wc 3.6k)

「 ✦ Mafia/Gangster!Hongjoong ✦ 」

All I Need - @cocobeanncteez

Princess feat. San- @teeztheflag (wc 4.6k)

For Your Entertainment - @atiny-piratequeen (wc 4.3k)

5:31pm - @mingishoe

A Rose is A Rose feat. Seonghwa - @daddyfordaeddy (wc 3.5k)

Guns and Roses - @baekhvuns (wc 5.4k)

Cheating w Gangster!Seongjoong feat. Seonghwa - @thelargefrye (wc 2.6k)

On the Rocks - @kitten4sannie (wc 2.7k)

「 ✦ Writer/ Photographer!Hongjoong ✦ 」

Picture Perfect photographer!Hongjoong - @ikigaitsuki (wc 6k)

Something to Say photographer!Hongjoong- themoonlightfae on ao3 (wc 5.9k)

Mr. Write series, multi-chapter, writer!Hongjoong - @1117feverlessdreams

His Muse photographer!Hongjoong- firepoppyqueen on ao3 (wc 1.4k)

「 ✦ Hongjoong in fantasy/historical/mythical setting ✦ 」

Rendezvous with Destiny royal advisor!Hongjoong - alxdelusional (wc 6k)

Do You Believe in Fate? Hongjoong with magic, multi-chapter - @lettersfromaphrodite (wc 42k)

Starseed: Perfect Love male reader, King!Hongjoong - thelargefrye (wc 3.7k)

His Majesty's Responsibilities King!Hongjoong - @xirenex (wc 8k)

Forbidden Fruit Hades!Hongjoong - @nateezfics (wc 2k)

Day 19 Bard!Hongjoong feat. Knight!Seonghwa- @multiwreckedmess (wc 6.3k)

The Spoils of War, Chapter 2: Hongjoong the Queenmaker multi-member, King!Hongjoong - fullspectrumfangirl, stitchdragon on ao3

「 ✦ Hongjoong in the Fashion Industry ✦ 」

includes Fashion Designer! Hongjoong, Model! Hongjoong, Fashion Company CEO! Hongjoong

The Met and the Aftermath - @angiesmagicspace (wc 5.7k)

Perfect Little Pet Cruella! Hongjoong @armysantiny (wc 5.9k)

Business Attire - @nebulousbrainsoup (wc 4.5k)

Perfect Design - @sector-i-closed

Be My Muse - sanjoongie (wc 1.2k)

Untitled - @cherrysoojins

The Model - @doritochoi (wc 1.7k)

High End - @songmingisthighs (wc 2k)

Mistletoe feat. Seonghwa - justthere4kpop (wc 2.4k)

「 ✦ Something's Wrong with Hongjoong ✦ 」

includes Villain!Hongjoong, Evil!Hongjoong, Perv!Hongjoong, Yandere! Hongjoong and dubcon themes. ⚠️ I don't support non-con fanfics

An Eye For All Things Sweet - @sugarcherriess

Textbook perv!Hongjoong - @ateezinmymind

Crimes of Passion: Gotham au Intro - @thetypingpup (wc 5.4k)

* Yandere

Desire - @lovesanmotion

Indulgence - @mint-yooxgi (wc 2k)

The Villain part 1 - @yourfatherlucifer (wc 1k)

The Villain part 2 - yourfatherlucifer (wc 1k)

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[lottiessidehoe]

Fuck it i’m coming out as a multishipper

[scrimblyscrorblo]

Some Edgar Allen Poe (BSD) Headcanons:

[allamericandogboy]

okay listen i love fagbreaking but the reverse is also really good.

meeting some straight (“straight”) guy who hasn’t thought too hard about having sex with men before me. maybe he thinks hooking up with me would be a good way to subtly indulge those mildly curious thoughts in the back of his mind. i look like a man, sure, but i’ve still got a cunt and he could convince himself that i’m a girl if he tried hard enough.

but actually doing it, feeling my hands on him, he can’t pretend. he’s trying so, so hard. he thought he’d be able to see me as a girl. he can’t.

and maybe he tries to back out because of it. he’s getting cold feet. that’s not fair, though, i’d tell him. he asked for this. and i’ve already got my hand down his pants and i can feel how hard he’s getting. wouldn’t it be so much easier to just give in? to admit he’s gonna be such a good fag for me? practically begging for it?

and when i’m on my knees for him and he lets out that little groan and “good boy” slips from his lips, i know i’ve got him. he can’t pretend. even if he wants to go back to pretending tomorrow, we both know he’s a faggot tonight.

[callieyanderechan]

Head empty, no thoughts. only Cressida Cowper

[imdoingsortagay]

This man failed the be normal about men challenge 😭

[tranqviridii]

Rewatching House M.D after watching it for the first time thinking that House and Wilson were pretty gay and rewatching to just be reaffirmed that yeah, they are pretty gay.

Watch out for these divas.

[outergodly]

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[ikigaitsuki]

seeing all the interactions i still get on my posts even though i’m not really around anymore is the sweetest thing ever. anytime i come back and have a look at what’s going on it fills me with the nicest feeling, so thank you😊😊

[cowgirlcherrie]

its time I be real w myself about the pillow princess I truthfully am . LOUD GROAN

it’s in my genetic code to serve for women, like whatever u say goes baby!!!

[anyataylorjoys]

lesbian focused romance in bridgerton universe when

[futuremrscameron]

jjpopecleo showed up and showed out this season so i still won

[heartzfromel]

guys PLEASE request cop!agnes i wanna write for her so bad

[allamericandogboy]

forced (coerced?) domination

i like being hit and i like doing things that get others off, but i don’t know if i would be able to stomach hurting someone else.

(that’s what makes it so good)

i’ll try hitting you. just this once. i’ll be gentle. i know you don’t want me to be gentle, i just don’t know if i can bring myself to do it harder.

you want me to bite you harder? okay. i like leaving marks on you. harder? harder? fuck. okay. you’re bleeding.

the first time i make you cry i rub your back and apologize and you manhandle me and make me make you cry again.

forcing me to break and ruin you exactly how you want me to until “i don’t want to hurt you” becomes “take it. take it. take it.”