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Cold | Choi Beomgyu

Index

Chapter four

Warnings: softie beomgyu, angst, mentions of sex, signs of abuse.

Word count: 1.3k

Taglist: @arianap23e, @haatohwa

OKOKOKOK I know you don't really like soft chapters because oc this is not a soft story, however, I think it was necessary because of the last one being soft and also because of whet do I want to show. Anyways, I promise the next chapter is not gonna be that soft. (I also wanted to say that I didn't like the beggining of this chapter T.T, but I think it gets better like at the middle?)

Let me know if you find any kind of mistake, i'm not a native speaker and this helps me so so so much ^_^

Also let me know if you want to be added to the tag list, if you want to suggest an event to happen on next chapters or if you have any question about any detail. Luv yaa (●'◡'●)

(Reblogs will be appreciated)

The boat glided smoothly over the calm surface of the lake, the rhythmic hum of the engine creating a soothing backdrop to the conversation between dad and Gaeum. As Luna landed on the other side of the lake, I noticed I couldn’t stop thinking about him.

He knows a lot about me, he knows my fears, he knows my blues, he knows at least a bit of my past, but I don’t know anything about him. And everything I think I do know, is just what I think of him, which makes me wonder if I will ever get the opportunity to listen to him talking about his own life.

We all get out of Luna easily, except for Gaeum, who seems to struggle a lot due to her height. Dad takes her hand, helping her, and even lifts her slim body when she acts scared of falling to the lake. 

I see Beomgyu’s hand tensing, his face almost annoyed at his own mother’s acting. He sits on the wood chair my dad and I did eight years ago, and I sit right beside him. 

While dad takes out of Luna all the food they packed, Gaeum fakes many attempts to try to help him, which makes him kiss her sweetly, telling her he can do it by himself. That’s her personality when dad’s around; the princess in distress.

I look at my phone for a few minutes, until all the meat and the vegetables are cooking on the grill. Everything seems so old, however −even though I haven’t come here since seven years ago−, dad kept paying someone to take care of everything, so it’s still clean and in fine fettle.

Dad sits on one of the chairs, talking about how his week went. He makes some jokes, and sometimes, some details from his story makes Gaeum and me laugh highly. He is so funny without even trying to be. 

“Why don't you like him?” I ask Beomgyu low. He turns around to face me, looking back at the grill fastly. I notice he’s ignoring my question, so I talk once again. “I don’t want you to treat him the way you always do” It’s like he's in a good mood today, which just gives me the confidence to talk firmly to him. “I don’t like your mother, and I’m not mean to her”

“I don’t like her either” His voice sounding so deep it sends shivers down my spine. I swallow hardly, turning around to see my dad looking at me.

“Are you eating, honey?”

“I’m not hungry”

When we are finally going on our way back home, I look at dad, wondering if this is a good moment to tell him about my phobia of darkness. I look at the lake in front of me, while the small waves of the water get lost where the lights of Luna ends. 

Dad starts driving Luna like he knows what’s the direction we are supposed to go, and I’d like to think he knows, because this is going to make me feel a bit less scared. 

I feel Beomgyu’s hand taking mine, giving me a comforting look. As I said Before, he knows me, he knows my fears.

Once we are at home, I can feel the anxiety decreasing on my body, finally walking on the stable land. I don’t wait for anyone to get out of Luna as well, I almost run to the house, turning on the most lights I can. It’s nine thirty p. m., and we are in the middle of nowhere—it’s obviously dark as hell, and I know if I look through the window, my fear will increase a lot, so I do not. 

I run upstairs and close my bedroom door, looking for my pyjamas in my bag, finding it fastly and putting it on. That weird but pleasurable feeling of the warm and comfortable fabric against my cold skin making me almost jump to my bed, ready to sleep. 

I always sleep before eight thirty p. m.

I take my phone, answering the messages Jiwoo sent me on the day. Nothing interesting, actually—she’s asking if I’m excited for the school trip we’re going to have next week. She says it’s special for me since it's my first one, however, it’s already getting boring to her since they always go to the same places. 

Someone knocks on my bedroom door, and I go open, thinking it’s dad telling me what time are we leaving tomorrow. However, Beomgyu’s in front of my door, wearing his emo-like pyjama, messy hair and the same weird soft and angsty aura he has since some hours ago. 

He looks at me silently, not asking before entering my room, closing the door, holding my hand and taking me to my bed.

I wait for him to kiss me, touch me, make any move before he makes me know we are going to have sex once again. Instead, he lays on my bed beside me, and rests his head on my chest, closing his eyes and falling asleep quickly. He likes to sleep at eight thirty too. 

When I feel him trembling some minutes after that, my hand goes to his head, caressing his soft hair sweetly until he’s sleeping calmly again.

This kind of softness makes me wonder why can’t we be this way always, why can’t he be this kind always, why can’t I feel like that always. 

My door suddenly opens. I see Gaeum on my door. She looks at me coldly, and I almost can feel her anger. Does it make us look guilty? We have been hiding what we have for so many time, which makes me think we are not that obvious. But our position now… I can always say we are just close enough to be friends and have sleepovers, right?...

However, I can’t even attempt to justify our position as she closes the door so strongly I startle. The silence after that just makes my anxiety increase. Until I fall asleep.

I wake up at two a. m. when Beomgyu’s phone starts ringing. He wakes up also, and I pretend to sleep, not wanting this soft moment to end. The name of his mother on his screen letting me know who is this about. He takes his phone answering the call. 

He listens to her. Then, he answers. “I don’t want to” The call ends. He looks frustrated as he looks at me one more time before getting out of his room, closing the door and walking out quietly.

The next morning, we are all in the car once again. Gaeum looked at me once in a weird way that make me feel a bit awkward. I look at Beomgyu, noticing a purple circle on his arm. Did she hurt him?

I can’t talk to him quietly like many times before because she is looking at me like she is waiting for me to do something. However, I don’t do anything. After some time travelling, she looks at me through the mirror.

“Jeongseo, do you have a boyfriend?” I frown awkwardly, turning to see Beomgyu, who looks at her weirdly. I almost feel like he would yell at her, and tell her to shut up if he wasn’t… scared?

“Am… no?” I answer. My dad looks at Gaeum like she’s doing something kind or something.

“Aw love, are you trying to get along with Jeongseo? That’s so nice!” But I notice this is definitely not her purpose. “I’m sure you’re going to be like real mother and daughter soon” I look Beomgyu one more time, but everything I see now is coldness.

[fruitchouli]

ok i watched two minutes of two mina le videos and they’re kinda like jezebel vibes turned into video and delivered with julia fox uncut gaeums inflection she’s like

“all ballet dancers used to be men” *boo sound effect*

“men can you stop being necrophiliacs 🤪” [stan twitter video]

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AC Block: Anyeong (안녕) - Give You Strength (힘을내요 그대) Lee Byoung Hyeon (이병현) - EMBER (불씨) CHEEZE (치즈) - In a Long Dream (긴 꿈에서) De Moon (드문) - Photograph (사진) SoGak SoGak (소각소각) - Winter Without You (너 없는 겨울) SBGB (새벽공방) - Radio 199.3 (새벽라디오 199.3) ZOIN (조인) - Fine (괜찮아요) Kim Bo Kyung (김보경) - Morning (싫다) KCM (케이씨엠) - Dawn (새벽길) Younha (윤하) - Propose Jonghyun (종현) - Before Our Spring (우린 봄이 오기 전에)

OST Block: PmangC & ATO (피망씨 & 아토) - The End (Happy Sisters (해피시스터즈) OST) Maktub & Seo Young Eun (마크툽 X 서영은) - Please Love Me (나이기를) (Black Knight (흑기사) OST) Yun Ddan Ddan (윤딴딴) - Me Trying, You Not Sayng (잘 해보려는 나 알 수 없는 너) (This Flower Ending (이런 꽃 같은 ���딩) OST) Gu Hara (구하라) - Good Day (좋은 날에) (The Jugglers (저글러스) OST) Hana [gugudan] (하나) - Fluttering Forecast (설렘주의보) (Longing Heart (애간장) OST) Jimin X Yuna [AOA] Feat. Yu Hweseung [N.Flying] (지민, 유나, 유회승) - If You Were Me (니가 나라면) (A Korean Odyssey Hwayugi (화유기) OST)

K-Indie / Rock Block: Daphnis et Chloé Feat. Park Sae Eun (다프니스와 클로에, 백새은) - Fade Away (사라져라) Krr (크르르) - Whiteness (흰) MDSZ (문댄서즈) - 6 (Six) Cho Jung Chi Feat. Fromm (조정치, 프롬) - Perks of a Break Up (헤어져서 좋은 일들) Kim Gain Feat. Lee Mi Seo (김가인, 이미서) - Haven Of Peace EOS - A Luminous Cat (야광 고양이)

EDM / Dance Block: Kwak Jeong Min (곽정민) - Happy Death Day To You Celeb Five (셀럽파이브) - Celeb Five (I Wanna Be a Celeb) (셀럽파이브(셀럽이 되고 싶어)) Chasy Feat. Yeonhee - Memories: Snow Varty Feat. Yang Hyewon (바르티, 양혜원) - Jindo Arirang (진도아리랑) Six Bomb (식스밤) - Beautiful Life Allzwell Feat. Hickee - Red Yuri X Raiden (유리) - Always Find You (Korean Version) Ravi X Park Jimin (라비 X 박지민) - Nirvana

R&B / Hip-Hop Block: Choi Gogi Feat. Tapi (최고기) - Villain (프로불편러) HEERA Feat. P-DAY (희라,  피데이) - Fly Boin (보인) - Summer Rain BAKSAL Feat. ECS (박살) - Come To My Place (놀러와) Horim Feat. Mxxg, Odee, DJ Noah, Kim Oki, J-roc - MOVIN' LIMZY Feat. Huckleberry P (림지) - No More (줘야해) OLNL (오르내림) - juiceoveralcohol I'll Feat. Juniel (아일, 주니엘) - Last Winter (그 해 겨울) Jang Sooa (장수아) - Miss You (보고 싶어져) Page Feat. Naroo, Wild Boar & OJEY (페이지, 나루, 멧돼지) - Love Is Love Curly Hair (곱슬머리) - Get Out (빠져들어가) Ha Un (하운) - vague (미정) MJ (Sunnyside) Feat. Gaeum (MJ (써니사이드), 가음) - Love Is Pain (너라는 통증) DJ DOC - Convenience Store (편의점) Holland (홀랜���) - Neverland (네버랜드) Junho (준호) - Winter Sleep (겨울잠)

Pop Block:Na Ha Eun Feat. Microdot (나하은, 마이크로닷) - So Special High Soul Feat. Mint & KissN (하이솔, 민트, 키스엔) - Baby Boo NRG (엔알지) - Line Is Busy (통화중) 10:45 (10시45분) [The Uni+ G] - Cherry On Top Blooming (블루밍) [The Uni+ G] - Always Ryan - Hometown TARGET (타겟) - Awake RAINZ (레인즈) - Turn It Up fromis_9 (프로미스나인) - To Heart Nick & Sammy (닉앤쌔미) - O.o.O (On or Off) Jeong Sewoon (정세운) - Baby It's U iKON - Love Scenario (사랑을 했다) Jonghyun (종현) - Shinin' (빛이 나)

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MJ, SUNNYSIDEMJ(가음), & GAEUM - The Day You Were Falling(니가 내리던 날)

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MJ (써니사이드) , 가음 (MJ (SUNNY SIDE), Gaeum) - 오늘도 혼잣말

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If just one kid can leave feeling more beautiful, more worth it, more loved, or more motivated to learn--I'll have done my job.

[purrplegyuu]

Cold | Choi Beomgyu

Index

Chapter three

Warnings: unhappiness, slightly angst, soft beomgyu, abusive mother, swearing. omg the softest chapter eveeer

Word count: 1.4k

Taglist: @arianap23e, @haatohwa

I don't know why is it soooo soft, I don't like it ughhh. Like this is a dark story. Anyways, the following chapters are gonna be waaaay darker (i mean i hope). I kinda like soft Beommie tho...

Let me know if you find any kind of mistake, i'm not a native speaker and this helps me so so so much ^_^

Also let me know if you want to be added to the tag list, if you want to suggest an event to happen on next chapters or if you have any question about any detail. Luv yaa (●'◡'●)

I’m not happy. I know that. I know I will never go to school with a bright smile on my face like Jiwoo, because unlike her, I don’t have anything that makes me enjoy sitting on an uncomfortable chair for hours, looking at the professors as if I am paying attention, and talk kindly to my classmates as if I don’t hate them so much.

I even started to believe happiness is a vile lie American series have shown to us.

However, lately, these bad feelings have been increasing. And dad knows that.

That’s why he came home early on a saturday night and announced that we were going on vacation to that pretty house on a lake that his mother left him as an inheritance. 

“You okay guys?” He asks while driving, looking at me through the mirror. I smile slightly at him, nodding. “Gyu, I heard you got really good grades again. Bet your mother is really really proud” Beomgyu looks at him back, quiet, and totally ignores him. 

The awkward aura all over the car now, as dad looks at Beomgyu’s mother, scared of making his relationship even worse. He has tried thousands of ways to get along with Beomgyu, but the boy sitting by my side never really cared.

Once we arrive, dad gets out of his car, stretching his back. I look at Beomgyu. He really hates my father. At least that’s what it looks like—he gets even darker when our parents are close to him, doesn’t even smirk at any kind of jokes and doesn’t say a single word until they are far away again. 

But today, he looks even more dark than usual, which makes me feel a bit scared.

I get out of the car when he does. I see his mother running towards my dad in order to enter the house with him. 

We both stand in front of the house quietly, looking at the way our parents play like kids with their luggage as they take it in the house. They really look like a young couple. However, I find it a bit weird, but I guess it is just because I never liked her.

I look around. There are so many memories from my childhood—the garden full of flowers I planted when I was five, the rustic oven I used to make pizza in when I was eight, the lake where I learned how to swim when I was nine. But everything looks just too old and dirty—it’s been seven years since the last time we came here, it’s been seven years since the last time I enjoyed being in such a place… it’s been seven years since I last saw her.

I walk through the trees until I have reached a certain place. A small dock made of old wood, mouldy and poorly stable. Hundreds of drawings all over one of the wood tiles—’Jeongseo’ on top of everything, followed by ‘Namhyuk’ and ‘Dami’.

I really miss those times.

By 6 p. m., dad calls me to the big dock in front of our house. 

“Gaeum, honey, could you please go get the meat?” Beomgyu’s mom smiles at him, and makes a disgusted face when she turns around. Dad’s on the white boat his father used to drive right before dying three years ago. Everything I can think about when I see it, is him swearing he will never use it again because it was his dad’s, not his.

“We’re taking Luna on an expedition” he says. I can see the happiness on his face. Luna is the name grandpa gave his boat. “Remember when we used to go to the other side of the lake?” I nod. “Well, we are going to go there to take the dinner tonight” a big smile on his face makes me force myself to smile although I’m not happy or excited. 

“I will go get a sweater”

When I get in the house, I don’t see Gaeum in the kitchen, which I found a bit weird, but don’t really pay attention to it. I go to my room, take a pink sweater and try it on in front of the mirror. I’m wearing a long-sleeved dark shirt which is supposed to cover me up enough to make me feel warm, however, the short jean skirt makes it hard for me to get warm. Even with a big coat, and in the house, I’m trembling.

However, I get out of my room, holding a white blanket, and stop walking when I hear some noises in Beomgyu’s room. The door is closed, so I cannot see anything, but I don’t also see any light under the door, even though it’s 6:30 p. m., and it’s very dark already. 

“Don’t be fucking dumb” Gaeum’s voice sounding so different—meaner, unlike her usual fake sweet voice tone. “Could you please think a bit? Ha, you’re almost an adult, why would I have to ask you to not be so dumb?” The door of my room closes strongly due to the air running through my open window, which makes me jump, touching my chest. No more sounds in the room makes me feel scared someone can catch me, so I walk back to the door.

Gaeum gets out of Beomgyu’s room, and I look at her, trying to look as natural as possible, holding tightly my blanket, faking a blank face to her like I didn’t hear anything. 

“What?” I ask when she keeps looking at me. I even impress myself with my almost perfect acting. 

“Are you ready? I’m asking Beomgyu if he is also ready” I look in his room. He’s not visible from outside, so I just nod to her, going down once again.

Some minutes after that, Gaeum gets on the boat, giving dad the things he asked for and his coat. Beomgyu walks behind her, blank face as always, and doesn’t look at dad, just gets in the boat and sits by my side. 

Dad knows perfectly how to drive the boat, so he does it while we all try to warm ourselves with our coats.

The place we and Beomgyu are sitting is lower than the place our parents are at, so they can’t see us unless they go down.

That’s why he puts his hand on my thigh, caressing it as we’re alone over there. I look at him, looking at the lake deeply. His soft hair moving with the air, his face even prettier than ever, flawless skin, and some red marks on his cheeks like he has just cried. 

“You don’t seem that happy” he says, still looking at the lake. 

“I never look happy” I say, jokingly. Spending so much time with Jiwoo has started to affect me. But he doesn’t laugh. The silence makes me want to be sincere with him. Guess he has this effect on me. “I don’t really like here” He turns around to look at me, almost surprised at my words. It’s a pretty and almost paradisiacal place. Why wouldn’t I like it? “Everything I can think about when I’m here is her… the last time I saw mom” 

We stay silent for a few minutes, weirdly enjoying each other’s company. 

Then, he talks once again. “I know you listened” his husky voice should make me feel scared, however, his hands touching me so softly, his head against mine, his arm around me, his body warming me up… I can’t be scared even if he says he will kill me after that.  And I wonder if that kind of scenes are the reason I love him so much even when he treats me so wrong most of the time. Maybe I don’t love him, maybe I just love the way he treats me so wrong, but sometimes, he acts like he loves me back.

I don’t try to deny it. He knows me well. The voice tone he used isn’t even doubtful. He knows I listened.

“Don’t want to know why was she so mad?” Weirdly, everytime he doesn’t use pet names, it’s just because he’s treating me well. 

I look at him quietly. I find it a bit acted the way he fakes peace, like it doesn’t really bother him. His eyes a bit red, like his nose and cheeks. 

“She found out I’m fucking someone” He flashes a bit more than usual. “, and scolded me for not using condom” His eyes shiny, and can feel like he’s being forced or something like that. However, I don’t say anything.

I never say anything. 

[purrplegyuu]

Cold | Choi Beomgyu

Index

Chapter six

Warnings: poorly proofreaded, refill chapter, mentions of sex, cursing.

Word count: 1.4k

Taglist: @arianap23e, @haatohwa

Trashy chapter. So sorry, just needed this chapter to connect what happens on next chapters so...

I also apologize for uploading it so late, I was at SEVENTEEN's concert and I was very busy (it was amazing omgggg T.T)

I'm not an english native speaker, so let me know if there's any mistake. Also let me know if you wanna be added to the tag list.

After three days of our usual routine once again, I find myself locked in my room, thinking about why it feels so different. We have never been really close. I mean, we do have sex, however, we do not talk a lot, we do not even talk to each other every single day. I can easily think about many times where we didn’t talk to each other for more than a week. 

But something feels different in these three days.

He doesn’t look at me, while I do look at him. He ignores me when I try to talk to him. He even avoids me when we’re out of the house. This awkward aura every time we are in the same place is something really heavy, and I cannot deal with it the moment our parents forced us to go to a restaurant to eat dinner with them due to their mesiversy number 10. 

I do not like it to feel invisible. And that’s exactly how he makes me feel. 

“Honey, let’s dance” My dad says. After some cups of whine, his voice is starting to sound way softer and more dazed than usual.

He takes Gaeum’s hand with a shiny smile, walking towards the place all the couples are dancing. I look at her almost disgusted, expecting Beomgyu to do the same. However, he just looks at his phone, like he's been doing the whole time we’ve been here.

“I can’t deal with it” I say highly. He looks up, surprised by my voice tone. “I don’t like it” My voice sounds offended. 

“What?”

“This, you, the way you treat me” I say, looking directly at him. “I hate it, and I’m starting to hate you” He hums, looking like he doesn’ care at all. “You might not believe it,” I laugh ironically. “but I’d love to be loved”

“What do you want me to do? You want me to kiss you?”

“Maybe. Maybe it would be fine if you would kiss me more times than you fuck me” His laugh making me almost explode. However, I know our parents are close and I should be more silent than I am now. 

“Why-?” He tries to talk, but I interrupt him.

“Because I love you” He looks at me shocked. My voice breaks when I try to talk, but I keep talking. “I love you. And I know I shouldn’t because of our parents, but I do… and everything I can see about your feelings is hate. Fucking hate” He doesn’t bother looking around if someone is listening to us, not even our parents. I do not care either. 

We keep quiet for a few minutes, just looking at each other. I try to calm myself because I don’t want to cry.

“Beomgyu… do you hate me?” There’s some seconds of silent while everything happening around us is not even important. We don’t look around when the waitress asks if she can bring the dessert now, we don’t look around when a couple kisses in front of everyone–which makes everyone look at them like they have just made something horrible, except for us–, we don’t look around even when our parents are walking back towards us. 

“Yes” His voice never sounded so dark, his words never hurted so much, and I never felt that stupid before. 

I stand up, walking out of the restaurant while dad looks at me confused, asking what happened to me. But I don’t let him see how bad I’m crying right now.

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“And I was actually thinking about packing the other one since it was way prettier, but Sunoo said I looked comfier on this one, right?” Everytime Jiwoo talks about the clothes she made herself, the excitement on her face makes her shine even more than usual.

Sunoo, on her side, just nods, slightly smiling at her. 

“Both of them are pretty” I say. She smiles looking at me.

“‘But…’” She knows I always have a second thought of everything.

“But I like the green one the most” I saw it before, when she invited me to her room some weeks ago. “I think that one was more artistic and, I don’t really know why, but I think this makes you look sexy” She laughs nervously.

“But she doesn’t need to look sexy. She just needs to be comfortable” Sunno’s annoyed voice tone, faking sympathy towards me like he’s always done it before. 

He doesn’t like me, I don’t really know why- However, he puts up with me just because my only friend is his best friend.

I look confused at him, then look at Jiwoo before nodding. “Y-yeah. Guess that’s right” He looks at me like I have just made it worse than before−even if I did anything−, and then looks down to his phone. “I’m going to the restroom” I say, standing up and running away from this awkward moment.

Soobin joins me on my way to the restroom, walking silently by my side. 

I look up at him asking “What?” I’ve never been really nice to no one since some time ago, but I’m sometimes especially mean to him; the sleeve of Beomgyu, or at least that’s what he looks like.

“Nothing, I’m just… going to the restroom” He says, right before we get there and I enter the girl's restroom, leaving him there alone. 

After I’ve washed my hands, I get out of there, finding him leaning against the wall beside the restrooms. “Now what?”

“Okay, I was lying, I’m sorry” He smiles gently, looking suddenly so cute, I almost feel bad for being so mean. Until he talks once again. “I’d just like to know if everything is okay between you and Beomgyu” I look at him annoyed, rolling my eyes. “He’s been acting weird lately. Sometimes he’s furious, sometimes he’s deadly quiet and… today he looks… sad? I don’t really understand how’s he feeling but he’s acting weird”

“I don’t know, Soobin, he never tells me what’s he feeling”

“Well, I thought you knew, since you’re his-” I interrupt him.

“Whore. Since I’m his whore, I should know, right?”

“His step sister” He answers, making me feel a little embarrassed. But then, I remember he knows even dirtier things about me, things Beomgyu might have told him about both of us since Soobin is his closest friend, and I just can’t feel embarrassed around him anymore.

I sigh. “I still don’t know” He looks at me like he’s scared of the way I’m treating him, and, in fact, I am treating him bad. That’s why I turn around to face him. His soft skin getting a little red as he notices me looking at him. The awkward silence making him scratch the back of his neck. “I think you’re kind and nice,” I say. “And I am sure we would get along well if the only things you say to me weren’t about Beomgyu”

He nods. “Fine, I promise not to talk about him anymore” We get to the chairs of the airport again, and he walks towards his friends while I walk towards Jiwoo.

Our fly is announced through the speakers, and we walk towards the plane, sitting on the places that were assigned to us. When Beomgyu walks through the hall by my side, he barely looks at me, walking towards his place while his friends follow him.  

We hadn’t talked since that night. When they got back home after the dinner, dad knocked up at my door for hours, and I just kept saying I was fine. However, he didn’t go until I open the door for him to see me. He hugged me tightly, and told me I didn’ need to tell him what happened to him, but I could do it if I wanted to. I saw Beomgyu in his Bedroom, looking a little bit worried, but not actually, since he just closed his door when he noticed I was seeing him.

After a few minutes, Jiwoo and Sunoo sit by my side. They weren’t supposed to sit there, but Jiwoo paid to the ones who do were supposed to in order to exchange places. 

“In some hours, we’re going to be in Greece” Jiwoo says. “Oh my god, I’m so excited!”

[purrplegyuu]

I was wondering why Jiwoo loves Beomgyu so much? (It's kinda cute if you disregard everything else 🤭)

As of the recent chapter all I know is that they are step-siblings with terrible parents/stepmother?

Did they know each other before that to justify the behaviours/non-con rvpe?

(lol nothing justifies non-con but ig it would help?)

I was thinking it was a mental dilemma or manipulation/gaslighting ✂️

- 🥝 anonnie 😘

I just wanted to clarify that Jeongseo is Beomgyu’s step sister. Jiwoo is just Jeongseo’s friend.

About your question… I SHOULDN’T SAY THIS BUT…

I think you already told it on your las request—stockholm syndrome. Like, she fell first for his beauty, then, for his dom behaviour, and now, she’s falling because she’s realizing where does his behaviour come from (his mother). You know? I think she liked taking care of soft Beomgyu, and that’ everything she can think about now.

And they didn’t know each other before. When Jeongseo had sex for the first time with Jeongseo, they were already on the same house, but before Jeongseo and his dad moved on, they didn’t know each other. Actually, they met on their parents’ wedding. And right after the wedding, they moved on.

And of course, nothing justifies rape (althought there’s not actually noncon/rape yet) BUT… Beomgyu hates women. But don’t blame him, he thinks every women is like his mother because of how young he was when she started mistreating him. And I actually feel like he thinks Jeongseo is just like Gaeum (his mother), because of any reason. That’s why he discharge his hate on Jeongseo.

Finally, I don’t really know if it is manipulation. I think Beomgyu is just the result of abusive parents who doesn’t know any other feeling than hate. Like, he already heared his mom telling him she loves him and than mistreat him many times, so he’s maybe scared this will happen again, so he’s the one doing it because he thinks it’s easier this way🤧.

My lovie, poor Beommie:( i feel so bad for him.