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#fuuuuuck im kinda scared
thievesway · 9 months
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siveine · 19 days
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i think im so nervous about finishing my contract because i wont know what to do with myself afterwards. like, sure theyve forgotten about me and nearly abandoned me, and im quite literally being used then thrown away, but after i get my discharge papers im going to be without purpose again and i dont know if i can do it a second time
#i dont want to stay in cause fuuuuuck that#if im gonna be a meat shield for corporate interest i might as well go private sector and get paid out the ass for it#but i know im not wanted in those spaces either simply due to being support crew rather than sf or infantry#forced into being a weapon then being expected to be normal#doesnt help that being transgender on top of that means that Nobody wants me around#im scared that im going to be broken and NHP forever even when ive earned my humanity back#i already feel like i never emotionally matured past high school#cause all ive ever known was being property of religious zealots and property of the government#i think i had a two year gap of being a person but otherwise ive just been trying to survive and it shows#at this point the best i can hope for is to distract myself until i keel over from the abuse ive let my body take#which i guess isnt the absolute worst thing ever#like between working with a carcinogen and spilling jp8 on myself and the malnutrition and heavy metal exposure and multiple deaths lol#theres no way im going to be able to grow old#and its going to be painful and slow the whole way down#a part of me wishes that drone turned me into paste#being the lucky survivor is worse i think#im useless and unwanted and that kinda blows?#trying so hard to cling to life but im tired of surviving. i want to live. but im not allowed to#maybe things will improve once my contract expires and i get to have a real name again#i thought these antidepressants were supposed to make me feel better why arent they working
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erraticroses · 1 year
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#i believe#I have a lot of hate in my heart and that makes me feel wrong#because i want to have like this big heart but in the end sometimes i feel like a performer#like im sacrificing more and more of myself for the sake of other ppl mostly out of habit than real genuine kindness.#ppl ask me why do i believe im a bad person and when i name my reason they say what else bc for them it's not bad. it's human to feel#but sometimes i don't feel human i think? it's such a weird thing. I'm not religious but i want to feel holy.#i don't believe in heaven even. i just want to make everyone around me smile and help heal the ppl that need that help but sometimes i just#feel so angry. so blinded by rage. and so scared. but so spiteful.#and i feel so alone? sometimes. i know I'm not. i know ppl card about me#but then i ask why why why why#but I can't voice the full question because maybe someone will read and it will strain their recovery and healing#and at the end kinda makes me feel more resentful? like. im trying to be perfect and kind and to portray this image of a person#that even tho aloof wants to help for the sake of helping and doesn't deal with all the shit and complex feelings of doing so.#but then the ugly feelings build up and i don't feel like i can voice them because what if they read and i make things worse#and i feel so trapped. and so angry. and so monstrous.#i care if im a good person i care if im kind i care if im friendly#i don't feel like any of that. fuck. fuuuuuck.#i feel like a paradox more than a person
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alastair-1205 · 2 months
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EPISODE 20 REACTIONS FUCKING FINALLY I think I hurt my wrist typing all this ngl. Holy fuck this show-
I am very scared :D 
At least they can still kick ass 
Cinder just cannot stop beating up Euphrasia damn
Stick!
OK SO LOOSING POWERS DOES HAVE AN EFFECT ON YOU THEN 
Im not normal about elemental powers 
Oh no Robie don’t get murdered-
He has the right idea tho with the cup thing
Zane is trying his fucking best rn lol 
Arin is not having any of it 
Oh shit yea they don’t know…all of that other stuff yet huh
THEYRE BACK NICE
Wdym captured by them?? Wtf happened to those two
Cinder is going to kill someone I stg 
LMAO respect where it’s due, that was funny
Robie îs only partially getting kidnapped don’t worry
FUCK YEA FRACK THIS IS WHY I LOVE YOU
I love Nook’s voice as well
FUCK YEA JORDY WIN BACK UR BRAIN
Oh that’s not good 
HELL YEA ARIN 
He’s gonna almost die isn’t he
LMAOOOOOOOOO 
Oh ow rip Robie 
Holy shit that’s actually insane 
OH GOD HE FELL ENTIERLY OFF THE EDGE JESUS 
Oh god they’re all fucked up
JORDY!
Hey the car’s back! AND SO IS JORDANA
OH GODDDDD
OH FUUUUUCK 
RAS AND ARIN MAKE ME INSANE THEY’RE BOTH SO COMPLEX HOLY FUCKKKK
At least most of them are out of it
Bro Robie is making friends with some rocks right now 
BADASS FIGHT IS BADASS
“Not from you” DAMN
OH. OH LLOYD KNOWS. HE KNOWS AND HE KNOWS HE CANT FIGHT IT OH GOD IM GONNA CRY 
ROBIES ALIVE 
I FUCKING LOVE HER SO MUCH 
I LOVE HOW HE WASNT EVEN BOTHERED JUST CONFUSED LMAO 
They’re actually adorable. Like I low-key didn’t want her to get a bf but this is so cute good for them 
But uh, y’all kinda have shit to do first-
Zdmn she almost got decapitated 
OH DAMN THIS IS PERSONAL
Bold choices Arin
KAI AND BONZEL 
Nil kinda wish he stayed in super hell longer but it’s ok 
CUZ THAT WAS A FUCKING ENTRANCE 
Oh hes pisssedddddd
They are such a dynamic duo omg that was iconic 
FUCK YEA ROBIE 
GET IT GEO 
LMAO that was personal for Euphrasia. Good for her 
LMAO HES JUST GETTING FUCKING DRAGGED HELP
BOLD CHOICES ARIN I STG 
Oh that scream :(((((
Oh fuuuuuck Arin made his choice 
Group hug :D That Lloyd isn’t in cuz he’s having a moment D:
BONZEL AND COLE :D
I’m just gonna assume he somehow knew she wasn’t dead ig? 
Wu being cryptic as always. We don’t even know if hes dead or not 
LMAO CINDER IN JAIL GET FUCKED
Yay for Sora but she is Not having a good time rn huh
Damn I wonder where Jordy went 
Lloyd and Sora man…..
That is a very good question Sora
THEYRE HOLDING HANDSSSSS
Kai should give this kid a shovel talk. I think it’d be funny 
GEO FRACK AND BONZEL AND FROCHICKY YAY
THEYRE GONNA TRACK DOWN JAY
Damn so they could be literally anywhere. They gotta track down Jay Arin and Pixal. At least Zane might get some time to look now
Dragon lady’s back 
I’m glad she’s not being a dick to him like Egalt would have been lol 
Oooooo Dragon favor 
Oh that’s an interesting thing for him to have 
I like how Arin’s reasonings are worded. Like he clearly still doesn’t exactly like Ras, he just needs him for his own thing. I really like that as opposed to Arin fully believing in what he’s doing cuz Arin just wouldn’t 
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hermanunworthy · 1 year
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!DNDADS S2 EP38 SPOILERS!
i cant believe its already time for another episode. so scared about this one i have no idea whats gonna happen. lets go!
- WHY IS BETH BRITISH
- LITTLE CAESARS I WORK THERE omg me reference in dndads
- THE JOKES IN THE INTRO ARE SO GOOD
- TAYLOR SWIFT A KILLER AT HEART.
- taylor considers scary his close friend awww
- MATT STOP IT W THE BITTERSWEET LINC FACTS ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP W HIS DADS!!! IM SAD
- NORMAL IS A HEELYS KID love that. oh my god just imagine the school mascot just rolling through the halls thats kinda terrifying actually
- I BETTER ACTUALLY SEE BETH IN HEELYS AND FREDDIE IN HIGH HEELS AT THE LIVE SHOW
- im sorry. i just went to the discord to talk about this^ but then saw SUCH A CRAZY SPOILER
- NOOO THE SCARY FACT
- ITS STARTING. MY STOMACH HURTS IM NERVY
- TEAM LOVE WE CAN DO THIS. WE CAN DO THIS (im biting my nails nervously)
- WHY IS MATT ASKING ABOUT THE MARRIAGE RN
- OH FUCK SCARY DOESNT KNOW ABOUT THE MARRIAGE HELPP
- NAT 20??? MY JAW FUCKING DROPPED
- TEAM LOVE LETS FUCKING GOOOOO (im miserable about lincoln and grant)
- oh god sparrow what could u possibly say rn to try to make this better.
- LARK COULDVE KILLED LINC???
- will mentioning batman is making me wonder where hermie is. im insane
- "i dont want a dad!" WAAAAAA 😭
- i KNEW this whole start of the episode would be awkward as hell lmao
- gothcleats....
- HEMRIE AND NICKY!!!! HERMIE AND NICKY!!!!! i actually screamed my bad
- NICKY AS THE LEADER LETS FUCKING GOOOO
- scary applogizing???
- going back to the church of the doodler oh god this is happening
- THE CATBUS!!! THE PUSSYWAGON!!!! YESSS
- anthony w the cat facts so cute
- i cant BELIEVE how far along in the season we are. this is insane. oh my god
- GRANT BROUGHT THE BABY MONITERS :[
- oh the mayor finally has a name now!
- WILLYS IN THERE GODDD
- im so nervous WHATS GONNA HAPPEN
- CAN SOMEONE PLZ DO FANART OF THE STAINED GLASS WINDOW
- STFU WILLY!!!!
- ME WHEN BLUE AND RED SYMBOLISM -deranged yttd fan
- YES FUCKING KILL HIM!!!!
- FOR ONCE. FOR ONCE. NORMAL IS CHOOSING VIOLENCE AND HATE OVER LOVE AND FORGIVENESS. DESERVED.
- CAN WILLY FUCKING PROJECT DAMAGE TO HIM TO OTHER PEOPLE??? THATS FUUUUUCKED MAN
- NO. NO. WILLY DID NOT...... WILLY IS TAYLORS STEPDAD NOW. WTF.
- WILLY IS A STEPDAD NOW. I AM GOING TO THROW UP.
- NOOOOOO I HATE THIS SO BAD THIS IS THE WORSTTTT I HATE WILLY STAMPLER
- im still biting my nails im SO SCARED
- SCARY TRYING TO SCARE WILLY RON STYLE YESSSS
- *HERMIE*S GONNA TRY TO GRAPPLE WILLY????
- NICKY COMPLETELY FUCKING UP THE PLAN LMAOOO
- 10 MINUTES LEFT.... HOW ARE THEY GONNA PULL THROUGH
- 11:11 the teens are gonna pull through!!
- SCARYS IN THE CHAIR OH GOD OH GOD
- THE DOODLER IS FREE. ITS THERE. OH MY LORDY LORD
- THIS IS GONNA BE THE MOST IMPORTANT DICE ROLL OF THE WHOLE SEASON. FUUUUCK
- i have it paused. i swear. to FUCKING god. if its a 1.
- THE DOODLERS GONNA SPEAK OH MY LORD
- YESSSSSSSSS LOVE WINS!!!!!!!
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steaksex · 3 months
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fuckkk if you take too long. could just post a coupled censored or cropped versions of ur pics as a warning
get you to write Whatever i want on your body and send pics, making you follow my every demand bc i could just expose you at any time
i could jus follow you for an entire day and occasionally send pics and watch you panic and look around but never notice me
record audios I force you to send of you begging and threaten to send it to people who know you so they can see how much of a desperate slut you are, fuck I could break in when you're sleeping and take pics of tits and hole, maybe pinch and finger you a little but not enough to wake up, take videos and send them to you after I leave, show you just how easily i can get to you and ruin your life and make you follow my every whim
Fuuuuuck fuck that would be so hot itd be so hot seeinf myself posted somewhere else as a threat, have to come back to you begging and pleading and saying sorry and that id do anything... goddddd it would be so good. Screenshots of you about to post those pictures to other social medias as a threat too... hgooghh...
Id have to write what you wanted. Could even be personal info, my real phone number or my legal name or my address and walk around with that written on me. And now youve got pictures of my tits and my name, all with a face attached. Now i definitely cant disobey you, imagine what kinda shit thatd do to me? God and knowing that you know where i am, you know where i live and what i do. Know the places i frequent. Picture of me sitting in the tea shop i like, of me riding my bike down to a store.. watvhing me freak out and remember just how close i am to danger... goddd itd be so hot. Demanding i send a picture and telling me to do it now, watching from afar as i look around before pulling my pants down enough to snap a picture before pulling tjem up... and of course, that makes me some sorta pervert for taking my pants off in public and ypive got proof of that now too.
Please god make me record audio saying whatever you want. Itd be easy, show me that you have it saved and i already know what that means. Find an old acquaintance i dont talk to much anymore and send it to them just to show you srent fucking around. Make me admit to liking it, that if youre hearing this then im the one getting off on it, that im literally asking for it. Absolve yourself of any blame. Tell me to go to sleep without underwear just because you know ill do it, touch me in the middle of the night and by then im too scared to try to talk back to you. Fuuuck god youre gonna ruin my life im not gonna be able to do anything but jerk off thinking about this. Fuuuuuuuck
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hyperfixationspam · 11 months
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s2 finale liveblog
good morning sluts i am so fucking scared
hes in his meditation era
"idk a wave or something" babygirl i love you
OH THE DADDY ISSUES
STOP SAYING SIMPLE
SSHSHSKSHDJS POOR BABYGIRL HE WANTS TO BE ADOPTED SO BAD
SWEETHEART WHAT ARE YOU DOING
IS HE BEING MUTINIED FROM FISHING 😭😭😭
YEAH THEY ARE DICKS TELL EM BB
ZHENG IS FINE SHES IN THE TRAILER FUCK YOU
"britain never shall be slaves" 🫤 interesting choice of words
PETES POOR BALD HEAD 😭
JACKIE LOOKS SO SAD 😭😭
RICKY YOU BITCH MY ENEMY FUCK YOU
YOUR NOSE?? YOU FREAK
EWW YOU BITCH I HATE YOU
ZHENG!!!!!
OH GOD SHES HAVING FLASHBACKS
OH THIS IS WHERE THAT SCENE IS FROM
AUNTIE CANT BE DEAD NOO 😭😭😭
ZHENG BB GET UP PLS
STEDE!!!!
"or is it?" loser i love you
ZHENG HELL YEAH!!!!!
her fixing her pigtails 😭 shes so cute
ED POOR SWEETIE
OH. OK.
hes already added a third daddy to have issues about what an icon
YEAHHHHHHHH LETS FUCKIN GOOOOOO
SHUT UP RICKY FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
lmaooo izzy coming into "well actually 🤓☝️"
PINOCCHIO 😭😭 WE LOVE A CALLBACK
IZZY STOP WITH THE CANDLES
"the brains of this operation" 🤮🤮🤮 U RACIST BITCH
IZZY LORE???
HEY JACKIE. WHATS THAT. JACKIE
THE SOLDIERS READING THE LETTER NO NO NO NO
SOOOOOOOBS
ED READING THE ROMANTIC LETTER WHILE MURDERING THESE BITCHES 😭😭 I LOVE YOU
GNOSSIENE REMIX???
"WE WROTE OUR NAMES ON EACH OTHER" SHUT UPPPPPP
SWEET BABY
"you wrote me a lovely letter!!! 😡" why is he mad now shskdhskd
stede practically tripping over his own feet is so funny
NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME FOR OUR BEAUTIFUL ROMANTIC HERO TO STEP IN
YEAHHHHH
THE MUSICAL CALLBACK 😭😭😭😭
OH MY GOD ITS JUST LIKE HIS DREAM THIS IS SO FUNNY AND HEARTBREAKING AND STUPID AND LIFE SHATTERING
zheng being like "ok we need to hurry this up so you bitches can be gay" queen
THE LONG AWAITED FIGHTING TOWARDS EACH OTHER SCENE!!!!!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAA
SWEETHEARTS 💕💕💕💕💕
KISSY!!!!!!!
"lifes a dick" real 😭
KISSY!!!!! THATS KISSY NUMBER FIVE NUMBER SIX IF YOU COUNT THE SECRET ONE
HE SAID IT!!!!!! HE SAID IT!!!!!!
bro hit him with the star wars reference 🫤
ZHENG 😭😭
wait has ed not met zheng??? i completely forgot
"shes super tough" "GUYSSSSS FUUUUUUUCK" i love her so much she is everything to me
"FOR LOOOOOVE" HAHAHAHA
"we need someone to pee on the shirt" hey im sorry what did i just walk into
AUNTIE!!!!!!!
"ive got plenty of blood" yeah i can see that
LMAOO THEM JUST CHILLING NEXT TO THE BODIES OF THE DEAD SOLDIERS
"oh you saw the flip ☺️" lmaooo
"i caught it 🥰" cuteeee
BABE!!!!!
"men have cost her too much" lore??? also me too bitch the fuck
"ur not a man" oh transgender? "ur soft" 🫤
"you dont do soft?? 😫" olu baby ily
izzy im scared for u pls stop taunting him
"because....." we're gay? "we're good" ok that works too
"you are a rancid syphilitic cunt 💅" iconic
"ooh theres a lot of them 🫤" stede saw his bf and forgot about strategy
OH SHIT SHE DID POISON THEM. WAIT FUCK WHO ELSE IS POISONED.
"is that us doing that" STEDE YOU DUMBASS 😭😭😭😭
wait theyre poison trained??? wtf 😭
"no!!!!! let me kill him 🥰" beautiful
bruh olu having to remind her to be nice 😭
"i am. proud. of you. 😐" so genuine 💞
ZHENG MY SWEETHEART MY SWEET GIRL
ASS SHOT?????? HELLO?????????
ok ur taking the outfits but who took the underwear too 😭😭
zheng lookin kinda 🥵🥵🥵
how are they all rocking this its a navy uniform its not supposed to look good
is frenchie wearing eyeliner hell yeah
ok yeah why did you trust ricky with that
DID. DID IZZY JUST GET SHOT. HELLO
why did olu grab that guy so intimately it looked like he was about to kiss him 😭
JIM IS JIM OK
OH GOD IZZYS ABOUT TO DIE ISNT HE. HES ABOUT TO BE WUZZY
OK AT LEAST JIM SEEMS FINE
OLU I LOVE YOU SILLY BOY
AUNTIE??????? NO NO NO
WHY IS LUCIUS RUNNING SO GAYLY 😭😭😭
izzys makeup he looks so close to death oh god
"SIT WITH ME EDDIE" FUUUUUUCK
"IM SORRY" GOD FINALLY
GOD HES FINALLY ACKNOWLEDGING IT. I CAN DIE IN PEACE. HOPEFULLY IZZY CAN TOO I GUESS
"it was us" FUCK FUXK FUCK FUXK FUCK FUUUUUCK
"i wanna go" OH MY GODDDDD
"youre my only family" "oh fuck off you twat" yeah thats the proper response 😭
"JUST BE ED" FUCKU FUXK FUCK FUXK
OH MY GOD. THE "THERE HE IS" PARALLEL. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD.
OH MY FUCKING GOD HE FUCKIN DEAD
congratulations to con o neill for doing the most convincing dead eyes ive ever seen thats a bit terrifying
STEDE PLEEEEASE GO GET YOUR MAN DONT JUST STAND THERE
OH THEYRE BURYING HIM HES LIKE DEAD DEAD NO RISING FROM THE GRAVE FOR HIM
ROACH GIVING THE MIDDLE FINGER SHSKDHSKF
"he was a fucking nightmare what a guy" spitting straight facts
"i think wed be good together. kick a lotta ass" hell yeah wlw mlm solidarity
oh shit rickys still alive i forgot 😭
"shes said enough" HAHAHAHAHA
WEDDING WEDDING WEDDING WEDING YES YES YES YES
fang are u ok
ED........ THOSE EYES........
MATEYS!!!!!!!!!!
ok fang is not ok pls get this boy some therapy
"or kiss or something" 😭
CUTIES!!!!!!!! HUSBANDS!!!!!! MATEYS!!!!!!! CUTIES!!!!!!!!!
NINA SIMONE HELL YEA
WAIT IS FRENCHIE FIRST MATE FOR REAL NOW
OH SHIT JACKIES HERE TOO. FOUND FAMILY UNION!!!!
sugarballs????? 😭😭😭
WAIT ED AND STEDE STAYED BEHIND OH FUCK
INNKEEPERS!!!!!!!
OH MY GODDDDDDD
BUTTONS??????
frenchie skinny legend
wait who pissed on the towel
WHAT ARE THEY GONNA DO FOR S3 IF THEYRE BEHIND THO. LIKE IM HAPPY FOR THEM BUT WHAT ABOUT S3
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yennciri · 1 year
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Yeah and she's good friends with Egonu too :), she's joining Roma. Plak withdrew from the national team for a while because she had mental health issues, I'm glad that she's doing better and having a great tournament so far. The Dutchies surely love the Italian league haha, De Kruijf still plays at Imoco and Buijs and Daalderop are also returning to the league. How is team Italy doing btw? I hope they are doing well, but I'm kinda scared of another possible 🇳🇱 - 🇮🇹 haha 😅.
awwww im so happy for plak and fuuuuuck i just saw daalderop will play for vero volleyyyy, that's definitely the team to watch when the season starts, they got egonu too! italy is doing good despite the questionable choices made by our clown coach, but all the teams were kinda easy to beat... don't worry the only possible way for them to meet is the final... and we have turkey in the way and you have serbia so good luck to all of us 😂
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kageyuji · 4 years
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I also looked over who my first 3 anime husbands were and holy shit Corey (keep in mind when I first watched yugioh I was 4) what the absolute FUCK WAS I THINKING?? cue me ranting for a good 5 minutes
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FIRST WE GOT THIS EGOTISTICAL BASTARD (who will only do shit for his little brother cause that’s his only family left 🥺👀) WHO HAS A WHOLE ASS COMPANY TO RUN BUT HIS MAIN FOCUS IS TO BEAT YUGI CAUSE YUGI WAS PRETTY MUCH HIS ONLY LOSS AT THIS STUPID CHILDREN’S CARD GAME
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Then we have a real f r e a k right here like what the actual f u c k?? I was four and (INSTEAD OF BEING A NORMAL FOUR YEAR OLD AND BEING SCARED OF THIS MAN) said “Yeah, this crazy bitch? He’s the one 😍” WHAT THE FUUUUUCK HE ACTUALLY STABBED HIS DAD (as seen on tv) AND SENT OTHER BITCHES TO A SHADOW REALM (or hell if you wanna be fancy with it idk) WHABSHEBS (he does have a long tongue though 👀)
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OKay so this dude is also crazy but like... saner than husband #2 right there I promise 😭 ALSO HE’S BRITISH IM SORRY IM KINDA WEAK FOR THOSE MEN LOWKEY AKSNSJ but like, this dude is kinda possessing someone atm and will be doing so randomly for the entire 5 seasons of this anime uhhhhh HIS OTHER HALF IS SO CUTE PLEASE HE DOESN’T DESERVE THIS AKSNDJJ
PLEABZHXBC my first toddler childhood crush was diego <///3 then it was a twink from some dinosaur show idk.
NO OK AND MY THIRD WAS L FROM DEATH NOTE. I LOOKED AT HIM AND SAID “yeah he’s hot” FOR ABSOLUTELY NO REASON
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