#i dont want to stay in cause fuuuuuck that

[siveine]

i think im so nervous about finishing my contract because i wont know what to do with myself afterwards. like, sure theyve forgotten about me and nearly abandoned me, and im quite literally being used then thrown away, but after i get my discharge papers im going to be without purpose again and i dont know if i can do it a second time

[vesicapiscean]

basically yesterday i couldnt enjoy myself because i was having intense anxiety about being on the lake/being in a boat with my dog (he's like 12) cause he kept trying to jump in, there were no shores in the lake and it was hot as fuck and he was hyperventilating and he's BIG (75lbs) kept scratching everyone up trying to get in their laps and he was shaking trembling with anxiety. it i myself and terrified of deep and unclear waters. i even get scared in deep swimming pools sometimes. so i didn't want to get in. and everyone else was getting in. and i was crying because i was scared my dog was going to get hurt or drown or break his leg trying to get on and off the boat (again there were no shores we were just in the middle of the damn lake) and i was crying because i felt like i was ruining everyone's day. and then i was crying because the anxiety about both things just wouldn't stop and it was like another 30 min boat ride back to land. everyone was like see it's fine you don't have to be so scared and you can trust us. bitch... that's not how this works. and all i got for it was this stupid tan.

like its not so bad when it's a 10 min ride on a boat and we stop on a shore and kick it. then it's optional if you want to go out wake boarding or whatever. but there was no option this time i had to stay on the scary fast dangerous boat. didn't get in the water once although i floated lazily on a raft for a few minutes when we stopped. sorry i dont want my elderly dog dying in the middle of a lake and would rather take precaution. shouldnt have even brought him but everyone's like "we take our dogs all the time it's fine!!!" fuuuuuck makes me feel like a loser. makes me feel emo like no one understands me.

all i could think was him getting sucked under the boat and getting hurt in the motor and drowning. or like a scene from the ring with the horse on the boat. cant even have his head out the window while driving without picturing him getting hereditary'd. many dangers in this work and im scared of all of them.

[archer3-13]

Honestly I think the issue is more so that kishimoto wanted to have it both ways, where bloodline powers were cursed dangerous things whos users are feared and specifically targeted but also as the vehicle for cool ninja super power flippy shit. You can see that most keenly with the sharigan, where presentation and text go far out of its way to imply or allude to cursed blood, evil power, and general insanity, to the detriment of the characterization of the uchiha i would add, but the powers themselves involve.... mecha skeletons and dimension hoping. because kishi wants those godzilla fights damnit, and how else is sasuke going to compete with naruto in a godzilla fight other then by getting a giant tengu mecha skeleton.

by comparison in dragon ball, the issue of escalation comes down to formula in many ways that gets established in the demon king piccolo arc and codified during planet namek the height of dbs popularity and whos shadow db has never escaped. gokus the hero guy who shows up to solve all the problems at the last minute. either because hes injured and needs to recover or because hes stuck in traffic a jobber usually a villain or ally from a previous arc gets their ass kicked to establish how dangerous the new foe is when the fight begins the sidekicks have to struggle to stay alive in the face of overwhelming odds, they get one over the villain the villain reveals hidden depths of power turning the fight back in their favour a secondary character arrives with new depths of hidden power to breifly turn the tide of the fight back in the heroes favour the villain reveals yet more hidden depths of power to turn the fight back into their own favour invalidating the secondary characters new hidden power. add optional vegeta betrays everyones trust moment here another secondary character shows up with their own hidden depths of power to turn the fight back to the heroes favour the villain reveals yet more hidden depths of power to turn things back to his favour and finally goku shows up to save the day goku and the villain have a weirdly unintentionally sexually charged stand off as they test their powers as capable equals uhoh. either due to trickery or because gokus own strength/stamina is not as great as it first seemed usually because the villain has yet more depths of hidden power goku begins losing one of the secondary characters has to delay the villain so goku can gather energy for a big special super attack to save the day. one or more character often gives their energy to the secondary character to make them just strong enough to delay the villain the big special attack either works, or the big special attack fails and they freestyle their way into a conclusion

there, you can now write a dragon ball climax. and that formula ensures that characters are only as relevant as their latest power up which could literally come from anywhere or anything cause toriyama dont give a flying fuuuuuck, which when combined with toriyamas tendency to either ignore or outright forget characters and his preference for the easy way out, leads to so many characters falling off.

It's not that I think treatises on the bloodline limits-as-oppressed reading in Nart are wrong (I've read some great ones!) but I feel like Nart's identity as a shonen manga is so fundamental that regardless of the characters saying people with bloodline limits are oppressed the actual subtext of the series is that bloodline limits are cool as shit and you're garbage if you don't have one.

It doesn't help that as the series went on the line between bloodline limits and family traits became deliberately blurred. The Uzumaki chakra, for example--Naruto himself may not have a bloodline limit, but the natural Uzumaki chakra is so critical to his power level and why he's special enough to be protagonist that there's no practical difference.

The whole Ashura and Indra thing only highlighted this even more. What's important isn't how hard you worked, but what special abilities you were born with. Bloodlines and their special powers are the foundation of how important certain characters are.

There are reams to be said about how Sakura fell off in relevancy even as the narrative textually tried to talk her up. I'd argue that her lack of a bloodline ability was a not-inconsiderable part of why she was sidelined. It says a lot that the fandom frequently tries to fix her plot in fic by giving her the Mokuton--a rare bloodline ability. Naruto's narrative is so built around the power of special blood that it feels wrong that Sakura doesn't have one, like a mistake.

(This post brought to you by a Piccolo fan intimately familiar with the circumstances of the narrative no longer having a place in combat for people without a Certain Special Bloodline.)

[aconstantallegory]

only just now do i realize i crank that avoidant attachment style up to 'oh... oh no......' levels what the...

[danvers-alexdanvers]

Ooook.... sooo... I was out with friends and when I was coming back home (when we said our final goodnights with each other and I took the road alone) this dude stopped me and felt obligated to take me home cause "It‘s not safe going back home alone at night"! (Oh thanks asshole you are right its not safe cause of fuckers like you) So I tried to explain to him in a nice way that it was fine and that he could go back to his friends and his alcohol. He kept trying and pushing and asking why I was so hard with him (how about the fact I dont know you and dont wanna know you creep?) So I started speaking louder and I told him that I if he wanted this to end well for him he would turn back and leave. He mocked me and said I was overreacting...Good thing is that my friends were still close and saw the whole think so they stayed away looked towards us. So I explain to him that these were my friends and he should leave. He laughed and asked if my friends were stalking me. I had literally my phone on my hand ready to call the police and I told him but he still didnt stop asking me to let him take me home or just have a drink with him. So I just.... "You have three things down there and I have none... You are incapable to understand how that feel for me and the next time a girl calls you a creep...." and there I was cut.... two amazing girls had seen the whole thing and had walked to me asking me if I needed help... My friends reached us seconds later.... So I walked away with this AMAZING SQUAD probably looking more calm than I was my friends talking to me and the girls were gone before I even have the time to understand what happen and say thank you cause I was still... feeling incredibly tensed... like I was speaking fast and loud and all but I was in a shock and I didnt even realized when the girls left...And I really need to tell them how grateful I am to them and how amazing people they are but..... fuuuuuck.... If in any chance any if these two girls see this... REALLY THANK YOU.

Btw GREECE 2017

[cold-iron-burns]

We've come to a consensus.

Everyone present at the time of this writing will do their best to inform the ones who need the support of a gentle delivery of current events.

The ayes have it.

YOU WOULD HAVE A PARLIAMENT AS YOUR COMMUNICATION SPACE

what's wrong with that? if we all actually do our jobs, so many more of us will be represented

THATS A LOGICAL ARGUEMENT, BUT WHO IS REALLY GETTING REPRESENTED

-wait WhAt?! HoW mAnY oF yOu ArE tHeRe

Oh honey, more than you will ever know. It's gonna be okay. We found each other and that's what's important. We're gonna start introducing ourselves,

*or at least, becoming more clear*

I love all of you so much, thank you so much for letting me in, for being patient with me. I think I'm the host? what iss. @ -o{oo#t?

started dissociating, it felt physically painful. the documenter.

And the enchanting lady is? *turns to tip his hat and wink at the camera* A -name-? Do you honestly think I could have settled on any name? Any singular--yes, Zed is going to sleep. I'm very fond of him. Attracted to him? He is my Adonis. Every inch of his body is particularly unique to his position in spacetime. There will never again be a Zed in which he appears, feels, smells and tastes exactly the same as he does at this exact moment, continued, forever and so on, as far as you know, infinitely. The Philosopher.

Wait, no, the Philanthropist

Wait wait NO, I stand by The Philosopher (for now)

[hold up, are y'all tellin me -- you c'n cawl me your White Trash Sweetheart, get rid of that bracket there, that's for the Host now

she doesnt know if she's the host or not, wibblywoooooo~ teen punk brat? aww man, fuck you you stupid piece of shit

hiiii yeah hi, I'm post-apocalypse punk Mayor (yes, you can call me that, but its aspirational) wow very humble -- golf commentater (now based on ugh this is important remember the actress' name, you look stupid, don't just stand there staring off into space, GET BACK TO WORK

OH YEAH, hi BiTcH --oh he's gone, that's -too- bad. well, as I'm here anyway, we should get to know one another. I'm "sassy black woman" because you're ashamed people will think you're using me just for drama and that's pretty fuckin racist--

I'm Final Form Chie. I started as so many of our seeds do, a poor slave girl, who loses her virginity yeah it's okay to make shortcuts

FOCUS

she gains skills, proves useful to the master, destroys the master (sometimes with kindness sometimes literally depending on what we need at the time)

[I didn't know it was that specific]

I'm mixed, actually, but I'm inspired SO MUCH by Claws. FUCKING REPRESENTATION FINAL--

>nope nope nope, shut it down<

John Cleese?

not exactly. A bit like the entire cast of monty python rolled into one. I'm from the countryside, but I can't say for sure where

woooooo we almost lost her there. she was panicking about losing this productive high, but she pulled through and FOUND THAT RUBI. Small Town Beauty Queen. I don't find it insulting if it helps you remember me. I started as Fern of Charlotte's Web. I keep that mournful lullaby for you. It really changed your path, dear heart. I don't become Miss America or anything, I'm too old by that time. But I love my family so much. You have so much anger

Yes, that's right, Dearie. Maiden, Mother, Crone. We don't think it was intentional but we like the power we have when we cooperate. Yes, we guide ... oh honey, don't cry, it's gonna be okay. no, n-n-no, no, you don't h-h-have to oh no, I really don't want to be here, I wasn't sure what to wear before, oh, I've gotten comfortable and I'm stuttering less. No, I don't think people who stutter in real life have this drastic of

oh, oh my. oh no, I'm still Achates.

Does it really surprise you? Chie and Amaury loved me so much that they couldn't bear to part entirely. They feel loyal to answer when you call on them when recalled in memories; they consider it their duty to fight in sharing our stories! With Pictures!

I don't need pictures

Don't you? you need to sleep, you're exhausted and you have an appointment tomorrow. Please go the fuck to bed. Slightly Extra (okay kinda actually just really ~(EXTRA)~

okay how do I... Ah, I got it. I'm the lucky early gen x mom you both wish you had -- no, we are not combined, sugar tits.

I'm the hardass 70s-80s mom you would have had if you're life was a movie. Well, technically I can mask as any kind of 70s-80s media mom (one of y'all--us! oh, yes, i hear you. I want you to know I would protect you, Kevin. MOM UGH

keep going - the sprites (soot or rainbow, we shift to suit your needs. we might steal your shoes. we are only some of the fae court. crossover unknown cannot compute - PLEASE HURRY. GOOD. I AM THE ROBOT OF THE 80s and --scratch that record

I'm that part of you who knew she couldn't look like Zach Morris and wanted so badly just to be a little boy. You were SO CONNECTED with the host when I was there?

wait, I'm the host

no, you--you are now because writing takes concentrating which you are losing quickly. Hello! I'm Sassy Progressive Upper Class CONCENTRATE, DAMMIT. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. I don't care if I sound like -your-mom. Someone has to be the mom around here!

Someone has to be the mom around here.

Who wrote it?

you are high af.

keep letting your eyes go out of focus, yes you're getting sleepy, think how nice the bed will feel on that aching body. She deserves some rest, the old girl.

My body is a cow? wait, there's more. she shifts to being omniscient for scenes, if a cowsona (oh, yes, Buana and Gaushala and Pirwa ... Gaushala still has an arrow in the heart.

Yes, WoW Chie (Chiela will do.). I was here while you built your confidence to try... yes, dear, you really should sleep. TO TRY GETTING CATRIN AND RIAIN A HOME AFTER being abandoned when some of you lost the "spark" or whatever with Michael. I orchestrated some of the setup. you don't need to know my name. I'm both Italian immigrant/WHOA DO NOT EVEN CONNECT THE JEWISH COMMUNITY TO--NO, We Dont...*clears throat, drinks water*. No, you're not wealthy like Ms. Maisel, -we-, sorry, sometimes I have to pretend. Speaking of pretending, no, kid, I'm not as funny or talented as all the wonderful Jewish actresses (yeah yeah, Italian-American you, whatever his+her names are, we'll get to you later)

oh nooooo they're not sure if they'll fit the stereotype if they get loud but they wanna

yeah, sure kid, we sound a lot alike. we exist in a liminal space in which America (and new york city) (and every big american metropolis)... we can all celebrate our differences

It's alright, you just need to focus. I'm 90s Successful Well Paying Professional (I can be in the late 80s WA>T)

you're just stating tropes you stupid bitch

whale!

MISS PIGGY

LOOK AT HER FAT FINGERS

remember when you -hold on- hold on for me, my love lovely?

~do you wanna be my lover, gotta get wit my friends, make it last forever cause that's the way it is"

some of us havent learned to swype yet, fuuuuuck. you're popular--but not top tier popular 4th grade 4H champion with all the ribbons. you'll grow up (yes it's hard, i want to be a teacher one day. I'm based on Angie. I'm the imaginary life you might have led if your family wasn't so difficult. We should give them credit, everyone's trying their best. Oh, I can take on mom duties when I need, we also have kids in our future. We live in Lagrange (my husband and I, at this point in the line) but we don't make as much as our parents yet, though. Yet. Yes, I know what it feels like to feel content but maybe have some (or a lot of) wanderlust in life. I'm ten or so years older than you, so while our dedication to staying in Lorain County is important to the values we wish to impart on our children (yes we are Christian. We love Sharon with all our heart and we're so glad (there's a small congregation of us, maybe enough to fill a quiet one room cottage on Sunday, God willing. I'm inspired by the Amish women I see selling their wares and replicate "Amish" methods when making food for my family (I'm good friends with The Baker. We watch Steven Universe with you! We're so excited for the movie and hope we get to talk to you about it! I showed it to Chip and Carol, well I keep talking with them about it and they agreed to get around to watching it with me. I want to be a good ally. I'm, you know, only a little bi. I know that's probably inappropriate--oh- okay, oh, my, oh WOW are my hormones nuts. I'm pretty enough but nerdy enough that I'm kinda in a weird middle tier of popularity. Haha, oh, that's funny. I'm part Sunday (we miss her! some of us are so jealous of her we want to claw her comfortable boomer life from her hands.

That's awful. Shame on you. Suffering is relative.

SHE HASN'T EVEN SUFFERED A FRACTION OF WHAT I SUFFERED

Oh yes. You are the raw emotion of what the Host(?) feels when listening to Jekyll & Hyde, but only the certain version claws at our hearts

We salute the departed Host.

I miss her. Many of us do. But she crumbled under the pressure of knowing too much. She remembered too much before she was ready.

Parliament: We [redacted for time] ...salute her memory. She fought well, carried her armor, was ready to take on anything and change the world, even if in a small way.

She's Not Dead.

sprites: {hushed whispers to avoid being heard by parliament} {WAIT, NO, WE ARE NOT THE HOUSE OF COMMONS}

there's a lot of you when you get mad.

@@@@@@ Angie no, please don't put me to bed. I'm gonna be a computer genius - I mean, maybe not genius and did you know colleges could pay you to get a Bachelor's degree, it's called "scholarships", I mean, this changes -everything-!

I love you, Cameron. I came first, but you gave me a perfect form. I help the others feel calm. Community is punk, but is corporate entanglement the final destination-- hey, wait a minute, I'm not done talking!

whoa bitch. I mean, we have to mention joe. want to be him, want to fuck him, His story, too, is tangible to me. maybe we're a package deal now, ha! I'll try to remember the good times more than the bad, for the health of all of us.

SO SAY WE ALL

wait, what the fuck are you trying to say

hey, it's cool, it's cool.

nah it aint cool

STOP IT STOP FIGHTING

let's think about date sugar

Ah. That was a good distraction. but we really must be off to bed.

is this productive?

Love, it's okay to be sad about losing the real Ben. \It's okay to have any kind of feeling at all.

Ladies and gents and nonbinaries and everyone else, please at least get up into the bed to think about flickin the bean. More like taking a bush-hog to a lil baby bean sprout, but whatever. let the rest of us lie down.

night y'all!

:)