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YALL I JUST GOT MY FIRST HATE COMMENT LETS GOOOOO
I'd you are aroace + any other sexuality (aroace lesbian for me) unfortunately you are not allowed to exist bc one random person on the internet said so, sorry people turn in your sexuality permits
I would like to thank the people who have followed me, allowing this person to find me. The Deadpool and Wolverine movie bc that's what the post was abt. My own sexuality. And the invalidating, bi-phobic, racist, man hating, ass that gave me a good chuckle when I woke up and then promptly gave me the experience of euphoric bliss blocking them <3
#have a wonderful day everyone#fun to wake up to if im honest#ive never been told im not allowed to exist first thing in the morning lmaooo#i will not be revealing the account as im not an ass like this person#but like how can you be biphopbic and racist and man hating on TUMBLR#of all places#MOVING ON#love yall ur great have an amazing day today#aro#aromantic#demiromantic#ace#asexual#asexuality#lesbian#hate comments#hater#bi-phobia#idk of thats a tw or cw but im putting it here just in case#cw racism mention#tw homophobia#aroace#aromatic asexual
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iâve talked about tame toys (dildos, plugs, straps, collars / leashes) but what if i said anal hooks⌠is that too much? pls lmk in asks⌠btw im gna queue this for when iâll probably be asleep bcs im shy
#âĄ.gabi barks#âĄ.queue attack my heart#ok ill be honest guys i had to use my siri to spell#umm how do u spell it#queue#yeah that word#whatever idk how to spell it im a BIMBO that is my Brand!#anyway#i was gna try to post smth but my twinbae⌠had me fucked up!!!!!#im still thinking about perv roomies leehan n jake⌠yum đ˝ď¸#aghhh it was so fun exchanging ideas T_T hope we talk 4ever!!!!!!#its sooo nice just rambling without having to properly word anything!!! idk#ok bye love u all ill check my inbox whenever i wake up or when im free idk
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lays down.
i've been kinda gaming (while also was sick... am better now!!) alan wake series.... all i can say about the series is-
1) mr wake is a loser, and 2) i love saga with all of my heart!!!!
#dorkous ramblings#yes i beat that 2010 graphics of the first game that was so painful HDJSGJHDG#all i can think is 'i kinda want to draw fucked up shit inspired by it for another series im also into atm'#im slowly playing alan wake 2 and its v fun especially if u beat Control!!#i will be honest this is probably one of the few games that uses realism for art#like yes its realistic but hey! art within a video game format!!!#very very cool!!!#anyway now imma be a lil sapphic reblogging stuff now that im baccck#AND DRAW MORE MORTUJULITA!!!!#i already had a wip where anita is gaming AW2 game with jules theorizing and mortum just watching with interest sO
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good morningggggg i slept like shit :)
#up and down up and down. god im gonna need a nap or 6 monsters today đđ#last night was fun and ok. i wish we couldve been out longer but our one friend is very sleepy all the time and Especially after#a drop of alcohol so we were hope by like 11. which was weird. being so tired so early on a SATURDAY.#anyway friends bday party today. trying to figure out my schedule bc idk if i wanna go back home tonight or wake up hella early#tmrw. i dont really wanna do Either if im honest but i need groceries and to do laundry Bad đđ#talk tag
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hm.
#agnirambles#bit of a Rant haha#this makes no sense out of context like why are you still here lol#okay look i'm sorry. i'm really sorry. i don't know what i did and i don't know and i'm sorry#i'm sorry for not knowing how to fix things or how to move on. i'm sorry that i couldn't be better for you#and i'm sorry for not. being good.#i'm sorry that you found out that i actually suck as a human being. i'm sorry that you learned that i'm terrible and just. i'm sorry#you don't deserve me and maybe staying away from me is best for you. it's always good if you're away from me. because i am terrible#and sticking close to me means you will get hurt by all the stupid things that i do. i only hurt people#and i'm sorry#but. i want to know. what did you think of me when you cut me out#i just want to know. i just want to know but it's not right of me to know because i don't have the right to know#but it's not the fact knowing you hate me now. it's not that you moved away from me#it's the silence of not knowing. it's the gap. it feels like nothing. it's been eating me up for months. my brain is convinced we were-#-having so much fun just yesterday. but i wake up and im just staring at the scorch marks i left in the ground. the marks that drove you aw#im sorry i ever did anything to hurt you. i didnt mean to#i honest to god never meant to hurt you. i dont even know what i did#i never know what i did. because thats how horrible i am yk? cant even figure what i did. pathetic#i never manage to let good things last i always ruins things one way or another and im sorry you ever knew me maybe you would have lived li#more peacefully without me#but its okay#you dont know im saying these things#i feel too much with a heart that doesnt know what to do with itself i just wish it didnt know how to feel why do i always feel#just. im so sorry. whether you see this or not is meaningless. youve cut me out completely (good). but i hope you are doing okay#i hope you're doing well. i hope you're living life well. because even if im paying the price for whatever i did. knowing that you're okay#means much more to me.#bye friend. im glad you're doing okay#hopefully now we can put it behind us. we can live on our own now#(but im sorry that you ever learned of me)#(im sorry you thought we could be friends)
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ŕ¨á° sypnosis. beach day w the main four ! â going to the beach with them.
disclaimers. light swearing, suggestive content.
notes. ugh just got swarmed with tons of homework :( + two upcoming ken fics !
eric cartman.
literally like a guard dog.
everytime he sees someone staring at you for two seconds too long he takes it into account, and attacks them with insults. because as he puts it, the view is only for his eyes.
is drooling all over you but hides it, stares holes into the back of your head, and other places.
besides that he treats you as usual, but with his own kind of attentionâsuch as calling you pretty, his queen. etc. [ im sorry i cant help but make cartman a mix of a bastard and simp ]
asked you to put sunscreen on him, mostly just chills on the beach instead of actually swimming.
sort of follows around everywhere you go when hes not sitting down.
falls asleep while hes laying on the beach chair and and gets a sunburn, is crying to you the next day how much it burns.
screams when he sees his skin peels.
back to the actual beach part, he always holds your hand, even when laying down, as long as your beside or near him at least.
is mean to almost everyone there, especially if their âin his way.â
kenny mccormick.
is all over you, never lets you get even a breath of space.
opposite of cartman, and actually begs you to swim with him.
lets be honest, hes putting his face in your chest, no matter how small or big they are, he just loves emâ
doesnât even mind when other people are looking at you, he loves showing you off because he loves showing other people what they canât get.
swipes drinks off the bar when other people arenât looking.
if someone flirts with you or him, he makes it very clear that he is not interested, and if your the one being flirted with he is standing right behind you.
although, if your not able enough to stand up for that, heâll gladly deal with it for you.
he loves swimming but if you offer to lay down with him, heâll pass on swimming, just the feeling of being with you is much more of a rewarding feeling then feeling the hot sunlight on him and cold waters.
brings a bunch of convenience store snacks so you donât have to buy any of the ones they serve there.
calls you his belladonna
kyle broflovski.
brings tons of things, a canopy, chairs, snacks, sunscreen, etc.
insists on putting on sunscreen, puts it on you aswell : ]
even if he is a pretty pale guy.
carries you almost everywhere, he treats you especially special because he doesnât want you to lift a finger or worry your pretty little head.
is in between, hes fine with swimming and chilling, its up to you.
a bit off topic but he loves when you call him pretty boy, it can get him to do anything, just something i wanted to point out.
if you just so happen to praise him for being so helpful, or taking cafe of you the entire day, he acts as if its not that big of a deal. As humbly as possible.
swimming with him is fun because i feel hes a bit competitive with it. he tries to swim all super far away.
remember that episode where the waterpark floods with pee? yeah, thats what terrifies him.
that takes him a while to get in the water.
stan marsh.
frankly; was not his idea to go to the beach, but once he goes heâs running straight to the water.
the type to hold his breath under water just because.
probably falls asleep when he does lay down after all the running and swimming, or shoves food down his throat.
after his nap wakes up with sand in his mouth and freaks the fuck out.
doesnât even try to hide it, he straight up swipes drinks off the bar and if someone mentions anythingâhe doesnât even spare them a glance.
brings one of the digital cameras and takes photos of you two.
got chased by a dog.
forgets that sunscreen exists and gets sunburned terribly.
as soon as he gets home he tapes the photos on his walls.
mostly a chill guy at the beach.
#jujuupdated. ŕ´#south park x reader#south park#x reader#eric cartman x reader#kenny mccormick x reader#kyle broflovski x reader#stan marsh x reader
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Batboys and
how they talk about you
Bonus fic as a thank you for allowing my jason fic to do well đ
Dick Grayson-
, who talks about you like a goddess walking the earth, loves you more than words. The type to talk about you so much that people doubt your real
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âMy girlfriend is so sweet, guys. Today we went to that one library I like. Guys, have I told you even her favorite book is adorable?â
It doesnât help that he tends to get caught up in certain details, completely ignoring other ones. No one knew your name until a week into dating.
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Jason: âIf you asked me before, I wouldâve never believed him; weve all gone a little insane, but now that Ive seen proof, I'm happy for him. He gets to be well-dick, and she gets to smile and nod, but I swear she enjoys it. Theyâre weird together.â
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Tim: âWe love Dick. A lot, but we were looking at a wonderful facility that has an in-patient gym in the beginning. But the way he looks at her, I wouldnât be surprised if she actually did miracles.âÂ
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Damian: âAt least I believed him at the start. He was smitten and absolutely whipped. I thought it was just like Dick. I donât know why I, of all people, was the only one that caught it.
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Bruce: Yeah, I knew she was real. Why would I ruin everyoneâs fun? I mean, Dick is a bit. Aloof sometimes⌠I'm not exactly surprised; heâs not exactly amazing socially sometimes, but with her, heâs extra awkward, and I watched him flirt with men and women. But look, as long as heâs happy, weâre happy for him.â
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Dick is a completely drunken idiot, with so much training thrown out the window.Â
(Can you tell I'm not a fan of a playboy dickđ im sorry i love a good love stuck man)
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Jason Todd-
, who is extremely protective of his peace, sometimes acts as if youâre fragile. He was the type to invite you to a family game night where he called a family meeting an hour beforehand, forcing everyone to be on their best behavior. Needless to say, it was awkward, but one uno round later, he realized you fit in just fine.Â
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âI knew my girl would win. She's a gangster.â
boast when you absolutely dominate everyone playing in the game. You never quite beat the cheating allegations.
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Dick: "I donât know how he did it, but he found someone who brings out a side of him I havenât seen in years. No one is that good at uno; naturally, at least, I think sheâs a meta. I'm not saying that non-metas arenât good at uno.â
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Tim: "You know how in movies the girl animals just have lashes, and how the boy is always darker and the girl will be like a lighter color? It's like she was made for him. I'm glad he found his anamorphic girl, Wolf. But, can I be honest? I think Alfred was telling her our cards.â
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Damian: "I'm glad Jaybird is happy. Heâs definitely earned it. Even if she cheats at UNO, theyâre perfect for each other. Hell, the cheating is what makes them perfect for each other.â
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Bruce: "I'm glad to see Jason happy. The sparkling in his eyes, the boyish smile, is the same joy I saw after he hit me with a car iron and ran off, giggling. I like her.â
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Bruce Wayne-
is proud to show you off publicly. Heâs not one to spoil someone, but sometimes he canât help but pick up trinkets for you. Sometimes youâd wake up to keychains, jewelry, or even clothes somewhere in your shared room.Â
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He tried so hard to be there for you and protect you from his line of work. Some nights, he wouldnât come to bed at all to avoid waking you. Some nights, if you worried too much, he would send Dick out in the Batman costume so he could be by your side.Â
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"Shh, baby, its ok... Tonight, I'm staying with you, okay? I love you; do you know that? And I know sometimes the risk scares you, but Iâll always be here for you.â
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Dick: "It's nice knowing Bruce isnât constantly brooding about it. Well, I knew that fact already, but this is different. I only see a light in his eyes when heâs doing stuff he absolutely loves. Like when he talks to his parents tombs and we pretend we donât see him.â
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Jason: "i think that man would come back from the dead more dramatically than I did for this woman. And I waged like 3 wars.â
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Tim: âSometimes I see them sitting in the library together in silence. All they do is enjoy each otherâs presence. Its adorableâ
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Damian: âDads earned it. And when I say heâs earned it, I mean heâs earned it!â
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Bruce isnât the easiest to be with, but he always makes up for it.
#dc x reader#jason todd x reader#nightwing imagine#red hood#red hood x reader#dick grayson x reader#bruce wayne x reader#batman x reader#dc imagine#self indulgence at its finest
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present day
if every day will be like this from now on, i'll look forward to every single one.
ok. Sits down. help meeee i tried using csp's comic tools for once (and also gradient maps + coloring w monochrome) to save time bUT I ENDED UP SPENDING THE USUAL AMT ANYWAY SO. . erm. WELL IT WAS FUN ANYWAYS
hiiiiiiiii i wrote this script 4 months ago nd finally did it (had this on the backburner for 20 million yrs bc i wanted to get out other angst bullshit first)
the parallels of goro's back (x3) on the first 2 pgs are kinda not 1:1 as i'd like but REGARDLESS i still like them. goro, who had utmost control over his life, running it like a machine, regardless of how he feels or if he's tired or if he wants to give up.......he was in control. knowing, of course, that his life is on the line at every waking moment, but since he was always on edge, always alert, he was still in control.
but now, surviving the long winter and coming out to the other side, he's lost that control AND that edge. now what is he left with? what is there left?
very speficially in the 2nd page.... i think its so <3 YAY <3 that goro, now, doesn't feel the need to take such spic-and-span clean-cut care of his appearance.., guy who rolls out of bed and throws on a shirt to go hangout w akira and sumire. he decides to tie up his hair and forgoes his gloves... feels more "comfortable" to change his apperance, to let down his guard a little. <- was the rough symbolism JKDSHKFS
sumire getting the choco croissant but letting goro have the first bite YEAHHHH WHATEVER
4th page symbolism is also rough i didnt think abt it too hard LMAO. 3rdsem goro watching his detective prince self leave. he knows acutely well that chapter of his life is over - whether he survives the long winter or dies in it. all that he knew - even though it was miserable and awful and frustrating and dangerous - is gone.
and now there's just this: the present day. whatever that means.
i think something important to me abt royal trio is just the idea of Learning To Just Exist: no need for a "purpose" or a "calling" or some overarching "goal". they just learn to exist.
and of course none of them really have a benchmark for "wow i like this i want to live like this" so they just roll with the punches, as they always have, but yknow. finally getting to live their honest student life as they always deserved
edit: and most importantly for goro, i think, is learning to cut himself some slack. "despite everything" he says, despite all the shit he's endured AND all the shit he's done, he feels like this is "right." whatever that means, he's ready to take it day by day to figure it out. AND THATS THE WHOLE THING Punches wall really hard
edit: I ALSO FORGOT. i think the sentiment of "being waited for" for goro means a lot. since he had to do everything by himself, fight for himself, decide everything for himself frm such a young age, the idea of akira and sumire waiting for him, inviting him out simply for him to be there -> is really meaningful to him, more than they could know.
edit AGAIN: also goro sleeping in means a lot to me. i imagine that guy has pretty terrible insomnia. ALSO HE HAS A BEDFRAME! i like the thought of his apartment being so /r/malelivingspaces throughout the game. he doesnât deserve a bedframe. BUT HE HAS ONE NOW!
goros expressions in the last page gve me a hard time. sparkly....
also im SO freaking sorry if his voice isnt too well-written... i had a crisis over the wording while draiwng htis so much DSKHASKDASJK AND THE PANELING AND WHATEVERRR IDEK WHAT IM DOINGGG but it was fun!!!! exploratory..... regardless i will keep workign to do him and royaltrio justice. THUMBSUP EMOJI.
#4am again no problem. chokes#goro akechi#sumire yoshizawa#akira kurusu#persona 5 royal#royal trio#shuakesumi#cele draws#long winter#<- technically but its also good w canonverse#cele comics
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I SAW YOU HAVE ZZZ ON UR LIST?? đ been so crazy about lycaon and wise. im not sure will you take this or not but can i get a 3p. male reader being fucked dumb by that duo- đŚ i enjoy noncon if youâre okay with that type of requestâŚ
Lycaon x Wise x Bottom M!Victiorian Housekeeping Member! Reader (NSFW)
a/n: idk what the FUCK possessed me but omfg the more i thought abt this request the hornier i got so⌠also XXX by kim petras thank u for assisting me in writing this
Warnings: Semi-Somnophilia, Lycaon is involved so wolf cock and knotting, Wise might be a bit OOC but i just love the archetype of silent/introverted characters being FREAKS in bed so⌠also not proofread!
word count: 1155
Youâve just returned from a commission, your Victoria Housekeeping Co. uniform all torn up, your black stockings all torn up, squishing the meat of your thighs but you genuinely couldnât care less. Your feet hurt like hell and youâve got a migraine, you just want to crawl into your boyfriendâs bed and fall asleep.
Thatâs what you do, instead of reporting back like you usually do, you decide to go to your boyfriendâs shop. Smiling half heartedly at the bangboo that greeted you when you stepped foot into the shop, tiredly dragging your feet along to Wiseâs bed. No sign of Bella, must be out. Oh well.
You sit on the bed, your ass and legs burning with much needed relaxation as you sink into the bed, it smells like him. You slowly take your shoes off and put them right in front of the door, neatly of course, so he knows youâre here.
You sigh as you finally plop down on the bed, your whole body is so sore that it makes you groan when you move an inch. You grab one of Wiseâs pillows, hug it with your arms and legs, it doesnât take long for you to fall asleep. Surrounded by your boyfriendâs comfort.
Wise sighs with exhaustion as he leads Lycaon to his room so he can help with the absolute mess it is. He would ask you, but youâve been so busy with commissions these days, having been assigned numerous commissions already in your first month. He stops in his tracks when he sees your (new) shoes in front of his door, recognition passes Lycaonâs eyes as he sees them as well. He coughs pointedly, making Wise smile a little: âI can wait here if youâd like?â Wise shakes his head, âNo need for that. Come with me, I think heâll enjoy it.â Lycaon wants to ask âenjoy what?â but doesnât question further as heâs led to Wiseâs room by the man himself andâŚ
There you are, your Victorian Housekeeping Co. uniform all torn up, your torn black stockings showing off your legs so well, his dick twitches involuntary as he furrows his eyebrows and looks the other way, making Wise smile teasingly at him. âWhat, donât like seeing him all ruined like this?â Lycaon looks at him baffled, âWhat would thatââ his breath gets caught in his throat when he sees Wiseâs hand go under your stockings and he takes your cock out, already hard. âLook at your poor butler, heâs so worked up.â Wise teases, getting uncharastically bold as he takes your dick in his hand and slowly pumps your length, you let out small soft whimpers; it goes straight to Lycaonâs dick.
âHeâs asleep, this is inappropriate.â He argues as he can already feel his cock strained against his pants, his blush well hidden but not unnoticed by Wise. Said man rolls his eyes half heartedly as he takes the head of your cock into his mouth, making you hug the pillow tighter. âSee? He likes it.â
His gaze turns to the butler, âI have eyes, Lycaon. You look at him a lot, wouldâve been jealous but I really wanna see him get ruined on your knot, to be honest.â He gets up slowly and pulls him by his tie, âCome on, listen to your master, hm?â He chuckles when Lycaon follows him, hearing his subtle growls. This is going to be fun.
Wise slowly feels you waking up and hushes you, âShh baby, itâs just a dream, youâre fine.â You smile at him as you lay fully on your back, feeling him take your hand in his. Youâre half conscious, half not with your whole dick out but still too tired to care as you let your boyfriend do whatever the hell he wants.
Wise smiles as he unzips his pants, freeing his lower half of any clothes. Before the butler can voice any complaints Wise helps him out as well. Wise hoists you up from your arms and makes you sit on your knees, you give all the strength left in your body to stay like that. You gasp in surprise when you feel⌠claws on your ass, Wise grips your chin and kisses you before you can even say anything. Now fully awake, you can clearly hear Lycaonâs voice as he lines his cock with your hole. Crying out into the kiss when you feel his cock invade your ass, your cock twitching. The stretch burns so fucking good, his cock is so damn big and you feel his knot hit your ass as he bottoms out; drawing a low growl from him and a whorish moan from you.
Wise smiles, âLook at me now, baby.â You do so, your vision isnât exactly clear at his point but you see him milk the pre cum from your cock to use as lube to finger himself, biting his lips when he sees Lycaon hook both of your arms with his, keeping them in place as he starts to drill his cock into your tight hole. You cry out as you feel the stretch burn and burn, your cries fading into soft whimpers as he starts to hit your prostate. You feel wise lining your cock with his hole as he tells Lycaon to stop for a second, moaning your name when you bottom out.
Wise lets out the most whorish moan youâve ever heard from him when Lycaon starts thrusting inside you again, making your hips jerk forward and also fuck your boyfriend. âFuuuckâ fuck yes, that feels so fucking good.â Wise bites his lips as he looks at your tired and fucked expression, tears already forming on your cute eyes. He takes your chin by one hand as Lycaon continues his brutal pace on your poor ass, cooing at you, âCome on baby, you can take it. Heâs gonna cum inside andâ fuckâ youâre gonna take his knot, okay?â You whimper as you feel Lycaonâs cock throb inside you, climaxing inside Wiseâs ass as you fill him with your cum, the cock inside you fills your ass to the fucking brim with cum as Lycaon cums with a moan-growl.
You whimper when Wise pulls your cock out of his hole, watching as Lycaon gives one more powerful thrust inside your hole so you can take his knot, making you cry in pain mixed with pleasure as you feel your spent cock weep cum again; now on your boyfriendâs stomach. Wise smiles softly, clearly content in the afterglow as you can feel your consciousness slip again, the last thing you feel is Lycaonâs arms gently slipping from yours as he softly puts you in your boyfriendâs embrace. The last thing you hear,
âDonât be so upset, you get to have your knot inside him while we cuddle, isnât thaâŚâ
Youâre too tired to process the rest as you feel your body give into the exhaustion.
#nsft#zzzero nsft#zzzero x reader#zzz x reader#zzz x male reader#zzz smut#zzz nsft#zzzero smut#zzzero wise x reader#zzzero wise#zzzero lycaon#zzz lycaon#zzz lycaon x reader#lycaon x reader#lycaon x male reader#male reader#smut#von lycaon#von lycaon x reader#male bottom reader
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đŠđđŠđ đđŹđđđŠđ - đŚđđŤđ¤ đđŹđđđŠđ
in which after going live with rutger on the umich insta account, your boyfriend comes home with new nickname
warnings: slight mention of sex at the end, not proofread
pairing: mark estapa x reader
your eyes slowly opened as a bunch of guys could be hear entering the house. you had fallen asleep shortly after mark left, leaving a little later than the others since he wasn't practicing. you knew they were having their turkey showdown today, so the boys who lived in the house would be extra agitated when they got back.
"dude, im being honest, gavo had the best technic to level the ice." you heard your boyfriend's voice as the group appeared in the doorway of the living room. "hi, babe." the boy added with a smile when his eyes landed on your frame. you yawned strongly, blinking multiple times as you pushed yourself up from your laying position before sending them a wave.
"how was your turkey thing?" you mumbled as all the boys, including some who didn't live here, settled down on the multiple couches. mark sat next to you, throwing his arm around your shoulder, making you lean your head against his shoulder.
"you weren't on the live?" rutger asked, a frown on his face.
"do i look like i was on the live, rutger." you sassed, hinting at your appearance, and the fact that you had just woken up. your answer made a couple of the guys chuckle, including mark.
"you look like you got ran over." the nebraska native answered with a smirk, and soon a pillow flew his way.
"you look cute, baby." mark mumbled in your ear so only you could hear. you looked up at him, a shy smile on your face.
"papa estapa had a lot of fun." frank said from besides rutger, making all of the guys laugh once again. meanwhile, a look of confusion grew on your face as mark's face turned a bright shade of red.
"papa who now?"
"papa estapa." he repeated, only making all of them laugh even more.
"uhm... do i even wanna know?" you questioned, smiling awkwardly while mark avoided eye contact.
"you'd know if you were on the live."
"rutger, don't make me hit you." you warned him, already tired of the way he was acting.
"someone on the live commented that." mark answered your question, only making all of them laugh even harder.
"lots of girls like your papa estapa, y/n/n." rutger joked, and this time mark was able to stop you before throwing another pillow his way.
"you don't even live here!"
"papa estapa invited me." the blond boy said. he knew he was pushing your buttons, and that mark would give him hell for it the next, but he didn't care. he found the whole situation funny, especially since he was the one who found the comment, and your reaction was making it even better.
"whatever, im going to the bathroom." you mumbled harshly before standing up from your spot and exiting the living room. all of the boy's laughter died down when they saw the look on mark's face, who was staring straight into rutger's soul.
"didn't invite you over so you could be an asshole to my girlfriend, mcgroarty." mark said, his tone firm and strict. it wasn't until then that rutger realized how badly he has messed up. before he had the chance to say anything, mark was following in your footsteps.
when he made it up the stairs, he was the bathroom door wide open, while his was completely closed. he slowly approached it, knocking softly on it.
"baby, it's just me. can i come in?" the boy asked. when he heard you slur out a yes, he quietly entered the bedroom. you were laying in the middle of his bed, blankets thrown over your body so only your head was pecking out. "im sorry 'bout rut."
"don't be. i should've have lost my cool like that. they're all gonna think im a bitch now." you whispered as mark joined you under the warmth of the blankets. your head landed on his chest quickly as his arms wrapped around you, keeping you close.
"you're always a little grumpy when you wake up, especially if you get woken up. rutger knows that, he did it to himself." the room was silent after that, marks eyes slowly starting to close, while yours remained wide open.
"did someone actually call you papa estapa?" you asked, trying your best to hide your giggle. your question made mark's eyes fly open, chuckling lightly when he realized you were smiling against his chest.
"yeah."
"does she know you have a girlfriend?"
"baby, my insta account is pretty much a fan page of you at this point. im sure she knows."
"good. 'cause you're my papa estapa." you answered, pushing yourself off his chest and pressing a deep kiss to his lips.
"is that so?" your boyfriend asked with a cocky smirk when the two of you pulled away.
"not in that way, weirdo."
"but i could be."
"im not calling you papa estapa while we're having sex, mark!"
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get her back! ⢠leah williamson
w/c: ~1.2k
leah williamson is the most frustrating person you've ever met in you're entire life- and you are without a doubt, 100% infatuated with her
a/n: inspired by the idea that boyfriend leah would be so toxic and iwl id happily accept it
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youâre on a trip with some of the united girls in ibiza- an after-season holiday before the world cup, which turns into you being dragged through crowds and running into what seems like the entire super league.
you properly meet leah there- youâve crossed paths before in the season of course, itâs hard not to, when youâre trying to score and the blonde absolutely bodies you out of nowhere.
and much like during games- she crashes into you, only this time her drink spills all down your front, and her hands reach out to grip your arms to stop you from falling back.
âsorry âbout that sweetheart.â
sheâs smiling at you while she says it-Â eyeing you up and down, her eyes twinkling with something. and your brain short circuits at the sound of her voice- your mouth going dry at the sight of her abs on full display.
âhey- you play for united yeah?â
all you manage is a nod- brain too preoccupied with the way her thumb brushes your arm occasionally.
âcool- iâll see you around.â
she winks at you and disappears into the crowd again.
you stare after her- mouth open slightly and cheeks flushed.
âwhat are you doing standing there like a fish mate?â
Tooney jumps on your back- her arm wrapping around your neck.
âewww- youâre all sticky too, whatâs wrong with you?â
âTooney- i think im in love.â
-
youâre out at dinner with the girls later that night- and theyâre all having the time of their lives making fun of you for your little crush on the England captain.
âyou know- if you wanted to make the senior team so bad, sleeping with the captain is a sure-fire way to do it.â
Ella and Mary high-five- their laughs booming, as they fall off their chairs, while you slink further down into your own.
âyou know- i really, really regret telling you this.â
the two ignore you- too busy laughing, getting louder and louder the more you complain.Â
Alessia pats your thigh, smiling at you sympathetically.
A voice calls out over Mary and Ellaâs laughing.
âright- whatâs so funny then?â
Leah appears on the other side of the table- arms folded over her chest, and eyebrow quirked up in question at the two rolling around on the ground.
ânothing!â
youâre quick to interject, shouting way too loudly and averting your eyes from everyone when they stare at you.
âhey lee!â
Alessia gets out of her chair to hug the older girl, and the others follow her lead.
you stay in your chair though- eyes on your lap, hands gripping the chairs armrests.
you can feel eyes burning into you and you get up- announcing to everyone youâll be at the bar.
you take a moment to catch your breath as you walk over, giving the bar tender your order and fumbling around for your card.
when you go to tap your card to pay for your drink, a hand reaches out before you can- a sleek black card shines at you and you follow the arm to see the face of leah williamson, smirking at you.
you finally look at her, sheâs dressed in a black suit- her shirt barely buttoned, sleeves rolled up, ring clad fingers twirling her card.
âwhatâs your poison?â
âhuh?â
she nods to the drink in your hand.
âoh- uh-â
she cuts you off before you can speak.
âiâm more of a whiskey girl myself, I must say.â
you nod fiddling with your drink.
âwhatâs your name anyway?â
Leah looks at you up and down- taking a sip of her drink.
â(y/n).â
âcute- look iâll be honest, i find you very attractive, so, want to come back to my room?â
-
you wake up the next morning to a shirt being chucked at your head, taking it off you see leah lent against the doorframe, brushing her teeth.
âyou should probably go soon.â
she disappears back into the hall without another word, and you throw your hands over your face groaning.
-
youâve dug yourself into a grave- and every time you think of Leah- it gets deeper, and deeper.
well, maybe not when you think of her- âcause youâd have definitely fallen through to the other side of the world by now. but when you think too much about her- it some-how spirals into you sending her a text, and Alessiaâs disappointed face as you abandon whatever you were doing in favour of âjust one more kiss.â Â
stupid leah- with her stupid smirk, and her stupid voice, and the stupid way she knows exactly where to kiss you to make you weak in the knees.
stupid leah, and her stupid car, picking up stupid you.
-
âi hate her!â
thrashing around on top of Alessiaâs bed you grab her pillow to scream into.
âdo you?â
âyes! i do! sheâs so frustrating. one minute she tells me iâm the âonly oneâ- then i find her making out with other girls?! she only ever calls me when she wants something! i tried  to tell her Lessi i promise- but when she does that stupid little smirk- oh my god! i canât take it!â
âthen why keep going back to her?â
-
you donât make the squad for the world cup- itâs not exactly a surprise but it still stings a little. another year of âoh, itâs all right.â and ânext year you got it!â
swallowing down the hurt you end up going out with the girls to celebrate anyway- throwing your arms over Alessia and Mary you kiss their cheeks.
you're about two drinks and four shots in- when youâve been left alone at a booth, with no supervision you pull out your phone and text leah.
you hear a voice clear their throat- and you blearily make out Alessia in front of you.
 âdonât tell me you texted her?â
â⌠no?â
-
âi hate you.â
your breathy voice wavers- brain foggy with the way leah attacks your neck, the older girlâs hands gripping you- one hand tangled in your hair, the other holding your hands together, pushing and pulling you in any direction she pleases. her lips curl into a smirk against your neck and she stops kissing you, and pushes you completely away from her.
âhate me huh? guess we can stop this.â
âno.â
âno?â
you glare at the shit-eating grin spreading on her face- grabbing the front of her shirt and yanking her closer to you.
âno.â
-
leah is fuming, and youâre loving it.
with mostly everyone gone in Australia- youâve gravitated more to the blonde, much to Alessiaâs disappointment, when she saw both of you making out in the back of Alexâs story one night.
tonight though- youâve been flirting with this one girl, running your hands up her arms, giggling and squeezing her biceps.
you can see leah in the back- jaw clenched, her angry pout fixed on her face.
you donât even know the other girls name- you just know sheâs helping you make leah very, very jealous.
when you go to the toilets- leah follows behind you, slipping in and pushing you against the door.
she doesnât speak- only gripping your face with one hand and shoving it to the side, while the other feels you up, she attacks your neck, sucking and biting.
âshut up.â
you smile.
"i didn't even say anything."
-
you wake up the next morning alone again- your neck mauled and dignity only slightly gone.
you find a note on your bathroom mirror.
âyouâre mine. donât forget it.â â l.w
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Hi :) ! I hope you're doing well <3 . I was wondering if you could do some Larry Johnson x chubby!fem!reader hdcns, along with some Sal Fisher ones too ? đ¤ Ily !!
Yesss there is not enough chubby reader on here, and as a chubbier girl myself, I couldn't wait to write this!! And Ilyt đ¤đ¤ I hope you enjoy these Lil HCs
Larry and sal x Chubby!Fem!reader HCs
Separately of course
{Fluff} Warnings: some swearing,mentions of creeps but that's it.
Masterlist
Larry:
Ok, to start, Larry with a Chubby Reader is a match made in heaven
He doesn't care you got a Lil meat on your bones his literal catchphrase is
"Well, there's just more of you to love."
He lives by it.
You will never see him be one of those guys that tells you not to eat something cause 'you gotta lose a few pounds'
Naw he don't give a fuck. It's your body he loves you no matter what.
Also, I've touched on it in the past, but I think Larry is a touchy guy.
Like not even in an inherently sexual way, it's literally just how he shows love
With you, it's all hugs,kisses,cuddles,grabs, and squeezes.
He loves how soft your skin feels even in the spots with bumps or stretchmarks he still loves it.
He would lowkey like to trace your stretchmarks. Or maybe paint them. I could see him turning your stretchmarks into like a cool as lightning piece.
Also, he would love just laying on you. He gets hella comfortable just laying on your thighs.
And if he gets the chance to fall asleep on them. That's it he's out like a light for hours.
But if you move, he will wake up and be like
"Where the fuck are you going?"
He's also your number 1 defender/Protector
cause ain't nobody gonna talk to his girl in a way he don't like.
Someone makes fun of your weight.
Well, now they are insecure about their own.
He's all about treating others how they treat you.
He has and will make a bully insecure the same way they made you insecure, but while he does it, he's talking you up the whole time
Cause you're perfect.
Now, if someone is hitting on you, he's lowkey proud like
"Yeah, my girls, great, and nobody else can have her"
But if they are making you uncomfortable or just downright fetishizing you ( i hate when this happens and if it happens to you to im so sorry)) he's getting you tf outta there, and who knows. He gets feisty he might try to square up with them đ
He's just really awesome.
He takes care of you and loves you so much
To him, weight doesn't mean shit. He loves you for you. Your personality is what matters to him. And he will always be there for you.
Even if you're feeling insecure, he's pulling you outta that state of mind.
But let's be honest with him, it's almost impossible he never gives you the chance to feel bad about yourself.
He reasures you before you even realize you need it.
Overall, he's just a great boyfriend no matter what size you are
Sal:
Alright, sal is just the sweetest damn thing on earth
You think he gives a FUCK your a Lil Chubby?
Naw
I mean, when he was younger, even he was a little Chubby.
Plus, the guy got his face blown off. He's not the type to judge
He's just happy that he has someone that he loves and that loves him for who he is.
That's what means the most to him
And he does his best to show it.
He's not as touchy as Larry, but he still is big on it, especially farther into your relationship
The more he trusts you, the more it becomes
He lives for your hugs. He finds it really comforting. You're like a little pillow
Like if he wakes up in the night from night terrors or a vision. He will just grab you and pull you into a cuddle
The next morning, you wake up, and you have to poke him to make sure he's just sleeping and not dead
You just have that calming effect on him. idk
He is just always holding you
Your hand,your waist, an arm over your shoulders (if he can reach)
He also does not care about what you eat.
He's just like girl do whatever you want.
If you do wanna lose weight ok just do it responsibly.
Don't hurt yourself in any way.
Honestly, this could go for both him and Larry.
Getting onto the topic of protection
sal is a sassy dude.
especially as an adult. Dude, hit 19 and said fuck it I'm done.
Someone insults you for your weight ok well sal is talking shit on their whole bloodline.
he has a roster of insults he's come up with over the years
And he can be mean as fuck đ
And the thing is, he doesn't even swear a lot while doing it. He is pulling up with words that even you're just like, "What?"
So just cause they said something to you, he's not only making fun of them but also there intelligence without even trying
Who needs to swing when you have sals attitude.
Now, if someone normally hits on you, he doesn't really care he might wait for them to leave, then chuckle about it with you
But if they are full on like touching you or fetishizing you, he don't let it slide.
He lowkey finds it fun to fuck with creeps.
Like, don't get me wrong, he hates what people do it to you in public, but he just loves the chance to talk his shit
just watching him make fun of them. cheers you up. just cause let's face it
he's 5'8 as an adult, and he's kinda lanky, so watching him make fun of someone bigger than him is hilarious
He has made a dude cry.
It was hilarious. You lowkey forgot the dude had full-on grabbed your ass
But yeah, other than that, Sal just doesn't give a fuck your chubby your a human being and he loves you.
And he always will.
You're also never insecure with him. He lets you know how beautiful and lovely you are and how much he appreciates you.
And you do the same for him
You guys are just the best together đ¤
#sally face larry#sally face headcanons#sally face fanfiction#sally face x reader#sally face#sally fisher#sal x reader#sal fisher#sal fisher x reader#larry johnson x reader#larry x reader#larry johnson#larry
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đđđ§đ đđŽđŚ đđ¨ đđĄđ đŠđĄđ¨đ§đ đŤđ˘đ đĄđ đ§đ¨đ°
pairing(s): kento nanami x fem!reader, sub!nanami x dom!reader
summary: you were here for a mission but, that didnât mean you couldnât have a little fun in your wake? It was nothing personal, honest.
word count: 800+
warning(s): reader is mean like sinister six mean, blackmailing, sub nanaminnn, restraints?, cheating, oral f receiving, slapping, orgasm denial, cock stepping, nanami licks your boot?, choking, pet names, sorcerer reader, and language
A/n:âGIFs; @pseudowho & â this is more of a thirst/ jumble of words then a fic
âHello? Oh yes, good afternoon. How may I help you? Mr Nanami canât come to the phone right now, im afraid. May I take a message?â The curl of your lips is short of ominous as you stare down at the blonde business man. Your foot bobs up and down with a board expression on your face listening to person over the line. When the sorcerer tries to speak âwhich comes out as nothing but muffled gibberish due to his dotted tie that was usually in perfect place around his collar was now being used as a gagâ you glare at him harshly, applying pressure against the upside of his cock to be smashed onto the floor. It stares at you angrily flashing deep shades of reds and pinks.
âPerfect, goodbye now.â You place the corded phone onto its hook, sighing deeply at the continued protest coming from plush drooling lips. You lean torwards his kneeling figure and for a moment Nanami thinks youâre going to remove the cloth from his mouth. However, in response your closed palm makes contact with his pale cheek. The Impact leaves a biting sting that almost made him gasp at the unexpectedness of it.
âCanât even follow simple instructions. God, this look is truly pathetic on youâ You chuckle lowly, chocolate brown eyes staring back at you with a pure dose of hatred. You rub the bottom of your black pump against the skin of his length âthe tip leaking pre onto the floorâ and watch the slight shudder of his shoulders.
âYou scream and I swear everything you have will be taken.â You wait for a quick moment before snatching the tie from around the blondeâs mouth, he makes quick work of bad mouthing you.
âYou insufferable wom-â
âNow Kento, thatâs no way to speak to someone making you feel like this.â The stiletto heel of your shoe is pressed to the slit of his sensitive cock and your palm makes a home at the base of his neck, squeezing with a steady pressure. Against his will, Nanami lets out a shaky breath, his body betrays him but he shakes his head all the same.
âNo.â He insists
âNo?â You muse
âNo.â
âThatâs rich seeing as you couldâve gotten out of the restraints anytime you wanted. Those ropes were made by a grade four and youâre what? A grade two at least, yeah? No matter how much your mouth says no, your body continues to say something differently. Poor Mrs. Nanami, sitting up in that six figure house waiting for you to come home⌠yet here you are being a manwhoreâ Your chuckle rings in his ears, you scent overwhelms his senses. You had him pinned literally and figuratively. God did you always smell this good?
âI mean, all you have to do is tell me to stop. Tell me to stop touching your dick and Iâll walk out that door right now.â You hum fingers wrapped around the base pumping up and down the length slowly. Shaky breaths along with slight grunts plague the air, yet there is no protest. You scoff at the action and drastically change the pace of your wrist making sure to drag it up his length at a rate painful to try and keep from coming to.
âCmonâ Nanamin, I know you want to come. Thatâs it pretty boy, just blow your load.â Your thumb swipes over his swollen tip beads of pre spurting out at your every touch. Just as the feeling strengthens and he can feel him self beginning to peak you rip your hand away. The blonde grunts that sounds like a borderline whine, glaring at your figure.
âI know you didnât think itâd be that easy. Youâre a big boy Nanami, you know better than anyone you have to work for what you want.â You lean back in his desk chair placing your heeled boot on his chest, it shocks you how quick he is to comply; hesitantly darting out his tongue to swipe across the leather. Youâd snap a picture if you didnât have the desire to feel his tongue elsewhere.
âThatâs adorable. How about you put that tongue to good useâ You hum setting both of your legs across his shoulders. The look he has for you is to be described as nothing less other than drunk. The blonde peaks inside your skirt, you thighs bare of any undergarment and he doesnât try to contain the groan that escapes him inching towards your center.
The office phone rings again.
âHello? Oh- oh Iâm sorry Mr. Nanami has his hands tiedâŚâ You grab on hold to the locks of platinum buried from under your tight pencil skirt, struggling to keep your voice steady.
âCan I take a message?â
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MAKE YOU MINE | AA23
Scenario: now that youâre a williams reserve driver, you get to spend more time with your best friend alex, which quickly makes the both of you realize that youâre more than friends. (requested)
Pairing: alex albon x fem!reader
A/N: iâm sure most of you were expecting the oscaroo and baby chronicles, but i was working on this one before i made the poll, so the next post should be that. itâll probably take me a few day, but i promise it is coming 𫡠anyways, i hope the alex girlies enjoy this one đĽ°
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ynln_official working hard or hardly working? itâs been a busy few weeks, but a fun few. see you guys after summer break :)
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alex_albon hardly working, but itâs because you distract me
⤡ ynln_official i could do no such thing
⤡ formulaalbon my parents, everyone
ynlnnation babe wake up yn posted
norrisnation LANDO IN THE FIRST PIC âźď¸ thank you yn for the content
williamsracing youâve been exceptional! weâre happy to have you on our team. keep up the good work! đđťđ
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ynln_official alexa, play âmake you mineâ by public
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alex_albon you stole my caption
⤡ ynln_official sorry it was an accident, honest (not honest)
⤡ papayaaaa LMFAO
formulaalbon ARE YOY GUYS DATINHNNOW? IM FREKAING OIR
⤡ formulasargeant HELP ME THE TYPOS ARE KILLING ME
⤡ formulaalbon IM GOING THROUGH IT I LOVE THEM
logansargeant about damn time
⤡ ynln_official shut up
⤡ logansargeant i will not iâve been third wheeling you guys for months
⤡ ynln_official not my fault youâre obsessed with alex (donât take this seriously i love having you around)
⤡ aa23ls2lover yn and alex are loganâs track parents fr LMAO
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alex_albon summer break well spent
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ynln_official yo this guy is kinda⌠i wish he didnât have a gf đ
*liked by alex_albon*
⤡ formulaalbon yn is just like me fr
williamsdefender yn said âiâll soft launchâ and alex said âfuck thatâ
⤡ ynlover and i am NOT complaining
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williamsracing how it started vs how itâs going đ
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ynln_official i love you for this post, williams admin
formulaalbon like logan said, itâs about damn time
⤡ sargeantlvr were you not freaking out on ynâs post over them dating?
⤡ formulaalbon i was in shock đ
⤡ logansargeant i approve this message
⤡ ynln_official i bet you do đ
ilovewilliams IM GONNA SOB I LOVE THEM
norrisnation alex and yn are each others wags đĽš
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I Will Die Your Daughter.
Premise: uhhh totes not a self insert because my day left me a few weeks ago and im now only coming to terms with it⌠you and sevika have daddy issues and yâall talk about it. The reader is an errand runner for Silco around S1. Also fem reader, Sevika doesnt like men, sorry.
A/N: 100% inspired by robotxmâs edit on tiktok, please go watch it itâs the best edit ever. Iâm also making this bc im tired of all Sevika fics, as beautifully constructed as they are, are all smut. also its not a crime to make stuff up so dont be mean to me⌠i may or may not be taking requestsâŚ
Warnings: mentions of abandonment, allusion to harmful habits/behaviors (kinda leaning towards self harm), daddy issues i guess?? Probably a bit ooc Sevika
Words: 1,466
It was late at night, the new moon up in the sky barely allowing sight. You were tired to say the least, not only physically from all of stupid small yet tedious tasks from Silco, but also just your life. Nobody thought it was easy growing up in Zaun, at least compared to Piltover. Sure you had food, a roof over your head, and a blanket to keep you warm at night, but a part of you still felt like a desperate little kid. Dad was not around much, staying for a few days, taking some cash and then leaving to go do whatever he wanted. It sucked for sure, but it was a routine at least. Once he really left, not on some vacation but just for the fun of it, it just felt weirdly empty. Today being the five year anniversary of these untouched emotions didnât help work go by faster either.
Being Silcoâs errand-girl also meant being up for his beck and call. sleep weighed down your eyes, it was only one in the morning but it felt like six already. Staying in the little âhomeâ with all Silcoâs goons was weird, it was like living with all your estranged cousins who you couldnât tell if they hated you or not, well all but Sevika. She wasnât the stereotypical ânice girlâ but staying by her for a while now wasnât so horrible as the rest. Maybe it was trust, maybe it was some weird friendship, either way Sevika was the one and only girl you could call to for help.
Walking towards the kitchen, deciding that maybe a glass of cold water would wake you up miraculously, you saw Sevika sitting at the usually empty breakfast nook. Giving her a small nod, barely having enough energy to muster up the ghost of a smile, you walked towards to cupboards. Grabbing a shitty mug, you just get some water from the sink, sure it probably wasnât the best for you considering Zaun, but it didnât matter all too much. Standing at the counter, a ways away from Sevika, you take moments to sip then stare at the wall.
âSomething wrong?â Sevikaâs voice rang out, her voice was rough but not in an emotional way. You glanced up at the sudden question, looking at her with a semi surprised expression. You knew people didnât care, i mean could you blame them? People down there spent their lives working to just barely survive, caring or even asking was rare. You shook your head slightly, it was a lie of course. How could anything be right? Everyday just felt like the knife dug deeper into your chest. She simply hummed in response, she didnât buy it but she wouldnât pry anymore.
ââŚhe left me five years ago today.â You spoke up after a second, like a rush of adrenaline just to say something so simple. Your eyes stayed locked with the chipped paint. She glanced back to you, her expression not moving much but the movement alone showed her attention was on you.
âSome boyfriend or something?â Sevika asked, sure the statement was unclear but you had already wanted to just yell sorry and run off. âMy dad.â You say, your voice hinted with a sort of apathy. âI dont know, i dont really miss him to be honest, it just sucks i guessâŚâ You continue, it wasnât honest, it didnât just âsuckâ it felt horrible. Keeping up a constant unfeeling mask felt like living in the wrong skin, you felt things so deeply but you couldnât risk showing it.
ââŚi get you, dads suck.â Sevika says, snapping you out of your headspace. You looked towards her, her arm was relaxed, holding a cup of god knows what. Her expression was the same as always, but she looked at you in a way no on else bothered to try. She was simply understanding, connecting even, but it was such a strange surprise. ââŚthey really do.â You respond, a look of almost happiness if it werenât for the context. âYou wanna talk about it? I can tell itâs a bit more than just âit sucksâ.â Sevika says, her tone a little joking, only to keep the lighter mood.
ââŚits not like that was the first time he left me, heâd do it like once a week. Heâs done it on some of the most important part of my life.â You explain, your body turned towards her, your hand grasping the handle of the mug, but your eyes never met her as though it would make you really understand each word. âSometimes i wish⌠i wish heâd like me enough to just come back. He never wrote to me, he never dropped by, itâs like i never existed to him.â You continue, anger growing in your voice just slightly.
âI want him to just stand me, im not asking for the world!â You say, growing a bit too agitated over the long over issue. âI hate him⌠but i loved him too. I was always a daddyâs girl, yâknow i was a tomboy, a girl who loved all the stuff he did. I dont know what i did wrong, i was just a kid. When did i just become not good enough? I got better, i stopped hurting myself, i got better grades in school, i was a good person!â You yell even if it wasnât super loud, your tone changing from anger to just sadness and confusion. Your eyes finally met Sevikaâs, she was just look at you, giving small nods when you finished talking. She didnât even have that pitying expression everyone had when you even mentioned feeling down. You stayed silent, really realizing that you werenât just speaking in your head.
âItâs not your fault.â Sevika said as though it were basic knowledge, not in a condescending way though. âNo matter how hard you change, heâd probably still stay away.â She says, her tone was a bit comforting.
ââŚi know⌠it just pisses me off, sorry.â You apologize, you just felt bad for wasting her time on something she didnt really care about. âFor what, answering the question I asked?â She asked rhetorically, putting her forearm on the counter and leaning forward. âStop saying sorry all the time, youâre not wrong.â She reprimanded, looking at her with the same semi soft look. All you wanted to do was say âsorryâ again.
ââŚokayâŚâ you muttered, knowing you needed to respond but not in a pathetic way. You shift your weight on your feet, leaning a bit to the side. âI wonât like and say i know how you feel, but i didnât always like my old man either.â She says, taking a sip of her drink. âWeâd fight, weâd make up, but never once did he try to leave me.â She says simply. âOuch.â You respond, taking it as a jab to your lack of present father. âNot what i meant, I mean your dadâs a douche. No real man would leave their child like that, especially not you.â She continues, giving you almost a compliment? Your expression changed again, it was one of surprise and maybe a bit flushed.
â⌠i dont know how to feel better, its like everything i try fails.â You admit, your tone quiet instead of its usual projection. You take a sip of water, hoping itâll do something for you. âIt wonât feel better.â She says bluntly, standing up from her stool and starting to slowly walk around the counter. âIt might feel less bad day by day, but thats if you stop avoiding it.â Sevika says placing her hand on your shoulder in an attempt of comfort. âAnd saying that you donât care, when you so obviously do, is avoiding it.â She says leaning down just a bit.
You didnât know what to say, your eyes started to tear up a bit, definitely not by choice. You let your head fall, refusing to meet Sevikaâs eyes. You just started crying, it was rare, every once in a while youâd spend hours sobbing and punching till it felt fine, but this was different. It was a moment of vulnerability, you didnât know why Sevika chose you to give a moment of her little time open. You felt guilty, you always felt guilty though. Her hand pull you closer for a small hug. It was for sure awkward, but you wrapped your arms around her waist, burying your face into her shoulder.
You cried probably a bit too much, tears stained her shirt. Either way she kept patting your back as you attempt to not make an awkward noise. Sevika didnât care though, no matter how awkward or weird the things you did it was no big deal.
She cared, unconditionally and irrevocably.
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