#fucling freaking out

[a-very-confused-gremlin]

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[narutomaki]

only problem with cooking from the heart is I will make something new and will like it sooooooo so so fucking much and know I will get it wrong the next time and disappoint only myself

[faerociousbeast]

I HADBTYOS DREAM WHERE TJE GENSHOMNCJARACYES HAD TO DO A COMPETITION THIMG RIHHT. TBERE WERE DIFFERRENT EVENTS AND STUFF AMD OT WAS INSANE

Anyways kaeya had to go against someone in fencing. he emded up winning, but then a la persona style his opponent started shifting and changing into a DRAGON???? and then kaeya was like "im the only one whp can do this." bc khaenriah or whayevr ans we got a close up of uis eyeball

but the dragon made eye comtact and wven though kaeya was tryimg, slowly bit surely ue got corrupted and his eye turned entirely black. and thwn he got on top of the deagns neck amd basically said something tgat made it seem like he was always qorkingnwotj the dragon.

AND THEN DAINSLEIF SHOWED UP?? and i was like woag. and dain walked up to the dragon, reached out, pilled kaeya down a bit AND YOU CPULSNT SEE IT IN THE CUT SCENE BC OF THE ANHLE BUT THEOR FACES WENT WAY TOO CPOSE TOGETHER BEHIMD THE HEAD OF THE DRAGON AJD I WAS LIKE ???? hang on what the fucl.

amd then the lines were loke Dainsleif: "I should have done this way sooner. I guess I was too afraid of bringing back the past... all the memories we shared together..." and other daincore shit bc HE KISSED HIM???? AND THEY WERR TOHETHER ONCE?????? IDK WHAT ELSE HAPPENED BC I FREAKED AND WOKE UP to type this

[winewinebloodwine]

[Chuuya watches dazai as he talks, hesitating a little before batting away the hand picking st his bandages. As dazai asks his question, chuuya pauses a bit. Then he swallows] Gravity shit.

[Chuuya waves his hand around for a second turning away., A fair amount of all of the glass, mirror, and bullets on the floor get a red outline to them, as does chuuya. They shoot up a bit, and twist around midair, around chuuyas waist height. Then, after a few seconds, chuuya let's them all drop at once. More than one glass and mirror shard shatters further upon impact, and the crash is loud, but chuuya doesn't react. He continues to look at the floor to the side.] Momentum, mass, weight. That type of shit. When it boils down to it, it's gravity.

[Chuuya hums a bit, still mostly focused on trying to breath. He nods though, absently agreeing. He tilted his head a bit, seeming to be silently wondering if dazai had gotten it all or not, before sighing a bit. His grip around Dazais wrist is iron strong, if a bit loose.]

[@long-death-dazai contining the other one here!]

[thattouceyboy]

I hate you feelings I hate you romantic desires I hate you being touch starved I hate you the electric draw of another person's lips I hate you emotions I hate you politeness I hate you openness I hate you vulnerability I hate you I hate you I hate you but most of all I hate being a moron who knows better and decides to try anyway when I'm always the only one who fucking gets hurt!!!!!!!!!

[llynwen]

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[ollisdead]

okay so let's try my own hand at aftg social media/vlogging hc

okay so like its dan's idea that for their last year with all of them, they do a vlog, and they start up official social media sccounts to look back on when most of them are gone.

so of course it's allison and nicly who do most of the vlogging (plus dan and by extension matt because they are the parents)

and we all know allison makes tons of bets, and is probably a #1 andreil shipper

SO ofc the way that they come out (with vague permission from them to post it) is that allison and dan walk in on them making out against the wall or sm, and dan yells /STOP DEFILING MY BABY/ and andrew just holds up a middle finger before bringing neil into their dorm room while neils fucling laughing (until he's not)

(we all know andrew has that video saved on his phone)

they do eachothers hair, nails, and makeup (that they do multiple vlogs of)

one time when they were at an away game, allison caught a video of neil going into matt and dans room after he had trouble sleeping and just snuggling in between them and they just open there arms and dan says /hey baby/

YOU WILL PRY THAT HEADCANON FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS

okay allison and neils are besties, this is just a fact

so, allison takes weekly vlogs of them going about as besties and allison just talking about how gay she is for renee (which is how they got together) and then neil just going off on anyone that says anything discriminatory

(they got a video of andrew freaking the fuck out the first time he saw neil in eyeliner)

without neils knowledge until after the fact, they take and post multiple pictures and videos of neil sleeping in the weirdest, smallest places, and there are multiple ones where they literally shove the other foxes because they don't wanna wake him up bEcAuSe hE iS bOtH hOt aNd cUtE

andrew acts cool, but nicky and allison made a compilation called 'andrew minyard having a fucking gay panic for twelve minutes straight' that they posted on youtube

the foxes are all really protective of eachother, like one time they were doing a vlog, and dan, matt, and neil were walking together and they were all holding hands, and nicly was filming with the rest of the foxes around him, and someone yelled at neil /wh*re!/ and they all fucking jUmP at him and it later became viral and everyone trashed the homophobic asshole

there are multiple edits of the foxes (soft/hot/badass/SHIP) but because of neils tendency to dEsTrOy anyoen who mildy offends one of his friends, there are a lot of hot/badass edits out there (but a fair amount of cute/soft because of the foxee mULtiPLe contributions) and the first time andrew sees one (with multiple voiceovers of him trashing people) the foxes don't see them for hOuRs

okay that's all i can think of, but i might do more ;)

[bfrimod]

im so glad someone in the fr fandom is kink positive 🙏

with how restrictive the site is, most of the fandom seems unfriendly to nsfw at best

Bruh fandom was made by kinksters for kinksters I ain’t about to divorce myself from our gloriously smutty roots.

And if it helps, there seems to be a good chunk of kink positive people in the FR fandom, at least judging by the notes on my horny posts. The tumblr purge pretty much destroyed a lot of communities centered around or related to kink but we’re still here. Apparently it just took an ominous post about imp dick to pull people out of the shadows again.

That said, that’s pretty true. I’ve gotten a couple of asks I won’t discuss publicly in response to my willingness to post NSFW and kink, and that’s part of why I enjoy anonymity on the BFRI blog. Both because of that and it just... morphed into this massive thing of its own. I made Fucl reaction images and stuff but that was about it. It seems dishonest to go “here’s my aCtUaL FR name guys” when the reality is... Why’s it matter who I am “really”? “Mod” is no less real than my FR account, which is no less real than my irl persona. I’m engaging in the fandom and having fun, just doing it slightly differently than how I used to engage three years ago (albeit I mostly lurked lol). And Mod is a cheeky kink-positive fucker who is hellbent on sharing the worst ideas y’all can think up, which my friends also know about me, even if it’s not as BFRI Mod. Just because I wear a different hat doesn’t make me a different person. It’s like running into... idk a teacher at the grocery store, ya know? That’s also why I keep anon on, because y’all deserve to engage at your comfort level.

But real talk, let your freak flag fly. Y’all ain’t hurting anybody and we’re all here to have a good time. Who am I to rain on parades?

[achieveandhunt]

live typing extra life 2019

part 2

warning: this was a mistake and i’m in the grapes

this starts right at Facilities vs AH. link to first post

let’s fuck some shit up babEY

oh what the fuck they’re playing a prerecorded video

last year was a fuckin doozy, nobody forget that

“legends of the under achiever” i didn’t know someone wrote my biography

why do i hear geoff screaming “FIVE FUCKIN FOUR” in my head, like in the legends of the hidden temple minecraft videos

jeremy looks. so dead inside on this fine november evening

ryan buzzing while they’re trying to explain the rules

my video quality went down so much that i thought i was watching someone playing roblox for a second

ryan “salty mother fucker” haywood has made a lovely appearance. he’s my favorite

michael and lindsay looking so domestic makes me so happy,, they’re my parents

someone donated under the name “ryan goes feral” uh??? yeah? you say that like it’s a bad thing??

oH FUCK MICHAEL GO DRIVE WIN PLEASE

jeremy HAS BROKEN OUT THE GLASSES SHIT’S SERIOUS

NO THEY’RE LOSING GOD DAMMIT

ʳʸᵃⁿ ᶦⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃᶜᵏᵍʳᵒᵘⁿᵈ, ᵠᵘᶦᵉᵗˡʸ: ʰᵉˡᵖ

JEREMY IT’S TIME TO TEST OUT THAT NONEXISTENT GAG REFLEX AND SWALLOW THE OPPONENT’S CONTROLLER

oh nvm they’re winning again lmao

OH FUCK thEYRE LOSING

oh nvm

OH FUCK

oh nvm they unplugged his contoller lol

OH FUCKING TH EY LOST MICHAEL JONES MY HEART IS BROKEN

the amount of people watching has gone up from 32k to 40k in the past fifteen minutes

michael “hurry up you dumb cunts” jones

“oh don’t worry about destroying our cabinet, it’s essentially matchsticks”

“how are you feeling john? are you ready for this?” “MM M M Mmm mM”

TEAM NICE DYNAMITE IS NEXT AND IM READY FOR PERMANENTLY RINGING EARS FROM ALL THE LEET DONATIONS

oH god here we go

“hopefully they haven’t been saving them all day” oh honey. you’ve got a big storm coming

if xavier slaps gavin i think gav might go up in a puff of smoke

i did the math, they went up 45k+ within five minutes of team nice dynamite showing up on stream

GAVIN AND MICHAEL ARE GOING TO DIE

THERE’S GONNA BE A MOONBALL SIZED HOLE IN GAVIN’S CHEST

ryan and lindsay both donating a grand during this segment... so good

the day gavin free successfully gets a tattoo is the day i drop dead

lindsay saying she didn’t want the TND tattoo on michael but she agreed because gav is michael’s boi :((( 

i’m too sleep deprived for this i might cry

oh god michael’s punching the floor

i’m too sober for this

EIGHTY EIGHT LEET DONATIONS IN TWENTY MINUTES HOLY FUCJKIGN SHIT YOU GUYS ARE GONNA BE THROWING MOONBALLS FOR FUCKIN SIX YEARS

on a sentimental note- i love how much collective love we have for gav and michael,, they deserve it all

milk boarded has some not-so-great connotations attached to it

gavin “the bullshit bitch” free

a mark nutt reference?? in my 2019 extra life????

this just in: sarah is going to obliterate gavin

oh. oh my god. that was the sound of a wet fish smacking a wall

why is jeremy the liquor goblin walking like a crab that has a bird attached to its back??? see: flapping arms

that beer and milk concoction... gag

“drink that milk yard”

“YOU GOT MY TOES MILKY”

no. nO MICHAEL NO YOUR INTESTINES NOO

michael “the milk’s in my brain” jones

“stop pouring it on people!” “iT’S HARD DICKHEAD”

lindsay is now. taking a milk shower

*caiti brings a small roll of paper towels* *gavin gently places a single paper towel on the massive puddle of milk*

no LINDSAY NO THINK OF THE CHILDREN

gavin: this has gotten way out of hand. she’s... she’s swimming in an inch of milk! everyone knows you should swim in at least two!!

the fajita seasoning will solve everythinG everyone calm down

fiona: yeah this is my first extra life. jack: and what were you expecting? fiona: this. exactly this.

ah yes. the bunny suits have arrived and michael is ready to tackle gavin

aaaand here comes the AH fanfic. it can only get worse from here so buckle up fuckos

“holy fuckeroni”

“re-reanimated trevor”

michael is so fucking smashed and god i wish that was me

“cum-ductor”

fiona “this is a white man” nova

“bone-ating” *leet donation* *leet donation* 

“ready set blow” made me genuinely bust a lung laughing

aaaand michael’s licking the floor which is to be expected

jeremy “i’m gonna actually harm you” dooley

IF ONE MORE PERSON BRINGS UP RANCH IM GOING TO WALK TO AUSTIN AND PROJECTILE VOMIT ON THE OFF TOPIC SET

no JEREMY NO YOU WERE THE CHOSEN ONE I THOUGHT YOU WOULDN’T DO THIS GET OFF THE F  L O O R

don’t get close ups on jeremy’s tongue. don’t do that to me. i don’t want nightmares

“fuck root” “let’s just fucking fuck”

1 2 3 CONSENT

michael has gone full gerkie

alfredo’s look when larry is reading the part about trevor choking him is how i feel about everything that’s happened in the past twenty minutes

almost 300k in less than an hour 

fiona saying “i don’t want this” overlaying michael humping a trash can

“TAKE THE TACO CHAD”

aaaand michael’s in the trash can

nO why is there a triangle is this a POETRY READING ALL OF A SUDDEN

oh thank god it’s over

OH FUCK THERE’S A N EPILOGUE

aaand trevor’s dead again. poor treyco

DUSK BOYS DUSK BOYS DUSK BOYS EVERYONE PUT A CUP IN YOUR PANTS

people singing along... what goes on

why am i downloading this fuckin song asap

jeremy turning his phone flashlight on and waving it like he’s at a concert god dammit i love these people so much

those are my BOYS

oh my gosh they’re still singing the song. why is my heart so happy from this i need to get slapped

“come on you’ve never been waterboarded before gavin?”

everyone standing in a circle shining their flashlights at gavin

someone surprise them and instead of a moonball just yeet a whole gallon of milk at them

actually, on second thought, no

OH god GavIN Is GOING to Die 

gavin “i forgot to breathe” free

several milk explosions

gavin “my brain is cold” free

michael has milk dripping from his ears

i’m about to pass out i don’t know what’s happening

michael is in the grapes right now man

how many moonballs? oh, only 107. :)

i’m not writing this part- you guys have to watch the moonball segment yourself, if you didn’t watch it live!

team nice dynamite finishes up with over 300k!! holy shit, that’s so cool! this community is awesome

werewolf is up next!

xavier is such a gentleman can we keep him

alfredo: *chooses to kill miles* trevor in the audience: *silently freaking out*

xavier is about ruin another man on stream

miles has no self preservation instinct

barbara is now smelling fiona

this just in: i love alfredo and 100% would have done the same thing

trevor running up to film alfredo getting smacked. what an icon

alfredo SCREAMING oh my god i felt it in my soul

the high-five of the backs in solidarity of intense pain

miles choosing alfredo is so fucking good

and also, i feel so bad 

his heart might shoot out of his asshole this time guys

oh NOOO HE’s so bruised :(((( fredo nooo :((

oh my god it’s gotten to the usual point in the stream where you start to question whether someone is going to die this time

rip blaine but at least i think he can take the hit

he can but ouch it still hurts me 

barbara “i’m participating in the game” dunkleman

yo miles might win this game

the crowd when someone needs to shoot barb: TREVOR TREVOR TREVOR! trevor, with the strength of a thousand suns: N O

people are now chanting about shooting an unprotected trevor. the man already died once this stream god dammit

alfredo is about to throw hands for fiona

that’s a big F in the chat for miles, but his loss is well deserved

xavier’s hands could serve as a defibrillator

alfredo showed jeremy his chest and jeremy shied away as if he was looking at the sun

 --- i’m taking another break to finish an assignment---

i’m barely alive and it’s ready set show time 

oh god please no more shock collars

i’m so fucking tiiiiredd please take thge res t of this post  wigth  a grain of salt lbecasue i can hardly type at this ponitn 

“do you want to control the shock collars” “will there be repercussions” “no” “fuck yeah i’ll do it then”

“smother the children. steal the baby” “DONT STEAL THE BABY TREVOR”

lunging forward “s c a r e  t h e  b a b y” “OKAY I’M PASSING THIS ONE”

“you can’t bake popcorn????” jeremy hits the floor

alec and matt clearly = dream team

oh thasnk god the shock collars are on their arms now i was stressed out for chris earlier

this stream does not promote recreational nyquil usage 

i don’t even know how to explain the pure insanity of what ready set show has become

alec has become this whole segment

i would write more but i have no thoughts because my brain doesn’t work

larry “makes people fuck other people besides their wife” insert last name that my brain can’t come up with

anyways. marbles

oh. no marbles

i’ve blacked out idk what happened during backwardz compatible

i mean i was awake but does that really mean anything at this point

SPPOKU PSOOKY SPPOKKKY SPOOOKY !!! FUCL YEAH 

cole is so good during this segment

oh so many 1337s right away 

the real scariest thing during the segment: being genuine

oH my god the scream being pitched up. i have fucking dogs outside of my house now

i don’t fuck w/ ghosts no thank you

“aba-jail” wow if u guys weren’t gonna get haunted before you will now

okay i’m about to pass out i have to take a nap

oH fucking I SLEPT until thirty minutes before the en d  fuck

conclusion: this community is incredible and raised an unimaginable amount of money for charity. the fact that rooster teeth does this every year is awesome, and honestly, it makes me feel hopeful in times when things aren’t so great. so yeah! for the kids & stuff 

[swiftlyskippingdown16thavenue]

I am just not calm, I am freaking out, Im shaking this song is so fucling great and the album will brv too Taylif snappr and her albun will aswell omggggg

[cecinaytor]

i cant escape

so i cant watch American Horror Story season one (Muder House) because the cheating and beautiful maid and so much fucking lieing and how hurt the wife is, it makes me so upset. i told my boyfriend the other night i cant watch it. so we didnt. last night i woke up to a scene my brain recognized and i freaked out like i was on fucling auto drive. i told him "why the fuck are you watching this. i dont want to see or here it!"

in a very frustrated way he said "but you were sleeping it doesnt matter"

.....it does matter

bam just like that i shut down. cried for a whole hour. i fucking hate how stupid things like this can set me off. i couldnt help it.. my heart cant tale things like that... we didnt speak for an hour either. finally he asked if he could hold me. he put on a cartoon (i watch mostly cartoons cause of the little stress levels) and i continued to cry myself to sleep..

my poor boyfriend cant even watch a damn tv show without me crying..

im a mess. im a burden. he is tired. i am tired. i dont know how i could live without him.. no one here understands me. i feel so stupid. i feel like a failure. i dont want to be a victim anymore. i feel so lost. i can't shake these feelings.

i try to pretend like things dont bother me, so he doesnt leave me again.. but he knows me so well. he can see right through me. he is tired. i feel like im just waiting for him to leave my crazy ass. i dont mean to be like this. i feel as if i have no control. the sadness is there. its impossible to ignore.

what is wrong with me

[kimnjss]

Taehyung's friend group and Hoseok are honestly getting on my nerves at this point. YN got her heart broken in 2 ways when Taehyung left 8 years before and all they can think about is how fun it was and wanting to go back. And yeah JK out here claiming he cares about Taehyung and wants to help him, but nothing YN has done has indicated she wants to work it out. Her first weekend in the house wasn't as fun as it could have been because of them. So now because Jimin wants to go back they're going back and potentially ruining the rest of her summer??? And Taehyung is just letting it happen???

Yeah, I'm fine with the sad ending at this point. I get Taehyung had whatever the fucl going on that made him not tell her, but idc at this point. She deserves more than the game he's playing. So all of them gone for her never have to speak to again, including Hoseok if he doesn't get his shit together, and I will be content.

they're not the greatest :(( we can kinda use the excuse that they don't fully understand what has gone down between them . none of them besides namjoon have even heard of the other until that very day ., so them being lowkey trash could be bc they don't understand how deep it actually is . yn is dramatic ., so they tend not to take her serious when she's freaking out abt smth . as for taehyung in his friends - not only has he not mentioned yn to them at all ., he doesn't give anything away in terms of how he's feeling . so all they know that it's a little weird between them ., but not that he's stressing abt seeing her . nd jungkook ., he's really only worried abt what jimin wants nd helping tae out with yn is just a side effect to that . he didn't think twice abt how yn would feel abt it nd lowkey tae wants to go back ., he's just not the type to say it out loud .

[trulymadlysydney]

Hi i know you may not care about this but... I FUCKKING SAW PANIC AT THE DISCO TONIGHT AND IT WAS THE BEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE, BRENDAN URIE WAS LIKE 10 FEET AWAY FROM ME! HE WAS SO FUCKING HOT HE FUCLING ROSE OUT OF THE STAGE SHIRTLESS AND SWEATY AND HOT AS FUCK. AND WHEN HE SUNG DYING IN LA ON HIS FLOATING PIANO I BALLED MY EYES OUT.

Of COURSE I care babe THATS FANTASTIC I’m so happy for you and that sounds so freaking wonderful!!!! x

[danifandxm]

THOR RAGNAROK SPOILER THOUGHTS

THIS CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR THOR RAGNAROK

PROCEED AT YOUR OWN RISK.

• That fucking beginning had me dying

• S U R T U R!!! THOR FIGHTING SURTUR!!! WITH FUCLING LED ZEPPELIN PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND!!!! 

• SURTUR'S. DRAGON. HOLY FUCK

• The fact Thor was calling Heimdall and one of the women with Skurge had to point out that SOMEONE needed to teleport back to Asgard. Like smh Skurge you are not worthy of Heimdall's job

• THE FUCKING STAGE PLAY AND MATT DAMON AS LOKI??? I THOUGHT THE MATT DAMON THING WAS A JOKE??? APPARENTLY NOT

• Thor threatening to hit "Odin" with Mjolnir. Psssh I knew it was Loki bc Odin is not that laid back or.... Whatever flaws there were in that illusion. Like Loki you aren't even trying

•THOR PINNING LOKI DOWN WITH THE HAMMER!!!! LIKE I WAS DEAD IN THAT THEATER JUST WATCHING THAT??? 

• DOCTOR. STRANGE. AND. LOKI. MEETING.

• When loki pulled out the daggers to attack Strange, I was like: 'Where the fuck did they come from?? Out of his ass???'

• speaking of the daggers they look fucKIN SICK (def. making those for a future loki cosplay)

• "I HAVE BEEN FALLING... FOR 30 MINUTES??" BUT DID YOU DIE??? NO BITCH XD 

• how did strange know odin was in norway????

• THE SCENE IN NORWAY WITH ODIN AND HIS SONS. HE ACTUALLY CALLED LOKI HIS SON IM NOT FUCKING OK EVEN A DAY LATER

• when odin died I almost started crying. Like sure he was a complete asshole for the last two movie but I diDNT WANT HOM TO GO

• Thor IMMEDIATELY blaming Loki for Odin's death. Like, chill man

•THE FUCKINH REVEAL THAT HELA WAS THEIR SISTER???? LIKE I STILL DON' BELIEVE IT BC LOKI AND HELA ARE WAY TOO SIMILAR. 

• H E L A. HER ENTRANCE. I WAS GOD DAMN DYING INSIDE. AS A BI WOMAN I WAS FRUSTRATED AT MYSELF XD

• "Kneel." "I beg your pardon?"

• Loki calling on Skurge to take them back. Like smh what a wuss XD 

• LOKI BEING KNOCKED OUT OF THE THING WHEN THEY'E TELEPORTING??? I NEARLY HAD A FUCKING HEART ATTACK I THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD... AGAIN.

• S a k a a r. Oh my god it's so weird yet so pretty in some places.

• VALKYRIE??? I FUCKING LOVE HER??? I MEAN SHE DRINKS A SHIT TON BUT I STILL LOVE HER  

• the freaking thing Thor goes through in the chair with the lady's voice saying what Sakaar is.

• THOR'S GIRLY AF SCREAM HAHAHAHA

• The Grandmaster. Oh my god.... Fucking hilarious. 

• The mention of units??? Like the currency in GOTG??? Holy shit

• THE TASER THING THOR HAD IN HIS NECK AND WHEN IT WAS USED HAD ME LAUGHING

• THOR VS HULK. OH MY GOOOOOOD.

• Loki: I have to get off this planet  GM: bitch nah you staying here

• THOR'S NEW POWER??? HOLY SHIT IM SHOOK???

• oml everything korg says is just hilarious. He's v v precious prOTECT HIM

• thor finding out about Valkyrie and absolutely fanboying?? Like same???

• SIF COULD'VE BEEN A VALKYRIE NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT

• THEY DID THE WARRIORS THREE DIRTY. THAT WAS NOT FUCKING OK LIKE WHY WOULD YOU KILL THEM OFF?!?!?!?!?

• Bruuuuh when Thor could see through Heimdall's eyes??? Thor looks good with orange/yellow-ish eyes??? 

• Hela gracefully falling into the tomb??? Like holy shit if I wasn't super gay before

• HER KNOCKING DOWN THE INFINITY GAUNTLET HAD ME GOD DAMN DYING

•when I saw the Tesseract I nearly fucking screeched

• when Hulk threw around thor like a ragdoll in the arena I immediately got déjà-vu from the first Avengers movie bc the animation looked similar. Also Loki's reaction: "THAT'S HOW IT FEELS!"

• LOKI'S REACTION TO HULK BEING GM'S CHAMPION IN GENERAL

• THE BATTLE IN ASGARD??? WITH LED ZEPPELIN PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND AGAIN??? LIKE JUST START PLANNING MY FUNERAL RN

• "Your savior is here!"  Me, loudly in theater: "We're all gonna die."

• When they were flying towards asgard??? This was the first time we've seen Asgard from a space view??? Looks so god damn beautiful from afar.

• F E N R I S (or fenrir, however y'all pronounce it)!!! I was a little confused to see him dead bc in actual Mythology he's chained up to prevent Ragnarok?? But eh I won't complain... Also holy shit he was bigger than I expected 

• banner landing face first on the rainbow bridge oml bruce you TRIED

• loki actually calling him bruce!!!!!??? Like I think this is the first time they've ever really... Officially talked??? When bruce isn't hulk I mean

• THOR IDENTIFYING HIMSELF AS "POINT BREAK" IN THE QUINJET HAD ME AND MY MOM DYING

• THE MESSAGE FROM NATASHA HAD ME SOBBING

• bruce wearing tony's clothes

• when thor lost bruce for a minute after he said sakaar was probably designed to stress him out had even ME panicking

• oh god when they mentioned one of the ships was meant for the GM doing... Things I visibly cringed??

• GM winking at Loki had me on edge. Like BOI don't even

• "He's my brother!" "Adopted" D A M N

• "I request safe passage... Through the anus." L O K I

• LOKI BETRAYING THOR FOR A MINUTE BUT THOR JUST TURNING THE TABLES ON HIM

• ok the first five seconds of loki being tasered was ok,,, the rest was overkill like stOP HURTING HIM

• THOR JUST LEAVING LOKI LIKE GOD DAMN WHAT A BROTHER YOU ARE

• The "get help" scene oh my god

• "Well it seems that you are in despterate need of leadership" why am I getting flashbacks

• THE BLACK SUIT LOKI HAD AT THE BATTLE OF ASGARD??? LIKE TAKE ME NOW

• thor's snake story. Like loki why did you think stabbing him was a good idea. Also....thor likes snakes?? DOESN'T A SNAKE LIVE WITHIN THE OCEAN OF ASGARD??? or did, anyway 

• when loki looked at the tesseract when he was about to put surtur's skull on the eternal flame I was like: "BOI DON'T FUCKING DO IT" i think he did and I'm super worried

• WHEN HELA SLICED OUT THOR'S EYE I ALMOST SCREAMED

• when the team managed to get out of asgard I started panicking when I saw that Loki didn't come back like guys you don't unDERSTAND

• "I would hug you if you were here right now" "I'm here" FUCK IM CRYING NOW

• Loki saying the eyepatch suits Thor,,,, BBY NO

• ASGARD IS NOT A PLACE, IT'S A PEOPLE. HOLY SHIT THAT'S ICONIC 

• when heimdall took off his cloak thing and I saw his arms??? Consider me dead rn bc god daMN HE LOOKIN GOOD

• THE PEOPLE OF ASGARD FIGHTING OH MY GOOOD

• THOR'S COMING BACK TO EARTH OH MY GOOOOD

• "Let me rephrase that. Do you think it's a good idea for ME to come back to earth." S h i t  I didn't even think abt Loki for a sec

• WAS THAT HUGE ASS SHIP RONIN'S SHIP FROM GOTG OR IS THAT THANOS'???

• 'Thor will return in Infinity War' I yelled "YES" 

• THAT FIGHT BETWEEN LOKI AND VALKYRIE THO I COULD WATCH THAT ALL DAY

• NEW POWER WE HAVEN' SEEN LOKI DO BEFORE??? HOLY SHIT??

•HIS SNIDE REMARKS TO VALKYRIE LIKE BOI THIS GIRL COULD RIP YOU APART

• valkyrie definitely had a gf in her squad, just saying

• SOME OF THE VISUALS LOOKED LIKE A GOD DAMN MURAL YOU WOULD SEE IN AN ART MUSEUM HOLY SHIT. 

• loki using his horns as a weapon oml

THIS MOVIE WAS SO FUCKING GREAT I'D WATCH IT UNTIL I DIE

THANK YOU TAIKA

[inqshead]

no vacancy.

i was texting with katy when nojus came back. his hair was soaking wet and he tried to dry it with a white towel looking fine. he wore black pants to a tight black shirt with white socks and such a stunning smile. his cheeks were red and his lashes wet. i didn’t think nor hesitate, just spoke out what came to my mind. ,,are you okay?’’  nojus blinked surprised. ,,um yes. gonna grab the tea. any wishes?’‘ i lay on my belly, holding my head with my hands and tilted it sidewards. ,,surprise me.’‘ my heart missed a beat like omG. i mean, it got way more easy and honestly i couldn’t remember why i had been afraid. talking to him wasn’t difficult, it never was this comfortable with anyone else, even sava. yes, i still had a dying heart and my breath would go heavy or fast when he did certain things,, but i started enjoying those butterflies in my tummy and head and heart and just basically everywhere else. right now they tried to kill me. nojus smiled, threw that towel on his chair and left the room. i sighed really loud and long. gods. what happened to me?! when i opened my eyes and mumbled that this was a mess, in my tongue, i realized that nojus was back. ,,huh?’‘ that was fast. ,,i just wanted to add: don’t break anything and don’t delete the picture on your instagram.’‘ then the door closed and i was all alone again. what did just happen and who the fuck did he think he was? to calm my strange feels down, i decided to watch ‘(insert idol name) cute compilation’. at some point, when someone chewed a whole fortune kookie without taking out the paper first, i had to sit up crosslegged, couldn’t stop laughing and gave little ‘omgomgomgomg’s from me. ,,what’s with those sounds again?’‘ i screamed and jumped up to my feet, holding my hands up to fight. nojus stood in front of the door, an old fashioned jade-colored tray in his hands. i smelled cookies. i let my hands sink down. ,,oh.’’ we just stared at each other. ,,sorry.’’ still staring. ,,i have cookies.’’ ,,gimme.’’ we sat down on his bed. he leaned on the end with the pillows and i sat vis-à-vis. the tray between us. the tea smelled like heaven. it was warm, but not too hot. the cookies were soo delicious i nearly fainted. and for the first time in a while, i was hungry. and i thought of sava. it made me go insane that it would take so long until i could finally talk with him. i wanted the time to fly away, so that i could find out why he did what he did. on the other hand i wanted time to stop. i needed more time with nojus. speaking of him, i was so lost in thought, that i hadn’t realized he was talking to me. ,,- my girlfriend-’‘ i teared my eyes open. ,,your what?!’‘ omomomg nononono my world. oh no my world just fucking collapsed. nothing worked. i was going to die, about to jump down from his balcony. he laughed. he freaking laughed. ,,see, you only listen when i say such stuff!’‘ his laugh was so precious, it immediately cured my anxiety and selfdoubts. i still couldn’t move, until he added. ,,that was a lie ty.’‘ ,,you-how dare you.’‘ he continued laughing, while i wasn’t able to believe how mischievous he was. (how could i ever think he was a serious person, when he just cared so much and laughed, and made fun of me) my mouth was wide open and he didn’t even think of stopping. nojus hold his belly and had tears in his eyes. out of breath he said: ,,you really believed i had a girlfriend! hhaha.’‘ ,,ey! how dare you laughing!’‘ i don’t know why, but i was so caught in this moment that i started tickling him. i sat half on him and yes i realized that, but i had everything under control until he grabbed both my wrists and changed positons. nojus sat right on me held my arms besides my head. okay i won’t lie. this was intense. and i hoped he’d kiss me. his eyes seemed lost in a chaos whose whole extent i’d never be able to catch. not like sava, whose soul was drunk by the thought of love, a fruit he forbid himself to taste. thinking of sava. my blood started boiling and everything screamed no. nojus leaned down. he wasn’t heavy. when he looked me in the eye and i could feel his warm breath like a soft summer brease on my skin, i jumped throughout the times and suddenly nojus’ brown hair turned black and those blue diamonds changed places with grey souleaters. my breathing turned so fast that i barely could hold it under control. ,,you know, i’m a curious person.’‘ his voice sounded dark and heavy. if not sexy. raspy kinda. full of secrets. ,,so, how comes you won’t answer when i ask what happened that you had to make those squeaky sounds. don’t tell me it’s slime again. i think highly of you, so please don’t destroy that.’‘ slowly the world started to break into pieces. the grey turned into a blue that took my heart by storm. the beaten black changed to soft brown hair. his face wasn’t that close no longer. nojus. this was nojus. not sava. that one was thousands of miles away from here. although it felt as if nojus was too. he hadn’t kissed me. i was confused. my heart bled out. but i felt also somehow relieved. ,,oh. ooh. no it was a guy that ate a fortune cookie with the paper still in it not noticing it.’‘ i smiled really dumb when thinking of it, too cute man. ,,are you being serious right now.’‘ i laughed. ,,i guess.’‘ he rolled his eyes, smiling. and wasted not a thought if he should, i dunno, get off of me(?). at least my hands were free now. he interlaced our fingers and played around, made moves and seemed happy. ,,i’m so glad you’re as nice and special as i hoped you were.’‘ i didn’t dare to answer, he wasn’t finished yet looking out of the window and showing me the sharpest jawline on earth. was that some kind of declaration? ,,you know, when i first saw you i was surprised. you looked so interesting, so colorful and so innocent.’‘ oh god. what was we going to say? wait. he thought something like that, about someone like me?! bruh no way. ,,but when you started talking you seemed  so distracted and, i dunno, so disgusted. as if you didn’t like how deteriorated it is here compared to your rich home country. and that made me...not necessarilay angry, but sad. disappointed. i thought there would be more to you. but then you were so thankful, and that made me doubt my opinion. but when i took your order you ignored me again and you didn’t even care about leaving. and then i wanted to help you up and you just ignored me!’‘  disgusted? i was caught in his impact, i had been so lost in the color of his lips and shape of his words. gods, if he knew why i didn’t react or anything... he made me angry. i sat up and he slid off of me. ,,then why did you came down to me, if you didn’t like me or don’t, i don’t know.’‘ we still held hands. ,,because i wanted to know for sure. and it turned out to be a very very good idea. i don’t regret it. you’re as wonderful and extraordinary as i hoped you would be.’‘ i was so stunned. and i just hugged him. i wasn’t afraid. he held me tight, i could barely breathe. ,,i thought you were an arrogant asshole and i felt so threatened and vulnerable. you have no idea what kind of an intense impact you have. that’s crazy. but i’m so glad that you’re nice to me. i mean, you even made me tea!’‘ he ended the hug. ,,but that’s what people do. caring. don’t your people do that?’‘ i had to laugh. ,,no they don’t.’’ i was like so ready to kiss him. but it felt wrong. not wrong as in you’re-just-a-friend-actually-wrong, but as in i-am-not-sure-if-you’d-want-me-to-i-should-wait-wrong. why would such a wonderful person kiss me? i don’t know anymore what we did after that, but we lay on our backs, his feet at the end with the pillows and mine on the other end. our heads next to each other. we started asking each other questions. the cookies were empty, the tea as well. i was full. the sun didn’t start rising yet. ,,who were the people on the picture earlier?’‘ i’m sure i just made that up, but he sounded kinda envious. ,,uh. katy. she’s a year younger than me. a close friend. and sava. my best friend.’‘ he made a ‘hm’ sound, kind of unsatisfied. ,,how old are you?’‘ ,,eighteen. you?’‘ ,,about to be seventeen. where are you from?’‘ ,,from here. are you in a relationship?’‘ i laughed. ,,me? no. never. no one would want me.’‘ i knew that was wrong. at least kinda. sava proved me wrong. and maybe nojus as well. i didn’t dare asking him. and i started feeling sleepy. ,,i guess i have to go now. i’m really tired.’‘ he tilted his head until we could look at each other. he seemed half asleep as well. the moon shone inside by that time. it was an act of light and shadow, that wandered all over his face. he was so unbelievable gorgeous and i could’ve looked at him forever. ,,okay. i’ll come with you. just a sec. what are you doing tomorrow? we have kinda a dance party or something in the evening here.’‘ ,,sounds good. we’re going to visit a farm, nothing special.’‘ ,,okay cool. the party’s at the pool, behind the building.’‘ wait. stop. nonono. water?! oh gods. people tend to wear not much when being near a pool. fucl it. why did they need to have a pool. that was shit. i got up, put his mac and the tray on his desk. ,,ohkay. you stay here. you’re more asleep than awake. see you tomorrow. thanks again. goodnight nojus.’‘ ,,say that again’‘, he mumbled sleepy with closed eyes.. ,,what?’‘ ,,my name. i like the way you pronounce it.’‘ ,,nojus?’‘ he moaned happily. i laughed and shivered at the same time. the butterflies turned into shooting stars that burned me from the inside. ,,sleep tight.’‘ he didn’t answer,, breathed heavy and slow. what a boyfriend look. dayum. i can’t remember the way back to my room, but i dreamed of the moon and slept until hammering fists on my door woke me up. ,,tiberius get the fuck out of your bed. it’s ten a.m.!’‘ ,,shut up olive!’‘

chapter six end.

[neilabrmarchive]

THE TRAILER DROPS AND IM AT A MUSEUM FUCLING HELL AND I HAVE WIFI ONLY FOR A LIMITED TIME FUCKFUXKUF I CANT FREAK OUT HERE