#fuckthisshitman

[anarchist-soupkitchen]

Another update on my life- again again

So it seems like my luck has run out. The only thing that I needed to pull through for me didn’t. I’m facing being stuck here in a small bigoted village for at least another year. And it’s fucking agonising.

Like all queer people and other minority’s I saw university as an out. Somewhere where I could get away from it all. Where I could cut my hair, and fucking dye it, and dress how I want, and date who I want, and change my fucking name. As long as I’m here, I’m held back, knowing if I do any of that, I’m being disowned.

My plan is to resit maths while doing a degree close to home. So I could hopefully get a good grade where I could transfer to the course I wanted next year.

In other news, I achieved an A in my art course so as soon as I get my Etsy shop set up I’ll be able to say you’re buying from a quality artist. Going of what the examiners think.

[bjsrer]

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[og-niaa4l]

Personal as fuck

Night terrors suck! I rather die than sleep. They fucking tear into my soul and bring my horrors to life. The last night terror before this one I dreamt of my rape. Vivid as if it just happened. I was finally doing okay and then I have another. Like........... FUCKING WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!

[offthemedicine]

What the fuckin fuck man.

[darktroubleinparadise]

I thought that I had forgotten what it felt like, but it never truly left. Still hanging in the stale air, waiting until I'm vulnerable. Now.

[c-ub]

MY BOOBS HURT SO MUCH. I CANT WEAR A BRA BUT WEARING ONE HURTS THEM OMG. I HATE THIS. anyone else get that??? tell me I'm not crazy and alone in this