#fucking... ill make a job tag too I GUESS i dont think ill draw him again but whatever lmfao

[brodyfoxxsmassivetits]

he's the hottest flower boy that popped up on the scene!!!

+ more jon slop(shocker) gave him a twin brother who doesn't look that much like him because I thought it'd be funny..Jon n Job

i could probably scrounge up moar doodles but darn!! img limit...saved by the bell brodites.... I'LL GET YOU NEXT TIME

[misterbitches]

This is a personal kinda critique/my thoughts w the show im in my phone in a hotel w my parents in boston and im just rly fucking crazy rn and i cant put a read more link my bad. tagging it just in case cos i have some technical thoughts too but i doubt ppl care. I may delete this. Why is ttumblr for iphone so vad where the eff is the read more jawn.......ANYWAY

my uncle died and it has taken an insane emotional toll on me more than i thought possible. spiraling me i to an episode. when the pandemic began, i remember i was watching 2gether and it gave me solace because i had nothing else. i lost two jobs—one very important for my career—my relationship with my parents is fraught, im 29, and i have to live with them. but when i look back on 2gether, since it was what i was doing a lot at the time bc we could do even less than now, i dont feel a connection i just watched it at the time.

blih may be like this, but my uncle died...the day before it aired. I guess i watched it the next day out of desperation. I just went to check and im crying now. Idk what memories ill have of the show and i hate marking periods of my life by such silly capitalist output but what choice do we have anyway? it was nice because i got to see something mild and sweet.

and i have to say, the mom cameo was really touching. so was director mai. having grief and having a really neglected childhood those two things made me cry. they got his mother’s reaction downpat to losing the love of her life and being a widow—it hit me like a ton of bricks to hear that talk then go to the memorial service snd take care of my cousins and be there for my aunt. Im no one and not a widow but that type of love for a partner and being able to celebrate him abd love him completely forever and not having the memory leave you. It is important to me to see that it is possible. This could lie the rub between BL just for BL sake or like actual shows that are dramas that happen to have different types of ppl and not ignoring their way of life or possibility (“querrness means possibility” - a famous thai auteur named joe)

love is a really beautifl and previous thing and people deserve happiness and respect and to be loved. theres a person who is with you and the people around you and one day they could leave. for whatever reason. should we not try? if not for the emotional buts i think the show would be something people care less avout but that was a draw. and for the first time in so long especially for a BL i thought, “wow, i feel something and i’m having fun.”

it’s hsrd to talk about and personal. i miss him more than life itself. Some days it is so bad. I want to exit the earth and dnot do it anymore. but theres little teeny thngs that make it a bit better to hold on. lol theres so much to do and to be happy with. and so much to fall into despair. id rather watch it go by but i dont want to miss a chance to feel what they feel or loving people around me and finding the love of my life and my calling.

it was nice to wait for something every week that was sort of like a friend and to see a lot of the same problems im facing too. pain of loss and moving on isnt running away i guess. im similar to jyz in the fact that id rather not do it at all to not lose what i never had. i wish i didnt know my uncle, because i wouldnt feel this way but if i never knew him bow could i have loved someone so much and known him? wouldnt that bee a loss? isnt giving up and closing yourself off to force people to come to you because youre scared just as slefish? Dunno.

The show made me think a lot ans it was just perfect timing i guess. it didnt help me run away from my demons but it quelled them for a time and reminded me i could be better too.

Now as an artist with insane abandonment issues i can safely say that production mistakes were a plenty and most egregiously i would NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER be able to handle the level of stress of having someone that fucking left me back. That would destroy me, when JYZ was upset around him i was and all the signs were about a relaly oppressive difficult person but they introduced him too late. but ironically i saw the patterns of abuse i went/go through w my parents and my distrust meter skyrocketed and because aaron lai is a good actor, it extra hurt. he acted like a small child—the same feelings i was having at that exact week and i felt the force of it. I feel like that was a missed opportunity and i get why but this is what i mean about the feelings they were able to get down. The actors did legwork from the script to their delivery but it alsk means the script wasnt totally atrocious. Ok now im talking in circles.

This is kinda like to my star, a nice show, tranqhil, and sorrowful but eventually just hopeful. Maybe it’s the hopefulness and peace idk. I just wish my life was calm like that but again escapism abd then they hit u with the rela shit and u cant take it

And the little prince....st exupery was an anti fascist so thats good but the whimsy of that book and the beauty of continuing or...the prince knew he was heading first into something he may not make it out of but he did it because why not? Why not go to the fullest? Nothing is set in stone. The prince didn’t understand adults but he didnt have to. He was going through life searching and encountered hardships but still took the chance. He didnt run away.

[sonq-minqi]

50 questions tag

tagged by: @whoayoung thanks dude!

1. What takes up too much of your time? drawing

2. What makes your day better?

3. What’s the best thing that happened you today?

4. What fictional place would you like to go? Hmmmm idk

5. Are you good at giving advice? I like giving it but its probably pretty bad

6. Do you have any mental illness? Not that i know of

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? nope

8. What musician inspired you the most? Mingi because 1: i just wanna draw him all day and 2: honestly falling in love with him so completely during kq fellaz era and seeing him barefaced really made me realize that if i  can think hes a beautiful angel with his acne scars that i can think the same thing about myself and yeah. Self confidence i guess lmao

9. Have you ever fallen in love? Hm maybe lowkey

10. What’s your dream date? If it was first date maybe something like going to a movie or lunch kind of thing. If it was after ive been in the relationship for a while just chilling together and cuddling would be nice lol

11. What do others notice about you? Maybe that i read a lot? That i have no filter? idk

12. What is the annoying habit you have? Picking at the skin on my fingers

13. Do you still talk to your first love? Yeah theyre still one of my best friends

14. How many ex’s do you have? 0

15. How many songs are on your playlist? 375

16. What instruments can you play? I used to do piano

17. Who do you have the most pictures of? Ravi. i used to have 3000+ photos of him save don my phone but now i only have around 1500

18. Where would you like to go before you die? antartica

19. What is your zodiac? aries

20. Do you relate to it? Generally yes

21. What is happiness to you? Not really sure what this question is asking exactly, but for me, what makes me happy is art and when ur chilling with ur friend and they make some innocuous comment and you say something vaguely funny back and they just absolutely piss themselves laughing

22. Are you going through anything right now? Not really

23. What’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? Idk ive made many bad decisions in my life but none so hideous that they immediately stand out

24. What’s your favorite store? The produce store near my house because oreos are 3 dollars and instant noodles are seventy cents

25. What’s your opinion on abortion? Do what you want folks

26. Do you keep a bucket list? nope

27. Do you have a favorite album at the moment? Hmm maybe The Dream Chapter : Star?

28. What do you want for your birthday? My birthday just passed so i know what im getting but a carbon fibre dragon boat paddle!

29. What are most peoples first impressions of you? A lot of my friends say they thought i was kind of intimidating and mean?? Im pretty blunt most of the time so i can kind of see it

30. What age do you seem according to most people? Idk people dont generally comment on my age

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? Under my pillow because i want brain cancer if my tenth grade science teacher has accurate information

32. What word do you say the most? Probably like

33. What’s the oldest age you would date? I dont think i would date someone who’s not the same age at this point tbh

34. What’s the youngest age you would date? ^^

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you? artist

36. What’s your favorite music genre? Ill be honest i still dont know what kinds of music go into which genres

37. If you could live in any country in the world where would it be? If i knew japanese, japan. As it is though, probably amsterdam or the usa

38. What is your current favorite song? Whenever by SBFive

39. How long have you had this blog for? 1 year

40. What are you excited for? To hang out with my friend tmrw

41. Are you a better talker or listener? Talker maybe? Neither is the correct answer probably though

42. What is the last productive thing you did? Working on an art project for school as i type this

43. What do you want for Christmas? Some pants cause i only have one pair that i wear outside the house at this point

44. What class do you get the best grades in? animation

45. On a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 8 not bad but not awesome

46. What can you see yourself doing in 10 years? No fucking clue

47. When did you get your first heart broken? never

48. At what age do you want to get married? I cant really imagine myself being married tbh

49. What career did you want to have as a child? veterinarian

50. What do you crave now? Some milk but the milk at my house right now is a month old so i m scared to drink it

tagging: @ateezartblog @emotiadouche @softmingis @gothicmingi @hongjooong @sug-er

[grainipioz]

21 questions

I was tagged by @gh0stbat (thanks sib!!)

Rules: Answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people you want to get to know better!

Nickname: I don’t have one cause my name’s pretty short already yknow? But my middle names are Jasper and Arthur so if anyone wants to call me Jasp or Arty I wouldn’t say no. it’s totally not because of characters I like

Zodiac: Libra bitch (I don’t actually... believe in zodiac stuff)

Height: idk like 5′3″ or 5′4″? been a long time since I checked, I must be around 160cm now

Last movie I saw: The Theory of Everything! Great photography that movie

Last thing I googled: code lyoko or instagram I think?

Favourite musician: At the moment I listen to Cavetown and Ninja Sex Party a lot

Song stuck in my head: none because I’m listening to music right now but before that it was the cantina song from Star Wars

Other blogs: @miloomezai-draws, @forest-mlm, and a bunch of inactive blogs. I’m planning to run @ace-ass-inn more seriously, as a blog for my oc Elly

Do I get asks: Barely but it makes my day each time

Blogs following: I follow 609 blogs (holy shit) and 85 people follow my main (this blog)

Amount of sleep: Depends. Often 5 hours or less, but my ideal time (if I’ve got no alarm clock or whatever) is around 7 or 8 hours if I’m not exhausted

Lucky number: fuckin’ five. I like 7 too

What I’m wearing: White tee-shirt, grey checkered sweater, and big ass blue jeans (they’re ripped too but that’s not intentional)

Dream job: not dying Probably like being a theatre actor or something? I have no idea help me

Dream trip: Ireland, Scotland or New Zealand I guess? A totally imaginary trip would be to go on an adventure but like with dragons and stuff, but it’s going to be complicated I think

Favourite food: pasta (it’s so damn good like give me any pasta and I’ll be glad) or uuuuh lemon stuff

Play any instruments: Kind of? I used to play the saxophone and kind of play the piano but I’m really bad at it and it’s been a long time since I played. I like to sing though! Not great at it however.

Languages: French, English, basic Spanish. (and I wish I could learn American and French Sign Languages)

Favourite songs: right now, I’m Still Here, but sometimes it’s Danny Don’t You Know, Lemon Boy, King and Lionheart, or A Sadness Runs Through Him (or GFY)

Random fact: I used to have five incisers instead of four in my upper row of baby teeth and it fucked my teeth up so now I have braces and I hate it

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: running off into the woods, climbing a tree and not wanting to come down, being barefoot, autumn and hot beverages, Middle Earth, mist, heelies, oversized hoodies and plaid shirts, being tired all the time, not really studying for tests, doodling in class, bringing a notebook and a pencil everywhere I go, bright smiles, being confused all the time, succulents and potted plants

Tagging: @overtherainbw, @diamandsthings, @the-djinn-inside, @raven2460, @mouchika23 (only if y’all want to)

[bicyclestandard]

92truths

tagged by @risquetendencies​ (a babe if there ever was one)

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag (lol)

LAST… [1] drink: water [2] phone call: casey called me back bc she always does [3] text message: “ps imma drop by the lanes to say hi real quick” [4] song you listened to: “mess” by real friends [5] time you cried: the other day i cut my fingers cleaning the grill vents pretty bad 

HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: no [7] been cheated on: yea [8] kissed someone and regretted it: yes [9] lost someone special: yes [10] been depressed: yea [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: ha definitely

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: [12] dark red [13] royal blue [14] black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes [16] fallen out of love: never been in love i guess [17] laughed until you cried: yes [18] found out someone was talking about you?: yeah [19] met someone who changed you: for sure! [20] found out who your true friends are: ye [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: definitely

GENERAL… [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of em [23] do you have any pets: my cat, lou [24] do you want to change your name: yes! i dont like my full name [25] what did you do for your last birthday: went to a strip club in osaka! [26] what time did you wake up: 9:30 [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: watching food videos while @risquetendencies told me to go to sleep [28] name something you cannot wait for: to graduate! to grow up but not old, to have some stability in my life haha [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: two weeks ago i went home for a couple of days [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i was more confident in myself [31] what are you listening to right now: “my worst nightmare” by forever the sickest kids [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: my dad’s name is tom [33] something that is getting on your nerves: my cat takes up the whole bed bc i have a twin sized mattress [34] most visited website: probably some kind of online manga reader [35] elementary: it’s over [37] college: i feel like ive made it this far just to fail. but if i drop out with two months left ill hate myself even more than if i stick it out and have to take summer classes [38] hair color: i just dyed it for the first time. ive been calling it dark ginger. i want to bleach it tho [39] long or short hair: short but not short enough [40] do you have a crush on someone: sort of [41] what do you like about yourself? i like that i can be alone and happy [42] piercings: yeet [43] blood type: o positive my guys [44] nickname: jay, jaybird, jaysus, jj, jimmie johnson’s less redneck twin [45] relationship status: casually making out w a few different people [46] zodiac sign: gemini [47] pronouns: he/him [48] fav tv show: maybe the office or the league [49] tattoos: nah [50] right or left handed: right handed

FIRST… [51] surgery: i got my wisdom teeth removed [52] piercing: ears, i was 15 and cool [53] best friend: leah and john [54] sport: my mom put me in gymnastics. it was a disaster [55] vacation: topsail island i think [56] pair of trainers: probably some handmedowns

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: shack food tbh [58] drinking: water [59] i’m about to: read a little before bed [60] listening to: ambient rain sounds [61] waiting for: my meds to kick in so i can sleep [62] want: to get a job and have a future and be less stressed [63] get married: yes please [64] career: im a student and a restaurant worker and a marketing assistant for a publishing company and its too much. i just want a decent paying, normal 40 hours a week job and an apartment with a full sized bed

WHICH IS BETTER… [65] hugs or kisses: kisses [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: don’t care unless they care [68] older or younger: as long as they’re over 20 and under 30 im good [70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms fuck [71] sensitive or loud: loud i guess [72] hook up or relationship: relationships are cool but im better at hookups [73] troublemaker or hesitant: i want a troublemaker but someone hesitant would probably balance me better tbh

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? often [75] drank hard liquor? more often [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? i don’t wear glasses or contacts [77] turned someone down: yes [78] sex on first date? define date [79] broken someone’s heart? probably not [80] had your own heart broken? nah im stone cold [81] been arrested? no [82] cried when someone died? yes [83] fallen for a friend: often

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? uh, ask again later [85] miracles? yea [86] love at first sight? no [87] santa claus? no [88] kiss on the first date? yess [89] angels? maybe the angels kai draws

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: emily [91] eye color: my eyes are brown which is lame but sometimes they seem black bc theyre so dark. i like green eyes on other people [92] favorite movie: oh brother where art thou

tagging: @spazlow, @gladosknightandthepips @wowieitsablog @kaiyouchan, @skittidyne, @chosenofkagami @souliebird, @mitsouparker @cheatos

(feel free to not if you don’t want to, or if you’ve already been tagged)