#fuck my transboy life

[red-might-be-dead]

so evil that i have to take off my makeup before bed. why did i put you on

[cosmicpoutine]

so you said pride month is just another month (honestly it’s kinda the same for me, I also draw lgbt stuff nonstop) but I’m trans and just curious if you have any trans headcanons or anything for characters? (from anything?) or art/design concepts? you have a lot of cool ideas so I decided I’d get over the anxiety of being ignored and ask!! 🥰🥰

(no guilt if you decide not to answer! it’s (my ask) a bit pushy, isn’t it?)

OMG YES I DO HAVE HEADCANONS

i really like the idea of trans tim, but he never tells anyone bc he passes too easily, and BATMAN doesn't notice on tim's files or anything bc they're too busy fighting crime and shit. but when bruce finally finds out, he goes on a transboy dad mode and makes sure that tim has everything that he needs. the bathrooms of the manor are stocked with menstrual hygiene products (not only for tim bc im sure selina mentioned getting her period at his house ONE TIME, and he asked alfred to stock up). bruce redesigns the robin suit to have a safe binder that would be comfortable for tim.

tim doesn't get top surgery until he's living at the marina because he finally felt safe enough knowing there would be a community that not only understands but KNOWS how to take care of him post-surgery. i dont think most of the bat family knows that he's trans (but that's just because he forgets about it too), so he demanded a week off from the vigilante life in order to get top surgery and recover (it takes a lot longer than that, but you know how tim is) and the bats that didn't know started freaking out wondering what the fuck was going on.

jack drake also completely forgot tim was trans (as in he thinks tim amab) so when tim asked to go on T he was like???

anyways, these are my headcanons for now, i could probably talk about this forever lol i have not made any art for it yet, but 6 pride month, so maybe i will. altho, like i said, im queer 24/7, so i might pull up with trans art anytime

and cue shameless self-promotion because the main character of lonely prince club is trans too!

[our-ftm-experience]

I don't know what to tell younger transboys about transitioning medically anymore.

It's life saving treatment but the way doctors treat you, the constantly having to beg adults to belive that you exist, the presure to be the ideal transmed perfect image of a suicidal teenage boy for doctors and teachers and parents, the soul sucking waiting lists, the creepy sexual questions. I spent my whole teenage years being the perfect trans boy. I never got to be a kid and I didnt even get on T till I was 17 anyway.

I still think of almost any personality trait I have in medical terms. I'll always feel like a patient on a waiting list, like I can never tell pepole anything non typical about my manhood or somhow a doctor will take away my T.

Everthing I am is shaped by what some hypothetical cis doctor might think but I needed the testosterone and surgery so so badly. I did everthing right and the medical system waited until my boyhood was already gone anyway. Maybe I could've just excepted it if I knew it would only happen when I was 18. Then again, maybe I wouldn't've made it.

Your experiences are valid. I hope that someday the system will be functional and not super fucking shitty.

[sumplysilly]

Always thinking abt that post about ppl denying trans men language so we can't talk about our experiences

I, as a trans man, am seen as a tainted woman, & suffer the abuse I've suffered my entire life, that I recognize as misogyny (bc I've dealt w it my entire life, as previously mentioned). I am assaulted specifically bc I am a trans man & they think being assaulted will make me more feminine. But I can't talk about my specific experience w transphobia bc it isn't the same as what transfemmes experience. & I can't talk about my specific experience w misogyny bc it isn't the same as what cis women experience. But also I can't have my own language bc trans men are icky & don't get assaulted.

Transfemmes can talk about not experiencing male privilege when they're closeted but we can't say hey!! I experience that too as a trans man!! Bc the point isn't our experiences being valid or not, it's making sure we can't speak. It doesn't matter if u call your experience transmisandry or transandrophobia or whatever instead of misogyny bc the point isn't about not stepping on toes, it's about shutting us up. They don't care if trans men experience a higher rate of violence than cis women, or that trans men have a high rate of suicide. If trans men can't talk about our experiences, ppl can continue to ignore the statistics & say their transphoba is justified.

When I read about cis men having sex with trans men specifically to spread STDs to us, or see stories about trans men that were murdered, & the only ppl that spread those stories are a couple transmasc mutuals. I really feel tired. When I share posts about transmasc issues with 100 notes max & a bunch of transmascs tag it w "I'm Tired" I really feel tired. When I see other trans ppl buy into what TERFs say about trans men & use their ignorance of transmasc issues to tell themselves that trans men don't suffer transphobia, I really feel tired.

When I share my experiences & am dogpiled for the 100th time w the same 3 transphobic talking points coming from cis & trans ppl alike I really feel tired. & isolated. & suicidal. But I'll still do it bc I'm a fucking annoying cunt. & I hope other trans men & mascs see me being annoying & know that they aren't the only tired isolated transboys out there. I've felt isolated my entire life not being able to talk about my experience as a weird girl, & now as an adult trans man. & I feel like I'll die feeling unheard & unloved. & nobody will care, & my parents will bury me under my deadname. I'm too much of an annoying cunt to die though I'll keep looking at transmasc art & listening to transmasc music & stories bc it breaks my heart that transmascs aren't celebrated or cared about. I wish trans men of all colors & sizes could talk about our lives without being called entitled or annoying. I louve transmascs & trans men I hope all of u continue to live & create art & share your experiences. I'll love u if the rest of the world won't

[symphonic-scream]

Some Okujima/MakoHaru from the Transboy Haru arcana swap au

Okay so Makoto is just another schoolmate to them until Kobayakawa tells her he needs her to find out what they want and why they're connected to Kamoshida

So Makoto investigates.

Haru sniffs out how pathetic she is instantly and he just. "Goddamn. I need her to break"

Shiho: oh, that's Niijima-Senpai. She's just a puppet for the principal, thinks it'll get her into a good school.

Haru: "thinks"?

Shiho: ...the last two who did what she did? They work at Wild Duck burger.

Haru: that's not fair!

Futaba: well he let Kamoshida continue his bullshit, so I wouldn't expect him to be very fair

Haru: but what about Niijima? We can't just leave her to suffer...

Shiho: she got herself into this, I mean,, but. We can look into it, I guess

Shiho isn't super keen on helping Makoto at first. But then she finds out Makoto had actually tried to get the school to install an elevator while Shiho was recovering. And that Makoto nearly lost her spot for that

So then she's *extra* eager to help

Shiho: I couldn't see it, but she was always trying to help us, the other students... Fuck, and we screwed her over! We played into Kobayakawa's hand!

Cause his plan was to turn Makoto into a shell by distancing her from her peers and it worked

Until Haru and the gang trick her into going into the Metaverse and she awakens and goes to stay on the Yoshida couch while taking down the man that ruined her teen years

Makoto: I'm sorry I couldn't stop those rumours about you not being a guy

Haru: ...I am trans, like. For real

Makoto: ...oh. STILL-

Makoto all drowsy after their awakening, having to be half carried back to Yongen. Haru gets them a blanket and PJs from their basement and head back to the beef bowl shop

Makoto: hey, Yoshida,,

Haru: Haru. We're friends now

Makoto: r-right,, Haru,, thank you. For saving me

Haru: everyone deserves a chance, Makoto.

Makoto: ...yeah. I'll, see you in the morning,

Makoto is crushing instantly

Makoto hugs Haru on impulse when the change of heart takes place. Big, warm hug. Soft tears in his shoulder

The next day, Makoto comes to school from their first night back with Sae, proudly wearing a new pronoun pin and pants, and they look so at eade

Their social link with Haru is. Haru comes along while Makoto apologizes to their classmates and students they screwed over with Kobayakawa, and setting up for uni applications

And then the ROMANCE

Cause one student Makoto apologizes to is Eiko, who thanks Makoto for stopping her from ruining her life when they were friends as kids. And they keep talking. And Makoto invites Haru on a double date

Makoto: it, doesn't have to be romantic. But this is her first girlfriend and, we're the queerest people she knows- but- i wouldn't mind if it was romantic-

Haru: I'd love to go on a date with you

They kiss in an alley after the date, Makoto's back to a wall, arms around Haru's neck, basically making out, Haru's hands under their little dress sweater, just

Makoto: I've liked you since you first saved me,

Haru: damn,, I can't tell when I fell. Just, all I know is you make my stomach spin and my head float

Makoto: I can't wait to have things with you. Hand over my jacket when it's cold, cuddle with you in the mornings and evenings, to kiss you goodnight and good morning and-

Haru: you're hot

Post plot like. Man,,

Makoto wants to be a school administrator. To make things better. They're starting low, as an education assistant, and they excitedly tell the teachers about the vacation they're taking to help their husband heal from surgery, and then a small trip with their friends for a reunion

Haru, with his nice little neighbourhood restaurant and cafe, and scheduled dick surgery, all set for their first year post secondary school

They got married, went on a trip with their friends, and it was Strikers Strikers happens much later here for funnies and they meet the Shadow OPS fully

Haru and Makoto not having their own kids. But they babysit the three young children of a former teacher, his husband and their wife

Strikers but it's been like 4-5 years not like a few months and it's CRAZY

Makoto: damn, I almost missed this

Goro: LEAVE ME ALONE

Morgana: *loud eating noises*

Futaba: NEVER!!!!

The gives years later with Haru looking mostly the same but slightly more buff? And Makoto, dressing in darker, baggier clothes. With ties and sweaters for work and big tees and shit otherwise, Undercut with a lil ponytail with it, glasses

Makoto: this is my husband!

Haru: my partner,,,

Toranosuke being so excited to have more of his sons home. It's been just him and Morgana for a little while. Bear hugs Haru when he and Makoto come back for his surgery

Tora: my boy! Haru,, oh and Makoto! You both look so well, welcome home

Makoto always eats so well. They were just having instant ramen while living with Kobayakawa, and now? Haru is so loving and cooks to show love

They have their own little apartment in a smaller neighborhood, close to the smaller school Makoto works for, with Haru's diner at the end of the street

Makoto: ready for your dick surgery, babe?

Haru: I was born ready. Are you ready to deal with me post op?

Makoto: I was born to care for you

Naoto, Kanji, and Rise show up with their three crotch goblins to help out after, cause one of them has had said surgery and the other two? Were there to help heal

They have an older daughter and then two twin boys. The daughter is Kanji and Rise's, and the boys are Naoto and Rise's cause au magic trans people can have kids cause I said so

Rise: no, no- you can't climb on cousin Haru, he's not feeling well

Twin 1: is he sick?

Twin 2: is he dying?!

Naoto: hush, boys. Cousin Haru will be fine, you just can't climb on him. He had surgery

Daughter: oh! That's why he's got the ice on his lap?

Makoto: yup, and it's why everyone needs to be a little more quiet. We want him to heal well

The trio give Haru little forehead and top of head kisses. Cause they always saw him as like a little brother or little cousin

Makoto: my brave guy,

Haru: heyyyy!!! Doc,, thaz my partner,, they luuuuuuve me!

Makoto: oh, poor boy, they got you on the good stuff, huh?

Haru: I'm penis man now

Makoto: youre penis man now, yeah. Let's get you home, penis man

A few days after the nerves connect, they're on a train back to Yongen to stay with the Yoshida family once more, before they end up on a roadtrip that'll end with the world bringing back two lost souls

Anyways. Ywah

[agentalysswolf]

OKAY---"KIN" LIST (im defining kin as a fictional character i feel i embody in some major way and makes me feel seen by others. Also through which I can see myself as I have a difficult time with that as I have bpd among other things.

DEEP BREATH ...Okay. This might seem "cringe" or stupid but idc. It's a big deal for me to come out and release this list even to strangers.

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER:

Fox Mulder✨--The X Files

(Purest and parts of me I most strive to lean into. Also transboy. my crazy puppy dreamer energy to someone's skeptic down to earth anchor. ready to kill god and anyone who'd dare to hurt the ones i love and cant live without)

Tony Stark✨--You know who I am

(Aware of sins and ready to constantly improve and be better. Heroes are self made!! (built) He loathes himself AND loves himself. The cluster b is strong with this one. as well as cptsd and ocd. Specifically Sun armor. Blazing sunshine energy BOTTOMING AND SUB SPACE IS A NEED TO HEAL. DADDY ISSUES)

Will Graham✨ --Hannibal

(Hyper sensitive "empath" who struggles with mental illness and harmful urges. morally grey. morally good. morally bad. confused/hurt/gentle.)

Quentin Compson (male) --The Sound and The Fury✨

(first book character through whom i felt SEEN. he has MASSIVE ocd issues and the writing style for his chapters resonates with my soul. i was watching tokyo ghoul at the same time and "White Silence" the song makes me think of Quentin in a coffin covered in white flowers with white hair and I break down)

Naruto Uzumaki✨--Naruto/Naruto Shippuden

(hero's hero. he grew up with me and we are most alike in sunshine blazing personalities. Feel VERY DEEPLY and have deep trauma. anyone can change for the better--BELIEVE IT! Childish and loud. hyper with FEELINGS that sometimes get out of control and make us go ninetails mode. (intermittent explosive disorder) Which always end up hurting those around us even though we get that way in emotional responses to freak situations. "THERE ARE NO SHORTCUTS TO BECOMING HOKAGE"

Lestat de Lioncourt✨--The Vampire Lestat (book)/ AMC's show Interview With The Vampire

(The villain in me. The wretched creature. The lover. Absolute chaos. cluster B diva. The trauma. Needing to feel SEEN and fucking everything up over and over. Obsession. Self harm. Suicidal and homicidal ideation.)

Nora (with Weiss' trauma) (team JNPR) --RWBY

(Bright eyed. Motormouth. Random and hyper AF but like actually. Living your entire life with/for someone and needing to figure out who you are without them. Hitting things with a massive hammer. A hero. Lightning blaze heart. Will do anything for those she loves. just add in the song "The Path To Isolation" )

Spinell--Steven Universe Movie

(oh god. the villain origin story. worst fears being imagined. the annoying love bombing and wanting NEEDING others approval and constant attention. bpd. the scythe. the HEALING.)

Asuka --Evangelion/Rebuild

((MOMMY ISSUES TO THE EXTREME) bpd again. need to be seen by others in order to exist. without praise or what you crave from others you are nothing. you only exist through the eyes of others. self harm/ suicide attempt (bathtub scene) mind rape scene. trauma driving your entire life and still...still wanting happiness for people and yourself. not knowing how to express love. coming off as annoying and loud and weird and narcissistic and then laying there alone in bed crying about how much you hate yourself. and yet STILL being able to grow at the end and save the world)

[bassguitarinablackt-shirt]

START thinking of you as a transboy and not just boy

fuck my life

DONT WORRY I UNDERSTOOD WHAT U WERE TRYING TO SAY

[asherwentinsanelol]

My life would be so much easier if I was just a girl. But I'm not a girl. People think I'm a girl, and I want to be a girl, but id be lying if I said I am one. I'm a boy. I don't want to be a boy. I want to have long nails, long hair, a pretty face. But when I try it on, I hate it on me. I hate it so much. Because that's not what I look like. I wish it was, but when I actually look like it I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. Why can't I just be a normal girl? I wish I could wear dresses and love it. Goddamn it I want to be one of those Lana Del Ray girls!!!! They're so pretty. I love she/her. I love the idea of girlhood. But it's not me. I wish it was. I hate that I'm a boy. I can never get along with normal boys, so it just feels weird if I say I am one of them. I will never be seen as a real boy anyway, all of my closest friends see me as at least a transboy not just a boy. They can't help it, but it just shows that I should accept being a girl. I don't want to though. It feels so wrong, she feels so wrong. My body feels so wrong. My voice is wrong. I hate it. I hate everything about myself. I hate all of it. Someone fucking save me, I need to live long enough to medically transition but I don't know if I can. I'll never be a real boy.

[bemoreveronica]

Why I have been missing

Idk if anybody cares, but I'll be missing for an undetermined amount of time because of some stuff that happened in my life, I'll explain it thoroughly here. I recently discovered that I identified as a Transmasc. (Yes, I went through the Bi - Lesbian - Transboy evolution sue me) I used to speak about it to a close friend, looking for tips and just talking with someone who respected my identity and pronouns in general. Butttttt, around September of this year, I got a little bit reckless and texted that friend when I was close to my parents. (Transphobic n homophobic, the whole combo lol.) When I started acting nervous and suspicious, they tried to peek, and since I've always hidden stuff from them on my phone, it's almost second nature to turn it off. When I did, my mom became even more suspicious and took it away, I tried to redirect her to other chats and stuff, but before I could delete the texts or empty the chat, she already had it. The days that followed were very stressing, since I have a bad history with being LGBTQ+ and my parents, so I was nervous as fuck. Eventually, she talked to me and said that "I was just confused, you'll always be my daughter and I'll always love you like a girl." Which probably hurt more than it had to. I think she was also coping with that discovery, since she used to cry and tell me how hard this was for her, but eventually after the storm had gone away, she seemed to forget about it, never touching the topic, just addressing it with small comments like when I tried to bind with a sports bra and she noticed. The point is, I actually haven't had my phone since that day in September, so that's why I've been missing in all my social media.

Although I'm capable of writing stuff here, it's very hard writing on the device I'm on right now, so I won't do it, but I'll probs check comments and stuff here.

THANKS FOR READING.

I literally wrote this on the switchbru dns thingy. (Literal google on a Nintendo Switch) since it has a 20min limit I had to write this on like a piece of paper before actually writing it here and saving it every 5 secs wtf.

[punkyblooze]

CW: Abel x Jay, WIP (Work in Progress), FTM transboy OC, partial nudity, top surgery scars, angel x devil

Censored Version (Trying to see how differently the post performs with censored/uncensored)

Commissions [ON HIATUS] + DeviantArt + Twitter + Ko-Fi + Redbubble + Carrd

🔞 18+ Only 🔞

🛑 DO NOT USE, EDIT, OR REPOST MY ART 🛑

What happens when a lesser devil fucks around and finds out with an Arch Angel.

Building on my previous attempt to reverse the typical White/Black for Angels/Devils here. There are cultures that consider white to be the color of death and considering the "light at the end of the tunnel" and skin turning pale and bones and all that, I think they're onto something. So as a devil, Jay is pale and drained of color, except for blue, which I kept to add a cold element to his color palette. It's a combo of Silver/Gold and Cold/Warm colors. I also figured that Jay's devil could also represent becoming stuck or "frozen" in place, whereas the angel would represent movement and life, hence the mixture of night/day themes in Abel's design.

Ahhh, I keep going back and forth with Abel's hair. Do I want it to be braids or do I want it to be dreads.

Angel!Abel & Devil!Jay (c) PunkyBlooze

[capegloam]

not all of the asks are from the same person btw

funny how you didn't address this one, that points out your transphobia towards transmasculine people

how you don't see us as actual men

I get that you're non-binary, but there are ways to make yourself comfortable in your body without being a transphobe and a fetishizer

That ask came into my inbox chronologically after the other four, which made it obvious to me that it wasn't from the one person I wanted to address. I thought I made it pretty clear that I don't have an interest in justifying myself to strangers with whom I don't have any kind of prior relationship. I deleted it because people who only want to make the worst of me aren't worth my time. I don't expect I'd ever be able to convince you if you've never been in my heart.

I'm only addressing you now because its a new day and I feel like playing ball with a stranger.

The read that my top scar tattoos were intended to emasculate me is a binary one. That take comes from an explicitly binary perspective—that top scars somehow make you less of a man. I am literally nonbinary—that means I believe there are a thousand ways you can be a "man", and no matter how you look, how you're shaped, how you sound—no matter what, if you say you're a man, I consider you to be a man.

my tattoos don't emasculate me, they underline me. they highlight me. Top scars don't make someone "less than"— they mark a metamorphosis. Thats literally it.

If you paid attention to my previous post, you should know i'm girlboy boygirl transgirl transboy both simultaneously. I am not limited to one box or the other, or a secret Third box, i Am the boxes. I wanted the tattoo because I wanted to feel like I transformed, too. Because I have! I've been putting so much work into loving myself and my body even though its not the right between-ness, and I'm proud of myself!

Y'all also need to relax on the buzz words, because its clear you don't understand what they mean. Trans fetishization is harmful because it dehumanizes, it objectifies. It enables people to justify hurting trans people, because it says they're not even people. My scar tattoos have always humanized me. They shone a light onto MY specific, unique human experience. These tattoos aren't about other trans people, they're about ME!!! I have never felt more seen and understood before in my life!!! I feel like more people than ever are seeing me for who I am inside and it makes me so fucking happy!!! to feel seen!!! If you think they're a fetish thing, its because you've failed to consider my human soul inside my body. And why would you consider it? you've never even met me.

Every person attacking me for the tattoos tries justifying their opinions by making it about themselves, saying THEY felt disgusted, THEY felt disrespected—but the tattoos aren't about THEM. they don't know me, they don't understand me, they don't love me! THAT'S what transphobia looks like—when you don't know or understand a trans person's unique experience and try to say what they can or cannot do to love themselves and their body.

My friend, YOU are the person who is attacking a trans person—who is CELEBRATING!!! I am celebrating myself and my transformation and my LOVE!! and i want every other person on this planet to love themselves the same way I've come to love myself.

Trans joy is eternal and it is BEAUTIFUL. have a lovely day.

[pridepages]

eARC Review: Most Ardently

A HUGE thank you to Netgalley and MacMillan/Feiwel & Friends for providing me an eARC in exchange for an honest review!

RATING: ⭐⭐⭐.5

GOODREADS SYNOPSIS:  

 trans boy searches for a future―and a romance―in which he can live and love openly as himself in this heartrending young-adult reimagining of Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice, part of the Remixed Classics series.

London, 1812. Oliver Bennet feels trapped. The world, and the vast majority of his family and friends, think Oliver is a girl named Elizabeth. He is therefore expected to mingle at balls wearing a pretty dress, entertain suitors regardless of his interest in them, and ultimately become someone's wife. Oliver can't bear the thought of such a fate. He finds solace in the few times he can sneak out of his family's home and explore the city rightfully dressed as a young gentleman.

Oliver becomes acquainted with Darcy, a sulky young man who had been rude to "Elizabeth" at a recent social function. But in the comfort of being out of the public eye, Oliver comes to find that Darcy is actually a sweet, intelligent boy with a warm heart, not to mention attractive.

As Oliver spends more time as his true self, often with Darcy, part of him dares to hope that his dream of love and life as a man can be possible. But suitors are growing bolder―and even threatening―and his mother is growing more desperate to see him settled into an engagement. Oliver will have to choose: settle for safety, security, and a life of pretending to be something he's not, or risk it all for a slim chance at freedom, love, and a life that can be truly his own.

RELEASE DATE: January 16, 2024

See my full review under the cut!

It is a truth universally acknowledged that no one does Austen like Jane.

This is the problem I had with Written in the Stars as well. Much as part of me longs for a queer retelling of her novels, no contemporary author has yet matched her in my eyes. Unfortunately, the same holds true for Gabe Cole Novoa's Most Ardently.

To be clear: I enjoyed this book! If nothing else, it's a fascinating twist on the original. As one of the Remixed Classics series, it does its job: recasting and reimagining the original. The goal of the project was to have different authors approach a western "classic" with a twenty-first-century lens and reinvigorate the texts to make them, frankly, less white and cisheterosexual.

The idea of transforming Austen's 'Elizabeth' Bennet by teasing out her less than conventionally feminine traits and creating 'Oliver' Bennet certainly speaks to the social issues of both Austen's day (male supremacy and primogeniture) and ours (rising extreme conservativism/homophobia/transphobia).

So where did this one miss the mark? It doesn't speak as directly to the themes of the original book.

Anna-Marie Mclemore's Self-Made Boys is another of the Remixed Classics: a take on Fitzgerald's The Great Gatsby. In this version, no one is straight (except Tom Buchanan, but fuck him), some are not white, and both Nick and Gatsby are transboys in love. What made it work better as a 'remix' is that Mclemore did a brilliant job putting their version in direct dialogue with the themes of the original. Gatsby is all about the American Dream: race, class, social mobility, greed, ambition, and identity. In the original, very white cisheterosexual notions of class privilege and social values are presented. McLemore took a chance to shine a light on what it meant for everyone else to be outsiders at this time. Even the title and the idea of making the two leads transmen put a fresh, subversive spin on the concept of being a 'self-made boy.'

Novoa had an opportunity here and failed to take it. Elizabeth Bennet is a deceptive character: she's charming and fun, but she's written in a way that makes the reader fall into her prejudgments and prejudices without realizing that she's misjudged everyone until the big reveal.

On the other hand, Oliver Bennet is basically right about everyone the whole time. To be clear, his story is one that--unfortunately--most trans people experience: the constant misgendering and dysphoria, the fear of coming out, the fear that even if they do they won't be accepted, and the fear of being outed against their will. But the crux of Pride and Prejudice is that both Elizabeth and Darcy are a little bit wrong and a little bit right. They both need to grow up as much as they need to learn how to value each other.

Even Novoa's Darcy lacks the same spark. Darcy of the original is stifled, socially awkward, and arrogant. His pride comes out as hostility, which he fails to recognize is a character flaw until Elizabeth Bennet comes along to show him just how much he needs to shape up!

No matter how many times Oliver tries to tell me that Darcy is awful...I just don't see it. (Maybe once during the meet-ugly at the ballroom?) Probably because Oliver meets Darcy several times as his true self and they get along swimmingly every time. So their story becomes one of mistaken identity...less P&P and more Cinderella.

So what would I have wanted to see? Basically, I would have wanted Oliver Bennet to be a more likable Neil Kearney from Mason Deaver's The Feeling of Falling in Love. Give me a flawed yet still endearing Oliver who is so caught up in expecting and fearing homophobia/transphobia that he lashes out at Darcy, instantly writing him off as a butch straight guy. Give me scenes where Darcy is closeted and terrified, which comes out as hostility. Give me a journey where both of them have to gradually learn to see the other as they are and to admit where they each can do better. Show me that same level of, well...pride and prejudice getting confronted and improved.

In the end, Most Ardently feels less like a Pride and Prejudice remix and more like a gay trans regency romance. And that's great! We all deserve to see ourselves in every genre. But if you're looking for a true homage to Austen...

Tell me if you find one. I've yet to find anyone who can do it like Jane!

[inner-visionz]

Magic City (2d x autistic transboy reader)

Introduction

This is it. We finally released the new album. To celebrate I decide to go out to a pub. I sit at the bar and order a drink. The one thing I hate about coming here is the background noise. Too many people talking, the music, and people playing pool. As happy as I am about the new album I still feel a little off my game. I ignore the feeling by drinking. 

The more I drink the worse I feel. 'Well, no shit Stuart this is a depressant' I think to myself. I can't shake off this empty feeling. This empty feeling has a name. What is it? Loneliness? Yeah, that's it. Now that I think about it, I haven't had a real connection with anybody besides the band.   I sigh and down my third bottle. 

-2 more beers later- 

You know what? Fuck a real connection I'll just fuck. 

-one more beer later- 

Me and this girl are making out at the bar. I can't recall how it started but I don't care at this point. I pull away and smile at her. She had a tight dress on that hugged her body with long brown hair. I take her hand. "We shoul' go somewhere more private" I say. She giggles and follows me out to the house. 

-the next day- 

I wake up on my bed completely naked, alone, and with a bad hangover. I take a couple of pain pills for my headache then get dressed. The only thing I remember from last night is that girl. What was her name? Jessica? Something like that yeah. I go down stairs and see Ace giving me a disappointed glare along with Russel. 

"We need to talk" Russel says. 

"Why?" I ask slightly annoyed. 

"Because we don't want any more child support bills" Ace says bluntly. Russel glares at Ace. "-Eh, sorry but we've been noticing that you've been off lately and last night set it off". 

"Well, I guess I haven't been feeling like myself lately". 

"What's up D?" Russel asks. 

"I think I'm lonely? Or something. I feel like something is missing from my life so to cope I'm just gonna fuck". 

"Okay first off, no you already have enough kids and second, I think I can help you out. I know this hostess bar".

" I thought you weren't allowed to drink or fuck?" I say. 

"I'm not allowed to have prostitutes! Anyway they're not prostitutes and I go for the cheese sandwiches". 

"Do they have cheese and pineapple sandwiches?" I ask. 

"No offence, but you're fucking disgusting. But I guess they would have that. I'm taking you tonight so look your best". 

"Fine, fine I'll go". 

Next part here

[popthebop]

Probably give Batman chronic pain tbh, and like expand like why isn’t he dead fr? 

Also fuck Bernard, Tim and Conner should be together. (I hate Bernard.)

and i’d probably add like a whole future nation called ““new krypton”” in like booster gold’s time, also booster gold isn’t an uneducated fool anymore (he never was to my knowledge actually lol.) and he has a background in 1990′s and 2020′s history, and archeology. (because everything after that is just lost lol, it’s pretty cannon actually already so it’s a minor change.)

I also think i’d add like proverbs and old wives tales about like joker and the joker associated things, because like there can’t be no old wives tales about practical jokes or just loud howling laughter. 

There’s so much you could do with that, i’m honestly just a big booster gold fan tbh. Also retcon the retcons about animal man, and make him aware of all his previous iterations because I kinda want him to be staring at the reader with sad eyes, and mumbling about how he’s in a comic book. But no one believes him, so he just keeps mumbling about it.

Booster also references like future stuff a lot, because I don’t think knowing the future changes it. (How is half the Justice league alive if that’s the case.)

Billy is immortally ten to 12 years old, and it confuses most of everyone. Billy tends to just disappear for a couple years in his civilian life, but stays as Shazam most of the time now. 

Probably more in-depth lore on kryptoion biology, because they are basically plant’s which I find cool. 

Probably make a minor superhero group with, Shazam, plastic man, animal man, firestorm, and booster gold. Because I think they’d be bro’s and I want to see more of them.

Make Batman a good father, because bad dad Batman is DEAD long live good dad Batman.  Transboy Billy, because I feel like it is an interesting take. (Favorite child.)

Animal man is gonna get a whole place on the Justice league, because he’s a really really interesting character and I wanna give him a spotlight.

Wally and Barry are literally time gods in denial, and no one knows it.  and that’s all I got.

This poses a common but never dull question... Tell me what the first thing YOU would do if you became a writer at DC with no editorial backlash? What would you make canon? What story would you write? What would you retcon?

[writing-makes-me-antsy]

gonna be looking for some trans positivity posts tonight too yall so expect some of those to maybe come along your dash because i could use a little positivity

[unorthodoxtransman]

Me: wow something good might be actually budding in my life. This could really be awesome!

Universe: oh shit my bad, hold my beer...

* does a complete 180 an leaves me feeling like an insecure lil bean *

Me: oh... I guess this is my life now