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rouxbye ยท 8 days ago
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ok like I guess I can post on tumblr sometimes maybe. Behold
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oc posting bc She is very gorgeous to me.... say hello to Winifred, my current d&d pc :3
as of posting we're only like 2 sessions into the campaign but she's existed for like over two years..... She's my beautiful wife. Oh my god there's so many tags I'm so sorry
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hercarisntyours ยท 14 days ago
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knotst3r1l3 ยท 4 months ago
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curse these wretched organs vro what the Fuck man !!!!!!!
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ravencromwell ยท 9 months ago
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Headcanons for either or both of the Dane twins?
Going beneath a cut, because somehow this turned into 3k of Astrid stream-of-consciousness musings on ruling her city, bracketed with Holland's disgusted dead-pan snark.
The very worst thing, Holland thinks in the bleakest moments, is that the Danes aren't the worst rulers Makt has ever had.
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Athos alone probably would be. He is the lord of infinite, fruitless defiance, and if the city wants to give him such gifts as rebellion, who is he to say no? He will simply fight them all as entertainment between bouts of indulging his insatiable curiosity about artifacts. Emerging victorious would soothe his terror that everyone lost the throne eventually even if it left the city in ruins and more corpses than living people.
But if Athos is lord of defiance, Astrid is lady of small mercies.
From the moment the old man was dead, Astrid knows she will show none of his faux love and camaraderie to her subjects. They might love her in return, and those who love a queen want to see it reflected back, need her words of praise for their devotion no matter how they prattle simple service will suffice.
Such displays are tedious, love reserved for Athos alone.
But gratitude? Gratitude has its uses.
She and her brother want to leave their mark on this world (and its people). If her brother's little stone is as strong as they believe, one day folk privileged to suffer beneath their blades may show their scars with pride and whisper what a gift they were given by Makt's saviors.
If they do not, well. More fool them.
But in the meantime, even an Antari cannot hold off a hundred angry citizens, if they decided to mob. And sometimes, the Danes satiation requires a few missing loved ones. And inevitably, discontented souls decide there must be new blood. In especially unfortunate moments, those close to traitors have chosen to mewl about her brother's punishments and must be put down in their turn.
Her beloved Athos never understood how the body forgets pain. Men and women drink. They promise themselves the blood they saw running in the gutter was not as red as all that. Besides, it will not happen to them. To live in this city is to become deaf to screams, even your own.
Look at her brother's pretty thing. How many times has Athos made him scream? (Enough it's added a permanent, graveled edge to his voice, Antari or no.) And still she and Athos catch those glimpses of defiant hatred that are almost better than the blood for her twin.
Profound appreciation, by contrast? Thankful obligation at holding a living, breathing child, where a month ago there was dying skin and bones? That will make a man hesitate before joining a revolution.
Appreciation may even bind the Antari better than the spell of which Athos is so proud.
'Obey and protect my sister' Athos always says when he won't be close to repeat an unheeded command.
Still, she has seen how he can resist myriad precautions binding every joint and muscle and bone ! Athos's will. Seen the foolish delays, misinterpretations. Seen him dare, if Athos' words are closer to suggestions ignore them outright, force her brother to the clearest possible command. She suspects he can withstand even better as Athos' proximity fades.
Wasted breaths are risk, when blood is in the balance. Fortunately, she is no fool, wrapping herself in enough amulets calling him to her aid is rarely necessary. He rides beside her to prove that even the Dane with slightly less black in her veins can easily control their demon.
But at almost every sign of threat, he moves unprompted. Not because he fears her brother's retribution, not because the seal compels. He comes too swiftly for either of those. Holland Vosijk comes because he knows if she died, he would never throw alms to the city that hates him. No subsidized wheat; Athos would love watching the men and women he trains to ride behind themโ€”never beside, no one is given enough knowledge to stand as equal to they twoโ€”into Arnesโ€”divide the city into wedges and make the people under their control scrabble and beg.
When she first saw the stacks and stacks of carefully labeled payments to spell-crafters and curse-makers, she'd thought none of Athos' experiments would be needed. The old man had found a way to open the doors, and now he was dead, and they could simply ride into Arnes and snatch the glory.
But a magical payment for each farmer to feed the city as a whole, rather than their chosen hoard, wasn't the worst idea. And Astrid would happily put the dead's ideas to fine use.
She graciously allows the pretty former knight over-see it, so long as he remembers the queen is always watching.
(Though when speaking of food and goods of all kinds, it is her brother who shines in trade. His tactic is so very simple. So very effective. A merchant enters the throne room. Athos informs them what they will bring to the city. Should they complain or protest, he does not even deign to blink. Merely says: "Unbutton your shirt." And while the merchant is gawping and spluttering, the Antari bears his Seal.
"Do you know what this is?" her brother asks, gently.
By the time he has demonstrated the Seal to his satisfactionโ€”such a thorough tutor to the less accomplished, her twinโ€” the question of whether the merchant's trade might improve under Athos' control does not need asking.
Once, Athos slipped a request for a woman's first-born into a contract revision and she signed without even looking, so desperate to flee from the throne before she had matching runes. She even dutifully paraded the child to the castle six months later. Athos had no interest now she behaved so well, but Astrid found gratitude at keeping her child made her a most excellent spy. within the city.)
And then there are the sick. Perhaps the Antari would be allowed his little preoccupation if her brother ruled alone, assuming the family were desperate enough to contribute a person to his servants' ranks. But even mindless, there's something in his guards that hungers to live, ducking blades and attacks on instincts most would swear puppets could not have. He rarely needs replacement.
On those occasions a petitioner dares bring the ill to their attention, Astrid takes whatever their pathetic tribute is. With gloves, of course, because assassins lurk everywhere. Takes the faded, wilted flowers and oddly shaped rocks with the tiniest bit of color lurking in stone veins from the childrenโ€”so many are children, young and unscarred enough to believe facing the twins and their demon is a price gladly paid even as those they keep alive will likely betray them eventually.
Adults, when they come, bring carefully knitted blankets and finely spun clothes. Once, there were even the most lovely hair combs, made of some creature's shell far from the south the woman called a tortoise. Why she would surrender them for a squalling brat who has years and years to die while she has nothing else to barter, Astrid cannot guess. But she passed the combs to Albiz, her brother's favorite among the spell-working salon, to check for curses and let Holland do his work.
There are not many such petitioners, but every one will go back into the city and whisper of the queen's mercy, how she always stood between them and the demon, and when it was done, their friend or child or lover was alive. Whispers that will still other's discontent.
She keeps almost all those talismans, unless something catches her brother's fancy. Carves spells into the stones, wraps herself in the blankets, wears the finely made trousers.
Though she has little use for wilted posies. "Keep them," she says gently, savoring Holland's second flickering of desperate relief at being handed a token not steeped in blood.
Funny, how he is even responsible for Astrid's proudest creation, though he disdains her falcons. The complement to her brother's court of favored scholars and magicians. Where her brother's is equally spread between men and women, barely any of her falcons are men. Men are so terribly squeamish about having their bodies borrowed. And all her falcons wear a possession charm, so she may see any part of the city through their eyes whenever she wishes.
She could simply force her will, toss a charm over any likely-looking neck. But she wants keen servants, who will willingly call her attention to matters of interest. Made hungry enough from being overlooked they have the grit to never utter a word of complaint when she enters them abruptly. To never fight when she raises their hands or opens their mouths. To fall upon her prey in whatever manner she requires and ask no questions.
The obedience Athos must bind, given freely.
In return, they shall never starve, never offer their measly tributes to free family from pain, never serve anyone's will but she and Athos.
Years later, the keenest ferocity of them all, her magicless, intrepid Gudrun, under the thumb of a father who craved a drudge incapable of disobedience until she went to the market and ran to rumors of Astrid's glove, nets her flower boy. Whispers the most ridiculous, delightful story about forbidden letters and a knight-turned hound's vices that sees Astrid smiling even days later as she prepares to fully possess a prince. Whispers it with the sweet conviction she must have displayed to her father before Astrid murmurred he could not touch her. To do all the things she must have dreamed. (He learned then a knife could make even a magicless woman a man's greatest terror and Gudrun snarled in delight.) Whispers until the Antari falls to her talons, while Astrid watches from half a city away.
What she wants is easy. What she will call them does not come to her until after Holland's third visit to Arnes, feeling her brother's hand squeeze hers in delight at the wonders of this red city. Both their fingers ache pleasantly from expressing such delight at the hours-long recitation, as they have each time her brother told the Antari to 'account for each moment in the Red City'.
The prey-vulnerable Red Royals must think they are predators, dawdling with their letters, letting 'Master Holland' wander the city while they mull their answers, thinking themselves so safe with their doors. She would mock them more, save their complacency makes for beautiful tales.
Later, he will learn to speak of Arnesian wonders in a monotone as though they were fool enough to believe the city left him any less awestruck than they. But in these early days, even he cannot help closing his eyes at the thought of the fat, juicy rabbits a hunting party carried with them. Or perhaps it is the juice running in rivulets across her brother's fingers and lips as he savors the last few bites of apple. So sweet, that juice, when he had pressed it to her lips for the first bite. She had laughed until her sides ached, spun him about the throne room. She would offer her brother a bite of her own pastyโ€”what a marvelous idea, to tell his pretty thing he must fetch back two things he had enjoyed most for themโ€”but even three trips in, she knew his tastes ran to sweet and savory, not the burn that accompanied her meat and vegetables.
"Did you like it because it burned, pretty thing? Because everything in their world should carry the burn of their betrayal?" she had asked, hours ago, and relished the hiss of breath when he forced the Seal to jerk his head in affirmation.
"Even as you could not help wanting the sweet," Athos had laughed, graciously smearing some of the juice in a lingering kiss at the corner of the Antari's mouth. She could see the red shine of it still. Will he clean it away the second he is alone, or be unable to resist the last taste of sweetness even as he hates himself for it? she wondered, and then the Antari's voice cracked, and Athos gestured that he might fill one of the glasses beside the water pitcher and she exhaled her disappointment.
"We will scry his room and see what he does another day," Athos whispered, and of course he too had wondered if his pretty thing could resist temptation.
"The leader had a bird on his arm," the Antari continued barely a moment later, setting the emptied glass on the table and before he was done explaining how such a fierce thing rested so easily for bits of meat, she was striding to Athos' scrying basin, pulling Holland behind. "Clever, pretty thing, seeing what I need. Falcons."
Such beautiful ferocities, and she tried to touch the feathers even as she knew she would only ripple the water. "As Tosal," her brother said softly, pressing against her back and she blinked.
"Mhmm?"
"He will go back tonight and bring you one with As Tosal. It will make the bird still and silent, but not turn it to stone."
"Was it your favorite, when you made him demonstrate all his mysterious tricks to the salon?"
"You know me so well. We will send him jingling with compulsion coins and they will be none the wiser."
"It isn't a fruit I can have forgotten in a pocket if something goes wrong."
"Then you will not let it go awry, Holland. Do you think a week's silence on his return would make him more or less inclined to state the obvious. It is so very dull."
"More, to spite you. It is what comes of wanting a pet who bites. Athos, come here." She held her mad, foolhardy brother, who would weave a plan in an instant and risk all his great discoveries to bring her something marvelous without her even needing to ask, close to her chest. "The pretty thing is not wrong. Besides, I do not need a falcon, love, only their design. For my court. Can he-"
"Of course. Tell us the rest of the trip later. For now-"
"Holland-" This once, for bringing her such a gift, she will grant his name, since he has so little liking for her sobriquet, "Find the best silver smith in the city. A falcon, in flight. On a chain, small enough to slip beneath a shirt. Bring a finished one for approval by lunch tomorrow."
It was midnight, he would have to roust the Shal's leader from a warm bed to find a smith he would also disturb, he was tired. If the Antari thought any of these things, he did not say them, simply turned on his heel and left.
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In the next seven years, Holland Vosijk can count, with fingers to spare, those Astrid Dane invites to her glove who flee the invitation. (Athos always let his magicians come grovelling, but Astrid's falcons were always keen-eared for new recruits) Perhaps it is his worst delusion, thinking they, too, see how much blood runs at the margins of a people who, if not content, are at least not especially restless.
There is fountains worth from the one hundred eighty-two killed by the Danes personally, and his sixty-four. The blood of fools who ran their mouths too freely to the innocuous-looking barmaid or shopkeeper or grandmother before a little silver charm emerged. Blood of crows know how many drunk by Athos' magicians for power.
When forced to collaborate or unearth magic, he can most easily hold his control near lady Albiz, who makes the job no crueler than necessary, heeds advice, and returns her dead to their people or buries them herself. And she still snuffed out two Maktahns the day she swanned into Athos' service. He will not forget that because she grants an ounce of respect.
Two lives she'd taken, that were merely one crime, on one day of two thousand five hundred fifty-five. Still full of all that blood, she'd strolled into morning court in a ragged tunic and skirt, pupils glassy from the sudden torrent of magic into a body that knew only a trickle.
Like Alox.
Fifteen and cocksure with it like him, too.
"I heard there was a place here for those who could take it. I'll be your best magician if you'll let me take enough. I'm tired of running dry."
There had always been people not even the king's knight could stop, no matter how it choked him to admit it. He could have wandered the streets, never sleeping, and still not stopped all the blood being shed. And sometimes. Sometimes, they had something Vor needed and he turned a blind eye and Holland fled to Arnes to be in a world where kings didn't have to allow atrocities for the greater good. Until the ache to smell ash and steel and the fear Vortalis was dead in his absence swamped the rage and tugged him home.
But Vortalis would never have leaned in and inhaled the blood clinging to her like a bouquet, licked the red from the corner of her mouth, mirth echoing off the walls until Holland's head throbbed when she moved like a desperate, striking snake to try for a kiss. As though he'd let it be stolen back from his tongue. Would never have said, for all to hear: "Defiant little thing, aren't you? You're the third most beautiful person I've seen all month."
How many lives might be saved, if Albiz and worse weren't infesting the city? How many slum magicians had killed some unwitting neighbor, watching them preen and knowing Athos and Astrid Dane would never care, so long as they were not challenged as the greatest sorcerers of the land?
Deluded or no, it is those few refusals Astrid grumbled over and insisted he keep an eye on ("If they dare not serve, they must have plans of their own. Look harder, pretty thing, and you'll find the rot they're tangled in.") he seeks when he returns for kingship. Hopes their refusal meant more than a disdain for fancy jewelry. Because Athos and Astrid Dane aren't the worst rulers Makt had, but he will be better by far.
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acourtofquestions ยท 1 month ago
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Golden flame danced between her fingers.
Elide recoiled, and the fire vanished as quickly as it had appeared.
"My name is Essar," the female said softly. "I am a friend--of your friends, I believe."
Elide said nothing.
"Cairn is a monster," Essar said, taking a step closer. "Stay far from him."
"I need to find him."
"You played the part of his mistreated lover well enough. You have to know something about him. What he does."
"If you know where he is, please tell me." She wasn't above begging.
Essar ran an eye over Elide. Then she said, "He was in this city until yesterday. Then he went out to the eastern camp." She pointed with a thumb over a shoulder. "He's there now."
"How do you know?"
"Because he's not terrorizing the patrons of every fine establishment in this town, glutting himself on the coin Maeve gave him when he took the blood oath."
Elide blinked. She had hoped some of the Fae might be opposed to Maeve, especially after the battle in Eyllwe, but to find such outright distaste...
Essar then added, "And because my sister--the soldier you spoke with--told me. She saw him in the camp this morning, smirking like a cat."
"Why should I believe you?"
"Because you are wearing Lorcan's shirt, and Rowan Whitethorn's cloak. If you do not believe me, inform them who told you and they will." Elide cocked her head to the side.
Essar said softly, "Lorcan and I were involved for a time."
They were in the midst of war, and had traveled for thousands of miles to find their queen, and yet the tightness that coiled in Elide's gut at those words somehow found space. Lorcan's lover. This delicate beauty with a bedroom voice had been Lorcan's lover.
"I'll be missed if I'm gone for too long, but tell them who I am. Tell them that I told you. If it's Cairn they seek, that is where he shall be. His precise location, I don't know." Essar backed away a step. "Don't go asking after Cairn at other taverns. He isn't well regarded, even amongst the soldiers. And those who do follow him... You do not wish to attract their interest."
Essar made to turn away, but Elide blurted,
"Where did Maeve go?"
Essar looked over her shoulder. Studied her.
The female's eyes widened. "She has Aelin of the Wildfire," Essar breathed.
Elide said nothing, but Essar murmured, "That was... that was the power we felt the other night." Essar swept back toward Elide. Gripped her hands. "Where Maeve went a few days ago, I don't know. She did not announce it, did not take anyone with her. I often serve her, am asked to... It doesn't matter. What matters is Maeve is not here. But I do not know when she will return."
Relief again threatened to send Elide crumpling to the ground. The gods, it seemed, had not abandoned them just yet.
But if Maeve had taken Aelin to the outpost where they'd lied that the Valg prince had been contained...
Elide gripped Essar's hands, finding them warm and dry. "Does your sister know where Cairn resides in the camp?"
For long minutes, then an hour, they had talked.
Essar left and returned with Dresenda, her sister. And in that alley, they had plotted.
Elide finished telling Rowan, Lorcan, and Gavriel what she'd learned. They sat in stunned silence for a long minute.
"Just before dawn," Elide repeated. "Dresenda said the watch on the eastern camp is weakest at dawn. That she'd find a way for the guards to be occupied. It's our only window."
Rowan was staring into the trees, as if he could see the layout of the camp, as if he were plotting his way in, way out.
"She didn't confirm if Aelin was in Cairn's tent, though," Gavriel cautioned. "Maeve is gone--Aelin might be with her, too."
"It's a risk we take," Rowan said. A risk, perhaps, they should have considered.
Elide glanced to Lorcan, who had been silent throughout. Even though it had been his lover who had helped them, perhaps guided by Anneith herself. Or at least had been tipped off by the scent on Elide's clothes.
"You think we can trust her?" Elide asked Lorcan, though she knew the answer.
Lorcan's dark eyes shifted to her. "Yes, though I don't see why she'd bother."
"She's a good female, that's why," Rowan said.
At Elide's lifted brow, he explained, "Essar visited Mistward this spring. She met Aelin." He cut a glare toward Lorcan. "And asked me to tell you that she sends her best."
Elide hadn't seen anything that came close to pining in Essar's face, but gods, she was beautiful. And smart. And kind. And Lorcan had let her go, somehow.
#Chapter 23#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#Elide Lochan#Essar#HoF#Heir of Fire bonus Chapter#TOG series#Throne of Glass series#another great Maasverse enterance โ€” aka one of my favs in these books & this one got me โ€” totally adding the chapter myself when I get HoF#no spoilers please first read to read along with me Pt3 of 4 perspectives w quotes/notes/reacts in tags below spoilers in both post & tags#Elide talking about keeping them safe even if at the prospect of Maeveโ€™s hands which is worse than death yet Aelin did for months๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ–ค#Rowans I did 2 weeks-shit-hurry & you didnโ€™t break even when she feels she did-but she literally had Maeve in her head for months & didnt#To shield them from any eyes--those on the ground and above. โ€” the raptors โ€” Elides got a knife ok girl๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜‚ but when they halted once moreโ€ฆ?#Golden flame danced between her fingers. โ€” AGHHHHHHHHHHHHH#My name is Essar the female said softly. I am a friend--of your friends I believe. โ€” YES YES YES HOLY FUCKING SHIT FIRE WEILDER HOF AH#Cairn is a monster Essar said taking a step closer. Stay far from him. โ€”she doesnt know who sheโ€™s just being kind I knew I liked her#how does Maeve not know about her? or does she? is that an issue with the fire? hmmโ€ฆ also does the color change per wielder? we need more!!#If you know where he is please tell me. She wasn't above begging. โ€” for Aelin๐Ÿ˜ญ#Because you are wearing Lorcan's shirt and Rowan Whitethorn's cloak. If you do not believe me inform them who told you and they will.#They were in the midst of war and had traveled for thousands of miles to find their queen and yet the tightness that coiled in Elide's gut#I'll be missed if I'm gone for too long but tell them who I am. Tell them that I told you.-cairn u seek he shall be-ok riddler๐Ÿ˜…#Don't go asking after Cairn at other taverns. He isn't well regarded even amongst the soldiers. โ€” well at least they all agree on that#The female's eyes widened. She has Aelin of the Wildfire Essar breathed. โ€” how did she know? Rowan being there (cuz clearly love)?#Aelin of the Wildfire โ€” the regard That was... that was the power we felt the other night. โ€” what doesnโ€™t matter?#Relief again threatened to send Elide crumpling to the ground. The gods it seemed had not abandoned them just yet.#Just before dawn Elide repeated. Dresenda said the watch on the eastern camp is weakest at dawn.-Dawn?Mala?the sister?! I love Essar!#Lorcanโ€™s ex lovers oh sweet Elide๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ–ค then the sheโ€™s a good woman&met Aelin thatโ€™s why cuz they all luv her&the risk we take&Elides 1 line๐Ÿ˜‚#yet he didnโ€™t let you go Elide TAKE NOTE OF THAT BABES#We all go in. We all go out. โ€” and so they plannedโ€ฆ
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automatonknight ยท 1 year ago
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thought iโ€™d get back insto inscr//ption tbh but no my brain did a sharp turn and iโ€™m back into gg. truly a wonder how that works
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critter-screams-into-the-void ยท 4 months ago
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princess trixie sparkle fanart in 2024? it's more likely than you think
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morrigan-sims ยท 5 months ago
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I made Rook's father in the sims, and he's saved to my gallery as "Lord Shithead", lmao.
I now have three sim versions of different OCs' shitty fathers in my sims gallery. (Well two that I made and one that Miranda simgerale made for me.) I needed all of them for edits or else I wouldn't have made them at all (they don't deserve the honor), but it's a little funny.
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swagging-back-to ยท 8 months ago
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the scene where the rest of erens class choose to become scouts is SO fucking dramatic. they act like they're simba's father facing down the herd of stampeding buffalo. Jean has a whole entire breakdown and screams out.
all for what? peer pressure? you have faced down literal titans and have almost died and you're worried about peer pressure from the LITERAL faceless crowd? grow up. fucking babies.
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honeyhotteoks ยท 11 days ago
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across stardust - one (j.yh)
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summary:ย you and yunho have worked together for years, idol and makeup artist, but until today you've never touched him skin to skin. when the world tilts on its head from just a brush of his cheek, you realize he's so much more than a crush, he's your soulmate. one | two | three | four
note:ย please enjoy this truly self indulgent romance. will be four parts total, and i'll post each as soon as they are ready to go. happy comeback week, and i hope everyone enjoys this ๐Ÿ’–
tags/warnings: idol!yunho, makeup artist!reader, fem!reader, soulmates au, soulmate identifying marks, soulmate tattoos, tattoed!reader, a lot of fluff and tenderness, love at first touch, shared feelings/emotions/physical sensations, anxiety/stress over what to do, reader's family isn't the best, kq is not the best company for the purposes of this fic!, light smut including - heavy makeouts/grinding, hand kink, size kink, phone sex, sexting, fingering, jacking off, dirty talk, praise, use of good girl, use of pet names like baby/jagiya/sweetheart. basically this fic is an excuse for me to write star-crossed desperate love so i would say it's the literal opposite of a slow burn lmao
pairings:ย yunho x reader
genre: fantasy, romance, smut || soulmates au
word count:ย 17.9k
Itโ€™s eleven in the morning when your day starts, hiding in the green room of a concert venue in Berlin, and the day feels lost already. With Eunji and Dahan ill that only leaves you and Iseul to handle makeup for all eight members and with how exhausted you are from yet another night of little sleep, you donโ€™t know how youโ€™ll be able to keep up. Youโ€™re trying to stay awake, but while the members are all out on stage learning their marks and rehearsing the improvisational moments for this tour stop, the green room is quiet and you keep nodding off.ย 
โ€œBad night?โ€ Iseulโ€™s voice startles you out of one of your dips into sleep and your body jerks up right.ย 
โ€œFuck,โ€ You breathe, โ€œhey,โ€ย 
โ€œHere,โ€ She pushes a bright can into your hands, an energy drink, โ€œyou need this.โ€ย 
โ€œI need to be sedated,โ€ You grumble, taking it from her, โ€œthe time difference is never this hard,โ€ย 
โ€œMm,โ€ She shrugs, โ€œitโ€™s unpredictable,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ You sigh, โ€œI guess.โ€ย 
The thumping music outside as they run through another track is starting to give you a migraine. You take a long sip of the drink and then leave the can on the table in front of you, choosing instead to hide your face in the sleeves of your sweatshirt and let out another long sigh.ย 
โ€œGirl,โ€ Iseul nudges you, โ€œyou look like shit. Your station looks like shit.โ€ย 
โ€œThank you?โ€ย 
โ€œIn thirty minutes weโ€™re going to be busier than weโ€™ve been since that Inkigayo stage for Answer,โ€ She points out and you grimace at the reference. Back then it really was just a skeleton staff and one of the makeup artists quit on the spot, too stressed to continue the work and walking out in the middle of doing Yeosangโ€™s foundation.ย 
What a mess those old days used to be. Nostalgia sometimes makes you forget how late those nights were and just how impossibly tired you had been. This feels too reminiscent of that for sure.ย 
Iseul taps your shoulder to get you to lift your face as she continues, โ€œI know youโ€™re tired, but I canโ€™t do this shit on my own. I need you.โ€ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ You breathe, scrubbing your hands over your face to jolt yourself awake as best you can, โ€œyouโ€™re right, I๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝm sorry,โ€ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t be sorry,โ€ She gives you a sympathetic smile, โ€œI get it.โ€ย 
This tiredness feels different though, so deeply ingrained in your body. Somethingโ€™s been keeping your adrenaline running like a long, drawn out anxiety attack and you canโ€™t understand it. Youโ€™ve been on tour before, youโ€™ve been on planes, youโ€™ve had long days, and youโ€™ve worked with this exact group for years. Thereโ€™s nothing on paper that should be making you so anxious, but the threads of it are humming in the deep back of your brain even now.ย 
โ€œCome on,โ€ Iseul prompts again, pulling you to your feet, โ€œletโ€™s get you in gear.โ€ย 
โ€œRight,โ€ You take another long sip of your energy drink and pray it starts kicking in soon and that the effects wonโ€™t make you feel crazier, โ€œletโ€™s do this.โ€ย 
She helps you put your station together with ease and then pull yourself together. Within those precious thirty minutes of calm before the storm youโ€™ve downed two cans of pure caffeine, assembled your station and strapped on your brush belt, and tried to make yourself some form of presentable by slicking your hair back into a smooth knot and adding a coat of lip balm.ย 
As always, the boys have used the ladder game to determine hair and makeup order which means those at the bottom of the list have more time to relax fresh-faced on the couches before getting poked and prodded and wrapped up like presents for thousands of screaming fans. With only you and Iseul available itโ€™s about to be a race against the clock to get them ready.ย 
Their managers hustle them from the stage to the back rooms where the rest of the staff waits, and the members gather around you and Iseul and your makeshift makeup stations.ย 
โ€œAlright,โ€ Iseul says as the members quiet down, โ€œweโ€™re down some staff as you know,โ€ย 
They nod attentively and you trade a close lipped smile with Hongjoong.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re just going to do the best we can as quickly as we can,โ€ She explains, looking down at their names on a slip of paper, โ€œWooyoung, Yeosang, Jongho, San,โ€ she recites, โ€œyouโ€™re with me in that order.โ€ย 
You run through the names on your slip, โ€œHongjoong, Seonghwa, Mingi, Yunho, that leaves you with me.โ€ย 
Iseul nods as you finish your words, โ€œPlease be ready to slot in when the person in front of you is finished, and then you can go directly to wardrobe for your soundcheck outfits,โ€ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ve got it,โ€ Hongjoong nods, โ€œand if thereโ€™s anything you both need,โ€ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ll be fine,โ€ Iseul assures him, โ€œbut itโ€™s definitely going to be cutting it close,โ€ย 
โ€œWe should get started,โ€ You cut in, โ€œif youโ€™re ready?โ€ย 
Hongjoong jumps to your chair immediately and Wooyoung steps to Iseulโ€™s, and before you know it youโ€™re off.ย 
The room is alight with activity while you both work, only you donโ€™t have a relaxed pace and only two members to perfect. Youโ€™re used to working with Wooyoung and Seonghwa, theyโ€™ve been your assigned members for as long as youโ€™ve worked with Ateez, but when staff shortages or timing gets tight, it can be a bit of a free for all.ย 
You stay focused and execute each memberโ€™s makeup like a well rehearsed dance, and you do your best to ignore the buzzing anxiety in your veins. For a little while, you handle it like a professional.ย 
When Yunho finally settles into your chair, about a single second after Mingi leaves it, the exhaustion careens back into you sideways. It takes you a minute to prep your tools this time, and youโ€™re pretty sure that without the artificial pick me up of the energy drinks youโ€™d be passing out on the spot.ย 
You steady your hands against the vanity in front of you and take a deep breath, and when you look up you catch Yunhoโ€™s eyes in the mirror, a tiny crease of concern between his brows.ย 
โ€œYou okay?โ€ He checks.ย 
You give him a smile, albeit a tired one, โ€œThe jet lag is really hitting this time,โ€ you explain, โ€œbut Iโ€™m fine,โ€ย 
He looks sympathetic immediately, โ€œSame for me, I feel like Iโ€™m barely sleeping,โ€ย 
โ€œThatโ€™s not good,โ€ You tell him as you prep your stainless steel palette, โ€œyou have a long night ahead,โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™ll sleep tonight,โ€ He says, โ€œIโ€™m sure,โ€ย 
โ€œAfter dancing for three hours Iโ€™d hope so,โ€ You smile and pick up your first set of tools before turning towards him.ย 
โ€œDo you have anything you could take?โ€ He asks, studying your face, โ€œA sleep aid?โ€ย 
โ€œI usually donโ€™t like to,โ€ You admit, โ€œI always feel groggy the next day,โ€ย 
โ€œAnd we have another show,โ€ He finishes for you, his lips coming together in a thin line as he thinks.ย 
Thereโ€™s nothing really for him to do, but itโ€™s kind of him anyway to be so concerned. They always are, this rare group of eight idols who remember staff birthdays, bring coffee on the early morning schedules, and always, always take extra time to clean up after themselves so itโ€™s not left to anyone else.ย 
You take a step closer towards him and glance over his bare face and then it occurs to you, โ€œYou know whatโ€™s funny?โ€ย 
โ€œHmm?โ€ He tilts his face up to you.ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t think Iโ€™ve ever done your makeup before,โ€ You smile, itโ€™s a ridiculous thought.ย 
โ€œNo way,โ€ He blinks, thinking back, โ€œitโ€™s beenโ€ฆ forever, are you sure?โ€ย 
You nod, โ€œYouโ€™re usually with Eunji,โ€ you tell him, โ€œand even when weโ€™ve swapped around, I donโ€™t think so. I think youโ€™re the only member Iโ€™ve never done,โ€ย 
โ€œWow,โ€ He laughs, eyes bright, โ€œwell, I guess thereโ€™s a first time for everything.โ€ย 
โ€œIs there anything,โ€ You start to ask him if thereโ€™s anything he prefers, anything special about his makeup that he gets done with Eunji that he asks for, but Iseul catches you idle as she pats foundation onto Sanโ€™s forehead and answers for you.ย 
โ€œHis skin gets dry,โ€ She jumps in, โ€œdonโ€™t use too much powder,โ€ย 
Yunho grins, a laugh on his lips at the directness of her words.ย 
โ€œAnd donโ€™t use that oil,โ€ Iseul adds, โ€œthat primer oil you like, heโ€™ll break out by tomorrow,โ€ย 
โ€œThank you, Iseul,โ€ Yunho says, and you watch Sanโ€™s face as he stifles a chuckle.ย 
โ€œNoted,โ€ You smile, and you swap out two of the products in your hands before taking up your position by his side again.ย 
Youโ€™ve gotten used to working with idols, to working with Ateez and with Yunho specifically, and yet when you get this close a little flutter of nerves rocks through your belly. Heโ€™s handsome, and if youโ€™re being honest heโ€™s just your type. Maybe itโ€™s the exhaustion, or this weird feeling in your chest that youโ€™ve been dealing with all week, but for the first time in a long time you think about what it would be like to kiss his lips.ย 
โ€œHow do you want me?โ€ He asks, breaking your thoughts, and you have to shake off the impending blush at the way his words make you feel. You have work to do, and you had gotten over your silly little crush on him years ago, you need to get a grip.ย 
You recover fairly smoothly though with a quick smile, โ€œRight,โ€ heโ€™s never worked with you before, and heโ€™s looking to you for direction, โ€œhead back a bit, please, and eyes closed,โ€ย 
โ€œAlright,โ€ He follows your instructions to the letter.ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ You tell him, โ€œprimer first. Let me know if anything bothers you,โ€ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ He hums and stays relaxed.ย 
He has the loveliest eyelashes, thatโ€™s the thought that echoes through your brain as you start working on him, and you wish it never occurred to you at all because you keep glancing up at his closed eyes. He lets you work, he knows youโ€™re exhausted so he doesnโ€™t push you for conversation, and youโ€™re strangely grateful. You know heโ€™s chatty sometimes in the chair, an extrovert through and through and always keeping Eunji company or talking with the member beside him, but right now he keeps still and gives you respite on a hard day.ย 
Youโ€™re patting foundation into his skin with a large paddle brush when Iseul interrupts your thoughts, โ€œDo you have that eggplant liner?โ€ย 
โ€œCheck my table,โ€ You offer, but with how sluggish your brain is feeling thereโ€™s no way you remember a single thing on your station without looking.
โ€œMm,โ€ She pivots around and pokes through the products and tools behind you, and you glance over as San opens his eyes to watch Iseul rifle through things.ย 
โ€œDamn,โ€ She mutters, โ€œhow much time do we have?โ€ย 
โ€œUm,โ€ You glance down at your watch, โ€œtwenty?โ€ย 
โ€œPerfect,โ€ She scoots behind you and disappears into the hall, no doubt to find your traveling makeup case and the liner.ย 
You sigh, chewing the inside of your lip at the idea that you only have twenty more minutes, but you really donโ€™t want to rush and have his makeup melt off on-stage.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re fine,โ€ San assures, his body angled towards you and Yunho now while he waits, โ€œdonโ€™t worry about the clock,โ€
Yunho hums his agreement from below you, โ€œPlenty of time,โ€
You refocus on Yunhoโ€™s skin and notice a long black and white hair from the paddle brush affixed to his cheek, mixed in with the foundation. You take the brush again, wiping off any excess foundation and checking to see if more fibers are loose, and then you work the brush against his cheek in an attempt to free the loose hair but it isnโ€™t coming off easily. Every attempt you make just slides the hair into a different spot on his cheek and covers it with more foundation.ย 
โ€œUm,โ€ You usually donโ€™t like to do this, but you might have to, โ€œcan I justโ€ฆโ€
His eyes open but his expression stays smooth, โ€œCan you?โ€ย 
โ€œSorry,โ€ You shake your head, โ€œdo you mind if I touch you?โ€ย 
โ€œYou already are,โ€ He smiles, a small, amused crease between his brows youโ€™ll have to pat out momentarily.ย 
You tuck your brush away and gesture with your hand, โ€œYou just have a hair,โ€ย 
โ€œOh,โ€ He laughs, โ€œof course, yeah,โ€ย 
Youโ€™re just supposed to touch his cheek, brush away the hair with the pad of your finger and then get back to work, thatโ€™s all it is, so youโ€™re completely unprepared for the feeling that rockets through your chest when your skin finally touches his.ย 
Yunho gasps softly as your fingers brush over his cheek, his eyes blowing wide and his expression blanking, and itโ€™s the only indication you have that he feels something too. A tightness wrenches in your chest, like someone pressed something hot and hard directly into your breastbone and your stomach does a somersault. Your ears are ringing, and youโ€™re pretty sure your heart is about to beat out of your chest now that itโ€™s started up again.ย 
The tattoo on your chest feels warm beneath your blouse.ย 
โ€œYou,โ€ Yunho manages, his voice shaky and you know for sure he felt it too.ย 
You rock back a step, โ€œI donโ€™t understand,โ€ย 
โ€œShit,โ€ Someone else says, and then you realize that itโ€™s San and youโ€™re not alone with the only other person in the entire world, youโ€™re in the middle of work in front of at least one other person and itโ€™s only your existence that just got tilted on its axis. Yours and maybe Yunhoโ€™s.ย 
โ€œOh,โ€ You glance to the side, taking in Sanโ€™s wide eyed expression, โ€œoh my God,โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m not insane, am I?โ€ Yunho smiles, his focus entirely on you, and you think you might just pass out, โ€œYou felt that?โ€ย 
Thereโ€™s a noise in the hall and San scrambles up to his feet, โ€œIseul,โ€ he says heading for the door, โ€œdo you need help looking?โ€ย 
Heโ€™s covering for you both, but thoughts are slow to form and all you can manage is blinking at the man in your chair.ย 
โ€œYou did, right?โ€ He asks again, eyes soft and hopeful, and then his fingers brush over the center of his chest. Squarely over his breastbone.
Heโ€™s yours.ย 
You want to reach out and yank up his shirt, check the tattoo over his heart to see if itโ€™s the same looping knot shape as yours, but you donโ€™t need to see it to know for sure. Itโ€™s him.ย 
San says something about forgetting the liner altogether, a little louder so you both know the room is going to get crowded again, and you shake your head to jolt yourself out of your paralyzed position.ย 
โ€œYou didnโ€™t?โ€ His hand falls.ย 
โ€œI did,โ€ You rush to correct, โ€œIโ€™m, I donโ€™t know,โ€ย 
He nods, wetting his lips and shifting in his chair. He moves to reach for you, but reason and sense click back into place immediately and you realize that no matter what your tattoo feels like and no matter what this means, youโ€™re at work and about to have a very private moment in a very public place if youโ€™re not careful.ย 
You shake your head with a glance at his hand and jerk your head towards the door, โ€œLater,โ€ย 
โ€œRight,โ€ He leans back from you, โ€œof course, right,โ€ย 
Footsteps to your right draw your attention and Iseul is huffing, checking her own watch, โ€œWeโ€™ll do brown,โ€ย 
โ€œThatโ€™ll be fine,โ€ San assures her, but his eyes are glued on the pair of you.ย 
Iseul moves to step around you again and realizes youโ€™re just standing there, โ€œWhatโ€™s with you?โ€ย 
โ€œSorry,โ€ You manage, blinking hard and refocusing, โ€œI just got dizzy,โ€ย 
Itโ€™s not entirely a lie, given that you felt the entire earth shift under your feet thirty seconds ago and your life is completely changed. Dizzy is the least of how youโ€™re feeling.ย 
Yunhoโ€™s expression shifts immediately, concern across his face, and he curls his fingers into his palms to keep himself from reaching out again, from being too familiar.ย 
โ€œOh,โ€ Her eyebrows raise high, โ€œdo you need me to finish Yunho?โ€
โ€œN-no,โ€ You take a breath, โ€œjust give me one second,โ€ย 
โ€œAre you sure youโ€™re alright?โ€ Yunho asks, and in the back of your brain you wonder if his voice has always sounded this good.ย 
โ€œHere,โ€ San cuts in smoothly, cracking the seal on a fresh water bottle and passing it over to you, โ€œdo you need to sit a minute?โ€ย 
Sanโ€™s hand rests on your upper back between your shoulders as you take a long sip of water, the cold shocking your brain back to reality in exactly the way you need.ย 
โ€œThank you,โ€ You tell him honestly, โ€œI think Iโ€™m okay, just a headrush,โ€ย 
San nods, and when you refocus your eyes on Yunho, you almost laugh. His gaze is squarely on Sanโ€™s hand where it sits on your back, and you watch the fast, silent exchange between the two men when San drops his hand and Yunho realizes his own reaction. He blushes, ears running red and he dips his head to avoid both your eyes.ย 
โ€œIseul,โ€ San steps around you both and distracts your friend, โ€œready to wrap?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ She agrees, โ€œletโ€™s finish up. Youโ€™re sure youโ€™re okay, y/n?โ€ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ You hardly trust your own voice, but you nod anyway, โ€œIโ€™m good now.โ€ย 
Yunho tilts his face back up as you step close, and the tension between you is so palpable and so familiar that you can hardly breathe. Your tattoo feels warm and heavy and something tells you that his does too, you can see it in the tenderness of his brown eyes.ย 
โ€œDizzy?โ€ He asks quietly, keeping his words just for you.ย 
You shake your head, โ€œNo,โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s good,โ€ He murmurs, but he lets whatever words he wants to say rest on his tongue.ย 
Your tattoo throbs and you donโ€™t dare touch his bare skin again.ย 
His makeup takes fifteen more minutes and his eyes donโ€™t stray from your face the entire time. You barely finish on time, and wardrobe is standing by to get them into their first outfits of the night, so when you put the final touches on heโ€™s already being pulled out of the chair before you have a chance to say anything.ย 
You want to corner him and ask him exactly when heโ€™ll have time to talk later, but despite working together for the last few years, you and Yunho arenโ€™t that close. Youโ€™re friendly, but youโ€™re not familiar enough to casually ask what heโ€™s doing later and not have it seem strange. While friendships between staff members and idols are not discouraged, even between the opposite sex, being overly familiar or suggestive would certainly leave a question in everyoneโ€™s minds, and you donโ€™t want to draw attention to yourself that quickly.ย 
This is between you and Yunho, no one else. You donโ€™t want an audience for this.ย 
So he goes, pulled away by wardrobe and his other members, fitted quickly into his Soundcheck outfit. He has his game face on, so do all the members, and you watch him disappear down the hall without a second glance back at you.ย 
You collapse into the couch and press your eyes closed, focusing on the singular feeling of heat and soreness from your chest.
A soulmate.ย 
The tattoo on your chest was one you barely looked at anymore, too focused on living your life to sit in the mirror and wonder about the person who would be your other half, the person that would slot into the gaps in your spirit with a simple brush of skin on skin. But now, it aches. It pulses to remind you that itโ€™s real and that youโ€™ve found him.ย 
Everything in your life is about to change. Has already changed.
On the couch you donโ€™t sleep as much as you disassociate, still stunned, your buzzing brain filtering out everything Iseul says as she cleans up around you and preps both of your brush belts for touch ups. Thereโ€™s such a small amount of time between Soundcheck and the concert that you barely get to process, you just exist, playing the moment you touched him over again and again in your mind. Despite how utterly changed you feel, the world is just continuing on around you like a regular day.
Once again, you and Yunho miss each other for every brief moment between Soundcheck and stage.
The shift happens in the wings, in the underbelly of the stage where you and the other staff members for hair, makeup, and wardrobe wait for any last minute quick fixes. The eight of them are almost ready, pumping themselves up between rows of technical equipment and stage scaffolding.ย 
Thereโ€™s so much commotion around you and yet your eyes are drawn to him like a magnet, the feelings you once had for him coming back to you full force in a blurry torrent.ย 
He shifts, stretches, swallows hard, and then looks up directly into your eyes. Thereโ€™s a question in them that you canโ€™t read, but you manage to smile.ย 
His shoulders relax just a little.ย 
You raise your fist, giving him the gesture for โ€˜fightingโ€™ and he returns it with a wide grin.ย 
โ€œAlright,โ€ Hongjoongโ€™s voice cuts through, the final step of their pre-show ritual as the concert hall starts to roar, โ€œhuddle up.โ€ย 
The eight of them circle up with each other, one leg in and one out.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ve practiced hard,โ€ Hongjoong starts, patting his members on the back, โ€œlet that practice pay off, and have fun out there,โ€ย 
โ€œOkay!โ€ San hypes them up, getting the tension high.ย 
โ€œLetโ€™s give it our all,โ€ Hongjoong continues, a wide smile on his face, โ€œfighting!โ€
They echo it back, and a tense feeling starts to roll in your gut.ย 
โ€œAlright, one,โ€ Hongjoong starts the count and you feel the tension in your own body rising, enough to make you take a soft step back from the group, โ€œtwo,โ€ย 
On three they chorus it, moving their feet in a synchronized step,ย  โ€œEight makes one team! Fighting!โ€ย 
They break apart, clapping each other on the back, and your eyes meet Yunhoโ€™s for one more fast second before heโ€™s jogging after the rest of the members and finding his mark on the stage risers.ย 
You feel the sensation of his eyes on you even after heโ€™s gone. You have the length of four songs and their opening ments before members start swapping out on stage for makeup touch-ups and technical adjustments. The sound of the audience is intense, the start of the first song keying up, and you stumble back from your post to get a breath of air away from it all.ย 
Thereโ€™s a bathroom along the hallway two doors down from the green room thatโ€™s meant for staff and you blissfully find it empty. With shaking hands you flip the lock and sink down into a crouch, your back braced against the wall as you breathe through the sudden wave of feelings filling your chest.ย 
Adrenaline, thatโ€™s what the bitter taste on your tongue is.ย 
Your heart is thumping, double time like youโ€™re running a marathon, and then you realize it. You can feel him, even now with the bond between you unfulfilled you can feel his emotions coming to you like a wave. Adrenaline, anxiety, euphoria, exhaustion, it all roils through you and you brace your hands on the wall to get your composure back.ย 
They say the first time you feel your soulmate link it takes you by surprise, but this is an intensity you couldnโ€™t have imagined. Itโ€™s all encompassing and honestly terrifying, and youโ€™re struggling to understand which parts of you are you and which are him. You canโ€™t conceive of how an accepted bond would make this feeling stronger when it already feels like your emotions and his are knit together so tightly.ย 
Anxiety strikes down the link and you realize itโ€™s not stage fright, itโ€™s for you. He can feel your panic and your fear just like you can feel every ounce of his performance and if you donโ€™t get yourself in check youโ€™re going to be distracting him even more than you already are.ย 
You yank yourself up off the floor and collapse against the sink, turning on the cold water tap and taking slow and steadying breaths. In through the nose, out through the mouth. Counting slowly, relaxing your body with every pulse of oxygen through your system. You hope he can feel it, but you have no idea how this all really works. Youโ€™ll have to call your sister when this is all said and done, find out what she felt when she met her wife, but right now in this bathroom in Berlin you have to do this by yourself.ย 
You hear the pulse of another song thrumming through the stadium as they keep performing, and you feel the thundering beat of his heart in your chest, but you breathe into it this time and try to keep yourself calm for his sake. You splash cold water on your face, keep breathing low and slow, and eventually you pull yourself back up to standing tall to look at yourself in the mirror.ย 
You look the same as you did a few hours ago, before him, but the warmth in your chest is still present and you wonder if that will ever go away or if thatโ€™s just a permanent part of the link.ย 
With shaky hands you unbutton your blouse and pull your bralette down in the center to reveal what you already know is there. Your breath catches in your throat at the sight.ย 
The tattoo nestled at the base of your sternum is the only one you were born with. Every other line of ink on your body was put there with intention, but this one youโ€™ve had for as long as you can remember. The maedeup knot is small, but intricate, and until this moment it had always been colorless. Loops of black and gray twining together to make a rounded diamond, unbroken with no beginning or end to the threads.ย 
Now the ink has changed, a deep red against your skin that makes the knotted josephin soulmark look even more traditional, but the skin is slightly inflamed, tender to the touch as you brush your fingertips along it. It feels like a fresh mark, not something youโ€™ve had since birth, but considering how itโ€™s changed, maybe it is new. A soulmark shifting color is common, you know that, but it still stands out so starkly against your skin and your other black tattoos. You canโ€™t look away from it.ย 
A pounding on the bathroom door makes you jump and you fix your shirt, covering the mark back up and buttoning it away. You wonder if Yunhoโ€™s mark is the exact same like other couples you know and if it too turned red, if itโ€™s warm to the touch, if he felt you brush against your mark through the link.ย 
โ€œy/n?โ€ A voice comes through the door and you shut off the tap.ย 
โ€œComing!โ€ You wipe the excess water on your hands onto your jeans and take one last, fast look to make sure your mark isnโ€™t visible, before opening the bathroom door.ย 
Wonshik, one of their many managers, is waiting for you on the other side. His eyes narrow when he sees you, โ€œAre you ill?โ€ย 
โ€œNo,โ€ You assure him.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re sure?โ€ He presses, โ€œWe canโ€™t afford to lose any more staff or risk getting the members sick if you are,โ€ย 
โ€œI know, Wonshik,โ€ You nod, โ€œI promise Iโ€™m just tired, jet-lagged. I was putting cold water on my face, thatโ€™s all. Iโ€™m not sick,โ€ย 
He exhales in relief, his expression softening, โ€œThank God,โ€ he says, โ€œI can only take so many surprises.โ€ย 
A little sickness is nothing compared to a staff member and an idol under a dating ban being soulmarked, but you hold your tongue.ย 
โ€œTheyโ€™re about to come off,โ€ He says, โ€œIseul was looking for you, she seems like she might start climbing the walls if you donโ€™t get back to help her,โ€ย 
โ€œNo, of course,โ€ You start back towards the side stage entrance, โ€œI lost track of time, but it wonโ€™t happen again,โ€ย 
โ€œMake sure you sleep tonight,โ€ He adds, following you closely, โ€œno sleep means no immune system, and no immune system means sick.โ€ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t worry,โ€ You promise, winding your way through the dark backstage, โ€œyou wonโ€™t lose me,โ€ย 
โ€œI better not,โ€ He sighs, and then Iseul comes into sight.ย 
โ€œThere you are!โ€ She hisses low under her breath, โ€œI was about to have a panic attack,โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, Iโ€™m here, Iโ€™m good,โ€ In the commotion, your brain starts to ease into normalcy. Youโ€™re used to this pace, the speed of lightning fast makeup touch-ups and assisting wardrobe when things start to go awry with their quick changes. The audience feels none of this, they just see smooth change-outs on stage and cool idols in new clothes, but backstage is a wild flurry and it always puts you on an entirely different plane of focus.ย 
โ€œHere we go,โ€ A stage director starts, gathering everyoneโ€™s attention, โ€œfour minutesโ€ฆ startingโ€ฆโ€ย 
The stage goes dark and in the venue a video starts to play to the crowd to fill the space between costume changes. You prep your hands, making sure your kit is ready to go and you see the wardrobe specialists out of the corner of your eye readying themselves to help facilitate the quick change.ย 
Suddenly theyโ€™re here, and the stage director interrupts once more, โ€œNow, four minutes people, letโ€™s go.โ€ย 
โ€œMingi,โ€ He gets to you first and he crouches down to drop his face to your height, โ€œstay still one second,โ€ย 
He says nothing, but he nods as you pat powder across his forehead and the bridge of his nose, checking him over for any other defects. He looks good and you nod, โ€œGo, go,โ€ย 
Mingi peels off to the left of you and you hear the sound of fabric swishing as he and Wooyoung rip off the top layer of their outfits behind the privacy screens and trade garments with the wardrobe team. Itโ€™s a fast shuffle, but you stay focused on whoโ€™s in front of you.ย 
โ€œSeonghwa,โ€ You wave to him, pulling blotting tissues out of the pack on your belt, โ€œhere,โ€ย 
He knows this drill well, youโ€™re used to working with him and you have a clean routine down. He blots the sweat off his brow himself and starts to unbutton his jacket while you shift focus to Yunho.ย 
For a split second you almost forget what happened earlier in the buzz of backstage, but the minute your eyes hold on his awareness floods you.ย 
โ€œHey,โ€ You say, but thereโ€™s a time clock shout behind you and you beckon him down, โ€œcome here, let me fix things,โ€
He drops down to your height just like Mingi did and stays steady while you work, but his eyes flick up, โ€œYouโ€™re okay?โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m good,โ€ You nod, โ€œdonโ€™t worry,โ€ย 
His expression clears a little and you guess you have your answer about the feeling of the link going both ways.ย 
Hongjoong clears his throat behind you both, โ€œWeโ€™re short on time,โ€ย 
โ€œAm I good?โ€ Yunho checks.ย 
Your eyes flick over him fast, โ€œYep,โ€ย 
Heโ€™s out of your eyeline a split second later, and youโ€™re grateful for the distraction of both Hongjoong and Seonghwa, otherwise youโ€™re sure youโ€™d dwell a little bit too long on the fact that Yunhoโ€™s half naked next to you, privacy screen or no.ย 
โ€œOne minute,โ€ The stage director announces, โ€œeveryoneโ€™s doing great,โ€ย 
The boys are almost done, flying through the last of their zips and getting their hair smoothed down by that team as they finish. You put the last pat of powder on Seonghwaโ€™s nose and give him a nod before heโ€™s gone too, dropping his jacket as he goes and giving you all a quick flash of his bare back.ย 
You turn back towards the group as they prepare and your eyes zero in on Yunho again. His expression is serious, itโ€™s his game face before he gets back out on stage, and you watch as he corrects the placement of his in-ears and ensures that his mic pack is secured. He runs through his pre-stage ritual and you canโ€™t help but be a captive audience.ย 
โ€œGood work,โ€ The stage director says as Seonghwa rejoins the eight, fully dressed and ready for stage, โ€œfifteen seconds for act two,โ€ย 
The crowd heats up again as the video starts to fade, and the members do their final checks. Yunho doesnโ€™t look back at you once, his eyes forward and focused as he and the other members find their places on the rising platform that will take them back out to the main stage.ย 
You can see him a little though, in the low light in his white trousers and blue satin shirt. He lifts his hand, adjusting his microphone once again, and then as he drops it back to his side he lets his fingers skim over the familiar hollow of his chest.ย 
Your mark warms, you feel it as if it were your chest he brushed his fingers over, and your breath stops.ย 
The platform rises, the crowd roars, and your heart starts beating to a new rhythm.ย 
He really is yours.ย 
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It turns out that later means much later.ย 
You manage to get out of dinner with some of the other staff members, but that just leaves you anxious and alone in a hotel room trying and failing to eat room service. Iseul would be back soon to take up her place in the other bed, and youโ€™re starting to realize that you donโ€™t have Yunhoโ€™s number.ย 
Now that emotions are a little smoother, you canโ€™t feel him. Or maybe you can, but itโ€™s so faint that youโ€™re not sure. All you know is that heโ€™s definitely in the hotel, but thatโ€™s partially the solid feeling of your link with him and partially the YouTube live being broadcast from Seonghwaโ€™s room where all of the members are.ย 
You put the live on and watch, feeling strangely disconnected from the men on screen. Youโ€™ve known them for years, but suddenly with this new truth everything feels foreign and confusing.ย 
You should call your sister, but itโ€™s only six in the morning in Korea and even though this is an emergency of life altering and epic proportions, you canโ€™t bring yourself to wake her on a Saturday.ย 
You try your best to eat the pasta you ordered and watch as the live eventually ends. Your phone dings and for a split second you think it will be him, but itโ€™s just Iseul telling you sheโ€™s heading back to the hotel.ย 
A soft knock at the door makes your stomach lurch.ย 
Youโ€™re frozen.ย 
Thereโ€™s another knock, a little firmer this time but then you feel the warm touch against your mark and youโ€™re on your feet, your hand on the door handle before you can think.ย 
He looks tired, thatโ€™s your first thought. His face is bare again, and his eyes are rimmed in a little bit of red like he just removed the dayโ€™s stage makeup. Despite all that, he smiles when he sees you and sighs, leaning against the door frame, โ€œYouโ€™re awake,โ€ he says.ย 
โ€œI waited,โ€ You manage.ย 
He grimaces, โ€œIโ€™m sorry, I didnโ€™t mean to,โ€ his eyes flick behind you into the room and he swallows, โ€œare you alone?โ€ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ You nod, โ€œbut not for long, Iseulโ€™s on her way,โ€ย 
He nods, โ€œCome to my room?โ€ย 
โ€œAre you sure?โ€ Your eyes widen.ย 
โ€œWe need to talk,โ€ He nods, โ€œcan you get away for a little while?โ€ย 
Iseul will probably expect you to be asleep, but you canโ€™t let this go until morning. If youโ€™re ever going to sleep you need to talk to him now.ย 
โ€œIโ€™ll think of something,โ€ You tell him, โ€œwhat room?โ€ย 
โ€œ2606,โ€ He answers, reaching into his pockets and producing an envelope from the front desk, โ€œtake this,โ€ย 
He passes you one of his room keys and you nod, โ€œIโ€™ll be up in five minutes, but you should go,โ€ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ He breathes and neither one of you makes a single move to step away from the door until a sound down the hallway pushes you into it.ย 
โ€œ2606,โ€ You repeat and he nods, swiftly moving down the hall before anyone can see him standing at your door.ย 
You have no idea what youโ€™re going to tell Iseul that would make sense, but you donโ€™t care. You stack up your room service for collection, kick on a pair of slippers, and give yourself the fastest look in the mirror ever on your way out the door. You want to be gone before she gets back, the idea of facing her and lying ten times more difficult than an empty text.ย 
No problem - I canโ€™t sleep, Iโ€™m just going to walk a bit. Donโ€™t wait up.
You donโ€™t stick around to see if sheโ€™ll believe it.ย 
You try to seem casual when walking to Yunhoโ€™s room, like it's yours. You donโ€™t want anyone to give you a second glance and wonder where youโ€™re going, so you keep your head up, smile at anyone you pass, and when his door comes into view you scan the card like itโ€™s any other day.ย 
When the heavy door shuts behind you, you sigh.ย 
โ€œGod, finally,โ€ His voice startles you, and you look up to see him pacing, โ€œIโ€™ve been going insane all day,โ€ย 
Your shoulders drop, you arenโ€™t alone, โ€œMe too,โ€
He runs a hand through his black hair and finally stops pacing, but doesnโ€™t come any closer, โ€œSo, this is real?โ€ย 
โ€œIt feels pretty real,โ€ย 
โ€œHow did we never feel it?โ€ He manages, โ€œIโ€™ve known you for years,โ€ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ve never touched until today,โ€ You tell him, and that has to be the reason, itโ€™s the only thing that makes sense. Youโ€™ve been turning it over in your mind all night, and with the exception of bumping into him last week in the hall, itโ€™s all been polite bows and waves.ย 
โ€œHow is that even possible,โ€ He breathes, โ€œteam dinners? Holiday parties? Work?โ€ย 
โ€œSkin to skin,โ€ You murmur, โ€œI think thatโ€™s what it was,โ€ย 
โ€œI had no idea,โ€ He swallows, gesturing in the negative space between your bodies, โ€œI always liked you, but I thought it was just, you know, a crush,โ€ย 
โ€œYou what?โ€ Your eyebrows raise.ย 
โ€œWell,โ€ He backtracks, โ€œnot like that, itโ€™s not like Iโ€™ve been holding a candle.โ€ย 
Your face stays neutral, but he grimaces at his own words.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m fucking this up,โ€ He takes a deep breath, โ€œIโ€™m sorry, Iโ€™m really nervous.โ€ย 
Your stomach warms, โ€œYunho, itโ€™s okay, honestly,โ€ย 
โ€œI just meant Iโ€™ve always liked you, I thought about asking you out when our contracts loosened up if you were still single.โ€ He clarifies and then you watch his face blanch, โ€œYou are single, arenโ€™t you?โ€ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ You nod, โ€œwe donโ€™t have to worry about that,โ€ย 
He nods and you see him searching for the next thing to say, the right thing.ย 
โ€œYour mark,โ€ You cut in, taking a few steps further into the room, โ€œdid it change?โ€ย 
โ€œCompletely,โ€ He nods, โ€œdid yours?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ You wonder the right way to ask him if you can see.ย 
โ€œDoes it feel,โ€ He starts.
โ€œWarm?โ€ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ He nods, โ€œand tender?โ€ย 
โ€œLike a fresh tattoo,โ€ You take another step in.ย 
โ€œIโ€™ve never gotten a tattoo,โ€ He confesses, โ€œbut Iโ€™ll take your word for it,โ€ย 
โ€œCan I,โ€ The words are stuck on your tongue, โ€œmaybe this is weird, but I mean, I guess weโ€™re soulmates,โ€ย 
โ€œYou want to see it?โ€ He surmises.ย 
โ€œOnly if youโ€™re comfortable,โ€ย 
His lips quirk, โ€œIโ€™m comfortable,โ€
Heat twists in your gut and you wonder if he can feel that too. If he does he doesnโ€™t say it, but you watch as he pulls the black t-shirt off over his head.ย 
Youโ€™ve never seen his chest. Any inch of his skin except for his neck and arms really, and you guess that was part of keeping his soulmark covered. Idols always do, even when theyโ€™re in the most inconvenient locations, thereโ€™s always makeup or flesh colored tape or editing to take care of it. The idea that someone could replicate it and try to fake a connection is far too real for someone famous.ย 
He drops his shirt onto the bed and pink tinges his cheeks as he gestures towards it, โ€œWell,โ€ย 
Your mouth drops, itโ€™s the exact same, down to the size and the placement and every little loop and you stumble forwards to get a better look, โ€œYunho,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah?โ€ย 
โ€œHas yours always been red?โ€ You reach out, your fingertips hovering just over it.ย 
He shakes his head, โ€œNot before today,โ€ย 
โ€œMineโ€™s the same,โ€ You tell him, your eyes glued to his sternum, โ€œjust the same,โ€ย 
You know every centimeter of this tattoo. Youโ€™ve studied it a thousand times in the mirror, tracing over every curve with your eyes, trying to find the place where the cord starts and ends. He sucks in a sharp breath as your fingers brush gently along his mark, and you feel the ghost of the sensation against your own.ย 
โ€œI canโ€™t believe we never knew,โ€ You murmur, sliding your finger along each rounded edge.ย 
โ€œYou feel that?โ€ He asks, โ€œRight?โ€ย 
Youโ€™re nodding and moving to tug off your sweater before you can even think it through. He starts to shake his head, to say that you donโ€™t have to, but youโ€™re already tossing the sweater next to his discarded shirt and tugging down the front band of your bralette so he can see the whole mark.ย 
His eyes flick over you fast, but with the matching mark in front of him he doesnโ€™t focus on anything else, โ€œItโ€™s exactly the same,โ€ย 
โ€œI know,โ€ You reach for his hand, but the minute more of your skin connects with his you feel your chest throb and you drop it like it burns you.ย 
He winces, touching his chest again, โ€œIs it supposed to hurt?โ€ย 
โ€œIn the beginning,โ€ You nod, โ€œI think?โ€ย 
โ€œDoes it always feel like that?โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m not sure,โ€ You admit, โ€œI was going to call my sister and ask, but itโ€™s too early at home,โ€ย 
He smiles, โ€œYour sister found her soulmate?โ€ย 
โ€œIn highschool,โ€ You smile back, โ€œtheyโ€™ve been bonded together since they were eighteen,โ€ย 
โ€œOlder or younger?โ€ He asks, and you realize just how little you know about each other despite how long youโ€™ve worked alongside him.ย 
โ€œYounger,โ€ You say.ย ย 
โ€œI have a little brother,โ€ He replies, โ€œbut heโ€™s still in school,โ€ย 
You nod, painfully aware that this is such a strange conversation to have with your shirts off just standing in the middle of a hotel room, but somehow itโ€™s easier than any date youโ€™ve ever had.ย 
Your eyes flick from his eyes to his mark and he reaches out a hand again, โ€œCan I?โ€ย 
Your heart quickens and you nod.ย 
His fingertips graze over the edge of your mark, mimicking your touch from before, sliding along the edges of the tattoo. His eyes widen and you know heโ€™s feeling the sensation in his own mark, a mirror image of each other.ย 
โ€œThis doesnโ€™t hurt,โ€ He observes, letting his fingers linger.ย 
โ€œI think we have to get used to each other,โ€ You remember that fact from somewhere, โ€œthe link has been dormant for a long time, I think it takes a minute to get used to having it,โ€ย 
โ€œMakes sense,โ€ He murmurs, his eyes still squarely on your mark, โ€œIโ€™ll be honest though, I still really want to touch you,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah?โ€ Your voice is thready.ย 
His fingers fall away and he nods, โ€œDonโ€™t you?โ€ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ You agree, painfully quickly.ย 
He swallows tightly and takes the smallest step forwards, before offering out his hand, palm up and waiting for you.
Your eyes flick from his face down to his outstretched hand, and you reach for him slowly. You let your fingertips skate over the skin of his palm, down each digit, ghost the pads of your fingertips together. Itโ€™s warm, sharp and dizzying even just to brush against each other.ย 
You wonder what more will feel like.ย 
โ€œCan I try something?โ€ He murmurs, his voice nearly a whisper even though youโ€™re all alone.ย 
You nod.ย 
He wets his lips unconsciously and moves a little closer, your bodies now only inches apart. Anxiety, anticipation, thrill, it all runs through your gut like a whirling wind and you shiver at the torrent of his emotions, a grin breaking out over your face.ย 
His smile mirrors yours, โ€œYour heartโ€™s beating a mile a minute,โ€ย 
โ€œYou can feel that?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ He breathes, grin widening, โ€œthis is crazy,โ€ย 
You laugh, a little nervous, a little elated, and he finally reaches out his hands.ย 
He takes a steadying breath, and then his fingertips brush along your jaw.ย 
You suck in a sharp gasp at the sensation, electric and hot, the feeling rocketing through your entire body. You tilt your face up to his as he continues his gentle touches, your eyes watching him as he studies you. His plush lips are parted, brown eyes wide with awe as he grows a little bolder to brush over your cheeks, down your throat, and back up to your jawline.ย 
โ€œFeel alright?โ€ He murmurs.ย 
You nod into his touch and he starts to lift off but you reach for him, โ€œDonโ€™t stop,โ€ย 
Your hands land safely on his hips, still covered by his sweatpants and you watch him swallow again at the sudden contact, his Adamโ€™s apple bobbing in his throat. Warmth fills the bond, no doubt the first threads of his arousal, and you wonder if he can feel your own. If he can sense how much heโ€™s affecting you with just his fingertips on your face.ย 
His hands settle back on your skin, this time smoothing across you with his palms, one hand cupping your cheek and the other sliding over your shoulder and down your bare back.ย 
You can barely breathe, the room so silent and around you, like the only thing in the universe that exists is the two of you orbiting each other, standing at the precipice of something so catastrophic and wonderful.ย 
Your hands adjust, resting on his taut abdomen as you move a little closer together, and his eyes flutter shut as he breathes through the sensation of your hands on him properly for the first time.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re so warm,โ€ You murmur, your hands softly tracing his abdominal muscles, instinct guiding you to touch more of him, seek out every inch of him as you unconsciously make a map of his body in your mind.ย 
He hums pleasantly, eyes reopening, โ€œSo are you,โ€ย 
He feels so right, so essential under your touch.ย 
Yunho wets his lips softly with his tongue, and a nervous thrill passes through your belly. His eyes flick over you, the pad of his thumb sweeping a line over your lips. You suppress a needy sound, still trying to keep your head amidst the thrumming emotions and steady thumps of your heart.ย 
He doesnโ€™t stop, just stroking your skin slowly, fingers on your back pressing just a little as he sighs.ย 
โ€œYunho,โ€ You shiver.ย 
โ€œCold?โ€ He gravitates a little closer.ย 
โ€œN-no,โ€ Your body is all but pressed flush against him now, and you have to lean your face up even more just to see him as he stands tall over you.ย 
โ€œIโ€ฆโ€ He starts to say something but lets the words die off, like heโ€™s thinking something through, but then he sighs, โ€œforget it,โ€ย 
His lips are on yours.ย 
Yunho lifts you, wrapping his arms around your back and tugging you up into his embrace. You gasp against his mouth, finding his shoulders to hold onto as one of his arms bands around your lower back.ย 
The kiss is shattering, the world tilting once again, a new frequency humming between your two bodies. Itโ€™s hot, your skin buzzing from the contact, but the way you move together is fluid and easy. Your legs part naturally, settling around his hips and his free hand finds your plush thigh as he tugs you into place, slotting your bodies together like they were always meant to be.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m sorry,โ€ He mumbles against your lips when he draws in a quick breath, but he doesnโ€™t stop kissing you. His nose nuzzles against yours, and his lips part at the same moment yours do, tongues meeting in the space between your mouths to flick against each other.ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t,โ€ You push closer to him, fingers knotting into the back of his hair as you kiss him back.ย 
He hums, the hand on your thigh sliding up to cup your ass and you shiver as his wide hand stretches across your backside, squeezing your pillowy flesh.ย 
A tiny whimper does leave you then, liquid heat spreading through your body, the combined sensation of both your arousals giving you a headrush.ย 
โ€œSo beautiful,โ€ He sighs between kisses, โ€œyouโ€™re so beautiful,โ€ย 
โ€œYunho,โ€ Your voice is thready, his name a stretched out sound.ย 
He holds you close, nearly stumbling as he moves. You blink your eyes open just as he spins you both, pushing you up against the hotel wall and pinning you in place with the weight of his body.ย  You should slow things down, but nothing in your life has ever felt this good and you find yourself diving back to meet his kiss again.ย 
ย His arm slides out from behind your back as he pushes closer, your body fully supported by the flat of the wall behind you and his hips under yours and one hand firmly anchored on your ass. With his arm free he cups your cheek, a pleased sound on his lips as he dips you back into the wall and deepens the kiss.ย 
Heat blooms through you, your kisses getting needier, artless and desperate just to get a little closer together. The kind of kissing that sounds as messy as it is, tiny pants and moans muffled between you, skin on skin, tongue on tongue.ย 
โ€œGod,โ€ He shudders, his lips breaking away, but his eyes only flick over you for a second before he dives back in. This time his lips travel, hot kisses across your jaw and back to the hollow of your ear, down your throat as he holds you a little higher on the wall for the right access.ย 
You grip his shoulders with one hand and lock your fingers in his mess of black hair with the other, your head falling back against the wall. He pants against your throat, a soft groan as he kisses, and your stomach tightens pleasantly.ย 
โ€œY-Yunho,โ€ You gasp, arousal rolling through you, and unconsciously you rock your hips, desperately seeking some kind of friction.ย 
He hums low in his throat, kissing back up your neck fast to get to your lips again and his hand slides off your cheek as he crowds you tighter, bracing himself against the wall above your head. His abdomen presses against your core, and even through layers of fabric you feel his heat. Hungrily, you roll your hips again and catch a little pressure, moaning in earnest against his mouth.ย 
Yunho makes a tight sound and then he breaks the kiss, his forehead pressing hard against yours as he takes in slow breaths, his body all but trembling with need as he holds you.ย 
โ€œWe need to slow down,โ€ He manages.ย 
You canโ€™t find words, not yet, but you nod against him.ย 
โ€œYou deserve better,โ€ He says, โ€œdates, presents,โ€ย 
You laugh softly, your hand in his hair softening from a grip to a gentle hold, carding through the long locks at the base of his neck, โ€œI donโ€™t need all that,โ€ย ย 
He smiles wide, brushing off your words, โ€œStill,โ€ He sighs, still recovering from the heated make out, โ€œI think I have more self control than fulfilling our bond by fucking you into the wall,โ€ย 
Reality bleeds back in at that. Soulmarks were just that, indicator marks. A way to find your person amidst a sea of thousands, if not millions. All the shared sensation and emotion a precursor to something more permanent and binding, something only sealed together by sex.ย 
You lift your head up, and he leans back to mirror you.ย 
โ€œI lost my head there,โ€ You admit, warm blush in your cheeks, โ€œI didnโ€™t know it would feel like this,โ€ย 
He smiles, and you take in his expression. His hair is a mess, mussed and disheveled and his face is pink from his nose down to the dark, well-kissed curve of his lips. His bare chest is flushed bright pink and his eyes are bright and warm. You fight the urge to kiss him again.ย 
โ€œMe either,โ€ He shakes his head, โ€œitโ€™s incredible,โ€ย 
โ€œOverwhelming,โ€ You nod, exhaling softly.ย 
He makes a soft sound to agree and then starts to push back from the wall gingerly, letting you slowly unwrap your legs from his waist and ease down to the floor.ย 
He lets you go when youโ€™re steady on your feet and clears his throat, adjusting the waistband of his sweatpants and running a hand through his tangled locks. Heโ€™s hard, that much is obvious from the distinct outline of his cock through the gray fabric, but you do your best to look away and not think about how thick and heavy it looked just from kissing you.ย 
โ€œJesus,โ€ He adjusts his sweats again, โ€œsorry,โ€ย 
โ€œItโ€™s fine,โ€ You cup your own cheeks with cool fingers, โ€œI promise youโ€™re not the only one,โ€ย 
His eyes hold yours for a lengthy beat and then he swallows, taking a wide step back and nodding, โ€œRight,โ€ he shakes his head, โ€œweโ€™re supposed to be slowing down.โ€ย 
โ€œSlow,โ€ You lean against the wall behind you, crossing your arms over your chest and trying to steady your thumping heart.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m going over here,โ€ He grins and walks to the far wall by the door to the bathroom, leaning back and crossing his own arms, โ€œwe really should talk,โ€ย 
A pulse of anxiety flickers through you, and you realize just how quickly you went from his hotel room door to nearly falling into bed. Heโ€™s handsome, a kind man, your once upon a time crush, and certainly fated to be a good match for you, but that doesnโ€™t mean you should throw out good sense and rush things. No matter how much your impulses were screaming at you to do just that.
You try to ignore the fact that thereโ€™s a bed between you, and you nod, โ€œYouโ€™re right,โ€ you finally say, โ€œwe barely know each other,โ€ย 
Yunhoโ€™s smile fades just a bit, โ€œI wouldnโ€™t say that,โ€ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re coworkers,โ€ The words tumble out, โ€œI know what weโ€™re both feeling, but,โ€ย 
His brow furrows as he thinks through your words and he shakes his head, โ€œy/n,โ€ he cuts you off, โ€œdo you believe in soulmates?โ€ย 
โ€œYes, of course,โ€ Even if you hadnโ€™t before, the way youโ€™re feeling now would be enough to dispel any skeptic.ย 
He takes in a quick breath, the sound sharp as he draws it through his teeth and he cocks his head slightly to the side, โ€œYouโ€™re scared,โ€ he massages the top of his sternum with his fingers, and you recognize your own chest is tight with anxiety, โ€œI can feel it, talk to me.โ€ย 
The instant vulnerability of the bond is startling, and you can feel your own expression crumble. Itโ€™s suddenly a bit like being an ant caught under a magnifying glass, too much sharp attention all at once and you swallow tightly, eyes flicking away from his tender gaze.ย 
โ€œy/n,โ€ He murmurs, โ€œIโ€™m not pushing for more, not tonight,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ Your voice is soft, too quiet for your own liking. Something about the way he sees you so clearly and so quickly makes you feel exposed, nervous and strangely childlike.ย 
โ€œHey,โ€ He breaks through your little thought spiral, โ€œlook at me,โ€
You straighten up again, finding his eyes.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m just happy I found you,โ€ He tells you, and you feel the truth of it in your gut, โ€œwe can figure everything else out together, and at our own pace, okay?โ€ย 
Relief spreads through you, the knot in your chest loosening, โ€œPromise?โ€ย 
โ€œPromise,โ€ He nods, raising one hand with his pinky extended, โ€œI just want us to try,โ€ย 
You nod, extending your own pinky to seal it, โ€œMe too.โ€ย 
He smiles at that, โ€œBarely know each other,โ€ he scolds softly, โ€œIโ€™m offended.โ€ย 
โ€œOh yeah?โ€ Tension bleeds out of your shoulders.ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ His expression is full of cheek, โ€œIโ€™m the one with a crush, remember? I notice things,โ€ย 
Your stomach flips pleasantly and your arms relax from their tight position crossed over your chest, โ€œWhat things?โ€ย 
โ€œLetโ€™s see,โ€ He starts, and for a brief moment you think maybe heโ€™s bluffing, but the moment he starts you melt and he holds your gaze as he warmly recites all the little things heโ€™s noticed about you over the years.ย 
โ€œYou only wear silver jewelry,โ€ he notes first, nodding towards you.ย 
Your tight hands uncurl.ย 
โ€œYou have a ridiculous sweet tooth,โ€ The more he talks the more he relaxes against the far wall, โ€œand you start getting flushed after the second shot of soju, you really are a lightweight,โ€ย 
โ€œYou always pick a Big Bang song for karaoke, and youโ€™re late to work every Monday,โ€ He laughs a little at that and keeps going, โ€œyou donโ€™t wear a lot of color but when you do itโ€™s red. Weโ€™re both from Gwangju but you moved to Seoul when you were five,โ€ย 
Your heart starts to beat a little faster, warmth filling you again and you donโ€™t know if itโ€™s your affection or his anymore, but it hardly matters.ย 
โ€œUm,โ€ He takes a deep breath and glances away for a moment and then catches more threads from his memory, โ€œyouโ€™re a Sagittarius, youโ€™re a runner, and the last book I saw you reading was Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982. I bought it, but I havenโ€™t had a chance to read it just yet,โ€ย 
โ€œYunho,โ€ You find yourself smiling, a hand over your surprised lips.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m just saying,โ€ He shrugs a little, โ€œwe arenโ€™t strangers. I know this is scary and fast and going to change the rest of our lives,โ€ย 
Elation, pure joy, spills over unfettered from his side of your new emotional tether.ย 
โ€œBut I like you,โ€ He confesses, โ€œI have for a while, and this,โ€ he brushes his fingers along his soulmark, โ€œjust changes the timeline.โ€ย 
Heโ€™s yours.ย 
You push off the wall, crossing the room and all but leap back into his embrace, your arms looping around his shoulders again as you push up on tiptoe to kiss his lips.ย 
โ€œThis is real,โ€ You murmur.ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ He cups your cheeks, nodding as he pecks your lips again.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re mine,โ€ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ He grins.ย 
โ€œOh, this is crazy,โ€ You laugh, forehead against his again.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™ll go slow,โ€ He assures you again, โ€œweโ€™ll figure it out together,โ€ย 
โ€œTogether,โ€ You nod.ย 
He dips low once more, this kiss more tender, and he separates you both before things can heat up again. โ€œHmm,โ€ He glances across the bed and makes a small face at the time displayed on the digital clock, โ€œdid you eat?โ€ย 
โ€œI tried to,โ€ You confess, โ€œI was nervous,โ€ย 
โ€œYou need to eat,โ€ He snaps up his black shirt from the bed and slips it back on, and your chest warms. Itโ€™s strangely domestic, strangely commonplace like youโ€™ve been in this position a thousand times before.ย 
Yunho adjusts his shirt and then kisses your hair as he passes by you, padding over to the hotel microwave and searching through the assorted snacks and instant meals, โ€œItโ€™s too late for room service,โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m okay,โ€ You pull your own sweater back on and sit on the edge of his bed.ย 
โ€œy/n,โ€ He glances back, a softly scolding tone.ย 
โ€œReally, you need to sleep,โ€ You offer.ย 
He dismisses that thought, โ€œBut Iโ€™m hungry, eat with me?โ€ย 
You concede, and while he starts whipping up two servings of ramen, you wonder if this is what heโ€™s going to be like. It makes sense, heโ€™s always been a caretaking kind of person, but having it so tenderly directed at you feels right.ย 
โ€œWhen we get home,โ€ He says as he pours in the spice packets, โ€œIโ€™ll take you somewhere nice,โ€ย 
โ€œThis is nice,โ€ You smile.ย 
โ€œy/n,โ€ He sets the ramen on a side table and sits next to you, โ€œthis is cup noodle from a hotel microwave,โ€
โ€œThe company is nice,โ€ You take the ramen happily though, and tuck into the warm meal.
โ€œIt is,โ€
โ€œMm, you know,โ€ You slurp back some noodles and softly clear your throat, โ€œyou werenโ€™t the only one with a crush,โ€ย 
He freezes, letting his noodles drop back into his cup, โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™ve always liked you,โ€ Your own confession feels easier after his, โ€œI put it aside since we work together, but I guess, I mean, what Iโ€™m trying to say is that we both felt it before the mark, youโ€™re not alone in that.โ€ย 
ย โ€œI had no idea,โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m very professional,โ€ You tease him lightly.ย 
He nudges you and tucks back into his noodles, โ€œHow long?โ€ย 
โ€œHmm,โ€ You get more comfortable, crossing your legs and scooting back a little onto the mattress, โ€œI thought you were cute when we first met,โ€ย 
โ€œGod,โ€ He groans, โ€œwe were such kids,โ€ย 
You nod, swallowing another bite, โ€œMhm, you had that blonde hair,โ€ย 
He laughs.ย 
โ€œI remember thinking, โ€˜that oneโ€™s troubleโ€™,โ€ You confess.ย 
โ€œMe?โ€ His eyebrows perk up, โ€œIโ€™m perfectly nice,โ€ย 
โ€œTrouble as in youโ€™re my type,โ€ You roll your eyes, โ€œbut I donโ€™t think the crush properly came until later. Youโ€™ve always made me laugh, and when I realized how I was feeling I just did my best to keep some distance,โ€ย 
He nods, face getting a little serious, โ€œI know what you mean,โ€ย 
That knowledge leaves you both a little quiet. The late hour, the adrenaline come down, all of it barrels into you at the same moment as the next anxious thought. How in the world were you both going to navigate this with a contract as tight as theirs and the public eye always watching?ย 
โ€œYunho,โ€ You murmur, the last of your noodles left to go cold as you sit with that thought, โ€œAre we going to be able to figure this out?โ€ย 
โ€œFigure what out?โ€ He looks genuinely confused by your question, โ€œUs?โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re an idol,โ€ You nod towards him, โ€œIโ€™m staff,โ€ย 
He rests a hand on your knee, โ€œWeโ€™ll be fine,โ€ย 
โ€œArenโ€™t your contracts,โ€ You trail off, letting him fill in the blanks.ย 
โ€œTheyโ€™re strict, yes,โ€ He nods, โ€œyear seven,โ€ย 
Dating, romance, even the perception of it was more than discouraged by companies in this industry, their artists contractually obligated to be single and available and dedicated only to their fans. Five years would have been the industry standard to prevent any idol from being caught out with a partner, let alone a potential soulmarked one, but seven is excessive.ย 
You blanch, โ€œThatโ€™s almost two years away,โ€ย 
โ€œWe will find a way,โ€ He says, โ€œweโ€™re not the first people in the industry this has happened to,โ€ย 
โ€œReally?โ€ You perk up, โ€œWho?โ€ย 
He falls short, โ€œWell, I donโ€™t know exactly, but itโ€™s bound to have happened.โ€ย 
โ€œAnd then ruined their careers,โ€ You groan, flopping back flat on the mattress and covering your face with a hand, โ€œwhich is why weโ€™ve never heard of them,โ€ย 
Yunho laughs, earnestly laughs, and takes the half empty ramen cup out of your hand to discard, โ€œMaybe, but for now, letโ€™s just stay positive. Get to know eachother better,โ€ย 
You nod.ย 
โ€œNothing can change the fact that we found each other,โ€ He points out, dropping down onto his side on the bed next to you, โ€œand Iโ€™m okay with that.โ€ย 
โ€œSo we just lie to everyone?โ€ You chew at the inside of your lip, staring up at the white ceiling.ย 
โ€œHey,โ€ Yunhoโ€™s fingers tuck under your chin and draw your eyes to him, โ€œI know youโ€™re anxious,โ€ย 
You sigh, letting his softness calm you again.ย 
โ€œI know,โ€ He repeats, โ€œI am too, but we donโ€™t have to decide anything tonight. Weโ€™re both tired and itโ€™s been an emotional day,โ€ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ You nod, โ€œokay, yes, youโ€™re right,โ€ย 
His thumb strokes over your cheek again, and you watch him exhale and sink further into your touch, โ€œWill you stay tonight?โ€ย 
That wakes you up.ย 
Your eyebrows raise, โ€œStay?โ€ย 
โ€œJust to sleep,โ€ He assures you, โ€œI justโ€ฆ I donโ€™t want to be without you yet,โ€ย 
โ€œI need to get back before Iseul wakes up if we do that,โ€ You note with a grimace.ย 
โ€œWhat time?โ€ He glances back to the clock.ย 
โ€œSeven,โ€ You say, โ€œher alarm is set for seven-thirty,โ€ย 
โ€œWe can do that,โ€ He grabs his phone off the side table and sets an alarm, โ€œweโ€™ll get up,โ€ย 
The pull between your bodies is so strong youโ€™re fairly sure you would have stayed no matter the consequences, but you nod, โ€œThen Iโ€™ll stay,โ€ย 
He grins and pushes himself off the bed, โ€œIโ€™ve got clothes, if you want to get comfortable,โ€ย 
โ€œSure,โ€ you sit up and wait for him to find things in his still packed suitcase.ย 
โ€œUm,โ€ He pulls a pair of black sweatpants from the bag, โ€œthese should work, and if you get cold,โ€ย 
You smile as he grabs a gray hoodie and comes back to you.ย 
As you start to pull off your sweater again, he turns around and leaves his back to you, โ€œSorry,โ€ย 
โ€œThanks,โ€ You chuckle, making short work of changing. Youโ€™re swimming in his clothes, but his sweatshirt smells like him and you just want to bury your face into it, โ€œyou can turn around now,โ€ย 
His shoulders relax as he turns back, and you watch his lips part as he takes you in.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œYou look cute,โ€ He clears his throat, shrugging off his reaction.ย 
You smile and ease back onto the bed, โ€œOh, I get it,โ€ you laugh, โ€œis your guy brain on fire because Iโ€™m wearing your clothes? Is this some kind ofโ€ฆ you won the competition, ownership thing?โ€ย 
He scoffs and rolls his eyes, kneeling on the bed to shuffle closer, โ€œNo competition when youโ€™re literally fated for me,โ€ย 
โ€œRight,โ€ You let the word drag out on your tongue to tease him.ย 
โ€œBut I like taking care of you already, and now youโ€™re warm and comfortable,โ€ He collapses next to you onto the mattress with a sigh, โ€œand I know I donโ€™t own you, but you are mine, just like Iโ€™m yours now. I wonโ€™t apologize for liking you in my clothes or in my bed, for liking when you look like my girlfriend,โ€ย 
Warmth blooms in your cheeks and you duck your face into the sheets.ย 
โ€œNow come get under the covers,โ€ He maneuvers the duvet, โ€œitโ€™s late, you were dead on your feet today,โ€ย 
His voice is so warm and familiar, and you slide into the covers beside him.ย 
In bed you keep a little distance, and despite the number of times both of you say that you should go to sleep, your conversation is almost impossible to stop. Yunho holds your hand in the middle space of the mattress between your bodies, and in the dim lighting of the hotel room you whisper thought after thought back and forth. A million things coming to mind you need to tell each other so suddenly now that youโ€™ve found each other.ย 
As you talk his fingers travel, restlessly stroking your skin, up and down your arm and tapping out patterns. When his palm slides back and forth over the sharp lines of the tattoos on your upper arm, and you feel the question slipping out of your lips and revealing more about yourself than you intended before you can catch it.ย 
โ€œYour parents,โ€ You blurt out, โ€œwill they be happy?โ€ Heโ€™s spoken about them so much over the past hour that you canโ€™t help but ask him that question point blank.ย 
โ€œSo happy,โ€ He responds with ease, a laugh on his lips, โ€œthey always worried me being an idol meant Iโ€™d never be able to find the one and settle down, theyโ€™re going to love this story,โ€ย 
You smile at the easy way he calls you โ€˜the oneโ€™, but the question you really asked still remains unanswered and you exhale softly, โ€œBut,โ€ you manage, โ€œwill they be happy with me?โ€ย 
Yunho stills, reaching across the bed to hook his finger under your chin and draw your eyes up to his again, โ€œVery happy,โ€ he says, โ€œjust like I am.โ€ย 
Your muscles relax, his words a soothing balm, and you adjust your position on the pillow beneath you, โ€œJust checking,โ€ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ He studies your face, โ€œjagi, why wouldnโ€™t they be happy with you?โ€ย 
The endearment slips off his lips with ease, and a burst of warmth spreads through you. Youโ€™ve never needed pet names and softness like this from a partner, but from him it makes your heart quicken.ย 
The momentary elation fades though, and his question comes back into your mind. You take a deep breath, you owe it to him to tell him now, โ€œMy family wonโ€™t be happy,โ€ย 
โ€œWith me?โ€ His eyebrows raise.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s me,โ€ You shake your head, โ€œmy parents have difficult ideals, and Iโ€™ve never pleased them. It wouldnโ€™t matter who you were, theyโ€ฆ theyโ€™ll find a way to not be happy for me.โ€
His eyes soften, and his thumb strokes along your jaw, โ€œIโ€™m sorry,โ€ย 
โ€œIt is what it is,โ€ย 
โ€œAre your parents soulmates?โ€ He asks softly.ย 
You shake your head, โ€œNo, they donโ€™t really believe in soulmarks,โ€ย 
You watch his eyes widen in surprise.ย 
โ€œUnless,โ€ You canโ€™t stop yourself from rolling your eyes, โ€œthe match is โ€˜fortuitousโ€™,โ€ย 
โ€œFor status?โ€ He surmises.ย 
โ€œStatus, money,โ€ You shrug, โ€œconnection. But I think I could marry the next president and theyโ€™d still find a way to be disappointed in me,โ€ย 
His jaw flexes tense for just a moment, before his expression smooths over again.ย 
โ€œAnyway,โ€ You clear the bad thoughts away as quickly as they came, โ€œmy sister and I never went along like they wanted, like my cousins and the rest of my family, so we are the great disappointments. Itโ€™s notโ€ฆ itโ€™s fine, but, I guess you should know before we, you know,โ€ย 
He smiles, a bit of amusement in his expression that you canโ€™t place, โ€œDid you think having bad parents would scare me off?โ€ย 
โ€œIt could,โ€ย 
โ€œNo,โ€ He slides a hand under your side and tugs you across the mattress to press a fast kiss to your lips, โ€œit never could.โ€ย 
โ€œBut Iโ€™m,โ€ You start, all the reasons why a partner might care ringing in your ears.ย 
โ€œBeautiful?โ€ He cuts you off, โ€œJust my type? If itโ€™s anything else I donโ€™t want to hear you say it,โ€ย 
Your stomach flip flops hard and you push lightly against his chest to get him to stop.ย 
โ€œThe thing is,โ€ He brushes your hair back from your cheek, โ€œmy parents are soulmates. I grew up in a house full of a lot of love, even when they were being strict and scolding us.โ€ย 
Your smile at his warm expression.ย 
โ€œSo I know theyโ€™ll love you,โ€ He explains, โ€œthey know what this feels like, what it means. I have plenty of family for us both,โ€ย 
Your throat constricts, tears threatening for a moment.ย 
โ€œYour sister, though,โ€ He grounds you out of the bad thoughts without even thinking, โ€œyou two are close?โ€ย 
โ€œVery,โ€
โ€œIโ€™d like to meet her,โ€ He smiles.ย 
โ€œYou two would get along great, my sister and her wife both, actually,โ€ย 
Yunho nods, listening attentively, โ€œDo they have kids?โ€ย 
โ€œNot yet,โ€ You groan, โ€œbut Iโ€™m dying to be an auntie,โ€ย 
His thumb drags a comforting line across your cheekbone, his expression warm and affectionate, โ€œCute,โ€ย 
You sink into the pillows, a yawn creeping up to your lips, โ€œSheโ€™s going to lose her mind when I call her,โ€ย ย 
โ€œYeah?โ€ย 
โ€œMm,โ€ You huff a laugh, โ€œshe thought that when I started working here I should have found an inconspicuous way to bump into all of you to test possible bonds. Sheโ€™s going to be riding the โ€˜I told you soโ€™ train.โ€ย 
โ€œSheโ€™s funny,โ€ He smirks.ย 
โ€œVery,โ€ You sigh, unconsciously cuddling into his warmth.ย 
โ€œHas it been a while since youโ€™ve seen her?โ€ He asks softly, adjusting his arms around you so that youโ€™re cradled against his chest with the pillows at your back.ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ You yawn again, the warmth of his body settling the last of the adrenaline inside you, โ€œa while,โ€ย 
โ€œLetโ€™s find a day off after the tour,โ€ He tucks the duvet around you.ย 
โ€œYeah?โ€ Your eyes feel heavy.ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ He kisses your forehead.ย 
โ€œYunho,โ€ You yawn again, dipping your forehead into his chest, โ€œGod, Iโ€™m so tired again,โ€ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ He yawns too, โ€œme too, jagi,โ€ย 
You hum softly, fingers slipping under the edge of his shirt just to feel a little skin, โ€œI like that,โ€ you murmur, โ€œI like you,โ€ย 
โ€œI like you too,โ€ He chuckles, โ€œnow go to sleep,โ€ย 
A piece of you wants to protest, wants more time cocooned in this day with him, but something about his body feels so right. After a week of sleeping poorly, your body tight and anxious and heart fluttering for no reason at all, when he touches you, your mind goes blissfully blank.ย 
Your muscles relax, your breath dropping low and soft in your chest.ย 
Nuzzled against his tattoo, you drift.
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Youโ€™re supposed to wake up to an alarm. Early enough that you could slip back into your hotel room and your own bed to yawn and stretch next to Iseul and make her believe you were there the whole night. Thatโ€™s what was supposed to happen.ย 
Instead, you wake to the heavy sound of a hotel door and Seonghwaโ€™s voice, Yunho jolting awake beside you.ย 
โ€œOh my god,โ€ Seonghwa says for what sounds like the third time to your fuzzy sleep-addled brain, โ€œoh my god?โ€ย 
โ€œHyung,โ€ Yunho pushes himself up, his arms unwinding from around you, โ€œhey, donโ€™t freak out,โ€ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t freak out,โ€ Seonghwaโ€™s eyes blow wide, โ€œare you fucking kidding me? Hongjoong is going to kill you,โ€
โ€œYou donโ€™t understand,โ€ Sleep is still heavy on him and he shakes his head to try to pull himself away.ย 
โ€œI understand plenty,โ€ Seonghwa counters, โ€œhow long have you been lying to us?โ€ย 
His reaction surprises you, and you ease yourself up to sit next to Yunho. Youโ€™re not sure what to say or not say, you donโ€™t know what theyโ€™ve discussed in the past when it comes to dating and relationships, but byย  Seonghwaโ€™s outburst you can guess itโ€™s honesty at a minimum.ย 
Yunhoโ€™s face falls, โ€œNo, itโ€™s not that,โ€ย 
โ€œI can tell you what it looks like,โ€ Seonghwa lowers his voice to what amounts to a stage whisper.ย 
โ€œHyung,โ€ Yunho rubs his eyes, running a hand through his mop of black hair.ย 
โ€œIt looks like youโ€™ve been sneaking around,โ€ He continues, โ€œhow long have you two been fucking?โ€ย 
โ€œHey,โ€ Yunhoโ€™s voice sharpens, and his hand crosses your body to anchor on your opposite thigh.ย 
Seonghwaโ€™s eyes track it and he shakes his head, โ€œThis is so stupid,โ€ he steps back in surprise, โ€œyouโ€™re both being so, incredibly stupid.โ€ย 
Yunho gives you a squeeze and opens his mouth to reply but Seonghwa keeps going.ย 
โ€œNaive is what it is,โ€ย 
Irritation bubbles in your gut and you canโ€™t stop yourself, โ€œSeonghwa, will you shut up for one second?โ€ย 
He stops in his tracks, mouth falling open, โ€œWhat?โ€ย 
โ€œCan you please,โ€ You hold his gaze, โ€œplease, just listen to Yunho for a minute before you jump to conclusions.โ€ย 
He shifts, taking a step back and crossing his arms, and then he looks to Yunho.ย 
Yunho finds your eyes quickly, silently asking, and you give him a nod.ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ Yunho runs a hand through his hair again, โ€œIโ€™ll just say it.โ€ย 
Seonghwa waits, his expression completely neutral except for the irritated corner of his lips.
โ€œy/n is my soulmate,โ€ Yunho squeezes your thigh again and you slip your hand into his to twine your fingers together, โ€œwe didnโ€™t know, but now we do.โ€ย 
Seonghwaโ€™s brows go high, shock filling his features.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re not hiding,โ€ You add, โ€œwe justโ€ฆ itโ€™s just,โ€ย 
โ€œHow long?โ€ Seonghwa manages.ย 
โ€œSoundcheck yesterday,โ€ Yunho says, โ€œwe havenโ€™t known long enough to lie, hyung.โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re sure?โ€ He looks between you both, and you know what heโ€™s thinking. How could it be possible to know each other for years and not know.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re sure,โ€ You answer confidently, calmly, โ€œI swear,โ€ย 
โ€œItโ€™s real,โ€ Yunhoโ€™s thumb strokes across knuckles, โ€œitโ€™s very real.โ€ย 
Seonghwa swallows, taking in the news and sinks back against the hotel dresser, โ€œWell, fuck,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ Yunho laughs.ย 
โ€œYou were off timing yesterday,โ€ Seonghwa points out, โ€œand distracted,โ€ย 
โ€œIt wasnโ€™t that bad,โ€ Yunho grimaces.ย 
โ€œNo, but,โ€ He shrugs, โ€œI know you and youโ€™re never off time.โ€ย 
โ€œIt wasnโ€™t easy to focus on the show yesterday,โ€ Yunho admits.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m sorry,โ€ You nudge him with your shoulder, knowing a huge portion of that must have been the panic flooding his side of the link.ย 
He shakes his head, โ€œThereโ€™s nothing to be sorry for,โ€
When you look back up, Seonghwa is smiling and he sighs, โ€œOh, youโ€™ve both got it bad.โ€ย 
โ€œObviously,โ€ You hide your face in your sweatshirt sleeve.ย 
โ€œSo, whatโ€™s the plan?โ€ Seonghwa asks, โ€œBecause you canโ€™t act like this around anyone else,โ€ย 
Your mouth feels dry.ย 
โ€œWe donโ€™t know,โ€ Yunho answers, โ€œwe have to figure that out, for now I think we just try to keep things normal.โ€ย 
Seonghwa nods and then leans forward, โ€œListen, I know youโ€™re not asking for my advice,โ€ย 
You both wait.ย 
โ€œBut you're my brother,โ€ Seonghwa says unequivocally, โ€œso Iโ€™m going to give you some anyway.โ€ย 
Yunho nods.ย 
โ€œYou wear your heart on your sleeve,โ€ Seonghwa points out, โ€œand Iโ€™m sure it will be hard to act like acquaintances in front of everyone, but you have to do it, at least until you make a plan.โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ Yunhoโ€™s cheeks are a little pink and he squeezes your hand.ย 
โ€œNo one fires the idol for things like this,โ€ He reminds you both, โ€œso for her sake, put it away for today.โ€ย 
โ€œHeโ€™s right,โ€ You nod, โ€œtoday we go back to coworkers,โ€ย 
Yunho draws your clasped hands up and kisses your fingers, โ€œOkay,โ€ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re lucky I offered to check on you,โ€ Seonghwa sighs heavily, โ€œif any of the managers came in,โ€ย 
โ€œCheck on me?โ€ Yunho perks up at that, โ€œHwa, why,โ€ย 
Things come into focus for you at that moment, how bright the hotel room is with sunlight, how well rested you really feel. You twist in the bed and look at the digital clock, โ€œOh no,โ€ย 
โ€œYou were late,โ€ Seonghwa explains, โ€œwe figured you overslept, I offered to use the spare key to get you up.โ€ย 
โ€œFuck,โ€ Yunho curses.ย 
You both slept straight through Yunhoโ€™s alarm.ย 
โ€œIseul is going to fucking kill me,โ€ You roll out of bed, your hands breaking apart as you scramble for you phone, โ€œwhat the hell am I going to tell her?โ€ย 
Your phone reads nine-thirty. In thirty minutes youโ€™re supposed to be packed into a van and on the way to the venue and when you look at the collection of notifications your stomach churns.ย 
Three calls from Iseul, and a lengthy string of text messages.ย 
Did you already get up and get ready?
Your work bag is still hereโ€ฆ
Not funny, girl, where are you?
Did you make it back last night?ย 
Can you answer me??ย 
Iโ€™m getting worried. I havenโ€™t heard anything - You havenโ€™t even read these?ย 
You better not be dead in a ditch, Iโ€™ll kill you myself.ย 
โ€œFuck, fuck, fuck,โ€ Your hands are trembling as you tap out the fastest reply - Alive, be right there.
Yunhoโ€™s a whirlwind behind you, stripping out of his sleep clothes and yanking on whatever outfit is at the top of his suitcase, โ€œItโ€™s fine, itโ€™s going to be fine,โ€ย 
โ€œSure,โ€ You search the floor for your jeans and dart into the bathroom, โ€œmy best friend is going to murder me though,โ€ย 
You change at lightning speed, swapping his sweats for your jeans and then tying up your hair into a messy bun before pushing back out into the main room.ย 
โ€œEveryoneโ€™s downstairs,โ€ Seonghwa offers, โ€œyou shouldnโ€™t run into anyone on the way back to your room.โ€ย 
โ€œGood, okay, good,โ€ Your heart is pounding, โ€œwhereโ€™s my room key?โ€ย 
โ€œHere,โ€ Yunho darts forwards and finds the little envelope, passing it to you, โ€œtake a breath,โ€ย 
โ€œI have to go,โ€ You manage, โ€œI have to think of something,โ€ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t kiss and tell,โ€ Seonghwa offers and heโ€™s being funny but itโ€™s vaguely helpful.ย 
โ€œWait,โ€ Yunho grabs your hand and tugs you back, snapping your phone out of your hand.ย 
โ€œYunho, I donโ€™t,โ€ You start to say but he waves you off.ย 
He types fast, adding himself as a contact in Kakao Talk, โ€œMy number,โ€ he explains.ย 
Seonghwa huffs a laugh.ย 
You take the phone back and tuck it into your pocket, โ€œIโ€™ll message you later,โ€ย 
โ€œGood,โ€ He dips forwards and presses one warm, tender kiss to your lips, โ€œnow get out of here,โ€ย 
You kiss him back, just once and fast, a little shred of self indulgence before you have to act like heโ€™s just another guy, and then youโ€™re darting out of the room, shouting back a thank you at Seonghwa as you go.ย 
You navigate the halls fast, and opt to take the stairs to get down one floor faster and more inconspicuously. You take a deep breath when you get to your hotel door, and then you dive.ย 
โ€œSo you are alive,โ€ Iseulโ€™s waiting, just like you thought she might be. Sheโ€™s sitting on your still made bed, her phone in her hands and a tense expression on her face, โ€œI was just about to tell the managers you were missing,โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m so sorry, seriously, I didnโ€™t mean to worry you,โ€ You take a few steps into the room.ย 
Her eyes flick over you, and you realize at the moment her eyes widen that youโ€™re still wearing Yunhoโ€™s hoodie, your sweater still discarded on his bedroom floor.ย 
โ€œYou hooked up with someone?โ€ Her voice spikes, โ€œAre you kidding me?โ€ย 
Thankfully the hoodie is plain, just a heather gray with no identifying attributes that scream his name, but youโ€™re still swimming in it and itโ€™s clear youโ€™re rumpled from bed.ย 
โ€œListen,โ€ You hold up your hands, โ€œI didnโ€™t mean to not text you, I just fell asleep,โ€ย 
โ€œWith some guy?โ€ She stands.ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ You settle on some version of the truth.ย 
โ€œWho?โ€ She flounders, โ€œWeโ€™re supposed to text each other,โ€ย 
And you always did, when either one of you went home with someone there was always a little preemptive safety report. A name, an address, a shared location, something so that you werenโ€™t completely alone in the world with a strange guy.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m sorry,โ€ You say again.ย 
She studies you, and itโ€™s like sheโ€™s looking through you.ย 
โ€œOh my god,โ€ Her eyes widen, โ€œwe know him.โ€ย 
โ€œIseul,โ€ Your cheeks heat.ย 
She points at you, โ€œIโ€™m right!โ€ย 
โ€œItโ€™s not a big deal,โ€ You skirt around her words.ย 
โ€œThe only reason you wouldnโ€™t text me is if you were with someone we both know,โ€ She narrows her eyes, โ€œso give it up.โ€ย 
โ€œI canโ€™t,โ€ You press, โ€œleave it,โ€ย 
โ€œWhy are you being so weird?โ€ย 
โ€œIseul,โ€ You sigh, avoiding her gaze, โ€œI just woke up in a panic, and I have like fifteen minutes to get showered, can you give me the third degree later?โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m not letting this go,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ You pull off Yunhoโ€™s sweatshirt and head to the bathroom, โ€œI know, but we have work.โ€ย 
โ€œWork with a coworker you slept with,โ€ She stands in the doorway while you start the shower, and you realize her tone isnโ€™t so much as angry anymore but probing.ย 
โ€œI didnโ€™t sleep with him,โ€ You groan, โ€œwell, I guess I did, but we didnโ€™t have sex, okay?โ€ย 
โ€œThatโ€™s awfully cozy for a one night stand,โ€ She crosses her arms, โ€œunless youโ€™re seeing someone? Are you seeing someone?โ€ย 
โ€œNo,โ€ You test the water heat and unbutton your jeans, โ€œI swear Iโ€™ll explain another time, but can you just drop it for today? Or do you want to stand here and watch me shower?โ€ย 
โ€œFine,โ€ She concedes, โ€œyou will tell me?โ€ย 
โ€œI swear,โ€ You nod, โ€œI want to tell you, but Iโ€™m not ready yet, okay?โ€ย 
Her eyes soften up at that, โ€œAre you okay?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ You nod, โ€œbut Iโ€™m having big feelings about it and I need to work it out,โ€
โ€œOh,โ€ In all the years youโ€™ve known her, sheโ€™s never seen you in love or even close, and she just blinks, โ€œgot it,โ€ย 
โ€œCan I shower now?โ€ You gesture towards the running water.ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ She steps back, โ€œyeah, but Iโ€™m still mad you didnโ€™t text me.โ€ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ย 
โ€œAnd Iโ€™m still going to guess who it is,โ€ She smirks.ย 
โ€œFine,โ€ย 
Her smile widens and she rolls her eyes, โ€œI bet itโ€™s one of the BB guys, isnโ€™t it? You always like a dancer,โ€ย 
She turns the corner before she can watch you blushing harder, so nearly on the money with her guess, but you put it all out of your mind for now and focus on your day. Youโ€™re late, and itโ€™s about to be another long one. Youโ€™ll have time for everything else later, if you can just keep your cool.ย 
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Work is bizarre to say the least. You and Yunho both do an excellent job of not looking at each other except for when heโ€™s in your makeup chair, and youโ€™re getting better and better at ignoring both Sanโ€™s and Seonghwaโ€™s nervous glances.ย 
This time you start the makeup early, less time pressure with the schedule adjustments, and the night goes off without a hitch. Soundcheck to stage to VIP benefits, itโ€™s a whirlwind and youโ€™re grateful for the distractions everywhere you look.ย 
You can still feel him, emotions from his side of the link ebbing and flowing throughout the day, but the sharp intensity of yesterday has dulled a bit after your night together. In quiet moments you find yourself thinking about his lips, or the way his hands held you as you tumbled into sleep, but you push it down and stay professional.ย 
As the show ends, Iseul ropes you into team dinner, desperate to observe who you interact with and how, still on her quest to find your mystery bed partner, but the boys arenโ€™t there and so thereโ€™s nothing for her to really see.ย 
Later, with Iseul passed out from one too many shots of soju, you slip back into Yunhoโ€™s hoodie and cuddle into the warmth of your own bed. You need more sleep, you know that, but your brain isnโ€™t cooperating. You toss and turn in the sheets, body feeling like a taut cord, and all you can think of is him.ย 
You miss him.ย 
Itโ€™s not even two days of having him in your life like this and you feel nervous and achy without him. Thereโ€™s no way youโ€™ll survive two years of this.ย 
Over an hour passes as you sigh, changing positions again and again, and then your phone finally buzzes. You scramble to see if itโ€™s a message from him, nearly dropping your phone in the process.ย 
Canโ€™t sleep? - He must be feeling your restlessness.ย 
Not at all - You reply, chest feeling warm at the contact.ย 
Little bubbles pop up immediately to indicate heโ€™s typing and then another message pops on your screen - Youโ€™d think after last night weโ€™d both be exhausted.
So youโ€™re as awake as I am?ย 
Just canโ€™t relax. I liked having you here last night. - He confesses.ย 
You roll over in the bedding onto your front and push the pillow under your chest before you keep texting - I liked it too. Iโ€™d come up except Iseul wouldnโ€™t lay off guessing who I was with this morning.ย 
Oh? Did she guess correctly? - You can practically see the smirk on his face.ย 
Nope - You tease back.ย 
Was she upset? - He asks.ย 
At first, but I told her I would tell her soon I just needed some time - You reply.ย 
Thatโ€™s good, honest. - His message makes you smile.ย 
How was Seonghwa? - You tap out.ย 
Fineโ€ฆ. stressing and acting like a hyung, you know - He says.ย 
You smile and type out another message - Is he keeping this to himself for now?
Yes - Yunhoโ€™s message comes in, and then another - For now, he knows we need to decide things first.ย 
Thatโ€™s good - You send back.ย 
Things lull for a moment, and you try to think of something more to say, but Yunho swoops in with a question that makes you bite your lip to keep from laughing - Who did Iseul guess you were with? Was I even on the list?
I thought youโ€™d be happy she didnโ€™t guess - You reply.ย 
Bubbles appear immediately, then another message - Iโ€™m a little offended, Iโ€™m the obvious choice.
Whyโ€™s that? - You tease him.ย 
You feel something warm in your chest, and his next message flies back - I thought I was your type?ย 
You stifle another laugh - You are, sheโ€™s not very observant.
So who did she guess?ย 
Your belly flip flops and you hide your face in the pillow for a moment. His obvious jealousy, even just to tease you, is making your heart quicken and you canโ€™t stop yourself from making it harder on him.ย 
You take a breath and reply - About half the BB crew and a few of your managers.
The replies donโ€™t come for a moment, and you nervously refresh the chat.ย 
Finally a message comes in - Iโ€™m trying to think of something funny to say, but Iโ€™m actually just irrationally jealous.ย 
She was just teasing, no need to be jealous - You smile into your hand.ย 
Doesnโ€™t matter - He says - Now Iโ€™m just here alone wondering which of our coworkers Iseul thinks you have chemistry with
He is jealous. You swallow hard, trying to ignore the swooping sensation in your belly and press your legs a little tighter together. If you close your eyes you can feel the echo of his hands on you from last night, and all you want in the world is for him to come down here and kiss you hard like that again.ย 
With a slow exhale you return to your phone - Donโ€™t be jealous, Yunho. We both know Iโ€™m yours.
Yeah? - His reply comes after a beat - No need to be jealous then.
Exactly - You reply.ย 
I bet you like it a little though - His message flies in as yours sends.
You feel warm all over and you run a nervous hand through your hair before replying - No, I donโ€™t.ย 
Jagi, you forget I can feel how worked up youโ€™re getting.ย 
Your stomach clenches, drops and twists. Heโ€™s going to be the death of you and youโ€™re still just flirting.ย ย 
You work up the courage and finally send your reply - Youโ€™re the one that pinned me to the wall last night.ย 
Iโ€™ve been thinking about that all day - The message reply is fast.ย 
You smile and bite your lip, snuggling further into the mattress and trying to ignore the growing pulse between your thighs - You did seem distracted during rehearsals.
You feel warmth in your chest, and you know exactly how much your flirting is affecting him. Another text pings through and you shiver when you read it - How could I not be distracted with you there? All I could think about was the way you said my name last night.ย 
Your thighs press together - Yunho?
Yes, jagi?
Or more whiny, was it? Yunho-ya? - You type it out fully, emphasizing the extended sound, knowing exactly what he wants to hear from the way he gripped you last night.ย 
The room is suddenly hot, and your heart beats faster to sync with his.ย 
It takes a moment for him to respond, bubbles popping up and then receding again and you wonder how heโ€™s lying in bed. If heโ€™s hard already, if heโ€™s palming himself? You wonder if he sleeps naked when heโ€™s alone and youre core clenches, arousal pooling in your gut and you know he can feel the threads of it. When he finally presses send on his message you have to cover your mouth to keep quiet.ย 
Feeling needy? Are you squirming around in that hotel bed wishing for me, sweetheart?
You feel that message from your top to your toes and you steal a fast glance at the bed next to you. Iseul is sound asleep, turned away from you and snoring softly, and you let out a relieved, shuddering breath.ย 
You could pump the brakes here, tease him and find a way to say goodnight, but you simply canโ€™t. Need and arousal overwhelms you and you tap back your reply fast - Iโ€™ve been aching all day.
Do you have headphones?ย 
The question catches you off guard, but you write back - Yes, airpods.
Put them in - He says, and you swallow tightly, reaching for the little headphone case on your bedside table.ย 
Your fingers are shaking as you take them out of the case and put them in, making sure theyโ€™re connected before you reply - Done.ย 
His call lights up your phone, ringing in your headphones and you swipe to answer with a panicked glance at the bed next to you, but Iseul sleeps on, none the wiser.ย 
โ€œy/n?โ€ His voice is so rich and quiet, a little raspy edge after singing all night and you nearly moan.ย 
โ€œHi,โ€ You whisper as soft as you can, โ€œI canโ€™t,โ€ย 
โ€œDonโ€™t talk,โ€ He soothes you, โ€œdonโ€™t wake Iseul up, Iโ€™ll talk to you and you can text me back, okay?โ€ย 
You minimize the call and open your chat back up, sending him a quick emoji to acknowledge his words.ย 
โ€œPerfect,โ€ He laughs softly, โ€œthis is way easier than texting. Listen, I know we said slow, but Iโ€™d love to help you relax if you want that. If not, I can just say goodnight, itโ€™s up to you.โ€ย 
You exhale softly, a needy thrill in your gut - Letโ€™s relax together.ย 
โ€œOh,โ€ He sighs pleasantly, โ€œyes, Iโ€™d love that.โ€ย 
You want me? - You ask.ย 
โ€œYou can feel how much I do,โ€ He responds, โ€œIโ€™m sitting here convincing myself not to come downstairs and get my hands on you.โ€ย 
You hum softly, shifting in the sheets and relaxing deeper into the pillows.ย 
You hear his own breath, the way he parts his lips with a wet sound, โ€œCan you tell me what position youโ€™re in?โ€ย 
You tap out the reply - Lying on my front, on my stomach.ย 
โ€œHmm,โ€ He sounds pleased, โ€œI bet you look so cute, all twisted up in the sheets and blushing,โ€ย 
I was tossing and turning.ย 
โ€œI bet you were,โ€ He groans a little, โ€œI tried everything. I hit the gym, cold shower, did some deep breathing, but you have me so keyed up I canโ€™t sleep,โ€ย 
You send him another emoji, the blushing face.ย 
He laughs, the rumble of it too deep and warm in your ear with your headphones in.ย 
You tap out another message - What position are you in? Trying to picture it.ย 
You hear him shift around in the sheets, โ€œIโ€™m on my back,โ€ย 
Wearing?ย 
He chuckles, โ€œArenโ€™t I supposed to be the one asking what youโ€™re wearing?โ€ย 
I asked you first.
โ€œFair,โ€ He shifts again, and you picture him restless on his back in the bed you shared the night before, โ€œjust boxers,โ€ย 
A heavy sigh passes through your lips.ย 
โ€œAnd you?โ€ย 
You wish it were sexier all of a sudden, but that just wouldnโ€™t be practical in a room with your friend so you tell him honestly - Pajamas, the button down kind, theyโ€™re gray.ย 
โ€œGod, youโ€™re adorable,โ€ The covers on his end shift again, โ€œwish you were up here with me.โ€ย 
Me tooย 
โ€œThis is probably better,โ€ He says though, โ€œI donโ€™t think I could hold myself back for another night.โ€ย 
Me either - You confess.ย 
โ€œy/n,โ€ His voice warms, low in his chest, โ€œjagiya, can I help you? Can I tell you what I want you to do?โ€ย 
Your hands are shaking and you type the reply so fast thereโ€™s a typo that you have to fix - Pfease - Please.
He chuckles, โ€œAlright, get comfortable, just listen to my voice, okay?โ€ย 
You message him one last thought - What about you?
โ€œIโ€™mโ€ฆ Iโ€™m, uh,โ€ He lets out a shaky breath, โ€œIโ€™m already stroking for you,โ€ย 
You press your lips together to keep from making a sound, dropping your forehead to the pillow in front of you.ย 
Thatโ€™s so hot - You text him quickly when you hear him say your name, probably a little nervous he came on too strong.ย 
He hums, โ€œGood,โ€ he says, โ€œthen donโ€™t worry about me, just listen to my voice.โ€ย 
You set your phone to the side, snuggling into the mattress and the pillows just like he asked for, sparing one more glance at Iseul to confirm sheโ€™s still completely out of it.ย 
โ€œComfy?โ€ He asks when you stop shifting around.ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ You murmur in a whisper.ย 
โ€œGood,โ€ He sighs, โ€œnow slip one of your hands under your cute little pajamas, between your thighs.โ€ย 
You slide your arm down, tucking it under your body and into your sleep pants.ย 
โ€œUnder your panties too,โ€ He says, his voice a little husky.ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ You murmur again, following his words.ย 
โ€œTease a little for me,โ€ He instructs you, โ€œnot too fast, just your fingertips on the outside,โ€ย 
You breathe low and slow, gently passing the pads of your fingers over your slit, just barely ghosting against the hard nub of your clit.ย 
โ€œI bet you look so pretty right now,โ€ He groans a little and you hear the sound of sheets, โ€œyou make the cutest faces when youโ€™re feeling good,โ€ย 
You make the tiniest noise of acknowledgement, fingers still brushing your cunt.ย 
โ€œCanโ€™t wait to see you fall apart for real,โ€ He confesses, a strain in his tone as he sighs, and you picture him. His long legs spread wide in the bed, stretching from corner to corner, his boxer briefs pushed down and his hand fisting his cock.ย 
Youโ€™re going to lose it when you finally get to touch him again.ย 
โ€œYou can touch now,โ€ He murmurs, getting your attention back, โ€œare you wet?โ€ย 
You push your fingers through your folds and sigh when you feel just how slick and swollen you are. With your other hand you find the phone nearby and tap out a quick message - So wet
โ€œThatโ€™s good, thatโ€™s so good,โ€ย 
Your fingers start to circle on your oversensitive nub and thereโ€™s no way he wonโ€™t have you coming in five minutes or less with it feeling this good and his heavy breath in your ear.ย 
โ€œR-rub your clit for me,โ€ He pants and your eyes roll, you can hear the sounds of the sheets rhythmically swishing as he pumps his cock harder, โ€œget your fingers nice and wet,โ€ย 
You whimper into the pillow, biting down hard on your cheek to keep yourself in check.ย 
โ€œOh, fuck,โ€ He groans, โ€œsound so pretty,โ€ย 
You rub harder, faster, your legs stretching wide under the downy comforter to give you better access.ย 
โ€œBaby,โ€ He gets your attention with that, โ€œpush two fingers inside yourself, imagine Iโ€™m there with you,โ€ย 
You shift, hand slipping lower and body arching to slide your middle and ring finger as deep as theyโ€™ll go. You stay mostly quiet this time, but your breathing is heavy and youโ€™re sure he can hear it.ย 
โ€œClose your eyes,โ€ He murmurs, โ€œpicture my fingers,โ€ย 
You gasp softly.ย 
โ€œGrind,โ€ He tells you, โ€œgrind your pussy on my palm and feel my fingers fucking you,โ€ย 
You bite back a moan, only the slip of a soft sound into the microphone as you start to rock, rolling your hips and working your clit against your hand as you sink into his fantasy. You always took him for soft, the romantic type whoโ€™d blush at saying the word โ€˜pussyโ€™ let alone talking you through whatโ€™s bound to be the headiest orgasm of your life, but youโ€™ve never been so happy to be wrong.ย 
โ€œYes,โ€ Yunho moans and you shudder, โ€œI can hear you moving, youโ€™re doing so good,โ€ย 
Pleasurable stars burst behind your eyes and you grind harder into your slick palm.ย 
โ€œSo good,โ€ He groans and you hear him roll in the bedding, his voice changing to something lower and breathier, and then the rhythmic rock of sheets from his side of the phone tells you all you need to know. You can almost see it, Yunho braced on his forearms, hips thrusting to drive his cock in and out of his hot fist, his face buried in the pillow you slept on the night before.ย 
Heat melts through you, your body alight, and you grapple to find the phone again - Close
โ€œAlready?โ€ He says in a flushed exhale, โ€œYouโ€™re so hot, thatโ€™s so hot,โ€ย 
You need him to talk to you, you need him to tell you what to do, and you whimper into the bedding as you work your body faster up to the peak.ย 
โ€œYou gonna come for me?โ€ He murmurs, โ€œYeah? Hmm?โ€ย 
You drop the phone and press a hand over your lips, stifling the threat of a real moan.ย 
โ€œLet go,โ€ His voice is so low in your ear you can practically feel the warmth of his breath on your skin, โ€œcome for me,โ€ย 
Your legs are trembling, knees digging into the mattress and sweat gathered on your brow, and you feel the pressure start to crack open inside you, โ€œComing,โ€ you whimper into your fingers so he knows, and then it breaks.ย 
โ€œGod, good girl, yes,โ€ He groans, โ€œIโ€™m coming with you, fuck,โ€ย 
Your body curls into itself as you release, locking up in pleasure as you feel wave after wave of heat. You bite down on your knuckle to keep from making a sound, silently falling apart, dimly aware somewhere in your gut that half the heat you felt was his, that part of that pleasure was his own.ย 
Yunho moans in your ear as you ride the sensations, panting and cursing and you canโ€™t wait to feel him pulsing inside you while he sounds this good.ย 
Youโ€™re not sure how long it takes you to recover, but when your brain starts to connect again you realize youโ€™re panting against the cool flat of the mattress and both your phone and pillow are nowhere to be found. You swallow hard and pop your head up, but Iseul hasnโ€™t moved an inch and you thank god for her liberal use of melatonin while traveling.ย 
In your ear you register the sound of Yunhoโ€™s breath and the end of a sentence, โ€œstill there?โ€ย 
He must have been talking, and you try to focus in on the sound of him now as you slip your hand out from between your sticky thighs.ย 
He exhales slowly and you hear him shifting around, โ€œy/n, baby, are you there?โ€ย 
ย โ€œUh-huh,โ€ You manage.ย 
โ€œSleepy?โ€ He murmurs, misreading your sound, โ€œThatโ€™s okay,โ€ย 
You make a tiny noise of protest and search the bed for your phone.ย 
โ€œBaby?โ€ Heโ€™s confused and you grin at his sleepy sated tone.ย 
Sliding off the bed onto nearly boneless legs, you find your pillow off to the side and your phone underneath. You snap it up and send a message quickly - Wait
โ€œWait?โ€ He breathes, โ€œSure, Iโ€™m not going anywhere, Iโ€™m here,โ€ย 
You tiptoe to the bathroom as quietly as you can and then shut yourself behind the heavy door, flicking on the light and collapsing to sit on the closed toilet lid.ย 
You disconnect your earbuds and bring your phone to your ear, โ€œHey,โ€ย 
โ€œHey,โ€ He murmurs, โ€œyou okay?โ€ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ You smile, still a little breathless, โ€œHiding in the bathroom for a sec so I could actually talk to you,โ€ย 
He hums, a quiet, lazy laugh, โ€œAh,โ€ย 
โ€œAre you okay?โ€ You find yourself asking, a little nervous tumble in your gut.ย 
โ€œMe?โ€ He says, โ€œIโ€™m incredible, youโ€™re incredible,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah?โ€ You draw your knees up, wrapping your arms around yourself and smiling into the phone.ย 
โ€œThat wasnโ€™t too much, was it?โ€ He checks, but you still hear the sound of him calling you โ€˜good girlโ€™ and you shiver.ย 
โ€œNot too much,โ€ You sigh into the phone.ย 
โ€œGood,โ€ He hums, โ€œI thought so, I was trying to pay attention to how you were feeling, but it was a little,โ€
โ€œHard to focus?โ€ You offer and he laughs.ย 
โ€œYeah,โ€ He sighs again, heavy and sated.ย 
โ€œI canโ€™t wait for this tour to be over,โ€ You confess, โ€œI just want to be with you,โ€ย 
You feel a pang in your chest and listen as Yunho rolls in the sheets, โ€œI know, I want that too,โ€ย 
A little lump forms in your throat and you breathe through it, โ€œYunho,โ€ย 
โ€œYeah, baby?โ€ย 
โ€œHave you ever felt like this before?โ€ Your thundering heart has started to slow, and you let your eyes close as you murmur the question.ย 
โ€œNever,โ€ He murmurs, โ€œbut I felt this way before we touched,โ€ย 
You feel his tenderness wrap around your heart as if he were in the room with you, and with a small smile you whisper, โ€œI thought you said you werenโ€™t holding a candle?โ€ย 
โ€œI lied,โ€ He says softly, โ€œitโ€™s been you for a long time,โ€ย 
He doesnโ€™t say it, not in so many words, but you feel the way he loves you through the link in a wave. Itโ€™s as good as any confession to you, just as honest if not more so.ย 
โ€œI wish I could come upstairs,โ€ You manage, tears pricking your eyes.ย 
You hear him swallow and breathe a slow breath through his nose, โ€œSoon, I promise. Weโ€™re going to do this right,โ€ย 
โ€œI know,โ€ย 
โ€œAre your headphones still in?โ€ He asks
โ€œNo, but I can switch back,โ€ย 
โ€œPut them back in and go get back in bed,โ€ He softly instructs, โ€œitโ€™s late, but Iโ€™ll stay with you until you fall asleep, okay?โ€ย 
โ€œOkay,โ€ You swap back over to your earbuds and adjust them.ย 
โ€œGet back to bed,โ€ You can hear the smile in his voice.ย 
โ€œYunho,โ€ You interrupt him, โ€œthank you for staying with me,โ€ย 
โ€œAlways,โ€ He says, and for the first time in your life when someone says theyโ€™ll be there, you believe it.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m going back out,โ€ Your voice drops to a whisper, โ€œgood night,โ€ย 
โ€œMhm,โ€ He listens as you slip back into bed, โ€œjust get comfortable, just breathe. Iโ€™m right here with you, jagiya, Iโ€™ll be right here.โ€ย 
He murmurs to you softly until your mind is sinking into darkness, body finally unspooling and letting you drop off into sleep. Itโ€™s not the same as his arms around you, but it settles you more than any meditation, his voice a steady whisper through your dreams.ย 
In the morning when you wake the call is still connected and the first sound you hear is his slow breath and the steady beat of his heart.
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neverendingford ยท 1 year ago
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#sexcapades#tag talk#ugh gender. I'm slowly narrowing in on it like a target that I have to fire far too many range-finding shots on#unfortunately I'm missing so many shots. each one gives me more information on the heading but it's still annoying work.#I like occasional she/her as a reminder that I'm not cis but I am absolutely not your fucking princess.#I say that because I literally woke up to a text that said โ€œhope you slept well princessโ€ which like. eyeachgh.#I hate good morning texts and I have just discovered I hate being called princess#gender goal is โ€œgirl who nobody even notices is a girl because she's one of the boysโ€#the one who everyone goes โ€œbut not you. you're like.. a guyโ€#ugh. I really do vibe with the โ€œsecret third genderโ€ vibe. I made that joke forever ago about my gender being whatever those yaoi boys have#and I stand by it. neither a man nor woman but a secret third thing (he/they anime uke)#anyway. thank you dude last night for the science but I do not think I will be pursuing my studies with you any further.#I've never felt the need to change my pronouns because like. I'm a dude. I like she/her sometimes because it validates my gnc vibes#but like. fashionably she/her but functionally he/they. Idkkkkk I hate gender is annoying#being viewed as 100% woman feels definitely worse than being viewed as 100% man though. that's for damn sure.#gender is โ€œguy who has a suspiciously large chest and narrow waistโ€#I got questions about spelling my name Robin not Robyn cause apparently Robin is typically the male spelling. and like. that feels right.#skirts feel weird. I'll die before I wear a dress. gender is โ€œteenage girl who will punch you if you can her girlyโ€#thanks for calling me she/her like I asked but unfortunately you have now misgendered me.#plus I don't think I'm kinky enough for him. at least not in the โ€œpunish the bad girlโ€ way. which like. there's a gendered dynamic there.#idk. sex and gender are wild and results are still being determined#I envy people who know what they want when they're younger. not all of us are fortunate enough to have that ๐Ÿ™„
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meteorella ยท 4 months ago
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Nerdgasmic Rhapsody
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pairings: loser!dom!ellie x popular!sub!reader
cw: flufff!! ellie's an absolute cutie pie. cursing (obv), oral! (r receiving), tribbing (maybe?), nipple play, after caree!!, pet names: sweetheart, baby, princess, that's all i think!
wc: 511
a/n: (intentional lowercase!!!) first ever ficcc omg๐Ÿฅน i have never ever in my life written a fanfic before so pleaseee don't judge and also feel free to point out some mistakes and stuff!! I take criticisms as i'm sure it'll help me a lot throughout my writing journey :))) can't promise I'll post consistently considering I'm insanely dumped with school works but I'll definitely find time to do so. anyways i hope u guys enjoy this one!! Feel free to hit me w some ideaaasss :3
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after you had made it official with the biggest dork on campusโ€”ellieโ€”people would randomly come up to you in the hallways and tease you, not believing how sweet she actually is. after all of your previous relationships, ellie is the only one who genuinely cared for you. despite her shy and nerdy demeanor, she's really fun to hang out with. she'd continuously yap about space, the comic books she's readโ€”savage starlightโ€”and drop all of its lore to you. the whole fucking lore. although you hardly cared. she was too adorable. most of the time, you would find yourself just looking at her sparkling green eyes, topped by her matte, black glasses, her hand gestures, and the soft smile plastered on her lips while she speaks. she's even more beautiful up close. how could others not see that? whilst ellie can be a total cutie pie, you cant deny how fucking insane she can be in bed.
when eating you out, she'd flick her tongue out relentlessly on your leaking hole. firmly gripping on to your thighs, she already knows your next motive. "nuh-uh, sweetheart. keep them open for me." she shoots you a knowing glare before diving back into your drenched core, keeping eye contact all the while. her gaze roamed over your appearance, hair disheveled, eyes rolled back, and completely fucked out. "s-sorry, babyโ€“fuck." you moaned as you clutched onto her dino-printed sheets. so fucking cute. after you'd climaxed for the 3rd time, she'd climb on top of you and slip her tongue down your throat, allowing you to taste yourself as she grinded her own throbbing cunt against yours. your soaking wet pussies rubbing, and creating the most delicious rhythm together. she absolutely loved your boobs. she adored how it just bounces up and down as she rolled her hips above you. she took your nipple in between her thumb and her index finger and pinched them, making you flinch at the feeling. her glasses were all fogged up and crooked, but she couldn't care less. she was too engrossed on drawing out more of those angelic sounds that slips past your lips as she pleases you. "doing sโ€“so good f'me, princess... fuckโ€“so hot." when you had both finally reached your peak, she'd lean down and gently clean up all your juices from between your thighs with her tongue.
she gives absolutely the best aftercare imaginable. the routine would start with cleaning you up with a wet towel, swiping it's soft material across your face, your breasts, your legs, your inner thighsโ€”she had always taken care of you in the most tender and loving way. she loved hearing your soft, exhausted sighs of relief, as you watch her with a smile on your face all while savoring the chocolate she so graciously offered you. after ellie finishes cleaning you up, she would settle beside you, enveloping you in her arms as she wrapped them around your waist. her lips showering your neck with gentle kisses as she whispered heartfelt words of affection. "i'm going to marry you one day."
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YAAALLLL OMG I HOPE THIS DIDN'T SUCK TOO HARD๐Ÿ˜ฃ๐Ÿ˜ฃ๐Ÿ˜ฃ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป i hope u guys enjoyed this one, i really enjoyed writing thisss!!
tags: @ellstronaut
dividers: @khaer @plutism
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smutoperator ยท 3 months ago
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Schoolgirl Fantasies
Jang Kyujin x Male Reader
Tags: age gap, anal fingering, ass-to-pussy, (lots of) blowjob, BWC, creampie, daddy kink, deepthroating, facefucking, first anal, full nelson, lube, maknae, rimjob, schoolgirl, upskirt, teen, tight holes
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For more than a decade, you've been JYP's idols main outlet to satisfy the dirtiest fantasies. From Sunmi to Suzy, Sana to Sullyoon, Nayeon to Yeji, Momo to Yuna, every one of JYP's current and former top female idols has got a chance to enjoy some naughty times with you.ย 
However, there is one idol still missing from your collection, but you're about to correct this mistake.
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"Hi, daddy," Kyujin appears in your room, wearing a schoolgirl outfit. It's fairly simple but rather effective. One of those easiest fantasies that always work no matter which moment.
The age gap between you and Kyujin is quite astonishing. You're now 48 years old, no longer that vigorous stud that once took the virginity away from legends like Suzy. 30 years separate you from Kyujin. You could literally be her father, so her calling you Daddy actually makes some sense.
Kyujin is very cute but also exudes a nice sexiness. After all, she comes from a stacked lineage of JYP maknaes. Sohye, Suzy, Tzuyu, and Yuna all went through your hands before her, so you're already very curious to see how she looks. She teases you, lifting her skirt and rubbing her hands over her teen pussy, biting her lips as she's anxious for the experience her unnies already had.
"I heard rave reviews about you, Daddy, especially from Haewon, Sullyoon, and Bae unnies," Kyujin says. "You've been working for JYP since when I was just a kid, and now I finally got a chance to spend a day with you; what an honor," she continues.
"It's an honor meeting you too," you say to Kyujin. You let her tease you at first, as she takes her pink top off and shows you her perfect tits while touching her pussy. She makes some moves on the floor of your room, showing her dancing abilities, including a little bouncing to tease you about what she wants to do later. She stays on her knees on the floor, smiling at you and making moves with her tongue, before finally sitting on the legendary couch where some of the biggest JYP idols have enjoyed lots of sex and orgasms.
"How are you doing?" you ask Kyujin. "I'm doing great," she replies. Your moves are the same as to every first-timer; you just want to make them relaxed. "You're so beautiful; what's your name?" you ask her. "Kyujin," she says. You already knew the answer, but the first thing you need to do is make her comfortable.
"Are you gonna be my naughty schoolgirl today?" you ask another question. "I'll try," a shy Kyujin answers. You laugh. "Look at those nice boobs," you tell her. "You like them, Daddy?" she asks. "Of course," you say. "But they aren't as big as Jihyo unnie," she says. "They don't need to be," you tell her.
"Wanna play with them?" Kyujin asks. Of course you do, but you want to rather take it slow. "Stand up for me for a second," you say to her. "Let me look under your skirt," you tell her, staring at Kyujin's very short panties and sexy thighs.
"What's your main schoolgirl fantasy?" you ask Kyujin. "I want to fuck my professor or one of my classmates, but I'm scared of getting caught," she answers, laughing. "Then I'll make your wish come true; today I'm your sex professor, and you won't get caught," you tell her.
"Let me see those perky tits," you tell Kyujin, who pulls her bra to the side. "Now, I'm gonna make them a little shiny," you say, pouring a cold dose of lube on them. "Rub them for me," you ask her, who obliges.
Kyujin takes her bra completely off. "You know, most guys really have a bias between asses or tits. But I like them both equally. So turn around and show me that ass," you ask her, who shakes her sexy teen butt. "You know, usually I don't fuck a girl in the ass in the first time I meet her, but I think I'll make an exception for you," you say. "Oh, yes, please, I want you to fuck my virgin ass, just like you did to Yoona and Bae unnies before," she says.
Indeed, as Kyujin mentioned, she would be just one of many idols who got their first anal try with you. But unlike them, she wanted to have it in the first attempt. Damn, and you thought those JYP idols couldn't get sluttier, but they keep proving you wrong.
You also lube Kyujin's ass and let her spread it around her sexy young butt. "Take your panties off; let me see that young pussy and butthole," you order. "Are you ready for that, Daddy?" Kyujin asks. "I'm more than ready," you say, getting wowed at her young holes. "Look at my tight pink pussy, Daddy," she says to you.
Kyujin puts a pair of fingers up her tight asshole. She knows it won't be easy getting that cock in there. "I need to help myself and stretch my tiny virgin ass so you can pound it, Daddy," she laughs. "Keep stretching it; you're going to need it," you tell her, pouring some extra lube in her butt and letting Kyujin fist deep in that butthole.
"Oh, that ass is so fucking tight, daddy," Kyujin teases you. She's driving you insane, letting your perversions take over. You take your pants off and rub your cock against her pussy, making her moan. "Daddy is gonna fuck that teen pussy raw?" she asks.ย 
You'd usually have some foreplay before shoving your cock inside an idol's fuckhole. But Kyujin's teen cunt is so enticing you are ready to throw that rule out of the window. "Oh yeah," she moans as you insert the tip of your massive shaft inside her pussy.
"Fuck," she says. "That pussy is so tight," you whisper to her, barely able to insert a third of your nine inches inside her. If your past experiences taught you something, it is that you have to go quite slow with maknaes. Their pussies are always tight and strong and won't cave out to a cock so easily.
"Oh, I love to feel both my holes getting filled," Kyujin says. You love hearing her say it. It tells you it won't be much of a steep climb when she decides to attempt a DP with a real cock, now just her fingers. "Oh yeah, oh fuck," she moans as you start moving, going very nice slow at first in her teen pussy.
"So you're no longer a virgin," you tell her, noticing you didn't need to break her hymen. "No, I lost it as soon as I turned 18," she says. That's a pity. Just like her groupmate Sullyoon, Kyujin had her first meeting with you only a couple months after turning 18, but she is such a slut she couldn't keep her virgin pussy for you to deflower.
Finding that out makes you increase the pace. After all, Kyujin already has some experience taking cocks in her pussy. Maybe not as big as yours, but you know she can learn. "So good," you groan, noticing the tightness of her hole. "OH MY GOD," she lets out the first scream, but truth be told, that massage she's giving her asshole is helping her quite a bit in enduring that huge cock fucking her pussy.
You start panting and groaning louder. Even for an experienced guy like you, her tight young pussy is quite a challenge not to bust a nut. "Is Daddy enjoying my pussy?" she asks you, but you don't answer, trying to stay concentrated and just keep fucking it.
"Fuck that pussy, daddy," Kyujin says in a very cute voice, almost catching you off guard. Her moans sound so good, and you can tell how much she's enjoying it as her walls clench even further around your cock. You duck your head down and wrap your hands around her waist, kissing her and breathing around her neck as she gives you a naughty smile.
"Daddy, you're making me so wet," Kyujin says, as you can feel her young juices coating all over your cock. It's getting harder and harder to resist, but you manage to find just the right rhythm to pound her tight hole. "That pussy is so nice," you tell her.
Kyujin bites her lips as you increase your pace. Oddly, even though you are the experienced guy in the relationship, you're the one already out of breath. Meanwhile, Kyujin, who's only in the 3rd cock of her life, is doing quite well. I think you should have known by now that dancers truly have walls of steel. You should have learned the lesson from the countless sessions where you pounded the likes of Momo, Yeji, and Chaeryeong to oblivion, yet they kept asking for more. Maybe you were just getting old after all.
You slowed the pace, but Kyujin showed no mercy, moving her hips against your crotch. Her unnies really taught her well, because she was already pulling off some veteran moves in her first session with you. For being such a naughty girl, you decide to punish her, pounding Kyujin's pink pussy harder than ever and trying to dig deeper and deeper, searching for her cervix.
But your plan backfires, as you're forced to pull out. "I'll be back soon, baby," you tell her. "I'll be waiting, Daddy," she says. You rush to the shower and relieve the pressure on your cock by painting the walls of it with your cum. This time you avoided the embarrassment you had the last time you fucked a maknae, where Yuna squeezed you so hard you nutted after 3 minutes fucking her pussy. You were this close to repeating it, but this time you saved yourself at the last second.
After watching some festival performances of Kyujin, your cock is back up at full strength. "Come suck that cock," you tell her. "Oh my God, that cock is so wet," she smiles at you, pleased at the work her pussy had done to it, licking your shaft perfectly. For such an inexperienced girl, Kyujin was quite skilled.
You just sat on the chair and let Kyujin showcase her blowjob skills. She gripped your cock firmly, squeezing it with her soft young hands, then licked it a few times from the balls to the tip, giving special attention to your sperm sack, before going up and getting sloppy with the shaft.
"Oh my God," you groaned as Kyujin deepthroated your nine inches with ease. "You're so good," you say to her as she kisses your shaft. "No, you're so good; you've got such a nice cock; I'm in love with it," she tells you.
"I love licking that cock up and down," Kyujin smiles as she plays with your shaft; your tip grows even bigger as your cock is throbbing harder than ever as she kisses that very sensitive spot. After just surving her tight pussy, you have to endure another one of her tight teen holes trying to milk you dry as she bobs her head all over your shaft. That young slut is truly pushing you to the limit.
Kyujin doesn't spare an inch of your cock. Matter of fact, she wants more, diving down to eat your asshole. What are they putting in those 18-year-olds food? How are they already getting so slutty they are licking your old ass in the first encounter? You're really starting to embrace the suspicion that JYP idols are made in a lab and the new iterations of their software are sluttier than the previous ones.ย 
But you can't complain. Her young tongue massaging your asshole truly feels like heaven, especially when she moves up to lick your balls as well. "You like that, Daddy?" she asks. But you can't answer, trying to cope with Kyujin's tongue in your anus and her hands caressing your shaft, pushing your foreskin up and down and making your tip pop up while rubbing against it, giving you a tingling feeling at each time. How did she learn how to edge a cock this fast?ย 
Kyujin's magical tongue works all over your asshole, spitting on it and licking it. "I love putting that tongue in your ass, daddy," she tells you, diving deeper and deeper almost as if she were thursting inside it. Kyujin gets very sloppy, making the bottom of your crotch very wet. "So nasty and sloppy, Daddy," she tells you, slurping all over your balls and playing with your foreskin, pushing it as hard as she can using just her mouth.
Kyujin gives another crazy head-bobbing blowjob to your cock, finishing with a deepthroat and letting out a big smile. "I love your fat cock, daddy," she says, caressing your shaft and jerking it off, before more head-bobbing follows.
"You like how I stroke it with both my hands like this?" Kyujin asks you, and you just let your groans do the talking as she spits on your cock and keeps playing with your foreskin. Sucking, twisting, lickingโ€”everything that is possible she does with your shaft. She really wants that cock wet and ready for her tight fuckholes.
You finally interrupt Kyujin's fun, getting on your knees as you pin her body against the couch and kiss her, your cock rubbing against her navel as she keeps jerking it off. You reach under her skirt to play with her pussy, while diving your head to suck her perky young tits. "AHHHHHH, AHHHHHH," her moans grow louder. You kiss her neck and whisper dirty words to your ear. "I'm gonna fill your slutty body full of cum," you tell her.
Kyujin keeps moaning as her juices coat the carpet in your living room. "Oh fuck," she says as she lies her head on the couch and you keep sucking her tits, searching for her tight entrance. You finally put her on top of the couch and spread her legs, diving into her teen cunt.
"Oh yeah, taste that pussy, daddy," Kyujin demands as she closes her eyes and more moans come out of her mouth. "OH MY GOD," she screams as her legs close and you lick her folds like crazy, the hot air blowing from your nostrills and sniffing her core adding to the pleasure she's feeling in her clit. Her nipples get erect and her veins pop out as she slowly starts losing her breath, trying to resist your tongue doing to her pussy what hers just did to your cock.
"AH YEAHHHHHH, AHHHHHHHH," Kyujin's moans groan louder as she grabs your head and presses it further against her clit. "OH FUCK, OH YEAH," Kyujin keeps moaning as her thighs crush your head and press it further against her young pussy.
You can't resist anymore, surprising Kyujin by shoving your cock back in her tight pussy just as you kiss her. More moans come out of her mouth. "OH YEAH, OHHHHHHHHH," she says as you fuck her at a steady pace, kissing her beautiful face and wrapping your hands around her neck.
"Yesss, dadddy, that feels so good," Kyujin moans as she lifts her skirt further up and gives you a sexy smile. You fuck her even harder, massaging her bouncy tits as your thrusts go deeper and deeper. Kyujin's vocabulary now is reduced to just moaning and screaming and telling you how good you fuck her as your cock rests buried deep in her pussy.
"Pump that little tight teen pussy, daddy," Kyujin begs, spreading her legs completely in the couch now, giving you very easy access to her pink hole. You seize the opportunity and take repeated, hard thrusts deep inside it that hit her cervix. "OHHHHHH YESSSSSSS, OHHHHHHHH FUCKKKKKKK," she screams as your balls smack her clit and you make her cum.
To avoid cumming now, you pull out of Kyujin's tight pussy, eating it out and enjoying the juices that are all over her folds, kissing and worshipping it before you surprise her by shoving your middle finger up her asshole, leading to a huge smile from her. "Am I a good girl, Daddy?" she asks you.
"You're such a naughty girl," you finally answer her, sticking your finger up her asshole. "OH FUCK, OH MY GOD," Kyujin screams as you finally show who the real experienced guy is, making her orgasm just with your hands.
You pull your finger out of Kyujin's butthole. "Dirty teen slut," you call her. "Yes, daddy, that's exactly what I am," she says as you pour more lube at her body. "My ass is so tight, Daddy," Kyujin then says.
"Then let's test how tight it is," you reply, lining up your tip against her virgin butthole. You make a hard effort to put it in but can barely push the tip inside, given how tight it is. Kyujin smiles, as she's about to get an unforgettable first anal experience.
"Oh my God, it's so fucking tight," Kyujin says. "My first time couldn't have been better," she continues. Your anaconda slowly disappears inside her anus; make her contort as she isn't adjusted to it. Even her finger-fisting couldn't help her. Your cock is just too large for her virgin orifice.
After reaching the maximum depth of her asshole, you go slow with Kyujin, giving her nice thrusts that only take half of your cock inside it. "Oh yeah," she moans. You play with her pussy, knowing that the first time can be really difficult, trying to ease her up and loosen up her tight teen hole.
Kyujin tries to moan, but you don't let her. "Shhhhhh," you say as you shove three of your fingers in her pussy. But she can't hold that for long. "AHHHHHHH," she explodes in more screams as you also use her pussy as a way to cope with the tightness of her asshole, trying as hard as possible not to fill it with cum.
You thurst your cock at Kyujin's asshole at the same pace you thursts your fingers in her cunt. "OH MY GODDDDDDD," she screams, grabbing her tits. You go faster, Kyujin just attempting to resist your stimulation. She obviously can't. "AHHHHHHHH," she screams again, dropping her head into one of the pillows on the couch.
"Do you like to fuck that tight ass, Daddy?" Kyujin asks as you commit all of your efforts to pound it, taking your fingers off her pussy. You groan and pant as her anal walls smash your big cock. "Finger that pussy for me," you demand of her. "Yes, daddy, OH FUCK," she screams just as she finishes the sentence and places her fingers in her clit.
Kyujin spreads her cheeks as she lets her asshole take the full shape of your cock. "Keep fucking me, just like that," she says, sticking her tongue out. Her ass is so tight you're forced to pull out after so many thursts, allowing yourself some time to breathe before you put it back in and teasing her little gapes of her formely virgin anus.
You take Kyujin by surprise, switching back to her pussy. "Oh yeah, oh yeah, fuck both of my holes," she begs as you pound her already stretched out cunt like crazy before moving back in her ass and doing the same with it. "I love the way you switch back and forth, Daddy; you can't get enough of my tiny teen holes, can you?" she says.
"No, I can't," you say, going back in Kyujin's pink pussy and pounding it hard. "OH MY GOD, OH FUCK, YES, YES, YES," she screams, grabbing her tits to not let them bounce even further. Back in her ass you go, bringing her legs closer and stretching her hole out as Kyujin feels the heat of her guts being rearranged. "FUCK THAT ASS DADDY," she screams hard.
You finally pull out of Kyujin's holes and kiss her forehead. "Good girl," you compliment her. "Are you gonna let me taste my own ass, Daddy?" she asks. "Fuck yeah," you say. "Then please, fuck my face, Daddy," she replies.
You grab Kyujin's head, using her long hair as handlebars while you pound her pretty face. She rolls her eyes and gags all over your thorbbing shaft, as it proves to be too large for her throat when it fucks it at full speed. You enjoy Kyujin choking on your dick like a good whore, getting your cock perfectly wet for your next move.
"Stand up," you tell her, lying on the carpet. You fully push her skirt up and spank Kyujin's shiny ass, making her moan as she shakes it. You pour more lube on it. "Such nice fuckholes," you say, poking your thumb back inside her pussy to warm her up for more action.
"Do you like Daddy's cock back in your ass?" you ask her. "Oh yes," Kyujin says with a soft moan. "Then show me what you learned from your unnies and squat on that cock," you say.
Kyuhin adjusts your shaft as it slides back in her ass. She moves very slowly, trying to adjust to getting impaled by that massive pole. "Oh my God," she moans, still impressed with how big it is. "Keep going, baby, ride this cock like your life depends on it," you give her the incentive.
"There you go," you say as Kyujin increases her speed, her ass hitting your thighs as you start groaning. If the likes of Momo and Chaeryeong usually kill you by how fast they can bounce their big asses on your cock, Kyujin is slightly different, using the tightness of her butthole to her advantage to achieve similar results under a slower ride.
"Oh fuck, does daddy want to cum deep in that ass?" Kyujin slows down as she senses you're losing it. "That's amazing," you whisper. Kyujin just enjoys your cock going in and out of her, resuming her bounce by going faster than ever, trying to go for the kill.
"Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah," you're now the one moaning as Kyujin quickly learns how to ride a big cock. "You like watching that tight ass going up and down that cock, daddy?" Kyujin asks as she pushes you to the edge. "So good, so good," you whisper, holding your breath not to cum.
"Bend over, you teen slut," you tell Kyujin, regaining control of the situation and shoving your cock back in her ass. This time you didn't hold back. Now you knew Kyujin could take it like a champion in the ass; it didn't matter if it was just her first time.
Kyujin struggled as your cock hit her fast and deep, fingering her pussy and resting her head on the couch to resist your increasingly harder thrusts in her asshole. "Keep fucking my ass, daddy, AHHHHHH," she moaned. These words only made you go faster, grabbing her waist and getting your cock deeper and deeper in her ass.
"YES, YES, YES, YES," Kyujin rapdly screamed. You groped her tits and pounded her like an animal. "Face down ass up," you ordered to her, stretching her butthole to the fullest and pumping it nonstop. "You stretch my ass so fucking good, Daddy," she says.
"Turn around and suck my cock again," you tell Kyujin as you pop out of her asshole and lie on the floor. She eagerly takes your cock in her mouth, tasting her ass to the fullest and enjoying spitting on your tip. You kiss her, ready to test her in one final challenge as she keeps her hands jerking your cock off.
"Sit on my cock, slut," you tell her, wrapping your arms around her waist as you lie on the couch, pulling Kyujin's body on top of yours. If there is one sex position every dancer needs to master, it's the one you're about to teach her: the full nelson.
Kyujin mounts on your cock, but she doesn't even have time to react; you just spread her legs as hard as you can up in the air and take control of thrusting in her asshole from the start, turning her into an anal fleshlight. Kyujin is now just a passenger of your ride to pleasure as you destroy her once virgin ass to the fullest.
"OH MY GODDDDDDDD," Kyujin screams as your balls pound hard against her cheeks. She fingers herself, trying to deal with such a barage of thursts. You're only a couple years from turning 50, but this is your best form yet. "OH YEAH, AHHHHH," she keeps screaming as you show no signs of slowing down.
"I love that big fat white cock in my tiny little Asian asshole; you fuck me so deep and hard, Daddy," Kyujin says. "Fuck me like a whore; keep fucking me; make me a dirty little teen whore," she continues.ย 
Her words drive you mad. At first, you wanted to leave your mark in her formerly virgin asshole, but seeing her say those dirty words changed your plans as you switched your cock back into her cunt. "Oh, put it back in my pussy; I want you to fill me up real good, Daddy," Kyujin says as she watches you move your shaft inside her babyhole.
"Fill that tight little Asian pussy with your big white cock cum, fucking give to me, empty your balls for, YES, PLEASE, CUM INSIDE ME, DADDY," Kyujin begs. You pump her pussy hard until your cock can't resist anymore, pulsating multiple times inside her teen pussy. "You filled up that tight little pussy so good, Daddy," Kyujin says with a big smile in her face as your cum oozes out of her vagina, Kyujin quickly scooping it up to taste it.
"Now I'm a real, real, naughty girl, full of daddy's cum," Kyujin says. "It's so sticky," she says, putting her tongue out and showing off your semen in her mouth.
Kyujin kisses your big white cock for one last time, licking the remnants of cum that stood in there and putting her schoolgirl outfit back on. "That was so good, Daddy; I can't wait for the next time. I'll tell my unnies to come join me, and we're gonna compete to see who can milk this big fat white cock the hardest," she says, going back to her dorms to share the experience with her groupmates.
Haewon is the first to ask her about it once she is back at the dorm.ย 
"So how was it?" she says.
"You weren't lying, unnie; he's amazing, no wonder all the girls at the company are so whipped for his cock," Kyujin says.
"We want to be there next time; he fucked our asses so good," Sullyoon and Bae come off and say it to her.
"You're all welcome; I promised him next time it's going to be all of us," Kyujin says.
"Game on, let's see who's gonna make his cock cum the hardest," Lily and Jiwoo say. "Absolutely," Kyujin finishes, already thinking about the next round.
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โœฎ tags ; dead dove: do not eat, noncon, humiliation, abuse of power / power imbalance, master / servant relationship, titles like master satoru, he's being Really Fucking Weird (sniffs u a bunch...rip), oral(f!receiving) 18+
โœฎ wc ; 2k (????)
โœฎ a/n ; horrible horrible man. can he leave me alone. extension of this
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"The young Master is calling for you."
You try not to flinch. Aiko gives you a warm, summery smile and a soft nudge to your side. You can only assume this means you've succeeded and she doesn't sense your disgust.
"He's so fond of you," She ends her sentence with a wispy sigh. "Must be nice to have a rich, powerful man fawn over you a bit, right?"
You remain indifferent. She smiles again. You think she is infinitely more beautiful than you. Soft, bouncy hair and smooth skin. Her naive nature makes her shine brighter than one thousand suns. It'd be nice if the young Master showed interest in someone like her.
You put the dream to rest quickly.
"You shouldn't keep him waiting," She hums. It's so innocent. "Go on, don't let me keep you."
You don't tell her you wish she would keep you. She is also right that you should not keep him waiting. If he's summoned you to his chambers deliberately, that means he is already feeling impatient. Master Satoru never seeks you out unless he is in some kind of mood.
He's had this habit since childhood. You've never made him aware of it, and you don't plan too. One of the few things you help you know what to expect from him.
You nod her along, tell her to finish up work in the living quarters to which she agrees merrily. Her spirits are lifted by the prospect of the young Master showing you fondness. Some part of you wishes you could share in her joy.
A pit of dread makes your steps heavy, but your footfall is light and beautiful. You are poised and cool as you walk along the dark, dreary hallways that lead to the Master's office.
A door swallowed in shadow, a single light shining on the golden plaque with the young Master's full name. You knock twice, announcing yourself.
"You're here," He says. You try not to flinch. You're certain you do not succeed. You are thankful he cannot see you - or you hope he can't. "Come in,"
You open the door and step inside to his office - shutting the door behind you. Muscle memory guides you to your curtsy. You bow politely.
"Yes, Master?"
"So stuffy," His voice makes your chest feel tight with discomfort. Frustration ebbs underneath it, cuts like a jagged edged knife. "At least call me, Satoru. Our relationship is much better than that, I thought."
"I could never be so informal to the young Master," You say, and then concede. "But I will call you Master Satoru, if you wish."
"How obstinate," He drawls. You do not life your head to see the face he makes. You already know what it looks like. It's burned into your mind. "But I suppose I'll make do. Lift your head."
You lift your head, but do not look at his face.
"Come closer,"
You step towards him, your lungs pushing air out of you manually. Remembering to breathe evenly is a herculean task. He beckons you closer until you're within distance of his touch.
He glances at you. "Look at me."
You try not to hesitate and force your eyes forward. His eyes undress you. Pointed gaze falls along your features, outlines your every inch, and analyzes your face. You remain even. He hums.
His frivolity is missing. This is suddenly more frightening. His mood is worse than you thought.
"Lift your skirt,"
Your muscles tense as you try not to shake. You succeed. He lets out a soft breath before he drops down onto his knees. You do not let yourself make any sort of expression, averting your gaze. He stares long and hard at your clothed pussy.
You tremble. He assess you silently, eyes flitting up.
"Sit in my chair with your skirt over your waist. So I can see you properly and all."
You listen to his instructions mindlessly. The velvet of his chair and warmth of his remaining body heat touch your bare ass and thighs. Satoru turns to you, still on knees. His hand wraps around your ankles and slips your shoes off of you.
You close your eyes. Sudden intimacy makes you slink back.
"Look at me."
It is is a command. You let your gaze fall on him again and watch on in excruciating nausea. Your stomach twists violently at the fragility of it all. Slender fingers hook into your knee socks and pull them down along your calve until they're off. His gaze catches yours. He does not smile at you. His hand comes around your ankle again and lifts your leg closer to his face. His nose presses against the bend of your foot.
He inhales. You try not to react but you can feel your eyes go wide. Feel your muscles clench, your heart sinking. Iron fills your mouth.
He lets his nose nudge up against the top of your calf.
"Young Master,"
He stares at you. Irritation flits through his gaze. There's no getting out of this, no mercy. You slink back again. He does smile that time.
Your body prickles with unwanted heat at the sensation. He licks along your legs, biting the supple skin - huffing the scent of your sweat every time he goes along. His teeth sink perversely into your flesh, sucking until there's throbbing, marks against your calves. The color of an orchid, purple and red. Fear strikes in you like a match. His grip on your ankles moves to the back of your calves and squeezes tight. He repeats the process on both calves intently.
There's claim to this. You know this part of him. He is claiming you with vicious confidence. Something with deeper magnitude then lust. For you, he is desire and ownership and want incarnat. A testament of his own beliefs. You willfully do no make noise aside from a gasp or breath.
You don't know how long it takes until he's satisfied with the state both legs.
He moves up. Bites the soft flesh of your thigh. You nearly spit out another useless plea. Shamelessness makes up his every move. His tongue slides over every single inch of your bare skin until his noses brushes along your cunt.
He doesn't lick you there. Not right away. Again he sniffs, breathes you in deep and uncomfortable. It's violating in all senses of the word, his grip tightening on your thighs as he huffs your scent. You haven't bathed. You've practically been running around since morning, but he doesn't let up and breathes you in anyway.
You squirm at that point. Your face contorts so slightly and he's watching you for it. His face finally cracks a smile and abject dread makes your spine lock up.
"Mm," He emphasizes the sound. It's so loud in such a quiet room. "That's it."
You don't have the strength to say anything.
It's frighteningly abrupt and rough, the feeling of his mouth along your pussy. He sucks at your clit from outside the fabric and you gasp - suddenly helpless. It's not the first time, of course not. But it's never this... random. Never this rough.
Your back arches at the sudden motion, face breaking - and Satoru grips you tighter and forces you back into the chair. Forces his tongue against your clit and sucks hard through the cotton material. Your body betrays you in its reaction - nipples pebbling underneath your clothes. Nearly screaming from the sensitivity. Your lower body is all ache - hickeys and bruises and bite marks making you throb perpetually. Too much, too much, too much.
Shame floods your system as the first spike of arousal forces itself from you - your cunt floods, gushing with a sudden spike of want from rough treatment. The sound of him sucking you so hard and drenching it with his saliva echoes across the room. You're sure it's traveling into the hall.
"Master Satoru," Your voice is even but it cracks on his name. Tears form at the corners of your eyes - fear and shame mixing into desperation. "Satoru,"
He hums into your pussy and you shake. "What is it? What wish would you like your master to fulfill for you.
"Please," Your voice is hoarse. Bone-deep exhaustion is out done by adrenaline. "Not through the fabric, please. It's dirty."
He sucks again and you keen - nails digging into your palms as you throw your head back.
"Your Masters spit soaking your panties is dirty? How rude." He teases. The whimper leaves your mouth without permission. You wish this would end soon but even amidst your fog you know that is not more than a pipe dream.
He takes them off. Rolls them down your thighs all wet and drops them. You let out a sigh of relief before his nose bridges touches your clit again. Swallowing the sound, you look away.
"It's soaked," He says conversationally, "Your needy little cunt is making a mess of your Master's chair. Tsk, tsk - so shameful."
"I'm sorry," You croak, unsure of what else to say. "I'll clean it."
He laughs, seemingly alleviated from his prior upset at the state of your humiliation.
"I'm sure you'll do an excellent job," He rests his hand over the mound of your sex - using pointer and thumb to spread your lips apart and get view of your swollen little clit. He breathes on it. "But you're still begging me for my attention down here. Filthy pussy for such a meticulous maid. Do you know how wet you are? Did you miss me so much?"
You don't answer him. He goes on.
"I thought of you all week," His voice is soft. Tinged with affection, or something like it. "Ahh, dealing with higher ups is such a pain."
You stare at him. He looks back at you with a smile. You flinch. You flinch certainly. "But I can always take it out on you, can't I? This perfect, filthy, needy cunt. It'll only every belong to me and I get to use it to my hearts content. I thought of that suddenly then called you."
It's not just your cunt he's interested in. That'd be relieving if that were the case. If he only ever used you to vent his sexual frustrations, treat you like a personal cocksleeve. You think it might be better that way.
He's too fond of you for that.
The young Master treats you like a chew toy instead. He bites, licks, slobbers, and misuses you. He might hump you to chase his high from time to time, might throw you around for rough sex should the mood suit him. But he's not a clueless oaf, some classless barbarian who only feels pleasure from his cock.
His violation is something else. It's deeper in scent, richer in taste. It is born from his greatness.
He's smart enough to know exploitation and that's what gets him off most. He exploits you. Exploits your reactive body, exploits your stoicism, exploits your dedication to your duty. You're his chew toy because you are designed to be unbreakable. You are indestructible.
But you have the perfect amount of give. You flinch, sigh, and whimper enough to make your Master thrilled. You squeak and moan like you're heat addled when he plays with you enough.
To Satoru, you're the most perfect thing to ever grace his life. His favorite toy that he's bitten at since he was just a boy and grew so fond of.
No matter how much you end up in tatters, Satoru can't help but love you with all of his heart.
You get exhausted being thrown around. But you can't go anywhere, either. He's so watchful of you. He might go crazy and bite if you were to disappear.
"Cum for me," He says, sucking on your clit much more softly. He's gentle but exact. Knows the ins and outs of your body enough to send you racing towards the edge with an unimaginable speed. You gasp and shudder, holding onto his chair for your life as an orgasm shoots through like lightning through a telephone wire.
You cum. You cum hard, bruised and mind-broken and nauseous and you cum so hard something spurts out of you and makes the chair wet. The young Master is nonplussed of course, and laps it up like a dog drinking water.
"Ahh, much better." He's pleased as he stands up and then bends down to your height. His hand cradles the back of your neck with a pleasant sigh as he forces a cum-soaked kiss onto your mouth. "Just as I thought, you were just what I needed."
Utterly defeated, you pull away with a gasp. "...I'm happy to serve you, Master Satoru."
"Such a nice sentence from your mouth, true or not." He gives you one more kiss, to the crown of your head. Too tender, too raw. "Prepare yourself to service me a bit more, then."
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astonmartinii ยท 6 months ago
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home ties | charles leclerc social media au
pairing: charles leclerc x fem bff!reader
got a home race curse? that's no match for the power of friendship
MASTERLIST | TIP JAR
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yourusername: today i start my pilgrimage across europe - i.e. i'm a 20 something who is inter railing to try and 'find herself' BUT i shall be stopping at any church i can find, bestie @charles_leclerc we're getting that home win this season
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user1: INTER RAILING? BUT BUT BUT WHAT ABOUT CHARLES?
user2: this better be a SHORT trip because i need her in the ferrari garage this season
charles_leclerc: don't have too much fun without me :(
yourusername: iMPOSSIBLE
charles_leclerc: good i hope you miss me everyday
yourusername: like a wife waiting for her husband to come home from the war
charles_leclerc: why am i not the wife?
yourusername: i mean you're the one going here, there and everywhere
charles_leclerc: but i'm the pretty one?
yourusername: die โค๏ธ
charles_leclerc: do you or do you not have a picture of me in your locket?
yourusername: do you or do you not want me to lay offerings for wins this season?
charles_leclerc: noted.
user3: these fools are so dear to me
user4: i know we need positive male and female friendship representation but like god i need them to fall in love
pierregasly: so fuck me then?
yourusername: is your name charles leclerc?
pierregasly: i have known you just as long as charles
yourusername: so has max and este you don't see them bitching up a storm in this comment section
maxverstappen1: i mean i just about to but ummmmmm have fun travelling!
estebanocon: i am very secure in our friendship.... some people not so much
pierregasly: i will spit in your coffee
estebanocon: it's already on the top shelf, good luck goblin!
yourusername: okay............ but thanks max!
user5: i love how most of this grid grew up together - not because it's cute but because they're all rude to each other
user6: they'll cry over each other's wins but won't follow each other on instagram
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charles_leclerc: an okay start to the season. get well soon carlos!
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user8: @yourusername i know you're on your travels but you really need to get your ass back in the garage
charles_leclerc: trying real hard not to blame her rn
yourusername: skill issue
charles_leclerc: HOW DARE YOU
yourusername: if you need me to perform, then babe that's on you
charles_leclerc: is it really a crime to want my best friend with me at races
yourusername: did you not include my letters to you in your very instagram dump
charles_leclerc: but those are just letters :(
yourusername: just letters? i see. i guess i won't send any more
charles_leclerc: NO I'M SORRY PLEASE KEEP SENDING THEM
user9: i'm so sorry but this is too cute to not be romantic
user10: i know platonic soulmates exist but damn they're making it real hard to not believe they're in love
user11: they're either in love or charles is a puppy with severe separation anxiety
pierregasly: have you considered that he could be both
user12: HUH?
yourusername: regardless .... i'm proud of you doofus
charles_leclerc: thank you pookie
carlossainz55: do i not get a get well soon? anything?
yourusername: i'm glad you didn't die?
carlossainz55: i guess i'll take it
user13: y/n is unapologetically a hater
yourusername: no i'm just a charles stan first and foremost
user14: as you should
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yourusername: yeah i'm here in the middle of a random forest eating hard pasta but charles was back on the podium so more candles and offerings coming your way
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yourbestie: do we have to stop in every church?
yourusername: YES
user15: i need someone as passionate about me in my life
yourusername: i am COmMITTED TO THE CAUSE
yourbestie: too committed i'm tired
yourusername: sit back and enjoy the stain glass windows let me do the work
user16: i feel like i'm having charlesxy/n withdrawals already
charles_leclerc: me too
user17: instagram live? twich? TWITTER SPACES? i'll do anything
yourusername: babe i'm in the middle of the forest
charles_leclerc: i thought you'd make it work for me but i see how it is
yourusername: stop i will cry and run home
yourbestie: ?
charles_leclerc: i'm sorry, enjoy your travels i just miss you
yourusername: i miss you too :(
yourbestie: gross
maxverstappen1: so like how do we go about getting you light candles for us?
pierregasly: good luck bro
yourusername: first of all, ew. second of all, no. third of all, YOU DON'T NEED THE HELP
maxverstappen1: okay damn tough crowd
charles_leclerc: you've not got the leclerc charm buddy
maxverstappen1: i've seen the 2012 haircut clearly charm was needed
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charles_leclerc: look who's backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
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user20: phew i thought he was gonna die from separation anxiety for a second there
maxverstappen1: he's just dramatic
yourusername: so you don't want the souvenir i got you
maxverstappen1: I DO I DO I DO
yourusername: you know what you have to do
maxverstappen1: ugh. i'm sorry charles, your weird need to be with y/n at all times is kind of cute (if you weren't 26 years old already)
user21: the fact he's so pumped for her to be back - fave duo ever
user22: not to be that one freak but the last picture is looking very girlfriend to me
user23: you make a good point but i don't wanna get my hopes up just yet
user24: was his separation anxiety not enough? i feel like there's no way he could be in another relationship when he wants to be with her so often
yourusername: i'm glad to be back - the wilderness was lovely but nothing compares to you
charles_leclerc: teehee
yourusername: and i get to be reunited with my favourite gal pascale and light votives together
charles_leclerc: my lucky charms for real
pierregasly: i mean only one person has been there for each of your wins in f1 just saying
yourusername: so i'm sorry pierre i'm SORRY THAT MY APPENDIX NEEDED TO COME OUT
yourusername: but i do believe it contributed to the win
charles_leclerc: it did cause i raced so fast so i could get to your side quicker
yourusername: awwww a real gentleman (take notes pierre)
user25: how can they not be in love ^^^ LOOK AT THE MATERIAL PEOPLE
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yourusername: this is the set up for monaco week
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user28: babe is taking up residency in saint devote that's crazy
user29: idk what she's doing but the moon was red ... is she really going to manifest the home win
yourusername: if i can, yes! but if he does win it's all charlie and his talent
user30: ugh you guys are so cute
charles_leclerc: having you back and racing in monaco? best week ever
yourusername: it will be
pierregasly: once again no good lucks for us
maxverstappen1: i'm really starting to think our childhood meant nothing to you
yourusername: booooo the home town hero is obviously the one i'm supporting
maxverstappen1: you told me to "choke on your cock" when i asked if you would watch from my garage in zandvoort
yourusername: welllllllllll
pierregasly: just admit you have a favourite
yourusername; fine, charlie is my favourite
charles_leclerc: :)))))
pierregasly: :((((
yourusername: you asked me to???
user31: i don't know who will be happier if charles wins monaco charles or y/n?
charles_leclerc: i know who would cry more
yourusername: i'm a big crier and proud
alexalbon: not you guys coming for my albon_pets brand
yourusername: don't pit the kids against each other
charles_leclerc: let us be dog parents in peace alex
user32: so like that's their dog.... they're together?
user33: they're so confusing
user34: i mean it's so obvious they're in love so a dog really isn't that crazy
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charles_leclerc: monaco finally loves me back (and so does she)
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user35: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
user36: i am NOT okay
yourusername: so unbelievably proud of you charlie, you deserve this more than anyone and you've made everyone proud โค๏ธ ๐Ÿค
charles_leclerc: thank you my love xx you've always believed in me and i'm so glad i could share this moment with you
yourusername: you're the love of my life and i would do anything for you
charles_leclerc: you already have <3
yourusername: i would light every votive i can find again if it brings you joy like this again
charles_leclerc: you bring me all of my joy
user37: they're so cute your honour
user38: lowkey forgot that they confirmed their relationship because the win was simply hitting too hard
user39: it's hitting like crack and it will be the only thing i talk about for the rest of my life
pierregasly: congratulations calmar!! i knew you could do it and i'm very happy for you both xx
charles_leclerc: thanks brother, you next
yourusername: we love you pear !!
maxverstappen1: I KNEW IT
charles_leclerc: that i would win my home race?
maxverstappen1: yeah, yeah... congrats but I KNEW YOU FOOLS WERE IN LOVE
yourusername: yeah you and about a million other people, we weren't that secretive
maxverstappen1: let me have this one thing
user40: yeah this is the worst kept secret in the world
yourusername: sorry guys but have you seen my boyf, there's no way i wouldn't be showing that off
charles_leclerc: HAVE YOU SEEN MY GIRLFRIEND???
yourusername: awwwww i love you
charles_leclerc: and i love you too
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note: here's a small one to celebrate charles finally winning his home race, i won't lie i did cry. idk it's when he brought up his dad it just started the waterworks but i'm so proud of my lil millionaire racer guy :)))
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mclqren ยท 7 months ago
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THE LECLERC CHRONICLES โ˜… F1 GRID
PAIRING โœฆ charles leclerc x fem!younger sister!reader ; f1 grid x fem!leclerc!reader
SUMMARY โœฆ you're the younger sister of charles leclerc, and your relationship with the rest of the f1 grid has the internet going crazy [ SMAU ]
WARNINGS โœฆ cursing, use of the word 'slut'
NOTES โœฆ let's pretend the dog i used looks relatively like leo!! reader is 22 years old, and the youngest leclerc sibling. the fc i've used is lexi jayde, but feel free to picture whoever you want! my requests are closed. i acc love writing for this series no joke.
SERIES โœฆ the leclerc chronicles masterlist ; previous part ; next part
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yourusername to summarise: these sunglasses were the best investment, i am THE GOAT at bowling, and im planning on stealing alex from my brother. ๐Ÿ˜˜
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user1 Y/NNN MY FAV LECLERC
user2 SO REALLL
user3 how are you not jet lagged rn
yourusername believe me i am (can't wait for japan though!)
user4 so like does she work orrrr
user5 she's an influencer babe?
charles_leclerc that's my girlfriend??
yourusername not anymoreee!!
alexandrasaintmleux im sorry baby, i didnt want you to find out this way ๐Ÿ˜”
charles_leclerc this isn't fair โ˜น๏ธโ˜น๏ธ
yourusername boo hoo life's not fair mate get over it
landonorris pretty sure i beat you at bowling though???
oscarpiastri so did i??
yourusername listen yeah the australian bowling lanes are a bit wonky so that's why i lost. otherwise i would've owned BOTH OF YOU
lilyzneimer i beat y/n too but i love her too much to be rude to her ๐Ÿฉท
yourusername this is why ur my favorite lily, instead of ur rat of a boyfriend & his teammate
landonorris im sorry?
yourusername BOO MCLAREN ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ‘Ž FORZA FERRARI โค๏ธโค๏ธ
charles_leclerc you are awful at bowling y/n but FORZA FERRARI โค๏ธ
maxverstappen1 the one thing you could probably beat me at โ˜น๏ธ
yourusername get used to it verstappen ๐Ÿ˜˜ LECLERC ๐Ÿ”›๐Ÿ”
maxverstappen1 yeah but who's won 3 f1 championships ๐Ÿค”
yourusername watch yeah put me in a racecar and you're officially done mr verstappen โ€ผ๏ธ
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yourusername ticked another city off the bucket list today! ๆ„›ใ—ใฆใ‚‹ใ‚ˆๆฑไบฌ ๐Ÿฉท ( i love you tokyo )
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user6 Y/N IN JAPAN WOOHOOO
user7 seeing y/n in japan makes me so happy idk
user8 she's living her best life fr!!
charles_leclerc the second photo was taken moments before disaster ๐Ÿ˜˜
georgerussell63 WHAT HAPPENED
yourusername charles marc hervรฉ perceval leclerc don't you dare.
charles_leclerc she dropped her sandwich in the koi pond and they all ate it ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™‚๏ธ
yourusername WHY ARE YOU EXPOSING ME CHARLES. IT WAS EMBARRASSING ENOUGH. FUCK YOU.
georgerussell63 that's not THAT bad y/n but also your name is so long charles??
charles_leclerc tell me about it โ˜น๏ธ
yukitsunoda loved getting sushi with you y/n!!
yourusername YUKIII WE NEED TO DO IT AGAIN i swear you know all the best spots
landonorris sushi ๐Ÿคฎ
yourusername mr norris you have the palate of a five year old boy now shut up before i remove your ipad privileges โค๏ธ
logansargeant third pic goes harddd wonder who took it ๐Ÿ˜
yourusername thanks logie much appreciated babes ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹
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yourusername last slide is very much true, coming from a very credible source (me). loved being in japan this week, ใ™ใใซๆˆปใฃใฆใใพใ™ โค๏ธ ( i'll be back soon )
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user9 sometimes i forget that y/n is monegasque as well
user10 NO REAL
user11 THE RED THEMEEE LOVE!!
user12 the last slide HELPPP
user13 everyone say THANK YOU Y/N for the charles crumbs
user14 THANK YOU Y/N WE LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW ๐Ÿ’‹
charles_leclerc the last slide y/n ๐Ÿคฃ
yourusername @/pierregasly my favorite bromance ๐Ÿ‘Š
pierregasly thanks for the love y/n ๐Ÿคฃโค๏ธ
landonorris photo credits? ๐Ÿ“ทโ˜น๏ธ
yourusername not needed after the little stint you pulled today โ˜๏ธ
oscarpiastri lets normalise giving context ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š
yourusername someone (naming no names) CHEATED at uno.
landonorris I DIDNT KNOW YOU COULDNT KEEP CARDS FOR SAFEKEEPING
yourusername IN WHAT GAME CAN YOU KEEP CARDS FOR SAFEKEEPING??
oscarpiastri yeah...the no photo creds was deserved
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( caption one: ferrari girls on film ๐ŸŽ๏ธ + tags | caption two: to all the haters saying i can't bowl, guess who just fucking won!! @/charles_leclerc you are a WEAK opponent ๐Ÿ‘Ž )
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yourusername i hereby declare that this ice cream brand is officially y/n certified (coming from ice cream's no.1 fan). now go support my brother or wtv ๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ˜œ
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user15 AWWW Y/N SUPPORTING CHARLES
user16 my fav siblings ever ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿซถ
user17 THE ICE CREAM LOOKS SO NICE CANT WAITT TO BUY
charles_leclerc thanks for the free advertisement y/n ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š
yourusername you're welcome cha!! (i'll act like you didn't ask me to do this ๐Ÿ˜Š)
charles_leclerc shhh y/n that's meant to be a secret!
yourusername whoops?? ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ
landonorris if you advertise my quadrant merch in the future i'll give you a papaya paddock pass? ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘
yourusername unfortunately y/n leclerc's services extend to that of her immediate family only. if you have any issues with the above, don't message me about them!
landonorris why are you speaking like someone else y/n
yourusername so i sound more fancy
alexandrasaintmleux something delicious is in this post and it's not the ice cream ๐Ÿคค
yourusername MY WIFE ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜
charles_leclerc not the public flirting AND being rude about my ice cream โ˜น๏ธโ˜น๏ธ
yourusername hahahaha sucks to be you rn ๐Ÿซต
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yourusername "i've only had leo for a day and a half, but if anything happened to him, i would kill everyone in this room and then myself"
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user18 Y/N IS A B99 FAN CONFIRMED??
user19 THE BEST SHOWWW
user20 LEO IS THE CUTESTTT
user21 auntie y/n babysitting omg ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ
yourusername stop it rn auntie makes me sound so old ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ˜”
user21 OMG SHE REPLIED?!
charles_leclerc my baby ๐Ÿฅบ
yourusername im planning on stealing him from you at some point ๐Ÿ˜˜
charles_leclerc im sorry?? first my girlfriend now my dog??
yourusername stay on high alert charles nothing is safe around me ๐Ÿšจ๐Ÿšจ
lilymhe cutie ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‰
yourusername YOUUUU!!
alex_albon the dog's cuter
yourusername 'the dog' has a NAME albon, and you're just jealous your girlfriend prefers me to you!
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yourusername ไธŠๆตทไน‹ๅคœ ๐ŸŒƒ ( shanghai nights )
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user22 Y/N IN SHANGHAI FOR THE GP??
user23 I LOVE YOU Y/NNNN
user24 does she go to every race?
user25 she said on an interview once that she tries to attend every race & flies with her brother (& sometimes his girlfriend alex) whenever she does go to them! she couldn't make jeddah this year because she had other commitments at the time, but she tries to go to most of them!
user26 Y/N LECLERC IS THAT A MAN IN UR SECOND PIC??
user27 SOFT LAUNCH MAYBEEE??
charles_leclerc y/n i don't recognise that second pic? ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”
yourusername charles calm down it's literally a friend
charles_leclerc why not tag him then??
yourusername as a nice FRIEND, i actually value his life so im trying to save him from you, arthur and lorenzo โค๏ธ
lance_stroll I MISS YOU
lance_stroll this is marilou by the way ive lost my own phone ๐Ÿ˜”
yourusername MARILOUUU MY ANGELLL I LOVE YOU!! leave ur boyfriend for me
lance_stroll y/n im back what is this.
yourusername idc about you tell marilou to come over
iamrebeccad in awe of you forever ๐Ÿคฉ
yourusername love you becca โค๏ธ
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( caption: pov - mr world champion x3 gets his phone robbed by a 22 year old girl who enjoys harassing people on the daily ๐Ÿ˜˜ [...] @/yourusername FOLLOW ME NOWWWW (please) )
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( caption: me when max asks me why i stole his phone, promoted my instagram account and then left [...] @/maxverstappen1 sorry about that ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ’— )
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yourusername cali this week, miami next โœˆ๏ธ
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user28 i swear i'd sell my soul to live your life y/n
user29 she's actually stunninggg
user30 Y/NNN MY ANGEL FR
user31 hottest leclerc (real)
georgerussell63 you after stalking me and carmen to california??
landonorris SORRY?
yourusername okay guys lets clear up the rumours!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ i actually got invited to an EVENT in california, and george and carmen happened to be there, so like yes, i have been with them but i did NOTTT stalk them guys im not about that lifestyle
georgerussell63 yeah but like how do i know you're not watching me while i sleep ๐Ÿค”
yourusername that's the whole beauty of it, you'll never EVER know ๐Ÿ˜
carmenmmundt come over please george is annoying me
yourusername omw bbg ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜
georgerussell63 betrayal 101
alexandrasaintmleux missing you rn ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ˜”
charles_leclerc you're literally with me right now??
alexandrasaintmleux yeah and im missing your sister??
yourusername I LOVE YOU ALEX im seeing you soon trust
logansargeant come to miami quicker you promised i could show you all the best spots :(
yourusername I SWEAR IM ON MY WAY LOGANNN
logansargeant
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( caption: i let y/n in my house and the first thing she does is pull out her diary to document our day [...] @/yourusername least you could do is say "thanks for letting me in" โ˜น๏ธ )
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yourusername bro said "i know a spot" and took me to a lake.
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user32 THE CAPTION SCREAMINGGG
user33 that's so logan i actually cant HELP
user34 the second pic ๐Ÿคฃ
user35 y/n after third wheeling:
charles_leclerc so this is why you wouldn't go on a walk with me
yourusername maybe i shouldve gone on that walk idk, logan is a bit of a reckless boat driver
logansargeant IM NOT??
yourusername logan babe, we were coming up to a rock and you shouted 'land ahoy', i have reason to be scared โค๏ธ
oscarpiastri HELP LAND AHOY?? ARE YOU A PIRATE LOGAN
logansargeant IT WAS A JOKE OKAY PARDON ME FOR MY HUMOR
yourusername 'pardon me' aren't we getting posh!
logansargeant dont lie you had a great time
yourusername define "great time"...because i sat there and sunbathed for like three hours while you caught a couple of 'beauties'
logansargeant and then you ate one of those beauties for dinner??
yourusername best part of the entire thing your mom makes a mean fish yum yum ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜‹
user36 AW SHE WENT TO HIS HOUSE
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yourusername LANDO NOWINS BRCOMES LANDO WIQH WINSSSS ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ†๐Ÿ† so hqppy for you rihht now, and for max & charles and their podium!! โค๏ธ
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user37 reason no.1209212 as to why y/n is the best:
user38 THIS POST AWWW
user39 the way she's so proud of him and her brother ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ
user40 and max!!
landonorris couldn't have a post without charles and max featuring huh ๐Ÿ˜”
yourusername unfortunately charles IS my brother, and max IS my friend as well, so im legally obliged to celebrate with both of them too
landonorris yeah but...my first win โ˜น๏ธ
yourusername next win trust i'll dedicate an entire post to you babes โค๏ธ
charles_leclerc the spelling y/n ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
yourusername I WAS DRUNK OKAY BLAME MAX
maxverstappen1 BLAME ME HUH
yourusername YOU GOT ME DRUNK MATE
charles_leclerc absolutely shocking behaviour from a world champion
yourusername RIGHT??
maxverstappen1 how come i never get these sort of posts when i win
yourusername would you like one next time maxie?? ๐Ÿ˜
maxverstappen1 please ๐Ÿ˜”
yourusername watch its coming ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ
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