#fuck I hate subtweeting

[moreespressoformydepresso]

Heyy, it’s been a couple of days since I’ve posted, even longer since I’ve been consistent. I would say I’ve been busy but that would be a lie because I haven’t actually had less time than usual to post. Truth is some stuff’s gone down, partially on this very platform, and it’s made it very hard to post. If you don’t want to read a kind of venty angsty personal post the TL;DR is I’ll get back to posting semi-regularly once I’ve dealt with some stuff but I promise it has nothing to do with the people who interact with my blog. You’re the highlight of my day even if it’s “just” a like and I’m sorry for the recent dip in posts.

I don’t wanna go into detail because surprise! I don’t actually like going out of my way to create drama with people and one person involved has essentially harassed me on every platform we share. That’s why I haven’t spoken about this before, and I’m only saying this now because I realized I’ve forgotten to respond to several reblogs and I don’t want anyone to feel like I’m ignoring them or abandoning this blog or anything. Basically, I feel bad about leaving without explanation and also I kind of want to vent? So without getting too specific: A close friendship recently died a slow, torturous death over several months, slowly getting worse until the other person threw me in the trash like I meant nothing. Then he came back two weeks later and tried to guilt trip me for being upset at him for how he treated me.

In that two week period some stuff went down on Tumblr here and well��� there’s no way to sugarcoat this, so I’ll be blunt: it’s made me terrified to post anything on here. Every time I want to post something I feel sick to my stomach with dread because what if it’ll happen again? Or, alternatively, what if I’m next? And it sucks because I’m not even 100% sure it was aimed at me, but it lines up a little too perfectly and maybe I’m paranoid and it’s all on me but maybe it’s not and if that’s the case… I’d rather be wrong, for once, but the problem is that there’s no way to know for certain. I’ve been stewing in this weird, complicated mishmash of emotions and confusion and I honestly have no idea how to deal with it. I thought time would help, as it usually does, but clearly this is a special case.

Before anyone says it, yes. I’m aware that this is a subtweet, which is not a cool or nice thing to do unless it’s a joke between friends. That’s another thing that made me not want to post this. I hate being mean to people who aren’t mean to me first, and as I said I have no solid proof from a trustworthy source without ulterior motives that this had anything to do with me (which is what I usually use as my standard for when to start hitting back) but I just can’t seem to let it go. Every time I have an AU I wanna share I get this creeping, uncomfortable, clawing feeling crawling underneath my skin and tightening in my chest and I hate it. I hate it so much I cannot even describe it properly.

It makes me wanna scrape my skin off with sandpaper and scrub myself clean from the inside out with an iron sponge. I wanna claw my heart out of my chest and shake it until it stops feeling like this and the only comfort here is that I’ve found some fancy new descriptions to use in my writing. Speaking of: I’ll post on AO3 again soon, hopefully today or tomorrow, but just like with my blog I’m so drained of energy and I feel so nauseous about posting I haven’t been able to bring myself to do it again, which sucks because I love posting on all these platforms! It shouldn’t feel like a chore but it does now and I don’t know if there’s anything that’ll ever make it fully go away. It’s become more manageable, hence why I’m posting this, so I’m clinging to the hope it’ll all ebb away at some point. Until then though my posting schedule is gonna be even more inconsistent than it usually is, so I’m very sorry about that. Hope you all have a wonderful day and I’m sorry about the venty post I’ve subjected you to 😅

[princsstwilightsparkl]

saying "if aroace people can date, then can lesbians date men?" is absolutely aphobic narrative btw!

[oceanwithouthermoon]

the realization that tumblr does not work like twitter and i cant just vague post about random discourse or arguments otherwise people will wrongfully assume its about them has flipped my whole life upside down

[gwyoi]

I can’t stand being a bisexual theyfab sometimes like I actually can’t deal with you white people giving us a bad name 😭

[distinctiveusername]

it really pisses me off when people just can't pronounce things. like knowingly butcher words and names because it's "too hard"

in an era where knowledge is literally at our fingertips and almost any question is a quick Google search away you should not be mispronouncing anything

[shinraelectricpowercom]

btw before you ever get upset abt someone else proposing that a character you like might be a Bad Person and write a multi-paragraph response to their post... just stop and think "could this problem be solved better by me blocking them? yes" and block them and move on <3

eta 8 hours later: post is cancelled, i wrote it at 3am in a fit of pique and i now admit that it’s a misfire at smth that’s Easy to talk about but not actually the source of my anger

that said, i still stand by this for 90% of the time. people don’t post meta because they want someone else to systematically dismantle it, they post it because they think it’s compelling. + remember “do unto others as you would have them do unto you” and I can’t think of anyone I know who genuinely enjoys getting a response that’s just “no, your meta is wrong and here’s several paragraphs on why”.

[softgrungeprophet]

another day, another "scrolling past a post on my dashboard where flash is the only character excluded from the coffee bean gang"

[miserye]

i just had subway and two things, one. i fucking love tuna and 2. that churro is a crime against humanity and they should be sued for selling something that bad

[generalpalacefishgoop]

You know the posts recently about bbh neg on twter, the timing of it with that going on, makes me want to hurl, they don't give a shit about "victims" or the real issues. They just want to dunk on the next cc they hate using the current "momentum".

You know what, I say let them go ahead and try to "cancel" Bad, really, go ahead. They're just regurgitating shit DSMP fans has said over the years again and again about Bad. Its fcking funny actually. Oh not forgetting they had to invent new ones or ones THAT THEIR FAVES HAVE DONE TOO BTW, to "cancel" Bad. To think I was looking forward to QSMP fans being "healthier" or "better" than DSMP ones, oh boy am I sorely disappointed.

Let them run their mouths about Bad. Cuz I'm 100% sure the CCs , QSMP admins, and Quackity give 0 shit about them. Etoiles knows and has already expressed how he knows that Bad is overly hated by the fandom and how he receives neg on the daily. Despite knowing that, he's still cordial with Bad. And he even expressed how he tries to not be "angry" or "frustrated" at Bad or else the parasocial fucks will come running to "defend" him from "evil" BBH when he has said a million times over that its not a fcking big deal, and hes just expressing himself NOT IN A NEG WAY. but noooo parasocial fucks be like "oh no my skunkrly wrunkly his feelings got hurt oh no" same shit with foolish fans. Fcking blind af. Esp the new ones who hasnt experienced the prank wars in dsmp. Fcking joyless fucks who cant handle a fcking block game that theyre not even playing. But thankfully, Etoiles stopped being so concerned, and well, yk with Foolish lmao same old same old.

(Disclaimer: SOME FANS NOT ALL, IM TALKING ABOUT THE TOXIC PARASOCIAL FUCKS, YES EVEN THE BIG ACCOUNTS ON TWITTER WITH THOUSANDS OF FOLLOWERS. You know who. Big numbers doesn't mean they're more RIGHT. A parasocial fuck is a parasocial fuck. Also, when I say parasocial, I mean the ones who are toxic and project themselves onto the CC. Being parasocial is fine, if it's the healthy kind, if you know what I mean)

I digress, there's no fcking unfollows or subtweets from CCs to Bad, unlike with D or F. In fact, some CCs and CLOSE FRIENDS of Bad's have always praised Bad and defended him TO THIS DAY. If that is not enough of an indication of how unproblematic he is, Idk what else to say. Just fuck off and live a life in constant misery and hatred ig. That's why don't respond to fucks like that. Just mute em. They can yap all they want but it means SHIT ALL if you don't see it. BBH's community is WAY WAY smaller than the whole fandom (and theres wayyy more toxic fucks) so bbhs community saying shit back to the toxic shits will also mean SHIT ALL. They CLEARLY don't watch Bad anyways so what's the point. Better way to deal with this shit is fight the misinformation, that's all. Spread more positivity and give ppl FULL context and CORRECT information. If you see some shit against Bad, report it and send it to whatever ban list qsmp uses. Send it to mods or something. Ik that Bagi's discord has something like that.

Oh but ppl be like /rp or /lh or "it's just my opinion", who gives a shit. Still report them. We're not dumb. The mods or whoever admins are not dumb. That negative toxic fuck smell on it, is fcking obvious enough.

STOP GIVING THEM ENGAGEMENTS. We can happily stay in each others bubbles without ever talking to each other, AND THAT IS FINE. Don't let the negative fucks in. Mute and report them, and I guarantee you, that fcking stranger on the Internet, you'll forget within DAYS. those fuckers won't even exist to you, vice versa.

THEIR WORDS HOLD NO POWER OVER YOU OR THE QSMP COMMUNITY. KEEP THE QSMP COMMUNITY HEALTY AND SAFE. Fuck them toxic shits.

[lesbiansforboromir]

Hello! I'm the one who typed "Tolkien would hate their guts" in anti Tolkien worship reblog and, yeah, point taken. But I did also add that he is responsible for this mess in the first place! It's just that Tolkien doesn't really strike me as somebody who would love this kind of worship. In general though I agree that it doesn't really matter what Tolkien Thought Or Felt Inside His Mind since since this is a fandom, not a religion.

YOU KNOW looking back on the post I made about all this that was actually a lot more mean spirited than u deserved, in the moment of making it I just thought the juxtaposition was funny (and also it's like a point I have been trying to make quite regularly that people are all in on the whole 'worshipping tolkien is bad' even whilst using his assumed opinions to support various arguments, which is a form of the worship) but in hindsight that was just 'subtweeting' you (what's the word... the tumblr word, there's a different word for it on tumblr fuck) but in any case I'm sorry if I made you feel got at! And I'll delete the post if you'd like. I had no desire to be mean or a bully about it!

[moreespressoformydepresso]

You ever look at a post and think to yourself that this is the third time now that that specific person’s post feels suspiciously like a subtweet? What a fun feeling to have! Definitely not making me want to scream right now :)

[princsstwilightsparkl]

im the opposite of a hater but the one thing i will always hate on.. is haters.. ☠️ like if i ever see any of yall hate posting for no reason and talking about how much people with different harmless opinions piss you off, youre immediately on my list of people to avoid..

[kindleaf]

Erlin, Albin for the obvious. Zirk for me. And as a curve ball. Also Luna.

[ask game] yayyyy so many :3c (under cut)

erlin:

how do i feel about this character?

gestures to my url. i'm normal. im literally normal. (favorite nadd character and maybe my favorite character ever. he's certainly up there.)

all the characters i ship romantically with them.

bev -w- truly no one else. no one else with bev either. no one can ever get involved with what they have going on at risk of their self esteem.

non-romantic pairings.

ofc egwene and erlin the siblings of all time forever. the most important guys. and then the rest of b-team obviously. him and hardwon make me cry. of course his other scoutmaster moonie as well. derlin. cran. probably ol cobb. i get weepy he has so many friends he's so LOVED...

unpopular opinion.

i'm a bev/erlin guy we all know this. and a large portion of his life is beverly and i love to discuss this i love to talk about the Themes And Motifs but i also think. maybe. both within the show and in fandom we could talk a little bit more about erlin and his desires outside of bev... we can look at his own tragedy as well... also he's gay. that's not unpopular i'm just saying it.

one thing i wish would happen/wish had happened in canon.

B-TEAM BONDING. ON SCREEN B-TEAM BONDING. PLEASE ON SCREAM B-TEAM BONDING. "MY FATHER FIGURE" BRIAN MURPHY ELABORATE.

albin:

how do i feel about this character?

LOVE HIM. loser wizard guy my favorite c3 character hands down. he's so sad. kicks him.

all the characters i ship romantically with them.

sol! mainly sol. sometimes i play dolls with him and calder, grem, or swag but it's mainly for the Bit and the Drama and the Sexual Ennui.

non-romantic pairings.

ma goblin and him are literally LITERALLY best friends bark bark ruff bark. they make me so happy to think about. also i have pretty extensive headcanons about him hanging out with the waterpark kids (liddy, tully, etc.) and maybe have a comic in the works for it hehe but i like that. and then also winch and callie. i think they should be FRIENDS.

unpopular opinion.

they should treat him better in canon before i start aggressively subtweeting jake and emily on twitter. be fucking nice to him he's literally just helping you and calder STARTED it.

one thing i wish would happen/wish had happened in canon.

i wish we had gotten to maybe see more flashbacks to launchpad with them in a more serious way? however the lizer fight flashback to albin crying out for help really does it for me i like that a LOT. i wish we'd maybe even gotten more of albin's story pre-launchpad but that's arcane knowledge that not even murph knows so. shrugs.

zirk:

how do i feel about this character?

i LIIIIKE zirk i think he's so interesting and fun. and ofc he's a blorbo in law. but i love alchemist characters by default and then ALSO he has mommy issues? let's fucking go.

all the characters i ship romantically with them.

uhhh not many? i don't really ship him but when people draw him with syb or henry i think that is a-okay!

non-romantic pairings.

him and fia. obviously. they are literally socialized together like kittens and they'll rip up your furniture if they're apart please do not separate. also i like your 🫵 zirk and hank jr stuff i think they should and could be friends even. also him and irina but that's mainly stuff i imagine in my brain. also i think him and tarragon could VIBE but i suppose we'll never know.

unpopular opinion.

hm. idk how unpopular this is with this certain audience but i literally hated the fucking through a bag scene so much. it sucks. it's not good. to me.

one thing i wish would happen/wish had happened in canon.

i would eventually like to see some third mates on their boat in the future :-) just to see what they are up to post All That Bullshit. and also for some zirk and irina interactions.

luna:

how do i feel about this character?

LOVE HER i love her role in the crick arc and i love her scene with melora and i especially love that we get a little peek into how the chosen recruits members because i am so horrible fascinated by how they function as a cult militia. i love her she's awesome.

all the characters i ship romantically with them.

i think shipping her with apple scrumper is literally just fun. so apple scrumper. also not romantic but i think her and moonshine could have a casual thing. in wolf beast mode.

non-romantic pairings.

also her a moonshine as mentioned previously. i think her and hardwon potentially also good friends and then this is so random i think her and tess from the bastards of none could literally hang.

unpopular opinion.

despite her relatively small role in the grand scheme of things i don't think luna is forgettable at all! i think she even brings about one of the most iconic parts of the series early on with melora's "you weren't cursed. you were born that way." i like her very much i think she was the most fun a tertiary npc could be.

one thing i wish would happen/wish had happened in canon.

i can't really think of anything specific i think her arc was very well done. i wish she had gotten to maim barret brisden if this counts.

[idlerin]

nonsense — profiles: [name]’s pe(s)ts

masterlist | in need of medical attention | episode one

they had a seemingly odd unlikely friendship, since they never would’ve met if [name] didn’t decide she wanted to be a volleyball player in her second year in karasuno but quickly gave up (after finding out it required actual body movement) and decided to be the boy’s volleyball team assistant manager instead. that’s how she met the 4 other guys in the tokyo summer training camp and instantly hit it off.

when they were in highschool, since 4 of them are from tokyo [name] and tsuki are the ones who had to adjust to traveling there for a hangout every few months, with kei the one being dragged by [name] everywhere like an annoying big sister (tsuki is the youngest).

in the present day, they all study in tokyo university, with [name] the only one living in the campus dorms with 3 other girls. akaashi and kei live together (i know, an unlikely pair), kuroo and bokuto live together (their place is always messy af), while kenma lives alone in a fancy condo unit.

although [name] was close to all of the boys, kenma was her best friend, so it was tough when he became famous and she was reluctant to be seen on campus with him bc of trauma from the past. so now, she walks on eggshells around him in public but in private they’re free to do whatever (platonically)! she hangs around his place the most, he always says she could just move in but she never fails to heavily refuse.

@/alteregod is your priv and @/whereifindpeace is kenma’s, his kodzuken account (shown in teaser 1) is his public account that he rarely uses for personal stuff. kuroo and bokuto are the only ones who sometimes appear in kenma’s yt channel, that’s why they have a following.

post-breakup [name] was a mess, so she was and still is very thankful to her friends for being with her all throughout her heartbreak season, they brought comfort when she needed it the most. even if they were silly as fuck and bought her an “i’m sorry he broke up with you” cake (it was their attempt at making you laugh, they panicked when you started crying, but the cake tasted good)

nonsense ! an oikawa tooru social media au

synopsis. you were oikawa tooru’s #1 fan, until you became his #1 hater. you hated him so much you went viral on twitter and literally became known as “the oikawa tooru hater”, doesn’t help that he keeps fueling the fire by subtweeting you. everyone is all in for this new drama. what isn’t known to the public, is that this particular drama’s been on hold for three years (him being your ex and all).

a/n — here we goooo!

taglist is open ! + @kawaii-angelanne @ceneridiankaa @kittycasie @rukia-uchiha-98

[deathwhoregutfucker]

i hate my fucking friends so much and i don’t even want to make any new ones. one of my friends literally bullied me for hanging out with other people and i don’t want to be bullied again. i’d avoid seeing them bc i was never in the room until they were asleep but id see them around school and thats when they’d say shit to me. i can never forgive them they’ve made me feel like im not even myself anymore. they’ve made me feel so empty and i wish i could tell them how horrible they made me feel but instead i just said “oh i moved because it just wasn’t the right fit” but it was actually because you guys bullied me like fucking middle schoolers and treated me like shit and wondered why i never spend time with you.

i almost want to make a tiktok and subtweet them but i don’t want to go that low. even though they literally made my life a living hell.

[sappy-detective]

can we not ignore how fucking sassy/petty tweek is when creek fight???! he spend the whole time of TFBW being passive aggressive to craig the WHOLEE time and craig is so over him. i think it’s the funnies shit in the world and people need to  acknowledge sassy tweek more! here are some of my favorites moments

first. there whole rant he went on at new kid at the coffee shop.

“oh, you work for him huh?! AgH well. you can go back and tell him he can have his laptop back, when i get my FuCKING guinea pig back! NGh. we baught it when we where together but stipe. is. mine. Ngh. i payed for him. and i have the recite. you think it’s right for him to keep stripe while he’s the one who didn’t stand up for me!? you tell him that.!

“Yeah, I remember! So, when I walked out on Coon and Friends, you should've walked out with me!”

“Super Craig? More like Stupid Craig.”

“Yes, I do! You think it's easy controlling the weather?”

“Fine. Choke on a burrito next time you need a pick-me-up.”

“Oh, he finally decided to be reasonable, huh? Fine.”

“i have nothing to say if that's his attitude.”

[tweek: agh! why would you hit super craig?!

craig: uh because they’re bad guys?

tweek: Why are YOU defending them!

craig: oh god.]

“don’t “dude” me!”

“no you calm down!!”

“your side kick!? what?!”

“shut up! shut up! i’m thinking!”

“hurry up craig i hate when you do this!!”

“craig! why did you make me do that!”

[ craig: ever get the feeling life is punishing you for being a dick tweek?

tweek: NO.]

[tweek: “craig! cant be bothered to save your love?!”

craig: “i was busy.”

tweek: “you’re always busy!!”]

plus+

just look at him. he’s not even looking in craig’s general direction and his arms are crossed. i love him he’s so cute

and tweek subtweeting about him ^^

obviously not all of it but even the way he says stuff is so funny.

“are you shitting me?! fine. as long as your there. you seem to be able to get him to think rationally.”

he’s so silly.