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lorencourtier · 4 years ago

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Discord Thread || Loren and Landon

Discord thread featuring: Loren Courtier & Landon Davies ( @davieslandon)

Mentions: Jace @jace-matthews, Aaron @aaronhart93, Claudia @claudiafern96. Roman @romanbeckett, Harry @theharrykingston

When: July 17th

Description: Loren and Landon meet up for coffee to talk about their relatioship.

Trigger Warnings: Abuse, death threats, domination

LANDON Landon got up bright and early (as usual) and used the few hours before Elle woke up to get some things done. He prepared a bag for her for while she was staying with Aaron and even managed to look through some work documents that he brought home with him. Once that was done he started preparing a nice breakfast for them both which Elle really enjoyed once she got up. It didn’t take him long to drop her off with Aaron since she was so excited to see Des again and then he made his way to The Grind. Loren wasn’t there yet so Landon ordered himself a coffee and found a small table at the back to wait. He was quite nervous about their meeting since their interactions through text weren’t the best apart from the group chat, and even those were not always great. Landon saw his ex walk in and waved to get his attention. “Good morning”, he said as soon as Loren sat down in front of him.

Loren. Of course Loren was nervous to see Landon. They hadn’t seen each other face to face since before their break up, and now he was kind of involved with Jace. His nerves were all over the place and his heart was beating so fast he could swear it was visible. He spotted Landon sitting in the back of the grind and he made his way over to sit across from him. “Hey, good morning to you too” he smiled. Running his hand through his messy curls to push them back. “How did you sleep?” he asked. Just trying to make small talk. July 18, 2020

LANDON “Oh, pretty good. Was up kind of early as usual but I think I’m getting used to the strange hours”, he joked. It was so strange to be sitting in front of Loren and not really do anything about it. Before he would have leaned in for a kiss or take his hand or something but now everything was different. Landon found himself unsure of what to say. They needed to talk about everything that happened with a clear head instead of over text but he was scared that it would inevitably turn into an argument. “How have you been?” That was safe enough.

Loren. “Surprising” Loren chuckled softly. Resting his elbow on the table as his fingers fidgeted with his own lips. He has seen Landon in the general chat almost every morning while he had laid awake. But this, being in person and not through text was hard. He just wanted to be closer to the other boy, but the tension was real. His eyes scanning Landons face as he sat quiet for a moment. “I’ve been okay” he lied. “A little anxious and a bit of insomnia. But okay” he nodded. “How about yourself?”

LANDON From the way they were talking, it seemed like they were both in the same boat. Both of them suffering with some sort of insomnia, both of them feeling the tension between them. “I’ve been doing well too. Focusing on work and Elle.” That wasn’t the whole truth. Landon didn’t mention that he’d been suffering from anxiety and panic attacks but now was not the time to talk about that. What else could they really talk about though beyond their current small talk? Landon took a sip of his coffee and then looked at Loren. “So...you and Jace huh?”

Loren. Loren nodded his head to Landons words. The mention of Elle giving him a sharp pain in his heart but he just ignored it. Crossing his arms together over the table as he looked back at his ex. “That’s good” he said softly. Knowing damn well that wasn’t fully true. He knew Landon, and he could see the hurt in his eyes. He had it too, but Loren was usually better at hiding it. That was until Jace was mentioned. His heart nearly dropped into his ass. “Uhm..” he hummed. His fingers fidgeting together once again. It was a nerves tick of his he couldn’t even try and fight. “Yeah, I mean. We’re good friends and he’s been there for me” he said honestly. “He’s a... he’s a good guy.” He didn’t really know what to say beyond that. He didn’t wanna hurt Landon anymore than he already had.

LANDON Landon was hoping that he misunderstood the texts in the group chat and they could have a laugh about it now over coffee. Based on Loren’s reaction, he knew that wasn’t going to be the case. “Right, a good friend”, he said, half-hearted smile on his face. “Well...I’m happy for you. Whatever it is that’s going on.”

Loren. Loren practically starred at Landon across the table. His head shaking slightly at his reaction to his words. “Yeah, a good friend. I didn’t really have anyone else Landon. I was alone and scared and he was there for me. It’s not like you think” he added. “You know I love you. But this is hard... it’s really hard, and I don’t really think you understand what I went through for you.”

LANDON “I don’t know, it sounded like more than just friends to me this morning. But you don’t have to explain yourself to me. I mean, we’re not together so you can do whatever you want.” Landon felt his anger flare up just like it always did at the reminder of what Loren ‘did for him’. He took a deep breath to calm himself down because he knew this wasn’t the time to get angry and defensive, not if they ever wanted to get through this conversation. “Maybe I don’t understand but who’s fault is that? I really don’t know what you expect from me Loren. You break up with me, tell me that I don’t really love you and that you’re leaving and...then you come back. Am I supposed to just forget everything that happened and go back to how things were before?” He ran a hand through his hair then looked directly at Loren. “You keep saying I don’t understand so help me understand.”

Loren. “I’m sorry if that exchange hurt you. But your right, we’re not together. I still don’t want to just rub shit in your face that’s not who I am.” He kept his voice calm but he could see the anger building in Landon and it caused him to sigh. “I told you, Landon. I said that because I didn’t know what else to say. I had to keep you safe. If I told you I loved you and we’d be okay, you’d probably be in the hospital right now. Or dead.” Loren could feel his tears build up just thinking about the whole ordeal. “You wanna understand? Well, understand this. I had a choice to make. I could either let you go and let him have his way with me. Or I could have let him hurt you and maybe even Elle to have his way with me. He beat the shit out of me, he threatened my life. I had no fucking choice” he cried. Maybe he shouldn’t have said all those things in a public place, but there is was. Luckily it was still early enough to be only them and another couple who sat across the room.

LANDON “Wouldn’t you be hurt if I started flirting and telling someone how much I loved them on the chat? Or maybe that’s just me, who knows”, he shrugged. He’d been heading in to Avery’s place when he read the texts exchanged between Loren and Jace and he felt quite blindsided. Landon hadn’t even known they were so close and all of a sudden they were flirting on the group chat for everyone to see? He even found himself texting Aaron to check whether he also saw it as flirting or he was just being paranoid. Landon knew that his ex had been through a lot and that the guy he was dealing with was a nasty piece of work but he was so hurt when Loren first texted him after coming back. He wasn’t in the right state of mind to listen to his side of things. “I just wanted to help you. You didn’t even tell me you were going to see him until you were literally about to walk in”, he said, mind going back to those texts he received and the fear he felt when Loren wouldn’t answer. “And you’re sure he’s gone for good now?” Not for him, Landon was at a point where he didn’t really care much about himself but if there was a potential risk for Elle, then he wanted to know.

Loren. “Yeah, I would be hurt. It would hurt me a lot. Just like it hurt watching you and Khai go back and forth. But I just played into it because I love you and of you’re happy, then by god I’m gonna find a way to be happy for you.” He brought his hand up to wipe his tears away and he sniffles a bit as the tears fell again. “I know you wanted to help me. But you couldn’t. I couldn’t let that happen to you. I couldn’t do it landon” he cried harder. He brought his hands up to cover his face and shook his head. “Yeah, he’s gone. But that doesn’t stop be from looking over my shoulder every time I step out the fucking door. I needed you, and I know I hurt you, but I really needed you.”

LANDON “There’s nothing between me and Khai. We’re just good friends and that’s sort of our way of joking around but there’s never been more than a kiss before I even met you.” It hurt to see Loren in this state but Landon wasn’t sure what he could do. He wanted to attempt to comfort him but wasn’t sure whether he’d be accepted. Hearing about how scared Loren was of leaving his house made up his mind. Landon got up and made his way to the other side pulling Loren in for a hug. “It’s okay, you’re okay”, he said, mumbling comforting words in the other’s hair. “I’m here now.”

Loren. “I believe you, I do” he nodded. His emotions still getting the best of him. He knew how Khai could be just from working with Roman and being friends with Emily, so he tried not to let it go to his head. It just made him sad that he didn’t have that connection with Landon anymore. When Landon made his way to his side of the booth and pulled him in for a hug, it took him a little off guard. He didn’t expect it at all because his ex had been so upset with him. He leaned into the embrace of his ex and cried even harder. God, he had been being such a baby these past few days but he couldn’t help it. “I really am so sorry. I love you. I’ll always love you. Just please don’t hate me.”

LANDON Landon felt him tense up as soon as he wrapped his arms around him and almost moved back but then his ex was leaning into the embrace. Things between them weren’t good and Landon couldn’t possibly know if they ever would be but it still hurt him to see Loren in such a state. Because he still loves him. It didn’t matter how much he said out loud that he didn’t or tried to force himself not to. He did. Saying it out loud was another thing entirely. Landon couldn’t even get himself to say it out loud when they were together for fear of it all blowing up in his face, let alone now that things between them were such a mess. “I don’t hate you, I never did. It’s just...a difficult situation.”

Loren. Loren held onto Landon tightly as he held him. Afraid that when he let go he wouldn’t get the chance to hold him again. It was so comforting in his arms, but also terrifying. Because he did love Landon so damn much. He was the only person who had been there for him through so many bad things. And the only one who truly knew him, good and bad. “I know” he nodded. “I’m sorry I let this happen, and I’m so sorry I hurt you. You gotta know I never would have done that intentionally.” Loren wipes his tears away and brought his hand to Landons cheek. Smiling through his watery eyes at him before licking his lips. He wanted to kiss his ex so bad that it physically hurt. Just looking in to his eyes was painful. That deep blue color almost hypnotizing him as he leaned in a bit closer. “Can I please kiss you?” he asked. Much like he did the first time he had asked to kiss him. His thumb caressing his cheek as he waited for a response.

LANDON Landon didn’t know what to say. Of course he wanted to kiss Loren but there was still so much they needed to talk about and things between them were still up in the air. He was scared that kissing his ex would ruin the little progress he’d made in the past few weeks. But what if this was his last chance? So he bit his lip and after little consideration nodded his head. He was still hurt and unsure about so many things but he couldn’t say no. Landon leaned in and brushed their lips together.

Loren. Loren was honestly scared Landon would turn him down. But once their lips were together he felt his heart sink. His lips melting right into Landons as if nothing between them had ever changed. He kissed him slowly and intimately, savoring each of his lips one at a time with his own. His hands moving to clench around his ex’s face as if he needed to hold him in that moment. God he missed this, he didn’t want it to ever end.

LANDON It almost felt the same like it was before everything went wrong. Like nothing had changed when in reality everything had changed. For those few seconds while they were kissing it was like they were still together and in love, planning their future together but the truth was constantly at the back of his head, a clear reminder that this couldn’t last forever. Landon put his hand on the one on his face, wanting it to last as long as possible. When they pulled back, he rested his head against Loren’s, breathing heavily.

Loren. Loren kissed him for as long as he could before Landon pulled away. His head resting against his ex’s as they both breathed heavily and he kept his eyes closed. He was wrapped up in the moment as he spread his fingers against Landons face to hold onto his hand in reverse. “Please don’t stop” he whispered against his ex’s lips. A soft begging behind his tone as he opened his eyes to look at the man before him. “Please.”

LANDON Landon wanted so badly to listen to Loren’s request. He wanted to lean in and kiss him again until they could forget everything that had happened and move on with their lives as they were doing before. “We shouldn’t do this”, he whispered. “Not like this.”

Loren. Hearing Landons words hurt, and it showed in his eyes. But he nodded anyway, he knew he was right. “I just... you’re right here” his voice broke. He didn’t wanna let go, not again. It was too painful. “You’re right though. I know you’re right. But I just...” He couldn’t even finish his sentence before he was kissing Landon again. This time a bit shorter but definitely just as passionately. “I’m sorry” he whispered as he pulled away. Keeping his eyes closed as he rested his head to his ex’s once again.

LANDON Landon knew he was hurting the other boy but he couldn’t see any other way. They could keep kissing and ignoring any repercussions that could come their way, it’s what they both wanted to do. But Landon needed to be responsible. If they fell back into this without properly talking things out and making decisions they’d just end up arguing again in the future. And yet Landon didn’t stop his ex when he leaned in for another kiss. This was torture. He smiled broken my once they broke up again and he sighed. “I’m not saying never but...don’t you think we should really talk about it first?”

Loren. He kept his eyes closed as he nodded against his ex’s forehead. Soon lifting his head to look directly into his eyes again. “We should.. I know” he said. Trying to keep himself together. It was so hard for Loren, because even though he was the one to break them up. His feelings had never changed. He just wanted to protect him and he did what he had to in order to do so. “So... what.. what should we talk about? I feel like I’ve said so much. I wanna hear how you feel.” He kept holding onto Landons hand, afraid if he let go he’d be gone. But he tried to be as responsible as possible. If not for Landon or himself, at least for Elle.

LANDON Now that it was his turn to talk Landon wasn’t sure what he was even going to say. He didn’t feel like he was ready to let Loren into his life again even though he understood his reasons for doing what he did a little better now. At the same time he didn’t want to let him go because his feelings for his ex were still real. He wasn’t sure how he was going to word all this but he needed to try. Loren deserved the truth. “I get why you did what you did. Don’t get me wrong, I still thing there was another way but I do understand. That doesn’t make things any easier though. Giving us a try...it was already a risk the first time because of what I’ve been through before and Elle. Now ini feel like that risk has increased ten fold”, he admitted. “I don’t want to lose you but I don’t think I’m ready for things to go on the same way. I mean...you were about to meet Elle and now...I’m not ready for that anymore.” Landon wasn’t sure he was making any sense but at least he was talking about it. That had to be a start.

Loren. The words that came from Landons lips definitely stung. He couldn’t really understand how it was so easy for his ex to just back up. Or how he could feel like the risk had increased. But he wasn’t going to question it. Landon has every right to feel the way he did. Just as Loren did when he broke up with him in the first place. It just hurt him so much, because he felt like he went through it all just to be with Landon, and now he couldn’t. “I understand” he nodded. Letting go of his hand and pushing his hair back from his face. Of course he didn’t really understand. He was one of those guys that strongly believed if you loved someone you should just love them. But maybe that’s how he ended up in Jaces bed as well. “I just don’t want to hurt you anymore Landon. I don’t know what you want... but I can leave you alone to figure it out. I’m sorry I made things so hard for you. But I meant it when I said you deserve to be loved, and that you are the best thing that ever happened to me. I’ll never forget that.” Oh boy, here came the tears again. He was just a mess.

LANDON Loren said he understood but did he really? He looked like Landon had crushed his hopes and dreams so maybe they weren’t really on the same page. It was times like these that Landon was so jealous of people who just did whatever they felt like at the moment without having to think about a million things first. People without responsibilities. “Wait, what? No, I...I didn’t say I want you to leave me alone.” What was he saying though? Landon wasn’t sure but that definitely wasn’t it. “I guess what I’m saying is that I want to take it slow. And I understand if that’s not something you can do but thats my condition. If you want to give this...us...another try, we have to take things slow. And I don’t want to involve Elle. Not right now and not until I’m sure she’s not going to get hurt as a result of it.”

Loren. It was pretty obvious Loren was an emotional wreck. He was crying off an on and his words were all over the place. No wonder he couldn’t understand anything. He just wanted to held. “Take it slow how!” he asked. “You wanna see other people? You wanna be friends? I’m not sure what you’re trying to say.” The only part of anything that made sense to him was the protection of Elle. He didn’t want that baby hurt, and he certainly didn’t want to be introduced as someone who might leave. “I just... whatever you want Landon. I’m right here and I’m still very much in love with you. I just want you to be happy.”

LANDON Landon winced at the mention of seeing other people but he tried not to hide it. He didn’t want to seem like a jealous person even though at this point anyone who knew him knew he was. “No”, he rushed to explain but then figured Loren said that because it could be something he’s interested in doing. “Unless that’s what you want?” He wasn’t sure of anything anymore. “I just meant taking it slow Loren. Like...not rush into things and see how it goes? Does that make sense?” At least Loren didn’t seem to be against not involving Elle since that was definitely something Landon wouldn’t compromise on. He didn’t think he even could. Considering what Harry thought of his ex, he could imagine him giving his go ahead for Loren to meet Elle any time soon.

Loren. Loren was just confused, and the expression on his face showed it. “So.. like date? But not be together?” he asked trying to clarify what Landon was trying to say. “....and not date anyone else?” He was sure his questions were coming off out of context. Especially after his exchange with Jace in the gc. But he really just wanted to be clear. “I mean, I have been seeing Jace, dating. I guess. But, you’re the one I’m in love with. Which I guess you want me to stop saying?” Loren scrunched his face a bit and shrugged his shoulders. “I just.. I don’t know if I can go backwards if that’s what your asking. I can’t pretend like I don’t already love you.”

LANDON At this point they were probably both confused and just going around in circles. Landon knew it was mostly his fault because he was at a point where he wasn’t even sure of what he wanted. He was about to say just that bit Loren’s words made him pause. “Wait...I thought you said you’re just good friends who love each other in a friendly way”, he said, narrowing his eyes at the other boy. “But now you’re saying you’re dating. I can’t believe you were upset with me for hooking up with someone other than Roman when you’re literally already dating someone.” He knew something was going on between Loren and Jace, it was pretty obvious on the group chat. And he knew for a fact that it wasn’t just about him being jealous because even Aaron saw it. Thinking something and having it confirmed were two very different things. “I guess what I was suggesting was dating and see where that takes us but considering you’re already doing that with Jace, I guess that’s not very original of me.” Landon almost wanted to ignore his ex saying he loved him, especially after him saying he was seeing Jace but it’s not like he could ignore something like that or, at least, he didn’t feel like he could. “I just don’t know what you expect me to say to that.”

Loren. “Yeah; were good friends who went on one date” he tried to clarify. “It’s not like... wait... you hooked up with someone other than Roman?” he asked. Pulling his bottom lip between his teeth to keep from saying anything else until Landon spoke. “I wasn’t upset with you either way. Yeah, jealous. But I wouldn’t be upset with you. We’re not together remember? I’m just trying to figure out if you even want to be together?” They were going round in circles and it was clear that Landon wasn’t really sure what he wanted. But Loren wasn’t really sure he just wanted to sit around loner waiting for him to figure it out. “Well, honestly. I expect you to say it back. You say you do have those feelings and get mad when I say you don’t. But you can’t even say it when it counts the most. Maybe I just need some validation Landon. Even if it is just once.”

LANDON Landon was so sure that he mentioned it to Loren at some point in their texts. “Yeah, I told you about it. Not in detail but I mentioned it and you got upset and asked me why I was surprised you didn’t believe I loved you since I hooked up with someone else.” Loren was making everything sound a lot easier than it actually was. He loved him but what difference was saying it right now going to make? That wasn’t taking it slow and Landon was scared. He was so close to saying it the last time and then Loren broke up with him. What if that happened again? Landon wasn’t sure he could take it if it did. But he was also so tired of his ex implying he didn’t love him when it was almost all he could think about since his return. He was barely getting any sleep at all because thoughts of what he was going to do were waking him up at four in the morning. “Cut me some slack Loren, seriously. You always played the act of being so understanding and telling me you were more than willing to wait for me to be ready to say it then threw it back in my face. I get that you did what you thought was right but that doesn’t mean I can just forget what you said”, he snapped then took a breath to calm himself down. “I love you. Is that what you wanted to hear? I do. But it’s going to take time for me to trust you again.”

Loren. “I don’t remember you saying anything. You told me you were with Roman but, I didn’t know about anyone else. Who was it?” Did he really wanna know! Probably not. But he didn’t wanna be all buddy buddy with the person either. He didn’t mean to come off harsh with any of his words, but his jealous was clear as day. “I am understanding, Landon. I’m trying to be right now as well. But after what I did, I just needed to know it wasn’t for nothing. That you did still love me. It doesn’t matter though, I felt you did. I just...” he shook his head and dropped his head into his hands. Landon was snapping at him and now he says it? “That’s not what I wanted Landon” he teared up again. “I don’t want it to be forced. I just wanted assurance. I wanted to know I wasn’t a fucking fool for waiting or for doing what I did to be with you. I want to be with you, I do. So fucking bad. You’re all I think about and yeah... I went on a date with Jace. He picked me up when I was so broken. But he knows how I feel about you and he knows I want you. The question is do you want me? Do you want only me? And are we going to be able to move past this?”

LANDON Landon wasn't sure he even wanted to tell him. Not because it was some big secret but because it didn't mean anything. They were both going through some sort of breakup and feeling sad about it so at the time it felt only natural to help each other through it. But he knew not saying who it was would only make Loren suspicious. "It was Claudia. We were hanging out together and we were both kind of sad so it just...happened", he shrugged. Landon shook his head, looking helpless. He wasn't sure he could Loren the answers he wanted but he was going to try. "You weren't a fool for waiting. I was going to tell you that I loved you, I was just trying to find the right moment. Was going to say it at the wedding reception but then we both started drinking and I didn't feel like it was the right time. Then everything else happened and...well, you know the rest. Then why go on a date in the first place?" It was moments like these that made Landon realise that hookups and meaningless relationships weren't for him, no matter how much he might have said so to the people close to him after the breakup. Roman was right when he said it was just the hurt feelings talking. He could never date someone knowing they were in love with someone else and nothing could come out of it. And even though Loren was trying to convince him otherwise, this was only reminding him of Aaron's words to him just a few hours before. It sounds like he's playing you. I’m a huge bullshitter as you know. And other bullshitters can see when other people are bullshitting. Landon hadn't wanted to believe it, but now he wasn't so sure. "I want you and I love you, but that's the only thing I'm sure of. That's why I asked if we could maybe take things slow."

Loren. Loren just sat quiet listening to Landon speak. The words hurt, but he couldn’t do anything about it. They were broke up, and he did the same thing with Jace. They were both hurt, and they were both lonely. It was only human to want to find comfort. No matter where or who it came from. “I’m sorry I ruined everything” he said simply. He was at his hearts end. There wasn’t much more he could say about anything, and he was still just as broken as he was when he first walked through the door. Loren definitely had his fair share of meaningless relationship but, Landon wasn’t like that. Landon was the first person he fell for as hard as he did, and now it was just tarnished. It was all his own fault too, which he expected would happen if they ever did end up in this place. It was always his fault. “If you want me to stop seeing Jace I’ll do it” he said simply. He didn’t want to lose Jaces friendship, but Landon was his heart. “I just want you. I’ve always wanted you. That’s not gonna change any time soon.” He grabbed Landons hand again and sighed deeply. “But if you think that just dating and dating around is easier for you. You can do that. I just wanna do whatever you wanna do. You just need to tell me okay?”

LANDON “You don’t have to apologise. What’s done is done and there’s no going back now. We just have to learn to move on”, he shrugged. Did he wish he could go back in time and change things? Of course he did, but that was the story of his life. When he was twenty he wished he could go back and change how things ended with Roman, at twenty two he wanted to go back and change the accident that ruined his life...it was useless wishing for something that could never happen. The sooner he dealt with what reality, the better and Landon had to learn that the hard way. “It’s not about wanting you to stop seeing him. You guys work at the same theater, obviously you’re going to bump into each other. He’s your friend. I just want to know if there’s anything more than that and I want you to be honest. I’m not talking about hook ups or dates but feelings, you know.” Landon nodded in understanding. He didn’t feel ready and there were so many things he was still unsure of but he wasn’t ready to let Loren go, even after everything. “How about we start over? Go on a date, see how it goes and...go from there.”

Loren. Loren nodded his head to Landons words. It was all finally coming together. They both wished they could go back and fix things but Landons suggestion of starting over was the only real way to do that. “Okay, that makes sense” he said softly. “I want us to start over too. Clean slate. I think it’s the best solution to all of this. But can we both please agree to not throw any of this into each other’s faces? Like you said, what’s done is done. I’ll wait for you. I said I would and I meant it. I just got scared I was loosing you and I really don’t want to Landon. I do love you. But I don’t want you to feel pressured saying that either. I know now, and I want you to know it’s okay if you need more time to say it again. I’m here.” A small smile spread across his lips at his ex’s next words and he nodded again. “I’d love to go on a date with you. I’d love that very much actually.”

LANDON Landon couldn’t agree more. After all this was the reason why it took so long for him and Harry to work things out and why they kept getting into arguments. Both of them were bringing up things from the past and throwing it in each other’s faces. It only started getting better once they left the past where it belongs. Maybe it could be the same for him and Loren but they wouldn’t know unless they tried. “That’s fair and you’re right. This is going to end up in failure before we even try if we start bringing up the past every time we don’t like something. We just have to talk about things, we’re adults after all.” Beyond all odds, it seemed like they came to an agreement and we’re going to give it another try. It was much more than Landon was expecting when he first agreed to meet his ex for coffee. “Thank you”, he smiled, referring to so many things. To him accepting his terms, and listening to what he had to say. To agreeing to give them another chance.

Loren. “I just don’t wanna lose you Landon. You mean so much to me and even if things can’t be the same I want you in my life.” Loren was the type of person that once he loved you he never really stopped. He just wanted Landon to be happy again. That’s what mattered most to him now. “We are adults, and I love taking to you. That’s one of our strong qualities usually” he nodded. “But you don’t have to thank me. Im here for you always. I just don’t want to do anything you aren’t comfortable with.” Loren knew that was a lot to ask seeing how he had been seeing Jace. But if Landon wanted him to go slow so would he. Which needless to say was hard for Loren because he already felt so strongly.

#chats:landon #chats:discord #ft.landon #ft.jace #ft.aaron #ft.claudia #ft.roman #ft.harry #tw:abuse #tw.death threat #tw:domination #{Landon Davies;; he's got eyes of the bluest skies as if they thought of rain}

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