#from the horse's mouth

[sleepy-gardevoir]

march 21, 2023 - tuesday week 3

tuesday is my busiest day because all of my classes and all of my extracurriculars meet, but i think i've got everything taken care of so i can go to sleep right when i get back to the room!

i did some annotations on the research paper that i'm summarizing for research rotation, and we had a lecture on how to properly do a research proposal. it sounded really daunting but i'm kind of excited to work more on what i think i want to do for the independent research section of the class!

i also transferred my anatomy notes. we finished our first section (basics of animal form and function) yesterday and started our animal nutrition unit! it's a really interesting class, and iirc we're actually starting with wet labs tomorrow!

song of the day: father by the front bottoms

[jinxie-117]

rip ludwig the holy blade. you would have LOVED knightcore so much

[un-confined-pole]

Happy One Year Birthday to this blog!!! Wow. I can't believe it now has been one year since I first made this account. Time flies so fast! Thank you to all the friends who have support me of over the year! And I hope the next year is as good as the last one and maybe even better. Which would be even cooler! Generally I say just thank you for being my friends :). Take care.

[jinxie-117]

so. did i read this well comic series in one sitting? yeah…..

The Byrgenwerth Scholars travel to the Fishing Hamlet, 1825.

Comic series here

[rainbowsuitcase]

I recently watched Tombstone, so.

Ice whose grandparents own a ranch and when he was younger, he spent every summer there, no matter how much his dad didn't like it. And maybe he doesn't have as much time when he gets older, but he still knows his way around the place, knows how everything works and where he can help.

Maybe he even has a horse that's half his, that was born in the spring when he was ten and he spent the whole summer that year playing around with it and his granparents include updates on it in every letter they send when he's on duty.

It's practically a second home to him, even if he doesn't talk about it much, so when he brings up introducing Mav to his grandparents, Mav isn't quite sure what to expect.

It's certainly not Ice driving off the highway and on a dirtroad, nothing but fields for miles, then a fence with a herd of cows behind it that they follow all the way through a ranch gate.

It's certainly not an older man in a cowboy hat and a plaid shirt coming out of the barn that smiles wide when Ice gets out of the car, or Ice himself grinning more than Mav has probably ever seen him.

"Tommy!" The old man calls out, affection clear in his tone as he starts walking towards them. "And here I was thinkin' ya wouldn't make it this year!"

But perhaps the biggest surprise is the twang that comes out of Ice's mouth. "I wouldn't miss this for nothin', grandpa! Ain't no way!"

[arovalentines]

time to make your choice only you can be the one

[c-sand]

there's nothing like watching the bethyl crew rejoice. wild to roll in a w, ten years later. always a pleasure, thank you norman 😌🤭

[jinxie-117]

this is founded in literally nothing but i've always imagined ludwig as the one that put down laurence. his transformation in my mind is something that he knew was inevitable but attempted to resist anyway, so the higher ranks of the church (most likely including ludwig, who he entrusted the role of first church hunter to) knew that his transformation was coming and were prepared for it. being killed by ludwig as the hunter with the highest rank in the church would have been, ceremonially at least, the most 'humane' way to put down the vicar of the healing church. also maybe i like this concept most because potential for holyvicar angst but

i don't really take any issue with the brador killed laurence hc though. it makes sense for the most part and gives more interest and connection to the story for poor old brador (plus you've got a lot more evidence than i do). gotta love that drip though

Did Brador kill Laurence or someone else?

Okay so I realised that I never had a coherent reference, so here

It is kind of visible in the game, but it is true that Old Brador does have unique head piece variant that is not accessble for the players by normal means without datamining (similarly to Arianna's pregnant state dress, Eileen's set variant torn by beast claws, Fauxsefka's barefoot leg piece etc)! And the difference here, is one horn being broken!

Brador secluded himself in the cell and according to him we are the first person he meets physically past that time! It is not certain how exactly he died, only that it likely happened when he was old (and killed the Cleric Beast in his middle-age (?) state). If his words are any indication, it isn't likely that the horn got damaged in the battle or something like that! But at the same time, we meet Bradord in the Nightmare Realm, so he might in reality refer to just his stay here.

However, an interesting bit is that suggests that one horn might have gotten ruined with the time; in Chalice Dungeons, beast-like Messengers show horns developing asymmetrically!

Coincidentally, they depict the same horn that Brador has broken as smaller one!

Brador's beast hyde is specifically that of a Cleric Beast, which Laurence was the first precedent of, so what we know for certain is that Brador could not have had his hyde while Laurence was still alive! The Cleric Beast that he had to kill had to be either Laurence himself, or some Cleric Beast that came after Laurence's deasth!

Laurence's beastly skull does have a hole in itself, and no traces of antlers, so this is actually a reasonable assumption that the scalp might be his! The model of headless Bloodletting Beast is drastically different, so I think it is safe to assume that they either never planned that implication or retconned it when DLC was finished! It lacks the asymmetrically larger left arm and has a tail, for one + from the version that does still have a head we can see this type of beasts lacks the antlers (the trademark of Cleric Beasts), let alone very different type of skull

(Models from this ( x ) video by Sinclair Lore) Ok ok sorry for making ya'll look at Laurence's ass I just need to show that in model he has no tail, and with the fur variant he has only the tiniest tuft of fur

On the other hand, only so many things could be blamed on them basically reusing Cleric Beast model for Laurence just with fire textures, as they're not entirely identical like I thought before! In fact, there is a potential evidence against linking him to Brador's hyde as the horns are different:

Not only Laurence has one horn broken when the hyde Brador is wearing had both horns whole at the moment of the murder, but also it is the different horn; left one rather than the right one!

Brador is wearing clothing that is almost identical to male Black Church set, who are the lower-ranking members of the Healing Church, whereas his headpiece says that the person he killed was his friend. Now, it is fair to assume that maybe someone from lower ranks was, in fact, not 'friends' with Laurence, who was THE head of the Healing Church!

According to Alfred's dialogue we can further confirm that Healing Church leaders are so secretive that they do not give the full lore even to their own lower-ranking personnel, and Brador was only given his bell after the murder of that Cleric Beast!

At the same time, Brador uses the Frenzy-Inducing Bloodletter, not unlike Black Church Servants with their crucifixes that cause Frenzy. Meanwhile, White Church Servants rely on the weapons that, on the contrary, are sensitive to high Insight: when you have 15 Insight or more, their lanters become covered with eyes and their scythes emit blue Arcane glow! Insight-sensitive weapons align with.. well, the bell that only someone aware of the Fishing Hamlet secret could hear.

So far, the evidence points more towards Brador having been a more or less lower-ranking member of the Healing Church, that one time killed his (higher-ranking?) cleric friend, not Laurence, but by effect learned too much about the Healing Church's secrets that were NOT meant for him, and obligated to keep them safe. It would align with his philosophy of some things "better left unknown", as if he regrets having learned all this, as well as with Laurence's horns not being true to his beast hyde scalp.

.....and yet, at the same time, I would not put it past Laurence to be friends with someone from lower rank, or maybe Brador's lower rank was merely a cover? Even his horns situation could be blamed on some life still yet residing in his scalp, and thus, the antlers attached to it still grow and crumble on their own. In other words, I do not have a strong point towards this or that version. Question isn't answered, but maybe some observations are helpful to choose one on your own!

[princelancey]

Reporter: no homo

Lance: no, homo 😊

[skitskatdacat63]

Big moment for me, actually!

[sleepy-gardevoir]

november 28, 2023 - tuesday week 1

going to try to return to posting here! unfortunately i'm not doing research this quarter, so we won't have any fun stories there, but i have four rather intense chemistry classes and am starting work at my school's brand new writing center, so there will be plenty of stuff to talk about regardless!

i don't have too much homework yet and have wednesdays off this whole term, so it's still smooth sailing. i did buy my first energy drink today, though, and i think i'll have to make a habit of that since i start at 8am most days and nearly fall asleep in my first class if i didn't get a solid 8 hours of sleep (which happens... never). i was pleasantly surprised by how good it tasted LOL

i've got a heavy dose of extracurriculars tonight - wish me luck!

song of the day: beware - deftones

[jinxie-117]

yeah so i finally put out something new again

Holyvicar bullshit this time! Featuring my random Ludwig + Simon + Brador friend group headcanons! But there will be a second chapter and I will resume my regular duties as the Micolaurence brainrot victim so look out for that. I haven't published anything in yonks but hey now we're here. When will chapter 2 be released? Straight up releasing it? Well. Let's justr say. I have exams rn so you have to wait

[un-confined-pole]

I do not even know why I am such a fan of TV Girl. I think the way the background sounds is very fascinating beautiful but in the way that a metal rod is. Most of the time, I am not pay attention to the words that they are saying XD!

- W.

[objectum-posic-survey]

Objectum/POSIC Community Survey 2024

I'm running a survey of the Objectum/POSIC communities! It's running until May 1st 2024. This is born from my own curiosity, inspired by the Furry Survey demographics polls. The questions pertain to things like gender identity, orientation, forms of attraction, and objects of attraction. Fictos and alterhumans are encouraged to respond! being objectum or POSIC is not a requirement to submit a response

the only required questions are about the particular objectum/objectophile/POSIC terms you identify with and how old you are. again, this survey closes on May 1st!

[rainbow-roomies]

When all of the clocks have run down

All over the world

For as long as the trees throw down blossoms and leaves

We'll be the lovers that never were

For as long as the sun shines out of somebody's ass

I believe in you baby, so don't tell me lies

I know there will be a parade of unpainted dreams

Paul McCartney - The Lovers That Never Were

[zetterbabe]

chucky on the upcoming series (06.04.24)