#fr who do i have to go to get put down like a lame horse. haha whatttt who said that

[downfour]

i hateeeeee making plans significantly in advance (the only way i like plans to be made. lmfao.) because I feel so much worse about not wanting to follow through on them man

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Wednesday 25 July 1838

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A- had been much bit and had a very bad night – I had slept well spite of fleas, and the noise from the kitchen of all the guides and people when we went to bed, and felt quite in walking order – Charles came up to know what was to be done – the permit for the horses to go into Spain must be made out in my name for if any accident happened so that they did not return – if they died or were lamed so that they could not or did not come back I should have to pay to government (the French) 500fr. a piece penalty and besides this the value of the horses = about 400fr. a piece – said I would rather bring the animals back piece-meal than pay this sum – A- did not seem very up about going to Spain – should not be sorry if we returned home – did not know how she could bear another hard day – 6 hours to Bouchero + 6 to the village of Penticouse – or 3 Charles says (but it would be more) to Torla – and if A- could sleep no better in Spain than here what would become of us? after a few moments’ thought I determined to return home after we had seen the cirque, and gave the necessary orders – to give A- time for breakfast etc. ordered the horses to be ready at 9 – Dare not run risks with A- determine at 6 25 to return home ��� breakfast over at 7 20 – then went down to Charles – he was stuffing A-‘s saddle with hay – it had rather galled her horse – 5 or 6 dounaniers about – the permit for Spain not being made out, one of the douaniers came to me to ask about it – I repeated what Charles had told me, and said I would not run the risk of having so much to pay – the man said Charles had misunderstood – explanation ensured – the Captain (who lines at Argèles but was here on this occasion) came – it seemed he really had said to Charles what Charles reported but owned that if I brought back the skins of the

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 horses, or anything to verifier them, I should not have to pay these heavy penalties – Charles had been frightened by the captains’ telling him he was not my servant, and had better take care of himself for he the captain knew him – shewed my passport – explained – said I could take care of Charles in Spain, but if anything was wanting it was here – it was a passport to Charles as a French man from his own government – on reading over my passport and hearing what I had said, the captain was very civil – said no more about the impudence of going – allowed that Charles would be quite safe – seemed to think I had little to fear about the horses – said the pont de Bouchero was very good – would willingly give me a permit, and, in short, was right – I saw there had been something the matter – guessed that the captain had mistaken me for some political employé Carlist or what not and was soon amused to hear the whole history from Charles – who said that the captain and all his douaniers had staid here all night, and were determined to stay till they saw me off somewhere – they had all assembled on my return last night, and were all assembled this morning – the captain had told Charles I was a person going about everywhere and he Charles had better mind what he was doing and take care of himself – but that now the captain had said that I might go where I liked – that I talked very well – knew very well what I was about – understand travelling – understand everything and in fact that the captain was a little sorry for what he said – for I had explained everything très bien – in fact I now asked A- once more if she would like to go to Torla – no! perhaps we had better go home - .:. without more ado, I hastened the getting ready the horses, and we were off to the cirque at 8 20 – A- rode into the cirque almost up to the cascade – I walked all the way except for 5 or 6 minutes in the cirque where I dismounted again (feeling chill) and put on my tartan cloak and got as near the cascade as the spray made convenient – we had taken about 2 hours or more to get to the cascade – then returned to a great mass of rock where A- ate the yolks of 2 hardboiled eggs giving the whites to the guides, and I ate one egg (of the 5 taken from Gèdre) gave A- the remaining ½ of our little phial of vin muscat de Frontignan – gave the guides my metal cup full of brandy and water took a very little very weak myself and had all drunk A-‘s health and drunk to the beautiful cascade and A- began to sketch, I to examine stones and the guides lay down on the rock at a little distance at 11 20 – very fine day – the cirque and cascade very fine – the amphitheatre above the cirque by fits clouded and clear – 3 gentlemen from Cautertz [Cauterets], who had slept at Gavarnie, went to the brêche de Roland this morning – would not see much – they would be too late for the clear – for even we had only seen clear for a few minutes at first the amphitheatre i.e. the white striped gradins and glaciers and snow above the cirque, and the [town] de Marboré the brêche etc. – 2 gentlemen  from Barèges came while we were at the cirque and in returning we met several parties – all too late – A- began sketching at 11 20 and ended at 12 5 and then we set off back again she walking a considerable way, and I above ¾ of the way back to the Inn where we arrived at 1 ¾ having stopt repeatedly to take different peeps at the cirque and cascade – all above hid cut off by one straight line of cloud – Paid all – the daughter of the house très contente to whom I again gave a fr. for herself besides ./50 for la fille and 8/. the charge to which I made no objection -  poor woman! she said

found London pride at the cirque

I was raisonable – très brave – she wished all were like me – a French count himself + 11 from St. Sauveur whom she had told to give what he pleased had given fr. for an omelette of 16 eggs, an onion soup which took 2 eggs (eggs a sol a piece) and six bottles of wine at ./50 besides bread etc. – off from Gavarnie at 2 – I dismounted just over the bridge at the cascade and meant to have walked home but for the rain which came on near (before) Pragnières – A- had walked with me ¼ hour and remounted just before going down into Gèdre – we both put on our cloaks (I my Charles cape 1st time) at 4 5 and I mounted –in about 10 minutes or ¼ hour between the Pont [Daroucate] and de Sia, it was fair and I had just begun to walk again and let Charles mount when a few drops more came and I re-cloacked and remounted and rode the rest of the way home  the rain continued more or less all the way having come on pretty smartly for the last 10 minutes – arrived at 5 35 – I sat down to read the 2 last papers come this morning and yesterday and Josephine gave me a letter from Lady Stuart 2 1/2pp. very kind letter – no date – but evidently from Richmond park – she herself not ill but not well – all the rest well – Charlotte (Lady Canning) had looked beautiful at the coronation – dinner – a very good one, at 6 ¾ to 7 40 and came to my room and sat reading this mornings’ paper of the 21st instant till 8 ¾ - A- would not repeat what she had promised   when I asked her this morning at the cirque asked her here   she said I had told her  she had broken her promise how queer she is  very fine day F66° now at 8 50 pm then till 9 10 reading the paper that came yesterday – as we left Gavarnie this morning – 2 or 3 English ladies at the door who had 2 chaises à porteur  Charles told me afterwards he had overhead the men say they would not carry them any farther – as they were only ladies said Charles they would be obliged to walk to the cirque or come away without seeing it at all – wished I had know a few minutes sooner – i.e. before we came away, and I would have helped them willingly – why did they not apply to us?