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It was nice while it lasted
My (now ex) best friend just ended our four year friendship, said she didn't see any future in it because we weren't chatting as much as we used to. She was my best friend, but i wasn't hers. I probably haven't been for a while. My birthday is this sunday and I wished she hadn't done this just two days before my birthday. I need comfort, so here is a short Logan drabbleâĄ
Pairing: Logan Howlett x mutant!reader
Wordcount: 1k-ish, maybe a bit less
Warnings: english isn't my first language, none, just fluff, and a bit angst, friends to lovers, implied chubby reader
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You sniffled quietly as you looked down at your bright phone screen. I'd like to break off contact. You read it over and over again. You had hoped you would never have to see these words, not with her. You were so stupid to think that your friendship would get repaired somehow.
You lived at the x men mansion, she lived far away in another city. So meeting each other was rare. The first time you met, she slept over in the mansion. Everyone liked her and you both had a great time. You would have done everything to get that back, that time, these moments when everything seemed like it was just how it was supposed to be.
After she finally found a job after searching for months, everything changed. She didn't answer your texts anymore, only if you were lucky. You tried to reach for her, tried to talk to her. But her replies were sparse and often dry. Said it was because she didn't know how to answer your texts and that she was so tired every day from work.
You tried to be understanding, tried to reassure her that it was alright. But when you saw pics of another girl on her instagram and later some random guy that turned out to be her new boyfriend, you felt it. That ache. You weren't her best friend any more. She could easily live without you. You were the only one suffering. You needed her, but she didn't need you.
You sat on your bed, wiping your tears. Why were you so damn stupid, you should have seen it coming. You were no ones favourite, you never have been. You weren't the number one for anybody, no one would chose you in a room full of people. You knew that, and that hurt.
Suddenly, the door to your room opened. It was Logan, he had a plate loaded with your favourite food in hand. He wasn't looking at you yet. "I got you some food, bub. Why weren't you down for dinner-" he started to ask but as he lifted his head and saw your tear stained face, his brows knitted together on his handsome face and he strided over to you with purpose, putting the plate on your beside table. "What's going on, bub?" He asked in the softest voice he could muster.
Your voice was hoarse and you just couldn't get a word out. He climbed into bed with you, sitting next to you and wrapping one arm around your shoulder to pull you against his side, his head on top of yours as he let you cry and shake in his arms. He wore that grey oversized sweater with nothing underneath. The fabric was so soft under your cheek. And so warm, smelling like him. You shoved your unrequited feelings aside, trying to calm your racing heart as he hugged you.
As Logan let you sob, his gaze shifted to your phone that laid abandoned on the sheets. I'd like to break off contact. He read the name over the chat and it dawned on him. He didn't need more information to know exactly what happened. You had always talked about your best friend and he had even met her one time. She was decent back then, but you would always come to him to vent when your best friend did something that hurt you. He had always told you to drop her, that she wasn't good for you, that you had so many friends and people that actually loved you around you every day. With people he meant himself. He loved you so much but never spoke up.
There was a time where he thought you and your best friend were together. Back then you'd get that question a lot because you were just that close. He was a bit salty about it and secretly hoped you would break up. When he found out you weren't actually together, he was awfully happy about it, a kick in his step.
As bad as it sounded, he was glad that the horror was finally over. He had witnessed your mental health worsen every time you beat yourself up over your best friend. He was frustrated when you blamed everything on yourself and wouldnât see how bad she was for you. Still, he understood your tears. There had been a time where she really was your best friend and you loved her, you could tell her anything back then. And that was the version of her that you missed, the version you still held onto.
"I know this sounds rough, but you are better off without her" he mumbled against your temple, planting an experimental kiss there. As you didn't back away, he saw it as an invitation to leave his lips pressed against the side of your head. You hiccuped, nuzzling even further into him. "Why...why does it always happen to me? Why can't I keep friends, why do I always get so attached when I am worth nothing for the other person?" you questioned, voice thick from the tears. "All I want is to be loved by someone just as much as I love them" you muttered, swallowing the lump in your throat, but it didn't seem to budge.
He loved you. He loved you like you loved him. He did, so badly. But both of you didn't know. And it was eating you up inside.
You pulled back to look into his eyes "Am I unloveable, Logan? Don't lie to make me feel better" you asked him. You always told you that you couldn't be loved. But slowly you really started to believe it. I mean, who could possibly love someone like you? You were chubby, pretty introverted and didn't dress like the average. You had been bullied all your life for your looks, your personality and your mutation. The fat funny friend is who you were, the one that got asked out as a joke and was told, that they couldn't imagine you in a relationship. It was something you never truly learned to live with. You tried to hold onto the illusion that was love, hoped that one day it would find you like in the sappy romance movies you watched. You doubted it.
Your question hit Logan like a ton of bricks. "Unloveable? Are you even hearing yourself?" He asked and you had never seen him this shocked. You couldn't understand why. You had expected him to agree with you, allthough you never wanted to hear that from him.
Ever so gently, he held your soft face in his hands, wiping your tears away with his strong thumb. "You are the most easiest person to love, trust me on that"
Unbelieving, you shook your head. "I said don't lie-" you started but he shushed you quickly, your head secure in his grip as he forced you to look at him. "Look into my eyes and tell me that I am lying. Come on. Say it" he urged you on, his gaze intense and burning that it took your breath away, silencing any words you might have had. Even though you didn't correct him, he knew you weren't believing him.
He sighed, it would take a while to get all these insecurities out of your head. And your heart. But you were worth that effort.
"Let me show you just how much I love you" he mumbled before your heart threatened to jump out of your chest as his lips landed on yours. It was everything you had ever hoped it would be and you could almost not believe that this was real, that you weren't dreaming.
Pulling away, more tears spilled over your cheeks and Logan panicked. "Oh- shit, I'm sorry, that wasn't right of me" he coughed, his neck burning red in embarrassement. He was taking advantage of you, wasnât he?
But before he could slide off your bed, you pulled at his sleeve. "No, no, it was alright. You couldn't have reacted any better" you giggled through your tears. His breath hitched as you zipped down his hoodie to snuggle against his warm, bare chest. You could feel his heartbeat quicken underneath your ear, though Logan quickly eased against the contact.
He zipped his hoodie back up behind you, keeping you close to him as you cuddled and kissed on your bed with this newfound information of you both having pinned for each other for years. You felt warm and safe and for the first time in a while, you felt like everything would be okay.
As long as he was with you.
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This was painful to write and incredibly personal in some aspects. I know that this probably won't gain as much attention because of that, as it may not be relatable for most.
But still, if you are going through something similiar, you aren't alone. There are many people that struggle, that feel this way about themselves. And while knowing that this doesn't really sooth the ache, it will get better. One day. I hope.
#logan howlett x reader#x men#hugh jackman#logan x reader#wolverine x reader#x reader#logan wolverine#logan howlett#marvel#mcu#marvel cinematic universe#one shot#logan howlett fluff#fluff#drabble#angst#comfort#i love him
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How Task Force 141 would react to you breaking up with them because of their job:
Captain Price:
Heâd take the news like a hit to the chest even though heâd nod as if heâd already accepted it.
The words would catch in his throat but heâd steady himself, holding onto every last thread of composure as he listened, eyes cast down on the space between you.
''I canât blame you.'' He'd murmur, forcing a small, understanding smile. ''Not for this.''
The sadness in his blue eyes would betray him, though, no amount of practice could keep that pain out.
''Just⊠if you ever change your mind, you know where to find me.'' His hand would linger beside yours, close but never quite reaching.
As you walked away, he wouldnât move, not for a long while.
He would sit in the dark later that night, staring at the door, almost waiting for you to come back but deep down, he knew you wouldnât.
Later, when he finally got into bed, heâd let the thought of you be his last and the memory of your smile his only comfort. Heâd never say it aloud but part of him was already thinking about retiring.
Maybe this was it, a sign to leave it all behind, to make this mission his last and if he made it back? Heâd come straight to your door, ready to give it one more try, no matter how slim the chance.
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick:
When you told him, his face would twist with disbelief, hurt, anger all colliding into a storm he couldnât contain.
''You knew who I was..'' Heâd say, his hands running through his hair as if trying to release the frustration building inside him.
"So why now? Now when I canât fucking imagine my life without you?"
Heâd demand answers, his voice rising with each one and the hurt too raw to mask, searching your eyes like he could find a reason that made it hurt less.
In the end, when he saw the finality in your face, something inside him would deflate to leave only silence as he drove you home, his grip on the wheel seeming like it hurts and the weight of each passing second sinking deep into his bones like bullets. If not worse.
That night, heâd take out his anger on the punching bag, knuckles bruising until the pain became a welcome numbness.
After every mission, though, heâd still reach for his phone, typing anyway. 'Home safe.' It was always the same and you wouldnât respond.
Days would pass but heâd still text, still send pictures of things he found that reminded him of you. Small things. Little pieces of you that he couldnât let go of. Heâd call, just to hear your voice even though he knew you werenât going to pick up.
At night, in the quiet of his apartment, heâd let himself sink into the scent of you that still lingered in his sheets, imagining what it would be like to have you back even if it was just for one night.
John "Soap" MacTavish:
Johnnyâs heart would shatter into pieces the moment you said it. He'd try to smile but the effort was weak, failing him completely as his chest tightened.
"I get it, lass." Heâd say, eyes full of the pain he tried so hard to hide so you wouldn't feel guilty. "Iâd go mad if it was you out there." But that didnât stop the deep pit of panic from swallowing him whole.
How can he wake up or go to sleep without you?
''I justâŠ'' Heâd hesitate, tears threatening to fall. ''I canât blame you.''
But damn it, he wanted to. He wanted to yell, to scream, to tell you not to leave, that heâd do anything, anything to make it work but he couldnât. Not like this.
So instead, heâd pull you into his arms, letting himself feel the warmth of your body, the one thing he could hold onto even if it was just for a few more minutes. His lips would find yours, slow and desperate, tasting you like it was the last time.
One kiss would turn into two and another until you both found yourselves in bed, clinging to each other with a desperation that made it feel like the world would shatter and burn when you let go.
By morning, heâd be gone, leaving his cross on the nightstand. The only physical thing he could bear to leave behind.
Heâd walk out into the early dawn, each step heavier than the last, knowing heâd left his heart back with you, a piece of himself heâd never get back. Not that he wanted to.
Simon "Ghost" Riley
He would expect it. He knew from the start that loving him would only end in pain but even though he saw it coming, nothing prepared him for how it would feel when you finally said the cursed words.
''I always knew it would end like this.'' Heâd say, his tone flat but underneath it, there was a world of despair.
He wouldnât beg nor try to change your mind. He couldnât, not when he already knew how this story ends. Yet when you asked him to look at you, truly look at you, heâd turn his face and thatâs when youâd see the truth in his eyes.
That pain that heâd buried so deep. ''I donât expect you to wait. I donât want you to bury me.''
He wouldnât say anything else after that but youâd feel it in the silence that stretched between you both, that there was so much he wanted to confess to you but wouldn't dare.
Heâd drive you to your friendâs place, eyes locked on the road ahead, and when he stopped, heâd glance over, just once and say, ''Iâll pack your things so you donât have to come back.''
Before you could walk away one last time, his voice would crack just slightly. ''After you⊠thereâs no one else.''
And that would be the last time youâd see him. Heâd drive off, the emptiness of his heart trailing behind him and when you were out of sight, heâd finally let the tears fall.
#feeling extra angsty today#cod#call of duty#captain price#captain price x reader#kyle gaz garrick#kyle gaz garrick x reader#gaz x reader#john soap mactavish#john soap mctavish x reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader#cod x reader#cod x you#task force 141#tf 141#141 x reader#cod 141
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can't believe i discarded this scene a million yrs ago......... đ
âLook at you, neck deep in pussy.â
Billy Hargrove looked down at the collapsed form before him. Slanted sunglasses, and flushed cheeks, and smeared makeup, and a snoring mouth, jaw all askew.Â
Mandy Mueller snorted awake, head half hanging off the old plaid couch in Laurie Binklerâs garage. A big fat cat laid across her neck like a scarf, its furry mass clearly closing off her airway if all the honk-shoo snoring and whistle-tone gurgling was anything to go by. Her head popped up, sunglasses falling off her head and onto the floor in a clatter as she jerked into consciousness.Â
âLeave her alone,â a freckled girl called from the opposite end of the couch, her body dressed in the ugly green uniform of Hawkins Highâs marching band. Ugh, great, Billy thought with a frown. Billyâs mortal-nemesis: Dweebs. âShe said she needs to sleep off all the alcohol she drank or sheâs gonna die.â
That was definitely not how that worked.
âYeah, leave her alone,â Mandy slurred out, agreeing even though she clearly had no fucking clue what was going on around her, squinting around all bleary-eyed in her tired, drunken state. âAsshole.â
Oh, my god.Â
âYouâre being strangled to death, Idiot,â Billy announced in a bid to be helpful, and Mandy muttered a couple of choice words in reply that Billy was going to pretend he didnât hear to protect his own feelings. Billy gestured to Muellerâs self-appointed representative at the end of the couch with the neck of his bottle. âWere you really gonna let this fucking thing suffocate her like this?â
The girl scratched her nose with a chipped, painted fingernail, looking at him nervously as she inched out, âUmmm, yeah⊠We already tried to move it, but it, uh, really likes her, yâknow?â
Yeah, well, big fucking whoop. So did Billy, but he wasnât wrapping himself around her and trying to choke her out, was he? Well, he wasnât tonight, anyway.
âWhat?â Billy spat out, eyes narrowing in disbelief at the girl. He looked back down at the fluffy gray cat before him, only to find it already staring up at him with creepy green eyes. He frowned, looking away instinctively, before doing a double-take. Eugh. What the fuck? Why was this fucking thing looking at him like that?
âIt is so mean,â the girl explained with severe emphasis, rubbing her head with growing concern. âSome guys cornered it up on those shelves and were messing with it, butâ!â She pointed an index finger across the room to the shelves filled with large tools and lumber. âThen Mandy came in here and told them that if they didnât fuck off that she was gonna introduce them to her new best friend over thereââ The girlâs arm swiveled to another far wall, pointing to the chainsaw mounted by the doorway, before she continued, âAnd they didnât believe her, so she went over there, ripped it off the wall, started the thing, and then asked if them if theyâve ever seen Scarface.â
âIt was super bad ass!â Another geek exclaimed in excitement over the rehashing of the entire event, and Billy sent a dull frown across the group where they were stationed in a quiet corner of the garage, watching and listening like a bunch of nosy creeps.
Billy shifted in thought, taking a long sip of his drink, before asking curiously, âWhat the fuck does any of that have to do with moving the cat?â
âWell, we think thatâs why itâs so attached to her,â she answered with a shrug, and one of the pimply nerds next to her nodded emphatically.Â
Was Billy drunk, or did that not answer his question? He pursed his lips in thought. Â
âWait,â he snaked out, raising a single index finger in contemplation as something just occurring to him. âDo you work at the movie theater?â
âUuhhh,â the girl droned out uncomfortably, eyes darting around shiftily as she drew her knees in tight from her position perched at the edge of an old coffee table. âYeah, thatâs me, I guess.â
âRape girl,â Billy clarified with a hum.
âThatâsââ She grimaced as if the name physically pained her, shaking her head as she choked out, âUh, probably not a great thing to call someone.â
Yeah, whatever, Billy thought to himself.Â
âBut thatâs youâ?â He prompted, eyes squinting as he tried to connect the girl before him to the girl from last Saturday. All her different uniforms were fucking with his head a little. She was like a secret agent or something with all the weird get-ups. âRight?â
âUh, yep,â she popped the âpâ awkwardly, hunching in on herself. âThatâs me.â
âHuhâŠâ He muttered out loud unthinkingly, before gesturing to the sleeping Mueller offhandedly, âYou go to school with us?â
âYeah,â her lips pinched as she scratched her forehead, fussing with her bangs, âIâve, uh, gone here longer than both of you combined, I think.â
Billy had to withhold from laughing at that. Holy shit, what a loser. That must have sucked.
âAnd youâreâŠâ Billy trailed off contemplatively as he looked between the once again unconscious Mandy and the ever-annoying girl before him, âAllergic to cats?â
âUh, no,â she answered, clearly disarmed by his line of questioning, but what the fuck else was he supposed to think in this situation?
âThen why havenât you moved the cat off her?!â Billy demanded heatedly as he waved his arms down at the lard ass of a cat.
The band geek before him tossed her hands up helplessly as she stood up and announced, âI told you, already! This thing is, like, so mean!!â
A low yowl interrupted their yelling, and both Billy and the girl paused on either side of the coffee table to glance over at the cat. It stared up at them agitatedly, shifting around in one big loaf-like shape atop Mueller to face them down, its big bushy tail flicking across her face now. It must have irritated her nose, because her face scrunched up almost immediately as she awakened again, letting out an annoyed, whiney groan.
She swatted the tail away without even opening her eyes, calling, âWhat is your problem, Bitch? Get a grip.â
The cat let out a high-pitched mewl in reply, standing to balance atop Queenie as she writhed around on the couch to get comfortable.
âSee?â The girl insisted with a vague gesture to the huge cat where it circled around Mandyâs torso, before seating itself very leisurely atop her chest. Queenie let out a pathetic, wheezing breath under its weight like she was a broken squeak toy. âIt really likes her! Theyâre friends!â
âItâs gonna kill her!â Billy argued as he watched the cat begin kneading her flesh, its nails pricking through her off-the-shoulder sweater and pulling loose the threads as it purred loudly, absolutely delighted to be crushing Mueller under its impressive mass.Â
âWellâ!â Her words choked off abruptly as she floundered, her arms flailing everywhere in her desperation to convey something. âYou move it then! See what happens!â
âFine! I will!â Billy exclaimed, before looking to the cat in question and hesitating. Were they sure it was a cat? It was so big and ugly, it kinda looked like it wandered in from outside. Whatever. He slammed his bottle down onto the table, before pushing up the sleeves of his jacket and moving towards the couch.
It yowled at him again, this time louder and longer and even more unsettlingly. He ignored it, and it hissed, ears going back on its head as it rose up and swiped at him, making him jump back and nearly trip over the coffee table in the process of getting away.
âItâs not a catâ!â Billy declared vehemently, pointing at it as he rounded the table to stand beside Rape Girl again, hands settling on his hips as he glared at the beast that just attacked him, finishing, âItâs a fucking demon!â
It hissed at him and batted at the air wildly like it understood English.Â
âItâs totally a cat!â The girl beside him insisted with an annoying amount of exasperation, âItâs just weirdly protective of her, thatâs all.â
âBecause sheâs its next meal!â Billy gestured with a sweep of his arm in Muellerâs direction.
âNo, it loves her! Theyâre best friends!â One of the other dweebs declared, holding her heart. âSheâs like a Disney princess!â
Jesus! What was with this place?! Billy wanted to tear out his hair. He fucking hated it here.Â
âStop shouting! Iâm up! Ugh!â Mandy complained grumpily, tucking her elbows under her to prop herself up. The cat only moved, stretching down her body and twisting itself onto its back as it meowed for her attention. It draped itself over her, claws stretching down to her hips as its tail waved in her face. She squinted, swatting at the offending appendage.
She looked at the cat, ignoring the rest of the room as she asked it irately, âYou gotta fuckinâ problem with me? Quit showinâ your ass, before I kick it.â
It only mewled in reply, swiveling its head around to blink down at her languidly, and she flopped back onto the couch with an exhausted groan, an arm draping across her eyes. It hurried to her again, nuzzling its face into the crook her neck and rolling around until it was once again wrapped around her head.
âOutta my face,â she muttered, shoving it under her arm pit and tucking it down at her side. The cat went without a fight, twisting itself around onto its back as it settled over her abdomen, its body tucked against the back of the couch with its paws facing the sky. Billy scowled.
âWell, donât you two look nice and cozy,â Billy called down at the pair, and Mandyâs eyes creaked open again.
âOh, no,â she whined pathetically, tossing her head around on the couch. âIâm already drunk! What more do you want from me?â
Well, he had a joint in his pocket he wanted to share with her. He nabbed it from a stoner in the backyard, taking pity on her after she rushed off earlier to go barf after he and Tommy filled her full with beer. The only issue was that he was a little worried by the implication of sharing.Â
Billy Hargrove was not the sharing type.
In his brief moment of hesitation, her eyes opened, gaze clearer as she looked to him very seriously.
âYou actually want something, donât you?â She groaned out, her nose scrunching up at him. âAw, câmon, Hargrove!â
He stuffed his hands into his pockets as he rounded the table towards her spot on the couch.Grabbing the back of one knee, he folded her leg up into her torso and sent the cat back into her face as he slipped between her knees and dropped himself onto the couch with a creak of the old springs.Â
âOw, Asshole!â She complained, kicking the leg he trapped between the couch and his back until she was swinging it into the air over his head and plopping it into his lap to join the other. âIâm a girl, not a chair! Donât fold me up like that!â
Billy ignored her bitching for the most part, the sound of her nasally voice falling to the backdrop as he pulled the joint from the pocket of his jacket and held it aloft before her with a cool glance. âUgh! God! What is everyoneâs problemâ?!â
Her voice cut off abruptly, eyes locking on his fingers. âWhoâs that for?â
âYou, if you want,â he offered, and her eyes shined at him curiously from over the fluffy body of the cat between them.Â
âWhy?â She asked, blinking at him. The cat joined her, craning its neck over to him and staring, its tail swishing leisurely over the edge of the couch.Â
That was a loaded question. Billy licked his lips, putting the joint to his mouth and reaching for his lighter.Â
âYou in or out?â He asked, dodging her question. She glanced around the room, gaze a little dimmer than usual, before watching him light the spliff and take an inhale.
The teens around them hunkered down with clangs and gongs of their instruments, seeming to think this was a puff and pass situation, and Mandy rolled her eyes, waving a dainty had around in a silent demand. He handed it over, their fingertips ghosting across one another, before Mueller was pulling the joint to her lips and taking an experimental puff.
She winced, breathing out and coughing as she handed it over. âItâs laced.â
âWhat?â Billy scoffed, looking down at the lipstick-stained paper in his hand, before bringing it back to his mouth for another inhale, âHow the hell do you know that?â
She waved the air, and the cat atop her let out a low, agitated meow in warning.Â
âShut up,â she said to it quietly, like she was embarrassed to be addressing a cat of all things, before she was looking to him. âYou canât tell? Ugh. Itâs gross. Keep that shit away from me.â
âMore for me then, I guess,â he taunted, breathing out a steady inhale over her way. The cat above her hacked, and Mandy waved the air again, looking to him with supreme irritation as she pushed herself into sitting, pulling her legs from his lap.
Scooting away, she grabbed the cat atop her, tucking it into her lap as she tried to get comfortable, leaning into the arm of the couch and patting around in search for something. Billy watched her lean over the edge of the couch, pulling up her jacket and then her sunglasses, before she was rooting around through her pockets.Â
Ugh, god. He could watch her do literally anything and be satisfied. Him and the fat cat in her lap had that in common, apparently. The animal just ducked its head beneath her boobs, looking up through the cage of her arms as she pulled out money and lighters and playing cards from her pockets before she finally pulled out a compact mirror and busied herself with her reflection.Â
âWhy do I look like Iâm melting?â She muttered, and the cat replied with a mewl, which made her startle, nearly dropping her mirror, before she was looking down at the thing with a finger to her lips. âShhh. Donât answer that.â
âYou canât really think that thing understands you,â Billy muttered to her, eyes dragging from the cat to her. He could not believe she was entertaining this monsterâs bullshit.
Mandy didnât answer him immediately, busy wiping her face clear of smeared makeup. Billy couldnât keep his eyes from her mouth as he watched her wipe at the edge of her lips, cleaning her face of the streaks of dark red lipstick.Â
âWho cares? I understand him,â she said once she was done, shooting him a curled look of judgement as he blinked away the image of her open mouth, tongue curling into the edge of her lips. âAnd who even asked you, huh?âÂ
He shook his head, taking another inhale and letting his head rock back as he closed his eyes and listened to the sounds around the room. Muffled conversation, and the static-y sound of stations changing on the small TV setup across the garage, and the distant thump of music in the house, and Mandy Muellerâs usually caustic voice sounding so soft and sweet and dreamy, asking, âDo you want a kiss?â
The words had his heart jumpstarting in his chest, pictures flying behind the dark shade of his eyelids of all the scenarios he could imagine her sounding sweet just like that, and he took another inhale to calm himself, forcing himself not to launch into action at her words. He held it until his lungs burned, before exhaling and forcing his breath not to tremble as he peeked an eye open in her direction, only to spy her looking down at the cat in her lap.Â
He knew it. That fucking bitch. Offering a kiss to that smelly little gremlin when he was literally right here.Â
âYou look like you do,â she said, voice light and lilting as she cocked her head down at the animal in her lap. It did the same, eyes curious and pupils big and dark as it pushed its nose towards hers, craning its neck up, before reaching up towards her with a cautious paw, gently batting at her cheek, letting out a squeaky mewl in reply.
âAw, you do, donât you?â She cooed as it purred at her, settling its paw against her cheek, before its claws kneaded slowly into the flesh of her face, snagging the topmost layer of skin there is it pulled away. The gentle look on her features warped into something cold within a blink, and she grabbed the catâs face in her palm, manicured fingers stretching over its skull and squeezing cruelly. âIâll make you regret that.â
She bodied the thing in a flash, slamming it back down into her lap and looking at it forbiddingly through the cage of her fingers as she hissed, âDo. Not. Scratch. My. Face.â
When she released it, it twisted around on its belly, slinking off her lap with its hair on all end, before it was scrambling under the couch by her feet, and Billy sighed, suddenly sympathetic to the creature. He knew how it felt.
âThat is so evil!â The girl from earlier called, obviously watching them the whole time.
âIt scratched me!â She explained in her own defense, tossing her hands out, âI was defending myself!â
âItâs a cat,â the girl called back smartly, crossing her arms. âIt has claws. It scratches.â
Mandy scoffed in return.
âYeah, and Iâm an evil bitch,â she said back in the same snotty tone, before she was sticking out her tongue. âI have those, too. You wanna see what I do with mine?â
The girl deflated at that, looking defeated as she turned back to her friend group, and Mandy scoffed to herself, slamming her compact shut and slumping into the back of the couch with a harumph.
Billy watched her with a sideways smile. God, she was completely out of her fucking mind. Â
She packed herself up huffily, hands scrubbing through her hair and arms wriggling into her jacket as she stood and spun on a heel to leave. As she rounded the table and side chair, the cat darted out from under the couch and took off after her, weave through her legs and nearly tripping her.Â
She shrieked, stumbling and catching herself just as she passed under the threshold, before she was looking around her confusedly. She patted her pockets, spinning around with a pinched look of confusion, a hand going to her hair, before her eyes settled on him across the room, right where she left him.
âIâm forgetting something important,â she said to herself, before a lightbulb went on in her head and she perked up. She pointed to him, droning out with girly exasperation as she weaved back around the clutter in the garage, âUgh! Hargrooooove!â
She flapped her hand around with a jangle of bracelets as she neared him, stretching across the arm of the couch to pinch the leather shoulder of his jacket and tug him towards her.Â
âCâmon! Iâm not leaving you with these losers!â
He took a couple last puffs of the joint, holding the smoke as he tossed the roach in the stained glass ashtray on the table.Â
âIâm coming, Iâm coming,â he breathed out as she plucked at the sleeve on his arm impatiently. As if he had any hope of denying her.
#MANIA#oc mandy mueller#oc mandy pandora mueller#mania scraps#this is for my stupid fanfic so if ur not gonna match my freak đ«” look away#found this the other day while searching for something and could not understand why i didn't use it#i write so much pointless crap just to amuse myself lmao#i have nowhere else to put all my irrelevant writing sođ«Ą#billy hargrove x oc#how tf am i supposed to tag this? lol#mania moodboard#ff mania
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also in regards to that last article about varied ways of thinking about psychosis/altered states that don't just align with medical model or carceral psychiatry---I always love sharing about Bethel House and their practices of peer support for schizophrenia that are founded on something called tojisha kenkyu, but I don't see it mentioned as often as things like HVN and Soteria House.
ID: [A colorful digital drawing of a group of people having a meeting inside a house while it snows outside.]
"What really set the stage for tĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â were two social movements started by those with disabilities. In the 1950s, a new disability movement was burgeoning in Japan, but it wasnât until the 1970s that those with physical disabilities, such as cerebral palsy, began to advocate for themselves more actively as tĆjisha. For those in this movement, their disability is visible. They know where their discomfort comes from, why they are discriminated against, and in what ways they need society to change. Their movement had a clear sense of purpose: make society accommodate the needs of people with disabilities. Around the same time, during the 1970s, a second movement was started by those with mental health issues, such as addiction (particularly alcohol misuse) and schizophrenia. Their disabilities are not always visible. People in this second movement may not have always known they had a disability and, even after they identify their problems, they may remain uncertain about the nature of their disability. Unlike those with physical and visible disabilities, this second group of tĆjisha were not always sure how to advocate for themselves as members of society. They didnât know what they wanted and needed from society. This knowing required new kinds of self-knowledge.
As the story goes, tĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â emerged in the Japanese fishing town of Urakawa in southern Hokkaido in the early 2000s. It began in the 1980s when locals who had been diagnosed with psychiatric disorders created a peer-support group in a run-down church, which was renamed âBethel Houseâ. The establishment of Bethel House (or just Bethel) was also aided by the maverick psychiatrist Toshiaki Kawamura and an innovative social worker named Ikuyoshi Mukaiyachi. From the start, Bethel embodied the experimental spirit that followed the âantipsychiatryâ movement in Japan, which proposed ideas for how psychiatry might be done differently, without relying only on diagnostic manuals and experts. But finding new methods was incredibly difficult and, in the early days of Bethel, both staff and members often struggled with a recurring problem: how is it possible to get beyond traditional psychiatric treatments when someone is still being tormented by their disabling symptoms? TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â was born directly out of a desperate search for answers.
In the early 2000s, one of Bethelâs members with schizophrenia was struggling to understand who he was and why he acted the way he did. This struggle had become urgent after he had set his own home on fire in a fit of anger. In the aftermath, he was overwhelmed and desperate. At his witsâ end about how to help, Mukaiyachi asked him if perhaps he wanted to kenkyĆ«Â (to âstudyâ or âresearchâ) himself so he could understand his problems and find a better way to cope with his illness. Apparently, the term âkenkyĆ«â had an immediate appeal, and others at Bethel began to adopt it, too â especially those with serious mental health problems who were constantly urged to think about (and apologise) for who they were and how they behaved. Instead of being passive âpatientsâ who felt they needed to keep their heads down and be ashamed for acting differently, they could now become active âresearchersâ of their own ailments. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â allowed these people to deny labels such as âvictimâ, âpatientâ or âminorityâ, and to reclaim their agency.
TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â is based on a simple idea. Humans have long shared their troubles so that others can empathise and offer wisdom about how to solve problems. Yet the experience of mental illness is often accompanied by an absence of collective sharing and problem-solving. Mental health issues are treated like shameful secrets that must be hidden, remain unspoken, and dealt with in private. This creates confused and lonely people, who can only be âsavedâ by the top-down knowledge of expert psychiatrists. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â simply encourages people to âstudyâ their own problems, and to investigate patterns and solutions in the writing and testimonies of fellow tĆjisha.
Self-reflection is at the heart of this practice. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â incorporates various forms of reflection developed in clinical methods, such as social skills training and cognitive behavioural therapy, but the reflections of a tĆjisha donât begin and end at the individual. Instead, self-reflection is always shared, becoming a form of knowledge that can be communally reflected upon and improved. At Bethel House, members found it liberating that they could define themselves as âproducersâ of a new form of knowledge, just like the doctors and scientists who diagnosed and studied them in hospital wards. The experiential knowledge of Bethel members now forms the basis of an open and shared public domain of collective knowledge about mental health, one distributed through books, newspaper articles, documentaries and social media.
TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â quickly caught on, making Bethel House a site of pilgrimage for those seeking alternatives to traditional psychiatry. Eventually, a cafĂ© was opened, public lectures and events were held, and even merchandise (including T-shirts depicting membersâ hallucinations) was sold to help support the project. Bethel won further fame when their âHallucination and Delusion Grand Prixâ was aired on national television in Japan. At these events, people in Urakawa are invited to listen and laugh alongside Bethel members who share stories of their hallucinations and delusions. Afterwards, the audience votes to decide who should win first prize for the most hilarious or moving account. One previous winner told a story about a failed journey into the mountains to ride a UFO and âsave the worldâ (it failed because other Bethel members convinced him he needed a licence to ride a UFO, which he didnât have). Another winner told a story about living in a public restroom at a train station for four days to respect the orders of an auditory hallucination. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â received further interest, in and outside Japan, when the American anthropologist Karen Nakamura wrote A Disability of the Soul: An Ethnography of Schizophrenia and Mental Illness in Contemporary Japan (2013), a detailed and moving account of life at Bethel House. "
-Japan's Radical Alternative to Psychiatric Diagnosis by Satsuki Ayaya and Junko Kitanaka
#personal#psych abolition#mad liberation#psychosis#altered states#antipsych#antipsychiatry#mad pride#peer support#schizophrenia#i have a pdf of the book somewhere if anyone wants#the book and the documentary also discuss some of the pratical struggles in creating a community like this which i also found helpful as#someone who is very interested in helping open a peer respite.
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Yeah my boyfriendâs pretty cool, but heâs not as cool as me â K. Bakugou x f!Reader
Summary: You, a top model meet pro hero Dynamight on your Victoria's Secret fashion show. You didn't know how easily you both could cling like magnets. Maybe you found your soulmate, why else does it seem so easy? So loving? So ethereal? A/N: I missed writing my Jerk (Bakugou) so here I go. The character is giving off Y/N from Wattpad almost (KEKEKEK) :3 What! Sue me! Also brb gonna take a bath in holy water after this. Not beta'd take the typos like a pro ;) also this is probably my longest fic IN A WHILE and that's saying something!!! Warnings: N!pple play, F!ingering, S3x(P in V), missionary, doggy-style, squ!rting, breed!ng, dirty talk, spank!ngs. Let me know if I missed anything. :3 Oh and TOOTH ROTTING FLUFF
You sucked in a breath when you heard the announcements go off, the announcer urging the models to get done with their hair & makeup fast. It wasnât like any other show, honestly. It was the Victoriaâs Secret show. The internet alone can swamp any and every other news when this âphenomenonâ occurs. You have been on a strict diet of salads, high pilates & cardio, and for the past two days â dehydration to show your abs more. Being a successful model is all about making it look effortless even if itâs all graft, tenacity & utterless devotion. No career is easy at the end of the day after all.
âY/n, are you okay? The show is about to start.â Your manager, also the manager of this event comes up to you, long, poised strides in her red bottom pencil heels. Sheâs wearing a satin, well-tailored coat and a skirt. âCanât wait to munch on a fucking burger and drink a gallon of cold soda.â You smirk, your eye makeup was completed, the final touches of the makeup setting spray was splayed on by the makeup artist tending to you.
âYou look gorgeous, Y/n.â He commented, voice feminine & fashion sense incredible. He was gay, and one of your best friends in the industry. âMan, so many people would be here in the show.â You snorted, âwhoâs coming to sing?â Your curiosity is piqued. There is always a star who comes in and makes sure the runway ends up a much better experience.
âItâs Jungkook.â Your manager responds curtly.
âFuckinâ hell they literally bagged Jungkook?â You scoffed almost, ahâ shit. Jungkook has a massive following, of course they would. Even if heâs your ex boyfriend. Of course they fucking would. You pursed your lips, your relationship with him was entirely kept a secret. Heâs an idol, worshipped infactâ and that ended up for the best when you parted ways. The NDA was perfect. Though you often wondered if the glamour you chose for yourself would ever allow you a fair chance at getting the right partner.
âEh, Jungkookâs not my type.â Your bestie, the makeup artist Samuel hums, his shoulders shrugging up. âI got my eyes on the heroes.â He winks, adjusting the last finished strands of your hair. The heroesâŠ
âI donât understand why the heroes are invited to stuff like these.â You roll your eyes. It is weird to think about. He chuffs, âoh come onâ theyâre just as big of celebrities & events like these are all about glamour and showing off.â He snorts, âDynamightâs coming, Star and Stripes is coming, a lot of the heroes who are under the top three would be here. Gahh I wonder how Dynamight looks in a suit⊠dudeâs fucking jacked. Iâm drooling just thinking about it.â
You chuckled, rolling your eyes. âOkay okay, drooling dog. Leave me alone and let me calm my tits before the walk begins.â
Dynamight huh, Katsuki Bakugou. The number one hero of Japan. He is popular enough, you have seen him bag the Calvin Kleinâs Times Square ad. Your fingers itched towards your phone, searching up Dynamight on Instagram. There were two accounts. One of them was the official hero account, named Dynamight. The other wasâ seemingly his personal account, it was named BakugouKatsuki. Both of them were public though. Ah, you will stalk him later. Now isnât the best time.
You get up, itching in your feet into the pencil heels and stretching your body. Amidst the ruckus, you were given your Victoriaâs Secret wings, and your lingerie set. It was beautiful, youâd give them that. They do end up spending and extravagant amount of money for this after all. âPhew, Iâm ready.â
There were other models lined up before you, you had been the show-stopper. Itâs flamingly obvious not to think much about yourself, but youâd give yourself credit for being one of the top models in the entire industry. You also have a whooping Instagram following, and your socials are always stacked with brand deals. Jungkook was singing Seven, a safe version. You don't want to be delusional and think he chose that song because he wrote it for you, nah, you and him are over for good. Besides, he was in a parasocial relationship with his fans. That's just not your vibe.
You exhaled, engaging your core and coming out finally. It was your turn to go in and leave the crowd in absolute awe. Your time to shine! Yeah, your time to shine. No matter how many shows you have participated in, the feeling before the runway is second to none. You stepped out, peppering flying kisses to the crowd as you passed by Jungkook, catwalking.
You didn't think the first person your eyes would meet would be Bakugou himself, it was eye contact that lasted a few seconds, as you turned around and walked back inside, coming out with the fashion designer and clapping.
"What was that Bakubro?" Red Riot was sitting beside his high school best friend, smirking when he noticed Katsuki caught red-handed. "Didn't you say you have no interest in watching models and this was a waste of time?" He snickers, pulling Katsuki's leg.
Katsuki.... on the other hand, was mesmerized. He had never seen someone so beautiful. Honestly, he wasn't one to keep up with the models and the glamour the industry had to offer. He had a simple routine, focus on training, go patrolling, partake in brand deals, and sleep by 9 pm. This seemed different, especially when the eye contact you both had was so magnetic. What the fuck was happening to him he wondered... why was he behaving like a high school student all over again. Dynamight was in his late twenties now. It's not to say that he hasn't dated people at all, he has, in fact, he has a fair share of girlfriends too. He just wasn't expecting you to latch onto his heart & rip it out of his chest (respectfully).
Maybe he dan divert his mind until after the show. The Victoria's Secret brand had dealings with the Bulgari Hotel in Milan. (Where the show was held), of course, your and Katsuki's suites would be on the same floor. The show was a huge success, you knew it the moment you walked back inside and got jump-hugged by the entire team. They loved your walk, and it made you grin like an appreciated child.
"Finally I can binge." You snickered, getting out after thirty minutes or so from the show. In your head, the eye-contact with the ruby-eyed man was nothing much, merely a coincidence perhaps. You don't know much about Bakugou Katsuki anyway. You do tell your gay best friend about it though, chuckling & giggling at how he loses his mind over it. "I think Dynamight will stay in the same hotel as mine, but before leaving, I can secure an autograph for you if you'd like."
"YOU'D DO THAT?" Samuel is on top of the world when he hears your offer. How nice and kind of you. "I could do that of course!" You smile, he has been great and helpful in calming your nerves before your show. You can do that for him without thinking twice. "Great, thank you so much Y/N! You are a literal gem." He whines, kicking feet in excitement. "Dynamight's known for being intimidating and a no-bullshit guy, so just be...careful." He smiled. You raised a brow at the description, chuckling. Whatever, it's just an autograph. You were sure Samuel was just fangirling.
You walked towards Bakugou and his friend Red Riot, wearing a plain white tee shirt and some shorts. A Prada handbag over your shoulder, Cartier bracelet set on your left arm, and some boots just so you look fine in case you get accidentally papped. "Uh oh, Hottie alert, Hottie alert. She's coming this way Bakugou." Kirishima warns, while Katsuki doesn't turn, smirking. "Maybe she's into you just as much huh?" "Shut up, Kiri. I'm not even into her." What a lie, what a damned lie, because when you tap his shoulder, his entire body shudders.
"Hey- Dynamight, hi!" You smile, watching him turn to face you. Geez, he's tall and big, the blonde doesn't make him look any less intimidating. He has a scar on his eye but it only accentuates his gruff and masculine look. You swallow, "Hey there." Katsuki raises a brow, smirking at you. "Y/N right? The fabulous show stopper." He praises, and you can't help but blush a little.
"Hehe, yeah, thank you so much." You gently tussle through your bag, taking out a notepad. "Can I please get an autograph?" You smile, you wouldn't be one of those cunts who would outrightly say that it's not for you. Why do you need to specify explicitly anyway? "Aww, she's a fan?" Katsuki grins, taking the notepad from you. "Haha!" You don't respond. You don't want to ruin the vibe of the interaction. Unlucky for you, Bakugou is a pest. "So should I write Y/N, or ShowStopper Y/N?" He smirked, uh oh... "You can make two?" You raised a brow, smiling softly. "One for me and one for Samuel, my makeup artist." You smile. "Sure can." He writes the autograph, smirking, "You didn't want an autograph did ya?" Ouch, how did he catch you red-handed so easily? "Hm? Why do you feel so?" You raise a brow, taking the notepad from him. "I'm the number one hero of Japan, Sweetheart. I got my own tricks up my sleeve." He smirked, oh what a charming guy. You wonder why is he infamous for being intimidating then... maybe just his personality and his looks. "I don't mind getting one, honestly, who knows I might become a fan in the future." You smiled back. "Oh yeah? That's gonna make me real fuckin' proud of yer taste, Sweetheart." He grins, and Kirishima has long excused Bakugou and you to chitchat alone.
You chuckled, oh my, he was cocky and yet charming enough to pull it off. Meanwhile, all Bakugou thought was how your eyes are so pretty, and you smile so easily it should be illegal. Your smile makes even the crankiest of people smile. Him included.
"Whatcha doin' after this?" He asks you, raising a brow. Please be free, please be free. "Ah- it's just, my own ritual of unwinding after fashion shows to go and binge on junk food. I am going to this amazing pizza place." You smile, and Bakugou notices your body, you are stunning, but it's clear you need to maintain unrealistic standards for this. "Mind if I join?" He confidently asks, Bakugou Katsuki's confidence ever since he was a child was sky high. He doesn't mind chasing what he wants, he doesn't mind latching on to what he wants. He doesn't mind putting in the work for what he wants. Whether it's the number one hero ranking, or his new ambition - You.
"You can." You perk up, of course, you don't mind that. You wonder if he's asking you on a date or just hanging out with you. "Alright then, let's go?" You ask him again, truth be told you were starving. You need a lot of water down your stomach and also, food. "Lead the way Kitten."
You blink at the nickname, Kitten? "Kitten?" You snorted, why? "Yeah, cus you walk the show like a little lion cub," he smirked, quite assertive behind his reasoning. It makes your heart flutter. "I, see... interesting. Is it something you do? Give people you like, nicknames?" "Yeah, it's a me thing," Katsuki smirked, he loved how you sneakily asked him whether he likes you or not. "I do that to people I hate too though." He teased, biting his lip and smirking at the confused pout. "Not you though, I like ya." He admits upfront. Katsuki doesn't want to play games. It's either he doesn't give a shit, or he's into it dedicatedly.
You gnaw at your lip, walking ahead of him, thank god your back is turned towards him. Else you'd be embarrassed of just how easily he can sway you off your feet. You and him get into the car after, driving to the nearest pizza place. Your knees touch during the car ride, fuck why are you thinking about the slightest of touches Jesus! Neither of you avoid the touch though. "So I'm guessing the pre-walk schedule is pretty ass, huh?" You like that he wants to know about you in a 'I want to get to know you better' sense and not in a 'I want to hook up and leave you after' sense. "Yeah, the last four days I have been dehydrated. I can enjoy in peace now though, before the next show." You nod, looking at him in the eyes, evaluating his expressions. Bakugou looks, conflicted. On one hand, he admires this, on the other hand, he's pissed that this is what gets imposed. He clicks his tongue, "If I were to organize a damn show I'd make sure none of the dehydration shit happens, tch." You chuckle at how intensely he feels about it. It makes you feel validated, makes you feel seen and heard. "Yeah? Maybe you can organize one for your merch." You winked.
"Fuckin' Brilliant aren'tcha?" Katsuki exclaims, grinning wide. He would, and you'd be the show stopper, and it would be a statement towards normalizing human bodies. It sounds so perfect in his head, he would definitely bother his Assistant about this later.
When you both reached the Pizza place, Bakugou gets your door, smirking when you are almost shocked by it. "What? The least ya can do is expect a Hero to be chivalrous, ye?" You giggle, holding his hand, noticing the sheer difference in your hands versus his. Your hands are soft, meek, delicate, having their own hand care routine. His hands are smooth, a little moist due to sweat which you think doesn't bother him. It doesn't bother you either honestly. Plus, he smells amazing... almost in a way that could make you dizzy from it all.
"Um, what should I call you? Dynamight? Bakugou? Katsuki? Japanese people prefer to be called by their last name until they explicitly give permission, no?" You have done a few shows in Japan and know a thing or two about their culture. Bakugou only smirks harder, holding your hand & caressing it with the pad of his thumb, he leans it up to show you. "If I'm holdin' yer hand, I'd prefer to be called Katsuki, Sweetheart." "Y-Yeah, right." You are flustered. The way he looks at you is so intense and yet calming. This man is almost paradoxical.
You both get inside, taking one of the cozy booths of the restaurant. The vibe of the place is luxurious, Grenadil, African Blackwood, lamps which are delicately hand-carved. The place speaks Old-Money.
Bakugou takes a seat next to you, handing you the laminated menu with exquisite handwritten Calligraphy, "There ya go." He smirks. You notice the menu he has given you has no prices on the dishes. He has his own menu. "Uh, they have no money imprinted, are you sure this menu is okay?" This is your first time seeing this. "Yeah, s' okay. S' cus y'er not supposed to be worrying about the price of the dishes." He says it rather assertively. "The man should." He shows his menu. Oh- Of course, for a place this extra, they would have some new ritual like this for all the trophy-wives. "Katsuki- no- I'd feel guilty." You pouted. "Yeah? Yer gonna feel guilty for it bein' my job to spoil ya? On a date? Our first date?" All of a sudden, every doubt in your mind is faded. Things were escalating so quickly yet, you feel like you know this man for years, how bizarre, how comforting, how amazing! The way your heart breaks into little palpitations of excitement is second to none.
You looked down, a hue of red creeping into your cheeks. ''Gah would ya look at that!" Bakugou points at your flustered expression instantly. "She's the prettiest baddest Queen in this world, and I got her feelin' cutesy and feminine, ye?" Yes, yes it has... it's always the little things after all. You chuckle, looking up at him, extending your hand over the table so he could hold it. "You smell amazing, Katsuki." You compliment him too.
Honestly, you have never felt someone smelling this amazing as Bakugou. "Yeah? Part of my charm." He croons in his gravelly voice, the tip of his tongue brushing his upper teeth in a mischievous grin. "S' a part of my quirk." He admits, leaning back and manspreading a little. Your heart feels like it would jump out of your chest at that, you swallow the thick lump of saliva. "Yeah?" "Yeah, that's right Sweetheart." Bakugou hums again, kissing your knuckle. "What about you, have any quirks?" "Unfortunately, nope." You chuckle, a little embarrassed. You know if this man is the number one hero of Japan, he must have a formidable quirk after all. "Aw, she's my little quirkless rarity gem ain't she?" "Yeah."
Katsuki's words were healing something within you that you didn't know was broken. You were feeling all sorts of things, slightly aghast at how easily your senses feel dizzy around the true embodiment of masculinity. A little merry on how you don't have to think about anything and let him take care of you. You needed this after the tough show you've had. You ordered a pizza, and some drinks with it. "So, what next?" You don't want to get too ahead of yourself either. Maybe all this could fade the moment you both sleep together.
"Next, we go on another date, then another, then another. In between those dates, I'll steal a kiss or two." He grins. Making you chuckle, how old school... "That's all you will steal?" You ask him, quite upfront on your own this time. "Mm~ I can't be too greedy or I might make a certain Kitten uncomfortable." He winks.
"Would I make a certain hero uncomfortable if I stole more than a kiss?" You smirk, watching Bakugou grin in surprise. "Nah, the hero wants what his Princess wants." He admits shamelessly.
The dinner goes by in a haze, Bakugou asks you about your family, how many people are there in your nuclear family, you ask him, a little bit of what and hows about starting a career. You get to know he's a Taurus, and his MBTI Type is ENTJ, his Enneagram is 8w7. No wonder he is so steadfast and determined. The dinner ended with you two getting back to go to the same hotel, walking and chit-chatting through your lives, how a daily routine in your lives looks like, favourite coffee order, favourite animals, favourite bands, favourite brands, favourite foods.... until Bakugou was in front of your suite.
"Uhm, goodnight Katsuki." You smile, getting on your tippy toes and kissing his lips softly. A burning sensation ripples through your nerves instantly. Oh no- now you can't stop. Now he can't stop. There is an unsaid desperation in the way you & him deepen the kiss, a relief washing over you as the suite's door gets unlocked with a beeping sound of your card against the sensor.
You jump on him immediately, cupping his face, scratching his undercut, rabid pants echoing through the room as you lean back to catch a breath. "Wildin' aren't we?" Bakugou smirked, leaning you against the wall with his hand supporting the back of your head as he kissed you more, fuck you have awakened something carnal within him. "Yeah- yeah-" You manage to choke on your breaths as he dives against your neck, nibbling at the supple skin, licking the tender ache. "Katsuki- please-" You want more. Especially now when you can feel his semi nudged against your heat. You want it so bad, you didn't even know him a few hours ago... and now here you were.
"Yeah? Are ya sure?" He asks, seriously. He doesn't need this to be hurried. "Yeah, I'm sure."
And that was all Bakugou needed, his lips smashing against you once more, tongue exploring your mouth, colliding against yours, his mouth wrapping around your tongue and suckling nastily. Katsuki leans back, a string of saliva connecting your lips and his. He supports you by your booty, hands kneading the area on your clothed shorts as he manspreads on the couch, watching how you straddle him. You take off your shirt on your own, and unhook your tee shirt bra next. Before you can switch to your shorts, Katsuki removes his own shirt. Oh my god-
He is jacked, and there are battle scars all over his body. Your hand leans in, absentmindedly tracing one of them. You could only imagine how dangerous it must be, how dangerous his line of work is. Everyday he keeps his life on the line to protect people like you - to protect those who can't fend for themselves. Your eyes softened, and Bakugou notices you lean into the duvet of your thoughts. "Hey, they're from years ago." He smirked, kissing your cheek. "Literal years, when I was Baby Dynamight." He chuckled, lightening up your mood instantly. He leans in, hands kneading and groping at your now perky breasts and tits. "She's fuckin' stunning god damn." He cusses under his breath, eagerly wrapping his tongue around one of the nipples, while his fingers pinched and played around with the other. The sensation sends waves of pleasure down your core, it aches so deliciously good. You lean your head back, gasping out at the welcomed assault on your body. This was beyond perfect. "Katsuki-" You mumbled, just chanting his name as he switches to the other nipple, his hand caressing your sides, knuckles caressing the temples of your cheek. "Mhm~ so perfect, Princess."
Every action only makes you dive deeper into a space you've never dived on before. His fingers skilfully unbutton your shorts next, peeling off your panties. "Let's check what's the situation." He smirks, though his ruby eyes are steeled on your face. Massive hands cupping your bare pussy, you can feel your essence coat his palm, but you're not shy anymore. You want him to know he does this to you. You want him to be aware of the effect he has on you. "Fuckin' soaking." He smirked, middle finger and ring finger parting your entrance while his middle finger nudged against your tight hole. The tip pierces inside your pussy almost instantly. "Oh perfect little thing." He snickers, curling it just the right way to make your eyes roll back. "Yeah baby, keep makin' that pretty face f'me." He groans, leaning in and latching onto your sensitive tits again. "Not sorry bout it in the least, need to mark ya." He groans, suckling against your skin, marking your breasts in hickeys while he drills his finger inside your cunt. The pleasure has you reeling soon, eyes rolling back. "Katsuki- please-" you buck your hips against him helplessly, pussy twitching and fluttering shamelessly. "Yeah baby? Gonna cum?" He croons, smirking at the way your body gets littered in goosebumps. "Mhm~ Yeah." You nodded like a bobble head, the pleasure reaching new heights. "Gonna make a mess on Daddy's fingers?" he asks again, almost edging you. The new nickname has you clamping tightly as a reaction, Bakugou chuckles. "Then cum."
Your entire body shivers at the assault, his thumb finding it's way to your clit, rubbing in rhythmic circles around the bundle of nerves, watching you tweak and tremble. "Atta girl! Good job little one." He smirked, quickly changing your position to laying on the couch with him hovering over you. His hand never leaves your clit, pulling out a long and tiring orgasm as his massive cock greets you. Before you could say anything before you could protest in whines that his massive, veiny cock could never fit inside you. It could break you- his cock fills you up instantly.
You see white, your senses are torn apart. The pain surges through your body like venom, filled with excruciating amounts of pleasure. You scream out, cunt almost ripped open despite being so wet and so lubed. "Kah- AH- t'suki-" You are broken, this is exactly how you expected it to feel like. Still, you want him to move, you want him to make you feel better. You want him to show you how it feels when he's pistoning this inside and out, when he's ruining your insides his shape.
Bakugou leans in, caressing your face and peppering it with soft kisses. "Yeah Princess, you did it." He praises, and you couldn't help but rut your hips against him at the praise. You need him. "Uh huh? Wan' Daddy to take care of you?" He smirked at that, relishing your shameless movements, his cock jams against your pussy, fervour akin to an animal in a rut. You feel so good he can't help but want more either, thrusts powerful enough to cause your breasts to jiggle from the impact. "Atta girl, look at you, taking me like yer made for me." he groans, watching your fucked out expressions, listening to your melodious cries that only make him push you further. "Kah- Mm!"
His hand caresses your clit, pinching at the sensitive bundle of nerves, tap-slapping it, caressing it, playing with it. Every movement sends you reeling towards the peak of pleasure. It's not too long before you feel like cumming again, a familiar knot building in your pelvis, eager to snap. "Gonna fill ya up, yeah? Need your insides to know who knocked em up' need yer pussy to know who fucked her up, who stretched her up, who ripped her up to his shape-" The way he speaks is making you spiral, your mouth falls agape as another orgasm tears through you. Helplessly wailing and letting your pussy flutter around his muscular and veiny cock. His own release comes with it, hot and thick seed painting your insides his.
You're panting like you've just run a marathon, Bakugou's sweat only making your senses hazy with its sweet, caramel scent.
"Got one more in ya?" Bakugou asks with a smirk, watching your eyes widen. You are thinking, you are contemplating. "N-never did it before." You answered honestly. "Good, then it's my princess' first time." He smirked, manhandling you to bend over the couch's arm rest, letting your legs nudge together. "Get on yer tippy toes Kitten." he kneads at your ass, spanking it once just to test the waters.
The whore-ish moan that comes out of your mouth at that only makes him more amazed. "She likes spankings huh?" He smirks, slapping on the other side and watching his hand print cover almost your whole ass cheek. "Fuck-" He hissed at the sight, watching you get on your tippy toes as he pierces your cum-dripping pussy once again. Your stomach is already pressed by the arm-rest. The position is enough to make you see stars, you can't form words. Just mewling and moaning with mouth open. His thrusts are a lot precise, a lot sharper, a lot more calculated and a lot more rough.
The force of his pelvis colliding against your ass feels like spankings in itself, your womb is crying at the feeling, your cunt squelching and making lewd noises that echo like music to his ears, just perfectly entwined with your loud moans. "Fuck- you are bloody gonna have me addicted to this shit." He groans, sounds of pap- pap- paps filling the room.
You feel weird, you feel like you could pee from the pressure alone. "Katsuki- feel like gonna squirt." You whine, embarrassed. "Aw, it's okay, do it." He hums, hand wrapping around your hair and tilting your head back for a passionate kiss.
And so you let go, you don't have any choice anyway with his thrusts ripping your pussy. "Fuck- fuck-" and so you end up squirting, the liquid dripping down your thighs as you cum your brains out. Katsuki tips off the edge at the sight too, oh what a lovely mess indeed. "Oh that's fuckin' incredible" He chuckles, slowing his thrusts to a stop.
You are floating in subspace already. You can't believe the hero you were going to stalk on Instagram has your insides bred, twice. Katsuki carries you princess-way and takes you to the bedroom, "gonna get ya some water, you were so amazin' holy shit Princess." he chuckles, peppering your face with soft, feather-like kisses. You only hum and groan in response, he literally fucked your brain into mush.
He returned with some water and added electrolytes that he found in the fridge to ensure better hydration. "Come on, champ, c'mere." He cradles you on his lap like a baby - his baby to be precise. He held the glass for you, letting you drink from the straw while his other hand is busy petting your body soothingly, your arms, your hair, your back.
"Do you want to sign an NDA? If we're gonna be a thing?" You asked him, genuinely curious, but it upsets him that this is the first thing that you say. This industry really is disgusting. "Nah, I'd like you to sign an NBA."
You raised a brow, what does that mean? "Mm?"
"Non-Breakup Agreement" He chuckled, watching you giggle too as he leaned in and kissed your lips.
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But is she really yours? (141 x Reader)
Note(s) -
It's long, so be warned.
The guys are doing a little of what we like to call Dirty Mackin, and yes, I think this is something theyâd all do in their own way.
Still working on getting those accents to come through, while not stepping into cringe/wrong territory.Â
I apologize, this is a very messy format (borderline stream of consciousness), and Iâm trying to figure out a cleaner way to do this. I hope it doesnât hurt the reading experience.
And I am the only one who kinda wants to see the reverse scenario, where Reader tries to get the guys away from their trash gfs? đThanks to @bunnyreaper for the idea, it wrote itself as I read that.
Simon:
Annoying. That was the first thing Simon thought of you. So of course you had to work at the only cafe near his flat that made tea the way he liked.
You were always on your phone, arguing with someone (he guessed a boyfriend), and he hated getting stuck at your register. The calls clearly distressed you, and he didnât know why you kept taking them. Especially on the job.
Youâd gotten his order wrong more times than he could count, and you were always having to turn around and ask him to repeat the things he wanted. It got to the point where he waited until the other baristaâs line was open.
Unfortunately, other customers had done the same, and it was causing a backup.
Then there was the day. His day started as it always did on his off time. The three Sâs, and then he was at the gym to get his time in when he knew it was mostly empty. Then finally, his black tea.
He sighed, mentally preparing himself for the wait before he entered. As expected, there was a line.
You were there, and you appeared to be deeply engaged in conversation with the only person at your counter.
He was surprised to see you had a customer. âMust not be a regular.â
As he got closer to the counter, he could overhear the whispered argument. The man wasnât a customer at all, he presumed he was the boyfriend from the phone calls. Based on the things the two of you were saying, that made the most sense.
âGreat. Getting the live version today.â Simon had to wonder how you kept this job. Were you the boss's daughter? Did you own a share? Could he steal enough of the signature black tea blend and go into hiding until he had to ship out again?
You looked exasperated, and your co-worker stepped over to your side, coming to your aid.
âOh for fuckâs sake.â Simon groaned, realizing the wait would be longer.Â
He stepped outside for a cigarette, making the mental decision that if by the time he was done with it there was still a line, he would forgo his drink that day.
He chose the alley on the side of the shop, not liking the openness of the sidewalk, and staked out against the opposite buildingâs wall.
He was halfway past the tip of his cigarette when the side door heâd been eyeing warily opened, and out came you.
You looked frustrated, anxious, and maybe a little embarrassed. He didnât think you noticed him, instead, walking over to the dumpster and kicking it, hard. It sent a loud, tinny groan echoing through the alley. He narrowed his eyes, feeling that itch of frustration under his skin.
You noticed him finally, and stopped angrily muttering to yourself. Instead, you started talking to him. It was mostly an uninterrupted stream of dialogue for two minutes straight (he timed it), before he could finally understand you.
âMandatory break! Thatâs the second one this week, can you believe that?â
He started to say yes, and that he hoped the third one won you a prize: getting fired. He kept his mouth shut though.
âItâs not even me, itâs my boyfriend. He means well, but he justâŠI donât know. I donât know anymore.â You were searching for something in your apron, but he couldnât tell what, out of the corner of his eye.
Simon flexed his fingers, eyes narrowing until the shopâs logo mural was a blur. You found it, and walked closer to him until he turned both eyes to you.
âCan I get a light?â You gestured with the unlit cigarette between your fingers to the one burning between his lips.
âBloody. Fuckinâ. Hell, Bird! Sânot enough you keep half the fuckinâ place backed up on a good day, but then you prance your arse out here to annoy me some fuckinâ more? Fuck off.â He jabbed his pointer finger at the door youâd come out of.
The alley echoed his baritone, and somehow made his outburst sharper.
You stared at him like heâd taken his head off, instead of having bitten off yours. Eyes wide, bottom lip trembling, he thought you might cry, and he began to feel guilt grow in the pit of his stomach. Heâd forgotten, in the midst of you stirring up similar agitation, that he wasnât on base talking to some recruit dumped on him.Â
You did cry, but once you started talking, he suspected it was more due to anger. âFuck you! You fuck off, I work here!â
He ignored the small voice telling him âstopâ, and fired back. âWork?â He snorted. âReal fuckinâ rich that is. Donât confuse work with your million mandatory breaks.â
You clenched your fists, eyes wild with adrenaline and voice shrill with anger. âGo to hell. Youâre just some freak in an alley who canât remember when Halloween is. You donât know me.â
You angrily wiped at your tears to no avail, as more quickly took their place, and then you started sobbing.Â
Simon sighed, feeling like shit and wishing heâd held it together just a little more. âAlright. Alright. âNuff of that now.â
âIâm not crying *hic* because of youâŠâ you huffed, trying to get your voice under control. âJust go back to your cigarette. I hope you suck it up and *hic* choke!â
He chuckled, you were the first person in a while whoâd lashed back out at his harsh disposition. At least to his face. âWas uglier than I shouldâve been, but wonât pretend there wasnât some truth to it.â
âYouâre an asshole.â
âYouâre a shit barista, wanna form a band?â His lips quirked into a smirk around his near-stub cigarette.
For a beat there was silence, until the two of you burst into laughter. Yours a raucous peal of giggles, and his, raspy chuckles.
âWell, you earned that light. Got more balls then a lot of soldiers I know.â
The two of you stayed in that alley for thirty minutes just riffing off different topics. It ended with Simon giving you the friendly (read: rough) advice to not let your boyfriend cost you your job.
Thatâs not how he saw his day going. Having the most interesting conversation heâd had in a while with the woman who annoyed the piss out of him for the better part of his leave.
You were no longer annoying, youâd been upgraded to interesting, and that was the second thing Simon thought about you.
After your talk in the alley, Simon was pleasantly surprised to find that youâd taken his advice and stepped your skills up. It turned out, you were distracted by your boyfriend, but Simon had come to see why. He was obsessed with knowing where you were, and if you were thinking of him, and wondering if he should drop by.Â
Simon felt more guilt for being so impatient, and he decided no matter what, he would pick your line. That was the only reason too. It certainly wasnât because he couldnât stop thinking about you after your last conversation.Â
Sometimes you would take your breaks with him now, exhibiting that same forward nature from the alley, but it no longer annoyed him. Heâd tease you about whether or not that break was mandatory, but he looked forward to it all the same.
You talked about anything and everything, from where you were from, to Simon having to explain the delicate ins and outs of football to you. (He was pretty sure you were pushing him to have a heart attack by pretending you forgot a different detail every time you talked).
It was an unstated, but mutually understood, thing that your time together fulfilled something missing for both of you. For him it was cutting into his habit of cutting off socialization until he was back on base or a mission, and for you, it was a break from your relationship.
He liked to think that you looked forward to your talks as much as he did, if your expression every time you saw him was an indicator.Â
Unlike him, you were an open book, so you did most of the talking. Simon soaked up everything you told him, filing it away. You were funny, and fascinating.
On his end, he was careful about some of what he shared, and nervous about other things. He had more dark or restricted anecdotes than humourous or endearing ones, and he didnât want to bring you down. After all, you had more than enough of that to deal with.
The boyfriend. He was a nightmare of obsession and insecurity. It was perhaps your fourth break-hangout that Simon saw it completely for himself. Heâd all but dragged you out of your seat, which made Simon rise from his so quickly, it almost toppled over behind him. He wasnât unaware of his size, nor was he afraid to use it on the shorter man, but you assured him it was fine until he sat down.
Your boyfriend was panicking, wondering why you were keeping someone like him company. He wanted to know what it meant for the two of you, and Simon hated seeing you in an endless loop of begging the pathetic prick to believe you loved him. All of your humor and your cute little habits disappeared as he forced you to become a helicopter girlfriend, concerned only with his fears.
Simon decided then he would sway you away from him. He didnât deserve you, and Simon may not have known you long, but he couldnât stand to see you withering under him and his emotional blackmail. No one ever accused Simon of being sane.
You would be his, and that was the third thing Simon thought about you.
If he said so himself, he was slick about it. Heâd forgotten about the amount of energy it took to pursue a relationship with someone, and why he limited his romantic interactions to hookups with women he found interesting.
You werenât just interesting, he was fully infatuated with you by the time he started to actively move towards getting you away from that neurotic dumpster. You were worth the effort.
It started with seeing you outside of the cafe in a way that seemed natural. He thought about it for a while, before he settled on inviting you to a football game. He couldnât believe heâd worried that youâd say no, your âyesâ came out before he was even done asking.
You were impressed with his timing, confessing that the night before, your boyfriend had thoroughly embarrassed you at a party, and you needed a fun day.
Simon had smiled tightly all through your hurried explanation that everything was fine, and that he had apologized once you got home with him.
The day of the game, you were absolutely adorable when he picked you up. Giddily introducing him to your roommate. She eyed him with approval, and even congratulated you for trading up.
Before you could correct her, he slipped in his answer. âThat remains to be seen. Depends on if she embarrasses me at the game.â
You snorted, launching into that now familiar peal of giggles. âI promise I wonât. Now, which of these soccer teams is yours again? The Manfordshire Mermaids?â
âYou wanna ride there on the roof?â
The trip was a better investment than he thought. You were enthralled with what was going on, the hype of the crowd, the skill of the players, and just being there in person. However, you had to rely on him to translate this new world to you, and that left you literally clinging to him in interest. Simon was your whole world in that stadium, and he locked that feeling down tightly for motivation.
Step one had gone off without a hitch, and now it was on to step two.Â
Outings with you became a series. Simon encouraged as many as possible in order to trigger the response he wanted.
He knew it wouldnât be long until your boyfriend started getting antsy, and insecure again. You were going out twice as much as you had before you started hanging out with Simon outside of the cafe.
To push the matter, Simon told you his work schedule was getting hectic. It was a half truth, the training period before the announcement of a deployment had commenced, and Simon planned on having a girlfriend to come home to this time. Namely you.
He used the excuse to create later meetups. Dinners, movies, wandering the street and stumbling into things to do. All the while getting you hooked on his touch. Simon wasnât a touchy-feely person by nature, and this was something everyone who knew him picked up on quickly. You picked up on it too, but he wanted to touch you. He didnât though, at least not often.Â
Starting off with little touches that could be confused as an accident, he increased the pressure but kept the frequency low so you became addicted to his rare touches. He wanted you to feel special that someone like him indulged you in that way, so that youâd seek out more, even though HE was the one who felt blessed every time he felt your skin on his.
When you were together, he made sure things were about you. He didnât imagine your boyfriend left much room for that with his paranoia, but he wanted to show you what you were in for once you were together.Â
One night, Simon kept you out later than usual. Heâd stayed away from you for two weeks, which wasnât hard, work was starting to pick up. He couldâve carved out a day or two though, but he wanted to make you crave his time like he did yours.Â
It worked. He scheduled a late dinner at an upscale restaurant, letting you fill him in on all that he missed. Namely, you missed being with him. You werenât the type to keep your feelings to yourself, and youâd inevitably vented to your boyfriend about missing your friend. He didnât like that label at all, but he liked what would come from your actions.
Periodically throughout the dinner, your phone rang, increasing in frequency as the night wore on.Â
You had to excuse yourself multiple times, and Simon pretended to be annoyed. In reality, he anticipated that. Each time the phone rang, you cringed and looked at him apologetically.Â
On what had to be the tenth time, Simon said. âGo on then, run off to pamper the pathetic bastard. Powder his arse too this time.â
Your face screwed up in objection to his barbed words. âHeâs just worriedâŠâ
He shrugged. âDonât owe me an explanation lovie. Sâjust a mystery why youâre in such a rush to be a nursemaid.â
Rolling your eyes, you stood up from the table. âIâm in a rush to be a good girlfriend thank you. Stop being an ass, Iâll be back in a minute.â
âSâgo,â he downed the last of his bourbon before he pulled his wallet from his pocket. âIâll pay the tab and take you home.â
âWhat? Weâre supposed to have dessert, and then maybe a movie.âÂ
Simon watched your distressed body language and expression with mild amusement, and he was proud of being able to hide it, even though heâd forgone his mask that night. âYouâve gotta tuck in your kid. Sânot on me you wonât date a man.â
You pouted and sat back down. âIf I put my phone away, you put your wallet away. You promised me dessert.â
He smirked, refusing to hide it now. This was the first time, since heâd met you, that youâd ignored your boyfriend, and it said a lot.
You did it once, so Simon was able to turn it into a habit. Your boyfriend looked increasingly unhinged as Simon made sure you starved him of your attention.
The ugly voicemails and text messages began soon after. He didnât like that at all, and he had to remind himself the time to deal with your boyfriend would come, but he did appreciate that you were becoming less tolerant of him.Â
Every time you returned to Simon after having to soothe your boyfriendâs ego, and stop his tantrums, Simon made your life easier. He worshiped you in subtle ways, reminding you of what a man was, compared to a child.
There was guilt on your part, but it felt so good to be taken care of for once. To not have to worry about Simon bursting into a fit of insecurity that made you completely responsible for his feelings, and left little to no room for anything else.Â
When he touched you, it lit your nerve endings on fire. You knew that the touches were bordering on inappropriate, since you were still taken, but you also knew that your brain went numb with good vibrations with even just a brush of his fingertips.
Simon still kept it light, almost questionable as to whether it even happened, and you finally began to seek it out. Wearing backless tops so that his fingertips would brush your bare skin, sitting next to him in diner booths so a thick thigh was always brushing your own, going for things in high places so heâd steady you by your waist.
He never seemed to miss a beat on when and where to touch you, but it wasnât enough.
The breaking point came when he invited you to a dinner Price was holding as a goodbye to civilian life until next leave. The verbal invitation was the most valuable thing to you in a while. Not only because you were increasingly becoming addicted to him, but because for someone like Simon to invite you into that part of his life, it meant that he was in deep with you too.
All of Simonâs friends were funny, inviting, and very taken by you. They were so polite to you, complimenting you, and telling you as much as they could about their work, trying to impress you.
You were having fun trying to keep up, but you got the impression that Simon inviting a woman he was seeing to meet them was a new thing, and they didnât know the protocol.
You were surprised to find he went by Ghost in his field, and they were unused to hearing Simon. You shared how the two of you met, and how polite he wasnât in your first conversation, and they werenât surprised.
You were enjoying your time with them, the conversation never stopped, and you would venture to say Simon looked fond at times. Though, as each man became more flirtatious, his expression would change. It became an unspoken game between you and his team to try and make him speak up about it. He didnât take the bait.
Then came the topic of your boyfriend.
âCome now love, youâre a smart girl. Why do you wanna waste your time with that bellend?â - Price
âI donât ken what the situation here is, but if Ghost and the other one donât appreciate you, I promise I will.â Soap
âI had a girl once, who used to follow me in her friendâs car, sit outside my apartment, and call me from different phones to test me. Youâre fit as hell love, dump him.â - Gaz
 It was a little embarrassing, and you were slightly annoyed that Simon had told them, but your mind kept shortening it to âhe talked about me to his team.âÂ
During dinner, you excused yourself to the bathroom. While you were washing your hands, Simon slipped into the room, making you jump.
Your eyes met in the mirror, where Simon just glared.
âHave fun with the boys, bird?â
âHave fun broadcasting my business?â You raised an eyebrow, but your tone held no anger to it.
Simon chuckled, locking the door. âSânot my business is it?â
You swallowed hard, shaking your head slowly.
He trapped you between the sink and himself, hands locking onto the counter on either side of you.Â
âLetâs fix that.â His lips pressed to the pulse point on the side of your neck, speaking his command against it. âGet rid of him lovie, and come home where you belong.â
You tried to do just that, but for the first time that you could recall, your boyfriend wasnât taking your calls.
Simon watched you while he packed, tucked beneath his sheets where you belonged, bare. Itâd been a week since you took that next step in his captainâs guest bathroom, and youâd been trying to inform your ex he was now in fact, your ex.
You gingerly rolled over to face him, mindful of all the reminders that he loved you he left your body. âSi, heâs still not picking up. I donât want to do it over the phone, butâŠâ
âDonât get worked up. Maybe he got the message already...â
Kyle:
Heâd re-visited Chicago on his downtime, and met you in a club. Unknown to him at the time, your boyfriend had stood you up for the third time that month, and you decided not to waste the night. Itâd made you so free and enthralling to watch, he couldnât look away.
Gaz spent the entire night with you, glad heâd ignored the jet lag, even when you took him to all the best after-hours spots.
The only problem was your boyfriend, Keith, who Gaz personally believed formed in the bottom of a toilet, and sought life elsewhere. His team thought he was delusional, and/or giving you too much thought.
âYou hitting the States again then? Donât get in the kind of trouble that you canât get out of because youâre jealous.â - Price
âGarrick! Get your fuckinâ head off your cock, and on the exercise, before I shove my boot down your throat!â - Ghost (after he fumbled a training exercise twice)
Except for Soap, Soap backed his delusions %1,000. âShe let you charge your phone when hers needed it more? Thatâs wedding bells lad, and I wanna be best man.âÂ
Then there was the relentless teasing every time he spent his leave with you, but Gaz didnât care. He couldnât bother being embarrassed when you were waiting for him. Your grin was for him, your excited laughter was for him, and your hug was for him. The one he always held longer than friends do, his heart racing when you relaxed in his hold. Smirking when he felt your nose brush over chest quickly. You were sheepish when he grinned down at you, realizing what you were doing.
Youâd gotten him cologne on his first (date) daytime hangout with you. Youâd been strolling through the mall, Gaz trying to make you forget about the ugly scene heâd walked into between you and your boyfriend when he arrived at your place.
Youâd been so sad, and it didnât suit you at all. He just wanted to take you out of that environment, and let your real-self blossom again.
His hand brushed with yours, pinkies locking and unlocking so he could feel his stomach dip again and again.
He was able to slowly bring you back, into a little world of inside jokes and friendly culture clashes. Gaz fully had you back by the time he stopped in front of an expensive looking fragrance shop and said:
âYou know what? I need a new aftershave, but Iâm clueless about shopping for that stuff.â
âUh, aftershave?â youâd looked puzzled, peering into the store window. âDo they even sell that here?â
He let out a confused laugh, pointing at the bottles on the glass shelf. âWeâre looking at it, so Iâd guess yes.â
âYou mean cologne?â you gave him your first real smile since youâd gotten there, and Gaz forgave yet another correction in favor of it.
âGet in here, and help me find an aftershave.â
He proposed that you guys find the perfect scent for the other and buy it as a gift. The two of you spent the better part of thirty minutes teasing and sniffing each other. Every time Gaz lifted a part of your arm or wrist to his nose, he let his lips brush across your skin accidentally.
âKyyylee..â you whined every time, making him stir in the right places at the wrong time.Â
Eventually you both settled on something for the other, but Kyle slyly placed himself in the position of paying for both. The thought of you paying never having been a real thing in his mind.
âYouâll get it next time, love.â
He treasured that scent, youâd specifically picked it out for him, and heâd savored the look you gave him when youâd finally found it. Now he was in front of you again.
âYeah, itâs the one you bought me. Did me a good turn with that. I get compliments like they get paid to give âem.â
âWhoâs complimenting you?â you asked, your wince revealing itâd probably come out sharper than you meant for it to.
Gaz didnât mind, he liked you as jealous as he was.Â
He chuckled, reaching out to squeeze your hand. âJust..other girls with good taste.â
Your pout and sharp head turn went right on display in the mental gallery he had of you. He couldnât resist teasing you again.
âAre you wearing the one I picked.â he leaned down hovering just over your neck where he knew you could feel the soft puffs of breath on your neck. He heard your breath hitch when he hummed, confirming that you were.
âI am, and donât worry about whoâs complimenting it, since you have sooo many of your own.â
Gaz laughed as you yanked him after you with a huff. If he was delusional, you werenât helping.
This visit was going how he imagined it, and he intended to end it exactly that way too. Finally getting that bastard out of a picture he shouldâve never been a part of.Â
When clubbing, Kyle kept you close. You both loved to dance, and every song that came on seemed out to prove that your bodies were built to fit together like a puzzle.
He took an interest in your life, wanting to see what you got up to when he wasnât there. Youâd resisted, thinking itâd bore him. It did not.
 He enjoyed meeting your co-workers, and eating at the cafe you loved a block from your job. You even took him to spend an afternoon with your family. Every time he scored a point with them, you gave him this dreamy expression he was determined to see for the rest of his life.
When he suggested making plans with your friends, so they didnât feel like you were ignoring them while he was there, you were thrilled at how considerate he was, and he got the pleasure of overhearing you hype him up to your friends while you invited them out to do something.
It was you blocking your girlfriends every time one of them tried to push the flirtation with him too far, that let him know it was time.
He decided he would make his move when the two of you were having a movie night at your place. It wasnât ideal, because that piece of shit was lingering around the place. Kyle hated that you lived together, but wouldnât let that interfere. He had work to do.
âKyyyleee.â you giggled, dragging his name out the way he loved when he ran a finger down your cheek to your neck, complimenting your skin.
âJust admiring your skin routine. Youâve gotta share.â
Or, when he shivered, and you instinctively extended your blanket to him. He took it without question, trying not to think about all of the things you could do under a shared blanket. Although, your boyfriend walking in and out of the room, pretending he had things to get out of the kitchen, made the thought more enticing.
Youâd invited him to watch in earnest, and heâd just cut you down in a way that made Kyle quickly remind him he was in your apartment, because heâd lost his job, and had nowhere else to go. That youâd sweetly taken him in, and that he should remember that.
He enjoyed kicking him down while raising you up.
Your boyfriend finally just sat at the kitchen table in the dark, fuming. The living room was visible to him from there, but Kyle was glad to have him as an audience to him reminding you of your worth.
You two exchanged snacks and commentary, easily ignoring the unwanted third party.
âNo offense love, but beer here is straight piss.â
You laughed, stealing one of the cookies left on his plate. âBeer tastes like that in general.â
âHow would you know? Youâve never been anywhere.â your boyfriend snapped at you nastily, from where heâd been glaring at the two of you for an hour. âAnd why don't you go back to jolly old England if you hate it so much?â
Gaz lazily rolled his head in his direction, body language shouting how much he didnât respect him. âMate, youâre being a right prick right now. Itâs not like you bought the beer, or anything else youâve been shoving in that hole.â
Your boyfriend leapt to his feet, fast enough to knock over the chair. âCome over here and repeat that teacup.â
âBlud, thatâs not what you want.â
âKyle donât, heâs just drunk and embarrassed. Ignore him when heâs like this.â you quickly passed a hand over the back of his, but he just gave you a soft smile instead.Â
âThatâs his problem, he embarrassed himself. Why donât you go in the back and find something to do.â He was so effortlessly dismissive, that your boyfriend mistook this for being unprepared to fight.
Kyleâs one rule for his plan was that he wouldnât physically handle your boyfriend unless he got physical with you. Heâd planned to show you how you should be loved, and let a smart girl like you do the rest. That went out the window.
He kept it clean, the other man was stocky, but didnât stand a chance against his training. If you hadnât been there, he mightâve taken it further, grinding his hatred of him into harsher blows. Instead, he gave him quick, almost surgically effective, blows to put him down. He was too intoxicated and unskilled to retaliate.Â
âSee, he just needed a nap.â Gaz tried to lighten the mood.
âIâm so embarrassed,â you whispered. âI donât know why heâs always like this now. He didnât use to be. I just want this to stop.â
Kyle shushed you, crossing the room to pull you into his arms. âYou donât have to be embarrassed. Youâve been dealing with this for too long.â
âIâm so tired.â you admitted, clutching his soft shirt, and inhaling his scent (your scent, that you gave him) that made your eyes roll back in your head. He was so solid, warm, and a darker word popped into your mind, âmine.â
âYouâve been so good to everyone, too good. Let me take care of you.â he whispered, hands roaming from your lower back to cup your ass.
He heard the hybrid of a whimper-moan, and it had him at attention before you were done.
âIâd be just like himâŠâ you trailed off weakly.
âThatâs not possible.â He lowered his lips to yours, giving you the first kiss from him that couldnât possibly be mistaken as platonic. You kissed back without any hesitation, not even willing to pull away when he started to lead you to the back. To your room.
Hate him as he did, Gaz noted somewhere in his mind how dark the scenario was. The location, and situation, in which he was about to fulfill the second-to-last step of his plan was kind of fucked.
He cupped your jaw in both hands,âBabeâŠwe can go back to my room at the hotel.â
He didnât want to. He wanted to erase any trace of him here, starting in your room. He wanted you everywhere he could have you in the apartment, and he wanted him to come to just enough to hear it.
âMakes no sense. Too far. Here.â you murmured, pupils blown wide.Â
Gaz didnât need to be told twice. You were barely able to string a sentence together, and it was top three one of the hottest things heâd ever heard.
âYes ma'am.âÂ
Kyle didnât doubt youâd complete the final step in the morning, and officially dump the forgotten man on the floor.
Johnny:
You and Johnny met through social media. He thought you were gorgeous and, being John âSoapâ MacTavish, couldnât leave your profile without letting you know. Though he threw in some playful critique.
You responded with a thanks, and a challenge for him to do the picture better. It resulted in a months-long photo battle that quickly became a real friendship.
Late phone calls, video calls, and constant strings of texting built a whole world between the two of you.Â
You were the highlight of his day sometimes, especially when heâd been gone awhile. You helped him reconnect with the world after shutting it out to defend it.
The only problem was your boyfriend. Johnny prided himself on being able to get along with all kinds of people. It was just in his nature. Hate was so rarely felt by him, that he always had trouble identifying it when he felt it.Â
He felt hate for your boyfriend, and it didnât take him long to figure that out. He thought he didnât deserve you. He was always talking to you reckless, like he didnât have the most beautiful woman in the world in his life. Johnny wouldnât talk to you like that, he wouldnât have time to even consider it for all the worshiping of you heâd be doing.Â
Heâd cheated, only to make you feel like that was on you, and you took him back.Â
When Johnny heard your pained sobs for the first time, heâd been halfway through texting Simon to ask for help with a dark favor before he was able to talk himself down.
It was then Johnny realized how much youâd come to mean to him, and that only made him hate your boyfriend more.
Your conversations ranged from anything to everything, but they always ended with you venting, and Johnny comforting. He didnât mind it, in fact, most times he initiated it.
He realized, he must mean a good deal to you too, because you got all your comfort from him. Johnnyâs thoughts mattered to you, and you sought his advice all the time. He hated what for, but he loved that you did.
âHe didnât even like the dress Johnny. I told him you thought of it, and he accused me of wanting to wear it for you.â your screen shook violently as you stomped into your bedroom, sending said garment sailing through the air.
âMâsorry to hear that. I meant what I said when you showed it to me in the shop. Any guy that doesnât lose it to you in that dress deserves to be committed.â
You sniffed, choking out a humorless chuckle. âIâm glad you liked it at least.â
âOh, you donât ken how much sweetheart. In fact, put it on for me again.â
Six months into the friendship, he convinced you to come visit him in Scotland. Youâd been having more trouble with your boyfriend than usual, living with him didnât exactly give you a lot of places to take a breather.
Once Johnny confirmed he hadnât hurt you physically, heâd switched to coaxing you into coming to see him for a couple of weeks.
âCâmon bonnie, Iâve been stateside more times than I can count. You havenât been here once.â He watched you do your bedtime routine, as the sun came up in the windows behind him.
He loved how despite being countries away, the moment felt as intimate as if you were with him. In his home, getting ready to come to bed with him. Except if you were, heâd tell you not to bother brushing your hair. Youâd just have to do it again later.
You laughed as you ran a comb through your hair. âItâs not like you came here for me Johnny. We didnât even know each other the last time you were here.â
âSoâŠyouâll return the favor later. Be my pretty tour guide.â
You wound up in Scotland barely a week later. A suitcase full of clothes haphazardly thrown into it.
âI donât even know what I packed, it's a mess!âÂ
Cue Johnny, who canât quit hugging you, and they feel less and less platonic. âDonât worry âbout it bon. Iâll find somewhere for it all to go.â
Somewhere turns out to be designated drawers and shelves, that heâd cleared in advance, for your clothes and bath products. Johnny putting them away himself like the simp for you he is. All the while distracting you from stating how you wouldnât be there long, and you donât need all that space.Â
âWeâll see.â
Johnny had been coaxing less and less innocent behaviors out of you all week, and just worshiping you when he wasnât. You were a worked up hybrid of desperation, and restored self-confidence. It was addictive, and you started to lean into Johnnyâs touches and kisses. You pretended you didnât hear his murmured dirty statements so heâd have to try again and again.
It came to a head when you finally accepted a video call from your pathetic boyfriend.Â
You were in Johnnyâs living room, wearing his favorite football jersey, with him behind you, absolutely refusing to make himself scarce. You didnât want to take the call anyway, but Johnny convinced you itâd be good for closure.
Your boyfriend started going off, yelling about how you didnât respect him or your relationship, and demanding that âyou bring your ass homeâ.
âThe thing of it is lad, thereâs not really anything about this relationship to respect.â Johnny slipped around to your side, tilting your head up to press his lips to yours.Â
You hummed in surprise, but all of his gentle touches and sweet kisses over the week had you pliant. You immediately responded, squeezing his arm when he slipped his tongue into your mouth as a tease.
He pulled away, looking way too smug, and looking all the more impossibly-handsome for it. âSay bye to your ex-boyfriend then bon. The rest of this isnât for him.â
You gurgled something like goodbye as you slammed the lid on your laptop, attention still fully on Johnny.
John Price:
Price thought your fiance should crawl in a fire and stay there. Yeah. He wasnât ashamed.
The man was garbage, and hardly worth you giving him a glance, let alone this much sacrifice. Youâd moved countries for him, happy to make your home with him because of his job. He treated it as though that shouldâve been a given.
Thatâs how Price had gotten to know you. You lived in the apartment across the hall from him, and the first moment you smiled at him, John was a goner.
You introduced yourself with a smile, your pretty little hand extended out towards him. Heâd stood there, wishing he hadnât worn his ratty sweatshirt with his old football team logo in fading letters. You looked gorgeous, hair framing your face, slightly out of breath from lugging in your things.
Heâd stumbled in his mind until he finally remembered proper social protocol. âPriceâŠCaptain John.â He cleared his throat. âCaptain John Price.â
Your mouth formed an âoâ, you were visibly intrigued.âCaptain? Youâre in the military.â
âYes.âÂ
âWellâŠthank you for your service.âÂ
Normally, John didnât react to that line as expected. Heâd heard it enough times to wish he had a pound for every time, but that was about it. He didnât do his job for thanks, and sometimes felt they shouldnât be for him anyways.
Coming from you however, it was different. He had the reaction he knew most people wanted. He knew from the heat in his cheeks and the tips of his ears, they were red.
Your fiancĂ©, whoâd appeared in the doorway behind you, stole his chance to answer.
âYeah, thanks or whatever. (Y/N), come in here and figure out where you want your hair crap to go. Iâm just going to toss it anywhere in a moment.â
âOh, you couldâve just put it under the sink.âÂ
âYou should be getting ready anyways, we have a dinner engagement.â He adjusted his shirt cuffs, eyeing John like he was picturing ways he could kill him.
John wanted to see him try just one.
âBye John,â you gave a wave, a soft smile on your lips. âIâll see you.â
You disappeared inside, leaving the two men in a stare down. There was a silent conversation at play, what your fiancé wanted to say was stated without a word. How much John cared about that was conveyed in the same manner.
Your fiancĂ© broke first, slamming the door behind him.Â
âWeâll see if Iâll stay away.â He muttered, going into his own place.
Over that first month, you two got to know each other well. Your fiance was often at work, and you turned to John with your questions as you tried to settle into your new home. You had no one else there, and even though John had planned to decompress in complete isolation, he couldnât do that to you. Didnât have a part of his being that wanted to.Â
However, as John got to know you, he got to know your fiance too. Enough to know if he was ever going to murder someone outside of work, itâd be him.
It started with small things like what takeout you should go for, or which grocery store did he use? It seemed your fiance was useless.
One day, you needed help putting together your beauty table. Youâd come to John, clearly embarrassed, and something told him youâd debated on asking him for a while. Your fiance refused, because you hadnât paid attention when you were checking out, and didnât select the construction help option.
âYouâve gotta be fuckinâ kidding me love. You mean to tell me that he never made a mistake?â John was already coming out of his apartment, ready to help.
âItâs stupid, but I donât feel like arguing with him over it. Weâre in an ok place right now.â you laughed awkwardly, leading him inside.
âOk probably isnât a place you want to be when youâre headed for the church.â it came out of his mouth before he could think about how it wasnât his place.
He was so used to being blunt, and dealing out cold, hard facts or opinions. It always took him a minute to readjust to what was appropriate, but by then he was back on duty.
You looked stunned, clearly not expecting that from him. Your arms crossed defensively, giving him a side glance while you mulled over responding.Â
He meant what he said, but he never wouldâve delivered it to you that way, or at all, if he had thought two seconds more.
ââM sorry. Itâs really not my place is it?â he gestured to the back of the apartment. âWhere do you need me?â
There were many more opportunities to spend time with you, and with them, opportunities to point out the toxicity he was seeing. It wasnât in Johnâs nature to ignore obvious problems, he got paid to do the opposite. He had to resign himself every time so he didnât upset you.
With every time he gave you directions, or answered a local cultural difference that confused you, you two lingered in each otherâs presence a little longer. He wasnât going to spoil that.Â
Your requests started to leave the territory of furniture building and directions, and started to cross more into trying a new recipe, and how you could do better at fitting into your new home. Your conversations started to get deeper, more information about each other being shared.
There were times where you dropped off food, having made too much, or your fiance didnât want what you cooked. John loved your cooking as it was, he normally lived off whatever he could grab and nuke, but he threw in extra enthusiasm for spite and your pretty smile.Â
Sometimes John found reasons to come over to your place.Â
âShare a cake love? Donât get excited, I picked it up at the shops.â âJust bringing back your bowl.â âI can take a look at that window if maintenance is still laying about.â
And without fail, you made him stay every time. You got lonely, and you still knew very few people in the area outside of him. Your fiance didnât seem to care, he felt heâd set you up with plenty of friends in his circle. John called them posh knobheads, and you couldnât agree more. You had nothing in common with them, and you always wound up back with John to vent.
He found it easier to talk to you than he had anybody else, and from the never ending conversation between you two, he guessed you felt the same. The topic of the nature of your relationship was verboten, but that was fine by him. By that point, he was more interested in making you forget you even had a fiance. He really hadnât even made an effort to do it, it just tilted that way, and he leaned into it.
You werenât exactly stopping his flirtatious comments, in fact, you seemed to light up in ways he hadnât seen until then.
Then came the outings. As your fiance got more negligent, you got bolder. It started with you taking a chance to invite John to a movie when you two bumped into each other in the mailroom. He couldnât remember the last time heâd gone to the cinema, and he couldnât say what was playing if someone held a gun to his head, but âdonât see why notâ fell out of his mouth with no resistance.
Then it was shopping together, or you dragging him to a museum and him bullshitting his art knowledge to make you laugh. He didnât normally spend his time off being this active socially. He decompressed, and prepared for the next assignment. Maybe heâd meet a woman at a pub and bang out some release before getting back into formation.
Heâd wondered if he would regret doing things differently on his next deployment, but that stopped the first time someone mistook the two of you for a couple. That alone wouldâve been enough for him to keep his delusions (that he definitely did not have) going, but it was the fact that you didnât correct them. It happened again, and if he thought he imagined things, he hadnât. You never corrected the person, just gave a coy smile and accepted the compliment.
Well if you didnât, he certainly wasnât going to.
The final time that John could say he only found you attractive, instead of wanting you completely, youâd come to him to ask him if he could drive you to a little farmerâs market outside of the city. Things hadnât been going well with you and your fiance.
You didnât have to tell John, he could attest to that himself. Heâd heard your arguments in his place, and between the noise level, and trying to make sure it didn't go to a place where you werenât safe, he wasnât getting much sleep.
Your plan was to cook your fiance a favorite meal from his childhood, using nothing but farm fresh ingredients. You figured that all you needed to get things on track was a quiet night in, focused on reminding each other why you were engaged. John nearly bit through his tongue to keep himself from bringing up the fact that it seemed the workload on maintaining the relationship fell solely on your shoulders.
Instead, he shoved his bucket hat on his head, and lied about needing to head out that way anyways.
The car ride started out quiet on his part, with you filling in the conversation. Price may have flexed his fingertips in jealousy more times than he could count, but you were so goddamn beautiful when you were excited. It almost hurt to look at you head on, so he gave you side glances to show he was listening.
At the market, your excitement didnât die down. In fact, it turned into infectious playfulness. You two teased each other, engaged in playful scams to get more samples, and dared each other to come up with crazier and crazier stories about yourselves for the owner of each stall you visited.
Price would die twice before he admitted that he imagined you were on a date a couple times during the day. You never brought your fiance up, and he had to remind you to check your grocery list more than once.
It was late afternoon when you returned to the car, laden with goodies and constructing inside jokes. John was enjoying his time with you so much, he almost forgot he had to tell you he was shipping out the following week. He didnât know if youâd care so much as to need an announcement in advance, but he felt he should.
 He was worried about you, and he would think of you wherever he was bound to wind up, hoping youâd come to your senses and leave the garbage behind. Of course, heâd miss youâŠand he certainly wasnât under any delusion that when youâd taken out the trash, maybe youâd consider him.
âWhyâre you so quiet?â youâd squeezed his bicep to get his attention, and he instinctively pushed his arm into your hands, encouraging the touch.
It was quiet for a moment, before you slowly uncurled your fingertips, and placed your hands in your lap. His face flooded with embarrassed warmth.Â
Had he gone too far by leaning into the physical?
Price white-knuckle-gripped the steering wheel, swallowing down what he thought was a rejection he had no right to be hurt about, and cleared his throat. âRight. Iâm heading out next week, and it wonât be short. Just thought you should know.â
Whatever reaction he expected from you, it wasnât the one you gave.
âWhat?â You placed a hand on your chest, and then rolled your eyes. âWell thatâs great.â
John gave you a bewildered expression, and it must've shown, because you quickly straightened up and faced forward.Â
âI donât know about great, but it is my job. The one I was quite clear about when we first met.â
âPull over.â you said so quickly, he wasnât even sure youâd heard his response.
âWhat? Why? Are you feeling il-â
âNo..just..please.â you gestured to the side of the road.
He obliged, brows drawn tight and carrying all of his questions. âYour boy is going to be home soon, and we still have a bit of a drive ahead of us. What-â
âI wanted to come here because of you.â you breathed out, still facing forward, your posture almost impossibly rigid.
âMe? Youâre not making much sense (Y/N).âÂ
You huffed, and when you turned to him, your expression took his breath away. In that moment he could read every thought you were thinking, and it wouldâve bowled him over if he wasnât sitting.
He felt electricity beneath his skin, the feeling he got any time he was about to do something drastic and dangerous.
It was the little hidden thing in your eyes that he couldnât place that gave him pause.
âI came here, because I wanted to get away with you for today. I needed to.â you turned your whole body to him. âI donât give a fuck about fresh ingredients for him, he probably wonât eat it anyways.â
You huffed, rolling your eyes. âWe agreed to start over. And Iâm going to try, I really am, butâŠI still canât stop feeling need.â
In the looming silence, all John could do was scratch his beard, and try not to look as stupid as he was sure he did. He knew what you were saying, what you were toeing at, but surely you were just venting. You couldnât-
âSânot right love.â Now it was his turn to look ahead. âNot for him, fuck him. For you. Youâre upset and youâre scared, and you're raw.â
âAnd I need this.â you breathed. âIf youâre trying to protect me, stop. If you donât want me in that way..ok, Iâm a big gi-â
âOooh,â his voice came from deep in his chest, baritone thrumming through the car. âThatâs not it. I promise you, thatâs.not.it.â
Your fingertips gently pulled his face in your direction. âYouâre leaving meâŠand when you get back things are going to have to be different.â
There it was. John swallowed, hard.Â
âIâm being selfish, but..I thought Iâd have a little more time with you before..â Your eyes watered. âItâd be one thing if you really were just my friend, but thatâs not right is it?â
John wiped at your eyes with his thumb before cupping his cheek in his hand. âNo, itâs not.â
âJust one time.â
It was a struggle to say no to you, and that didnât stop now. He pulled your mouth to his, hands gripping your shoulders in a subconscious effort to prove this was happening. You were in front of him, kissing him back as hard as he was kissing you.
He unbuckled you, and pulled you into his lap, sliding the seat back.Â
âIâm gonna miss you.â you were crying now, and neither one of you did anything about the tears.
His hands cupped the back of your head, fingers gently threading through your hair. âOh, sweet girl. Why didnât you meet me sooner?â
What transpired after was the most bittersweet moment he could recall. He had heartbreaks and troubled relationships before, but heâd never had to have a breakup with a woman he wasnât sure heâd been seeing in the first place, but knew that he loved.
He took you twice in his car, before finally, the two of you could no longer ignore the setting sun and had to return home.
John remembered why he preferred to take a girl somewhere quickly, and then spend the rest of his leave in solitude, occasionally seeing a trusted friend. It wasnât as fulfilling as what he had with you, but it didnât hurt this deeply either.
He sat in his apartment for hours after he watched you disappear into your own. He didnât even bother turning on a light when it got too dark, he just sat there, continuing to contemplate how things had gotten to be such a mess. How could he continue to pride himself on being the logical leader he thought he was, when heâd made such a mess of himself so quickly?
How was he supposed to forget you? How was he supposed to forget that he loved you, and that you loved him with another manâs ring on your finger?
The thought of seeing you, carrying your fianceâs child, and looking miserable during what shouldâve been one of the happiest times of your life made Price leap from the couch. That familiar electricity raising every hair on his person to a point.
He didnât know what he was doing, or what he was going to say, but he was moving like heâd planned it for months.
When he stepped into the hall, he paused.
You were sitting on the plush hall couch, eyes puffy, with a death grip on a pyrex dish. Your hair was perfectly styled, and you were wearing a low-cut silken dress that made him want to fall to his knees now that he knew what lay beneath. Your eyes widened at the sight of him, trying to curb your sniffles.
âI was right, he wouldnât eat it. He got mad and left.â
âYou shouldâve made him wear it instead.â Johnâs fist clenched at his side, itching to do what he wanted from the moment he first saw him get short with you.
You shook your head, rising to your feet. âI donât blame him this time. I didnât make it for him, anymore than I shopped for it with him in mind, and I told him so.â
You held up the dish, and John saw it was his favorite. His idea of a perfect Sunday roast in one pot. Your meaning was clear.
âI just kept thinking, it shouldnât be this hard. I mean, it shouldnât be, right?â you stepped forward.
âNo, it shouldnât be.â He also took a step forward.
âItâs not that way with you.â Another step.
âI would hope not.â he also took another step
You stopped when all that separated the two of you was the dish.
âSo this belongs to me then?â he was staring at the dish, but his hands gently grasped your wrists.
You, however, were looking directly at him when you breathed out. âYes.â
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JJK Men: Dreaming about you after your death
· â Even months later after your tragic death by a cursed spirit, they still dream of that terrible day.
àč Featuring: Satoru Gojo, Suguru Geto, Kento Nanami, Choso Kamo, Toji Fushiguro and Ryomen Sukuna.
àč Content: Fem!Reader, established relationship, angst, A LOT of angst (*evil laugh*), mention of panic crisis (Choso)
àč a/n: I enjoyed writing this so much, even though it was really sad. Ah, unlike the others, Sukuna didn't have a dream but rather flashbacks, you will understand when you read.
âžșă
€GOJO
Gojo woke up startled, trying to grasp something that was no longer there. He barely noticed he was already crying when he woke up, the eyes you used to love and appreciate were now crying for your absence. That man who once laughed and smiled genuinely by your side had once again lost the reason to laugh and smile truly. Gojo sincerely couldn't bear to maintain that facade of a strong sorcerer, physically and mentally. He was tired, he was alone. He promised, he promised to protect you, but he failed. Now he promises that, one day, he will find you again, but for now he would just embrace the clothes you used to wear to feel your scent while he cries. Unfortunately, those clothes were already losing your scent.
âžșă
€GETO
Geto absolutely refused to accept what had happened. He convinced himself that you would suddenly walk through the door with that smile he loves so much. He would wait however long it took for that to happen, but deep down, he knew it would never come true. That's why Geto woke up already staring directly at the door. In the dream, you walked through that door smiling, just as he had been imagining lately. It seemed so real that he could swear he smelled your scent. But the scent didn't actually come from you; it came from the stuffed animal you cherished, which Geto now slept beside every night to catch a glimpse of you being with him.
âžșă
€NANAMI
Nanami had just returned from work. Sitting on the couch, he ended up dozing off and had that same repetitive dream about you. The day he proposed to you was certainly one of the most memorable days in Nanami's life. But that dream always ends with that cursed spirit sneaking up from behind and dragging you away from Nanami. Kento always screams and tries to run towards you, but for some reason, he never moves from his spot. Nanami opened his eyes, staring at the ceiling for a few minutes before sighing. He glanced down at his own hand, where he still wore the engagement ring on his finger. He wouldn't dare take it off for anything, even though you're no longer physically there with him, even if the image of you looking beautiful in a white dress is now nothing more than a dream never realized.
âžșă
€CHOSO
Choso woke up totally bewildered, panting, and in a panic. He sat on the bed while looking around, processing where he was and searching for you, but found nothing, nothing but a photo of you next to the bed. Choso couldn't take it anymore, couldn't bear to have so many panic attacks for not being able to save you that day, he wasn't there to protect you as he had promised. He failed you, and it tore him apart. He hated having to deal with these daily crises; Choso knew it was exhausting to help him in these moments, he hated worrying others. But the moment he promised to avenge you, he would fulfill it, even if it cost him his own life.
âžșă
€TOJI
Toji woke up slowly, taking a moment to fully open his eyes due to the brightness and gradually realizing that everything he had witnessed was just a dream. In this dream, he saw you humming softly a song he already knew entirely because of you, but before he could touch you, he woke up. Toji realized he wasn't in the place he used to call home, it wasn't a home without you. He was in another one of the places he rented to spend the night. Going back to that house no longer made sense without you to welcome him with your sweet kisses and bright smile. Toji completely lost his way, delving back into the bad paths you fought so hard to steer him away from, but you were no longer there to stop him. He no longer cared about himself.
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Sukuna closed his eyes for a few minutes when he had the vision of your face in your last moments of life, the life he himself made a point of taking, just as he had promised from the moment he first found you. For some reason, the image of your face wouldn't leave his mind anymore, and he hated it. He hated how you looked at him so tired and exhausted from everything, just accepting what was to come, how you seemed so vulnerable and fragile. No, that wasn't right. Sukuna opened his eyes as he clenched his fists, digging his nails into the palm of his hand, while frustration flowed from within him. He should have been satisfied for having fulfilled what he promised, but no, he was dissatisfied, frustrated, and didn't know if it was because you didn't even try to fight him and just accepted your end, or if it was because he had really ended you. It made no sense to him, but still, it ate away at him.
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Craving physical touch from your mate (established relationship with Azriel)
The day had been long, and though you were surrounded by people, laughter, and conversation, there was an ache inside you that no amount of company could soothe. It was a deep, gnawing need that only one person could fill. You missed Azriel. Not just his presence, but his touchâthe way his arms could wrap around you, his shadows curling in and creating a safe cocoon of warmth and security.
You found yourself pacing the house, your fingers grazing over the soft fabric of the sofa, the cold glass of the windows, as if searching for something, for *him.* He wasnât farâyou knew he was in Velaris, but busy with some mission or meeting. Still, the bond you shared hummed with a soft, steady pulse, always present, always there. But tonight, it wasnât enough.
You craved himâhis warmth, his touch, the way he held you like nothing in the world mattered except the two of you.
Unable to take it anymore, you reached out through the bond, sending a soft but desperate pulse of longing. You didnât want to interrupt him, but you needed him, even if it was just through the connection of your minds.
Almost immediately, you felt his presence flicker to life in your mind, the familiar warmth of his shadows curling around your thoughts. *Whatâs wrong, love?* His voice was low, a soft whisper of concern threading through the bond. He had sensed the depth of your need before you could even form the words.
*I need you, Az,* you whispered through the bond, your voice thick with emotion. *I need to feel you. I donât know why, but I just⊠I need to be held by you right now.*
You felt the shift in his emotionsâan immediate response, protective and loving, as if your need ignited something in him. *Iâm on my way,* he said, no hesitation in his voice.
You knew he would drop everything to come to you. Azriel wasnât one to ignore the bond, especially when you called to him like this, your heart aching for him. You smiled softly, already feeling the warmth of his promise wash over you. But even so, you still felt the emptiness of his absence in the present moment.
*Iâm almost there, love. Just hold on for me.*
The minutes that passed felt like an eternity, but you focused on the connection between you two, the bond that pulsed with the love and protection he always offered. And then, just when the ache in your chest was becoming unbearable, you heard the soft sound of wings in the distance.
You rushed to the door, flinging it open just as Azriel landed softly on the ground, his dark wings stretching wide before folding behind him. His hazel eyes locked onto yours, filled with concern and understanding.
âAzriel,â you whispered, the relief in your voice so palpable it almost broke you.
Without another word, he crossed the threshold, sweeping you into his arms in one swift motion. His embrace was warm, strong, and all-encompassing. His shadows danced around you both, cocooning you in their gentle caress as his hands wrapped tightly around your waist, pulling you as close as possible.
You melted into him, your face pressed against his chest, inhaling the familiar, calming scent of him. His hand came up to cradle the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your hair, while the other held you securely against him, as though he was trying to mold you to his very being.
âIâve got you,â he murmured, his deep voice vibrating through his chest, the sound as soothing as the feeling of his arms around you. âIâm here.â
Tears pricked your eyes, not from sadness, but from the overwhelming sense of safety and comfort that always came with being in Azrielâs embrace. His wings shifted, curling slightly around you, offering you even more warmth and protection.
âI missed you,â you whispered against his chest, your voice barely audible. âI just needed you so badly.â
âI know, love,â he murmured, his voice soft and filled with understanding. He pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your head, his lips lingering there as he held you tighter. âI felt it.â
His shadows curled around you like a second pair of arms, soothing the parts of you even his touch couldnât reach. And as you stood there, wrapped up in him, the ache in your heart began to ease. The world outside faded away, and all that mattered was the two of you, locked in this quiet, tender moment.
âIâm not letting go,â he whispered, his breath warm against your ear. âNot until you feel better.â
You nodded, not trusting your voice, your arms tightening around his waist as if to confirm you didnât want him to ever let go. In his embrace, you felt whole againâhis presence the balm to every unspoken hurt, every ache you couldnât put into words.
For now, this was all you needed. Azriel. His touch, his warmth, and the silent promise that he would always be there when you needed him most.
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love language by sza
âhelp me understand how you speak your love language â
pairing: Max Verstappen x Y/N reader
part 1/2 next part
word count: 2,823
summary: a girlfriend of a successful f1 driver decides to learn Dutch to better understand her boyfriends worldâhis culture, his emotions, and the language he speaksâhoping to connect more deeply and navigate the complexities of their high-speed, high-pressure relationship.
note: first time writing a fan fiction so be nice please! i donât know how to work tumblr to the fullest so if you want to requests anything, message it to me! this will be in two parts! please leave comments so i know im doing something right!!
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Out of all the unexpected turns her life had taken, learning another language was never on Y/N's radar. Yet, here she was, grappling with the complexities of Dutch, staring at her laptop screen during a Zoom call with her tutor, Anne. They had been chatting frequently, especially while Max was off competing in a grueling triple-header race weekend.
Before he left, Y/N had noticed the shadow of frustration in Max's eyes, a rare shift from his usually upbeat demeanor. It wasnât lost on herâor anyone, really. The weight of the seasonâs challenges had begun to press down on him, making his once confident posture seem a little more hunched, his usual optimism now clouded by self-doubt. Everyone could see it. With the way the season had started, Max had envisioned triumph. But now, in October, his hopes felt distant. He hadnât clinched a victory since June, and every reminder of that fact only seemed to add to his frustration. Y/N wished she could lift that burden, even if just for a moment.
In an attempt to brighten his spirits, she decided to do something special for himâa gesture that would help him escape the pressure he was under. The very day he departed, Y/N found herself scouring the internet, searching for someone who could teach her some basic Dutch. Max, ever the romantic, had always whispered sweet phrases in his native tongueâwhether it was giving her a compliment or simply wishing her a good morning. And though she often required translations, Y/N thought, Why not learn the language myself? It couldnât be that difficult, right?
And so, here she was, earnestly trying to master the phrase âI love you, handsomeâ in Dutch, yet somehow fumbling over the words.
âY/N, your pronunciation is getting better, but you need to keep practicing,â Anne encouraged from the other side of the screen, her fingers dancing over her keyboard. The rhythmic sound of her typing seemed to fill the space between them, as if punctuating her words with gentle encouragement. âHave you taken my advice and started watching shows in Dutch? Immersing yourself in the language will really help you improve, especially with those tricky pronunciations.â
Y/N leaned back in her chair, crossing her arms, and stared at the screen, her lips pressing together as she tried to hold back the exhaustion creeping in. She had been working hard at thisâbetween the classes, the practice, the late nights watching Dutch shows, and the constant racing schedule with Max, it was all starting to feel like a lot. âYeah, Iâve been talking to the TV like itâs my best friend,â she said with a small, self-deprecating chuckle, her voice sounding a bit weary. âThe characters probably think Iâm crazy by now. But, you know, I think Iâm making progress? Or at least I hope I am.â
Anneâs eyebrows raised in an encouraging way. âWell, thatâs the spirit! The more you immerse yourself, the more natural it will feel. Dutch can be tricky, especially with its sounds, but youâre not giving up, and thatâs what matters.â
Y/N exhaled slowly, rubbing her temples. It had been one of those daysâbetween working on the language and managing the quiet space Max left behind when he was away, the weight of it all was starting to wear on her. âI donât know... I keep stumbling over the same words, Anne. Like, I feel like Iâm so close to getting it, but then I hear myself speak Dutch, and it just sounds... off. Iâm trying, but itâs hard to know if Iâm really improving.â
Anne smiled gently from the screen, as though she understood exactly where Y/N was coming from. âThatâs completely normal. Language learning isnât a straight path. There are ups and downs, but the key is to be patient with yourself. Remember, itâs not about perfectionâitâs about progress. Youâre already doing so much more than most people would.â
âI guess so.â Y/Nâs voice softened, her eyes drifting away for a moment, lost in thought. âI just wish I could see it, you know? Max always speaks so fluently, and when he says something sweet in Dutch, it sounds so effortless. I want to understand it all, to be able to speak with him like that without stumbling or needing translations.â
Anne nodded, her face sympathetic. âI get that. You want to connect with him in the language thatâs so familiar to him, and thatâs a beautiful thing. But donât forget, language is just one part of communication. Max will appreciate your effort no matter where you are in your learning. Itâs about the intention, the heart behind it. And besides, if youâre working hard at it, heâll see that.â
Y/N let out a small sigh, leaning forward in her chair and running a hand through her hair. âI just want him to know how much Iâm trying. I know itâs hard for him when the season gets tough, and I want to be able to understand him better, not just the words, but how heâs feeling... especially when he gets frustrated. I want to be able to share those moments with him in his language.â She looked back up at Anne, a mixture of fatigue and determination in her eyes. "But it's like I'm still learning a whole new world, Anne. It's a lot to take in."
Anneâs expression softened even more. âLearning a language is like learning a new way to see the world. And youâre doing it for the right reasons. Max will notice that. Even if you donât think youâre where you want to be yet, heâs going to appreciate your effort, your commitment to him and to his language. And youâre already showing him that you care in ways most people wouldnât.â
Y/N gave a faint smile, feeling the weight of Anneâs words settle into her. She took another deep breath, her gaze flickering back to the screen. âI hope so. Iâm doing this for him, and... for me, too. Itâs just hard to see the progress sometimes when youâre so deep in it.â
âWell, keep at it, Y/N,â Anne encouraged again, her voice gentle but firm. âThe progress is there, even when you canât see it. And remember, when Max comes back, youâll have a whole new way of connecting. Thatâs something special. Now, how about we wrap up for today, and next time, we focus on a few of those tricky sounds youâve been stumbling over?â
Y/N nodded, the exhaustion beginning to fade as she felt a renewed sense of determination wash over her. "Yeah, letâs do that. Thanks, Anne. Really."
Anne smiled warmly, her tone softening. âGood night, Y/N. Youâre doing great. Keep going, and keep believing in yourself.â
With that, the call ended, leaving Y/N in the quiet of her room. As the screen went dark, she sat still for a moment, letting Anneâs words settle into her. She still had a long way to go with Dutch, but now, she felt a little less weighed down by it all. She stood up from the desk, stretched, and with a deep breath, made her way to the kitchen. There was more to learn, yes, but she could do it. For Max. And for herself
This had become her routine for the past few weeksâimmersing herself in a new language while navigating the emotional ups and downs of Max's racing career. Each night flowed into the next, filled with lessons and the hope that her efforts would spark joy in him when he returned. In a way, she couldnât help but feel that this small adventure might not only help her connect with him in a deeper way but also serve as a reminder that even in tough times, he had someone in his cornerâsomeone ready to support him and learn alongside him.
Time passed, and soon enough, the hectic three-race weekend was behind them.
Y/N wasnât exactly sure when Max would be home. The unpredictable nature of his F1 schedule made it hard to keep track of his exact arrival time. As the hours stretched on, she decided to make the most of the quiet afternoon. She started by tidying up the house, picking up scattered race memorabilia and smoothing out the couch cushions, which always seemed to get tossed around after a long weekend of travel. The kitchen was nextâdishes stacked in the sink, a few crumbs left from breakfast, and the faint scent of coffee lingering in the air. She cleaned with a kind of absent-minded rhythm, her thoughts drifting between the tasks at hand and the excitement of his return.
Not wanting to spend the whole day indoors, Y/N grabbed her coat, slipped into her shoes, and decided to run a few errands to break the monotony. She mentally made a list of things she neededâa trip to the grocery store for fresh produce, perhaps a quick stop at the florist to pick up some flowers for the dining table. The gentle hum of the city as she walked outside felt like a welcome distraction. As she moved through the familiar streets, her mind kept drifting to Maxâimagining his arrival later that evening and wondering how he would feel after the intense race weekend. With a small smile, she pushed the thought aside. There were errands to run, and time had a way of slipping by faster when you were busy.
After a while, Y/N decided it was time to head back home, the errands and quiet city stroll leaving her feeling a bit more tired than usual. The exhaustion crept up slowly, settling into her bones in the best wayâa peaceful kind of tiredness that made the thought of being home all the more appealing. Once she stepped inside, she kicked off her shoes by the door and shrugged off her jacket, instantly feeling the comfort of her own space wrap around her.
She sank onto the couch, letting the weight of the day melt away, but it wasnât long before she found herself wanting to do somethingâsomething simple and familiar to bring a sense of warmth and routine to the day. The kitchen seemed like the perfect place. She stepped into the kitchen, the warmth of the space a comforting contrast to the quiet of the house. Her mind immediately wandered to dessertâsomething sweet to fill the silence. Pulling out her phone, she swiped through a few recipe sites, curiosity leading her fingers. After a moment, she typed "Dutch desserts" into the search bar. Her eyes quickly landed on appeltaart, the iconic Dutch apple pie. The thought of the rich, spiced apples wrapped in buttery crust made her stomach rumble. It was exactly what the moment called for.
With a smile, she set the phone down and rolled up her sleeves. The comforting hum of her favorite playlist began to fill the room, chasing away the silence and replacing it with familiar tunes. As the music flowed through the speakers, she started pulling ingredients from the pantryâflour, sugar, butter, and cinnamon. She paused for a moment, letting the soft beat of the song take over as she laid everything out on the counter. The scent of cinnamon already began to stir a feeling of warmth and anticipation.
With a deep breath, she moved into the rhythm of the recipe, the steady motion of measuring, mixing, and prepping grounding her. She could already picture the golden crust and warm, sweet filling that would soon fill the kitchen, and her heart swelled with a sense of simple joy.
As she hummed softly to the tune playing in the background, completely engrossed in the rhythm of her mixing and the warmth of the kitchen, she remained oblivious to Max stepping through the front door, his footsteps barely audible on the hardwood floor. Max paused for a moment, his eyes scanning the room before he crept quietly toward the kitchen, careful not to make a sound. He peeked around the corner, his gaze falling on you as you worked your magic, your movements fluid and focused. A smile tugged at his lips as the sweet scent of apple pie hit him, and he inhaled deeply, savoring the warm, comforting aroma that filled the air.
Max moved silently behind her, his steps light as he closed the distance between them. With a smile, he slipped his arms around her waist, pulling her close against him. He rested his chin on her shoulder for a moment, savoring the warmth of her presence, before pressing a tender kiss to her soft skin. As he inhaled the sweet scent of the kitchen, his lips brushed her shoulder, and he murmured in a low, appreciative voice, "Smells amazing."
The unexpected touch causes her to flinch, a small gasp escaping her as she instinctively tenses, but her body quickly relaxes when she turns to find Max standing there. A soft smile tugs at her lips as she meets his gaze. "I didn't hear you come in," she murmurs, her voice gentle and warm as she leans slightly into his embrace, feeling the comforting weight of his presence. She glances toward the counter, her hands still lightly dusted with flour, and then looks back at him, her eyes sparkling with a mix of affection and pride. "I made appleâ" Her words falter for a brief moment, and she pauses, taking a breath before finishing with a playful smile, "Ik heb appeltaart gemaakt." (i made apple pie) She lets the Dutch phrase roll off her tongue with a touch of pride, her eyes lighting up as she anticipates his reaction to the homemade treat and at the sudden Dutch.
Max chuckles, the sound warm and teasing. "Oh, dus je spreekt nu Nederlands?" (Oh, so you speak Dutch now?) His eyes narrow playfully as he takes her in, studying her with a hint of disbelief, almost as if he couldn't quite believe what he'd just heard. It takes a moment for her to process his words, the surprise registering on her face before a grin tugs at her lips. She lets out a soft laugh, shaking her head slightly as she meets his gaze. âLeren voor jou,â she responds with a mischievous twinkle in her eye, her voice light and teasing as she repeats the phraseâ"Learning for you."
Max hums contentedly into her skin, his voice soft but filled with affection. "What did I ever do to deserve you?" His words are a gentle murmur, as though he's savoring the moment. She chuckles, the sound warm and light, as she wipes her hands on a nearby towel. Without missing a beat, she spins around, her eyes sparkling, and wraps her arms around him in a tight embrace. "I've missed you," she whispers into his chest, her voice filled with sincerity, as if the distance between them had only made her feelings stronger.
He gently pulls away, his hands lingering at her waist as he looks down at her, his eyes soft with affection. Thereâs a quiet warmth in his gaze, a tenderness that makes his heart swell with emotion. "I've missed you too," he murmurs, his voice low and sincere, the words wrapped in a quiet vulnerability. He smiles, a soft, almost teasing glint in his eyes as he adds, "Mijntje," (my little one), his tone filled with both love and playfulness. With a tender sigh, he leans down, his face drawing closer to hers. As he lowers himself, he brushes his lips gently against hers, the kiss soft and lingering, a promise of everything he feels for her in that quiet, intimate moment.Â
She pulls back just enough to look into his eyes, her breath catching in the space between them. Her heart races, each beat carrying the weight of everything she feels for him. Her hands rest gently on his chest as she searches his gaze, finding warmth, safety, and a quiet promise there. With a soft sigh, she leans in just a little closer, her lips barely brushing his as she whispers, her voice trembling with sincerity, "Ik hou van jou."
The words, though soft, are heavy with all the emotions she can't quite put into wordsâyears of trust, laughter, passion, and quiet moments, all wrapped in those simple yet profound syllables. His breath hitches, and a smile plays on his lips as he leans in, closing the small space between them with a kiss that feels like both a promise and a beginning. Thereâs a warmth radiating between them, an unspoken yearning that lingers in the air, electrifying yet restrained. The kiss deepens, lingering just a moment longer, igniting a flutter of anticipation in her chestâa taste of what could be. As they pull away, their eyes lock, and in that shared gaze lies a world of possibilities, a silent acknowledgment of the passion that awaits them.
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the cliff (1)
hi guys! this is the first azriel fic i post here. i mainly do marvel but i just couln't stop thinking about this so i decided to take it forward. i hope you guys like this! see u next time <;33
summary: you never thought that the road to your mate could bring so much suffering⊠pairing: azriel x f!reader words: +4k warnings: briefly descriptions of torture, bad words, descriptions of sorrow¿?, angst but a happy ending, i think. also, English is not my first language and i actually read acotar in another language, so sorry for any mistakes! and also!! i haven't read a court of silver flames, so probably the facts around cassian and nesta's bond and feyre's pregnancy aren't accurate, sorry for that!
part 2: the house
part 3: the court
part 4: the routine
You were sure that the decisions you had made shouldn't have led you to that place. With your limp legs dragging against the grass, the wet feel of the mud drying coldly on your skin with each gale, increasing the chills that ran through your body, not only because of the dread and fear you had for your life, but because of the scorching frost on the top of that cliff.
There was something magical about wishing upon a shooting star. You knew it, your parents were living proof that it worked. They had met just after your mother had wished upon a dying star. Mates. And they promised you it would be the same for you. You hoped it would be the same for you when, encouraged by your same parents, you wandered Prythian in search of meeting the other end of the bond that you knew connected you to someone beyond, in search of a connection greater than you could ever understand.
You firmly believed in that magic one night, in the midst of the lonely and almost desolate journey from end to end, when lying watching the night sky you saw it pass by. A helpless shooting star.
You made your wish with your heart in your hand, closing your eyes and whispering as if it were a prayer. Maybe it was. You didn't know if that was what had gone wrong.
All you knew was that, the next day, your journey was over.
You hadn't finished waking up when you found yourself being dragged across the ground of the Day Court, right at the border it shared with the Night Court, from the hands of Ilyrian soldiers who wouldn't listen to your shouted words. Or simply preferred to ignore them.
You weren't sure how much you had screamed at them, even as they took you in the most savage way possible and furrowed you through the wind, the cold gusts of the Nightmare Court piercing your skin. But it had to have been a good while, because the next time you were above ground your throat was so dry you could barely breathe.
You didn't know what was going on, not even when days later, after feeding yourself with only mush and water, you met the first person willing to tell you something and not turn his face away from you. It was a man, Ilyrian too, with gigantic black wings that covered almost all the light in the small room where you were held captive. His constant presence invoked darkness.
He never introduced himself. He would only ask âwho sent you?â, waiting for a sane answer from you, one that you couldn't give because every time you tried to say something that was not remotely like what he wanted to hear, he would move two fingers of his left hand and two more soldiers would enter the room and grab you roughly by the arms, pulling you closer to a barrel with water that was in the corner of the room. That was the water you usually drank, and it was never as cold as when they entered the room.
Needless to say, after a couple of days, you couldn't even go near the water anymore.
It could've been a couple of days, weeks or months⊠you weren't sure anymore. Time had become an insignificant concept compared to your desire for freedom. You had explained countless times to the Ilyrian the reasons why they had found you wandering near the Court, but that wasn't enough. Not even when you told him that they could confirm it with your family in the Summer Court. No excuse was good enough, the Ilyrian seemed to simply want to find a culprit, whatever he had to do, whoever he had to point the finger at.
And then, one day, you thought you saw a glimmer of hope. Another lone shooting star, which you barely caught through the bars the room had for windows. The memory of your parents flooded your memory, a dark cloud settling over you and drowning out any sense of calm you were able to collect after the ilyrians left. Through tears and sobs you begged the star for a way out, hoping its magic was powerful enough to fight the savage soldiers.
The next day more ilyrians than usual appeared, but they did not enter the room. Not after the High Lord of the Night Court did so first.
And you thought the star had heard you.
âShe didn't say anything?â
His dismissive, indifferent tone almost made you shudder on the icy floor, but you didn't let that take away your hope, kneeling in front of him with dried tears and dirt on your face. With your hands clasped in front of you, as if he were a deity personified, you begged him to listen to you, but you had to watch him send you a disinterested glance before he turned in the direction of the entrance.
âTake her away.â
You didn't know why you had expected the high lord to intercede on your behalf, knowing the stories that brimmed through the Courts in Prythian. Your parents had warned you. They encouraged you to pursue the bond on your chest, but begged you to go no further than Court Day if the bond demanded it. They made you promise to return, and that they would then seek a way to find your mate if he or she was beyond the Night Court. You should've heeded, of course you did. When you saw the cold, emotionless eyes of the high lord's face, you regretted every decision you had made.
Even though you knew it shouldn't have been that way, because you had never done anything wrong. You had never tried to harm someone. Maybe that made it harder. Wondering every night why. Why did you deserve to go through that? What evil was it that you were paying for?
There was something magical about wishing on a shooting star, but that magic wasn't guarded for you.
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Azriel had been spending sleepless nights for weeks now, without explanation. Things were quiet in Velaris, even in the Court of Nightmares. But when he entered the darkness of his room at night, when he tried to close his eyes with his wings spread across the bed, a knot stirred in his chest. Tears would well up behind his eyes and a sadness would engulf him from head to toe. It was so overwhelming that there were few nights when Azriel could contain the feelings and despair of his shadows.
He tried not to let that deficiency interrupt his work, but it was difficult when his eyes would close at the table during breakfast, or in the middle of the room when Rhys talked about the weekly goals. Several times his friends would start asking questions, but it was easy for Azriel to say he had trouble sleeping because that was never an uncommon occurrence over the course of his long life.
It was once Rhys told him that he had told Madja about his problem and she had sent him some herbs that it all started to get weirder.
Yes, Azriel was able to fall asleep. But every night he had strange dreams. Dreams of a life that was not his own. Memories of someone else he didn't even know. Another woman's life, somewhere Azriel could barely remember when he woke up, with more people who must have been close to her, but not to him, who shared her day to day life, who celebrated together with her, who were happy. Azriel didn't wake up much better in the mornings than when he spent the whole night without sleep.
Now he not only had to deal with the heaviness of lack of sleep, but with the questions. He could never think they were random dreams because he heard the same laughter every time, the same voice, the same place. He felt the same tranquility before waking up.
Azriel believed Madja would be his source of answers then.
âYour mate is looking for you,â the old woman answered him, one sunny day in Velaris when he chased her through her tent hoping she would answer his one question. That stopped him abruptly on his feet, his body from the abdomen upward leaning forward a bit from the suddenness of the movement.
âMate?â
Madja barely hissed in response, a sound of affirmation that would haunt Azriel for several days afterward.
âHow is that possible?â
âWhat?â
Madja was turning her back to him, her small body hunched over as she inspected the medicinal plants she kept for sale. Azriel watched them along with her, his mind moving through the threads of thoughts, between every memory of his dreams and every memoryâŠof her.
âHow can she do that?â
Azriel heard Madja sigh and the sound of metal followed as she dropped the gray watering can she had kept for years into place. Azriel could still remember the first time it had been seen, shiny and pompous in the Velaris sunlight. Madja's brown eyes roamed over his face and Azriel hadn't felt this way since the time when Rhys's mom had looked at him with loving motherly eyes.
âDon't ask me how the bond works, Shadowsinger. The Cauldron knows how it does things.â
Azriel could sleep less after that. Madja had left him with more questions than answers. And, on that note, Azriel began to fly over Velaris more often. For some reason, he felt she was close. The bond hadn't snapped into place yet, but he knew that the time was near when that would happen. He didn't even know if it had snapped for her yet, all he knew was that he had a mate over there, too far away from him, and too scared for him to stand idly by.
Eventually, Azriel had to talk to Rhysand. Rhys, his high lord, his best friend, his brother. Probably the only person in the Inner Circle who could fully understand how he felt at those moments. Because Azriel felt he was going to lose his mind if he didn't find his mate and end whatever suffering she was going through. The uncertainty was eating him alive and the hours of hopelessness and fear that were going on inside him, around that emptiness in his chest, did not ease things at all. If he felt this way from the comfort of his home, he didn't want to imagine what she was going through.
Rhysand agreed to allow him more outings to enlarge the perimeter of his search, but the passing days proved his effort fruitless.
âEverything okay, brother?â
Cassian had met his mate. Nesta, Feyre's sister. Azriel was very happy for him, very happy that his brothers had found their life mates and that he could realize the good they brought into their lives. But there was a huge shadow that haunted him, beyond the darkness he carried with him, and it had much to do with the guilt of not being able to find and deliver his mate from suffering. He no longer knew how much time had passed. His shadows stirred restlessly every day, with every memory, with every gale.
Azriel sighed when he felt Cassian's hand on his left shoulder, as they both stood watching Velaris from the top of a mountain.
âI don't know what to do anymore, Cassian,â Azriel let out, his shoulders slumping under the pressure and stress.
He usually didn't talk about the subject of his mate with his brothers, not as often as someone would think to be so close. It was something Azriel held close to his heart and wanted to resolve on his own, but so many failures were beginning to weigh him down.
Cassian patted his shoulder and then gave it a squeeze, trying to silently comfort him, though he knew that would do little to soothe the clamor in his soul. Because, though the bond hadn't snapped for Azriel, he could well believe that he had had it tugging at his chest in an unfamiliar direction for months now. Even if he didn't feel the bond, the mere acknowledgement of its existence was agony, especially when it didn't help him find his mate.
Cassian sighed beside him, letting a few seconds pass in silence before speaking again, his gaze fixed on Velaris' expanse and his heart shrinking at the visible suffering on his brother's face.
âRhysand is traveling to the camp, will you accompany us?â
Azriel lately had little desire for anything other than touring Velaris and the surrounding area of the Court of Nightmares looking for his mate, but this time he decided to accept. For some reason, Azriel decided to accompany them.
The Night had been feuding with the Summer for a couple of years. Tarquin and Rhysand⊠were not on the best of terms. The last time Feyre had traveled to the Summer, pregnant with Nyx, Tarquin and his army had held her captive because of a misunderstanding in the information they had obtained from the Spring Court and the Mortal Lands. Rhysand almost destroyed the entire Summer Court with his bare hands if not for Cassian and Azriel, who were able to broker a deal between the two as mediators. It was a very tense time at the beginning.
Mind you, Rhysand did not leave without letting Tarquin know that it would be years before they would return to the same trade, diplomatic and friendly relations as before, if they could ever speak of forgiveness. Azriel remembered how the only person from the Night Court who could cross Tarquin's lands, for a time, was Mor. They were all warned and the meetings of the high lords were suspended, at least with respect to attendance.
For that reason, Rhysand became extremely wary of anyone connected with the Summer Court and for him, being the high lord, it was not too much work to know who wandered near his lands. They had already captured a handful of Summer Court spies in recent years and held them captive in camp with the Ilyrian soldiers.
Of course, the Night Court was much more careful with their spying, having Shadowsinger himself on their side. Azriel had visited the Summer Court a couple of times by stealth, handing Rhysand reports and any strategic breakthroughs he could decipher.
There was one, however, that they could not foresee. Someone Azriel never knew was coming out of the Summer Court. It had been a couple of years since then and it seemed the Ilyrians had been unable to break the spy's stone will.
âAre you going all the way to the mountain?â Rhysand had stopped in front of Azriel as soon as his feet touched the grassy ground, a few feet from the entrance to the camp. His eyes flicked briefly to the bustle behind his high lord, his shoulders tensing unconsciously as he took slow steps towards Rhysand with his hands in the pockets of his tunic and his wings tucked neatly behind his back. Cassian landed behind him, kicking up a layer of wet grass and mud that soiled his boots.
âArgh.â
âI think I'll be at a distance this time.â
Rhysand nodded, with no intention of convincing Azriel to accompany him to give the imprisoned spies of the Summer a death scare.
âI hope the screams are worth this mudslinging,â Cassian spoke up, moving closer to his two friends, forming a small circle. Rhysand barely gave him a glance before turning on his heels and beginning to make his way to the entrance of the camp, where some of the soldiers were clustered to see the high lord. âYou're going to be in the bay?â
âYes,â Azriel walked alongside Cassian, scowling at the entrance through which Rhysand had just crossed, the Ilyrian soldiers freezing in front of their high lord. âI'll watch from afar. Right now I don't have the stomach for anything.â
âI understand, brother,â Cassian squeezed his shoulder again amicably, sending him a tight-lipped look. Cassian was quite good with words, despite many labeling him as insensitive for being Ilyrian, but he knew Azriel well enough to know when he wanted to talk about something and when he preferred not to. âSee you then.â
Cassian followed in Rhysand's footsteps, approaching in long strides, while Azriel paused watching his companions disappear into the distance.
Sighing, the knot in his chest tightened. It was so strange to have a void that could feel so many things. Azriel often wondered how it was possible that he still didn't feel the bond, when his emotions had expanded out of his head and there was no longer a feeling he didn't sense inside his bones.
Flapping his wings to take flight, Azriel set off towards the bay, close to the cliff where Rhysand planned to take the Summer Court spies. He was a few yards away, close enough to make out figures, but not too far away that he couldn't hear the screams.
As soon as his feet touched the ground, damp despite the early rising sun, his shadows began to stir around him, restless. They must've sensed his nervousness, the anxiety that ran through his chest like electric currents to his fingertips, causing him to spasm and break out in a cold sweat. Azriel could barely see them moving around him, separating from his body and stirring on the ground just a few centimeters before turning back.
At the top of the cliff he could already make out the figures of Rhysand and Cassian, walking menacingly towards the inmates, leaving them no choice but to keep walking backwards until they fell into the void, where Cassian would then land them, one by one. Azriel could hear them if he wanted to, but his mind and his shadows kept him a bit distracted.
He barely made out the first screams and the sound of Cassian's wings when his shadows began to whisper, much more restless.
Close.
Close.
Help.
Fear.
Help.
Azriel raised his head and his eyes stopped just short of Rhysand's figure in front of about three spies. At that moment, Azriel's shadows took off, moving at great speed across the grass and stones, with the Shadowsinger unable to do anything to stop them, though he tried. His confused gaze swept over the small figures on the cliff, with such speed that his head was beginning to ache, but he couldn't recognize anything.
He was about to fly in the direction his shadows had gone, when a strange, overwhelming sensation, somewhere between irrational fear and deep sadness, sent his back to the ground moving across his chest, as one of the figures slipped and fell into the void. Azriel felt all the air stolen from his lungs, opening his mouth to try to catch his breath, as those sensations coursed through his entire body and settled in his chest, taking strong root as if they belonged there. They were so overwhelming that they caused him physical pain. The ache he must've been feeling for months.
The bond.
The few remaining shadows beside him whispered endlessly.
Help.
Help.
Help.
Azriel raised his head, breathing hard. He felt his chest split open, as if with great force they were breaking his sternum to pull out his heart. It was such an overwhelming and painful sensation that, but for his strong will, he would surely have lost consciousness.
Help.
Help.
Mate.
Mate.
Azriel thought afterwards that he had never moved so fast or with such force as that moment, when he realized what was happening. The adrenaline that coursed through his body, even feeling electric currents run through him from head to toe from the precise moment he felt the bond, didn't allow him to think too much about how the air hurt his eyes because he already knew exactly where he had to go. He had spent so much time flying without direction, walking the wrong paths and searching in empty places. At that moment, when he had a reason and a direction, Azriel couldn't think of anything else. He didn't want to.
He could only look at the figure falling off the cliff from the moment he raised his head. He could only head blindly towards it. The overwhelming fear that threw him backwards was the fear she felt as under her feet she felt the void, her hands moving forward trying to hold on to something that would allow her to live.
Azriel felt like he was about to die with her.
He met Cassian halfway from afar, who seemed to be about to fly in her direction to catch her when he ran into his friend, but Azriel moved too quickly and with anticipation without losing sight of his mate. The chill that ran through his body could've paralyzed him with fear, but how could he stand by and do nothing when his mate was falling to her undisputed death.
He thought he heard Rhysand's scream. Surely it was so, but in his mind there hovered only the thought that he must reach her, he must get there in time. Her hands were outstretched and Azriel stretched out his hands, hoping that would help him move faster.
Mind blank, Azriel felt like he had just pulled his head out of the water, his chest opening in an unfamiliar thrill as his body felt the warmth of his mate's body crashing against him and his arms wrapped around her in a promise to never let go again. His wings wrapped around her immediately after his arms, impacting a few seconds later against the muddy ground.
He was too close to not catch her. The thought left him breathless.
For a moment, he only heard his and her labored breathing, with the whistling of the wind through the trees and the movement of the water of a stream a few feet away. For a moment, Azriel went completely blank. Whether he was there or dreaming, he didn't know.
His hands clamped tightly around her arms, encircling her entire back, feeling the reality of what had happened sink in on him bit by bit. Fear gripped him once more then, considering that there was a chance he hadn't been there to stop that. To prevent it.
He didn't want to move. Still adrenaline coursed through his body and he was so alert that he could clearly hear the voices of his friends in the distance. Seconds later, when he heard their wings, he finally moved.
Azriel met your eyes and with that look alone he knew you had felt the bond as well.
âI'm sorry,â was all Azriel could think of, his eyes crystallizing, voice breaking. âI'm so sorry.â
You were transfixed. Azriel felt you looking at him with fear and that motivated him to move away from your body, but you gripped his arms tightly to hold him in place.
Azriel felt a great heaviness in his chest as he examined your face and what he saw did not please him at all. Guilt swelled on his shoulders, a great weight that ascended with each passing second and he could hardly imagine all that you had had to go through in that camp. You were right under his nose and he couldn't find you. What kind of a partner was he to let all that happen?
When he heard the footsteps of his friends, his shoulders tensed. But it didn't go unnoticed the way you also became aware of their presence and let go of his arms, rushing to hug yourself as you moved to sit behind Azriel. scared. Still breathing rapidly, Azriel sent a warning look. Cassian and Rhysand stopped a short distance away, noticing the obvious hostility emanating from their friend's body, but Rhysand just stopped for a second.
âAzriel, what the fuck?â
Rhysand was so angry that he seemed to have a little red tinge over his face. Good, he was angry, maybe then Azriel wouldn't feel so bad about breaking his face.
âRhys,â Cassian frowned, quickly picking up on the tense and hostile atmosphere around him. He grabbed the arm of his high lord, who jerked angrily and turned his gaze back to the Shadowsinger.
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you? Are you aware of what you just fucking did?â
âRhysand,â Cassian stopped his high lord, raising his voice and holding his arm tightly this time.
Rhysand turned to look at him with a frown and it seemed that, through his mind, Cassian spoke to him. The next time Rhysand looked back at him, his expression was unclenching, but Azriel stood stone-faced in front of you, his hands clasped at his sides and ready to face anything.
âNo way,â was all Rhysand muttered, moving to run his hands through his hair.
Azriel felt one of your hands on his back, his senses splitting in half to try and attend to you as he kept an eye on his brothers on the other side. He moved his head to look at you, your frightened expression trying to hide you from Cassian's curious eyes.
âIs this real?â
Azriel felt his heart crumple. Tears welled behind his eyes and burning hurted the back of his throat. He wanted to say so many things, apologize for a million other things, but in that moment he only responded, moving to squeeze your hand:
âIt's real.â
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Overblot Universe (3) | Yandere Twisted Wonderland
Part 1 âą 2 âą4âą 5
You could feel the urge to sleep pulling at your eyes
Faint voices sounding muddled had you fighting a littleÂ
As you found your eyes drooping once again you could feel something wrap around your arms
Naturally you pull away, reminding you of those inky tentacles that held you captive a short while ago
You pause when you hear the sound of vines snapping
These werenât tentacles
But vinesÂ
Feeling the circumference of the vine you searched for thorns
Finding that they felt shaved and dulled
The detail brought a strange sense of comfortÂ
The kind you had when you were with your dear horned friendÂ
You follow their pull realizing the vines had come from an oval source of light
Blocking your eyes, you could finally make out where the light was coming from
The comforting green light shed through giant leaves that were covering the sun
It looked like you were back in Night Ravenâs Botanical garden
Though it looked incredibly over grownÂ
â(Y/n) there you are! Whereâd you go? My tummyâs going to kill me!â
The pitchy voice had you perking up, your eyes watering as you recognized the little fur ball running to you
âGrim!â
âWah! What is the meaning of this Hench human!â
You couldnât help the tears that dripped into his grey fur
âI missed you so much!â
âHeh?! Why would you miss me? You been sleepinâ in here the whole time.â
âHave I?â
Just then you realized the encounters with the overblot versions of the dorm leaders were incredibly fuzzyÂ
Like bad dreams
Giving Grim one last squeeze before releasing him you inhaled knowing that was all it was
Just bad dreams
âGrim, I thought you were hungry enough to wake them up quickly?â
âI was! But suddenly they just grabbed me and started to talking nonsense!â
The vice dorm leader shook his head before smiling at you and holding his hand out to you
âGlad to see youâre awake enough to make your appointment!â
âWhat do you mean Jamil?â
He smiled pulling you up and into his sideÂ
Holding you incredibly close as he walked into the overgrown expanse of the vegetation
Jamil looked heavenly under the shaded natural light
He looked so happy
Something in you told you not to ask about Kalim
Before you could question him more he pulls back a particularly large leaf to reveal something lovely
A picnic with a number of dishes that made your mouth water and sitting wistfully beside them was none other thanâ
âTsunotaro!?â
âChild of Man, Iâm glad that youâre here to join us!â
Grim ran past you to get to the food you let Jamil intertwine his fingers with yours as he led you to the blanket
In no time at all you were eating and chattingÂ
The ghosts of inky hands and tentacles leaving your mind every now and then as you spoke more and more with your friends
Sometimes the thought of how weird this pair up was but you had to pay attention Malleus was spoon feeding something to you
And even when the food was all gone and Grim was napping on your stomachÂ
All that existed of the nightmare before was the faint memory of ink which was constantly overshadowed by Jamil and MalleusÂ
âThatâs what Iâm saying: these clouds look like a bat!â
âI disagree. A Briar Valley bat is much larger than a fruit batâŠand their tails are much larger.â
âBut theyâre still classified as a bat right?â
âTechnically.â
âSee? (Y/n), please help him understand.â
Itâs niceâŠ.to relax like thisÂ
âHey uh how long have I been sleeping?â
âNot long I am sure. You left shortly after our breakfast together and Grim claimed you went on your own after that.â
âReally? Thatâs not how I remember itâŠâ
âOh Really? What do you remember?â
That fuzzy feeling was there againÂ
you can feel your head ache while you tried to make the image in your head clearer
But alas it never did
âNothing. Anyway letâs just go back to our special day!â
âYes, letâs. You both have promised to indulge in our mini-gargoyle-making session.â
As promised all three of you separated a large block of clay that you werenât aware that they brought
Beginining to shape mini gargoyles with itÂ
It was hard using the utensils Malleus seems to have bought
But they were great
It was all going great
Until you heard Jamil whimper
Looking up you hadnât expected what you were seeing
Watching as Jamilâs figure faded like an image on a screen
Phasing in an out the clay falling from his fingers as it continued
âJamil! Are you okay whatâs wrong?â
âDo not tell meâŠâÂ
Looking over at Tsunotarou, his face was twisted and his eyes were glaring at the flickering JamilÂ
But it didnât seem that he was directing that hatred at him but someone else
âJamil if I release you can you stop him?â
âHim?â
âI-Iâm not sure I canât feel the othersâack!â
Jamil belted out another round of coughingÂ
âJamil, Malleus what is going on!?â
Malleusâ glare was now directed at youÂ
Taking his real name leaving your lips as an insult in and of itself
â(Y/n), I think itâs best you go back to sleep.â
The second the word left his mouth you felt a weight on all your muscles
Pulling at your eyelids and even your consciousness
But you fought backÂ
Backing away from the fae who was now worriedly reaching out for you
Instead you ended up closer to Jamil trying to grab onto his flickering form
â(Yâ-Yâ/n-n-n-)! P-lease!â
His form continued to flicker out of existence allowing you to see the familiar image of the Overblotted Jamil
âViper make them sleep. I will come to your aid next. I just need you to make them sleep!â
The word had the same pull but you were getting used to it
Pushing through you watched the phasing Overblotted Jamilâs eyes light up as he tried to say something
Before he could he screamed out finally dissipating into nothingness
His disappearance revealed something more to youÂ
The green paradise youâd been in began to melt away churning and piling into mounds of inkÂ
Ink that you found yourself sinking into
â(Y/n)!!!â
Malleusâ layered voice was screeching and the world was shaking
But that wasnât stopping your quick descent and sooner than you could react your vision was engulfed in blackness
The feeling of your heart being pulled out of something deep was what met you when you found you could open your eyes once again
âThere you should be free of that creatures curse. Now my King weâve much to catch up on.â
Part 4?
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the summer i turned pretty - charles leclerc & arthur leclerc
a reader x charles leclerc & arthur leclerc love triangle, pt. 2
pt. 1
warnings: none other than angst?
a/n: a million years later here is part 2 but itâs not over ladies and gentlemen! i hope it doesnât suck lol. part 3 will come. also iâve now added charlotte sinĂ© as the fc for practical purposes!
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As I opened the door, terrified at who I was going to see behind it, I met Charlesâ bloodshot eyes staring daggers into mine.
âY/N, letâs talk, please. I screwed up, but let me explain,â he quickly said before I could even mutter a word.
I was still as speechless as I had been last night. Without a word, I moved aside to let him in my room, but he shook his head and insisted on talking to me at the beach. I just obliged, trying my best to be quiet around the house so as to not wake anyone up.
As soon as we arrived on the shore, Charles invited me to sit down and I once again just obliged. My heart was pounding on my ears and I felt like it would jump out of my body at any second.
âI feel like I should start at the beginning,â Charles said, while I looked to the sea instead of looking at him.
âIâve always loved you. There has always been something about you that comforts me and makes me happy. I just didnât realize how deep it went until last summer, when I realized that you kissing Antoine ruined the entire season for me.â
I tried to recall any reaction from Charles when I hooked up with Antoine last year that couldâve been a sign, but I found nothing in my memories. I was too busy sulking over the fact that he didnât and would never like me, but I had been proved wrong 365 days later. The words were in my head but they didnât make sense. Why would Charles Leclerc like me, much less love me?
âIâve tried to avoid it, Iâve tried to think nothing of it, Iâve tried to deny it and itâs been no use.â
The irony of me doing the same thing for years was not lost on me. How I have pined for years not realizing he spent some of that time feeling the same way was borderline funny.
âWill you please look at me?â Charles asked with a hint of desperation in his voice, making it impossible for me to deny his request even if I knew any resolve or strength I had left in me would evaporate the minute my eyes met his.
The butterflies in my stomach felt like a swarm of wasps, and Iâm sure the blush in my face evidenced it. Charlesâ green eyes, the object of all my hidden wishes for as long as I could recall, stared into mine looking to decipher my emotions.
I wished I could say he found nothing but love, but in between all those beautiful feelings of loving and being loved in return, I could still sense a wretched feeling of disappointment.
âWhy didnât you tell me this before?â a stronger voice than expected called him out. All this time he had to know I felt the same way, but he let me believe there wasnât a chance in hell he could care about me beyond a friendship.
âIt took me too long to even understand it. Even then, I couldnât justify changing your life on a crush, or hurt you and ruin it all. I still donât know if I can justify it, but I know I canât stand it anymore. I love you and Iâm done pretending I donât, or that you donât love me too.â
When I searched into his eyes, all I could find was sincerity. And it was enough for me to jump into the deep end, leaning closer to him in hopes he would initiate the kiss Iâve desperately wanted for far too much time.
He granted my wishes, placing both of his hands on my neck to connect our lips. It was just like I imagined it.
Soft, passionate, unrushed, warm. I felt the fireworks that everyone speaks of go off in my head, and I just knew Charles felt them too.
As we pulled away to breathe, struggling to even think of ever separating me from him ever again, Charles smiled brightly.
âCan you say you love me too, mon cĆur?â he asked so prettily I could coo at him.
âI love you, Charles Leclerc,â I obliged, because how could I say no to him?
âAnd I love you, Y/N L/N,â he replied, smiling even bigger, and kissing me even better.
Our bubble of a newfound love lasted a while, but was eventually meant to break when I received a text from Arthur.
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The conversation about Arthur with Charles wasnât the hard part at all. The older brother brushed the kiss off as a drunken mistake, and was a little too confident on who my choice would be.
The conversation about Charles with Arthur would be the hard part, and I didnât even have time to settle down in my bed after the rollercoaster of emotions I had just gone through when Arthur barged in.
He looked happy to see me, and it broke my heart.
In trying to find the words to say I couldnât be with him, and before I could mutter them, he hugged me.
âIâve been trying to find you all this time, where have you been chĂ©rie?â Arthur smiled, but it quickly faded once he realized my energy wasnât the same.
âArthurâŠâ
âChĂ©rie, donât say it was a mistake because you know it wasnât. Fuck my brother, you know that this is right.â
âIâm so sorryâŠâ I began and pushed back further away from him, as if my next words would hurt him any less because of it. âCharles and I spoke, and we have realized our feelings for each otherâŠâ I looked down, cowardly, unable to face his reaction. âYou know Iâve loved him forever and I am just so sorry for leading you on.â
Like it always happened between us, I didnât have to look at him, and he didnât have to say anything. I just knew that we were done.
He stormed out of the room.
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⥠part eleven âĄ
ExHusband!Price x f!reader
You have been re-married to your former ex-husband John Price for a few days now. Because, at the end of the day, John is a gentleman and would be damned if he were to have a child out of wedlock.
Heâs at the grill on your back porch, beer in one hand and a pair of tongs in the other. A few of his SAS buddies, who came for the small re-marriage ceremony and are leaving tomorrow, are chatting with John while you greet the parents of your childrenâs friends for your youngestâs birthday party.
âAnother little John, huh?â Kyle, one of Johnâs SAS buddies, nods towards your barely-visible baby bump and takes a sip of his beer.
âAnother little John.â You confirm with a grin and rub a hand over your bump that is mostly concealed with your sundress.
âGonna keep trying until one of âem finally looks like you?â He matches your grin.
âThat, or until John gets his own personal football team. Whichever comes first.â You joke. Kyle just shakes his head with a chortle.
You look back towards the porch, watching John expertly handle the grill. He catches your eye and gives you a wink, making your heart flutter despite the years and the complications.
"Howâve you been holding up, then?" Kyle asks, a bit more seriously now, his eyes searching yours. âHeard you just found out about Nadia and Theo a few months ago.â
You smile softly, looking out over the yard where the kids are playing, laughter and shouts filling the air.
"It's been... an adjustment. But we're making it work."
Kyle nods, his expression understanding. ââCourse. You twoâve always had something special, havenât you?â
Before you can respond, a small hand tugs at Kyleâs pant leg. You look down to see your oldest, wide-eyed and bouncing with excitement. "Uncle Kyle, can you play socc- I mean, football with us?"
Kyle grins, setting his beer down on a nearby picnic table. "Sure thing, champ. Let's show these old folks how it's done."
You laugh as Kyle and your oldest head off further in the yard, the other children tow. As you watch them play, you notice Matt walking through the gate with his daughter.
A small knot forms in your stomach as the man approaches, a polite smile on his face. "Hey there," he greets, his eyes flicking to John at the grill before settling back on you.
"Hey, Matt," you reply, trying to keep your tone light. "I'm glad you and Emma could make it."
His daughter, Emma, runs off to join the other kids, and Matt stands there awkwardly for a moment. "Howâve you been?" he asks, his voice gentle.
"Good," you say, nodding, blushing. "Things have been good."
John, seemingly appearing out of nowhere, wraps an arm around your waist, the other still holding a beer. "Mark," he says with a nod, his tone neutral. "Good to see you."
âYou too, John," Matt replies with a smile. Heâs not phased by the purposely incorrect name, or at least heâs not showing it.
You nudge John with your elbow and he covers his smirk by taking a swig of his beer.
Matt eventually joins some of the other parents in watching their children play football or jump around in the bouncy house.
âWhy do you have to be such a jerk?â You glance up at John.
âWhat?â He gives you an unconvincingly innocent look.
You roll your eyes and grab the nearly empty lemonade pitcher from the table. You take in inside to refill it, leaving John outside with everyone else.
You hear the sliding glass door open while youâre slicing fresh lemons to put into the pitcher. John appears behind you, his hands finding your hips and pulling you into him. His facial hair tickles your neck as he presses a few kisses there.
âCâmon, love. Yâr not upset with me âcause of Mitch, are ya?â He murmurs.
âHis name is Matt.â You correct, still focusing on the lemonade. âI just donât know why you have to act like that. His daughter is one of Gabrielâs best friends, I see him all the time at school pick up and at soccer practice. Itâs already awkward because of that date we went on; I donât want it to be even worse every time we see each-â
You gasp when you feel John lifting the skirt of your dress up your thighs.
He hooks his index finger around your thong, moving it to the side for access. âYa still have feelings fâr him? Hm?â
You shake your head ânoâ, setting the knife and lemon down on the cutting board. John hums as if heâs considering your answer.
You hear his belt coming undone. Then his zipper.
âSaw how flustered and red you got when he was talkinâ to youâŠâ John mumbles, his hardness pressing up against your entrance. âCanât have that, now, can we?â
You slowly shake your head again.
Johnâs head pushes past your lips and he sinks into you slowly, wanting you to feel every inch pushing deeper inside of you.
âYâthink he could make you feel like this?â John whispers, his breath hitting the back of your neck. âThink heâd know exactly how you like it? Hm?â
âN-no,â You shake your head again. Your hands ball up into fists as you try not to moan too loudly. âJohn, the party-â
âIt can wait.â You could practically hear the smirk in his voice.
John reaches a hand around to stimulate your throbbing clit with his middle finger while your walls tighten around his thick member.
âAll mine,â John grunts as he thrusts deep into your tight little pussy. âI donâ care if I have to fuck you in front of him to make it clear.â
You both come within a few minutes. Your eyes roll back, you can hear your heart beating in your ears.
âUncle Si? Is my mummy getting the cake?â You hear your youngest ask outside. Your eyes widen for a moment and you almost push John off of you, but Simon casually redirects the birthday girl away from the house and back into the yard.
John finally pulls out and tucks himself back into his pants. He adjusts your dress for you, gives your ass a slap and takes the pitcher.
âGo get yârself cleaned up, lovey. Weâll do the cake when you get back.â He presses a kiss to your temple and heads outside.
You stand in the kitchen, dizzy and blushingâŠ
And triumphant, because your little plan to make John jealous worked.
A little drama never hurt.
âąâąâą
You lean down to press a kiss to your oldestâs head from where heâs fast asleep, lying on top of Kyle on the living room sofa.
âLittle man partied hard.â Kyle grins. You offer to take him up to bed so Kyle could relax more comfortably, but he waved you away. He said something about how he couldnât let you carry anything, let alone a five year old, while pregnant.
You just shrug and head upstairs. Simon is on his third or fourth bedtime story, and your youngest is trying her hardest to hold her eyes open.
âGoodnight, birthday girl.â You press a kiss to her head.
âMummy, you forgot uncle Si.â Your now three year old yawns and rubs her eyes with her little fist.
âGoodnight, Simon.â You grin, then press a kiss to the top of his head as well. Your daughter burst into giggles.
âgânight,â Simon mumbled shyly. âNow, liâl miss. This is our last book, got it?â He warned your toddler in his fake-stern tone.
You finally get to your room and immediately walk to the master bathroom. Johnâs already in the shower and hasnât noticed you walking in.
Youâre quick to undress and toss the clothes into the hamper before stepping into the shower behind your ex husband.
You wrap your arms around his waist, hugging him close to yourself.
John doesnât even flinch- he never does. He just continues washing his hair as if youâd been here the whole time.
âKids asleep?â He asks casually, turning to wrap you up in his own arms.
âKyleâs got Gabe, Simon has Lins.â You confirm as you let your eyes close, resting your head against Johnâs bare chest.
âAnd who has you?â John asks with a lazy smile. He begins to wash your hair for you without you asking, as if it was just natural for him to care for you.
âYou have me.â You murmur, still hugging him. ââm all yours.â
âThatâs whaâ I wanted to hear.â John has his hands on either side of your head. He tilts it back just enough for him to give you a proper kiss on the lips before going back to washing you.
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Heyeyey can I request boothill, Sunday and aventurine with a fem s/o whoâs always on her phone? Like even when itâs charging or even when theyâre cuddling she just has to be on her phone?
screentime overload
synopsis - how are they with a s/o who cannot put their phone down?
includes - aventurine, sunday, boothill
warnings - fem!reader (no pronouns used), fluff, crack, wc - 721
aventurine â
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âȘhe can be a bit of a fifty fifty when it comes to his phone. normally the only time he uses it is for IPC relevant things, messaging you or ratio and if he's really bored, mindless scrolling. his work can keep him rather busy and so he doesn't exactly have the time to sit around all day.
âȘso he found it quite amusing to a degree when he noticed how absorbed you were in your phone. it really didn't take long for him to notice how you practically treated it as a lifeline because no matter where you were your phone was near aswell - more accurately near to your line of sight.
âȘit did bring him some comfort in knowing that you would always see his messages because he could always take an accurate guess that you were on your phone and able to respond as quick as possible.
âȘhowever he did find it quite ridiculous that sometimes he'd find you curled up by your charger, phone still in hand. surely you had other things to be doing? maybe you're phone needed a break from you eventually?
âȘit didn't bother him per say, but he would prefer it if, when he saw you after a while, that you actually make the effort to pry your gaze from your phone and to him.
âȘsometimes he can be quite the menace, especially when, in the morning, you wake up and search for your phone but don't get very far as aventurine would have you in a near death grip hug.
sunday â
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âȘdefinitely isn't a phone kind of person. sure he has one but it's mainly for work or managing the dreamscape and most likely only had a couple of actual contacts - yours and robins. he probably could go very happily without his phone.
âȘand so he truly doesn't understand why you're so attached to yours. at first he thought that you probably had something going on that needed managing, but when he saw you day in and day out staring down at your screen, he got slightly worried and confused.
âȘit baffled him that you could actually spend so much time staring down at that screen but eventually he started getting more concerned that you were causing permanent damage to your eyes. he's the type of person who would tell you about the damage phones can do to you when he sees you laser focused on your phone.
âȘin a similar way, he does find a slight comfort in knowing that if he needs to reach you he can. the one day you don't actually get his messages and respond very quickly is the day he panics.
âȘsunday isn't exactly the keenest when it comes to physical affection, but when he does come around and finally gets time off to spend with you, he does not want you on your phone for that. if you get unlucky he might start contemplating hiding your phone.
boothill â
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âȘanother fifty fifty. he isn't exactly literate and so any messages are sent via voice recordings and such, this also probably means that he doesn't spend that much time on his phone in general - especially as a galaxy ranger who has bounties to hunt instead.
âȘthat being said, his phone gets put through the wringer alot. it isn't exactly his top priority in keeping safe when on a mission, so he either loses it or it gets very badly damaged to the point that sometimes you can't even tell it was meant to be a phone.
âȘso he did struggle a bit to to comprehend how and why you spent so much time on your phone. he only started getting annoyed when he realised that your phone was robbing him from your affection and time. boothill did once threaten to eat your phone.
âȘhe still finds it very ridiculous that you spend so much time in your phone, especially when he has caught you multiple times using your phone while it's charging or when you really shouldn't be.
âȘbut he doesn't mind too much as long as you actually still give him some affection and don't spend that time with your phone in hand again - especially when he gets time to return to you after hunting a bounty or two.
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I Hope You're Happy / Joel Miller x Reader
Description: Joel breaks up with you, thinking that he's setting you free to chase your dreams. And you do. And he gets another girl pregnant. And you meet each other in the cereal aisle of the grocery store. And you hope the other is happy. But you're not. You're both not.
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A/N: Angst angst angst. No outbreak AU.
Deep down, you knew this day would come. What did you expect, dating someone 10 years older than you? You just didnât think it would come this soon. Or that it would hurt this much.Â
As you sat there in the dimly lit living room, the weight of Joel's words hung heavily in the air. It had been a typical evening, sharing a meal and telling each other about your day, but something felt different tonight. The air seemed heavy with tension and Joelâs smiles didnât really reach his eyes, betraying an inner turmoil that you hadn't seen before.
"Listen," he began, his voice tinged with regret, "Iâve been thinking a lot about something."
You felt a knot tightening in your stomach as you nodded, prompting him to continue.
Joel stared at the floor, avoiding your gaze. "I love you. So much. More than I ever thought I could love someone. But, I can't keep pretending that I can give you everything you deserve. I'm 35, and I've lived a life that's... complicated. I don't want to tie you down, especially when you have so much of the world left to explore."
You tried to understand his perspective. Tried to see where he was coming from but all you could think was, Why now? Why now when Iâve already fallen in love with you?
"I don't want you to look back one day and regret being with me," he continued, his voice gentle as he clasps both of your hands in his. "I couldnât live with myself if one day you look at me and all Iâd see is regret in your eyes. I want you to experience the world, to find your own path. I know you'll go on to do amazing things, and I don't want to be the reason you didn't." His eyes glimmered with tears.Â
âAnd what about what I want?â You stared back at him, defiant. âWhat if I want to be here with you?â
He smiled softly and shook his head. âYou know, I could be selfish and keep you here with me. But what can you achieve in this town, really? You had such big dreams when we met, remember? Donât think I forgot.âÂ
He was right. You passed on a few big job opportunities in New York when you settled down with Joel, and you kept telling yourself youâd apply next week, which became next month, next year, until it never happened. Suddenly a fancy job and new apartment in the Big Apple didnât seem appealing anymore. Not when you had Joel.Â
âDreams change.â was all you managed to get out before your throat started to tighten and you felt the prickling of tears in your eyes.
Joel pulled you in for a hug and buried his face in your shoulder. âDonât change them for me. Never for me.âÂ
Deep down, you knew you had to go. Not because you wanted to, but because you knew Joel would never forgive himself if you didnât. It was ironic and so painfully stupid that it hurt - he thought this breakup would help you and you went through with it to help him.Â
So there you went. You packed your bags and you were out of there in less than a week. You moved in with a friend in New York for a couple of months until you secured a stable job and an apartment. You followed Joel's advice, exploring the world, pursuing your dreams, and building a life that was uniquely your own. You missed him more than you cared to admit, but you knew that his intentions had been pure, and in a way, it did benefit you.Â
You have proper savings now, and you are a fully independent adult, carving your way painfully through a year of hard work, job searches, apartment hunting - all while navigating a broken heart. And while you love your new life, late at night in the dark of your fancy new apartment overlooking the city skyline, you often found yourself thinking, was it all worth it?Â
But you shake your head out of the daze eventually. Because if it isnât worth it then all the pain and all the tears were for nothing. So you had to love this life. Forced yourself to love it because thatâs what Joel wanted for you. Joel. Even now, you still live for Joel.Â
Until you didnât. Your fingers freeze on your phone as you read the caption on Cassieâs new instagram post with a man who looks all too familiar.Â
Excited to welcome a new chapter into our lives. đ¶â€ïž
Your stomach sinks. Your phone drops to the bed. And tears sting your eyes. No. It canât be. You pick up the phone again and there he is. Your Joel, messy hair as if he just rolled out of bed and his scruffy beard. Smiling at Cassie whoâs holding a picture of an ultrasound. CASSIE? And JOEL?
You try to think back to every interaction they had during the course of your relationship but it had never been more than polite small talk at neighbourhood gatherings or run-ins at the grocery store. Wasnât she married? Fuck this. You double tap the picture, giving it a âlikeâ. This will give them something to talk about, you think spitefully. He wanted me to move on with my life? Well this is me, moved on. As you throw your phone to the other side of the bed, the pain finally sinks in and you cry into your pillow, wondering if you truly, will ever move on.Â
In the years that pass, you try to distract yourself with work and your new friendships. On paper, your life in New York was going swimmingly well and you had even dated a couple of nice guys. Dating still gives you a little twinge in the heart but you ignore it for the most part. People would kill for the life you have and you will NOT be ungrateful about it.Â
But of course, life is never that simple. Just when you think youâre able to find happiness, you get thrown a curveball. And this curveball came in the form of Joel Miller, standing in the cereal aisle of your local grocery store. Heâs older, grayer, but damn him, he still looks so fucking good. You stand there staring for a moment, while he examines the box of Capân Crunch. As he puts the box back down and glances up, he meets your eyes and you hate this cliche, but you swear to God, time stands still.Â
He whispers your name, almost in disbelief as his brows furrow. âHey. Wow.âÂ
âHey.âÂ
âYou⊠How are you?âÂ
âIâm good. Yourself?âÂ
âYeah great.â
Somehow this exchange cuts you deeper than the day he broke up with you. When did you become people who could barely speak 3 words to each other?Â
Trying to alleviate the clenching of your heart, you speak up. âWhat are you doing here? This is the last place I thought Iâd ever run into you.âÂ
He chuckles softly. âYeah, I uh.. Tommyâs up here meeting a couple of friends and asked me to tag along. Iâm sorry I didnât reach out by the way, I should have texted when I knew we were heading ââÂ
You cut him off, not wanting to hear lies. âNo, thatâs okay. I wouldnât expect you to. You must be busy now anyways with the kid.âÂ
His eyes soften at that, guilt and pain flashing through them but you push on. âItâs fine, really. Youâre not obligated to tell me these things. I just saw on Cassieâs instagram. Is she here too?âÂ
At that, he visibly stiffens and clears his throat as he replies, âOh, Cassie and I arenât together anymore. Well we were never.. But we kind of.. Yeah sheâs not in the picture. Itâs just me and Sarah.âÂ
Sarah. He had a girl. A little girl. Your stomach twists and you kind of feel like throwing up so you try to find an exit. âOh, Iâm sorry to hear that. Well, Sarah is lucky to have you. I always knew youâd make a good dad.âÂ
He smiles for the first time in this conversation. âTruthfully, I have no idea what Iâm doing half the time but sheâs a good kid.âÂ
Enough. Enough. Enough. âWell, it was nice meeting you again Joel, and Iâm glad youâre doing wellââÂ
âNo, wait. Can we talk, please? I.. Iâve missed you. I want to talk.â Joel steps towards you as if to stop you from leaving but then holds himself back.Â
âI donât think we have anything much to say to each other anymore, Joel, donât you think?â You chuckle a little to mask the overwhelming urge to cry.Â
âI just want to know how youâre doing.â He looks at the ground, like a puppy scolded by his owner and you know you canât resist the floodgates that pour out. You take a deep breath and let it all out in one exhale.
âFine. You want to know? Iâm doing great, just as you said I would. I make a ridiculous amount of money every year, I have a fancy apartment that overlooks the city, I have nice friends and a good life. Itâs everything you wanted for me.âÂ
âYou deserve it. I knew you would.â He says, nodding with a sad smile.
âSo why donât I feel happy yet?â You canât believe it but you actually start to cry. Here in the middle of the damn cereal aisle in front of your ex-boyfriend.Â
He stands stunned for a moment, his eyes concerned and brows furrowed. He eventually steps fully in front of you this time. His hands hesitate, as if he doesn't know where to put them, until he settles for your shoulders. âIâm sorry. I thought.. I thought you would beââÂ
You bat his hands off your shoulders. âYeah, you did. But it doesnât matter because whatâs done is done and weâll never get it back. Any of it.âÂ
He says your name, pleadingly.Â
âNo, I donât blame you. I left, didn't I? It was my decision too. I guess deep down some part of me thought I would be better off. And in a way I am. I really am. But I cannot lie to you and say that Iâm happy Joel, because Iâm not. And nothing will change that. Because this is my life now.âÂ
A moment of silence passes between the two of you as the weight of the years of separation hangs there. âIâm not either,â he whispers.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âIâm not.. happy. Cassie and I had a fling when I was heartbroken and dealing with our breakup. She had just gotten divorced and I was.. I was planning to ask for you back. I was prepared to get on a fucking airplane and beg on my knees until you took me back. Whether that meant moving you back home or me moving here, it didnât matter to me. Weâd make it work. I just wanted you to know that I made a mistake and I shouldnât have decided for you.â He places his hands on your shoulders again, and you let them stay this time.Â
He continues, speaking quickly as if a dam has burst. âBut then Cassie got pregnant. And I knew I had to make a choice. We said weâd try to raise the kid together and be a family but.. A few months after Sarah was born she just left. Literally, took off and left, and I have no idea where she went. Frankly, I donât even care. And then I got so busy with the kid and then years passed, and I just lost the timing. What, am I just supposed to call you up 10 years after breaking up with you, telling you what a joke my life has become? How Iâve regretted every moment since you packed your bags?âÂ
You let all of his words sink in for a while before choking out, âAnd what do I do with all this information now? What do you expect me to do?âÂ
Heâs tearing up and his voice rises a little as he replies, âNothing. I donât expect nothing. I just needed you to know that I never spent a day without thinking of you or loving you. And that Iâm sorry. And that I wish you were happy, because if you were, then at least all of this bullshit would be worth it. But youâre not.âÂ
You nod, your brain not fully able to come up with words at this point, so he continues. âIf youâd told me you were happy, I would have swallowed my pride, wished you well, and walked out of this store with the knowledge that at least all this pain has finally brought you joy. But weâre both hurting now, so what does that make us?âÂ
âTwo idiots crying in the cereal aisle?â You offer with a small chuckle through your tears.Â
He breathes out a small laugh. âYeah. That it does.âÂ
A woman passing through the aisle snaps you both back to reality as you wipe your tears and gather yourselves. âIt is really good to see you, Joel. And.. thank you for telling me all of it. It doesnât change anything but I think I needed to hear it.âÂ
He shakes his head before looking into your eyes. âYou know what the sick part is? 10 years ago I told you I never wanted you to look at me with regret in your eyes. Yet here you are.âÂ
You nod and smile sadly. Thereâs nothing left to say.Â
His gaze turns soft. âI hope youâll be happy someday. Maybe not now, but someday.âÂ
âMaybe. And yourself?âÂ
âMaybe.â He replies cheekily, smiling softly. With that, he pulls you in for a hug and the familiar waft of his cologne transports you back to 10 years ago when you hugged in his living room before saying goodbye, when you used to cuddle together so close at night, when he used to hug you before leaving for work. Your memories together flash before your eyes like a sick Hallmark movie except this time you know the ending.Â
You feel the press of his lips against your head and you swear you hear him whisper the words âI love youâ but you canât be sure because your heart is pounding and you can feel it in your ears. Your life from this point on will always be divided into before and after. The point where you know, you just know, the choice you made is irreversible. You will never have Joel Miller ever again.
As you pull away, you both tearfully smile and look at each other for the last time. You spend a good minute just looking, memorizing the otherâs face. You both donât bother with the polite pleasantries of promising to keep in touch because you know that would be a lie. It would be too painful. This is your fate now.Â
You walk past each other, leaving your memories and feelings behind in the dust of your footprints. To passersby, you look like strangers. Passing each other in the cereal aisle, meeting for a moment and then never again. And maybe thatâs what you are now. Strangers, destined to be in each otherâs lives for a moment, and then never again.Â
Joel eventually goes back home to Austin, and you stay in your beautiful apartment which seems to be mocking you with how big and yet empty it feels.Â
Joel looks at his daughter and wonders what it would be like if this kid was yours, and you stare at your phone, a message from your new date asking you to confirm a meeting time flashing on your screen.
Joel wonders what life would be like if youâd stayed. You wonder the same thing.
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SOMETHING HAPPENS | XIAO
summary verr goldet and huai'an playing matchmaker, basically
warnings wc 1.7k, this fic is xiao pretty much watching over reader in his very xiao way so if youâre not into stalking elements pls donât read LMFAO + xiao having a crushhh
Youâve felt the looming presence of someone watching you ever since youâve set foot in Liyue.
It wasnât anything suddenâin fact, no ordinary human being would have noticed it. But youâve been trained to deal with all sorts of animals, from wild Rishboland Tigers down to slippery Red-Tailed Lizards. You could sense the tiniest snap of twigs and freshly fallen leaves that could have only occurred from an interference.
And having dealt with animals for so long, you can safely conclude that whatever has been following you for the past ten days is definitely not an animal. If it were, it wouldâve been some skilled predator that somehow disappears into thin air when you steal a glimpse. The only possible trace you could find is the barely discernible mark on the dirt.
It also helped your Vision gave you the blessing of being attuned to the wind and the shift of air from a heavy presence.
You thought youâd be dead by the fifth day of your stayâmurdered by this newly-acquired stalker of yours, but nothing happened. You asked (politely, with a please) this person to reveal themselves and save you both the trouble, but nothing happened.
You even went as far as to throw yourself into the first hilichurl camp you saw to see if anything happened, yet while you were defending yourself against one, all of them fell to the ground limp once you turned back to them. You search for more camps nearby, but theyâve all been clearedâand all of them were freshly beaten as if your stalker made quick work once they figured out what you were up to.
âItâs hard to tell if youâre out to protect me instead of murdering me if you donât show yourself,â you say to the empty field, hoping for at least one answer, but nothing happens.
You suppose all that matters is that itâs hard to feel lonely with the constant presence.
âYou been hanging around Wangshu Inn lately?â asks the man you went up to. It is in case you werenât alone in what seemed to be the beginning plot of a horror movie. At your reluctant nod, he snorts, âWell, arenât you a lucky one? Or perhaps itâs the complete opposite if youâve been up to no good and disrespected an Adeptus.â
You don't understand what this manâs point is. Youâve briefly heard of the term âAdeptiâ floating around Liyue, but youâre not quite sure if itâs one person or something else entirely. Have you done something to offend any deities in Liyue? All youâve really been up to is researching the wildlife and tracking down the stalker.Â
âWhat does Wangshu Inn have to do with this?â
âWhy donât you ask and find out yourself?â
You frown. âIt would save me hours if you just tell me now.â
âI already told you what I know, kid,â says the man to you, a full-grown adult. âBut I suppose I can let you in on one secret: youâve piqued the interest of someone.â
This man is crazy.
You sigh. Youâve only been hanging around Wangshu Inn for shelter, but the sun is setting a little too fast, and the warm lights and delicious aroma of their food are starting to speak to youâyou suppose there is no other way.
Making your way up to an inn has never been more interesting.
While walking, you belatedly realize that you feel the presence of the stranger again. Itâs stronger than before, says the winds, and they never lie with what they touch as they fly by.
You also take it upon yourself to ask the merchants and customers alike, calling yourself new and curious as to what they know about the Adeptus lingering around Wangshu Inn.
âAn Adeptus? All I know is that this inn is hiding a mysterious secret, but none of us have really gotten to a point where we found more about it.â
A secret.
Youâd really prefer if the man you met before werenât lying, as you would want your stalker to at least be some sort of god than an ordinary human being who has been watching you for no other reason.
You mull this information in your head as you climb up the inn. And then your limbs lock in place once you hear a voice. It speaks to you, for some unknown reasonâas if the winds have quieted down to make you listen. Youâre not sure if itâs the rasp or the absolute command his voice demands that gets to you, butâ
âThe next person to come here will ask about me. You will say you know nothing about my whereabouts.â
Then, a new, feminine voice speaks up. It breaks the brief trance youâve been under. ââŠIs this the same person youâve been watching over for the past two weeks, Adeptus Xiao?â
Adeptus Xiao. Watching over�
Yet when you pick up pace and hurry to the counter, itâs just a woman alone, wide-eyed as she looks at you as if you were the one acting stranger.
âSorry,â you blurt. âIâm, ah⊠I thoughtâŠâ
Were you really just imagining that? No. Thatâs impossible.
The lady smiles. âIâve seen you around the Inn recently. My name is Verr Goldet, the boss here at Wangshu Inn.â
âOh, yes, nice to meet you.â Embarrassed, you choose to stare at the cat resting on the edge of her desk. You wonder if that cat can sense your distress; itâs blinking up at you innocently, surely the eyes of someone who has witnessed what youâve missed. âMy nameâs Y/N, and I wanted to book a roomâŠâ
Verr Goldet brightens, but you suppose anyone receiving a customer would be, too. âI see. Have you considered the room on our highest floor?â
âNotâŠreally?â
She hums, then smiles like she's letting you in on a little secret. âYou should. If not, then at least consider climbing up the stairs and see the view for yourself. Most of my customers book rooms solely for that reason.â
That does sound appealing, and you have time to spare. âI will; thank you for the suggestion.â
Pleased, Verr Goldet turns to her desk to assumably book you a room. In the silence, you find your voice, âHey, boss.â
You look up, and Verr Goldetâs eyes are sparkling. âHm, yes? Oh, your expression looks terrified.â She laughs, sliding a key across the desk and urging you to take it. âIâm just used to correcting people who call me âboss ladyâ. What was your question?â
âWell, Iâm pretty new, andâIâve heard something interesting about this place.â
âThere are a lot of rumors about this place. Youâd have to be more specific.â
She might either kick you out from where youâre standing or understand what youâre about to say. âWell, ever since I arrived here at Wangshu Inn I always felt like I was being watched over⊠and then a man I met outside from here told me that thereâs an Adeptus nearby?â
âI see. So youâve met my husband,â she smiles knowingly. âYouâre not from Liyue, arenât you?â You shake your head. âUsually, no one knows about this, but my husband mustâve caught it, too. Youâre looking for Adeptus Xiao, and I have noticed that heâs been lingering a lot more recently. More so than usualâIâve concluded itâs ever since you arrived.â
âShould I be scared?â Because youâre not. Your heart is pounding. Itâs a little messed up, but the thought of someone so highly esteemed having noticed you sends a thrill down your spine.
âOf course not. Xiao is the slayer of demonsâhe keeps Liyue and, most notably, this Inn safe from harm. Of course, I canât blame your curiosity: no one else has seen Xiao with their own eyes.â
âAm I correct in assuming my stalker could be this Adeptus?â
Verr Goldet laughs. âWhy donât you head up and find out?â
Breathtaking is the first thought that crosses your mind as you finally reach the terrace. You canât hold back your elated gasp seeing the place from this heightâthe lanterns, the people, the scenery.
And then you say, âAdeptus Xiao, are you here? Verr Goldet told me youâd be.â She didnât say it directly, but the implications were there.
The wind shifts as a presence materializes behind you. Itâs an all-too-familiar feeling. Goosebumps arise in your arms, and itâs not from the breeze. You turn, and come face-to-face with the most beautiful man youâve ever met.
Xiao clicks his tongue, his pale skin tinted red. âI did not ask for them to resort to matchmaking.â
âYou heard that? So youâre not denying that youâre the one whoâs been stalking me ever so creepily?â
âDo not disrespect the Adepti with your accusations,â Xiao quickly retorts, like itâs second nature.
But you now know that one of the Adepti has a little crush on you, so you hardly care less about that at this point. âIâd say that invading my privacy is more disrespectful.â
Xiaoâs silence embodies a scolded puppy.
You grin, stepping closer. It widens as Xiao stares at you warily, yet doesnât disappear. The moonlight brings out the color on his face. Heâs beautiful and acting unbelievably adorable. âItâs nice to meet you, Adeptus Xiao. Thank you for protecting me during my stay in Liyue.â
It mustâve been the sincerity in your voice that has him clearing his throat, scrambling for some sense of control again. âItâsâItâs my duty.â
âTo watch over one person in particular?â
Xiao glares weakly, caught red-handed. âDo not get so presumptuous.â He says, yet he hasnât disappeared into thin air while talking to you, unlike what Verr Goldet says usually happens. That alone says a lot.
âItâs hard not to when you look at me like that.â
Xiao visibly startles, losing his calm composure by blinking. âHow do I look at yââ
âI think Iâll be staying in Wangshu Inn for a little while longer,â you voice aloud, the grin on your lips never once faltering. âIâll be in your care, Xiao.â
Xiao cannot, in fact, handle this, as his entire face goes up in flames, and he disappears into wisps of teal and black. Youâre not too worried. You can still feel his presence, the way youâre already getting used to.
A/N OH MY GOD. A XIAO FIC. FINALLY. FROM SIXOSIX. SELF-PROCLAIMED XIAO MAIN... im shaking as i post this like im so nervous. and i hate this. but out of all the xiao fics i tried to write this one has been the one i actually completed without throwing out halfway through
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