#for your birthday with junkan

[aparticularbandit]

For Your Birthday

Summary: Mikan's birthday comes after the Tragedy, and Junko has made it very clear that she definitely, most certainly, will not be there.

She's got more important things to attend to, after all.

Fic Rating: T.

AO3

alternate ending

“I won’t be here,” her beloved says, “for your birthday.”

Plans within plans within plans, her beloved has, so when she says something like that, there’s no way to change it.

Enoshima-sama’s mind isn’t like a clock, simply and battery-powered, or even like a computer, programmable even if you don’t understand it.  Sometimes, Mikan imagines her mind like an entire human body to itself, with every cell and every organ working in conjunction for one much greater….

No.

That can’t.

Mikan doesn’t really think in metaphors very often.  She’s not very good at that.  But she knows that when her beloved says that something won’t happen, then it won’t; knows that the reason it can’t happen is because for it to happen, something else in her beloved’s plans has to drop by the wayside.  It’s not about priorities, or anything like that.  If Enoshima-sama could…could change it, then she would.  She would be here.

It isn’t because she doesn’t love her, or anything.

(Of course, one could say that the way her heart drops is her beloved’s gift to her – or, even, the way she will feel despair at the fact that her beloved won’t be there when her birthday finally does come around.  Knowing Enoshima-sama, that’s probably the best gift she could hope for, not because she thinks it’s the best, but because her beloved does.)

Enoshima-sama runs her fingers soft through Mikan’s hair, bends locks of it in her grasp, and makes a sharp sound of disapproval.  “You need a haircut, bestie.  This is all—”  Her nose turns up.  “—disheveled.”

~

“I won’t be here,” her beloved reminds her, “for your birthday.”

There’s no name for what her beloved is doing with the world, not yet.  People rarely name disasters until they’re in process; how you can name something before it begins?  They haven’t even named the massacre of the student council; they’re still trying to cover that up; and really, that’s the problem, isn’t it?  Maybe, if they hadn’t covered it up; maybe, if they’d been honest with themselves and with everyone else, it wouldn’t have gotten this bad.

It’s okay, Mikan wants to tell her.  I don’t really celebrate it anyway.

Of course, if she said any of that out loud, she’d stutter, she’d get tongue tied, her words would run together, and she wouldn’t even be able to look up at her beloved as she said it.  She’d be looking down at her hands, keeping them clenched together so tightly because she always does that, it’s a habit.  (If her hands are here, then they aren’t anywhere else.)

This way, saying nothing, she can imagine the conversation as it would have gone – which is to say, not at all – and she can keep her eyes on her beloved the entire time, instead of being distracted with her own inadequacies.

(Her beloved loves her for those inadequacies.

Maybe she should say something.)

“That’s not, like, a big deal to you, or anything, is it?”  Enoshima-sama barely looks at her, one hand propped on her hip.  She yawns, covers her mouth with one hand, and twirls about on one heel.  “Birthdays are kind of boring, anyway.  It’s the same thing every year!  I don’t even remember mine half the time!”

(Mikan always catches the lie.)

~

“I won’t be here,” her beloved says as the world crumples around them, “for your birthday.”

The sky isn’t red then, but when Mikan looks back on this memory later, as though holding it in a glass orb in her hands, she’ll remember it as red.  The thing of it is that the blood red with black clouds doesn’t come until after her beloved has gone away from her, hidden in that old school building with the other survivors, another massacre in the making.  That, at least, will have a name from the beginning – the Killing Game, her beloved calls it.  Sometimes the Killinger Game, which begs the question: will there be a Killingest Game?

Probably, after the Killinger Game is done.

(It’s a work in progress, her beloved says sometimes, dissatisfied, bored with her own title schematics.

Every now and again, Mikan thinks that maybe she’s waiting on her to offer another option.  But she doesn’t have anything to say.  If it were a horror movie, it would probably be something like The Killing Game 2, but that’s even more boring than the Killinger Game.  At least Killinger is kind of…kind of funny.

Isn’t it?)

The red sky and the black clouds come from the air pollution, among other things.  Bombs.  Fires, perpetual.  She’ll need a gas mask or something.  They all will.  Her beloved doesn’t want her to waste her time making sure they recover from breathing in too many things they’re not supposed to be breathing; she says that there will be enough air purifiers later for them to be just fine, so long as they wear the masks for a few months.

But, again, all of this will happen after she’s gone.

Likely around that birthday that keeps getting brought up, as though it’s something special.

“The Killing Game Remix: Killing Me Softly,” Enoshima-sama says, drumming her fingers against her lips.  Then her eyes light up, and she grins.  “Killing Me Loudly!” she chirps.  “That one sounds great, doncha think?”

~

I won’t be here, Mikan remembers, for your birthday.

But here, out of nowhere, a present wrapped in white and black with a small red ribbon for a bow and a gold rimmed card with her beloved’s handwriting in bright pink gel pen.

Mikan brushes her fingers against the present, unsure if it’s even real, but it’s very much there.  She doesn’t read the label first, saves it for last, because her beloved’s words are just as important as her beloved’s gift – maybe more so.  Her fingernails, sharp as her beloved carved them to be, scratch through the thin paper, and a shock of despair rips through her heart.

This should be conserved; this should be saved.

(She’s already breaking it.)

The present could be empty.  That would be an even greater despair, and it’s just the sort that Enoshima-sama would think to give.  To get her hopes all up that there would be something special inside, and then – nothing!  Of course, the ribbon alone is enough; Mikan can wrap it around her still uneven hair (they never did get that haircut, which means it must not have been important to her beloved after all), can pull it back while she gets splattered with blood the color of her beloved’s gel pen.  (It should be the cover of the ribbon.  When they put on the masks, they didn’t wear anything to protect their eyes.)

She carefully slips her fingers underneath tape and sets the slightly more tattered wrapping paper to one side.  The box smells as though Enoshima-sama were still here with her, even though she isn’t, all blueberries and lilacs and pomegranates.  She licks her lips before opening it.

Her eyes widen.

Oh.

There’s another card inside, and she smiles fondly at it.

I want to see you wear something fitting at the end of the world.

Deep, deep, beneath so much tissue paper and glitter that you could be convinced there’s nothing in there at all, Mikan finds another box, this one tiny and covered in black velvet.  She doesn’t want to open it.  (She wants to open it.)  She’s scared of what she’ll find inside.

Why should she be scared?  Enoshima-sama wouldn’t hurt her, after all.

Mikan takes a deep breath and opens the box.

Inside is nothing more than a simple golden chain – tiny loops clasped together so small that they could be gold beads from far away (they are not gold beads).  The very center holds a small ruby, no bigger than the swell of her eye, and equidistant from it but not far are two diamonds the size of a baby’s first tooth.  On the other end, the clasp looks like a golden knot.

A note, too, rests on the inside curve of the jewelry box: I thought a ring, but with all the surgeries and everything, you could’ve lost that.  This you don’t ever have to take off!

It’s only after clasping it that Mikan returns to the first note, gold-rimmed, on the outside of the box, still dangling from the red ribbon she will later use to hold her hair back.  She sucks her lower lip between her teeth and smiles.

Happy Birthday, best beloved.

I wouldn’t miss you for the world.

[danggirlronpa]

Oh! I didn't expect you to turn it back on me and ask if I had any suggestions... But I actually do!

retrograde brain (why is boredom your fate?) by Firedawn (Serpyre): kyouko/ryouko & super interesting! I really liked their relationship in it, though I will admit it's not the only focus; Junko's sister-relationship with Mukuro gets some focus too. Mukuro might actually be one of my favorite parts aside from the relationship in this one, too; I think the ending is PERFECT as well. Definitely more on the heavy side of things, but a very good read.

I Can't Fix It (is this where i give in?) by TheImmortalFlame: this one features a trans girl!Ouma named Keiko, which might not be everyone's cup of tea, but I definitely liked. It's a lot of AUs in a trench coat, too; most notably despair!Ouma. The ships are Maki/Keiko & Junko/Keiko and is pretty dark/sad but has a happy ending in the end. Love wins!

The Threshold by tsurugikinjo: a Junkan first meeting reimagining (not compliant with DR3), and one of my favorite versions of it. Warning for contemplation of suicide though, nothing happens but there are thoughts.

Mission: Inshoppable by Ripley Scrolls: more Mukuro focused than romance focused, but Komaru goes shopping with Mukuro to try and find something for Syo for her birthday, very cute! Definitely one of the more fluffy ones on this list.

Hopeless Devotion by Snarky_Sociopath: another Junkan reimagining (not complaint with DR3). I would warn that there's background incest between Mukuro and Junko, but the author has said that's only because they are like that in the DR3 canon, and that they aren't trying to romanticize it. It's also not the focus. I definitely understand if anyone wants to skip it because of that, however, as the topic makes me uncomfortable, too. It also focuses on some of the twilight syndrome girls relationships to Mikan in a very enjoyable way, too!

Chiaki Nanami Doesn't Smile by Oceantoast: Enonami with despair!Chiaki; I'm so starved of enonami content that I eat all of these sort of fics up.

Absolutely, Unnaturally, Picture-Perfect by lonely_lowri: a Mahiru character study!!! Less romance focused, but it definitely has Sato/Mahiru & Hiyoko/Mahiru in it.

Her Smile is the Sun by Midnightdemonht: This one is a Junko character study through the eyes of the remnants (not DR3 complaint), so it's not exactly focused on the romances? But they are definitely there.

Everything You've Ever Dreamed by VanadisValentine: NON DESPAIR JUNKAN... it's very sweet. They do a lot of non despair/non abusive Junkan so if that's someone's vibe, I definitely recommend their works!

Write Your Name In Secrets by PekoIsBaby: one of my favorite Celestia/Kyouko fics ever!!! It's plot is pretty darn good, too—I definitely recommend it for anyone who even has a passing interest in these two, it's really good!

Remember by PekoIsBaby: Sakura/Aoi, and my favorite of the pairing I've read. I wasn't immediately sold on the premise of mythical creature au but this one is really, really good. Even if you too aren't immediately sold on the premise, I do recommend reading it anyways because it may just surprise you!

Red Fingernails by PekoIsBaby: Mikan recovering from Junko fic with a bunch of Mikan/girls pairings, aha, though a lot of them are only implied. Ibuki/Mikan is the main ship, if I remember correctly, but there's minor Akane/Mikan & Mahiru/Mikan too. Mikan recovery fic wooo let's go!!!

Sound Bites by starrylitme: Ibuki/Sayaka focus with some Ibuki/Junko, set in the IF-verse. I don't even ship Ibuki/Sayaka but this really made me a lot more interested in them! The way they both relate to music in different ways... very interesting.

Phantasmal Voices by Kayleen756894: ghost!Junko non despair Junkan AU... warning for suicide, but very very good so far! It hasn't updated in a few years, but I'm hoping it will eventually because it's super good.

Pink Heart Flutter by GalaxyAqua: VERY FLUFFY AND CUTE... miu/kaede, just pure fluff.

To Destinations Unknown by GalaxyAqua: a very good NWP post-V3 Miu/Angie AU. Probably my favorite Miu/Angie work out there, tbh.

Burning Your Eyes In The Sun by Jacynon: TENKO/ANGIE MY BELOVED... post-V3 NWP AU, and my favorite Tenko/Angie work I've read. I love Tenko/Angie & I think this work really incapsulates why.

like an island, just me and you by criminalheart: Mikan/Tenko in UTDP & really, really good!!! I loved how it explored Mikan & didn't shy away from her sometimes darker tendencies while still having Tenko be a light in the darkness for her... and it was very sweet, the whole thing.

you and god both got the guns by Jacynon: Tsumugi/Angie & a GREAT exploration of it. Tsumugi-focused.

Better Brighter by starrylitme: NANAMIKI PRE-DESPAIR... I love this one because Mikan is a bit unhinged in it. We need more toxic doomed Yuri nanamiki & I stick by that. This isn't exactly that, but it does scratch the itch somewhat. My favorite Nanamiki story out there!!

a series in poor focus by revolutionator: SATO/MAHIRU MY BELOVED.... probably my favorite Sato/Mahiru works!

Patient Logs by shsldespair: a Mikan-focused recovery fic, with past Junkan. She talks a lot about their relationship & some of the things she says are permanently ingraved in my head... this was written before DR3, I'm pretty sure, so it's not complaint with that.

stillness in woe by sonia (orphan_account): RYOUKO/MIKAN MY BELOVED... plus it's a goddess au which is so cool!!!

Incomplete by GalaxyAqua: Akane/Mikan, and probably the best of the ship I've read! Very good. A little on the sad side, but ultimately hopeful - it's set in a non despair AU.

Liar by monsterkiss: Sayaka/Junko & one of my favorites of the ship! It's from Junko's POV which is cool to see, & canon compliant.

Soft (But Only For Her) by Kayleen756894: a collection of nine abusive Junkan fics, very sweet!!

Those are just some of my favorites! I also didn't include any that I wrote (though you can go looking for them; my account is Buttercup_ghost and I do have a fair amount of them), just ones others wrote. Happy reading!!

Sorry this ask took so long to get to!! I held off to read all of them so I could offer my own thoughts, but I don't think I'll be able to for at least another month or two, and I definitely don't want to wait so long to share such a well crafted list T_T For now, I'll post it for others to see & so I can come back to it later!!

[rarepairronpa]

Hellooooo, I am here to recommend Junkan fics of my own!

First. I'm seconding the Kayleen, VanadisValentine, and aparticularbandit recs! All the fics I've read from those three are really good!

Speaking of aparticularbandit, they have even more Junkan fics than just that one! Here they are:

Freedom Doesn't Mean No Work: written for rarepair week for the prompt fashion and super good! Imo, it's in-between the more fluffy and the more toxic Yuri of the spectrum, as it's ostensibly fluff but there are... hints... that the relationship isn't as rosey as Mikan portrays. (Junko is definitely cheating on her. RIP Mikan. Probably with Kyouko, knowing this authors ship preferences.)

For Your Birthday: written for Mikan's birthday! Sort of the same dynamic of the precious fic where like, Mikan sees everything as rosy but the reality tells a different tale. You can probably ignore the red flags and pretend it's fluff, or you can focus on them if you prefer toxic Yuri. It's kind of doing both. The second chapter is actually inspired by a comment I made, since I was so sure reading the first chapter that it would end with Junko dead. So. That's what the second chapter is, lol.

There's also, finally, The Thin Line Trilogy from them. Which. I haven't finished. But have no doubt is good. What I've read of it is great, anyway.

Now onto the other recs!

The Present. By character-studious-drabbles: this one's short and sweet and (imo) leaning more into toxic Yuri given its set in despair times.

Miscalculation by Gl00mysnake: a cute non abusive junkan one shot, definitely for anyone who wants cute antics of them.

Rapunzel by character-studious-drabbles: short and sad :( definitely on the toxic Yuri angle.

the words will fall like teeth by darlingargents: toxic Yuri angle. Big warning for abuse in this one.

My Nights Were Always Pitch Black, Until You Came And Filled The Sky With Stars by Gl00mysnake: A slow burn non abusive Junkan work.

Bite Me, Love by starlesscholarfic: definitely on the side of toxic Yuri; mikan dealing with junko's death.

The Wire Lover by BonfireRose: post Junko's death, both Nagito and Mikan try to revive her. It's despair Era. Only on the first chapter, so there's not a lot on the Junkan dynamic yet.

Diagnosis: Love by GalaxyAqua: Mikan mourning Junko, more on the toxic Yuri side but more the manipulation kind than outright abusive.

Hopeless Devotion by Snarky_Sociopath: a reimagining of Junkan meeting and developing. Seems like it will get abusive in the future; the warning signs are definitely there but it hasn't become outright yet, just manipulative. Has background incest but it's not romanticized/meant to be a good thing, but I understand if anyone is uncomfortable with that.

The Despair of Love by Albedolover: Compliant with DR3, actually. So, uh. Definitely more on the abusive side of the scale. Really just Mikan introspecting.

Her Smile is The Sun by midnightdemonht: Junkan is only a small part of this as it has all the Remnants, but. I really liked what was written about them.

Haven't you been in love? By Pachirisu_2014: Kinda surreal but I really liked it. Again more on the toxic Yuri side, but more manipulative than outright abusive iirc.

Such Lovely Eyes: Abuse, be warned. Also has Mikan/Hiyoko, seeks to juxtapose the two ships.

Patient Logs by shsldespair: READ THIS ONE. READ. THIS. ONE. seriously, it's so good. It's despair mikan in therapy. And it's super well done. I have some of the stuff Mikan talks about in here living in my head rent free. I read it back in like 2016 and I've never forgot it.

Pressure by m3m3mnt0m0r1: In which Mikan kills someone and Junko helps cover it up. Lol.

Defile the Flesh (she's so lovely) by Anonymous: ABUSE. A LOT OF ABUSE. this one is super heavy but gosh does it stick with you. Compliant with the brainwashing video.

Phantasmal Voices by Kayleen756894: Non abusive with Ghost!Junko. One of my absolute favorites and just as good as their other works.

red by asunaro: another post-dr1 fic and mayhaps my favorite of the bunch...

And now for my own fics! I have so many (78) that I'm just going to link you to my page filtered to the junkan ship tag. Lol.

Probably my favorite of the non abusive ones that I've written is my Madoka Magica AU. It is. Sad, though. Given its a Madoka Magica AU. Lol.

Edit: also. DR0 spoilers going forward. But have some Ryouko/Mikan fics. Since she's Junko in a trench coat.

beloved by orphan_account: dark/sad one-shot about ryouko in sdr2 during chapter 3

Cures for Headache Weather by shishooter: Fluffy Ryouko and Mikan. Hurt/comfort-y. Mikan has some depressive thoughts, but the work ends on a happy note.

stillness in woe by sonia: a junko/ryouko goddess au, with her loving mikan throughout her life. Made me cry, really sweet and also sad.

Hey, I love your Junkan art! Just was wondering, you recommended VanadisValentine 's work, which I agree with as I love all their Junkan stuff... but I was wondering, do you have any other Junkan recommendations? Would love to hear them if you do! (Ps. I haven't finished your blood bag work but what I have read of it so far I'm loving!)

Why thankyou for this question! First off glad you like all of the Junkan stuff so far, it's been a labor of love (and obsession) that took 9 months but seeing all the positive reactions has made it all worth it! As for recommendations, I am happy to oblige. I'll admit I haven't read every single Junkan Fic there is, I have made it a habit to go on a crazy binge of as much Junkan as I can, I go through every single page on AO3 and read anything tagged as soft (along with anything that looks like it was worth the risk.)

Hell when it comes to Junkan fics I literally have the Junko/Mikan tag for AO3 bookmarked and right at the top of my screen so I can click anytime, and I'm sure I still have plenty of fics left to read whether it's on this site or somewhere else hidden deep within google search. So if anyone wants to go in the comments/reblogs and give recommendations or even shill their own stuff go right ahead!~

Be sure to remember these, they'll be on the test later (this is foreshadowing) So do allow me to give you the long list of fics to read when you're feeling the vibe

I've already recommended VanadisValentine's works in previous posts, however for the sake of a complete list I'll still put em here.

The Marvelous Makeover of Mikan Tsumiki - VanadisValentine (Absolute Classic, also just really fun to say)

Everything You've Ever Dreamed - VanadisValentine (Quite possibly one of my favorite Fanfics just in general)

Turn Out the Lights - VanadisValentine (More focused on the characters separated along with their thoughts on the relationship but it's a great fic for when you're in the mood)

When Am I Gonna Lose You? - VanadisValentine (An 18+ Fic just as a warning, but if you're old enough and looking for something in that field this is an amazing piece, even with all my skill in the field of drawing funny pictures I don't think I could depict anything near as beautiful as the descriptions featured here. Does that sound pretentious? Yes! But I know what I am lol.) Year of Love and Despair - VanadisValentine (Last one from her on this list, also ongoing! If you want a variety of stories of these two ranging from fluffy to dramatic to sometimes even saucy then this fic is the place for you. Genuine highlight of my year and has helped me get through the tougher days very often. You can also look and see my really excessively long comments on most of the chapters!~)

Living in a Crazy Parallel World - Yurikah (Fair warning, this one is very long, isn't 100% Junkan Focused, and is also unfinished with it's last update being awhile ago. That said I think if you can make peace with that going into it you'll be in for a very well written treat!~)

Soft (But Only for Her) - Kayleen756894 (When I first got into Junkan I had only read a small handful of fics from AO3, this was one of them and I went through it in a single night. Extremely fun experience that covers a wide variety of ideas for Junkan. Fluffy, Tragic, it's the whole nine yards. There's gotta be at least one story in this collection that will appeal to someone if they like this ship)

Smile - Kayleen756894 (Truly amazing, one of the all time Junkan Fics out there. It can be a very stressful read but oh so very worth it in my opinion. And for those who want a fic closer to canon in terms of character depictions while still being on the softer side I think this will satisfy heavily)

Hurt, Hold, Heal - Kayleen756894 (Do you like Junko helping Mikan through a Panic Attack? Do you like Junko trying to be a better person? Do you like Mikan helping Junko just as much as Junko helps her? Oh look it's the fic for you. The ending is really sweet too)

Tomorrow is Lonely - Kayleen756894 (Also 18+, arguably even more than the previous one on the list. Check the tags before you read and if that sounds like something you're into go for it. Me personally I gotta be in a very specific headspace first but when I do read it I enjoy myself, it's real cute and has a lot of great little character moments)

Protectors in Red - Kayleen756894 (Extremely good! Also features Mukuro! So if that's a selling point then I'm sure it'll vibe)

Forgive Me, My Beloved - Gloomy_snake (Significantly out of my normal comfort zone and definitely not what one would expect compared to the other fics here, but an enjoyable read. And if you like Doomed Yuri, it's got plenty packed in.)

Drowning - aparticularbandit (Extremely inspiring piece of writing featuring Alter Ego Junko instead of Original Recipe Junko!)

A Night for Two - TheGreatWave74 (Cute fic with the girlies at the pool)

what's better than this, girls havin fun - oxidize (A Chatfic! It might not give the same lasting impact as other fics on the list, however this was the fic that introduced me to the very idea of Soft Junkan, so I will always cherish it, and make sure to re-read it every now and again for the sentimental value)

Burning Lungs - oxidize (Another unfinished fic, I remember that put me off from reading it for awhile. However when I finally did I got pretty invested, which left the cliffhanger on the last chapter all the more stinging. Hope the author is doin' well! Anyway, great fic, might go a bit overboard on the darker aspects of Mikan and Junko's backstories so be warned, but even with that in mind I enjoyed myself and find myself imagining the potential turns it could have taken. And watching Junko's feelings slow burn into existence was really pleasant, especially as her dynamic with Mikan continues)

School Life of Mutual Loving - MarySutcliff (A Compilation of various fics from various ships, 3 of which are Soft Junkan. I've only read the first two, but if you enjoy them I imagine the third will do something for you, the first chapter also, as far as my research can tell, is the first instance of Soft Junkan.) First Chapter Second Chapter Third Chapter

Queen of the Convenience Store - Orphan_Account (The one where Junko and Mikan do weed. I actually quit weed and went cold turkey about a week or two ago, but I do still enjoy seeing girls kissing while being high. even if i can't remember if they kiss in this oops)

A DR Oneshot from an Orphan_Account (It features a Hot Topic, my inner 2000s kid has to recc it)

The Threshold - character_studious (A Bit Dark, but a pleasant read!)

The Whirlwind Fashionista - Kaz3313 (Cute lil Non-Despair AU fic featuring a very cool mall! The ending also gets a chuckle out of me)

No Regrets - wait i made that one (I wasn't going to put this here initially however as a small spoiler, Day 50 of this project is directly based on this fic. I'm super mixed on how it turned out but hey maybe someone'll like it)

And that's it for now! I may or may not be forgetting a decent amount of fics even among the ones I've read before. And there's plenty I haven't even seen yet, and plenty more to be made overtime I imagine.

Your mileage may vary with a lot of these fics, but hopefully you'll find one that itches your brain good like they itch mine. And if not then I recommend just hitting the Junkan Tag running and see what you can find! Take a few risks and maybe you'll find something surprising.

Have a wonderful day and remember to stay hydrated!~

[picosbu]

Heh, Hello.

It's good to see you on your page 💫💦

A little bit about myself -

Birthday December 10 🌨️

Name - Asya

From Russia.

🇷🇺 / 🇺🇲 (🇬🇧)

There will be drawings, comics (Not sure)

Love — Sweets, Weekend,danganronpa

Hate — School, hate myself(?)

Favorite ship — Oumami, Naehara, komahina2 ( Aoi x Komaru), Tokonia,celesgiri,ikuzono, saiouma,saimatsu,naegami.

neutral ship - Togafuka, Naezono,Naekusaba(?),

Hateful ship - Naegiri,Junkan (Junko x Mikan)

Playing in – Roblox, Minecraft, Danganronpa, Doki Doki, Sims 4,detroit, yandere simulator 🧸🖇️

💭 I think that's enough. 💭

💕 🍁 bye! 🍁 💕

(IF ANYTHING, I'M SORRY FOR PUTTING THE TAGS)

[aparticularbandit]

For Your Birthday: Alternate Ending

Summary: Mikan’s birthday comes after the Tragedy, and Junko has made it very clear that she definitely, most certainly, will not be there.

She’s got more important things to attend to, after all.

Chapter Rating: M for horrifying imagery. Fic Rating: T because this is an alternate ending and not actually the fic proper. :P

AO3

original fic

I won’t be here, Mikan remembers, for your birthday.

Almost.

It’s the worst word in the world, almost, and it’s the one she thinks on the eve of her birthday, sitting in the school building those other children abandoned, her beloved’s broken body crumpled in her arms.

Almost.

Her fingers stained pink the moment she touched her (blood was red, once, red as the bow on her beloved’s chest before it was soaked through, but for all that her beloved told them to wear masks through the storm of what has uncreatively been called The Tragedy (and Enoshima-sama would have thought that was so boring, so predictable, as though they couldn’t think of anything better just because it was the most tragic (tragic like a murder?  tragic like a fallen hero?  or tragic like an outfit that just doesn’t fit quite right?)), she’d never told them to wear goggles; now their sight is changed, but it’s only the blood, all pink and sparkling where once it was red and clotted).

She only has so much time – she knows she only has so much time – and yet she can’t stop herself from stopping, from holding her beloved against her chest and sinking her head into her blood-soaked hair (the blood is brighter, darker, than the baby soft rose petal her hair was at the end).

Blue raspberries.

Even still, louder than the copper of her blood, blue raspberries.

Blue raspberries and pomegranates and something else.

Enoshima-sama would know, of course, but Enoshima-sama would never tell her.  Not outright.  She would make Mikan guess, and Mikan wouldn’t know, but if it was some sort of food base, Teruteru would know, or if it was some sort of floral base, Hiyoko would know, but Mikan….

She only knows these scents because her beloved once took her to the side and showed her how to mix oils together to create her own unique blend.

(“You always smell all clinical clean, Mikan.  Like old people.  It’s disgusting.”  Her beloved, pulling out one from what Mikan remembers as millions of bottles, but was really maybe only something like five or ten or fifty.  “Here.  Try this one.  Your patients will thank you.”)

Her beloved never let her see all of the scents she used for her blend, and her beloved kept changing them because she was bored, but blue raspberries were so often a base, and pomegranates….

It’s a reference, Mikan’s sure it is, but she can’t recall it right now.  That’s the worst thing of all; this must be another gift from her beloved, if she could just figure it out, but right now her mind is only full of—

She only has so much time, and she’s wasting her beloved’s body – her final, last gift – by trying to think of what this scent is and what her beloved would mean by it.

Plans within plans within plans.

Enoshima-sama must have known this was how it would end.  She must have planned for it.  She must have known that Mikan would find her when she did, and she must have crafted this scent specifically and uniquely for her.  It must mean something.

Mikan’s despair will be that she will never figure out what it means.

Her scalpel dips and weaves through her beloved’s chest.

(This time, she has goggles, so her tears don’t mix with her blood.)

I won’t be here, her beloved said, for your birthday.

But her heart is still warm in Mikan’s hands, and her womb—

Mikan very nearly smiles.

She could wrap her beloved’s skin around her and sleep in the warmth of her.

(When she’s done with her limited time, she very nearly might.  It certainly doesn’t belong with anybody else.)

[aparticularbandit]

Hey, guess what, I have some, that's one of my ships, those are my kids.

Drowning: one-shot set during DR2 Case 3.

For Your Birthday: mostly one-shot set on Mikan's birthday during the Tragedy (and then an alternate second ending one of these is more angsty than the other I will not tell you which)

Freedom Doesn't Mean No Work: Junko spends a free weekend re: Mikan's wardrobe.

I will also lowkey recommend my longer series The Thin Line Trilogy, with the caveat that the first book is significantly more Enogiri with Junkan moments but the second book is significantly more Junkan (but not in a way you would think) with Enogiri moments. (The third book looks to be an even mix of the two, although I'd hesitate to say that the Junkan is stronger. Hesitantly.) I will completely understand if that's not your bag, though, since. mixed ships there and one of them might be super NOTP.

That said - I looked through my bookmarks and subscriptions and have also found this (I have not finished reading all of the stories, so am not sure of their content, so - read at your own risk!):

Soft (But Only for Her)

And then also I really like Buttercup_ghost's writing as a whole, so while I haven't read all of it, this is the Junkan stuff!

hai guys hello lesbians and sapphics of the danganronpa fandom i am in DIRE need of junkan fic recommendations. pretty please. plummets onto the floor and sobs hard

[carbonatedjem]

Hi there, Carbonated-Jem. Local Junkan obsessed 24 year old and someone who was not expecting to see Death Battle out it n the wild on tumblr.

Fun fact while I have posted about it here, I generally try to keep my VS Stuff off of Tumblr because this place is generally an escape for me from all of that on Twitter and other sites, but also I am in fact a longtime fan of DB. Have been since Season 1 back in 2011, and it's deeply tied to my fuckin ability to stay financially stable because people pay CRAZY money to get art of characters beating the shit out of eachother.

So fun fact I used to really not like this matchup, lowkey still don't, or like, any of the matches I've heard for Junko (Best I've heard is The Major from Hellsing, got paid to draw that for a friends birthday once, it was fun, i got to draw big grins). The literal only match idea I like for Junko is too stupid and hyper specific for anyone but me to enjoy, which fun fact is the best way to enjoy VS Stuff you need to have whimsy or you'll become a husk. Overall though I'd generally prefer they do something like Monokuma vs Korosensei over this or any other junko idea (And yes I know that sounds kinda stupid but I swear to you when you have walked this fandom's agonizing trails for long enough the specification makes sense)

Anyway tangent aside. Fun fact, I used to think this match was like, decently even and a bit of a hard debate. Not because Springtrap is like buff as shit or anything, that is an above average corpse man at best, it's more cause most people will tell you he has a shit ton of broken ass abilities. So one day it comes up in a convo with a bunch of my friends from the community (emphasis on friends I do not talk about this shit with random people for the sake of not getting a headache), cause any degree of value this idea held to me was purely based on if Junko won or not, cause that's my comfort character I've drawn her like 147 times at this point. I was then informed by my friends that she does in fact stomp the match with ease because 90% of the shit people say Springtrap can do is just actively not real in the material or doesn't actually apply to him. He is just a dead guy who is kind of annoying to put down. It was an extremely funny weekend. Anyway extremely sorry to fuckin dump all that on your post this is just the equivalent of seeing a deer on my fucking lawn.

So the Death Battle Twitter is running a poll to determine who would win: Junko Enoshima vs Springtrap. Do you have any thoughts on that face off?. (It's for an episode of their podcast, not for an episode of the actual show)

Oh, Junko, easy. She has practically limitless resources and an inexhaustible supply of Monokumas, which can fight evenly with Sakura Ogami. She could massacre the entire cast of Five Nights at Freddy's without ever leaving her control room.

...which is petty ironic given the game in question, come to think of it.

This is made worse when you apply Death Battle logic to it. Battleboards often distort characters wildly beyond what the literal reading of their abilities was ever supposed to be.

Like, it's practically a running joke that nearly every single character ever written moves at massively FTL speeds because somewhere in their character history you can probably find a moment where they dodged a laser or laser-like projectile.

Battleboards thrive on taking everything as literally as possible to create the wildest, most ultra-powerful interpretation of a character they could ever conceive. Just glancing at Junko's Versus Wiki, they say her punches can at the weakest level buildings "because she scales to Makoto Naegi".

That's battleboards for you. And Death Battle is no exception.

Death Battle Junko would be insane. Because in Death Battle, Junko having an excavator pound repeatedly on her neck several times and withstanding being hit by a thousand baseballs and shit in the Ultimate Punishment counts as durability feats.

And in Death Battle specifically, their rules require characters to have access to whatever they need to use their powers to the fullest. Sonic, for example, always gets to have the Chaos Emeralds on-hand because Super Sonic is his strongest form.

So in addition to Junko being the Shonen Battle Anime version of whatever feats you can wring out of her and having an inexhaustible supply of Monokumas, AI Junko and Monokuma's abilities from the Neo World Program are also on the table.

It's difficult to imagine how this interpretation of Junko could possibly lose to an angry ghost piloting a pizzeria animatronic.

Then again, Death Battle's made some pretty ridiculous leaps of logic in the past, even setting aside the hyperbolic way they interpret characters. So I suppose anything's on the table.