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BECCA THESE SUBBY DBF!BUCKY THOTS ARE KILLING ME IN THE BEST WAY I LOVE IT SO MUCH😩😵💫🤤
Coming back to this because my weakness is submissive older men 🤤
Just the thought of clamping your hands around his neck while you're on top and watching him lose it makes me dizzy.
I absolutely love the thought of fucking yourself on him, grinding your hips back and forth with his length inside you while he whimpers and moans beneath you.
He's surrendered all the control he's ever had. You both know that it'd take very little effort if he decided he wanted to change the dynamic but he has no interest in doing that.
He wants you on top of him, using him for your own pleasure rather than his. He wants you to leave scratches down his chest where your nails have sunk into his skin. He wants flushed, stinging cheeks, reminding him of each little slap you've given him when his eyes flutter shut and he stops looking at you for even a few seconds.
But then one of your hands cups his neck and that feels like an entirely different kind of submission. It's not a painful sensation that he expects when he imagines being submissive in bed; it's dizzying. The light pressure on his neck is delightful but more than anything, it feels like you're fully in control. He's vulnerable like this and he loves it.
"Both hands. Please." He's never sounded so needy and any hesitation you might have felt a few seconds ago melts away. Your other hand joins the first, wrapped around his neck, your fingers squeezing slightly and he looks entirely blissed out underneath you.
"Oh fuck." He groans, thrusting his hips up towards you in a desperate attempt to make sure he's buried as deep inside you as he can manage.
"You're fucking pathetic like this." You tease, adjusting your grip on his neck to remind him exactly where your hands are. You feel his pulse under your fingers and you feel your body flutter at the realisation. "You're losing yourself in me, aren't you?"
His eyes close for a few seconds while he tries to focus on the sensation, rather than the sight of you but that won't do. You take one hand from his neck, slapping his face gently and the rush he feels from the release of pressure is euphoric.
"Did I say you could look away?" You tease, putting your hand back on his throat, keeping your grip tight while he shakes his head.
His hands land on your hips, helping you grind back and forth on him, rubbing his length right where you need it. He probably won't get off like this but you absolutely could.
"I want to feel you cum. I need you to squeeze my neck and my cock at the same time." He's fantasised about this and it shows.
"Make me." You were half joking but he starts working your hips faster, setting the pace he knows you like until he stops suddenly, holding your hips still.
"God, I can't cum yet. I don't want this to end." You forgive him this time for closing his eyes, giving him a moment to collect himself before he's back to fucking you on him, begging you to squeeze his neck harder.
#asks answered <3#becca writes spice#anon#sub!bucky#dbf!bucky#subby!bucky#this is absolutely going to be tmi but I refuse to shut up about it#because#for the first time in my life#I actually had an o that another person was fully responsible for#no toys#I didn't have to do a single thing#that's never happened before#it's taken 7 years#7. years.#so you'll understand why I'm so giddy about this 🙈#anyway 🙃#one of my faves at work got engaged a couple of weeks ago#and I haven't seen her since then#so I'm going in early tomorrow to put up a tonne of decorations for a lil engagement party#her desk is going to be a sparkly disaster#and she's going to HATE it#I can't wait
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Just realized something. Is this the first time Yugi learns the truth of who brought back the piece of the puzzle?
I believe the last time the missing piece was brought up was when Grandpa brought it to Yugi. Sugoroku says that Jounouchi asked him not to tell Yugi that he was the one who returned it.
#jounouchi katsuya#yugi mutou#joey wheeler#also that laat panel#for the first time in my life#gets me every time#yugi is the reason#wishshipping#im tagging it#i mean is this directly that?#maybe not#but it is
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“Dorian and Basil are gonna be siblings in our upcoming TV show adaptation of tpodg :D’
I can’t believe Netflix is gonna make me defend the copious amounts of incest fanfiction that is inevitably going to be written
They broke me
#like ewwwww#I’m the first person to judge THORKI#because those are brothers#but this#oh my god#Netflix you’ve done it#you’ve ruined me#I’m not even gonna be able to ship them#and I won’t write or read any of that fanfiction#I’ll stick to ffs where they aren’t brothers#but oh my god#what is wrong with you#for the first time in my life#I won’t be able to judge people for shipping incest#netflix#netflix adaptation#the grays#fanfic#fanfiction#the picture of dorian gray#oscar wilde#dorian gray#basil hallward#tpodg#I’m acc gonna THROW UP#WHAT POSSESSED YOU TO DO THIS#You brought this on yourself tbh
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aaaaah just got the call for nomination for a fast-track position to be group leader in the group i joined a little over a year ago, and I'm excited but also nervous. This would be such a cool way to have some job stability for 4 years, and get on the track to have a more permanent research position with my own group in Germany without the risk of doing a 6 year postdoc and kneecapping my ability to go back to the US academic market. And it's a pretty simple application! But that makes me more nervous, because it means it has to be totally pristine- I have no wiggle room. I have two and a half weeks to do the application (and I'm on holiday this week, but like a true academic I won't let that stop me)
#post gradblr#stemblr#really hoping to stay in Germany and feel a little bit more stable#just met with the person i'm subletting from to discuss taking over the lease and her furniture.#i'm ready for stability#for the first time in my life
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One of my relatives just showed me 2 artworks he bought at an event where artists were selling their works dedicated to Palestine where ALL the money will be going to Gaza.
The two artworks are simple but moving, with countless Palestinians being depicted as doves flying away over their land which is drenched in blood.
It got me thinking..how the Palestinians’ bravery and dedication to protect their homeland is being celebrated through art on social media and the real world every day. Civilians and children depicted as doves on one hand, and the resistance as lions on the other. Symbolism of a very peaceful nation, but also incredibly brave and of noble conduct. They are being immortalized in art.
In the same vein, the IOF are being showcased in art as pigs and hyenas (symbols of greed and cowardice in art across cultures) - land thieves hiding in their high towers behind their fortified apartheid walls, sending out pilot-less war planes with a click of a button, too cowardly to go face actual men fighting for their homeland. Zionists only feel confident bombing defenseless women and children from the sky.
This is how both sides will be remembered down the line. It will be a very interesting period in history that our descendants will study in the future, but will inevitably wonder.. “Why was the whole world silent? Why didn’t anyone stop this barbaric genocide?”
#the answer is MONEY#and political power#free palestine#end israeli apartheid#zionazis#Zionist barbarity#israeli war crimes#israeli terrorism#israel is a terrorist state#Zionists are land thieves#ethnic cleansing#settler colonialism#for the first time in my life#I don’t feel bad at all for humans being depicted as unsavory animals#zionazis are indeed pigs and cowards
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Something that started seeping into my brain like poison ever since ive started making an attempt at eating healthier + moving more is attaching moral value to eating and weight, just doing it unconsciously. Maybe it's a remnant of hating yourself for being this way and never making peace with it. I do not want to be judgemental its like parts of the entire rhetoric surrounding dieting are rubbing off on me. I do not know how to word it in a better way right now
#its like. you wanted to just do a better job at keeping your vessel alive. but you get the entire package#and the obsession with looks and fatphobia#because it's everpresent in dieting content even if subtle and unintentional. you never notice it#and i do not eat perfectly healthily!!!!! WHY am i growing judgemental over it!!!!#as well as i started feeling guilty over my own food choices#FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE#i think its the main part thats scaring me. its becoming obsessive
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Girl, I've been reading so much swanqueen fanfiction that when I watch the show, I'm confused as to why they aren't kissing already😂😂
I LITERALLY CANNOT BELIEVE YOU SENT ME THIS—
BESTIE— ME 👏🏼 TOO 👏🏼
I’m almost to the end of season three, and at this point I’m just. There’s literally no heterosexual explanation for their actions. There just isn’t. And the eye contact. And.
I swear someone on the creative team MUST have been pushing for it to be canon because the holds on their faces, the SCRIPT, the editing— they made space for so much loaded eye contact and so much flirting/arguing. This show has so much fucking plot to dredge through and they’re spending an extra four seconds doing a slow push in on Regina’s face after she tells Emma to meet her in her vault and Emma agrees??? THIS IS NOT HETEROSEXUAL BEHAVIOR. MA’AM. IT IS VERY GAY TO STARE AT A LADY THAT DEEPLY FOR FOUR WHOLE SECONDS
Anyway this is fine everything is fine I’m being very relaxed and normal about this entire thing I’m fine
(Also if you have any fic recs, I will gladly devour all of them 🙈)
#I’m wheezing I can’t believe you sent me this ask#WE ARE THE SAME PERSON#HOW ARE YOU INSIDE MY MIND#THEY ARE SO MARRIED#for the first time in my life#I really feel like I’m not going to be able to breathe until I reach into my tv and smash their faces together#I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW ITS NOT CANON#(also please no spoilers because I’ve never seen past season four)#swan queen#emma swan#regina mills#ouat#ask me anything#asks#marvelfansince08love#my bestieee#I’ve missed you#🤍✨#swanqueen
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How does one set a spooky tone in writing when one's comfort zone is lighthearted banter and like. Tragic irony.
#i know i havent really shared my writing on here#i don't think it'd do well enough to justify putting it out in the open like that#but i enjoy writing dialogue and im good at setting up plot-lines and character arcs in an emotionally cathartic way#(and then adjusting those plot lines a couple months later when i need a different kind of catharsis)#I've been trying to leave my comfort zone though#I've been working with a male protagonist#for the first time in my life#and a sort of more political drama angle#not really#but more like Dragon Age sorry#anyway i kinda wanna write something halloween themed but I'm not sure how to set that tone
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the boy and the heron (how do you live?)
#the boy and the heron#hayao miyazaki#i have many many personal thoughts after this movie and they’re all running wild in my head#you watch some movies at just the right time in your life and this was one of those#it was the same with kiki’s delivery service which i watched right after moving away#coincidentally also all alone and by the sea and to pursue education#i cried six times and i will no longer consider wet eyes crying at a movie because i was full on sobbing#for the first time in my life#first at the very beginning. then the fiery girl. then the creatures#then two times at the end of movie monologues. Ann then the closing song delivered the final blow#i’m very sad that the only person i would immediately want to walk about it and who would enjoy it with me isn’t here#but i’m also hopeful and i believe that there will be equally great friends in my future#i will find them or they will find me and perhaps it will be a little awkward at first but that’s how you build relationships (and worlds)#piece by piece and changing them once in a while#and it will be ok and i will not forget#mine#oh and i also got a movie postcard in the cinema which was so nice
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tfw the clothes you order online fit perfectly
#small joys#that being said#for the first time in my life#these pants are tOo long#its still a w though#sports bras are horrid contraptions
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idk what i just wrote but i just wrote the SHIT out of it.
#genuinely kind of proud of something i've written#for the first time in my life#like it's short but i think if i added to it then i'd just ruin it
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Guys I love girls so much
#bones barks#for the first time in my life#im finally surrounded by bitches#sorry i dont mean that i just dont know how to cope w girls/girl aligned ppl liking me for the first time in my life#🦭#roadkillpet
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Watching this makes really stressed about healthy and safety regulations...
#for the first time in my life#its like watching americans talk about not being unionised#I guess that's what makea Asia so interesting as a continent#comparing this to something like Japan where theres lot of rules#not that I could really go in depth with that since I probably cant name half of the Asian countries lol#dont take that as a flex#As much as Id like to see India myself I feel like all the noice would be too much#and their cultural aspects of men being men...#I wonder if Indians would feel anxious over how quiet is it here#our man in india#liveblog#oh Germans are stereotypically really good at following rules arent they?#any Germans out there how do you feel when watching this lol
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just stayed up til 2 am finishing a story that very specifically caters to myself... happy 2024 everyone
#thoughts and such#yeah you heard that right#THIS GUY finished A STORY#for the FIRST TIME in my life#that is NOT an EXAGGERATION#its gonna be a good year i can feel it
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Having a weird emotional night but like
I guess it just finally hit me that things are. Good. And they can continue to be good.
I think I’m actually gonna be okay?
#getting old rules#I have#community and#skills and#like#a future#for the first time in my life#and it feels#hopeful?#fucked up if true
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There's a joke in here somewhere about slapping and hurting me hits the "get wet" button but I'm too tired to write it
#i don't think i can fully express how happy i am here#just over a week left which sucks#but i get to sleep in their bed in their clothes#even if my body sucks and is bleeding a tonne for some reason#feral goes mia because they get to spend time with the wife tm#honestly my biggest realisation while being here is that eventhough having kids grosses me tf put snd id rather die than having any#i understand why people have them now#for the first time in my life#like i actually understand#because when they're cuddled in my arms and their cat is on my stomach ive never been happier#and when we're both just giving scritches to the baby its just so nice#feels like home#and like family#and i understand ehy people want that#anyway im gay for them eventhough anxiety is bad and my body is making it so much worse#queer nsft#lgbt nsft#nblw nsft#nsft#lesbian nsft#sapphic nsft#wlw nsft#nsft wlw#wlw ns/fw#ill write about what happened at some point if i dont forget
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