#for that i could be sooo wrong. but i'm choosing it anyway.

[liebgirl]

shonda rhimes save me..... shonda rhimes...... save me shonda rhimes!!!

[posts-from-pluto]

Humans are weird - life expectancy

Quinn always found the idea of figuring out how they would spend their time if they only had two-hundred years to live to be an interesting hypothetical. There were animals out there who lived such short lifespans after all, though none of the ones they had encountered had the mental capacity to develop long-term goals, but if they could what would they choose to do? It was one of their favorite questions to ask to get to know someone, what they prioritize.

Or at least it was until they met Edith, a researcher part of a species that had just barely begun their existence as space-faring creatures, more importantly: a species that struggled to even make it to a hundred, let alone two-hundred years old.

...The end of her first day was rather awkward, I mean how could they have possibly known that that species would just so happen to be the first ones with such a short lifespan that had managed to make it into space.

Lords it was awful, remembering it still makes them wish they had the same memory issues as the Soweps

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After being shown around the Cultural-Exchange Station, (C.S. for short), Edith decided to go join Quinn in the Lounge. A good, casual chat to get to know one of the people she would be spending at least the next few years with seemed like a good way to spend her first day aboard. What could possibly go wrong? It wasn't like there was much else she could do, unfortunately. Quinn had made it quite clear that she didn't have to couldn't start work until the next week, something about giving her time to 'get settled before entrusting her with a position on the team'.

Under normal circumstances, that would've been great... but now? After she just spent a week trapped alone on a ship without the ability to do anything productive? She'd be damned if she was going to spend another minute of her day just sitting around alone in an unfamiliar bedroom with weird furniture. Fixing her room could wait until tomorrow. She just had to go do something, anything that wasn't using her sitting by herself in that room. She walked over to one of the terminals to pull up the way to the lounge, or at least what she assumed was the lounge given the fact that nothing was labelled, before heading off to find Quinn. Hoping that her horrible sense of direction wouldn't embarrass her on her very first day.

She made off towards the general direction of the area on the map, passing by numerous rooms with widely different appearances from one that seemed oddly... cave-like? to another that would fit in more in an aquarium than it does a space station, or atleast what you'd expect in a human one anyways. Turning the corner into the maze of long corridors, Edith continued straight, which luckily, was in fact the way to the main lounge area.

Edith: "Hi Quinn!" She shouted from halfway across the room as she walked towards the couch they were sitting on.

Quinn: Hey, did you need something?

*Carefully choosing her spot to not make them uncomfortable, Edith sat on the other side of the couch*

Edith: Nope, I just wanted to walk around a bit. Get to know everyone better and stretch my legs a bit more, you know?

Quinn: Oh okay that's cool.... How's setting up your room going?

Edith: I haven't started yet. I'm still thinking about where I'm going to put everything.

Quinn: Not at all because you're procrastinating???

Edith: *GASP* How could you accuse me of such a thing? I would never~~~

Quinn:... That reminds me I never got around to asking,

How would you spend your life if you only had 200 years to live?

Edith: where did that come from?

Quinn: We were talking about procrasination and that got me thinking about time which made me remember I didn't ask you about how'd you'd spend 200 years. It's just something I ask everyone.

Quinn:...sooo I know it 's a really short amount of time but how would you spend it?

Edith: short???

Quinn: Yeah??? Am I missing something here?

Edith: .... Humans generally only live 80ish years naturally. Like at most some people make it into their hundreds but that's extremely rare

Quinn: ....oh

Edith: .... yeaaah

Quinn: I just remembered I actually have to go work on some very long paperwork- *They rush to get up, nearly tripping over their own legs* -I'll see you later! *They continued as they started speed walking away, the look on their face told her that they'd probably be running if it wouldn't make things more awkward*

Edith could barely stop herself from bursting out laughing at the scene... She'd have to tease them about that later....

Hmmm.....Good ways to answer how'd she'd spend 200 years???

....Annoying them?

Well She'd have plently of time to think about it while she unpacked.

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Side note: This was going to be an angsty conversation between the two of them but the second I started writing the first bit the idea of it being one of the first questions Quinn asked Edith popped into my head and it just took on it's own life so I hope you enjoyed this instead :)

[goldendastuff]

⚠️TW/CW: Existential Horror, Cult Like Behavior And Religious Themes!⚠️

Okay This Is Going To Be A Long Post.

But Anyways!

The Figure Of Revenge Y/N'S Design Is Taking Me Forever To Make TvT Sooo

This Is What Their Followers Look Like And You Can Make Your Own Follower Oc :3

I'm Calling Them "Whispers Of Revenge"

This Is What One Of The Followers Would Look Like:

Their Cookies Who Agreed With Y/N Containing The Beasts For Eternity With Existential Horrors.

All The Followers Have A Black Marking On Their Legs And The Masks That End At The Neck. Their Mask Colors Are The Beasts Main Color But Their Means Are Reversed :>

Mostly So The Beasts Don't Influence Them At All And Out Of Spite :)

Blue Means Honesty

Pale Yellow Means Interest

Red Means Preservation

Pink Means Ambition

Purple Means Communication

If You Want To Make An OC For The Whispers Go All Out :3

Here Are Just Some Ground Rules/Bases To Help:

1. Noses Aren't Stuck To A Certain Color

For Example You Can Have A Pointed Nose With A Purple Mask

2. Flat Faces Can Have Circle Noses If You Want Them Too :3

(I Didn't Draw The Facial Expressions You're Oc Could Have Please Forgive Me TvT)

But In All Honesty You Can Go Bananas On The Facial Expressions :3

These Are Cloaks Your Oc Could Were It Doesn't Matter With One You Choose :3

But The Hoods(? That's What I'm Calling Them Correct Me If I'm Wrong) Are Color Coded To The Mask

Thank You All For Reading I Hope You All Enjoy ^⁠w^

If You Got Anymore Questions About This Or The Au My Inbox Is Open :>

Bonus: These Outfits Are Based By Yugo Limbo's Video "HI, YOU PEACH"

[pellowinksx]

just when I start to get unwell and stuff something comes through.

yesterday my friend from another continent got subway and I was like man f this im hungry and i want subway I love subway. idec how many health violations its "had" ok fake news it did nothing wrong I love subway. and mcdonalds which I did manifest mcdonalds once I could tell that story too😈

AND GUESS WHAT IM HAVING AFTER SHCOOL TODAY. SUBWAY. bc my brother graduated elementary school. but also whud he randomly choose subway hed usually choose smth else ykyk?!?!? Man.

ok ill tell the mcdonalds story. in November my whollellelele schools choir got to go to the movie theater and see wicked the day before it was nationally released (already cool) and I had been craving mcdoanlds for sooo long. im not the type to eat out a lot bc money ykyk so this was exciting!!! its special. oh I should manifest comfortable amt of income i want more clothes but also the chase is fun??? I have no idea why im like that tbh??? im like yes the chase. and then get sad bc of the chase. well im not a sad person anymore. ANYWAY. so me and my friend and a girl i met in choir that is super nice we all wanted mcdonalds and I was dead set on that ykyk but it was almost wasn't gonna happen bc it was far from the bus and the weather was sooo biting like windy and it bit my ears and nose AND it was like. 10:30 am at most. but mostly bc it was far from the bus and allocated street for us to get food. so we almost got smth else but ok. OK. I wanted mcdonalds for 2 weeks and I knew id get it so we RAN. through the streets and got into the mcdonalds. and I got chicken fries and a chocolate milkshake. believe me when I said. that was the best thing. and I nibbled on the way back bc it hurt a lot to be outside lmao. I think that was affirmation ngl I could just be like waaah lets get other food but no we got it. a stupid win is STILL A WIN!!! my choir teacher laughed bc we ran all that way for mcdonalds but ykw that was the best mcdonalds ive EVER HAD

🧷🧷🧷but u could probably guess lmao

I should also make a list 😓 bc idk what i truly want! but also when I think of having what I want im like ??? its like i just love the "chase" of it and that's why I dont manifest stuff i just think about it yk? I dont have much motivation since im comfortable 90% of the time nowadays. have y ever felt like that???

GIRL YES sometimes i guess its just the burnout from like "omg I have all of the power to control my reality.....what the hell" I feel like that all the time tbh, and if I'm being really I haven't consciously manifested shit since I changed my eye color, things just come to me naturally yk? alsoofhfiuak I love Mcdonalds but I boycott but I remember once in like 2021 I went to the airport and we had this good ass Mcdonalds in turkey (that was such a fun vacation ughhh) I wish they had subway where I live in dubai :( maybe I should manifest it lol

[onismdaydream]

HII!!! for the past like two days I have been scouring your account for your yuuji content.. because it's SOOO GOOD. And I can NEVER find yuuji fics! ><!

I just love how you write, and it's kept me thirst for him quenched but I just- HAVE to get this out there. I guess it's a writing request..

I have this one specific thirst that just. UGHHH. Basically, I loveee yuuji fics, and it's common knowledge that he has sukuna inside of him. (Lol) sukuna, who can basically manifest as a mouth. DO YOU SEEE WHERE IM GOING WITH THIS?? there is just so much potential. And we already know the the mouth can manifest literally anywhere! His cheek, his.. HAND.

UGHHHH

Like just imagine like- being with yuuji, and barely getting into the 'intimate' parts of your relationship. And I mean barely (once or twice), and at first sukuna is annoyed after, bc like- OF COURSE HE IS! How dare yuji, a little brat, do such things when he KNOWS he can see everything! Nobody wants to see some new inexperienced couples fucking? (Me) nobody!

But.. if you can't stop them, join them.. right?

So, maybe he tries to convince yuji to let him have some fun with you. Though yuji immediately says no, that's totally weird!

...

Won't stop sukuna though. So next time you guys start to have fun.. worked up from a mission, unable to keep your hands from eachother.. which lead to yuji having two of his fingers knuckle deep inside of you, pumping in and out, hitting that spot that makes you see STARS.. when all of a sudden, you feel a tounge lap at your clit! 🥺🤭 whaatttt!!

It catches you so off guard, it takes a minute for you to register what's going on, but when you do.. you wrap your hand around yujis wrist, tugging him away.

"Whats wrong?"

!!! How do you even begin to explain? There's SO many things wrong. Starting with the fact that SUKUNA, the person who literally hates both your guts, literally tried to eat you out.. to the fact that, you liked it.. it felt good!

"I think.. I don't.. basically-"

What do you say? What CAN you say? What if when you tell him, he stops? Ughh this is just so- UGH!

"Whats wrong brat? Use your words."

Followed by a dark chuckle, like he's laughing at you. Coming right from yujis cheek. GOD he is so annoying.

"Sorry, brats, just had to have a taste.."

OKAY ANYWAY. This is getting too long BUT it would probably be followed by a small little argument between yuji and sukuna, but thankfully sukuna convinces yuji.. probably by saying that he could either use his mouth, OR take over yujis body and have his way with you ♡🤭 and OBVI yuji chooses the first one bc he doesn't want you to get hurt..

at first he acts like he doesn't like it, but that facade doesn't last long, you hoth love all the new opportunities that come with this.. i mean like, youre both new to all this so maybe when he isnt sucking on your clit, he could talk you both through it teaching yall sime jew tricks along the way 🥰♡

you see what I'm saying, right?

Finish it, if you want, I would LOVE to see your take on this, but I just HAD to get this out there, otherwise I would go crazy..

But anyway, how was ur day? 🥰🎀

-your horniest yuji lover!♡🎀

AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg??? first of all, thank you!! you're so sweet and this literally made me so happy when i saw it this morning !! i'm sorry i didn't respond earlier, i've had a kinda shitty work schedule + being a little sick so i haven't had much time here <3

UGHH I LOVE THIS IDEA!!!! i've seen similar concepts (sukuna joining/forcing) and it's always so HOT!! i especially love the idea of sukuna licking at your clit and yuji not even realizing... like he's so distracted by the pretty faces and beautiful sounds you're making that he doesn't feel the way his palm morphs or just how much wetter it gets from sukuna's spit..... it's just sooooo good!!

sukuna makes a deal that if he's allowed to fuck you the way he wants, then he'll tell yuji what to do ("the proper way to fuck a woman") and yuji feels a little guilty for considering it but he really really wants to treat you the way you deserve and he has his own selfish reasons of wanting to feel you come around his cock. and maybe it doesn't take much convincing because sukuna's mouth is back on you and making you see stars that you both agree lol

and i don't mind at all if you ever wanna dump your ideas here <3 i think we all need a space to put our thoughts before they make us go crazy! that was what i did before i started this blog :)

[misterbenzadrine]

sooo i'm cheating today, don't judge me, i couldn't choose

♡day 6: samantha larusso/tory nichols ♡

BELIEVE ME, THEY ABSOLUTELY DESERVE THEIR OWN DAYS AND SPOTS

but i love both of them and couldn't choose

so anyways, i'll make this short (too late)

best girls <3 like i love s1, I love miguel and robby, i obviously love hawk and demetri. but let's be fr their rivalry MADE cobra kai what it is today.

without tory, cobra kai was great but it was very alpha dudebro (and demetri, sam, and aisha were the only ones to balance that out but even then they were mostly used as plot devices for the main male characters) and admittedly having sam and tory fight over robby and miguel was so UGH and absolutely did not pass the bechdel test but it was really refreshing to give sam more of a character with a personality, hopes, motivations, fears, etc. and adding tory was quite possibly one of the best decisions bc she really rounded out the cobra kai roster and gave sam that character to play off of so they could both develop together.

also tory's friendship with aisha was EVERYTHING (i personally ship them) and having her and sam fight over aisha, i think, would've been far more interesting (which they kinda did but they wrote aisha out of the show after s2 so it really didn't go anywhere)

and in a show based on misunderstandings, their first meeting means everything to me. tory hearing about the infamous sam who dumped aisha to be rich and popular then meeting her at an actual country club like yeah, tory's gonna be a little passive aggressive but she lowkey didn't act THAT rude to sam (not blaming sam, again misunderstandings !!) and ofc sam thinks tory is a little troublemaker after she steals the vodka so YEAH she has a little bit of a problem with her hanging out with her childhood best friend. then aisha just sitting there like "oh sam this is tory ! hey tory, this is sam ! ^-^" (i love aisha)

SHES SO CUTIE IN THIS OUTFIT, this outfit is my roman empire

sam is great purely for the fact that she's grown so much and yet stayed the same throughout the show (a lot like demetri). the tiniest moments where she loses herself are more filled with self-doubt than trying to be someone she's not (i emphasize THROUGHOUT THE SHOW, obviously she had this arc before the show then came back to her true personality when she met miguel and started talking to aisha again)

like she stood up to miguel AND kyler when she felt they were doing something wrong. she defends demetri and shows so much care for robby (samrobby best friends !!). i love that we get to explore her trauma and how it affected her relationships and karate. (petition to explore more of the kids' trauma !!!) she seems to be the character that's the most in touch with her emotions and, maybe behind devon and amanda, she's the most mentally stable character of the bunch (all women, go figure) she is the character ever !! she understands the importance of balance !! she understands standing up for what's right and admitting your mistakes !! she is the true leader of miyagi-do and it's so incredibly fitting that she is the larusso legacy bc yeah ! there is quite literally no miyagi-do without her !

and one last thing, HER "WHO AM I" SCENE IN S5 IS PEAK, literally one of the best scenes in the show, okay that's all.

TORY, MY BELOVED, MY EVIL LITTLE PRINCESS. she's like so opposite sam in half of her seasons, she is the angry little villain for a bit, bless her heart.

so obviously VALID CRASHOUT. i just think a lot of her anger was obviously misdirected. like when she first met aisha, again ! sam kinda came off as one of those evil ex bffs, like someone you grew up with who suddenly thinks they're too cool for you. so since aisha was her first friend (and keep in mind how lonely and stressed tory was behind the scenes) of course she's gonna wanna defend her ! and, from tory's pov, sam was judging her for the vodka bottle but tory believed bad things are okay to do when people deserve it (like kind of implied) so stealing a bottle from a bunch of rich people who will never notice is very excusable. meanwhile sam believed bad things were never okay (then ofc after the school fight she changes her tune to get revenge on ck) but tory's a lot like that quote from Isle of Dogs, she's not a violent dog but she does bite. it's a coping mechanism. when she perceives something as a threat, she'll attack. and sam seemed to be the stereotypical snooty rich girl.

when she blames tory for her mom's lost wallet, it feels very much like a snooty rich girl assuming the worst of a poor person. like just bc she's not upper class, doesn't mean she's THAT much of a delinquent. THEN TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE, the guy she likes is still hung up on this sam girl. she's aisha's and miguel's replacement for sam, always second to sam. the only place she can prove herself is in karate. so she goes all into training, she's training herself to master her fighting, take out her aggressions, protect herself, etc.

BUT THE INFAMOUS KISS. and instead of taking it up with miguel for stringing her along (which i love miguel but FUCK HIM for the way he treated tory and still hasn't really made up with her) she takes it out on the main person that's been giving her problems since she entered this whole world. the person who haunted the narrative of her social circle, the person who hurt the people she cared about, the person who they used tory to replace, the person who seemed to have a problem with her from day one, the person who kissed her BOYFRIEND bc she's still hung up on him (obvi miguel was just as guilty but this is from tory's pov). so the school fight happens, she gets probation, amanda visits her at work which snowballs into her losing her job (which she desperately needs), miguel obviously never reached out to her and was still hung up on sam, aisha moved away, johnny ditched the dojo, YEAH I'D LOWKEY CRASH OUT TOO (and to tory it all always links back to sam) (oooooh lesbian allegories you are SO PRESENT in samtory's relationship arc)

so she has her little evil moment, and i love this for her ! and this is actually incredible on kreese's part (not in a good way). like i know he has a knack for sniffing out the most vulnerable kids to manipulate but WOW he really did a number on tory. she genuinely seemed to trust him from s2 all the way until halfway through s5 (personally i think it was a mix of devon and sensei kim that snapped her out of it, and she finally stepped away from the cobra kai mess)

but she's such a mess i love her. i support women's rights AND wrongs what wrongs? she didn't do anything wrong. i don't wanna overyap about her plot stuff (too late), but her relationships with robby, sam, devon, and kreese are actually so important to me.

i've kinda already talked about sam and devon but specifically robby and her being both (not to be mean but) kinda fucked mentally lmao. and spending their lives never being someone else's priority. they're both basically latchkey kids, they had to be adults from an extremely young age and no one was ever looking out for them, and they never really felt that stable parental support that miguel and sam did, which should make them the perfect foil (if the writers stopped shoving in love triangles and whacko storylines that always favor miguel and sam).

maybe unpopular opinion?? big fan of the s4 after-prom party fight. the way samguel left arguing with each other and angry while keenry had the night of their lives and found love in each other like it's so perfect ! bc i love samguel but like i said the plot ALWAYS favors them, and they usually get their way (of course they have hardships and losses, all the kids do, but in the long run the writers always give them the most screentime, best storylines, all the wins, etc.) but tory and robby can't seem to catch a break and are always so depressed or disappointed or angry and it was really refreshing to see them have that satisfying moment where they get to make their exes jealous, beat their enemies, look hot, and just get to be normal teenagers for the night and not have to worry about expenses or responsibilities, LOVE THEM BIG FAN

okay so sorry this was mostly tory, to be fair she was one of my first fav characters.

!! headcanons !!

so uh i love samtory but i also love keenry and samguel so let's settle on ambiguously poly relationship (in which all three exist) (i'm sorry i don't ship kiaz, it feels a little too weird after they canonically became stepbros IM SORRY)

just two stepbros and their gfs who are dating each other... (just to make the vision clear, no one really knows who's dating who, none of them make it explicitly make it clear if they are or aren't dating and no one really asks out of fear of another karate war breaking out) (i'm making it weirder the more i explain huh? i'm gonna move on)

sam is unlabeled (possibly pan/queer) and tory is bisexual. also she/they queens !

SAM DEVON TORY TRIO MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. a lot of their hangouts are with the girls (demetri, moon, yas) but they occasionally hang out just the three of them (basically the sleepover episode without johnny lmao)

speaking of the girls, sam and devon try so hard to teach tory demetri's name but she either never retains his name or has just gotten so used to calling him "the nerd" "the guy that follows hawk" "hawk's boyfriend" "the lanky one" that she doesn't feel comfortable calling him anything else (not that she interacts with him or talks about him enough for that to create a huge problem)

and on that same track, tory finds moon and yas to be a bit much (a lot), but like hawk, she doesn't talk enough for her exhaustion to be obvious, she just kinda follows the group and gets a little (secretly a lot) flustered when they compliment the way a shirt looks on her or really show her any love or attention

while tory obviously doesn't verbalize how much having friends and a support system means to her, sam and devon KNOW and are more than happy to keep providing that stability for her

(she'd never admit any of that aloud though, she'd die before willfully letting anyone know that)

amanda maintains a constant presence in tory's life to show her she's not leaving and not using her as a replacement for sam and anthony. she also shows a ton of support for her and her brother to ease the process of her mom's funeral, living arrangements, food, etc. (tory puts up a big fight in this until amanda phrases her connections as suggestions so tory feels like she did it herself and didn't need someone else to do it for her)

(we're gonna see this in pt 3 but i'm gonna hc just in case the writers decide to spite me again) amanda totally cheers on robby, sam, AND tory at the sekai taikai/all valley (queen amanda and her kids <3)

sam totally won her school's spelling bee in elementary/middle school, aisha was cheering her on the whole time

sam knew mr. miyagi just long enough to miss him when he passed and understand the affect it had on her dad. after she convinces anthony to push through miyagi-do teachings, she shares some stories and pictures with him hoping it'll show him there is a legacy in the dojo even if he never knew him (he's not as moved as she'd like but he does learn to be more sympathetic for her and daniel for yapping about the man so often)

under tory and miguel, sam's closest friends are robby and demetri, hands down. right under them is obvi moon and yas but also surprisingly hawk. anyone present for the karate wars definitely finds it odd that they get along so well but anyone who really knows both of them (namely miguel and demetri) knows they're incredibly similar

some things sam and hawk have in common: anger issues/panic attacks (though sam has a way better handle on hers than hawk), interest in chemistry, Doctor Who—specifically the tenth doctor (after demetri "forces" her to watch it), Star Wars (they both love padmé but also have a crush on han solo), and their music taste (specifically grunge rock and indie rock, sam is DEFINITELY a rock girlie). sam is so naturally nerdy, she gets along with demetri and hawk so well

sam gets TIRED a lot from ptsd episodes and having to be the kind of therapist friend (since her dad, her brother, her best friends, her boyfriend, etc. are all so unstable), so everyone sometimes tries to make her feel better in their own ways (bear with me)

demetri usually sits her down to watch something (harry potter, lord of the rings, star wars, doctor who, etc.). at the beginning of their friendship, this kind of exhausted her more, since he played stuff she wasn't familiar with and she didn't know why he thought watching a movie wouldn't count as a socially exhausting activity. but as time passed she realized that's how he used to make eli feel better after a bad day, and eli liked sitting in silence and escaping to a new world. now she's familiar with all the movies and does find comfort in just being physically close with demetri while he sits uncharacteristically quiet so she doesn't have to think too much.

robby will sit with her and try to do something low-effort (sitting by a campfire, making smores, practicing mindful breathing, sitting at a park, etc.) while making small talk/telling her stories

tory feels more than a little responsible for these moments but she tries to make sam feel better by coloring with her (she will deny it up and down) (it started when she noticed that the larussos seem to have an abundance of adult coloring books but now it feels like something that reminds her of her mom and sam)

miguel will sit with her and hug her, letting her talk about how she's feeling until she feels a little better.

moon/yas take different approaches (gentle vs tough love) but they both remind sam she needs to take time for herself before she reaches this breaking point. they sometimes offer her a joint (which she never really accepts) and close off with some in-n-out

hawk invites sam over to help build lego models. they never talk, just listen to music and build

at sam's graduation party (in which all the dojo kids are invited), aisha shows up and her and tory jump right back into their friendship

(the way all the yapping was for tory and all the hc's are for sam)

alright chat, i think that's about all i got (it's so long this is so upsetting) (i will be worse in the top 4)

final conclusion: sam and tory both deserve better, they're both so intelligent, pretty, kind, badass, and strong and they're both set up for failure. i can already feel it in my bones that i won't be satisfied with the results of the fight in pt 3 but someone has to win and i wouldn't be completely happy with either one bc they both deserve it. i also wish we'd gotten more content of them so they exist outside of their relationships with robby and miguel. LET WOMEN BE WOMEN, NOT MALE ACCESSORIES. but i will miss them dearly and i hope they're both happy in the end.

[yume-writes]

Heyyy ♡ I'm back from war!!! 'OP & Blue Cop bond' anon is back, hehehe. MORE TFP X MCB!!!!

1. Would MCB have Holoforms like the cybertronians? I think it'll be cool if they can.

2. (Spoilers for MCB season 2, I think?)

Correct me if I'm wrong, but Blue Cop and Flame Nova have quite a history. Mentor mentee relationship or perhaps partners (work or romantic relationship partners ideas up to fandom interpretation)

Either way, it's gonna be an angst post 😔 .

(Season 2 MCB crew is here. The og crew is still lost for now)

Blue Cop seeks mentorship from OP. Blue sees OP as a great leader yada yada. But deep down. He sees OP similar to the old Flame Nova. The Flame Nova that trained him back at Machina. The Flame Nova that looked out for him. The Flame Nova who'd stay out with him during long night patrols and would stay with him throughout the night. He yearns to have that relationship again with Flame Nova again. However, Flame Nova is gone (perhaps). So he sticks by OP, the thoughts of his old mentor/partner(?) in his subconscious hidden away.

When OP first meets Flame Nova, the first thought is that Blue and Nova's relationship were similar to his and Megs relationship as orion pax and megatronous all the way up untill the present. They would parallel each other (Blue and OP are so similar, let's be real), but Flame Nova also resembles someone OP lost.

(This is taking from the transformers Idw comics, I haven't read them. I've only seen the wiki, and I feel that it could be possible. I also didn't read exodus or the other parts of the continuity that TFP is in...so bear with me.) (Also, I'm not that familiar with Flame Nova so yea...)

Nova here would resemble IDW Prowl. IDW Prowl is a dirty cop. A bot whose moral compass could rival shockwaves.

Flame Nova would be the combination of TFP megatronus (the rebellion and relationship similar to orion pax and megatronous), Shockwave (pos, really. Like if Metal cardbot was darker, i feel he would become similar to shockwave or, at least become similar to tfp megatron personality wise.), and IDW Prowl (personality and actions), in my opinion. (If you don't know what idw Prowl is like. He is like, what if shockwave was an autobot and he is doing such acts for the greater good and not power)

It's a real piece of work. Flame Nova wants power and would do anything in his power to reach his goal. Take things. POS, basically.

And in idw, Prowl (minus the greed for power) is like that. An autobot who has fallen to such unethical and dishonourable acts. Who else was once a 'hero' but fallen and does unfavourable acts??? Bingo, Flame Nova. And this make OP feels bad for the both of them.

Flame Nova, when he meets OP, perhaps inside he feels a bit remorseful that he left Blue Cop behind. Could he have convinced Blue to join his rebellion. Or he could have been a better leader, and he looks at OP and sees that maybe if he didn't choose to start the rebellion, he would be similar to OP, who is guiding and mentoring Blue. But the past is in the past, and he can only move forward...

Parallels parallels... It's not that close, but you can still see it. (or perhaps it's a sign that I am unwell...)

But we don't know much about Flame Nova and Blue cop history for now sooo let's wait for season 3 tgt 😔🙏

Mostly, my take on their relationship. What'd cha think? Can't wait to see your thoughts lmao.

Ohh yea and 3, how do you think the MCB season 1 crew and team prime react to Flame Nova?

MCB x TFP crossover

My beloved anon!!! Welcome back from war!!!

And to start off, I don't think the cardbots have holoforms, not at first anyway. We've never seen them use something similar to holoforms, the closest we got was Blasttrain and Glober, and you can't really call those holoforms. I think that after they end up with the bots they would gain holoforms, with their record they need all the help they can to blend in

Optimus reminding Blue Cop of Flame Nova eats at my brain. Blue Cop lost Flame Nova, he still feels shocked at what Flame Nova did, he still doesn't understand why he did it, and he can never get the chance to ask. Meeting OP was like getting a piece of Flame Nova back. He knows that it can never replace the relationship he once had, but he cherishes his new relationship with Optimus

Optimus would know about Flame Nova before meeting him thanks to Blue Cop talking about him. He hears how much Blue Cop looked up and relied on him, he hears how much it still pains him about what Flame Nova did. He hears Blue Cop ask questions about why he did it and if there was anything he could have done to change it, and he sees himself in him. He was once Blue Cop, he still is at times, questioning why Megatron did what he did and how he could have changed it. He still asks these questions himself, but at least Blue Cop can rely on someone who has the same pain as him

What Flame Nova feels towards Optimus is weird. Because at times he can see a reflection of himself in him, the Star Guardian who got medal after medal protecting Deus Machina and Machina. He sometimes reflects on his actions and compares it to Optimus's, could this have turned out differently? He does feel a bit bad for leaving Blue Cop behind, he was his mentor ever since he first joined the Star Guardians. But he had to do what he did, he couldn't have stood by, not after what he saw. The guilt he feels will not stop him from doing what needs to be done

As for how the different bots would react, I feel like all the s1 bots would be shocked that Flame Nova was Blue Cop's mentor. Like, you're telling them that, that insane guy who is currently trying to control cardbots and wipe out humans mentored Blue Cop? They find it insane that Blue Cop turned out the way he did, Blue Cop tries to say Flame Nova was different when he was his mentor, but the cardbots don't really listen to him

As for the bots, they would be disgusted by him trying to control Cardbots. Optimus "Freedom is the right of all sentient beings" Prime is especially distributed by this. I know that in previous posts we've talked about star guardians being similar to primes, so seeing Flame Nova act and behavior this way unnerves OP. It would unnerve all of them to be honest, a prime becoming corrupt is something they only heard in tales. Seeing it for firsthand is something else

[dracolilhoe]

Forbidden Enchantment (Draco Malfoy x Y/n)

Draco Malfoy x fem!reader

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Warnings: Use of Y/n, mild swearing

Words: 4,457 (God damn)

Summary: There's been a new rumor going around Hogwarts recently that you and the infamous Draco Malfoy are a thing. How could people even think that?! Why the hell would you date your enemy? Your standards obviously aren't that low.

If you find mistakes please tell me! I'm not a perfect writer so please just let me know. Happy reading! :)

There's been a new rumor going around Hogwarts lately. Apparently, you and Draco Malfoy are "dating." Obviously, this is true because he's basically your enemy! And why would you lower your standards to rock bottom? From your first year to now, your sixth, you and Draco have never gotten along and have gotten into many arguments. Luckily, you have little to no lessons with him, but now classes are over for the day, and at the end of the hall, of course, you see Draco.

"You actually just wandered about looking like that?" Draco sneers, a nasty smirk on his lips. "And to consider, people actually believe I'm dating you. I'm offended." 

“I’m offended they don’t think I have better taste.” I snap back. "Yeah, because you have great taste," he says sarcastically. "I've seen you staring at that Ravenclaw. What's his name? Smith?" he asks with a smug smirk plastered across his face. "I'm definitely a bigger catch than him," he says with a hint of arrogance in his tone. 

"Jealous, are we?” I ask, an identical smirk making its way onto my lips. "Of course not!" He snaps back, "Why would I be jealous of a complete idiot like him? I just meant that I'm clearly more attractive, that's all!" he says quickly, his expression shifting from smug to a bit defensive.

"Suit yourself." I shrug. He scoffs. "Oh, now you're being sarcastic," he says, crossing his arms over his chest with a huff. "I was talking purely about facts, and the fact is, I'm much better looking than him in every way."

"Hate to be the bearer of bad news, Malfoy, but you're really not." "What do you mean I'm not?!" He exclaims, his defensiveness growing stronger. "I'm far more attractive than him, and you know it." “Clearly I don’t.” "Well, you're clearly wrong," he says firmly. "I don't look like a complete slob every day. My hair always looks neat; I wear nice robes; I'm tall and fit; I'm clearly the better choice between him and me," he says with a scowl.

"Sooo, what your saying is that you are jealous?" I ask, raising my eyebrows. "No! Why would I be jealous of him?!” He snaps back a bit too quickly, hinting that he is jealous. He crosses his arms again. "I can't help the fact you have bad taste."

A small laugh escapes my lips as I look at the look spread across his face. “You're so stupid!” He glares at you, clearly offended. "I am not stupid! I'm one of the smartest people in this school; you're the stupid one!" he says defensively.

“Well if you excuse me I have a date to go on,” I say pushing past him. He turns his head to you, his expression shifting from anger to annoyance. "With Smith, I assume" he mutters, watching you walk off. "Yep!" I turn around a good distance in front of him and give him a small smirk.

 He huffs in annoyance, crossing his arms again, and turns to walk the other way, "I don't know why you'd choose him over me." he grumbles, his voice quiet so you can barely hear him. "Sorry, what was that?" I ask my eyebrows furrowing in confusion. He looks away, his face getting slightly pink. "I didn't say anything important" he mumbles, avoiding your gaze, knowing you heard what he said.

"You sure?" I ask my voice soft. "I'm positive," he says quickly, his voice slightly louder, "I don't know why you're interested in Smith anyway. I could treat you much better," he says, still looking away from you. "Then show me," I whisper stepping a few feet in front of him.

His eyes widen as he looks up at you, "You want me to what?! Prove that I'm a better choice than him? You're serious?" I nod. "Smith and I aren't official sooo." He nods, processing the information for a moment. "So you're telling me you're single," he says, a hint of smugness in his voice, "and that you are willing to give me a chance if I show you that I'm a better option than Smith, correct?"

"Yeah basically." He takes a step closer, his gaze locked on you. "Very well then," he says, a confident smirk on his face, "Consider this your first date. Or trial period. Whatever you want to call it." A small giggle escapes my lips. "Alright then!"

"Now let's start this trial," he says, standing up straight with a sense of arrogance, "I'll show you that I'm a better choice than that idiot. And then you'll see that you've been wrong this whole time." He thinks for a moment, "The first thing is that I would look after you better" he says, his smirk growing slightly, "Smith doesn't have a clue what you need. But I do. I know exactly how to treat a girl, and I would treat you with the respect you deserve."

"Next, my fashion taste is clearly superior," he says, adjusting his tie, "Just look at me. I always look sharp and polished. But Smith? He looks like he just rolled out of bed and put on the first thing he found." I begin to bite my lip nervously. "I think it's kind of cute."

He rolls his eyes, clearly not happy with your answer. "Of course you do" he mutters under his breath. "But you're missing the point. You deserve someone who can dress well and look good in front of other people. Not some messy, lazy boy who doesn't even comb his hair!"

He takes another step closer, looking down at you. "Another thing, I would be a lot more fun to spend time with. I could take you places and keep you entertained. Smith probably doesn't even know how to have a proper conversation." "Uh yeah, he does," I say defensively.

He snorts, "Please. The most I've ever seen him say is 'hi' and 'how are you'. He doesn't have an interesting bone in his body," he says, shaking his head slightly. He watches you for a moment, gauging your expression before continuing, "And let's not even talk about loyalty," he says, his eyes locking on yours, "Smith probably gets distracted by every other girl that comes along. But me? I would be loyal to you. I wouldn't look at anyone else but you."

"How would I know that for sure?" I ask taking a step forward. He looks down at you as you step closer, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. "You don't," he says bluntly, "But you'll just have to trust me. Trust me, I have no interest in anyone else but you," he says, his voice slightly softer.

"I knew it! You were jealous!" He huffs, his smirk disappearing as he's hit with the reminder. He looks away for a moment, avoiding your gaze. "Yes, okay. I was a little jealous. Happy?" he says reluctantly, his voice betraying just a hint of vulnerability. I nod a smirk on my face for getting him to admit it.

He glares at you, annoyance and slight embarrassment in his eyes. "Don't look so smug," he snaps, "You're not supposed to be enjoying this, I thought you were supposed to be judging me against Smith?" "I am I am!" I say raising my hands defensively.

"And? Who's winning so far?" he asks with a raised eyebrow, his competitive side showing. "Well the thing is Malfoy, you gotta take me out first." He grins, clearly liking the sound of that. "Oh, I will," he says confidently, "you'll see. By the end of this trial you'll be begging me to not dump you for that idiot," he says with a smirk, the competitive spark still in his eyes.

He looks at you for a moment, his eyes lingering on your face as he studies you. He thinks for a moment before his smirk grows wider. "And just so you know, I'll be taking you to someplace that SMITH can't even afford." He says, his voice slightly mocking, "I'll show you just how good I can treat you, darling."

He pauses for a moment, realizing what he called you. "Darling" he repeats in a quieter voice, a hint of surprise in his tone, as if it slipped out unintentionally. He looks down at you, his expression a mix of surprise, curiosity, and a hint of vulnerability. "Did I just call you that out loud?" he mutters under his breath, more to himself than to you.

I feel my cheeks heat up as I nod. He notices your blush and a small smirk tugs at the corner of his lips. "Did you like that?" he asks, his tone teasing and slightly smug, "Being called darling, I mean."

"Yes..." I whisper my gaze not meeting his. His smirk grows wider and he takes a small step closer to you. "You liked being called darling? You liked it when I referred to you in a cute, affectionate way?" he asks, his voice slightly cocky. He enjoys seeing you flustered, it only boosts his ego.

He takes another step closer, his voice turning softer and more seductive. "Darling" he repeats, his tone almost a whisper, "such a cute nickname. I think it suits you quite well," he says, his eyes locked on yours, a hint of fondness in his gaze.

I blush taking a small step back. He notices you stepping back and his smirk returns, clearly enjoying the effect he's having on you. "Are you getting flustered, darling?" he teases, taking another step closer, and closing the distance you created. "Draco-" He steps even closer, now only inches away from you. "Yes darling?" he asks, his voice sultry and his smirk growing, enjoying the way you stutter.

"Screw Smith," I whisper grabbing Draco’s neck and pulling him down to meet my lips. He's caught off guard as you grasp his neck and pull him down. He lets out a surprised gasp, but quickly recovers as your lips meet his. His eyes widen for a moment before he relaxes, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you flush against him. He kisses you back fiercely, his hands moving up to cup your face as he deepens the kiss.

He pushes you back slightly, pinning you against the wall as he continues the kiss, his body pressed against yours. His hands move down to your waist, gripping you tightly as he explores your mouth with his tongue. He can feel your body pressed against his and the feeling is intoxicating, it only makes him want you even more.

I pull away for a moment catching my breath. He leans his forehead against yours, panting slightly as he tries to catch his breath. His eyes are still closed, the feeling of your body against his etched into his mind. "That was..." he says, his voice gruff and out of breath, "unexpected."

"Y/n? What the fuck!" A voice says from down the corridor. Draco's eyes fly open as he hears the voice, his head snapping towards the direction it came from. He looks slightly irritated at being interrupted but doesn’t move away from you, still keeping you pinned against the wall with his body. My eyes widen in shock as I look toward the voice. "Smith? I- "

Smith approaches his expression a mix of surprise and hurt as he sees you pinned against the wall by Draco. He looks at the two of you for a moment before speaking. "Y/n, what's going on here?" he asks, his voice carrying a hint of disbelief. "I- " Draco's arms tighten around you at the sound of Smith's voice, his eyes locking on the other boy, his expression growing more annoyed. "Can't you see we're busy here?" he snaps, his tone cold and dismissive.

Smith looks at Draco, a mixture of anger and hurt etched across his face. "Yeah, I can see that," he says through gritted teeth, "but I just saw my girlfriend pinned against the wall by you." Draco rolls his eyes, his smirk returning as he looks at Smith. "Well, about that," he says casually, "She's not your girlfriend anymore, is she?"

Smith's eyes widen at Draco's words, and he looks at you with a mixture of shock and disbelief. "What? What do you mean she's not my girlfriend anymore?" he asks, his tone turning from hurt to anger. "Draco- " I whisper nervously. He gives you a sidelong glance, a silent command to let him handle this. "I mean that she's mine now," he says casually, his tone almost challenging as he looks at Smith, "Sorry to disappoint you, but she's decided to upgrade."

Smith's expression darkens at Draco's words, his anger growing. "You're joking right?" he asks, his voice rising, "You can't just waltz in here and steal my girlfriend like it's nothing!" Draco chuckles coldly, finding amusement in Smith's anger. "Oh, but I can and I did," he says smugly, "And let's face it, she deserves better than you anyway." Smith's hands ball into fists at his sides, his eyes filled with a dangerous glint. "You better shut your mouth, Malfoy," he growls, taking a step forward, "or I'll shut it myself."

Draco grins, clearly enjoying the power he holds over the situation. "Oh, I'm so scared," he says sarcastically, his tone dripping with mockery. "You really think you can take me, Smith? Please. I'd have you on your ass in seconds." "Okay, guys," I say nervously, "Let's just calm down..." Both Draco and Smith look at you at the sound of your voice, their attention suddenly focused on you. Draco's expression softens slightly, his hand still on your waist. Smith, on the other hand, looks at you with a mix of defiance and confusion.

"Yeah, let's calm down for a second," Draco says, his voice now softer. He looks at Smith, his expression still cocky, but with a hint of vulnerability. "You heard the lady." Smith looks at the two of you for a moment, his anger still visible in his eyes. "So what, I'm just supposed to stand here and accept that you two are together now?" he asks, his voice laced with bitterness. Draco lets out a humorless chuckle. "You don't have a choice, do you? She's made her decision," he says bluntly, his hand still resting on your waist, his grip firm.

Smith's eyes flick from Draco's hand to yours, and you can see the hurt and betrayal etched across his face. "I can't believe this. You were my girlfriend, Y/n", he says, his voice cracking slightly, "How could you just throw all of that away for... HIM?” "Smith..." Smith looks at you, his eyes pleading for an explanation. "Don't 'Smith' me," he says, his voice raising in frustration, "I just want to know why. Why him? After everything we've been through together, why would you choose him?!"

"I just- I- " I trail off as I struggle to find the right words. Draco's smirk widens at your hesitation, a hint of satisfaction in his eyes as he looks at Smith, his grip on your waist tightening. "Can you believe it, Smith? She doesn't even have an explanation for choosing me over you," he says mockingly. "Draco shut it!" I snap. He raises an eyebrow not expecting you to snap at him, but his expression remains nonchalant. "Fine, fine," he says, raising his hands in mock surrender, "I'll keep my mouth shut. For now, at least."

The tension between the three of you is palpable as you all stand there in the hallway. Smith is still reeling from the shock of the situation, his eyes flicking between you and Draco, trying to process what's happening. Draco, on the other hand, is still standing with his arm around your waist, seemingly nonchalant and unbothered. But you can sense a tension in his body like he's holding back the urge to say more. Finally, Smith speaks up, breaking the silence. "So that's it, huh?" he says, his voice still laced with anger, "You're just gonna forget about everything we had and be with him now?"

"Smith just listen- " Smith cuts you off, his voice rising. "Don't give me that, ‘Smith please’ bullshit," he snaps, "You know what I’ve done for you, what we’ve been through together. And now you just toss me aside for him like I’m nothing?" “Smith we weren’t even official!” Smith looks at you stunned, his anger temporarily replaced by surprise. "What do you mean, we weren't official?" he asks, his voice slightly softer. You hesitate, suddenly feeling a pang of guilt. "Well, we never specifically defined our relationship," you say, choosing your words carefully.

"We never actually said we were boyfriend-girlfriend, we just sort of… fell into a place of casual dating," I say biting my lip nervously. Smith looks at you for a moment, processing your words. His expression shifts from anger to hurt, his shoulders slumping. "So all this time, we were just...casual?" he asks, his voice cracking slightly. You nod, confirming his question, and a mixture of emotions wash over his face. "I thought...I thought we had something real, that we were headed somewhere together," he says, his voice full of sadness, "But all along, I was just some casual fling to you."

"Smith-" He cuts you off, shaking his head bitterly. "No, save it," he says, his tone growing cold, "I don’t want to hear your excuses. You knew how I felt about you, and you kept stringing me along, knowing you could just toss me aside for him whenever you wanted to." "It's not like that!" I protest as I look at his heartbroken eyes. Smith scoffs, his anger returning. "Then what’s it like, Y/n? Because from where I’m standing, it looks exactly like that," he says, his voice rising, "You led me on, made me believe we had something special, only for you to drop me as soon as he came along."

Draco's grip on your waist tightens as he listens to the conversation, his expression unreadable. He stays silent, letting you and Smith hash it out, but his body is tense like he's barely restraining himself from saying something.

"Smith I'm sorry I hurt you but-" Smith cuts you off again, his voice growing more and more frustrated. "Don’t give me that “I’m sorry” crap, it's not gonna fix anything," he says, his voice almost a hiss, "You knew how I felt, you knew what you were doing, and you still played with my emotions. So don’t act like you regret anything."

"Smith just please let me explain!" He takes a step forward, his eyes narrowing as he looks at you. "Fine, then explain. Go ahead, tell me how you didn’t know exactly what you were doing, how you didn’t lead me on all this time," he snaps, his voice filled with anger. “I didn’t think it was that serious!” "Not serious?" Smith repeats, his voice filled with disbelief, "What do you mean it wasn’t serious? We spent months together, going on dates, hanging out, and doing everything a couple does. How was that not serious to you?”

“Three dates! Three!! And we were friends before that!” He scoffs, clearly not buying your explanation. "Three dates, yeah, but we also hung out all the time, we were practically inseparable. You really expect me to believe you thought all of that was just casual?" “Yes! I thought we were just talking!!” He rolls his eyes, his anger and hurt now mixed with frustration. "Talking?" he says scornfully, "Is that what you call it? Spending all that time together, getting intimate, sharing everything about each other, and you thought we were just talking?" “I- “ I sigh frustrated.  

He watches you flounder for a response, his expression hardening. "See? You can’t even deny it. You knew exactly what you were doing, playing with my feelings, leading me on." “I wasn’t!!” He raises an eyebrow, his eyes narrowing. "Oh, really? So you’re telling me you had no idea that I was falling for you this entire time?" “Well, I had a hunch…” He lets out a humorless chuckle, shaking his head in disbelief. "A hunch, huh? You had a hunch that I was head-over-heels for you, that I was falling in love with you, and you still led me on like you didn’t have a clue?"

“Smith…” I whisper. “I’m sorry…” He sighs, his expression shifting from anger to resignation. "Sorry isn’t gonna cut it, Y/n,” he says quietly, “You knew how I felt, yet you still toyed with my emotions, and now look where we are." I look over at Draco as he raises an eyebrow, his gaze unwavering as he looks at you, his grip on your waist still firm. He’s stayed silent during the entire exchange, observing the interaction between you and Smith with a mixture of curiosity and jealousy. “I’m sorry,” I say again.

Smith sighs, his shoulders sagging as he looks at you. "Just don’t do something like this again," he says, his voice softer now, "I understand that we weren’t official, but it still hurts when you play with a person’s feelings like that." “I know… I’m sorry.” He lets out a breath, running a hand through his hair. "I’ll be okay, eventually," he says, although his voice lacks conviction. “I just needed to get that off my chest. I still care about you, you know,” he adds, his voice almost a whisper. I feel a tear trickle down my cheek knowing that I've messed up. “Smith-“

He sees the tear on your cheek and something in his expression softens. "Hey, don’t cry," he says, his voice gentle, "It’ll be alright. I’ll get over it." He reaches out, gently wiping away the tear from your cheek. "I just...I just need some time to get used to the idea of you being with him, okay?" he adds, his gaze moving to Draco, his expression laced with a mix of annoyance and resignation. Draco stares back at him, his expression completely neutral. He hasn’t said a word this entire time, but his grip on your waist remains firm, his possessive nature on full display.

I look at Smith as I hold in my tears. He gives you a weak smile, noticing your attempt to hold back tears. "Don’t cry on my account, Y/n," he says, trying to sound nonchalant, "It’s not like we were official or anything, right? Just some casual dating, nothing serious." "Y-yeah." He nods, his smile not quite reaching his eyes. "Yeah...casual," he repeats, the word almost bitter on his tongue. He glances at Draco, standing beside you, his arm still around your waist, a clear sign of ownership.

There’s a moment of awkward silence between the three of you, the tension still thick in the air. Smith looks between you and Draco, his jaw clenching at the sight of Draco’s arm around you. Finally, he breaks the silence, his voice strained. "I should go," he mutters, his eyes flickering to Draco for a moment before looking back at you. "Take care, Y/n."

He gives you one last, sad smile before turning and walking away, his shoulders slumped in defeat. As he disappears down the hallway, you can’t help but feel a pang of guilt and sadness wash over you. "Draco I'll um... see you later." You start to turn away Draco’s grip on your waist tightens, stopping you in your tracks. “Hold on, love,” he says, his voice low and commanding, “Where do you think you’re going?”

“I’ll see you later.” You say again pushing his hand off your waist and head towards your common room. "Hey, wait a minute," Draco snaps, quickly grabbing your wrist and spinning you back to face him, his grip firm but not painful. "We need to talk." "What?" He stares down into your eyes, his gaze intense. "What was all that with Smith just now?" he asks, his voice sharp, "Looks like you two had quite the intimate conversation."

“It wasn’t like that. We can talk tomorrow.” I say taking my hand from his grip. Draco frowns, clearly displeased with your attempt to blow him off. "No, we're talking now," he says, his tone leaving no room for argument. He steps closer to you, his body almost pinning you against the wall. “Draco… not right now please.” He ignores your plea, his gaze never leaving your face. He reaches up, gently tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. "Why won’t you talk to me?" he says, his voice gentler now, "I thought we were past the whole “not talking about feelings” thing."

“Draco I need to go dinner starts soon.” He bristles at your attempt to leave, his eyes darkening. "You really think I care if you miss dinner, love? I think our conversation is more important than a few crumbs on a plate." He moves closer, his body now fully pressing against yours, trapping you against the wall. "Draco please... stop," I whisper. He lets out a frustrated sigh, his hand tracing the curve of your jaw. "You know I’m not going to stop until you talk to me, love," he murmurs, his voice dropping an octave. "Why are you being so stubborn?"

“Because I need a moment alright?!?” I snap. He flinches slightly at your snapping tone, clearly not expecting such a sharp response. For a moment, he stands there, processing your words. Then, a flicker of anger crosses his face. "A moment?" he repeats, his voice cold, "You need a moment? And what about me? Do you even care how that little show between you and Smith made me feel?" I sigh frustrated and place my head in my hands.

Draco watches you, his expression softening slightly as he sees your frustrated state. "Hey. Look at me," he says, his voice gentler now. When you don’t respond, he sighs and reaches up, placing a gentle hand on your chin and tilting your head up so that you're facing him. "What?" He studies your face closely, his gaze searching yours. "You're not being fair,” he says quietly, “I saw how you were with Smith back there. So casual, so dismissive. It’s like I don't matter to you at all. Am I just some passing fancy to you, love?" “I’ll see you later,” I say as I walk down the hall.

He calls after you, his voice betraying his frustration, "Don’t you dare walk away from me, love! We’re not done here!" But you ignore him, continuing down the hall, leaving him standing there, seething with anger and frustration.

I make it to my dorm room and slam the door. As you enter your dorm room and shut the door behind you, you can feel the weight of the day's events crashing down on you. You flop down on your bed, burying your face in your pillow, feeling emotionally drained. As you lay there, your mind races, replaying the events of the day over and over again. Your argument with Smith, Draco's possessiveness, your own guilt and confusion. It's like a never-ending loop, playing on repeat in your head, tormenting you.

“What did I do?” I ask myself as I lay staring at the ceiling.

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A/N: Fuck me bro. I haven't posted in ages. I'm sorry😭

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Could you write something about hanahaki disease with Johnathon ohnn? (Could end in angst or fluff either is good :3) no rush ofc, i love your work!!!

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「 tws + notes: open ended ending, implications/mentions of death (but no Actual Death), unedited, OOC, interpretation of hanahaki may be slightly diff (i haven't heard of this trope thing in a hot min ngl so im not the Greatest With This), pre-collider even though his holes generating flowers is a silly thought which i giggled abt while writing this, present/past tenses are fucked up cuz i changed formatting halfway, angst?? 」

「 gn!reader, (unrequited) romantic relationship </3 」

↳ ft. johnathan/johnathon ohnn

author's note: THANK U SMMM!! (∩^o^)⊃━☆ lowkey 4got thiz thing existed lolz,, and while hanahaki aus are no longer My Thing, i wud b lying if i told u i didn't eat hanahaki ficz up in middle school ＞︿＜!! sooo,, here we go!!! hopefully this is ok,, many apologies for how short it iz aauwgwhwh

this is the third time you've called him today, trying to reach out. the first two times, he had thought he was strong enough to ignore you.

he was wrong. the minute his phone rang out that third time, he practically scrambled over to it just to answer. pathetic.

"you haven't been at work for what,,, almost two weeks now?"

the concern in your voice makes johnathan want to keel over dead instantly– not like he's far from it anyways. he pulls his phone away as he lets out a weak cough. you barely hear it from your end of the call.

"...sick." is all he manages to rasp out, his sore throat preventing him from speaking further. even if he could manage to talk more, he wouldn't know what else to say. how would he tell you? the call ends prematurely. you know you're not going to get more out of him, and he knows that it's better to keep you in the dark about his situation.

to tell you about how his unrequited feelings have manifested into something much more than both of you can handle was completely and absolutely out of the question. how was he supposed to explain he had been coughing up your favourite flowers? johnathan would rather let it kill him.

not only was he humiliated by the sheer intensity of his yearning– he knew you'd end up feeling guilty about it. yet, a part of his heart ached, wishing that he was selfish enough to tell you. maybe seeing you cry over him would give him some semblance of love.

that was an awful thought. he promptly pushed it aside. he'd never want to make you cry.

he could only laugh at how frustrating his situation is. it was inescapable, his fate inevitable and ever nearing– and no one to tell.

he had never felt so alone.

at least i'll have flowers for my funeral, he thought in the deafening silence of his home, finding the energy to let out a weak chuckle over the thought.

–

a few days after the call, his phone buzzed, receiving a text from you:

i'm coming over'

straightforward, at least.

'what if you get sick?' he messages back, trying to generate excuses to keep you away.

you reply swiftly, before he can come up with anything else, unswayed by the idea of potentially catching his illness which, unbeknownst to you, wasn't really transferable anyways. 'we'll wear masks then. omw.'

lovely. you were stubborn as ever. at least you gave him a heads up.

he noticed you made no attempt to keep your distance from him as you dropped off his little care package.

all neatly put into a little basket was some fresh fruit you had insisted he needed, as you rambled over the importance of vitamin c and immune health, a sweet little card filled with "get better soon"s filled by his coworkers at alchemax most of which he knew probably didn't really care all that much, a few packages of cough drops you had been a sweetheart to actually choose ones which had bearable flavours, a blanket, a few snacks, and... flowers.

if you had known exactly what illness, he doubted this choice would have been made. he stared at them silently, finding some sort of humor in the mortifying irony.

-

you said an awkward goodbye at his door, about to turn around and head off– before hesitating for a second.

"johnathan?" the way you looked at him, eyes filled with tenderness and worry– maybe it wasn't so bad after all, for you to be the death of him.

"...yeah?"

you didn't say anything further, instead, choosing to communicate through impulsively squeezing him into a tight hug.

you pull away just as quick as it had happened, yet the warmth of your embrace lingered a little longer, even as you headed out the door. something about you caring so much made it hurt more.

johnathan wondered why you even cared, why you were so persistent about looking out for him– knowing that he'd end up watching you slip away from him again, leaving an ache in his heart nothing could remedy.

he couldn't blame you. not sweet, kind, thoughtful you. he was the idiot, the careless fool who yearned for something he couldn't have.

maybe in another life, he thought to himself.

[crwdgoinapeshit]

I have sooo many The Cleaning Lady Theories

Last night's episode was my favorite of the season! Ramona, Ramona, Ramona. She's a complicated woman to say the least.

I guess I'll start with my first theory:

[Ramona is dying] After Ramona questioned Jorge's feelings towards Thony, there was a moment where it looked like she grimaced in pain. Jorge even noticed that and asked if she's okay. Also, back in episode five when Jorge went to question Ramona about Luca's disappearance, Ramona told him she wants him and Arman to work together when she's gone. If Ramona is suffering from a terminal illness then that could explain why she's been so obsessed with bringing back Arman to partner up with Jorge. She knows she's not long for the world so she wants Arman to take over the smuggling side and Jorge to remain in the fixer/legal role that he already is in.

[Jeremy is an undercover FBI agent sent in by Russo to plant surveillance devices] I'm convinced that he was the one who called the FBI because Jorge mentioned that their contact heard nothing through the grape vine. I also think he set up devices in Thony and Fiona's cleaning shop and now in their home. A judge may have granted Russo a warrant to plant surveillance devices because Thony kept the knowledge of Kamdar bringing back fentanyl into the country. Plus she hangs around Arman, a known criminal. Anyways, who knows what evidence Russo could've brought to a judge. Or there's another option. Russo is hell bent on revenge for Miller and she badly wants to take down Thony/Arman, to the point she's willing to break the law. Maybe Russo doesn't have a warrant to plant these wires. That would be Thony's only saving grace.

[Jorge turns on Ramona] Eduardo just had to air out the family's business in front of company lol. If what Arman's parents said is true then it's clear that Ramona purposely isolated Jorge and turned him against Eduardo. This may be an unpopular opinion, but ever since Arman told the story of how he came to work for Hyak, I wasn't mad at Eduardo. Eduardo isn't wrong for not wanting his son be a violent, drug/gun dealing, human trafficking murderer lol. I would hope NO parent would want that for their child. As for his decision on cutting all ties to Arman, I'm iffy on that, but either way I do understand Eduardo's position. From what it seems, Eduardo wanted to look after his little brother and raise him far away from the cartel life, similarly to Arman. I do think it's wild that Ramona thinks she had any rights to Arman when he isn't her son, but she strikes me as the narcissistic controlling type. Anyways, we know that Ramona sent Jorge to college in order to "beat them at their own game". His education and professional career, which was funded by her, was Ramona's decision. She clearly wanted to use his knowledge and his access to further the Sin Cara cartel. She's a master manipulator and we've seen Jorge push back against her since the second episode of the season. We've also heard him tell Thony that he has no control over what Ramona chooses to do. He seems to be her puppet. A well put together, powerful, intelligent, and dangerous puppet. I believe it's likely that Thony, as well as Ramona's actions herself, will finally cause Jorge to break. A bit of a spoiler, but in the preview for episode 8 we saw Ramona pressing Jorge to kill Thony. Ramona has noted Jorge's fondness of her so forcing him to be the one to shoot Thony, at her command too feels incredibly cruel. So yeah I can definitely see Jorge turning on his sister at some point.

[Nadia and Thony team up to take Ramona down] I was so frustrated with Thony for not calling Nadia when she put together that Dante has been drugging Arman. Even if there was no way for Nadia to sneak away from Ramona's watchful eye, I just get the feeling that someone like Nadia could have figured out a way to stall so Thony could get Arman. However, as we know, Arman had to die. *heavy breath* I hope in one of the upcoming episodes Thony reaches out to Nadia, they sit down together and Thony tells her EVERYTHING. Dante getting arrested at the apartment where she physically saw Arman through a window, the name written in the powder, and even the car chase. If Thony comes clean I think Nadia would question who was this convenient handyman, who also KNEW ABOUT WHERE THE DROP WAS. Anyways, yeah I need to see Nadia and Thony find peace and get revenge for Arman.

[Jorge and Thony run the Sin Cara cartel together] Elodie recently did an interview where she spoke about the love triangle in this season and how she went to the writers and gave input on how she believed Thony's perspective should be addressed. ("I was part of some conversations this season, with the loss of Adan, on how to approach the new love triangle. I was like, 'Guys, this woman just lost someone she loved a lot, if not the love her life. Don't think in terms of entertainment, but ask how to approach someone who's grieving.'" Elodie Yung Character Media). When the season first began Kwok and Renshaw also spoke on what we could expect between Thony and Jorge. ("Thony and Jorge's relationship evolves more slowly and more organically through the season where it is like, 'Who are these people? Who are they together?' For Thony, Jorge is a tough nut to crack. But, so is she." | "It makes it very tantalizing to watch and to write these scenes, because there's just a lot of energy in their dynamic." | "Yeah, a lot of energy, but also resistance. There is a different kind of cat-and-mouse where they're drawn to each other, they're trying to figure each out, they're both a little standoffish - which also makes them even more attracted to each other") Given these two excerpts alongside with what we've seen throughout the season, I can see the writers setting up a romance between them next season(if they get one 😬). Now, ever since episode two we've heard Jorge continually address Ramona's choices and direction with the cartel. He believes that their trafficking routes need to be eliminated given that Arman and presumedly others have stolen and used those routes for their own trafficking purposes. He views them as a weak point and most likely a legal time bomb waiting to happen. During their argument in the dessert, Thony tells Jorge about the dying woman and her baby left in a closet when he asserts that their routes are safe. Thony rightfully pushes back on him and calls him out for not knowing or not caring enough TO know what's going on on the human trafficking end of the cartel. That scene was probably put there to challenge Jorge's humanity, but to also expose how Ramona's running the border smuggling. Back in episode 5, when Ramona said she wants Arman and Jorge to work together to run the Sin Cara cartel, he responded that he'll decide who he will work with. If my, "Ramona is dying" theory turns out to be correct then I'm convinced that Jorge will choose Thony to be his partner once Ramona is gone.

[Thony gets arrested] I mean, it has to happen right? Jeremy snooping around has to amount to something, right? I know last season ended with Fiona being arrested and then deported, so I can see how that would be redundant, but I feel like this all Jeremy stuff has to culminate into something big right? lol I just know Jeremy is a plant seeded by Russo because no way she just gave up and went away. Plus, Nadia told Russo in episode three that Thony is working with the cartel. Maybe Thony gets arrested and makes bail somehow and Jorge goes about getting her clear of her charges.....lmaoooo. This theory is the one I believe in the least so it's hard for me see where this could all go.

Anways, this was looonnngggg hah. I had so many thoughts after last night's episode I just had to type them out. Honestly, this episode was one of their strongest in the show's entire run and Eva was the complete standout for me. Eva really translated Nadia's anguish in every moment. She was incredible.

[mannatea]

pt1

the people have spoken. it's awakening time (again)

man, when fe13 originally came out, the fandom was honestly so so fun. everyone criticized the game (it's FE fandom, what else are we good for?) but like, even the most critical people were generally also having a lot of fun.

anyway, i was looking through the files on my 3ds, and my brother's lunatic (completed!) file was still there. so was my original file. naturally i went and looked at my original file to see who i had paired up and it was pretty fun to see what i had originally settled on (and how they differ from the pairings i'd choose now).

some thoughts about my replay thus far:

i decided to go with female default robin, gonna hook her up with chrom since i never experienced that before.

i already feel like robin is more or less her own character in a way i haven't felt since i played awakening the first time. not a fan of amnesia but the whole passed out on the ground randomly thing feeeels like a nod to fe7 to me, so i'll forgive that part (but not the amnesia lol).

i don't love the oooh dark beginning scene movie stuff, but probably only because engage did that too and it was 10x worse than here, so i'm soured on it.

anyway, robin's brought into the fold (haha, a fitting term because of the shepherds...get it.........the fold...the--uhh) but adapts pretty well. most importantly, she hasn't done or said anything stupid, which already sets her miles ahead of corrin (sorry corrin, you could have been sooo good but you were not). then again, in corrin's defense, fe13 starts out a lot lower-stakes and so doesn't feel as insane/doesn't force robin in any particular direction.

i guess what robin has going for her is that she's here and she's chillin' but like, it doesn't feel like the story revolves specifically around her the way it does for all future avatar characters. like obviously the story will involve her later but it doesn't just start with her at the center of everything.

which. i never hated robin as a character, even on my first playthrough of the game, so it's neat to try to pick apart why that is.

it's honestly hilarious how little i remember of this game beyond like, the bare minimum details of the bad future timeline.

LUCINA! LUCINA! LUCINA! LUCINA! never underestimate my love for her.

lol. i remember how marth being revealed as an ancestor was like :O in the fandom at the time.

the start of the game is pretty...tolerable. i actually liked the very beginning because it feels like a good introduction to the world, but i feel like they start veering off a little too quickly for my taste. Not sure how to describe this exactly... um.

maybe this goes back to the amnesia thing for me? very quickly they're just using it as an excuse to infodump and it just feels really silly. it's like robin has selective amnesia.

don't get me wrong, i can forgive stuff like "i think i studied this? i think i can do magic?" shit as like, necessary more for the gameplay/introducing newer folks to the gameplay loop, but boy is it just kind of...silly in-game.

i DO like that frederick calls it out immediately but that doesn't really change the fact that chrom is a fool for just believing all of this without any good reason ("just a feeling" is so fucking cringe). yeah she helped defeat some risen but like. that's kind of meaningless? they're not people per se? honestly, if robin came in able to use healing staves and HEALED CHROM that alone would have gone a long way in making it make sense why he'd trust them quickly. just saying.

and yeah yeah i know chrom is a more trusting guy, but there are limitations to that. c'mon now.

them deciding to call the things "risen" in the first place is fine i guess but it's so annoying that there's no explanation of the name choice. maybe we're meant to make assumptions based on the name the council chose? i mean, i hope so. but since they disappear into smoke are we meant to see them as like, zombies/resurrected corpses or something...else? something created?

tbh i forgot about the risen entirely until the replay LOL that's how small of an impact they had on my give-a-damn i guess.

i'm sure i'll have more thoughts about them later. very curious to see how i feel about them by the end of the game/if they were even necessary in the first place.

you unlock supports really early in the game and they almost immediately contradict the events of the game if you do start unlocking them and watching them. for example, characters talking about "the war"/"the campaign." bro nobody's declared war yet LOL!

this isn't a criticism fwiw; engage had this issue too at certain points. i think it's fine to just assume most of the conversations take place around ch6 or later in fe13. i am, however, amused at this.

i actually like some of the information we're fed about the world and such. i always liked emmeryn and do remember her fondly, so the context of her father being not a good person and of emm putting an end to the war after his death but still having to endure hatred and heckling most of her life is honestly really good stuff. makes her a lot more compelling as a character. and the way chrom understands how hard that was for her is also really good.

this game definitely made me IMMEDIATELY miss the tighter focus that some older FE games had. like yeah there's a worldwide/contintentwide conflict, but the story/characters don't feel completely scattered.

again, i'm not sure amnesiac!robin was really the best choice? but maybe i'll change my mind. i'm probably just soured by it because engage decided to go the same route. the one thing i have to give engage credit for though, is that they DO allow the amnesia to exist outside of the start of the story. like, we're meant to understand that the amnesia affects alear and makes things harder for them. they're carrying on and doing their best, but not knowing/remembering people who are supposed to be important to them is painful.

not sure if we'll see that crop up with robin beyond the later "reveal" (as if it wasn't obvious from the start). i hope i'm misremembering that tho.

the biggest yucks so far in playing are honestly just character writing annoyances? idk. the klutzy shit with sumia. vaike being...somehow less than one dimensional. miriel. kellam. it's cool that they toss a lot of guys at you early on but i really feel like none of these characters were done as much justice as they deserve. and hey, i could forgive one or two issues. like yeah sure sumia is clumsy af because she's awkward. but to some degree it feels like some of these guys are ticking boxes for archetypes or specific traits rather than existing as their own characters.

vaike's especially bad, because i can see where they're borrowing from previous characters in terms of his personality, but at no point so far does he feel like he could be a real guy. (yeah yeah i'm a fanfiction writer, i can figure that shit out. but like. still. please. i'm begging. i just want well written characters.)

like for example, virion borrows some stuff from innes for his supports with sully (archer who wants to protect a melee/front line fighter), but he manages to feel literally NOTHING like innes. in fact, i'm sure innes would hate him if they met LOL. this actually endears virion to me in a way? like his archetype of "eloquent flirt" isn't my favorite by any means, but at least he feels like his own person.

i don't want to call this out based on memory but i DO want to say what i think my opinion on this will be in the future, just to see if it ends up being accurate. i remember when i first played the game, i got the distinct feeling/had this deep-seated opinion that the child characters were actually the "main cast", and that they were by far better written overall than the parents.

maybe i won't feel that way on this playthrough, but i was overall just really underwhelmed with the "parent" characters for my first one.

even without getting that far into the game, this makes some gameplay sense? the parents are literally there to create the child characters after all, and the children need to make some sense within the context of the world. if you over-write the parents you could easily make some of the children not make sense.

but man is it frustrating.

i used to low key wonder if the children should have just been the stars of the show from the start, but now that i'm replaying the game i'm not as convinced of that. but we'll see.

the outrealms/DLC along those lines? stupid as fuck. god i hate that shit. cards to summon heroes is literally so stupid and while i hate it slightly less than engage, it's just trying way too hard and takes away from the main story pretty much instantly. i'm sure no one thinks this shit is canon anyway, but goddddd it just immediately got on my nerves.

then again, DLC in general gets on my nerves, and fe13 and fe14 both were particularly bad about having tons of DLC packs/maps to buy. my rage knows no bounds. i do think DLC in 3h and engage was less awful but still.

i'm only on chapter 6 btw.

[misc-obeyme]

Thinking about Lucifer knowing Spanish, and I love the idea that he picked it up on his own (HELP, IMAGINE HE LEARNED IT SUPER FAST BEFORE THE EXCHANGE STARTED ONCE HE SAW MY FILE, THAT'D ALSO BE FUNNY). But if Lucifer ever scolded me in Spanish, I'd fr burst into tears and turn into the biggest goody two shoes 💀 (for at least a few days). Like I already hate being lectured, but something about it being in Spanish just 😭 it feels sooo much worse (maybe because there's so much emotion in the language? Dialect? Very big disappointed mom vibes.)

also IT AIN'T GONNA BE ME CONFESSING, THAT'S FOR SURE. Or if I did, it'd be in the most round about way or by accident (catch me pulling a Mammon like in that car ride drabble.). I am saying it in EVERY WHICH WAY except saying 'ily' outright.

It wasn't my day for dinner but you came home sad, and suddenly I'm cooking and it's your favorite dish? Psh, don't mean nothing, I was craving it too. I found a super shiny coin and gifted it to you? I have plentyyy (don't think about the fact I keep shiny coins from the current year in my bag for good luck, and it's the first one I've found all year). I'm spending my last pieces of grimm to buy us a treat to share bc we passed our exam? Well, it'd be wrong if I only got myself one... (true story, spent my last $10 on chipotle kids meals for me and my friend/coworker so we could eat because we were both broke and had two days left to payday)

Mammon will need to grab me by the shoulders and shake me because I would not believe he's into me. I'd come up with an excuse for any evidence that he is into me 💀 He could be like "GET IT THROUGH THAT THICK SKULL OF YOURS THAT I HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU!" and I'd be like "you wot? you're joking right?"

like I said, I'm denying it to hell and back because it's scary af !! I've only been in love 2.5 times, and the first time I was brushing off my feelings and making excuses. And then one day I had the "Oh. Oh... Aw, fuck." moment and became a mess around them. I've always been wary of romance (my only relationship ended up toxic, and I became more wary lol)

But the same thing happened with Mammon becoming my fave 😭 I was thinking about other characters (along with Mammon) like Levi, Beel, and Dia. But then everything about Mammon made me fall a little more without realizing, even while I was trying to deny it. I'd get asked my fave character, and I couldn't choose, but Mammon was always an option. And one day I had the "Aw, shit" moment. He won me over with his dumbass ways, heart of gold, and terrible bandaging skills.

*head in hands* THIS MAN MAKES ME WRITE ESSAYS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH WORDS TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL AAAA

anyway I am excited for the new lessons !! my cards are powered UP ! also I got a sketch and lineart update on one of my comms and 😭🫶 literally wanted to jump around at work because it's so perfect and cute (it's me and Mammon cuddling in bed AND RHEY PUT HIM IN A TANK TOP SND YOU CSN SEE HIS MUSCLRS AKDKD)

anyway. I am. so Normal about this. aha... OKAY I AM SENDING GOOD VIBES, AND HOPE YOU HAVE A LOVELY DAY AND FIND $10 ON THE GROUND TOMORROW (ALSO APPLIES TO ANYONE READING THIS) OKAY BYEEE

- ✨ anon

Disappointed mom vibes lolol. I think that would suit Lucifer really well, actually. He has those vibes anyway, make him lecture in Spanish and it's just even better~

Er. Well. I like when strict characters start scolding people, so perhaps my opinion is invalid in this case. I just find it very funny and it makes me want to tease them so bad.

Anyway, here's my opinion on romance: yes, it's scary af. But it's worth the risk.

Any time you enter into a relationship with someone, especially if there are intense feelings involved, you're taking a risk. No matter what, even in friendship and other such types of relationships. The way to get close to someone is to be vulnerable with them. And there's always the chance that the person you're being vulnerable with will take that as an opportunity to hurt you. But not everybody will. And you'll miss out on the people who won't if you just... don't even try, you know what I mean?

Ehhhh sorry to get all deep on you like that, but I've seen this kinda thing plenty of times in my life. I'm that person everybody tells all their relationship woes to and then I give them advice that they never take. And then it always turns out that I was right all along lol.

I also kinda think it's okay to fall in love with someone but never act on it. Sometimes it feels like I fall in love with everyone I meet. But sometimes you legit fall in love with someone who just... isn't the right one for you. And you know it, so there's no point in trying to pursue anything. And the feelings fade as that person moves on with their life and it just becomes a fond memory.

For what it's worth, I don't think Mammon would ever give up on you. He's not as dumb as everyone makes him out to be. He's actually quite emotionally intelligent. As soon as he finally figured out his own feelings and was able to accept them, he would clock onto yours. And if someone straight up told him (such as one of his brothers), I think he'd keep reaching out to you, keep trying for you, keep doing his best to make it so you're comfortable enough with him to be honest about how you feel~

Anyway, this is just me being a hopeless romantic lol!

Welcome to the Writing Essays About Fictional Characters You Love Club! lol honestly I get so embarrassed about how much I have to say sometimes...

I'm also excited about new lessons! And your commission sounds amazing already!

Sending the good vibes right back to you! May we all find $10 on the ground!!

[coolerdracula]

my rambling thoughts about The Substance [inconclusive] [really long post] (spoilers; Symphony don't read etc)

sooo. hmm. I liked the blood and the gore and stuff. I like that this kind of thing is in theaters. I enjoy the color palette, and I think the opening shot was fantastic for conveying the major "weird thing" of the movie. the satirical tone came through very strongly, and there were a lot of really funny moments. trying to think of more things I liked... I did give it 4 stars on letterboxd, though I keep going between that and 3.5 . it's a fun spectacle.

I did have some gripes with the second and third acts, especially with the "fake-outs" they kept doing, but I'm also wondering if that was intentional, where they kept faking the viewer out in order to make you think that the final sequence isn't going to be real, either? but then it is, so you're like Ohhhh Fuck? idk. it did give me the feeling of "man, when is this movie going to end?" lol. and I get that it's a satire, but it was still pretty heavy handed with a lot of things. like, a lot of the flashbacks (either clips or voiceovers) that were meant to make you as a viewer go "oh, this part of the movie mirrors a prior scene!" made it feel like the movie didn't trust its audience to connect things and Get The Point. plus the scene where she sees the other substance user in the diner was very "hey! this is what you're supposed to understand about it!" irt them giving like 5 different clues that he was the 'same' guy as before. it's way too much handholding :|

in terms of themes ... it's mixed bc of how they approached her becoming "ugly." right. but more on that later. aside from the execution, and more just in terms of the concept, I think that it's saved by the last part (Elizasue confidently dolling herself up), but it's a tenuous save. bc, without that, it's "woman tries to become more beautiful in the eye of society; winds up liking herself less and is punished for this choice." and it comes very close. which ... like, yeah, it does happen to people. but using that dynamic as the focus of an exploitation film is weird to me? I could be wrong. bc it's not necessarily being endorsed by the movie, bc it's a parable, and movies are a social forum, not moral end-all-be-all's, but ... hmmmm idk. idk. it being made by a woman about her own experiences helps. ANYWAYS. the part that saves it from being entirely that dynamic -- the character arc of Elizabeth+ learning to like herself, no matter what she looks like.

I think that it's a good turnaround, conceptually. but the execution... hmm... muddled. bc, Elizasue is in a very unclear mental state, and it establishes that she's hallucinating, or imagining things, or etc. so she's not present in choosing to love herself, she's just lost in imagined grandeur where she is still "beautiful." the parts where Elizasue puts on makeup and earrings come across as more comedic than touching, which is....interesting....thought I might be misremembering, and would have to take another look at it to be sure. maybe it was serious, and people were just laughing because they didn't get that. idk. but then, the reason I believe in this arc even happening, is during the gratuitous bloodbath segment when her glued-on self-mask falls off (her finally dropping the notion that she must look a certain way?) she says "it's still me; I'm not a monster" or something to that affect. which brings it back some, since she's actively acknowledging that she's changed, but it's still her, and she is still good and lovable. idk. I'm mostly writing this in order to figure out my thoughts honestly. I did really like the final sequence where she turns into goop and oozes her way back to her star & becomes absorbed into it. it contextualizes the prior bloodbath sequence as the "moment of change" so we can then get the more straightforward "new normal" of the star scene. but I guess the moment of change was too drawn out and not serious enough to match what it transitioned into.....imo.....but I liked the blood.....hmm.... but I did like the symbolism of her becoming one with the object that represented the decline of her career. contentment & acceptance etc.

ok back to how they conveyed her becoming "ugly." I do think that ... the early stages (the first two, where it's first just her finger, then half her body) were more.. SHE thinks she looks 'ugly,' not the narrative itself. but even with that, it's still presenting her physical changes in a sensational way. so.. the viewer is supposed to be shocked and appalled. especially so once we get to the third stage where she's completely deformed. and I think that relying on that element of deformity of the human body as horror, it... feels icky......... even if what happens to her is not 1:1 with real-life conditions, it still is analogous to them. this is my core issue with the movie, in terms of critiques.

now for the plural aspect. I don't think it's much of a reach to interpret it with a plural lens, since she literally splits into two and then is continually told "you are one." so what does it say, plural-wise? I mean, it's like Fight Club, where this woman has a dissociated part of herself, which can affect change on the world (HER world) without her knowledge/consent, and is perfectly molded to fit society's standards of how her gender should be. they come into conflict when their shared life negatively impacts the protagonist, and then move into mutual destruction. this does imply some things. the core message is that functional multiplicity is not sustainable. we see this in Sue's refusal to respect Elizabeth's time/physical form, as well as Elizabeth's almost immediate resentment and hatred of Sue. if this were to be reframed as a real system situation, it would be a host that thinks they're more important than the rest of the system, and an alter that sees themself as too separate from the host to give a shit about them. this dynamic does happen IRL, but it's allllll we see in media that includes plurality, so I dislike seeing it. this wouldn't be as much of a problem to me if the narrative didn't affirm this dynamic as a universal truth, but it's mirrored in the affirmation of Elizabeth being "the matrix" that Sue cannot exist without, as well as it being the experience had by the only other substance-user in the movie (guy who hates his other self). there isn't room for implying that there's another possible outcome. there also isn't really room for questioning Elizabeth's importance as the Matrix (or the "Core self," a problematic theory irt DID), since that's established by the 'science' of the world (necessity of Sue's 'refills') as well as the film's 'word of god' (the guy on the phone). additionally, we really miss out on the premise of "you are one." how? when? when, except for the very short moment where Elizabeth regrets trying to terminate Sue bc she realizes that Sue is her source of self-worth? we barely see it even when she literally becomes "Elizasue." missed opportunity to explore that more imo.

okay I'm tired of typing lol. this is way too long bc I don't have the energy to distill the rambling into a coherent thought, but ... those are my thoughts. 👍

[jellieland]

Ok, so I haven't really done this before, but with the level and quality and effort put into this thing I would very much like to give it a proper read through. So.

Hotguyzine liveblog under the cut, starting with:

The Most Epic and Heartwrenching and Harrowing Battle of the Turn of the Century

I mean, literally from the first page this is all just so incredibly well presented. It looks so good.

And it's Joel and Lizzie with cat ears. I love it already.

"You can be average guy. Mediocre guy." Mean to him. Probably warranted! But also. Mean to him.

Wait, are Joel and Lizzie just known as Guy and Gal? That's great.

"I'M GAL!"

("and i'm. guy.")

I love them.

Oh, Scar is SUCH a reliable narrator. For sure.

"Give me all your cats[h!]" Sooo reliable. Also is that Gem with the animal control van or just someone with red hair?

Right. Right yeah of course he has a camera crew. Why wouldn't he?

I love watching Scar and Lizzie talk about their OCs together.

Wait. Is being an unreliable narrator literally his superpower? Is this is a representation of post-production editorialising, or literally what's happening? Because those have quite different implications.

HUH.

"Knocked both of the dangerous villains to ground in one hit!" What do you mean BOTH Scar, you just erased Joel from the narrative.

Ok! This is quite alarming!!

"With great hotness comes greater guy?" I'm going to choose to ignore everything else that's happening and say yes, you should definitely go with this one, Scar, for sure.

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Meet Cute

Now first of all, I see that pun in the title. I see it, and I appreciate it!

"I should've figured it was you." I really love the visual representation of the phrase "dripping with malice", there. I also love the Cuteguy design!

"That was kinda rude" Ok that. That's way less extreme than I was expecting from the initial reaction.

"Anyway byeeeee!!!" Oh so they're BOTH annoying weirdos. Perfect.

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King for a Day

Oh hello Bdubs. This should be fun.

Ren: "You're

Hotguy?"

Bdubs: "How did you do that with your mouth."

"Yeah. What if." Oh Bdubs is TIRED tired huh.

I love how Ren is just immediately fully on board. Like. Yeah he would be like that wouldn't he. He's so enthusiastic it's great.

I-85 box??? Iskall crumbs???? Ooh, and Cub! And... maybe Doc?

Hey there Grian. Have some flowers (and also some dangerous paperwork but don't worry about that part)!

"I'm not joining your little king's court." Oooh, I see. I see. Hey, at least he kept the flowers, right, Scar?

Getting Pearl to publish a hit piece immediately is maybe a little extreme, but fair enough I guess!

"They're gonna throw TOMATOES at me in the town square, man!" Don't worry, Ren. In another life, they already did.

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Mumblr. Incredible.

Shoutout to teeth dog. My new favourite superhero.

Oh no. The discourse. The discourse. It's too real.

Maple Prince. Etho is a cryptid. Amazing.

"so if heroes are showing crafted personas to the public, don’t you think hotguy and cuteguy having matching names and outfits at least verges on queerbaiting?" I don't. Really have anything to say about this. But I feel like I have to include something that dealt me this amount of psychic damage in the liveblog.

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G-Team

"I'm off to visibily protect the public." Yeah, that sounds about right.

Oh, the gala was hosted by Doc! And he even made sure to specify that there were DEFINITELY NO ulterior motives! Well I don't see how anything could possibly have gone wrong then!

"wearing his lab coat to a gala?? sus af." No I think that's just Cub, Grian. Although to be fair, "sus af" is maybe his default state now that I think about it.

Ah, it's Sherlock Grian! I love it.

Oh is this conversation taking place in Grian's mind palace? That's great.

Eyy, Permit Manager Grian coming in with all his considerable power, that being opaque bureaucratic processes and hold music! It seems pretty effective.

This is such a good chase scene. The broken heart symbol on the jacket is interesting!

And there's some sculk leaking into the drain. That seems. Fine. That definitely won't come back later to cause problems, I'm sure.

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The Case of the Missing Cub

Oh, I'm sure this isn't going to be related to the sculk at all. There's definitely nothing on the very first page that would suggest otherwise. (I'm very excited about this one, I always love sculk related stories.)

The sculk snail is actually so cute, I love it.

Uh oh, there's Cub! And he looks like he's maybe having a bad time.

Oh dear, and Grian immediately gets sculked. That's slightly concerning.

"This fight fucking sucks." You know what, that's fair, Grian.

Yay, mutually agreed upon arson! And they both looks so happy about it!

Grian. GRIAN. WHY.

The realistic notes app t-shirt with Scar's actual minecraft face, followed by the deadpan "I want this." It's perfect. It's incredible. It's definitely how Cub would react to being shown that image upon waking up in front his burning house after being possessed. It literally made me laugh out loud.

"Oh, that reminds me. Why is my house on fire?" How. How did that remind you of your house being on fire.

"I used it to season my pizza." ...Yeah. Yeah that sounds about right.

I loved this one a lot. All of the stories have been great, but I especially enjoyed this.

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Hotguy! Has One New Mail

Oh we get the one sided Bdubs and Cub rivalry from season 7! Excellent!

All the character voices are just so perfect. Bdubs' "Founding Principles" followed by Cub's "Yeah man cool this all sounds great" are just so perfectly in character for both of them.

I want some of Cub's cool space facts, and honestly if I emailed a celebrity/superhero and they sent me a link to cool space facts in return, I would be ecstatic.

Scar sold Doc a none existent bridge. Amazing. Sorry, Beef's proxy, but the list of things you're saying Scar shouldn't have been doing certainly isn't going to convince Cub, of all people, that anything needs to change.

"why have you sent me a list of top supernovas!" WOW, Grian, ungrateful much? Enjoy your supernovas.

"he is rescuing kittens from tragically falling into rivers, an activity that has fully occupied him for the past eighteen months." To be fair I feel like if Scar could do this, he would.

"everything is completely under control" Yeah, Special Officer #49, everything I've seen about this city so far really suggests that you've got it all under control. For sure.

"Hotguy is currently in Canada fighting smallpox by shooting individual bacteria with a special crossbow, for which he has received a commendation from their Prime Minister." I love Cub's excuses for Hotguy, they're all great. Also love how Pearl's main problem with this one is apparently the lack of smallpox in Canada, when obviously the actual main problem is that Scar is banned for Canada.

"casting_directors_bdubs_is_not_feuding_with" Well I'm glad there's at least one. And of course Scar's recording a snack commercial while all this is going on.

NOOO, GRIAN'S PIZZA! This is so sad.

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The 30 part thread by Doc is amazing. As are Bdubs' ill-advised replies.

Ooh, a good old classic Doc disproportionate twitter threat! Always love those!

Carol the zombie mention! AND she's a movie star! Let go!!

Jellie... I love her the picture is perfect. She deserves that quarter of a million likes and more.

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Ok, this is 100 pages into the zine and has got fairly long, so I'll probably continue this in another post!

[unproduciblesmackdown]

arrrghhh and having a moment just now b/c earlier i was rewatching this clip and appreciating how ofc not only is it a stellar little expression saga of jeremy's there but it's so Relevant to how we're being shown like [yeah clearly this is a bad idea but we are led to understand why he'd do it anyways] when like yeah jeremy's hurt & miserable as this new computer enemy immediately beating him up insulting him like you're the worst die Admit You're The Worst & Die. but also like jeremy was already There & already getting that message from others / life, which is why he's in this situation already, and why even though this obvious antagonism & hurtful treatment Does dig that hole a little deeper it's like, still more of the same from jeremy's perspective / a supposed further confirmation of what he was already sufficiently believing was true anyways. but what's so different & new to him is this like invented & temporary Vision Of How Things Could Be where suddenly he's getting attention that is so positive & everyone is sooo hyped about him we love everything about you....and That's what's so much more motivating to jeremy than the previous shit that he of course experienced as Unpleasant

and then just now was looking at this gifset again with christine being surprised by how as she's increasingly exiting the defensive mode of trying to stay out of the way / rein herself in, jeremy's just interested and encouraging and giving Thee clearest most positive feedback as earnestly and spontaneously as she's being rn....the way that she's having a parallel experience to jeremy's Mall Visions Of Possibility like here's this random person suddenly who is responding so positively to whatever tends to be reacted to negatively as [weird/wrong/overmuch]....their earnest spontaneous little parallel threads that keep weaving together throughout the story like. christine and this ever surprising new person who first crops up super nervous but then really openly enthused about Her enthusiasm; freaking out at a mall food court; doing great at play rehearsal even though he's new to this; then a whole moment where at first he's maybe being confusingly standoffish compared to that enthusiasm at their first meeting but then the whole [i guess a part of me xyz] section of a guy that i'd kinda be into like waaaaauugh oh lord and now i'm thinking of the agtikbi reprise like i am sweeping the bmc obcr up into my arms for so many reasons & including that track is a hell of one....being presumably a bit further bemused by jeremy's whole deal but during this period where christine's presumably a bit preoccupied w/the play and with trying to try new things and dating jake, there goes jeremy suddenly dating brooke apparently & eventually evidently christine is like okay i guess he's in this popular kids group more cohesively than i am & [whatever interpretations in how christine thinks that jeremy is also hooking up far & wide w/ppl in that group lol] but here he is also feeling in over his head & overwhelmed & out of place after trying to play the part & Act Correctly & indeed managing to end up here & yet....And Yet they can have another earnest vulnerable spontenaous enthused encouraging moment on the couch, despite that then of course christine's like okay look in general What is going on around here, and that's even before anyone's burned down a house & so forth, all before we he she they get Proof of what jeremy wants & feels & chooses, and have that reunion finally with finale jeremy where it's like, yeah he's got more confidence in Himself, ofc he still likes her and her as herself, and he's still nervous but okay with that, she's more comfortable likewise being out of her comfort zone lol not trying to maximally stay either in the one arena she can be herself Or otherwise out of everyone's way, ugh their vimh moment like that willingness to be vulnerable with this person b/c as in any interactions you're not guaranteed "safe" but the stakes of that and effort of navigating are made lower by having this trust and understanding and knowing this person genuinely cares....the fact that they can misunderstand each other And That's Fine because they can and do just go "no, i mean xyz" which in turn isn't to chastise but an earnest effort to connect & let this other person understand & know you better & believing that They want to exert the effort to Try To Get It, to Genuinely Care....waah

tl;dr that the way jeremy is (theoretically) looked at in the mall while simply existing when everything is going to be wonderful and so alive & is so moved by is the way christine experiences jeremy looking at her For Real when they're first properly meeting in the i love play rehearsal scene, and furthermore: ;ww;

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WELCOME TO MY BLOG, TUMBLR!

this blog is connected with @real-mobstabs, which is a blog created and managed by MY BRO!!!! BEST FRIEND EVER!!! (shoutout to bro!!! shoutout to bro!!!)

shooty and stabby here agreed in that the knife-head guy would be "stabby" and the gun-head guy would be "shooty", because if they didn't, they wouldn't be able to choose their usernames correctly (obviously, stabby is the one that shoots and shooty is the one that stabs)

sooo they will respond to their respective names, though it could be funny to make them confused by calling them whatever but their names so like just do whatever you want

this is, like, some kind of ask blog? i think ummm well anyways

sorry if i don't reply to asks!!! i planned on answering everything i can but if i don't EVER answer to your ask it either made me uncomfortable or i didn't know how this guy would react to whatever happened so i just got stuck overthinking (don't worry, it's probably going to be the second one :V)

made this because i'm INSANE and i really want the 'most canon' blogs possible, so...,,.,. i'll be trying to make this as accurate as i can!!!!!

i AM completely insane (like i just said) and i'l be checking every thing the guy says in this blog to make it as accurate as i can (o̯̱̊͊͢r̴̨̦͕̝ w̦̺̐̐͟ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍t̲̲̂̓ͩ̑̂̓ͩ̑). but BE AWARE that my bro HASN'T played dialtown and it isn't any of his special interests or anything so he MAY get things wrong or say something that may not be that accurate. but whether he gets things wrong or right, DON'T BE MEAN TO HIM (i mean don't break his boundaries and the usual stuff uhmmmm), if you need to be mean be mean to me 🥺🥺🥺

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO WRITE THIS POST 🗣️🔥🗣️🗣🔥🗣️🔥🔥 let's leave this for the end of the post because it's funnier AFTER reading whatever i write