#for some bullshit reason they thought it was a good ideia to make that

[valkyrievanessa]

saw a post on bluesky about how this person was scared that reverse 1999 will reveal itself to be just as racist as hoyoverse. This made me thought about it, because hoyoverse was always a bit racist, Carole being the most racist point of the company if my memory is right (and i think she was also the first playable character with dark skin that hoyoverse released).

Reverse 1999 really didn't release more dark skinned characters after Mor Pankh, but the characters were really good and well done (they are some of the most beloved characters of the game). This is something really important because be full of white characters is just the basic of gacha games, a big problem but something common to all gacha games. But when Hoyoverse introduced Carole in honkai impact 3rd, well, it was kinda polemic because she have as a one of her personality traits HATING THE FACT THAT SHE HAVE DARK SKIN, and they made her white in some official arts, but she still have dark skin in game, something she was born with because her mom also have it and Carole is all worried because she thinks that her skin is ugly and tries to become as white as possible.

That's the different between hoyoverse and Bluepoch games, yeah it is bad that bluepoch didn't introduce more dark skin characters after Mor Pankh, but i don't think they will ever reach the same level of problem hoyoverse have, hoyoverse problem is more than just cultural appropriation, hoyoverse is openly racist

[springdeity]

i think a lot. i know that that doesn't make me any different than other people nor is a personality trait, but for this little thing i'm writing it may work as a starting point.

i think a lot, more than anyone i've ever met. i'll remember every little thing you ever said and think about it at midnight when i can't sleep, or at chemistry class or while shopping for groceries. and today, such an ordinary thing got me thinking of some things, some people that made me think to a point where i had to write this as an outlet.

a facebook friendship reminder. apparently, it's the 4 year friendship anniversary of me and this girl that i used to go to school with. her name was xia. she didn't talk much. the only things we knew about her was that she was chinese and didn't talk much. a friend of mine included her in her group of friends because somehow, she found out she likes kpop too. and that's three things i knew about her. i got partnered with her a few times in a few classes and i always tried to talk to her in some way, but never succeeded. she was very shy. i moved on with my life. i knew she was there. i saw her everyday. she was, in a way, a part of my life. i changed schools and hadn't thought of her in a while, then the universe throws this little reminder at me and i decided to go through her profile. she has an older sister. she is from guanzhou. she likes love 020. just these little things made me think so much about how every person has a life,secrets, stories to tell, people that they love, has a completely different narrative and story and we will never know someone completely. never. i'll probably never see her again, and that makes me sad even though we never had any type of friendship or emotional connection.

this made me think of how people come into your life and add a whole new chapter to it, change you, stay within you and go. just like that. and it's okay. i always found utter and complete bullshit the ideia that if a friendship didn't last forever it was never a friendship. friends come in and out of your life, people come, change you and go. and just because it didn't last forever, it doesn't mean it wasn't true and real. there is a verse from a poem i love very dearly that reads "que não seja imortal, posto que é chama. mas que seja infinito enquanto dure." which roughly translates to "may not be immortal, since it's a flame. but may it be infinite while it lasts." this got me thinking of this other friend i had.

her name was eli. she was in my life last year. she was new to our school and i got closer to her because she was very nice. she had a bright smile and was very talented at drawing. she was funny without being annoying and was just a very refreshing person to be around. i really liked talking to her and my other friends. it was such a fun time... it is one of the most underrated feelings ever when you're just talking and laughing about something random to a small group of friends while the math teacher screams something in the background trying to get the class' attention. in our graduation trip, there was a night where after all us girls came back to the rooms after the party we just sat in my bed in our pajamas and she told me some things about her family. she, her parents and her older sister left cuba when she was four and moved to my brasil, but she had a little sister living in miami since then for financial reasons and that she missed her very much. she told me how this sister of hers was actually an aunt's child but she couldn't take care of her so her parents took her in as legal guardians. she also told me that her parents were planning to move her to miami to live with her aunts and uncles for some reason i don't remember. these scenes at the trip play like a movie in my head. sometimes we romanticize movies and tv series so much that we forget that those try to be representations of reality. this was reality, a girl was letting me into a little snippet of her story and this little thing is like a miracle. the last time i saw her was in the 20th of december last year. she moved to miami alone in january. i texted her, asking how were things at that time and she replied, but it was very vague. i never texted her again. i'll probably never see her again. ever. someday we shared our personal life stories in pajamas sitting on the bed at 3 in the morning, now we're worlds apart.

your life is like being the conductor of a bus. at every stop, new people come in. some of them pass you unnoticed and leave at the next point. some of them leave a piece of them in you, even if something tiny, stay for a couple stops than go. some come in every day, give you good morning, chat with you and take your bus for years, but some come in just once, change you, leave a piece of them inside you, something you'll hold onto forever, go and never come back. that's the beauty of all of this. nothing is eternal or infinite, but it leaves scars and bruises that sometimes long after your thought the scars had faded and the bruises had healed, you'll see yourself bleeding. for all my scars and bruises, it was worth bleeding for you.

[dopplesex]

AU where Katherine, Elena and Damon go on a road trip together to find a witch that can reverse the doppleganger’s curse.

(Takes place after 5x07. Stefan never went missing and Bonnie is alive again. Oneshot on keep reading.)

Elena knew this road trip wasn’t a good idea. The whole situation was too much for her to handle. Having her boyfriend and her doppleganger together in a car was already a very riscky thing in normal situations. But that wasn’t a normal situation, and that’s why this road trip started.

After Qetsiyah’s profecy, that damn quote wouldn’t leave Elena’s mind. “Destiny has been trying to get the doppegangers together forever”. She couldn’t be serious, right? That had to be a joke, a really really bad joke. Yeah, but it wasn’t a joke, and Elena found it out some days after the witch died. She started having some dreams, some really weird dreams envolving her beloved doppleganger. In those dreams, she would always see herself happy, with a wide smile on her lips and a sparkle on her eyes she had never seen before. She was standing on a sunflower field, gazing at the sunset. It was cool until this part. But then she would hear helself saying “I thought you wouldn’t come” and she would turn around, just to find Katherine standing behind her, also smiling. Elena would reach for her neck and kiss her lips before melting into Katherine’s arms in a comfortable hug.

She remembered waking up completely shocked and terified with the scene she had just witnessed in her mind, waking up Damon in the process She ended up telling him what the dream was about, and he wasn’t very happy about it. That had been two weeks ago, and until now there weren’t a single day she hadn’t dreamed the exact same thing, over and over again.

Things had been weird between her and Damon since that fatidical day. He wasn’t happy about losing her girlfriend to his ex girlfriend at all. That’s why he came up with this road trip idea. He was convinced he could find a strong witch to undo this profecy, even thought Qetsiyah was the strongest witch he knew and died trying. He wouldn’t give up on the love of his life that easily. He would fight for her with every weapon he had, no matter waht consequences he would have to deal with after that. But deep inside he knew that was an impossible mission. No one could stop destiny. He knew that very well.

The third person on that car was by far the calmer one. It was no surprise to Katherine when the witch said those words. She had always known Elena and her would be together sooner or later, it was just a matter of time. Since the first time she had laid eyes on Elena, she knew that girl was the one. Deep inside her, between the ice cubes that filled her heart since her family’s death, she felt a spark light up when her eyes landed her doppleganger’s smiliar ones. Katherine fell in love with her instantly, and made sure evryone knew that, including Elena herself, who called her crazy when she said they would still be together one day. Katherine didn’t care and waited ‘till the moment love would find their way, and now that it was so close to happening, she couldn’t be happier.

That’s why she invited herself to this road trip with Elena and Damon. Of course, she was sure no one could reverse the profecy, that was not the point. She was there for two main reasons. One, even though Elena was with Damon and she had to respect that until her doppleganger spontaneously decided to be with her, Katherine didn’t trust Damon to take care of the love of her life. She thought she was the only one who could keep Elena really safe. And two, she wouldn’t miss Damon’s face when he finally give up on this stupid reverse profecy ideia for the world. She had to be there to laugh on his face and say “I told you so”.

So there they were. The three of them had been in the car for 6 hours now, and no one had said a single thing. The air was already tense without anyone adding something to it. Elena was thanking the Gods for that when a familiar voice came from the back seat.

“So Elena, I couldn’t help but overhear. You’ve been dreaming about me all summer?”

She rolled her eyes. Too soon.

Katherine continued, the irony slipping through her words as she leaned on the passenger and driver’s seat.

“Well, I’m flattered. Even if this is a very common thing to happen. I’m a lovely person”, she paused. “This might be really stressful, especially when you’re having those dreams lying in bed next to my ex boyfriend.”

She knew Katherine was provoking her. That was her doppleganger’s favorite hobby after all. But she wouldn’t fall in her trap. Elena had been avoiding this subject, especially when Damon was around. She knew how her boyfriend felt about that. She didn’t want to add anymore to his pain.

“I just... don’t wanna talk about that.”

But she was too naive if she thought Katherine would shut just to save Damon’s feelings.

“Oh, I understand. You don’t wanna mention it because you think it’ll just fade away if you don’t talk about it”, her doppleganger said, making her eyes widen. How the fuck did the know that? “And you wanna spare Damon so it’ll be easier for him when the time comes.”

Elena was freaked out. How did Katherine know all those things? She had never talked about that, not even with Caroline or Bonnie, so there was no chance she could have overheared their conversation. So... how? The only explanation was destiny. But she wouldn’t let herself believe in that.

That’s just some witch bullshit.

“That’s cute”, Katherine continued, and Elena thought she couldn’t get any more surprised by the things her doppleganger said. Oh, she was so wrong. “It’s one of the things I love the most about you.”

Her eyes widened again. What the fuck is she doing?! She knew Katherine didn’t care about Damon’s fellings, but did she really need to shove it on his face like this? She just hoped he would stay silent and woudln’t start a fight with the other doppleganger.

Katherine on the other hand was hoping for the contrary. She felt like she would die if that silence and lack of action continued. If Damon snapped, it would be oh so fun for her. And that’s why she kept going.

“But forget it. It won’t fade away”, she said, her tone getting more serious as she thought about what she was saying. She once had hoped her feelings would fade away if she ignored them too. She had a hard time trying to forget them before settling and accepting them. “I would know”, she said, verbalizing her thoughts and surprising herself.

Elena also noticed that but kept silent. There was nothing for her to say anyways. She just hoped her doppleganger’s speech would finally come to an end soon. And, again, destiny was making it’s magic.

“In the end, it’ll be just as said”, Katherine said with a sigh and a smile tracing the corner of her lips. “Just you.. and me.”

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