#for my Hadir lovers

[local-crying-boy]

Not me who made a Hadir Karim playlist because I couldn't find any and had to put matters into my own hands..

Playlist link for those who actually want to listen here

Not like it's a very long one or one that might be very connected to Hadir, just songs that make me think of him every time they start playing.

Here are the songs that are on the playlist:

1. waiting Room (Phoebe Bridgers)

“Know it’s for the better” He stole the gas and used it because he wanted Urzikstan to be free. And “Plus, I know whatever happened to me, I know it’s for the better” because let’s be honest he probably knew he was going to die at some point, and he knew that it most likely wasn’t going to be from natural causes, not with the war he grew up in.

2. Fool (Bôa)

“You and I, born as fools now.” I don’t know what it is about this line, but it hits and it makes me think of Hadir. Maybe because he used the gas, making Farah despise him. “You and I think, think we rule now” this mf became Commander at some point, which just ENRAGES Farah, no?

3. O Superman (Laurie Anderson)

Well, does this song need any explaining? I found this song on a Farah playlist (made by one of my favourite Tumblr accounts, hence me making a post about the Hadir playlist). So if this song makes me think of Farah, it immediately makes me think of Hadir.

4. Love and War (Fluerie)

Love and War, says it in the title, no? Plus, “the truth begins to show”? Him using the stolen gas to save Farah and Alex, but only killing the Russian army and some ULF soldiers (if I remember correctly). And don’t even get me started on “lover, hunter, friend and enemy, you will always be every one of these.” UGHHH it's such a good line and I think that it represents Hadir very well, maybe alongside Farah too.

5. In the house - In a Heartbeat (John Murphy)

Do I really need a reason for this song? It's so good and it makes me think of numerous edit ideas (despite the fact that I give up on editing the minute I open Capcut), just the vibe and sound reminds me of Hadir, makes me think of his whole character development, his story, ect:

6.Forest (Twenty One Pilots)

"The situation's becoming dire" The line makes me think of the moment when Hadir calls Alex to help him get the gas, making it be used and everything kicking off and him becoming the enemy. "And for some reason I smell gas on my hands" well, this needs no explanation. "This is not what I had planned" Although I think that Hadir knew that Farah would have gone against him the moment he decided to use the gas, I feel like he wouldn't expect her to basically turn on him so much that it seemed like she didn't love him anymore.

7.Army Dreamers (Kate Bush)

I think everyone can see why I put this song on here, not only because it is such an amazing song, but also because Hadir is obviously a solider. Also, I know the song's meaning is about a mother grieving her son dying because of war. HOWEVER, the song does heavily remind me of PTSD that soldiers suffer from (more so from the music video where all their eyes are wide, which kinda is like Shell Shock/PTSD), and I'm 100% certain that Hadir, like any other character is CoD, would suffer from some type of mental illness, or nightmares, or grief/guilt from being soldiers.

8. I know it's over (The Smiths)

The repeat phrase of 'Oh mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head" just makes me think of how he died and, in my head, I have an image of him just dead and, well, we know his and Farah's parents are dead. I don't know how to explain it exactly, been staring at this paragraph trying to figure out what the hell I'm trying to say. But it just makes me think a lot of him and his mother, because I seriously get vibes from him that he was a mama's boy before she passed.

9. Advice (Alex G)

"The world is full of fishes, but I trust you" really makes me think of him and Farah, because the two of them would have had to relied on each other at a young age after their parents died and when they were building up ULF and during their time in prison. They would have had a lot of trust in one another, which makes sense with the amount of pure betrayal and rage we hear in Farah's voice when she finds out Hadir stole the gas and then used it. The two of them would have had such an almost unbreakable relationship, not only because they are siblings, they trusted one another and they went through so much, they would have HAD to have trusted each other.

10. Poison Tree (Grouper)

This song alone has so much emotion to it, it ALTERS my brain chemistry. I love this song, so it just meant I had to link it to one of my favourite characters. Which, therefore, means it has a place on the playlist.

11. The Hand that feeds (The Crane Wives)

This song screams Farah, but I feel like it could apply to both Hadir and Farah. Afterall, the both of them are doing a tiring job that is going to both mentally and physically drain them. It's dangerous and they know it. "My papa taught me how to growl, how to bear my teeth and growl", although in the scene where we see of kid Farah and Hadir, their father turns to Hadir and says to 'stay strong for Farah', this is probably one of the many reasons why he does so much for her, even if makes her fucking despise Hadir for what he's done.

12. I wait for you (Alex_g_offline)

"I wait for you" I don't know what is it about the repeated line that makes me think so much about Hadir, about his whole character, but for some reason it really does.

13. If we have each other (Alec Benjamin

The song that makes me, really, think of any two characters that are related. "So I'm thankful for my sister, even though sometimes we fight" the line is more so towards the usual sibling type fights that happens throughout with growing up with siblings, which would easily be able to apply to the two of them. However, it also makes me think about the fact that Hadir still loves Farah and calls her sister, even when she hates him. When he was dying, he even said to her that he still loves her even though she hates him now (something along those lines)

14.Where'd all the time go? (Dr. Dog)

"There ain't no way to sweep up the mess that we've made" I know it says 'we' but I think that Hadir regrets what he did, even if he believes that it helps winning against the Russian army, I don't think he likes that fact that Farah hates him over it and he knows that he can't do anything to fix that, to 'sweep up the mess'. There's no fixing that, there was no fixing that broken trust between them after that.

[creptolli]

Pet names from the entire CoD ensemble (TF141, Los vaqueros, Graves, Alex & Farah, Hadir, Valeria..)

because it’s actually painful when I see someone use one that I could not imagine hearing from them (no hate it’s my problem not anyone else’s 😭🙏)

A/N: y’all I’m not from any of the character’s countries meaning idk standard terms of endearment in their countries/languages (о´∀`о) - especially the Arabic ones

Also, I may do another one with Makarov, Nolan, König (ew), Horangi and anyone else y’all want!

@medic--main for you :33

Kyle ‘Gaz’ Garrick

MY BABY (anywho)

- definitely uses ‘Love, Lovey, Babe, Baby’

- could hear him possibly saying ‘Darling’

- maybe ‘Sweetheart’

- honestly probably wouldn’t use his lover’s name as much to their face. More while referring to them.

- If you ever got married, he would 100% jokingly yell “HUSBAND/WIFE!!” Whenever someone wanted to speak to you.

Rodolfo ‘Rudy’ Parra

- y’all idk Spanish but if you have any ideas for pet names in Spanish then yes.

- ‘Amor, Corazón, Cariño’ [Love, Heart, Darling]

- ‘Darling’ is something that could be heard at points in time but likely not when dating, more married.

- would interchange between ‘Amor/Love’ in conversations.

- Would use your first name a lot, especially when other people are around. It’s not that he’s insecure or anything, he just prefers using your name.

Phillip Graves

- ‘Sweetheart’ violent screaming

- ‘Darling’ more violent screaming

- Could at times use ‘Baby, Love’

- rarely says ‘Babe’ instead of ‘Baby’

- ‘Honey’ <33

- ‘Doll’ or ‘Dolly’

RHAJGDISHDUAUDHSB IM GOING INSANE

- honestly wouldn’t use your name a lot, sure sometimes when he’s in conversation with others, but even then he just says ‘the missus/mister’ or ‘my sweetheart’

- would sometimes tease you when you’re dating by using your last name rather than your first name when wanting your attention. Idk it’s an authority thing. 😏

John Price

- ‘Darling, Love, Sweetheart’ melts

- again, before you took his last name (or he takes yours), he would call you by your last name.

- ‘Lovey’ when he wants to be a pain tease

- in marriage he would often say ‘Sweetie’

- sometimes uses ‘Honey’ or ‘Hon’

- sometimes he would use your first name.

Alex Keller

RAHHH MY LOVE <333

- ‘Babe, Baby’ an insane amount.

- Sometimes, but not often, ‘Love’

- probably uses stupid names or inside jokes that no one else understands.

- if you speak another language, he 100% try’s to learn it and use names from it (he’s absolutely terrible to the point of it being painful, but he’s adorable in trying nonetheless).

- used your first name a lot, sometimes used your last name as a joke.

Farah Karim

- ‘My Love’ is her go to <33

- never ‘Babe’ but sometimes (rarely) ‘Baby’

- ‘Honey’ or ‘Hon’ especially.

the next ones I got straight off of Google so I apologise in advance if they’re wrong (´；Д；`)

- ‘habib albi’ This term of affection means “love of my heart” - حبيب/حبيبة قلبي

- ‘ya hayati’ “my life” - يا حياتي

I would put more but that fucked up my keyboard and took about 10 minutes (copy and paste was a pain in the ass)

Hadir Karim

- said ‘Babe’ once and immediately regretted it, he thought it sounded stupid. It did

- never ‘Baby’

- sometimes he says ‘Love’ or ‘My Love’

- Has a lot of inside jokes that he uses to make fun of you (he means it in good fun).

- Any of the Arabic words from Farah’s list (I’m aware that Uzikstan has its own language.. because I searched it up.. but they also speak Arabic - it’s just not as well spoken)

- sometimes try’s out ‘Sweetie’ or ‘My Sweet’

More Arabic below ⬇️ (again I’m so sorry if it’s wrong it’s from Google I know absolutely nothing about the language, please correct anything if you do know🧍‍♂️)

- ‘ya helo’ “my beautiful” - يا حلو/حلوة

- ‘ya amar’ “my moon” - يا قمر

John ‘Soap’ MacTavish

- ‘Hen’ & ‘Honey’ for sure

- Often also uses ‘Sweetheart’ and ‘Sweetie’

- probably uses ‘Bonnie’ if he’s with a femme partner (idk much about Scottish slang)

- loves to yell ‘WIFE/HUSBAND’ if y’all ever get married.

- Would probably jokingly say ‘Dear’ or ‘Darling’ to sound fancy (it sounds so weird with his accent that it always makes you giggle)

- ‘Doll’ and ‘Dolly’ while dating, not as much during marriage.

Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley

- ‘Dear’ when married, also uses ‘Darling’ a lot when married but plays (teases) when dating.

- he sometimes, but it’s usually rarely, ‘Sweetie’ or ‘Sweetheart’

- apparently ‘Duck’ is a British term of endearment? Idk it says older gentlemen use it and he seems like he would say it. Old man soul

- sometimes says ‘Love’ or ‘Lovey’ when he’s sleepy.

- uses your first name a lot, not as much your last name.

- unless you get married, in which he uses your last name all the time (whether you take his last name or he takes yours)

Alejandro Vargas

- He uses a lot more English than Spanish around you unless your first language is also Spanish.

- He loves to tease you with inside jokes and all sorts of complicated Spanish compliments if you don’t speak the language.

- ‘Cariño’ & ‘Amor’ a lot.

- Doesn’t usually use ‘Corazón’ but it will rarely slip.

- ‘Cielo’ [Sky] sometimes, but again, not so much.

- sometimes says ‘Babe’ or ‘Baby’

Valeria Garza

Gods there aren’t enough women

- lovesss calling you ‘Corazón’ and ‘Cielo’ especially right next to your ear while holding you from behind, pushing her body weight onto you.

- ‘Mi Vida’ [My Life] sometimes

- ‘Mi Rey/Reina’ [My King/Queen] a lot, especially if she’s treating you to dinner/luxury.

- Doesn’t often use English pet names, but when she does she favours ‘Love’ or ‘My Heart’ (she often translates Spanish names directly into English)

Nikolai

- I honestly could imagine him saying ‘baby’ or ‘babygirl’ and I don’t know if it would be as a joke or not.. that’s up for interpretation.

- When you two just started dating, he jokingly called you ‘comrade’ to his and your friends to confuse the shit out of people.

- ‘котёнок “kotyonok” [kitten] also as a joke (maybe not.. up for interpretation again…

- ‘Жизнь моя’ “zhizn moya” [my life] as an actual name he uses for you.

- he doesn’t use a lot of pet names in public, mostly when it’s just you two.

- Солнце (solntsye) / солнышко (solnishka) - [sunshine].

@pillowwarzone I added Nikolai ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

Here’s the website I used (for mainly Arabic) ⬇️

[inncubus-honey]

fantasy c.o.d men au

a/n: a new fandom! maybe, just depends how much I write about mw2. also the nicknames are for a gn! reader, despite some being more feminine then others, but these are for a gn reader. I hope y'all like it for another fandom writing apart stray kids and now kinda redacted stuff. feedback is always appreciated. also I added references to some games with the weapon choices for the boys. hehehe.

also I hope it makes sense that the fantasy aspect is their weapons and little blurbs with you in the world; I could always expand on it in another post if y'all want to see it

c.o.d men x gn! reader

Word Count: 3.2k

price- longsword

obviously he uses a longsword. hes been on the royal guard since he was a young boy, like 13-16. his father had been part of the royal guard when he was a boy. he thought it was the coolest thing ever; protecting people and using such a great weapon really drove him to join after his fathers death in battle. but he then left the guard with gaz to help around the country as mercenaries.

you bandaged johns arm as he sat with you grumbling. an injury from training with his boys today; johnny got a little rambunctious with his duel daggers.

“fucking crazy kid…but hes slowly improving..” john grumbled as you wrapped his arm up.

“hes just excited about joining the mystical 141 mercenary group. give him some slack, Captain.” you teased back, finishing the wrapping. he scoffed at your comment and put his armor back on.

“well, hes a little too zealous at times…but i can tell he’ll be good for the team.” john stood from the med bed and re-equipped his sword to his sword. he smirked at your figure moving around and cleaning up the medical supplies.

he walked up behind you, giving a series of fluttering kisses to your neck as his arms wrapped around your waist.

“ive missed all day, love…” he whispered to you as you placed your hands atop his. he had been training with 141 while you had been seeing patients all day.

“me too, captain.” 

ghost- spymaster

the spymaster of the 141 mercenaries. john recruited ghost when he saw him stalking upon roofs around the town at night. when morning came, john found him at a pub in a dark corner as he watched everyone. when he sat down with him and got to talking, he learned that at that point he was a hitman for hire. he decided to put his skills to good use.

“simon, darling come to bed, please i miss my lover…” you looked over to his larger figure in the corner, arms crossed and staring at you from his hiding spot. a smirk graced his lips at your words when your eyes met.

“was wonderin’ when you’d notice me, sunshine…” uncrossing his arms with a small chuckle, simon made his way towards your shared bed.

“well, i was wondering when you would come by yourself, darling.” simon smirked at your comment, taking off his gear to settle in for the night. 

before you could do anything else, simon pulled you forward by the back of your legs, plopping down onto your chest. he let out a low groan as you gave a small chuckle, putting your hand in his short blonde locks.

“goodnight, darling..” a quick kiss to his forehead.

“night, sunshine..” he was out like a light.

soap- dual daggers

chaotic good of the party. will go in killing everyone crazy or be the sneakiest rogue ever and be in and out. he joined the 141 before simon; he sought out price and gaz as they were looking for recruits and went around the kingdom looking for them. he wanted to join them ever since hearing them and how they stopped the gas poisonings by general hadir, the brother of general farah who was an ally of the 141.

“dear…you are going to give me grey hairs.” soap dangled from the rope after stepping the trap as you ventured in the woods. he was fighting the rope with grunts and trying to cut with his dagger, but falling short as he would miss and fall back down.

“well whoever grunt...set the fucking trap knew what they grunt doing…” following the rope with your eyes, you found the anchor for it by a tree which led you to walk and cut it.

soap landed onto the ground with a grunt and cough as he got a bit winded by the action. with a roll of your eyes, you walked over to where soap laid and helped him up and dusted him off.

“thank you, buttercup. now lets go home, so we can spend some time alone…” he gave you a smirk as he wrapped an arm around your shoulders and yall started walking in the direction of yalls cottage. 

“mmhmm…did your ribs bruise again?” you raised an eyebrow at him as yall walked side by side.

“maybe…” he coughed out as his other arm went to support his ribs.

“absolutely, they hurt a lot…” he whined with a chuckle out of you as you shook your head and continued walking as soap whined the whole way.

gaz- rift mage

gaz met price as he was an apprentice of the royal court mage. price would eat with gaz whenever they could, price taking gaz under his wing when they left the kingdom; gazs family disowned him upon discovering he had magic. price taught him how to fight with a weapon in case he could not use his magic. over the time of their travels, gaz felt more comfortable about his natural abilities and not hiding them as much.

“come on, my little spitfire…” gaz gave a slight tug at your sleeve as you stood in the library, sorting the books with a big pout on his lips. the 141 had an off week, but you had to work some days of the week. gaz huff as you moved from shelf to shelf, following behind like a lost puppy.

“gaz, im almost done. just a few more minutes, darling..” chuckling as gaz groaned and threw his back. after finally finishing placing the last books away, you grabbed your things and found gaz asleep in a chair near the back of the shop. his head sloped down onto his chest with his arms crossed over his chest. 

holding in a chuckle, you walked over to him, gently shaking his shoulder to wake him up. 

“gaz, darling, im done lets go home…” you whispered to him, gaz slowly started to stir in the chair, stretching his arms out with a yawn and looked over at you.

“im ready and awake, spitfire, i swear-yawn” standing up with a pop in his back, gaz hooked his arm around your waist and led yall out of the bookstore back to your shared home for the rest of the afternoon. an occasional yawn escaping gazs mouth earning a small giggle from you.

alex- bardice

a bardiche is kind of pole-arm, which alex was a god at using. he picked up the pole-arm when couldnt do close combat anymore after losing his leg; he opted for long range combat afterward. he joined after price and gaz help him and general farah with hadir, he wanted to help people and bring justice like them. 

watching alex pull back the bardiche only to stab into the training dummy again and again was something you could watch all day. sitting on one of the many hay bales around the training center, you were doing your own thing by doodling alex in many poses with his pole-arm. he saw out of the corner of his eye with a smirk as you moved your pencil around the page.

“getting my good side, dearest?” he smirked to you, leaning against the pole-arm as he used a handkerchief from his pocket to wipe away the sweat from his forehead.

“every side is your good side, alex.” you smiled back, shutting the book and walking over to alex who was also shirtless at the moment. afterall it didnt hurt to use your boyfriend for anatomy practice; slyly you smiled at him while placing your hands on his sweaty chest. his muscles moved up and down with deep breaths as he took you in his tired and aching arms. 

“im glad my dearest thinks so. i dont just work out to keep good at fighting…its also for you, dear..” his breathy voice whispered in your ear, his mustache tickling your neck as he left light, fleeting kiss up and down. snorts and squeaks left you as you tried to push away alex who only brought you in closer to his larger frame.

“a-alex! stoop..that-haha- t-tickles!” the shrill laughs left you, alex only stopping to let out gravelly chuckles in your ear. but soon, he thankfully did stop the tickles and swayed you both back and forth a bit.** **aqua lovesick eyes bore into yours, ones that you could spend an entity in.

“i love you, dearest..” alex vowed to me.

“i love you most, alex.” i vowed back to seal it with a kiss.** **

keegan- scythe

the ghosts were also a traveling group of mercenaries, only being found at night in pubs when people were looking for them. keegan was known for his large scythe attached to his back and the skull face paint that decorates his face during missions. he joined the ghosts when after he was with another mercenary group called vipers.

“it smells good in here, firefly.” keegans arms wrapped around your waist as you chopped up some vegetables for a stew for dinner. you saw more bundles of wheat on the table as keegan rested his head in your neck.

“thank you, kee. i have bread in the oven from all the wheat you keep cutting.” i smirked at him as he placed his scythe against the wall near the front door. as you placed the vegetables in the pot and mixed everything together. 

“we should start selling wheat, kee. i can only make so much bread a week before i start hating the taste.” a chuckle left him as you stirred the pot and he took a seat at the table. he rested his head on his palm, calloused from years of use of the scythe, aqua eyes watched your figure as you moved about in the kitchen. 

“maybe we can sell the bread you make; people would come in hoards for your bread.” keegan smirked as you dished up the now ready stew and brought over two bowls to the table. he loved how domestic life was with you; one of the few constants in his life. the ghosts and you were always there for him, it took him awhile to get to use it after the vipers.

but, damn, he wouldnt trade this for anything in the world.

“firefly�� i love you alot. i would do anything for you, i hope you know.” smiling, you reached out your hand and grabbed his hand, softly rubbing your thumb across the back of his hand.

“i know, dear. i would do the same for you, keegan; i love you more.” you told him back, a toothy grin spread across his lips as there was a light pink dusting across his cheeks, it made him look cuter.

“i know, firefly…now lets eat.” he pressed a quick kiss to your lips before yall dug into the delicious looking stew.

roach- necromancer

not being able to speak never bothered roach; his parents used sign language with him while others wrote notes if they did not know. roach always felt like no one could really understand him despite everything he could say or show. in his emotions, he always felt limited when it came to that. until joining the 141; they always seemed to read him better than others. price knew he was hungry for certain foods in taverns, but didnt know if they had it or not. ghost always knew when roach needed more ink or another book for his spells. gaz and soap would be there him when he was looking around booths in the village and people would try to scam him because he was mute.

roach was sitting at the tavern table, scribbling down notes he needs for spells and the ingredients needed for those spells. you were up at the counter ordering some mead and roasted stew that he always wanted. when the order was confirmed, you started making your way back to yalls table when you saw a group of patrons around roach; poking him and shoving as he sat there and tried to ignore them.

rushing over him and the group, pushing the men away from him and he guarded his book with his body.

“leave him alone! what gives you the right to bother him?” you shouted as you stood in front of the table. the group of patrons scowled as you pushed them away from your partner.

“he practices witchcraft! the worst kind of all; necromance. he needs to leave!” they shouted back at you as your hands rested on your hips, looking equally as mad at them.

“has he done anything to you? made any rude gestures? sent some ghost your way?” raising a brow at him, waiting to see what his answer would be. the man's mouth fell ajar, eyes rapidly blinking as he looked around for something to say.

“well..n-no, but its unnatural-!” you cut him off by raising a hand up to him as he tried to sputter out an answer.

“but nothing. he has every right to be in here as much as you do, so leave him alone before i make you.” you shoved your finger into his chest, making him stumble backwards as his eyes continued to widen as your words. his face paled, gave a huff and he walked off with his group behind him.

looking back at roach, you walked over to him and took his face in your hands looking over him for any possible scrapes or bumps from the patrons roughhousing him. as your eyes trailed over his soft face, roach placed his hands over yours. he gave a soft smile and slow nod as if to answer your question. 

‘im fine, precious. no injury, just took my quill.’ hitting his thumb with a closed fist against his chest then making his hand sideways as he spread his fingers apart then moving his fingers against one another. then moving in front of him, taking his fist from behind his ear and down to hand you understood what he meant.

‘are you sure?’ you signed back which made his smile wider as he brought you down next to him and pressed a kiss to your lips which made your concern melt from your face. you pressed one back to him as you placed your head on his shoulder and he got back to writing in his spell book.

alejandro- dadao

alejandro and rudy were allies and honorary members of the 141. they were a traveling duo looking to help where they could, like the 141; alejandro always felt like he was supposed to do more than just travel around with his childhood friend. not that he hated it, but he also felt lost whenever they got ready to travel to the next town. but when they landed in your town, it felt right to alejandro and he wanted to stay.

alejandro opened the back with a smile as he brought in the burlap sack clad flour and sugar you needed in the bakery. placing them near the other sacks in your low supplies as you stood behind the big butcher block table which you made pastries on.

“thank you, ale. i would have done it, but i needed to get these breads ready and in the oven.” you smiled up at him as he walked over and hugged you from behind, giving feathery kisses along your neck.

“its no problem, mi corazon, i love helping you and watching you do what you love most.” he smiled into your neck as you both swayed to the imagery music. sweet notes of vanilla, fruits, lavender, and many other notes wafted through the air which warm, fuzzy feelings in your chest as you leaned against alejandro.

“do you happen to have any extra cherry pie, mi corazon?” he whispered as he pressed a quick kiss to the shell of your ear. his warm hands gently slide up and down your sides.

cherry pie was alejandros favorite dessert, so whenever it was baked, he would always sneak a piece when you werent watching. meaning you would have to make more then buy more cherries and it was just a cycle of baking cherry pies.

“if you check the oven, love, you’ll find two cherry pies…one is yours.” an excited whoop left alejandros throat as he turned you around, pressing a passionate kiss against your lips. he ran over to the oven and pulled out the two pies with the peel, placing them on the counter.

“you’re amazing, mi corazon! you always spoil me too much with your pastries and sweets.” pulling you away from the dough on the butcher table, bringing you into his body again as a grin graced his lips. gentle hands rested upon your jaw as he brought you both closer once again; gentle lips danced against one another as you rested your hands on his chest.

“well, you deserves it, alejandro. you do a lot for me and the people here…its the least i could do for you…” you whispered against his lips when you pulled away for a moment. alejandros signature smirk returned, pushing loose baby hair away from your face so he could see it better.

“thank you, mi corazon…it means a lot to hear you say that.”

rudy- illusion mage

rudy and alejandro met as kids when other kids were picking on rudy for his magic. all the other kids thought he was a horrible mage for having illusion magic; most thought it would be used to trick and try to control people. but rudys magic only ever activated when he was in major distress as a kid, when he was older and enrolled into a magic school he learned to control it and use his magic whenever. when alejandro met his partner and decided to stay in that town, rudy didnt mind one bit as he liked the thought of a fresh start in a new town.

you sat at your desk, working on some paperwork for your boss at the bookshop. you had been there all day, sorting through the records of payments and what inventory was in the shop. rudy entered the house from nightly patrol duty, dropping off his coat and illusions dust at the front door.

“amor, what are you doing up so late?” rudy walked over to where you sat, giving you a soft kiss against your shoulder as he rested his head in the crook of your neck.

“i have to get these papers done for the bookshop, cielo…” rested a hand on his jaw, giving back a light peck on the lips. rudy chuckled as he pulled out your chair from the desk.

this caused you drop the papers and quill onto the table as your lover picked you up from the chair, bridal style.

“rudy! i have to get those done soon!” a squeal left your lips as he carried to your shared and dropped you upon yalls bed.

“soon. you said you can finish them soon, lets just cuddle for a bit, amor.” he plopped his body down onto yours as his arms went to wrap around your waist.

knowing rudy wasnt to let you from cuddling for at least a while, you gave huff in defeat which was followed by a chuckle. you begrudgingly wrapped your arms around back, slowly running your nails up and down as you pressed a kiss to his temple.

“you’re a pain in my ass, cielo. but i love you…” whispering to him as yall snuggled into the bedsheets further.

“i love you more…” rudy soon drifted into sleep as he laid on your chest. soon you followed him as well, your hands resting his hair with small smiles gracing your faces.

a/n: as i wrote this, I read the wikis of war zone operators and was thinking about doing a part 2 with some, let me know if y'all would like that and if you want to see certain characters in it

[mzlnvabelle]

14 for the third time

pas kamu baca ini kamu harus dengerin lagu you're gonna live forever in me.

Happy mensive love, terimakasih sudah selalu ada untuk aku. jangan pernah cape sama aku ya & i just wanna let you know how i love you so much. I don't know, i just always thinking of ways to make you smile, ways to make you feel love and ways to let you know your my one and only.

engga kerasa ini udah tanggal 14 untuk yang ketiga kalinya. suka dan duka sudah banyak yang kita lewatin sama-sama. di mensive kali ini aku berharap semoga kita selalu bisa ngertiin ego kita masing-masing, kalo ada salah paham aku harap kita bisa obrolkan baik-baik ya.

aku kayaknya ga bakal bosen buat bilang makasih, makasih udah datang kehidup aku, makasih udah hadir disini, makasih untuk semua hal yang udah kamu lakuin ke aku, makasih untuk udah lengkapi bagian yang kurang dari hidup aku. sampai detik ini aku masih kagum kita bisa sampai di titik ini, berhasil memperjuangkan hubungan kita sampai sejauh ini, kita berdua keren banget.

thank you for loving me with all your heart, thank you for being a good lead role. thank uu for accepting me for having so many shortcomings, sorry if I lack a lot sorry, I will try to always be the best for you, because I love you that much bub ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 you are my place of death, you are my home, you are the only comfortable place for me, you are my lover and my friend, sorry, I depend on you, cz i only have you rn. at least I don't make an excuse for you to turn away or leave me, I know humans will come and go but this time I really demand it from you, sorry I seem pushy but I don't know I love you so much that I don't have any thoughts to look for another. lovee youu so much much muchhhhh love youu moree than my self huh, please dont go ☹️🤍

[pipibalon]

My day in a recap~

Hari ini rasanya melelahkan sekali. Pagi-pagi sudah ikut zoom meeting dari KRL. Sampai kantor, langsung bakbikbuk buka laptop karena ada jadwal wawancara jam 10.00. Nungguin wawancara sambil ikut zoom meeting yang laen. Iya, di jam yang sama ada 3 meeting bersamaan. Apakah efektif?

Oh, tentuuuu...

Tidak.

😌😌

Setelah wawancara, 1 meeting selesai juga tapi masih sambil ikut meeting lain alias workshop. Jam istirahat melipir bentar bersihin kamera dan beli makan siang.

Habis itu?

Lanjut meeting lagi yang jamnya bersamaan juga dengan workshop yang tadi pagi. Tentu yang workshop itu gue cuma numpang hadir doang wkwkwwk. Tida menyimak 🙏

Rapat beres jam 15.45, gue lanjutin ikut workshop dengan koneksi internet kantor yang sungguh bapuk. Beberapa kali terlempar keluar masuk zoom, suara pembicara putus2, bener2 ga bisa menyimak dengan fokus.

Merasa lelah, gue tinggal aja ngerjain kerjaan laen. Workshop selesai jam 17.00. Ada apa lagi? Oh tentu kerjaan yang tiada habisnya itu 👍

Jam menunjukkan pukul 17.55 dan gue baru inget kalau gue harus tes antigen buat berangkat turlap malam ini. Baguuuusss sekali Liiii.. Kenapa tadi siang ngana malah keluar bersihin kamera trus lupa sekalian antigen. Aarrgh.

Aqu yang marah ama diri sendiri

Akhirnya buru2 ke kimia farma sebelah kantor buat tes antigen karena gue harus naek kereta ke Cirebon jam 19.40. Emang bener2 ya lu, Li...

Saat itu hujan sedang jatuh membasahi bumi Cikini Raya #halah. Saat akan keluar dari gerbang kantor, sayup2 terdengar suara anak kucing mengeong2 dengan sedih seperti minta diselamatkan karena kehujanan T_T

Aaaakkk my heaarrtt.. I just cannntttt..

Dilema, antara nyelamatin si anak kucing atau pergi antigen. Akhirnya memutuskan untuk mencari si anak kucing, karena kepikiran banget kalo dia kehujanan nanti sakit 😭. Syukurlah dia bisa gue temukan diantara semak2 taneman di halaman kantor *kantor lu di hutan ape gimane dah, Li*. Selanjutnya perawatan gue serahkan ke temen kantor yang juga cat lover (untuuuunng dia masuk kantor hari iniii).

Kami namakan dia "Reni", karena ditemukan saat rain #okesip

Setelah drama rescue itu, gue pun bergegas ke kimia farma yang ternyata.... SEDANG TUTUP SEMENTARA karena istirahat dan baru buka lagi jam 19.00.

Aqu kepada mbak2 kimia farma

Bingung campur panik campur nyalahin diri sendiri kenapa baru inget buat antigen. Gue berusaha membujuk mbak2 KF biar bolehin gue daftar dulu aja, jadi nanti jam 7 tinggal langsung tes (soalnya proses daftarnya suka rada lama gitu). Namun mbak2 KF tida bergeming. Rasanya pengen ngobrak ngabrik KF saat itu juga wkwkwkwkwk *monmaap u siape*

Gue balik ke kantor dengan pikiran berkecamuk. Rasanya ga ada pilihan selain nunggu jam 19.00. Jam menunjukkan pukul 18.12 pas gue balik ke kantor. "Ohiya, gue belum sholat magrib". Gue sholat sambil berdoa semoga semua tetap lancar. Dalam hati, gue kok kayaknya emang belum berdoa supaya turlap gue ini lancar ya...

Setelah sholat, gue tiba2 berasa dapat wangsit "aha"!

Gue memutuskan untuk ke KF aja jam 7 naik taksi langsung dari kantor dan nanti supir taksinya diminta untuk nungguin gue aja. Ini supaya gue ga perlu bawa2 koper dan kardus logistik ke KF. Cooyy.. Lumayan itu beratnyaaaa T_T

Jam 18.52 gue keluar kantor. Hati dagdigdug seperti ingin bertemu gebetan #halah. Nunggu taksi dan baru dapet taksi jam 18.58. Jalan depan kantor agak macet, sedikit kepanikan mulai melanda..

Tiba2 gue inget kata2 seseorang "kalau sedang gelisah, panik, dan butuh pertolongan Allah, istighfar aja sebanyak-banyaknya."

Gue pun istighfar sepanjang berangkat dari kantor sampai KF, yang sebenarnya jaraknya bener2 ga seberapa tapi jadi agak makan waktu kalo naik mobil. Padahal cuma 3 menit kalo jalan kaki wkwk. Eh taunya jalanan ga semacet itu. Nyampe KF jam 19.04 dan proses gue buat swab juga cepet (setelah gue minta supaya mbak2nya cepet karena gue harus naik kereta jam 19.40). Sekitar jam 19.12 gue cabs menuju gambir yang juga jaraknya deket banget dari kantor gue. Gue masih terus istighfar dan alhamdulillah jalanan super lancar, padahal itu habis hujan dan jam pulang kantor. Jam 19.18 tau2 gue udah nyampe gambir. Bener2 mau nangis karena Allah Maha Baik 😭

Alhamdulillah gue gak telat, bahkan semua proses juga lancar. Jam 19.29 gue udah duduk manis di kereta. Huaaaa bener2 rasanya tuh bersyukur banget 🥲.

Setelah duduk, semua memori gue memutar kejadian tadi. Ada satu hal yang gue sadari: iya gue tadi emang agak panik dan takut telat. Tapi hati kecil gue bilang 'tenang uli, everything will be fine'. Ada sebuah keyakinan dalam hati gue bahwa gue akan baik2 aja. Gak akan telat. Emang sih realita yang gue tunjukin berbeda, yaitu gue panik dan misuh2 ke temen gue wkwkwkk. Emang kudu banyak2 istighfar ngana, Li...

Sambil berkontemplasi, gue juga menyadari satu hal hari ini bahwa gue...

Literally yang ingin gue lakukan setelah 4 zoom meeting hari ini ditambah drama uli-si-paling-lupa-dan-dadakan

- ditulis saat di kereta dalam perjalanan menuju Cirebon

[siilvan]

instead of WIP wednesday, we’re having WIP friday at 7am– honestly, i’ll take any excuse to bring up what i’m working on >:)

stupidly long list below the cut!!!

in-progress

dusk - price x reader (18+) (request)

– basically just flirting leading to smut in a safe house lol

drag me under (prologue) - price x reader (18+)

– start of my first enemies-to-lovers series!! reader’s a honeypot, price falls for it, things get complicated 🙏

not started

phosphorus - nikolai x reader (18+)

– literally just shameless smut in a helicopter ngl

telomeres - rudy x teacher!reader

– rudy ends up falling for his niece’s teacher >:)

VIP - soap x reader

– sorta just a bodyguard au with captain mactavish!

this place will become your tomb - nikolai x reader

– technically another enemies-to-lovers fic, but they’re on the same team. just a series of misunderstandings ✊😔

distraction - nikolai x reader (18+)

– more shameless smut with possessive!nik 🫣

the creed - mandalorian!ghost x reader

– self explanatory ngl. reader ends up under the protection of mando!ghost 😼

bloodsport - atom x reader (18+)

– sorta FWB but like… dangerous y’know. i just love morally ambiguous masked men (100% convinced he’s makarov)

gen/romantic headcanons - yuri x reader

– i do not care if nobody reads it, i WILL be writing for yuri. he’s literally my war criminal wife 🫶

euclid - könig x reader

– resident evil/raccoon city au!

are you really okay? - alex x medic!reader

– fluffy and sorta angsty oneshot w/ UFC medic reader!

sugar - gaz x civilian!reader

– pure fluff!!! this one should be super cute :)

the apparition - ghost x civilian!reader

– can’t decide between neighbor ghost or mafia ghost for this one… either way it’s gonna be more angsty than gaz’s fic lol

somewhere in the past - hadir x ULF!reader

– pure angst… set after his betrayal in MW19 🫣

gen/romantic headcanons - valeria x reader

– i love women 🫡

dark signs - valeria x 141!reader

– semi-slow burn set during and after las almas!

take me back to eden - yuri x medic!reader

– unashamed to admit that reader is loosely based off my oc and this is gonna be soooo self-indulgent 🤭 probs mostly fluff and hurt/comfort

take aim - graves x 141!reader

– sorta similar to hadir’s fic if you squint 😶 takes place shortly before and after the betrayal in las almas!

rain - price & ghost

– platonic found-family fic based off one of barry sloane’s lives! ghost basically ends up living with price 🫶

i’ve got a couple other ideas floating around, like an alejandro x reader gym crush fic, but this list is already insanely long and very subject to change 💀

WIP Wednesday

Uhh I think Im the first one today so Imma tag; @gaeadene @direwombat @clicheantagonist @the-delicate-disaster @g0dspeeed @bunny-extract @deadbranch @glossythor and YOU person reading this if you wanna be tagged and I did not

Ghost + GN!reader; the “trapped in the elevator” concept. PTSD all that fun stuff. Neither reader nor ghost is having a fun time. Disclaimer I am a dumbass(tm) and idk how this stuff works ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

You think nothing of it when stepping onto the elevator, Ghost close on your heels. The pair of you are heading towards the same meeting on another floor.

A wicked storm rages outside, wind whipping trees and debris as rain pelts against the glass windows.

The base usually holds up well in storms. You don’t worry about it.

There’s no one else in the elevator as it shuts. Your phone is kept in hand despite knowing you never get service here. In just a moment you’ll be at your destination, and the effort of putting it up just to immediately pull it back out is more than you want to do.

You give a polite nod to the SAS sniper as he walks past you and settles himself with his back tucked against the wall. He returns the gesture and that’s about it for your small talk.

You’re not friends, and even acquaintances would be pushing it. But you cross paths enough to have that adjacent familiarity. He knows your face and you know his…well, his mask.

If it was someone else you might ask the performative question of double checking the two of you are heading to the same floor. Idle chit chat to pass the time on the way to the meeting.

Ghost isn’t the chit chat type and you know it. The number 5 glows when you press the button, the gears whirling overhead.

You’re on the second floor. The screen indicates 2-3-4-

And just shy of the screen switching over to 5 the gears screech to a halt, the lights cutting out in the elevator. You’re plunged into darkness, a startled “what the fuck?” escaping you before the emergency light kicks on.

It’s dimly lit and spooky. Ghost’s skull faced balaclava doesn’t do anything to lighten the mood.

You’re not in love with the idea of being stuck in the elevator, a distant ringing outside the compartment indicating that there’s people (you) trapped inside.

You know it won’t do anything but you press the now dim 5 button a few times. The mechanical click of the button depressing is the only thing that greets you.

“Well shit. You don’t have service, do you?” you figure the answer is no, but maybe today will be your lucky day.

Ghost is silent just a hair too long and the silence is enough to set you slightly on edge. He’s not registering that you’ve spoken to him.

“Ghost?”

It’s fucking creepy the way his head snaps to your direction. But at least now he’s acknowledging your existence.

“Do you have service?”

The amount of time it takes him to blink scares the shit out of you.

He doesn’t normally kick up your flight or response like this. But then again he’s not usually fucking dissociating right in front of you. He’s stiff as a board, not moving, barely blinking and staring you down in silence.

“Ghost,” it takes everything in you to keep your voice even keel.

You’ve heard the stories. Not of him specifically but soldiers in general. They call them episodes.

The term is almost cute. Much less cute that an episode involves you being trapped in a verifiable shoebox with a soldier who could snap you like a twig if he wants to.

That’s usually a problem for nurses and other medical staff. Working in tech you aren’t usually given a front row seat to a soldier looking ready to crawl up the walls.

He blinks again and you let out a sigh as the tension in his shoulders drop slowly.

[yasmijn]

Pandangan ka Yasmin dengan kalimat "if two past lover can remain friends its either they are still in love or never were" i need your insight kaa

First of all, thanks for giving me a writing prompt. My writing brain has been so dry🙂

Menurutku mensamaratakan hubungan semua orang dan menghitamputihkan perasaan orang yang bukan diri kita sendiri adalah hal yang tidak dewasa, dan kurang jelas manfaatnya. Kalimat itu secara gak langsung bilang bahwa kamu itu kalau nggak 1, ya 0. Padahal di antara 1 dan 0 ada bilangan lain yang tak hingga jumlahnya - kamu bisa 0.000001 atau 0.0029 atau bahkan 0.9.

Tapi memang kadang lebih mudah untuk pilih salah satu kutub ekstrem saja, karena salah satu hal paling sulit dalam hidup ini adalah menjadi netral, tidak condong ke sisi manapun - antara masih cinta atau tidak pernah cinta. Menurutku kedua kutub itu terlalu dramatis. Menurutku nggak mungkin kedua orang yang pernah berada dalam hubungan serius bisa masuk kategori never were in love. Kalaupun bukan cinta, pasti ada perasaan yang tingkatannya paling tidak sedikit lebih tinggi daripada sekedar suka.

Tentang kutub satunya - they are still in love - itu ya bisa iya, bisa ngga. Mungkin masih ada rasa yang belum bertransformasi, sudah bertransformasi, atau sedang berusaha untuk ditransformasikan. Mungkin masih sama-sama mencari pengaturan yang tepat, karena orangnya masih tetap penting walau tidak bisa diberikan posisi yang lebih dekat lagi.

Bisa jadi keduanya memang sudah sama-sama dewasa saja, sudah sama-sama tahu bahwa kalau tidak bisa ya sudah, tidak usah dipaksakan. Kalau nggak bisa jadi pasangan, yasudah, jadi temanpun tak apa. Tiap orang kan punya mekanisme internalnya masing-masing.

Intinya? Cuma dua orang itu yang tahu apa yang mereka rasakan. Tapi ya baiknya diobrolin sampai tuntas aja sih, karena biasanya ya yang satu ngarep tapi yang satunya emang udah gamau aja tapi masih sopan jadi nggak tahu juga bagaimana baiknya bersikap. Kalau memang sudah nggak bisa memenuhi ekspektasi satu sama lain, better jauhin aja daripada kecewa lagi, kecewa terus. Pun kalau udah ada yang punya pasangan baru, atau dua-duanya udah punya pasangan baru. Better gausah ada komunikasi one-on-one lagi sih. Mending hargai batasan dan juga orang-orang baru yang sudah hadir.

Life's complicated enough without having to think about where to place your past lover and how to adjust your feelings to accommodate the other person. Just take them out of the picture and get a new canvas.

[tampabanana]

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wa’alaikumussalam kak, hehe makasih sudah membaca tulisan nadya yg ala kadarnya:)

Here I mention my favorite writers:

1. Sapardi Djoko Damono

Bagi insan pecinta karya sastra Indonesia dalam bentuk syair dan puisi indah, Pak Sapardi sudah pasti masuk dalam jajaran penyair kondang. Puisi yang dalam dan terkadang saya sendiri sering suka tak paham akan maknanya, tapi langsung dijawab oleh beliau: “Tidak usah dipusingkan apa artinya, puisi itu untuk dihayati, tidak usah dipahami”

Nah loh tuh langsung dibales sama Pak Sapardi, puisi emang dirasakan oleh hati. Ah he is legend! Saya juga suka sekali dengan puisi beliau yang ini:

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhanaDengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abuAku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhanaDengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

2. Mewlana Jalaludin Rumi

Penyair terkenal seantero jagad ini memang sudah tak asing lagi ditelinga pecinta karya sastra. Bahkan karya-karya beliau sudah banyak dibukukan, tidak hanya itu, banyak juga ditemukan beberapa akun Twitter, Facebook dan Instagram yang membagikan puisi atau quotes karya beliau. Bisa dibaca di sini

3. Ibrahim Nagi

Menurut saya pribadi, Ibrahim Nagi adalah versi lain dari Rumi. Meski Ibrahim tak setenar Rumi, namun dalam jajaran penyair dengan karya hebat, Ibrahim Nagi pasti masuk dalam list. Ibrahim Nagi sendiri menurut saya memiliki selera kata yang berat dan dalam namun masih bisa dicerna dan dimengerti, lebih-lebih bisa dirasakan, it matters!. Syair beliau juga selalu cocok dengan situasi kids jaman now haha, ngena! Buanyaaak sekali puisi-puisi karya Ibrahim yang bikin hati adem. But, my most fave one titled “Ruin”

oh my heart, don’t ask where the love has goneit was a monument of my imagination that has collapsedpour me something to drink & let us drink of its ruins& tell the story on my behalf as long as the tears flowtell how that love became past news& became just another story of romance

(Baca versi lengkapnya di kang Google ya hehe)

4. Stephen King & J.K. Rowling

Bagi pecinta novel fantasi pasti setuju kalau the best fantasy novel authors go to these beautiful persons. Kadang suka bertanya-tanya, darimana sih makhluk ajaib ini bisa berimajinasi seliar dan sekeren itu? Daya khayal saya aja kadang ngga sampai kesono. Huebaaat! I was a Harry Potter lover by the way (sekarang dah ngga terlalu tergila-gila lagi wkwk). I even watched all of the films and read some books (The book is always better, but the movie is still stunning tho) Saya bahkan hafal beberapa dialog dan adegan dalam film haha. “Its leviOHsa not LevioSAH”

5. Sibel Eraslan & Dee Lestari

Siapa di sini yang tidak kenal dengan Dee Lestari? Novel-novel beliau bahkan suka banyak yang difilmkan, Perahu Kertas is my fave. Kisah yang ditawarkan begitu unik, bahkan saya seringnya jatuh cinta dengan nama-nama tokoh yang ada, bagus. Sibel Eraslan juga memiliki pemilihan kata yang bagus, saya bahkan sudah membeli seluruh buku beliau Serial The Greatest Women: Maryam, Aisyah, Khadijah, Fatimah, Hajar, Asiyah. Dan saya juga sudah pernah melakukan Book Review Serial The Greatest Women: Aisyah: Wanita yang Hadir Dalam Mimpi Rasulullah. Bisa dibaca di sini nih hehe.

6. Rhonda Byrne

Pernah baca buku The Secret, The Magic, The Power atau The Hero karya Rhonda? Kalau sudah pernah salah satu buku beliau, pasti setuju bahwa Rhonda memang sangat stunning! Buku beliau yang pertama kali saya baca adalah “The Secret”, buku hasil pinjaman teman ini hampir saya pinjam selama 1 semester lamanya, bukan karena terlantar tak dibaca, melainkan saya baca hingga beberapa kali, mungkin lebih dari 5 kali. So addicted! Saya akhirnya memutuskan untuk membaca karya beliau yang lain berjudul “The Magic” hasil pinjaman juga, dan memang WARBYASAH si Rhonda ini!

I am not even surprised when I knew that Rhonda Byrne was recognized as one of the world’s most influential people in TIME magazine’s “The TIME 100: The People Who Shape Our World”, and shortly afterwards appeared in Forbes’ “The Celebrity 100” list.

7. Novie Ocktavia

Bagi yang sering hilir mudik di dunia Tumblr pasti tidak asing dengan teh Novie. Indeed, there are lots of amazing writers on Tumblr, they are great, namun teh Novie memang berbeda sekali, tulisan beliau selalu memukai dan ngena di sanubari. She always writes masterpieces. Beliau bahkan sudah meluncurkan buku berjudul “Menata Kala” (well, I havent bought it yet, but so ingin) Saya jatuh cinta saat pertama kali membaca tulisan beliau, I feel like I live on her writings, tulisannya pasti banyak menghidupkan rasa yang banyak dirasakan orang namun tak tahu itu jenis rasa apaan dan solusinya bagaimana, and she comes along with those beautiful writings, and always brings solutions, mashAllah Tabarakallah teeeh. Read her masterpiece here @novieocktavia 

As I said before, there are so many writers out there (Pramoedya Ananta Noer John Green, Andrea Hirata, Taufiq Ismail, Raditya Dika, Eka Kurniawan, WS Renda etc) they make their own masterpieces which will inspire people, the reader. To change our level of perspective. Increase our imagination far more better. I wish someday I will be able to make my own book, a book I want to read, a book that will change people to be better person. Writing is sucha fancy thing to do, it is exciting to turn all life’s beauties and riches into words. I actually write not to tell a story but to compose a story. I write because I wish to escape from the foreboding that there is a place I must go but—as in a dream—can’t quite get to. Lets reading! Lets writing! to be happy.

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McAfee Segera Mengatakan Kartu Debit Bitcoin-nya. Bisakah Kita Percaya padanya?

John McAfee baru saja mengirim tweet dari suatu tempat di Bahama sebuah gambar penggoda untuk kartu debit kripto baru. Dotcom, anti-virus-jutawan menjanjikan kartu bitcoin bermerek Visa akan segera hadir. Dari promo teaser, tampaknya Anda dapat menggunakan kartu Anda untuk menghabiskan bitcoin di mana saja Visa diterima. McAfee memiliki sejarah membuat janji palsu, yang paling baru adalah bahwa ia akan mengungkapkan identitas pencipta bitcoin Satoshi Nakamoto. Jadi bagi semua yang berada di tanah kripto yang menunggu dengan napas tertahan untuk kartu debit bitcoin bermerek Visa, kami tidak dapat membuat janji apa pun. Tapi McAfee mengatakan itu adalah yang sebenarnya.

John McAfee ✔@officialmcafee A teaser for what is coming soon: The first crypto credit card accepted EVERYWHERE! 1.622 05.49 - 27 Apr 2019 · Bahamas 564 orang memperbincangkan tentang ini Info dan privasi Iklan Twitter Bagian belakang kartu menampilkan Kode QR untuk alamat penyetoran bitcoin. Jika fitur itu masuk ke produk akhir, orang akan dapat menerima pembayaran dengan kartu di dompet mereka. Ini akan menjadi perampokan yang mengganggu ke dalam bisnis kartu pembayaran. Tidak kalah pentingnya karena mata uang dasar yang digunakan untuk pembayaran adalah bitcoin . Lihat gambar di Twitter

John McAfee ✔@officialmcafee Sorry - "Credit Card" was a misnomer. More like a debit card. You load it with Bitcoin then use it anywhere. We convert to local currencies. 784 06.55 - 27 Apr 2019 · Bahamas 280 orang memperbincangkan tentang ini Info dan privasi Iklan Twitter

BRANDING KARTU KREDIT BITCOIN JOHN MCAFEE

Bagian depan kartu menampilkan mug gagah John McAfee di atas latar belakang bendera Amerika dengan rantai rusak di dalam garis-garis. Ada juga simbol teknologi modern dan peradaban di bidang bintang. Di kiri bawah kartu berkata, "Freedom Lover." Di tengah adalah sebuah plug untuk 2020 kampanye presiden McAfee dengan nasihat, “Dapatkan jiwa Anda kembali.” Setidaknya itu lebih baik daripada “ Jangan memilih McAfee ,” slogan kampanye eksentrik penjahat kandidat terbaru dikenal resmi.

APAKAH PUBLISITAS JOHN MCAFEE BAIK UNTUK BITCOIN?

McAfee memiliki reputasi baik sebagai orang yang tidak bertobat. Apakah keterlibatannya yang giat dalam ruang cryptocurrency membuat bitcoin dan cryptos lainnya terlihat buruk? Tidak. John McAfee adalah pahlawan bagi banyak orang, dan terlepas dari cara berpikir dan hidup yang tidak ortodoks, atau mungkin karena itu, ia telah melakukan banyak hal untuk dibanggakan. Dia telah melakukan banyak hal baik untuk dunia. Orang-orang mengaguminya karena mereka menghormati keyakinan baja-nya sebanyak mereka menikmati karisma dan kecerdasannya. Namun, John, jika Anda benar-benar ingin menjual beberapa di antaranya, silakan lepaskan wajah Anda dari kartu. Dua satoshi saya. McAfee pasti mendengarkan karena dia baru saja mengumumkan: “Hanya 12.000 pertama memiliki gambar saya di atasnya. Setelah itu, semua kartu yang dikirim akan menjadi polos. Pembenci saya harus menunggu. " Lihat gambar di Twitter

John McAfee ✔@officialmcafee P.S. Only the first 12,000 have my image on it. After that, all cards shipped will be plain. My haters will have to wait. 720 06.07 - 27 Apr 2019 · Bahamas 228 orang memperbincangkan tentang ini Info dan privasi Iklan Twitter

JOHN MCAFEE CRYING WOLF?

Namun, hal terburuk yang bisa dia lakukan adalah untuk mendapatkan harapan komunitas crypto untuk produk lain yang berpotensi untuk mengantar bitcoin ke arus utama dan kemudian membuat alasan lemah mengapa itu tidak mungkin benar. Hanya ada begitu banyak kali Anda bisa menangis serigala, bahkan jika Anda adalah John McAfee. Read the full article

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Rabu yang Kelabu

Terkadang Kai menatap jalanan tanpa diikuti oleh kesadarannya. Pikirannya melayang, menjauh, mengarungi waktu pada beberapa minggu yang lalu. Hari Rabu yang kelabu. Kai menaikkan satu sudut bibirnya, tersenyum pahit pada dirinya sendiri. Begitu bodohnya ia hari itu, pikirnya.

Padahal Kai orang yang negatif, ia senantiasa berpikiran mengenai hal terburuk dalam setiap situasi. Ia selalu siap untuk kemungkinan terburuk.

Namun Rabu itu ada yang berbeda.

Cuacanya amatlah baik, langit birunya cerah, suhu udaranya amatlah nyaman. Kai bahkan tertawa melewati batasnya di hari itu; ia bahkan pulang lebih dini karena pekerjaannya telah selesai lebih cepat. Kai merasa senang, sehingga ia pun tahu ada yang salah pada hidupnya. Hidupnya tidak harus semembahagiakan saat itu. Ia merasa Tuhan tidak pernah memberikan hari bahagia yang amat membahagiakan selain Rabu itu.

Kai takkan lupa.

Hari itu hari ulang tahunnya.

Ia amat tidak sabar untuk segera pulang ke rumah, dan disambut kekasihnya yang mungkin telah menyiapkan kejutan untuknya. Kai pada beberapa bulan yang lalu mengulum senyumnya sepanjang jalan menuju rumah; memikirkan sang kekasih yang mungkin saat itu sudah siap duduk di hadapan piano dekat jendela, kekasihnya akan tersenyum senang padanya, kemudian memainkan sebuah melodi indah; mungkin ciptaan kesekiannya yang dipersembahkan hanya pada Kai, setelah mengatakan, “Happy birthday, Love.”

Kai tidak tahu apakah ia memang bodoh atau Tuhan memang sengaja untuk tidak menunjukkan tanda-tandanya.

Dalam memori Kai masih amat jelas bagaimana ia pulang, tanpa prasangka buruk sedikit pun, ia melangkah ke lantai terasnya, tidak mengetuk pintu karena tidak ingin membuat kekasihnya mengetahui mengenai kepulangannya ke rumah dahulu.

Pemandangan rumah yang tenang membuat Kai tersenyum.

Untuk yang terakhir kalinya.

“I’m home.” Adalah kalimat terakhir sebelum hidup Kai berubah sepenuhnya, sebelum senyum bahagianya terenggut untuk selamanya, sebelum prasangka buruknya kembali. Ia menjadi orang yang negatif lagi.

Kai mengitari pandangannya ke sekitar isi rumahnya. Kaos. Serpihan vas bunga yang pecah berceceran di lantai, letak sofa di ruang televisi tidak beraturan, televisinya pun menghilang.

Kai menoleh ke sebuah piano yang tersimpan di dalam rumah mereka, dekat jendela, tidak ada siapa-siapa di sana. Tidak ada senyum dari kekasihnya, tidak ada ucapan selamat pertambahan umur dari orang paling istimewa untuknya, tidak ada sang kekasih.

“Raina?” adalah yang hanya ada dalam pikiran Kai. Jantungnya berdegup kencang, keringat dingin mulai hadir, ia tidak tahu harus merasakan apa saat itu selain ketakutan. Prasangka buruk memenuhi pikirannya, Kai rasanya ingin membunuh dirinya sendiri demi menghentikan pikiran mengenai kemungkinan yang terjadi pada Raina.

Meski Kai orang paling negatif yang pernah rekan-rekannya temui, paling pesimis di antara yang lain, tetapi ia tidak pernah memiliki gagasan bahwa dalam hidupnya akan terjadi hal seperti itu. Kai berlalu ke dapur, dan berhenti di tempat sebelum ia benar-benar memasukinya. Ia bergeming pada ambang pintu terbuka dapur ketika pandangannya dipertemukan dengan noda kemerahan di lantai, noda yang asing.

Sehingga Kai pun membisu, tidak berani mengeluarkan sedikit pun suara selain langkah kakinya. Kai tidak pernah merasa setakut itu dalam hidupnya. Sebelum ia benar-benar melangkahkan kakinya, ia berharap—berdoa—agar apa pun yang saat itu menghantui pikirannya tidak dikabulkan.

“Raina,” Kai memanggilnya sekali lagi meski ia telah dapat melihat sedikit pandangan figur Raina yang terbaring tak jauh dari sebuah kursi patah, mungkin untuk memastikan bahwa Raina yang sesungguhnya saat itu terbaring membeku dengan sebuah pisau yang menancap di dadanya hanyalah khayalannya saja.

Kai pasti sedang berpikiran negatif lagi.

Semua ini hanyalah mimpi buruk.

Tolong, seseorang, bangunkan Kai.

“No.” Namun rasa nyeri di hatinya terlalu nyata untuk disebut sebagai bagian dari mimpi buruk. Kai menghampiri Raina, ia masih belum bangun dari mimpinya. Kai membawa tubuh Raina untuk direngkuh, ia masih tidak dapat membuka matanya. Kai menangis, air matanya sungguh nyata. “Please, Raina, no.”

Kemudian Kai panggil nama kekasihnya, berulang kali, mengguncangkan tubuh yang masih tak memberi respon. Kejam, pikir Kai. Hari itu adalah ulang tahunnya, dan sang kekasih tidak menyambutnya seperti yang ada dalam bayangan.

Sudah berapa kali sudah dikatakan bahwa cuaca hari itu amatlah cerah? Kai bahkan tidak membutuhkan penerangan tambahan untuk melihat jelas wajah Raina yang tidak kunjung memberikan tanda-tanda kehidupan. Rupa wajah manis Raina terlihat berbeda; wajahnya pucat pasi, rona bibirnya begitu gelap.

Meski begitu, tetap saja Kai menghubungi ambulans, ia hanya ingin memiliki harapan. Ia hanya ingin menunda kepergian sang kekasih.

I will miss you so much.

Kedua mata Raina tertutup rapat, bahkan di saat seperti itu Raina tetap begitu rupawan. Kai menangis.

Pikirnya bahwa dengan ambulans, Raina akan lebih dapat cepat ditangani, diberikan pertolongan. Setidaknya dengan mengetahui ada pihak lain yang memberikan bantuan pada mereka membuat Kai dapat membagi rasa takutnya; rasa takut seperti, I’m scared, I’m so scared, my lover is leaving me.

Pada detik di mana pandangan Kai bertemu orang-orang yang membantu Raina untuk dipindahkan ke dalam mobil ambulans, ia membaca raut wajah mereka yang meneriakan dukacita.

Jangan, belum saatnya. Raina is fine. She will be fine. Kai menjerit-jerit dalam hati, ia mengulang tanpa henti kalimat tersebut seperti sebuah mantra agar sang kekasih benar adanya akan baik-baik saja. Raina is not leaving.

“Raina,” tenggorokan Kai tercekat, ia tanpa sadar telah membanjiri kedua pipinya dengan air mata. Kai tidak berani menengadahkan kepalanya dan terus memandang wajah sang kekasih untuk yang terakhir kali di hari itu karena tidak ingin melihat orang-orang yang menatapnya iba.

Tidak usah diberitahu, Kai sudah tahu.

Raina is gone now.

Katanya perampokan. Sekelompok perampok yang kini sudah tertangkap dan mendekap di sel tahanan merenggut harta milik Kai dan Raina, merenggut Raina dari Kai.

Kemarahan Kai takkan pernah padam. Ia takkan pernah mengampuni orang-orang yang sudah merenggut Raina darinya.

Tanpa sang kekasih, kini Kai seperti mati rasa. Seluruh hal yang ada di rumahnya terus mengingatkannya pada Raina. Raina yang akan menghabiskan waktunya di studio pribadinya berjam-jam demi menulis sebuah lagu baru, Raina yang berbaring terlelap menghadapnya, Raina yang tertawa pada acara di televisi dengannya, Raina yang berbicara padanya; seperti sebuah kalimat terakhir yang Raina ucapkan pada Kai pada Rabu itu sebelum akhirnya Kai meninggalkannya, “Don’t be late tonight, love you!”

Oh, Tuhan. Kai bahkan kini merindukan suaranya. Ingatan Kai mengenai Raina mulai mengabur, dan ia tidak ingin Raina pergi dari ingatannya setelah Raina pergi meninggalkannya dari dunia ini.

Terkadang Kai berangan-angan, bila ia dapat memutar kembali waktu. Kembalikan Kai pada Rabu itu, Kai terlalu merindukan kekasihnya saat ini. Ia tidak dapat dihantui oleh Rabu yang kelabu terus menerus begini—

Kemudian Kai dapat merasakan dirinya sendiri dihantam sesuatu yang amat keras. Rusuknya mungkin patah. Serpihan kaca mobilnya melayang, ia pun melayang. Ingin berteriak tapi tidak ada waktu. Kai hanya memejamkan matanya erat-erat, tubuhnya terasa dibanting ke sana kemari, ia pun mati rasa.

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Kai terbangun kembali hanya untuk mendengar gemuruh dari pekarangan rumahnya—rumahnya. Ia spontan membuka kedua matanya, tidak sadar bahwa ia sedari tadi sedang duduk di kursi di dapurnya. Ia dihadapkan pada sebuah piring dengan remah roti di atasnya. Jantung Kai berdegup kencang, seluruh indranya terlalu mengenal adegan ini.

“Mau tambah rotinya?” Kai menoleh pada sumber suara terlalu cepat, dan ia berusaha untuk tidak berteriak. Kai pun diam di tempat, ia memandang figur manusia di dekatnya dengan raut wajah terkejut. Perlahan bangkit dari kursi. “Kenapa?” katanya lagi. “Kau melihatku seolah aku ini hantu—gosh, Kai, aku ini masih hidup.”

Kai tidak ingin mempertanyakan mengapa ia ada di sini. Di dapur rumahnya, menatap figur Raina yang sedang tersenyum padanya karena baru saja bergurau. Raina terlihat sungguh manis, tidak ada yang berubah darinya.

“You’re here.”

Raina hanya terkekeh geli, pipinya yang merona membuat Kai ingin mengecupnya. “Obviously.”

“You’re here.” Kai mengernyitkan keningnya, raut wajahnya yang dibuatnya ketika berusaha untuk menahan tangis. Ia berjalan mendekati sang kekasih, kemudian tanpa ragu memeluk tubuhnya erat. Kai dapat mendengar Raina mengerang tapi ia tidak terlalu peduli, Kai hanya amat merindukan Raina. “I missed you.”

Raina hanya tetap membiarkan Kai merengkuh tubuhnya, sebelum kemudian menyuarakan, “Kai ...?”

“Raina, I love you so much.”

Raina tertawa lagi, dan Kai ingin mengingat momen ini baik-baik. “Okay. I love you, too.” Kemudian membalas dekapan Kai, ia menyandarkan pipinya pada bahu Kai. “By the way, aku harus menyiapkan sesuatu.”

“Menyiapkan sesuatu?”

“Hm. Untuk yang akan bertambah usianya, aku harus memberikanmu hadiah.” Raina kemudian perlahan melepaskan dirinya dari tubuh Kai, ia berjalan menjauh. Kini pemandangan ini terlalu akrab di ingatannya.

17 April. Beberapa minggu yang lalu.

“Apa ini hari Rabu?”

“Hmm, terlalu antusias untuk kejutanmu?” Raina menggodanya, ia terlihat sedang mengaduk sesuatu di dekat panggangan. Sebuah senyum terukir di wajahnya.

“Aku sedang serius.”

Raina melirik Kai sekilas, senyumnya menghilang perlahan, tetapi ia tidak begitu menghiraukan Kai yang terdengar aneh. “Ya, ini hari Rabu. Kenapa memangnya—oh, ya! aku lupa sesuatu.” Raina kemudian meletakkan kembali apa yang ada di tangannya sebelumnya, kemudian berjalan cepat meninggalkan tempat dan terlihat buru-buru. Ia berhenti tepat di hadapan Kai hanya untuk berkata, “Don’t be late tonight,” kemudian mengecup pipi Kai cepat dan berseru, “love you!” ketika sudah jauh dari pandangan Kai.

Bila benar hari ini adalah hari Rabu itu, maka ia akan mendengar bunyi klakson—kemudian Kai mendengar bunyi klakson kendaraan dari luar rumahnya, mungkin tetangganya. Lalu Kai akan mendengar dentuman pintu yang tertutup; Raina kembali ke pekarangan. Kai mendengar dentuman pintu. Semuanya terasa, terlihat, dan terdengar terlalu sama seperti Rabu itu. Kai merasa ketakutan.

Namun pada Rabu itu Kai tidak mengetahui apa pun, tidak dapat memprediksi apa yang akan terjadi berjam-jam setelah dentuman pintu menuju pekarangan tertutup karena ia tidak terlalu peduli, dan tetap pergi dari rumah menuju gedung kantornya.

Kali ini, Kai tidak begitu. Ia tidak menjadi dirinya di masa lalu. Ia segera mengejar Raina ke pekarangan, memaksanya berhenti memotong rumput, dan membawanya ke halaman depan rumah. Mereka berpegangan tangan, syukurlah, sehingga Raina tidak dapat melihat bagaimana kedua tangan Kai kini bergetar hebat. Ia amat ketakutan hingga tidak berpikir untuk mengunci rumahnya. Lagipula mereka akan tetap kerampokan.

“Kai? What’s wrong?” meski Raina terdengar benar-benar kebingungan, tetapi ia tidak protes mengenai aksi yang dilakukan Kai. Menyeretnya paksa menuju kendaraan pribadi mereka.  Pada akhirnya Kai dan Raina sudah duduk di dalamnya, tanpa basa-basi, Kai yang ada di kursi kemudi segera menghidupkan mesin kendaraannya.

“Kita harus pergi.” Kata Kai dengan napas terengah.

“Eh? Kenapa? Kau tidak pergi ke kantor?”

“Raina,” Kai menoleh pada Raina, meraih tangannya untuk digenggam erat, “apa kau percaya padaku?”

“Kai, ada apa?”

Kai berdecak kesal, ia mencoba untuk tidak menyentak Raina yang kunjung memberikan jawaban, “Jawab saja,” ucapnya berusaha tenang, “kau percaya padaku?”

Raina terlihat ragu untuk beberapa saat, ia menggigiti bibirnya dahulu sebelum kemudian mengangguk dan menggumamkan, “Hm.”

“I love you so much.”

Raina nampak memiliki banyak pertanyaan mengenai perilaku aneh Kai di pagi ini, tetapi ia lebih memilih untuk diam saja. Raina semakin terlihat kebingungan, ia mengeratkan genggamannya pada tangan Kai dan tidak berkomentar apa pun lagi.

“Aku sangat menyayangimu, aku tidak ingin kaupergi.” Kata Kai terdengar buru-buru. Masih ada beberapa jam lagi, tetapi Kai tidak tahu kapan para perampok itu akan sampai di rumah mereka. menghubungi polisi pasti percuma, karena peristiwanya belum terjadi dan dengan alasan paranoid tentulah tidak menjamin kepercayaan pihak yang berwajib. “Jadi kita pergi dari sini saja, kita berdua, kau dan aku, okay?”

Raut wajah Raina memperlihatkan kenaifan serta ketakutan. “Okay ....” katanya, ia juga tidak tahu mengapa namun ia merasa takut. Dan tanpa ragu Kai mencium bibir Raina cukup lama hingga napas mereka memburu. Kemudian mereka berpisah, namun wajah tetap berdekatan.

“Hey, Kai. Kalau ada sesuatu, katakan saja.” Raina menangkup pipi Kai, ibu jarinya membuat gerakan melingkar di pipinya. Menenangkan.

“I just missed you so much.”

“Kita selalu bertemu, Kai.” Raina terkekeh pelan untuk mencairkan suasana.

“Hm, I know.” Kai kemudian mengecup pelipis Raina. “Aku senang kau ada di sini.”

Tidak menanggapi pernyataan tak keruan Kai, Raina malah tersenyum dan merespon kekasihnya dengan, “Happy birthday, Love.” untuk yang kedua kalinya pada umur Kai yang ke-32.

Selama perjalanan, Raina tidak berhenti mengoceh mengenai apa pun yang ada di pikirannya—dan ini merupakan hal biasa. Kai biasanya akan mengeluh bila Raina begitu cerewet, tetapi tidak kali ini. Kai membiarkan Raina terus berceloteh ditemani lagu-lagu pop dari radio di dalam mobil sebagai latar belakangnya, kemudian gemuruh hujan yang meredam kebisingan jalan raya selama seharian itu. Sesekali mereka berhenti di bahu jalan bila pemandangannya indah.

Kai tidak menghitung berapa kali ia mencuri pandang pada Raina pada hari itu di dalam mobil dan ia tidak peduli, yang penting Kai kini dapat menghabiskan Rabu ini bersama kekasihnya.

Meski langit begitu gelap, Rabu ini cuacanya kelabu. Kai tertawa dalam hati karena kali ini dirinya membuat alam semesta menangis. Rabunya tidak kelabu; begini, berduaan, ditemani sang kekasih yang tidak pergi darinya.

fin

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Dalam batas dan kekuatanku sebagai Lelaki, seorang pria. Tak segala hal dapat diatasi sendiri; karena keterbatasan. Dan keterbatasan itu memang ada, supaya kamu bisa hadir melengkapi. Kamu ada supaya menjadi penolongku. Dan menolongku mengarungi kehidupan yang penuh anugerah dan berkah ***=*** Within my limits and strength as a man, a real man. Not everything can be overcome alone; because of many limitations. And that limitation does exist, so you can attend to complete. You are here to be my helper. And help me navigate life that full of grace and blessings >^_^< #terimakasih #bersyukur untukmu 😘 #love #teamo #lover #anugerahterindah #kasih #blessed (di Surakarta) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnWVmJxAqhz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1jl3w84l0smhr

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Day #18 - Post 30 facts about yourself

Know yourself to know others.

Belajar menguji sejauh mana pengetahuan atas diri saya sendiri dgn menulis beberapa fakta diri berikut. Fakta-fakta yang saya rasa kurang cukup jika hanya diwakilkan 30 facts. (lah mo nambah wkwk)

1. Goodie bag luvvv. Saya tidak suka memikul berat di pundak sekaligus, Goodie bag is my helper all the time.

2. Pernah jadi lurah pondok, yang mana nama lurah pondok dalam 3 generasi berturut-turut adalah Miftah.

3. Prefer kulit ayam daripada dagingnya

. Yang gak sehat, kenapa selalu enak!

4. Punya gigi geraham (kiri-kanan) yang sudah tiada (berarti udah gak punya dong 😂), sbg salah satu alasan kenapa saya pasang braces.

5. Pernah nonton sendirian, saat galau tingkat dewa. Ini cukuplah sekali seumur hidup.

6. Pernah juga kondangan sendirian. Karena pernikahan teman dekat yang tidak memungkinkan saya utk tidak hadir dengan alasan belum ada partner.

7. Saya pilih nonton ketimbang karokean yang membosankan dan berisik.

8. Lebih suka belajar dan mengajar eksak daripada umum. Yang pasti-pasti aja sist :p

9. Laki-laki rapi, wangi, pintar dan bijak sungguh mempesona. Eeaa

10. Pedes lovers. You know me so well deh.

11. Gak pernah nyaman pakai baju ketat.

12. Lebih baik ngobrol langsung daripada telfonan yg berpotensi krik krik lebih banyak haha

13. Geli bgt sama hewan melata, apalagi sama bela, iya bela....ng 😢

14. Pelupa. Byk dosa apa ya, dikit-dikit lupa, tinggal dikit lupa.

15. Sulit beri hati ke lain hati.

16. Banyak keinginan tapi ragu melangkah. Butuh banyak supporter nih~

17. Sedikit ambisius. Kalau mau ini itu ya harus bisa ada, dgn usaha sendiri ya.

18. Gak bisa tahan ngantuk. Obatnya cuma satu, tidur. Meski hanya 5 menit tidak apa yang penting pulas.

19. Jarang marah, sekalinya marah air mata pasti ikut bleberan wkwkkw.

20. Pernah jadi korban bullying waktu SD sampai gak mau masuk sekolah.

21. Suka menyendiri, lebih seru menikmati me time berlari dari keramaian.

22. Kurang percaya diri utk selfie, prefer minta tolong fotoin orang.

23. Wedges atau highheels jauh-jauh deh, bikin capek jalan doang.

24. Tipe orang yang sering ngomong dulu baru mikir. Astaghfirullah -_-

25. Lulusan Pendidikan Kimia yang gak ngajar Kimia. Hehe

26. Travelling yuhu!!

27. Deadliner. Parah ini gak hilang2 sifat jeleknya.

28. Overthinking person, gak bagus sih tp susah untuk ditahannya gitu gmn ya.

29. Gedeg bgt sama org yang banyak ngomong tapi aksinya nol. Tong kosong nyaring bunyinya.

30. Pernah jatuh -luka luka banyak-memar- dari mobil losbak gara-gara 'nangkring' di ujung belakang mobil, mobil masih melaju, tapi saya ikut teman turun loncat gitu pakai kaki kiri. Di rumah, gak berani bilang orang tua, nutupin luka dilibet-libet pakai popok. Padahal nyeri luar biasa 😭 eh ujung-ujungnya ketahuan juga hehe.

Sekian, barangkali boleh nanti ditambah lagi factnya (?)

Kamis, 28 November 2017

22.35

[dengan mata kriyep kriyep dan fikiran yang masih kefikiran ucapan ms. .... tadi siang hhmm]

[blueirishgirl]

Soulmate ?

Memasuki umur-umur nerima undangan nikahan yang samat teramat sering, scrolling through timeline instagram facebook and most of my reaction is "oh si ini udah nikah toh" "lah si anu udah punya anak", some of my bestfriends had already engaged with their future soulmates too, trully blessed!

Suatu saat ketika gw menghadiri kondangan kawan sekolah, ada temen gw bilang, dengan wajah khawatirnya, "rur lo gimana nih? Anteng2 aja. Mau gw kenalin sama temen gw ga?" Wah senang banget langsung aja gw minta cariin cowok yang 11 12 sm Ramon Y Tungka, ya.. Kalo nggak ada, yang mirip-mirip sedikit sm Abimana juga ga masalah :v (delusi) hahaha nggak deng, gw tolak dengan halus karena gw saat itu masih proses healing karena baru banget putus sama mantan 6 tahun gw.

Dan disela-sela obrolan, sembari mandangin si pengantin yang wallahi cantik banget, ga kerasa lamunan gw jauh ngebayangin..

Ngebayangin gimana kalo tiba2 gw kayang di atas panggung, nggak deng. Gw ngebayangin kira-kira kapan gw bakal seperti itu ya? Berapa tahun lagi? Nikah dimana? Warna baju adatnya apa? Dan yang terpenting.... Siapa yang akan berdiri di samping gw saat itu, seperti apa orangnya? Baikkah? Penyayang kah? Saking penasarannya, gw sampai ga nyadar kalo saat itu muka temen gw bete gara gara gw ga fokus sama obrolannya :v

But seriously, sejak saat itu gw jadi rindu serindu-rindunya sama si soulmate yang belum nampakin diri (atau sebenernya udah nampakin namun gw belum menyadari) di kehidupan gw ini.

But in case, kalo aja beberapa tahun depan si mas soulmate liat post-an gw, gw mau ngomong, mas/kak/abang/uda calon suamiku (cailah) what makes you takes so long to meet me? Nungguin kamu tuh lama banget, aku tuh ampe dibilang jomblo karatan sama sahabat2 aku gara-gara kamu ga dateng-dateng. Tapi gapapa, yang terbaik memang datangnya ga instan, ya kan suamiku ? :v Tapi tetep aja aku berharap hari ini kamu hadir nemenin aku sekarang, jadi temen ketawa, temen berkeluh kesah, temen jalan-jalan. Menikmati semua prosesnya.

Dan kalau aja kamu tau, aku sekarang lagi berusaha memperbaiki diri aku, aku yang ga biasa dandan sekarang aku lagi sering belajar make up, oh iya aku juga lagi diet loh baru turun 11 kilo sih tapi bulan ini naik 3 kilo lagi karena ga ada yang nyemangatin (maunya kamu yang nyemangatin) semua itu aku lakuin agar nanti aku sama kamu dalam keadaan diri aku yang terbaik, hmm terus juga aku lagi proses nyari kerja yang bener bener kerja, kenapa? Karena orang-orang bilang kerjaan aku yang sekarang itu bukan kerjaan untuk ukuran anak lulusan kampus kuning, sedih kan? Nah makanya semangatin aku dong. Nanti kita bisa saling sharing tentang apapun, aku ga akan bosen dengerin kamu ngomong sampe kita gatau mau ngomongin apa lagi. Dan jangan takut kalau kita sama-sama aku ga bakal buru-buruin kamu, karena aku masuk team #nikahdiwaktuyangtepat :v Yang penting nanti kita berjuang sama-sama dari bawah. By the way, kok aku keliatan kayak promosiin diri banget ya? Gapapa, belajar pede itu baik :v

Teruntuk kamu,

Today and always, beyond tomorrow, I need you beside me, always as my bestfriend, lover and forever soulmate.

[isupportifyalyssa-blog]

Isupportifyalyssa?

Hello! 👋 Pertama-tama kenalkan dulu saya "isupportifyalyssa" (cek ig isupportifyalyssa) dan this is my first (time &) story disini...hihi By the way, happy anniversarry untuk IFCku! Nggak nyangka sih, IFC udah sejauh ini. Alhamdulillah.... Yah, mungkin gue...---okay biar lebih santai, bahasanya nggak usah terlalu formal ya gengs hehe, okay gue bukan IFC sejak tahun/hari pertama IFC terbentuk, dan bukan juga seseorang yang mengikuti perjalanan karir Ify sejak pertama kali dia audisi Idola Cilik. FYI, awal Idola Cilik gue justru tertariknya sama Gabriel. Pertama kali "ngelirik" Ify tuh pas denger dia nyanyiin lagu Bunda untuk Mama Gina. Kalau nonton lagi video itu, terharunya tetep kebawa sih sampe sekarang..... Dan ketertarikan itu membawa gue sampai hari ini, terus aja gitu "ngikutin" dia. Mungkin (mungkin lho ya...haha) ada yang bertanya-tanya apasih isupportifyalyssa itu? Buat apa coba bikin akun begituan segala? . . Isupportifyalyssa sendiri adalah akun pribadi yang sengaja gue bikin memang untuk ngeshare/ngeabadiin semua moment yang berkaitan dengan/ada Ifynya. Mau Ify sendiri, sama Blink ataupun temen kampusnya. . . Ga masalah kalau kalian masih mau manggil gue admin haha... . . Sejak "ngikutin" Ify, secara otomatis gue punya folder terpisah di hp gue untuk Ify, entah itu lagunya, fotonya atau videonya. Dan namanya hp/memori bisa aja rusak atau bermasalah, gue ngerasa butuh tempat untuk nyimpen itu semua. Dan itulah kenapa "isupportifyalyssa" hadir 😝 Kenapa namanya isupportifyalyssa? Mungkin (lagi) ada dari kalian yang masih inget, kata "isupportifyalyssa" sendiri dulunya pernah dishare sama admin IFC (Offy), pencetusnya juga anak IFC (eh dia anak IFC apa bukan yak? Wkwk yang jelas dulu BSJ deh kalau ga salah #eh) dan alasan gue make nama itu adalah, karena pake nama IFC, lovers, fansclub itu terlalu mainstream. Selain itu, kata isupportifyalyssa sendiri secara simple artinya gue mensupport Ify, gitukan? Heheheee Nah, itu juga alasan lain kenapa "isupportifyalyssa" ini ada. Selain untuk ngeshare/mengabadikan tadi, ini sebagai bentuk support gue buat Ify. Gue emang udah ga semuda dulu, waktu ngidol gue juga ga sebanyak dulu, tapi kalau cuma sekedar mainin akun socmed unofficial mah masih amanlah.... Jangan heran kalau sehari gue bisa nyampah lebih dari 1 atau bahkan nyampe 10 foto/video. Karena, alasannya udah gue sebutin diatas. Jadi, buat kalian yang mungkin merasa terganggu (entah itu karena alasan pribadi sekalipun 😝) mending jangan follow atau ngestalk akun ig isupportifyalyssa deh 😅 Dari awal gue sama sekali ga koar-koarin soal akun ini, gue sama sekali nggak minta orang lain ngepromosiin--tapi alhamdulillah bokapnya Ify pernah hihi, karena memang tujuan gue ngebuat akun ini bukan untuk nyari followers. Bukan untuk banyak-banyakin likers, atau cuma biar "dilirik" sama keluarganya Ify 😅 . . Kenapa gue jadi cerita soal akun isupportifyalyssa? Karena ini juga masih berkaitan sama anniv IFC menurut gue haha... Ya kalau bukan karena gue IFC, mungkin akun ini nggak pernah ada 😅 . . So, gengs... Happy anniversarry untuk kita semua #IFC #IX Semoga kita masih bertemu ditahun-tahun berikutnya.... Semoga kita makin kreatif dari sebelumnya..... Semakin dewasa, bijaksana dan saling mengingatkan entah itu sesama IFC ataupun antar IFC ke Ify dan Ify ke IFC. Pssttt...anggap aja postingan pertama ini sebagai salam perkenalan dari gue 😉 We're still together #IFC #IX

[sunshineandceiling]

Sakit untuk Dikenang, Sayang untuk Dibuang

(Liatin kalender)

Sekarang tahun 2017, ya?

 Lama juga. Gue mikir. Dari gue yang seukuran batang singkong, sampe sekarang seukuran ibu singkongnya.

Ternyata masih inget.

 Gue pun mencoba buat pejamin mata. Balikin semua keadaan dan perasaan di tahun 2002. Bener, 15 tahun yang lalu.

Astaganagadragonball.

Gue udah tumbuh di 15 tahun itu. Ngapain aja ya? Gue yang tadinya ga berani ngomong sama orang baru, ga berani naik sepeda, gigi masih seukuran kuaci semua. Tapi yang paling signifikan sih ini: gue udah bisa naik level cinta-cintaan, cuy.

Oke balik lagi.

Gue coba nginget-nginget masa TK gue yang bahagia, yang belom pernah denger kata: paper, yang sekarang malah jadi makanan gue sehari-hari di kehidupan perkuliahan ini. Masa TK gue, dimana gue ketemu pertama kali sama yang namanya sahabat (kalo doi nganggep yang sama sih he he he, moga ga bertepuk sebelah tangan), main jungkat-jungkit dan ayunan sekolahan, main stempel dari batang pisang (aduh itu iconic banget buat gue), sampe ketemu sama cinta monyet pertama gue.

Gue heran. Kenapa disebut cinta monyet sih, ah. Dia kan mainnya tetep di tanah, bukan garuk-garuk di pohon.

But seriously, he caught my attention, my heart. He is the type of popular boy in town, along with me on the girl side. Gue ga bohong, dulu jaman-jamannya gue masih imut-cantik-bersih, gue idola anak-anak sekolahan. Tapi semenjak negara api menyerang... sudahlah.

Namanya Ferry.

Tuh masih inget gue. Itu bukan nama samaran kaya di wawancara-wawancaraan, gue pake nama asli.

Gue gatau kenapa, pertama kali liat dia, gue langsung ngerasa nyes. Anjir, bocah 5 tahun mainannya udah suka-sukaan aja ya. Heran sendiri gue.

Pokoknya, gue selalu seneng kalo bareng, atau at least ada dia. Ferry anaknya kalem, ga pecicilan, tipikal bocah dewasa yang pinter, kaya siapa tuh yang disukain sama Shizuka, rivalnya Nobita. Dia juga ganteng, putih, bersih, badannya bagus (tapi belom berotot ya). Tipe gue banget, cowo-cowo cool gitu. Dingin-dingin bikin pengen disayang ehe. Gue sering main bareng Ferry, bareng anak-anak yang lain juga (yang maaf maaf aja nih, gue lupa namanya jadi sebut aja Gue dkk), yang bikin gue tambah makin ugh sama dia.

Yang paling fresh di ingatan gue sih kita pernah main petak umpet, dimana yang kalah temen gue dan gue otomatis dong gelagapan nyari tempat aman. Ternyata, kebetulan, gue sama Ferry rusuh sembunyi di bawah meja. Terus ya gitu, gue seneng. Terus, kita sering diajak bikin stample-stample bentuk yang lucu-lucu gitu, stamp-nya terbuat dari batang pisang. Dan ga jarang juga, gue duduk deket sama Ferry. Mungkin dia udah lupa, tapi gue ga pernah lupa. Entah kenapa, saat-saat itu gue baru merasa sedikit lebih hidup. (pendapat seorang bocah 5 tahun)

Dan ketika kita menyukai sesuatu, hal-hal gila pun ga bisa di tepis. Bener?

Ini gue gatau sih kabar buruk atau baiknya. Tapi, si Ferry adalah putra dari guru gue sendiri. Ibu guru Cantik (kali ini pake nama samaran aja, ya), tapi emang literally cantik. Jilbab, kalem, penyayang anak TK, guru kesayangan di TK deh pokoknya. Idaman. Gue gangerti lagi, anak sama emak sama-sama bening.

Duh jadi kangen.

Yang lucu dan paling bikin gemas sih yang ini. Jadi gue ga tahan sama perasaan gue sendiri. Gue gabisa nutupin dan ungkiri kalo gue suka sama Ferry. Dan karena gue tipikal anak yang suka mengekspresikan perasaan lewat tulisan atau gambar, jadilah gue mulai sok ngide.

Gue suka gambar, dan gue suka menggambar apapun yang gue suka. Ribet ga tuh? Nah gambaran gue, suka ditaruh dan di pajang di ruang tamu sama orang tua gue. Jadi bentuknya kaya kumpulan kertas yang nempel, jadi kaya kalender yang di tempel di tembok gitu. Buka perhalaman.

Nah, udah beberapa hari ini gue sakit. Ga enak badan, jadi gue ga masuk sekolah. Mungkin karena merasa terlalu lama ga masuk, ibu guru Cantik pun berkunjung ke rumah. Ibu guru dijamuin sama mama, diajak ngobrol-ngobrol cantik gitu. Gue hadir juga disitu senyam-senyum deg-degan. Yaiyalah, namanya juga ketemu calon mertua.

Gue bener-bener tanpa ada perasaan jelek atau having bad signs earlier. Si ibu guru Cantik udah siap-siap berdiri mau pulang, iseng dong ngeliatin karya gue. Gue mah santai aja, mendadak lupa banget. Mama juga sambil ketawa-tawa jelasin dikit-dikit. Lembar demi lembar, diperhatiin satu-satu.

Sampai di lembar yang ini.

Lembar krusial.

Anjir.

Gue cuma bisa bilang anjir.

Beneran anjir.

Di lembar itu, gue gambar ferry. Ferry dan gue. Dan bodohnya, gue tulis 'Aku cinta Ferry'. Oke. Kelar idup gue. Malu gue harus taruh disebelah mana. Udah gabisa sembunyi lagi. Malu banget, itu langsung emaknya yang liat. Si ibu guru Cantik mungkin shock, tapi langsung senyum-senyum dan berkata sesuatu (gue ga inget, semua mendadak ngeblur) tapi pasti dalem hati ngomong macem-macem. Salah makan apa gue semalem.

Gue yang udah mati gaya cuma bisa ngeluarin senyum pahit. Ga tau harus ngomong apa lagi. Malu banget kalo harus ke sekolah dengan keadaan kaya gitu. Ferry ga boleh tau. Nanti jadi awkward, nanti dia gamau lagi main sama gue. Gue pun sedih.

Tapi setelah itu, gue tetep sekolah dan ga lama berselang, Ferry pindah. Bukan gara-gara gue kok, tenang. Itu seinget gue udah di penghujung sekolahan, Ferry dipindahin ke sekolah lain bareng juga sama emaknya. Duh, my first puppy love.

I cannot even say goodbye.

Patah hati pertama gue. Like literally.

Gue gatau si Ferry sampe sekarang kaya gimana ke gue. Gue gatau dia tau apa engga soal perasaan yang gue pendem-pendem ke dia udah kaya nahan boker. Gue gatau juga kabar dia sekarang gimana, dia sekolah dimana, mukanya sekarang gimana; gue gapernah tau. Mungkin Ferry sekarang udah bahagia dan dapetin cinta benerannya. Dia yang udah ngebuka hati gue, yang bikin gue ngerasain indahnya cinta untuk pertama kalinya. Walaupun cinta nya cinta bocah. Jauh sebelum gue yang sekarang,  yang tetep masih aja nyicipin heartbreaks. Boys come and go. Tapi disini gue, masih inget dengan kenangannya.

Wherever you are, out there living your own, you'd still be my first lover and heartbreaker.

 Warmest Regards,

Yolla

Bocah yang pernah lu bikin jatuh cinta di umur muda.