#for like... the whole last 45min or so i think

[dimensionzero]

anyway there is actually a couple things that niggled a bit at me from atsv but OVERALL very good very very good film

[taffywabbit]

I finally watched breaking bad (all within the past week or so while I worked, finished it and watched el camino last night) and I'm confident this isn't a new thought I'm expressing or anything but genuinely how DID an entire generation of dudes convince themselves Walter White was cool and admirable and intended to be sympathetic. I know ppl just lack media literacy sometimes but I'm still so confused

I don't think I've EVER watched a piece of media that so blatantly depicts a guy making the worst possible decisions at every turn and having his life ruined for it and not being redeemed or made sympathetic in any significant or lasting way. the kinds of justifications villains USUALLY give that make people consider them "morally grey" or "tragic" or whatever (everything I did was for my loved ones, I did what I had to to survive, once I was in this I couldn't get out, I just needed you to trust me so I could keep you safe, etc etc) is ALWAYS framed as complete self-serving bullshit when Walt says it, and one of the only shreds of personal growth he ever exhibits in the whole series is when he finally fucking admits that. every time he does something even remotely cool or drops a quotable one-liner, something terrible immediately happens that makes everything worse and makes him look like an unreasonable idiot asshole again. by the end of the series the ONLY characters they can still contrast as being morally "worse" than him are literally a bunch of bloodthirsty neonazis who kept a guy in a cage for several months. this show is practically SCREAMING at you the entire time not to admire Walt. why did every dude I knew in highschool have his face on tshirts and Facebook pfps.

I just don't get it. at least with The Dark Knight's Joker it was like, a feature-length movie and that's it. you spend a lot less time with the Joker and it has a lot less time to delve into his motivations, so there's way more room for flanderization and misinterpretation as people extrapolate the few cool/interesting/sad things they saw into a whole nuanced misunderstood guy in their heads and online. Walter White has 5 seasons' worth of 45min episodes to convince you beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is a miserable fucking loser who ruins everything he touches because of greed and selfishness. if you weren't watching it for that, what WERE you getting out of this. what DID you think this show was about. am I just missing some key piece of context from 2012 or whatever that would help me understand this

[hotchfiles]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ ❝ on my mind since the flood ❞ ─ a darling, in any life blurb

pairing: aaron hotchner x reader. summary: the red thread between two people destined to be together may stretch and tangle, but those ties will never break. or: a 45min train ride makes two 43 year olds feel like teenagers. content warnings: divorce babes, divorce. kinda spoiler-ish. watch the 3rd season before. the reader has a backstory and a job, if that bothers you grow up don't read. word count: 960+

Your hair was different, that was the first thing he noticed.

Much like himself, you had soft wrinkles beginning to show up on your forehead and around your eyes, a gift from your late thirties that kept on giving. Your eyes were the same though, he could recognize those anywhere at anytime, even if it had been decades since the last time they stared back at his. Your nose, your lips. Your smile. The way his name sounded coming from your tongue. It was all extremely familiar, as if he was fifteen again.

"You're staring, like a creep, airhead." The old nickname rolls out like you had spent merely seconds apart and it makes him laugh, it has been weeks, maybe months since he last laughed genuinely like that, with his whole face.

"I just got lost—" In your eyes. "In my memories for a bit. You look so much the same."

"Well, my pay check won't allow me any plastic surgeries so—"

"Wise ass." And there it was, like a reflex, his own nickname to you leaving his lips before he even thought about it, if he did think about it he probably would've held it in, a 43 year old FBI agent using childish nicknames not being the best look, but it didn't feel like that with you, at all, it felt natural. You both laugh at it for a second and a comfortable silence follows it, but Aaron couldn't keep it like that, he needed to know more, where have you been, what were you doing... Have you been in Virginia for long? He kept it as casual as he could considering his curiosity, "How have you been?"

"Alright, good, yeah. I’m teaching at Scalia, started this year, I want to keep practicing though, but I’m gonna settle down in Virginia first." You shrug, taking a sip of your coffee. You were purposefully leaving details out, you had seen him on TV a lot since coming back to the states, FBI, profiler. You wanted to see how much could he get from you without words. "What about you, mister FBI hotshot?"

If you two were still teens the way your teasing came out would've made him blush, and quite frankly if he wasn't so self controlled maybe he would've blushed right now, he did feel warm, but instead he just let a chuckle out of his throat, "Well, FBI hotshot just had his divorce finalized, not that glamorous being in these shoes." You already knew what he was doing with his life, it made sense to give the only actual news he had, "Scalia? Law degree too, then." Aaron clicks his tongue, not holding back the instant smirk the realization brought. "Your mother used to say we were so similar we shared the same brain, remember?"

"Welcome to the club, then! Meeting every Friday, membership perks only after the second one, though." His eyes went straight to your fingers, seeing the lack of any rings he nods to himself. Twice divorced. Dark heavy coat, makeup accentuating your features, red lips, hair pulled back. You care about being seen, and desired, but don't want to be approached, a teacher-lawyer, no time, a lot of perfectionism. "Yeah, I stay far away from criminal. Civil and International Law cases mostly. Families, divorces, cross-board custodies." A child of divorce trying to save other children of divorce. Very typical behavior.

Aaron felt like he could stay like this for hours on end, sitting by your side uncomfortably on the train after fate pulled you two to one another again, hearing you tell him about your life in London, your divorces, your time in college. You made him feel young, like you were still his childhood best friend who he fell for. Like if he were to kiss you like he did when you were both thirteen you would still blush and grip tightly on his shirt. Nostalgia was indeed a bittersweet thing.

"I think when you moved away was the last time I openly sobbed." He shakes his head, the thought leaving his brain in a quiet, hushed voice tone, like a secret he wasn't supposed to be telling. It had been years, you were both fifteen when your parents got divorced and you were taken to England with your father. 28 years since the last time he saw you, and he still can feel the same pain if he thinks too hard about it, the way his heart felt like was being sliced apart, getting smaller by the minute as your father's car got further and further away. His mood soured in a way his feelings were only able to function normally again after meeting Haley.

Your hand softly touched his with the confession, your thumb going to his palm and drawing small comforting circles, "I cried myself to sleep a lot that year." Aaron glued his eyes on the way your hands touched, and you thought he might reject it, find it weird after so many years, but instead he just closed his around yours tightly, a silent thankful prayer to the universe, mixed with the warning that he had no intention to let go.

You both stay like that as you talk the rest of the ride, cellphone numbers and e-mails are exchanged, along with longing glances beginning to make you shy like the school girl you once were, when you fell for him the first time. You often wondered what would've happened if you stayed in Washington. Before Jack, Aaron wondered it too from time to time, but truly, he wouldn't do anything different now, he wouldn't choose any alternative ending that would take Jack from him.

But at least now he had a second chance, right?

[epicsteddieficrecs]

Steddie Podfic Mini-Rec - July 2024

If you've seen my post from a few days/weeks (what is time??) ago, you might know that I've had a little Steddie Renaissance by means of podfics! I got into podfics for the first time a few months ago with the ship that's now occupying most of my brain space, but I've now listened to pretty much everything that there is in the tag, ergo: back to Steddie! I hope you enjoy and please give kudos and comments to the lovely people recording these fics if you listen to them!

[Podfic] far away from nothing by greedy_dancer // fic by  glorious_spoon/@glorious-spoon (Coming Out, Missing Scene | 10-20min | Teen): The thing is, Steve knows he’s the dumb one. Between Nancy’s straight-A report cards and Dustin’s wild brilliance and Robin’s multilingual code-cracking skills—yeah. He’s just Steve Harrington, who graduated high school with a 2.1 GPA and got rejected by every fancy college his parents made him apply to. Fine. Somebody needs to guard the door and take the hits while the rest of them save the fucking world, and he’s more than okay with that somebody being him. The other thing is, most of them are brilliant in a way that he’ll never understand, and dumb as hell when it comes to human relationships.

[podfic] Shovel Talks by RattleandHum (ThirdEye1234)/ @thirdeye1234 // fic by unkreativstermensch (Post-S4, Pining, Wayne POV | 20-30min | Teen): “Oh,” Steve says. Then again, “oh,” a little quieter. His expression changes; from confusion to something pained almost. “Mr Munson, I don’t…” he takes a deep breath, his voice a little shaky as he continues. “I don’t think he…I don’t think he likes me like that.” He doesn’t say “it’s not like that.” Neither does he say “I’m not like that.” That’s the first thing Wayne notices. or: Wayne decides to give Steve the shovel talk, only to realize he might not be the one needing one.

[podfic] Longer Lasting Freshness by RattleandHum (ThirdEye1234)/ @thirdeye1234 // fic by RurouniHime/ @thegertie (Morning After, Friends to Lovers | 20-30min | Mature): Steve's his friend. His closest friend. And Eddie had to mess it up. He had to mess it up so hard, all the way and back again because Eddie never does anything at less than a hundred and twenty percent.

[Podfic] The way you feel by Itty_Bitty_Blondie/ @itty-bitty-blondie // fic by alchemystique/ @alchemistc (Getting Together | 20-30min | Teen): Eddie pulls back, and Steve chases, a bit, blinks his eyes back open with a pout. “You. What. You?”It’s – Steve’s done this whole song and dance with half the girls in his age group in Hawkins, rarely ever felt this buzzing under his skin. The desperate urge to claw his way into Eddie’s chest is burning him. That’s…not the usual reaction he gets when he kisses someone. “What the hell, Harrington? What the fuck?” And like… okay. So. He’s had crushes before. He’s been in fucking love before and he fucking knows what it feels like and he knows what it means when someone looks at you the way that Eddie looks at him and-. “Fuck, uh… Shit, sorry man. Yeah. Should have, uh…whoops?” “Whoops?”

[Podfic] hands of loving by greedy_dancer // fic by kafkian (PWP, First Time | 30-45min | Explicit): ‘No way,’ Steve said, stunned. ‘You’re a virgin?’ Eddie rolled his eyes. ‘Shut up, man.’ ‘No, I didn’t mean – just. Really?’ Steve asked. ‘You've really never ...?’ ‘I run a DnD group, got held back in school twice, and live in a trailer with my uncle,’ Eddie said flatly. ‘What part of that screams dick magnet to you?’

[Podfic] Roll for Initiative by Silverkat1620/ @silverkat1620 // fic by by alchemystique/ @alchemistc (Post-S4, Past Kas!Eddie | 30-45min | Teen): He nearly gets away with it, is the thing. Three sessions in and the kids haven’t realized the BBEG isn’t the tarnished knight with the swooping hair and the stupid dad jokes they groan at every time. They still think the wizard leading them towards imminent destruction is on their side, and as his reluctant hero of an NPC warns them to be wary even Will the Wise rolls his eyes and misses the opportunity for a perception check that barring a Nat 1 would have, at the very least, told them that one of them wasn’t to be trusted. He’s not even trying that hard to hide the incredibly obvious parallels – the courtship the knight had once had with the sister of Wheeler’s paladin, the reluctant way he continuously steps in when the party gets themselves into a hairy situation, the incredibly obvious boner Eddie has for this stupid character he’s created solely for the purpose of a reveal he both does and does not want them to discover early on.

[Podfic] you could let it all go (it's called freefall) by Itty_Bitty_Blondie/ @itty-bitty-blondie for anniebibananie/ @anniebibananie (Post-S4, Getting Together | 45-60min | Teen): Good things don’t happen to Eddie Munson, and he’s very aware of the fact. That’s kinda the whole foundation of who he is as a person at this point: don’t expect good things to happen. He rolls with it. He makes glitter out of the shit. He lives in his own fantasy because reality has pretty much always sucked since, likely, before he can remember. Good things don’t happen to Eddie Munson, so he has no idea how to wrap his head around Steve Harrington’s sudden appearance in his life as an unmovable fixture. No fucking clue.

[Podfic] Anywhere, Anytime by RattleandHum (ThirdEye1234)/ @thirdeye1234 // fic by AidaRonan/ @aidaronan (Post-S4 | 1-1.5h | Mature): Eddie wakes from a nightmare about the bats. Again. About a week ago, Steve Harrington gave him his number with instructions to call if he needed anything. Said number is tacked on Eddie's wall under his Anthrax poster. But it's 3:17 a.m. and Eddie probably shouldn't call. Definitely shouldn't call. (Eddie calls.)

[Podfic] It's Not a Big Deal by Itty_Bitty_Blondie/ @itty-bitty-blondie for AidaRonan/ @aidaronan (Post-S4, Accidental Sugar Daddy Steve Harrington | 1-1.5h | Mature): Eddie survives, but his entire life is locked away in the Upside Down forever (his books, his DnD stuff, his guitar.) Everything that wasn't on Eddie when Steve carried him into the ER, gone. So naturally Steve starts giving him things. Handing Eddie back those little outward markers of who he is.

[Podfic] Some Things Cosmic by greedy_dancer // fic by stereobone/ @stereobone (Post-S4, Dream Sharing | 1-1.5h | Explicit): Steve has a dream about Eddie. And another. And another. And another...

[Podfic] Whole Lotta Love by greedy_dancer // fic by stereobone/ @stereobone (Post-S4, Getting Together | Explicit): Steve scoffs. "I think if I was dating someone, Robin, I would be the first to know about it." "Would you, though?" Robin says.

[podfic] Mutual Future by RattleandHum (ThirdEye1234)/ @thirdeye1234 // fic by knell (Post-S4, Getting Together | 3.5-4h | Explicit): "Okay," Eddie says at last, voice betraying his cool demeanor. "I'll go first." He clears his throat, folds his hands politely in his lap. "I have never been more confused in my life than when I'm with you. And I've taken trig three times and I'm still not a hundred percent on what a hypotenuse is, so, like, it's not difficult to confuse me or anything. But you really take the cake, man." Steve chews on his lip. "Sorry? I'm... confused too." — two dudes navigate their feelings in the most normal way possible.

[Podfic] the most remarkable thing about you standing in the doorway is that it’s you by Itty_Bitty_Blondie/ @itty-bitty-blondie // fic by greatunironic/ @greatunironic (Future Fic, Getting Together | 3.5-4h | Explicit: Sixteen years after the world didn't end for the last time, Max Mayfield showed up on Steve’s doorstep and said, “You gonna walk me down the aisle in May or what?” Or, it’s 2002 and Steve Harrington attends a wedding, a funeral, and a birth.

[Podfic] I just want your extra time (and your kiss) by RattleandHum (ThirdEye1234)/ @thirdeye1234 // fic by ChristinMKay / @transmascsteveharrington (Post-S4, Getting Together | 4.5-5h | Mature): Five times Steve almost kissed Eddie and the one time Eddie beat him to it.

[Podfic] sub-culture by greedy_dancer // fic by palmviolet/ @palmviolet (Post-S4V1, Getting Together | 7-10h | Teen): “Is he whining about Eddie being mean to him again?” Robin is leaning in the doorway, eating a leftover slice that’s probably cold by now. “You talk about him more than you talk about girls, Steve, it’s getting concerning. Anyone would think you had a crush.” Or, Steve is pretty convinced Eddie now hates him. Turns out Eddie has the opposite problem.

[epicbuddieficrecs]

Weekly Recap | July 7th-14th 2024 ~ Podfics

Had to split the rec cause it got too big!

Podfic

[podfic] The Wrath of Abuela by Cass_Caelis/ @cassiopeiacaelis // fic by scarletmanuka (S4, Getting Together | 20-30min | Teen): Whilst on his second date with Ana, Eddie's abuela sees them and confronts Eddie, thinking he's stepping out on Buck.

🔥 [podfic] from the ground up by half_bakedboy/ @half-bakedboy // fic by eddiesdiaz/ @eddiesdiaz (Getting Together, Developping Relationship | 45-60min | Teen): If he’s honest, Eddie gets why Buck filed the lawsuit. He does. He understands the hopelessness, the feeling you’re losing all control, like you’re sinking, drowning, desperate for a way out. He knows because it’s the same way he felt when he enlisted. That doesn’t mean it hurts any less when Buck leaves him, though.

🔥 You Ain't Never Had A Friend Like Me (Podfic) by ToughPaperRound/ @toughpaperround // fic by mansikka (Canon Divergent, Genie!Hildy | 3.5-4h | Mature): 🎶I can show you the world, shining, shimmering, splendid. Tell me, Eddie, now when did you last let your heart decide?🎶 Or. What if Eddie has a Hildy that is occupied by a genie?

🔥 Leaf Day [podfic] by ToughPaperRound // fic by rowan_wood/ @transboybuckley (Canon Divergent, Different First Meeting | 30-45min | Teen): municipal events make for the best meet-cutes, don't they?

🔥 what a man gotta do? (to be your last good night and your first good day) [PODFIC] by ToughPaperRound // fic by diazevan/ @diaz-evans (Getting Together | 10-20min | Teen): He is gonna woo Eddie. He is gonna woo him so fucking hard that the other man has no other choice but to be his boyfriend and declare his eternal love for him. Buck is gonna be that good. or Buck is the best boyfriend and he doesn't even know it.

🔥 Accidentally in Love (PODFIC) by ToughPaperRound // fic by tabbytabbytabby/ @tabbytabbytabby (Jealous Eddie, Getting Together | 10-20min | Teen): Eddie sets Buck up on a blind date with a friend of his. Buck goes thinking it's what Eddie wants. It doesn't work out, with the date quickly realizing that Buck is in love with Eddie. As the two glow closer as friends, Eddie assumes they're dating and is left to deal with the growing realization that his feelings for Buck might not be a platonic as he thought.

🔥might have to take a loss (PODFIC) by ToughPaperRound // fic by waferkya/ @oursisthewinter (Post-4x08, Getting Together | 1-1.5h | Teen): Ana is perfectly nice and Eddie is… being a moron. He holds her hand. He’s kissed the corner of her mouth a few times. His hands have wandered a little, but strictly above clothes. It’s like every time he and Ana end up somewhere alone after dark, Eddie feels like the poor woman’s father is standing in the corner with a baseball bat and a very significant expression on his face. Or: Eddie is having intimacy issues with Ana—as in, he doesn't want to be intimate with her at all and he doesn't understand why. Christopher is kind of upset about the whole thing. Buck just wants his favourite Diazes to be happy.

🔥[Podfic] With A Little Help From My Friends by Cass_Caelis/ @cassiopeiacaelis // fic by @extasiswings (Eddie&the PTA, Getting Together | 20-30min | Teen): “You know…several of us parents get together once, maybe twice a month or so. You’re welcome to join us if you’d like. I can add you to the email chain.” Not for the first time that day, Eddie’s surprised. It’s not that he’s opposed, more that the invitation is unexpected. He’s not particularly social—when he is it’s with the team or with Buck or with his family, all of them in each other’s houses, in each other’s lives both at work and away from it. Outside of them… It occurs to him that he’s never really known how to make friends. [Or: Eddie makes friends outside of work and realizes that Buck might not, in fact, be just a friend]

Just Tell Better Lies (and Keep Your Mouth to Yourself) [Podfic] by blackglass/ @blackestglass // fic by @hmslusitania (Secret Relationship | 20-30min | Teen): Good news: after years of pining, Buck and Eddie have finally gotten together! Mixed news: being together will require a department investigation of some kind, so Bad news: they can't tell anyone yet. Worst news: Buck is the world's least accomplished liar.

🔥Finding Home [Podfic] by blackglass //fic by @slycopersicum-in-disguise (Post-S5 | Getting Together | 20-30min | Teen): "Buck!" Eddie yelled as he turned his key in the loft door and dumped his suitcase inside. He immediately got a startled "Eddie?" in response, and thank God for that because if Buck had been out running errands it would have been the last damn straw. But he was here, where Eddie needed him to be, and pounding down the stairs from the stupid platform thing he had instead of a normal bedroom. "Is everything OK?" "No! You won't answer your goddamn phone and my house is full of bees."

oh shit...are we in love? [Podfic] by blackglass // fic by @lilythesilly (Getting Together | 1-10min | General): buck: lol eddie brought some of chris’s extra valentine’s cards to the station. they’re lego themed. maddie: i know! chim just showed me they’re super cute. question: what kind of candy did you get with yours? buck: fun dip. why maddie: interesting. chim got a mini hershey bar. buck: what’s that supposed to mean. maddie. what does that mean MADDIE

[personasintro]

Hi Mimi. Can I ask you for advice.

I have a friend who is mad at me because I’m not calling her back 24/7, and because I can’t hang out all the time and have to cancel due to the fact that I work and they sometimes, even if I have plans, call me in.

I couldn’t attend her boyfriend’s surprise birthday dinner, who she’ve only been dating for like 4 months and I’ve only met twice, because they wanted to go out late at night and I was working the day before, during, and the day after. However that particular day I got to finish my shift early because it was raining so my boss told me to just go home. On my way home another friend called me, who I haven’t seen in four month because we live 1h and 45min away from each other. My birthday is in two weeks but she’s going on vacation soon, she asked if we could meet up in the city and have dinner, this is like 4-5pm, because she wanted to celebrate me by buying me dinner. I said okey. I didn’t think I was doing anything wrong. We meet up, have dinner, order some drinks, and I post a video of us. The other friend, not even 5 minutes later, sends me a loooong message about what a bad friend I am without even knowing anything. I didn’t answer her right away and decided to wait until I was home. I got home at like 8:30, and the dinner was around 9-10isch so even if I didn’t go out with my friend I couldn’t go and celebrate her boyfriend because I needed to sleep.

She really went off on me, said a lot of things, and made me feel so shitty for nothing. So I wrote back and told her, we’re not kids, I didn’t do anything wrong, I explained briefly why I went out with my friend, and I also told her it’s my life and nobody can get mad at me for my choices, even if I was free that day it still shouldn’t be a problem because I don’t have an obligation to anybody. I also told her that I think it’s wrong that she decided to message me when she saw I was out, she could have waited and brought it up the next day instead of basically trying to ruin my night. I also texted her “don’t worry about this now, go and have fun, enjoy, let’s talk face 2 face when we get the chance” She then texted me back saying “I am celebrating his birthday all weekend, we can talk another day, I don’t have time to deal with this now”. I wrote back “sure”. My first thought, before I calmed myself down, was “so you have time to ruin my night, and start this whole thing, but you don’t have time to finish it?”.

Am I the asshole? Hahaha this sounds like a reddit post, I wanted to write it there but I don’t want to take a risk of her seeing it. Your account, your stories and you are also my comfort zone. I just feel safe here, which is why I am sorry for the rant and headache you have now. I just don’t like to talk about other people with other people, which is why I’m not asking for advice from my friends. But at the same time I’m desperate because I feel like I have done everything for her but just because I have work and have to prioritize myself I’m suddenly a bad friend for not attending her bfs dinner who I’ve only met twice. I mean it’s not like I missed her wedding day. It’s not like I was talking shit about her or told everyone her secrets for her to call me awful names and paint me as the bad guy. It’s not like the plan hanged on me, and I said no, and everybody stayed home but then I went out anyways. They still went out and had fun, so why should it be a problem if I was there or not.

I just want to add that this friendship is solely about me being there for her, I’m basically her therapist. I’ve never ever had demands on her or how she should treat me. I’m so drama free like this is my only drama in life atm in the past 6 years. I’m so easy going. You know that last year on my birthday she didn’t wish me a happy bday, and last year I asked her 6 times if she wanted to go on a vacation and she said no, but then she posts on snap that she’s going on a “random trip” with a girl she met 6 month ago at a gym who she doesn’t even talk to anymore because she feels that the girl was to clingy. I didn’t say anything because I thought it’s okey I’m not gonna ruin her day, vacation or whatever for something so silly, it’s HER life. I’m always there for her, even if I’m busy I always try to show her that she is not neglected by maybe sending her a song, or meme, or even going as far as telling her that I’m gonna be busy and that she can call me if it’s an emergency otherwise I won’t be so active. I always have her back, she calls me 4 in the morning and I pick up without blinking twice. My parents treat her as a second daughter, I’m always there for her as much as I can, and I just have to add that last month, I didn’t sleep for 36h and had a 10h shift the day after, but I still went out with her because she needed a friend due to having a bad day. I neglected my mental health for her. And our convos are 90% about her, 7% about random stuff, and 3% about me, and I STILL DONT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT because idgaf. Im honestly so unbothered I really don’t care, but right now I care because I feel that the text she sent me, and the way she wanted to paint me, and the words she used even though I’ve never ever had anything negative about her coming out of my mouth…I just feel like this is so unfair and I don’t know what to do. Should I end the friendship? Or maybe talk to her and try to make her understand? Im just so lost and this is honestly so sad because we’ve been friend for 12 years if not more. I don’t want it to end over something so silly…

Much love💜

Again I’m sorry for ranting, if you have advice I want to thank you for them. And I also want to thank you before hand for taking the time to read this. I admire u and ur stories!

I just have to add: she’s not a bad person, her good qualities overshadows the bad ones, which is why we’re still friends.

This message was sent a while back and I am sorry for responding only now. Maybe you were able to figure it out on your own or things happened after this. But all I can recommend for you to do is to talk to your friend, if you haven’t already. If I were you, I’d try to communicate and make her see where I am coming from as well and then… there’s nothing much you can do from there. You’ll see how she takes it and whether she’s able to see your side or not. Regardless of everything, she shouldn’t take you for granted and cut you some slack.

Like you said, you don’t want your friendship to end over something silly but maybe it’s not something silly at all. In the end, you don’t want friends who makes you feel guilty and take you for granted all the time. Just the fact your entire friendship seems to be focusing on her rather than on both of you says a lot. You shouldn’t be treated that way and you do deserve someone who equally cares about you as a person :)

[sebsxphia]

brat tamer!bob and the vibrator got me thinking about him punishing you for cumming without his permission…

at this point you haven’t cum for days and bob knows how absolutely desperate you are..

he comes home from work and just immediately shoves his tongue in your mouth while his hands slide slowly down. this man picks you up while pressing sloppy kisses up and down your neck. Laying you down on your bed as his kisses go lower and lower till he is sucking on your clit. Taking turns biting at it and swirling his tongue around the nub, while his thick hands keep your thighs apart.

But as soon as you gasp “Robby, I’m so close”

this man takes his mouth(and hands) off of you and announces that the two of you are meeting the rest of the daggers at the hard deck. but before you go to stand up..

“not just yet sweetheart ” he whispers as he goes over to the top drawer of your dresser and pulls out the remote controlled vibe

like 45mins later y’all are surrounded bu your friends with the -hasn’t been used at all- vibe lodged in you. as soon as you all sit down you feel it begin the vibrate as you try and school your expression

Robby leans over and whispers in your ear

“one sound tonight and your not coming for 2 weeks”

the whole night just as you think your safe- be turns on the vibe at varying levels at strength as you do your damndest to not let it show, the risk of 2 weeks too much

but just as you think you’re successful (everyone finishing up their last drinks of the evening) bob turns it up to the highest setting and gently reaches over(under the table) and pushes the, already precariously placed vibe, deeper into you while rubbing his long, thick fingers up and down your gentle folds. this time-you break. bob knows exactly when you go over the edge, your cum running onto your seat and his still embedded hand

“oh baby, you see hear him condescend.

-also is their is 🦚anon?

oh god oh god oh god dear anon!!

no no because even if you don’t show it in your face, bob knowing exactly as you go over the edge, clenching just around his fingers and feeling your cum slick his hand?? the look in his eyes and his condescending tone makes fear run down your spine.

bob’s punishment is simple. he won’t take away your orgasms, oh no. he’ll give you more seeing as you want to be so greedy (his words not mine). he’ll keep the vibe inside of you for as long as he safely can. if he has to take it out, he’ll strap one to your clit while you go about your day or you’re sat watching tv. it goes on for two days and even though he gives you lengthy breaks, you’ve never been so overstimulated and barely able to hold a single coherent thought.

the first time you want to come, you look at him and ask for his permission. “i don’t know why you’re asking me, bunny. you didn’t need to ask before did you? so come as much as you want. no holding back.”

you’re almost grateful bob is letting you come as much as you want without permission, but by the second hour it’s torture and you’re giving him pleading eyes.

“no bunny. brats have to learn and take their punishment. you’ll be so good for me after and won’t come until i say, won’t you?”

FUCK ME

thank you so much for this insane thot my dear anon and absolutely you can be 🦚 anon!! 💌💖

[emotionalsupporthandle]

After finishing the Percy Jackson series last night I had a lot of thoughts. And idk if they're hot takes or not. But I need to get my feelings out or I'll combust. So, here it goes.

I had A LOT of hope for this show, and a lot of faith in it. PJO is something that, to me, had all the elements needed for a good adaptation and just hadn't been handled with care previously. So when it was announced that Rick would be working on this, I was sold. I knew he would never let it be anything but a dream come true. But I've got to be honest, it wasn't a dream come true - at least not for me. And some of that might be because it was my first favorite series and has such a special place in my heart, and some of that might be because I'm not a kid anymore. I think it's more than that, though.

I thought the casting was EXCELLENT. I want to say that now. The cast was so so so so perfect, i couldn't have hoped for anything better! The trio are so perfect for their characters I could squeal. Sally? Amazing. Mr. D? I wish we had more, but he killed it with every appearance. Chiron - awesome. Poseidon - 10/10. I was so happy with casting.

I was also really pleased with the characterization. There were some changes, but I thought they were good updates. I really appreciate that Grover felt more fleshed out than he did in the first book. I loved all the extra seasoning we got between Percy and his mom. I could watch a show that's just the 2 of them navigating his childhood. I even really liked the way they did Hades for the series. He feels very dark and serious in the books, and I liked the way they played it a little lighter while keeping the same sentiment of "fuck off kid. I look out for no one especially not you." So all the characters kicked ass.

What I didn't like was the pacing. The show was episode length/number of episodes. The episodes either needed to be longer, or there needed to be more of them. They should have all been an even 45min-1hr, or there should have been like 10 eps. It felt rushed on a timeline that's already tight to begin with. It felt too fast, and I feel like a lot of great scenes and moments had to be cut or trimmed down to be able to make things finish on their puny 35min 8 ep timeline. And that made me so frustrated. Which brings me to my biggest beef.

The show was not very fun/funny. And that hurt me the most. These books have so much heart, and they are so fun to read and they're so funny. And the show was very much written for drama. Everything was just so gd dramatic and I feel like a lot of the fun was taken out and that really hurt me deeply. I've noticed this with a lot of adaptations recently, where they want something that makes "good tv" but they end up just making it feel one note. What makes the books so engaging, and I think would have made the show more engaging, is the silliness. The stupid jokes, the little scenes of them just being kids through it all. There were still some jokes, sure, but it felt like it was lacking a lot of its original goofiness. And I think part of that comes from not hearing Percy's POV, but that could have been made up for in more little jokes or silly bits. And if we're maintaining that the target audience for the show is the same as the books were, then it shouldn't have been as serious and dramatic as they made it. These 12 year old kids don't care if it's dramatic - they want to have fun watching it. And that's where I may just be an old lady disconnected from the youths now, but it didn't feel right for that audience. But maybe it didn't feel right in that respect because I'm not that audience.

I understand that 1:1 book to screen adaptations don't work. I'm not an adaptation hater at all. I've seen some excellent adaptations. I even enjoyed some of the changes made in this show! But overall this one fell flat for me. It was just entirely too serious the whole time. It was really frustrating. I went into with such an open heart and mind, and I had full faith in Rick. I wanted to love it so so so bad. It really hurt that I didn't. I felt so guilty that I didn't enjoy it.

Anyway, that's all. Thanks for listening to me ramble.

[hellacioushag]

I need to add more content to my watchlist especially with the writers strike. Can you rec some dizis for newbies?

i'm not in any way a seasoned expert since i've only seen a handful within the last 2 months or so, but i can tell you ones i've enjoyed. i'll only list ones that have a least 1 season completed.

erkenci kus / early bird is available on youtube with ok english subs. it's a typical summer dizi romcom with the rich boss falling for his working class employee. the twist is they accidentally kiss in the dark when he mistakes her for his gf before they officially meet. it's definitely a "he fell first, she fell harder" situation. this was the one i started with and it set the bar high, the chemistry alone was so intense. the mmc can (pronounced like jon) is gorgeous and the fmc sanem is so funny and talented. it was actually a friend of mine who got me into this cause she saw it blowing up on like tiktok or insta and she started watching and loved it. by the time she got me into it it literally became my whole personality and i passed her in episodes and finished the series way before she did lol. it's a commitment like most dizis. we're talking 2+ hr episodes, 51 episodes in total. thankfully youtube cut them into like 45min increments.

sen cal kapimi i used a super sus website to watch called turkish123 idk if there's a better site out there, but i would try to look for one. anyway this was probably my fave dizi cause the story was well structured (same writer as erkenci kus) and great chemistry with the leads as well. it's another typical summer romcom, but with enemies to lovers. starts with a fake engagement to make the mmc's ex jealous and eventually leads to both mmc and fmc falling hard for each other. this has 2 seasons, 52 episodes.

gunesi beklerken is more of a teen drama that was giving me BH90210 / the oc vibes with how ridiculous some of the plots and drama was. overall very fun watch. i absolutely hated the mmc, but also he was the most interesting character so i was rooting for him at the same time wishing for his downfall lol. if you are into fun nonsense then i would rec this one. it starts with the fmc moving to istanbul with her mother and attending a private school where she immediately gets swept up into dumb politics with the school bully (the mmc). definitely enemies to lovers. i'm not really into bully romances and i did not ship the main couple (tho the chem was there), but they both gave as good as they got and it was just a legitimate fun and insane watch. i watched this one on another sus site called serial4u.net it's 54 episodes.

adim farah is the last one i will mention. this show has been remade a few times, including in the US. it's enemies to lovers. the fmc is an immigrant working as a cleaning lady to pay for her son's medical expenses. she accidentally witnesses a mob murder and when caught she manages to convince them to let her live and she will work for them. there's a lot of intrigue and not one episode is filler like a lot of dizis. the chem is good with the leads and they have some surprisingly sweet moments between them. this one is on dailymotion. season 1 is 14 episodes (the finale had me shaken), season 2 will be coming out this fall.

one i haven't tried, but it's on every list of the best dizis is kara sevda/endless love. i don't think i will bother since i know it has a pretty sad ending, but if you are into pain maybe check that one out lol. i ended up paying for a sub to kinemania which has decent translations and a lot of shows in their catalog so now i don't need to navigate thru sus websites or deal with a million ads.

[msbarrows]

Sept 19 - Started watching The Double for no particular reason except it had crossed my dash a handful of times and sounded interesting.

Supper was a big salad with chicken strips for protein (still trying to wrestle my blood sugar back down into more acceptable ranges).

Sept 20 - Still binging The Double. Enjoying it so far (it's silly but good). Basically didn't do much other than that all day.

Supper was hamburgers (I skipped having a bun), french fries, and steamed mixed veg.

Sept 21 - Much to do today, like baking a loaf of bread (pilgrim's multigrain), and a birthday cake (not mine, and toasted sesame seed butter cake). Brother lucked into whole frozen ducks on a good sale recently so we had roast duck, roast beets, green beans, and boiled potatoes. If he gets a second one at some point I think I'll cut it up, so I can roast the breasts on their own, turn the carcass into stock, and make confit using the legs.

After all of that (and getting all the dishes done) I watched the remainder of The Double, which took until around 4am. Forty 45min episodes in three days, ack.

Enjoyed it though.

Sept 22 - Didn't do much today apart from a bunch of crochet for the sweater. Had kind of skipped that for the last few days since reading subtitles does not mesh with something where I need to pay attention to what my hands are up to. I also need to get around to getting caught up on my FR dragons, since I skipped anything more than hatching them out these last few days (and managed to miss incubating them one day, so missed a day on hatchings).

Think FR is ending for me soonish. The only thing really keeping me going on with it atm is that I'm so close to hatching my 1000th dragon (~150 hatchlings to go, which at an average of 3 eggs per clutch should happen around the end of October) and I feel like hitting that milestone. Mind you I've been saying "gee, I don't know how much longer I'm going to play this..." for over 10 years now (eep!).

Did pasta with meat sauce and a roasted beet salad for supper (roasted extras yesterday so I'd have them ready to use up in stuff - still two large roasted ones to go; I may attempt borscht in the next couple of days).

[n0toverit]

huge vent feel free to ignore

okay day is now becoming kinda bad day esp with everything that’s happened recently i haven’t worked in like two weeks bc quit old job to go to new job bc i got a car which is literally everything i worked for at old job like saving 550-650 per check so i could get a car and then i got in an accident so i have no car which is the whole reason i went to new job interview and got the job that o was so happy and so excited for and now i have no car so i got all used to having my own time and doing things in my own not asking if i can be dropped of here or if i can be brought there i could just do it on my own and i was able to see bf twice a week instead of once bc he wasn’t the only one driving all the way to me and back every week but now i get more info on new job just to find out my kinda ex friend at this point that works there told me ppl wear jewelry and have their nails and lashes done blah blah so i give myself a fresh set of acrylic nails this past weekend, i would have had lashes but that was the day of the accident just for the email to say no perfume/cologne, no jewelry whatsoever (rings of any sort, earrings, bracelets,watches) no makeup, no hair or eyelash extensions, no acrylic nails or nail polish, and above all that said that if you violate any part of the dress code you’ll be sent home and have training rescheduled for the next week which mine was already rescheduled bc the class i was supposed to be in on the 5th got too full so they moved me to the 12th now i have to remove a basically full fresh set of acrylics and take off all of my jewelry including my ring from my boyfriend which means the most to me i literally cried the one day i forgot to put it back on a couple weeks ago after washing my cat and then take out all 3 sets of earrings i have and possibly lose the 3rd holes entirely that i only got making sure with that friend that i would be able to wear at least just regular plain earrings and not have to take them out and she said yes they shouldn’t say anything so not only was i basically fully lied to but i have only a few days to figure out what to do with all my stuff idk if they’ll let me in with clear piercing retainers or not i’ll have to see how they look cause i’m not sure if i’ll have my hair up or not this is all so disappointing and upsetting with the fact that i’m pretty sure all week i’m gonna have to uber home too cause they’re doing it on a tuesday when my regular schedule has me off from sunday -tuesday and alternating wednesdays i’m happy i have the job and it’s a better working place than the last job i had especially since i know i won’t be doing 3diff ppls jobs and playing manager through the week but i wish the stupid accident didn’t happen and my stupid friend wasn’t so stupid if i can even call her a friend at this point we had this not rlly huge but idk falling out argument whatever that she complains how she feels like i don’t want hang out with her anymore or that i spend all my time with my bf who i’ve only been able to see 2-3 times a week IF IM LUCKY but normally once a week on tuesdays for over a year but she thinks i spend all my time and days off with him when he lives 45mins away from me or that i don’t wanna hang out with her when she leaves me on seen and delivered for weeks and at time and she thinks it’s like a hehe oopsies i did to that didn’t i like it’s so annoying and irritating i’ve actually fully stopped talking to her bc of it she said she was gonna be better about it and she hasn’t changed anything so i just stopped talking to her fully because it’s sad and annoying esp seeing as we were best friends since we were like 10-11 and now she just pretty much lies or pays so little attention and practically ignores me everything g is so upsetting recently i just wish i still had my car and never made that stupid appointment and that i had better friends when at this point my only friend is my boyfriend if he even really counts and maybe one other person but we can’t even really hang out now cause i don’t have a car anymore

[domi-scu]

Cobra 11

Travel day!

We woke up at an ungodly hour- 5am (which is my usual wake up time an home but is simply unacceptable here). With the mini van picking us up at 6. Thankfully, the hotel prepared us some sandwiches to take with us for breakfast. I was sad to see there was no coffee but then again considering how gross it was in the last couple days, it was probably a good thing. On the other hand, I really struggled to keep my eyes open but couldn’t sleep cause we spent the next hour picking up other people on the way, turning around because the guy forgot someone etc.

Once everyone was finally on board, our driver realised we were running a little late. And for anyone who used to watch that Cobra 11 show when they were a kid… That’s kinda how his driving was. Difficult to sleep but I managed maybe an hour, hitting my head against the window the whole time. When we finally stopped for a toilet/ coffee break, the driver told Alex that no, we don’t have much time for a stop but ‘it’s ok, I’ll catch up’. I know that Thailand has very different style of driving but overtaking other cars in curves up a mountain probably woke me up more than the coffee.

He also stopped in random places by the road and with no explanation, walked away from the van for 10-15min leaving us to wait. We never found out what he was doing but all in all, we got to the port in about 4.5h, in time to get the speedboat to the pier.

Although we paid for the whole trip to Koh Lipe, at the entrance to the pier we also found out what we needed to pay 200 baht per person to enter the national park (which I think Koh Lipe is a part of) and another 20 per person to enter the pier itself. You’d think that would be included in the boat ticket right? In comparison, the locals only paid 20 baht for national park and nothing for the pier.

The port was packed and chaotic but we only had to wait about 20min so it wasn’t too bad. The relatively small speedboat carried about 60+ people and ended up insanely uncomfortable so the 1h 45min on it were a hell for my butt that already suffered in the van. But the idea of the balcony leading to the pool in our room got us through.

Since we left so early in the morning, I didn’t have a chance to put sun cream on and was looking for shade every chance I got. Thankfully there was quite a lot of it and the first sight of our little island absolutely made up for all the uncomfortableness.

We were picked up at the pier by a hotel employee who walked us whole 100m to our hotel. He insisted in carrying our suitcases and man, good on him. He hoisted the heavier one up on his shoulder and carried it like it was nothing. I was impressed.

As our room wasn’t ready yet, we had 20min to chill in the beanbags by the bar and enjoy the view. And what a view it was!

Our room was exactly what we expected and more. We were happy to find that our balcony is in the shade pretty much the whole day (with the exception of early morning) so we can really lay there without worrying about the heat. And if I want to get a bit of a tan, I can swim across to the other side and chill there for a minute. It’s also super quiet and exactly what a holiday should feel like.

At this point, we were starving but were tired from the travel so we decided on room service and mini bar. Although it was a little pricier than what we are used to here, it was worth not having to go anywhere. And the mini bar wasn’t too horrible at 80 baht per beer. I lost the fight against my (extremely spicy) curry though.

For the rest of the day, we really just made the most of our balcony and the pool. I got stuck in our floatie (Alex has a video that I might be willing to share one day). 

Until Alex called it a day and went to take a nap. As I can’t really ‘chill’ for too long, I went out for a short walk up and down the Walking Street with the intent of getting us some gin with sprite so we don’t have to rely on the expensive hotel cocktails and mini bar. I went through 5 shops before I even found someone who knew what gin was. And just as it was starting to look like we’d have to switch to drinking the local vodka, I found it. I also found a pile of kittens that I really wanted to cuddle but didn’t want to bother them as they were napping. Maybe tomorrow.

Koh Lipe definitely seems more expensive than average around here but there still seem to be a few places were you can get a meal for around 100 baht so I don’t think we’ll starve. With that, I went back to the room to get Alex and check out the hotel bar that has a ‘buy one get one free’ deal on cocktails 4-8pm. Which takes the price down to almost acceptable.

As it was 7.45, we both got 2 drinks and enjoyed a bit of live music. The heat, the travel and the banging of my head against the van window then caught up with me in the shape of a massive headache so it was time to call it a day. I passed out the moment my head hit the pillow, with a book in my hand but not before I got a WhatsApp notification that my boss sent me 4 pictures. Dreading that something went horribly wrong at work, I opened it, only to find photos of his and his girlfriend’s new puppy. That’s the kind of work messages I can get behind!

[ncarnesir]

First, conserning the most inflammatory part. It wasn’t directed at you but said in a more broad sense to all the people that were complaining and claiming the impossibility of said feat. Now, still, it wasn't nice, so I'm very sorry. Also, do note that english is not my first language either, so things are a bit less nuanced when i speak in English than they would normally be. Doesn't excuse me for being mad and aggressive, just makes it worse. Again, I’m sorry.

Now, back to the subject.

First, I do have an extra screenshot I didn’t use just because I didn’t feel it added anything to my previous demonstration. So here is the poll at 1h38. You say you have data with about 1h left on your side and 1750-1850 ish votes, but it doesn’t fit the one I have myself:

I've observed today that voting seems to increase somewhat regularly throughout the whole afternoon. If we consider this and devide the first 1669 votes on the first 19h39 of the poll, it gives us a mean of 84 votes per hour.

Now on round 7, during the time between 4h21 and 1h36 this mean was a little bit higher, it's true, with roughly 95 votes per hour, but within the error margin i would say considering we should also include correction because of people sleeping hours (there are unarguably 6h during which the voting is much slower because either europe or na are asleep and so said voting is higher during the remaining hours; the distribution is not completely equal during all 24h).

That being said, I do admit there were many more votes compared to that mean during the last 45min since it gives 125 new votes in that period (which means about 166 votes per hour so yes almost 1.5% more votes per hour than the previous 3 hours mean for which i have screenshoted data)

That being said, there are other factors to take into account before thinking about foul play. We were all very close to each other, so we had hope and pushed a lot till the end, gathering all possible people and begging for a couple extra votes. I sure know I did bother new people till the very end. You say most of the later votes were for Hux but did all other participants do the same as we did and campaigned to save their fav till the very end?

Also, taking into account the timeline, it was about 6:30pm in eastern time at the 45min mark, a time when a lot of people actually come online.

So extra hard pushing and a time with a lot of online people... And the numbers aren't that big of a stretch either since we're talking about a 20 extra votes for Hux in the last 45min...

Well, in my opinion, the numbers don't show anything conclusive enough to support foul play, or at most vague suspicion and uncomfort. If you think my demonstration is still lacking well, I can't add anything to it, so we'll have to leave at this.

But, the calling out is still rubbing me off... a lot. Despite the more than vague assumptions based on the data, despite you also being a member of the kylux fandom yourself, you'd rather share said suspicions openly than support your fellow fans against some people that are admittedly sour about the situation and not looking at it objectively (and I don't blame them I'd probably be sad too in their place), and this was what got me most and kind of made me inflamed on the first place. We're already not a very loved ship because villains and all, and many people have been openly berating or mocking us for supporting Hux since round one... we could do without hits from within the ranks.

The whole initial posting and both answers were pretty accusatory to me, as if there definitely were some people in the kylux or other hux fans needing to be called out because they were shaming the fandom. I understand one can be emotional in situation but speaking up should not be taken lightly. More than that, I felt like you answered me with a bit of bad faith on your latest answer (with your 1h data being so different than mine). But maybe I'm misunderstanding the english and that's just my whole bad feeling.

Still, I think good fandom etiquette means having faith and trusting your fellow shippers unless, of course, there was a landslide of objective indicators showing cheating or actual proof. Which, I'm sorry, I just don't see here and you yourself said you did not have. But as I said, I can't actually add any more data and proof to my demonstration, so if you're not convinced, there's nothing more for me to add.

Thank you for taking the time to answer me, and thank you for reading me again.

Update because my english is clearly a problem apparently: I never mentioned kylux being unpopular on ao3 or as a ship... I'm talking about in the polls we are being targeted with all the "why are hux and kylo still there" and all similar tags.

Sooo, I’m not sure if this will make you feel any better about the whole poll drama disappointment, but I thought I’d let you know where I think some of this may have originated from and why I think the bots rumor started rather than there actually being bots (though I will get to that too).

(as a disclaimer: I’m speaking only from what I’ve seen from my neck of the (kylux) fandom woods; there could absolutely be other people involved that I’ve simply seen nothing from)

A person, who happens to ship kylux but has promoted to all fandoms with that character, has been having fun with the ‘hottest SW man poll’. They’ve been reblogging links to it along with entertaining little edits to promote their favorite character with the hope of getting people to take part in the vote. Now obviously they’re voting for that character themself, but anyone who happens to see the post are no more obligated than anyone else who reblogs/sees the poll to vote for that person’s preference. (I’m a kyluxer too, and I love both of them, but despite the promotions I still didn’t vote for him because that’s not my opinion for ‘hottest SW man’) And I don’t know about you, but I’m sure there have been many people, myself included, who have voted in a poll someone they follow reblogged for something that person liked and, despite not having a stake in it personally, cast said vote in deference to them. I’m sure that happened in some cases with this situation, however I’m also sure part of what happened is that fans who’d have otherwise never seen the poll were able to cast their vote (I’m in this category as I don’t follow these sorts of blogs at all), as well as – because it was put out in a fun, silly way – led them to vote when they might not have cared to bother otherwise.

Now, I do agree it’s kinda stretching the general spirit of these polls, however what they’ve been doing is only really different in that they’ve been adding character edits along with multiple reblogs in an attempt to make it a silly little attention-grabbing promotion thing rather than merely a reblog or two of the poll. Again, I do think it’s been a bit much, but I will say I can appreciate the enthusiasm of someone who thought they were having fun in their fandom with a simple ‘for fun’ fandom related poll. Another consideration to make is that this person might be new to these things (and/or tumblr in general), which could be a reason for it as well. Plus, different people are going to react to and participate in things in different ways, and sometimes those ways differ from the norm enough to cause a stir despite no ill will or actual ‘rule breaking’ meant.

Nevertheless, that isn’t botting. I can see why people might feel it’s a little unfair even if it’s only exaggerating behavior people already naturally have with polls. I can also certainly understand why it could lead to some people getting rubbed the wrong way and then feeling upset, thus further leading to a sense of drama and subsequent botting rumors (and the origin person being a kylux shipper leading to the kylux fandom as a whole being scapegoated). But still, that’s not the same as botting. In the end, neither you nor anyone else are obligated to no longer be upset simply because of this explanation. That’s your right and you don’t have to like this any more than genuine botting, I just wanted to clarify a potential source.

However, if there IS real botting, that’s indeed an absurd thing for someone to be doing for a simple poll. Perhaps someone got out of hand because of the above person’s promoting; perhaps it’s just a rumor started because some people simply weren’t expecting the character to receive enough votes to persist in the poll – and hey, everyone’s got their own preferences and opinions on ‘hotness’, but the fact a character some don’t think should be lingering over others has endured so long doesn’t necessarily mean there’s a conspiracy. Of course, I’m sure there are people who also have their own opinions on what might constitute ‘botting’ and have considered what I described to be in that category. Which is totally fine too. I personally disagree, but that’s merely my opinion and no one else has to accept it. For the most part, I merely believe this was a situation that got a little out of hand and led to a bit of drama that’s now negatively painting people who meant no harm – because it IS just a fun little fandom poll.

As for the numbers bumping in seemingly large chunks upon refreshing (I don’t even know how you could see individual numbers for an individual character???), I can only guess at how these polls bring in the numbers in order to calculate percentages, both continuous and final. Is it in delayed chunks? Is it really one by one by one exactness??? Perhaps a combination of both, somehow??? While on your end it might appear to be an immediate change after your vote (so a one by one idea), upon a refresh it might ACTUALLY be registering assorted votes in collected chunks, altering the newly refreshed percentage in a way that might seem huge based on what it was before/after your vote, but actually isn’t due to a collected recalculation of ALL new votes. And by individual character numbers, I’m not talking about that character's percentage, which is a percentage of a whole being recalculated upon that refresh. A whole which shifts percentages up and down throughout as the vote total increases regardless of minutes or hours. For a long-term example: he could be at a 13% high at one point because a number of that character’s voters voted around that time, heightening his numbers amongst the pool of votes, then a few hours later is at a 5% low because even more overall votes have come in since and his were few to none, and then later up to 9% as another batch of his voter’s participated. These ‘batches’ ostensibly have more to do with time zones/people online seeing the poll post and not botting. And in the short term you can apply this concept but with the ‘batches’ being overall votes that happen to have some chunks for that character mixed in.

Honestly, I don’t know if any of that is fully true or not; I’m just going off general observation of the polls and vaguely educated(?) guesswork. I could be totally wrong and that stupidly long paragraph is nonsense. Really this whole seemingly suspicious numbers thing is something I’d not seen or heard about at all until your post, so...I’ve no idea there. If botting is happening, and someone did get out of hand with this, I think it’s likely piggybacking off this above person’s attempt at fun engagement, thus tainting and casting blame on said person and, in particular, their ship fandom (which is quite unfair as not all his fans come from kylux, or even from pairings to begin with). And if there isn’t botting and it’s all a misunderstanding, then it’s still doing that to this person and the kylux fandom because of people’s upset and blame shifting onto the biggest pairing he’s in. Either way, it’s just a really unfortunate turn of events. (of course, I’m still merely speaking from my neck of the woods, there could be other stuff going on outside it that I don’t know anything about.)

In short, I suppose I just wanted to say: hey, it’s sad to see you (and others) feeling upset or disheartened by potential botting in a simple SW fandom poll with the potential origin being a kyluxer, and maybe this could help at least give you a different viewpoint and understanding of what might be going on behind the scenes. Still, yet again, neither you nor anyone else has to care about or agree with anything I’ve said, I simply felt a desire to do so as a follower of you, awareness of this poll, and a kyluxer myself.

So first off, I do appreciate your thoughtful response! And I'll clarify a bit on what I was talking about and why I made the statement. Now I will admit that I do not have 100% concrete proof of anything, what I have is my own observations, those observations confirmed by others, plus some information that is admittedly rumour, but is from people I trust who aren't the type to start shit and wouldn't say anything unless it was something they'd personally seen or had no reason to doubt

And I don't think recruiting friends outside the fandom to vote is botting or any other kind of cheating - it's not, everyone does that, I don't think that's an issue at all and is within fairness. What I'm talking about is actual botting, using fake accounts to vote. Which, if you have either the programming know how or a bit of money to pay for a bot that's pre-made, is a lot easier than people think it is. I know how one could do it manually, but I do not know enough about programming to automate it (and I won't explain how, because then it might give more people ideas lmao). I don't think this is widespread either, like one single person with the know how can 100% make hundreds accounts and have them vote within a few minutes. And, if they've ever botted a poll before, it's even faster because the accounts may have already been made

So it started with me watching the poll near the end (I voted within the first couple hours of it being posted, but I was curious how it would turn out). I refreshed with 45-60 minutes left and saw 'oh Hux is gonna lose, okay, too bad but it is what it is' because he was at ~8% and the next lowest was Anakin, who was just under 12%. As the time ticked down, I refreshed again and saw a sudden shift, which surprised me. At that point, I started refreshing every minute or so because it kept going, every refresh was a big jump even at that frequency. Within less than 10 minutes (I don't recall the exact timeframe, but it was very fast, too fast), the total vote count had increased by about 300 or so and I watched it surge with every refresh. The vast majority of these votes, if not all of them, were for Hux as his percentage was the only one that increased significantly (the rest increased by less than a full percentage point, if they didn't decrease)

So while you can't see how many votes went for each person, polls do have the total vote count at the bottom and you can see the percentages, so you can tell if there's a sudden increase in overall votes and if those affect on particular vote choice more than any other. Which is why I found this suspicious because that many votes, that quickly, overwhelmingly for one option, it's highly unlikely it was done by real humans. Plus, we've all seen what happens with big polls both here and on twitter - people have literally paid like $200 to bot polls before and it seems sadly to just be becoming something people do

After I saw that jump, I went and talked to some friends in a private discord we use for chatting and some of them, too, had been watching the poll and having similar suspicions to myself. A more tech-savvy one said this is the kind of increases that are consistent with the use of bots. A couple of people also mentioned they had heard people talking about botting, but weren't sure if that was a joke or not (and it may have been, even if there was botting, it may not have been these people). I can't reveal much more without compromising the identities of my friends, who didn't want to speak out about their suspicions because they don't want to get targeted or anything. I am far beyond caring about that lmao, so I chose to say something about it because idk this kind of thing just really irritates me and as a kyluxer for a very long time, I feel like it's the duty of people in a fandom to call out bad behaviour of our fellows in a rational, non-harassing way

Now, again, I admit none of this is concrete proof. And if I'm wrong and everything was above board and someone did manage to conjure a few hundred people all at the same time at the last minute, well, that's genuinely miraculous like unbelievably so lmao, so good for them. If so, I'll rescind the post, apologize, and go back to having fun. But from the pov of statistics, what I saw myself, what my friends saw, and the added rumours, like. I have to say that actual botting seems far more likely to me. You're welcome to disagree, or think this isn't enough evidence to say it for sure happened, but I wanted to say something regardless because if someone is botting, or even just thinking about it, maybe pointing it out will shame them into stopping so we can go back to having fun

I hope you're right and it wasn't happening, and hell, it may not have even been a kyluxer if it was (there are non-kylux Hux fans out there), but I just find it hard to believe it wasn't happening at this point between what I saw, what others saw, and what I heard. And I think it's better to point out fandom bad behaviour than let it continue unchecked. I refuse to let that kinda shit happen if I can do something about it

[deadkinwalking]

Today was an emotionally exhausting day. I cried multiple times and spent pretty much the whole day trembling from anxiety. But it was also a good day.

I went with my parents to the RSPCA so they could adopt another dog. I cried in the shower before we went. I cried when they explained that the last dog they adopted, Bundy, was only with them for a year before he got cancer.

Mum and Dad had two dogs in mind that they wanted to meet, but they turned out to not really be suitable for them. So we looked at the listings of other dogs for adoption. We decided to meet a girl called Spotty, a white AmStaff just over 2yrs old.

She was so gorgeous. Pretty much as soon as she was brought out we knew she was the one. She was so energetic and loving. I cried again because she has some black spots around her nose and mouth that look like Mint.

I thought I would never be able to love another dog, and maybe I won't love Spotty to the same degree that I loved Mint, but I think now my heart might be ready to welcome another dog. I'll still love Mint for as long as I live (I'm crying again while typing this because I miss her), but that doesn't mean I can never love again.

Spotty rode with me in the back seat for the 45min drive back to my house, and she treated me to lots of kisses and cuddles. I think next week I might spend a few days at my parent's house so I can see her again.

[jonphaedrus]

lamb stew recipe attempt to be recreated

im gonna do my best. mostly because i didnt write it down as i went and invented the entire thing as i was doing it and also every single ingredient in my grandmother’s house is expired and i had to substitute a Lot. here’s some variation on the lamb stew i made last year. this should be done in three stages. stage the first: prep, ideally the night before you cook, but if not do it in the morning at least 3-6hrs ahead of cooking. stage the second: bone broth. start this at least 5 hours before you intend to serve the food. stage the third: final soup assembly.

total time: i think it took me 10 hours. fuck if i know.

(beetroot voice) ingredience:

two lamb shoulders

six cherry tomatoes

pasta(?) (amount, pick whatever)

barley (amount, pick whatever)

two carrots (medallions, thin-cut)

one and a half sticks of celery (peeled and chopped)

a bunch of mushrooms. everyone there liked mushrooms so i think i put in like six brown baby bella mushrooms.

like however much garlic you feel like putting in. i think i put in half an entire head. roast it first, in olive oil and in tinfoil

ideally, if you have it, soy sauce. i didn’t. worchestireshire sauce works in a pinch.

salt, pepper, and whatever the hell else you want. i think i had mrs.dash’s. season to taste. idfk.

3-6 hours before you start cooking:

lament the fact that your family is all hoarders but never of anything useful and you have no measuring tools including no water cup measurement, no non-expired spices, nothing umami except an almost-expired bottle of worchestershire sauce, and reconsider most of your life decisions

remember that you’re the only person in your entire family who can cook and your father once made “japanese whitefish” by braising it in melted butter and put it over white rice

reconsider and realize that there’s no helping them and resolve to eyeball all of it.

chop all the cherry tomatoes in half, salt them, cover in plastic wrap, put them in the fridge

do a salt, pepper, and minced garlic rub on the lamb with as much worchestershire sauce (or soy sauce) you’d want for dipping sushi in, and a little bit of brown sugar. “this lack of measurements is unhelpful” i know i’m sorry i didnt have a single measurement instrument. my grandmother has none. i was eyeballing it. cover all of them in plastic wrap, leave them in the fridge for at least two hours, then flip them over so the other side gets the marinade.

cooking (4+hrs before serving):

keeping the head of garlic whole, peel the outer shell off and chop the tips off of each piece. wiped the open tips down with olive oil, roast in the oven for 30min at 400f/200c for 45min to an hour.

take the lamb shoulders out and chop out all the bones. chop the remaining meat up into stew-size chunks and throw them in with the tomatoes in the pot. sear them on high heat until it smells good. put them back in the marinade and back in the fridge.

take the cherry tomatoes and put them on the bottom of your stew pot (without washing it, never at any point wash it from hereon in) with olive oil and blister them on low heat until they’re charred, bubbly, and smell great. leave everything in the pot.

while the tomatoes are blistering, wash and medallion two carrots and the celery. put them aside. at this point (or soon thereafter) the garlic should be roasted.

once the garlic is roasted, take your pot with its lamb/blistered tomato sear and add to it about a quarter/euro coin sized amount of worchestershire sauce, the lamb shoulder bones, the carrots, the mushrooms, and the celery. add half of the head of roasted garlic. if you’re lucky and have spices, add a little bit of oregano. i had one bay leaf so i added that. put in at least 6 cups/1.5l of water put on the lid and leave the whole thing to reduce at low heat for at minimum three hours. add water regularly whenever it gets too low.

two hours before you intend to serve the soup: add the chopped up lamb from the fridge and its marinade juice. reduce the heat to very low.

half an hour before you intend to serve the soup: add the barley and the pasta. if it’s getting too thick add a little more water. add salt/spices to taste.

turn off the heat. before serving heat back up a little bit. use the rest of the head of garlic to mash up and make a 2:1 ratio of garlic to butter spread for the loaf of bread your father helpfully “bought” to “add to dinner”

[radibe5]

ive had this reblog tab open for like a week lmao

1. Black Horse and the Cherry Tree by KT Tunstall

2. Molly’s Theme - Action from Ōban Star Racers (...if i can gain a single person’s interest in this show i’ll be happy lol)

3. Last Chance, Connor - Finding Jericho from Detroit: Become Human Unreleased OST

4. Try, Try Again - Mr. 5 from Floraverse (never actually read it but the music slaps)

5. Out of My Way from Chirin’s Bell (highly recommend a watch it’s free on youtube only 45min yes i know the sheep is ugly just trust me)

6. Seventh Alloy from Animusic (...go listen to a different Animusic song this is one of my least favorites by far lmao)

7. Melody of the Moon - Lunaala’s Awakening! by MisC

8. Don’t Let It Fade Away by Fleming and John

9. Human by Rag’n’Bone Man

10. Kumo Ni Notte by U-ka Saegusa

needless to say i ALSO have eclectic tastes lol. and i also am shy with tagging so @iwonderwh0​ @eudevie​ @malachite834​ you’re all i can think of to tag without feeling deathly awkward/out of place since i mostly follow fandom blogs (i aint coming up w 10 whole ppl no way) but anyone who sees this and wants to do it i also would love to see! (tho ofc even the ppl i tagged feel free to pass if u don’t wanna lol)

Ten Songs and Ten People

Rules: put music on shuffle, list first 10 songs that pop up!

1. Snow by Red Hot Chili Peppers

2. Champagne Supernova by Oasis

3. Seven Nation Army by The White Stripes

4. Under the Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppers

5. London Calling by The Clash

6. Here I go again by Whitesnake

7. It's the End of the World by REM

8. When the Sun Goes Down by Arctic Monkeys

9. Won't Get Fooled Again by the Who

10. Fortunate Son by CCR

Thank you to @whimsical-roasting for the tag!

Tagged: @hamartia-grander @androidtrashfire @sunwarmed-ash @demonicpetals @julientel @phcking-detective @destinationtoast @tallfroggie @laiqualaurelote @androidtrash800