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[2leggedshark]

Also yall I may make another. Image collection like I did with jim. I can even call fhsi collection jimages the sequel because. Jim cipperly. Still jim. I rarely call oc "jim" tho because it feels weird for me but.

[runthepockets]

Most of my experiences with emo subculture (as young kid in the late 2000s - now) was seeing a bunch of white people with admittedly cool hair and nice shoes who were sad about society and me as a black dude being like "hey, me too! Lets hang out!" and then immediately getting treated like scum of the Earth cus those little cocksuckers were not only just sad about not being able to be ignorant little kids with no responsibility forever rather than, like, being mad about poverty or world hunger or anything, but also because my presence as a black dude shook them from their lame delusions that they had it worse than anyone else in the room at any given time. Even the few black emo kids I knew (I was best friends with an emo black girl in middle school, we watched anime together and I read her chibi yaoi comics cus I like seeing black girls happy and successful even when I don't fully understand / relate) were always seen as lower on the caste, just completely expendable, cus they were easy and acceptable targets in a crew full of what was otherwise cookie cutter carbon copies of white fragility.

So yeah when I say I hate emo subculture it's not cus I'm a wet blanket who hates gender expression or vulnerability or whatever, I understand that that aspect was important and formative for a lot of people, I just know for a fact it's all encompassing of white American Protestant circlejerk that I'm always on the receiving end of it. And I single them out over most other white people because these environments foster this kind of attitude. It's a very insular, consumerist, cliquey subculture that prioritizes perpetual victimhood over self advocation, and white people eat that shit up. Emo subculture is, by nature, nothing but a huge circlejerk over who has it harder and then getting scared of outsiders on sight, cus, ykno, white people and perpetual victimhood.

Also, most of the music just plain fucking sucks. There are a couple of emo bands I cape for, but the genre as a whole is not good enough to be caping this hard for and probably never will be. I don't understand the hype, it's all fully grown men just complaining about their ex girlfriends, getting gassed up over their Metal and Hardcore and Punk counterparts via being less "barbaric" cus the former group is made up of suburban college kids who whine instead of being pissed off? They made Pete Wentz straight his fucking afro to be more accessible to white teenagers, dude. Like what the fuck. Is this classist, racist culture that's integral to these outfits only ok because the racism and bigotry is more "passive" than other music subcultures? Cus the people enforcing it went to college and have nice families in nice white picket fence neighborhoods? Cus that's whack as shit.

[elliestoybox]

Low key losing my mind right before going to bed lmao

So i know this is a sillier chapter and i have no idea where or when it was released but i was already aware of japanese traditiona on valentines and how they differ from western traditions AND that they are more recent as well

So this got me on a very surface level google search to discover a couple of things

1. Valentines gained popularity in japan from 1958 and "entered society"(?) in the late 1970s

Which uh ...... ykno... I keep forgetting when this manga is set and i have to keep googling the year of the french revolution (im bad at history orz) and its like ....1789 was the start of the revolution which uh would put this about 200 years too early even knowing this is set BEFORE then??

1.5. i have no idea what she means by eastern countries if its not japan? I'd love to know if im missing something or if its a weird translation thing because idk if this makes any sense either if this is a french position or japanese?

2. On my little google journey i also decided to check when was chocolate introduced to france and it was 1615 and apparently drinking chocolate became popular around the 17th century among "the elite of europe". Which to me inplies that these guys, being family of the queens bestie, should probably have fairly easy access to (which they do i just finished reading after wrting lmao)

Anyway fun time i learned some things NOW OFF TO BED :}

[medouse]

reading speaker again just reminds me of like this old house i helped fix up that had secret accesses fucking everywhere. my favorite was the attic access just above the fridge. i found it on accident (read: i fell through it) so god fuckin imagine an old magic altered house with hideyholes like that. horrible for li and speaker duos. they're in the fuckin walls.

favorite hideyholes i've stumbled into over the years:

again, that one above the fridge. top ten what the fuck moments.

something akin to those laundry shafts. ykno the ones? one of those but big enough you could wiggle in there for maintenance.

secret hallways in old houses. im not gonna say what they were used for. iykyk.

literal cabinet under the stairs.

cabinet in a stair. i mean, like kick the stair just right, and it'd open right up. went further back than you'd think.

crawlspace under the house that the previous tennants had made into a really nice storage space. like. you crawl under there, and it's got labeled containers n shit down there. had a good door, too, so beasties wouldn't get in easy.

secret door in the attic hidden by a bookcase. it wasn't like a cool batman door or anything. i do mean a bookcase was shoved in front of it. but there was also a strange cubby in this Much Too Big To Be A Regular Closet room.

no bookcase doors all batman style, but i have run into a door behind a full-length mirror. this was in a walk-in closet, though, so i think that's pretty fair.

not a hideyhole per se but shoutout to the dude who made a side area to his basement that just had like. an empty swimming pool for skating or whatever. out in the boonies and everything. (note: this didnt turn out well for him because he decided to have a basement in florida for some reason, but in THEORY it was a fun idea)

oh yeah, and like. cubbies in the floors. people really do stash shit in those. one that i ran into had like a whole lego city down there proper. crazy. (feel bad whoever lived there forgot to pack it, honestly)

thats all i can think of off the cuff, but uhhhh, i will be taking these concepts and running with them for the speaker family home tyvm for understanding

[swordcoasts]

Nah, be uncharitable. All Larian does is make Divinity over and over again. BG3 is just Divinity with a shitty Forgotten Realms veneer over it. The companions are generic as fuck, the mechanics are the same, it's tired and tiresome. I'm also skeptical of the whole Early Access release cycle, but that's the video game industry as a whole now and not on Larian themselves.

I understand that the first two games are a thing of the past and that isometric RPGs are nowhere near as popular as they used to be, but holy shit. The visuals are good but everything else feels so hollow and empty.

while i'm not as cynical about it, i get where you're coming from for sure.

i say this as someone who loves divinity, but i do think the format is not good for baldur's gate. the isometric rpg format that made the original bg games so popular is ideal for the series because it allows for a strong emphasis on combat, but allows you to opt out of it entirely if you want to. all that without losing much (if any, tbh. durlag's tower was the only interesting combat area for me bc i'm just not a huge ad&d/3.5 fan) gameplay value. the fact that there weren't involved cutscenes in bg1/2 allowed for so much variability that i'm afraid the bg3 format simply won't accommodate.

i think this is in general one of the big critiques i have about modern rpgs, publishers are so focused on pushing out visually appealing games that they don't have any resources to put into substance. and i genuinely don't mean to sound like a boomer or whatever, but there's a reason why bg1/2 are still considered genre classics while modern rpgs will be forgotten in ~5 years.

i do think larian is capable of a lot, i love both dos1 and dos2, but i think the pressure put onto them and the formulaic approach to baldur's gate will lead to something disappointing or mediocre.

[cluelesslesbian]

alright tumblrinas prepare yourselves for me using my blog as my own diary for a lil bit uwu

i gotta hand in the proposal for my senior research project by tmrw night and gUESS WHO HASN'T STARTED ANYTHINGGGG

me. it's me. i'm so unmotivated and oddly tired lately?? like fr slept for most of my reading week and I'm so confused how???? i was so excited to start researching n drawing stuff in my free time?? wack. i blame depression- that evil bastard swirling my poor innocent noodle brain around on it's demonic pitchfork... idek what I'm saying alright NEXT SUBJECT---

im working w a local medical aesthetician who wants to create a guideline/course for medical professionals and beauty technicians to take in order to improve their bedside manners (aka how u talk and interact w clients/patients, the extra jazz on top of your scheduled appointment stuff ykno??) and ANYWAYYSSS I'm so down to help her bc!! i totally agree that some ppl are so casually insensitive when handling patients? and she was telling me about how heartbreaking it was that some of her clients were so surprised by her?? just being a decent human & doing her job??? like,,, yall I'm talking if a trans woman wants a brazillian wax?? like I personally don't like touching other ppl but like?? there's nothing wrong with that at all????? but apparently some places will deny that kinda service bc of their [prejudice OR lack of training in waxing diff genitalia... it's easy to say it's just a transphobic professional but sometimes,, there's just no resources for ppl to access and they don't want to hurt ppl in the process ykno?? its complicated but ethics b like that lol] and anyways ugh ok now I'm remembering how she hesitated telling me the details of waxing someone who's faced fatphobia and BRUH- I'm a twig, I can admit that but?? HOW would u not know or be comfortable asking someone to hold up their stomach or arm while u did ur job???? like I get it- some ppl might say it too harshly and that's a subjective tonal issue.. but?? like it's not rocket science to just BE POLITE- and anyways idek but yeah..

so ok im getting excited one again yay this was a good idea- imma start researching what ethical considerations are directly mentioned in physician training, how medial education is formatted, and bedside manner things... then I'll start compiling a report about what SHOULD be done and how it can be taught instead... (me and the nice lady r thinking of starting by creating awareness on insta via infographics and fun stuff before creating an online course... she wanted to do like a community college typa course but I recommended an etextbook course bc?? i mean I've done plenty of university courses primarily using an online textbook site soo it's def worth a shot and can be mass-distributed & can b formatted to allow for accessibility ..things.. wait whats the word.. uhh OH- ACCOMODATIONS yeeeee im so smort

....ok thats it. probs. this was neat. 10/10 brain feels more on track now omg..

OH yo i gotta remember to declare in my research intro that I'm a cis woman... wait or not... depends on if I focus more on soft-skills vs. hard-skills in my research.. no wait i still need to bc yeah i get diff treatment as a woman who fits the stereotypical "girly" standard than others might.... hmm ugh i don't wanna do a survey but now I'm wondering if i should get ethics clearance to (anonymously) question lgbt+ folks in my area about their experiences since it'll def be more reliable than some paper in a fancy-schmancy medical journal .... but that's so much woooorkkkk nooo 😭

okokokokoK one thing at a time.

gonna start summarizing some medical research to start a lit review.

then identify if there are gaps in existing research (specifically around patient mental health when it comes to demographic characteristics)

then summarize some marketing research to make informed predictions/recommendations on how tooooo... like productively change your habits or at least identify them? yeah? hmm marketing for how to present that info but psych & epidemiology research to get the content of the info probably....

OK BET YEET

[mariaiscrafting]

idk I think it's all about phrasing. there are certain conventions and expectations with how people interact on Tumblr that is very different from on Twitter. and given what happened recently on Twitter (doxxing, death threats etc) I think it's not weird at all that we think we're a bit better than that.

there are a lot of those welcome posts that I feel like moreso are the posters preference rather than a universal hard rule but ykno. I don't feel like picking a fight over it.

also I do think that mcytblr is aware of its own problems to a certain extent but like if we have newcomers of course we're not gonna collectively bring it up ykno

Hmm. This is a pretty good ask, and I have mixed feelings about it, so let's go through it systematically since what else do I have to do at 6 in the damn morning besides watch more SDV guides?

First, yeah, I guess, but those conventions and expectations are something that should be learned and naturally developed over time, not dictated. There has been a significant rise in Tumblr trying to codify its culture, humor, and types of posts, and frankly, it's kinda ruining the magic a little bit (a lot). A lot of the harmful shit that comes from Twitter that should actually be prevented is only perpetuated by the accessibility Twitter users have to content creators. Attempts to spread doxxes, start cancelling hashtags, and reply nasty things under CC posts are all things that simply won't happen hear, no matter how hard people try, because CCs aren't on here (Ranboo lurking, notwithstanding). Probably the only thing that should genuinely be prevented - because it isn't just an objectively harmless thing that some rando mcytblr user dislikes, and it isn't contingent upon the presence of CCs - has been the tip on not making callout posts. But to pretend that Tumblr is any different from Twitter when it comes to this practice is ridiculous and delusional. Twitter had its fair share of people who would point out how harmful and pointless it is to call out specific users, just as Tumblr throughout the years has had massive issues with people explicitly picking fights with others, and creating and circulating block lists. The latter was a particular problem in this fandom because of its response to EBblr, which has actually significantly grown because of the damned blocklists that were spread. Yes, dissuade new users from engaging in "cancelling other users" practices, but don't act like that is a solely Twitter problem. This kind of attitude is what obliterates the possibility of self-growth within this fandom, it's the same kinda stubbornness that pervaded the homophobia and fetishization discourse from back in January and February, and just as it did then, it will result in very little growth on the greater fandom culture or individuals' actions.

Second, I've come across at least twenty of these posts in the few hours since I logged onto Tumblr tonight, and I think one of them worded their "tips" as things that specific user preferred/would've like to know upon first entering Tumblr. Again, because mcytblr has this superiority complex at its core, it's very easy for that complex to seep into every facet of people's posts and interactions with others, and this is perfectly exemplified in the many posts where personal preference are phrased as objective truths/rules.

Third, good. You are a better person than me, then. I kinda pick fights about everything, it's my thing 😉 (/nm)

Fourth, I think that in many ways, mcytblr was aware of it's own problems. But lately, with the response to the sleepytwt callout thread, the Dream Reddit posts, and the fundamental misunderstanding and ignorance on the part of most of mcytblr on both matters, I'm becoming more and more skeptical of mcytblr's own self-awareness. The fandom is becoming more and more of an echo chamber, and I think that's likely a natural result of that aforementioned superiority complex and the practice of blocking anyone with undesirable opinions. While I much prefer Tumblr's practice of blocking people on sight, to engaging with every person you disagree with just to yell hateful vitriol at them, there's no denying that a distasteful side effect has been the creation of a pretty hardy echo chamber for most of mcytblr. When you never see anyone's criticism, constructive or not, of the media you consume, the creators you adore, or your own practices and actions, there is very little chance you will realize there's something wrong that you need to change in order to grow. I used to like how dynamic and ever changing this fandom space was because it was refreshing; while most Tumblr fandoms I've been a part of since 2014 have been fractured and wont to stay stagnant, this one seemed like one open to self-critique and self-improvement. But as it has continued progressing, we've moved into this stagnant, liminal space that all Tumblr fandoms seem to edge into eventually, and it's pretty disheartening to see. Maybe the newcomers will help kickstart a reversal, maybe they'll only reinforce this shift in mcytblr culture. I have yet to see.

[xerospaced]

Y'all think we are SO difficult

You're just as difficult from our perspective.

Hell, no one is easy.

What made you think you were easy?

Because of societal expectation. Pressure to conform. Forced mirroring. Necessity to learn how to communicate with y'all.

Because of all your "this is what normal looks like" bullshit

The rest of us have had no choice but to make a conscious and continuous effort to figure out your shit.

But ykno what it also did.

It made us figure out ourselves.

A level of insight which is so rarely paralleled by neurotypicals.

So yeah.

Not only do y'all not understand us.

You barely understand yourselves.

You've never had to.

You're socially acceptable.

And you wanna be mad at us?

I'm not sorry.

We're not the reason you're frustrated.

The fact that we expose your lack of self-awareness...

And call upon you to use skills you never had to develop to provide clarity

Is what frustrates you.

A few questions and you realise that you don't have a clue why you're really doing the shit you do.

You don't understand your emotions or perceptions.

You don't understand the driving forces behind those seemingly automatic reactions.

You're clueless when you have to put the idea of what you are into some kind of tangible concept.

And you're mad at us

For requesting information.

And for being able to access parts of ourselves that you can't.

We have our answers.

And more often than not we eventually figure yours out.

Of course you're uncomfortable.

What is a sense of self when you've been raised to believe that your Self is uniform with billions of others.

You're all the same.

How comforting to never have to give it a second thought.

How dare someone "abnormal" shake that fragile ground.

Get over it.

Y'all really don't really how averse you are to actually dealing with neurodivergent peeps

Y'all act like EVERYTHING is a chore.

Like simply considering us and our perspective is far too big an ask.

But we do it.

All day EVERY DAMN DAY

We do it.

We try and put ourselves in your positions.

We try to understand your thinking, your needs.

Just because your needs are the norm does not mean you do not have any.

It's as stupid as anyone believing they don't have an accent.

Of course you fucking do.

And of course you have needs.

And if you stopped assuming that your experience is universal

You might not find it so bloody offensive when someone different asks for a little courtesy.

The same shit they've been providing you and yours from day dot.

We don't get to choose.

We are forced to learn to understand and accommodate your kind.

Are we not worthy?

.

It's not that hard.

Y'all are just ignorant and self-centered.

[ribbonbonny]

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