#for context: i feel like shit and wanna treat myself

[planetxiao]

y’all pls help do i order that açaí bowl or do i save my money for tomorrow

[bungusofficial]

mutual how are you so good at getting into arguments with people who agree with you

probably bc i only respond to people who cant write or read

"rape play can be consented to" and "rape can be consented to" are VERY different sentences. n like honestly i shouldnt even have bothered.

if you have such a fundamental misunderstanding of the english language i wont waste my time trying to communicate with you. when every word means something different its not really english anymore is it. if everything u say is so divorced from the english language that i need to ask you to repeat and translate everything i dont think im at fault here

i might just cut contact w anyone in the community because everything i say is misunderstood and misrepresented and not taken seriously if im not sucking up to people.

and so many words have new double-meanings and im led to think i disagree with ppl because theyre fucking incapable of writing a coherent sentence. and then its my fault somehow.

and its not like 'transid' or paraphilia dont exist outside of the radqueer community. everyone wants to change things about themselves. everyone changes. people are into weird shit and have mental disorders. i dont have a problem with peoples experiences.

n if rqs put any effort into what they say (or even didnt blame me for assuming that a word doesnt have any new secret meaning) id treat it the same as the mogai or liom community. whatever. kinda fun. sometimes theres a relatable label

.delete later

[penncilkid]

Alright, I'll bite. (Sparked by this post) I'm gonna preface this with some context: 

First off: I'm Black in case you're unaware

Huxley is my favorite speaker. Full stop. You ask me to choose, it’ll always be him. 

Likewise, you ask for my favorite listeners, I will say Starlight and Darlin'. (I'll save my Starlight rant for another day)

My designs for both Huxley and Darlin are Black.

With this in mind, I want to be clear from the jump: I don’t have an inherent problem with these headcanons. If I did, I wouldn’t have chosen then myself. That said, I have noticed that Hux and Darlin are, more often than not, the characters that get headcanoned as POC (specifically Black) in design rosters. In some cases, they are the only POC designs present. Why is that?

Furthermore, the more often I notice this pattern so to speak, the more I sit and think about why those headcanons are so popular. I find my answer when I think about the characters I see headcanoned as white most often. Tell me why it’s "practically canon" for Lasko to be pale with light/white hair. Tell me why white Sam "just makes sense". Why? Because Lasko's a nerdy ball of nerves that stumbles over his words? Because Sam’s a sweet Southern man at heart? Those are not inherently white attributes.

Except they're treated as such. They go virtually unchallenged because they're so widely accepted by fandom. People see these personalities and character details and come up with their vision. So, let's apply that to Huxley and Darlin, shall we?

Huxley: Athlete. Canonically implied to be big, as indicated by statements made by him and other members of the DAMN crew. Classified as a himbo with parallels in Imperium highlighting how some will view him as stupid. Overall chill vibe.

Darlin: Reckless with their safety. Known to lash out/lose control of their emotions when they’re not actively hiding them. Gets injured often because they’re too stubborn to run from trouble. An overall intense demeanor that makes them difficult to approach (at least at first). 

Explain to me why this screams Black to so many people. Is it because Huxley's a dumb jock who you imagine gets stoned all the time? Oh, is it perhaps because Darlin is just so aggressive compared to your Golden Retriever-coded Asher, needing to be calmed down by everyone around them? And here's the thing: I can already imagine people saying, "That's not why I made them Black". Then explain why it "just makes sense" for them to Black. Why them out of a sea of characters? Make it make sense.

Now let me make this clear as well: I'm not expecting every headcanon to have elaborate thought behind it. For one, I get that some people take a more casual approach with designs and such. Not every choice has to have a reason or justification behind it. But when literally 95% of the Huxley designs I see are Black and half of y'all don't even know what a fucking durag is? Saying it leaves a bad taste in my mouth is putting it lightly.

You know what I wish I saw more of? Black Huxleys and Darlins with attached nuance.

Give me a Black Darlin who struggles to articulate how they feel with the people in their lives because they haven't been readily given the language to do so. You want to pair a Black Darlin with a White Sam? Why not talk about how POC have an insanely difficult time getting support from the medical system so not only does it explain why Darlin is so resistant to go to healers, but also gives an extra weight to the fact that Sam was their absolute last resort when injured? Give me a Black Darlin who has been taught their entire life that no one will have their back, that they need to learn how to depend on themself alone, and that's the reason why they struggle to feel like the pack would've cared when the Quinn shit went on.

You wanna talk Black Huxleys? Let's touch on how he's learned to control his emotions/anger because he knows how people will take it if it comes from someone who looks like him. Talk about how his moms teaching him not to use violence speaks to a deeper desire for him not to be viewed as a threat because they fear for his life otherwise. In one of his BAs, he mentions how a lot of people used to sleep with him/flirt with him solely because of his body and he could tell. Do you know how often black men are sexualized and fetishized? Why not talk about it through him? I see people explore that concept through Gavin constantly, where's the energy for Huxley? You wanna make him Black so bad, why not actually put some thought behind it? Because right now, it seems like he gets the "luxury" of being the token Black guy in the DAMN friend group at best.

I know a lot of people are probably going to dismiss this post. I am already anticipating that as I write this. But I'm so tired of pretending like this shit doesn't get to me. Because it does. I've got no intentions of leaving this fandom because I have met so many amazing people and adore Erik's content immensely. But what I am going to do is talk about the widespread normalization of attributing certain personality traits to certain racial groups. Because the non-white people in this fandom deserve better than that.

[pruneunfair]

My feelings on: part 8, Tears on a withered flower: the most annoying fandom to date so far.

I ask if this one was really that great since I've been seeing it all over the place on tiktok and Instagram and reading it myself, I can see why it would garner an audience because it's another "working woman finds a better man after her loser ex cheats on her with a stupid damsel girl" type story. It's kinda good but in my opinion: it's not THAT good but there is only 23 chapters I read so far so I'll let it marinate before I actually start going after it for the plot.

What I really wanna talk about is the fanbase of tears on a withered flower because while the manhwa community does have a problem with internalized misogyny this specific fanbase takes the cake.

I don't like saying the term "glazing" but it's the only way to accurately describe the way they treat the FL Na Haesoo because they are absolutely feral. First off, I've seen them lose their shit over other fans simply saying "I think that this female character has a prettier design then Hae soo." And these stans reply with the most immature and even down right laughable comebacks. I took some screenshot of a tears of the wither flower slide show to give you an idea.

"Hae soon is the main character for a reason."

Who's gonna tell them that protagonists can be written poorly?

Trust me, I'm sure no one's jealous of a fictional character.

Okay the context basically was that Hae soos coworker was just being real with her based on what she knows about Hae soos life and apparently fans took that as her being jealous and when people who actually read the god damn plot and use their critical thinking to point this out, the stans basically go "nuh uh" and continue to scream even louder. Personally when I read that chapter i took it as brutal honesty, from her perspective Tae Ha was hitting on a married woman and the two barely knew eachother. A little harsh but she's not jealous of Hae soo 😭 like we barely know this girl!

I think the most complained about aspect of tears on a withered flower is the anatomy, specifically the anatomy of all the characters your supposed to really like/care about.

I don't mind that Hae Soo is built like that cause while her anatomy definitely is unrealistic it's also a cartoon comic and cartoons have lots of bizarre forms of anatomy that don't always need to be accurate. With that said I don't find it a coincidence that the FL who is the most fleshed out and only grown woman who isn't meant to be disliked or made fun of is a tsunade cup sized babe with big thighs, a tiny waist, a nice butt, and a baby face.

Yeah I'll say it: Hae soo is another example of authors wanting to make a non conventionally attractive woman since she's supposed to be older (like 33) who is also overworked so she doesn't take care of herself but in the end they didn't have the balls to actually go through with it so they not only gave Hae soo an amazing figure and hair but they also gave her a clear face, tiny lips and barely noticeable eye bags which I still can't tell if they're even eye bags or just her eyelashes.

When anyone even dares to point out that Hae Soo's design is weirdly propionate compared to the other female characters you get hid with the "Your just jealous that you can't have a man like Tae Ha!!"

look i don't mind disproportionate anatomy in cartoon comics but if you give me character designs with more accurate proportions, I'm going to choose the latter for prettier looking designs.

Another thing about this manhwa was the dialog. I like it at times because it can be so poetic.. and then they just throw in some comically evil sentences for the villains that most sane people would not make the public aware of in a modern day setting. It's not something that really annoys me I just thought it was fun to laugh at every now and again while reading.

conclusion: I think the best way to describe tears on a withered flowers fanbase is kinda like how Netflix treats Bigmouth. No, TOTWF is definitely no where near levels of uncomfortable as Bigmouth but it's in the way that it really isn't as good as everyone claims, it's okay at first and then it got old and some people started opening up that the thought Bigmouth was garbage only for a bunch of stans to barge in with "You just don't get it!!" People won't let it go, they keep insisting it's the best piece of work to exist and anyone who doesn't like it is a jealous loser.

[dantefreakdaaaa]

Can I request a Johnny Cage fic where him and the reader are together and he’s always like the protector, but she comes through and saves him this time and is like “see I’ve always said I could take care of myself” with some fluff or smut or whatever you want to add!

Johnny cage x reader

fluff

Romantic

Gn reader

A/n: I'm so happy I'm getting johnny requests AAAAA, there's needs to be more fics of him anyways. For context it's the johnny and erron fight but it's past johnny instead of present johnny because past Johnny's silly to write :3 if you like this feel free to request!

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Johnny always made you sit out in a fight, no matter how many times you told him that you knew how to protect yourself. Due to his overwhelming urge to show off and to protect you, he always made you sit on the sidelines or somewhere safe while he went out to fight. And while it was sweet, it still annoyed you. You knew he was just trying to protect you but being treated like a civilian was no fun.

"Relax, I got this. You don't even need to lift a finger."

"Johnny wait-!"

Before you could finish your sentence, Johnny charged head on into the fight without thinking. Like he always did. And while at first he was doing some damage, after about a minute or so he was flat on his back. Blood poured from his nose and you noticed how scared he was as Erron had a gun pointed to his head.

"Any last words for your fans?"

"uh- shit-..."

Immediately, you rushed over to him and kicked erron to the side before rushing to help Johnny up.

"What are you-!? I told you to let me handle it-!"

"You were gonna die Johnny, not gonna let that happen." You held johnny for a second, examining his wounds before looking over at erron. He was hunched over and trying to stand up.

"just stay here, I'm gonna deal with erron and I'm gonna get you help. Okay?"

"no I got it- let me protect you!" Johnny tried to sit up, coughing as he layed back down.

"you're in no shape to protect me Johnny, look at you! You need to let me handle this."

He looked at you, sighing as he realized he had no other choice.

"fine... but just protect yourself.."

"no, I'm gonna take care of erron and protect you, Johnny." You gently set him down and stood up, noticing that erron had gotten to his feet.

-

"Thanks for uh... for saving me back there..." Johnny smiled as he tried to think of what words to say. He let you pull him to his feet and he stumbled, almost falling forward.

"No problem, Johnny. Next time you gotta let me help you. I know that you wanna protect me but you also gotta let me protect myself."

"But what if you get hurt? Or- or you die? Or what it-"

"Johnny. I know you're worried about me, but I'm gonna be okay. You need to worry more about yourself. You got hurt pretty bad."

"fine... I guess you're right..." He sighed, shaking his head as he looked down at himself. His clothes were covered in blood, mostly his own.

"now c'mon, this fight isn't over yet."

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(lazy ending but I wanted to post something today, hope you like it!)

[thornsent]

Hi sorry I didn't mean for the tone to come off that weird and I was on mobile. I took for granted that lesbianchemicalplant is pretty well known to be Like That and should have provided proof. One of the reasons that you can search spacelazarwolf and not get too much is because she mostly uses screenshots and also tumblr's search feature is garbage.

Anyway, she frequently is weird about trans men and calls any talking about their experiences Privileged and transandrophobia truthers

And then is also weird about Jews. Like all the time. Any time any jew talks about their experience she claims they are a zionist

hey! it's all good, and thanks for not being afraid to come off anon. I don't wanna be hostile to people but it's easy to read anons as being in poor faith for.. obvious reasons lmao, average tumblr experience

anyway I do agree this shit abt transmascs is vile. it's very funny that she has baeddels in her dni but is basically regurgitating their shit.

as for the jewish stuff, I still have to reiterate that she herself is jewish according to her about, and I feel like she has the right to cricitize her own community especially wrt orthodoxy & trauma. to be honest, these screenshots still feel real cherry-picked and don't have much context behind them. most of the claims of zionism I'm seeing on her blog are pretty well-founded, especially when a few of these people overtly call themselves zionists. the exception is when she uses fanpol to justify accusations of bigotry, which I think is generally a stupid stance anyway

I don't really use this website for discourse or news LMAO this is the website where I talk about being a faggot and look at images and sometimes reblog opinionated posts. I rb'd the post we're talking about because to me it spoke to a broader issue wherein tumblr's attempts at acceptance/inclusion become infantilizing and erase problems within already-marginalized communities... Treating a community like it is Inherently Progressive is clearly better than antisemitism but it's still bad, you know?

overall I am far from a fan of OP and I don't 100% agree with everything she says or believes, but I don't necessarily think that I have to. I might delete the post because, while I am learning, I am not myself Jewish & don't wish to overstep. but I don't think she was being weird about jewish people, I think she just cares about zionism and doesn't like jumblr being full of libs lol

[marsti]

i think a big part of the reason why ive been so depressed is i keep failing to make genuine connection with other transmasc people and it's like... it didnt used to bother me but ive been feeling this growing isolation

i dont talk about it because i really dont wanna think about it but i have lost 6 friends in the year in a half ive been on T, and it wasnt some nice natural friend break ups. not gonna get into details but the long and short of it is im not as repressed and no longer sad all the time and they really didnt like that. so it feels like im getting punished for being happy.

and when it started happening and i tried to talk about it i just lost more friends so ive just kinda been keeping it to myself. it's made a lot of my intrusive thoughts regarding my transition way worse. so since it was really starting to get to me i was like, hey i know! ill just try to socialize with trans guys, itll be good for my mental health to meet more people like me and they definitely wont pull this shit because they get it! perfect plan.

but then idk. theres something about me i guess. i know the look that says "whys that freak talking to me" all too well but i really dont need it right now, and in the context of a supposedly safe space it feels even worse. and so im just left here sitting in my room alone wondering why everyone treats me like im diseased.

[monstersinthecosmos]

god what voltron episode(s) should i rewatch. and what to look out for

sdjgklasd gosh idk recently I've rewatched the second half of S2 a few times, from the BOM Trial to Shiro's disappearance because I want to like really nail down the timeline and make it make sense. I am also just studying Keith like he's a bug.

Full disclosure that I actually haven't watched the entire series all the way through except for the first time, I mostly just watch The Sheith Movie, but sometimes I wanna zoom out and see the bigger context of the episode, or see some of the Keith scenes that The Sheith Movie didn't include. Like Hunk & Keith's mission for scaultrite in the next episode and the fallout between Allura and Keith when she realizes he's part Galra and starts treating him like shit!

I love watching the way he gets frustrated by everyone making a big deal about it, especially after the emotional climax of the Trial was him accepting himself and deciding he knows who he is--it leads him to learn something HUGE about himself, but he stays steadfast in "I'm still me" afterwards, and doesn't want anyone to make a big deal about it. Like, Hunk is teasing him a little but still friendly and still accepts him, but Keith doesn't even want to talk about it, vs Allura who sort of affirms all his fears by judging him and icing him out.

And even after all that, leading into their big fight with Zarkon, they know this could be it, that if they succeed the war could be over, and he thinks it might be a good time to go find his family. There's something, HMM!, kinda twisty & crunchy about this concept to me, about KNOWLEDGE OR DEATH, and kinda feels a little bit DBT-ish to me, sort of radical acceptance, realizing his sense of self and learning to be okay with it, but also open to the quest for knowledge. Like "I am me, for all the faults and bullshit and trauma, my dad died and I never knew my mom and Shiro saved me" IS A COMPLETE PACKAGE, that's who Keith is! He accepts it! It's no longer "I don't know who I am because people abandoned me and I can't be myself unless I can find this nebulous external validation." So anyway. Yes, he's Keith, he's himself, this is it, YOLO, whatever, but. He is still open to the knowledge of finding his family.

The BOM Trial episode is really so so good though. It's like such an incredible battle for him to accept his identity and the truth of his lived experience, all the while TRIANGULATED BETWEEN HIS THREE FATHER FIGURES, i mean is it an accident that he passes out in the penis hallway?

(last time I raved about this, I had to look it up to grab the picture LOL)

also SOMETHING SOMETHING Shiro fully connecting with the idea that Zarkon used to be the Black Paladin and how really facing his trauma and accepting it head on GETS HIM KILLED. lmao i have to lie down.

[twothpaste]

Giegue/giygas for the ask game, maybe?

First impression: I learned about Giygas through internet osmosis long before I even thought to play EarthBound. All the usual "ooooh this game is secretly sooo dark" and "he's ack-chewally an aborted fetus, see, oooo" kinda shit. I remember it giving me the impression Mother was way scarier and edgier than it turned out to be. (I played games like OFF and Yume Nikki first though. So by the time I got around to Mother, it was very refreshing to play somethin bright & uplifting at its core, lmao.) (In retrospect, I kinda wish Giygas wasn't among the first things every prospective player is told about the EarthBound. Going into the Giygas battle blind seems like it would've rearranged my brain molecules, and I wish I'd gotten to experience it like that.) I forget when exactly I learned about Giegue (I didn't get to play M1 blind either), but I'm pretty sure my first impression was honestly pretty neutral? The imposing presence of a huge alien spaceship, 8-bit sci-fi machinery, and a barely legible creature in a capsule was pretty wicked to see for myself the first time though!

Impression now: Giygas is a big triple decker chocolate layer cake worth of metaphor & symbolism. The existential horror of growing up, the fear of losing who you fundamentally are in the process, the horrific inhumanity adults are capable of, the hopelessness of coming to terms with the world as it is, and so on. Not really a character per se, but the quintessential globular slurry of adolescent angst Ness & pals've gotta contend with. Giegue is a bittersweet little story about a broken family. An internal conflict between vengeance, familial love, and maybe where one's obligations lie? Cool antagonist for sure. I wanna like him more than I do (M1's cryptic hands-off approach to storytelling is hard for me to sink my teeth into 😔). I've speculatively written (and drawn a comic for the upcoming zine 😉) about how Giegue became Giygas, and read some good fics on the topic. In the canon we're given, though? There's really so little binding them together narratively or thematically… I have a difficult time reconciling the two, in the context of the games themselves. Mother 2 in general feels more like a reboot than a sequel - and there's hardly if any "lore" weaving Giegue & Giygas together - so Itoi's choice to declare they're one and the same just seems kinda odd to me. C'est la vie. Fan creators make do.

Favorite moment: The Giygas battle, but like, before he goes sicko mode. When he's bound to a chamber of wires and innards, reflecting Ness' face back at him, and it turns out our fervently raving buddy Porky is actually the one in "control". The atmosphere is so intense and unnerving, such a bizarre yet captivating way to ramp things up. There's like, this sense of stomach-churning dread, as you begin - if only scarcely - to realize the alien overlord you were expecting is an entity far more powerful and personal and helpless and incomprehensible than you ever could've imagined. I mean. You know, because the internet spoiled you when you were 11. But in the bigness of the moment it still makes my mitochondria itch on a primal and cellular level. /pos. Love it.

Idea for a story: My favorite Giegue thing is the vague implication (??) of whatever the hell George did to to him. Y'know, whatever made him hate humanity so much. Whenever I see fan content speculating on how George might've experimented on him or mistreated him I do in fact Feel Somethin' There. (I have been a sucker for angsty-creature-in-a-lab stories from the time I saw Mewtwo Strikes Back in kindergarten all the way to Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3 a couple months ago, and I don't suppose I'll ever be sick of 'em.) The conflict it introduces between George and Maria is intriguing too. Like, her husband's treating her dearly beloved child like a science project? Trying to extract the secrets of PSI from his oversized alien brain?? You know if this kinda shit went down, those two were on a caliber of divorce drama the world has rarely seen.

Unpopular opinion: I really like Giegue design interpretations that're freaky and grotesque and biologically unfamiliar. When the beast isn't just mammalian in nature. Truly out of this world.

Favorite relationship: A mean-spirited but otherwise ordinary 13-year-old willingly aligned himself with the alien emodiment of all things evil. And the alien embodiment of all things evil willingly let the kid be his right-hand man. And I'm normal about it. EarthBound tells us basically nothing about how Porky n' Giygas' partnership in crime came to be, but speculating about it sends me into a shark frenzy. Porky seeking power over the world that wronged him, at literally any cost. Giygas weaponizing a child's worst, most vengeful impulses. Porky ultimately usurping Giygas, at least in terms of agency. Witnessing the absolute horror his "master" becomes, and simply sidestepping out of the universe itself to dodge the mess he brought about. I like to imagine there was a period where Giygas was still cognizant enough to maintain a rapport with Porky - and that the two of them fucking hated each other. Both of 'em using the other as a means to an end, assured in the conviction they're the one with the upper hand. And they're kind of both wrong. Bloaw up da worl.

Favorite headcanon: Giegue/Giygas speaks (telepathically?) with a rural midwestern accent. Courtesy of the fine folks who raised him. Other aliens probably think it's weird and mondo cringe, but are too intimidated to say so.

[spiderwebsandhearts]

I don't really talk much about sexuality here. Which is weird, 'cause I'm me. Like... I reblog a fuckton of stuff about it, but I don't talk much about it myself. And I should. 'Cause it's real fucking weird.

I'm not human. I used to be, a real long time ago, but I feel so disconnected from that it almost don't count. I just am what I am: an 8 foot tall, pink and white spider. I got a great body. I ain't ashamed of that. I don't look like what people think a "man" oughta look like. Even if I were human and just kept all the same appearance shit. I look like I got tits, for one. And I dress more feminine than anybody else in here. I mean, I do call myself a fairy. That's how I identify. That's how I label myself. That word's got a real specific context from when and where I would've been from when I used to be human. (Gonna let the host word that explanation for me.)

"Fairy" was a label used in the mlm community in 1930s New York City, most specifically in Brooklyn. It was used to mean a guy who fit more into the gender roles assigned to women. These men would often present as female - though they may or may not have identified as trans in any way - would be submissive to their partners, and often times were smaller and had softer features than their partners. That last point wasn't a must and did intersect with another sexuality/gender label ("punk"), but it was common. For these individuals, sexuality, gender identity, and gender expression may have been closely linked, or even be so entwined that a word would need to encompass all three to be truly accurate.

So yeah. I call myself a fairy. I dress like a woman, I like my tits (whether they're real or not), and I don't give a fuck what people think about it. I like being submissive, too. At least in bed. Try to pull shit with me outta that context and I'm likely to knock your teeth in, but in bed? Fuck yeah, pin me down and fuck me nasty. Tell me about all the fucked up shit you wanna do to me. Make me call you Daddy and tell me you're gonna make me take it like a good little bitch. Treat me like I'm your fucking whore and watch how fast I get off.

But I don't really... know if I even could get off with a guy. Like a human one. I just kinda... I feel a little broken sometimes about it. 'Cause I find human guys hot, yeah, but if I'm gonna get myself off to a fantasy about being fucked? It's gonna be a guy who looks more like me. Not like a fairy, but a demon. Don't matter what kind, but something like me. I tend to like furry porn best, 'cause it's not so... human. Do the guys in that look exactly like what I'm used to? No. But they're closer than human guys.

Like I said, kinda makes me feel broken. 'Cause the body's human and I was human at some point and I oughta be able to get off to thinking about human guys, right? And I can. Sometimes. It's just a lot less I dunno, hot? Not the word I want, but ya get it. Like, I'd love to have a big, strong bear hold me down and fuck me, but it'd be better for me if he kinda looked more like an actual bear than strictly human.

[emmalostinwonderland]

Happy Wednesday once again! I actually got some shit done for my FTH2023 fic this week, so I treated myself to working on the DinLuke Bioshock AU this afternoon. Here's some angst for ya!

(I know there's not meant to be context on these, but I've been learning lately that Bioshock 1&2 were not as popular across the board as I thought, so... yeah. This fic is set in the late 1950's in the fictional underwater city of Rapture. This scene is set in Persephone, the prison area from the second game. Johnny is 'Johnny Topside' who later becomes Subject Delta, the playable character in Bioshock 2. Ok carry on.)

"So. What’d they stick you in here for, pal?” “His partner was in bed with Fontaine.” “You shut your damn mouth,” Din cuts in, barely noticing he’d even opened his mouth until the words are already out. “Don’t go discussing other people’s affairs like you know a fucking thing about them.” The guy in the cell across from him cracks a lazy smile. “Well, well. He does speak.” Din just grunts an acknowledgement. “My name’s Johnny,” he continues, “What do they call you?” Heaving another sigh, Din pushes himself off the back wall and moves to sit on his cot. “He ain’t shared his name, but pretty much everyone calls him Mando,” says the guy on the left, evidently still feeling particularly ballsy. “Mando, huh? Let me guess… Army?” Goddammit. “Marines.” “Well, ain’t you special. Listen, Mando, I met a fair share of people here in Rapture between my arrival and getting tossed in this cell. Even more since then. Every so often they pull me outta here to do plasmid testing at Fontaine Futuristics.” Din’s eyes fly open again at the mention of that name. “No shit?” “Yeah. I’ve met the man himself more than a few times. So. Is your boy really in bed with him?” Din closes his eyes and flashes back to tossing out the patrons who couldn’t accept the rules. He thinks about the relief on his husband’s face after they were gone. His heart aches all over again. “No,” he eventually answers, “Luke would never. He has a code. And we made vows.” Johnny seems to consider that for a moment. “People like that are hard to come by these days, Mando.” “...Yeah. I know.”

Tagging @babygirlbridger @materassassino and @malakia215 - plus anyone else who wants to play! Tag me in your posts, I don't wanna miss anything <3

[madame-cookie]

janthir wilds thoughts

im having a lot of fun. i dont really have a lot of nice things to say about it except the maps are fun to play in and the housing is cool. but that being the case i dont want to come across as coming away from the expansion feeling negatively. bc despite not liking a lot of details about the expansion, it was still as fun as others. i think i maybe even liked it more than some of the larger living world plots and its just started.

mostly, im just not interested in many family-based narratives. i dont have a family so it just usually takes a more... impactful relationship to make me interested in the dynamics. it being a whole cast of new characters and a new fantasy group of people made me even less inclined to invest myself in their issues bc i was still trying to figure out the context for these characters and this place.

it did explain why caithe went with us though. i thought that was so random but then it went on to be the unresolved mommy issues chapter and she is like the grand champion of mommy issues bc she just made them all up in her head. like... i always thought it was SO WEIRD how caithe treats aurene so much like a mother to child. like except for weird dragon bond magic i dont really understand how or why her character has gone from being calculated and cunning to just like, doting and brooding over a child that was really the player characters' if anyones. she says like "our daughter"or some shit to you at the end of this one and i was like ooooooooo ehhhhhhhh about that. i love u caithe... and i think u rule.... but you are my least favorite member if every group we are in together so its a little weird for you to talk about the baby u have with me sorry.

malice it was like. cool to remember she exists. she is still just an extension of other characters and not really speaking for herself in a way that matters. just too shy about her position to do much. dont know where thats going but it could be cool to see her become important as a character for how important she was in specifc parts of the story. shes neat! i wanna be excited to see her but rn for her and caithe i was just like. oh :/ was literally everyone else busy? lol

poky is weirdly just like braham. i kinda wish braham just came bc i think its crazy we just sort of touched base and that was it. like dude whats up!!?

omg real quick. Stoic Alder. i am so sorry. you talk WAY. TOO. SLOW. i cant stand it. i never do this but his was the first time playing in 12 years that i actively sought to miss a character's dialogue. i was getting drinks etc every other time he talked bc it was largely summative in nature and soo. slowwwww. all the lowland koda sort of talked that way but his was so hard for me. do they pick leaders based on who talks slowest? lol. the council was dope i like them. but especially when it was all about his estranged relationship with his son bc of his dead wife or whatever. like thats sad bear stuff i guess but it happens bro lol. i dont think the first 5minutes of Up is said either bc like they lived a happy life together ppl die and thats normal.

but thats beside the point. i guess it just felt a little like we were mostly dealing with slice of life issues while what could very well be a devastating threat was brewing just north all the while.

i didnt think titans were ever coming back tbh. sort of a deep cut while being relevant no matter what bc of lore reasons. its kind of cool bc pretty much everyone has a potential stake in it. if their people werent directly affected by the titans of the past, the actions of the peoples they manipulated were pretty much felt by everybody.

im not happy about having to wait to unlock the rest of the core crafting disciplines for my housing since im fairly certain there will be many future ways to craft expanding on that. diverting the access to the last (better, likely) half of recipes is kind of frustrating. i missed when they manipulated our gameplay in more subtle ways. there are a lot of things about this and the last expansion that really make it seem like theyre trying to negotiate with your willingness to waste your time. and i dont appreciate it lol. but its not a big deal. im mostly excited about future expansions.

like i loved in the prologue how they walked us around the room to tell us more or less the next things the alliance would be dealing with. v excited to go back to elona in the future. and the tengu... how long must i bang my fists against the walls of the dominion of winds before they let us innnnn. in my truest fantasy its bc theyre going to let us make tengu characters. but i know its delusional dont worry. the hope keeps me young.

overall i LOVE the spear skills. huge spear fan here. i really wish they hadnt just stopped making underwater skins for black lion weapon lines bc a lot of them would probably have nice spears we could be using. its... a little silly of them when you think about it. im starving for a better variety of spears! and i did sort of expect more than like 4 when the expansion came out. the spear expansion with a spear on the cover.

whispering sorrow is a very complicated character that i still feel as if i have learned the most about from lore documents despite having met her. i want to like her, and i think she's really cool because of what she can do. but i want to like her because of why she does things too, and im just sort of waiting to see why that could be. or at least to hear it from her mouth.

also just bc i remembered it. i hope poky joins our little guild. i want to like him bc i like braham and theyre so much alike. i wanna see how theyre different too. but i feel he hasnt had as much time yet to banter with us bc we have been mostly dealing with his personal issues. and rightly so! but we got to play w braham a lot before his life fell apart so idk i just think it would be cool if in like a year i was drawing poky and braham doing karaoke together or something lol

[possession1981-moving]

Girl crush anon again.

I think there was a huge misunderstanding here. One thing is English isn’t my first language so sometimes I struggle explaining things.

Secondly, I really didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable with the girl-crush comment, it was more so about me I guess? But I should’ve checked your pronouns. I’m sorry.

And the homophobia bit, I wasn’t trying to be homophobic? It’s just that I’m recently realizing I might not be just straight, and I’ve also followed you for not so long time ago.

But ofc you’d be offended me, a woman having a “girl crush” on you, who identify as he/them. I could imagine but wrong that sounded and made you feel.

I feel horrible now, but I apologize because it’s on me.

very sincerely, i don't think the issue is with your first language not being english (also for the record, neither is it mine) but rather that i pointed out that your first message was full of implicit homophobia and instead of like, taking that in and reflecting on it and figuring out (or asking someone) what was homophobic about what you said you are now in fact continuing to say really messy things. you don't have to intend to be homophobic to perpetuate homophobia with your words, and your message was homophobic in the way you made this huge thing in my inbox about being attracted to me while framing it as this big crisis for you. that is in fact, not my issue and something you should have kept to yourself - the wrong person could have been made to feel predatory because of that frankly. also your wording of having been a "raging straight bitch" was just extremely uncomfortable because well, that really does not make me feel super safe as the object of your confused attraction considering the violence ostensibly straight people have a tendency to do to gay and/or gnc people when they suddenly feel attracted to One Of Us. and lastly, the issue with the phrase girl crush was not that i as "a he/them" am uncomfortable with being referred to under the umbrella term of girl (i refer to myself with the word girl often, it just depends on the context, however someone else might have not been okay with it and yeah you should have had forethought considering that) but rather the fact that the term girl crush is one which straight girls have been using online for years whenever they want to be able to objectify and fetishize women/people they perceive as women (most often ones who are openly gay and/or trans) while still maintaining the fragile balance of their straight identities. i don't wanna be treated like some kind of guinea pig.

now that i've taken the time to explain these things to you i hope that you can internalize this and then if you still wanna apologize i'm open to that when you can give me an apology where you don't continue to say messy shit.

[louisisalarrie]

“If this is zot3 I will egg your house”

OF COURSE IT’S THAT PSYCHO!!!

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/zot3-flopped/746235239430504448

Here’s your proof! 😭

GOOD GOD this fuckwit genuinely makes a million profiles and anons themself 100%. Or they have some batshit followers who take whatever they say as gospel and thrive off negativity. I have blocked them and all anons I receive from them and their other accounts and I don’t know how the fuck they keep getting through to me but for gods sake im gonna take this person down, I swear to you.

Also, im not pretending to be anything. I don’t sit here telling y’all “secrets” about Larry? I’ve strictly given you info im allowed to share (never explicitly about Larry, but some about louis because I’ve worked with him and he’s wonderful and other industry stuff you guys enjoy learning about), and my experiences. My further info I DO NOT SHARE because I don’t think it’s appropriate/im actually not allowed to. I’m not trying to seed anything by saying that by the way, im just trying to give y’all context that I know how things work so it doesn’t seem like im not telling the truth/making false claims. This bitch is obsessed with me. Sorry for being angry and negative here, but im sick of it.

Anyway, thank you for the confirmation, Anon. I’m not letting this go on any longer. None of us should be treated this way. I’m all love and light and open for conversations, and don’t get me wrong, I will have open conversations with folks who disagree with me/correct me when im wrong, but im over this bullying. I feel like a mother right now. I wanna protect you all from this idiot, as well as myself, because we don’t deserve this shit.

I feel weak as fuck getting riled up about it, and would love to just respond with a funny gif like I love to do, but this is it. I’m done.

Also, does anyone know if this person has a twitter?

[illnessfaker]

~reclamation~ is not nearly as a big of a deal as most people make it out to be imo but i also don't necessarily decide my comfort around who can ~reclaim~ what words based solely off what someone has actually been called honestly. the only context in which i've been called a cripple is when i sprained my ankle once (though this happened as a result of being wrongbodied) and it wasn't even done with malicious intent. that's not why i call myself a cripple. conversely, i don't think i have any business ~reclaiming~ the r-slur because when people have called me what they're basically doing is using intellectual disability - something i do not have - as an insult, so they're using their prejudice against someone else's experience as a weapon against me. it's ableist regardless but like the venom behind that word is the dehumanization of intellectually disabled people. and frankly i think "well i'm not id and i've been called it, so" is a especially a weak argument in that case cause like. basically everyone and their mother has been called that word lol it's entered the common public lexicon in the same way that faggot has.

like, all slur ~reclamation~ stuff for me is a facetious way of indicating my relationship to sociocultural norms in the same way labels that aren't slurs do (trans, disabled, etc.) i call myself a cripple (or dynamically crippled) because the way in which i move my disabled body, particular in terms of speed, is not to the expectations of able-bodied society and it is something i have been socially punished for since birth. i will occasionally call myself a faggot not only because i'm an effeminate gender mess who likes men but also because it feels like the best way of articulating my relationship to gender as someone who's been read and essentially classified as an effeminate gender mess since i was a kid. i call myself queer because my gender and sexual orientation situation often doesn't slot under more specific labels and it is at odds with the expectations of heteronormative society. these words as slurs are symbolic of the workings of broader power structures (faggot as punishment for transfemininity and gbq manhood or experiences perceived in alignment with such; cripple as punishment for mobility impairment or experiences perceived as in alignment with such; queer as punishment for being not cis and/or straight or experiences perceived as in alignment with such) so it's never been about who gets called what from my perspective, it's about the symbolism and the ideas being communicated, or the sociocultural norms that are being replicated and reinforced via language.

but it's also a show of what groups of people in society i see myself as sharing enough of an experience or embodiment to, in a sense, at least consider us "siblings" if we are not apart of the same communities. and these reasons are why i get pissed off when other cafab nb people call themselves fags or throw around the word faggot while other times treating gbq men or gnc men solely like they're the butt of a joke rather than a marginalized group that they make it clear through their actions that they don't see themselves as apart of in any significant capacity. that's why i get pissed at able-bodied nd people pitching a fit because a physically disabled person who tragically left this world on their own terms started an internet movement that explicitly didn't include them because "able-bodied" and "cripple" are...surprise... mutually-exclusive social locations and just because we're all disabled doesn't mean we need to be obfuscating difference. like it just seems to me like most people just wanna be edgy and say forbidden(tm) words, or in terms of the able-bodied nd people who act like the big bad cripples(tm) that are strangers on social media are "gatekeeping" shit, they outright seem to be playing the victim in circumstances in which they are most assuredly not because they fail to recognize the privilege they hold even if they are also subject to social marginalization.

this isn't me saying you gotta pass some kind of test or be somehow virtuous in the way in which you ~reclaim~ slurs. that'd be fucking ridiculous. but the way in which you view these things can often be pretty indicative of the way in which you address or feel about certain topics/groups of people. if someone tells you "you shouldn't use the r-slur if you're not intellectually disabled because it's using intellectual disability as an insult" and you go "well it's been used against me too, so" the way i read that is "i don't care (about the broader things that this represents.)"

[theplantscientist]

1994 by Cavetown is such a Steve coded song. And subsequently also very much a Steddie song.

Analysis:

[Verse 1]

I'm trying to forgive myself for things I didn't do

For words I didn't say and things I didn't choose

Spending everyday decomposing in my room

I'm not okay, but there's nothing I can do

The first two lines can easily relate to his King Steve era and how he wished that he stopped Tommy H and Carols bulling and steped up for things that are important to him now and also were back then.

The other two lines are him not having many real/good friends after the upside down happened and being alone a lot of the time (when he's not with the kids or Robin). And also just him dealing with all of the trauma he experienced.

[Verse 2]

I'm tryna love the person I was when I was born

Could be him coming to terms with being queer or just generally dealing with self acceptance in a broader way.

Hating on a kid doesn't serve me anymore

Sylvanians making stories on the floor

And my mom and dad in love like it's 1994

This is him mourning over his lost childhood and how his parents treated him, how their relationship deteriorated over time. (I'm aware that we do not know alot about his family in canon but i'm writing this with the Steve the fandom created in mind)

[Chorus]

Say you're comin' around

I need you lately, everything's been getting me down

Yeah, the kids are grown up, I feel like I'm stuck

But I don't wanna catch up right now

This makes me think of Steddie and how they need eachother. Especially when the kids/ The Party are grown up and don't depend on him that much anymore so he has to find a new purpose in life and deal with his own shit

[Verse 3]

I'm tryna get a better sense of what I'm worth

'Cause I've been on the fence and in the dirt

Taking it easy

But I forgot I had a job and nothing ever stops so

This is him dealing with his selfworth again, especially in the context of the trauma if the upside down and always thinking that it will be back some time soon

[Chorus]

Say you're comin' around

I need you lately, everything's been getting me down

I broke a glass on the floor, it was the last straw

This could be him botteling up all of his feelings and then breaking down when it's too much, or maybe also getting triggered by the noise of the glass breaking.

It's like I woke up on the wrong side of town

This is him still feeling like he's stuck in the upside down (the wrong side of Hawkins)

Say you're comin' around

I need you lately, everything's been getting me down

I felt so much older than the kids 'round the corner

But I feel so much younger now

He felt like he needed to protect all of his kids and now that everything is over and they are grown up he feels left behind. Everyone could move on except for him (or that's at least how he feels). He thinks the kids are ahead of him in life.

And through all of that he needs Eddie with him.

[Outro]

Overtook the month, slow back down

Blamed a child in a daisy crown.

Daisy crown made me think of this post and is therefore also Steddie coded. (I don't think that he blames Eddie for anything tho)

Sorry this got quite angsty so quick.