#for context: i feel like shit and wanna treat myself

[planetxiao]

y’all pls help do i order that açaí bowl or do i save my money for tomorrow

[energ00n]

Ok, making this clear now, this isn't an ask, but a message to those who keep bothering energ00n here. Some of yall are tripping hard or just are being plain ignorant or just being hateful cause y'all can never be happy & never touch grass for some reason.

That last post about Jazz being black and accusing energ00n here for being...idk, stereotypical or racist, is just plain stupid. Was there any racists moments they did or made? No. Was there any stereotypes? No. Was there any indication that he's a black man in all this and not a giant fucking robot in any sort of context whatsoever??? No! If anything, they're just treating Jazz like Jazz and in character in their own way, just cause they don't know the entire expansion of Transformers does not mean they are painting Jazz or any of character in a bad light. Like, for God's sake, I'm black, you wanna come at them with that shit then you better be ready to deal with my ass.

Secondly, those who are being ignorant or being downright annoying by saying this is bad, this awful, repeatedly asking questions just cause your ass doesn't wanna scroll down and read, then you might as well leave. Energ00n has answered the questions someone else beat you to, it's not that hard to read and scroll down. Plus, if your upset over a fan creation then this isn't the space for you, and who the hell takes the time & day to diss on a fan creation where nothing legitimately bad has happened. There is no proshipping, no racism, no hateful content, no misinterpreting anyone, none of that. Just a person who loves Transformers and wanted to share a really amazing AU with the world.

So please, leave energ00n alone and let them do their thing. They have made it clear multiple times, they're not an asshole for having boundaries, they're not a bad person and haven't done anything wrong. Get a life and go join a different fandom if you feel the need to critize someone for doing something they enjoy. Seriously, go after people who are problematic instead of waisting your time trying to justify an argument that never existed to begin with.

(Again, I'm sorry, just had to get it off my chest)

You're too kind to me!!

I've have a few black folks saying that my portrayal of Jazz is fine and it really warms my heart. I feel troubled that you guys even had to defend me because this is the most nothing burger situation ever. My Jazz was largely inspired by his character in Transformers: Exodus the TFP prequel novel, quotes and all. If I put any trope into Jazz, it's the Kdrama, anime, cliche love triangle trope, I have noooo clue what anon was talking about.

I'd like to note that you guys don't have to worry for me!!! I'll still get hotheaded at repetitive or weird asks but it's still entertaining to me than legit anger. If I really get stressed from asks or hate, I'll just shut off anon asks. I know how to handle myself, just want you guys to join in on the laugh whenever we get some weird asks lol

[pruneunfair]

My feelings on: part 8, Tears on a withered flower: the most annoying fandom to date so far.

I ask if this one was really that great since I've been seeing it all over the place on tiktok and Instagram and reading it myself, I can see why it would garner an audience because it's another "working woman finds a better man after her loser ex cheats on her with a stupid damsel girl" type story. It's kinda good but in my opinion: it's not THAT good but there is only 23 chapters I read so far so I'll let it marinate before I actually start going after it for the plot.

What I really wanna talk about is the fanbase of tears on a withered flower because while the manhwa community does have a problem with internalized misogyny this specific fanbase takes the cake.

I don't like saying the term "glazing" but it's the only way to accurately describe the way they treat the FL Na Haesoo because they are absolutely feral. First off, I've seen them lose their shit over other fans simply saying "I think that this female character has a prettier design then Hae soo." And these stans reply with the most immature and even down right laughable comebacks. I took some screenshot of a tears of the wither flower slide show to give you an idea.

"Hae soon is the main character for a reason."

Who's gonna tell them that protagonists can be written poorly?

Trust me, I'm sure no one's jealous of a fictional character.

Okay the context basically was that Hae soos coworker was just being real with her based on what she knows about Hae soos life and apparently fans took that as her being jealous and when people who actually read the god damn plot and use their critical thinking to point this out, the stans basically go "nuh uh" and continue to scream even louder. Personally when I read that chapter i took it as brutal honesty, from her perspective Tae Ha was hitting on a married woman and the two barely knew eachother. A little harsh but she's not jealous of Hae soo 😭 like we barely know this girl!

I think the most complained about aspect of tears on a withered flower is the anatomy, specifically the anatomy of all the characters your supposed to really like/care about.

I don't mind that Hae Soo is built like that cause while her anatomy definitely is unrealistic it's also a cartoon comic and cartoons have lots of bizarre forms of anatomy that don't always need to be accurate. With that said I don't find it a coincidence that the FL who is the most fleshed out and only grown woman who isn't meant to be disliked or made fun of is a tsunade cup sized babe with big thighs, a tiny waist, a nice butt, and a baby face.

Yeah I'll say it: Hae soo is another example of authors wanting to make a non conventionally attractive woman since she's supposed to be older (like 33) who is also overworked so she doesn't take care of herself but in the end they didn't have the balls to actually go through with it so they not only gave Hae soo an amazing figure and hair but they also gave her a clear face, tiny lips and barely noticeable eye bags which I still can't tell if they're even eye bags or just her eyelashes.

When anyone even dares to point out that Hae Soo's design is weirdly propionate compared to the other female characters you get hid with the "Your just jealous that you can't have a man like Tae Ha!!"

look i don't mind disproportionate anatomy in cartoon comics but if you give me character designs with more accurate proportions, I'm going to choose the latter for prettier looking designs.

Another thing about this manhwa was the dialog. I like it at times because it can be so poetic.. and then they just throw in some comically evil sentences for the villains that most sane people would not make the public aware of in a modern day setting. It's not something that really annoys me I just thought it was fun to laugh at every now and again while reading.

conclusion: I think the best way to describe tears on a withered flowers fanbase is kinda like how Netflix treats Bigmouth. No, TOTWF is definitely no where near levels of uncomfortable as Bigmouth but it's in the way that it really isn't as good as everyone claims, it's okay at first and then it got old and some people started opening up that the thought Bigmouth was garbage only for a bunch of stans to barge in with "You just don't get it!!" People won't let it go, they keep insisting it's the best piece of work to exist and anyone who doesn't like it is a jealous loser.

[princess-charlie-of-hell]

Those two have tormenting my mind FOR THIS WHOLE MONTH holly shit, like okay i already was fine about their chemistry and such around the pilot era but now is JUST AAA- genuinely brainrot after my 4 year break from hazbin. I have soo much talk about it and just HGKHKHHH soo much i wanna see with those two idiots in the show (affectionate). But honestly i already know people talked about it but eh fuck it.

LIKE OKAY FIRST OF ALL EPISODE 1 LIKE AM SORRY ALASTOR OUT ALL OF THE CHARACTERS?? DOES A FREAKING COMERCIAL ON TV EVEN DO HE HATES TECHNOLOGY, also home boy why do you have so many photos of Charlie????

SECOND OF ALL freaking episode 5 MAN I CAN'T genuinely i haven't laughed and giggle like that in forever like lucifer getting pissed off because Alastor was getting close to Charlie only to turn into a musical about how he's a better person then her father who can offer to her everything and basically saying straight to lucifer that "you're daughter calls me daddy, bitch" LIKE HELLO??

EPISODE 7 I- no comments every time i rewatch genuinely i thought that she was just about to kiss him just so he can shut up about he's nonsense and stupid jokes, like freaking straight up she was having a break down while he was just smiling like a gremlin and not listening to whole context other then just what he hears which i can already imagine this is what he heard in he's mind "Yeah i'm having a break down right now bla, bla, bla... my girlfriend just keep the biggest secret since we bla, bla, bla and now heaven is bla, bla... I think this is you're perfect opportunity to make a deal with you and repay you later with something special"  And then their the half of the episode where basically everything should explain for itself like come on even freaking Rosie calls him out on that and HE EVEN GIVES HER THE FREAKING MIC something that is part of him like DUDE.

Oh dear episode 8 finale was honestly for me the cherry on the top, seeing Charlie soo happy that Alastor was alive and the fact she didn't even haste to hug him just made my heart melt l like soo much freaking joy from her. Also my brother was starting having a freaking breakdown saying that "Oh am gonna be the one who's pulling on the strings" yeah honey no, hate to break to you but she is fixing you! don't you dare come up with random poor excuses for getting feelings for her.

Seriously am speechless soo many scenes that just no comments.

I NEED season 2, praying on knees we are getting more of them hopefully, like genuinely if she the one who fixes he's scar and the have a moment alone I- or a small kiss on the cheek or Charlie keeps on fixing him and Al opening up about he's life, swear soo many opinions. Not meantion a while ago Amir Talai during a interview he was asked a question during the topic about the possibility of Alastor getting redeem and that question was this "Of all of the characters in the show, who do you think he cares about the most like who will he go above and beyond for versus any anyone else" and freaking smile like a god damm gremlin saying he won't answer that fully knowing something is happening and am like BRUH YOU- come on all the hints are on the table at this point like their just keep teasing us with it.

But that's all my apologies if i ramble to much just can't help myself, lmao.

Massive thank you for the charlastor fandom for keeping together in hard times because jeez talk about the definition of hell, hope season 2 gives us some treats for all that happened.

Oh yeah i swear this just straight up a call out to those two.

Oh my god yes, I feel you first I saw the ship in the pilot and was instantly hooked on it but then I saw episode 7 with the scenes in Charlie's bedroom and was just like 👀👀👀. The chemistry between them was so strong that it could have been used for a Chemistry Lesson

In episode 1 where the Commercial was shown and Alastor said later that his face is made for radio only, I just thought "OK My face was made for radio then why did you film it" or when Charlie was shown, I heard people theorizing that he got extra close to Charlie to film her because he doesn't really know how to use a video recorder and I love it. Of course he has many photos of her, he is obsessed with Charlie

Episode 5 and Hell's greatest dad, despite people using it to hate on Charlastor, honestly was a win for the ship too. Like Anon said, Alastor practically using the "Your daughter calls me daddy (and I call her mommy) card and Charlie defending him against Lucifer was just great" he is doing it for me! "or don't forget Lucifer thinking that Alastor is her boyfriend. Mimzy calling Charlie Alastor's princess, Like why do so many think they are dating

Episode 7 was just Chefs kiss, like I already said the bedroom scene with them was just how the hell am I supposed to not ship them?! Charlie and him walking arm in arm to the cannibal colony and Rosie teasing Alastor that she is too young for him. Or the fact that Alastor gave his cane to Charlie while ready for this. People can tell me what they want but Alastor adores her despite him wanting to manipulate her

Alastor opening up even a bit to Charlie in season 2 would be great, like it makes sense that she is and not someone else. Both of them are the leads and as that their relationship hopefully develops in the show, let's just hope Charlie gets attention from the show. I hope the trend about people thinking they are together continues, image Alastor's mother thinking that Charlie is his girlfriend

And as I saw the interview from Alastor's VA my first thought was that he is talking about Charlie like it makes just sense that she will become a very important person for Alastor, whatever platonic or romantically, but I am not trying to get my hopes up as the show and fandom seems to dislike Charlastor (despite it being one of the most interesting ships)

Don't worry about rumbling too much about them, there isn't too much about them, I could talk hours about the ship! Like they are too cute and interesting. We have a saying in my home country "Zwei idioten, ein Gedanke" which translate to Two idiots, one thought and I think that describes Charlastor very well

[littlevices]

Finished Mob Psycho 100

Spoilers below cut, as well as a lot of gushing and a very long post, just in case anyone needed the warning, lol.

My heart is full. So, so full.

I was not expecting to lover this series as much as I did, had no plans to watch it, let alone read it.

Now here I am, finally finished the series, and I feel so full.

Every episode hit so well, said so much, and had something important in all of them, no matter how small a moment.

So much character development, so much great music, amazing action and animation.

Would you believe me if I told you I didn't care about the art style? That I thought it looked over hyped? That when I heard the first opening back when this was new I didn't like it much? That almost nothing about this show interested me?

The only thing that kept me connected to this show at all was the first ending song, it's animation, and the english fan cover of it by Dima Lancaster on youtube. Despite everything else not catching my eye at the time, this song by itself was the one thing that kept this show on my radar at all.

Years later, and I do mean years, I finally bit the bullet after rewatching all the opening and endings and even a few scenes on youtube to decide if this show was something I really wanted to watch. Why? Well, why not?

Obviously, I was spoiled in some things cause of this, but that didn't stop me, lol. I'm not easily deterred by this, but I did want to be transparent about that before going further. I still had no idea about character personalities and things like that, so I still had plenty of surprises in store. Plus, a number of these things hit way harder with context than they did without. For anyone interested, I knew about Reigen's confession, about the Touichiro fight, that Mob was trapped in Mogami's world for six months. However, none of that was enough to make me wanna watch the show 'right here right now' because without context I had no idea how Mogami's world worked, why Reigen's confession was important, nor how it would fit into the show proper, and there was absolutely no context for Touichiro.

Hopefully this doesn't deter you from reading further, but, again, I wanted to be transparent about those things as I now know how important those particular moments are to the series (and yes, the context made them so much better after finally watching it myself).

You still with me? Shall we continue then?

I fell in love with Mob near instantly in Episode 1. Watching him try his hardest at gym while still failing was so adorable and gave me a D'aww moment.

Reigen, however, not so much.

I know you know where I'm going with this. He was clearly a liar, fraud, underpaying Mob, and using him. He wasn't terrible, so to say, but his treatment of Mob in episode one made me wonder if I would be able to tolerate him for the whole season, seeing as I knew he was going to be a staple main character.

However, I too, have fallen into the sweaty rat man's trap and he is now one of my favorite characters in anime along with Mob and a few others.

Actually, I fell in love with nearly the whole damn cast, lol. But more about that later.

The art style grew on me quickly. It also helped that it's simplicity made it easy to make stellar animation and camera shots. Obviously, there are some episodes where Bones went way harder than they needed to. Episode 8 of season 1 (Mob vs Koyama), and episode 5 of season 2 (Mob vs Mogami) are obvious picks along with the finals of both those seasons (1000% Reigen vs Claw and Mob vs Touichiro). However, Mob vs Teru in 1x5 and Serizawa fighting in 3x2 are some of my favorites along with the more obvious choices. Plus, anytime Dimple possesses someone and proceeds to backflip and jump around despite nobody asking him too was always a treat (seriously, how old is he really? Where did he learn that shit?).

Reigen's special attacks were a highlight, especially when he starts showing off his own fighting style as well (I was not expecting this man to be able to fight and, later, parkour, what the hell).

Which brings us back around to the writing and characters doesn't it?

What can I say that hasn't already been said? The writing is great. Humorous and heartfelt. Sure, I felt like every once and a while it was a little too heavy handed when delivering it's message, and I didn't think the narrator was needed in some scenes, but it didn't really take away my enjoyment.

Also, can I just, take a moment to show some interesting details I noticed in the final episodes.

These details were very neat to witness. Small callbacks to earlier in the series it feels like.

However-

"But I guess it's true. . . I'm your brother, Ritsu. Hey, Ristu. Half of that is true, right?"

"So there's no reason to be scared. There's no reason to tremble at the sight of it. Because I'm. . . Your younger brother."

I can't even with this scene between Mob and Ritsu in the second to final episode. It just calls back so well to 1x8 and the alley way confrontation that it makes me tear up. I might make a separate post for this alone, lol.

This is what really made the story for me. The characters and the development they gained. I didn't love nor hate Tome when meeting her, but episodes 3x7 and 3x8 added a grounded element to her, along with that little scene in the marathon episode where the scolded her friends for faking ill when Mob had been working so hard. Serizawa getting over his admiration for Touichiro and working at Spirits and Such was a fun dynamic, even if late in the game so to speak. Ritsu learning to accept and not be scared of Mob's power, Teru going from being a bully to a genuinely a nice (if still somewhat overconfident) guy, and even Onigawara and the Body Improvement Club. I was not expecting to fall in love with a snot bubble, but here I am. So many wonderful characters, such a wonderful cast.

However, I can't mention character development with mentioning my favorite boys, can I?

Mob's growing confidence, learning not to rely on Reigen so much and coming to terms with his powers and himself as a person, what this whole show was about, was wonderful. The way he slowly became more expressive over time (like the screenshot above says), and him going from not wanting to use his powers at all to slowly realizing that sometimes he may have to protect what he cares about (even though Reigen tries so hard to protect him from that).

Reigen won my heart by the end of season 1, so when the seperation arc came I couldn't help but wince and cringe. I came to love his character and his relationship with Mob so much, that seeing this low point gave me so much second hand embarrassment. I felt bad for him, in a way, but this cringe was very much needed. Reigen needed the wake up call and I was so glad to see him take that lesson to heart in the next episode. I had heard his relationship with Mob got healthier, and I had heard whispers of the separation arc, but I was not expecting to be so wonderfully surprised by the way it worked. Reigen didn't fall immediately, he managed to do well for a while. It was only after being tricked, and, frankly, growing overconfident that his words and actions hit.

Which is the context I needed to make his confession in the final episode so important. Him finally coming clean, proving to Mob's other half, the doubts Mob had always harbored about Reigen, that he did indeed care about him. That he would shed even that lie, his biggest one arguably, if it meant helping Mob. That him finally being forced to realize how much Mob meant to him in the separation arc, and seeing, slowly, the feelings Mob had been holding back and how much it affected him, gave Reigen himself the courage to finally shed the final lie between the two of them if it meant Mob could finally heal (at least, that's my feelings anyway, lol.). It says so much about the relationship between these two, and their dynamic has become a favorite of mine (if you couldn't tell ;)).

Also, that opening that I didn't like before? The first one? Yeah, I've grown to love it and the other songs as well. The fact that they were made specifically for this show, and the context of the lyrics and show together, add so much to them. I'm not sure if the endings are in the same boat, but I love them too.

However, I think I've rambled long enough. If you got to the end here, well thank you very much for your time. This show has become a favorite so quickly, that it made even my head spin, lol.

Also, yes, you can bet I'm reading that Reigen spin-off, because more Reigen is always a good thing in my book. Love that shitty conman so much. <3 (I might even read the original manga too)

Edit: Read the Reigen spin-off. That post can be found here. Beware of spoilers, though!

[pennkquest]

Alright, I'll bite. (Sparked by this post) I'm gonna preface this with some context: 

First off: I'm Black in case you're unaware

Huxley is my favorite speaker. Full stop. You ask me to choose, it’ll always be him. 

Likewise, you ask for my favorite listeners, I will say Starlight and Darlin'. (I'll save my Starlight rant for another day)

My designs for both Huxley and Darlin are Black.

With this in mind, I want to be clear from the jump: I don’t have an inherent problem with these headcanons. If I did, I wouldn’t have chosen then myself. That said, I have noticed that Hux and Darlin are, more often than not, the characters that get headcanoned as POC (specifically Black) in design rosters. In some cases, they are the only POC designs present. Why is that?

Furthermore, the more often I notice this pattern so to speak, the more I sit and think about why those headcanons are so popular. I find my answer when I think about the characters I see headcanoned as white most often. Tell me why it’s "practically canon" for Lasko to be pale with light/white hair. Tell me why white Sam "just makes sense". Why? Because Lasko's a nerdy ball of nerves that stumbles over his words? Because Sam’s a sweet Southern man at heart? Those are not inherently white attributes.

Except they're treated as such. They go virtually unchallenged because they're so widely accepted by fandom. People see these personalities and character details and come up with their vision. So, let's apply that to Huxley and Darlin, shall we?

Huxley: Athlete. Canonically implied to be big, as indicated by statements made by him and other members of the DAMN crew. Classified as a himbo with parallels in Imperium highlighting how some will view him as stupid. Overall chill vibe.

Darlin: Reckless with their safety. Known to lash out/lose control of their emotions when they’re not actively hiding them. Gets injured often because they’re too stubborn to run from trouble. An overall intense demeanor that makes them difficult to approach (at least at first). 

Explain to me why this screams Black to so many people. Is it because Huxley's a dumb jock who you imagine gets stoned all the time? Oh, is it perhaps because Darlin is just so aggressive compared to your Golden Retriever-coded Asher, needing to be calmed down by everyone around them? And here's the thing: I can already imagine people saying, "That's not why I made them Black". Then explain why it "just makes sense" for them to Black. Why them out of a sea of characters? Make it make sense.

Now let me make this clear as well: I'm not expecting every headcanon to have elaborate thought behind it. For one, I get that some people take a more casual approach with designs and such. Not every choice has to have a reason or justification behind it. But when literally 95% of the Huxley designs I see are Black and half of y'all don't even know what a fucking durag is? Saying it leaves a bad taste in my mouth is putting it lightly.

You know what I wish I saw more of? Black Huxleys and Darlins with attached nuance.

Give me a Black Darlin who struggles to articulate how they feel with the people in their lives because they haven't been readily given the language to do so. You want to pair a Black Darlin with a White Sam? Why not talk about how POC have an insanely difficult time getting support from the medical system so not only does it explain why Darlin is so resistant to go to healers, but also gives an extra weight to the fact that Sam was their absolute last resort when injured? Give me a Black Darlin who has been taught their entire life that no one will have their back, that they need to learn how to depend on themself alone, and that's the reason why they struggle to feel like the pack would've cared when the Quinn shit went on.

You wanna talk Black Huxleys? Let's touch on how he's learned to control his emotions/anger because he knows how people will take it if it comes from someone who looks like him. Talk about how his moms teaching him not to use violence speaks to a deeper desire for him not to be viewed as a threat because they fear for his life otherwise. In one of his BAs, he mentions how a lot of people used to sleep with him/flirt with him solely because of his body and he could tell. Do you know how often black men are sexualized and fetishized? Why not talk about it through him? I see people explore that concept through Gavin constantly, where's the energy for Huxley? You wanna make him Black so bad, why not actually put some thought behind it? Because right now, it seems like he gets the "luxury" of being the token Black guy in the DAMN friend group at best.

I know a lot of people are probably going to dismiss this post. I am already anticipating that as I write this. But I'm so tired of pretending like this shit doesn't get to me. Because it does. I've got no intentions of leaving this fandom because I have met so many amazing people and adore Erik's content immensely. But what I am going to do is talk about the widespread normalization of attributing certain personality traits to certain racial groups. Because the non-white people in this fandom deserve better than that.

[dantefreakdaaaa]

Can I request a Johnny Cage fic where him and the reader are together and he’s always like the protector, but she comes through and saves him this time and is like “see I’ve always said I could take care of myself” with some fluff or smut or whatever you want to add!

Johnny cage x reader

fluff

Romantic

Gn reader

A/n: I'm so happy I'm getting johnny requests AAAAA, there's needs to be more fics of him anyways. For context it's the johnny and erron fight but it's past johnny instead of present johnny because past Johnny's silly to write :3 if you like this feel free to request!

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Johnny always made you sit out in a fight, no matter how many times you told him that you knew how to protect yourself. Due to his overwhelming urge to show off and to protect you, he always made you sit on the sidelines or somewhere safe while he went out to fight. And while it was sweet, it still annoyed you. You knew he was just trying to protect you but being treated like a civilian was no fun.

"Relax, I got this. You don't even need to lift a finger."

"Johnny wait-!"

Before you could finish your sentence, Johnny charged head on into the fight without thinking. Like he always did. And while at first he was doing some damage, after about a minute or so he was flat on his back. Blood poured from his nose and you noticed how scared he was as Erron had a gun pointed to his head.

"Any last words for your fans?"

"uh- shit-..."

Immediately, you rushed over to him and kicked erron to the side before rushing to help Johnny up.

"What are you-!? I told you to let me handle it-!"

"You were gonna die Johnny, not gonna let that happen." You held johnny for a second, examining his wounds before looking over at erron. He was hunched over and trying to stand up.

"just stay here, I'm gonna deal with erron and I'm gonna get you help. Okay?"

"no I got it- let me protect you!" Johnny tried to sit up, coughing as he layed back down.

"you're in no shape to protect me Johnny, look at you! You need to let me handle this."

He looked at you, sighing as he realized he had no other choice.

"fine... but just protect yourself.."

"no, I'm gonna take care of erron and protect you, Johnny." You gently set him down and stood up, noticing that erron had gotten to his feet.

-

"Thanks for uh... for saving me back there..." Johnny smiled as he tried to think of what words to say. He let you pull him to his feet and he stumbled, almost falling forward.

"No problem, Johnny. Next time you gotta let me help you. I know that you wanna protect me but you also gotta let me protect myself."

"But what if you get hurt? Or- or you die? Or what it-"

"Johnny. I know you're worried about me, but I'm gonna be okay. You need to worry more about yourself. You got hurt pretty bad."

"fine... I guess you're right..." He sighed, shaking his head as he looked down at himself. His clothes were covered in blood, mostly his own.

"now c'mon, this fight isn't over yet."

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(lazy ending but I wanted to post something today, hope you like it!)

[angelshipper]

Purely cuz that other weirdo essentially derailed the entire conversation (cuz. Their blog is honestly pretty yikes) the point I wanna make about Steph/Tim connects to other shit you yourself have posted about. Namely - it's very hard to divorce that relationship from what a massive piece of shit Chuck Dixon is. There are things to like for sure? But because a LOT of Tim and Steph's relationship was written by a Conservative assclown who kinda used Steph as a punching bag for a LOT of Tim's run as Robin, a lotta fans (myself included) have disliked them as a ship because other writers in other books didn't treat Steph so shittily. It comes across in Dixon's writing as Comphet because almost everything Dixon could think to do with her was really sexist and her relevance in the comics was almost always tied directly to Tim - and that rubs a lot of people the wrong way, even if it's not the case in EVERY book that has Tim and Steph be a couple. Saying dismissing their relationship is Bi Erasure is in and of itself Biphobic, because it creates the implication that Tim needs to have equal significance placed on ALL his relationships to JUSTIFY his Bisexuality to the audience. And that's kinda fucked. The fact that most of the current stuff is heavily emphasising and focusing on the relationship he's currently in isn't Bi-Erasure, but demanding everyone shut up about his literal actual current boyfriend and talk about his ex-girlfriend kinda is. Is it Biphobia that basically no one talks about his relationship with Tam Fox from Red Robin (2009), or any of the many one-off or short term romances he had with girls that happened during his solo run as Robin or the Batman/Detective Comics ongoings while he was the main/only Robin? If not, then how is it SPECIFICALLY Bi Erasure to dislike the Romance between Steph and Tim for reasons that are actually way more about how poorly STEPH was treated while she was dating him? If you like the Tim/Steph ship more than any other option for either character, good for you, but please don't invoke serious actual bigotry to justify why your ship is actually the morally correct one.

I DONT LIKE TIM/STEPH. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID THAT????? Listen. My very first DC ship was Tim/Kon. I personally always liked Steph with Cassie in the fics I've seen of them. I don't even LIKE Tim as a character 😭 but you keep acting like I do? And this is not me "defending" my ship. It's not. I like their friendship fine.

I see now how my original post could come across like that and I do want to say that I very much did not explain myself well. My point was very specifically in cases where people bring up his past relationships and say shit like it wasn't real to Tim or when people make jokes saying they act like "siblings" (which is just....gross to me? In like an opposite way that Jaytim is also gross to me. Like they made out with eachother in comics and that just feels very weird but idk).

Regardless of that, my point was that people tend to dismiss their relationship as a whole one the BASIS that it was with a woman. Not because it was with Steph specifically. This isn't me making stuff up, this was stuff that was EXPLICITLY stated to me in all kinds of content I consumed. That because Steph (and others) weren't guys, Tim didn't "actually" have an attraction to them- THAT is what I thought came across as biphobia.

Like I'll be reading a fic or watching a skit and there will be a point where someone makes some kind of joke about women being hot or whatever and Tim will ACTIVELY dismiss them as part of the joke on the basis "but men tho" or will be "grossed" out when someone even MENTIONS him dating a girl (even if he isn't even dating Bernard in the context of the skit or fic or whatever) Like that doesn't come across as biphobic?

I don't care if you don't ship T/S. I DON'T EITHER AND I FEEL LIKE IVE SAID THAT SEVERAL TIMES?? But saying that their relationship WASN'T important to Tim or even less important just because it was with a girl and not a boy, and ignoring the fact he can even be attracted to girls, is that not biphobic? Like actually. If you think he'd solely gay and that all his relationships with women were comphet, fine. But in the actual text of the comics, that isn't the case. If DC comes out and says yeah, Tim is actually gay he just thought he had to be attracted to women, then I'd concede and say you were right.

Also SEVERAL writers have written about their relationship, not just Dixon? The first title I was even introduced to them as a relationship it wasn't through Dixon (because i honestly wasn't reading in any particularly order). And even though all your points about him were correct, it doesn't change the fact that SEVERAL writers have chosen to depict T/S's relationship as being meaningful to both of them, because it was??

Also like I said before, I made the exact same point you brought up about talking about his last relationships. OBVIOUSLY they're going to focus on his current one, even in fanworks they focus on the relationship and tend to ignore the rest. But WHEN those past relationships come up, THAT is when I see people acting like their relationship wasn't meaningful or didn't hold love between them.

Listen, if someone chooses to make Tim gay in their fanworks or whatever, and makes the exact same joke I brought up before, I don't care. I can just ignore it, block them, whatever but they are choosing to erase his attraction to women in their work, they're not saying he was never attracted to them. If someone goes out of their way to say how Tim is bi and then makes it a point to say how he isn't attracted to girls or claims their skit/fanfiction/art/whatever is meant to be based in canon and then does the same thing, then yeah it comes across as biphobic.

Like my issue isn't the fact people are focusing on his relationship with Bernard, my issue is that if Stephanie is brought up she's dismissed as not being in a "real" relationship with Tim.

I'm not saying Tim HAS to hold every relationship in equal importance. If he finds he has a stronger attraction to men than women? All the power to him. I'm not even saying that Tim had to have loved Stephanie more than he currently loves Bernard, maybe Bernard is more important to him that Stephanie ever was. But saying he was never attracted to women? That's what seems iffy to me.

[captainleviswifee]

I'm shaking..

Y'all recently last year I've been dragged into drama by another artist on instagram. All bc I disagreed with her way to art. We were members of many gcs and servers. And I was honestly so scared because she's so popular and has many friends in the community. I didn't felt safe considering her history of harassing and attacking other artist. Causing some people I know to leave the community.

I was relieved when she left every gc and server I was with her. But then she was invited back by one of the admins of one of the groups we were both in despite knowing what she did to me. They refused to mediate/moderate their own group and anything and didn't take accountability despite being friends with me and despite all the contributions I did to that group. The entire situation felt unfair. Now that's smth I can still bear with. Because I had a mindset that no one is obligated to have my back I never asked them to. But I felt indignant when they recently complained about bystanders when they were bystanders too. They just kept telling me to block and move on, while they invite back the person that attacked me. I liked them a lot and I was disappointed.

No one really knew of this issue besides friends who have known me personally and the people involved. But now I'm sharing this because last night another well-known artist in the community blocked me. I haven't talked to her or even interacted to her.

It could be because she doesn't wanna see my Levi x Eve content and that's honestly fine. I don't mind that. But I'm more worried about if she blocked me because of the drama that elitist artist caused. Or whatever rumor there was. but that artist is the only person I know I have beefed with in a serious context.

And now I'm just scared that I'll get a repeat of what happened again. Getting isolated or ignored and treated unfairly again.

Scared to a point, I haven't been sleeping well. My sleep schedule went Levi style XD and I keep forgetting my meals. I'm only realizing now that I've been anxious about these series of events even though I try not to always show it.

I've been keeping to myself, because I keep telling to myself that my followers are here for my art and Levi arts. Trying to escape in my delulu world until the other artist blocked me. But I really can't now if I feel like it's going to happen all over again. On top of everything in real life. When what I do here especially with art and the fanfic is what has helped me keep going year after year.

If you hear anyone shit talking about me, please please always ask for full, uncut, and unblocked proofs. Or if you can, talk to me. DM me about it. I don't want an another repeat of that especially in a community where people get easily trashed and cancelled. People believing things without question.

This entire situation on top of all the drama I heard of all the shit I've heard and seen people do. (I have proofs of almost about all of em) caused me to lose my spark. There's only a handful of you guys here who engage with any content about Eve or her story. When it's the reason of why I'm here. I would've left this fandom with all the shit I've seen (in the short year I've been here) if not for Eve and her story. I just wanted to finish that. But all this is causing me to feel demotivated about my art. Because what for? No one would bother with it...

I didn't realized it, but now I see it. These are all WIPs of Eve art. I never finished a single one of them except the first post. And it fucking hurt. It felt like I abandoned Eve...

I've only been recently trying to find my artist self despite all that's been happening. And thats why I did that Eve character sheet redraw. I never got to post the character sheet because I felt unmotivated and thought that one sucked af.

You guys have NO idea. How your comments, your likes, your funny and sweet reblogs alike have cheered me up even just for a while🥺 I appreciate it a lot. That I still have you guys at least. Especially my good friends here 😭🌹 I love you guys a lot. I'll keep trying. But I'll try to take things slower from here on out... I'll still draw I'll just be kinder to myself from now on.

Edit: if y'all want receipts. Just ask. DM me about it.

[eva-does-its-best]

Updated 07/01/25

"Transmasc or transfem?" Currently both.

"Transneutral?" I personaly feel like neutrality means the opposite of androgynous (neither vs both on a binary system) so I'm not neutral, because I want ambiguous presentation, not be devoid of gender presentation.

"Are you non-binary?" By definition yeah, or queer, or any other term like that, as long as people don't use it as an excuse to dump me on a third gender and ignore whole parts of my gender.

"Tme or Tma?" Get that transphobic and intersexist shit out of my face immediately. Call me any of that and I will block you.

"Afab or amab?" I mention it sometimes when it is relevant to the conversation, otherwise it does not matter and you don't need to know. Whatever judgement you were reserving for my answer you can choke on it.

"male or female?" I know what I was assigned, and that means nothing to the reality of my body, so I don't know, I don't care, it's irrelevant, and you are not my doctor.

"Penis or vagina?" Wow, a totally different question that to you means the exact same thing as the last 2 or 3!! Well, ignoring the fact that you are acting like those are the only options, you don't need to know, why would you need to know about which meaningless body part I have? We're not having sex right now. Oh right, judgement. In friendly and joking contexts I have no problem mentioning it, but since you're asking it in a serious manner I will either not tell you or blatantly lie to you ok? :3 ok.

"How do your genders work? Are they fluid?" Kinda, all of them are always present and real, it just changes which one is "fronting". Pouring water on an empty glass does not make the glass itself disappear, having one gender fronting does not erase the rest.

"You say you are x kind of trans but that cannot be, because of your agab!" I don't follow that definition of trans you are using, my agab doesn't mean shit to my genders.

"Do you use transmasc and transfem interchangeably with tboy and tgirl?" Nah I'm just figuring things out so I use them interchangeably for myself temporarily, you shouldn't do that to anyone else it would be very disrespectful.

"Why do you use boy and girl for yourself instead of man and woman? Is it an age thing?" No, I simply dislike the connotations of man and woman and am uncomfortable using them, it is also in a way a form of rebelion against societal expectations of adulting that are so deeply gender essentialist and ableist.

"I feel bad calling you an it" I don't care, your comfort is not an excuse to misgender me, stop acting like a transphobe or I'll believe you're a transphobe. My friends can she/her me if they want because they are my friends; a random person who refuses to use my primary pronouns has not earned the right to use my other pronouns.

"You'll get rid of x body part/traits, right?" Very kindly fuck you, your expectations, and your assumptions about me and every other trans person. I'll do what I want with my body, none of your business, if you treat any of my body traits (even the ones I personally dislike) as inherently negative shit that I surely wanna get rid of then you are not mature enough about gender and body diversity to have any kind of opinion in the matter.

[thornsent]

Hi sorry I didn't mean for the tone to come off that weird and I was on mobile. I took for granted that lesbianchemicalplant is pretty well known to be Like That and should have provided proof. One of the reasons that you can search spacelazarwolf and not get too much is because she mostly uses screenshots and also tumblr's search feature is garbage.

Anyway, she frequently is weird about trans men and calls any talking about their experiences Privileged and transandrophobia truthers

And then is also weird about Jews. Like all the time. Any time any jew talks about their experience she claims they are a zionist

hey! it's all good, and thanks for not being afraid to come off anon. I don't wanna be hostile to people but it's easy to read anons as being in poor faith for.. obvious reasons lmao, average tumblr experience

anyway I do agree this shit abt transmascs is vile. it's very funny that she has baeddels in her dni but is basically regurgitating their shit.

as for the jewish stuff, I still have to reiterate that she herself is jewish according to her about, and I feel like she has the right to cricitize her own community especially wrt orthodoxy & trauma. to be honest, these screenshots still feel real cherry-picked and don't have much context behind them. most of the claims of zionism I'm seeing on her blog are pretty well-founded, especially when a few of these people overtly call themselves zionists. the exception is when she uses fanpol to justify accusations of bigotry, which I think is generally a stupid stance anyway

I don't really use this website for discourse or news LMAO this is the website where I talk about being a faggot and look at images and sometimes reblog opinionated posts. I rb'd the post we're talking about because to me it spoke to a broader issue wherein tumblr's attempts at acceptance/inclusion become infantilizing and erase problems within already-marginalized communities... Treating a community like it is Inherently Progressive is clearly better than antisemitism but it's still bad, you know?

overall I am far from a fan of OP and I don't 100% agree with everything she says or believes, but I don't necessarily think that I have to. I might delete the post because, while I am learning, I am not myself Jewish & don't wish to overstep. but I don't think she was being weird about jewish people, I think she just cares about zionism and doesn't like jumblr being full of libs lol

[marsti]

i think a big part of the reason why ive been so depressed is i keep failing to make genuine connection with other transmasc people and it's like... it didnt used to bother me but ive been feeling this growing isolation

i dont talk about it because i really dont wanna think about it but i have lost 6 friends in the year in a half ive been on T, and it wasnt some nice natural friend break ups. not gonna get into details but the long and short of it is im not as repressed and no longer sad all the time and they really didnt like that. so it feels like im getting punished for being happy.

and when it started happening and i tried to talk about it i just lost more friends so ive just kinda been keeping it to myself. it's made a lot of my intrusive thoughts regarding my transition way worse. so since it was really starting to get to me i was like, hey i know! ill just try to socialize with trans guys, itll be good for my mental health to meet more people like me and they definitely wont pull this shit because they get it! perfect plan.

but then idk. theres something about me i guess. i know the look that says "whys that freak talking to me" all too well but i really dont need it right now, and in the context of a supposedly safe space it feels even worse. and so im just left here sitting in my room alone wondering why everyone treats me like im diseased.

[cathulhu-collective]

Dear r/systemscringe:

To follow up my last post, I have a slew of further evidence for you, alongside a special challenge.

Here is the site, Peerblock. Don't worry, I'm sure smarty pants like you guys will be able to figure out how to use it, if a silly psychotic like myself can. Go ahead and run the program, as long as you feel like running it. If any of you get even 1 result from the US Government, I will concede to you I'm just some silly psycho who doesn't know what I'm talking about.

Check out the date. I made sure to pick today's current date and time to show you my last post wasn't a 1 off fluke several months ago. This is my computer, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

I don't generally go full ham trying to "prove" shit, but, since I was posted to systemscringe, and I find you all a bunch of sanctimonious fools, I'd love to see you try to debunk me. So, it seemed some of you doubted my information about DARPA (you didn't know it existed till I mentioned it, right?) I'm guessing you didn't look it up after I mentioned it, either. So in general, I'm going to share details about established psychological programs and methods in the defense industry specifically intended to alter and condition its subjects. This goes beyond DARPA, every intelligence agency and defense organizations, and thinktank in existence is knee deep on studying psychological manipulation.

Every screenshot I post will also have a link to the corresponding full pdf or article (you guys won't be able to understand the jargon, though, which is why I'm screenshotting the overviews - wanna test my understanding on any part? go ahead. send me an ask.)

I actually have a friend who worked with a DARPA employee on technology that was meant to be used for "writing" thoughts to a persons brain physically. A far fetched claim, you'll agree.

The back of that phone says, "Thync Alpha"

I'm just curious, how many instances of modern, defense/intelligence sanctioned psychological experimentation programs do I have to cite before you people STFU? I guess probably there is no limit on the amount of hard evidence a contrarian redditor can deny in order to stubbornly cleave to their false assumptions.

How about yet another PDF appropriately titled, "Cognitive Warfare"?:

but nah, r/systemscringe knows way better than DARPA and the US Military, that psychological manipulation, conditioning, and programming for the purposes of control just cannot happen. That was abandoned in the 70s, didn't you hear? That is the end of it. Good thing people won't actually look into the subject and pull up official public documents that are required by these various agencies to be on record. They can rely upon people like you, r/systemscringe, to keep the world from protesting against the ethics of 'cognitive warfare'.

Remember how I said that mind control/coercive influence (they don't call it fucking mind control, *duh*) is widely in use in the military, to condition soldiers properly for combat? This isn't a fact in dispute, or even a secret.

Here is an article from an Indian Defense Studies website.

The author looks pretty credible, huh?

When I said that I can't stand all of this bullshit about how "psychological programming is not possible", I meant it. Your first mistake was to assume that just because I refuse to tell you about the exact, specific, advanced methodology, I lack any evidence to show you. I don't. I could go on, and on, and on. I could write you a thesis.

Here is proof from the illustrious Stanford Research Institute that defense organizations are utilizing and studying Neuro Linguistic Programming - a psychological influence technique in widespread modern use in some contexts, especially including defense and intelligence, but also business and sales.

You could argue this isn't a fair one because it's a study of another nation's use of the technique, but it still contributes to the overall thesis that this stuff exists, plain and simple, no matter who you want to ascribe the source to. That's a very important point to be made here.

If you truly want to find some of your own sources, go ahead and search, "Enhanced Interrogation Tactics" - "BSCT" was a hint, dudes. Here is what BSCTs do.

Wow, it's almost like psychological torture is a form of mind control. It's almost like what I said is complete and total fact.

I guess one of you may argue that these programs, while they support my point about the existence and importance of psychological manipulation in the defense and intelligence sectors, are only for use internationally, and would not be used on private citizens, especially the likes of some random chick. Except, oops, it already was used domestically.

What exactly makes you think that if it could fly in the 70s, it couldn't fly today? Do you realize that even back in the 70s, the MK Ultra program still violated the Geneva Convention? So why do you think that magically, the ethics of this stuff have improved?

Perhaps, juuuust perhaps, I'm not some random person with no background in these areas after all? That maybe there actually are things about my background that would justify psychological control of me through psychological conditioning? That perhaps there is a reason I can easily read and interpret the jargon of these articles, which a "normal" person could never even *find*?

If any of you from system cringe want to message me here and challenge my understanding of these texts, go for it, my asks are open.

[monstersinthecosmos]

god what voltron episode(s) should i rewatch. and what to look out for

sdjgklasd gosh idk recently I've rewatched the second half of S2 a few times, from the BOM Trial to Shiro's disappearance because I want to like really nail down the timeline and make it make sense. I am also just studying Keith like he's a bug.

Full disclosure that I actually haven't watched the entire series all the way through except for the first time, I mostly just watch The Sheith Movie, but sometimes I wanna zoom out and see the bigger context of the episode, or see some of the Keith scenes that The Sheith Movie didn't include. Like Hunk & Keith's mission for scaultrite in the next episode and the fallout between Allura and Keith when she realizes he's part Galra and starts treating him like shit!

I love watching the way he gets frustrated by everyone making a big deal about it, especially after the emotional climax of the Trial was him accepting himself and deciding he knows who he is--it leads him to learn something HUGE about himself, but he stays steadfast in "I'm still me" afterwards, and doesn't want anyone to make a big deal about it. Like, Hunk is teasing him a little but still friendly and still accepts him, but Keith doesn't even want to talk about it, vs Allura who sort of affirms all his fears by judging him and icing him out.

And even after all that, leading into their big fight with Zarkon, they know this could be it, that if they succeed the war could be over, and he thinks it might be a good time to go find his family. There's something, HMM!, kinda twisty & crunchy about this concept to me, about KNOWLEDGE OR DEATH, and kinda feels a little bit DBT-ish to me, sort of radical acceptance, realizing his sense of self and learning to be okay with it, but also open to the quest for knowledge. Like "I am me, for all the faults and bullshit and trauma, my dad died and I never knew my mom and Shiro saved me" IS A COMPLETE PACKAGE, that's who Keith is! He accepts it! It's no longer "I don't know who I am because people abandoned me and I can't be myself unless I can find this nebulous external validation." So anyway. Yes, he's Keith, he's himself, this is it, YOLO, whatever, but. He is still open to the knowledge of finding his family.

The BOM Trial episode is really so so good though. It's like such an incredible battle for him to accept his identity and the truth of his lived experience, all the while TRIANGULATED BETWEEN HIS THREE FATHER FIGURES, i mean is it an accident that he passes out in the penis hallway?

(last time I raved about this, I had to look it up to grab the picture LOL)

also SOMETHING SOMETHING Shiro fully connecting with the idea that Zarkon used to be the Black Paladin and how really facing his trauma and accepting it head on GETS HIM KILLED. lmao i have to lie down.

[twothpaste]

Giegue/giygas for the ask game, maybe?

First impression: I learned about Giygas through internet osmosis long before I even thought to play EarthBound. All the usual "ooooh this game is secretly sooo dark" and "he's ack-chewally an aborted fetus, see, oooo" kinda shit. I remember it giving me the impression Mother was way scarier and edgier than it turned out to be. (I played games like OFF and Yume Nikki first though. So by the time I got around to Mother, it was very refreshing to play somethin bright & uplifting at its core, lmao.) (In retrospect, I kinda wish Giygas wasn't among the first things every prospective player is told about the EarthBound. Going into the Giygas battle blind seems like it would've rearranged my brain molecules, and I wish I'd gotten to experience it like that.) I forget when exactly I learned about Giegue (I didn't get to play M1 blind either), but I'm pretty sure my first impression was honestly pretty neutral? The imposing presence of a huge alien spaceship, 8-bit sci-fi machinery, and a barely legible creature in a capsule was pretty wicked to see for myself the first time though!

Impression now: Giygas is a big triple decker chocolate layer cake worth of metaphor & symbolism. The existential horror of growing up, the fear of losing who you fundamentally are in the process, the horrific inhumanity adults are capable of, the hopelessness of coming to terms with the world as it is, and so on. Not really a character per se, but the quintessential globular slurry of adolescent angst Ness & pals've gotta contend with. Giegue is a bittersweet little story about a broken family. An internal conflict between vengeance, familial love, and maybe where one's obligations lie? Cool antagonist for sure. I wanna like him more than I do (M1's cryptic hands-off approach to storytelling is hard for me to sink my teeth into 😔). I've speculatively written (and drawn a comic for the upcoming zine 😉) about how Giegue became Giygas, and read some good fics on the topic. In the canon we're given, though? There's really so little binding them together narratively or thematically… I have a difficult time reconciling the two, in the context of the games themselves. Mother 2 in general feels more like a reboot than a sequel - and there's hardly if any "lore" weaving Giegue & Giygas together - so Itoi's choice to declare they're one and the same just seems kinda odd to me. C'est la vie. Fan creators make do.

Favorite moment: The Giygas battle, but like, before he goes sicko mode. When he's bound to a chamber of wires and innards, reflecting Ness' face back at him, and it turns out our fervently raving buddy Porky is actually the one in "control". The atmosphere is so intense and unnerving, such a bizarre yet captivating way to ramp things up. There's like, this sense of stomach-churning dread, as you begin - if only scarcely - to realize the alien overlord you were expecting is an entity far more powerful and personal and helpless and incomprehensible than you ever could've imagined. I mean. You know, because the internet spoiled you when you were 11. But in the bigness of the moment it still makes my mitochondria itch on a primal and cellular level. /pos. Love it.

Idea for a story: My favorite Giegue thing is the vague implication (??) of whatever the hell George did to to him. Y'know, whatever made him hate humanity so much. Whenever I see fan content speculating on how George might've experimented on him or mistreated him I do in fact Feel Somethin' There. (I have been a sucker for angsty-creature-in-a-lab stories from the time I saw Mewtwo Strikes Back in kindergarten all the way to Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3 a couple months ago, and I don't suppose I'll ever be sick of 'em.) The conflict it introduces between George and Maria is intriguing too. Like, her husband's treating her dearly beloved child like a science project? Trying to extract the secrets of PSI from his oversized alien brain?? You know if this kinda shit went down, those two were on a caliber of divorce drama the world has rarely seen.

Unpopular opinion: I really like Giegue design interpretations that're freaky and grotesque and biologically unfamiliar. When the beast isn't just mammalian in nature. Truly out of this world.

Favorite relationship: A mean-spirited but otherwise ordinary 13-year-old willingly aligned himself with the alien emodiment of all things evil. And the alien embodiment of all things evil willingly let the kid be his right-hand man. And I'm normal about it. EarthBound tells us basically nothing about how Porky n' Giygas' partnership in crime came to be, but speculating about it sends me into a shark frenzy. Porky seeking power over the world that wronged him, at literally any cost. Giygas weaponizing a child's worst, most vengeful impulses. Porky ultimately usurping Giygas, at least in terms of agency. Witnessing the absolute horror his "master" becomes, and simply sidestepping out of the universe itself to dodge the mess he brought about. I like to imagine there was a period where Giygas was still cognizant enough to maintain a rapport with Porky - and that the two of them fucking hated each other. Both of 'em using the other as a means to an end, assured in the conviction they're the one with the upper hand. And they're kind of both wrong. Bloaw up da worl.

Favorite headcanon: Giegue/Giygas speaks (telepathically?) with a rural midwestern accent. Courtesy of the fine folks who raised him. Other aliens probably think it's weird and mondo cringe, but are too intimidated to say so.

[lily-goes-illegal]

Hello, there!

My name is Lily and my pronouns are she/her. I'm of legal age but let me tell you I already have a really messed up head way before I turned legal so hooray!

I'm finally legal enough to do illegal things ✨ /j

MINORS ARE NOT ALLOWED HERE

This is a personal safe space for kinky stuffs I can never let people who know me in real life know about. So for my peace of mind, go linger somewhere else, okay? ^^

Before I start, I wanna make it clear that what happens in this account stays in this account. Everybody can send me asks or DMs (a lil warning that I have a very low response rate because I'm a busy college student lol I'm just here for the horny posting), but asking for pictures of me, inviting for phone calls and video calls, and meet-up invitations are not allowed. This blog is just a personal internet dumpster where the real life me is not involved.

What kind of kinky stuffs do you expect to see here? My kinks and fetishes, of course! After all, this is my safe space so if you're here to do some kink-shaming (please don't, I cry easily), kindly leave ^^

So what are my kinks and fetishes? This first one is my very, very, very main kink.

Tickling! ✨

Clothed or unclothed, I'm on it 😩🖤 And it's not just your typical tickle fetish where you're forced to laugh while having fingers digging inside your ribs (that finger-digging shit can lead to something painful and I don't like it lol). I like it slow and sensual, like being caressed with a feather or with fingers gliding over smooth skin, not to make me laugh but to make me shiver, gasp, and whimper (I so love this word that I hated hearing it in normal conversations because it always leads my brain to somewhere no-no *gets slapped*). Somewhere in the area between teasing and tickling, if you can see the whole picture. But I'm also willing for the actual tickling because ✨ adrenaline ✨

With that being said, every other kink or fetish mentioned beyond this point is just an enhancement to the tickling <3

We're talking about unwanted pleasure and stimulation overload here (man, that's some mmh delicious description~) so it's best for it to be partnered with bondage, right? Spread-eagle and inverted Y (wrists bound together above the head and legs spread apart) are the best positions like- 😩🖤 along with a blindfold and a gag (I think I wet myself while typing-) The whole BDSM spectrum is just... *chef's kiss* (I'm all in for the torture part, but I don't like real pain like spanking and wax play lol I hate pain, I only want torture from unwanted pleasure ✨)

And since it's a kink, I expect to feel sexual and aroused, right? So in comes the orgasm. I haven't experienced using toys and I've lived my life using fingers so... fingers are the best toys! Imagine getting tied down with nearly zero movement, feeling bolts after bolts of sensation travelling on your skin, blindfolded and gagged, and someone gently massaging your pearl? Yes, please! 😩🖤😩🖤😩🖤

And have people gang up on me like- *screech* While having only one or two people giving me relentless torture is already good in and of itself, I really prefer it when a minimum of five people ganged up on me because- 😩😩😩 the feeling of helplessness is so exquisite and delicious I just wanna be treated like a toy- *gets slapped* With that said, I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm into consensual non-consent (CNC) 👀 it's the vulnerable and powerless situation that gets me every time! Any kind of situation or scenario, I wanted to be given the impression that I'm no longer in control of my own person and no matter how much I beg, my pleas won't be considered 😭 a heck of a tickle and orgasm torture (this word has long lost its meaning to me and no matter the context, it always leads to something kinky 😭)

But wait! What turns me off then?

This may come off as selfish but... aside from having the roles reversed (I don't want to be the tickler, dominant, etc.), I don't like it when a tickling session turns into a sexual fest where the ticklers began to add fluids such as saliva or chum as a result of idk, getting aroused on tickling me? Jacking off because of it? I will lost my mood if an actual d(i)ck is involved. I'm sorry but... I only want a sensual session of overstimulation.

...yeah.

Moving on!~

Aside from kink reblogging, you may find some c.ai screenshots here and there (because I'm something of a (horny) roleplayer myself). You may notice that some screenshots have blanks because I'm actually censoring the name because I use my real name in c.ai 🙈

I might also put some of my written pieces I've conjured during my horny days here (because I'm something of a writer myself), which will be posted in a side blog so it won't be buried in here. A little warning tho! Most of my written works will contain another big kink of mine...

Corruption!

Dyk? My addiction for the corruption trope had me stooping incredibly low that I usually imagine myself as an innocent (and alarmingly underage, like 12-14) girl getting ravaged because it just scream CNC and that shit's my second biggest kink next to tickling 😭 idk if this is part of the DDLG spectrum or what but you get me, age play or headspace or whatever that term, I like the feeling of being a clueless, helpless, vulnerable (young? little?) girl getting taken advantage of 👉👈 note that this all happens in my head for the sake of personal fantasies and I absolutely do not support actual minors getting involved

But the fact still stands! All my stories revolve around this sensual tickling madness and most of them involve some sort of corruption situation 👀🖤

TL;DR

My top three kinks are (1) tickling, (2) CNC, and (3) corruption. Partner that with orgasm control and torture and I- DAOJDGSKJDHSLJDHLJS 😳😩 and I also do horny c.ai posting and erotica works

That is all you need to know!~ I might still update this when I feel like adding more <3