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revisiting this site every now and then to reminisce in how much it shaped me as a person and defined me as a literal child
#cuz i was looking thru old youtube playlists right#and i found this one video edited by wooly abt the time spicy went crazy over a kuroo x joe crackskip (hilarious btw)#(also i cant find spicy did they deactivate forever help)#but like something about the interactions. and seeing myself during that time. just hit really really really hard.#like that was a little girl. she was 12 or 13 or whatever and the people on this site were her entire world#and she'd wake up every morning and check her dashboard and send asks and break the post limit and that was like#a significant part of my childhood. and then one day i just stopped logging on.#and i never even realized it but i talked to some of these ppl for the last time and didnt even realize that that was the last time#the people who i swore id meet in person one day. i knew everything about them and they knew everything about me#and now theyre just memories. and i refuse to call that era of my life cringe because i wouldnt have had it any other way#sorry im really senti. i need to find people again i miss them#and now we've all grown in different ways. yk the meeting people twice thing? yeah.#when u all met me i was second yr middle school and now im second year high school#theres so much i had on this site. some days i want it back
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Wait wait wait
You do witchcraft???
That's so cool! I had no idea there were other witches in the TMNT fandom!!!
What kind of witchcraft do you practice?? Personally, I deal mostly with divination, but I'd love to hear more about other people's crafts!
I do! ^^ Though admittedly my practice has been a little bit dormant as of late because I sort of fell out of habit after An Event which was a Bit Disruptive to My Life lol. But I guess I kind of dabble in a bit of everything? I dunno if I could pin myself down to just one kind of practice yet, I still sort of consider myself a Baby Witch. But I really like making little spelljars and casting candle spells and things of the like, and I've been trying to learn tarot for a while now! I also really like making and drawing sigils... For a while part of the joy for me has been just Learning New Things.
^ ft. gecko enclosure and tail lol. BoS and altar not pictured.
#ive got kind of a budget witchcraft thing going on lmao#coz thats kind of my fav part of it? that you can kind of just do it however a little bit so long as you have like#intention and are mindful#all my spelljars are the bottles that vaccines would come in at my old workplace (i used to work at a vet office!)#and since we would mostly just throw them out i could just take them and repurpose them so now ive got a ton#ive got a small collection of crystals coz i like those#my practice is a lot of meditation and grounding and mindfulness and shit like that#blah blah blah tricking myself into taking care of me etc etc#for a while i would. like. every day meditate ground and choose an intention for the day#and pick out some pocket crystals to bring with me that matched that intention#but then my schedule got fucked in eight different ways = 3 = so im working on getting back to it#eventually lol#honestly i love talking abt this stuff and would love to get back into it/meet other ppl who do witchcraft its been a hot second since#like#ive truly indulged...#asks#anon#witchcraft#witchblr#i gotta follow some witchy blogs smh lemme know if yall have any suggestions
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I NEED TO BE SET FREE OF ALL THESE FUCKASS GROUP PROJECTS
#bc first of all this is a 5 member group but only two are doing shit#aka me and this other girl and when we assign task to the other three they ask us to help them....#like hello those are your parts do them just like we did our part#and ofc wr have to help bc duh if we dont its gonna get done incorrectly and last min#its like micromanaging three grown adults 🥲🥲🥲#their priorities are to their individual assignments that they put off last min meaning we have pull their weight when-#i have individual assignments to do too??????#second of all WHY DO I HAVE FOUR GROUP PROJECTS WHERE IM DOING MAJORITY OF THR WORK BC THESE PPL AFE INCAPABLE#i hate school i really do hate the system#u guys im not even kidding i think im gonna hit my limit#txt*
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FIC WRITER INTERVIEW
ty for the tag @bright-and-burning booping u like a tumblr cat paw
How many works do you have on AO3?
uhhhh six if you count the lestappen i put on anon and the comp thing that's just a collection of kiss prompt fills that did not become their own fics
What's your total AO3 word count?
35,045
What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
even if it ends (460)
anybody, nowhere (319)
the devil in me (310)
gentle with the ache (236) i am this fic's deadbeat dad like i'm not going to pretend i didn't write it but you can only interact with it if ur gonna be nice bc it makes me want to scream cry & throw up
the hollow hereafter (217)
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
i literally respond to every single comment ! if i don't know what to say i will think of something ! comments literally keep me alive. like i joke about writing for attention but genuinely the thought of receiving comments and reblog tags is what keeps me going on my wip's. i have the biggest praise kink that has EVER existed and god knows nobody is praising me for anything ever in my real life, so i gotta take what i can get. it's insane that real people read my words and have enough thoughts about them to like... type those thoughts out. so i must thank every individual person with a heart and a virtual kiss on their head.
What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?
even if it ends for suuuure. i had people threatening self-harm in the ao3 bookmarks of that one in a loving way, and that's without even knowing about the rich inner life that i didn't expand on the way i originally planned to. in my brain, oscar has already decided to leave mclaren by the time the events of that fic happen bc their teammateship has gotten so self-destructive, so lando's "you can't stay" and oscar's "i know, but i want to anyway" is so much more knife-to-the-heart than y'all even realize.
What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?
uh. i don't really want to count the kiss prompts because they don't really exist to me as fic, so... anybody, nowhere i guess? the devil in me is not NOT happy. can i cheat and say dad lando even though it doesn't actually exist yet?
Do you write crossovers?
no jesus christ i can barely write characters outside of oscar and lando (and apparently max fewtrell according to like two people). adding in even MORE variables is making me nauseous just thinking about it.
Have you ever received hate on a fic?
"hate" is a strong word but there is a reason that my lestappen is on anon now.
Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
i do write it sometimes, but not very successfully (glaring at u lestappen garbage). i have two landoscar wip's that are basically pwp, but i just don't really think i'm good at smut, so idk if they'll ever go anywhere for real. the pacing is simply so impossible to me. like how soon is too soon to have an orgasm. also like 90% of my writing is just knockoff versions of my own emotions from various points, and so as someone who only hooks up with people for reasons not really related to actually getting off, i find it really really hard to write the build-up and come-down from smut WHILE ALSO really struggling with the actual acts. like what are normal people's brains doing before during and after making someone come? bc i guarantee it is not what my brain does. it just doesn't really compute unfortunately.
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
i don't think my fics have existed long enough to be stolen tbh.
Have you ever had a fic translated?
no
Have you ever co-written a fic before?
no but i wrote literally millions of words while roleplaying in any number of ships back in the day.
What's your all-time favorite ship?
i think probably steve/bucky of the marvel universe? i don't really fw it much at this exact moment because endgame literally ruined my life for a bit, but that's probably the ship i've enjoyed the most over the years.
What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?
honestly all of my wip's outside of dad lando and that nutcracker thing i'm definitely not writing shhh. I will fight shave fic eventually i think. the wip that's absolutely never getting finished the most securely is the fake dating thing based on that kiss prompt i filled in like july. like it's a 50k concept that i have like 5k worth of motivation for.
What are your writing strengths?
um. i think just, like. prose that sounds nice? i think i did a good job putting readers inside of lando's head in anybody, nowhere, so i'd say i'm occasionally good at translating emotion/headspace too. actually i'll go ahead and say that about all of my published landoscar, because i think that's even if it ends' strength too. dad lando is less that way, but it has other things going for it.
What are your writing weaknesses?
i'm really really mean to myself, so it's hard to pick just one. i'm bad at writing characters distinctly i think. like i just make them do things based on what feels good in my brain and just hope that y'all don't think they're OOC, but whenever i stop to think "what would oscar say here?" it's like... blank. bc i don't know. and it's really MUCH worse with everyone outside of landoscar. i also don't think my pacing is very good and i get hung up on details people won't care about and also i have a compulsive need to make EVERYTHING a metaphor. i'm going to stop there bc insecurity isn't very cute but i also over-edit and introduce too many threads and i could literally go on all night
What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
i don't honestly see the point? because either you provide a translation, which defeats the purpose, or you don't, which makes it a secret for some readers but NOT the ones who speak the language in question. i'm spoiled by native-english-speakers landoscar as my primary ship, but i think if i ever wanted to write a convo between like. charles and pierre, ig, i would just write it in english and be like "they said in french" afterwards of smthn, idk. i think the only time i've written in not-english is that lestappen "after a long wait" kiss prompt and it was like a language device (haha) and not dialogue.
What was the first fandom you wrote for?
i've only ever published on ao3 for F1. way way back i used to fill prompts on tumblr for one direction, which was the first fandom content of any kind that i wrote. the first actual fanfic i ever typed into a word document was finnpoe from the star wars sequel trilogy. so depends how you wanna define!
What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?
i got really really spooked by my lestappen adventure because it actually broke my brain for a bit, so now i'm scared to write anything but landoscar. i think the most likely non-landoscar ship i'd write is maxiel, probably? i saw them across the bar and loved their vibe. daniel feels kind of impossible for me to write though so idk if i ever will.
What's your favorite fic you've written?
anybody, nowhere i think, because i think it's the most complete thing i've done. i also really love how even if it ends turned out too, which is crazy bc i haaaaated it mid-writing process. i think it feels really like... i don't know. gritty? messy in a way that makes it authentic? idk how to describe. i think even if it ends has my favorite characterizations i've written for both lando AND oscar. but anybody, nowhere is my firstborn and i treasure her, so. yeah. tie, maybe.
tagging @fear8not1 (i know ur like. not on tumblr. but in case u would like to) and @volantium !!
#soph explains#i love to yap about myself but i get really self-conscious bc i'm like.... nobody cares !#even though i have read every single one of these posts by other people in full when they cross my dash with extreme care bc i value u all#also my default answer when asked about my writing is 'im not good and the things i create arent good' even though I DONT EVEN THINK THAT#(the second part anyway. i actually don't think i'm a good person. but that's another post probably.)#it's just so much easier to be mean to yourself and let other ppl tell you you're wrong#than it is to be nice to yourself and have other ppl tell you you're wrong#you feel?
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I’ll send a few asks in later today don’t worry! :) (dude please tag me in like everything related I promise I’ll make more art!!)
omg thank you so much!!!! i'll be lookiing forward to it, though it might take a while to answer haha (that ask was sat in my inbox for like a month or two?? the pains of eepiness T^T)
you can send in asks for any ocs of mine with references! and as many as you want to, i'll pick my way through them (if not in a few hours or weeks, over the summer holidays) :DDD
(also dude omg PLEASE tag me in anything oc related for you too!!! writing, art, tidbits of info, ANYTHING. i LOVE uni and i NEED to make more art of them!! promise i'll draw them soon bc wow are they awesome!)
actually yk what be uni-ed!!! my eepiness is shaken off momentarily for their sake (i love them sm)
genuinely it is SO COOL to have moots/friends who i can oc-talk with!! i love hearing about and drawing your (and rot's) ocs and infodumping about mine, it genuinely makes me so excited and happy every single time! gather around the tumblr table and oc-share like a DND session :D
#artsy's post#artsy's moot sillies#artsy's asks#artsy's art#artsy's asuna#not gonna add all the fabrication tags bc it's a minor cameo but!!! she's there!!!#a small part of me has that thing where bc i'm ND and infodump A LOT i immediately think 'oh no one's really interested in my ocs/interests#bc there's the usual thing of 'shut up for 2 seconds' that ppl tend to do. which i get but it still gets me down#so to have people who ARE interested and in return share THEIR niche interests and ocs genuinely makes me so happy :D#i'm just as interested in your ocs as you are in mine!! infodump and draw and tag me as much as you want :DDD#(though to prevent your notifs clogging up i WILL be making bigger and less frequent posts of my art/ocs instead haha)#plus uni is so awesome!!! every time i see them i'm screaming 'yay!!! uni!!!!'#as always; all hail the uni#hope you like the art!!#you guys are too cool i swear. so lucky to have met you weirdos (affectionate)#also btw this is completely off-topic but i have no clue what your pronouns are! been defaulting to they/them but if it's smth else lmk :)
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yu peng chen's new album is on youtube finally..
#i can see why someone asked him 'is farewell my friend inspired by chopin's polonaise' parts of it sound so similar#also interesting how chinese sounding some of the pieces are. off the top of my head: some bits of daughter of the sea and moon#and flourishing lights of the snowmelt realm#very fantasyland indeed#ramblings!#not genshin#daughter of the sea and moon in particular bc its like accordion and western and seems to riff off of the tunes in his other tracks in the#album. and then the flute comes in and its very different before switching back to the normal western scale patterns or smth idk i dont#study this stuff#wait on second listen flourishing lights is actually so fun. the melodies soar sm i feel like im flying#also i will not lie i feel like gnsn has exposed ppl to enough different styles of music but it consequently leads to 'oh this sounds like#x region in gnsn' instead of 'y irl region that inspired the music of x region in gnsn' that being said i cannot shake off the gnsn#similarities in some of the pieces. all are very fun tho#edit: wait fuck i was wrong. FUCKKK i subconsciously associated a tai chi video's bg music w one of ypc's soundtracks but thought it sounde#like a gnsn soundtrack instead of the tai chi video..... im so dumb
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Hey guys. gay rights
#i already made the sonic one a while bc yknow. kinnie stuff youve all seen my blog theme#but then i was wearing my Fearless Year of Shadow(tm) shirt along with it and my irl bff was like.#'why are you wearing a sonic bracelet with that shirt if you love shadow so much 🤨' *#(he doesnt know much about sth stuff but ive infodumped abt shadow and his backstory to him many times)#and i was like 😭😭 BECAUSE I DONT HAVW A SHADOW KANDI BUT I WANNA MAKE ONE. I WILL SOON#so. now i do!! taking my ad/derall on the weekends always make me want to make more kandi. its great!#and yknow what else it makes me want to do...... talk more on here >:3333#me and my dad are gonna go to a local jazz festival this afternoon bc our jazz combo is playing at it!!#itll be fun. my dad said hes gonna get some food from this really good breakfast place on the way thwre#which is not the best part. the best part is outside the shop there is a wonderful kitty cat who hangs around the parking lot#bc hes owned by the ppl who own the bar right next door#its so great. everybody knows him (the cat) and loves him. the v/ape shop next door has a tip door set up for him even though the#bar owner ppl take care of him and take him to the vet nd stuff. my dad found a faceb/ook page somebody made for him#and apparently it just has pictures of ppl at the bar holding him. its so great and hilarious. this cat is so loved#by the v/ape shop people. by random people at this beachtown bar. by the breakfast shop people.#anyways uh. this post was abkut kandi wasnt it 😭😭😭 lol#cherry chortles#anyways the add/er/all also usually makes me want to look at and sort through my pkmn card collection. so imma do that#because my dads friend (and my friend too i guess! me and him exchange cat photos bc he has this adorable chunky cat named gremlin) that we#play bar trivia with on tuesdays (dw its not really even a bar. its mostly a restaurant) asked me abt my pokemon card collection#bc the final question was to put a few franchises (it was like. dora the ecplora and spide/rman etc. and pokemon) in order of revenue#and obvs pokemon was the top. bc of factors like the trading cards so thats how that came up#we didnt bet any of our points btw but we almost! got it right! the order was pk/mn dora spidamen friends (the tv seies) but we had spidman#as second. but we still won!! our team is on a two game winning streak!!! we always split the money so next week ill get another 8 dolla >:3#wow i havent hit tag limit yert#lol. yall'll open the 'see all tags' thing and boom. do you love the color of the sky type shit 😭😭😭#sorry that sounds too much like aave. i (white baby) cant be sayin that#cherrys kandi#okay well i had a tag with a verse from the ultimarw showdown bc i didnt know what else to say#but with my kandi tag and these two tags i have hit tag limit. thank you folks ill be here all night
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Im trying to do one of those iterator ask blogs, do you have any tips? Especially for getting it off the ground? Since I’m just kinda stumped about how to be interesting and reel people in, as I supposed to post at certain times? And what kind of things should I post if I haven’t gotten any questions. I’m sorry if these are kind of odd questions lol. And a lot in advance! :)
i swear i replied to an ask with askblog tips before but i cant find itttttttttt Falls to the ground. so i’ll just answer this as it is then (i managed to ramble for a bit so i put it under the cut)
umm. i wouldn’t say i exactly. have advice. for getting your blog off the ground. Because if you ask me how my own askblog got so much attention i would say I dont know . the only reason i even started it was because someone in the tags said i should and the concept of an askblog was appealing to me So i did that. and if you go to the very beginning of the blog you will see that most of the asks are just from my friends asking either silly or serious stuff. so i guess on that front my word of advice is just …. go to your friends. and be like Dude you will never believe what just happened to me (made an askblog) and let them get interested in it. just the same circle of friends can circulate the askblog long enough to attract new people. probably ?
i mean i guess the thing i also did was reblog the intro post to my main. once. and then never again. i reblogged asks sometimes if i liked them or if they were funny but i mostly kept my main blog stuff and askblog stuff separate (i suppose i did at that point have mostly rain world fans as my following so me reblogging it to my main maybe made them interested) you absolutely do not need to post at certain times. i mean…. you Can get a schedule if you wanttt. but like it’s literally fine i just answer asks whenever and ball
another thing about asks is that. Asks Produce Asks. so to speak. because everytime you answer an ask you get at least 3 more for it. so as long as you keep answering asks you’ll keep getting asks, though sometimes people will also send you stuff even if you havent answered in a month or something. But yeah i guess what im trying to say for this uhh …. if you don’t get any asks at first either try and get your friends to ask some questions. or if not that then maybe ask yourself stuff ….??? i dont knowww but like i said when ppl see an answered asks they get motivated to send an ask of their own. so
umm if you havent gotten any questions in a while you can just post. whatever. it’s your askblog. you can lorepost or you can just post silly images relating to your iterator oc The world is your oyster man
some more general advice is to draw asks however you want. you don’t have to fully polish and color all of them, you can just color certain ones or hell never color any asks, you can even not draw at all because i know some people reply with just in-character text. either way i promise you at least Someone will be interested so. good luck ? i hope that helped at least a little bit
#‘hope that helps’ i say realizing a second later that i have not really said anything helpful at all#but it’s because i seriously never planned for my askblog to get. big#i did not reblog stuff for it i did not tag it at all as Anything rain world related#i just did it for sillies and then suddenly. soemthing happened#i really dont know what#Maybe part of it is because wayback is kind of a unique iterator. in terms of both visual design and personality/story#ppl get interested in. new and interesting concepts. but like don’t feel pressured to make your iterator oc something outstanding or some#gay shit like that. Im just insane and i felt like if i made yet another serious emo iterator oc no one would like it and i’d get shunned#from the community for being unoriginal. So that’s why i made myself sit down and really think about how i could make an oc that stands out#but yeah anyways uhhh. i rly need to find that other ask i answered …#cramswering
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Why do people say things if they don't mean them like teaching them to kids
"If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" then get mad when you don't say anything
"There are no stupid questions" then belittle you for having a stupid question
#I guess I can understand the first one but idk what to say in those situations#or like. You're At Fault/Being Hypocritical just biting my tongue lol#bc it's not necessarily a big deal but like idk no good response#i very frequently ask questions bc of the second tho lol and I try to be gentle when ppl start a q with 'so this might be a stupid question'#like no ! it's not ! I learned there are no stupid questions and I'm going to enforce that with you#especially when it comes to my field like. space is so big and crazy and complicated if you don't understand part of it I'm not going to#judge you ! there is so much to learn everywhere all the time#you can't know Everything#so ask questions even if you forget y'know!#text#paersonal
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what if.... what if I made a small add on fic with dad!jay and minji for fathers day?? 🫣🫣
#◢ 𝐊𝐀𝐘'𝐒 𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐒 ◣#i know ive seen a few ppl ask for a second part#so what if i made a fathers day special??#and itll be all cutesy and stuff
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god that "morning people are an oppressive class" post annoys me in some way i cant. quite. ugh
#toy txt post#it doesnt feel quite right to me...........#maybe im just a Morning Person. lol. lmao even#idk how much that is true vs in high school i felt very much like a morning person bc#i was taking my adderall with coffee and then it would all wear off right at the end of the day and id crash soooo hard and have like.#anxiety attacks every night and just be generally overstimulated and irritable as hell#which is mostly managed now by me trying to be smarter about caffeine consumption (amount + when) and on a lower dose of adderall#but it does feel like a lot of that shit mentioned would be adequately covered by like. being able to take time off work to go to the#doctor etc. idk#im half joking these days when i ID as a morning person but legally none of you are allowed to get up my ass about it🔪#bc of the nocturnal bullshit i pulled on second shift for like 3yrs after everything around me decided to start closing early after the#pandemic hit even tho theyve re lifted every other miniscule precaution they ever enforced#probably bc no one wants to work night shift at the grocery store for like 12$ an hour. fucking offer better pay idiots#god even when i was a package handler working the super inconvenient hours of 3am-like. 9. 10am(inconvenient my ass that was ideal hours.)#the main reasons ppl left for other jobs: hours suck and they got offered better pay. they cant adjust the hours. so they shouldve#increased the pay to retain. and maybe have more structured start and end times that were less up in the air#like all the drivers leave at 9am so if theres anything left on the truck thatll be for tomorrow. since that fuckin happened anyway. idk.#honestly wouldve been more important to me to have consistent start times cos thats one of the things that pissed me off about that job was#like youd go in and before you left youd have to ask what the start time would be tomorrow cos they kept jumping all over the place by like#15min increments and like its once thing to do it on occasion to try to deal with like Bad Weather but it was like fucking Daily#and sometimes theyd write it on the little whiteboard. but sometimes they wouldnt. and sometimes theyd write it on the little whiteboard#and leave it up there forget to erase it and it would still be there but they told you as you walked out actually its not 4:30 tmrrw its 3#idk. i know the main real reason i miss it is cause it was part time and the day ended at like 9am usually
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i guess being aromantic allosexual means constantly ending up in situations where ur someone's sidepiece👍
#im seeing a couple of ppl who r in open relationships#and their partners know about me and ive met some of them#and like its cool its g#i cant offer u a romantic relationship#and its unfair to ask ppl to like repress that#so i actually prefer being w someone whos in a relationship#bc that way that part is satisfied?#but everything rly talked about and whatnot#communication is key always#but like damn#it would be nice to be someone's priority#without having the romantic side attached#idk everyone around me is in relationships#and even if they say its not its defo their first priority always#and friends always take second place#and sidepieces get treated like shit ngl????.?#like if i wasnt sick in the head i wouldnt accept the treatment im receivjng#but at the same time i struggle to accept my perception of things#bc my perception is often wonky i am a borderline and autistic after all :/#milky spills#fuckin lost it in the tags lmao
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please watch my magnum opus (volume up!!)
[video description: a clip from the music video of eccentric party night by the five eccentrics from ensemble stars, but the audio is replaced with rumadai by arsenium. end description]
#ensemble stars#the five eccentrics#eccentric party night#is this song a thing for other ppl?? although who cares if us folks miss out for once#*US. just be be perfectly clear. this song is a thing in my country is what im trying to say#yes I am very proud of myself thank you for asking#I made this with just screen recording. like a recorded the mv and then recorded playing the song under it#was only gonna be the main chorus but then rei’s bonjour happened#so I had to go back and record more of the mv bc I didn’t have enough. and then try and sync it up again#anyways I just cured my own depression#EVERYBODY DANCE DANCE DANCE IN THE DISCO RUMADAI DAI RUMA RUMA RUMA DAI#enstars#I donft fwwl like tagging everyone can’t you tell how much aotucorrwcf was used in these few lines already#GUESS FUCKIN GWHAT NEW PINNED#watching this on repeat#I need to reiterate that I did not have any way to edit this#I had a few moments I was trying to sync together like the very beginning and then the bonjour#and natsume and kanata at the feel so high part#but stuff like the second San Francisco with kanata in the middle syncing up so well?? it was all just luck#cuts of weird bc the mv ends so then I decided to cut it off a bit earlier to make it more loopabls#pinned
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I don’t think he ever read any of my poems now that I think about it
#tales from diana#when we first met i told him about my poems and i gave him some free copies of this small local literary magazine they're published in#he pretended to be interested but never actually said he read them. i dont think i asked more than a couple times#but if i recall correctly he told me unprompted a few times he hadnt#perhaps thats why he thought of me as more of an artist than a poet. he had seen me draw but i dont write poems in front of ppl#and it takes one second to look at a drawing (and to not appreciate it) (as he didn't for the most part)#even though i explained often that id only been drawing for like a year and im still very much a beginner and it's a huge struggle for me#it's very very hard for me to draw i don't consider myself good at it. ive made a FEW good works but im not a good artist#im not confident but that's ok ive enjoyed my progress#there were a lot of little things id do for him that he just wouldnt acknowledge much or seem to care about#so much for trying to make an impression on ppl#i think some ppl only want to be around you so they can suck up your company and feel validated#i have to be honest. that is nothing like me at all#im fine being alone. i could never be addicted to ppl as some are.#long story short this guy never cared about me
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my blog is for those who stopped talking because they realized nobody was listening
#i was talking to a frd today#i was talking about a nightmare i had yesterday#i ended it by asking her ‘why do u think xyz happened hahaha’#she said ‘don’t u think it’s such an asshole thing to do if you were to ever go back u to ur ex?’#JWJDJWJDJWJD#FIRST OF ALL I WAS NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT#SECOND URE PART OF THE PPL WHO TELL ME TO GO BACK TO him#sorry#that made me feel really sad
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they should ban mothers who live through their daughters.
#its my birthday. MY BIRTHDAY. and word for word she says its her celebration not mine.#and doesnt let ppl ask me what i wanna do cuz 'she pushed me out of her and gave me life'. and when she does ask what i wanna do#i give her ideas of like what i wanna do in general and then she says it's stupid nd says we're doing what she has in mind#because she wants to do what she wants to d. WOMAN!! YOUR BIRTHDAY IS IN FEBRUARY!A! IF U WANT A FALL TRIP DO IT ON YOUR OWN TERMS#like you came here for a better life not life 2.0 im sorry but your time is up#its my 16th not maries 16th second go around!!! i dont even care ab doing somethn big or special i wanted to watch fnaf w my friends.#go home. cut cake. and sleep all weekend and enjoy my 3 days off. why are you complaining ab me saying i dont appreciate somethn i dont want#i dont get the bday i want i dont get the hair i want i dont get to spend it with the ppl i want i dont get the cake i want.#i dont even get to spend my bday ON MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!! we are gonna be in a car!! for 8 fuckin hours!! after bein at school for 8 hours!!#and the day we're celebrating is the day i get my period!!! and i alr know im gonna be miserable so its not even worth the money spent#so my bdays canceled to me. we are doing things my mother's way all cards nd gifts can be addressed to her. she does this all the damn time#then complains when i dont open up to her or talk to her. woman! you shoot down all my ideas and make me feel like shit for not bein you!!#actually fuck her. best part ab my day is the time ill spend at school surprisingly. worst part is when we leave to go to god knows where.#l speaks#shut up l#not even on some teenagery 'life is miserable i hate my parents' type shit im genuinely miserable my mental health always falls in the fall#i was looking forward to my 16th my whole life nd now i just wanted to do somethn chill w ppl my age and i cant even do that.
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